#I WANTED THEM TO HAVE A HEALTHY FRIENDSHIP
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Alright, folks! Let's get down to business.
My thoughts on Pitbabe S2 / Ep2:
The girl... I'm highly suspicious of that girl in the lab. I'm like, are you following Pitbabe's social media, and you're a big fan of CharlieBabe? Like, what is going on? I think the writers want us to point out to the obvious suspects such as Dean, Chris, and Willy. Sure, each of them are highly sus, but... hmm. I'll keep my eye on that girl.
Babe... I don't fault him for going out alone because, let's be realistic, being with your lover 24/7 of the time is not healthy (don't kid yourselves, that fact was proven during covid. :) ), but if anyone for one millisecond thinks that Babe likes Willy or even flirted with him or doesn't mind his flirting, he is doing some high-quality drugs. Babe is a brat. He takes no shit and he's a brat, and as much as he likes getting manhandled and owned, he also likes calm evenings with his boyfriend and honestly in his relationship and suuuure, him not saying that he saw Willy might not look good for some of you but again, let's be honest.... no one in a friendship, let alone in a relationship, reveals every little detail of what went on. Babe doesn't like losing, doesn't like Willy talking about his relationship, goes on a race, and wins. Nothing significant happened, just that he won a race. He didn't tell Charlie because his boyfriend was acting moody and clingy (which is based, because I too would have been moody and clingy if I saw my boyfriend take a cosy pic with the enemy and smell other alphas on him) but that's it. Charlie could have pointed out his bullshit and then they would have had a conversation. But noooo... one rejects the advances of an alpha and doesn't tell his boyfriend because Willy is a nobody and the other thinks his boyfriend's past promiscuity is still going on and instead of revealing what he thinks happened and being all "aha! You whore!" ..... instead he punishes his bratty ass.
Alan... umm.... you look good as usual. The king of "no one orders my boyfriend around." But.... my dilf.... what the actual fuck?! Did you forget what Dean did?! And you made him one of the mechanics?! The guy who tried to tamper (if I remember correctly) with the car?! The hammer swinger! That guy?! Oh well.... I just hope that he's genuine and doesn't bite them in the ass a.k.a. I hope it isn't some elaborate big scheme of daddy Tony where he made Kenta and Winner watch Dean seemingly die in order to maximize his innocence and Dean pretends that he doesn't know who kidnapped them because surprise surprise that was the plan all along OR Dean is innocent... until he finds out that Tony is alive, so he remembers his own ambitions; therefore, he switches sides secretly.
Jeff.... my cutie patootie.... first of all, rockie move. You shouldn't suck a man's.... finger like that. Second of all, WTF? Were your visions a big plot conflict in the previous season or something? Why won't you tell your boyfriend who bends over at your every whim? Or are you worried about Alan being extra overprotective and stressed, so that's why you don't tell him? I don't see the reasoning, and based on what I saw on ep3's preview, Alan is complaining to you about the concept of being a "boyfriend" and rightfully so! (Again, manifesting Jeff's pregnancy. Dear God above, let it be true!)
Tony... hair still serving, face still cvnty and motivation still evil. But truly, thank you! Thank you for explaining your evil plot to us, audiences, and in what manner you're going to hurt them...."by breaking the group apart." But letting Kenta go after telling him and Winner about the plan? Why? I could see a ridiculous plan that he might do involving Winner, Kenta, Dean, that girl, and most importantly, Chris, but I'll elaborate that in Chris' section. For now, I would be severely disappointed if him letting Kenta go and later on biting him in the ass was an oversight and him being just narcissistic.
Chris... sus... I have several theories. Either he's Way's twin brother that he knew about so he's here to investigate or he didn't know about but daddy Tony knows so he pulled some strings, so that he could land the job and be a distraction for the group. He could be a clone made by Tony, and he doesn't know his origins and has lived a normal life, and either Tony pulled some strings to get him the job or fate did its thing or he knows that he's Way's clone and is here as Tony's spy. OR he's really a clone/Way's twin brother and is part of the Babe's father's group (I haven't seen season 1 in a year so I don't remember anything except Babe's father being in a organization?????? Idk). So he's Babe's father's spy and is trying to figure things out or maybe find info on why they're trying to find a skill-erasing serum because Pete's research is confidential so he's trying to get inside?
