#I also think itd be a nice thing if I made it so that hair styling was like a common bonding activity between aris and her grandpa?

[termagax]

like ronnies wuest is ALSO really really good but you basically get to say to her everything i wanted to say. about it not being her fault and about how much i love her and want her to be free and live her own life and not tie herself to a sinking ship forever. girl i love you sometimes your family is determined to wallow in the mud but YOU dont have to. but like you get to tell her that straight up. the combo of not getting to say everything i want to say + arcade LEAVING ME FOREVER. SOMETHING I DID NOT KNOW WOULD HAPPEN. just leaves me with this big aching arcade gannon shaped hole in my heart that will never be filled by anything else as long as i am on this earth. i get to go back to my apartment every night and go HONEY IM HOME and kiss veronica on the mouth. i wont see arcade again for months and months and months of in game time. and i miss him dearly.

[knifetomeatu]

I know this isn't a headcanon but I've been stuck on the idea of what nubbins would look and act like if he was alive in the second movie and I just wanted to know if you have any ideas :]

i love this ask bc i wake up in tears every day of my life wondering What If Nubbins Didn't Die so!! yippie!!! (also i know i took super long to answer this i have a million things swirling around in my brain and this ask has been one of them for a while lol)

pretty obvious choice but i think he'd still be sporting that sweet jacket, maybe chop gave it to him when he got back??

and, since the sawyers seem to be doing relatively well for themselves by the 2nd movie, i like to think nubbins would wanna look more "successful" or "fancier" (whatever his idea of those is😭) which i imagine might be: more camo (like chop wore!!), new jewelry, and nice shiny bowling shoes, stolen straight off the feet of your uncle who was the head of his league (rip😔) jewelry includes a necklace made of teeth, and rings made of shattered femurs💖 lovely plus i thought since chop gets to snack on his own scalp with that hanger, nubbins deserves a gross little habit as well🥰 so maybe, since we know he enjoys slicing himself, why not let him have a cut on his hand he likes to keep open just for a little drink every once in a while? i mean look at him he needs it!! speaking of chop, i like to think that he LOVES making nubbins laugh, like when he does ANYTHING nubbins is the first person he glances at to see his reaction, and nubbins is so zapped out of his mind even more he is just LOVIN it😭 i imagine him super giddy and kind of Always High during tcm 2, always giggling in reaction to his family's actions or the attempts by lefty/stretch/LG to defeat them side note: i LOVE stretch SO much, but i do believe that if she had to deal with both of these freaks solo she wouldnt have made it😢 apologies to my dearest wife💔 (tho maybe if she 1v1'd each of them she'd make it out she IS pretty kickass) bonus nubbins in a ponytail after growing his hair out a bit bc i thought itd be cute and i was Correct😭💚 so unbelievably babygirl my GOD

[just-null]

i've always wanted to try out this trend! i didnt think i drew him that different. i was wrong. very wrong.

hes so baby girl in my style what the fuck. oh i know, i was just drawing what gege meant to draw. dw, i got his telepathic brainwaves 👍

[time lapse + my headcanons for Noritoshi's appearance under the cut]

some headcanons i have while drawing him are semi obvious while others are bc i like it ahehahhaheha

cupid's bow lips! this was semi inspired by Mizuki Umetsu, the actor for Noritoshi in the jjk stage play! hes so. pretty. perfect guy for the role imo! i was captivated therefore my views changed.

longer hair! the thought that his bangs(? are the same length, or longer, as the rest of his hair is nice.. it also makes his inevitable haircut much more refreshing! i also just like long hair and its a fucking waste not to do whatever the i want.

thicker brows and visible eyelashes! i naturally draw thicker eyebrows because it looks pretty, but the eyelashes is so fucking canon bro. dont even fight me on this, you'll lose. i read a fic about Noritoshi where it said he took good care of himself and his appearance inspired jealousy. that fucked me up man, so now i draw him as beautiful as i can.

monolids! I've looked through the manga and i think its highly implied that Noritoshi has monolids? yk those lines in between the eye and eyebrow, he doesnt have them in the manga. i thought it was because of the expressions he had, but no. the others have them, except geto! so geto also having monolids is so fr in my head. i like that feature abt him.

loose hairs! the hairs that i draw on his face. they make him look so cute and a bit more relaxed. he's not trying to be perfect nor have a single strand out of place. he's just a bit more at ease... though if there's something important he has to go through, he sharpens up. becomes.. stiffer?

I UNINTENTIONALLY MADE HIS CHEST LOOK A BIT BIGGER IN MY STYLE AND I WANT TO APOLOGIZE, BUT I'D BE A LIAR. DOES THIS COUNT AS A HEADCANON??? I JUST THINK... SINCE. YK. HES AN ARCHER. AND DOES TRAINING. AND COMBAT. AND DOES ALL THOSE HIGH JUMPS... HIS CHEST. ITD BE A BIT BIGGER FOR HIS STATURE.. omfg. that'd imply that his legs are fucking insane. and his arms too, since he has to pull back all those arrows so quickly.. oh my fuck. this. this is a revelation. what are you hiding under those robes noritoshi...???? one day.. one day we'll see...

oh my fucking god i forgot that i wrote shit while drawing. please ignore my fucking stupid writings AND THE STUPID ASS THING IN THE MIDDLE I FORGOT ABT WHILE DRAWING..

[xkleipsis]

High and Low

P.3 arranged marriage

Norihisa Hyuga x reader

P.1 P.2 P.3

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Before i knew it i was already at the grocery store, buying the food needed which slowly filled up the cart.

He didn’t even had the decency to offer to help or at say he’ll pay for it, i would’ve refused but still…mannerless man. After paying for all the food i stared at the filled plastics bags, I should’ve told him to tag along for help.

