#I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON. MAKE IT STOP
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HOW AM I STILL THROWING UP. ON GD I WILL NEVER EAT CHEESE AGAIN JUST GRANT A BITCH A MODICUM OF MERCY
#I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON. MAKE IT STOP#MY GUTS ARE GURGLING OMINOUSLY AGAIN I AM GOING TO KMS#gastroparesis puking is one thing but dairy allergy puking is SO violent akdhfjbfbfg#I don't purge on purpose but this feels like my body is purging itself you know#I am very very very allergic but aldjfbfjgjgjgjg#Pinky promise I will not eat feta again I will make vegan labna from now on ššš
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I WANT ENDLESS BLISS!!!
HALF-AWAKE, HALF-DEAD, HALF-LIFE CRISIS
ALL NATURAL POMEGRANATE PULP.
FERMENTED TO PERFECTION, SAVOUR YOUR SAVIOR.
Q: What's your favourite food? A: THE ALE THEY SERVE AT THE TAVERN!
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#uhhhh happy pride month have a fucked up chilchuck that im really proud of#i took so long on that hair rendering just so i could cover it up with the stars...#this was a reaaaally experimental one#if i had another go at this id change a lot of things but sometimes you gotta know when to stop#ive learned my lesson from this one so ill do another one with my knowledge now ykyk#ive discovered i reaaaallly reaaaaaally like thin lines#still figuring out how rendering + painting works but hey it was a nice attempt!!#this is my first finished peice in a looongggg loooooongggg time and it makes me really happy how well it came out#i guess switching things up really helped with things.. i usually get stuck at flat colors because i get so bored#cw alcohol#cw alcoholism#eyestrain#<- maybe? its really saturated#chilchuck#chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#by the way i always thought him saying āaleā as an answer to āfavourite foodā was odd#maybe its a translation thing where theres a japanese wprd that covers both food and drink and the translator just estimated it to āfoodā?#cause if its not... sir??? chilchuck thats not a food... my man... you have a problem...#this is#[ tragedy au ]#but honestly you could take it as set in canon#by the way do you like my little poem : ) im pspspsps-ing at the dungeon meshi fandom/fandom in general to write more poetry/short lit#maybe ill tweek it and post the poem on ao3.... shrug !
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If I have energy I want to draw out some designs for an au I'm spontaneously writing.
(Medieval times, there's a Prophecy. Nightmare rules over this kingdom and is supposed to complete this prophecy, he refuses to because it would harm the people. Dream was sent away and banished by Night because he was dis-illusioned into thinking the prophecy was a Good Thing abd what he was raised to complete. Night collected his Knights (Killer, Dust, Horror, and Cross most recently) and trains them and tells them the truth of the prophecy. They're loyal to him. One day the magic of the prophesy (Apple Magic) leaves Nightmare unexpectedly, returning him to the state he was in before he accepted the mantle. This puts a target on his back and gives Dream a huge advantage in maybe making a comeback. The Knight's decide that their King (newly a young lad and variably scared and frightened) must be protected and they run the kingdom as he normally would, while also ensuring he survives and that the prophecy can't be completed.)
