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Me when I reread The Rehabilitation of Death by @bamsara for the 30th time 😏
OKAY ANOTHER SHORT FANFIC BUT THIS TIME ITS ACTUALLY NOT CRINGE AS HELL
Slight tw warning and spoiler warning for The Rehabilitation Of Death the latest chapter (specifically takes place day after chapter 22)
Bamsara if this is cringe let me know 🙏
The Lamb knows many things. Has watched many deaths, been the reason of many deaths, and has experienced many deaths. No matter what The Lamb wants, death will always be there.
But Death comes Life. Beginnings, growth, anew. They are not different, yet not the same. Twins of different fonts, perhaps. This is one of the many things The Lamb has learned over the centuries.
A God tear sits in their palm. Glistening and smooth, the halos around it moving slowly. It glows in The Lamb’s palm before they drop it in the crown’s inventory. The crown floats silently in front of Lambert for a second longer than usual, before gliding back up to sit atop the lamb’s head. It has been a bit more tense lately with Narinder, the crown’s red eye reminds them of the cat’s. The Lamb’s eyebrows furrow in confusion when Narinder seems to be looking at something far off into the trees. Odd..? But that seems to be a thing he likes to do lately. But Lambert and Narinder are slightly injured, and the healing process was too slow.
“Nari? Whatcha’ see?” They prompt, more interested in what Narinder is locked onto than the very minor injuries they have.
Narinder doesn’t respond, but acknowledged the Lamb with a flick of his tail. Lambert waits patiently. It is not uncommon for Narinder to be silent for a bit before responding. But this time, it takes a lot longer. After the 100th annoying shuffle from Lambert, Narinder speaks slowly.
“There is… someone dying.” He rumbles from under his hood. It was a bit chilly, so it was understandable. The Lamb’s heart drops to their stomach. “Someone back at the cult?” Lambert winces, already going through funeral plans in their mind.
“No.” He responds in a slightly irritated way, making Lambert feel a tad offended. “You missed a creature. Not a heretic.”
“You mean ‘we’?”
“If you had not distracted me with your useless chatter about ‘pineapples’-“
“Ratau said it tingles your tongue when you eat it! I was just saying how I wants to see if I could grow some and- hey!” Lambert gets cut off of their mini rant at Narinder swiftly moving forward and back into the forest. Lambert makes a huffy pout and hastily makes sure they got every bit of loot from their crusade and from the mini boss. They then hastily run to catch up to Narinder, their hooves almost catching on a branch in the process.
When they finally catch up to Narinder, they find him staring into a wooden and splintering house. Newly destroyed, the indent and blood splatter on a broken wall from a heretic being thrown is still fresh. Narinder’s doing, from the violence of it. Narinder watches as Lambert begins to try and move the rubble as much as possible away. It was easy enough—it wasn’t a very stable house in the first place. When they manage to get enough rubble out of the entryway, Narinder steps forward first, and glances at the Lamb. “Here.” He points to a patch of rubble in the corner of the room. Lambert huffs. “You’re not gonna help me? You’re the one who destroyed the house.”
“You’re the one who distracted me. I would rather let them rot.” Narinder glares. Sheesh, sensitive much? It doesn’t matter, even if Lambert softly kicked him in the ankle for the attitude. Narinder straightens angrily. Ready to snap back. “Lamb-“
The moment Lambert has taken away a few heavy logs and splinters of wood, There is a horrible wheezing, lungs full of blood and throat full of mucus type wheezing. A moth, a teenager by the looks of it, falls from the rubble and falls onto the Lamb, almost catching Lambert off balance. Four shaky hands grab Lambert like a lifeline, still coughing up blood and mucus, getting most of it on their shoulder unintentionally. Lambert knows what to do. Centuries he has practiced and repeated this.
The Lamb carefully picks up the injured moth and holds them bridal style, looking them over while gently reassuring them with kind words that have been rehearsed many, many times.
It was certainly a moth. A female by the look of it, late teens age-wise. A very, *very* fluffy moth, which is odd, moths he used to have didn’t have this much fur. A tiny bow tie at their neck with a capelet that was pointed in the front and got longer at the back, it also was pointed there. There was a symbol on the back of said capelet, but Lambert could look at that later, when the moth wasn’t actively dying.
“How bad is she?” Lambert twists their head to Narinder, rubbing gentle circles into the poor kid’s back to try and get them from fainting. Narinder shifts. “She will die soon.” He responds, stoicism not leaving his tone. Before the Lamb can say anything else, he adds on. “You are too caring.” Something in Narinder’s gaze changes for just a split second, almost like something fond, before steeling just as soon as it happened.
