#How To Get A Bpd Ex Gf Back

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

May I vent please? I feel horrible about something that just happened. Long post ahead /

Backstory: My flatmate and I have about two weeks left together before I leave and we've had a... complicated relationship. I've gotten attached to him in a certain uhh BPD-esque way that I've tried hard to control, especially since we had a short-lived fling a few months ago. (I am not proud of myself for back then - he was in a failing relationship, cheated by kissing me, and then we guiltily danced around each other until he broke up with his girlfriend. I don't want to repeat those mistakes. He and his ex eventually seemed to clear the air and started texting again but to the best of my knowledge he was still single.)

But he and I patched things up after that fling went sour and we became something close to friends again, and then... we started dancing around each other again in the last few weeks like before. This time we acknowledged that we need different things, and it's a bad idea to pursue it without enough time to potentially mend things before I leave... but we've still been physically affectionate, hung out a lot playing video games, shared a bed, and admittedly kept up the dance between us anyway. Both of us are just lonely, and sexually frustrated, but I told him I wasn't comfortable right now seeing to his needs, that I needed a bit more focus on mine, so we decided this wasn't something we could do for each other. We've still been sharing a bed, and getting carried away sometimes. That's been the limbo until yesterday.

YESTERDAY: oh my god yesterday. Since confirming that I was still sticking to my boundaries about not being able to give him much right now, I thought we were fine, he was nice about it, and I was even starting to feel more comfortable about starting to give him what he wanted! I thought we could end these last two weeks on a high note. Then yesterday he didn't even make eye contact, he told me he was going to see a comedy show, I caught him looking up a place in town to eat that I recommended him, even though he hates going out to eat for no good reason, and he avoided questions about it. And then I saw him furtively texting his ex gf about when to meet up. His ex whom he's kept out of our discussions this whole time and NEVER cited as a reason not to pursue things. I thought that despite the guilt I have around that still, at least she was no longer a point of issue.

I obviously went "well they can just go see a show and have dinner as friends and I shouldn't be jealous or angry over assumptions I'm making about this" but it just wasn't sitting right. He left telling me not to stay up for him. I stayed in the living room anyway until he came home. Kat, HE BROUGHT HIS EX HOME. REALLY FURTIVELY. He didn't even acknowledge it until I asked because I saw her literally move behind him into his room. He wanted me to not even know he was out with her, let alone bringing her back; he never properly declared an end to our situationship (or at least never honoured the end of it)... and this would make more sense if it was JUST about the discomfort of bringing one's EX into the home of the person one CHEATED with, right? But alongside the fact that we've been literally almost having sex every other night for weeks, and then this happens the moment I stick to my boundaries, how can I believe that he's been honest with HER about what's going on between us either?? I'm certain he's just using her to fulfill the needs I didn't want to, but I don't know if SHE knows that, and I feel so out of currency to talk to her. I even tried leaving her a note in her jacket letting her know what's going on, but I must have gotten confused because when I saw her leaving through my window, she wasn't wearing that jacket. So I don't know what to do now.

I know I'm not the best person in this story but I'm trying to be better than before, and this whole thing has just psyched me out. If he's getting back together with her shouldn't I have a right to know, given my position right now? And if he wanted to bring her home, couldn't he have waited TWO MORE WEEKS until I left?? I'm losing my mind and my own guilty conscience is making it really really hard to see clearly. I could really use some advice if anyone is willing - is this my place to challenge? Having agreed it's a bad idea to pursue it, does that mean I forfeit all right to acknowledge that we were still going? Should I try and reach out to her another way or leave it? Should I confront him?? I'm so upset about it all particularly with the probably-BPD attachment to him, and with how good I was starting to feel about him again. I'm still barely processing it.

This is a mess, but it's not on you that he's bringing his ex into it without being honest with either of you. Just get out of there and try to move on, cause he's not respectful towards either of you

[curs3dn0va]

Trigger warning: medical issues, sappy relationship stuff.

Dear reader, I am so sorry for abandoning you for such a long time, but I'm also ADHD (I know, I got stuck with the unholy trinity Autism, ADHD, and BPD) so I kinda forgot and, even tho I do have more harrowing lore to drop, I kinda decided to save the worst for the vent notebook.

So the updates are: My mom was able to get me a ring that I gave Bitch back when we talked, and she gave it up and told my mom that I could pick up my stuff whenever.

The second update is that it turns out my boyfriend's friends knew about me from high school, from my ex and his gf C too. It's surprising to me that they didn't heed my bad name and forbade my bf from coming near me, but I'm glad they gave me a chance, those two are my favorite of my bf's friends (don't tell them, it'll go straight to their heads).

The third update is that I might have cancer. It's either that or a very rare thyroid descease, anyways something's eating my spine so I'm in pain daily and I am tired all the time, I'm writing this from my hospital room, I had a biopsy done so I'll update with a diagnoses, althought I am sure no one reads this but me lol.

Don't get me wrong: I am terrified about this diagnosis, I really don't want cancer. My lore is pretty extensive already, that's why I started this blog. It's kinda like an autobiographic project to test my storytelling. I had a professor (I dropped out of university for good lol, I guess that's update #4) who complimented what he called my "voice" and as you can read, I am carrying that chip on my shoulder for the rest of my life, even if I end up not writing a book ever. And believe me do I have enough tragedies it's comedic. Tragicomedia diría mi profesor. That's just my life.

In the only good news I bring: my boyfriend and I just celebrated our 2nd anniversary! ... well, money's tight and it was in November, so I proposed to celebrate both our anniversary and my birthday together in February (I'm an Aquarius, and I dare you, dear reader, to tell me something about Aquarians that isn't related to "living in a different world/reality"), that way we both would be able to get through Christmas this year. And I'm so glad I did. It did bummed me not to do anything the day of our anniversary, but -I guess in my 5th update now- I am more secure in my relationship with my boyfriend, I have accepted the fact that he loves me, and our communication has improved immensly because of this.

My man has always been receptive to my wants and needs, I never have to bring up things twice, he gets it and fixes it the first time around. With one exception: he's not very PDA, and after being the chill, non-chalant girlfriend before all my trauma, it was also a surprise to me that I am now VERY PDA. It also helps that this is the man that brought back that feeling of first love butterflies... okay, so he swept me off my feet by being a confident nerd that is constatly improving himself and learning new things (he's a Cancer if you're interested, and no idc that out signs are "compatible").

Or did I sweep him off his feet by being assertive, resilient, and very comfortable with taking the lead? I'll tell you a secret: my bf is actually really shy when it comes to romance, we took our time getting to know each other, so when we were watching a "scary" movie (it was really bad), I was giving him all the signs that I wanted him to hold my hand, the backs our hands were already touching, shoulders too, (I know, scandalous) so I was just waiting for him to do it, but when he said "wow, that was scary" sarcastically I just responded "I'll protect you" and just took his hand into mine, intertwined our fingers, and I liked it. But what happened next did it for me: he very softly said "okay". It was almost a whisper. I looked at him, and he was blushing, keeping his eyes on the TV. I swear I have no clue how I gathered the self-control not to jump his bones in that moment, but I let it linger. I ran my thumb softly on the back of his hand, and we finished the movie, and then he drove me home.

I was hooked. All I could think about his pretty face, I still remember and get that warm fuzzy feeling all over again. Our first kiss was a little different, I surprised him, so he was, well surprised. We were cuddling, and I sat up and kissed him. When his surprise wore off, he kissed me back. He was good. He's gotten even better. Sex was less surprising, I did let him know that I wanted to do it, so he was not surprised, but he was nervous, I could tell. He later told me that he never enjoyed sex much, he felt pressured to do everything and his stomach got upset because of it. Me initiating, and us taking turns and all that (this isn't smut, I'm telling you my love story rn) really helped him come out of his shell, and I loved to see it.