Not even half way through i am already taking my third break from carrying everything back at the house. I could’ve called for a taxi but it would’ve taken to long plus its the weekend..should i just try and call to tell him to come and help?

As i took out my phone, ready to dial his number a man with a cane, slightly tanned and dyed hair, wearing all white approaches me asking if i need help, now i know the whole thing about stranger danger but my hands were really hurting alongside with my back, not to mention Hyuga would’ve definitely refused to help me. I mean he did it before too, when i needed help putting away sone stuff at home, and the man does look well built.

I reluctantly nodded, as he hands me his cane before picking up all the grocery bags and telling me to lead the way. While walking he introduced himself as Rocky, a familiar name, apparently he owns a club too. He smelled of smoke too just like Hyuga, maybe a little less strong but Rocky was clearly a gentleman that was with no doubt. Unlike someone else.

We talked the whole way, where he gave recommendations of places alongside with places i should not go nearby as not safe for women, he didn’t joked around but he did smiled slightly whenever i did. It felt nice, it’s been almost 3 months since i came here and i barely talked with anyone unless work related or everyday interactions at public places. But now, I didn’t feel as lonely.

Whenever i offered to carry one of the bags he simply refused saying something along the lines of “a woman should never carry a burden when a man is nearby” something like that, which made me chuckle and just thanked him.

Before i knew, we were almost close to the house so that’s where we stopped our tracks. I sincerely thanked him as he just nodded before bidding farewells, ‘maybe i should visit his club one day’. I think as i take all the bag in the house and start preparing everything.

By evening i was almost done with the food, and honestly i was proud of it. I did took courses in the past but its just the aftermath of cooking never appealed to me therefore causing me to never cook, though i always made some mistakes here and there, i was sure tonight itd go well.

The food was all set, alongside with drinks, desserts and all, its just could also feel the fatigue in me so i decided to take a shower before everything started. By the time i was done, music and voices already filled the first floor of the house and outside, not the second floor as apparently it was off limits, not wanting to look too under dressed i did wore a dress, not an elegant type, a casual, comfortable one.

I slowly made my way downstairs, my heartbeat slowly increasing as there is no point in denying that i genuinely care about the opinions on the food, as i really tried my best. I noticed the guest wasnt only his gang but also people I’ve never seen before, including girls around my age i guess who where much best dressed than me…’maybe i undressed?’ I think as i make my way to Hyuga who was talking to a couple of his members, also where couple of girls clinged to said members while some also trying to get his attention instead.

Not wanting to disturb i waited for his conversation to finish however i dont think he noticed me or anyone who he was talking to did.

“I already ordered the food, it’ll be here in a bit” one of the members said, ordered? “Cant believe she actually thinks we’d eat something she made” another one adds “just a spoiled brat, making her work for a bit wasn’t as bad as i thought” Hyuga finally speaks before pulling out a cigarette.

So all i did was for nothing? Im disappointed to the point i cant even get mad now, all i could hear now was my own racing heartbeat which filled my ears cancelling out the music. “Really? Thats so childish you know” i speak, causing Hyuga to turn around with an raised eyebrow, but before he could speak i added on “i genuinely put effort in it you know. If you didnt wanted this arrangement you could’ve easily backed off, or chosen my cousin she’s less ‘spoiled’ than me after all. You didn’t had to waste my efforts though”. My tone wasnt loud or anything really, “enjoy your party, feel free to throw away everything i made” i looked at him once last time before walking away, passing through the crowd to leave the house while ignoring the small comments made by his members who saw me.

I took a deep breath as the sky got darker and the wind got chillier. Maybe leaving like that wasn’t the best idea, but still. I let out frustrated sigh i cant seem to understand in which street i even was and the fact there were drunk people walking around isnt the best. After some more walking i finally managed to reach the main street, i have no where to go and finiding a room available at a hotel at this time will be hard, just then something caught my eyes causing me to calm my heart by a bit.

I slowly entered the club, everyone are wearing white and are drunk alongside with that many guards stood around. I approached one of the guards asking if its possible to meet with Rocky and to tell him its the grocery bag girl and then i was brought to a private room to wait. Frankly speaking its careless for me to ask for help from the someone who i just met today but, it is my only option as i know no one here.

Just then the door opened and Rocky walked in, wearing more jewellery than when we met, i smiled and awkwardly waved at him as he took a seat next to me. “Missed me already?” I could tell he was trying to joke.

I shook my head “i happen to need a place to stay for tonight, are you able to help?? I’ll pay you”. I could see a questioning look on his face which caused me to sigh and explain everything to him; only for me to find out that Hyuga and Rocky knew each other AND they didn’t liked each other either…amazing, really.

However, he is really a gentleman as he offered me a private room in the club for the night, as he also went on a rant that this isnt how a woman should be treated even if it was arranged, then he shifted the topic to scold me which took me off guard as I shouldn’t been walking in dangerous streets at night and all.

Thought out all of this i just smiled and listened, it felt weirdly nice that someone somehow cared and the fact i could finally talk to someone. For the past months everyone in my family tree avoided calls unless work related probably due to the elders orders and here i knew no one.

After sometime he left and before i knew i had comfortably fallen asleep, in peace with no noise in the background unlike at Hyuga’s house.

The next morning i woke up to one of the workers bringing me new clothes and all and breakfast before leaving. I freshened up and had the breakfast and before i knew it some of Rocky’s members were in the room talking with me, mainly some quiet gossip which i didnt complain about. However this didnt lasted long as a loud crash and chaos came from the main club, causing the guys to run towards the source and i followed them.

