#I am cis but freaky with it

[unma]

Christians the type of people to say "There is no gender in the spirit," then become mad when I decide I'm agender for some reason. Bitch, ain't I a spirit too?

[anti-terf-posts]

I'm currently watching a YouTube video (link) by Matt Bernstein, a gay man. In the video, they have a guest speaker named Devon Price. The video goes over how "annoying" queers (TikTok enbies, James Charles dupes, autistic queers, neopronouns users, kinksters, etc) are not the reason why queer people don't have the same rights as non-queer people.

at around 4:40, Devon mentions a type of queer protest I've *never* heard of until now. It was called "The Annual Reminder", and it was run by cis white gay men. Essentially it was a reminder to non-queers that gay (gay not queer) men looked like everyone else. they would dress in formal suits and hold signs that reminded the non-queers that they look just like everyone else. and the outcome of these protests? nothing. these protests did NOTHING to help queer rights. It wasn't until stonewall and pride that people started waking up, and I am in shock. Literally how have I never heard about this until now. I feel like it's such an important part of queer history that just gets swept under the rug, and I have a feeling I know why.

The gays that try to erase the loud, flamboyant queers, are the same ones who want to hide the fact that conforming to what the non-queers want us to act like doesn't actually do anything. They want you to believe that hiding your queerness is the way to get our rights, and that THEY'RE the ones we have to thank for what rights we have, when that's just not true. Black trans women, "annoying" twinks, sex workers, people who use controversial labels, QUEERS are the reason why we aren't treated as badly as we were 50 years ago. Instead of bowing down to Blaire White or Arielle Scarcella, thank Sock who listens to My Chemical Romance and uses star/starself pronouns for being openly freaky and queer, because stars the one who is *really* doing good for the community.

[officialspec]

can you pleeeeease post your dm sexuality/gender hcs on here.... 🥺 i don't have a twitter but i wanna know. it's like a pandora's box to me now i'm like scratching at the door. let me in

heres the link 2 the thread (mild spoilers btw) ill post a transcript under the cut for ppl who dont have twitter

first off i think laios relationship to sex is super removed for like 50 reasons without even getting into his actual sexuality

he grew up in a place with very repressed ideas about sex and has a lot of fear about asserting his presence in situations

his special interest takes precedent over any social interactions he has and the level of closeness he feels towards people

he has a hard time figuring out his feelings towards other people both bc hes autistic and bc he has freaky deviantart fetishes that make sex in his mind a very abstract concept <- this one is me projecting mostly

that aside, i feel like gender-wise hes attracted to ppl so infrequently it may as well be entirely case-by-case

the idea of him being gay appeals to me from the 'raised with traditional values he Does Not fit into/hasnt begun to question it yet' perspective, i lauve characters who put a lot of stock into performing a role thats expected of them and fail miserably for unknown (gay) reasons

from his perspective tho i dont think he would ever really label himself anything. hes going to pride parades in the shirt+shorts Ally Fit to clap for his friends

hes also 'cis by indifference' imo... i love tmasc laios hcs it just doesnt mesh w his personal history to me. i do think hes got some kind of therian gender thing going on (not trans or nb but a secret third thing) but i cant see him changing anything abt his appearance/pronouns to accommodate that post-canon. hes just doin his thang

falin is in a similar boat for gender. i LOOVE tfem falin but the village repression thing has been bugging at me so i dont think i subscribe to it anymore (canon purist sorry) BUT if u hold that hc i am clapping and cheering regardless

instead i was propagandised to a while back and i LOVEEE the idea that being fused w a male dragon and the residual traits she has after being revived have given her a type of gender euphoria she didnt realise she was missing. a little boygirl swagger if u will

sexuality-wise i also dont think she would care to label herself, shes a lesbian by virtue of only being interested in One woman and zero other people. without marcille i do think shes still exclusively attracted to women, and i like to imagine she might experiment around a bit during her travels post-canon (pre-relationship). hearing abt it might put marcille on the news though

marcille is very simple That is a transfem lesbian. she cant get pregnant, shes obsessed w being femme and all that combined w her half-tallman struggles to be seen as 'properly feminine' by elf standards reads very transfeminine to Me. also her bookboy crush REEKS of comphet its not subtle

i think a more comfortable marcy might have the space to experiment w being elf butch like her manga boys but thats mainly self indulgence for me. utena could have saved her

senshi is gay his whole thing is abt not being able to perform dwarven masculinity to a proper standard (soft hearted, not as strong or rugged as his peers) which is like gaycoding 101. also hes a bear. homosexuality be damned by boy can work a grill

adding onto this i rly think senshi got some type of euphoria from being an elf in the changeling chapters. he was feeling himself so much i think he was using it as an outlet to have fun being a little fem and fruity without needing to justify it. do u understand

i dont have any particular opinions abt him gender-wise beyond that. his bulge is an essential part of his character design but i also saw a transmasc senshi a couple days ago that made me nod my head thoughtfully so i could go either way

