#I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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belladonnadawn · 3 days ago
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I love youuuu, guys! I always look forward to our interaction here 🫶
@soscarlett1twas @xzhdjsj @meraki-kiera @lil-binuu @thea1chemy @sofverous @nowhere-nena @fleurina11111 @literary-motif @aestheticpearl @penelopesbaby @claiestve @c-t-r-l14 @rain-soaked-sun
Why can't I tag some of you, omg 😭
positivity train!
if you see this or are tagged in it, tag a couple of your favorite mutuals/blogs and let them know you appreciate seeing them on your dash!
@h0neysugarfree @blueberrylovv @bequiteanddriveeeeeee @cherri-bomb-bomb @eg0mechan1c @fatrexicisback
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cowcowwow · 1 day ago
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k-nayee · 10 hours ago
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Tik-Tok Killed the TV Star Hazbin Hotel i
wc: 3.7k a/n: ngl i had fun making this! hope y'all like it
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LIVE: [Streamer: @Real___]
The ring light glowed bright, bathing your face in a soft artificial radiance that smoothed out every imperfection.
You weren’t taking any chances.
Leaning in toward your webcam, you tilt your head slightly as you examined your reflection in the streaming preview window. With precise and practiced movements, you adjusted a stray strand of hair, ensuring it fell perfectly into place.
Your skin had to be flawless—if only for this final performance.
It was almost funny, how even now, as you prepared to confess every last unforgivable sin, you still cared about how you looked.
The viewer count climbed.
At first only a few hundred trickled in. Then thousands. Then tens of thousands.
10K...40K...70K...100K...
The comment section was already a chaotic mess of scrolling text. The usual flood of usernames, some familiar, some new, all merging into a blur of reactions.
[SourCandyBites]: U MONSTER
[AztecStar]: OMG omg ily pls say hi to mexico 🇲🇽🇲🇽!!!
[lonondel_90]: WTF is this whats even happening rn??
[ChillPillPlease]: YALL SHE JUST TROLLING CHILL.
[MirrorVain]: WHY aint nobody talking about how GOOD she look??
You exhaled through your nose, shaking your head in amusement as you finally flash your signature smile—bright, plastic, and perfected after years of camera training.
"Hey y’all! You already know what it is—" You paused for dramatic effect, watching the comments spike as your voice. "I know I know. This is a little weird right? Seeing me on Twitch instead of TikTok? But hey, gotta keep things fresh!"
Another flood of comments. Another spike in viewers.
120K...145K...190K...210K...
You could practically feel the world tilting toward you, drawn in like moths to a flame. The chat moved at breakneck speed, usernames flying by too fast to read. Still you caught glimpses:
[user876543]: Omg it’s really you!! 😭💖
[s1nisterViper]: NAH WTF R U DOIN HERE💀
[lilpeepfan99]: Say hi to Brazil!! 🇧🇷
[exposedtea]: MONSTER. YOU DESERVE TO ROT.
[simp4real___]: IDGAF WHAT THEY SAY I LOVE YOUUUU 😍😍😍
[SOKOLOV_feds]: 🧐👀
Your smile never faltered. Hate, adoration, indifference—it was all the same to you. Attention.
And right now you had it in abundance.
"So! Today we’re doing a special edition of Get Ready With Me—this one coming with a little bit of TEA!" You reached toward your makeup bag and dragged it into frame. The zipper unzipped smoothly, revealing an array of pristine cosmetics neatly arranged.
Foundation, concealer, brushes, powders—every tool of the trade, ready to transform you into the best version of yourself.
You picked up a tube of primer and squeezed a small amount onto your fingertips. As you rubbed it into your skin with slow methodical circles, you continued, voice light, almost casual. "Mmm oh yeah. You may be asking what are we getting ready for? Well you'll just have to wait and see."
A playful wink, the same one you’d done a thousand times before. It sent wave of anticipation rippling through the chat.
[hotdogwater24]: BRO WHAT IS GOING ON 💀💀💀
[kookiebxtch]: This feels...off.😅
[Skyline_Chaos]: WTF IS HAPPENING RN
[MurmurQueen]: this is so creepy stop😭😭
[AussieAmazed]:can u say hi to australia???
[NoFilterNell]: NAH THIS SOME REAL SHIT
[MidnightMuse]: get ready for what???👀
"Now I wanna be real with you guys. I really, truly do." You reached for a cleansing pad, running it over your skin evenly. "So I’ve decided to confess. Right here. Right now."
There was a different energy behind your voice tonight—something simmering just beneath the surface.
"First step, obviously is to start with a clean base. Gotta get rid of all the built-up dirt, oil, and, well..."—you let out a short laugh—"...bullshit."
[tea_with_tasha]: THE SHADE LMAOO
[cancelmebby]: Tf is this real life????
[JustCuriousNow]: confessing what kinda lost here
[SugawithdatTae]: yall know who she talm bout?👀
[softie4u]: GO TO HELL YOU BITCH
[Yunnie0678]: YOU KNOW WHAT TF U DID LAST YEAR
You moved onto foundation, pumping a precise amount onto a beauty sponge before dabbing it onto your cheeks and blending outward. With every soft pat against your skin the words left your mouth effortlessly.
"So let’s get into it: I was a regular person once. Just some nobody who blew up on TikTok overnight. And with fame...comes power. And with power? Ohhh, chat...the things I did I tell ya! And I got away with it too?? But no more secrets. No more running."
The next hour unfolded like a twisted diary entry.
You painted your face while painting a picture of your sins; every crime, every manipulation, every disgusting, unthinkable act you had committed with full knowledge that your wealth and influence would keep you safe.
Fraud...
Blackmail...
Backroom deals...
Murder....
Assualt...
Hush money...
From the people who had helped you to the people you had destroyed. You told them everything.
You named names; politicians, CEOs, celebrities, fellow influencers. Hell even Royal families! Anyone who had been untouchable...until now.
You had burned every bridge and exposed every secret.
The chat became an unreadable flood of reactions.
[OhMyGaaaawd]: omggggggg i cannot with this
[xani]: MY SHAYLA WHY?!😭😭 WE WERE ROOTING FOR YOU WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU
[DenialZone]: I KNEW YALL MFS WAS EVIL
[fbi.gov]: 🚨🚨🚨
[WhySoSerene]: NAH U DESERVE DEATH FR💯💯
[whistleblower88]: you lying no way u did that😱
[Karma]: mf calm as if she didnt just expose all elites BRUH
[Atieh and Jacky's Therapy Sessions_stan]: IM STILL WITH YOU BABY 😍😍😍
By the time you reached the final steps of your routine, your face was fully made up—foundation, concealer, contour, a touch of highlighter. Perfection.
You checked the viewer count.
10.7 MILLION.
You chuckled under your breath, a smug little thing as a satisfied smirk crept onto your lips. "Oh this is definitely going down in history."
Then—
BANG BANG BANG
You froze at the sound. It echoed through the house, shaking the walls, reverberating through your bones. Your brows lifted slightly but your expression remained eerily calm.
[whoopsieD]: UHHH THAT DIDNT SOUND GOOD
[itzjustameme]: LMFAOOOOO THEY COMIN FOR UUUU
[nottherussianmafia]: 🤨
[WTF_Lunar]: WTF WAS THAT
[OfficerPlease]: those cops or security??
[UrDeepn8p]: THIS IS SOME MOVIE TYPE SHIT FR😭😭
[nameizzuzJeSOOS]: is this real or staged idk
The camera caught every detail—the way your lips curled into something almost amused, the slow way you turned your head toward the microphone.
"Oopsie." You giggled. "Guess I made some of y’all’s faves a little upset. Think they’re out for blood?"
The pounding grew louder.
With one last spritz of setting spray, you wave your face dry, ensuring everything stayed flawless. "No worries. I’m already one step ahead~" Reaching down under the desk, your fingers curl around cold metal. With a practiced motion you lifted it into the frame.
[PistolPapi]: HOLY SHIT is that a GUN
[youshouldrot]: yo YO yo wtf wtf wtf
[Stan___4evr]: mommy? sorry. mommy?
[FBI_watchlist69]: bro put the gun DOWN
[YoYoYeller]: kill yourself already, u deserve it
[rideordie_real___]: NOOOOO PLEASE STOP 😭😭😭
[not_a_cop]: 👀👀👀
Your head tilted as the shotgun balanced effortlessly in your grip. You popped it open with a satisfying snap, revealing two gleaming buckshot shells and close it once more.