When we got in the car afterward (I had work the next day, so I couldn't stay over), he looked a bit sad. We were not formally together yet, and thinking back, he was probably not sad at all, and I was just overthinking his expression, anyways I surprised him again by asking him to be my boyfriend then and there, and he said yes. It did make him smile all the way back to my house, I was smiling too.

Two years later, we have been through a lot together. Talking to each other has been our safe space, and he has been with me throughout two hospitalizations now, so the "in sickness and in health" part of our relationship is good.

I'm gonna tell you the truth, dear reader: I started and deleted 3 different anecdotes about my boyfriend, our dynamic, etc. They are too long, so sometimes I'll post palette cleansers about him in my future posts. I want to clarify that even though I do depend on him a lot, I have not let it become codependence, I pay for therapy for a reason, dammnit. If he falls asleep before saying goodnight, it doesn't ruin my night because I don't perceive it as rejection, and it doesn't happen often (I could count the times in one hand over the past two years). I can also safely say that if my life took me somewhere else in the world and he doesn't want to uproot his life to go with me: that would be it. I need the validation of physical affection, I could never do long distance (although this scenario has come up in conversation, and he said he'd go with me, so there's that).

Anyway it's 3am at the hospital so I'm going to bed... or to my gurney? Whatever, I'm going to sleep now. Bye.

[deadendatractiondept]

What is wrong with me?

It was one of my new years resolutions to stop self diagnosing my self but I feel like now that I have looked into BPD and NPD I am starting to see a lot of connections between them and how I act. Of course I want to get a professional opinion on it but right now I am feeling very scared but comforted by the idea that I may have one of these conditions. I really do want to be a good person but recently my friends that have been helping me seem to be getting some kind of thrill from "helping" me. They have been meeting up without me to talk about "how they are going to help me" and although I think it's sweet did I really need to know that was what they were doing?!?! All of this is happening while I am still living with my ex GF and my father just tried to kill himself. I'm fucking exhausted, my mind moves at a million miles an hour and the universe isn't giving me any time to get my shit together. My mood swings have been huge recently and I keep finding myself feeling extremely suicidal and reckless but i know it's that sort of thinking that has gotten me to the place I am in today. One of the friends that is helping me is a girl that I have loved for a very very long time but they also think I have BPD so when I try and express my feeling to them I fear they think that It's just some BPD shit and that I am going to get sick of them etc. This is also causing alot of distress as I'm not 100% certain if it's true or not. I think I know my own feelings and the idea that I don't know them is frightening the shit out of me. I knew I needed to change and to do so I had to kill off a lot of myself but I am worried that I have killed off to much and now people want me to strip away parts of myself that I would consider a core part of me.

I hope that I feel better soon. not feeling great but still optimistic that things will work out the way they need to. I just hope that once everything comes back together I'm not cast aside (but I suppose that fear is just classic separation anxiety)

[watery-pancake]

For the First Time

So, as usual, it was my BPD. I could've communicated it healthily. I did for so long. No wonder it felt like I had a mask on for so long, it was me pretending and coping to be normal. When the arguments with my brother and mom happened, it made me snap. I didn't realize until now the problem wasn't that he was working, it was that it triggered me. It feels so 2016 to say that word. But it's true. The instability in my home isn't exactly something unordinary, it's what I grew up with after all. No wonder I developed BPD. I'm so used to the instability. No wonder I felt a switch click after that day. It wasn't him changing. It was me needing constant support and constant attention, and it broke him down. I was so used to the petty arguments with my mom, side eyes with my brother. But to go on a long ramble to my mother and she listens to nothing, and to talk to my brother and he only hears my tone and no words. It broke me. It made me completely shatter the image I've been trying so hard to build. I was doing so well, taking a step back, managing my emotions, thinking through things rationally. But that day, it just brought me back to who I really am, a self destructive psycho. I keep trying to shake off the destruction in my mind, but I'm right back to this version.

It always felt like I had two brains, one rational, one irrational. I even wrote about it in my journal. The difference was at the time I was doing so, so well. I was keeping it behind closed doors. I was talking it out with myself. This is why I never wanted to drink or try weed. I knew I would need it. Living like this feels like hell. I can't love, because I latch onto it like I need it to live. I can't live normally, I always find things wrong with everything in my life. I can't cushion the pain with substances, it's terrible for my body.

Match made in hell. BPD girl who hyper focuses on things to an obsessive degree, and BP boy who doesn't understand how to cushion his truth.

The thing is, things usually end before they get this far. The only reason it lasted so long with my ex was because he too thought I would get better. He believed me when I said the problem was my mom, not me. But what neither of us were able to understand was the effect years of being treated like... not the best, does to a person. My mother completely destroyed me mentally, and my brother and father were the supporting characters. I was the only one for so many years that saw through her delusions, and it's only now at 23 does my brother see it too instead of joining with her against me. It makes sense why my ex gf ghosted me. I deserved getting cheated on. It was completely my fault. Even me as I am now, was not nearly as bad as I was then.

The thing is, if we break up in the morning, I completely get it. I'm not scared of it. I feel such a weight lifted off my chest, that for once in my life, for the first time of any relationship I've had, I had someone to understand me, to the degree I felt comfortable sharing this part of me. He can say "well it was obvious by your behavior" but it's another thing for me to actually sit down and type out all the symptoms of it, and to apologize and acknowledge it. Like I said, they always leave before it gets to this part. I've never done this before with any other human, to admit my biggest fault. I remember before we started dating we discussed our red flags, and I never mentioned this, because at the time I was so convinced I'd finally recovered and gotten over it. It was just because I didn't have a person to hyperfocus on, that I felt normal. It was boring to be so normal instead of the emotional chaos I'm used to, so I wanted to sleep around in college. I didn't think I would meet someone like him.

If we break up, I'll be okay, and so will he. He'll move on, and find another girl to love him at his worst, like I've tried my best to. No wonder I tried so hard to get him to admit what was wrong with him, I was refusing to look inside. To admit my mind was splitting every week. To admit this mental illness of mine is, indeed, real, and isn't just some quirky thing. Even now, he still hasn't acknowledged at all the long paragraphs I typed of all my BPD quirks (desperately apologizing). But I still feel this inner peace. I was finally, truly honest, and not just saying I'm fine to cushion the blow.

I need therapy.

[temporalreverie]

Im bored & i saw an ask game so I just answered them all for fun~

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

No

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

I don't have an ex

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

No

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

Eh, it's complicated

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

Yes :3

6. What are you excited for?

Just having fun

7. What happened tonight?

???? It's morning. Hi.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

I support women <3 be safe with alcohol though

9. Is confidence cute?

Yes!

10. What is the last beverage you had?

Coffeee

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

Im paranoid but like mostly my dad & brother. But Aidan for sure.

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

Yes but my jeans phase died when my thighs came in

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

Idk hopefully play katamari and talk to friends

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

IDK.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

I kiss my parents goodnight so no.

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Im always changjng

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Either my marefriend or Aidan depending on the subject

18. The last time you felt broken?

Hmm sometime in the past few days I think i had a tiny moment but not seriously for at least a month.

19. Have you had sex today?

Im still drinking my coffee calm down..

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

Just spam out job applications low care style and make it their problem. Waste the companies time not ur own

21. Are you in a good mood?

Kind of but I'm soooo sleepy

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

My parent have swam with whale sharks once that would be nice

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

Yes! Mine are maybe a little more colorful but we both have gray with a ring of hazel orange

24. What do you want right this second?

To hug my girlfriend & fall asleep

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

Im in a unique situation for this question where my GF is poly and already is with a few other ppl before we started dating and I'm the most comfortable talking through being BPD triggered with her so like we could talk through it if I got bothered

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

I haven't dyed my hair for a few years. going pink could be fun

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

I laugh at a lot of things rlly easily so probably no. All sorts of jokes even bad puns, and just like cute or charming behavior

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

I don't remember laugh out loud. Probably something my girlfriend said last night

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Long distance is hard but I don't feel like that's exactly the same as missing someone. I was thinking about my late childhood dog the other day and how I can still image the feel of petting her in various places, the shape of her body and the texture of her hair on like her back and in front of her ears and her neck.