#yes this is fueled from RealAge AU vibes#and yes I technically have circled back around to my own initial post but like#the visual of these specific guys who've had various hardships in their lives suddenly like... idk... gaining a purpose and a protector in#Nightmare then seeing him reduced to a fraction of what they'd known him as. and still deciding to follow and care for him?#this au gives off distinct Older Brother energy because Night is like... 13-ish and not young enough to#baby but not old enough to resume his duties immediately#and he's got this like... awkward teen anxiety suddenly flooding through him that he doesn't know how to cope with#so the guys turn around and use lessons Night taught them while they adjusted to help him#Night's weak from Magic-loss? well he used to make sure Dust got bed rest and a meal so that's what we'll do!#Night is losing a huge chunk of his autonomy? They found a hobby for Killer so what does Night like?#just... yeah#plus Dream fully believes his bro pushed him out due to greed for power and had gathered forces to rally with him during exile#so he's the returned golden prince#and I imagine here that the final stand involves the knights scattering to stop Dream's forces while Killer stays with Night (<- most loyal)#and Killer hides Night right before Dream shows#and Dream says a bunch of vitriolic stuff about how Night ran and sacrificed his men and such and cuts down Killer with a near fatal blow#and Night finally manages to get out of wherever Killer stashed him and there's a moment where#Dream is seeing his little brother abd Night is seeing the man who lost his rights to be called brother when he attacked his Knights#and like... idk man#also Error is definitely Night's court magician/wizard because he bends reality in ways it really shouldn't#and here Error is younger because. i. I like the idea of an Errormare subplot but also like. the idea of scary spooky Overlord NM looking at#the wizard who just turned a vase inside out who's like 10 and learning he's a runaway and sponsoring him? yeah that's silly.#turns out Apple Night appreciated Error's raw talent. after the fact Night realizes he admires Error. insane tonal whiplash from his Knights#who have Zero protocol for courtships and kinda like. just watch it happen after the chaos is over#Okay that's all. i need to do my homework
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the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed
#not art#nsbu spoilers#kirk blade.... johnny manhattan..... maybe tenuously cosmo chase#also genuinely I Love that vic ethanol is showing himself to be bit of a dick#and kingskin conversely First Actual Communication With The Player is like. idk I just work here#(I am vibrating in my seat abt liv bloodlust. shes experiencing a bit of emotional consequence. hope she powers thru it and#becomes even worse)#I also love that g13 and jack manhattan are both like. gone#I know in adventuring party they're charting it to shape up as like. usha also slowly losing herself to the work like g13 did#and them becoming one entity entirely in the sense that their selves stop mattering in the face of their hacker capacity#(also called the Forum Moderator Dilemma)#but I also like to think that g13 handed it back to usha cleanly in the second episode with that one interaction#and is now fully unplugged from everything. left the movie. man is Sleeping#we all agree that paula ate jack manhattan tho I think it's fine to assume that#and! the way russell has been like. fully going whole hog full tilt into helping other people and moving the plot along#while Suggesting That Doing Self Reflection And Learning Lessons From This World Might Help to Other People#like I love that. 1/lieutenant syndrome but also 2/extremely transfem coded#like past the ''ohh I have realisationd I'm coming to'' stage. far past. man is bored with thinking abt genders#not new realisation to him! had that thought two decades ago. not motivated enough by anything to change anything#I think I just love the scenario of like magical mystical journey in a fantasy world clearly designed to make you contemplate ur gender#and ur like oh no what? we did that years ago. whats up#deeply interested tho. open up russell we wanna see whats up with u#dang is perfect no note 10/10 more important than anything else he is genre aware and savvy and that truly is all he needs here#the ''let's make it fun'' scene he does with liv is SO good I love him. Im so scared the vhs will snatch him away. hes too genre perfect
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Have you ever visited or would like to visit the ruins?
*ā¦Maybe Iāll check it out sometime? I dunno.