The main part of the club, previously empty was now filled with Hyuga’s gang’s member. In the middle stood Hyuga talking to Rocky who lazily sat on the couch not caring about the broken things in the club.

“Rocky?” I whisper, still a bit confused, why was Hyuga here? Rocky gestures me to go up to him which i did while glancing at Hyuga while Rocky’s men were also on standby ready to fight i believe. “There you go, she is totally well and fine.” Rocky says while looking at Hyuga and pointing at me.

“She needed some help and i offered, its not our fault that you lack in some aspects” he adds, successfully irritating Hyuga who grabbed my hand pulling me towards him slightly, glaring at Rocky one last time “you’re also welcomed” Rocky slightly smiles at me which i nod and reciprocate before being pulled by Hyuga, out of the club and in a car. Which i quietly sit in, i mean its a free ride, no?

(Thoughts?)

[fatuismooches]

ok brainrot that’s been consuming me, so this one isn’t fully sfw but it’s not hardcore nsfw aadhah let me explain also if you don’t feel comfortable answering that’s completely fine!! mwah mwah

Anw basically imagine doing it with dottore but fragile reader but I mean this in the least horny way possible like I would imagine for him it wouldn’t be about carnal desire but rather a sort of union, a connection of body and soul (even if he doesn’t really believe in souls)

the scientist in him knows it’s nothing more than physical closeness and a biological connection but when he’s with you in such a vulnerable state it’s like the mad doctor falls away and all that is left is the blue haired boy who would divulge his hopes and plans for the future (albeit in a very pragmatic way) under a quiet night sky with only you and the stars as witness

obviously with fragile readers state it wouldn’t happen often but when it would it was like all the unspoken promises would pour out through his actions, through the way he handled you like the most delicate of porcelain (which in his eyes, you practically were)

I also feel like it’s be his own way of affirming you, id imagine fragile reader would have doubts about their desirability and what not with their state and itd be dottores way of saying that he really did love you, even if he didn’t say it much (idk why but I hc him as not saying it much, actions speak louder than words after all)

BUT UHH YEAH THATS IT SORRY ITS A BIT LONG AND IK YOURE NOT AN NSFW BLOG SO AGAIN I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND IF YOU DONT WANT TO ANSWER IT 🫶🫶

- 🌕💗

I LITERALLY LOVE THIS BECAUSE I HAVE THE SAME THOUGHTS😭 (I'm putting this under the cut for suggestive content! I'm also tagging it as #suggestive.content so anyone can block the tag if they feel uncomfortable!)

I love how you worded this so sweetly, it was so nice without being explicit🥺 and I also love the "I mean this in the least horny way possible" because 😭😭💗💗💗 I agree, it doesn't happen often, but it is so sweet you could cry. Perhaps because being in such close and intimate proximity with your lover is enough to send you emotionally over the edge. No one would believe how good he takes care of you, with your illness and all. And you are the one who made him view it differently. He had no care for the activity at first but somehow you managed to morph him into someone else during it. I also feel like aftercare would be so sweet, you'd literally try to fight him to stay with you for a bit longer, arguing he can't just leave you here like this. Saying you'll sabotage his research or something. And then I think, you begin to reminisce about the old days, about something funny or dumb he said how many years ago. He's oddly quiet during these times, you're not sure what he's thinking of but you know he's listening.

Dottore is definitely an action-over-word guy, it's hard for him to be outright with his feelings. I feel like saying "I love you" is literally impossible for him, he'd rather show you how he feels rather than verbalize it. Fragile reader definitely has some insecurities and concerns about themselves from their illness (does he really still want them? even when your condition has dragged you all the way down to this point?). And while he rarely ever gets upset it does make him grit his teeth to see your unconfident nature. It baffles him as to why you would ever think such a thing, when you are the loveliest creation he has ever seen. He's very careful yet thorough with you. No matter how much you try to hide from him, he is going to make sure to go over every inch of you, no spot left untouched.

[baahsu]

ong hi new anon welcome to our small, small slice of the internet full of vscest related content!! its me, essay anon, aka (bc we're getting a handful of anons now and it can get hard to differentiate) J.J :) neways new sustenance for yall:

rahh casually affectionate sanji unknowingly being the death of emotions-restored/redeemed 124ji!!

like now that he can get in all the touching (both sexual and nonsexual kind) he missed out on in the past, he sooo eager to be hanging off any of his brothers whenever he gets the chance!!!

i can imagine him throwing himself in yonjis lap all the time, getting nice and comfy while ranting excitedly about his interests- like the new recipes hes come up with recently. and yonji- while very happy to *try* and listen because a: "omg sanji" and b: "omg food"- is barely able to keep up bc hes too flustered by the way sanji keeps squirming in his lap and pressing against his chest all while smiling at him like hes the most interesting thing to look at in the whole world. yonji cant tell if hes horny or genuinely flustered over it. prolly both lol

since (i think? feel free to fact check me lol) nijis closest to snooj in height, sanji would lean on/against him. *a lot*. yk like that *casual* casual physical affection. one day niji was just chilling on a couch or smthn and sanji came and sat right next to him, resting his head on his shoulder and making niji figuratively (and prolly literally too lol) short-circuit. just imagine how red nijis face would be– "oh my god WHAT?! fuck hes so warm, he smells so nice, do i do something?? what do i *do* fuck fuck shit-" like hes internally freaking out heart racing a million miles a minute and nose threatening to bleed n sanjis there beside him all like "😇😇" with not a worry in the world bc hes been wanting this his whole life lmaoo

ichijis an interesting case to me bc i imagine him as p hard to fluster, even after the addition of emotions. so i think itd all just have to Hit him one day for him to get real flustered about sanjis affections. like the two r chilling, cuddling together and suddenly it clicks for ichiji that "oh. im holding sanji. *the* sanji. *MY* sanji." and all the emotional weight of sanji's kind, casual affections hit him at once, making his heart beat out of his chest n have him turn teary eyed and face beet red. if sanji had his head on ichis chest and felt his heartrate spike he'd look up at him all confused and concerned- and thats all it takes for ichi to kiss (and fuck :]) him senseless

no reiju inclusion bc a: sanji would never touch a lady without express permission! and b: even if it was behind closed doors, sanji was already affectionate with reiju before in the past as kids, so hes not worried on missing out. ofc that doesnt mean he'll turn down affection from big sis- he'd never!!! just means she aint priority number 1 on his "people to smother with affection" list <3<3

ok me tired gn/gm bahhh <3<3 -J.J

J.J!!!! I feel like I need to say nice to meet you now we both have names akdkakd