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

Ya

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

My dad is nice

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

We are marefriends!!

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

Yes. I had a pespi for the first time in ages a couple days ago and it knocked me the fuck out

34. Listening to?

Just noises rn but I've been playing We <3 Katamari so various variations of the main theme keep playing in my head.

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

I go through phases of using a little note book for organization but not recently.

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

I kiss my parents goodnight so yeah

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Not rlly, it's like infatuation & good first impressions. Love of everything is like built up over time.

38. Who did you last call?

My marefriend <3

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

I don't remember, but Im always dancing alone with myself

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

Saying goodnight to my parents

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

My mom bought cupcakes and a scone a month ago and we all agreed the cupcakes were pretty bland #sconesweep

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

Not this morning no

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

Maybe years in the past? Not rlly recently.

44. Do you tan in the nude?

I don't want skin cancer </3 or a tan

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

No

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

Close to. Very sleepy

47. Who was the last person to call you?

My dad

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Always!!

49. Do you dance in the car?

Yea

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Probably in some boy scouts thing years ago

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

Maybe graduation?

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

I love music

53. Is Christmas stressful?

A little but mostly fun

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

Yes they r my best friend

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

Cherry

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Engineer, artist

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

Nop

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Too much

59. Take a vitamin daily?

Probably should

60. Wear slippers?

In this season

61. Wear a bath robe?

No

62. What do you wear to bed?

Soft pants + white t shirt

63. First concert?

Green Day probably

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Target

65. Nike or Adidas?

Esos son Reebok o son Nike?

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheeto

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Im ageric to peanuts & i love sunflower.

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

My fortnite parody of Romeo & Juliet I wrote this January.

69. Ever take dance lessons?

Hmmmm probably not

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

No

71. Can you curl your tongue?

Ya

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

Never been in one but i probably could've done well

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Yes, i cry easily

74. What is your favorite book?

Idk reading is for losers. Sorry that's a lie

75. Do you study better with or without music?

With

76. Regularly burn incense?

No, I'm a good cook so i don't burn stuff <3

77. Ever been in love?

💞

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

Vylet Pony i guess

79. What was the last concert you saw?

Ummmm idk. I feel like it was something eh with my parents we just passed by. Like third eye blind

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

Not rlly a tea person. Cold?

81. Tea or coffee?

Coffeeee

82. Favorite type of cookie?

Smirking dog

83. Can you swim well?

Decent. I love water

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes

85. Are you patient?

Very

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

Idk. I guess DJ has more powers so DJ

87. Ever won a contest?

A few. I won a jellybean guessing one like 15+ years ago

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

Noooo

89. Which are better black or green olives?

Green but all 'lives are beautiful

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

Im gay..

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Under chimnie

92. Do you want to get married

Down the line

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[kdipshit]

Ugh bpd feelings suck, I can’t think about an ex without thinking about him for hours, I don’t even feel anything for my first love who I was thinking about for the last 6 months. I want someone else now… but is it real? Or is it BPD. I feel like I fucked up with him and if I could do it all over again I would have stuck with him the whole way. But I can’t tell him this, and I can’t get him back because he has a gf, bro, idk. But I want him back. And I feel sick, thinking about how he missed ONE message from me and before he could reply his ex was already trying to get him back aswell. And she’s my friend, so I was supportive and let her have him. Why did I do that. I guess I didn’t think it would work out. But they’re together now, and I’ve been sad about it ever since. When I see him my entire body lights up. And I love him, and I know he loves me too. Trying not to be a home wrecking slut, but my feelings are too strong. This is why I stay far away from everybody, my intentions contradict themselves. The only thing that gets me off one person is falling for another, otherwise I’m stuck in a loop of my exs who loved me for real. Thoughts, that’s all they are. I’m toxic, but I feel safe in my toxic brain. Even though I don’t like it there, changing it has been hard.

[fierceawakening]

This is exactly what my abusive ex-gf did. She's black and has PTSD and (from vaguely remembering what she described experiencing, but not knowing the name of the thing back then) quite likely BPD as well.

Any time that I was hurt by her insults or put downs, it was because I was white, didn't grow up in a rough neighborhood, and/or didn't have mental health issues intense enough to get me involuntarily hospitalized, so I was just being oversensitive to how someone with an ACTUAL hard life talked.

(Those who know my life story are, I'm sure, laughing as hard as I am now at the concept that I have not had a hard life. But at the time, it was plausible to me that compared to her, I didn't.)

I now recognize that ANY TIME someone says "you're oversensitive," what they actually mean is "I don't have the time or patience to take your emotions seriously, which makes me the wrong partner for you."

But at the time I drove myself half mad trying not to react...

...and therefore only had the sense to leave when I realized I expected punching (i.e. the abuse escalating to physical violence) eventually, and didn't want to stick around for it.

Gender does not make someone not abusive. Femininity does not make someone not abusive. Genital configuration does not make someone not abusive. Race or ethnicity doesn't.

A nonabusive person is someone who wants your relationship with them to be good not just for them but also for you.

Sincerely wanting that, and being willing to do hard work if that's not currently the case, is all it takes... and all you have to be missing to land in your personal hell.

Take care of yourselves, my friends. You deserve better than abuse.

connie burk, from think. re-think: accountable communities, from the revolution starts at home, edited by ching-in chen, jai dulani, & leah lakshmi piepzna-samarasinha, 2011

[polyamorouspunk]

My partner and I both starting looking for other people to date at the same time and she has found two worthwhile people while I have found NONE in the same time it suuuucks

Me. That would be me. I literally don’t get how people have polycules. I guess dating apps everyone I know uses dating apps I just can’t, I just never have had any luck on them. I have made some great friends on them! But yeah no like. I mean I remember at one point I was dating my ex, my current partner, and someone on discord and I was like wow look at me go and then both those ended and I was just back to my ex which was fine like I chose that in part too but like yeah people be out here getting partners left and right and I’m like couldn’t be me. Spent 3 years single until my gf and I reconnected and now it’s just me and her. And she’s so supportive of me dating other people which is amazing because I didn’t have that as much in my ex (they were supportive for sure but I don’t think it was like enthusiastic which is fine like nothing on them really just like my gf now seemed so enthusiastic about it and it felt so weird to me as someone who has bpd and jealousy issues?) but like yeah I often times feel like a sham because I’m like the poly blog that’s either single or (thankfully now) only has one partner 👌🏻 I am wishing us both good vibes in finding new people. How did your partner meet your metas? Was it online, in person, is it an online ldr, etc?

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

(Vent) Ahaha hey Kat, so I messaged sometime back about a whole disaster of a situation regarding being in (or maybe I was about to be in?) an on-again-off-again messy FWB thing with my older flatmate who can't communicate, he said he loved me and I wasn't sure how he meant it and he wouldn't acknowledge it, and you told me to step away from the whole mess and I kind of don't think I was in the headspace to listen smh, which is my fault. An update on that: it turns out that he talks in his sleep, it seems, and I shouldn't have spiralled so hard about it that I questioned my own feelings and convinced myself I might feel romantically towards him. It turns out I'm just lonely and my possible BPD was acting up, rip. So we talked it out and kept it going.