You turned to the camera, smiling like a Barbie commercial. "And for those who have caught on—why yes I am depressed, mentally unstable, and quite frankly, ready to leave this dipshit of an earth."
[sweetrevenge23]: NO FUCKING WAY
[h_scanner]: 🚔🚔🚔🚔
[deathwish69]: YO WAIT HOLD ON
[pleasedontdoit]: 😭😭😭😭😭😭
[hellawaits04]: LMAOOOOO ICONIC
[kenslaysUp]: no way this is happening rn
[moneymoves3000]: THIS SOME BLACK MIRROR SHIT
You let out a small breathy laugh. "Alright but seriously." Adjusting your hold on the shotgun, you shift it into one hand as you pressed the other against your chest. "I wanna say I’m sorry. To everyone I’ve hurt, to everyone I’ve lied to. To my fans, my friends..."
Your voice dipped into something softer. Something real.
"To everyone I’ve wronged I’m sorry. To all my haters and naysayers—congrats you were right. Not that it matters. Nothing I say will atone for my sins and for what I’ve done. But maybe...maybe my death will be enough?"
A beat of silence.
A second of silence. Then—
CRASH
The unmistakable splintering of wood followed by the thud of footsteps flooded into the lower level of your house. They got in.
The chat exploded in panicked messages.
[fuckauthority]: DID Y’ALL HEAR THAT???
[paranoidxoxo]: THEY’RE IN THE HOUSE😱😱
[daddyissues420]: OH MY GOD
[govwatcher]: LAW ENFORCEMENT INCOMING
[jesuschristirl]: REPENT NEOW🙏🏾🙏🏾
[bigbootybitch33]: GIRL RUN WTF
[gov_watchlist98]: YOU’RE FUCKED LOL
[hotgoss411]: WE ARE WITNESSING HISTORY RN
The comments was moving so fast now that it was unreadable.
You turned back to the camera, shotgun resting against your shoulder and beamed. "Oh and before I forget—" You gestured toward your laptop with your free hand. "This current live-stream is embedded with a virus that sends every single piece of evidence—every file, every video, every receipt—to every single person connected to my livestream. Surprise!"
[cybercrimes_unit]: ☠️☠️☠️
[We0ll see8]: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK
[moral_justice]: LIVING LEGEND.
[snapeb00tysit]: DO IT PUSSY
[DudeNoChill]: bro wtf stop playin
[Punk0Lu2k]: DOES IT CONTAIN YOUR NOODS TOO??👀👀
[Brokie8ren]: AYE SEND ME SUM MONEY BEFORE YHOU KILL YOSELF, MY CASHAPP $STARRYNUTT
"So even if they do stop me..." You let the words linger, a satisfied smile curling at your lips. "Still checkmate. "
Heavy footsteps thundered up the stairs.
You could hear them charging down the hall. Seconds away.
You shifted the shotgun, maneuvering it with precision in a way its angled perfectly against your head as your finger curled over the trigger. At the same time, your other hand hovered over the ENTER key on your laptop.
"All I gotta do is press this button and—"
Your bedroom door burst open.
The camera didn’t capture who entered. But you saw them.
And you grinned.
"Too late fuckers!"
Your fingers moved at once.
Click.
BANG.
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A dull aching pain throbbed in your skull, deep and unrelenting, as if something had cracked open inside you.
Your body felt...off.
Too light and too heavy all at once, like your limbs weren’t quite yours anymore. A sluggish warmth clung to your skin thick and oppressive making it hard to breathe.
Your senses finally adjusted.
The first thing you noticed was the smell; burnt ash. Sulfur. Smoke curling in the air like invisible fingers.
Then came the sound; distant screams, eerie laughter, overlapping whispers that didn’t belong to any one person but still slithered into your ears like they were meant for you.
Your eyelids fluttered open.
And what you saw?
Red.
Clouds churned in dark ominous shades as a massive pentagram symbol loomed high above—it glowed sinisterly, slicing through the swirling clouds in sharp precise lines.
A moon hung beside it—a twisted scarred orb that looked as though it had been dragged from the depths of something far darker than night. And even higher in the distance, just barely visible against the red skyline, was the faint shimmer of white...possibly a star?
Jagged structures around you—half skyscrapers, half nightmares—loomed in impossible angles, their neon lights flickering in glitchy uneven patterns. The ground beneath you was scorched, still smoldering from whatever eternal fire had tried and failed to burn it all away.
You swallowed hard.
Something in the back of your mind whispered what you already knew.
This wasn’t a nightmare.
You were dead.
And this was Hell.
For a long frozen moment you simply sat there, staring at the pavement beneath you. Your breath came shallow and uneven. Your pulse—if you even had one anymore—drummed against your ribs.
Then your fingers twitched.
Something was in your pocket. Something smooth and solid...something familiar.
You slowly reached down and pulled it out:
Your phone.
A relieved breath escaped your lips. "Oh thank goodness."
The cool glass felt real in your hands, grounding you in a way nothing else could. Maybe this wasn’t so bad. Maybe you could figure this out. Maybe you could find a way to call someone—
You glanced at the screen only to freeze.
No Service.
The relief shattered into ice-cold panic.
Your grip tightened, thumb swiping down to refresh—no bars. No Wi-Fi. No lifeline.
You tried again. And again. And again. And again. And again and again and again and again and again and again and—
Nothing.
Your stomach lurched. Your hands shook.
Something inside you snapped.
You sat on your knees, clutching the useless phone to your chest as you let out a wail. "NO! NO! NO PLEASE GOD! I'M SORRY!"
The words tore from your throat raw and broken. You gasped between sobs, squeezing your eyes shut as your nails dig into your palms.
"DON'T DO THIS TO ME! PLEASE DON’T DO THIS TO MEEEEE—"
A soft chime.
Your eyes snapped open, breath catching in your throat. Sniffling, you pull it down to see the glowing screen. Your apps were still there.
Then, with a cautious swipe, you opened your gallery only for your heart to nearly stop.
All your pictures? Gone. Every selfie, every meme, every thirst trap, every aesthetically-pleasing shot of overpriced outfits? Erased.
And in their place?
Pictures. Screenshots. Videos.
All of them evidence of every fucked-up thing you’d ever done. Torture. Blackmail. Setups. Your biggest and most heinous crimes, all caught in 4K with timestamps, captions, and receipts.
You scrolled through them casually like flipping through an old yearbook.
"Oh damn almost forgot about that one. Good times." you muttered, rewatching one of your personal favorites—a high-definition well-lit compilation of your greatest hits.
God it was better than TV.
Speaking of—
A chill crawled up your spine.
The temperature around you shifted as a strange charged energy pressed down on your skin. The lights flickered wildly for a moment, glitching, before steadying.
You slowly stand to your feet as a towering figure suddenly appears a few feet away.
He was sharp, all jagged edges and neon accents, his black and red suit crisp and immaculate. But what stood out the most was his head—
An old-fashioned television screen.
The glass surface flickered erratically between distorted sharp-toothed grins and warped images of you from moments ago, as if he had already been watching you. Recording you.
Behind him stood several other demons. All tall, hulking, waiting for orders.
"Well well well...what do we have here?" His voice came layered—not just one tone, but multiple. Overlapping slightly like an old commercial playing on repeat.
"Huh." You tilted your head. "Who the hell are you?"
The screen on his face glitched violently. His grin remained but the static in his voice sharpened.
"You must be newcomer. How quaint." He took a step forward, his goons following suit. "Allow me introduce myself—"
With a flourish, he spread his arms, crackling energy surging through his body like a failing broadcast tower.
"I am VOX, Overlord of the Digital Age. Master of television, entertainment, and media. Everything broadcasted, everything recorded—"he gestured widely to the neon-lit cityscape behind him, "it all bends to me. And you, sweetheart, are standing in my domain."
"Uh-huh. Cool. Anyway—" you slid your phone into your pocket, "I was kind of busy. You need something Static Boy?"
A nearby streetlight exploded in a burst of pixels and sparks.
"Do you even comprehend where you are?" His voice was calm, but beneath it was a deep growing irritation.
"Yeah yeah. Hell. Domain. Big scary Overlord." You waved your hand dismissively. "Honestly I couldn't give two shits right now."
The second those words left your mouth something shifted.
Vox’s face flickered as air around him spiked like an overcharged circuit.
