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Remmao who let you out of your cage!!!???😤
#Rc Remmao#Romance club#my post#Rc ramesses#rc ash song of crimson nile#rc remmao#rc livius#rc sotcn#rc ash#I'm so damn angry#I also wonder what will happen next#Evie honey you need that damn knife to protect yourself#I honestly thought Remmao would be a godfather to Eva#But guess I was wrong#I hate being wrong#If you can tell#Next update? Find out what happens to Isman#My smol bean 🥺🥺🥺#Ugh#Why me?#HarmonyVerendez
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cassie sandsmark star jorts from issue #23 of yj98 you have always been famous to me
(before pic + additional photos and unnecessary ramblings under the cut)
I made these jorts in 22 hours over the course of 3 days! pure willpower via my love for cassie sandsmark because I am a total novice in sewing and i am still not very good at it. (i really just combined various tutorials and improvised on measurements and then regretted improvising measurements later on).
I thrifted these jeans last year for cassie vibes (even though I had already made her star-spangled red bellbottoms at that point) and wasn't a fan of how they fit + I couldn't figure out how to style them. I enjoyed sewing in the panels to flare them out and then everything else (cargo pockets and sewing in stars) was hell <3
the pockets are not placed well (nor are they particularly well-made), the hem is uneven, the stars are quite janky (and I think I stitched on too many), I probably stabbed my fingers a million times, and I am so in love with them
#these jorts are stained with the blood of my incapabilities but its okay because theyre already red#what should i conquer next in the cassie sandsmark wardrobe#as of current i have made: her GIRL necklace + her red star earrings + her wonder girl shirt (crop t-shirt version)#+ as aforementioned- her red bellbottoms#all of the above aside from the red bellbottoms were made for my halloween costume last year#the red bellbottoms were made last summer just bc i already had red bellbottoms that i never wore#none of the above really cycle through my everyday wardrobe#but i'm hoping these shorts will be an exception!#(i also have a very similar fit to what she wears in issue 22 of yj98- light green polo + dark blue baggy jeans)#(will probably just make an oversized ww shirt to go with my lightwash jorts for a baby cassie look.)#(should i be looking for a denim vest too... i can put a wonder woman patch on it...)#cassie sandsmark#wonder girl#cassandra sandsmark#young justice#yj98#young justice comics#wonder woman#dc#dc comics#soo much rambling happening in this post. sorry guys i've spent the last 3 days in hyperfocus mode and now i need release
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#chibi cody#chibi obi-wan#star wars#sw fanart#the clone wars#tcw fanart#commander cody#obi wan kenobi#codywan#clone wars#tcw#so#i was home from an exhausting shift#and I was scrolling pinterest listlessly to recharge with cute pictures#and i was like#“oh this is so cute!”#“mmh... i wonder what it would look like with cody”#“and obi wan”#*me:* okay! let's try this! im exhausted anyway so i won't work on it long!#*also me:* it's 4 am. im dying. what happened.#*ALSO also me the next morning:* uh. not bad actualy. cheers!!!!!!!!!!#there you go#🤣#my fanart#coline7373
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Penacony.