chilchuck is cis and bisexual this is just canon. not even just his old man crush on senshi altho i do think thats very funny but they put his ass on a cover themed like hes in a dating sim with all the men and women in the cast and then slapped it in front of a chapter called "bicorn". i simply cant pass up that kind of overt signaling. its so fucking funny what else is there to say truly

izu to ME is a transmasc aroace lesbian (this one has the least basis in canon i just know it to be true) shes a little genderfluid with it nd uses he/she i think. i like to imagine she consistently uses masculine personal pronouns to refer to herself either way tho (boku, ore)

i think izutsumis gender/sexuality is entirely secondary in priorities to her body dysphoria. she has a lot of learning and acceptance 2 do before that kind of self discovery is on the docket and in my mind eschewing gender on some level is part of that. get sillay

shuro is cishet but at least he feels bad about it. next listen listen to me i dont think he would ever actually examine this but i need u to put on ur tin foil hat with me for one second. i think estrogen could have saved her. i have more thoughts on this but im not gonna propagandise too much on this post just know that im right

kabru is a transmasc bisexual this is also practically text. his whole thing of being treated like a doll by milsiril to put in pretty dresses, plus i think it would be pretty easy for him to stealth in the west since tallmen are seen as inherently more masculine than elves

(i also think changing genders is just more common for elves. theyre androgynous enough that it wouldnt be hard and like who in their right miiiiind would be the same gender for 500 years. dwarves too)

i think he started presenting as male socially in the west but didnt need to consider medical transition until he moved to a more mixed culture where other races might see him as a woman

i dont have to explain the bisexual part. have u seen him

namari is a butch bisexual this is just canon straight up. shes not transmasc but i think the default settings for dwarven women is like 4 years of T regardless. shes a hit at all the local cruising spots despite her renfaire nerdisms i know this

and just bc im thinking abt em kiki and kaka are identical and kiki is tfem :} theyre both attracted to women but kaka is a sub so i forgive him

THATS ALL 4 NOW theres a lot of characters so i cant have thoughts abt all of them at once but i hope this was good. im right about everything forever as per usual

[ocean-sunfish-hater]

The Real Life Biology of the Three Body Problem Series

In the first book of Liu Ci Xin's Three Body Problem series, we are introduced to our main antagonists, the Trisolarans. Whilst we never get to see them directly, we are shown some of their biology via the game that our protagonist plays.

ID: A grand domed palace in a chinese style sits in the background of the image. The foreground has hundreds of ancient Chinese soldiers holding white placards on sticks. Two people dressed in Chinese armour can be seen riding horses towards the palace.

In the game it is revealed that Trisolaris, the planet in the Alpha Centauri system on which the aliens reside, revolves around not one, but three suns. As such, the system is subject to the classic physics conundrum of the three body problem (after which the first book in the series is named), which states that for most initial conditions the trajectories of three celestial bodies is chaotic and difficult to predict.

This means that Trisolaris experiences very extreme, unpredictable conditions, divided into "stable eras" and "chaotic eras". Stable eras come about when Trisolaris settles into orbit around one of its three suns, bringing relative prosperity to the planet. However, chaotic eras result in disasters, such as extreme droughts, seemingly endless nights, and even changes in gravity. The first novel partially revolves around the Trisolarans attempting to see if humans could collectively solve the three body problem and bring some level of predictability to their planet.

During the course of the game, it is revealed to the protagonist (and us, the readers), that in order to cope with the devastation and unpredictability of chaotic eras, the Trisolarans can dehydrate themselves and enter a spore-like state, hibernating until the next stable era comes. This allows them to bypass some of the extreme conditions and ensures the survival of the species as a whole.

Believe it or not, we have our very own Trisolarans here on Earth. In fact, there's loads of examples, from bacteria to triops, to my favourite of the bunch, Bdelloid Rotifers.

ID: An electron micrograph of some Bdelloid Rotifers and their mouthparts. They are long and slender, with a distinct mouth and tail section. Their mouthparts look like two semicircles lined with a comb-like structure.

These microscopic animals look freaky, because they are. If you've got any media literacy you've probably picked up by now that I am segueing here because they are somewhat similar to the aliens in the Three Body Problem, except this time they are very much real. Like the Trisolarans, Bdelloids live in very ephemeral environments: their usual haunts are the very thin film of water on moss and lichen. As you can imagine, these do not last all that long, and thus when they dry up, so do the Bdelloid Rotifers; in biology, we call this process anhydrobiosis.

"Ok, that's all well and good Ocean Sunfish Hater, but why do you like these guys more than the other anhydrobiotic creatures that roam our good, green Earth?" I hear you ask.

So you know how things that reproduce asexually don't have all that much genetic variation, and how sexual reproduction gives you an edge over asexual populations since you can keep that genetic variation fun and funky fresh, and how that has been the cornerstone for eukaryotic reproduction? Well. Well. Just like me, Bdelloid Rotifers have been completely celibate for 35-40 million years, with some people even bringing that number up to 100 million years, when they diverged from their sister clade. So how do these turbo-virgins not go extinct, racking up tonnes of deleterious mutations, not having any advantageous innovations, and eventually exploding into a genetic soup?

