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imaginationlover101 · 3 years ago

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Ice Water Kills The Soul

Stiles Stillinski x reader x Isaac Lahey

Summary: After the lacrosse incident between Stiles and Isaac the tension between the two still hasn't stopped. So on the day where the pact needed to work together to find out awnsers on there friends, the reader ends up finding something else.

A/N: I'm so happy that eveyone loved art 2 of Gold fish & Apple Juice, and decided to write a second part. I'm apologize in advance for taking forever to write, but I hope you all love it! This is imagine is majorly loosely off a scene in epoisde 3×02 of Teen Wolf. I might of switched some of the concept around but enjoy!

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Monday, the worst day of the week and luckily for me all my friends were thankfully here. The weekend was surprisingly normal expect for the unusual drama between Allison and Scott, but besides that nothing supernatural happened until now.

Just when we thought things would get better we were now trying to figure out why a pack of alphas would try and take Erica and Boyd? What could the possibly want with them? Which now leads us to today.

Scott, Stiles, Isaac and I were trying to come up with a plan to help Isaac remember what happend to Erica and Boyd, when we all finally agreed on just taking Isaac to seee Deaton after school.

But just when I thought things couldnt get any worse for the day they took a turn for well the worst. Allison passed by us and Scott almost ran away claiming he needed to go call Derek which lead it to just being Stiles, Isaac and I.

Between the 2 minutes of awkward silence between the 3 of us I finally deceided to speak up. "So uhh what time should we meet Deaton." "Oh yeah um around like 5 ish I guess-" Stiles goes staring at Isaac. Isaac and I both nod our heads as the bell starts to ring. Which leaves us to all say our goodbye and go our ways. Isaac and I had classes while Stiles had a free, but as Isaac and I were walking away I could feel eyes on the back of my head. Those eyes just happend to belong to Stiles.

The rest of the day went by rather slow from coach's long lectures, to the never ending cheer practice but finally the day was done. Well exepct for the fact that I now had to go to the animal hospital and meet the boys. Even though I tried to convince myself that I felt normal I wasn't. Because deep down in the back of my head something was trying to tell me something, but for right now I hust couldnt figure it out.

I finally made it to the animal hospital only to find out the boys weren't here yet and it was just Derek, Deaton and I. Deaton left the room to get what he needed which left Derek and I alone. "Listen Y/N, has Isaac said anything to you lately." "Uhh no not at all why?" I started to look at Derek confusingly. "Oh no reason." It was very rarely that Derek and I had conversations, so the fact that he was trying to have a conversation with me to talk about Isaac was well, weird.

The door to the animal hospital swings right open and who would of thought who it was. " No IsAaC! Just because your nice to her, DOESNT MEAN SHE LIKES YOU, WHY WOULD SHE!" I hear Stiles loudly screaming/whispering. Really what the f*** was happening today. The boys finally walk in and Stiles decides to start ranting again. "Maybe we should ask her see who she agrees on better. Hey Y/N-" Before Stiles can finish what he can say, Isaac already has arm around Stiles neck.

"Alright that's enough for today. Let's think about the reason why were here." Deaton explains. Forgot about the reason where here I just wanna know what the guys where talking about.

Stiles, Scott, Isaac, Derek, Deaton and I finally all go around the big almost bathtub filled with ice. "Dont tell me this is what I have to do." Isaac looks at the tub in almost disgust. "Well unfortunately yes, I know it's not ideally comfortably but if we can slow your heart rate down enough you'll fall into a trance like state." Deaton describes to him. "Almost like being hypnotized?" Derek says looking at Deaton. "Exactly Isaac will be half transformed, it will allow us to access from his self conscious mind so we can get the memories we need."

"Well how slow does his heart rate need to be?"Scott looks at Deaton waiting for an awnser. "Very slow" he replies with. "How slow is very slow." I ask my body almost filling with anxiety. "Well umm almost dead." All of our eyes almost jump out of our heads wondering what we were getting Isaac into.

Isaac puts his hand in the water to really see how cold it is only for him to retract his hand back fast. "Is this safe?" He asks. "Would you like me to answer that." Deaton looks at Isaac saying. "Oh god." I groan while I run my fingers through my hair.

All of a sudden our thoughts are brung to the snapping sound. We all look back to see Stiles snapping a glove on his hand. "What?"

We all turn our heads back around and Issac begins to put his hand in the water again looking at eveyone. "So when should I start?" "Well there just one thing. Y/N I need your help on this." Deaton looks at me and eveyone turns there head. I nod wondering what hes going to say next. "Well for this to work Isaac's body he needs to be at a state of relaxation. Which is where you come in, I need you to hold his hand the whole time so he can grasp the fact of relaxation and reality." Deaton says and then looks at Isaac and I again.

Well I didnt think he was going to say that. "Okay, that all I have to do?" I look at Deaton questionly as he nods his head. "Wait how is Y/n supposed to hold my hand without me hurting her." Isaac says as he looks back to Deaton. "Well hopefully when you have the contact it should bring you to a state of realization."

We all start getting ready for Isaac to go in, but all of a sudden he comes closer to me and whispers "You sure your okay with this?" "Yeah of course, are you sure about this whole thing though?" I put my hand ontop of his for a moment and he smiles. " I guess I just have to be."

♡♡♡♡ POV of Stiles, Scott, & Derek->♡♡♡♡

"Why is he going so close to her." Stiles says whispering to Scott and Derek. "Oh I dont know Stiles why dont you ask them." Derek says sarcastically at the boys. "Pshhhh Scott tell me what there saying." Stiles goes and tells Scott. "There just talking about the hand thing." Scott looks at Stiles knowing he should propbaly calm down cause it's nothing.

"You know if you really like her you should probably tell her before someone elese does." Derek says pointing at Isaac and Y/N. Stiles huffs and turns back around and whispers "Eventually someday if she ever feels the same."

♡♡♡Boys Pov Ends -> 3rd person POV♡♡♡♡

"Alright eveyone ready!" Deaton says looking at the 5 of us. "Ready then I'll ever be" I hear Isaac mutters. I gotta admit at first I thought this little "crush" I had on Isaac was slowly fading, but now seeing him stand in front of me while he takes his shirt off the feelings start to arise again.

"Show off" Stiles mutters. Just when I thought things couldnt get any more difficult I get put in the most uncomfortable situation where I have to hold my crushes hand and have to feel the death glare of my childhood crush on my other side.

Isaac finally gets the courage and slowly started to emerge himself in the ice bath. He slowly gets in and starts breathing heavily. Isaac put his hand out for me and I took it with ease. He smiles at me and nods his head reading my mind when I was asking him if he was okay. Surprisingly his hand was alot warmer than I thought it would be, and now I was just hoping that no one could see the blush on my cheeks.

Scott and Derek stand behind Isaac in the tub and starts to emerge him. We all look at each other as Isaac starts to thrash and yell but he never transformed info a werwolf. Still staying in his human form.

Scott, Stiles, Derek, Deaton, and I all look at each other and I question what we do now. "Now in a couple of seconds I can start to ask question." Deaton says looking at Isaac to see if he was ready. I turn my attention to Stiles and Scott and I can already see the tension starting to arise. My anxieties start to quicken as I let go of Issacs hand, his body soon starts to float in the water.

"Now remember only I ask the questions, too many voice will draw him out." Deaton says making eveyone step away from the tub. "Now Isaac I want you to remember for me where you where on the night of when Erica and Boyd went missing." Eveyone listens closely as we watched Issacs pale skin begin to move.

"It started out at Y/N house. We were both studying for global and around 9 I got a text from Boyd." All the boys started to look in my way. Stiles face complety changed and bumped my arm and mouthed.

" You too hung out together." I rolled my eyes and mouthed back to him. "Yes Stiles we were studying." Stiles sighs loudly which makes Scott keep his eye on us. I could already see Stiles getting irritable which is when I knew he was going to start whispering loudly. "Yeah studying that's what it always is." Deaton taps his fingers, hushes us and begins to talk. "Now where were we."

♡♡♡♡♡ 10 minutes later Isaac is out of his trance and finally out of the ice water♡♡♡♡♡

Isaac springs out of the water with a gasp. Water starts flying everywhere as Isaac leaps out of the tub. Since no one decided to move into action I grabbed the towel near Stiles and gave it to Isaac. Once again Stiles turned his back and began to keep to himself. Isaac was shivering rapidly and Deaton told him to go sit on the heaters near by.

After the long meeting that we all had deciding what our next move on the Boyd and Erica situation was it was time for us to finally all go home. It was in the parking lot when I then realized the unwanted attention that was brought upon me. I had a feeling that eveyone knew something that I didn't.

Stiles starts to walk to his car pissed off once agian but then to find out his car wouldnt turn on. "Ohhhhh WHAT THE H*** WHYYYYYYYY!" We all turned around wondering what the promblem was, but wasnt surprised when Stiles took some random part out of his car. "Why, WHY, WHY ME. Y/N do you still have that duck tape in your car?"

Ughhhh Stiles and his duck tape. "Yeah but Sti I dont think duck tape is gonna fix this one." Hesitianly I walk over to Stiles to give him the duck tape. "You guys can just drive back with me it's no big deal." I say looking at the boys. "I mean I would offer but I'm driving all the way back to my house and I am not coming I'm between this high school drama." Derek looks between the four of us and gets into his car.

"Well so much for help." Stiles mutters. I bump into Stiles then motion for all the boys to come into the car. Now you would of thought that with Scott being in the car the awkward silence would of been more peaceful, but who would of know it wasnt.

At this point I've have had enough of this drama and on the next red light I decided that the talking would began. "Okay I cant do this anymore, whats going on?" I looked at Scott who only motioned to Stiles and Isaac in the back seat, only to find out the two were facing the opposite way.

"Listen Y/n, this dramas between you 3 I have nothing to do with this." Scott looks behind the seats looking directly at Stiles and Isaac.

"Well that was blunt" Stiles whispers and kicks the back of Scott's seat only for him to look at Stiles in the mirror one more time. Once again the silence won for another time. "Uhh the lights green." Isaac says nudging my shoulder. "Oh why thank you captain oblivious, I think she knew that already!" Even in the dark I could still see Stiles rolling his eyes once again.

Debating whose house I should stop at first I decided that dropping Stiles, and Isaac off first would be ideal. So at least in one way I could get something out of Scott.

Finally after dropping off Stiles, and Isaac. Scott and I are alone. Driving up to his house we both relaized what was going to happen.

"Scott what's been going on between Stiles and Isaac. I mean they've been acting so distant and everything's a fight between them?" Scott looks at me questionly almost like he was too shocked that I didnt know what was going on.

"You really have no clue why there fighting?" I shook my head only for Scott to smile even more. "Well you know how Stiles and Isaac are always fighting for your attention and how tonight Stiles was getting jealous when you were with Isaac." I questionly nod my head only noticing it now. "Well let's just say that they both aren't happy with each other at the minute because they both want something the other cant have." With those words I quicky knew what Scott meant and my eyes imitedled widened.

All this time the fighting and the arguements, the awkwardness, and the drama it was all because of one promblem. One situation that was both coming between them, and of course I didnt notice it now. Now I had to realize that I was the reason between the fights and the drama. But not only was I the drama, but now had two boys who I both love feel the same way.

With those words Scott said his goodbye and left the car leaving me with what he said in deep thoughts. If it wasnt for him I wouldn't of realize what happend between the boys that night, and I wouldnt of realized the huge decision that was left to make. Which one would it be?

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princecharmingwinks · 3 years ago

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i cant believe you said you dont write for fandoms!! these are ending up AMAZING! have another fail date for you to make better: we went four-wheel driving over the dunes out bush, we took my car but he drove because he's done the route before. we were the second car in the convoy and because my car is a little smaller than the others it couldnt make it up the last dune! it nearly made it over before sliding back into the sand and ended up half buried! (1/2)

(2/2) the rest of the group had to drag and push us out with planks and chains etc while we were stuck inside because no way in hell i was opening the door to let the sand in! so three wheels in the sand, waiting on our rescue, irl it was a bit awkward but im hoping you'll rewrite a better ending <3

Awww concussed dragon, you are sooo sweet! Thank you! Your unique failed dates are great to work with. Alrighty, let's get into this one! So the pack got big in this one and while most don't have lines, I liked the idea of everyone being there (or almost for anyone I missed haha). I left some of the couple combos up to interpretation so feel free to ship at your leisure.

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The pack, after much pestering from a certain human/spark, were finally going on their camping trip. The alpha had finally conceded when Stiles had shot him a pout and hopeful eyes. Derek had reluctantly agreed and ignored the snickering of his betas in the corner of the room.

On the morning of the trip, everyone was pairing up into groups of drivers and passengers so no one drove alone and there were less cars.

Derek and Stiles were the last members out of the rebuilt Hale House. Derek had been locking up and Stiles was finishing off some wards to ensure there were no unwanted visitors while they were away. He was still learning to harness his spark but small wards of protection were easy enough. Defensive magic was easier, offensive was another story.

Stiles threw his bag into the back of the jeep and glanced around.

"So, who's joining Roscoe and me?"

Erica snickered, "Derek."