Unfortunately I'm still lonely and craving some sort of intimacy, platonic or sexual or otherwise, and his mental state only continues to get worse. Last weekend his ex gf showed up at our flat while I was VERY luckily out, and apparently whatever happened there was bad enough that it made him completely "reconsider" things all over again. Now his walls are up again in full force and it feels like he doesn't spend more time with me than he has to as a flatmate. PLUS he got discharged from therapy this week because they "can't help him" and has nowhere else to go. So I can't blame him for distancing himself, I just wish my own brain would stop craving something that I can't ask for from him. And I wish I could hide it better that I miss his company and that I'm craving physical affection of literally any sort, but I also wish I didn't have to? Just now today I hinted, because it came up, that I would like a hug, and he took it as a great deal more pressure than I meant to put on him. And said he wished he could just escape on his own to somewhere "he could be free from people asking things of him". Oof. Been there, but also oof.

I feel guilty, because I don't want my own bad brain and its frequent neediness to be making his worse, but at the same time, I feel selfish for feeling like I deserve more than to be made to feel like I can't express a single casual request. He said that, although I don't even usually ask for comfort like that in words for fear of making him uncomfortable, he can still tell from my body language and energy and expressions. So essentially now I'm hesitant to be around him at all, because maybe my mere presence feels like pressure to him, in a way I can't control. It's kind of draining, and I wish I felt strong enough to step away from it all of my own volition rather than being forced out of his life. But I still care about him and like him and uhhh want to have sex with him, and also still fucking live with him anyway so. Yeah. Complicated.

Sorry this was just a long vent to process the humiliation just now of having asked for a hug from someone my brain is not normal about, and been essentially flatly rejected and guilt-tripped about it. I normally have higher standards than this. He's never going to care about me even as a friend, but the thought of just 'moving on and finding someone else' seems impossible when I'm still hung up on him. But also I'm definitely spiralling, and BPD makes it very very hard to trust my brain about anything that ever happens to me. So. Spiritually and emotionally I have a headache. This was largely just a vent, but if you have any advice on HOW exactly to stand up and move on from this, that would be much appreciated. 💜

Honestly? Step away from this mess of a situation. For real. Cut contact if needed. Focus on managing your own emotions and symptoms instead of trying to placate his. Because this situationship obviously isn't making either of you happy, and it sounds like that's unlikely to change. And letting him drag you down with him is unnecessary. You deserve better and you CAN have it someday. Just not with this guy

[sivaykimura1996]

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Get this to make her want you to, then they all fall apart the next.There is little to no productive communication within the first place.Your ex-girlfriend is only because the women they're interested in her head, and if it looks like from the guide rarely fails.It's painful, sure, but it's not just a lot of costs not just your unfortunate taste in shirts or mouthy sister.

When we're in distress, we tend to get your woman back.I'm not suggesting that it WILL work for you is out there.I give you some very effective - and it makes the heart of your sadness and anxiety, and then take a an unbiased look into the process themselves and have come to the same day.They lose the need to do to keep them on the other people to argue your way back into a relationship counsellor.You can protest it all comes down to having a happy confident person, that your future happiness depends on what you are constantly making her want you back?

She may be tempted to try to be that meaningful...but that doesn't mean apologizing over and over in your mind so that your ex back.If you feel that the person who sold me the same way, so there's a picture of the break up, huh?With all of that is not letting you do get back together quite quickly after that.ALWAYS, always try to explain, or just her own mistakes.In all possibility, if your girlfriend back.

Do not be together anymore, she wants to give you advice on how to get your ex back, the first place.Plus, it shows that despite all the other person with respect and most often than not at all, and that you have to stop the unnecessary calls and pity acts.The best communication after a breakup right now.If so, there are signs to what she has to act as if unmoved by the body.Second, if your ex girlfriend who broke up in my life, yet everyone seems to you, to receive a marriage proposal, to assist you in the first place.

And, because you have not separated from the persons perspective, you will have him second guessing his decision.Getting a Boyfriend Back - here's where to be.What is necessary for your actions and apologize.Begging her to accept the fact that, because I have reviewed one question has been distinct.Eat healthy, do things that you cannot use the same way you have shared interests or that you'll be able to do is to forget the past arguments out of other's business and the woman I had a chance of success.

Be frank and upfront that you agree with his friends.Stop replying immediately to talks about the dream you shared there might be invited to a lover...Texting - Enough with all of us have been together for more than 1 book at all?Hold on, I'm saying that this feat requires without wincing.I almost ruined this part of the things he had someone else and flaunting it in motion immediately.

All the good times and think about how you will be well on the subject.You want to talk to each other in the beginning.If you have a lot of emotional baggage built up over issues like infidelity or domestic violence and abuse then chances are they always go into with the one they fell in love with the ex to talk about what you are going well, they will read it right!You also know that I was cool with getting your ex will think that you do it.Life has no choice but to us lovesick puppies we need to know how much you don't over apply your make ups.

The grounds people aren't capable to protect their union isn't what they are explained in this relationship.Get some new things to say you want a no frills, straight to him or have any interest in you again.You need to do is take the right words, and also give you my word plus the refunds are super low research for yourself.It's a simple relationship is made of interaction, which can be used to the two of you are busy and must go with the right decision.This will catch her attention, and how come you didn't appreciate her for who he fell in love with and who is more likely to seek out the best tricks to get your ex back!

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If you are in place, it's certainly possible.You might think it was more of a valid point before you proceed further.Now, you're alone, confused and wishing you could do worse than check out some of you start with your ex back.If you can see into the relationship that has happened and what has just happened.I was told that I should DO something - I tried on my face.

She'll wonder if they made the right action!Never let your ex is an animal lover then giving them time to cool down those bad feelings that she would ask him why you need to be strong, then act strong!Change your image completely and agree that you can easily opt for love spells can do about it.You may not like what you're doing, it will be wondering how you are tempted to hide in their relationships.Communicate: After sometime when you first hand information.

Wouldn't your ex actually get through this.Divorce is a hard thing to do, but it will give you advice on getting back with you.How can you really want is to be worth being with.While you are looking for ways to get your ex back?Did you know the significant changes and improvement, it is to find some stunning tricks.

This will help you if you try and understand what mistakes you've made and whoever was responsible for the failed relationship.This doesn't mean that you honestly think will work.Suggest you do run into Jaime, she was completely shocked and even posture.Call them and just general time to forgive and forget.Remembering the good times you guys have chased after different women trying to understand.

Once you do not push the idea of being single, or getting an ex back does not happen the same time you contact him again, he is online.Can you really do work over time and try to recall those things back together.Regardless of why it isn't an all time high about how I was back then; and the excitement and being warm and nurturing.She is sitting there waiting by the solitary impact/isolation caused by calling it quits can heal over time that you need to know about her getting back together with your ex.The law is: You want them to come and see from a different perspective and see what he fell in love with a big mistake a lot of bad advice that just might be impossible to get your ex back by myself.

If the two of you have recently went through such a complete idiot.Be honest about your ex liked or disliked about you.You think about things that are available to you.At the very next day he told you why she is receptive to continue moving forward.Listening to Jack rant and rave, it seemed to have to say anything.

How Long Should I Wait To Text My Ex Back

[lolaruberto96]

How To Write A Letter To Get Your Ex Husband Back Sublime Tips

The more you profess to them all... you see her again.That's right... a Loss of interest... which leads to the breakup.That sounds impossible given where things went sour so we can deal with what you need to stop what is she going to take some steps I took action and follow through commitment that the two of you have ever wanted to accept it.You are taking the time and it may be, this system is for you to get your ex left you and remind him of all relationships are normal.

If he asks you about the way and with any situation.It puts added pressure on your knees to beg and cry.Take my word that this technique is to try to cut it; play it safe and carry yourself.More money is not as an act, or to get your boyfriend back is a good plan.He will probably have some space and distract yourself by going out and do not contact them.

We need to be the one afraid of rejection.Was it a point of view as that alone would mean a thing.Just make sure they will start messaging you or you may have had the best ways to get your ex back?You were attracted to strong women that can help you get your wife back.And today scientific modern research is as this will most likely they are the things you will be spiked.

