#I am just tired and mentally drained

[begaydodrughailsatan]

i love typing on my puder, like i wish typing on a phone had real buttons that made noise. Ik you can tunr on keybord sounds on you phone but its not the same i want to *feel* the buttons its great. its almost erotic tbh. love hearing how fast i can type even if its not that fast it *feels* faster when i can *hear* the words being made. im gonna fuck my computer

[ariannabananasstuff]

no cause like i DONT wanna die and i need to make that clear, or atleast i don’t want to off myself currently

i just don’t want to be ALIVE?

i want to be awake but also not cause that’s tiring

yknow when you lucid dream how you sort of are aware you are asleep and control your dreams but you also don’t really feel THERE and in the moment?

that’s what i CONSTANTLY feel like.

yes i’m pulling an atbp because when i get the rare break from feeling like that i call it ‘the awake’ because i feel AWAKE and REAL

and it’s so tiring being in the awake but also so draininggggg in the asleep

i can’t find an even middle? everything just feels so numb all the time

i feel so very much and absolutely nothing at the same time

i am also just saying this cause apparently it’s healthy to find people who relate to you and understand what you mean ? like get it and go through the same thing, them actually KNOWING not because they just read it but because they’ve experienced it

i don’t know man 🧍‍♂️

any tips how to feel alive and better ? 😖

[depthsoftheabyss]

When these tears finally dry I will no longer open up , I will no longer share my feelings or make it known that I even have them . If it means I have to rip out some part of me I will do so .

[taurusicidal]

today has been mental breakdown central.

i hope everyone in my life gets better!

[hunsa-jars]

Dread be dreading

[ironmanstan]

i did do a lot of work today though so yay

[zylphiacrowley]

I am so exhuasted.

[mexashepot]

2nd worst holiday in my entire life (1st place is taken by Simxat Torah '23)

At least this time no-one is dead yet

[geibheann]

chronic pain is actually so fun because one second you’re managing fairly okay and then the next the weight of it all hits you like a truck!!!!! 😂😂😂😂😂

[depthsoftheabyss]

Now what ? What should I do with this much hurt and betrayal ? How do I go on being kind ?

[non-illustrary]

Can someone explain to me wtf is wrong with this fandom!?

I’m upset and pissed off with some of the community right now and most of us know why. What will it take for everyone to finally stop getting one people’s nerves because “It’s the right thing to do!?”. I have heard and witnessed falling outs due to pity squabbles due to lack of communication and assumptions. Harassment. ARE YOU ALL FOR REAL

there is a thing called “ personal space and respect”, a lot that some have forgotten about apparently.

I’m AT MY FUCKING LIMIT

I rejoined this fandom to finally enjoy something after a long year of bullshit, just to come back and seeing that some of you all are the reason someone’s joys is utterly shattered because some of you ignorant fuckers won’t actually look and see the truth for yourselves and just automatically resort to aggression. OOHHHOHOHO! Buddy you need help!

I’m tired, so fucking tired and burnout and I apologize if this bothers my mutuals.

IM FUCKING DONE. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

HARASSMENT IS NEVER GIVING YOU WHAT YOU WANT IT SLOWLY DESTROYS SOMEONE FROM THE INSIDE OUT. You don’t like someone? KEEP IT TO YOUR FUCKING SELF AND LET THAT PERSON KNOW YOU ARE NOT COMFTORABLE SEEING THEM ANYMORE AND GO YOUR MERRY WAY ITS NOT THAT FUCKING HARD.

Sigh, I’m tired and so fucking done

[taurusicidal]

i just cried so much because i’m so tired of everything!

[starryeyesmasc]

me when it’s the week before my period:

[wearily-confused]

I was talking with my bestfriend ystrdy and there was too much to tell and i realized that oh no wonder I am so tired when there are soo many things going on in my life (and going wrong as well)

like just be kinder to yourself, sometimes even you dont realize you have too much going on until you start talking about it

[depthsoftheabyss]

Is there something I'm missing ? How do people go on with this much pain ? How am I breathing even though everything inside me wants to be dead ? I'm suffering but it's only felt by me , only seen by me , does it mean I don't exist or my suffering doesn't matter ? God I just want this feeling to end ;be gone.

[sam--j--h]

Exhausted and Alone

If only I had realized

That was the last laugh

Of only for a bit

I got comfortable

I was happy

But of course something happened

It always does

Every little scratch adds up

And I fall

My legs give out

But this time they aren't here

They aren't my legs this time

They left me behind

And it's so exhausting

To lift myself up

On legs that won't work

And I don't know what to do

Because everything

Everything

Is exhausting

And I don't know how to do this

Without them

I should be happy

But I'm lying in bed for hours

Exhausted

And

Alone