#I HAVENT FORGOTTEN YOU IM SO SORRY
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started writing again after a week of neglecting this fic. we have rachmaninoff to thank for this
#lykmc updates#let’s all send a prayer of gratitude to my lord and savior sergei vasilyevich rachmaninoff 💙#specifically to the third movement of his second symphony#that’s what my soul sounds like#it’s like a complete emotional reset to listen to it#suddenly im myself again#this is shameless rachmaninoff propaganda btw#if you still haven’t listened to his second symphony but maybe you’re intimidated by the length of the whole symphony i implore you#to at least listen to the third movement#it will change your life#(my favorite recording is vasily petrenko conducting the royal liverpool philharmonic)#AND TO THE UNANSWERED WIP WEDNESDAY ASKS COLLECTING DUST IN MY INBOX#I HAVENT FORGOTTEN YOU IM SO SORRY#I’ll answer you eventually 😭#hopefully soon!!!
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@fishshit I consider your post canon so I made it
Edit: I FOUND IT
Edit 2: Yakov trauma
Edit 3: I lied, here's the design rant
Edit 4: Updated design!
#i cant find the original post T_T#im going to search your entire blog if i have to#i will find it#anyway in the mean time heres something that started as a sketch and then went completely out of control and i am not sorry#i am beyond repentance you could say#it took me at least three tries to spell that word right on the illustration and english can go die#viktor deserves to be dramatic as fuck#yakovs aura was made of retirement papers when viktor showed him this#especially when viktor added that “oh by the way ill be wearing a big ass luxury designer fur coat” and then skated away#have fun deciphering the meaning behind all my design choices#for once i will not rant about them#ruins the fun#but if youre interested i do have a breakdown ready at your leasure#im sorry ive been listening to the song for hours now while drawing this and it just fits viktor so well i cannot#this is canon in my heart#arom antix art#arom antix#art#yuri on ice#yoi#yuri on ice fanart#yoi fanart#fanart#viktor nikiforov#also i am so sorry the mukbang comic is taking so long i swear i havent forgotten#some of it is done but its far from finished but itll happen#im going to finish it and you can quote me on that and come to my house and whack me with a newspaper until i do it if you want to#collab#religious imagery
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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#after a bus to a plane to a train to the underground to the room im staying in...im back in london#my calves are in their own personal layer of hell and my feet hate me but I HAD SO MUCH FUCKING FUNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#also??? the guys i shared a hostel with???? were so fucking hot oh my god. there were 3 guys and me which i wasn't. expecting. BUT.#the one in the bunk above me was australian and he was nice enough to give me a usb port thing for my phone and i think#i think i fell in love with him he was so prettyyyyyyyyyyyy#never got his name. but ill remember him and his charger fondly#he even let me keep it which was super sweet#but my birthday is in 2 days and then next week is edinburgh and my TATTOO!!!!!!!!#cannot express how much is happening and how happy i am i genuinely dont think ive been this excited about life in. at least a decade.#i dont want this trip to end and i know i still have like 2 weeks but i dont want to GOOOOOO#but also i DOOOOO bc then i have BRASIL with my grandparents and im just FGBHJK<JHBGVBHNJ#sometimes i cannot believe this is my life but like then i remember the shell of a human being i was just a year ago and im like.#no ya know what i deserve this.#anyway yes im alive and now i need to go pass the fuck out. miss you all im sorry to everyone i still need to reply to. i havent forgotten.#and i will do it!!!!!!!!! but time is hard. for obvious reasons. hope you are all well and im sending everyone kisses ilyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!#personal
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what if vash was a god, a benevolent god loved by many, who worked hard everyday to listen and attend to everyone's prayers and kept spreading himself thinner and thinner but it was okay as long as his people were safe right?
then something horrible inevitably happens and no matter what vash attempts to do, he cannot fix this! the people turn against him, where was their god? wasn't he supposed to protect them? why couldn't he save them?
useless, useless, u s e l e s s
he falls from divinity but he's not a common man, he is something else... something lower, something despicable. destruction and devastation followed him like a shadow no matter where he went and despite all this he never lost his kindness and heart
he falls from divinity but he's not a common man, he is something else... he is more human than humans could ever be
what if wolfwood was dangerous and deranged... his early life being of pain and misery, the only thing he clings on to is the orphanage. the place he was raised and helped raise many like him. he does not believe in gods because if they truly exist then why do they suffer so much? how many more children are going to turn out like him? bitter, cold and resentful
he is always kind to the children there, he never ever let's them see his true self they already suffered enough.. he wouldn't hesitate to burn the world to the ground but he'd sooner set himself on fire if it meant he would keep the children from harm
so it is no surprise that when calamity strikes and the orphanage gets razed to the ground, that in wolfwood's final living moments his grief, pain and rage that burn hot in his heart don't allow him to cross into the afterlife and he turns into a vengeful ghost
he is weak but quickly grows strong. he chases the transgressors like a vengeful god, for if the gods themselves do not destroy their pathetic scummy existence, do not make them pay the consequences for their actions then wolfwood would take care of it himself... it doesn't take long for people to grow fearful of The punisher
what if a too-much-of-a-human divine being met with a former human whose heart stopped beating turning him into something cruel? what if the faithless man that kept praying to protect what he loved despite not believing in gods met a broken god crushed by guilt and love who was trying to attone for his own sins with one act of kindness at a time?