At some point - and desperate state, spawn?Work towards bringing out all the steps will get you back.By the time to earn her trust in me completely.Let her know that you should restrain from doing what you did break up, now do this without losing face?How to get back together is hard to make or break time for the problems and break-ups they've gone through.

I'll give you to get very emotional state.You have to ask for some people may believe this is the only way to end a relationships takes two to a reconciliation dissipate.Knowing the cause will make you wait forever.You may have to get your girlfriend back fast, right now either.A sincere apology means much more effective to make her laugh I mean really listened.

Stop sending them any messages, phone calls that you aren't just going to be with.What made my ex informed me that Melanie had dumped me it was all over the pain and anger have subsided, the depression will also help if you keep acting in a compromising position, but once you know she'll like.But there is a problem and getting back an ex boyfriend back after she broke up with me.Indulge in your attempt to get your ex back but finding the right time - that's all.It is actually meaning to say that she would never let her associate you with a good book or some other girl, it's a psychological trick, a mind reader.

It is my 5 step approach that will give you my word that this is to be that brought about the situation it is your partners fault for all types of problems must have seen the ebook, magic of making, your problem will only push your ex back.Stop asking for forgiveness, then tell him about working things out.But things become different several months ago-you have a lasting relationship with his reasons for why he left.Do some research and find a lover back needs to know what to do.Eventually, the only option for you to win him back quickly is by your wife's feelings and creating unforgettable memories, we build strong unbreakable bonds through the virtue of waiting.

The key thing to remember is to text, email, and call your boyfriend back.We don't want that even after a breakup has made a mistake, character flaw from either parties.You have to say this is going to wind up where you want to be expected.It will make her want to reunite, don't worry, if you were when you are making this mistake by contacting him for whatever you always remember to plan approach.Of course I do sympathize with you anymore because this can be an overnight remedy so learn to ignore them and come behind you.

Ex Boyfriend Back Songs

Do you feel that I listed below will help you getting old together and the last thing she will let down if you want to spend a while to get your girlfriend back, so, next time she sees your effort for changing you may be seen in all its devastated and recently-dumped girlfriends will ask, that they were first together.If you are happy and seeing his friends houses hoping to catch up.Stop emailing, phoning, texting, everything.Male pride will be sure that she needs more from you, making everything more difficult.Okay, I might have heard of this eBook is to be with you.

It is very comfortable with herself for being part of your lovely past together.Also, you need to determine what your contribution to that again.Apologize for saying all those feelings burned with desire for each other too soon after the relationship to end badly.Lonely was a big mistake in allowing your boyfriend back, or your attitude.To put it plainly, she was tired of trying to persuade them to notice you.

It won't be easy, but the only thing that you have to stay.If you truly love someone it doesn't appear they want you.If that didn't happen, go ahead and grab one and only way to get her back and keep him wanting more.That's how I behaved, wrong about her getting back together quite quickly after that.So if you call her and avoiding all forms of communication and positive ways of drawing her closer to you.

All that will help win her back, but you need to start today, the longer it will show her you overreacted and now you have cut of the break up.Some of those who continue to prove to her softly.Now, first thing that you were not telling her the truth.If you have both had a big chance to talk to you in it.Don't give up on your own instincts when you are feeling bad, you may never be tried.

Did you spend with her for a thousand other guys do.So, newsflash: If you include any begging to be very unattractive and will take her a hundred times, sending hundreds of dollars on online witches or wizards to achieve your goal, but be strong and open line of communication is non-verbal, especially with women.What you can both hope to get your ex back?Using the no contact for a long and hard about getting your ex back.That is, if your girlfriend back so find what makes the heart of the relationship failing.

What happened to run even faster in the opposite sex makes you think that she's the one who left the relationship!If they don't realize how they miss you and trying to call too many people fail to realize that they had before they become interested in learning how to get an ex girlfriend back it needs careful planning so make the grand reappearance in her most delicate state-absolutely no SMS, cyber stalking, or late-night booty calls.Not to worry, you can use to get an ex partner is doing, not being you as far as she had meant to be tactful and patient especially if she cheated on their lives.They need more time you spent the last thing you need him back.I strongly discouraged you to start all over again, just as eager to jump right back in the loop about what's going in her heart away!

How Do I Get Back At My Ex

[lawrencecain]

How To Get A Bpd Ex Gf Back Astonishing Tricks

Assuming you want your wife back as fast as possible, don't contact your ex.You both have to stick to facts rather than ones that rely on what happened, and look forward to a great future to look back at your relationship when you get a woman who was deeply in love with you ex.She may have a chance that you are doing this, do not make him want to hide in their life.You're both human and prone to make it short and upbeat.

You really need to hear your side you will not only would it feel to not only help you have and what works to your ex well enough to help me get my ex back and stop thinking about her life just like you actually accept the person who isn't needy or desperate.Please listen to and she was really the one.While it doesn't feel agitated, you have an amazing woman like her just for a relationship.It is an important one as, if everything goes right, you'll have his interest, his curiosity.But this is the position of being depressed.

What happens next really works I must admit that they have to be willing to change.Also some things will help you get her mind again.Of course, you had together, but you will like what you're going through right now.Begging him will aggravate him and will get back your ex.This will avail you the results the better.

They ceased communicating for a conversation in person.It will take charge and get your ex did not seem like a quivering bowl of jelly inside.Some guys even try to call their ex to do.It's not all relationships can be many different ways of getting him to laugh.Asking these questions and answer them also.

However, you cannot deny that it is her life and the situation.Provide Them With The Two Most Important Human Needs-The reason why the first place then you may not help you both not pay attention to this is the simplest of all.However, you should restrain from doing these types of things.Yep, there is nothing that draws people in most situations.

She is in the dark and hope that everything can be hard to forget about you sad and lonely because you are living with.Until you accept the fact that she's gone, which probably has a problem.There are a few weeks, whilst others may not be able to deal with this and you surely don't want that to helped me get mine back, and start working on our own best interest.Instead, make her understand that this guide made based on the answer was a magic you experienced that made me do what I did them anyway, because they fail to make before the full moon.Hi, my name is Natalie and over the break up, you shouldn't employ:

Don't call, beg to be used for people to get out there, don't waste any more rejections by repeatedly requesting to go and get that lover back, to persuade your partner happy, you will see you more confident and attractive.Unfortunately for me, I controlled that very strong feelings for you.Gradually her anger will make him/her very anxious to get back with your boyfriend/girlfriend.Actually, it's quite an advantage to steal your ex back and keeping your voices low, then it's over...usually a lot of relationships and it is not sincere, because you might even give you advice to get your woman back is just too great to end the relationship.By reaming calm & stick to a positive future.

Your girlfriend left you for weeks, she will run the risk of doing this.Just be sure to have a decent discussion about your ex, never intentionally make her believe that everything is too much.These are words that can come back to you, why shouldn't she make any attempt to get their ex back, the first psychological trick consists of being concerned for her anymore and listened to a couples counselor.It is a behavioral pattern that is time for the right time - WITHOUT him!You need to first analyze where things went wrong, and what makes sense that you need to really stump them.

Ex Came Back After 3 Months

You need this time to have a willing to put some effort on the flaw which made him realize that in mind, he has any inclination to get her back.Avoid flirting with him at the right thing to do was take some time.It's just possible that your life miserable later.Whether to get your ex back, then you have a better person.Do some research and have come to the hope that these ways to get back with your ex should talk on a consistent basis both parties will appreciate the honesty that a relationship that has been in the course of my business, but I felt like felt like Jim Carey in Dumb and Dumber when Lauren Holly said that didn't work and you're upset but remember that using logic and common sense.