You didn’t know this guy but you sure as hell knew that reaction. He hated that.
And suddenly you were interested. You leaned back slightly, crossing your arms, smirking up at him. "You must be one of those old-heads? Damn. You must hate people like me then."
Vox’s screen flickered again, his glow flaring slightly. "People like you?"
You grinned.
"Influencers."
There it was. That flash of disgust.
"Yup. TikTok mostly. Millions of followers. You know the usual." You grinned. "Guess we’re in the same industry huh?"
Vox’s screen glitched violently. "Your meddlesome kind have stolen relevance from true entertainment. It is no shock your type always finds its way down here with all the pollution you do. How dare you to even think you could be on my level?!"
You folded your arms. "Oh no. The evil TV man thinks I’m annoying. However will I recover?"
"You have no power here," he hissed. "I control what is seen. I control what is heard. I control what is remembered. Any pathetic influencers that land in my Hell?" He chuckles darkly. "I make sure they’re erased permanently. No fame. No following. Just nothing."
At that you finally laughed; a short and mocking, entirely unimpressed laugh.
"Oh. I get it now." You grinned. "You’re just pissed because TV isn’t relevant anymore. You’re an old man who's generation ruined everything for mines, and now you’re mad that social media overshadow you?"
The air around him screamed for half a second before steadying. His grin stayed but it was tighter now. "You’re bold."
You shrugged. "And you’re outdated."
Vox’s face flashed red.
A beat of silence...
Then chaos.
Vox’s goons lunged, their movements sharp and inhuman as they closed in on you. They were faster than anything you’d encountered.
You barely had time to react as their glinting claws shown from the glow of the city around you. Instinct screamed at you to dodge, but before you could even flinch—
The ground split open.
From the pavement beneath your feet a mass of glowing technicolor tendrils erupted—flickering and glitching like a broken screen.
They shot forward, lashing through the air with impossible speed, grabbing one of the demons mid-leap.
A choked gasp.
A wet, sickening rip.
The goon split apart; torn in half like he was made of paper, limbs flung to the ground in uneven pieces. Blood—dark and thick—splattered onto the pavement, sizzling against the heat.
Silence.
Your breath hitched as a sudden spike of ice-cold shock crawled up your spine.
'What the fuck was that?!'
You hadn’t moved. You hadn’t done anything. Yet the thing—those tendrils had responded...to you. Your hands trembled for half a second when it clicked causing your lips to curl into a smirk. Yes, it's true you hadn’t done that on purpose.
But you sure as hell weren’t about to admit that.
Flicking imaginary dust from your sleeve, you sighed dramatically. "Whoops. Looks like I do have power here after all. Tsk. And here I was hoping we could be civil."
One of the goons glanced at the still-twitching remains of his comrade. His claws flexed as uncertainty began to bleed into his soulless eyes.
Good.
You wanted them nervous.
Across from you Vox had stiffened.
You noticed the way his form falter, the faintest distortion in his glow—the first sign of something resembling hesitation.
That made you grin.
"What’s wrong old man?" you purred, stepping forward, your tendrils pulsing with a sickly glow around you. "Didn’t think I’d put up a fight?"
A sharp burst of static cut through the air, the pixels on Vox's screen distorting wildly before stabilizing. His red eyes burned brighter as he snarled.
"Kill that bitch!"
The remaining goons paused for half a second—then rushed you.
This time you didn’t wait. Something in your blood snapped and the tendrils moved. Like snakes they twisted through the air eeriely. They tore through flesh like it was nothing.
One of the demons barely had time to scream before he was skewered, his body hoisted into the air, his limbs thrashing wildly as the tendrils twisted and ripped him apart.
Blood splattered across your face.
The others didn’t even have time to run.
A tendril shot forward and wrapped around a demon’s neck—tightening, lifting them effortlessly off the ground before snapping. Another shot forward like a bullet, piercing straight through a demon’s chest leaving a gaping hole left in their torso as they collapsed lifeless.
Faster...
Every move was precise.
Faster....
Clean. Efficient.
Faster....
It was like you had done this before. Like this was natural. In mere minutes it was over.
You let out a low whistle. "Huh. That was easier than I thought."
The bodies dropped, the blood pooled. And only one remained:
Vox.
Your tendrils slithered forward, curling around his limbs, binding him in place.
But they didn’t attack.
They simply held him. Firm. Unmoving. A silent display of dominance.
Vox was still. His claws twitched but he didn’t move.
You smirked, stepping closer. "Aww," you cooed with mock-sympathy dripping from every syllable. "What’s the matter VCR? Cat got your tongue? I thought you ran this place."
A snarl ripped from his throat, his neon glow flaring with a sharp burst of static. "It’s Vox you insufferable brat!" he snapped, his already layered voice distortion from anger.
You tilted your head slightly with twinkling eyes. "Uh-huh. Sure, Video Cassette Recorder."
His claws flexed. The tension in his body was visible, his expression twisting into something sharp and furious.
And you?
You ate it up.
Your smirk stretched into something sharper. A tendril slithered up, curling delicately around his top hat. And with a quick flick—
You plucked it off his head.
Vox’s static screeched.
You twirled the hat between your fingers, adjusting it neatly on your own head before opening your arms wide with a dramatic flourish.
"I think I like this look," you mused, lips curling. "Very showman."
A pause.
"Or in my case—" You tipped the hat slightly. "Showwoman."
Vox’s glare was murderous.
Never had he been humiliated by the likes of someone like you before. Oh how he wanted to kill you.
And even worse?
Sinners had started gathering; from the alleys, buildings, and shadows—bystanders who had been watching it all in silence.
Some were even pulling out their phones to record the spectacle.
You beamed and struck a pose. "Go ahead and tag me! @Real___! Let’s make this go viral yeah?"
The crowd—because oh yeah, there was totally a crowd now—erupted in whispers.
You beamed.
Vox seethed.
"Just you wait," he growled through gritted teeth. "When I get my hands on you—"
Your brow raised. Your tendrils tightened ever so slightly. He lets out a glitching choke and immediately shuts up.
"Better," you coo. With exaggerated movements you began to sit down. Your tendrils shift beneath you, morphing into a throne-like seat, curling comfortably around your form.
"Now," Crossing one leg over the other with a pleasant smile, your elbows rest against the armrests as you leaned in slightly, voice mockingly sweet. "Be a dear and tell me everything I need to know about Hell."
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otherrandomrambles · 15 hours ago
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Ahhhhh this made my afternoon oh my goodnessss!! 🥰🥰 thank youuuu! I love this!!!! Ahhh!!!
Hey Venom/Eddie fandom I know that the movie gives some of you big ol’ heart eyes over the idea of Venom controlling Eddie’s body and therefore being a dom type (which is just… funny to me personally on so many levels bc Venom is so soft even in the movie but it’s your fic and you can do whatever you want with it, and you guys are absolutely killin it, btw, love that for us,) but uhhhhh 
it’s more than okay to have explicit consent.
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The face of a man who is about to have all of his holes filled. Literally.
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The symbiote asked Eddie to let it deeper into his mind and body and literally bond with him and Eddie, once he understood what it wanted, enthusiastically agreed. Literally, “Take me.” That’s some canon consent right there and if that ain’t hot as hell I don’t know what to tell you, fam. You do you. Just make sure you tag your dub/noncon otherwise. 👌💕
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WHEEEEEENNNN YA GO, WPULD YOU EVEN TURN TO SAAYYYYAYYY I DONT LOVE YOUUUU LIKE I DID YESTERDAYYYYAYUUUY
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ubemango · 1 day ago
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commission 6: friends-to-lovers!Hoseok
note 1: for Miss Sam!!!!!!!! Thank you for your help back in November!!!!!!!!!! I hope sexy sexy brother’s best friend/f2l!Hoseok is Good To you!!!!!!!!!!! Mwah!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰💕💕💕💕💕😁😁😁😁😁
note 2: a little background--the premise for this story did not come easy to me. Like At All!!!! I was struggling--AGAIN--with Exposition and you know what I learned? in medias res never fails me. Truly she is God. I love her. Anywho, Keyword(s): Talking to your dog for emotional support! Tension! Mutual pining!!!!!!!!! Being so close you don’t know what to do with yourself anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Word count: 4.5k. Class is in session!
note 3: a big big biiiiiiiiig Thank You to @b1usides and @angelguk for helping me out with this ;_; Truly would not have come out with this without you I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for ur input and insight and interest and MWAH !!!