#what im actually saying is basically an over glorified hualian au except make it more uh.. catholic??#or i guess more western is probably the best word?#im not sure but if you also love tcgf and hualian like i do you see what im getting it right?#obviously not actually a tgcf au but you know heavily influenced by it#god blessed me with having galaxy brain ideas in the middle of the night but i still havent figured out to make myself write them#anyways heres another for the back burner until i can figure it out on my own#or i bounce back and forth enough ideas onto someone so that they can help and kick my ass into writing it#trigun#nicholas wolfwood#vash stampede#vashwood#uhhhh dunno if this some of these things counts as spoilers but anyways better safe than sorry I guess???#trigun spoilers#once again this is probably incoherent but i had to write this down before i had forgotten AGAIN
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Someday I'll reply to my insane backlog of messages 😔🤙
I'm going through it my dudes (when am I not these past few years lmao) but I WILL reply someday ❤
#marquilla#seriously if i owe you a response to messages or ask response or even to finally finally fucking read something you sent me no#matter how big or small... i will get to it ❤ it's just taking me so much energy to just exist and im sorry#my brain is so tired sgdgdgdg like i have so many books i want to read and am excited to read and yet my brain said nope. not today#anyways im very sorry and im always thinking ab the messages and asks i need to respond to I havent forgotten
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Hello! I'm new to this blog and I was just wondering whatever happened to King's Gambit (the 95 line collab)? i'm not really expecting a full answer but I just wanted to talk to you and had nothing else to say ❤️
the king's gambit masterlist — teaser for my fic
don't worry it definitely is still happening and we haven't forgotten about it!! for this collab there's one plot shared between all three of us, and we're each writing a member's perspective so everything is interconnected with each other's fics. since they share the same major events we can't really move forward on the fics unless all of us are ready at the same time, and it's been hard finding time for us to get together and flesh out how our fics end. we are for sure going to finish it eventually because we've all put way too much work into this for it to never be posted (mine is currently at 22k, nova's @duhnova is around 20k and mars @onlymingyus is over 60k) but i can't give you a timeline because i don't know it myself :/ i would really really love for it to be out by the end of this year but that may not be possible, it just depends on the other members of the collab and how much we can all get written. i know it's been over a year since we announced it and i'm so so sorry that we've kept everyone waiting, i want to finish this fic as much as you want to read it and i wish i had something better to update you guys with but that's honestly all i have for now
#[💌] — asks#[👤] — anon#[✏️] — the king's gambit#all of us work and nova & i have school + other stuff going on so we havent all gotten to sit down and organize stuff in a minute#it may be 6 months it may be 2 years i really dont know but i am absolutely going to stick around until it gets posted#but i promise they will be posted someday!!! i wont leave yall hanging#honestly ive been really excited to work on it again recently but weve all had busy schedules so it probably wont happen *soon*#but i am hoping to make at least a bit more progress before the end of the year#once the main fic is posted im gonna do a series of extra drabbles/scenarios bc i love cheol hes my baby i have so much to say about him#the original estimate for my fic was 25k. its going to be a LOT more than that#so there is a lot of content to look forward to but you will have to wait a while#im sorry thats probably not the answer you wanna hear :( but it definitely isnt forgotten its always in the back of my mind asjgdkfs
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will you ever finish "Now I'm Just Somebody That I Used To Know"?
it's one of my favs! no pressure ofc just wanted to ask!
/np /nm /i adore the fic!
Yes! I've been very distracted and not working on it much and I also got to the point in the story where suddenly everything I've written up to this point seems bad to me :') but I'm still adding stuff very slowly, and I'd say the next chapter's maybe a little over halfway written? I'd really like to get a good chunk of the epilogue out of the way too before posting so I don't accidentally disappear for like two years again 😅
#rottmnt#somebody i used to know#ask#btw im so sorry to everyone whos waiting for an update i havent forgotten you i promise#writing long stories is hard :')
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Oh. Saw this from @/allthebooksandcrannies and thought this sounded like a really fun idea.