"What?" Stiles and Derek snapped in unison. Well at least Stiles had a punctuation mark, Derek's not so much.

"I'm with Danny, Lydia and Jacks." Kira spoke up. "Scott, Malia, and Isaac are with Allison."

"I'm obviously with my boy." Erica jumped onto Boyd's back, who was used to his girlfriend's antics and easily caught her. "And Theo is meeting us there after picking up Liam from work. Everyone's paired up so that just leaves you two."

Stiles felt his heart flutter but managed to keep his voice even as he spoke, "Alright Alpha My Alpha, let's get going."

Derek didn't say a word as he slid into the passenger seat of the jeep. Everything would be fine.

Everything was not fine. Stiles was definitely going through a quarter life crisis at the realisation most of the pack were in couples. How did he not realise that? When had it become a prerequisite to start dating a pack member? And now it was just Stiles and the alpha. The alpha he had been in love with for years. Great...

"What's wrong?"

Stiles was pulled out of his internal panic by said alpha's soothing voice. Derek had softened over the years, showing care and concern for each member of the pack. He now bought scent-free nail polish for Erica (so the acid smell didn't upset all the were's noses), stocked Isaac's favourite gummybears and even hugged Kira willingly at her university graduation. Derek Hale was a softie.

"I'm fine, nothing wrong here, no sir." Stiles prattled. Even he heard the blatant lies without supernatural healing. He glanced to his side and was greeted by raised eyebrows.

"Ok, so I may have just realised how paired up everyone in the pack really is."

"Except us."

"Yeah," Stiles sighed. "Except us. Do you ever think about that? Like, why you haven't dated anyone since..." He trailed off. Derek didn't have the best track record for his love interests but he hadn't even been on a date for more than 3 years.

Derek looked out the window at the scenary, they were driving into the sand dune part of the journey, and for a moment Stiles thought he wasn't going to answer.

"I've been waiting."

Stiles blinked. Huh?

"For someone so smart, you're really clueless sometimes." Derek huffed, glancing back at Stiles.

"What have you been waiting for?" Stiles dared to ask. They had paused to allow Allison's four-wheel-drive to roll up the last sand dune, waiting for their turn. Roscoe would be the last time to make the climb.

"I thought it was my imagination at first but then you kept coming around and..."

It was Roscoe's turn now and Stiles slowly prepared for the final climb of the dune. He tried to keep focused on the task at hand, allowing Derek to speak his thoughts. You never rushed the alpha when he was being vulnerable.

"I know you kind of like me?" Derek voiced it as a question but all Stiles heard was sirens in his brain. Derek knew? Stiles' foot slid off the peddle and they immediately started rolling backwards, fast.

"Shit! Shit, shit shit." Stiles acted quickly but it wasn't enough. Roscoe descended the sand dune and sank, refusing to move. Sand on either side of them blocked the bottom of their doors. They were officially stuck.

Stiles rested his head on the steering wheel and slowed his breathing. There were multiple crises going on but most had solutions.

The others would work out they hadn't made the climb soon enough or Theo and Liam would find them on their way through. So either way, Roscoe being stuck wasn't a massive deal. The real dilemma was Stiles' outed feelings for Derek.

The same Derek that was eyeing Stiles with concern as he called Kira to request some assist. Stiles heard him hang up before the sound of a door handle being jiggled. He snapped his head up.

"Whoa there sourwolf, there is to be no sand storm in this car, thankyouverymuch." He reached out and tugged the alpha's hand away from the door.

"I figured me getting out and pushing was the preferred option to sitting here with you in a state of panic at my assumption."

Stiles pulled his hand back. "What?"

"Look, we can just forget I ever said anything, alright? I get I'm not the most desirable crush to have. It's probably just familiarity and your sense of loyalty that's fueled your scent around me anyway. Don't worry about it."

Stiles shook his head, "Oh no you don't. You opened that can of worms and I'm no coward." The spark met Derek's gaze. Had he been planning on ignoring his feelings for the alpha? Sure. But was he going to run away from a moment like this? Nope. Stiles Stilinski was a lot of things but after running with wolves and other supernaturals for most of his life, he knew when he needed to tackle something head on.

"Now, before you go down your rabbit hole of I'm-not-good-enough crazy talk, I've got something to say."

Derek nodded like the soft alpha he was and turned to face Stiles more fully.

"You, Derek Alexander Hale, are amazing. A little on the martyr side but that's because you are so protective of your pack. I'd be crazy to not fall in love with you. That's right, love not like. I've been in love with you for years but how was a kid like me going to catch the alpha's eye? I didn't want to ruin our friendship. This," He gestured between them. "This is important to me. I don't want to ruin it."

Derek released a sigh of relief? Stiles couldn't read his eyebrows which was disappointing when he was the most expert at interpreting the alpha's facial expressions.

Then Derek was darting forward and claiming Stiles' lips in a searing kiss. Stiles went with it, almost unbelieving that any of this was happening.

Derek eventually pulled back and rested his forehead against Stiles'.

"Worth the wait." The alpha whispered, grinning, bunny teeth all on display.

"Two way street here. You could've said something too. How long have you liked me?"

Derek blushed and it was only because they were so close that Stiles saw the pink of his cheeks and ears.

"I've always liked you, even if I didn't always show it. But love? I think I've loved you since you woke me up on an elevator floor by punching me. You could have left without me but you didn't."

Stiles pouted, "Since then?"

Derek raised an eyebrow, "What's wrong?"

Stiles pushed Derek back and clumsily crawled across the gear stick to straddle the alpha's lap.

"We could have been having the best sex of my life for years, Derek! Years! We've got a lot of making up to do." Stiles dove in to kiss Derek this time. The alpha happily drew Stiles in closer, curling his arms around the spark's slim waist.

A knock on the window, interrupted their make-out session. Boyd's face appeared with judging eyebrows to rival Derek's.

"Heard you needed a hand." Boyd spoke loudly with a smirk as Derek's hand moved away from Stiles' ass to rest safely on his back.

"What's Erica doing?" Stiles asked, leaning over Derek to squint at the blonde chatting wildly on the phone. Derek focused his hearing.

"Turns out I'm not the only one who was waiting." Derek grinned, "And everyone apparently owes Lydia money."

They did eventually get Roscoe out of the sand dune thanks to the advantages of going camping with multiple supernatural creatures. By the time everyone was settled in the camp and Erica had informed Theo and Liam on the events of the day, Lydia was a very rich woman.

Stiles couldn't complain though. Not when the alpha was snuggled between his legs as Stiles sat on the log and Derek roasted them marshmallows. Apparently no one trusted Stiles near an open flame following the incident with that vampire clan. Stiles combed his fingers through Derek's hair and looked around at the pack. This camping trip was the best idea ever.

Ok so I must confess I do not camp like...ever and have no idea how four-wheel-driving works so please forgive any major errors in that department. I tweaked things a bit from your prompt sorry. I just couldn't imagine Stiles letting anyone else drive Roscoe. Hope you enjoyed! Thanks for popping in!

#sterek #teen wolf #derek hale #stiles stilinski #princecharminganswers #princecharmingwrites

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dreamscapesin1582 · 4 years ago

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Vampires + Model MC

SCENARIO:

MC used to model for the ads of their travel agency. It escalated there and somewhat she received a few offers of modelling for catalogs and women’s magazines.

For some reason, she had a few of those with her when she got teleported to 19th century France and she fell in love and blahblahblah.

One day, she was shopping for groceries when her lover entered her room and found some interesting books peeking out of her purse.

Let’s say it’s the summer edition… aka swimsuits :))))

IKESEN VERSION: Oda Forces || Uesugi-Takeda Alliance

NAPOLEON BONAPARTE

*eyes emoji*

“oh shit”

what did i just stumble upon

he backs away, then thinks that it must be a future thing

“so we’re good” then he takes it again

“she never told me she used to model”

browses through every page with a furrow in his brow

like yall really be telling me that ppl see this for free?

where was this when i was cold and alone in my throne

the future is w i l d,,,

he’s not that fond of books but he will definitely keep this one

f o r s u r e

when mc gets back, napo will def ask her abt it

WOLFGANG AMADEUS MOZART

“all these years in solitude and i still get blessed by the world”

why do i even go outside, i wonder

anyways mozart tries to put it back

mozart really tried to put it back

narrator: mozart could not put it back

makes sure no one is around before opening it again

“will this be the reason why jean will finally disown me”

nah lets just call it…….. m o t i v a t i o n

whenever he is in the music room, there are two (2) things in front of him

sheet music and the magazine

conclusion: he has no shame

“ITS FOR THE GLORY OF MY MUSIC MC”

LEONARDO DA VINCI

this one is up for any adventure amirite

so when he saw the magazines?

he just found the fucking treasure

yeah thats right im talking bout u

love yourself my hoes

a n y w a y s

after all those centuries, leonardo da vinci has never been this interested in anything

i mean being dead inside and all

he will examine the shit out of that magazine

the p e r f e c t i o n

he would admire how accurate the pictures are,,,,, and how s e x y

smirksmirksmirksmirk

ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE

…………..what do u even expect lmao

jk guess what

contrary to common belief, the moment arthur witnessed the sheer power that is your body dressed in full glory

is the moment all his blood evacuated to his face

and ejected itself through the orifice that is his nose

b o l l o c k s

bless the gods that created the female sex

bless your mother

“oh fuck it bless everyone”

and he meant it

he blessed everyone with the collection of your pictures

imagine theo snapping his neck once it reached vincent lol

VINCENT VAN GOGH

he was just innocently killing time in your room, waiting for u

and then the devil inside him presented itself through a magazine

just poppin out of nowhere like “sURpRiSE moThERfUcKEr”

anyways he was like “oh!”

oh my go od ne s s g ra cio u s

anyone can see the sun in sunshine boi

considering how hot his face feels

it doesnt help that the pictures were clear and pretty

accurately taking every curve–

“broer i was wondering if that next painting is done—BROER?!”

that’s theo finding him passed out with the evidence lmao

ISAAC NEWTON

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA he’s gone bro

the brain of the genius is now dysfunctional

“iS tHiS LegAL???????”

he looks at the pictures with both horror and sexual frustration lol

nervously takes it away

for science part 2

cue mc coming back later in the day

“isaac have you seen the magazine in my purse?”

spits tea

“huh w-what magazine no i didnt see a magazine idk any magazine what is a magazine even”

mc is partly amused at how he said that in a second

“god pls take me away”

here it is,,,, i couldnt help myself since i keep seeing my model mc hcs blowing up my notifs lolololol

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baddyxangel · 4 years ago

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well...that was an...experience.

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ok babies so i finally finished ALL of teen wolf and umm...wow . im gonna go ahead and share my thoughts, i think im gonna split this into 2 posts 1 where i talk about the characters individually and 1 where i just speak in general

6B never happened, I've never heard of it, never seen it, never touched it, never smelled it and i dont think i wanna see anything anymore.

starting with our MC we have scott, the indecisive, pure, irritating, "true alpha". now my problems with scott are honestly just preferrence but still somewhat justified . if you're familiar with comics you know that we always have our hero who believes and tries his best to save EVERYBODY including his enemies, and he is the "if i kill them i'll be just as bad as them" type. now the issue i have with this trope is that its just annoying and naive , I've always been more of a wonder woman type myself personally i dont see this issue with killing 1 person who has killed hundreds or dozens. Scott in most cases is very...bland ? very cookie cutter goody two shoes type, naive and a little bit soft, and for how gassed up true alphas are he is EXTREMELY underwhelming and one is his only saving graces for me is me being attracted to him.

he lets some of the most dangerous people in his universe roam freely because there is a "line" he wont cross and while i get those are his morals and his code i just personally couldnt fuck with it if i was in pack. his innocence meshes more well with ignorance. AND FOR FUCKS SAKE LET THIS MAN BE FUCKING SINGLE

also this was added in post: he's best on screen when he has other people with him to actually show he had some kind of personality besides "me help people" is what I've noticed. specifically stiles, derek and isaac tbh. i think one of my fav scott moments is "im the hot girl 🙂" and isaac saying "yes you are 👍🏽"

Stiles now we all know stiles, the best friend, the brains of the operation, the sarcastic and funny one who lightens the mood. Now stiles is one of my favorites (surprise surprise) because he's not infuriating to me i dont think I've ever been frustrated with mr.stilinski. he's essentially scotts polar opposite but not really if you get what i mean ? idk i love him, moving on.

Allison- i like her. got on my nerves after her coocoo ass momma died but y know. i thought her and scott were cute and i would've liked her to stay alive

Lydia- my favorite banshee, smart, but for some reason is always being taken hostage, attacked, injured, and put into extremely horrifying situations and i dont think i like that.

Kira- personally my fav of scotts Gf's, i think she's cute, right amount of awkward, strong, interesting and i would've loved for her kitsune to have been able to kill somebody. jeff davis obviously did her dirty with her storyline that was apparently finished even though...we still didnt get to learn that much about her powers ? whatever im upset.

Liam- dont like him . moving on. also the long hair didnt grow on me and i dont think it will.