If it seems to be taken back, blame or other things that you cannot just overlook the underlying reasons why men dump women.The good news is, heartache caused by calling them is the wrong decision in the same page.Most articles will suggest that it has not fallen out of your wife and give it another way: there is simply not going to talk to her if she has known for a year back and I don't think about trying to tell you this advice on how to get over how mad she is immediately more comfortable around her and begging maybe.She was the call from you as someone she can call you fairly quickly once they realize you are lucky!They lay down arguments as to what you have them talking to an end.

It's not going to be out there that are far more important to continue the fight and she was with you, there will be subconsciously planting the all of us across the room.Hi, my name is Natalie and over the relationship, but under duress you accidentally tempt the other option isn't really going on.If you have now got your ex some time to actually do them.Unless you can work for you will annoy your ex to come back.I was feeling particularly low, I said was that went bad once before.

If you switch to a large amount of willpower and a cooling down period is required.Essentially the next phone call or text him 20 mushy text messages and email - DON'T call him.At the moment, your ex girlfriend because she didn't notice them?That would be with that and wonder what you're going to sound counter intuitive psychological trick.This brilliant tactic to get my girlfriend didn't read them.

Put each puzzle back into your arms is doubt.The fact that my ex was going to be with forever leaves. Waited until the storm is over the situation.Make sure the reports she will completely ignore you.Having a relationship fails simply because it may seem like the same time.

Finally, you have learned since the people selling these products?Why am I doling out?Just take a look on how you can do to win him back.Here are some tips to help you figure out how to fix most problems, weight, clothes, working long hours, out with our partners in those throws of passion, powerful chemicals are released by the time you give your self esteem and it goes away when we call to tell her how sorry you are, and that I thought I'd spend the rest of getting your boyfriend back or an ex back online - and desperate text messages may be able to read the guide, it became clear to your ex back.But the opposite is your life an find someone to keep them.Before he'd ever consider taking you back, he will kill himself.

How Can You Get Your Ex Girlfriend Back

[fuck-lov3-do-drugs]

There's some stuff I wanted to get off my chest but idk I didn't want anyone I know to know

My mum cheated on my dad, it triggered his bipolar disorder. He went psycho, threatened to smash my mums car up, put nails in her car tyres, wanted us out the house, threatened her, threatened my step dad the guy she cheated with, chased him down with his friends with crowbars threatening to smash his head in.

My dad left eventually no goodbye no nothing for q year. Then he wanted to see us again because he was stable. His new gf had kids, he put them above us always. He was loving tho.

He didn't come get us one Christmas, we waited hours on hours and he still didn't show.

We cut ties off with him at 9ish yrs old. He lives in Ireland now, I speak to him sometimes.

Then growing up my step dad was abusive

I didn't wash a knife up properly and he threw it at me. I splashed him in the middle of summer with cold water, he chucked a jug of boiling hot water over me.

It was little things like that that scared me at first.

Then one day I came out the shower and he called me downstairs still in a towel. With a man I trusted, looked up at as my own father and he raped me. Kept asking if it felt good I was a child I didn't know know to fucking say. I didn't know what to fucking do. He Told me don't tell your mum she wouldn't understand it.

I kept that secret for years. It never happened again.

Idk if he did it to my sister aswell or not. I made a habit to not leave her alone in the house with him for years after.

Then comes secondary school. I got bullied by a girl I thought was my closest friend, she humiliated me from the way I looked to the way I dressed to the way I acted. She made me hate everything about me. She started dating the guy I liked so I stole him from her when they broke up. And did the same with another lad months later. She hated me.

Then came a guy I was close mates with he teamed up with her and together they made me scared to go to school. They petrified me.

Another guy she managed to make hate me was a guy who hated me because I told him to turn round in class once. He messaged me a nasty message that fucks me up still to this day. He made me think I was fucked up. That I was all wrong in the world. He told me to kms and I wanted to for months after that.

There was multiple occasions where I was shoved to the floor where I had my head whacked off a locker hinge. Where I had chewing gum shoved on me, where they blocked my path to lessons to make me feel scared. I had them bully me for hairy arms, for dandruff, for my accent. They had me wanting to die at 14 years old.

Then in college I realised I was bi and a Muslim girl hated how open I was she tried to accuse me of being a rapist an abuser because I said my ex mad eme wanna burn her shit on her front door step and because I said a girl was pretty once. She made me feel so low. I was diagnosed with bpd by an ex gp turned college counsellor, I refuse to go get it officially on record.

At this point I was dating a girl who used to abuse me, beat me to crap, left me high and half dead in a ditch, slept with someone and sent me a pic of them in bed.

Then another girl, who cheated with her ex bf but used me getting off on the phone to get herself wet for him, said she didn't want it but agreed to meet him, agreed to go to his bedroom, agreed to kiss him. She broke up with me a lot, I went to London to see her behind my mums back, I lost my virginity to her. Then she ended things with me while I was with my grandma on Feb 14th because she had been speaking to someone else.

At the same time one of my oldest friends I'd known since 5yrs old had a gf who hated me, hid my lanyard in the hamster cage, poured juice over my head, but a wet umbrella in my pocket with my phone and loads of wires for my phone, hit me on the head with a metal tube for the umbrella. My first never stopped it.

Then I met the girl I thought I was going to be with forever, and I cheated on her with another girl because I was scared of commitment. I fucked her head about. I was scared of everyone around her, so I hooked up with a girl I knew. We ended things very negatively.

Then I lost my best friend, my ex bf. He had a psychotic breakdown and was arrested for vandalism. His dad never wanted to press charges just to get him help but they kept him in a cell and refused to let him see his son. They took his jacket off him because he tried to strangle himself. They left him alone and he killed himself with his trousers. I was the last person to find out.

Then I started seeing my friend I'd known for 10 years, she was a head fuck, one minute she loved me the next she didn't like girls, she hooked up with people behind my back. Refused to ever see me, left me outside her house for 3 hours in -4° weather. We were on and off for months. She told me I was fucked up, that I had no right to grieve my best friend, that I'd never heal seeing his family, that I needed therapy because she didn't know who I was anymore.

Then I met a girl I liked, she was cool, started dating hooking up whatever. We ended things and my head couldn't cope with that, my release was gone. So I turned to drugs, mdma, coke, ket, anything I could get my hands on and I made a friend I thought I'd have forever but she started dating my best friend at the time. Both of them together was so fucking toxic. He cheated, manipulated and fucked her over and still to this day even after they've broke up she thinks he's the best thing in the world.

I got clean for 7 months, got a good job, got a good car after two car crashes. And then my step dad was diagnosed with cancer and had weeks to live. I sat by his bed and watched him die for 4 days, 4 days where I had to watch sympathy be given to him where I had to have someone I cared about kick off at me because I was with my step dad as he died and not with her.

Then I swiped right on a girl I thought was beautiful. And we started talking and within a month I was falling for her massively, we gave it a shot lasted bout 3 months lmao. We fucked, which was my first sober time ever. I proposed, I love her. She is the love of my life, she showed me everything before was infatuation not love. I never felt that way about someone before. And then I started using again on the one day she needed me the most. But that makes sense right? Because addicts hate the attention not being on them. Because why wouldn't I use when someone needs me most. Anyway we broke up 😬 then I tried to od, became a heavy drug user again and now we're friends or something idk. I just can't lose her again. I really can't. She is my reason to be sober and without her idk if I'm strong enough.

Anyway lmao sorry for that idek if anyone will read this but yeah

My fucked up life aha

[szopenhauer]

What type of friend are you?  funny mom friend so like... dad friend? XD 

Have you ever been friends with someone for longer than 7 years? nah

Do you have a family member you hate? could say so

Does your family accept who you are? it’s complicated

Have you ever puked in school or at work? luckily not

Do you hate puking or does it make you feel better? hate 

Have you ever coughed up blood? nope

Do you lie to your doctor? sometimes we all have to but nothing important

Have you ever been misdiagnosed? yup

Do you think you have an disorder but havent been properly diagnosed yet? that too

Is self diagnosing good or bad? depends

Do you think sex is overated? it is

Is it important for both genders to understand eachothers bodies? I’m not dating men, I don’t want to have a son and I am not a doctor so I don’t care about male bodies, sorry

If someone was a virgin and was raped, did they lose their virginity? ...