North & Sonic... my long-awaited question has been answered in this episode. I was like, "Aha..... that's why!" Because North is the kind of guy who's not pushy (clingy, sure but not that.) But he tries to make advances through gestures, looks, sweet words (but not down right flirty) but it's the goddamn Sonic who rejects him! Sonic is the one who tries to maintain their friendship! The reason? Idk. Maybe he doesn't want a long-distance relationship? Maybe He's afraid that their relationship might not work, and in return, it might also ruin their friendship? Maybe he has low self-esteem when it comes to relationships? But kodus to North because he spoke up about the elephant in the room, which is Sonic ignoring him. I love it when the characters do that. It made them interesting to me.
Pete... I thought about it really hard.... to me, Pete's love for Way was.... an ideal of what two men from similar abusive pasts could build together. He needed a companion. Because let's be honest, there is no goddamn reason for Pete to love Way this goddamn much. They haven't spent that much time together! So, in my humble opinion, his love for Way will turn into obsession, and he'll treat Chris not as his own person but as Way and Chris will be like, "Cut that shit. I'm not Way!" (Like in the trailer) and hell, Chris might like him back because Pete cares for him, tends to him, bends to his every whim.... until he finds out that Pete loved Way and the world crumbles on him. (Or even worse, Chris, as a clone who was raised loveless and now... for the first time in his life, he found someone who could love him but alas... it was a lie!).
Kenta... I have nothing to add. In episode 3's preview, Kenta goes to Pete and reveals Tony being alive. Maybeee, it was Tony's plan to make the group be in high alert and suspicious among themselves? (Since Kenta also heard Tony say that he'll separate the members from the inside?). maybe KentaKim will investigate? (As seen in the trailer where Kenta is surrounded and Kim arrives to the rescue?) But I doubt that because this couple is too OP in brain and brawl.
Kim... I didn't see our diva in this episode, but that's expected. He's so done with everything. Just let that man drive and become a champion!
Willy... cvnty attitude I likeeeee :) What's his endgame? Idk. Maybe a scorned lover? Tony's spy? One of Tony's children that got punished and repeatedly told that he's inferior to Babe, so he sought vengeance to prove otherwise? But he's pretty dumb if he thinks that Babe will sleep with him (as seen in the trailer) OR maybe after Charlie gets amnesia and forgets Babe, Babe tries to bring his lover back by making him jealous? Or maybe Babe gets frustrated by Charlie not remembering him (and also flirting with fans in front of him) so he goes to Willy for comfort? Idk :/
Charlie... you lucky bastard but thank you for your services (for feeding my kinks and also showing your bad boy side). But seriously? Why not come forward and tell Babe what you think? Oh boy, oh boy. I just know that he'll let doubts and jealousy feater, and when they announce that the serum was a success on an alpha or is successful, he'll use it, but BAM! something goes wrong, and it erases Charlie's memory. No one knows how, but guess who tampered with the serum? Chris, right? Wrong! It's that girl! She's sus af. Charlie forgets, and he enters his bad boy era :)
Update: About that sus girl (Liu as I found out), @becauseimanicequeen pointed out the things that made my SUS antenna go crazy.
https://www.tumblr.com/becauseimanicequeen/783151020228460544/wild-ass-pit-babe-2-theory?source=share
Her position in the lab is fucking perfect! And when things go to shit? Well.... guess who they blame and be sus of....
Chris :)
#pitbabe#pitbabe s2 ep2#pitbabe s2#pit babe the series#pit babe 2#pit babe cast#babe x charlie#alan x jeff#north x sonic#pete and way#pete and chris#kim x kenta#kenta x kim
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It's not just that Eddie treats Buck like he does. It's that the narrative can't see that the dynamic is so one-sided and mean.
If the next story was them having a massive fallout where they get torn apart and start dredging up everything they've ever done wrong to each other, that would be great. At least it would address it and acknowledge that their friendship at this point is basically nonfunctional.
But Eddie constantly gets away with stuff he shouldn't. It's annoying.
Yeah, thereās never any consequences for his actions. And honestly, thatās not even just an Eddie problem. Where were the consequences for Chim punching Buck during Maddieās PPD arc? Buck made a promise to his sister, he promised heād keep her location to himself until she was ready to come back, and what did Chim do? Stormed into his home, the one place that Buck is supposed to be safe, and physically assaulted him. The consequence? Everyone makes out like Buck is in the wrong for keeping a promise to his literal fucking sister, nothing happens to Chim, and itās all forgotten about within three episodes. Hell, Maddie barely even reacts when she finds out.