The secret lies in their ability to dehydrate. Not only is it a really handy dandy way to stay alive when your only source of water is gone, it literally rips apart their cells and genes! And why! Why the fuck does that help? It sounds like the opposite of helping!

ID: An electron micrograph of the foot of a Bdelloid Rotifer. It has been shaded a light green. The structure looks almost like a face, with a smile and two stalk-like structures that could be mistaken for eyes. But this is not a face.

Having this mild-to-moderate level of cell membrane and chromosomal damage enables the Bdelloids to take up genetic material from their environment, mostly via their digestive systems, where their last meals are slowly being broken down to reveal that juicy DNA inside. When the water returns and the Bdelloids rehydrate, this genetic material gets incorporated into their chromosomes as their cells get back to work repairing themselves. And they sure ain't picky. In fact, it has been shown that in some species of Bdelloids, up to 8% of their genetic material has non-animal origins. How cool is that?

This is probably what has allowed them to continue adapting and evolving, even when they have been reproducing asexually for so long. This strategy has been so successful that the Bdelloids have managed to diversify into over 450 species. Pretty impressive for a class of animals that haven't had sex in over 40 million years.

Perhaps the Trisolarans might have a similar mechanism as part of their biology (even if they do reproduce sexually as stated in the book). Maybe they've managed to survive for this long because they have been able to absorb useful genes from their home planet, just like Bdelloids have been doing here on Earth. I don't know if these are what Liu Ci Xin had in mind when he wrote the Three Body Problem, but they sure were what I was thinking of when I read the book.

If you're still here, thanks for reading! I know this was a bit of a longer post, but I just wanted to use the new Netflix show to talk about one of my favourite books and one of the weirdest, most underappreciated animals.

[prince-liest]

I know you’ve gotten asks already talking about how happy they are that you’re going more in depth on the subject of Vox being trans in your next installment, but I can’t help myself… I’m so excited that you’re writing about that. It can be difficult to find trans rep in fandom spaces sometimes and your stories are so well written that this is like a gift from god. SO ANYWAY I’m super happy and your works are amazing and I just hope you know how many people value your works for all that they give.

Secondly, I was wondering whether or not Vox would have been trans on earth or just in hell? I mean I’m sure it would be difficult considering the time period but I also couldn’t think of a reason why he would be cis on earth but trans in hell. UNLESS he realized he was trans in hell/was finally able to do something about it?? Anyway, all of this is just speculation, I am only curious!!

Regardless, great work. It genuinely means a lot to me, if no one else :)

Oh, man, I'm ngl, one of my little, "Wait! I can do anything I want!!!!" moments of going mad with power once I got more and more experience at writing was realizing that I could just trans anyone's gender at-will and I didn't need anyone's permission for that. I still remember the first time I quietly decided an OC of mine was trans (love you, Laledy, you obnoxious asshole). I'm always a little apprehensive to start writing trans characters in new fandoms, mostly because I've been in a number of fandoms that have corners that get very tetchy about their weird gender role stuff, but it's consistently been met with such a positive reaction that it really brings me joy. So thank you so very, very much!!

My personal take on Vox in 666 specifically (a lot of which isn't going to come up because he does not want to get into it) is that he wasn't personally really in a position or environment conducive to considering trans-ness as, like, a thing that happens when he was alive, and he put his all into putting on The Correct Gender Performance with the vim and aplomb that we see from him in canon, plus all the underlying bullshit that goes into maintaining that facade. So, y'know. The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, minus the Jewish. Which did not do amazing things for his mental health, not that he let himself pay attention to that at the time!

And then he wakes up, in hell, with this weird-ass demon body with a television for a head, and - well, it just makes sense to present as a man at that point, doesn't it? Hell is dog-eat-dog, and he's not going to pick the submissive gender to put himself on the back foot from the start!

He figures out what the fuck being trans even is eventually, just. Not for a while, and not until after someone like Valentino, having known and assumed that Vox is trans as a given for fucking months, mentions it offhandedly to Vox, who had been mentally describing himself as "just lying about his sex like those girls in stories that get shit done by dressing up as men". Then he gets to have his own little spiral about it, and also why it's upsetting him, and why he felt so vulnerable about Valentino knowing, and why Valentino specifically, Mr. Fishnets, Heels, and Microminis, is the one that ended up in a position not only to know this about Vox but for Vox to feel comfortable having any kind of sex with. It wasn't something Vox had to analyze back when it was just "her" freaky boyfriend being into pegging!

Okay, fuck, I have even more feelings about trans Vox than I thought I did, hahahaha.

Might fuck around and write a staticmoth-centric prequel interlude at some point if I have the brain cells for it. Vox is a lot more confident and comfortable with his gender now, to the point where he can absolutely see fucking around in a dress for kinky reasons as crossdressing and not being forced back into a box that doesn't fit, but it'd be neat to explore the earlier days. Val isn't here for gender, he's here to be sexy, but Vox... this IS the origin of the daddy kink, just saying.

[dollgxtz]

Hello!! Recently I've been reading some of your fics as it passes my timeline and I just finished reading "Getting Closer" and I need to scream it out!! I apologize in advance because this will most likely be a wall of text, please answer however you please or not at all if you don't want to!