Omg omg!!! This description of yonji really made me think of him as a puppy, he's just so happy to be around sanji and listen to him and "omg it's sanji!! He's really here!!! I must behave so he continues doing this!!" But he also wants to touch and reciprocate the cuddling so he just sits there kinda trembling in excitement waiting for sanji to hint it's ok for yonji to pounce on him

Niji giving off the tsundere vibes I love, he's really going through it and maybe one time he even kinda shoves sanji away because "wtf are you doing omg warn a man???" And sanji's not actually mad because he knows how they are now and he understands niji's trying but emotions and feeling and affection are still hard

I agree with ichiji too, he's so in control of himself and nothing phases him and of course he's delighted sanji's with him, but it's still not in him to outwardly show it. He'll gladly run his fingers through sanji's hair tho, and nuzzles against his cheeks and neck, and in the middle of it it'll hit him that sanji's there and he loves him and sanji loves him back and it's so overwhelming he's afraid sanji will notice and ask him if everything's ok, because at that point he won't even know how to answer it

[yzeltia]

Year of the OTP - January

January: Snow & Historical "AU" Characters: U'rahn Nuhn & @driftward 's Nyx Blackmoon Rating: T for Timey Wimey Notes: All future entries are gonna follow the same format; however, will be parodies of existing media and I'm very excited. Thanks to Driftward for their Blorbo and line editing for Nyx and mechanical passes!

The wind howled as it blustered about the cabin, causing the fireplace to give a little whistle. Nose pressed to the window U'rahn sighed, letting his breath fog the pane.

"Is something wrong, Rahn," Nyx asked from behind.

"Well, I kinda wanted to go night sledding, but the weather doesn't look like it's going to cooperate."

"Did you consult a skywatcher before you made plans to come out here?"

U'rahn blinked then rubbed the back of his head, "No…I guess I should have."

"Agreed."

"Well, it's still a really nice cabin to hang out in. I'm glad we could borrow it for a night. We can just hang out by the fire and drink some cocoa."

"Would you like me to prepare your Hero Cocoa?"

U'rahn blushed and shook his head, "I can do that…you should just relax by the fire. Hey! I know! I'll tell you one of the stories my mom used to tell me as a boy. The Origin of Miqo'te!"

"I am familiar with the origins of Miqo'te. But if you mean that as a storytale, I have not heard it," the women responded, moving by the fire to stand stiffly at attention as she watched U'rahn start to heat milk.

"Right! It started something along the lines of…Upon an Era, long ago, all the Miqo'te lived as one…"

"Our food stores are running low. We're not going to last much longer if we don't figure out a better system of hunting," a golden-haired Miqo'te sighed.

"Agreed," his beautiful mate agreed, painting half her face in a traditional manner, "We are-"

"Rahn. The tradition of hunting paint did not come about until the Keeper tribes were well established."

"Really? Well…maybe I'm misremembering. The point is she was very beautiful and an adept huntress…Anyroad, at odds they started to debate…"

"Jua, I appreciate your insight; however, the best prey moves at night when the moon goddess shines her love down for us as we move shrouded by darkness. The day is far too bright and wears our people down fast."

"Nyx….I mean Mwezi! My beautiful wife. The sun goddess, for which all things thrive under her life giving love, brings us the best bounty for our people. The dark of night leaves our people prone to unseen be dangers that would be revealed in the day."

"You are incorrect."

"Then, let us make a contest of itd! You lead a team of hunters, and so shall I. Over one day we will see who's hunts yield the most."

"Acknowledged."

And so with a kiss, Jua and Mwezi parted company to organize their respective hunting parties. Here too they differed, Jua asked their people to choose among themselves who their best hunters were, and nominate them to come forward. Mwezi chose her companions herself, taking along only huntresses she'd seen prove themselves in battle before her own eyes.

"I am unsure of the veracity of this story, Rahn."

U'rahn looked back, tail swishing as he fiddled with some chocolate in a small bowl. "It's just a storytale! Things are probably a bit off from what really happened. I'm also doing it from memory," he explained away.

"Understood. Continue."

"Right, so Mwezi was the first to hunt."

"The huntresses of the night party hunted close together through the night, ensuring one another stayed safe from any predators that might have chanced upon them. Their hunt took them all night, but by daybreak, they'd found their prize.

Meanwhile, at home, Jua waited for Mwezi to return. His heart ached while she was away, and as the sky went from black to blue he agonized over her return, worried the worst even though in his heart of hearts she was the superior hunter. He waited by the door, thinking only of her and how happy he'd be to see whatever she brought back, even if it meant she'd prove him wrong. His heart drummed within his chest thinking of-"

"Rahn, I am unfamiliar with this story, but I do not understand what Jua's affections have to do with their contest."