more from the post looooop:
#okay did this one in order of plot references from start of penacony to latest info#turns out i have too many of these for one post so i cut it down to mostly plot relevance.#im scared what is gonna happen next. plz firefly don't dieeeee#also i am guessing that our next full on new location is gonna be an ipc onw#because we are getting suddenly a LOT of ipc lore and 3 whole ass members are playable#and while it was in the illusion ending im gonna guess that if sunday lives then he's gonna go on that trial still#but that secret robin mission makes me scared#my other guesses are going to be one of the 3 locations we were asked on#i really want lushaka but its likely edo star if that's how we're going about this#but I'd really like to see glamoth (i know im ranting about it again) or sigonia bc those places have really interesting history#of course i want places like punklorde but like a lead into those aren't set yet.#i also wonder about that steampunk planet penacony was originally going to be.#sooo much to thiinnkkk#honkai star rail#honkai star rail memes#hsr sparkle#hsr black swan#hsr trailblazer#hsr stelle#hsr sampo#hsr acheron#hsr aventurine#hsr topaz#hsr dr ratio#hsr gallagher#hsr robin#hsr acheswan#hsr boothill#hsr jade#hsr firefly
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COMPUTER. ENHANCE
^ omega spotted
#was overanalyzing every little frame as one does and i saw him . i havent seen anyone else point this out#considering hes right next to what looks like the entrance to one of the stages#my guess is that shadow will also have other characters spread around his hub world that are frozen and stuff#and are freed by playing throuhg the stages. just like what happens in sonic's side of things#now i wonder who all the other characters could be... rouge is already shown being freed by sonic in the og game so. probably not her#maybe silver or metal sonic? they only showed up as boss fights in the original iirc.#well characters who didnt appear in the original are probably on the table still considering omega wasnt in the original#but other than that i really cant think of anyone else#ohh . what if maria is one of them. idk if that would be possible considering shes dead. but imagine#sonic x shadow generations#sonic x shadow generations spoilers
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People You May Know
For @drarrymicrofic prompt: follow.
@HarryPotter has requested to follow you.
Draco blinks at his phone, frowns, and then refreshes the page.
@HarryPotter has requested to follow you.
Fuck. Not a glitch, then.
Maybe it was a mistake. Maybe Potter doesn't know how to rescind a follow request. Maybe Draco showed up under 'People You May Know,' (or, more accurately, if you ask Draco, 'People You Don't Speak To Anymore But Instagram Knows You Have Their Number') and Potter clicked it by accident.
Or maybe not.
"Pansy?" Draco calls across their shared flat. "I need your help."
#in case you're wondering#no i dont know what happens next#well. i imagine draco accepts and DMs Harry like why did you follow me and harry's like why not#and then they start talking and then they fall in love and live happily ever after#soooo i guess i DO know what happens next#will i write it?#unlikely#this is all the story my brain wanted to come up with#ALSO AFTER THEY GET TOGETHER DRACO MAKES A FINSTA AND THE USERNAME IS POTTERSTINKS#drarry#harry potter#draco malfoy#draco and harry#harry and draco#draco x harry#harry x draco#draco/harry#harry/draco#draco malfoy and harry potter#harry potter and draco malfoy#draco malfoy x harry potter#harry potter x draco malfoy#hpdm#drarry squad#drarry fic#drarry fanfic#drarry fanfiction#drarry ficlet#drarry drabble#drarry fandom
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after knowing the whole story of Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom, I still can't believe Nintendo really went for the Princess and the Knight trope
#and i love it#zelink#botw#totk#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#cause I mean sometimes I think about the story#and I just wonder was it a fic that I read??#did the calamity really happen and zelda and link went through all that shit and lost ppl they loved?#and link wakes up 100 years later with no memories?#but then only hears a voice of a woman to help him find his memories and learn that he's the one who has to defeat the calamity#plus how they didn't get along at the beginning#and somehow also became a 'from enemies to lovers' trope#then with tears of the kingdom the whole story just shows about the LEGEND of ZELDA#and the things she went through and what she had to do to save Hyrule#and link's whole mission for the entire game was to find her#screw defeating ganondorf he just wants his wife back#honestly best zelda and link by far in the zelda series#like what would the next zelda game be like??#plus the game director himself is zelink shipper so 👀#okay ill shutup now lol
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i swear i’m not trying to win the award for most delusional girl on the planet but tell me why hä took kä’s jacket off, proceeded to sniff it ?? (which received the thumbs up from k) and the kä went to look at his wrist as if absentmindedly checking his watch 🤔⌚️ (non existent watch ig)
THEY ARE COOKING ISTG.