First, I love LOVE LOVE how you write Sylus' dialogues!!! I can imagine his voice in every single line and it's just driving me crazy. I really love how you flawlessly switch between the two petnames he so endearingly calls us in game, and I just can't get enough of it since I really love both of his petnames to us, it always gets me weak.

Now I'll actually delve into the story! I absolutely love the Tara tidbit at the beginning of the story, I really feel like the whole thing is definitely something that Tara would do, with how bold she is greeting us away since the intro of the actual in game main story. I could definitely see her snatching our phone with no harm knowing full well it's from our boyfriend, of course reeling back and apologizing if she feels she went too far. The 'what if' explanation about dating Onychinus leader etc etc was really funny, it gives me the same goofiness of his bond episode, just the right amount of goofiness!

I'm lowkey curious on what could've been talked about between Tara and Sylus in that small timeframe, and that "No way you could tell her that its some kind of sex game you both indulge in right???" Got me laughing so hard!!

Your description on the scenes, the settings, the feelings, the buildups and everything else I don't know how to put words into were all really good and very immersive for me! I could imagine every single scene! I really love the phone calls banter, it exudes enough feistiness that he answers with absolute dominance. I'm in love.

I really love the clever attempts of not being purely helpless like the mirror and calling back tricks. It really keeps me on my toes! The scene on the subway is just- aaaah! It's so good! I love the moment our eyes met, the frozen moment when we realize he's right behind us, the little play and the claim of being his!

I love the fact you made him not chase after us immediately. I also love how you specifically describe about his long strides, because damn does the guy is a giant and has legs for days. I especially love the banter on the alley and the moment he almost grabbed our hair! He definitely could reach out further and grab our hair. He's just being merciful. I love it.

The tension right after we won, the banter, up until the surprise! You've written it so amazingly I could imagine it in cinematic shots and it's wonderful!! Feels truly like straight out of a thriller movie.

And hello??? "None of those are safe words sweetie" PLEASE I'M CRYING I LOVE HIM YOUR HONOR. AND I LOVE THE WAY YOU WROTE HIM!! He's freaky but he knows the limits! I wonder what kind of safe word was established. Also the part he mocks our plead?? Holy shit I never knew I needed that in my life but I can't live without it now. It's so condescending in the most delicious way.

The stark contrast, the momentary break, the softness that he truly loves us that leaks out when he asks for our consent about are we doing okay or not, GOT ME ON MY KNEES. ASKING CONSENT IS ALSO HOT YOUR HONOR!!! Also the smooth transition back into that cold hearted smug personality? SWOONED. WHIPPED. IN LOVE.

The authoritative command of asking us to calm down, not giving what we want until we submit obediently? Delicious. De-li-ci-o-us! Thank you I am feasting.

And s i g h h h don't get me started with how much care and gentleness he gives after the whole thing is finished. I feel truly loved. The ending is truly beautiful and it's an astounding piece overall!!! Okay thank you for coming to my tedtalk, TLDR: thank you for girl dinner.

AHHH ANON IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKED IT!!

I just noticed a lack of predator x prey fics for Sylus and wanted to contribute 😌.

I MEAN COME ON HE LITERALLY SAYS HE LIKES WHEN HIS PREY STRUGGLES 😩

Anywayssss, while writing I definitely had lots of “Would he say this?” moments cause I wanted to get his way of speaking down right. I was honestly so nervous to include Tara because we don’t know a whole lot about her besides her being bubbly but I’m happy to know that you liked it!!

I also wanted the buildup and tension there. I wanted readers to feel every emotion as if they themselves were actually being chased. Sylus just inspires me to write such things what can I say 😌

Tysm for for reading and I hope you stick around for more!!

[theangryman]

I don’t exactly get you. Your ex (husband or girlfriend I can’t even tell) divorced you badly and left you traumatized. You’re a trans man who doesn’t see himself as at all female? Yet the oppression you experience is… okay. I don’t get it. If you could explain that would help. What’s the point of being a radical feminist if you’re inherently the opposite of what we all see you as? You’re a woman lost. You had a crappy mom and ex. You had an inherently female experience. I don’t get it. Trans women also don’t experience female anything except maybe lust from freaky males.

I am oppressed on the basis of sex. I am a radical feminist because I recognize that sex based oppression is foundational to culture, an ideology so ingrained in our culture that it is invisible to most. Being born with a female body is being born into a world which commodifies your body, expects you to stay silent and “demure.”

As a transgender man, I recognize that I ha he experienced sexism. I still experience sexism in spaces where my sex assigned at birth is known - doctors offices, the legal system… At the end of the day it is *sexism*, discrimination based on *sex.* The difference in how I am treated as a passing man versus how I was treated as a teenage girl has done nothing but radicalize me.

I recognize my own transition as medical - my body needs testosterone, feels wrong without it. I cannot give you an invitation into my mind, other than with these words, that will help you understand. Before I knew what it meant to be trans, I knew there was something wrong with my body. When I started taking testosterone, my body felt right. As my body has changed and gotten older with testosterone, it has felt even more right. The way my skin feels: the way my feet grew: the way my beard rubs against my shirt; these are all poetry to me.