U'rahn tilted his head tugging at a bag of large marshmallows before pulling too hard and sending them flying all over the counter. "I'm just…setting the stage a little. Basically, he loves her a bunch and that's important. Anyroad…"

"Daybreak soon came and Jua departed with the elected tribes folk into the light of day. Not needing to worry about hidden predators-"

"There are many species that have evolved to camouflage themselves in the day."

U'rahn stared at his girlfriend for a moment, only getting a stare back of course. Fluttering his ears, he returned to his confection.

The group split managed to find many prizes, and by day's end had a rather large haul. Upon their arrival, Jua and the huntresses were all waking, and soon met the day party at the villager's center. 

"Husband, you've returned," Mwezi greeted, watching as his party brought in their caravan of creatures, some felled, others kept alive for their potential as livestock.

"I have! I bring you twenty-six beasts that might serve for meals and or the longevity of the tribe! Behold the sun goddess's bounty," Jua cheered, gesturing to the creatures behind him.

"That is a menagerie of prey, husband," his wife stated plainly, staring quietly at what was brought in. "We will now present our hunt."

Behind her, the huntresses pulled in a giant buck, larger than their biggest dwelling. Pulling the beast to the tribe center, she nodded to Jua and said, "This one buck will provide meat for an entire moon, its bones will be used as tools for a generation, and the leathers we take will clothe us for just as long. It is the moon goddess that has provided for us."

The entire tribe cheered at the haul. Both husband and wife embraced but then parted.

"It seems both our paths were prosperous this day…but we are not normally so fortunate. Perhaps it was our pride and determination."

"We are a large people. The ecosystem would falter if we hunted with this amount of success every day. I've concluded that our hunting styles and leadership were not to blame. We are too much for this land to take care of. I propose, for a time, we divide ourselves to the north and south to let the land recover."

"How would we ever divide our people though, my beautiful wife?"

"I will take those who hunt by the moon to the north where the days are short. And you, Jua, will take those who hunt by the sun to the south where the days persist."

Jua frowned, "I would be apart from you my love. "

"It is necessary for our tribe to live on."

Jua sighed then held his wife tight, knowing she was right. And so the tribes split, wandering far from one another. Though Jua made sure to visit his beloved Mwezi in the North, when they passed, the two new tribes found little reason to come together. And so, the Keepers and Seekers came to live on separately from one another, evolving from the lovers' small sacrifice of time into healthy tribes that scattered the world over—the end.

U'rahn smiled as he brought over a tray of cocoa and crackers, sitting down by the fire, Nyx lowering herself beside him.

"A good story, yeah?"

"Allagan records indicate the Keepers became night hunters due evolutionary attributes in their eyes allowing them to perceive more light in the darkness, marked by their pupils' dialated appearance.  The Seekers have narrow pupils, allowing them to see greater detail in their surroundings as they don't have to adjust for the intensity of the light around them. To survive, it was necessary to form bonds with those who had similar biological advantages for hunting. I do not believe your story was true, Rahn."

U'rahn frowned a bit and shook his head, "Well, it probably isn't. It's just a storytale…or a umm…"

"Fable. As a story, I can appreciate it. Thank you for sharing it with me."

The Nuhn lit up a bit then scooted closer to his girlfriend, as she looked down at her cocoa. Atop, two marshmallows floated, one with cinnamon sprinkled on top and a crudely drawn cat face, the other dipped half way in dark chocolate with two mismatched eyes. "You have made these gelatin cubes into our likeness."

"Well, I figured I'd make something special…y'know, for us. Our own version of Herrro chocolate."

"Understood. Thank you, Rahn."

"A good experrrience?"

"Yes, Rahn."

Drinking his cocoa deep, he let out a happy purr then leaned against her as he tangled their tails together. Fluttering his ears, he sighed happily then began to doze, Nyx quickly taking his mug before it could spill over into their laps. Outside, the snow continued to fall, and once Nyx had finished her drink she nudged U'rahn awake, leading him sleepily upstairs to rest properly together for the night.

[sentientgopro]

Tomorrow marks one month since I cracked. 2 things have become very apparent over this time.

1: This is gonna be a long and hard year and a half before I can transition. The month has already felt wild, the disconnect between the change in mental state and actual, y'know, change, has been really jarring and will only get more so the more time passes with nothing changing.

2: Just how much I was wrong about at first and how much stuff there was under the surface. Sentences like "I don't feel dysphoria" and "I can easily be a guy for a while" spring to mind. lol. lmao even. It was only like a week and a half ago I was saying the name I think I like means nothing to me and is just a nice name and that itd probably stay that way until late into transition. But nope, I'm already kinda starting to feel that name. Atleast like 2 and a half years before I can actually start using it. Great.

For all the negatives, there's one thing that has persisted since day 3 and that is the permanent mood improvement. Not being able to transition till I can move out sucks, but it gives me something to look forward to, which it turns out I was in dire need of, with my only real reasons to live being reasons not to end it yet, as opposed to reasons why I should live. But I see it now. A happy future is very much within my grasp and I WILL make it happen. Being in a better mood has made it easier to get stuff done on a day to day basis, and getting stuff done makes me feel even better. I've been on an upward spiral that's doing pretty good at counteracting the downward spiral of increasing dysphoria.

That's more of a recap, and now that the dust has settled a bit for now and I haven't bren having as many big realisations about it, I've started thinking, "why now?" Its not like I didn't know about trans people. I've been involved in trans spaces for years, I've been having these kind of feelings for years too. What actually was it that truly set it off? Like, the true moment of understanding was my first scroll through r/egg_irl but what was it that compelled me to do that?