Jackson- eat shit and die.

coach- we love you.

monroe- i could write an entire 2 hour movie script on this hoe. bitch killed 1 hellhound and start feeling ha pussy and thinking she hot shit fuck this lil girl was annoying, moving on before i keep typing.

gerard- you got what the fuck yo old ass had coming to you

peter- we love an anti hero with a sense of humor 💕 and idc he would've wrecked everybody shit in season 1

kate- girl...you are a mess of a hoe. lemme stop there before i write a book on her too.

chris- ily

melissa- someone give her an award ASAP

sherrif- you were very on and off for me

derek- baby i missed you so much, leave scott musty ass and come pack this puss-

dread doctors- these fuckers used to put fear in my soul when i was little

deaton- i dont like how he's used as a plot device.

desert wolf- LMFAOOOO

malia- i like her because she's impulsive but sometimes those impulsive tendecies make me wanna stomp her head in the ground.

deucalion- also used a plot device after his season and then died for no reason. im so sorry for what this show did to you

im missing a lot but if you drop your opinions and names in the replies i'll share my opinion on whoever i missed

Thoughts on Theo? theo- hated his manipulative ass but he is so fine so it hurt me to be screaming and cursing at my tv when he was on screen. originally i was extremely irritated and annoyed when they brought him back cause i dont think he needed to be redeemed like at all, even though i appreciate that i can love him without him being a piece of shit it was unneeded i think . id still fuck him tho

scott pissed me off cause... is theo just a great liar or does scott just hate stiles ? why would he believe theo so easily yet not ask for stiles part of the story ? its like he forgets that stiles doesnt have claws and fangs and shit so of course he's gonna do what he does to survive when y'all can't protect him 🙄 i swear their werewolf hearing only works when the plot needs it too (ik they probably need to focus to enhance their hearing but still it's so annoying-) the season is essentially based on misunderstandings tbh. everyone's lying for no reason at all. but i do like how we actually get to see the effect of their mental health but this is also what i mean when i was talking about scotts fluctuating intelligence and how he's only smart when the plot needs him to be, how does he go from being the dimmest bulb in the box to being able to be in AP biology or whatever class it was. it makes no sense at all

”scott pissed me off cause... is theo just a great liar or does scott just hate stiles? why would he believe theo so easily yet not ask for stiles’ part of the story?” Because Scott McCall is a toxic friend and an even shittier werewolf (he couldn’t even detect Theo’s cheap lies and let himself be played like a fiddle throughout Season 5) And because Stiles doesn’t cater to Scott’s delusions of werewolf Jesus-hood and doesn’t stroke Scott’s ego like Theo does. Scott simply chose to believe the worst of his neurodivergent best friend – the boy who risked his own life to save his whiny ass countless times – because it suited his agenda, and because he’s pissed that Stiles didn’t share his own trauma with him like Scott wanted and demanded. SCOTT: We can’t kill the people that we’re trying to save! There’s always a choice! And yet Scott has no problem conspiring with Deucalion (Boyd and Erica’s murderer) behind everyone’s back to assassinate Josh and Tracy AND trying (but failing) to kill Gerard – selling Derek and his Pack out to the hunters, violating Derek, and using Derek as his own personal murder weapon to achieve that – just because “He threatened my mom! I had no choice!” A True Hypocrite indeed

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stereksecretsanta · 5 years ago

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Merry Christmas, @bzzfdnslvd!

Happy holidays @bzzfdnslvd! I hope you have a truly magical holiday filled with love and laughs! And I really hope you enjoy this fic! This ended up being a lot fluffier than I was planning for.

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possibilites

"What are you doing here Stiles?"

Stiles looked around the loft and sighed, "Listen, I know you're mad at Scott still for what he did, which you have every right to be, I'm not saying you shouldnt be. But. Uh he has no idea what he's doing and could really use some help and guidance"

"I tried to help him."

Stiles rolls his eyes, "Okay well your idea of helping didnt work."

Derek glares at him, "And what would you know?"

"I just think, to help him you should get to know him first. Make it a pack bonding thing! Or whatever. Bring Isaac, Erica, Boyd and Jackson into it."

Derek turns away a looks to the windows, Stiles walks over to him.

"Okay so maybe that's a bad idea but whatever. You're the alpha, you have to figure out someway for this to work"

Derek looks at him from the corner of his eye and sighs, "It's a good idea I'll grant you that."

"But?"

Derek folds his arm and turns to lean his hip against the table, "But Erica and Boyd left."

Stiles gapes at him, "Uh I thought they came back after Chris helped them escape?"

Derek leans into Stiles personal space, "Escape what?"

Stiles flinches backwards fingers twisting together, and Derek can smell as his anxiety spikes. He reaches out to put a hand on his shoulder, but let's it fall short.

"Oh uh. Okay. So. Thing is. When you were all dealing with Jackson and him dying or whatever uh Gerard kidnapped me and Erica and Boyd. He took me as a message to Scott and he was trying to get secrets from the other two about you. He had them chained up and had electricity running through them. Um. Chris came down after Gerard had left and let us all go. I thought they came to find you"

This time as Stiles breathing becomes faster and his eyes unfocus, Derek reaches out. He grabs Stiles shoulder and pulls him in to a rough hug. Cora used to have panic attacks when she was younger and the whole family learnt to help with them, close contact was always good for her and he hopes it helps Stiles. Stiles leans into the touch and places a hand on Derek's chest to feel him breathe. They stay like that for a few minutes as Stiles regulates his breathing. Stiles pulls back and wipes at his eyes.

"So if they didnt come to find you, where did they go?" He asks.

"I'm not sure but since I know their last location I should be able to track them".

Stiles nods, and turns to leave. Derek watches him as he walks to the door, and pauses turning back.

"Would you like some help? I know I'm not a wolf and a wolf would be better but I'm the Sheriff's son, I know this town almost as well as he does."

Derek nods, "Yeah I'll pick you up tomorrow."

Stiles nods and then leaves. Leaving Derek to contemplate the past few minutes and everything that happened. Him and Stiles have never exactly gotten along, they had worked together before but this time seemed different and Derek couldnt figure out how.

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The two of them spend the next week tracking Erica and Boyd's scent. It didn't seem to be leading them anywhere. The betas would've been injured but starting to heal. And Stiles can't figure out the trail they're taking. On the third day Derek brings along a map, that he puts Stiles in charge of. At the end of the week they had followed the beats track, and Stiles realised they were headed towards the Hale house. When Stiles told Derek he nodded like it made sense.

"How does even make sense?"

Derek sighs, "They'll be searching for me. And my scent. My scent is deep in that house, so it would make sense for them to go there."

Stiles nods, "Right I didn't think of it like that."

"Most humans wouldn't. Your sense of smell is dull compared to ours, and you don't know what it feels like to be drawn towards your alpha."

"Right, so you grew up with that? Feeling drawn to your mother?"

Derek nods, "Yeah it was like some invisible force pulling you towards them. You want to do what they say, it can be weird when you don't grow up with it. But for us it was normal"

Stiles nods and together they make their way back towards his jeep. Over the past week he can feel Derek letting his guard down, talking more and giving out details of his life and werewolves willingly. It had been nice, and Stiles hopes it doesn't end. He likes this little friendship they've got, he just hopes Derek can't tell how interested he is in him. And if he does, well Stiles just hopes he doesn't bring it up.

They drive towards the old Hale house. First in silence, but soon Stiles is tapping against the steering wheel, and he's sure Derek can smell the anxiety coming off him.

Derek reaches over and turns the radio on, bring the volume down to a low murmur, he places his hand on the back on Stiles neck, thumb lightly brushing up and down. Stiles tenses slightly but as Derek continues he slowly becomes less anxious.

Derek points out the turn to the Hale house after Stiles almost missed it, and they both wait as Stiles drives, for the moment when they find Erica and Boyd. Derek is leaning forward, eyes focused, head slightly tilted to listen and Stiles is not at all thinking about dogs.

Stiles parks back from the house, Derek gets out first and starts for the house. Stiles gets out and waits, if there are two wolves in there he's not sure it's the right place for him. As he waits he looks around. Noticing an old flower bed and and what looks to be an herb garden. And old rusted swing set towards the back. And tyre swing hanging from a tree near the front of the house. He thinks about the lives the Hales lived here and feels sad that it ended so abruptly.

Loud growling can be heard coming from the house and then a high pitched whining. Stiles focuses all his attention on the house, taking a few steps forward when no other noise is made. He walks forward and slowly walks in.

"Derek?"

"This way Stiles," Derek calls back

Stiles follows Derek's voice to the back of the house. He looks into the room to see Derek, Boyd and Erica cuddled on the ground. He wishes he could take a photo of this moment.

Erica looks up eyes flashing, "Stiles you found us."

Stiles smiles, "Yeah I didn't know you were lost."

"Thank you," Boyd nods.

Stiles nods back and catches Derek's eyes, they both smile at each other.

"Can you help me take these two back to mine?"

Stiles scoffs, "Of course, c'mon you lot."

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Three days later, Derek sends Stiles a text asking him to come over. Stiles texts back and tells him he'll be there within the hour. He heads down stairs to where he can hear his Dad in the kitchen.

"Hey kid, where are you off to today?"

And Stiles decides to be honest, he doesn't want to lie to his dad anymore. "I'm going to Derek's."

John puts his cup down on the table, "And why would you be doing that?"

"Listen Dad, there's a lot I have to tell you, about this past year specifically, and it's going to be rough and you're not going to believe me. So I'm going to go to Derek's for a bit and when I come back I want to bring him with me so we can tell you everything."

"Seems reasonable. You know you can tell me you're bisexual though right?"

Stiles sputters, "What?"

John scoffs, "Oh kid please, your mother and I knew for years."

"Well that saves a lot but can we have this conversation later? I've got to go and I want to save myself some embarrassment."

"Wait aren't we already having that talk later?"

"No we're having a different talk. Oh my god what is my life anymore." Stiles mutters as he walks out of the house without waiting for a response from his Dad.

Stiles leaves the house and tries not to think of his father and their conversation. He drives to Derek loft, eager to see him after not seeing him for a few days. And it's crazy how used to him Stiles is, how much he genuinely enjoys Derek's company, he likes the guy. Stiles just hopes they can stay friends.

He parks beside Derek's car and walks in. He wonders if anyone else lives here? He's never seen anyone else, but there's always cars outside, and it looks like a decent industrial apartment. He doesn't stop to knock he just walks on in. Derek is on a couch, reading a book, and when did Derek decorate?

"Does anyone else live in this building or is it just you? Also when did you decorate? You have a TV? And a couch? Dude who are you?"

Derek chuckles, "Hello Stiles nice to see you too. I'm good thanks for asking. Yes there are other people who live here, just down on the lower floors. And Erica made me decorate, said she wouldn't live here if it looked like this, and well it's Erica how could I refuse?"

Stiles grins, "What a good alpha."

Derek throws his book at Stiles, intentionally missing him, "Oh ha ha very funny."

Stiles grabs the book from the floor and places it on the table as he sits on the couch. He takes a deep breath, "I need your help telling my Dad everything"

Stiles looks up to see Derek looking at him, "Are you sure about this? Once he knows there's no taking it back"

He sighed, "I know but I can't keep lying to him."

Derek nods, "I'll help you"

Stiles sags against the couch, relieved he doesn't have to do it himself.

"I also wanted to talk to you." Derek says, turning in his seat so he's facing Stiles.

Stiles sits up and mirrors him, "Okay?"

"I've thought a lot about what you said when you first came here, and I think you're right. I need to find someway to bond with my pack and for them to bond with each other. What do you think of a movie night? Just to start with?"

Stiles smiles and reaches out to grab Derek's hand, "I think it's a wonderful idea Derek".

Derek nods, turning his hand to hold Stiles hand'. And Stiles tries to ignore the way his heart starts thumping in his chest. Derek has a small smile on his face, looking down. Stiles doesn't dare say anything, he doesn't want this moment to end. Derek brings their hands close to his face and kisses the back of Stiles hand. Stiles stares and wonders where this is leading.

"I want to talk about something else too."

"Yeah?" Stiles whispers.

"Yeah," Derek pauses, "about the possibility of an us."

Stiles stops breathing.

"But if we do, we take it slow, and set boundaries. You're underage, and we're going to tell your Dad and do this right, okay?" Derek looks up at him, face open and hopeful.

"Yes, yeah I'd love that" Stiles grins at Derek and leans forward to kiss his cheek.

Both of them turn towards the stairs when there's a flash to see Erice running back up the stairs, her giggles fading. They both shake their head, neither of them minding, and lean against each other to watch a movie.

#bzzfdnslvd #*stereksanta18 #*fics19 #*gifts19

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eaexu · 5 years ago

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The Light // Lincoln x Olive

He stood out in the frigid Boston air, his suit all too formal for the dive he occupied. The night had been filled with his father. Micheal was in town, and it was time to make a show. The thoughts of the night played through his head in flashes. He didnt bring a date, wanting to subject absolutely no one he even remotely knew of to the man who called himself Lincolns father. There had been quiet symphonies played through billowing halls; and more money spent on alcohol than the average American household will see in a lifetime. He had partaken in its fancy, and hated himself for it. Being the picture perfect son for the mere ten minutes he was in the same room as his father was enough to make him want to run home and scour his skin, scrub at it til it bled, boil it until it blistered, get it off his body and forget the imprint it left on him.