I think a lot of radfems on here primarily interact with cis men trolling or posting fetish material. I’ve known a lot of trans women in real life; most of them are not the gooners you see here and on Reddit. Quite a few are older, and will never come out or transition because of how dangerous and unsafe it is. My queer community has fucking vanished because you get out of this place as soon as you can - transitioning means moving and starting over. And yeah, trans women do experience the same types of harassment that cis women do.

“Radical feminism” isn’t inherently trans exclusionary. Breaking down the system of sex discrimination doesn’t mean dysphoria and intersex brains won’t exist. Trans people weaken the boundaries of sex by hopping across that barrier - and I think a healthy radical feminist movement (which wasn’t mostly conservative men larping because it’s a safe space for them to hate trans people) would recognize that.

[myaoiboy]

how do u feel abt bottom solid snake? 👀 (and Otacon being an absolute weeb degen when it comes to fucking him hc)

okay so first of all i should clarify that basically all of my ships go both ways (bc i am a filthy vers and i cannot relate to only being into one or the other kjhfkdsj)

i looooove snake bottoming, especially with grey fox and kaz bc imo they're more likely to want to fuck him up real bad (Kaz for Revenge Related Reasons, Fox cause he's just kinky like that)

my thoughts on otacon TOPPING however, are complicated. im of two minds:

one, i relate to him. kinda also look like him (is that a self own? feels like one). i like topping. otacon topping makes me go :))) from dopamine

HOWEVER in-universe i feel like he has shit to unpack, trauma-wise, before he can top. dude probably thinks his dick is cursed, i know i would. That's not to say i think he doesnt top, i just think there's a lot of Fun Trauma Breakdowns in the meantime. I feel like for a long time, cis or trans, otacon has to use straps/sheaths to top bc he *cannot* be directly inside someone, probably a mental thing mostly, like fear that if he does something bad will happen.

He totally has something like this:

snake strikes me as a whiny/needy bottom. dunno why, I think he puts on such a front of being stoic most of the time, and when he gets to let go of control he just busts apart like a fucking pillsbury tube.

i forget if ive said it on here before but like. what's the point of having a superspy boyfriend if you're not having freaky RP sex on the reg? they totally do.

Do we know if snake speaks japanese? if he didn't before, he totally at LEAST picks up weeby dirty talk from hal's hentai. he can do a shockingly good hentai girl impression sigh/moan/scream etc, and ahegao faces of course. even out of the bedroom, he totally says ara ara and calls him onii-chan to fluster him too, things like that.

[painfullyprickedandticked]

tell us more abt alastor x striker (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠)

okay so this was honestly more of a thing that started as a joke when I saw this fic on AO3 but then derailed into serious territory. I'm guessing that's what Straz is to the people who ship it.

Personally I started it as "lol the sex apathetic asexual and a homophobic closeted fruitcake who pretends like he's never flirted with men ever" kind of thing. They both bond over being the most sexualized men in hell. And being willing to do the most criminal things because anarchy, and because there's no limits except like. The obvious.

I don't know what the fuck happened. I blame my friend Sea for this. But it devolved into them going from being mutual allies and plotting on murdering the monarchy to "Ah fuck, I think I actually like this guy."

Alastor would see Striker as basically. The only man who isn't so repulsive to him, solely because there's this respect he has. Oh, you hate the royals too? Join the club. Maybe give me one of those Carmine guns. And Striker thinks the cannibalism is kinda freaky but hey, it's a way to clean up bodies. The only reason they ever cross paths is because Striker decided he wanted to kill Lucifer. The radio demon himself is like "shit bitch, me too"

They didn't kill Lucifer. He lives, unfortunately. But Striker gained a drinking partner and a boyfriend that could probably, maybe, actually help him in his killing sprees and succeed.

Who says that murder isn't the way into someone's heart after all??? It isn't Bonnie and Clyde, it's Beau and Clyde.

I am embarrassed to admit I have written possibly the most shameless fic ever because of this pairing. Also I like to imagine trans!Alastor/Striker, trans!Striker/Alastor or T4T because cis hcs are for the weak

[mouseratz]

also idk people told me when I went on testosterone I would become a Violently Sexual Freak because of the way teenaged cis boys behave and uh. I am the same amount of freaky as before. actually less, honestly. a year out I can say pretty fairly that my testosterone sex drive, while consistently present, never reaches the same honestly unpleasant (Personally Speaking) intensity of my estrogen based libido. it has not made me suddenly desire to sexually abuse someone because I'm Just So Pent Up. sometimes I'm horny. but mostly I'm just chilling honestly. the "masculine" sex drive (and puberty in general) being characterized as More Intense and Violent I believe to mostly be social or emotional as opposed to the actual mechanics or changes that I did experience (there were changes! but it still rounds out to Pretty Normal, Honestly). hormonal changes in general can make someone irritable, I will say, but again, I experienced some level of that in....both "puberties", and they both eased off after some time. (Although I'm still undergoing the second one, by that term, I would not say I'm very angry or unpredictably so.)