Rules: Make a 24-hour poll with the names of your WIPS, let it run, then write one sentence for every vote the winner received.
So let's gooo-
I'm not going to tag anyone specifically, but I hope this goes through my circle of mutuals and followers and maybe it will inspire some of them 👀 (I am mostly hoping it will inspire me. gotta hit that block with a stick)
More info on each wip under the cut:
Noisy as the dead (MHA)
On AO3 under the same name. Following the entrance exam, Izuku can see ghosts. He wants a refund.
Who the f- is this (DCMK)
On AO3 under the same name. Following a KID Heist, Conan is thrown into the past. He decides to make it everyone else's problem.
Just Remembered. (MHA)
On AO3 under the same name. Roleswap between Izuku and Rody, in the World Heroes movie.
the flowers have water (MHA)
On AO3 under the same name. Inko is Nana's reincarnation.
Before the coffee gets cold - the headmaster (BSD)
OS. Mild crossover with the book serie Before the coffee gets cold. Atsushi meets the Headmaster for a last talk around a coffee, before/after his death.
Matsuri (BSD)
OS. Oda meets a younger, lost Kyouka and helps her find her parents.
Changing fate by your side (MHA)
I had totally forgotten about this. Eri Time Travel fic.
Dad For All (MHA)
Post-canon Izuku is accidentally thrown into the past, and keep acquiring children. If anyone asks, it is not his fault.
the blood we shed (it never dries) (BSD)
Beast AU. My take on Kyouka and Atsushi's relationship, pre and post Beast canon.
tomorrow I'll be brave (BSD)
After his death in the Beast universe, Dazai wakes up in his body in the canon universe. He adapts.
#cro shouts into the void#cro makes polls#sometimes i write#bsd fanfiction#mha fanfiction#im travelling some on tuesday so maybe i'll write then. if not i need someone to hit me with a stick#some titles are not definitive too#and the blood we shed will probably be two differents works#i am so sorry about the fics i havent updated in a while i havent forgotten about them its just. Life. You know.
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oh my god i should rly get back to writing once more
#i swear i havent forgotten abt it or hits diff#ive just been so busy lately and i didn't even have time for myself let alone to sit down and actually write something#but dw! im getting my life back on track so you can expect a new ch soon !!#sorry for the long hiatus#🌺 — rina speaks
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Snake two things what do you think of groundhog eating cupcake and please send me to a mental hospital
Uh... I... don't... know how to ressspond to that. I guess it'sss kinda funny lookin'.
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For the October asks: ghosts and acorns! 👻🍂
Okay so, just to get this out of the way, I only have one half of the ask ready to answer for you here. And it's the Acons prompt of which I had NO IDEAS FOR other than this.
Buddy in an acorn costume. He's very enthusiastic about it. I know it's a bit of a cop out BUT! Answering this ask will serve more as an announcement about the other prompt more than anything.
So, for Ghosts, the only thing that came to mind was a bit of a rip off of The Jacqueline Dies AU pt.2. But! With my own spin on it wherein Jack and Lucy take a little trip to the Bad Ending Universe >:) To serve as more of an epilogue chapter.
I wrote basically all of that in one sitting but then I realized, I can't have a part 1 and 3 but no 2! So, THEN I fixed up the draft of part two and now both of those just need a polish round of editing which I will hopefully do tomorrow (or the following day).
And when both of those are done, I will post THE BOTH OF THEM back-to-back for a two parter featurette, to complete the Bad Ending series!
OOPS ITS RIGHT HERE, HOLY SHIT!!
And just so you can't say that I don't have ANY content for you here right now, I have come prepared! And give you a bit of a spoiler art for Bad Ending AU pt. 3 (Ghost Sighting).
#asks#the santa clause#digital art#artists on tumblr#Lucy Miller#Buddy claus#bad ending au#im sorry theres so little content for this ask!#please forgive me#The ghost prompt just really reinvigorated the FIRE for this AU#hopefully ill have both of those parts up tomorrow or the day after#thank you for the patience!#and Dani i havent forgotten about your ask either!#that piece of art is in the process of being rendered dont you WORRY
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I'm a touch drunk while watching this new episode of Fantasy High and seeing Baron again made me fucking scream
#i love horror. movies and books. body horror is my favorite rn#and baron from the baronies scares me more than anything ive ever seen or read#i cannot overstate my fear of Baron from the baronies#i made myself a margarita tonight and im a fucking lightweight AMD havent drank in awhile AND#i make my drinks like i own a dive bsr in wisconsin#so im feeling it tonight#(ive forgotten whati wantednto say with this post at oeast four times since i started writing it#also i put dye on my hair snd then made a drink not expecting it to hit so hard#but i still have to shower out the color#but im still fucking shaken by baron#i love/hate baron#but modtly right now im fuckihbg fuck baron#sorry ive lost my teain of thought too many times theres no recovering have a good night eveyone i love you
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top 5 WORST marauders era ships
oh bab! you've got a mind for violence! i love it!