And thatās exactly whatās going to happen here, too. Eddie brought Chris and Pepa in to smooth everything over, which is one of the shittiest non-apologies Iāve ever fucking seen, and everythingās suddenly forgiven. It wonāt even get mentioned next episode, I guarantee it.
Honestly, Buckās friendships with the 118 as a whole are so one-sided that itās actually painful. Buck just wants to be wanted, so he makes himself available to everyone whenever they need him, and they take advantage of that to the absolute max. Hen and Karen having him do their yard work when he forgets Henās birthday, and Henās little āweāll have him until fallā quip. Eddie using him as free therapy/babysitting and a verbal punching bag whenever he doesnāt get his own way. Hell, even Chim uses his love for family and friends against him; remember the black-out episode? āGive me a charger or Uncle Buck will never see his niece againā? Yeah. None of his friendships with the team are even remotely healthy, and Iām sick of it. Someone get that man a functional friend group, pronto.
#911 abc#911 abc spoilers#911 season 8#911 season 8 spoilers#anti buddie#anti eddie diaz#honestly this is kinda anti firefam too ngl#Dickhead Diaz#Ace gets asks š£ļø
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Honestly, at this point, Eddie needs to remain single forever/until the end of the show. He needs to be in therapy. He needs to actually apologize to the people he hurts, like Buck or his son (IE, actually talk to Chris about why he left for Texas in the first place....), he needs to try to make amends and accept that the people he hurt may want to keep him at a distance. If he remains in LA, I think that Buck and Ravi need to remain partners because if I were Buck, I certainly wouldn't trust Eddie to have my back after what happened in that kitchen and when I remembered the other times he'd treated me this way. Most of all, he needs to find healthy ways to deal with his anger and his grief that isn't causing harm to others. If they did that, Eddie would never be my favorite, but he'd at least be a somewhat interesting character.
100/10. From your lips to Tim Minearās ears.
With speculation and bts stuff, itās looking more likely that Eddie will be returning. But I wanted to channel my annoyance into something a little more positive. For the hell of it, and based on what you have already, I did some quick brainstorming, and I think there is potential to reintegrate Eddie into the 118 and give him new SLs for S9. Not that it will change my opinion on him. Anyway, here are a few ideas:
Training as a paramedic under Chimney. This could create an interesting dynamic between the two of them ā your friend and coworker now becomes your mentor, what does that look like? Also, Eddie was a combat medic and weāve seen his skills already, but what gaps are there to Eddieās knowledge that he needs to learn and overcome?
Overall, there will be an interesting change of dynamics across the 118: Hen is now captain ā for the other mains, their friend is now their boss. Ravi and Buck are now partners. This would be a really interesting opportunity to create a growing friendship between Ravi and Buck since weāve seen them hanging out and connecting after Eddie left. Buck gets to mentor Ravi, too, like Bobby did with him. And maybe itās Eddie this time who gets jealous of Buck and Raviās friendship. This could actually lead to some character development for Eddie when he becomes the one on the outside looking in. And he realizes that Buck can find better friends than him. And to your point, nonnie, learn to accept that maybe Buck doesnāt want to be as close of friends anymore with the way heās been treated, even if Eddie does apologize.
After Eddie is certified and he becomes Chimneyās partner on calls, what will that look like? Will there be a power dynamic they have to overcome? Maybe both Chimney and Eddie have to learn how to work differently with each other than they did with Hen and Buck.
Showing more resolution with Shannonās death. Eddie could realize in his grief over losing Bobby that he never really healed properly from Shannonās death. And maybe actually talk about the Kim situation.
Tbh, I think the best Eddie arc was when he was in dispatch. Even though he now will have his new role as a paramedic, it would be really interesting to see him in another arc like that where he is no longer reliant on his physicality.
Your point again, nonnie, that he needs to go back to therapy and find a way to cope with his anger in a healthy way.
Continue to make amends with his son and learn how to always improve as a father.
Finally, Buck finally defends himself against Eddieās ridicule! And Eddie realizes what an asshole heās been!