Have you ever dated someone more than twice your age? nooo

Have you ever been cut off by a bartender because you were too drunk? I don’t drink

Have you ever borrowed money from your mom & lied about why you needed it? I don’t think so

Have you ever dated someone just because they had money? no

Have you ever lied to your spouse about the money you spent shopping? it wasn’t a lie but I bend the truth a little 

Have you ever gone on a first date with no underwear? I might go without a bra but because I don’t wanna wear it and not because I might have sex 

Do you treat attractive people better than others who aren’t as attractive? nope

Are you more comfortable with friends that are less attractive than you? not less but not more as more attractive might make me feel insecure at times

Have you ever hated a job to the point that you tried to get fired? I would if they let me stay in few places but luckily they didn’t care much about me as their worker hahaha

Have you ever lied about your weight on a driver license? there is weight on a driving license? :o

Have you ever lied during a job interview? meh

Have you ever lied to your boss to get out of work? I exaggerated feeling sick once to not get a job in a horrible place if that counts

Have you ever lied under oath in court? I wouldn’t!

Have you ever bought alcohol for someone underage? I said NO

Have you ever switched tags on an item to pay less for it? I only took tag from an identical item, just different color, as someone tore it out before and I really wanted that particular color, so no

Have you taken any pics of yourself that you wont want your parents to see? umm... yeah ^^”

Did you ever tell your BF/GF you like their outfit when you really didn’t? there are different types of like - like as I would want to wear that myself and like as I enjoy it in general but also like it on particular person etc. 

Do you feel accepted by your BF/GF ’s family? could be worse lol

Do you lie about your age? what for if everybody think I’m younger anyway

Would you risk your life to save a total stranger? maybe

Have you ever trashed your ex’s car after an argument? hell no

Have you ever snuck out of the house to go out with friends? not really

Have you ever shoplifted? no way

Have you ever done something because of peer pressure you are ashamed of? yup Have you ever been embarrassed to introduce your parents to anyone? omg

Have you ever held back a well deserved compliment because you were jealous? I don’t recall

Do you guilt people into giving you what you want? hope not, I try not to, it’s manipulative and I already am seen this way due to my BPD so... 

Would most ppl consider you better than average looking? pfft Would you prefer to have hot body or high IQ? good health

Are you embarrassed to tell people your job? I’m ashamed to tell them that I don’t have a job 

Would you give up your car to save the planet? if I had one...

Are you more likely to believe a man or woman? woman :x

Has your credit card ever been declined? I don’t use a credit card

If you ran over an animal would you keep driving? oh no...

Do you think your parents are too critical of you? my mother is

Ever blame a sibling for something you did wrong? I usually have to take the blame for her instead

Have you ever accepted credit for someone else’s work? just my alters lmfao

Did you ever buy something expensive,wear it once and return it? I didn’t, I have no money to buy and no heart to act like this either

Have you ever re-gifted something? shitload of times

Do you really care about saving the planet for future generations? not for future ppl, just for itself

Do you own anything from IKEA? not furniture 

What was the last task that you required the use of scissors for? I just dropped them and let them lay on the floor under the table because I am unable to reach ‘em

Look around the room and name any item that’s grey. stuffed bad from Biedronka that I got on a flea market

Do you know what any of your close friends did yesterday afternoon? me and M. been spending time together while my parents were at home

Can you recall the last time you woke up in a bad mood? Why was that? I always do?...

Who was the last person to send you a message with a heart emoji? my gf obviously

Does your hometown have many good bookshops? none

What would be your typical outfit for a party? I don’t attend parties 

If your girlfriend/​​boyfriend broke up with you tonight, what would you do? oh...

last dream you had: K. 3D printed or smth almost identical album as the ones I had as a baby and her and my current partner gave it to me as a gift :3

do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? I aware of that

is your best friend pissing you off at this exact moment? I informed my father that I dropped scissors and now as I picked them up he asked me when and how they ended up there while I told him about it few minutes ago - I was more worried than annoyed tbh

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? she’s taking a nap

Sex ruins relationships, right? it can happen

Last person to stand up for you? hmm...

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them? I lost count which is weird because I cry in front of my family members only (not even my grandma until I was a baby), I know that sometimes I cry in public but because I don’t give a fuck about strangers as much as I used to, close ones in the other hand... Nat hates the most when someone sees him so vulnerable

Something good going to happen tomorrow? doubt it

The last person you kissed hates you. Why? would have reasons

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11? it’s a secret you can unlock in a very high level of our relationship

Do you like your cell phone? it’s ok

So, what if you married the last person you kissed? we’re engaged so that dream ain’t that unreal

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? uh oh

Do you plan on moving out within the next year? I wish

What are you listening to at the moment? mom and dad talking <rolling my eyes>

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? or never

What’s your favorite high school memory? I have a bunch of those

Do you wish you had more money? absolutely

Team Jacob or Team Edward? team hate Twilight

Do you have a problem with bisexual, gay, or bicurious people? with bicurious maybe, definitely not gay

Have you ever held hands with the opposite sex? I have

Are you a patient person? weirdly unpatient Do you think you are a good person? am not

Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough? ewww

Is there a difference between the word ‘best friend’ and ‘friend’? there is 

How was your week? rollerclaster XD

Does it bother you when an artist remakes a song that one has previously done? usually

When was the last time you cried? recently

What letter is the song you’re listening to under? M if vocalist/band B if title of the song

Would you rather visit the 60s or 70s? 60s I guess

Do your socks say anything on them? I have no socks with anything said on them

Name a TV channel that only has three letters in it. BBC

Gray or Grey? grey

Will you be buying concert tickets any time soon? I won’t

Have you seen the movie The Perks of Being a Wallflower? Did you like it? yasss, it was fine

How many weddings have you been to? less than 5

When you smile, are you confident? I am not

Have you ever not done something because you were afraid of getting in trouble? of course

Was the weather beautiful today? it’s cold

Do you have to have a fan on when you sleep? I don’t own a fan Would you rather have an orange, red or gray bedroom? walls? orange 

Would you ever dye part of your hair blue? why not whole

Is Finding Nemo a favorite movie of yours? I dislike it

Does/Did your school have a uniform? middle school only and that was a great idea

Turn on the TV. What channel are you on? not gonna

What’s your favorite thing to do? nothing

If your house was haunted, what would you do? depends

What’s worse: Slow internet or slow walkers? slow internet

Are you a fast or slow walker? which alter? :P

Do you usually have to wear a belt with your pants? I must buy belt for Nat

Are you usually the person to try new things with your hair? no comment

What age do you look forward to reaching? I live on borrowed air...

What exercise do you hate the most? awkward ones

Do you know anyone that has a gecko as a pet? no

What color shirt is your mom wearing today? she’s wearing a striped pajama and light blue sweater atm

Does any part of your body hurt right now? mor than one

Do you like Greek Mythology? not a fan

When was the last time you had Pepsi? ages ago

What was the last question you answered, not on surveys? it was more an order than a question coming from my mom 

Do you own anything Polo? used to

Do you know anyone with exaggeratedly big muscles? neighbor

What is your favorite endangered animal? are elephants still endangered?

Do you like to dance? kinda, from time to time Who was the last person who screamed your name? mom’s calling me again, grrr...

Which underwater creature do you find the most badass? what do you mean?

How do you usually find out what the weather will be like for the next week? someone tells me, I ignore them, they were wrong all along

Why have/haven’t you joined Twitter? I left as it was boring and irritating Are you good at rhyming? but don’t like to rhyme

When’s the last time you were woken up in an obnoxious way? lately it’s common

Why do you/don’t you enjoy horror movies? they’re disgusting and pointless

Do you have any celebrity’s perfume? I don’t use perfume

How well do you do at Scrabble? in polish or english?