[seth-burroughs]

Last minute pride month post. This is the last one after this I won't be gay anymore

Yomi, Fake Zilch/Aide and Halara are all loveless, aromantic and aplatonic. plus the narcissism👍

("oh but how will aide and yomi get freaky with it then if they don't love each other?? :((" you fool. you absolute buffoon. a bond between two deranged loveless aplatonic narcissists + chosen persons is unbreakable and more powerful than any other type of relationship. its like a mythic rarity homesfuck quadrant)

(Yomi's relationship/attraction hierarchy and systems are another can of worms I shall not even attempt to open in this single paragraph)

Yomi is trans but that is a surprise to no one. I mean his boobs do get progressively bigger with every art I post of him

(though he's not a binary trans man either)

Shinigami is a trans woman death gods can trans their gender too. Martina is a trans woman. Guillaume is a trans woman. Kurane is a trans woman. Waruna is a trans woman. Yuma and Makoto are trans women among all the other infinite genders. Pucci is a trans woman. Enyne is a trans woman. Yakou's dead wife is a trans woman. Nun is a trans woman. Seth is also transfem in some way but he doesn't know it yet. He'll realize it eventually. Give it like 2 months max

I am going to forcemasc Fubuki. Who said that

Vivia and Yakou are very tired trans men. Yakou also only exclusively dates other trans people he has enough lived experience to decide he can't fucking take it anymore

Kurumi is a trans boy in progress. Also a lesbian but willing to make exceptions

Melami is a trans man that uses she/her and doesn't want to "pass" she prefers to do anything she wants forever. and also making cis people's minds explode

Aphex originally considered himself a butch lesbian and then turned out to be transmasc actually. Then he considered himself a transmasc butch lesbian but then turned out to be just a little bit bi after all. Then he considered himself a transmasc butch bi lesbian however then he found out he-

Fuck who else is here. Uhh. Bi turigirl Martina. Seth likes men I guess also some flavor of aroace. Uhh. Yakou's bi. Vivia's bi. Aetheria polycule or something whatever we've all seen it

All of Kanai Ward is queer in some way because of the chemicals in the rain

[flyin-shark]

I'm the anon who asked all the curious questions about sexuality and gender!

First off, just to answer your question about what it might mean to be "a guy in a girl way" - So this can obviously mean a lot of things for a lot of different people, and if I were to get into the nitty gritty we could be here all day :P

But actually I was trying to express my situation in "cishet" language. So I'm agender. I'm afab. I use he/him and I am most comfortable with being thought of and referred to as if I was a guy.

But for all intents and purposes people are going to assume that I'm a woman if they don't know otherwise. I'm androgynous sure, but I'm petite to a fault, and never transitioned physically in any way, so to most people who meet me casually, they will assume that I'm a slightly androgynous and gnc woman.

I am polyamorous, and one of my partners is a mostly cishet dude. I know that he most likely wouldn't be (sexually) into me if I was a cis guy. But then again, I am not a cis guy. And I don't question his love or attraction, or respect for my gender. But I do insist that him being with me makes him at least "a little bit bisexual".

It's obviously very complicated, and like. I really respect that you sat down and learned about the community and the terminology etc despite how it might not be a huge part of your life. That's very valuable, and in and of itself, it's a very refreshing and healing thing.

I think the value of allyship is too often understated. Up to and including by the notion that if you are a true ally, you must be some kind of queer in denial.

That said, I do think that to be a true ally (and I think you are in this process!) it's necessary to acknowledge (as you do) that the categories and labels are all just approximations. This includes "cis het". It's ok to have these moments of confusion and just take them for what they are, because at the end of the day human experience is messy and complicated. It doesn't have to threaten your identity as such, because the identity is just the label you currently feel comfy with.

So for example if we met and you didn't know me well (as a co-worker or whatever), you might find me attractive thinking I was a cute lady. If you then asked me out and I knew you were cishet I would probably gently explain that I'm not your type/it wouldn't work for me.

If you met me knowing beforehand that I'm a dude who looks a bit weird, you might not feel the same attraction because your brain has put me in the box of "dudes".

But then if you got to know me and we became close or something, you might start to feel attraction based on liking me as a person and me looking the way I do. And then you might feel bad for it, because you would feel that this attraction means you don't respect my gender or something.

Obviously we are likely not going to meet so that's a completely hypothetical example, but in the latter scenario I would actually take your attention way more seriously. And I think so should you (if a similar situation ever arose).

Because attraction based on knowing a person intimately transcends gender and at that point I wouldn't care so much that you wouldn't be physically attracted if I was a cis guy. I'd be like, well he knows me and I know him, we like each other, and if we get to add freaky sex to the mixture it's a win-win.

Because misgendering is more about dehumanizing. The need to reduce me to my physical body. Somehow?