Ultimately, I think it will still be very, very difficult for me and a lot of people to forgive or even like Eddie, now. But regardless, there are still opportunities for new SLs with Eddie. Itās up to the writers if they want to actually take those opportunities.
TY for the ask!! ā¤ļøā¤ļø
#anti eddie diaz#eddie diaz critical#911 critical#911 discourse#911 speculation#discourse#anti buddie#oli posts
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this too is yuri
#fellas is it gay to base your perfect cunty robot form on your narrative foil#and vague ominously about how much you respect her#anyway one of the great tradgedies of arcane only having two seasons is we never get to see them interact#girl whereās my toxic melvik arc the POTENTIAL#deep professional respect softened by time into an enduring fascination and tentative friendship slowly decayed by jealousy and conflict#mel always caring deeply for viktor and his well being but not lnowing how to express that or knowing if it was her place#viktor always admiring mel but too embittered and isolated to express#meeting again after never getting closure totally unrecognizable to everyone else but completely familiar to each other#sharing the burden of trying so so hardnto be good even when itās hard even when you fail constantly#even when that means you can never speak again DO YOU SEE THE VISION?????#WE WERE ROBBED AUGH#also also the ideal melvik is NOT healthy and would fix NOTHING this is what took me sonlong to get on board dude#so much content about them is like āweāll fix this with polyamoryā NO WE WONāT WEāLL RUIN IT WITH POLYAMORY AND THATāS WHAT I WANT TO SEE#mel medarda#viktor arcane#melvik#mel x viktor#arcane#arcane league of legends
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As much as I would enjoy a kiss at their reunion, I do think the dragon prince crew would do something softer when (not if <-clown emoji) Sorvus is made canon. I'm picturing Corvus and Ezran and Callum arriving at the castle like in the promo image, them checking up with Opeli and she reveals everything is fine.
But Corvus asks about Soren. "Where is he?" he asks, his mind already wandering to the possibility that Soren...hadn't made it out. He will himself to remain strong for his king, but his body fills with dread. Thankfully, Opeli points him to the river.
There, Soren sits on the banks. Corvus sits beside him, noticing the same pained look in his eyes that he had seen on the ramparts the day Soren asked him to become a crownguard. Now, that same pain encompassed how he sat, how he stared mournfully into the waters.
Corvus asks is he is alright, and Soren can't even answer, holding back what emotion he can to maintain his cheerful attitude. He is failing miserably. Something more terrible than the Storm Spire must have happened. Something worse than Katolis burning down.
Corvus lays his hand over Soren's on the rock. Soren looks from it to Corvus, then shifts so that he can hold Corvus's hand back.
Like Janai and Amaya, its a confirmation.
and, of course, at the end of arc 2 or start of arc 3 (affirm affrim, manifest manifest, like to charge reblog to cast) then we get a kiss, teehee
#the dragon prince#soren tdp#corvus tdp#sorvus#Wrote clown emoji instead of putting the actual emoji cause I'm on desktop#I add the clown emoji because as much as they are waving those gay and bisexual flags around#as much as the crew is saying ācouple dynamicā in interviews#or as much as Jesse Inocalla is calling Corvus a black cat girlfriend in podcasts#I have been burned before by two men that are a bit more than platonic in how they act#and I am not immune to being ashamed by people who say things like#oh#I only see them as really good friends. They won't be canon#or even worse#āwe need more healthy male friendshipsā#as if they actually care about that kind of thing over shaming mlm who want to see themselves#in a silly little cartoon#so until they are canon (affirm affirm)#I will keep my hopes down if only so I won't be embarassed by people who said#i told you so#sorry for rant but that's how I feel
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aros when the story explores the role of relationships and their effect on sense of self and fulfillment, the acceptance of impermanence and change, the perceived emptiness and isolation that comes from having a different emotional experience than the people around you, the struggle to balance independence with connection to others, wanting to be loved but not at the expense of being āimprisonedā or tied down, choosing to be true to yourself at the expense of meeting othersā expectationsā
#something something aro coded villains#Idc. Anything can be aromantic allegory if you try hard enough#I think a major part of Xehaās story is him feeling like his approach to relationships isnāt accepted or understood by Eraqus#The shift in his mentality from embracing and exploring new friendships freely as the opportunities for them arise (healthy)#To rejecting connection altogether and relying only on himself (unhealthy)#He canāt stand āpossessiveā relationships and then tragically goes on to *literally* possess so many people#He wants to be free and associates ābondsā with being controlled and powerless#So I think a result of his unbearable loneliness is inflicting that feeling on others#Yes heās in the wrong but I donāt think itās fair to say he wouldnāt have any problems if he and Eraqus ājust kissedā or whatever#Its not that they didnāt express the ārightā kind of affection in their relationship#itās that they fundamentally didnāt agree on the required level of commitment! Or what love should be in the first place!#his reliance on darkness and loneliness is just another kind of prison#anyway this is why it all comes back to true/selfless/freely given/unconditional love#Itās what differentiates a sanctuary from a prison#Screenshots#aspec#Xehanort