#//throws my āstars a good cookā headcanon at you#//yes heās stopping mooch from eating raw batter. yes he would eat raw batter himself. yes he did it once and got sick for a week#//he learned his lesson- no eating raw batter#//also I love making him just do casual stuff. like it doesnāt always have to be cool sheriff stuff#//let him just chill and make cupcakes for his posse- it doesnāt have to be chaotic missions 24/7#//I love exploring starās dynamic with the rest of the feisty five- I live for the friendly chaos between them all lol#north star asks#underblogš#undertale yellow#undertale yellow ask blog#undertale yellow starlo#uty north star#starlo uty#undertale yellow north star#mooch uty#undertale yellow mooch#Ask blog
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#Can't believe I even have to say this but unfriendly reminder!#if you reblog my shit just to be rude in the tags expect to be blocked!#like literally i dont give a shit about trolls antis whatever. online people will be online ppl whatever#but people being needlessly rude about strangers' art boils my blood#whether its my own or anyone else's#you do know that artists see your tags when you reblog our posts right?#you're not yelling in an echo chamber with your buddies.#if you wanna make fun of my art in private with your friends i literally don't care nor can i stop you#but for god's sake learn some basic fucking decency#signed: an artist very tired of seeing how needlessly rude and cruel younger people are about art in this day and age#it's not fucking cool to clown on someone's art/style to their faces and if you think it is you need to be taught a harsh lesson#also social media is way more public than you think it is#learn to use fucking gc's and dm's people#don't you have friends you can yap to
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Every time there's bottom Alastor fic it gets almost zero kudos, comments, bookmarks. But bottom Lucifer and top Alastor? Oooohhhh here comes first thousand of kudos and hundreds of comments in a span of a day! Then people start to make fanart and here comes another wave!
I fucking hate this fandom. I'm deleting my art and fics and I'm out, it's frustrating.
Ah, come on now, I wouldn't take it that far.
Yeah, it can be demoralizing and frustrating when you're stuff doesn't get as much attention as others, especially because of the way you write/draw the characters, but that's still something you put effort and love into. That's not worth deleting.
It's natural to want validation when you share something you created, especially in a fandom space, but if the only thing you're looking for when you post is validation, than you're just setting yourself up for failure.
I'm not saying you can't want validation (everyone does), but when you create art or write fanfics, you should be your primary audience. This should be for you fist and foremost. If you rely too much on what other people think, and whether or not they'll like it as much as you do or as much as a different concept/AU/dynamic, than it is going to hit hard when that doesn't happen,
Which is why I say you should ignore the things you don't like and focus on the things you do, because there will be fans who share your headcanons, concepts, character dynamics etc... It's much more rewarding when you're sharing your stuff with a small group of people than the entire fandom, because your work, especially if you're only just starting to draw/write fic, will typically be overlooked. It sucks, but it's true.
But keep going!! If you're truly no longer having fun in the fandom, I'm not going to try and keep you here. The whole point of fandom is to have fun. But if you do still love the show and you want to explore fan creations and make your own, then do it and block out everything else. You'll find you're people!
I don't want to make it seem like I'm putting myself on a pedestal or coming off as preachy. I've posted drawings/fic for the sake of validation too. I'm human and I want people to looooove my stuuuuff please and thank you, tell me I did good and you love it! And when it works, that IS a good feeling. It's a dopamine high you want to chase.
But when it doesn't happen, that shit hits hard and it can land a serious blow to motivation--at least it does for me. And it's still hard for me, personally, to get out of the mindset of relying on validation to keep creating. It's a lesson I keep relearning, because it's hard not to fall back into it. But it always ends the same: I start relying too much on that validation, and thus feel hurt when my stuff doesn't get a lot of traction, and then I enjoy fandom less and less and it becomes more like a chore than a hobby as I keep running after that validation high.
Fandom should never feel like a chore.
And once again, a post runs away from me. This is all to say, Anon, I know it's frustrating and demoralizing when your art/fics don't get as much attention as someone else's--especially because of your differing preferences--but don't let that take away your enjoyment of fandom, or drive you to deleting everything you worked hard to create. Be proud of what you made and find a community of people who WILL enjoy what you made. Stick with them. Create with them. And I promise you'll have a much better time.