Anyways I'm literally rambling and I'm being embarrassing all over your inbox, sorry ^^""

Anyways uhhh. Keep swimming, little shark. I will shut up, sorry

Honestly these discussions just make me want to abolish gender. Everyone should just be attracted to whoever and have consensual relations with whoever :3

In the meantime I’ll keep trying to be as good an ally as I can be

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heya i'm fynn! they/them pronouns only. i'm 24 and this is a nsft sideblog (i follow from @githling)

i am a non-binary butch lesbian and i post exclusively women and other non-binary people. i probably will never post about men. im also butch4all <3

i'm a switch-leaning-top but slowly learning to explore bottoming/subbing as well. i am open to new messages from people 21+

please have your age in bio or you'll be blocked. do not message me straight away trying to get freaky or you'll also get blocked.

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DNI; cis men, minors, bigots, zionists

you can call me; honey, babe, angel, darling, pup, miss, ma'am

my kinks; piss/watersports, choking/slapping, biting, overstimulation, orgasm delay/denial, restraints, knifeplay, bloodplay, period sex, impact play, breeding/pregnancy, CNC

hard limits; scat, raceplay, vore, feet, spit

[unlimitedgolden]

I have toontown headcanons to share so I'm going to just go for it + canon honorifics

PRONOUNS!!!!!!11!11 ROMANCE!!11 AHHHHH1!!!11

Deep Diver is a bigender baddie, she/he (Mr/Ms). Update: I think it'd be really funny if Deep Diver was bigender and bisexual. baby bi bi bi,,,

Gatekeeper she/her (Ms) and also the swaggiest butch lesbian you'll ever see

Firestarter he/they (Mr/Mx) otd. My brain says demiboy and I KNOW he is gay as hell

Featherbedder they/he/she (Mx/Mr/Ms), non-binary in some way, most likely genderfluid. I don't know enough about them right now so that's all I got

Major Player he/hymn (Mr) (this is straight up from the official server), and I honestly think he's pan with a preference to men (Buck Ruffler and their freaky fusion)

Chainsaw Consultant looking like a he/they (Mr) transman, I also think he's bi

Mouthpiece my grandma. She/her (Mrs) and I am a trans grandma truther. She is the elder transhet to me.

Rainmaker she/they (Ms/Mx) and CALL ME INSANE BUT I think they're transmasc and I love her ok. Also bi

Witch Hunter he/him (Mr) and I don't know enough about him yet except he seems like a miserable bloke and a hater

Duck Shuffler he/they/it (Mr) transmasc (projecting lowkey) and he is gay as hell as well idc

Treekiller he/him (Mr) and I don't know enough about him yet either SORRY

Plutocrat he/him (Don/Mr) he seems cishet but I also don't know enough about him either

Bellringer he/him (Mr). I think he's cis but experimenting with he/they. Bi, British, Bell.

Prethinker he/him (Mr) transman? Transmasc? Not sure but he's transgender. Also pan

Multislacker He/They but maybe she too (Mr/Mx) methinks genderfluid. Its the colourscheme I promise. Somewhere on the asexual spectrum to me. Romance? Maybe, maybe not. Not sure.

Pacesetter he/him (Mr) + transman swagger with the gay gay boyfriend on top

RELATIONSHIPS + FAMILY WOOOAHHHH

Prefacing this with the warning of multishipping for funsies and I am a believer of polycules argue with the wall

Deep Diver according to cogs.ink hates Gatekeeper and Treekiller which is so funny to me because I think Deep Diver and Gatekeeper would be cute together

Deep Diver/Gatekeeper with Rainmaker is also so fire. Polycule them NOW

Firestarter and Pacesetter canon boyfriends

Also that one headcanon of Firestarter and Rainmaker being siblings is so cute I'm adopting it

Major Player fused with Duck Shuffler that one time and even though its not a canon event they're really good together. Love wins in every universe

Chainsaw Consultant with Duck Shuffler (thanks Sludge) kissy mwah mwah

Chainsaw Consultant and Rainmaker t4t swagger btw

Rainmaker already mentioned all above but yeah she should get soooo much love. Love wins. Multishipping wins. Polycules win.

Duck Shuffler has two hands to hold one for Major Player and one for Chainsaw Consultant. Polycules babeeey!!! And then I'm on his leg like a diseased animal.

Treekiller and Chainsaw Consultant brothers for realsies

Sometimes I think about that animatic with Plutocrat being interested in Mouthpiece with the spongebob audio. Yknow the one by cogmics. Lives in my head

Bellringer and Prethinker kissing. Idk where it came from but I think they're cute too

Also whoever came up with Pacesetter and Multislacker having a sibling like bond os brilliant. Adopted that hc now too.

Other STUPID HCS before I forget

RUNNING IN TO EDIT THIS BEFORE I FORGET. DUCK SHUFFLER AUTISM ADHD COMBO

CHAINSAW CONSULTANT AUTISM HC REAL TOO

I was talking to my sister about this one but I think it'd be funny if cogs reproduced by just building their offspring like in the Robots movie.