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I've heard some Thingsā¢ļø about Thunderbolts and I am so worried
#bucky barnes#thunderbolts marvel#thunderbolts*#thunderbolts* spoilers#i guess??#ive heard some things about sam? and some things about Bucky? someone used the ād wordā to describe their relationship im š¬#marvel please do right by my boys#im not even a sambucky shipper i just want them to have nice things (healthy friendships)#pls i care them so much#james bucky barnes
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#feeling really lonely lately and idk why#i mean i guess this is what 5 years of complete isolation do to ya lol#but yeah... sometimes it hits me that i don't really have friends (my fault obvs) and i just sit here with no idea how to change that lol#cause i have the curse of being ok while i'm alone and feeling incredibly anxious when i'm with people#so i convince myself that i'm better alone#and i am for the most part#but then 5 years since the last time i met someone that wasn't my mom or my brother go by and i go ''hmm... i don't think this is healthy''#and i spiral into a pit of dispair#like i can't believe that my highschool years when i was an absolute emo ''i hate everybody and everybody hates me'' kind of dude#were healthier than now#because i had online friends whom i talked to for hours about just random shit#and i met incredible people in uni but i haven't talked to them in literally i'm gonna say 5 years?#and the fact that they live 3hs away doesn't help but still#and i fully know I'M the problem#cause i isolate myself and i don't text and i don't hang out when they arrange hang outs#(again being 3hs away. relying on public transport and not feeling comfortable going out at night don't help..)#but also i put waaaayyyy too much pressure on this so that doesn't help at all#and i'm waaaay to awkward and self depricating to even attempt to have a meaningful friendship with anyone...#so i'm left here (by my own actions) alone and sad lol#i might be getting my period btw so maybe that's why i want to die today#but yeah... it's been in my head for a while now and i wanted to get it out so i can move the fuck on#if only i could be a normal person... sigh#angel talks#personal
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Honestly iiiiiiii kinda hate how they resolved the whitney/canaan/kimberly drama. I get where whitney was coming from (specifically re: kimberly lying to her) but she's had a whole summer to cool off and she's spent it apparently lying to everyone around her about not missing kimberly. And I've posted before about this, but I really don't think it was fair to expect kimberly to want to bring it up literally 1 day later in front of all their friends before she even knew what her and canaan were going to be. I wish the writers handled her side of this with a little more empathy and grace because yes, what she did was selfish and impulsive, but canaan and whitney had been broken up for awhile by that point, which in my mind means that the only thing kimberly really did wrong in this situation was lying to whitney about it, and again, I think she would have told the truth if the confrontation had been in private. It kind of seems like whitney threw a temper tantrum and decided to ice her friend out of her life instead of talking about her feelings or allowing any kind of dialogue, and then she only forgave her when she broke things off with canaan and essentially groveled at her feet taking full responsibility for the whole thing. Literally all she did was kiss a boy and then not want to talk about it immediately afterwards.
#this turned into a rant im just frustrated#loving the rest of the season so far but im worried that the writers are using this solely as a Kimberly Growth moment#instead of using the opportunity to get some development for BOTH characters#yes kimberly is a people pleaser which means she will lie and omit truths to avoid conflict and that is bad#but whitney is extremely stubborn and conflict avoidant as well and that also needs to change if she wants healthy friendships#idk. maybe theyll use this as a jumping off point later in the season and kimberly will have a breaking point after being walked over#but with the way those scenes were written it felt more like 'oh shit the fans hated this time to course correct'#which frankly i find to be a pretty cowardly thing for them to do#the sex lives of college girls
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I swear some of them want Eddie to be violent towards Buck. Like violence somehow proves love? Which is so fucked up I don't know where to begin.