Idea one was my first real feeling of euphoria. I kinda knew what it was at the time, I just ignored it. A month or two prior to cracking, my hair was at the longest it had ever been (which is not long at all.) It was the first time that the bits of hair infront of my ears (normally just a short spike shape as part of my fade) was long enough to dangle on its own as opposed to being fully stuck to my head. Something about having dangling hair like that felt good. I knew why, I just ignored it. I wonder if that specific feeling had been a bit of an early kickstart into this realisation? Either way, I was told to get a haircut shortly after (theres a reason my hair never gets very long) so I didn't dwell on it.

The only other factor I can really think of that was different just before cracking was watching Gen V? In short, Gen V features a character who can switch between masc and fem in an instant. In my interpretation of the show, this doesn't inherently make them genderfluid, but the power serves as an exaggeration for presenting (so them being masc is comparable to boymoding.) When looked at from that perspective, their writing strongly reflects that of a trans character and it kinda hit a certain spot for me. But honestly, I really don't think that was the actual catalyst.

The only real conclusion I can draw from this is that there was no actual catalyst. For a fair few days before fully cracking, I felt something was off, and I knew exactly what it was and what was about to happen, even if I didn't admit it to myself. So I think my cracking must have been a very gradual thing with no real catalyst.

There was more I had to say here, but its a fairly different topic and got really long, Ill save it for its own post. This has perhaps been one of the wildest months of my life, and also one of the most normal. As much as I hate that nothing has really changed, the better understanding of myself Ive gotten has been massively benefical. Besides, knowing is half the battle and I'm pretty much there already.

[thatdeadaquarius]

⚞Aquarious Appreciation Askn't💀♒⚟™ (Shift 3)

Hello once again, Aqua. Aside from the usual love and appreciation, i wanded to actually ask you something.

Revolutionary, i know, but: how did you come up with your pfp? I'm curious.

Anyways, see you on Wednesday.

-Chief

CHIEF!

Aw SHUCKS-

I feel so ✨️💔😚☺️🤭🙈🙈🙈❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥💖🥰🥰💝💓💕❣️💗😍😍💞❤️‍🩹✨️ WARM AND GOOEY LIKE A CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE WHEN SMONE ASKS ABT THE BLOG/NON-WRITING STUFF

like geeeezzz, u dont have to do all that for meee 😳😳 (–///// ^ /////–) ♡

LIKE GIVE MY CHEEKS A BREAK

So at first it was just cutie Aether bc i wanted ppl to just be blessed by cutie Aether just peeking over at you like

"hey, its me, babygirl aether. just checkin in, i made another post, arent i cute? whatcha doin over there? ♡"

But then we had an aesthetic overhaul this week bc my desktop was UNREADABLE, scroll a few posts down/non genshin writings

Bc someone was nice enough to tell me the issue (and bc im on mobile most of the time/even my laptop just shows my mobile site)

I didnt realize it was that bad- 💀

So Aether rlly started to stand out by the time everything else darkened down

So i was gonna edit him just pure Black and white at first, but then i was like, u know

Hes so blonde and his hair is glowing already, and my accent/only color now is yellow, plus

I think we all tend to see each others PFPs as how we all "look" to each other, and i thought itd be badass to be an all grayed out character, and it tied into the theme of "dead aquarius" like thats what my theme is

A dying star/dead constellation vibes-

(Reminds me too of Gaster's Followers from Undertale if u know what im talking abt)

So yeah, TLDR

he needed to fit in more,

I wanna be able to have a cool persona to draw

I gotta fit the theme of "dead aquarius" and nothing screamed "im a dying star" than that edit ver. I made of Aether, at least to me,

Oh! One last thing, sorry I ramble u prob didnt need all this-

I thought it was too late/didnt wanna lose anybody if my pfp changed content (NOT aether peeking over) and then they dont recognize me!

Thanks for asking.. 🥺 👉👈

ALSO THIS IS TOO MANY SHIFTS, UR WORKING OVER UR PART TIME HOURS EMPLOYEE-

☆

Safe Travels Chief,

💀♒️

[bmpmp3]

OH btw i did get kamitsubaki city ensemble and it aint half bad!!! specifically i bought the main game at 5 bucks (its going for that specific style of rhythm game pricing where the main game is like pennies but the DLC is a bajillion doll hairs LOL) which I found worth it for what it is, I dunno about the fifty buck season pass tho, I'd wait until I was sure I really REALLY liked the gameplay first

i think this style of rhythm gameplay is called 7k or 7key in a lot of circles (osu thing?) I DONT know how i feel about it. i think im getting used to it and finding it pretty fun, although the spacebar thumb notes are really hard for me LOL

the UI is super mobile game which makes sense because it has a mobile version and the gameplay seeeeems like itd be more fun on mobile at first BUT i do think its odd because like...... the beatmaps are NOT made for thumb players.... even for finger players it seems like some of those edge double notes would be kind of tough... so as a thumb player i went with the pc ver <3

the songs are fun though, like not just the existing songs but also the game's general score is nice and the theme song Cradle RULES. the beatmaps seem fine so far, although I am not practiced enough to go past normal mode yet so we shall see. I do think the game needs some colour options though, the colour that the lanes light up is like a few degrees too similar of a blue to the colour of the hold notes and it fucks me up constantly orz also the 7lane side lane notes are yellow and the middle spacebar note is white which is a good contrast, but part of me wants a bit more colour coding, its hard to keep track of it all. I also don't care for the colour coding vanishing when its a double note, now i have no clue what lane its in graaaaaahhhhhh

BUT its fun so far. be careful about playing it on a low powered or old computer if you have issues with flashing, I had a bunch of weird sprite clipping in and out issues during the cutscenes on my old laptop. it slowed down after an hour so maybe it was an issue booting up? the colours and flashing rhythm sections are probably rough for some as well as another warning

the plot is kind of fun, im enjoying it because im 26 and can no longer deal with gacha games BUT i still like mascot character rhythm games so its nice to have this game just as is for a fiver (ignoring the odd DLC pricing LOL) i like the haunting sort of surreal aspects so far and the characters are cute and fun ALTHOUGH it is odd seeing Kafu with this sort of personality. shes not bad shes just a lot sweeter and peppier than I and I think a lot of people pictured her LOL we all just pictured her as like kind of brooding idk.... the others are how i picture them though, especially coko as pretty outgoing and sekai as kind of quiet and weird <3 I ALSO like the weird freak thang.. whale? i forgot its name. i have the flu you have to be nice to me.