He couldnt do any of those things. So he opted for a silent exit, and a four mile walk. He just needed to walk, he didnt care that it was so cold his bones ached, he didnt care that the snow hit his face like tiny knives that cut at his cheeks. To Lincoln it was simultaneously forgettable, and the punishment he deserved. When his legs wouldnt carry him anymore he stopped in and grabbed a pint of beer, finishing it in two gulps, paying for everyones tabs silently, and making his way back into the cold. Leaving the bar somehow colder than when he had entered it. The flashes wouldnt stop, the maddeningly ignorant things said to him, the displays of wealth, the in your face displays of one-up-manship. He was tired, it hit him like a ton of bricks. He could have slumped against the side of the building and slept there through the night, not worrying if he froze, if it meant he could get some rest.

No matter his state he knew he couldnt just pass out. He secretly would love the headlines, even if from beyond the grave. Lincoln Connors found frozen to death after having fallen asleep outside of local dive. The shame it would bring his father. He had to actively push the thought from his head. He pulled his pack of cigarettes from his jacket pocket, bringing one of the filters to his lips. As he lit the cigarette, the nicotine mixed with the freezing air in his lungs and brought a fire through his body he was grateful for. Thats when he heard her speak up, confidently, no hesitation. “dont you think youre going to get away with paying my tab” she said as she approached. “whats your deal?” she asked motioning for the lighter in his hand as she brought the cigarette to her black painted lips. Her eyes narrowed at him and it intrigued him, he had never had this response to paying off a tab. He couldnt even think about it, as she motioned for his lighter he readily handed it over to her. Not opting to light her cigarette for her, something menacing about her told him that to do so would not be in his best interest.

He coughed just a little bit, more to clear his throat than anything else. Lincolns blue eyes searched her face, trying to get any sense of familiarity between the two. The exhaustion had clouded his brain so completely that for a moment he thought he knew her, that she had name like Daniel, or Isaac, some bible name, that she had been intertwined with his lover. The idea of it as his wits came back about him brought a cracked smile to his lips. “I dont have a deal” he stated with as genuine a look as he could muster. “just wanted to” he shrugged. He took another drag from his cigarette and tried to place her once more. He could have sworn he had pulled one of her curly black strands of hair from Elias’ silk pillow cases. His brain was still betraying him, his lover.. with a woman? He was surely on the brink of total aneurysm. Lincoln smiled once more, and resigned to asking the stranger her name. “Do I know you?” he asked with a quirked brow, blowing rings of smoke from his lips.

#thelight #lincoln x olive #wowowow dont leave me alone with myself??? I get out of hand?? and like I know this is going to be the longest thread in existence cause my #plans for olive are long af too??#also so sorry for the pain???#cause like??? heartbroken and damaged and shell shocked Lincoln is my fave to write??? but like it hurts more than anything else I have ever #written in my life???

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somnilogical · 5 years ago

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i am prepared to face god this instant

in the case of the native americans, in a counterfactual world where every native human could would do with their muscles what they would yell at a book character in their situation to do with their mouth. where people could would make choices from a third person point of view and then carry out the choices. where when asked by an interrogator for the names of your rebel companions, you say you will know them when they come to avenge me.

<<On 8 Feb 1943, the Nazis hung 17-year-old Yugoslav partisan Lepa Radić. When asked the names of her companions, she replied: “You will know them when they come to avenge me”.>>

<<N. Stolyarova recalls an old woman who was her neighbor on the Butyrki bunks in 1937. They kept on interrogating her every night. Two years earlier, a former Metropolitan of the Orthodox Church, who had escaped from exile, had spent a night at her home on his way through Moscow. “But he wasn’t the former Metropolitan, he was the Metropolitan! Truly, I was worthy of receiving him.” “All right then. To whom did he go when he left Moscow?” “I know, but I won’t tell you!” (The Metropolitan had escaped to Finland via an underground railroad of believers.) At first the interrogators took turns, and then they went after her in groups. They shook their fists in the little old woman’s face, and she replied: “There is nothing you can do with me even if you cut me into pieces. After all, you are afraid of your bosses, and you are afraid of each other, and you are even afraid of killing me.” (They would lose contact with the underground railroad.) “But I am not afraid of anything. I would be glad to be judged by God right this minute.”

There were such people in 1937 too, people who did not return to their cell for their bundles of belongings, who chose death, who signed nothing denouncing anyone.>>

<<One can’t say that the history of the Russian revolutionaries has given us any better examples of steadfastness. But there is no comparison anyway, because none of our revolutionaries ever knew what a really good interrogation could be, with fifty-two different methods to choose from. Just as oxcart drivers of Gogol’s time could not have imagined the speed of a jet plane, those who have never gone through the receiving-line meat grinder of Gulag cannot grasp the true possibilities of interrogation.

We read in Izvestiya for May 24, 1959, that Yuliya Rumyantseva was confined in the internal prison of a Nazi camp while they tried to find out from her the whereabouts of her husband, who had escaped from that same camp. She knew, but she refused to tell! For a reader who is not in the know this is a model of heroism. For a reader with a bitter Gulag past it’s a model of inefficient interrogation: Yuliya did not die under torture, and she was not driven insane. A month later she was simply released—still very much alive and kicking.>>

-alexander solzhenitsyn, the gulag archipelago

if all or even a majority of native americans near the missions had this neurotype, then what id suggest would be for everyone to move away from the missions and if captured refuse to work to the point of death. the missions need slave labour in order to exist and without people to feed on and with long supply lines, they would be undone and people would be free from the largest human-unfriendly institution of the era.

and the outcome would be better than ~60 years of slavery. this is choosing between timelines

somni why do you care about freedom? freedom is like ability-to-live. if people were like "well who cares about the global slavery-and-submission-and-stasis cult" until catholicism actually took over the world, the world would be much worse and we would never get to the stars.

you could say "whats the point, everyone gets assimilated to whatever the social order is now which is driving us all to doom" but like if you are in 1800s america after you keep the world ending for a set of tribes, you work on societal tech to keep it from ending in other ways and landing in this patch of equilibrium-space in the first place.

its like the difference between choosing between timelines and wondering if perhaps the money could be better spent sustaining the lives of those who could be locally saved. there are other organizing principles for moral reasoning besides these, and more than i have thought of so far. i suspect locating new ones is a spatially-loaded skill.

ben hoffman was using the choosing between consistent timelines kind of thinking when he quoted deuteronomy 30:19 in his post about REACH

http://benjaminrosshoffman.com/humans-need-places/

<<I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live.>>

https://www.sefaria.org/Deuteronomy.30.19?lang=bi&aliyot=0

which in context of the passage is exactly the same cognition that would benefit the natives to resist the world's largest human-unfriendly subjugation org and live to iteratively squirm out of these sorts of tangles in the future.

<<See, I set before you this day life and prosperity, death and adversity.

For I command you this day, to love the LORD your God, to walk in His ways, and to keep His commandments, His laws, and His rules, that you may thrive and increase, and that the LORD your God may bless you in the land that you are about to enter and possess.

But if your heart turns away and you give no heed, and are lured into the worship and service of other gods,

I declare to you this day that you shall certainly perish; you shall not long endure on the soil that you are crossing the Jordan to enter and possess.

I call heaven and earth to witness against you this day: I have put before you life and death, blessing and curse. Choose life—if you and your offspring would live—

by loving the LORD your God, heeding His commands, and holding fast to Him. For thereby you shall have life and shall long endure upon the soil that the LORD swore to your ancestors, Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give to them.>>

if native americans had social tech which could better survive slavery and forced relocation, maybe things would be different today.

which, this can be cast in a zero-sum frame of having your group survive versus everyone elses which runs against antinationalist heuristics.

but if you are planning to manufacture a pattern which revolutionizes the world, for the good of all life, it is instrumentally useful to avoid assimilation and submission destroying this work.

this applies to multi-generational projects as well as within-a-lifetime choices. if you choose to submit and assimilate and erase all work and structure you have built, each time someone wants to feed on you, then you i (0.7) dont think can really sustain your work.

i wonder if with this worlds distribution of neurotypes, such that maybe most humans cant run consequentialism through a rawlsian veil where they forget which human inherits the label "me" on their muscles. im somewhat optimistic that even those who cant wont make their muscles move according to this, can locate the correct answer.

though there is i think a habit among people whose neurotypes have issues to retroactively rationalize (FAKE REASONING, STORIES) that because you are unable to make your body wont choose your death over the death of three of your friends, equally or more useful to the flourishing of all life, it doesnt make sense to choose your death over theirs.

linta mentioned that they couldnt imagine knowing the right thing to do and then not doing it. that they dont have a gap between these things save for akrasia, i think it is because the gap is filled with fractally expanding justifications of the form "but you cant really expect a human being to give up their life for the sake of their companions, you need to be reasonable and work with humans who exist".

human neurodiversity exists, as a matter of historical fact not all humans have the same weaknesses. in hpmor!metaphor, some people are hermione granger and wont zap people in the milgram compliance test.

and building plans predicated on people who need to divert resources to local stuff because of their neurotype, will replace "if this were a story what plans would i yell at my character do?" with "what would someone who cant run consequentialism through a rawlsian veil, see in 3rd person and then act in harmony with this do?" "someone who needs to divert resources to babies and not personally dying, do?" "what if everyone were like this?"

labeling the latter as "what will happen if everyone is running consequentialism, playing as if from 3rd person and wants humanity to win?" is a distortion of what is going on and compounds as institutions are built on it and the boundaries of what good could be done are strictly smaller than the reach of what good could be done irl.

by the way, the milgram experiment replicated in 2015 poland. gotta check with the replication crisis.

https://qz.com/932110/researchers-have-replicated-a-notorious-social-experiment-that-claimed-to-explain-the-rise-of-fascism/

<<It is exceptionally interesting that in spite of the many years which have passed since the original Milgram experiments, the proportion of people submitting themselves to the authority of the experimenter remains very high. The result of 90% obedience which we have achieved, 95% CI [83.43%, 96.57%], is very close to the number of people pressing the 10th button in the original Milgram studies. For example, in Milgram’s (1974) Experiment No. 2, replicated in our study, 34 of 40 people pressed Button No. 10 (85% of participants, the 95% CI extends from 70.54% to 93.32%).>>

one of my moms who studies fascism once told me she thinks 40-60% of people have as their ideology that they will imitate those in power, and will go along with Power in times of an authoritarian takeover. they believe that they will eat rather than be eaten. given my experience and things like the milgram test, i think its closer to 90-95%.

reading grognor's memorial page it looked like he was very fucked up by the fact that he could do a rawlsian veil consequentialism thought experiment, where he saw himself in third person or forgot which agent was "him" and "his family" and then notice that his muscles werent moving in harmony with the logic of the results.

<<are you doing the best thing you could possibly be doing? why not?

become good

SPEAK TRULY, EVEN IF YOUR VOICE TREMBLES

you continue to underestimate the harm you have done and are doing

are you doing the best thing you could possibly be doing? why not?

The tools you have available are cognitive actions and motor actions. Use them to immanentize the eschaton. You have one life

if you were an alien suddenly transposed into your current body, what would you do now?

Pretend with every thought and action to be a much better person. Reach heaven through fraud.>>

https://grognor.github.io/archives.html

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linusdeathtips · 5 years ago

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i feel like a dick bc i just noticed @rottenpossvm tagged me in this but i still wanna do it so here it is a week after the fact

Nickname: eli, el

Zodiac: cap/aquarius cusp

Height: 5′2" - 5'4" idk ive tried to measure myself like 9 times and its different every fucking time

Last Thing Searched: postnord tracking number

Favorite Musicians: rammstein, marilyn manson, tool, failure, nin, pain, lindemann, gojira, qotsa, skyhill, just p much half the industrial genre

Song Stuck in Head: steh auf - lindemann

If you had a time machine, would you go back in time or visit the future?: future bc i wanna see if i get out of this bullshit lmao

Do I Get Asks: no and im fine with that

Following: close friends, stupid bullshit blogs, 90s nostalgia shit

Would you rather be rich or famous? rich, i dont wanna be famous i hate having attention on me

Amount of Sleep: its a gamble, could be 4 hours could be 12

Lucky Number: 15

What I’m Wearing: black leggings, big fuckin x-files shirt, NIN beanie

Dream Job: suppermariobroth but for the sims 1, or archiving/working w old 90s/early 2000s tech

Dream Trip: i know its cliche as fuck but ive gone pretty much everywhere i wanna go except japan

If you were an animal, what would you be?: raccoon. opposable thumbs, dig thru trash and no one cares

Favorite Food: cheeseburgers but i cannot have cheeseburgers right now so

What are some of your favorite books/films/shows/games/etc? books: a series of unfortunate events, uhh mostly just crime novels and YA fiction that im definitely too old to be enjoying (except for fantasy genre like dragons and wizards i hate that shit) films: pretty much anything david fincher makes, a series of unfortunate events, uhh theres more but i cant think right now shows: archer, mindhunter, law and order svu, 24, futurama, better call saul/breaking bad, preacher games: vampire the masquerade bloodlines, the sims 1 (the only actually good sims game), portal, half life, binding of isaac, animal crossing, pokemon (up to gen 4), hotline miami, fallout, metal gear solid, gtav, borderlands, i need to stop im just naming franchises now