#one day I'm going to stop rambling#and maybe i'll make a post that's under a bajillion words LOL#i really hope this didn't come off as preachy#that's not my intention#but it is an important lesson to learn in fandom not to rely on validation alone#its okay to want it#i want it all the time#but don't let it determine your motivation or your love of a fandom#find your people#and you'll have a lot more fun#asks#anon#anonymous#hazbin hotel
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#i know we on tumblr have already known about the whole thing with ng for months#but this new article that has just come out makes me feel even more vindicated than i did before#regarding my own taste in people#before i ever even knew that ng and ap were a couple or had anything to do with each other at all#i already had the ick about each of them separately#i've disliked ng's vibe since literally college and never got into him even when some close friends adored him#and i listened to a song of two of ap's but just... didn't like the impression of her personality that came through in her music#and for both of these things i couldn't explain it and had no justification#and usually presented it in a sort of self-deprecating apologetic way#if i wasn't completely concealing my feelings and going 'oh yeah they're great!' in order to fit in#but i feel like i'm learning a big lesson about trusting myself lately. i really do have good instincts generally. i should listen to them#(obligatory disclaimer here about how 'everyone is problematic in some way' and you don't have to stop enjoying someone's art etc.)#(but that's another whole convo and let's not get into it now)#(point is: this is just me feeling a sobering sense of 'holy shit' in awe as i look back at my own feelings over the past)#anyway. all this said. i do feel really bad rn for people who always loved his work#this must be so much harder for them than it is for the rest of us. i'm sending them strength and love </3
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definitely on my I hate men bs tonight bc why are yāall like that.
#once I start starving for love attention and affection again itāll be different but men make it sooo hard for you to like them#individually and as a group#I just feel like itās not even worth it to try and connect with men anymore for the purposes of romance#you can tell them exactly what you want and what they can do to make you happy and it wonāt even be much#and theyāll still fall short and be fucking flaky and weird and stupid as fuck#they play dumb and they say theyāre busy but they know exactly what theyāre doing and who theyāre doing it to#you could be they nicest sweetest most honest woman and they would still find ways to be shitty to you#Iām still going to remain a sweetheart but FUCK!!!!!!!!#all I wanted was one nice man to spend a few weeks with who would treat me right and do what I ask and sex me right and often#but I see now menās brains arenāt wired that wayā¦ as soon as they get it once their effort goes down#I could give consistent effort attention and affection to someone for however long as long as itās reciprocated#but niggas canāt even do that. bro it was just for a few more weeks you couldnāt keep up the act for a few more weeks?#I would have been giving consistent pussy and affection but apparently asking for gm/Gn texts is asking too much#and asking for a crumb of time is too much#why say youāre available when youāre NOT AVAILABLE#Iām just gonna stop having sex until Iām married because Iām tired of just being the next manās conquest.#clearly connection and time spent and effort and being honest with people means nothing to anyone anymore.#talking about how youād like things to go and following through on that means nothing apparently.#so yea Iām just seriously over it. over feeling dumb over feeling used#over feeling dumb as fuck for compromising on my boundaries and then having to put up with even less than that#mine#next time a man wants to give me head Iām gonna let him do it then leave. Iām not having sex anymore unless Iām hooking up specifically#I should have listened to him when he slowly revealed to me that he was not what I was looking for#guess what lesson learned. big time
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why r people so hostile to ghosts. I once cried bc I thought if I moved out the ghosts in my house would be lonely without me there to keep them company