(a foreword: in my heart, i am a hater. as such, i'm going to be a little strict about this, possibly digging myself a larger hole in the process, but--since technically you could come up with hundreds of nonsensical marauders-era pairings, i'm going to limit this to the more established pairings only (which is why pairings that i personally consider too ridiculous for consideration, such as anything involving snape, would be a waste of a slot)).
5. remus / regulus--not necessarily opposed to it in all forms. but also i am sort of bored sorry. sort of interesting maybe in the context of r/s. i don't hate it but it's here to make up numbers. these things happen.
4. james / sirius--i don't actually have a rational problem with this one. if anything, it makes tremendous sense. it is not a bad pairing. but it makes the cut because i am frankly only interested in a sirius that is in love with remus, and therefore i would, personally, rather die than consider it.
3. james / regulus--i was assassinated before i could provide a justification for this one sorry. shouldn't have answered this ask in the back of that open-top car during that motorcade through dallas probably. 2. sirius / marlene (or mary)--boo! rubbish! completely uninspired!
1. remus / tonks--i argue that this one counts as a marauders-era pairing owing to the inclusion of minimum one marauders-era character. i take issue with it on the grounds that they are both gay and i don't care about their child. it takes top spot by virtue of being the only canon pairing on the list.
ask me my top five anything!
#this is the bitchiest post ive ever made please dont be angry...im usually sooo good when it comes to not expressing these opinions#i deserve to be a little bitchy when its asked of me i NEVER get to do this...and we are in my own house after all...#was also going to mention anything involving all those slytherin side characters people seem to buzz about now. like evan barty pandora#etc. i dont even know what those are frankly they are just words to me. less than nothing happens in my brain at the mention of them#i feel like i havent forgotten any of the major ones i dislike. i dont know what the kids are coming up with these days i just think about#the same two guys over and over again. sorry.#this isnt that controversial to be fair. apart from jegulus i might be eaten for that one i know. these are the risks we take x#ask game#literally so glad i got asked this though teehee. you cant blame me for being a hater when im just following orders x
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im really just struggling at this point again to think that i can do anything with writing. or that im any good at it, that the things i make are any good or worth anyones time. that what little i manage to push out rn is even worth the effort of even making
#idk. i keep looking at the hanahaki and that bombed pretty well. just like everything before it#and yeah sure maybe i should give it a bit more than three days but in the hell scape of online its already been forgotten#ppl arent gonna find it going forward either if they havent looked at it already#just.. its not that just with this. its everything. it takes me so much to get writing these days and its just not giving me much back#i mean it makes me happy to create (i think) but beyond that its just a waste of my time and already limited energy i have#its just not worth it i think. who fucking cares#i know i keep saying this and then turning around to make something again just to burn myself again and repeat the cycle cause i never learn#it is what it is. i know i cant make people care even if i try. i honestly dont know why im trying#maybe i just really actually need to step away. like. for good#im just not good at anything maybe i'll get it through my thick fucking head one day#how its nothing but disappointments and misery one day after another. and almost always self inflicted. yay#sorry you dont care its fine im just sad again
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i wanna play animal crossing but i get really stressed about the amount of stuff i can do and how i dont know what i should do and it always reminds me that i should be working on shit :(
#its sad that such a calming game stresses me out#i just want animal crossing to be my real life#where i can just feel free#where i have no deadlines and i can just do things at my own pace however i want to#ngl i would do anything for a hug from Isabelle#idfk im just so tired of the real world...i just wanna be free to live how i want to#idfk anymore i just want a damn break from the real world...i want a world where i dont dread waking up every morning#one where i feel welcome and not like im shut out and shivering in the rain#it feels like everybody knows something i dont...something thats vital...it feels like everybody was taught how to be happy and i wasnt#i feel like an outsider in my own life...like im a side character and i only exist happily when someone else needs me#i feel like a doll who is forgotten about until they need a filler character#i feel like i only exist to give others a reason to be like they are...like im only alive to be the person who is a memory#idfk i just havent been wanted in a long time...and i know that you guys care and whatever but i just want someone irl to want me...#i want a reason to get out of bed in the morning...is that too much to ask for?#idfk im just gonna try and sleep#sorry for being a pathetic little shit#idfk im just really sorry about this#i feel bad for existing at all ngl#anyways sleep time for me...and by that i mean im gonna play games on my phone until i fall asleep
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