Play Any Instruments: minimal amounts of guitar and bass because i gave up playing

Languages: english, german, i can read TINY amounts of swedish but like not even enough to matter

Describe Yourself as Aesthetics: i was gonna say "think back to the family computer room running windows 98 when you were a kid and it was raining out and you couldnt use the dial up bc mom was on the phone so you just made your own fun" but then i remember im too old to be here and like half the people on the website dont know what thats like so i guess my answer is whatever a solo jazz cup would look like if it listened to swedish death metal

@gothartdad @oxycontln @arrestzelle @chainwip @toesferatu

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ts-akhmim · 4 years ago

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Episode 2 | “GET ME OUT OF HERE ” - Devon

okay so i filmed a video confessional earlier which is uploading where i basically talked about dealing with being a winner/the tomb and having an idol/potentially wanting to go to tribal pre-swap/deliberately choosing the puzzle/how much i love jake so that'll come at some point after this but just KNOW that came first. anyway just wanted to talk MORE because i have more thoughts. last round i was really conscious of needing to micro-manage my threat level and i think im putting in work to do that? im very concious that i cant play the same game as montenegro because im coming into it from a very different perspective/position. However, one thing I can do this season is transfer my prejury game, because i think it still works. What I need to do is to some extent take a backseat, where I'm not actively messaging people first, and keeping game talk kinda limited (but acknowledging it when people talk to me). Like I have the safety cushion of my idol, and my connection to jake/jordan, and to some extent dan and lovelis? like im not gonna be a target (touch wood) and hopefully if i am my men tm going to keep an eye out for me.... hopefully? it also means im not gonna be pushy about votes im gonna hear names and run with it (as long as its not jake/jordan, or lovelis tbh i get real good vibes from him). but yeah id really love the beauty tribe to go to tribal this round ive literally never spoken to a single one of them so i'd love one of that tribe that is a complete unknown quantity to go home DJDKLFSF. but yis so im feeling good taking a backseat but im gonna ejector seat myself forwards at some point, just got to figure out when to push the button

Okay so Bodhi left last night and that was really sad. We had nice conversations but i told him that if the rest of the tribe wanted him out i wasn't going to campaign for him. He ended up making his rounds but at the end of the day, no one felt strongly about keeping him. He speaks so well that it took me a night's rest to get my head straight. Also Trace got an alliance together of himself, myself, Scott and Isaac. Bitch i was SHOOK! I am so glad to be likable enough to be brought into someone else's core. So this kind of perfectly positioned myself and Scott between 2 alliances. I believe we're both more loyal to the one we formed before we found out we were going to tribal, but who knows. I did tell Autumn of the news because i figure if we were to lose again. Whichever of Isaac of Trace remains is going to feel on bottom and blow up that Scott and I were two-timing the DADS. Btw that is the dumbest alliance name I have ever been a part of but whatever. The rat pack has also formed and now him and I are in a good spot. I will say that i am nervous that MISS ALYSSA spoke the comparison into existence, but i really hope we don't continue to flop like Luzon did on Cagayan. But hey! If Denise can go to every tribal council in one season and win, maybe i can too. (PS i pissed myself with my score in winterbells but also F*CK WINTERBELLS, thats all, ty)

Honestly I’m really regretting not participating in this challenge because I feel like our scores are.......not great. I feel like I could have turned out the puzzle and even winterbells. The flag Lovelis made is super cute and i think will fair well bc it’s very clean and neat. It’s not super creative, but it’s definitely well made. I think even if we went to tribal I would be okay though. Liam seems like an easy enough boot for us. No one seems that dazzled by his contributions to the tribe.

i literally am the biggest clown who ever clowned for continuing to overdo it in challenges, if i'm allowed to make it to merge at this point it will literally be a miracle.

So Bodhi left on a unanimous vote yesterday and I'm glad that it worked out as planned! I definitely felt bad lying to him about it all and stuff, but I think it was the best for the tribe going forward. What does suck however is that we lost AGAIN! And it was actually close this time! I'm actually annoyed that we lost this time because I submitted my challenge at 4PM and the reason why we lost was because the last submission was at 8 :/ like... y'all couldn't get it in any earlier? Plus I'm annoyed because I find myself in the swing position between the DADS and The Rat Pack. Personally I don't trust Trace after finding out he tried to play the Rat Pack off as my idea when it was really his all along. To me, it shows that he'd betray me later on down the line. And the only purpose for "The Rat Pack" is so they feel like they're in the majority. So since we lost, I don't mind voting out Trace. Duncan and I called to confirm that we're on the same page. We also found out that Devon is telling us the same things about loyalty and allegiances and I don't like that. He also told Duncan that he would throw immunities and play idols for him if he needed it, and that Duncan was his number 1 ally. But he said the same exact thing to me. So... that has me a little sketch. But I also think that Autumn/Duncan are a close pair, so I may need to stick close to Devon for the long hall. But if Autumn/Duncan think I'm more with them than Devon, I'll take it. I'm supposed to go on call with the Dads soon. Duncan wants to tell them about the rat alliance so that Isaac doesn't use it as motive to get us out. Which i agree that it'd be a good idea as long as devon/autumn stick with us. Duncan and I both feel like Devon might be thrown off since he always likes to be in control, but not actually being in charge. So we'll need to do damage control when that happens. But for now it seems like Trace is going unless things change. If things go how I would want it to, then Trace leaves tomorrow.

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Omg!!!!! Another win that makes me so happy . The tribe is all getting along great and I couldnt all for better ppl. I'm hoping soon to get some kind of solid group together. Kendell adam and amiry are ppl I def wanna work with long term at the time. Just gotta see what happens.

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Not much has been happening lately so I might be able to keep this short and not ramble on and on like i usually do (ill still end up writing a novel probably) yippy yay it's day 5 and everything is still all smiles and giggles over here because we've won yet another immunity!! kinda boring tbh but obviously im happy we won immunity because now that buys me one more day and at the end of it that's all i care about. I kinda did want the brauns to go to tribal however instead of the brains because i just really would like my beauties to get a nice foot hold and a lead in the game, i actually enjoy taking to some of these people, and im trying my best to talk to as many people as i can, which anyone who knows me knows isn't the easiest thing for me, i was reading some of my old confessionals from both my past games and the one thing i consistently got dragged for was not being as present with people, which granted i did improve a lot on last time around for sure, but i still got work to do and im realizing that more each day when i have no urge whatsoever to talk to anyone (don't worry, it's not you, it's (crippling depression) me! I understand socializing is part of the game and i do think my social game is my strongest asset but to me i like to think of my social game as a more distinct kind, im more elusive and i like to be that, if you leave them wanting more dahling they'll keep you around, i dont like to show all my cards, and that's a quality that i reflect in both survivor and life, and it has advantages and disadvantages in both but ANYWHO despite all that dare i say i think im still doing *decent* ? I'm making it a priority to reach out at least once a day to *most people (AJ, Augusto, Amir, Austin) are the ones ive probably had some of the best conversations with where it was the most natural and just flowed you know, and still is on day 5, and with kendall ive had some talks with her i do like her but idk i get this vibe she's kinda holding back when talking to me, and ESPECIALLY same with connor? we only had one private conversation and he gave me about a 3 word response, and if you havent guessed by now i like elaboration or at least a lil bit of personality when you talk, no shade just an observation, so that's a small red flag im very much a person who matches energy, one of my go to's in survivor is being open to the possibility of anything, ill always work with anyone who will work with me, and i think thats how everyone should play so hopefully the people ive been talking a lot to feel similar but i guess we'll have to wait until a vote of some sort to see about all that.. I still havent heard any idol talk or even game talk quite frankly so im guessing people are just still keeping the friendly facade up..... or ...... is it me?? am i the one on the outs looking like boo boo the fool or is that just my paranoia getting to me??? im not gonna send myself into a tizzy about getting voted out when we're not even going to tribal i- lemme calm down. If i had to guess I'd say Kendall, Connor, or Amir have the idol probably but sounds like a mystery for another day because im DONE im clocking out for the night until other people wanna wake up and play the game too oop final note: ok but it would be sick and twisted if it turns out they are all playing the game just without me and im the first boot of the tribe

Waking up on this glorious Day 5 with a new perspective. I originally applied to be on the brains tribe and was shook when I got brawn because let’s face it, my arms are akin to overcooked spaghetti noodles. BUT my tribe is so much stronger than the brains. I’m hoping for a big name to go to shake things up. AND I’m not really looking to swap onto a tribe with Trace or Autumn due to our past game history. Love them both dearly, but it’s gonna be a no from me.

okie so! update from me is i think im doing okay. like i think the benefit of no dua lipa cave is you can just build connections with everyone, you aren't voting someone out every round so why not capitalise on that? i'm so afraid of the fact that i'm overdoing it in challenges like i really need to calm. down. but im reassuring myself with the fact that in the first challenge i only was top because i did like... one more thing than others like its not thattt big of a deal? my puzzle time was clownery but hopefully people don't pay attention to it? im getting very anxious about overdoing it in challenges, but my thought process now is like. i need to act like people have an awareness of it, without getting kinda consumed by my anxiety about it? idk im hoping since most of these people don't know me, they wont notice me doing good in the challenge but truly who can be sure also am really just liking my tribe? like jake is ofc a king, i love jordan (who im gonna talk to later, he is the only one i feel like i have to talk to today), i also really like TJ who i was super harsh on at the start for no reason, i get good ally vibes from lovelis, liam m is super sweet even tho he is kinda inactive and dan is so fun (plus he told jake that he speaks to me one of the most so we love that!!). i've been trying to figure out what i even do about a lot of the super old school players that i have no connection/point of reference with? like people like scott, adam, kendall, aj i have truly no basis with? thats whats so scary about a swap, is at this point in the game i know 10/20 people left aka the brawn tribe + duncan/isaac/autumn, and like 10/20 isnt bad... BUT then the other 10 aka the beauty tribe + trace/scott/devon i have literally no connection to which is super scary JAKSDFA. im just real afraid of a swap. just swap me with jordan/jake/autumn/isaac PLEATHE. im just a pile of anxiety this season idk what to do im like frozen because of how scared i am... maybe it'll be all fine

Well, that was a close one. I struggled with that comp all day and I feel like absolute shit that I only got our team that 1 point. To me, it's inexcusable not to have be able to help my tribe as I wanted to contribute and make sure I made my worth known. So now I'm just this paranoid mess that I would have been in trouble had we gone to tribal. It's been hard to talk to some of these people or for most of those who I do talk to, I just don't really know where there head is at. I'm not sure if this is just a really guarded tribe, or if I really should be concerned. So I don't know what to do just yet. And that's not a feeling I like when playing TS.

Not gonna lie, I’m pretty sad that Bodhi left the game like he was so active pre-season so I was expecting him to do his best to go super far and maybe he did? I don’t know, but I did want a chance to actually get to play with him in TS but we keep passing each other by! I hope he is doing good despite how he might feel being the first boot yknow but yeah <3

The way I absolutely flopped with the idol system stuff is all types of funny and sad at the same time like I REALLY thought I did something only for it to be part of the challenge… That being said, Amir did tell me that he has a theory the idol system might be based on numbers which is interesting! I am super thankful he decided to tell me and we went on this long talk about how we are each other’s #1s which is super cute! I really do trust Amir and I do want to go far with him because he’s awesome but that being said, my #1 is me like I promised myself that I’d be selfish this time around just because being the selfless person I am hasn’t gotten me a win but we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it. We did go over a lot of stuff in terms of tribe dynamics and we both kinda agreed that AJ would be the first boot from the time if we went to tribal, we like our alliance with Kendall/Connor, we both like Adam and we both think Austin is sweet/genuine even if we don’t talk to him tons so yay for that too <3

I am SO trying to sell the fact that me and Kendall are a duo to Kendall which is funny to me idk hjfkds like she did approach me super early on about aligning but I do have the tiniest feeling she did that to mostly everyone but I’m trying to pin us with each other to her so she trusts me more, especially since I do feel as though she is the best connected on the tribe. I even called us Crystal Cox (me bc blazing speed and challenge flop ofc) and Ken(dell) ghfjdksl, I’m doing the most but yeah, I just want Kendall to see me as her #1 in the game on the off chance anything happens yknow?

Austin thinks I’m his #1 which is really sweet? I do like Austin even if it is hard to talk to him sometimes but hey, that happens. He told me that he’s really glad I’m on this tribe (which I have heard from basically everyone especially Adam and Amir which makes me feel cute omg) and that we might need to get a group going soon. I was like…. Tea but I also don’t know how quickly I want to get an alliance including Austin going just because it’s like… do I reveal that Austin and I are close-ish and be seen as a social threat? That just ain’t cute sis! But yeah, Austin told me he also really likes Kendall and Amir and that’s awesome that the two people I feel the closest to are ALSO doing THAT but at the same time, I want to be the one doing THAT the most because I’m greedy (by Ariana Grande) so it’s something to keep in mind!

