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For The Year Of The Insane, Anne Sexton

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loneliness is eating me up from the inisde

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I want to be normal and feel normal feelings instead of overwhelming ones

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Wish one of u would take me out back and shoot me

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The feeling that I can't talk to anyone in my environment upsets me. In fact, I feel hopeless that I can't tell literally anyone about my problems.

Many people really don't understand how isolating this disease is, in which you just suffer alone. You can't tell anyone about your thoughts and pain, for people with a disorder it's a trigger, for people in remission it's also a trigger, people who don't have and haven't had a disorder will still face condemnation. You simply have no one to tell, you suffer all alone, hiding your self-destruction from human eyes.

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im a walking tragedy

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every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

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Thinking about relapsing

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and when all the distractions dont work anymore and its the end of the day, i’m left with just myself and the want for it all to please just fucking stop.

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Tell me , how good does my pain taste ? It's not doing me any good maybe if it's doing you some I can understand why this is happening and learn to go on . Tell me , does my pain make you whole ?

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i guess nothing will ever be enough

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How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

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I've been lost for years now, and just like a dog, I sniff around trying to remember the smell of where I once was happy. I get closer, but still I remain lost, never sure if I will find my path home or if I must go and make a new one.

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"Beautiful Losers", Leonard Cohen

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