reposted link from hä’s story with the video here
#of coming yes yes#no but it’s very odd#i wonder if what he said had any correlation#they are acting WEIRD#16th is next week if nothing happens pretend i said NOTHING#also this shot looks so artsy like a dramatic kdrama poster lmaooo 💀#käärijä#häärijä#khäärijä
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Chapter 96 - Home Visits
#boku no hero academia#deku#izuku midoriya#bnha#my hero academia#i wonder how many people are going to be upset with me for siding with inko here KDFJHGKJ#but no like seriously i wouldn't let him go back to ua!! he almost DIED#MULTIPLE TIMES!!!#i would've pulled him out of that school after usj!!!#i'm sorrryyy but that's her SON and i KNOW he has a dream but he can chase that dream in ANOTHER HERO SCHOOL#ONE WITHOUT A BIG FAT TARGET ON IT!!!#and like let's also look at that kidnapping incident from inko's pov real fast#yes yes i know this isn't about katsuki but it is for a second okay hear me out right#you're a mom. and there's another family in your neighborhood. right?#and they have a kid your son's age!#they're friends but that's not really relevant right now#what IS relevant is a kid your son's age that you know. that you've probably babysat at least once. on your block. was kidnapped by villain#and sure he got home safe but that's not what MATTERS (well it does matter. it's good he got home safe) what MATTERS is that it HAPPENED#and it's not like it happened at like the mall or something or somewhere your son wasn't with him for! it happened NEXT TO YOUR SON#your son WATCHED IT HAPPEN. he was THERE. it COULD HAVE BEEN HIM.#and it happened while under the school's care and watch.#i wouldn't let my son back into their care and watch if i was inko.#i really wouldn't.#okay rant over sorry i PROMISE
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Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20's Burrow's End episode 10 (finale)
#dimension 20 spoilers#dimension 20#d20 introductions#burrow's end#burrow's end spoilers#d20 burrow's end#in which i regret putting multiple versions of the same intro card because of the burning overlay vs not#well shit. i committed to it and now i'm in for it#featuring bonus Wenabocker who just happened to have a little flash of blue in his appearance this ep (though it might have been present b4#i KNEW the phoebe intro card would be a doozy but i also did NOT expect that battleset to be that TERRIFYING. like good GOD#very wonderful season though- i loved it a lot (even as someone who doesn't stomach a whole lot of gore/body horror often)#man what a ride.......#see y'all next season!!
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AU where rose gets shot by the dalek instead of the doctor and she survives long enough to be brought back to the tardis and he's saying he can fix this, he can fix this, he can fix this. and rose says it was worth it (it was.) and when she stops breathing the doctor just. stops. period. so so still. frozen over her.
and i think it takes just long enough for jack to get close and take her hand. because he needs to. before it goes cold, he needs to.
and that's when rose breathes again.
#this is a love story. this is also a horror story. for jack especially because he knows more than anyone else What This Means For Her#(also. briefly. a horror story for donna because she's watching the doctor this whole time. and she's thinking. that she can't stop him.#if this happens. if rose dies. than whatever he does next. she's going to try but i think for the first time donna would genuinely not be#sure if she could make the doctor stop. which is terrifying. a fear that continues even once rose comes back to life because i wonder if#donna thinks. 'i won't come back to life if i ever leave him.' and realizes just what could happen if he loses her too.)#rose tyler#NO THOUGHTS HEAD EMPTY ONLY JACKROSEDOCTOR BRAIN
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overthinking … nooo ……
#god help me I am having too many thoughts#about things that are not even remotely relevant right now#I really need to adopt the “cross that bridge when I come to it” mentality#because sheeeeesh#this is also sort of bestie number two’s fault because she’s the one who asked me all those questions#“what are you going to do if he confesses to you” GIRL I DON’T KNOW! I’m barely trying to establish a friendship right now#but of course now I AM wondering what I’d do#well I’ll tell you one thing I’m not going to be cruel like those kdrama female leads#that break the heart of the guy they like just because they think it’s better to let him go right now#if — IF! — that ever happened#I guess I’d let him express himself and then express myself and explain where I’m at right now#and we’d figure something out#which would be a sign of trust and teamliness I’d say!#but anyway. that’s like step 50. right now I’m on step 3#and who knows if I’ll go beyond this one#it’s actually his job to take the next one (texting me again) and I will NOT jump the gun under any circumstances#so. yep. actually expressing myself here made me calm down and not have so many abstract swirling thoughts#elly's posts#🍮
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A Bloody Conflict, is it Not? At Least Less Will Die From This Cursed Blade
Art Trade with the delightful @flame-shadow 💚
#my art#art trade#hollow knight#hollow knight oc#This was a such a treat to draw!!#Ah spilled hemolymph my cherished#This piece is based on another on of Flame's posts and was basically a result of a 'What happened next?' moment in my mind hehe#I think Charon should pay for his crimes; it's good for the ecosystem#Also Phthalo's is just SO COOL#I love draw rough and foliage-like texture so I knew I'd have lot of fun going in#But overall just dissecting the anatomy of these big ol limbs was just really fun hehe#I hope my half of this wonderful exchange was a treasured one :}#gore#severed limb
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Ride 746: Cheering and conclusion!!