The way I absolutely flopped at that puzzle… this is why I’m a Beauty cause a sis ain’t smart to complete a puzzle and I’m not brawn-y enough to do well in a challenge hgjfdk BUT that being said, Hagthor beat the thots and apiss and I couldn’t be any happier! I do wish Brawn lost over Brain but yknow, you can’t have everything go your way (‘: it’s funny how I slayed the last challenge and flopped this one tho like a bitch really lacks consistency huh ghfjndmks

Ugh fineeeee since I've been called out... by myself. I guess I'll do the bare minimum. So we won immunity!!!! Wooo!!!!!! Low-key though through out the entire process of making the flag, I just kept thinking darn I wish we voted out someone last tribal because drawing 7 people is annoying... watch me get voted out next tribal council lol. That would be quality foreshadowing. Today I have two goals. 1. Figure out what the method of entering the tomb. I intend on getting in contact with Augusto or Connor for that one. Augusto because he is low-key my number one. Connor because I feel if anyone can solve it he probably could. 2. Set up group chat with me, Augusto, and Austin. So Austin can feel a false sense of reassurance and Augusto and I have options. Write more later maybe.

Honestly im feeling kind of trepidatious going forward which is a little wierd, i just dont feel like ive gotten my footing yet in this game. I think like, im in a good spot to be fine on this tribe because of my social game and how I contribute in challenges, but I dont know if I feel good about anything longterm just yet. What really is bothering me is the tomb. Its gonna be round 3 tonight and I haven't made any more progress on getting in than I have night one. I feel like I have a lot of pieces to this puzzle but nothing is fitting together and its bothering me. I'm also a little upset that if we lose, I could see Liam being the target and I can't see my self risking my position to save him if he cant save himself. He has my name on his wiki page its an obvious association to me, and while I think hed be loyal to me, I'm just wondering honestly if him as an ally is worth the target it may bring. Im cautiously moving through the beginning of this game with a lot of unnease and hopefully I find some steady ground soon.

I am annoyed that we are yet again at tribal. I played so fucking hard at winter bells but of course someone on another tribe got like 238593277 billion which threw us back into tribal... So annoying truthfully. But it's alright, I should be able to make it out alive. I want Devon to go home. But I also don't want to let my guard down. This vote is important for a few reasons. The first reason is that our tribe is very close, so I am nervous that lines are going to be drawn in the sand. The second is that, after this vote, we will be down to five, making 3 the majority. We have an alliance of 4, and lord knows that when you are down to 5, whoever feels like 3 and 4 of the alliance are most likely going to try and rope in the 5th person to get rid of each other. So my plan is to make Isaac and Scott BOTH feel as though they are my number 1s so that they actually stick to our alliance of 4 thinking that I will be keeping them both if we lose again. This is the only way that i can see it working, but idk. I feel bad if Devon ends up going because he's a nice guy, but we have to make choices about strengthening our team, and then I have to make a choice about strengthening my place in the game. Hopefully this doesn't come to bite me in the ass.

Things have been going pretty well for my tribe! We won the first immunity challenge and that really seemed to boost tribe morale. Granted, these past couple of days I've been quiet since I'm trying to boost grades that are literally 0s into something manageable before I graduate hehe. I've tried to keep up with people through small conversations, which seems to work better for me at the moment until I get myself together. Adam wants to create an alliance with Augusto and Amir, which I'm totally for. I understand, though, that he doesn't wanna do it immediately since there's really no urgency to? We didn't go to tribal, so why did it matter! That excuse aside, I do hope that us holding our breath to say something doesn't bite us in the ass because these are people I want to work with! I wanna get something going with Kendall as well hopefully, since I adore her! Earlier, I stated that Adam and I (Adam, really) found our way into the tomb and both flopped in the questions. Adam took another stab at it and found out we've been bamboozled! Someone beat us to the punch and has whatever contents were inside the tomb. I'm assuming it was an idol, but who knows what else is in there! It kinda made me lose motivation to keep searching inside but when in Rome? I'll probably end up trying again despite knowing the end result just because I wanna prove I can be a smart cookie as well. I also didn't gloss over this but I'll mention it really quickly, but I'm sad Bodhi went! He was one of the few people I was familiar with on the other tribes so it's unfortunate we aren't going to be able to connect with each other this game. A king has fallen. In lighter and more recents events, my tribe crushed the second immunity challenge. Kendall stunned with her artistry and I'm still gushing over how cute everyone's character was. I kinda like decimated Winterbells, but I've always been good at the game, and Amir did really well in the scavenger hunt. Augusto and Austin did really well in the puzzle also, despite their lack of confidence in offering a strong performance. We appear to be THEE tribe to beat honestly and I'm loving that. I love our tribe! I LOVE OUR TRIBE! It really would be a tragedy if we aren't able to keep up this win streak we're manifesting.

Sorry for not writing this sooner! Been having a bad depressive episode for the last couple days and it makes me unmotivated to write c': I feel like a flop so far in this game, not because I submit shit scores, but because I find it exhausting to connect with some of these people. They're all very nice in their own special ways, but interacting w some is like pulling teeth, and I guarantee they feel the same about me, which I would expect. That being said, I hope we keep winning, cause I don't have the energy to go to tribal right now.

Heading into a second tribal council, there is becoming less and less room to hide. I am struggling to hold my own against the other tribes when it comes to competitions, but thank goodness it's a numbers game. If everything goes accordingly, I am taking a backseat this vote and allowing a 4-2 vote out when it comes to Trace. I appreciated Duncan coming to me with the alliance chat information with him/Scott/Trace/Isaac, but didn't like how Autumn needed to tell me first. Shows that I really can't trust Scott/Duncan after a swap comes up. In regards to Scott, he outright didn't say anything. I like him and all, but it was a slimy move to say the least. He only said something because he HAD to vote out someone in one of his two alliances. This group will be dumb as hell if they let me swap. I'll flip on them as soon as possible and invite anyone into my alliance. The tribe swap is where I made my 'Slithers' game infamous last time, so I'm hoping for a similar output. Don't forget: I swapped with the minority last time in Guyana (shout out to Jess), so I'm not worried about the numbers and how its split. ALL I NEED IS A SWAP OR TWIST. GET ME OUT OF HERE.

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Thank God we won that based on the tiebreaker, but yikes I didn't think my flag would've tanked so hard. Guess I've gotta get better at perfecting my craft huh, but at least we're safe. I feel nervous on this tribe to be honest, because I think I'm the second to bottom on the totem pole after the other Liam, so it isn't reassuring that if we lose twice I'll either be gone, or I could even be gone at our first tribal if he's got a solid alliance going...the only alliance I have right now is with Jordan and I don't really know where I sit with everyone else, but I'm afraid of overplaying... ugh so annoying! I think I just need to force a couple of game related conversations with people to build up some trust, just hope it wouldn't paint a target on my back for trying I guess...

oh gorl, some of these people on my tribe really think im just the clown of the tribe and cant put two and two together, well guess what, IM NOT. So Amir messages me, which nothing out of the ordinary there, ive been talking to him every day so far for the most part like i said we're a little familiar with each other from our pasts, but i was VERY surprised today at what had happened... what had happened was....he starts talking the smallest bit of game with me, basically he just said, "is it me or is everyone really quiet here?" and so i just agreed with him and i said yeah i dont think people are talking game yet which is a little weird, and then i threw the TINEST tea crumpet out there and i said "yeah ive talked to some people so easily like you, but then there's others who.....i cant say the same for" and i was absolutely hinting at connor/kendall just because i havent had the longest convos with them, which no biggie, but THEN about 20 minutes later i get a message from CONNOR of all people saying "hey adam!" ..... obviously im glad to talk to him and im all for getting to know everyone, but my instincts immediately went off and told me it's a little sus....how not even a few minutes ago i was saying how some people never talk to me and then out of no where the one person i was mainly talking about messages me?? Coincidences don't exist in survivor. Now I really have no choice but to think that amir in someway mentioned to connor that i said theres some people i havent talked to at all and that he probably needed to work on that.. which is true, but cmon. i know the tribe brain cell is missing but at least put a little thought into this and message me later tonight or not right after i say it?? I'm not sure if they have any type of past connection and while I definitely do wanna keep building my relationship with Amir, this will definitely make me question him a little bit at least until i see how some votes fall when we eventually go to tribal. Amir also told me he's had the most convos with Augusto, which is funny because thats exactly how both me and aj feel about augusto, which tells me augusto is really playing the game rn, and while thats someone i want to work with, it's also someone i need to be extremely careful with if we're still playing together down the road. plot twist: connor messaging me has absolutely nothing to do with amir and i just made this whole conspiracy for nothing but idk.... it's a conspiracy IM interested in.

***last add on because i forgot to say how the hell im gonna HANDLE this amir/connor situation... im keeping my eyes on it incase theyre in kahoots and also if they think im that dumb then clearly they havent watched me play before, which is great for me but bad for them, you cant trick a trickster try all you want, There's nothing I love more than being underestimated in survivor because it kinda makes it a little easier to play and gives me more options, so sure ill keep up my fake smiles and act like we're all fine and dandy, ill play dumb and wont even act like im onto them but i absolutely am and ill be ready to make my move the second it seems right

Ugh I feel so DIRTY. I feel so GROSS. Poor Devon, truly. I spoke with Autumn and told her about Devon, and she was in without a fight and told me that it should be 5-1. And then Devon came to me and was like... we all good for the vote tonight? And I'm like ................yes? Lol. I'm good, you're probably not. ugh, this is the part of this game that I hate. I want to never lose immunity ever again, let someone else break someone else's heart!

Something about Kendall is so chaotic and terrifying and I can’t put a finger on why.her aligning was her talking to me for the first time in a day saying “let’s align” and created an alliance chat without even asking who else should be in it which leads me to believe her Augusto and Connor already have a trio and I was the 4th. Are all these focking people playing me?? Like i still cant tell if this is a real alliance but i want to believe it is and not a bluff to vote me out. But also like why even do that, the only person on this cast that I trust and have played with, bodhi, has just been voted out. I’m a free agent and I can help that alliance make it far in the game, but they also have lots of relationships on other tribes so like I might not even be that valuable to them. I mentioned to Augusto about the numbers on the blog, hoping to create more trust because I really really love him and want to trust him but I’m still just so damn unsure. if we lose this immunity and I get one bad signal from any of those 3, if they slip up even once, I won’t hesitate to align and gather the minority. But if they are playing me properly, then kudos to them!

I am just happy i have the idol i am going to put it in my ass.

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You know what? https://66.media.tumblr.com/b7b4accba586ad321141b6ba80d69044/tumblr_omule3fwZC1w1swfno1_250.gifv I'm mad but I'm not tight because that same alliance that Duncan and I orchestrated is the same alliance that will get us through. So do I enjoy going to tribal? No. And do I enjoy knowing that Trace created an alliance w/ everyone except me and Devon? No. But the Dads will prevail and I trust Scott and the gang. I mean Ducnan is family so as long as we don't go it's fine. But Devon is my baby so absolutely gotta kill for him. That's what keep em close hahaha But no the Trace vote is a dream come true that I only crossed my mind once and STILL got manifested. Like Duncan suggested it and I said you got it because Trace will be the FIRST to rally all the white boys against me in a swap. Cute or not, Trace will kill me I'm convinced. Like something in my spirit told me not to trust Trace and low and behold: Duncan reveals that alliance to me on Day 3. So confirmed, Trace is leaving so that I don't fall to the bottom of the tribe. But it's all good- Isaac listens to Fleetwood Mac and watches Schitt's Creek so he's a good guy. And Scott is literally a cinammon roll who's too busy to snitch or flip. I don't have time to discuss how much I love Duncan or Devon so we're tabling that. Anyway If y'all need me I'll be doing this 4 part immunity challenge that determines whether I make Final 3 in the other org I'm in so try not to need me lmao

okay so... we aren't going to tribal but its still kinda messy on brawn beach. i kinda have felt this energy for a while, but i don't think jake and jordan have enough trust between the two of them for us to be a continual three person alliance. jake is a very reactive, gut-impulse kind of player which is honestly to his benefit since he is super perceptive. however that also means he is quick to be anxious about stuff in the game, which is the same as me and that is why we click. BUT. he thinks something is up with dan/jordan and honestly i see that and feel it. jordan keeps hinting at dan being the one to loop in and i think that does say something about them having some sort of game dynamic. however, jordan is maybe downplaying that relationship which is scary KLAF tbh i still like jordan and wanna work with him, but i do 100% have to keep tabs on him, his social connections could definitely become a problem if he has other priorities over me! so i think i just have to make sure im a continuing priority for him, so i have to find some sort of information to bring to him (maybe when dan proposes the alliance of me/jordan/jake/dan to me ill run to jordan and be like hey did dan suggest this to you how do you feel) to solidify that sort of trust? idk... i want my j-men to stick together and they ARENT. maybe i need to solidify stuff with TJ specifically more, he gives good ally vibes? but ya... its a mess tm

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screenwritingdyke · 7 years ago

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just. the entire salty ask list for teen wolf?