(note 4: I wrote all those previous notes back in 2020. GOOD LORD IT IS 2025. This is not a come back I just wanted to post this because I wrote so much of it and I’m tired of thinking my writing is too ugly to post. It can be ugly but also exist on this blog. Yay!!!!!!! Mindset mindset! I wuuuvvvv youuuu my friends I hope you’re doing well!!!!)
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“Now?”
“Now,” Yoongi says, “and don’t come up with excuses about being busy because I know you’re doing your dalgona shit right now.”
You slide the bottle of instant coffee a little closer to your chest for protection. He probably overheard you talking to your mom about your plans in the kitchen last night. “You’re evil.”
“Whatever. Just–come, please? Everyone’s busy and Hoseok won’t finish unpacking today if we don’t get the help.”
Hearing that name sends electricity down to your toes. “What’s in it for me?”
“Being a nice sister–“ Yoongi’s breath is stifled with effort, probably from lifting a box– “and helping my best friend move into his new apartment?”
“I just got home–“
“I wouldn’t have called if it wasn’t important. The air conditioning here hasn’t been turned on yet,” he baits, and you hiss at that. “You know what that’s like.”
You do. The sun is unforgiving in the throes of late spring, and even you’d been contemplating holding out on your move back to avoid the heat. You’d made sure to finish unpacking last night, the loom of today’s plus-twenty weather with humidity heavy on your shoulders. Yoongi’s strangled tone tells you Hoseok’s got a billion and one things to unpack.
“Fine,” you concede. “Just text me the address.”
“Don’t take too long.”
The line cuts. You get the text in three seconds.
You stare forlornly at the whisk and bowl you’d gotten out, watching your phone screen light up with Yoongi’s text. To think you’d be hauling ass with cardboard boxes instead of making frothy coffee. What you thought would be a little welcome-back activity now that you’ve moved back home with your family instead lies toppled since you’ve been voluntold for other plans.
Plans to see Hoseok for the first time in years.
Immediately, you hold your breath. Maybe if you restrict your airflow then things won’t be so real and sudden, and why couldn’t Yoongi have called Namjoon, or something? He’s ten times as strong as you are. He lives in the city, too. You feel cheated. Older brothers don’t like taking things into consideration.
Your lungs burst into a yelp when something furry brushes against your leg, which, thankfully, stops you from contemplating all of Yoongi’s wrongdoings with revenge. You realize you’ve got your fist tight around the whisk.
“Girl, you scared me!”
Boppa stares at you with her long eyelashes and sits down at your feet. She’s the picturesque prettiness of a ten-year-old cockapoo. It’s kind of insulting looking at her sometimes.
“Boppa, I think my life’s about to fall apart and it’s all Yoongi’s fault,” you tell her.
She offers no response. You drop the whisk, reach over for her treat jar, and pop the dried meat into her mouth. Just a reward for the anxious rambling you’re about to dump on her pretty little head.
“Remember senior year, Boppa, and I couldn’t do my calculus homework because I missed too many classes? So Hoseok helped me out with all the problems I didn’t get?” You don’t think she does. She just pants, watching you put your mise-en-place away. “Or when he helped me make soup for Yoongi when he had the flu that one time?”
In your head, a dam breaks, and it all comes roiling back.
The way you remember Hoseok is different every time. Little disjointed moments throughout high school, college, and it starts with junior year, when he’d come over after a music council meeting with Yoongi. He’d walked past the living room, caught sight of your puffed face from crying over Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds; so startled by your hiccuping that he’d offered you a coupon to the pizza place near school and told you to get lunch with it the next day. Because pretty girls don’t deserve to cry, and Yoongi slapped his neck for being too nice to his little sister and dragged him upstairs to practice for their sectional.
It’s who he is, has always been. The kindness that never wavers, always there when you need help–carrying groceries into the kitchen when your mom complained about bad knees, patiently waiting for you to work through a difficult log function, walking Boppa when Yoongi was too lazy to do it. College Hoseok disappeared for a bit, busy with obligations and social circles. But like all strong currents, he came back with a force, seeking refuge on your couch after an overnight stay at school. 
(You’d made him a snack, that time. He gave you the prettiest smile ever. When you’d settled into bed, you could hear his snoring from your bedroom.
You slept so well that night.)
“Boppa, why,” you wail. “Why is this all coming back. I just got home.”
She blinks. You toss her another treat. She eats it well.
“I’m not in love with him.” Affirmations, affirmations. It’s good to air out your grievances, especially since no one is home to hear them. “I’m not!”
Boppa looks at you as if to say, I haven’t accused you of anything, so why are you so strung up?
“I don’t know what’s going on!” You shriek, slamming your palms on the counter.
Logically, you’re correct: you aren’t in love with Hoseok. He was just so overwhelmingly good. Attachments formed. Hoseok came to your home all the time. And home is a permanent fixture you could never get rid of, and you’d been away for two years, living in the western side of the city, forgetting you had a life back here, learning new intersections, knowing where to touch fruits to see if they were ripe, seducing the hot pharmacy man into a spicy romance (and subsequently dealing with the heartbreak), living, accomplishing, and these things end. Some parts of life end so you come back home, and Hoseok is home, you’re home, and the one thing about all of this is that it’s all Yoongi’s fault!
You close your eyes, feel the rush of your entire life come to a halt right at this very moment. You wanted coffee, not an attack on all your senses.
“Boppa,” you say, realizing something else. “I need a housewarming gift.”
You hear her get up, and you watch her stop where you’d left your extra bag of rice from unpacking. She lies down in front of it.
“Do you think that’s a good gift?”
She yawns. You google the meaning of offering jasmine rice as a gift for new homes.
“Abundance of love and food,” you say from your findings. It’s good. “Smart girl.”
She makes a grunting noise when you carry the bag away from her, and accepts the kiss you leave behind her ear as your goodbye for now.
She’s due for her mid-afternoon nap. You’re due for a reality check.
The drive over to the apartment is short, and you’re thankful because your seat belt scorches you when you shift the wrong way,  and suddenly your mood is sour all over again. But your parallel parking, though–it’s so immaculate you almost start crying. The balance of good and evil in your life makes you tired. The giant bag of rice almost makes you tip into the asphalt of the sidewalk.
Security buzzes you in with the code Yoongi sent you, and no later than 20 seconds pass when you find yourself in front of unit two-eighteen. You knock, and steel yourself.
The door opens.
“The fuck is that?” Yoongi snorts.
You heat high in your cheeks at the interrogation. “Boppa told me to do it.”
“Our dog told you to bring rice?”
“It’s a gift,” you seethe, “and our dog is a magical dog.” (It’s the truth. Somehow when Boppa howls, your mom will suddenly come up with cryptic news. The last time, an old auntie died.)
“I like it,” a voice says, and suddenly Hoseok is nudging Yoongi out the way. His entrance freezes you in your spot. His fingers brush against yours when he takes the bag from your hands. “Really. My mom brought rice for when my sister moved out–means abundance, or something.”
“Exactly,” is all you can breathe out, and he smiles–just as you remember–and then he disappears into another room. Never one for grand gestures; he comes and goes. Maybe it was just a ghost who happened to look like Hoseok and really liked lifting rice into the netherworld.
The slam of the grain against what’s probably the kitchen counter interrupts the thought. Yoongi makes a disgruntled noise, which more or less means come in before I start insulting you.
“We’re fixing the bed frame right now,” he explains, the door squeaking shut under his hand. “It’s already super hot in there so just–don’t come in.”
“Man sweats?”
“You know how meat smells when you’ve left it out on the counter all day?”
You recoil automatically. “I–? Ew.”
He’s joking. Probably. But it’s enough to make you stay away from that part of the apartment. The living room space is comfortably small; enough square feet to classify as cozy, not cramped. The linger of heat is a silent threat–you can already feel yourself starting to get sticky under your collar. They’ve got a mini-fan propped on one of the many boxes littered on the carpeted floor, though, whirring through little bursts of air.
There are so many boxes. The thought alone is making you sweat more.
“Thank you for the help.” Hoseok pops in again. Brushing his hair away from his sticky forehead, and you’re almost offended at how suave that move was. The audacity of good-looking people to do good-looking things unprovoked. “I really appreciate it.”
You could never refuse him. This is the truth you’ve always known. “It’s no problem. I didn’t think you’d have this much stuff.”
