#I Feel Like I'm Going To Have A Seizure

[puke-ur-gutz]

today is a day to lay in the middle of the floor and use my phone to pretend there is nothing wrong or scary going on in my brain

[onlyasimp4nobody]

[blue-banditt]

experiencing v mild and transient psychosis, I genuinely can't tell if it's withdrawal or from not sleeping. Luckily it's not toooooo distressing just kinda have a bit of paranoia lingering in the back of my head that I'm ignoring rn.

Hallucinations have been p harmless I just thought I saw a man watching me over my neighbors fence this morning

[gardenview-gang]

RAAAAGHHBVGGAGH

I FINISHED MY STUPID LORE STUFF 4 GLISTEN TO GO ALPHA AND I LOOKED BACK AT IT AND ALL I SEE IS

cringe ahh stuff that I refuse to type out again

-Obv gisten mod

[twodiamondhoes]

I should not have made all those jokes about this year being better than last year already.

[kyofsonder]

Physically, I'm already lying down.

Emotionally, I feel like I need to find a soft spot and crumple dramatically to the ground and lay down for a few weeks.

[turtles-allthewaydown]

"Oo, fancy," Cherri says with a nod to the infernal cellphone. Angel's lip curls instinctively and her eyebrow raises. "Or not."

"It's a gift from my boss." He frowns at the screen, at the tiny letters — a message from Val, of course. How did the moth demon even figure out texting? Can he even read anything on the little screen?

"That the guy who's texting you?"

"Who else?" He snaps the phone closed, irritated, turns away to try to flag down the bartender. He needs another drink. "Only came with one number programmed in it." Well, it's got Vox's number in it too, and he imagines he'll have Velvette's before the week is out. But that amounts to the same thing — doesn't it?

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Chapter 3 of My Body Is An Orphanage (We Take Everyone In) is on AO3! Featuring a staring contest with a flip phone, good friend Cherri Bomb, and moving out of Vee Tower. Is this Vox's version of helping?

Chapter CWs: sexual assault, injuries from rape, drug and alcohol use, addiction & withdrawal, abusive relationship, panic attack

As always, please heed the warnings and let me know if there's anything I forgot to warn for. Pay special attention to the sexual assault and withdrawal warnings this chapter. <3

[early-sxnsets]

transphobes attacking me on insta for taking HRT after i literally explain that T saved my life by stopping my near-constant menstrual linked-hormonal seizures that i've been having since i was abt 16ish.... they don't actually care if it literally is keeping you alive in a medical sense they want you dead because you don't hate that you're not cis regardless

[immortalsins]

feels like i'm stuck in the hellscape that i left after covid but it's just living alone with my dad for more than a weekend

[deservedgrace]

How am I dissociated, numb AND dealing with allodynia at the same time. What are bodies.

[pygmi-says-hi]

STOP DOING THIS IN INJURY FICS!!

Bleeding:

Blood is warm. if blood is cold, you’re really fucking feverish or the person is dead. it’s only sticky after it coagulates.

It smells! like iron, obv, but very metallic. heavy blood loss has a really potent smell, someone will notice.

Unless in a state of shock or fight-flight mode, a character will know they’re bleeding. stop with the ‘i didn’t even feel it’ yeah you did. drowsiness, confusion, pale complexion, nausea, clumsiness, and memory loss are symptoms to include.

blood flow ebbs. sometimes it’s really gushin’, other times it’s a trickle. could be the same wound at different points.

it’s slow. use this to your advantage! more sad writer times hehehe.

Stab wounds:

I have been mildly impaled with rebar on an occasion, so let me explain from experience. being stabbed is bizarre af. your body is soft. you can squish it, feel it jiggle when you move. whatever just stabbed you? not jiggly. it feels stiff and numb after the pain fades. often, stab wounds lead to nerve damage. hands, arms, feet, neck, all have more motor nerve clusters than the torso. fingers may go numb or useless if a tendon is nicked.

also, bleeding takes FOREVER to stop, as mentioned above.

if the wound has an exit wound, like a bullet clean through or a spear through the whole limb, DONT REMOVE THE OBJECT. character will die. leave it, bandage around it. could be a good opportunity for some touchy touchy :)

whump writers - good opportunity for caretaker angst and fluff w/ trying to manhandle whumpee into a good position to access both sites

Concussion:

despite the amnesia and confusion, people ain’t that articulate. even if they’re mumbling about how much they love (person) - if that’s ur trope - or a secret, it’s gonna make no sense. garbled nonsense, no full sentences, just a coupla words here and there.

if the concussion is mild, they’re gonna feel fine. until….bam! out like a light. kinda funny to witness, but also a good time for some caretaking fluff.

Fever:

you die at 110F. no 'oh no his fever is 120F!! ahhh!“ no his fever is 0F because he’s fucking dead. you lose consciousness around 103, sometimes less if it’s a child. brain damage occurs at over 104.

ACTUAL SYMPTOMS:

sluggishness

seizures (severe)

inability to speak clearly

feeling chilly/shivering

nausea

pain

delirium

symptoms increase as fever rises. slow build that secret sickness! feverish people can be irritable, maybe a bit of sass followed by some hurt/comfort. never hurt anybody.

ALSO about fevers - they absolutely can cause hallucinations. Sometimes these alter memory and future memory processing. they're scary shit guys.

fevers are a big deal! bad shit can happen! milk that till its dry (chill out) and get some good hurt/comfort whumpee shit.

keep writing u sadistic nerds xox love you

ALSO I FORGOT LEMME ADD ON:

YOU DIE AT 85F

sorry I forgot. at that point for a sustained period of time you're too cold to survive.

pt 2

also please stop traumadumping in the notes/tags, that's not the point of this post. it's really upsetting to see on my feed, so i'm muting the notifs for this post. if you have a question about this post, dm me, but i don't want a constant influx of traumatic stories. xox

[pa-pa-plasma]

hate trying to look up disorders & shit because everything is just like "how to deal with a super inconvenient idiot who has X which we all know is just an excuse to be inconvenient & stupid" instead of what i really need which is "how to tell if you have X, from a person diagnosed with X"

[pamesjatterson]

im about to go insane

[maddisandy]

hey there!! nothing is set in stone quite yet i still have to see if i can make something work before resorting to it but i may offer small sketches and stuff for pay or even donations to help pay for my seizure meds. i learned about 2 weeks ago that with my new insurance the copay is $994. obviously that's not affordable and i need my meds i can't choose not to take them. it's not a good solution for the long term because i'd still have to get refills and i don't expect to be asking for help every three months, but at least in the meantime i really need these and i'm on the last ones in my current refill.

[bacchanalianhamlet]

2 months seizure free ✌🏻

[the-private-local-enemy]

absolutely fucking hate trying to take photos with this fucking phone they're ALL blurry except ONE. but it's the only way i can take pictures. because if i even dare to go out onto the step without him my geriatric little shitter of a dog pitches a fucking fit. it's worse than having a kid i swear to fuck. at least i could be left home alone at 12, this little shitter is 16 and he's never grown and will never grow out of being an obnoxious fuck