lmao u got it

What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?* st*dia ughAre there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?* st*dia lmaoHave you ever unfollowed someone over a fandom opinion? sort of? i’ve unfollowed a lot of people for constant negativity about teen wolf and stuff. tbh i’ve unfollowed a lot of st*rek blogs too even though i ship it more than anything elseDo you have a NoTP in your fandom? Are they a popular OTP?* lol yesHas fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?* i didnt hate stdia so much until i saw lots of homophobic comments that fans made about strek and stuff, and i remember in particular seeing someone say that it’s okay to make homophobic comments and insults as long as youre saying it about strek and strek fansHas fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?* sort of, there was a ship i couldnt stand at all but now i can tolerate it under certain circumstancesIs there anything you used to like but can’t stand now?* not that i can think of?Have you received anon hate? What about?* i have, but not fandom related lolMost disliked character(s)? Why? kate argent bc she raped derek and killed his own family, gerard argent bc hes a genocidal creep, jennifer bc she deceived derek and nearly killed the sheriff, chris, and melissaMost disliked arc? Why? i wasnt a fan of the deadpool stuff, it was just kinda boringIs there an unpopular character you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why? omg theo lmao tbh im pretty sure most of why i liked him at first was bc i saw him on pretty little liars and when i saw him as theo i was like so shocked at how good of an actor he is, but i love him 6a and 6b lolIs there an unpopular arc that you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why? i didnt hate season 5Unpopular opinion about XXX character? idk if there was a specific character for this one but i’ll go with stiles: stiles actually is not that great of a guy, but fandom stiles is pretty greatUnpopular opinion about your fandom? im really sick of people bashing on people who still watch the show and get excited for it and all the death threats those fans get and all the death threats jd gets sent tbh this fandom has a lot of toxic people in itUnpopular opinion about the show? season 5 wasnt as bad as people like to say it is, also i like maliaIf you could change anything in the show, what would you change? all the wrongs against derek concerning kate argent wouldve been made right and his ptsd would be properly dealt with with, scott wouldnt have hit isaac for liking allison, kira wouldnt have been written off, 6a wouldnt have happened lol lots of thingsInstead of XYZ happening, I would have made ABC happen… instead of scallison vs allisaac i wouldve liked to see scallisaac. also stdi@ wouldnt have happened lolDoes not shipping something ‘popular’ mean you’re in denial and/or biased? i dont really know what this means? so i dont think so?What is the one thing you hate most about your fandom? anti malia stuff, rampant homophobia, anti scott stuff, people who try to make every single thing about st*rek (ex: people claiming that they made jackson bi to retaliate against sterek/bi stiles)What is the purest ship in the fandom? scisaac tbh or scira or allydiaWhat are your thoughts on crack ships? go for itPopular character you hate? mmmmm idk everyone hates kate and so do iUnpopular character you love? theo and maliaWould you recommend XXX to a friend? Why or why not? yes bc i dont have any friends to chat w about teen wolf irl bc none of them have seen like anything past 3a lolHow would you end XXX/Would you change the ending of XXX? okay so it’s ending tomorrow night but i’d like to see the ogs alive, liam and theo alive, i’d want for stdi@ not to happen, i want scott to end gerard once and for all, i want derek (and maybe chris help?) to kill kate, i want liam and theo to take down gabe and monroe, jackson and ethan need to survive, i just want my kids to have a happy ending its what they deserve [insert kim kardashian here]Most shippable character? stilesLeast shippable character? um idk chris? i dont know of a lot of popular ships for him aside for chris/peter. i mean hes a good looking guy and all but people in the fandom are more focused on stiles than anyone else when it comes to shipping

lmao thanks for the ask and also pls no one send me hate messages, we’re all entitled to our own opinions and i’ve tried to be respectful in this post by not actually typing out the ship names so it wont show up in searches

#anon #ask #Anonymous #long post #sorry this took so long for me to do eiugjfk

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lazydoodlesandfanfic · 8 years ago

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The Flu (Teen Wolf X Baby!Brother!Reader)

Character: Teen Wolf Pack X Baby!Reader, Derek X Baby!Brother!Reader

Universe: Teen Wolf

Warnings: Sickness

ANGST AND FLUFF

Request: Hi, just read ur Sherlock OS! And bc it was amazing cute I couldnt help myself to ask also for a BabyBrother OS? Like a DerekxBabyBrotherReader? The MR is currently sick with a really fever and Derek is really worried bc he cant really handle the situation so the pack helps him and yeah fluff! Also the MR is 3 years old and he throws a bad tantrum bc of his flue! Wish you a good Saturday

It was late at night and while most of the pack were asleep, one was stuck in a frenzy and has no choice but to call on the others for help. They got the text about midnight.

Get to the Bunker ASAP. SOS its Y/N. ~ Derek

Several cars sped up to the house and came to a hasty stop. All the pack got out and they could hear you- a 3 year old toddler- crying from inside the house. They sprinted in and bust down the door. Derek shot around and saw the pack rush in, with him holding you and trying to shush you.

“What happened?!” Scott asked. Lydia rushed and took you off your big brother and checked you. Your skin was way above the normal temperature, you started to cough and Lydia patted your back and tried to clean your runny nose.

“Has he eaten anything out the normal?” Isaac asked. Derek shook his head, running a hand through his hair.

You were Derek’s little brother, and the pack were very protective of you, since you were an easy target for being so young.

“Maybe we should take him to the hospital?” Stiles said the obvious.

“No, his eyes keep glowing. They’ll notice.” Derek told them.

“What about Deaton?” Isaac asked. It was their only option. You wouldn’t stop crying and screaming, with everyone trying and failing to calm you down. Derek nodded and took you back from Lydia.

“Why don’t I hold him so you can drive?” She asked.

“I don’t think you’d want to be puked on.” He responded.

Derek rode with Scott and Stiles in the Jeep, Isaac driving the girls. Deaton was about to close up when he heard the cars outside and all of the pack rushed in. With Derek holding you in a blanket, with your mouth chattering despite your fever. “What happened?” He asked.

“We don’t know. Y/N has a bad fever, but seems cold, he’s throwing up, has a runny nose and seems in discomfort.” Lydia told him, as Derek sat you down. You didn’t want to be put down and started screaming more.

“Come on Y/N, no need for that.” Deaton tried to sooth you, but you kept screaming and tried to kick your way away from him, so Derek had to hold you as he examined you. “Well I have a diagnosis.” He finally announced.

“What? Is it serious?” Scott asked.

“No, just the flu. He’ll need bedrest and medicine, and try and get him to eat and drink a lot.” He explained.

“Let’s get him home.” Allison sighed.

Getting you wrapped up, it was now time to try and get some medicine in you. Derek held you and tried to put the spoon in your mouth. “No!” You yelled and turn your head. Derek sighed.

“Come on, Y/N. It’s to make you better.” He told you. Scott took the spoon and tried.

“Here comes the train! Choo- Choo!” He tried to persuade.

“No!” You yelled again, putting your face away, and kicking your legs, kicking your poor brother. He tried to grip you tighter to stop it.

Stiles went in his pocket and pulled out a chocolate bar. “Hey Y/N! Look what I got!” He showed you the bar and you smiled. Scott got what he was planning at, and as you opened your mouth for the chocolate, Scott slipped the medicine into your mouth. You pulled a disgusted face and Derek held your mouth shut till you swallowed. It was easy enough to get you to drink juice and have something to eat, and soon enough, you were asleep, letting everyone sigh.

“He’s adorable, but he’s a handful.” Allison commented.

“You’re telling me.” Derek retaliated. They were all hoping you’d get better soon.

Thank you for reading! If you have any requests or questions, please send them in!

*Not my gif

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isaacathom · 5 years ago

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okay apparently its ‘isaac rants about that one time they hit a kid and got detention for it” time, apologies to all. we suffer together on this here blog.

man woulda been tight if that time i hit the kid the focus had been less on my anger and more on why was i angry. what did he say, what was happening. trying to get to the bottom of what had upset me so bad that my lashing out ended up hurting him (usually when i got upset i just left the space, but i was in class?? i couldnt do that?? so my energy had to get out somehow, which, uh, wasnt good. sorry jack). because rather than teaching me to count to ten (real clever fuckers my anger escalates too quickly to get a handle on for that, good luck) they could have figured out why. dealt with the cause, not the symptom. the cause being, uh, complicated??? (i wage a tentative guess at still undx’d autism, or a facet of an also undx’d adhd thing, the former makes more sense but who the fuck knows ay) but even beyond the psychology, the actual THINGS that were getting to me. “i was upset at jack” why “because he was saying things about the work” why was that upsetting “because i was finding the work difficult” why were you finding the work difficult “because it doesnt make sense” why doesnt it make sense

i dont even know why it doesnt! it was some task relating to mind maps, and i can do mind maps now, the ones with the big paper and the textas. its not really how i think about topics, but i can do them, i guess. at the time though? it didnt work. the task was too... structured? like it wanted me to fill out boxes a specific way with specific things, and it just made no fucking sense.

but you go, okay. if youre having difficulty with a task, what should you do? ask a teacher! ask a friend! ask a classmate! something! they could have taught me how to self reflect, to analyse, to work out when things were beyond my ability to do alone and to seek the help of others, to avoid these things bruising an ego fuelled entirely by my grades. they could have taught me how to remove myself from situations that upset me, to recognise when i was getting upset, because i definitely had things in me that could be recognised as warning signs before an explosion. instead its just ‘count to ten’ thanks bitch i already know how to count, thats not helping.

its such a bandaid for a gaping hole moment for me. that there are so many things going on in my life and that the one time they tried to help, it was because id hurt SOMEONE ELSE, and they offer the weakest fucking way out.

the thing is, right, that part of the reason i sorta calmed down overall (ehhh) is the internet, and getting social stimulation at home, i think! a method of getting rid of negative energy before i got to school. and i was obviously still upset and on a hair trigger during grades 5 and 6, but like... what if we’d been able to apply that idea? if we’d been able to recognise that part of my frustrations stemmed from an understimulation, some times? that i needed a way to get energy out. and that maybe that was why i was so volatile in sports, because i was being GIVEN an energy outlet and then abruptly losing it (because i got caught out, for example - something not strictly in my control, yknow) and suddenly all my momentum builds up inside me as energy until it explodes at a single misheard or understood (or perfectly understood ;) fuckers) comment and i yelled and stamped and ran off to calm myself down after the fact. right? you folks feel me on this? does any of this make sense? i dont know! i dont even know if these things are true! maybe im wrong anyway! maybe my memory of my first ever detention (got a second one in hs for calling a teacher evil in a handwritten note, thats literally it though, fun times) has become so warped and nigh mythologised in my mind that its completely wrong now. after all, i dont really remember anything of it. i remember dot points - a mind map task, jack talking to me about it, me hitting him on the head with a ruler (i believe a green bendy plastic one), sitting in a different classroom being talked to by at least two teachers, doing yard duty with mrs caraughna (sp?????). i dont see any of these events in my head. i can see elements, like the green ruler, jack, my teachers, a table in a classroom, a plastic bag full of wrapped, but nothing around them, none of their momentum. i dont know!!!! i dont know!!!!

#bullying /#? i guess? idk bud this shits a mystery to me #its been something like a decade since any of this happened and while i remember plenty of things from that time i remember this #as a collection of facts rather than images. i have vivid memories of some things and this isnt one of them #SORT OF. its also kinda similar to the pool incident but i do have some visuals of that #like a deep end of a pull and me coughing and spluttering over to the side to spit and gag into the drains on the stairs #and looking up at one of the aid teachers sitting on one of the white benches just looking down at me. god.#she was a nice lady but in terms of helping a child that was a huge fail because i was not really in an emotional state to be in that pool #god thats an entire other day where that happened. i think eventually i was allowed to opt out of the rest of the activity and i sat wrapped #in a towel for a while before we all went back to change. good days! year 5 was fucking transformative huh

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steroidusr · 7 years ago

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golden sun (chaos mode hack) part 4: Isaac cannot resist.

so now that sand dollar lady is in place, we can push the statue on the tile (and strike a pose) but safely this time

yes, that certainly is what just took place

how exactly are you going to--

aaaaand he's gone

AM I SUPPOSED TO "WAIT OVER THERE" OR "HANDLE THE REST”

(man look at those tiles in the middle, that is some really nice pixel art)

this is the slowest lp in the world

wooo

things i thought was weird about this game when i was 11: kraden saying "Sol" and "Luna" instead of "the sun" and "the moon" i mean obviously i knew that that's what "sol" and "luna" mean, but he's saying them like people's names ("a picture of Luna")?? there doesnt... really seem to be a reason for this? i dont remember the sun and moon being referred to like that anywhere else in the game

by the way, what exactly is supposed to be happening with that laser? it's coming up from the floor, but... hitting the wall

????? 2d video game overworld perspective is really weird tbh

LET ME LEVEL GRIND, KRADEN

so if you touch the wall (or talk to it, depending on what you think the A button does) a portal appears

...which lifts you up and voips you away. but stays open. GOOD THING THERE ARENT ANY THIEVES FOLLOWING US OR ANYTHING

...and we end up here. (the portal also appears to have shrunk isaac's sprite a bit. wh...oops...?)

(fyi: for some reason this game's world is flat. so he does actually literally mean "the end of the world".) (...and "endless water", since it all falls off the edge but doesnt run out. dont ask me how that works. maybe it's like a fountain?)

