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aheckinmess · 21 days ago

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It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas

(Part 1 of The Snowball Effect)

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Tags: Enji Todoroki, Endeavor, Christmas, Christmas Special, It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas, Christmas Decorations, Shopping for Presents, Santa Claus, Angels, Cold Weather, Winter, I Feel Like Everyone Could Use Some Christmas Cheer, I Am More than Happy to Provide, Consider This My Gift to You, A Happy Todoroki Family, Reader is Enji's Wife, Reader Has Ice Quirk, I Envision Reader As an OC in a Fic I Haven't Posted Yet, In This Fic OC Adopts Shigaraki and Saves Him from All for One

Word Count: 1,365 words

Summary: The Christmas season starts in full swing and you’re determined to find the perfect gift for Enji while decorating the Todoroki household until it’s a wonderland of festive cheer!

Playlist: The Snowball Effect

December 1

In the bustling streets of Japan, public workers busy themselves decorating the street lamps with flashy, twinkling lights and bright, sparkling ribbons. Your favorite time of year also presents itself in the form of a large Christmas tree in the park you always pass before you reach the mall.

Frigid winds paint passerby’s cheeks a festive red as you step inside the local Aeon with some pep in your step. Your ice quirk means the lower temperatures don’t bother you, and you’ve always loved Christmas. So while others walk inside rubbing their hands and grumbling wishes for January to arrive early, you usher a silent prayer that days full of cheer linger a little longer.

Today’s mission involves presents and decorations.

The decorations aren’t an issue. You grab some garland, extra lights, tinsel, and enough Christmas trinkets to earn the envy of old St. Nick himself.

Presents are the hard part. But not just buying presents for anyone. No, no. Your kids? Easy. Your friends? Easy. Enji?

Enji Todoroki is quite literally the most impossible man in the world to buy a present for.

Every time you ask him what sort of gift he’d appreciate, he shrugs and assures you he has everything he needs - he has the funds to purchase whatever he needs whenever he needs it, so why should he concern himself with one major holiday?

Well, this year, you’re determined to find the perfect gift. If you have to search through every goddamn outlet mall and store in Japan, you’re going to find the winning item that takes his breath away.

Thankfully, you don’t have to travel quite so far. Strolling through the last store in the mall with your aching feet, you could swear you hear angels singing in the atmosphere as Enji’s perfect present seems to glow on the shelf.

You don’t feel bad when you snatch up the last one.

. . . . .

“Is this really why you had Tokei watch the kids today?” Enji grumbles when he enters the house. “I didn’t think you’d ever get back.”

Originally, he was supposed to take the day off to spend it with you, but when the Hero Commission calls for an emergency from the No. 2 hero, what’s he gonna say? No?

Endeavor would never.

“Well, I had to do something to pass the time. I didn’t think you’d be back this early after they’d called you in for an emergency.” You snort, handing him a heavier bag, but keeping the bag with his gift concealed. “Got presents while I was out. Give me a minute.”

You slither down the hallway into the bedroom. Enji isn’t likely to search for his present, and it’s small enough that you can conceal it on the floor under your nightstand. You toss a half finished blanket over the bottom shelf, and the box disappears from view.

It’ll do until you can wrap it.

“Do you want to help me put up decorations?” You ask as you start sifting through your goodies. “Look. I even got your latest Endeavor ornament to go on the tree!”

“You do that every year, my flame. One year we won’t have enough space on the tree to keep them all.”

“Ha! That’s quitter talk. I’ll just buy another tree and have one dedicated to you, specifically.” You lean up on your tiptoes and peck his lips, before offering him a Glaceon ornament.

“Ugh, your Pokemon obsession couldn’t skip this Christmas?” He taunts, pulling you closer by the hips and caressing your cheek.

“Listen, I know you don’t like the franchise, but Glaceon’s one of your favorites!”

“Is that so?”

“Of course. After all, they remind you of me.” You crinkle your nose and bury your face in his chest with a contented sigh.

“Hmm, perhaps.” He allows, before kissing your forehead

When both of you turn back to the mountain of decorations scattered around the house, you scavenge for the tree first. It takes little time between the two of you before the Christmas tree in all its glory towers above you. Immediately, your spirits rise and you giggle as you trot from box to box, looking for the lights.

“Okay, I’m going to stay on this side and start wrapping it around the tree, Enchan. You thread it through the tree on that side and then pass it around to me. It’s easier that way.” You instruct.

Within moments, lights join the tree in heralding Christmas’s arrival.