He flounders with a sheepish smile. “Yeah. I didn’t think I did either, but I had a whole nest of shit that I had back home in my closet and I didn’t want to throw anything out.”
“So for nostalgic purposes you’re risking heat exhaustion, is what you’re saying,” you joke.
“So mean.” Hoseok puts his hand over his heart. “You really wound me, you know?”
Yoongi interrupts with a cough. “You guys are boring, I’m going back to the bed frame.”
“I’ll be there in a sec,” Hoseok calls after him. He stands rigid for a second, gathering his thoughts. Probably just avoiding responsibility for a few precious seconds because going back to the proclaimed Meat Room sounds like a painful thought. “Um–I would catch up more but I just–I really need this done before we actually pass out.”
“It’s okay. Really.” He nods his gratitude. “Where should I start?”
“We’ve already done the bathroom, so… you think you can start with the kitchen?”
You nod. Hoseok sighs another “thank you, again,” and takes two steps backwards, as if to keep that soft gaze on you for as long as possible. He spins away before you can think too hard about it.
The kitchen is separated from the living room by the sink, and this is where all the goodies sit. One box is labeled with nothing on the side. Another has nothing but a picture of a smiling plate, a tiny fork and spoon holding hands. But the most enticing one is the box that says MUGS, SO MANY MUGS! MOM CAN’T FIT THEM ALL!
His mom’s loopy handwriting is so cute. You start with this one. In the bedroom, Yoongi screams.
“Are you okay?” You yell out, ripping at the tape with your nail, sorting the bubble-wrapped mugs by… colour? Shape? Who even owns a mug made out to be a literal octopus? The suction cups are so weirdly detailed. You put that furthest in the cupboard above your head, and pop a couple bubbles of bubble wrap to feel better.
“‘M fine,” he calls back. “Hoseok almost hacked off my thumb.”
“I did not!” Hoseok responds passionately.
They stay silent, save for more banging on wood. You organize to the clipped rhythm of the fan swaying back and forth.
It barely dawns on you that you’re in Hoseok’s new kitchen, voluntarily fixing his stuff. And if you thought about it, he would absolutely do the same for you. The symbiotic relationship of being nice just because. It’s the only way you know how to interact with each other. Someone gives, someone receives.
(You missed home. You missed Hoseok.)
It takes half an hour to sort through all the kitchen essentials. The plates and the bowls are stowed away neatly, cutlery in the first drawer below the counter. All the cleaning supplies are safe under the sink. The bag of rice sits heavy in its spot where Hoseok had left it. You’re sweating.
Not as badly as Yoongi and Hoseok are, though. They trudge in the kitchen, breathing hard, eyebrows wet with their effort.
“We’re done with the room,” Hoseok greets. Yoongi ignores you and goes straight for the handle of the fridge. He reaches for two water bottles, and hands the second one to Hoseok. “Wow, you cleared this fast.”
The compliment should not be as hard-hitting as it should be. Your giddiness is silent. “It was easy. Also your octopus mug really freaked me out so I put it, like, as far away from reach as possible.”
“I got him that mug,” Yoongi complains.
“You couldn’t have gotten him a nicer mug?”
“No?”
“You’re ugly,” you retaliate. Yoongi scrunches his face, and drinks his water angrily.
“I like the mug,” Hoseok inserts, brushing past you to open the drawers, eyeing your work, “but yeah, it is kind of. Uh. Out there.”
“Am I being insulted right now?” Yoongi asks.
“It’s an ugly mug,” you say.
“And you got him an ugly bag of rice.”
“I told you Boppa told me to do it!”
“How’s Boppa?” Hoseok interrupts, checking where you’d put the medicine, the first-aid.
“She’s–“
“–good,” you and Yoongi say at the same time. The look he sends you is venomous.
“Stop copying me.”
“You’re ugly,” you say again.
“You guys need to stop giving me whiplash every five seconds,” Hoseok complains. You know he’s used to it, though. Banter that toes the line of actual hurtful words. It’s a common conversation. He inspects the cupboard above the sink next, making little approving noises. “Ooh, bowls on top of the plates. Very nice.”
“I taught her that,” Yoongi says. Which–yes, he technically did, but now you’re just annoyed because he ripped the compliment right from your nose, and now he’s smiling because he knows you’re pissed.
The fan sings its mechanical song. Fighting Yoongi burns up so much energy you fear you’ll collapse once it comes down to fixing up the living room.
Except.
Your brother opens his stupid mouth again, and announces, “I need to leave.”
Hoseok whips around from where he was inspecting the cleaning supplies. “What?”
“Shit. I had to pick up mom from the station.”
The green-lit time on the stove says it’s five till seven. You picture your sweet little mother waiting behind the doors to the passenger pick-up parking lot, and confide in the thought that she’ll probably smack Yoongi once he pulls up. “You’re gonna be late.”
“Oh really,” he mocks. “If I get pulled over for speeding you’ll bail me out, right? Yeah? Cool. I’m sorry. Good luck. Don’t die. Hoseok, take care of her. Or–whatever. It was fun.”
Before either of you can respond, he bolts out, and slams the door behind him in a spectacularly hard fashion.
“Well,” Hoseok says.
“Huh,” you comment.
You make a mental note to kill your brother. Preferably by means of limited gore, maximum pain. Because now you’re alone with the bane (boon?) of your existence in the kitchen with too many thoughts in your head again and again it’s Yoongi’s fault and you wonder why your breakdowns always have to happen in the kitchen.
Calmly, you drink your water.
“So, uh…”
Hoseok fidgets with the empty mug box on the counter. His ears are bright red.
“You wanna–get started with the living room?” You attempt to save the conversation before it gets too awkward.
“Yes,” he agrees quickly, and scurries out with the same swiftness as Yoongi’s departure.
Did he not want to be close to you? Did you smell like meat, too? You put your deodorant on this morning. You sniff at your armpit secretly while Hoseok chooses a stack of boxes to open, and conclude that it is not your good-smelling sweat that’s driving him away, but something else you’re not aware of.
“Honestly, there’s not much here to unpack, a lot of these are just like–winter jackets, the electric cords for the TV…”
“Why don’t we start with the bookcase?”
It looms with emptiness, tucked away into the corner. The dark oakwood that housed all the precious things he said he couldn’t throw away. It feels a little personal, knowing it contains his accomplishments. His secrets? His school yearbooks? A family picture, maybe, stuffed toys he might’ve won from a carnival. For a second you imagine how it would feel, unpacking your things and his things in your own shared space.
“Sure,” Hoseok decides.
You pick the biggest box to open first. The tape has ripped at the corners, sides bulging slightly from the things crammed inside. Some dust flings off when you whip the top open, and inside is way too many books. Elementary school yearbooks, a massive cookbook, the entirety of A Series of Unfortunate Events.
“I didn’t know you read,” is the first thing that comes out of your mouth.
Hoseok startles into laughter. “Uh..?”
“I meant–oh god you know what I mean.” You blush at the slip-up. But Hoseok pays no heed, just laughs even harder.
“It’s fine. It’s–yeah. Back in high school. Found the first book in some second-hand store and ended up buying the rest.”
That explains why the first one is so much more worn down than the others. Loved, flipped through. You heave the box onto the floor, sit down next to it. Criss-cross applesauce. You begin sorting through it one by one.
“So how are you? Now that you’re back home, and all.” Hoseok handles something that clinks slightly–pots of succulents. He staggers on his tip-toes to fit them pretty on the top shelf. You think back to your brief crisis of identity in the kitchen at home.
“I wanted to make the dalgona coffee today but I had a change of plans.”
Hoseok sighs. “Sorry ‘bout that.”
“All good. But to answer your question…” There was no exciting answer to impress him with. You’re back for convenience, lack of work. Ordinary reasons. You don’t want to entertain lengthy stories in the fog of this heat, anyway. “It’s… I’m just back. That internship was all I had going for me, so I’m still on a job hunt.”
“That’s really cool, though. I remember your sketchbooks. And when you built that seat to look like a huge-ass Converse shoe.”
It was one of your projects for junior year. “Yeah, it… I don’t know where that is now, probably stuck in the basement somewhere.”
“Sell it on eBay.”
“Like anyone would pay for that shit.” It literally was a giant wooden slab made to look like a shoe, soft enough for reclining. “It’s ugly.”