The adrenaline is making them see things, Lambert assumes.
A surge of irritation washes over Lambert. Narinder has been snippy ever since they woke up this morning. Was sleeping in the same cottage as Narinder really that horrible? Apparently it was for him, because Narinder has been cryptic and frustrating all damn day. Lambert already had enough on his plate. Without waiting for Narinder, the Lamb storms out of the house, cradling the moth teen to their chest, counting the beats between each of her breaths. Once they almost reach the portal to go back to the cult grounds; the moth opens her eyes to not stare at Lambert, no, she stares directly at the pissy cat behind the Lamb. The poor moth makes another heaving wheeze which sounds more like a soft sob. She wheezes as the first words trickle out of her mouth. “Please… n-not… not ye-yet… please… ple-lease…” she whispered to the cat before closing her eyes again to seem to drift off.
Lambert wants to stop. Process. Question. But the determination to keep the kid alive keeps his legs going. Lambert looks back at Narinder with a confused look. Narinder only stops briefly, but does continue to walk after the Lamb. Narinder does not say anything, but seems to be staring at the fainted face of the moth.
Lambert feels strangely uneasy. They cannot pinpoint why.
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If yall wanna know what the moth follower looks leik… post is here :D
#the rehabilitation of death#mothie writings#I DONT EVEN PLAY CULT OF THE LAMB#i want to so bad though#cotl oc#persona#guy moody as hell dawg#if yall like this I may perhaps do a part two#I may be cringe but I am free#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#cult of the lamb#cotl au#fanfic#bamsara#writing#I would die if Bamsara read my work#they’re so cool <:(
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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sorry danny, sam will never think you’re cool
#danny phantom#danny fenton#sam manson#theres some ocs#college au#sam’s goth book club#i feel like she’d make a lot of good friends at a college#the trio has a highly rehearsed excuse for danny being weird#nobody has any idea what ecto-contamination is bc it doesn’t exist#ghosts are common-ish knowledge by now and amity is the known epicenter#stranger: holy shit your hand just went through that wall#danny: yeah it’s a medical condition :(#fentonworks is in on it too#for credibility#too bad the goths wanted vampires#moving to a new city did wonders for dannys popularity though#he’s got a lot he’s hiding so he can’t really take advantage#he probably knows more people number wise#but has less friends than sam#Tucker has a thriving social media life#but doesn’t get out much#hence that technus comic#can’t believe I finished this#lit took a whole ass week#hahahaha
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if somebody son don’t build a gingerbread house with me this month i’m gonna walk into oncoming traffic at 11:59 pm dec 31 2024 IDC
#only issue is#we both work 5 days a week#8-9 hrs a day#when will i find the time#i want to SO BAD though
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WAIT OPMF DO YOU WRITE FOR SEVENTEEN NOW CAN I SEND YOU A REQUEST DOR THEM
NOOO sorry 😿😿 I don't think I can write for kpop at all man 😿😿😿
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I mean this came from me seeing the meme template randomly, but similar enough to my vision, I guess
I forget meme templates and PNGs exist
He misses his husband, Jazz. He misses him a lot. He’ll be back
#I still want to do that comic#but I can at least do this for now#exam went pretty well#it was also over Europe though so it wasn’t too bad#anyways sorry random#I feel like this is Optimus’ thoughts after the movie#only time will tell if they will be undoomed#transformers#transformers one#optimus prime#megatron#megop#meme#random stuff
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Danny is gravely injured by the GIW, his voice box is severely damaged.
Making use of his own voice is impossible, but through some ghostly means Danny doesn’t quite understand, he can mimic others voices he hears just fine.
It’s a ghostly ability he found out he had a few years ago, with just a sentence or two heard he can do a flawless impression of that person. Now it’s not so flawless. The mimicked voice warps and fluctuates pitch, it’s crackly and he has a hard time not switching between multiple voices with every sentence he speaks.
His voice is reduced to an uncanny frankenstined attempt at speech that activates the average persons fight or flight response.
It’s no surprise that Superman is startled when he calls out for survivors while freeing the ghostly captives and a “not a deer” version of his own voice responds back.
#bones prompts#dpxdc#danny phantom#dp x dc#I’m listening to creepcasts ‘the thing in the basement is getting better at mimicking people’#and even though that creepypasta is so corny and bad I wanted to mess around with spooky mimickry Not Right voice stuff with dpxdc
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i must not start fights with people on this website who will not ever care
#tagging her and calling her an irony poisoned self centered weirdo isn’t furthering the cause i fear#i want to so bad though
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The Mikes and Vanessas celebrate 10 years of FNAF!