Of course, no tree is complete without a topper! You sift through several good choices: an angel, a traditional star, and even a wooden Santa all clamber to the top of the box in the hopes of being the shining symbol of hope for the season.

“Hmm, Enchan? One, two, or three?”

“Three.”

“Santa Claus, you’re coming to the Todoroki household!” You decide, handing the wooden figure on a pedestal to Enji. “Can you put this on top? I’m too short.”

“Well, that’s not a problem.”

You blink and scream as the ground vanishes beneath your feet; Enji has hooked you around the waist and you’re elevated until your ponytail brushes the ceiling.

Enji’s deep laugh doesn’t go unnoticed.

“That high enough?” You hear him smile.

“Y-Yes.” You huff, depositing the wooden Santa at the top of the tree.

As soon as your feet reach solid ground again, you smack Enji’s arm before searching for ornaments. Red blossoms in your cheeks and snowflakes poof around your head.

“You could have warned me, ya know.”

“Certainly. But then I wouldn’t be able to see those delightfully rosy cheeks of yours, now would I?” He tilts your chin up with mischief sparkling in his eyes - the pristine blue could rival the lights on the tree.

“I guess not,” You relent, offering him a box of red orbs. “But I’m sure you’d have found another way to make me blush. You always do.”

“I have to make sure I can still turn your head, my flame.”

The generic ornaments make their way onto the tree without issue, but when you get to the special, heirloom ornaments, you squeal at the sight of a little snowball ornament made from contact paper.

Inside, surrounded by paper bits of snow, is the child face of Enji.

“You were so CUUUUTE!” You hold it up to him. “How old were you in this? Why haven’t I seen this one before?!”

“Oh, please. Cute?” He grouses, but his lips betray the ghost of a smile. “I was five here. I actually think I’d just manifested my quirk a few months later. It made this ornament rather ironic.”

“It just means you and I were meant to be!” You do a little shimmy before finding it a home on the tree. “Would you like to see kid me? I know you see it every year, but–”

“I look forward to it every year.”

His words sink into your heart and heat you down to your toes. You scavenge the box until you find what you’re looking for. Only instead of a picture of you covered in paper snow, your child-like face is pasted in the frame of a foam Rudolph.

“Yes, this one. Your vibrant passion for life must have never changed.” He pulls you into his side as he nods at your wide smile in frame. “What had you so happy, hm?”

“I don’t actually remember. I’ve just always loved Christmas.”

“It suits you.”

On and on, you create a sanctum of Christmas spirit – you save the other half of decorating the tree for the kids after laying down the framework, you line the fence outside the house with garland, and the mantelpiece twinkles with tinsel.

As a final touch before Tokei returns with the kids, Enji finishes hanging mistletoe above the entryway into the house.

“Ooo, mistletoe? How about a kiss for your queen?” You giggle, stepping under the entrance and dragging your fingers up his chest.

“Gladly.”

As flames of passion dance between your lips, a chorus of groaning children can be heard from outside. Pulling back with a laugh, you lay your head on Enji’s shoulder as five Todoroki children step through the threshold into a wintery wonderland.

Day 2

Credit to @saradika-graphics for the holiday banner! Thank you so much!

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murderandcoffee · 28 days ago

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Constantly thinking about the fact that jonmartin is legit canon

Like we got that. We actually got a CANON queer couple in a horror series whose relationship is treated with respect and is well written. We GOT THAT

For ONCE

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I LOVE IT IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY

I LOVE JONMARTIN SO MUCH

#I've been getting that itch to relisten to tma (again)#also anon if you want recs for other podcasts that feature canon main queer couples that are written well and treated respectfully #I am MORE than happy to provide you with some #tma #jonmartin #jmart #ask murderandcoffee #anonymous

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starry-bi-sky · 7 months ago

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catch me looking up nightingale symbolisms for tales of the passerine. if danny's using the name of a songbird for a hero name, regardless of familial connections, i will utilize the symbolism tied to the bird. Anyways general gist of the nightingale symbolism i've seen, other than what wikipedia told me, is that nightingales were frequently symbolisms of spring renewal, loss/death, love, etc. catch me about to incorporate music into Danny's character