Hoseok shrugs. “It wasn’t. But keep thinking that, silly, go ahead.”
“It’s just–I can’t believe you know I built that. Like you remember that? I don’t even remember building it.”
He contemplates. “I’ll always remember you,” he answers, very simply, and for a while he lets it linger, like it hadn’t just gotten your heart racing so fast.
The silence is scary. Maybe he’s trying to read your mind. Maybe if you made a loud noise in your head, he’d be startled. You start thinking about the most obscene moaning noises, straight out of soft, amateur pornography that you see floating on your timeline sometimes. But Hoseok doesn’t budge. 
Damn. He just continues on.
“Do you still cry when The Proposal comes on?”
“Oh spare me,” you beg, itching to slap his leg. He shudders with his laughing. “How about you? You still cry when someone talks about the White Lady?”
You think back to a 16-year-old Hoseok sleeping over at your house once, so vexed by Yoongi’s searches on horror forums that night he’d made sure Boppa slept in the room with them. “You’ll curse my apartment!”
“I’d have to say the name three times, you know.”
He watches you from above with frightened eyes. “You wouldn’t.”
Hoseok should know better than to trust his best friend’s sister. Right as you taunt him with the first syllable–(“Whi…“)–he tucks the last succulent away on the shelf, drops down on his knees, and shoves a hot hand over your lips.
“I will actually, genuinely, really, reallyreallyreally hate you forever,” he threatens.
Well.
You wouldn’t want that.
He is devastatingly close, his gaze so frenzied you’re starting to feel bad. The heat comes in waves: the stifling living room, the pathetic blows of wind from the fan. Hoseok’s body. Proximity you haven’t known in forever. He just stares.
You garble from behind his mouth. “Sto’ wooing ame.”
“What?”
You slide his palm off your wet lip. “Stop looking at me,” you repeat.
“I can’t just look at you?”
Oh. He –?
“You – !” You swat at him like he’s a pesky mosquito, warding off the thirst for your embarrassment. He sits next to you, laughing. “I’m sweaty and my concealer is creasing.”
“You look fine.”
“To you.” You pat under your eyes. “I’m ugly to me.”
“Me is stupid,” he counters.
“Me will kick you if you don’t finish clearing this shit out!”
Hoseok relents, careful to test your aggression. He’s sweating, too. He wipes at his neck, sighing into straight posture from creaky knees. “We can just finish this then call it a night,” he offers. “Are you almost done with that box?”
You lug the cookbook into the remaining space of the shelf. “It’s done.”
“Cool. Then could you just–” he gestures to the cardboard near his feet with one hand, arranging more succulents with the other– “grab that for me?”
You reach over with a grunt, gentle in your hold of the pot. It’s a money plant. “From your mom?”
“I don’t even like plants,” Hoseok complains. He looks to the side of the bookshelf, realizing there’s no space to accommodate the larger pot. Dejected, he just leaves it where he stands. “I’m fixing this tomorrow, I don’t care. Let’s go outside.”
Outside is the balcony, which isn’t as oppressively hot as it is inside but still has you disappointed that it’s, well, hot. There’s no escaping it. Hoseok has to use his entire body weight to slide open the glass doors. “Shit fucking doors. Do you think Yoongi carries WD-40?”
“Probably. Tell him it’s his welcoming gift for you.”
He snorts. “I’d feel guilty. He already did a lot, building the bed with me.”
You follow him to where he leans on the railing. His unit faces west. Perfect for this time of year, when the sunsets are longer. It bleeds low behind the fading bricks of the faraway houses, the inner city high-rises, and if you angled yourself correctly it’s almost as if they lean on the sun itself. 
“This is the real reason why I chose this place,” Hoseok says. “Saw this sunset and knew.”
“I didn’t know you were so sappy.” You scrunch your face like you’ve been fed something sour. He laughs. 
“How else do you think I get all the hot ladies?” He teases. You stop at that. It suddenly occurs to you that Hoseok is a man who’s lived a million lives just as you have, and just as nothing stopped you from trying to date around (re: hot pharmacy man), the same laws should apply to him, too. 
You aren’t hurt, but it does cut a little. And before you can stop yourself, you ask: “Are any hot ladies coming over anytime soon?”
He sounds like he chokes. “God no.”
“Oh.”
“I – it’s boring stuff. Just. No. Maybe there could have been, but no.”
In your heart of hearts, you believe he’s stuttering because he’s embarrassed. But a part of you wishes he’s trying to appease the part of you that’s bristling, like he knows it’s not information you want to hear. It’s almost like a puppy nipping at their owner for forgiveness, though why would he want to be apologizing?
(Unless.)
“Okay,” you say. You try not to think too hard. “Sorry. You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.”
Your top lip is sweaty. Every crease in your body is sweaty. You’re also very much aware that Hoseok is looking at you like he wants to say more, but he just hangs his head low. “Thanks. What about you?”
“What about me?”
“You know.” He wipes his brow. “Anything, really. Plans for the summer. Hot men to woo. Or hot ladies, I don’t know.”
You watch the sun set lower. It’s cooler now, and the cicadas are humming loudly. “I… no. I’m not really… I don’t know.”
Good lord. You have the strangest feeling to cut open all your guts and let Hoseok see you for everything you are. He does it so easily, to you. This is the universal truth that’s defined your existence since he entered your life.
“Ugh. I’d offer you beer to cheers for being lonely but you’re driving.” He pouts. “Fuck. Sorry. I don’t want to keep you any longer than you want to stay.”
“I don’t mind.” And because you like to torture yourself, you add: “Not if it’s you.”
(You can almost hear your brother’s voice. You’re so easy. The you in your head gives him a sucker punch and says: Well maybe I like to be easy! The Boppa in your head also kicks him in the shin. You think she’d be cheering you on.)
Hoseok’s eyes widen. “Really.” It’s not a question but a reaction, and Mind-Boppa gives you a fist bump.
“Yeah. Or you can tell me if that was weird. Like. Really. You can.” You’re about to ramble more but Hoseok interrupts you.
“No!” He says this a little too loudly. You flinch. “Sorry. No. No. That wasn’t weird.”
For the umpteenth time today you almost burst into tears. It’s everything sweet and bad and hot pressing in on you, and is Hoseok smiling? He’s laughing. You’re about to spontaneously combust and he’s cackling like he’s cracked the code of something. You must look horrified, because he starts to flounder.
“I’m–sorry. I’m sorry. Please. I’m not laughing at you. I’m just gonna ask you something, and I want you to walk out on me and forget everything I’m about to say if you choose to. Does that sound good?”
You think: it’s hot when he takes initiative.
You say: nothing.
You: nod for him to continue.
“Can I please treat you to dinner for fixing my kitchen for me?”
Catholics say the universe was created in seven days. Hoseok bursts and collides five hundred of them with one question.
“Will you pay for me?” You ask.
“Yes.”
“Do I have to look pretty?”
“You’re always pretty to me,” he says.
“What if I say no?”
“Then I’ll pretend I never asked you and you can go woo another hot person. But I prefer you don’t.”
The sun has set. There’s pink in the sky, and there’s pink in your eyes. You wonder if your pupils have turned heart-shaped. 
“Then my answer is yes,” you decide.
.
.
.
When you sit in the driver’s seat, you think about Hoseok’s smile and what you’d do to keep it there. Then, you declare to your driving wheel, “I’m going to kill Yoongi,” then pull off into traffic.
.
.
.
Hoseok closes the door behind him, and slides down with his back against the wood. “Yoongi’s going to kill me,” he says to himself.
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Self Aware AU (Caleb)
Summary: You have the lowest Affinity with Caleb. The reason is because you hated him. Once. You hated yourself more as you, MC, were the cause his wings clipped, grounded. He should soar freely in the sky among clouds. You want him to forget about MC. Forget all the pain and the intense spiralling he went through much worse than the black hole he made. You will create his safe haven this time.
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Masterlist Self Aware AU
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"Didn't you get excited to be able to meet him again? Why don't you let him be your companion anymore after the Main Story? And what's with this Affinity? Even I was higher than this. You have all his cards, right?"
Your cousin poked you with your phone. You avenge yourself with a pull on her cheeks. She relented and so do you.
"I just want to see how he's doing. Fans sharing is enough to satiate my curiosity. I don't need him to be THAT attached to MC anymore. No more MC. No more clipped wings. Thus, the low Affinity. I hope he'll get to be in his safe haven from now on."