You can't excuse what Eddie did unless you have a very twisted view of what a healthy relationship looks like, and I'm begging anyone who thinks that's normal to seek help. Yes, it's fiction, and problematic ships are not uncommon, but with some Buddie stans it's not just liking a problematic ship, but somehow glorifying it, which is horrific.
There's nothing 'marriage coded' or romantic about what happened between Eddie and Buck in that scene. Yikes.
This.
Recognising unhealthy relationships is a lesson I had to learn the hard way. Iāve been out of the relationship that taught me that lesson for two years now, but that shit is still fresh in my memory. Itās a wound that refuses to close, refuses to scar. I know that Buck and Eddieās āfriendshipā is unhealthy because it mirrors me and my ex far too closely.
If they truly believe that what happened between Buck and Eddie is āmarriage codedā, Iām begging them to sit and seriously reflect on their own experiences and consider why this toxic, twisted mess is the āpinnacle of romanceā for them.
#911 abc#911 abc spoilers#911 season 8#911 season 8 spoilers#anti buddie#anti eddie diaz#Dickhead Diaz#Ace gets asks š£ļø
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iām cooking up a despicable, horrid, crushing (emotionally) friends with benefits haiden au. it might, however, end up crushing me first
#n raving again#everything i write turns into The Implications#i just wanted to let them fuck nasty but why did emotions have to get involved#i will have to put a disclaimer beforehand to do NOTHING of what they do. absolutely 0#theyre stupid they dont know anything about healthy communication thats the entire premise of the fic#its also turning out a little darker (as far as the vibe and the amount of like jealousy? idfk) than i first intended it to be#but you know what.... maybe i need that#maybe i need to write something that isnt comedy for once#given that the other fic ive been cooking up is a aiden & seiji multichap shenanigans fic#about aiden teaching seiji how to āseduceā nicholas who is completely oblivious#but its basically like. aiden doesnt know how relationships work and nick thought he and seiji were kinda already dating?#so it ends up being seiji and aiden friendship centered with a side of haiden angst#ok done had to rant about these thoughts because iiiii cant wait for exams to be over so i can actually think abt these
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Mmmmmm thinking about Nine the fox walking around with his two bodyguards (Alpha Grim Sonic and Chaos Sonic) again
The fox and his most devoted halberds who are also possessive bitches
No but like but like I need you to understand
Chaos Sonic who was originally revived to take Sonic's place, to fill the hole in a frienship Nine came to believe as fake, and yet clearly held onto so dearly. Chaos Sonic, who was supposed to be the same as before, except made to be Nine's devoted best friend who would never betray him.
Alpha Grim Sonic who Nine reportedly modeled after the hedgehog he (foolishly) thought of as a friend. A robot copy of Sonic who would not talk back, who would not think, who was only made to serve and protect Nine.
Chaos Sonic, whose time spent with Nine turned programmed allegiance and care into some form of love (obsession and possessiveness)
Alpha Grim Sonic, who was not supposed to think and feel. And yet, with time spent serving Nine and opposing Shadow, he begins to feel and to think (a budding soul forming within his metal frame and existing beyond his programming). A robot created to protect and serve, whose feelings for his creator and master begin to grow over time.
When did his internal drive shift from playing the role of Nine's best friend? When did he begin to resent Sonic for what he did to Nine? When did he begin to want to see Nine happy and safe and accomplished (rather than just simply alive and able to complete his goals)? When did he begin to crave Nine's attention and to make him stop thinking about Sonic?
Wasn't he programmed to be no more than an unfeeling robot, a set of algorithms designed to allow him to fight, protect, serve, and strategize only as needed? Why does he want to hurt Shadow so much (is it really just out of the drive to protect Nine, or is it to make the hedgehog pay?)? He'd follow Nine's orders to the ends of the earth, but why does he worry about Nine when theyāre separated? Why has he started to covet Nine's smiles and bouts of happiness? Why does he feel annoyance when Nine converses with Chaos Sonic like he's also not there? Why is he starting to understand why Chaos Sonic resents Sonic, beyond the fact that Chaos Sonic has always fancied replacing him? Alpha Grim Sonic has never wanted to replace the real thing, never understood why Chaos Sonic would, but he's starting to understand jealousy (in the way one begins to feel things they cannot put words to).