#I also once said shut the fuck up I'm trying to read. and then I couldn't walk the next day. so. maybe I also learned a lesson in being rude#but I think that was something bad bc it kept hissing louder and louder until I shouted at it#and I've never had a ghost physically hurt me like that#they've scared the shit out of me! footsteps that stop when I look at the direction of the noise#and rattling my bedroom door for two hours until it opened#not particularly fun#but it always stops if I ask them nicely to please stop they're scaring me#sooo#I've been watching ghost videos for the past like week and it just got me thinking#I am a firm believer in ghosts but I just don't think they're as mean as people make them out to be#my fear of leaving them lonely was also bc they won't do anything unless I'm completely alone#which doesn't feel entirely fair bc no one believes that shit keeps happening to me and I have no way to prove it#shit doesn't happen long enough or consistently enough for me to whip out my phone and record it#other than the door thing. but I thought I was going to die I didn't really think to even touch my phone#except nothing's happened in like three years... so now I guess I was the one left lonely#ā:*after these messages we'll be righttttt back*:ā
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yelling at me does not make me want to be better. it just makes me want to avoid you yelling at me further. and in fact instead of it making me want to be better, it just makes me want to break all your shit so you feel as bad as i do, and so you learn that you cant treat me like shit with no consequences
but youre the one with the power here, so i guess that doesnt matter
#my post#personal#stop yelling at me about chores it makes you look fucking stupid#at least if youre gonna yell at me make it about something that actually mattera#and not about you seeing dirt where there is none#i cant even talk to you because you cant even hear me so it just makes me want to avoid you entirely#how can you be this old and never have learned the lesson to not take our your feelings on other people#vent#ignore me
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Full offense but I think if you, as a hairstylist who claims to specialize in āvivid colorā, receive the inspo photo on the left and deliver the dye job on the right, you deserve to have your license fully revoked
#currently having a full mental breakdown about having paid for the WORST DYE JOB I have ever gotten in my LIFE#and that includes the poorly thought out summer where I tried to go silver#I am BEGGINGGGG white people to stop thinking they can just do the same shit to POC that they do for themselves#also this is AFTER she fucked up the dye job once already and I had to go back to her#because she didnāt think my hair needed foils#anyway. I am doing my best to chalk it up to a bad experience and a lesson learned#but the amount I paid for this only to have to fix it myself in my bathroom makes me want to vomit#im learning that other people fucking up my appearance and aesthetic is one of my biggest triggers#vent#personal
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The rain'll let up, they said. It'll be gone by noon, they said.
#Oh well it feels like home#Did i ever tell about the time i discovered the magic of wool exercise clothes?#They are quite expensive but grandma bought me some when sanjeev and i were going hiking every weekend in washington#Anyway one spring sanjeev and i got a little to hasty in hiking up my favorite mountain#and it started snowing when we were halfway up#And we hit the snow line and realized it was going to be a challenge coming back#because snow was covering the trail hahahahaha what idiots#And when we reached the top and took our break#Covered in melting snow btw#We were debating which trail to take back#I knew of one that had diamonds but it was also STEEP like steep steep like mt rainier steep and that didnt sound like a good idea in snow#So we went back the way we came#And luckily since ive been hiking this mountain since i was 14#even when the snow was covering the trail i still instinctively knew which way in general was the way we were supposed to go#But let me tell you every time we hit one of my recognizable landmarks like a favorite tree of mine or a favorite rock#I was like THANK GOD i will never make this mistake again i have learned my lesson no trying to hike before the season starts#Anyway my point is when it stopped snowing and we were wet and cold i took off my top layer stuffed it in my bag#And the wool layer underneath dried SO FAST it was crazy#By the time we reached the bottom we were both warm and dry and cozy#Jrnlsht
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these things are always happening to the ones i like :////////
anyways the lighting in this dungeon is so nice
didn't get any good pics bc i was too busy dungeoning but so pretty...best dungeon music so far goes to snowcloak though btw