LEMME TELL YOU though. i never realized. until this game. how unhinged iyowa song beatmaps can get. i should have expected because of all those like speeding up slowing down tempo changey parts in some of their songs but MAN. it was like the scariest beatmap I'd ever seen, Leave You on The Back of The Earth. I really did feel like I was in a falling elevator

[junietuesday]

so far in bg3 ive beaten the goblin camp and am holding off on doing the tiefling party until i get more affection. (im TOO indecisive and aroallo and polyam for this what do you MEAN i cant just sleep w any of the characters i want without having to get into their full on romance routes. dont tell me every single one of these characters wants that deep emotional connection or w/e like come on 😭) and i have id say. more than half the companions now? so recording my thoughts. normally i make little posts while i game but bg3 is so addicting i couldnt even open tumblr to talk abt it. i played it for almost 12 hours i think today (with breaks in between but STILL). which is why this is so long im rambling abt everything since i started the game

i feel like me and shadowheart have a good thing going rn if she were more physically my type i think id be certain on romancing her. im attached to her we’ve been together since the start of the game (i didnt find any of the other companions until after i went to the druid grove and had made it to the goblin camp LMAO i didnt realize they were all just right there). shes very pragmatic but i also notice she approves occasionally when im nice. i like her <3 we’re besties we’re a Team

i found astarion second and. yeah i get why hes tumblr’s favorite. hes an evil flirty fruity vampire. he has white hair and pronouns. that bloodsucking scene might as well have just been a sex scene. i enjoy him in my party (actually hes my fav character to play as, i love dashing around and stabbing and vampire biting people. i originally thought id have him as kind of a spellcaster but i even paid to respec him to have more mobility spells/traits. also hes my go-to for picking locks and disarming traps, w items and keeping him fed ive gotten him up to +7 sleight of hand, it was 9 before but i think i might have accidentally removed a bonus when respeccing him lmao. hes like the most useful of my party outside of combat. anyway) and im a lesbian but im literally torn on whether or not i should accept his proposition at the tiefling party bc hes just so entertaining. i might full on romance him in another save. but the thing w him is that im a monsterfucker sure (karlach 💞) but i dont like his moral compass it makes conversations w him so difficult to navigate it stresses me out. like im playing a self-insert and kind of just choosing the options i choose right. but he probably thinks all my dialogue options are too soft and weak and wishy-washy💔 like sorry i dont think idolizing absolute power is a good thing bro. even if i get why hed be obsessed w power after 200 years of utterly lacking any. doesnt mean i have to agree w his cynicism

on that topic thats why im utterly enamored w karlach💗💗 i love her. like of all the romancable characters i genuinely would enjoy dating her. if it werent for my emotional attachment to shadowheart after being w her so long itd be a no brainer. like at the beginning i just wanted her in my party bc shes a hot buff demon lady. but shes such a joy??? her zest for even the little things in life like her dialogue w shadowheart abt nature. her just cheerfully dancing in camp. shes boisterous and passionate and enthusiastic. also shes the only one of the characters i like who approves when i go out of my way to help people and when i brainwashed this monster into cannibalizing its pack (fucked up but i didnt wanna fight the whole horde And it) shadowheart and astarion approved but she Disapproved, and idk it just feels like a breath of fresh air to see someone who’s more openly just held on to goodness after everything shes gone through, after shadowheart’s and astarion’s disregard for other people. i need to find her a mechanic to fix her engine but i dont think i can go to the tiefling camp without triggering the party scene so. 💔

i dont really like gale tbh. i mean i dont Not like him he was fine to have in my party but as soon as karlach came along it was an easy choice to kick him out. his storyline is interesting from what ive seen but i feel like. im just not charmed by him lol. i failed a roll while he was trying to teach me magic in this probably romantic scene but he just cut it off there and i didnt bother savescumming to reroll. i also have met wyll but yeah hes fine. kind of the goody type from what ive seen and hes nice enough im also just not charmed. truly i think its just that im a lesbian but i find these two boring in comparison to the three above. ive also found halsin and hes abt to join my party but i made my character a druid already so hes kinda redundant😭 i googled it and hes the only one whos down w polyamory which is so sad bc i can see why people who like men find him hot but i dont, why couldnt any of the three companions i actually like let me date multiple people 😭😭 sadness. i wish it was like sdv where you can date everyone w no consequences as long you exclude one person. i dont like any of the guys except astarion please bg3😭😭😭

[spiderton]