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#michael afton#mike schmidt#fnaf vanny#fnaf vanessa#vanessa afton#vanessa shelly#freddy fazbear#fnaf movie#security breach#fnaf anniversary#HAPPY FNAF anniversary week!!!#I WANTED to draw a lil thing in celebration 🎉#I’ll probably draw more things throughout the week in celebration#no doubt I’ll have more to draw after announcements/games drop#SUPER excited !!#SO OBVIOUSLY Michael and Vanessa are very excited for the anniversary#they still like Freddy’s after all#they need any excuse they can get to have a good time#though Mike and Vanny aren’t as enthusiastic you could say#Mike think they probably shouldn’t celebrate at all#seeing they’ve only had bad things happen to em 💀#and Vanny is just not even arguing just straight up nah#I bet they’ll get more into the spirit as the week goes on tho 🩵💜#it’s been awhile since I’ve last drawn all 4 of them together!!#so felt the most fitting for rn they return the crew ever
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no but LET'S TALK about how andrew is (outwardly) apathetic in every aspect of his life and towards every person he interacts with; this man shows nothing but indifference (i'd say half of it is true due to his severe depression and trauma/ the other half is just a performance so as not to hurt others with his rage but himself, as neil deduced).
but the MOMENT he gets to kiss neil he drops his neutral facade and throws his self control out the window -and we KNOW how important being in control is to him- and kisses neil like he wants to extract neil's soul out through his mouth.
neil described it like "he kissed him like this was a fight with their lives on the line, like his world stopped and started with Neil's mouth". my boy was STARVING he did NOT care about mantaining his apatheic front.
how is it possible to go from "i hate you 😐 most of the time i want to kill skin you alive 😒" to "let me kiss you like we're souldiers dying in the trenches and the only air i can breathe is through your mouth"
#he wanted that cookie so bad even though he thought he would never get it :(#but when he got that cookie he RELISHED in it#i like the fact that andrew is a somewhat passionate lover#andrew minyard#neil josten#andreil#aftg#all for the game
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Oh they are so going to have a daughter, I would be so surprised if they don’t have a daughter
#god I feel so bad for Millie here though#I know Moxxie will be completely supportive with whatever she wants to do#but an unplanned pregnancy especially with their field of work sounds like hell#I’m really hoping the crew pulls this plot line up well#helluva boss#helluva boss millie#helluva millie#millie knolastname#helluva boss moxxie#helluva moxxie#moxxie knolastname#helluva boss spoilers
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i love you royal trio (minus akechi)
#i was listening to the world we knew by frank sinatra while drawing this to inflict maximum emotional damage 😔#royal actually shot me fifty times in the chest and slaughtered my entire family#i’m actually inconsolable over the ending what the fuck do you mean akechi chooses to die of his own volition rather than be manipulated#god it’s just. his character actually makes me violent and insane. they’re going to drag me kicking and screaming to the psych ward#he never had an ounce of control over his life. not even once. he was CONSTANTLY being yanked around like a marionette#until he was disposed of as another pawn in shido’s plan#and then out of some cruel irony he was resurrected even though he did not want to be alive#for once in death he would have found peace—only for that to be taken from him too.#and bc he thinks he’s worthless and his life is so easily gambled away he doesn’t view it as a major dealbreaker when maruki brings it up#“do you really think something as trivial as my life should stand in the way of your decision?” yes you fucking asshole#what do you mean he’s literally fated to die in every timeline? definition of doomed by the narrative#there’s not a single version of his story that doesn’t end with him being slaughtered#GODDDDD he makes me violently ill i hate goro akechi so much he’s so fucking selfish HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS DEAL IS TEARING ME APART#i was so tempted to get the bad ending just so that he was alive ☹️#he looked so happy. he was surrounded by people who loved and treasured him.no shido. control over his life. the ability to choose his futu#TEARS IN MY EYES MARUKI WAS THE ONLY VILLAIN WHO WAS LOWKEY MAKING SENSE 😭😭😭😭😭#my toxic trait is that i think maruki was right all along 😔#ALSO SUMIRE AAUUGGHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the survivors guilt literally eating her alive until the point where she gaslighted herself into thinking she was her sister. insane.#royal was so good bro i’m so glad i endured 200 hours of hell just to play it#terrible terrible ending with everyone going their separate ways and ren ending up in juvie for months#akechi actually being dead in the good ending is so fucked up 😭😭 i thought there was some way maruki could bring him back regardless#not ren hallucinating him in the last cutscene too 😭😭😭😭 “i still see your shadows in my room” ahh ending#persona 5 royal#persona 5#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#sumire yoshizawa#goro akechi#lotus draws