#dpxdc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #tales of the passerine au #musician danny ftw. as someone who loves music i am more than happy to make this boy a frequent singer. this au is still baby #i can squeeze singer/musician danny in pr easily.#some favorite lines i saw while looking for symbolisms is that nightingales in roman culture were associated with venus and were also said #to provide comfort in the hours of darkness. eh eh? i saw a summary that in chinese folklore they were seen as symbols of hope #it didn't specify which dynasty but it did say it was a famous tale. cite also mentioned that in John Keats' “Ode to a Nightingale”#the bird’s enchanting song transports the poet to a world of transcendent beauty providing a temporary escape from the suffering and imperm #anyways looks like nightingales in gist symbolize comfort in dark times among other things #while robins in gist symbolize renewal. celebration of life. good luck. rebirth.#nightingale's color scheme in my mind is very much a dark purple-blue and black. maybe some gray too.#he'll probably try and ditch the black and white just out of paranoia. argh i need to come up with a suit design nooooo. superhero suit #design is my weakkkest design skill. have to balance between practical and a unique silhouette thats in line with their character.#esp since danny's not using his ghost half to be nightingale -- way too risky. also not using his powers/using them very little.#maybe i can work in an ocarina batman reference lmaoo. i can lean into comic/cartoon realism and have fun with that. as a treat

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skeletalheartattack · 4 months ago

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Subtitles below the keep reading:

Hey you, shut your mouth and look at my paw! DON'T FORGET!! [Incomprehensible sped up gibberish] This... Journey... Money... Loads of coins. [Incomprehensible sped up gibberish] What-about-her? What-about-her? ... What-about-her? 'She still like me? [Quiet but mostly incomprehensible gibberish about subtitles] O P S O P N O-1 1. Here's the spell: Love the mermaid, for sure! The mermaid is HAPPY! Okay! It's pretty normal for a fish, right? Guuuyyyssss, beeeee caaarefuuulll wiiiiith theeee GIIIIIRRRRLSSS!!! [Incomprehensible] Oh! Silly! Oh yes! Lamb chop boy! [Incomprehensible] [Very quietly, while white noise is playing over it] Goood eevening, aand weeelcome too the shoooowww... [In the background] Ohhh, mooney!

#video #elevenlabs #i generated three versions of this video and basically spliced together the best parts from each one into one thing #and also toned down the flashing of the red and white pound signs to be a lot slower #i'm honestly surprised how well everything spliced together. i was expecting it to be even a little bit noticeable but. nope apparently not #i did a few generations of meet the spy's intro and tried to splice together the best bits but theres just so much happening with the audio #there's a lot of funny portions of that audio. maybe i'll try again at it and see if i cant get the parts i like in one thing #truthfully i also don't know how much folks'll like these. as in compared to around the time the infomaniac stuff was made #so i'm not sure how much of these i'll be putting together and uploading. mostly just been fucking around and showing my friends #i'm mostly just intrigued to hear what the ai tries to say with some of these generations #since it's just trying to translate from one language to another #in this case. providing videos in english. and setting the translation from russian to english.#which seems to be the best thing so far (that i've tried) that causes more of the words being said to be off-script #like it'll usually most be like whats originally being said mostly but other times it's completely different from the source #i think this dub shows it best. between ''hey you. shut your mouth and look at my paw!'' and ''love the mermaid. the mermaid is happy!!''#i am also officially out of characters to generate more so i won't really be doing more than what i've already done for a while #i wanted to try and give it a video that plays backwards. flip that. then let it dub over it forwards.#but i'd have to wait until i get the character limit reset

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babybirbb · 6 months ago

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Just started watching suits recently and was wondering if you had any good fic recs, particularly AUs. The nature of the show really lends itself to Selkie fics imo but also I just love selkies

anon i need you to know that as soon as i saw your ask i immediately went scouring through the AU tag on ao3. i’m not gonna lie, i'm not usually an AU reader but i wanted to challenge myself to provide some recs as unbiasedly as possible.

at first observation, i noticed a lot of the AU fics were still in some way canon (divergent and adjacent)-- usually splitting off somewhere along the show or a situation where Mike or Harvey is still a lawyer, while the other was not. i will say i skipped over smut-based (omegaverse, bdsm) and lengthy fics (under 20k is nothing, anything more than 50k is pushing it for me) cause i just did not have the brainpower to even try to get through them :/

so of course the ones i ended up liking were mostly canon divergent/adjacent but i tried my best to get you something different. what i managed to dig up for you is under the cut and i really hope you like them anon (also fyi these are all pretty much marvey fics, hope that's okay!) <3 also thanks so much for the ask! i enjoyed this little scavenger hunt haha!

As the World Caves In by SupernaturalIdjit16 | Mature - Zombie Apocalypse, Warning for the usual triggers that come with zombie apocalypse. It’s not a complete work but it literally got updated today!