Chaos Sonic would tell you it's because he and Nine are best friends. Alpha Grim Sonic would tell you that it's because Nine is his master. Yet, deep down, the two have begun to want to be useful and important to Nine. They want to protect him and see his goals through past any loyalty programming. It does not matter whether such an outcome was inevitable or not (based upon their programming or the holes Nine made them fill in his life), only that they believe that they'd choose this even if Nine tried to let them go.
And Nine... Nine who creates distance between himself and the two robots almost instinctively, as if he's trying not to grow attached (ironic, given the roles he placed the two in, the holes in his life he made them fill after he believed that Sonic had backstabbed him). And yet, just as much as he insists that Alpha Grim Sonic is cold and unfeeling and programmed to serve or that Chaos Sonic is just like that (given the personality programmed into him and his similarities to Sonic) and was programmed to follow orders, he finds himself beginning to value the two as more. He should see them as tools, he tries to think of them as tools. And, yet, over time, the two become irreplaceable agents of his will. He canāt allow himself to believe they really care about them, but he wants them to know that he likes having them around, that no other robot can fill the roles he programmed them for, and no real mobian could be as effective as them (even if it's embarrassing to admit). They become...a comforting presence, especially when he's stuck in the Grim post canon, practically alone, closed off from being able to see Sonic again
Do you get me do you get me?
#sonic prime#sonic the hedgehog#miles nine prower#nine sonic prime#nine the fox#chaos sonic#alpha grim sonic#chanine#nine x alpha Grim sonic#alpha grim sonic x nine#nine x grim sonic#grim sonic x nine#chaos sonic x nine#nine x chaos sonic#crystalbondshipping#crystalbond#For now that's my on the spot Alpha Grim Sonic/Nine ship name#i just be ramblin#Gaaaaah I'm just lowkey obsessed with these relationships that only exist in my head#What's more delicious is that none of these three really know much about love (and Nine and Chaos Sonic barely have a leg up in having some#sort of understanding of best friendship)#So all three of them just have complicated feelings regarding each other. All the robots know is that they want Nine to be happy and healthy#and safeā all Nine knows is that he doesnāt want to see them destroyed#ā and while Nine is coming to terms with wanting those two at his side alwaysā the other two know they just want to be beside Nine as long#as they live#And by god the ways Alpha Grim Sonic and Chaos Sonic mirror and foil each other gets meā even down to their design differences and the way#Chaos Sonic was intended to be like Sonicā while Alpha Grim was intended to be without personality and feeling#Or even just the way that Chaos Sonic and Alpha Grim resent and have a thing for fighting Sonic and Shadow respectively#But just as much as there's fun in Nine embracing his devoted robots (power thruple)ā there's inherent tragedy in those two being unable to#escape or surpass Nine's memory and feeling for Sonic the Hedgehog
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Nerium my darling, darling Thallain who can totally be trusted, Completely (āæā”āæā”)ą§¹šŖ
#changeling the dreaming#ctd#world of darkness#:3c they're a sevartal who is Ostensibly here to broker a mutual survival treaty with the local fae on behalf of their mistress#which they are doing!! but yeag are probably also here to spy what do you expect tbh. honestly. weren't lying about the treaty tho#they really do want the treaty to work!! they stand a better chance of living if they've got connections with the local fae!!#honestly who still expects the age of the fomorians to return. humans have tanks now. grow up#that's how I'd pitch em to a storyteller at least. if I knew one. wuagh#but!!! I just think playing a real Beastie of a fae who is begrudgingly playing nice and who learns the true meaning of friendship#would be like. really fun!!! with a nice healthy sprinkling of Angst and maybe some Murder :3c#(they're Also harbouring a secret even They don't know which is that they're not a True sevartal. they're a forced heritage sevartal#aka they were made one by their mistress who forced their chrysalis too early :]c they're meant to be an autumn sidhe#a lil Thing I'm throwing in there as a possible story hook if I ever get to play them owo
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So I found Hopā¦
Heās okay with me talking about this, by the way. He was trying to take on two Team Yell grunts at once, and I jumped in of course! We dealt with āem.. and then we.. talked.
..We have a lot more in common than we realized.