Pag 1
1: I'll win!!
2: I will!! I'll become the sixth member!! This year for sure!!
3: I'll go!!
4: I will!! On the same stage as you, Issa!!
Pag 2
1: They're neck and neck!!
For sure!!
Pag 3
1: For sure!!
Pag 4
1: There are 50m left until the sensor line!!
2: Kuaaaa
3: Garuaaaa
Pag 5
3: Nii-chan, on!!
4: Damn, I get it
This resolution, is making me shake
5: Sugimoto!! I'm cheering for you!!
Pag 6
1: Danchiku!!
2: 30m left!!
Pag 7
2: I think I can hear, mixed together with Sadatoki's voice
3: Kawada's cheering
4: It's surprising, but I'm grateful
It's turning into strength for me, Kawada
6: Imaizumi....
Pag 8
1: is watching quietly
Can't be helped
2: They're the three core third years who put together the club
They can't afford to support one of us
4: But, maybe, if you supported me
I
5: I would have been
6: several times more strong than usual
Pag 9
1: I'm glad
For this training camp
2: It's been hard, but, Imaizumi, I could become your “buddy”, and run with you during these intense for days
3: Imaizumi......
4: I haven't told you yet
5: Once this race is over.... will you listen to me?
5: It's silly
A daydream
6: The reason why I want to run in the Inter High
7: I've been thinking about it since around a year ago
Before the finish line, running as teammates, wearing the same jerseys....
Pag 10
1: Go, Imaizumi!!
Got it, Teru!!
I.....
2: I thought that I want to push your back and for you to take the finish line
3: With these hands!!
Pag 11
2: Sugimoto
3: At first, you boasted that you were an experienced cyclist, but it was just words
During the first training camp, you retired halfway through
4: But you worked so hard
Secretly
5: And without resting, for three years
Sugimoto.....
6: Show me the moment your three years of progress bear fruits
Pag 12
1: Pedal!! Sugimoto!!
2: Yeah!!
Pag 13
3: Now
4: 30m!!
I'll pedal at full power!!
Pag 14
1: Garuaaaa
2: Sugimoto-san
3: You're really an amazing guy
4: I respect you from the bottom of my heart
Pag 15
1: Your heart is probably bigger than mine
2: The courage to boldly challenge, the earnestness of working so hard
The heart of never giving up until the end
3: You, who hid all that, are strong
4: Stronger than me, much more!! I finally noticed during the last lap
5: So
6: It's the end, so please
My heart is so small it can fit in the palm of my hand
So
Pag 16
1: Allow me to practice with you one more time, senpai!!
Pag 20
1: Garuaaaa
2: It's Danchiku
Danchiku crossed the sensor line first!!