Here at the end of all things by tattooedsiren | Explicit - Apocalypse, Hurt/Comfort, Mike and Harvey protecting each other, Mike does shoot someone and goes a bit into the psychological aftermath, light smut towards the end

The Haunting of Penthouse B by Skara_Brae | Teen+ - Supernatural Elements, Happy ending, Mike’s a ghost…or is he?

Meet Me at Midnight by butdaddyilovehim | Teen+ - Superheroes/Superpowers, Protective Harvey, he's also Batman…need i say more?

Complications by LearnedFoot | Teen+ - Canon divergence, Fake/pretend relationship, Harvey decides not to hire Mike, instead asks for his help to spite Jessica, of course they end up falling in love

The Touch by FrivolousSuits | Teen+ - Magic, Angst, Soulmate inspired, it’s also from Donna’s pov which was super fun and interesting, as was the nature of the magic

TBR list:

Wear My Name by Lunarflare14 (Teen+) and whatever the question by tattooedsiren (Explicit) - These are both Fake/Pretend relationship AUs based/inspired by The Proposal movie! (a very good movie imo)

The Game by FrivolousSuits | Teen+ - It’s a Hunger Games AU so i am intrigued, just haven't gotten around to reading it yet

Ocean Dream by Blue_Five | Mature - i apologize for being unable to provide you with a selkie fic so the best i could do was the incomplete merperson au... i hope it's enjoyable...😅

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technofinch · 4 months ago

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Incredible news everyone. I have a new addition to the list of Movies Of All Time.

If you want a scathing, tounge-in-cheek criticism of misogyny in the armed forces and the role of scientific advancement in the military industrial complex, shitty puns, lots of titties, the most available special effects 1996 had to offer, then you want the action/sci-fi/comedy/adult film Repligator!

I'm not telling you anything else about this movie. Invite a friend over and make them watch it without telling them what it's about.

#3rd favorite depiction of a dr west in any media #behind the og and our fair city of course.#digital birdsong av club #listen. this movie is not for everyone. it may not be for you.#but if you go in with an open heart and a heavy dose of satire i think you will enjoy yourself #also it's important to note that it was filmed in and takes place in texas.#it's also got shockingly little transphobia. like. genuinely amazing how not transphobic this movie is considering the time/subject matter #(i am also more than happy to provide additional info/content warnings if u want them it's just a fun movie to go into blind)

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spacenintendogs · 11 months ago

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Confession: Snotstrid is the only m/f pairing in all history of How to Train Your Dragon that I'm able to truly enjoy, but if I say this anywhere else I'll get bashed on the head (not a joke, this actually happened once). When I found your blog I literally screamed with joy and thanked the heavens, for I am not the only one child of men born with bad taste. Thank you so much for your service.

proud to serve our troops 🫡

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daguerreotyping · 1 year ago

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Daguerreotype of a dashing young police officer with a star badge, c. 1850s

#what is he the fashion police #19th century #1800s #1850s #1850s fashion #19th century fashion #historical fashion #fashion history #men's fashion #menswear #19th century photography #daguerreotype #19th century men #vintage men #kicking myself for not bidding more aggressively the first time this was at auction and ended at a fraction of the current price #but otoh I am happy to boost this reseller who consistently cleans restores and provides high resolution photographs with no watermark #I've bought from him before too and he is very reliable #I do recommend rather than buy it now choose add to watchlist and wait—he usually sends lower offer price to watchers in a day or two

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spuddy-potat · 1 year ago

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honestly i wish more people in the whump community knew about xxxholic 😅😅 there are a few really really good episodes where the main character gets whumped, truly a hidden gem of an anime if you ask me.

#whump #xxxholic #if anyone wants episode recommendations i am more than happy to provide #honestly there are a few episodes i just keep rewatching bc theyre so good

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burinazar · 2 months ago

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interesting bind where i can definitely go 'if you like belaf then i recommend mithrun dunmesh and/or michel fatamoru' but can't much further specify why in either case without spoilers and also to be honest it can't really work the other way(s) around (as much as i wish otherwise)

#it can't work the other way around because mia as a narrative has much less to offer of Bdog than dm and ftmr offer of the others #(especially the latter who is a full fledged central character)#with many fans sorta overlooking him as a plot device and the creator seeming honestly not that interested in him and his companions #(which is amazing considering how much you can read into him..tsuk you care about Be at least a little don't you....)#but he's on record as saying #basically #that that arc was something he didn't enjoy making because of the focus on adult characters #so it's about the opposite experience of 'wow im so happy to find a character and story more of what i like'#and beyond that lots of the overlap i am referring to requires one to chew on the character a lot #and either provide some of their own analysis and/or engage with the fandom/fanon to find said analysis #to reach the conclusions his fans tend to reach about his relationship to trauma et cetera