#ffxivposting#i knew it was coming bc i tried to use the google search bar as a spellcheck for his name (LOL) like a DUMBASS because in the suggestions..#i was like no!! no!! but he's so funny!!!!!! and the second he showed up in game again i started taking screenshots of me n the bestieee#it wouldnt be accurate to say that i am Emotional about this but i am like aw man...but he was so funny...insert montage of All The Memorie#was crazy seeing her looking so distressed in a cutscene. girl me too! he was so funny </3#the loud ass screenshot sound effects throughout the cutscene were funny though.this is who i am#altogether i have like 150+ screenshots of this game thus far.serious shit#IN OTHER NEWS:#- i cant stop laughing at finding out that a.lphinaud is in fact 16 years old. like i was guessing he was 17 or so but man it checks out#so hard. smart fella or not of course the sixteen year old boy naively founded a private army. it checks out so hard. hes cute :)#- since the tail end of arr patch quests ive been checking npc dialogue of relevant characters and thats a bit of a goldmine sometimes#- the first time aymeric(?) (not double checking via google ive learned my lesson) showed up i joked that he was going to be an akc type#and well no. he's really not. but i did cackle when it was revealed that he was a bastard child. clocked him on accident#- addicted to dalamud red dye. was funny when estinien started rocking his blood red armor like omg now we're Extra twinsies!#funny to me when they acknowledge the whole drg class stuff. like ah yes the Other azure drg. sorry estinien this feels like stolen valor#this is just what happens when u play f.fiv multiple times when u are r like 6. and also just think lances are sexy.#- can't wait to find out where tf the rest of the scions went. hi guys. you wont Believe what happened while you were AFK!#that's right! dragons! and then theyre like I Haven't Seen The Light Of The Sun For An Ambiguous Amount Of Time...cowabummer!#i keep joking abt needing to do a wellness check on urianger but honestly hes fine hes living it up in the sand. hes doing fine#- anyway can someone do a wellness check on ysayle(?).#- i've unlocked flight in a couple zones! thankkk god. some of these places are ROUGH to navigate without it sometimes.#- my keybinds are rough. also i have a gauge now. havent gotten to use it bc of level sync but anyway this feels like school#dont worry chat i only do duties with other real players when i Literally Have To Because They Make Me#- anyway. very ? about what theyre going to do with the rest of this story. intrigued. and quite sleepy i must say.
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someone needs to invent a time machine so i can go back and talk to my childhood self and tell her she needs to ask her dad to teach her tennis while he still can
#i mean i have to tell that child so many other things too but#i've been in beginner lessons for a couple weeks now and today my coach was talking about what a good player my dad was#before he got sick and had to stop#i'm glad i'm finally learning and it's never too late and all that but. in some ways. it IS too late. haha. kms.#jk i will keep going but#it just makes me really sad#anyways! iwtv rewatch tonight š iwtv rewatch tonight queen? iwtv rewatch tonight š#daphne.txt
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Everybody learns at their own pace everybody learns in their own time everybody everybody learns at the time best for them everybody-
#.txt#AGONIZING#the desire to improve right.this. second to unattainable degrees is crushing me oh nature cleooo#so many skilled artists and writers to be inspired from and motivated by#I REALIZE its like. all 20-smiths but I just love their stuff so much TT#and look. I still have to do my yearly america cringe post redraw and Iām excited BUT LAST YEAR I literally preferred the previous#and writing again and realizing I might have REGRESSED?!?!? from 2021?!?!? well maybe not BUT#its a tough lesson to learn that just because you age you donāt improve things you associate ur identity with if. you donāt. PRACTICE#like idk#anatomy not good enough#dialogue not good enough#not doing trends means less acknowledgement and that HURTS but I just donāt like making shit idc about it so it doesnāt feel worth it#going to college and realize it ur gonna have to stop being a kid and being ok with inadequacy#loving talking to fandom ppl but thinking oh ill never be as charismatic never be as interesting or as knowledgeable about history and#lighting#PEOPLE SHOULDNT COMPARE THEMSELVES TO THOSE 5+ YEARS OLDER bc DUH theyāre gonna often be better#I just. havin a creative bump where it feels like ill never bring my ideas to as good fruitation as others can#well. um. yea if thatās about it. Iām gonna go plan for tomorrows usual week comic cuz Iām flying to England at 5pm and wont have time/bars#ill be in Europe for the next three weeks and Iām very excited#just feeling all around inadequate if cuz Europeans often judge you REALLY harsh when they find out your American#I just need to POWER THOUGH and have a good time and make the comics and write the stories I wanna write#cuz thatās all I can do and the only way to get better at walking is to walk the walk
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