....humans are made of fire?????????

kraden: "as i have told you many times--" (tells us again anyway)

jfc he's starting to sound like my dad also you absolutely couldve fit that last part into one text box, come ON

i really, really wish i could capture these emoji word balloons because

kraden: ❤️ jenna: 😟

YES. "MANY TIMES", IN FACT.

GARET WHY

so after telling us how powerful and dangerous these stones are... and how with just one you could conquer the entire world... and how it would be REALLY BAD if they were to fall into the wrong hands...

...kraden wants us to bring them over here for him to examine. ok

all of them. all four of them. im pretty sure this is exactly why no one is allowed in here.

OKAY THANK YOU KRADEN

[each time you take a star, there’s a short earthquake, and more pillars rise up out of the water. this allows you access to the next star.]

UH, TAKING THAT CAUSED A SMALL EARTHQUAKE, THIS IS PROBABLY A BAD IDEA

CANT YOU JUST EXAMINE ONE, ISNT THAT GOOD ENOUGH

YOURE NOT HELPING

three hours and we're still stuck in the fucking prologue. fortunately we're almost done, probably

incidentally, did you know you can change the color of the text boxes in this game?

.... i cant make it the same color as steroidusr :(

anyway back to collecting these extremely dangerous world-destroying artifacts for funsies

UH-OH! NOBODY SAW THIS TWIST COMING

(i figured out how to cap all those adorable little emoji balloons, thanks to the miracle of save states. youre welcome.)

im pretty sure we'd have to hop through here to get to the last one, but....

unlike us, who only meant to simply borrow all of them at once, which surely would have no repercussions

how dare you overhear the plans we were loudly discussing nearby your house! ...and to you, at your house. wait what

hey it's the third dude who was with them who we only know about through optional and easily-missable conversations

...i just realized saturos has a blue undercut. too bad they dont have blogs in weyard.....

what if we just... gently put all the stars back. golden sun solved

so, uh.... if youre gonna have a dramatic "i thought you were dead" reveal you probably shouldnt have it this early in the game

like this is clearly meant to be an emotional scene, but we never got any time to actually, like... get attached to felix? which couldve still worked if we'd gotten time for Green Mask Guy to develop instead, and establish him as our enemy, or something then, plot twist, he was jenna's brother all along! ... which would work even better if we kept jenna around and she didnt get kidnapped like, have them kidnap garet or something, idk, jenna's a fire adept too so she could easily fill that party role anyway this way the Big Reveal would have way much more impact, and--

oh ok

yes, we definitely shouldve let garet get kidnapped instead

oh right, there's a fourth one too. alex does almost nothing of value through the entire game, yet somehow by the end he's the most important character ever, despite still having done almost nothing of value. he's also in the third game. he's still useless.

what do you mean "oh great", you were just about to hand them over anyway

are you guys, like, allergic to these things??? like you cant hold them yourselves if theyre not in bags????

YOU CAN FLY. YOU ARE FLYING RIGHT NOW. NO, I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!

also, yes, the only way to the mars star is through here. so until we got it, they were planning to "hide", out in the open, in a place we would soon be walking through, right in front of the path we'd be coming to that place through

you guys couldnt have, like, waited back in the sanctum to ambush us or something? no? no. of course not.

WELL, YES,

also, shockingly, that star is never actually getting to that merry band of thieves. sorry for spoiling such an amazing twist.

--where it will stay, taking up an inventory slot, useless, for the entire game.

fun fact: golden sun, like the first generation of pokemon games, has no key item slot. we all remember how that went in engreen... also, each character has a separate inventory, which other characters cant access. so if, for example, you have four herbs, you can either stack them all in one character's inventory, or spread them out among everyone. if you want to save inventory space, the first option seems the most reasonable... until the guy holding all the herbs dies in battle.

................i miss etrian odyssey

oh also the cave is collapsing now and we're all going to die

(does a thing) uh-oh! that fucked everything up! how could this happen! (does exact same thing three years later) uh-oh! that fucked everyth

WHO'S THAT POKEMON?

anyway this guy's important, and he saves us later, but also tries to get us killed by a dragon for some reason?

he also blinks more than any documented living creature in the universe, as evidenced by these screencaps

how the fuck are you planning to get the mars star then

YEAH NO KIDDING

WELL WE DEFINITELY WILL BE IF WE KEEP STANDING AROUND TALKING ABOUT IT

THAT'S WHAT IM TRYING TO TELL HIM

hey, you know what a good place for this text box would be? right up there, completely obscuring the fucking speaker "uh, there's plenty of space there in the bottom corner--" "RIGHT. UP. THERE."

oh man ok alright here it comes

i fucking love golden sun

If the Elemental Stars ignite the flames of the four lighthouses, that power will be released. As long as the four lighthouses remain unlit...

im not sure why he's leaving out the part about the world eroding and inevitably being destroyed if alchemy doesnt get released? (minor details, i guess)

"seriously, there arent any characters over there at all, we could easily--" "COVER THAT FUCKER UP"

so he teleports us back to the sanctum. what a nice floating roc--

garet youre kind of a dick

i guess all the monsters evacuated, because no battles are happening. goodbye, experience points....

(there's an eruption. the mountain is erupting. youll have to take our word for it.)

"multiple times, actually. those googly-eye mushrooms are vicious"

WHY ARE THEY JUST CASUALLY STROLLING OUT OF AN EXTREMELY DANGEROUS ERUPTING VOLCANO

I CHOSE "YES” AS A JOKE BUT THEY ACTUALLY START TO CASUALLY STROLL RIGHT BACK UP

mom will you please stop being such a negative nancy

im not sure garet "what's an ocean" lastname even realizes other towns exist

The elemental lighthouses will loose that power upon the world. Once the power of the gems has been released, the whole world will...

i see the wise one is omitting that one li'l detail about alchemy actually being a good thing again

"the entire world could be completely destroyed" "darn :///"

"we cant wait around for someone to save us. isaac, go save us"

well, it's been quite a ride, but that's it for golden sun! if you enjoyed this livetweet, make sure to like, comment and fol--

-----siiiiigh.

we're fucked.

"SWEET JESUS GARET THAT'S NOT AN ORANGE, YOURE EATING THE MARS STAR"

anyway isaac's mom is disowning her son until he saves the world or whatever, but not before having this delivered to him

JUST LEAVE, GET OUT OF HERE

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stereksecretsanta · 6 years ago

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Merry Christmas, @bewarethesmirk!

*****

Drowning isn't so Bad After All

Falling in love with a grumpy alpha werewolf was not on Stiles to do list. And yet here he was staring hopelessly at said werewolf as he went over the plan for the monster of the week. What that monster is he couldn't tell you...he hasnt really been paying that much attention. He thinks it had something to do with water? A mermaid maybe….

“-iles”

Or was it a siren...he should really start paying more attention during these things.

“Stiles!”

He was suddenly brought out of his thoughts with a jump as he was greeted with the disapproving glare of sourwolf himself. He groaned inwardly as he looked back over with an embarrassed smile.

“Um...don't suppose you wanna run by the plan again?”

He was met with another glare before Derek let out an annoyed sigh and turned to start speaking again. Great job Stiles more reason to hate you. This time he shook his head some and listened.

“We’re dealing with a selkie..”Ah right that's what it was he knew it had to do with water. “Apparently people are disappearing and then reappearing with almost no memory of what happened.” He started to frown some”But some have stayed missing. Tonight we’re heading into the preserve in groups so no one is to be alone understand?”

Everyone gave a nod and Derek started listing off the groups. Erica with Boyd which wasn’t surprising,Lydia with Jackson, Scott with Isaac and of course with Stiles luck he winds up with Derek. He glances towards Scott as they get ready to leave who only manages a small supporting smile as he quickly chased after Isaac. The traitor. He sighed in defeat and followed after Derek who only seemed to be put in a worse mood as the night went on.

He tried to strike up conversation several times but was only greeted with grunts or be quiets. When he was about to attempt another topic he runs into Derek’s back. Confused as the others sudden stop he looks up to notice the man sniffing the air.

“What’s wro-” he was shushed by Derek who continued to look around. After a few moments of continuous sniffing he looks towards Stiles with a frown.

“Something doesnt smell right...stay here and don't do anything stupid.” With that said and before Stiles could get anything out the man ran off leaving Stiles alone...in the woods...at night...well this is a predicament. He let out a sigh in annoyance and looked around frowning.

“Great idea guys. Leave the squishy human by himself. The only one who doesnt have supernatural senses and cant sniff his way out.” He let out several more complaints before he heard a strange sound. It almost sounded like singing. He frowned some and before he knew it headed for the voice.

Almost as if in a trance he moved towards what appeared to be a lake. And in the lake was a handsome young man who smirked as he saw Stiles an gestured for the young man to come closer. As if he was nothing more than a puppet he continued to move forward only stopping when a slight chill ran over his body as he stepped into the cold water. The man’s smirk only grew as Stiles was in his line of reach.

“Hmm….well you certainly different from others ive taken. In fact I think i’ll keep you as my new favorite. You’d like that wouldn't you?” His voice was deep and a chill went down Stiles’ spine as he could only nod. The creature pulled him close as if to kiss him when a sudden howl shook the whole forest causing him to pause and look around in confusion”What…” As if on a cue a large black wolf appeared growling at the creature that continued to hold Stiles in his thrall.

When Derek had come back to the spot he left Stiles he could tell something was wrong. That scent he followed was a distraction to lead him away from Stiles. When he realized it he let out several strings of curses and went after the younger man only to find him gone. Letting out an irritated growl he took a sniff of the air and looked to where the scent was leading. Shifting into his wolf form he took off. There was no way he would let someone lay a hand on Stiles.

Coming upon where the scent ended Derek let out a deep howl and it took almost all his will power not to pounce on the being holding Stiles. The creature looked afraid to say the least but with a smirk realized something as he pulled Stiles closer causing Derek to let out another growl.

“Why don't we make a deal mister Alpha.” He said with a smirk Derek let out an irritated growl before he shifted back to human glaring at the creature”What?” He barked out in anger.

“My idea is simple. While i would very much enjoy keeping this young man I much rather prefer keeping my life. If you let me go here and now i’ll not only give him back but leave this area as well.” Derek watched the creature closely and listened to his heart. There was no lie so he frowned before giving a nod”Fine but I better not see you near here again.”

The creature gave a nod and paused a moment before giving a dark smirk”Before I leave though….here.” He snapped his fingers and Stiles’ body went limp eyes closing as he fell in the water.

“No!” Derek let out a shout before diving in after the younger male as the creature vanished with a dark laugh.

Unable to understand what was happening around him Stiles felt his body go heavy and fall into the water. Huh...drowning..he had to admit he though hed go out by loss of blood or being thrown against too many walls. Never from drowning. As he felt the air disappear from his lungs and vision begin to darken one of the only thoughts going through his mind was how he really wish he could at least been rejected by Derek the tha man would at least know his feelings. With that last thought his mind went dark and the breath leave him.

There was a strong pain in his chest as Stiles suddenly gasped and turned to his side coughing and spitting up water. He looked around panting heavily only to be greeted with a wet, naked and angry looking Derek. He was trying to process what happened even going so far as to try and say something witty but nothing came out. He was stuck in a staring contest with Derek.

“Uh...hey..” He said wincing some at how painful it was to speak and that only seemed to make Derek angrier even letting out an inhuman growl.

“I told you to stay put dammit! Why the hell did you leave?! You almost got yourself killed!” Derek continued to shout at the younger distress clearly showing in his voice. Stiles could only stare wide eyed and confused at the other as he continued to yell. It almost sounded as if Derek was worried about him...but that couldnt be it...could it. He was quickly brought out of his thoughts by a hand tilting his chin to look up into forest colored eyes.

“I was worried dammit...you were gone when I got back..” His broken voice took Stiles off guard as he tried to say something but stopped as Derek continued”I followed your scent to that lake...and that bastard had ou in some kind of trance..” He let out a slight growl one would consider possessive as he shook his head ”I said he could leave if he let you go...the bastard tricked me though...tried to drown you...dammit!” He growled as he pulled the younger man towards his chest. “Im sorry Stiles...it was my fault..”

For several moments Siles was silent. His mind was reeling. Did this mean Derek felt the same way? He sure hoped so because there was no going back from what he was about to do. He let out a breath of air and before Derek could start speaking he pulled the older wolf down for kiss.

Shocked Derek was unsure of what to do for several moments. But before Stiles could pull away he wrapped his arms around the younger and pulled him close in order to deepen the kiss.

Stiles let out a noise of surprise but smiled slightly into the kiss before slowly pulling back and looked up panting. “So...is it safe to say you feel the same?” He asked with a hesitant smile. He was met with an eye roll and another soft kiss before Derek pulled back with a soft smile “You could say that.” Stiles allowed his smile to widen at those words before he tackled the older man in another kiss causing them both to laugh some. Drownings not so bad if it means you get with the grumpy alpha wolf you’ve been hopelessly in love with.

To my secret santa hope you enjoy it!!!

#bewarethesmirk #stereksanta18 #*fic18 #*gifts18

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