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itsalwaysdark · 4 months ago

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anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day

#its just like atm everything that i need is like . not possible. which is oartially my brain being like We have to do this before we this #which sometimes isnt true but sometimes is #like i cant get medicated again or back seeing a psych or back on t until i get a job again #but i cant get a job again utnil i get my ged <- partially untrue but ged would make it a lot easier #but i cant get my ged until i have a job bc it costs money <- if i asked my parents they would probably help me If they had money 2 spare #since like. yk. they want ne to be able to work again so i have money again and ill be another source of income and they care abt me also .#affirmations . ppl donot just see me as a piggy bank they do see me as a person im not judt someone to squeeze money out of thats not how #ppl view me and its fine its fine its fine its fine . it feels so stupid being scared abt that i feel like a rich person whos like She only #likes me for my money 😭 like stfuuu annoying ass. i just ummmm. have a massive fear of debt and like. ppl demanding money from me #unexpectedly or expecting i am going to give them money. not in like a Ohhh fucking ppl want me to donate not it at all im happy to donate #but in like. god this is dumb. eveeytime i got birthday or christmas money as a kid i had to give it to my parents so they could buy food or #gas or whatever. and it never got paid bsck and it felt like shit. but i couldnt ever say no bc then itd be My fault we didnt have food that #week . yk. my first paycheck i had to give it all to my mom for groceries and we got in a fight in the store bc she was like Ok im gonna go #buy pop and my dumbass got upset abt it bc like. my mom told me itd be Necessities nd like. yk. wtvr. it was fucking stupid my entire family #r caffeine addicts so pop is a necessity i was just. rly upset and it felt like my parents saw my money as just. theirs but they had to ask #abt it so i wouldnt get pissy. yk. and they ask me for money a lot usually for food and i dont mind but it like. idk im rly paranoid abt #being a provider and ive got a Lot of guilt abt like. anytime we dont have enough food it feels like my fault bc it was my fault when i wasa #kid if i didnt give up my christmas money for pizza. or whatever. idk its so dramatic like i didnt need the money i was 8 it was selfish of #me to wanna buy fucking. toys or whatever that wasnt more important than My parents being able to get to work or my siblings being able to #fucking. literally eat. or paying bills. like its selfish that im like wahhh wahhh but i wanted to buy vibeo game wif my bday money i #shouldve judt been fucking grateful i was able to help my family. wtvr. I hate connor. wtvr #n then the shit with ugh last year like. yk. and stuff. and then the them stealing 1000 from me not getting into it b4 i get mad. idk.#and im just lazy now i need to get a job again but all the shit like. as i was saying earlier b4 i started whining. idk. i should be happy #that i get to help w bills and stuff that was my dream as a kid #like ever since i was 5 when i was fantasizing abt my future i was like Im gonna marry a prince and then ill be able to afford to pay all of #my families bills and my parents and siblings will be able to go to college and be happy and maybe never have to work bc ill be able to #handle it and ive always like. yk. when i was a dumbass kid i was like Ill go to college so i can get a good job and be useful. of course i #cant ever go to college bc im fucking. useless. and itd just be another burden on my family if i was in debt bc i couldnt help them as much #if i had debt and itd be selfish. and it doesnt matter bc im too stupid to go to college anyway. idk. i wish i could just fix everything #it just feels awful rn im literally just a drain and my family doesnt say it to me yk like. ik theyre happy imback i think they are

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kiir-i · 7 months ago

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Do you take commissions? :)

I do!

Here’s my kofi if anyone would like to throw me any bones.

#my art #kofi #Just a warning I am currently recovering from a pretty intensive surgery so art may just take a little bit longer to come out #But I’m more than happy to provide wips and keep that art machine churning 👍#ask

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thevioletcaptain · 2 years ago

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pov! you're me, considering signing up as a participant in a new challenge, but as you're reading the rules and requirements you notice that they've straight up pasted in several sections of copy you wrote for a challenge you founded and have been running for the past seven years (and they didn't ask permission or provide credit!!!)