AND NOW WENāRE EVEN BETER FRIENDS :D
#ooc >#iāve been writing recent game interactions into my planning board#just to be like āhey this is what happened#now to adapt this into a blog postā#instead of just posting#and when i got to this part of the game i accidentally cooked a bit too hard#and now hop wonāt be having his āiām a failureā arc because i made him and dove. talk it out. and realize things#btw hopās depression in this blog isnāt āiām not living up to leonā itās āhow can i be a good friend to dovewing and protect her if i canāt#defeat bede?ā#idk if it will come up in the blog so just some ooc background for u guys who r interested#i thought it would be fun to change the reason but i accidentally made them have healthy communication#over feeling the pressure to protect people to live up to a duty (future champion/prophecy cat)#but then the two realize the things people expect of them donāt define them#iāll probably have hop realize he wants to be a scientist way earlier because of this idk#sorry i made them good friends who care about each other iāll throw in a messier friendship sometime
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it is unfortunate when i go to prayer and cry my eyes out and the only response i really hear is that i simply have to bear it. like usually i can get my emotions out and once theyāre settled i hear a rational solution but it sucks when i donāt get the answer i want. i just have to keep waiting. like normally i hear something that gives me strength but wow apparently iāve hit a new low
#literally all my problems would be so much easier to deal with if i had friends#and normally iād be told ādo this and youāll probably find friendsā#my plan has always been just to wait for someone to find me bc iām horribly shy and antisocial#even though logically i know thatās a bad way of going about it#my logical rational analytical brain has always been obsessed with finding concrete answers. itās always been āwhat can *I* doā#so even when i suffer thereās a part of me that says āitās ok once iām done crying i can work this out and go right back to tryingā#iāve been emotionally dead for years but iāve always held onto faith like that#tonight i feel like iāve been brought low. i feel like iāve finally been told that i might just have to wait after all#which i might think would be comforting bc it absolves me of responsibility#but itās actually crushing bc it absolves me of power#i feel like iām finally facing the realization that iām powerless and pathetic and iām never going to be able to fix myself#that i can try as hard as i want but i canāt shake off this cross#but i donāt know how long i have to wait for someone to find me#and even if they find me how do i not fumble it#my first instinct is to push people away bc i assume theyāre not really interested theyāre just trying to be nice#which is usually true#i donāt even know how to sustain casual friendships and im so desperately in need of deep ones#i canāt open up to someone without just breaking apart and making it clear how pathetic i am#one would think i ought to find someone better than myself who can fix me#but on the other hand i think the only time that the good parts of me come out is when im facing someone even worse than me#like i have a tendency to morph into the opposite of the other person in any given situation to maintain healthy balance#so like when surrounded by extroverts which is almost always i become an introvert#itās rare to meet an introvert but then i become stronger and more extroverted around them. like something in me just loves helping others#even though i canāt help myself#what do i pray for? a fellow pathetic person? or someone with the patience and kindness and life knowledge of a saint?#will either of them really be found just by chance in my life?#and even if i do meet someone. truly i wish theyād also be lonely. i want them to need me#i donāt want to be a pity charity case. like a side project for someone with real friends already
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not sure if I personally agree with Aristotle about friendship tbh
#or maybe I'm just misunderstanding him? or not fully embracing all the ways that his views on friendship could be applied?#our professor went over it in class today and then also showed us how it can be reworked into a christian conception of friendship#via augustine's ordered loves#and like... I *get* that.#but I'm not sure that someone has to have that many similarities to you and also the friendship has to be fully reciprocal for it to be#a friendship?#I'm starting to feel like friendship isn't meant to be just about 'hey we like the same things and therefore we hang out together'#it's supposed to be more about choosing to help and lift up people again and again#and that (in healthy people with healthy support systems holding them up) flows outward from family relationships#your family knows you in the most intimate and personal way#your friends are the people who you are surrounded with who you lift up again and again when they need support from#outside the sphere of their family#idk maybe that's not how it works. but that's how it seems to me.#maybe I'm just tired of constantly second-guessing everything about everyone and all my relationships with everyone I know#maybe that's where the real truth here lies. I'm tired of being afraid and worn out from trying to ensure that I'm not taking too much from#anyone without giving back#both because I don't want to lose them and because I don't want to make them an idol and sin.#gurt says stuff
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