#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 746#rip to all the ppl who were cheering so hard for sugimoto i'm so so sorry for your loss ;A;#also im so sad too ;A;#but honestly im also sad for danchiku bc literally everyone but kabu was cheering for sugimoto no one was cheering for him lmao#maybe he'll get on the team but everyone would have preferred having sugimoto asdsafhjldf thats so sad#btw imaizumi screaming for sugimoto ;A;#sugimoto being so in love with him hes such a simp#he even imagines imaizumi calling him teru ;A;#i wonder whats gonna happen now.....#next chap is 24 pages so many things are waiting for us next week *eyes emoji*
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The Adventure Begins
Levi's overacting. Again. The only reason it wasn't obvious during the school play was because Simeon kept him reined in. Levi gets excited quite easily, and it causes him to get lost in whatever role he's playing.
I'll have to ask Simeon, but I don't think he intended the Lord of Shadow to act so...dramatically? badly? I don't know how to describe it, really. It just isn't very good.
Unlike MC. I'm not sure why I like their acting better, especially since they're currently matching Levi's energy. Maybe it's because they're intentionally hamming it up. They did mumble an apology to me before they started talking to him, after all, so they must know that Levi's acting isn't the best.
Satan's isn't much better, either. He's not as over-the-top as Levi, but I don't find him convincing as the "villain" of this story. If anything, he'd make a good anti-hero, but Solomon probably didn't want to make things too complicated.
Solomon's not a very good author.
However, I'm choosing to keep all this to myself, because the point of all this is to help MC get their first star. Lucifer, on the other hand, is having a hard time suspending his disbelief. So, I understand why MC told him to shut up. I just hope they're prepared to get their ass handed to them once Lucifer's back to normal size, because while he has a soft spot for MC, he doesn't like being silenced. Messes with his pride.
Speaking of which...the stars.
They represent the seven virtues, which are direct opposites of our sins. For me, that virtue is temperance. Solomon probably knows this, but he may not realize the full extent of my relationship with temperance.
Once upon a time, I was able to control myself and my urges. Until I wasn't. For my brothers, their sin was triggered by specific events; that wasn't the case for me. It just...happened. And I didn't realize it until it was too late.
Now, it's what most people know me for. They think I'm a meathead that only thinks about food. Even my brothers.
Which isn't fair.
Why are they allowed to have complex personalities, but not me? Why can they participate in mentally stimulating activities, while I'm cast off to the side and dismissed as too dumb to understand any of it? It's never made sense to me.
I think that's part of why I like MC so much. They're the first person in a really, really long time that sees me beyond my sin. They actually listen to what I have to say and seem to value my opinion, even if it's not related to food or sports.
Yet somehow, deep inside, I don't fully trust them. I think it's coming from my subconscious. Somewhere in there lives a hurt angel that feels like everyone he cares about will die and leave him behind. And in a way, it's true.
Lilith may have been the only person in our little family that actually lost their life, but my brothers barely resemble what they were in the Celestial Realm. It's weird. They wear the same faces, but they're completely different people. Sometimes, I feel like they're complete strangers, or perhaps taken over by aliens.
Oddly, the one person I can rely on to stay the same is Satan. Then again, he didn't have his own form until we arrived in the Devildom, so this version of him is all I've ever known.
"Beel?"
Shit.
I missed a lot, didn't I?
"Are you okay? You seem out of it."
"I could say the same to you." Why is that the first thing that comes out of my mouth? I sound like a jerk.
MC merely sighs as they sit next to me on the...bed? I take a proper look at my surroundings and realize that we're in a hotel room of some kind. Lucifer appears to be sleeping on the nightstand, using tissues as both pillow and blanket.
"Wanna go first, or shall I?" Interesting question. They don't seem upset at me.
"Your call." MC rests their head on my shoulder.
"Simeon needs my help making an important decision." Their tone indicates something serious.
"With what?" MC sighs again.
"His future." Huh? Why would an angel need a human's help with that? I know that the two of them are fairly close, but still.
"But that's neither here nor there," they quickly add, sighing. "It's not like I can do anything about it now." They glance up at me. "What's on your mind?"