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figure skating set right now please. thanks
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#GUYS I AM PUTTING OFF WORKING ON MY COSPLAY SOMETHING STUPID. im tireddddd i like sleeepingggff i want to play and drawwwww#after work I literally ate a giant bowl of mac n cheese and climbed into bed. lifestyle choices of a 9 year old#anyways i want figure skaitng set. bad. PJSK HAS A WEIRDLY LOW NUMBER OF ACTUALLY WINTERY SETS... like 3. kind of.#i have some thumbnail sketches but im kind of stumped on composition for them. my idea was a nene focus set#(IF HER NEXT FOCUS ISNT PHANTOM OF THE OPERA THEMED INWILL DIE. BADLY. THEYRE GOING TO AN OPER AHOUSE. PLEADBR)#originally my idea was for nene to be biting a medal i was very sold on it bc i love nenes competitive side#however her outfit is so nice i want it to also be part of the art .. its heavily inspired by that one iconic eunsoo lim dress#from her somewhere in time program iirc. im really undatisfied with emus dress tbh my origimal idea was to give it a phoenix look#but a lot of the firebird/phoenix skating programs have very sleek dresses and i want emus to be fluffy. the balance is hard ..#and since i want her program song to be once upon a dream from sleeping beauty i swerved to make it look a bit like auroras ? but again#it definitely feels like the weakest of everybodys ... maybe i just love her too much and want her to look the best. sorry wxs.#tsukasas outfit is supposed to look like a shooting star. easy. program music moonlight sonata 3rd movement like from dazzling light. easy.#actually i like takahashi daisukes moonlight sonata program its a medley of the 1st and 3rd movement.. i think the calm at the beginning#is best. maybe smth like that.. for his card inhad him doing a haircutter spin but again. the outfits good i want the outfit visible. damn.#ruis the one im very set on even now. girl why are you so phantom of the opera.#it has a lot of beautiful programs to reference but the outfit i didnt really have any solid reference i kind of just balled#my main idea was to make it look a bit like both christine and the phantom.... gender Fluid.#my yapfest... i should be SEWING!!!!!!!!#despite my yapping im not that well versed in figure skating i cant really distinguish jumps i just like it . and medalist#i only do normal skating. bc i played hockey for like 7 years LOLLLL inlove skating though Heart.
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#the only reason I’m not picking this fucking scab is bc it’s on a tattoo.#I want to so bad though#manda talks#also it took me forever to find this meme cause I thought it was marge Simpson LOL
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“After 200 years, you can forget how much color there is in the world.”
#my art#astarion#astarion and halsin#halsin#halstarion#<- gift for my lovely friend#Astarion deeply has my heart though#I have caught the BG3 bug BAD#i just want him to be happy#baldurs gate 3#bg3#bg3 fanart#I just can’t stop thinking about how beautiful the world must be to him now that he can see it again#it’s almost like a second chance#at loving the world around him#and halsin could show him so much#also the flower is a white amaryllis#which is supposed to represent new beginnings.#anyway i love them
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Kiss Kiss Fallen Tree!
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Sorry to everyone who was looking forwards to this comic only to find out I put WWX in the ugliest outfit.#Continuity came first. Plus let's be honest; he did *not* show up in anything fancy. Or in all black as seen in most fanart.#We are at the middle of WWX depression arc. His self-care was 100% because Jin Yanli would be sad if he didn't try to look nice.#Okay okay. Fine I've delayed talking about the kiss long enough.#It is absolutely a core LWJ scene over a WWX scene. Which is made even more fascinating because we don't get his POV.#But we get so many insights! His loss of control and his firmness all contrasted against how he trembles.#And all of that wrapped up in a wonderful self-loathing bow! You go Lan Zhan! You hated yourself so much for this!#WWX is a hilarious narrator for this because he is truly just...baffled by what's going on.#He would push the person away but he doesn't want to hurt their feelings or pride (putting other people first again are we?)#I do understand why this one is divisive for people though. I choose to look at it through a character/humourous lens.#I've seen people defend and admonish this scene as a particularly shitty thing LWJ did and let's be very clear here: It was.#That's why I like it. LWJ did a shitty thing and struggles with it. It's part of what makes him so robust as a character.#It's also fine if you enjoy this scene for it's eroticism. You're not a bad person for that. You are just A Person.#People will have their own experiences with this topic. Be kind to each other alright?
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