#I FEEL SO ASHAMED

[vampirismadvocate]

Found out a guy I was flirting with is a republican.

I think I have to commit ritual suicide for the sake of my honor

[bunniexmae]

blacked out at work today, i feel like im so out of control of so many things i can’t even do my job without the consequences of my mental health bubbling over

[idliketochill]

This is a very late birthday present for a certain friend who chose the outfit and brought the phrase “cat ear crop top” into my lexicon

Took so much psychic damage I needed months to finish this thing

Anyways happy late birthday unspeakable one, and share my shame

[altruistic-meme]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

hi dear!!! i definitely don't mind AT ALL i love getting questions!!!! i probably have answered this question before, but this is one of those things that's subject to change pretty often as i find new characters and they take over from older ones :] so i will probably never give the exact same answer twice dksvjsdfh

ok ok that said, let me see... in no particular order:

Damianos of Akielos (Book: Captive Prince trilogy) quite literally THE man of all time. THE man of my dreams. he is such a beautifully written character who is so complex and interesting to read!! he is so gentle and caring despite his size, and he has a confidence i can only aspire to.

Neil Josten (Book: All For The Game trilogy) unhinged maniac 🧡 no but genuinely he is such a good main character. everything about him and his narration pulls you in to the story. he is the most unreliable narrator. his perspective is so skewed. also my namesake!!

Nakahara Chuuya (Anime/Series: Bungo Stray Dogs) i may or may not have somewhat of an obsession with him right now. he is literally so pretty that i throw my phone. but also he is so unbearably human in an incredibly tragic way, and he is that way because he actively chooses to be. he is a high ranking member of the mafia and he loves dogs and he promised his dying friend that he would save someone else and he is so loyal and bright. i am going to stop while im ahead bc 90% of my thoughts right now are about Chuuya so i could genuinely go on forever.

Victor Nikiforov (Anime: Yuri!!! ON Ice) he is so sad

Hinata Shoyo (Anime: Haikyuu!!) he is just so fucking BRIGHT!!! unlike Victor, Hinata is the exact opposite of me in almost every sense. it is so hard for me to watch anyone else when he's on the screen. he is just joy and energy incarnate and i want to be his friend so bad.

Spiderman (TV Show/Movie/Comic) this is a cheat because it's just. every iteration of spiderman. i love him. just your friendly neighborhood spiderman!! i have such a soft spot for Miles Morales' spiderman in particular due to the spiderverse movies, but i also really loved all of the live action spiderman movies. and we can't forget the tv show!!!

Prince Wilhelm (Show: Young Royals) fucking babygirl. yet another sad wet cat of a character who i project onto immensely. he is just so complex and interesting and so real and flawed and just. listen. having the weight of the world rest on your shoulders as you struggle with trying to make friends and fight your anxiety and handle your mother all by yourself is something i have dealt with too. i can't put into words all my thoughts about him right now, but rest assured there are More.

Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III (Book: How to Train Your Dragon series) don't get me wrong, i love the movie version of him as well, but they are such different characters. and the book version of Hiccup has an incredibly special place in my heart. httyd is such a comfort read for me, and it was huge for me getting to grow up with Hiccup. he is just a fucking little guy and he goes through so much. but he keeps going. he didn't deserve any of it and he fights so hard to make sure no one else has to go through it like he did. gods i love him.

Charlie Spring (Comic: Heartstopper) same as with Hiccup, i love him in the show as well but to me the characters are so different and i just relate so much more to the comic version of him! he is a mess and i love him and relate to him. i wish i had what he has. i am also so proud of how far he has come!! and he reminds me to be proud of myself, too. also see; sassy motherfucker.

Kenai (Movie: Brother Bear) a strange choice, maybe, but this movie means SO much to me. it is a huge comfort movie. and Kenai, by virtue of being the main character, clearly gets the leg up as the favorite. but it's so amazing seeing him grow as a person (or. well. bear). he's funny, he tries so hard, he wants so much. and he's just a kid!! he learns so much!!

there are definitely some patterns in my favorite characters that i am going to choose not to look too closely at :') i have so many characters i adore. this was so hard ;;;

[snarlingteeth]

I didn’t say no,

But I didn’t say yes.

You didn’t ask,

But I should have spoken.

Found this in my drafts from June, I’m still recovering but I recognize what happened to me was wrong and shouldn’t have happened. The tags are from the original draft. Hugging every other sexual trauma survivor, I didn’t think it’d happen to me again

[blarefordaglare]

I’m thinking…

so, I’ve been struggling with writing motivation recently.

I’ve been taking some classes (Omg blare getting an education? What??) and life is getting really really to the power of really stressful.

So. I still want to write. I love writing. I love how my thoughts can flow into words. I know my writing isn’t the best out there, but I’m still learning, and you do something because you like to do it, not because you’re good at it.

so, if I were to make one of those ‘one shot books’ I see out there on AO3 all the time, just compiled of short <500-800 word drabbles when I have the time, would yall be willing to read it?

I still want to write long fics, but those may come out once every while.

[witchofthemidlands]

me: happy to finally be writing my first piece of torchwood fanfiction in the form of an overall whoniverse fanfic to canon diverge dw series 4 & am especially excited to write for captain jack, a character who i have loved dearly since i was eight, the first major lgbtq+ representation i ever saw & who has meant so much to me growing up. 😊

also me: ✨kills jack immediately by having him crash the torchwood suv into the bay mere hours before the daleks invade✨

[love-too]

Just made a fool out of myself

[turbin-merlin]

its halloween and I haven't watched an EP of Buffy.

[crippled-bird-bones]

i woke up today feeling somewhat... disgusted by myself. I'm not sure why exactly, it could be many reasons...

is it how much I've been cutting myself? or that I've been indulging in taboo fantasies and ideas?

I'm always so anxious about my own purity...

[theusernameiwantisntavailable]

There is something humbling about drawing traditional art after ages and attempting to zoom into the paper before realising that no. You can't

[kashlyn]

You know those times when you keep using a specific slang so much that you barely have a day when you don't use it anymore... Only to one day end up being curious and search the meaning of it online and find out that you've been using it wrong THIS WHOLE TIME

[ringostarrbignaturals]

how it feels to say you like a ship:

[nervousyoungtwinfantasydog]

1 year 7 months down the drain…

[chilope]

zero respect when people get all "oh nooooo i sure hope this post doesn't get a zillion noootes teehee, stop reblogging I can't have this be what people remember me for 🥺🤭" all coy and shit when the option to disable reblogs is right there. strangle that post in its crib to prove you're not a poser.

[stupid-shithead]

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