"My past."
"As an angel?" I nod.
"Back then, the only thing that mattered to people was that I was strong. I wanted to be useful, so I decided to become a soldier and fight for the Celestial Realm. Problem was, I had trouble controlling my powers."
"Like I did before receiving the Ring?"
"You know, I hadn't really thought about it until you said it, but yeah. I suppose we have that in common. In your case, everyone had your back, which is good, because I wouldn't have wanted you to go through that experience the way I did." MC sits up and properly looks at me.
"What do you mean?"
"Every time I would destroy something--even though most of the time it was a complete accident--Raphael would make some sort of sarcastic remark about it. I think he started calling me the Hulk at one point, but it was meant as an insult." I pause.
"At least he had the decency to do it to my face. Lots of angels would talk shit about me behind my back. They thought I was too stupid to pick up on it, but I knew. They acted overly sweet towards me whenever I would walk in the room. Condescending, even. It was like I was a dumb kid to them." MC places a hand on my thigh and pats it.
"Sounds depressing," they remark.
"It was. Oddly enough, the one person in authority that didn't treat me that way was Lucifer. I initially thought he was too busy with his duties to really care about much else, but then one day he approached me and started talking to me. We had a legitimate conversation."
"About?"
"He told me to keep in mind that being a Celestial Realm soldier wasn't about attacking--"
"--but protecting." We must have woken Lucifer up. "You had the power to protect everyone--to keep them safe--and that you shouldn't feel bad because you were special. If you learned to control your powers, I'd recommend you to the cherubim and have you serve as a Celestial Realm gatekeeper. You did, and so I kept my promise." Lucifer beckons MC to pick him up and bring him closer to me.
"MC and I may be connected by the Ring of Light, but the two of you have a strong connection as well," he continues. "You're both motivated by the need to protect the ones you love, even if it means sacrificing yourself in the process. Drawing on that similarity is going to be the key to pass Solomon's test."
"Are you saying Solomon knew we had that in common?" MC asks incredulously.
"No. I did. I simply passed the knowledge along to him."
"How long--"
"The rooftop."
"Of Dogi Magi?" I'm glad MC understands what he's referring to, because I'm completely lost. Must have been something I wasn't involved with.
"You knew that Belphie would hurt you if you went against his order to reject me, but you did it anyway."
"I didn't want to lie to you."
"Because that would have meant hurting his feelings." Asmo may have used his powers to pick up on Lucifer's crush on MC early on, but I knew pretty much from the moment they set eyes on each other. Granted, he was more attracted to their soul initially, but who could blame him? It was bright and shiny, even back then. If we weren't under orders to not eat them, then they wouldn't have made it out of the assembly hall alive. Even Diavolo was struggling to contain himself.
Anyway, the point is MC cared enough about Lucifer in that moment to feel the need to protect him.
Just like I felt the need to protect Lucifer after I became a cherub.
MC's going to get their star.
#obey me shall we date#obey me mc#obey me beel#obey me beelzebub#obey me lucifer#basically what i'm doing with beel is depicting him as someone constantly in his head#and not in the 'i wonder what i'll eat next' kind of way#but instead having him silently observe what's happening around him and mentally commentate on it#sometimes it involves going on little rambles as certain things remind him of other things#but i'm trying to showcase someone who's able to pick up on people's personalities and feeling#simply by watching them interact with the world around them#i think he's emotionally intelligent#that doesn't always transfer to academia#but it is an important type of intelligence#because it helps guide interactions with real people in real situations#also#headcanon that lucifer was the last one to realize/accept that he had a crush on mc#asmo and beel may have picked up on it first#but eventually the others caught on#even the other exchange students#and diavolo#cue relentless teasing from diavolo to lucifer#diavolo: you have feelings for mc#lucifer: no i don't#diavolo: yes you do#and they'd go back and forth about it#diavolo just wanted his friend/occasional lover to be happy#and he thought mc was good for lucifer#so he rooted for them to get together#and was happy when they did
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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