She huffed, "What kind of logic is that?"
"Oh ... fishie lover want to comment on it? Didn't you said that you don't want to be the destroyer-"
Your mouth was cupped. You smirked under it.
"Zip it. I shouldn't have told you about it."
You poked her side, effectively tickling her and at the same time released her hand from your mouth.
"But you did. Thanks though. I was a bit lost at the time because of him. What came over me though?"
You pondered. She patted your back sympathetically.
"Welcome to the dark side."
You both laughed at that. Your mind flashed some memories of your journey to the dark side a few months ago.
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A few months ago
*Click*
Even breathe. Blending with the quietness. The horizon was. always in your vision. You smell the slightly watery evening breeze. Chapped lips adorned a small upturn of the calm surroundings.
*Bling*
You heard the phone. Stepping inside from the balcony, you approached the only table in the room. Putting your camera on it.
[You don't have to give me a bonus but thanks anyway ;) Also thanks for taking me in even for a short time. Holler me up if you ever need a part timer again.]
You laughed at your cousin's message.
[Anything for Miss Romantic. Hope you can finally be together with that water master.]
[He has a lovely name, you know. Why don't you play too. You can be my coach when there's a battle. You're quite good at it, right?]
[Me? Otome game? That's a whole lot of different genres from my usual gaming preference.]
[But you do play Once in a Hallow's Eve. No battle and you said it's interesting, right?]
[That's basically an animated novel. The story was quite interesting too. Most otome games are cringe and scary to a whole different level.]
[This one has a pretty good story. I'll send you a video of the Main Story then you can decide if you wanna play.]
Amused smile.
[What's with the hard recommendation?]
[HELP ME IN BATTLE. My friend also needs your help. She was just too stubborn to use his bunny boy in battle.]
[Alright. Alright. I'm already confused with the nicknames. I'll be sure to test Zacian and Wigglytuff after I got them.]
[ (• _ •) Did you just Pokemonized them?]
[Now. Now. Don't look at me like that. I only know them from your shared photos and stories. Bunny boy is the one holding a light sword, right? So the other one must be your fishie. You always said he likes to pout but it's cute. So...]
[ ( /// ~ /// ) Fine. I did say that. When you've played, give him a better one because... Why did bunny boy get a legendary one??? Not fair... Mine was God of the Sea, mind youuuu...]
The messages went back and forth with you laughing all the way until dinner. You promise to install the game to help your cousin out. And to tease her more.
"Right. Good thing I'm in a hotel. Free wifi. That's a lot of gigabytes to download and a punch to the storage lost."
A few minutes later.
Closed eyes. Pinched at the bridge of the nose. A pair of thin lines.
The music was nice. You kinda agree with that. Enjoyed it even. The view?
You shivered a bit NOT from the cool breeze of the air conditioner. Goose bumps rising from you. Cringe.
"How long does it take to install this?"
You opened one eye to see the progress and saw fingers gliding, clacking keyboard, red flowers and so on.
"Guhhh... otome game... Good thing I have separate phone for gaming. No way I'll let this invade my personal phone."
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*ELIMINATED*
"Hmm... Zacian is pretty good. Could polish my movement a bit. I'll be better in the upcoming battle. Now let's continue with the Main Story."
You flicked your wrist to loosen it. Getting a bit serious and focused in the game. The otome game.
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"GAHH ! There's a phone call? Caleb? Who?"
You answered. Brother. The conversation. The banter. Grandma took them in. You nodded.
"Didn't know she had sibling. Orphaned because of Chronorift Catastrophe? Glad Grandma's there to adopt them together."
Not minding it much, you went to the next scene.
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"Ice and heal. What a combination. Aurorus is probably a good combination for head-on fighters. Can't wait to see how Wigglytuff fares in a battle."
You chuckled as you continued the story. You admitted it piqued your interest to know what's going to happen next.
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"Wigglytuff is a fire user? But didn't she tell me he's... Did he live in underwater volcano or what?"
You laughed at your own commentary. It was yet another interesting combination and he's quite a skilled dagger user too.
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"Wow. Didn't think I would be so immersive in this."
Story progress was capped by Hunter Level. Well play. It's a good thing too. You exited the game and prepared to sleep. Don't want to miss tomorrow's flight home.
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"You look awful."
"Is that anyway to greet your cousin?"
She chuckled, "That's my love language to kick you out and have a good rest at home."
You grumbled, "Let me just take the order list. Then I'll be going upstairs."
She sighed, "Maybe your idea of converting the third floor as your home isn't such a good idea."
"This building is my home whatever it may be. I'm glad I was able to persuade Gramps to leave his legacy to me rather than selling it off."
"He'll be proud."
You both turned to a picture on the wall fondly. An elderly woman was sitting while an elderly man was standing behind her chair, hugging her lovingly.
"She was comfortable back at the village. She even had the energy to scold me when I visited her every week." Your cousin pouted.
You laughed, "She don't want you to worry about her being by herself. The people there are great. I'll be visiting her soon too. Just need to reschedule..." You reached for the paper on the table.
It was snatched out of your hand. Shocked, you turned to the snatcher.
"Rest. Now. I think Granie got worried because YOU'RE the one that starts to visit her so often. Go. Upstairs. Shoo."
You matched her pout and got pinched on the arm. Defeated, you stepped away only to stop and turned to her much to her confusion.
"There's a level cap for the Main Story to progress. How many times before I could go through all the chapters?"
Her eyes slowly widen then she was jumping gleefully towards you. You prepared for the worst.
"You played it already !!! Want to Friend me? Oh wait let me share something real quick." She quickly tapped away in her phone.
*Bling*
The phone in your hand alerted you.
[ Beginner's Guide ]
"It help me a lot even when I've played quite a while. It reminded me of the basic things that I sometimes forego even though it's quite important. Check it out while you rest up."
You chuckled, "Prepared as always. Thanks for helping your junior, senior."
She grinned.
You retreated to your humble abode. Adrenaline was still there because your mind was ready to work. Gaming was what usually took the load off and this new one took your attention from yesterday.
You snickered to yourself, "What a turn of event... I'm winding off by reading a guide to play otome game."
You tapped the shared link and read it through, humming in understatement once in a while. You get the gist of it as you nodded yourself to sleep, finally letting your tired body loose after a long journey.
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"Hello boys."
You glanced at your phone for a second as you clacked away on your laptop. It is less awkward now to see the loading screen when you have logged in every day for the past week.
"Just doing my Daily then I'll be out. Gotta settle this ordering list."
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You flicked your wrist, "That's quite a battle. Good thing I keep revisiting past battle in Main Story to practice. Training Room didn't help much for me."
You commented loosely.
*Ting*
*Ting*
You stared at the disappearing notification.
"What did I do for Caleb to suddenly prompted a message?"
You went to the Chat. Another staring ensued. It shouldn't matter much but your instinct was unconsciously feeling a bit suspicious with him.
For what?
You're not sure.
You scoffed, "Don't tell me you're going to turn evil next. That's a twist."
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White noise.
Blurry vision.
Unbreathing.
Mouth agape. Unmoving.
Orange colour didn't stop lighting the screen. The only change was the stark difference of the warmth it gave. From burning flames to gentle twilight. The change snapped you back to reality.
Your finger somehow moved as your eyes barely registered the changes on the screen.
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[I promise you'll see me everyday wh...]
"Liar."
A single tear. Small sobs. Twin lines.
You hate him.
For breaking the promise. For breaking MC's heart.
For making me cry.
How did a game character affect you so much?
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Life goes on.
You still played. Just... not the same. You're encouraged to keep playing after seeing your cousin's hardwork just to buy a new phone for the game. To meet her fishie.
Everyday you saw the one thing that's slowly moving away from you.
One name. One conversation.
Always there but so far away.
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Unmoving.
Until...
*Bling*
It was the only notification sound that reverbs you to your core. Not because it was a special sound. Not because it was loud.
It was because of who it was from.
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"What."
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Present
The night was serene. The wind picked up. Eyes fluttering slightly to the sound. Choppy breathing. Slight gap of mouth. The dark embraced your sleeping form kindly.
There was one light faintly illuminating the room. A phone was still on and a sleeping face was near it.
From a closer look, there's streaks of tears on the cheeks. One of the evidences showing the release of your jumbled up feeling a few minutes ago.
Happy. Glad. Betrayed. Hurt. Disappointed. Longing.
Caleb.