IDEK if i made other guys in pkmn card maker but here. most of my explainations under bc i love to think abut pokemon aus

kharmas two bug mons are self explainatory vespqiuen is just shiny bc the color scheme fit. also she WOULD have a very rare shiny that costs millions with her. thats her vesiquen. it costed 10 million dollars. oricorio parasect delphox and camperupt are just for general vibes but also small kdeas let me explain. her oricorio is super old its like a garden peacock that follows her around. parasect is one of the pokemon in her garden that she cherishes even though its considered weird by others (its her baby or something) delphox because some people call her a witch? and i thoight itd fit.. and camperupt bc of general zigoton desertness. she lays against it

meden has a celebi bc i felt like it.. itd kind of make more sense if she had the lake trio but celebis a lot cuter + fits her color palette. maybe thats why shes seemingly so old is bc her celebi lets her stay immortal? idek.. she also has a feebas bc i think she'd like somewhat gross pokemon actually :D i had a small idea that she catches a feebas and rather than trying to evolve it into a moltic she just. Keeps it. probably is clueless abut how to evolve feebas since theyre probably rare in her area so she just goes Such a whimsy fish.. and maybe with how nice she is feebas evolves into a entirely new mon via friendship. yk... xatu and bronzong are because of priestess things (probably are the pokemon she brings to work. or church all the time) and whimiscott and blissey are just for. general vibes.. her blissey is MEAN but whimiscott is like aju other whimiscott. two sides of her or something.. they cuddle with her alongside all the other mons

beetleton obviously has a bunch of "rough and tough" pokemon he BRAGS abut them. he loves his heracross and pinsir. he considered getting a scizor and then went Hmm.. No. Not buff enough. and ywt still got a dottle. him and spiderton actially share it bc gong made them do so and beetleton keeps it around the most bc he wants to make its psychic ass so strong or something that itd become a fighting type..he'd be all for tera types now i realize. he volunteered for fossils not being a dick for once and when he was told he could have a trex mon he went INSANE and its his other babyboy now. his rhyperior is like could be a drinking buddy but pokemon cant drink so. fist buddy????

spiderton wakes up to his galvantula and aridoes either swatting each other like cats or sleeping on him like cats. he wakes up to tarantula hair on him and hes so itchy and goes ): i was gonna say he doesnt have a shedinja but actually..he does. he just doesnt know. a shedinja haunts his home and all his other pokemon see them but not spiderton. shedinja sneaks into his lap sometimes when he knocked out though.

[chisatowo]

I REALLY wanna redesign Aris but idk what I wanna change and how much.... Like overall she's probably the character who's design has changed the least in eternal gales, which means that while I am attached to a lot of it I think it's age also shows. Especially with the clothes since they've basically not changed at all, but even outside of that I just think her design is kind of.... Plain. And I don't want that! I want her to stand out more amongst the cast, and I also rly want her design to give off a more mature vibe ig, but idk how to do that without basically revamping her entire design dhsnhd

[crispy-sand-gator]

wanna make a trans dude/nb character who doesnt dress how ppl expect them to n shit, but im afraid ppl r gonna shit their pants over the design or call it transphobic or fetishy or smth even tho itd literally be how i am irl 👁️  👁️

[lilgynt]

I don’t know how to explain that thinking Chris Pratt sucks for going to a homophobic church is cool but it’s kinda of a shallow allyship when you still call gay people you don’t like slurs so

[ghostbasedusername]

ASSORTED LMK HCS BC I WANNA TALK ABOUT EM!!!! keep in mind i've only seen up to s3 ep10 so stuff may change later/be wrong

also sum spoilers for s3,,

red son loves snow and the cold a lot !! she cannot touch the snow for longer than a second bc itll melt immediately and then evaporate, which is partially why she adores it sm, bc its rlly fascinating to her!!! the cold just feels nice

optional: red son with snow related pronouns (i was thinking snow/hail)

however, they cannot swim, bc all the water would just simultaneously boil n evaporate around them and they would slowly sink to the bottom with an air bubble surrounding them

red's hair is constantly dry from being lit all the time, and it absorbs water and product like nothing

the first swaddle his parents put red son in was burnt to a crisp bc they didnt know what his powers were gonna be, so they immediately had a fire proof one made just for him :]

one time pigsy barked at tang it was rlly funny

pigsy is actually rlly helpless when it comes to making any food that isnt on his menu

tang has a rlly big dog and his apartment's landlord doesnt allow pets and he has to keep her a secret (her name is bao, n he 100% named her after baozi). one time he had to drape a blanket over her and try to convince the landlord that it was just a big box (IT FUCKING WORKED BTW)

pigsy's noodles r actually tang's safe/comfort food :]

tang has a bunch of nicknames/pet names in store for pigsy but doesnt know if he should use any of them yet (at least before/during early relationship)

pigsy finds the vitiligo on tang's hands n fingers rlly pretty and he just wants to hold his hands and kiss them MWAH

tang actually asks wukong to teach him how to fight! bc he doesnt want to be helpless in the face of danger and maybe be more helpful!! pigsy sometimes joins in and sometimes mk too if hes bored, and even mei would!! they would all spar and yea itd be fun!!!!

red son still has no idea what mk's name is; for all he knows, his name could literally be "noodle boy"

the type of stone a simian demon comes out of determines their markings n colors; macaque was obsidian, wukong was sunstone

mk also finds red son's vitiligo very pretty

mk really wants to wear red son's glasses

the reflections that talk to mk r actually the staff :3c

tang was the only one able to see out to the real world during shadow play and its why he was fighting so hard to stop his shadow self :(

tang doesnt want to be thought of as any different which is why he hasn't told everyone the full extent of his fight with macaque :(

the mayor can shrink and enlarge his eyes

tang works best under pressure; he's able to make meaningful decisions during stressful situations, even when he knows others won't like it, and he tries to do what's best for everyone and do the things the others aren't willing/able to do themselves :( (ex. turning the ship away from lbd and continuing the samahdi fire ritual)

UMMM LAST ONE!!! macaque if/when they get redeemed they start a flower garden!!! its set on the mountain where he decieved mk and fought wukong, and he gives them out as apologies!! he also did his research into each of their meanings!!! wukong only knows where the garden is put bc while he was reminiscing he went to the place where he fought macaque n saved mk and found macaque tending to his garden :]

THATS ALL FOR NOWW