#hoooo boy this pisses me off lmao #at first i was like... am i imagining this?#but i made a point of going through it #and there's several sections where they've flat out just thesaurus'd in a new word and switched ''pinefest'' to their challenge name #and to be clear if people want to use rules from pinefest *as a template* for their own challenge rules that's totally fine by me #like i've spent seven years ironing out the kinks and it runs pretty smoothly these days #so i'm more than happy for other challenges to take inspiration from how we run things #but to lift entire sections of the rules/requirements/posting guide i wrote #only changing a couple of words and shuffling the order of a few things around but keeping large chunks of text and formatting #all without bothering to provide credit or even just ask!!!#is so damn rude!!!!!!#like for crying out loud the pinefest askbox is open my askbox is open the pinefest email is listed on our page #i've shared ''how to build your own challenge'' guides here and on twitter through the challenge account #and have publicly offered help and advice on getting started when people have asked #like i've made a point of being extremely approachable wrt this stuff!!!#because i want to help people set up challenges! having well-run challenges makes fandom better!!!#but passing off other people's hard work as your own does NOT make fandom better!!!!#and yeah writing copy for a challenge IS hard work #also i have deliberately not mentioned the name of the challenge publicly and i'm only going to mention it to my co-mod #though if the people running it see this and feel like reaching out they are welcome to do so #like legit no hard feelings if they were using our rules as a guide and somehow published our stuff in their rules by mistake #i'm just super heated about this because i've put so much work into pinefest over the years #like huge amounts of time and energy and thought dedicated to contributing to the fandom #so to have someone take a bunch of that work and pass it off as their own feels pretty damn shitty!#it's especially frustrating because other parts of their rules have clearly been written by someone who has a distinct voice of their own #like evidently they're capable of writing their own stuff so why didn't they just do the rest of the work?#wank adjacent #...but is it really wank when it's being pissed off for legitimate reasons? who's to say

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blueish-bird · 9 months ago

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sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad.#whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’#I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn?#it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence.#like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5.#overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names.#can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

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tenshindon · 2 years ago

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imo you shouldn't feel bad about not drawing yamtien stuff anymore because you poured your love into the stuff back then and continue doing so with the fandom you're in right now. your old stuff is still iconic and it's nice to see you genuinely enjoy what you do, whatever the fandom it is.

i havent mentioned yamtien in the LONGEST while but ty for the love anon :)

#snap chats #yeah thats how i tend to view my interests that i dont typically express anymore #i loved them immensely in the moment and just cause ive wholly moved on for now doesnt negate the love i did feel then #im glad people can still enjoy the stuff i made years ago thats always gonna be p epic in my heart #i mean sometimes i /do/ feel bad only because i know the stuff im interested in tends to be stuff people focus the least on #so i lowkey feel some bit responsible for providing stuff for that crowd? if that makes sense?#makes myself sound a whole lot more important than i am ik so its a mentality im trying to fix #just cause im not doing it doesnt mean no one else will so its ok to move on if im over it #or im just not into drawing it for now #but rest assured eveything i do is cause i genuinely wanna do it so :) whatever im drawin im happy drawin it

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archersartcorner · 2 years ago

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Am rewatching ASO cus I love it a whole lot and got to the brain surgery scene again. I love how fucking unhinged this season is, genuinely. Let’s just do brain surgery!!!!! Why not!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#my art #described #tw: brain surgery #tw: gore #tw: head trauma #tw: blood #????????????????????#pls lemme know if there’s more tws yall need I’m more than happy to provide!!!#dimension 20 #a starstruck odyssey #skip takamori #norman takamori #Skip just wormin around in Norman’s brain: ‘I’m helping! :)’#but also rewatching made me realize something that I’ve been going insane about. so like. my guy barry 6 JUST realized 9 was probably A Slug #he n Skip have that conversation that’s genuinely so sweet and kind. and 6 literally trusts Skip so much that after having JUST realized 9-#-acted as he did because he was probably slugged. 6 still fuckin offers to Skip like. ‘hey if something goes wrong and norm beefs it-#-you can come in here with me and we can share my body for a bit okay?’#LIKE AUGH OW WHAT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THAT. HE TRUSTS SKIP SO MUCH???????!!!!!!!!! ROAUGH.#<- the op is mentally ill.#the relationship between a clone and a slug is something that can be so personal.#feel like that can be literally be said with all Skip’s relationship. a clone and a slug. an android and a slug.#a 30 y/o short king in massive debt and a slug. a rogue businesswoman and a slug. a psychic enby aguatunisian and a slug.#and of course. just the galaxy’s biggest ex-military asshole and the slug sharing his body.#once again I cannot stress enough. a Starstruck odyssey is a GOOD season folks

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