Building my son from scrap parts I found

And again in convo with my sister it'd be funny if toons reproduced by just drawing their children since they're literally cartoons

She said if you look ugly as a toon sorry your parents were just bad at art LMFAO

Furthermore this was to build our own lore on why our toons are siblings but different species and since we agree our dad would be a cog (which I did design) that he must've drawn our toons

Mfw we are our fathers oc

OK I think that's everything for now. I'm immediately sending this to everyone I know for approval

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When I started therapy, I was actually hung up on the fact that I didn't seem to have ever experienced dysphoria, which is a lie that has its origins in part in the fact I had no fucking clue what dysphoria actually is. I've since found that it's actually kinda hard to explain, and that's why these narratives that dysphoria is when trans people are revulsed by their body and agab, or when they "hate" their past self, persist. It's also why these "trapped in" bodies and "wrong" bodies narratives exist.

Like. I'm in my body. My body is my body. My consciousness isn't in another person's body; it's in my own. And I know myself. I know myself well enough to know that I am not a woman despite society telling me that my bits, pieces, and parts "make" me one. And how else do I explain this to someone with no frame of reference for this? I liken it to "Freaky Friday," despite the fact that's- technically- what it isn't? It’s like having an out-of-body experience. You're looking at your body. You know it's your body. But there's also a disconnect. Something's missing, and something's there that makes no sense.

I also don't think I could ever hate the girl my parents tried to raise or the woman I wanted so desperately to be. That wouldn't be very kind to me. She really tried her damnedest. And she's not "dead" because she's a vital part of my past. I, quite technically, wouldn't be trans if "she" never existed. I'd be a cis man if I was never afab. "Trans" is an important part of my lived reality.

Was I ever a "girl"? A part of me still has no idea. I know I truly believed I was, but the reasons I believed I was weren't healthy.

I held on to a lot of sex-essentialist ideas for a good portion of my youth. Why? It was all that connected me to the identity society and my family was trying to raise me into. When my cousin gifted me a uterus pin with the words "Women's rights" on it, I wore it proudly. It was a very tenuous connection to womanhood, and it was a connection I needed to critically rethink when my mother and grandmother were both diagnosed with cervical cancer (I was 11). I knew that it ran in my family and that, one day, I might need to go through the same surgery they did just to live.

I asked my mom what connected her to womanhood, and she replied: motherhood. I was never, ever going to be a mother, so I returned to the drawing board. I asked my grandmother what connected her to womanhood, and she replied: standing up to violent men and men who denied her and other women the opportunity to work; community. And I realized that I had never been extended the same community my grandmother always had been. Part of the disconnect I felt was due to violence (sexual and not) I had experienced in single-sex, "women's only" spaces. Girls in "girl's only" spaces made it clear that I was not welcome, and, at the time, I didn't understand why they singled me out and picked on me.

Even though my family was trying to raise me as a girl, the society around me saw me as nothing more than a "failed" girl. I was an "unwoman," not "woman enough," for reasons such as what I preferred to wear. But it's not like in marking me as "unwoman," they made me into a man, far from it. They sorted me- on the basis of my queerness- into some other third category. Something of a eunuch.

And it seemed like the only thing I had was some sex-essentialist, cisgender pretense (I absolutely loved the linked blog post as I found it quite striking, even though I was *never* trans-exclusionary, and I never supported those ideas about trans people) to sort of reassure myself that I belonged in society. Every time I usurped or rebelled against our sex/gender norms, I would work to distract myself from how I constructed my body into a binary and thus ignore how being made into a girl was wrong for me. I literally disconnected myself from parts of my internal self & internal thoughts, and I denied myself the opportunity to construct an identity. I was constantly gaslighting myself and consistently engaged in thought-stopping. In part because I was terrified of being "different."

I so desperately wanted to be just like every other girl that I ignored the fact that I likely never was (and that there is no such thing as universal woman/girlhood). With that realization, I could hear the words of my school-yard bullies from years ago, words which, it seems, many trans masc people have heard in their lifetime, "What's wrong? We're all girls here, aren't we? We're all alike."

I've been unable to recognize my own dysphoria because I have spent my whole life purposefully ignoring and distracting myself from those moments of "huh. something's off." I spent some 23 years of my life essentially disassociating from myself (I'm 26 now). I felt detached from my body and detached from the world around me. It felt as if everyone else was moving, but I was floating in place. I disconnected myself from my thoughts and emotions in an attempt to be accepted by a society that finds queerness disgusting.

I literally felt like I was watching my life and body unfold without my consent rather than me unfolding it myself. So, I liken my experience to "Freaky Friday" because that's also what it is.

[definitely-not-an-alb]

Saw a post that mentioned Bloodchild (my beloved) and it reminded me of, like, a weird, specific Type of Guy I have popping up in fanfic AND origfic who's like ... cis dude very down with getting impregnated by his freaky monster partner. The freaky monster partner is very nervous about the whole thing. The cis dude is NOT, he is here for it, it's gonna be great. There is no gender situation, there's no kink, the whole thought process is just 'well I never thought about that because why would I but now that the option presents itself: sure. why not.'.

It feels like a bizarre thing to write because intellectually I know I have to do way more leg-work than I'm doing in those wips to make people believe these characters as real, and what's worse, men have given me that very answer in real life. Head empty, no thoughts, would love to get pregged. I am fighting for my life here.