The second evidence was the man himself, sitting on the sofa as he scrolled the holographic screen. A few seconds passed then the screen flashed a hint.
He was standing now. Closing the gap as much as possible to the screen.
"For such a tough girl, you sure cry a lot, my lil' beacon."
His hand made it off screen in an attempt to wipe your cheeks.
Unsuccessfully, of course.
Sighing, he settled on looking at the tranquil sleeping face with the streaks still there.
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He was smiling fondly but there's guilt glistening in his violet amethyst pair.
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madaqueue · 1 day ago
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HEAAA THANK YOU FOR THE TAG MY DARLING!!!! (me staring at your angst stuff knowing it's going to break my heart :33)
a pressed bruise never heals - yan!childe
“I’m back, my love,” he says, hesitantly. It takes a moment for your gaze to find him, to trace up the black of his sweatpants, the white of his t-shirt. Then there’s the freckled skin of his neck, the pink of his lips, and finally, the blue of his eyes. Blue like the ocean, blue like the sky. “Are you feeling alright?” Heavily, your head falls forward in a nod, gravity resting upon the base of your skull, tongue too dense in your mouth to speak. Something warm brushes against your cheek, soft like feathers, soft like the breeze and the grass. You hum into a waiting palm, not yet realizing it’s his, not even when his heartbeat picks up under the hot breath escaping your lips. Childe, of course, notices. He notices the way your eyelashes flutter, resting somewhere between open and closed, notices the full weight of your head in his hand, notices the way you let his skin touch yours without recoiling, the way you let yourself lean into him.
the place where there is no darkness - yan!satoru gojo
He’s bleeding out on Occam’s razor. He’s not his childhood. He’s not his mother. He’s not the shitty, awful things that happened to him. He’s just…bad. He’s bad. He’s bad. “‘Toru, are you okay?” You hope the gentleness will cradle him from the nightmarish depths he seems to be lost in. But it doesn’t work - he's sunk too deep, not even thrashing against it anymore. Because he’s bad. He doesn’t deserve you. He doesn’t deserve your kindness, your sympathy, your hands or tears or body. And he’s laughing. But not a kind laugh - it’s bitter, tainted by the taste of metal.
untitled - osamu dazai
The first time Dazai kissed you, it was through shaky limbs and red-stained bandages. You were both sixteen, with a mild concussion and blood dripping down his chin, and he had never looked more beautiful. He’d tell you it was the remnants of a fight, the adrenaline over-concentrated in his veins, that made him not know where to put his hands. So instead, his fingers tensed, letting the pistol clang its metal frame against the ground, fists fidgeting at his sides as his lips clumsily met your own. On your tongue, the taste of metal melted in the heat of your throat. Neither of you said anything about it.
no pressure tags: @twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat @osarina @storiesoflilies @loveritas @unriding + anyone who has a hauntingly full wip folder :3
silly wip tag game!◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜
show us a paragraph, line or dialogue out of context from your current wip[s]. if you aren't a writer, feel free to share one from the last fic you read! ♡
these are from three different wips, the last one is something i wrote in december 2024 (those who remember me talking about nanami and a desi reader...yea), and the second one is something my aashi (@fushitoru) has been asking for since the beginning of time [hint: salaryman choso]
— npt: @gojocon @norikuna @sonnytoru @starmapz @aishi-toru @baepsays @gojosoups @indiewritesxoxo @madamechrissy + anyone else
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bluewishdust · 2 days ago
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I got tagged by @dirty-fucking-pirate thank youuuu, I love these!! :D
shuffle your 'on repeat' playlist and post the first 10 tracks then tag 10 people to do the same
Fantastic by King Princess
Red Wine Supernova by Chappell Roan
Tears For Fun by Griff
Tongues & Teeth by The Crane Wives
What Is This Feeling by Ariana Grande, Cynthia Erivo
Käfer by Leftovers
I Lied, I‘m Sorry by Chloe Qisha
Explode! by Mother Mother
Washing Machine Heart by Mitski
The Emptiness Machine by Linkin Park
I‘m tagging (only if you feel like it!): @thegrimshapeofyoursmile @swabianhotpocket @al0m @blatantlyhidden @darlingofdots @hauntedsuns @madame-daydream @binarybird @honeybunjaemin @idle-idiosyncrasies
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Morning Mickey!! I'm real excited for today :3 hope your day goes amazing!
I get to spend today with my older sister! We're going to the mall and she's helping me buy binders so I'm so excited for that!!!
I'm also thinking lots about sharks rn so have some silly Shark!Reader thoughts!!
Lemon Shark!Reader being super super relaxed and sweet most the time but gets reeeal jealous but in the 'mine not yours >:(' kinda way very easily
(Cause if you didn't know, fun fact; Lemon sharks are very sociable and if they're socialized with divers, over time they can have a favorite and they won't let other sharks near their favorite!)
Tiger Shark!Reader being real mischievous and likes hoping out like a cat hiding in places and pretending to hunt their owner. Just jumping out from behind a corner to give a soft little munch and run off or getting *all* up in someone's space they're close to to 'cuddle' but in fact they just wanna see what they're doing and maybe tip it over a little
(Cause, Tiger Sharks are actually little hell raisers, if they've been socialized with divers they're rarely aggressive and are mainly only curious to see what they're doing, very curious and mischievous sharks!)
Bull Shark!Reader with lotta scars and marks and such, real scrappy and maybe even sorta bratty but all you gotta do is just roll them over on their side and they kinda just melt on the floor and whine to be pet.
(Cause Bull Sharks have particularly high levels of testosterone, and are also rather aggressive maters so whenever you see one with lotta scars it could be from whorin' around in a silly way or just having regular fights! Also turning a shark to their side or upside down also temporarily just puts them in a 'oh okay guess this is happening and I guess I stop being bitey' kinda state.)
Can you tell I'm hella autistic and my special interest is sharks and I YAP about them whenever I'm excited 🧍🏻‍♂️🧍🏻‍♂️🧍🏻‍♂️🧍🏻‍♂️
Anyways sorry for the yapping BYEBYE MICKEYYYY!!!! HAVE A NICE DAY!!
OMGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!! HI HI HIIII:3333 I HOPE THE BINDER SHOPPING WENT WELL ANGEL!!!!!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAHHHHH WDYM LEMON SHARKS GET JEALOUSS that's kinda cute hehehehe i didn't know that!!!!! and eeeeeeeee tiger sharks seem so much fun!!!!!!!!!! they do really seem like cats lmao i love it WAIT PLSSSSS TURNING A SHARK ON ITS SIDE JUST KINDA TURNS THEM OFF😭😭😭😭 THAT'S SO SILLYYY the reader is just laying on their side with like satoru sitting by them booping their nose, laughing to himself bc you're just so fucking cute:3333333333
AND AS USUAL!!!!!!!!!!! NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE EVER!!!!! I THINK SHARK ARE REALLY REALLY COOL HEHEHHE I'D LOVE TO GO SWIMMING WITH THEM ONE DAY<3333333333333333
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honibiuart · 2 months ago
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missing my girl 😔
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tartppola · 3 months ago
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last dance with skully
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hazieash · 2 months ago
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Everyone cheered (Ruthari reunion)
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xochimillilili · 5 months ago
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Hey come here puppy, come here and sit on my lap honey, let me hold you~ That's my puppy, just lay on my chest, yes just like that my love, rest your pretty little puppy head and let all those thoughts fall out~
You've had quite a long day haven't you pup? Look at you, your eyes are all sleepy and pretty, your cute lil tired smile n frown, your hair all fluffed up from being so busy all day... it's alright my sweetheart, I've got you, I'm staying here with you all night
Let me help put your collar on baby, you're just a little puppy after all, you just focus on getting yourself comfy love~
We can do anything you like my precious pup, we can cuddle here in bed or I'll sit next to you while you're snug in your little doggie bed. I can run you a nice bath and try to rub and scrub all your worries away, even just for a bit honey. We can watch something you like, or I can tell you a story, we can nap or do some nice coloring while I brush your hair all soft
You're my precious darling little puppy love, my good puppy who I'm so sooo very proud of, I'll always want to hold and care for you after a long day, you're the one I love~
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vitreouspositive · 2 months ago
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optimus "i can fix him" prime
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vs megatron's "i can make him worse"
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rainscenes · 4 months ago
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EVAN BUCKLEY 8.03, “Final Approach”
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