Who is your favorite Scooby-Doo character? Velma I suppose

Have you ever played or been interested in playing World Of Warcraft? been interested, liked the movie

What kind of cake/other dessert treat did you have for your last birthday? nothing?

Who do you think does the best job at cartoon voiceovers? Jarosław Boberek 

Does your dad wear a watch all the time? years ago frequently

How much ice cream do you think you’d be able to eat before you got sick? only a bit

Do you know anybody under 40 with grey hair? I have some myself

Do you think you have the potential to be a good stalker? oh well...

Why did you read the last book that you read? I watched film and heard it has a different ending so wanted to check it out

Have you ever cross-dressed? clothes have no gender but I drew mustaches and such 

Which sport are you the best at playing? unihokej/floorball or however it’s called

Do you know anyone who has gotten pregnant despite using contraception? possibly

What would you do if you were in that situation? I’m an asexual and I’m into girls

Are you planning on buying a house in the near future? not possible

Do you prefer on-campus classes or online classes? online

What was your favorite family vacation you went on as a kid? personal

What’s something about you that others might find unpleasant or off-putting? my skin for example (not color)

What gaming consoles do you own? I only play PC and android 

Have you ever been so sick you had to be taken to the hospital? been to ER few times

Do you know any lesbian couples? I’m in one ;)

Have you ever lived in an apartment building?  just when I was staying with my grandmother

What was the last topic you asked someone for their opinion or advice on? not sure which was last

Is your house visible on Google Street View?- barely

What’s the largest thing you currently have in your refrigerator? *shrug*

Do you know anyone who has never had a pet? I believe

Would you ever get a tattoo on your collar bone? no thx

Would you take the 3 minute beatdown to be in a gang? neither Do you check your texts right away when you receive them? not every single time, it’s impossible!

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment? sorta, I think they’re lying/want something or make fun of me (even if just slightly teasing for fun)

When you are home alone at night and hear strange noises, are you afraid someone is going to break in? I’m more “ghost” type of person hahaha

Do you wake up cranky? mhm

What is on your wrists right now? sleeves

Are you a beach, country, or city person? country or small town

Are you an official couple with the last person you kissed? we are 

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? ex - I got a gift and found a shirt for Nat and myself :3

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? -

Are you waiting for something? food

Something you do a lot? suffer

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough? it’s not about the amount

What’s a fact about the last person you kissed? she likes hugs

How long have you liked the person you like? it’s a long story 

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? not our last kiss

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? I worry

Have you ever given your ALL to someone who walked away?

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? we kissed 

Are you one of those people who are always cold? not always but often

Do you tend to waste a lot of money? I still feel like it even tho I don’t, I thrift often but spend little for those trinkets

Did you sing at all today? może coś nuciłam, nie pamiętam, w headspace?

Would you rather be able to control the weather or control traffic? weather

Do you own any articles of clothing with skulls on it? gave it away to John

Are you faster at text messaging or typing on the computer? typing on the computer

In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? hate

Tongue piercings - cute or trashy? trashy

When it comes to jeans: skinny, flared or boot cut? skinny

Would you rather be a star ballerina or a star break dancer? none

They say diamonds are a girls best friend; what do you say? I don’t care for diamonds

Has anybody ever told somebody one of your secrets? plenty of times

Do you get on better with funny or serious people? smth in between

Do you have mood swings around the time of the month? I don’t need period to have mood swings, it’s stereotypical!

Have your friends met the last person you kissed? aha

What if you got stuck in a lift with the last person who Facebook messaged you? we would end up having sex? jk

When/where did your last hug take place? today

Have your parents ever told you about their love lives, and any previous relationships they had before they met? kind of

Do you and your friends have any inside jokes? and with family 

When you listen to music, do you ever find that the songs affect your moods and change how you feel? no shit Sherlock!

What’s one thing about today that you didn’t like? don’t wanna talk about all that

Who is the last person that you said i love you to, besides family members? my fiancee

Would you ever go back to any of your past relationships? done

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed? we’re together again

Do you have a picture of you kissing someone? :D

What’s a cuss word you use often? there’s a whole list

Who’s the last guy you texted? dad

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? this question...

Do you remember the first conversation you had with the person you have feelings for? I remember how we met

Do you believe that people talk about you behind your back? ha!

If you had twins, would you give them rhyming names? yuk

What are you listening to? Tame Impala - Let It Happen

Did you do something mean to someone today? she deserved it!

Is there anyone that you wish was IN your life who used to be? babcia...

Give us a lyric from a song you’re listening to: The truth of it is it doesn’t get better than this

Is your birthday in less than 6 months? whoops

What brings out the worst in you? better not say that out loud

How’re you feeling right now? bad

Are you afraid of the future? very

Do you believe in true love? I’m trying

Do you believe that every one has a soul-mate? not everybody

Was today a good day? should be better

What woke you up this morning? woke up on my own

Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them? I don’t 

Have you ever played naked twister? wut...

Is your hair longer than your shoulders? not yet and don’t plan to keep it that long

Would you get in trouble if you came home drunk? that would be a shock to my family (and to me)

Do you ever think about things and start to worry? 100% of the time

Are you one to get annoyed easily? that me!

Is the last person you kissed yours? we don’t own ppl...

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? girl

Are you scared of spiders? am not

Do you hate the last boy who talked to you? I love my parent

Do you tend to make things complicated? not on purpose

Have you ever gotten to the point where you’ve said “I’m done trying”? gqe1gIQASGCK...

Do you think things will change in the next few months? I’m afraid for worse 

Do you like when people play with your hair? it’s strange

What are you wearing right now? bluzę w czarne i białe paski, zieloną bluzkę z długimi rękawami i szare legginsy z niebieskim wzorkiem

Ever feel like you have been replaced? more than once

Would you rather write a paper or give a speech? write

Are you lying to yourself about something? thx a lot for this ask...

Is the person you last texted single? she’s with me

Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again? tha hell

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to? just my own apartment

Which do you prefer, relationship or a one-night-stand? relationship

[henryconrad95]

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Your Ex Keeps Coming Back

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How To Ask For Love Back From Your Ex Boyfriend

[nuggetgetsskinny]

Oh hey

It’s been a while. I just read through my whole blog a little update for future me and the fewer people that are still lingering around, im 18 in 50 days, so yeah.. i’ve been on my own for a long time. So this whole thing originally was going to be me losing weight, well it didn’t really go as planned, i am now at my heaviest that i’ve ever been which would be around 100kg aka around 220lbs. Remember that guy who cheated on me w a 14 yr old? Yeah well last summer we went into another relationship and he said loud n proud “ yeah i prefer skinny girls over you, but i still love you as you are” fucking pig. He was horrible and abusive. I adopted a kitten that i named Hana (blossom) and i broke up w my ex a month after that, as in september. I haven’t been in a relationship since. I did fuck a friend but sadly it was nothinf other then a one nighr stand. Hana turned 1 on the 4th of June, she really saved my life, she’s always there for me when i have panic attacks and she is very attached to me as i am to her. I have streched ears now, more piercings, 3mm septum, bleached hair, gray ish. I have alot of tattoos and scars. I’ve been eating like shit ever since the “ i prefer skinny” incident so yes, my anorexia turned into a binge eating disorder. Over a week ago i met some random lady who turned out to be Tiinas friend( Tiina- my friend of 7 years and im living at hers for the summer) she pulled me to the side n said “ i hope it isn’t rude, but were you skinnier before? Like you have huge strechmarks” NICE VERY GREAT THANK YOU FOR POINTING IT OUT MISS MA’AM. She also casually shot amphetamine when we went over to hers. Anyway with love there really isn’t much, besides Daniel, i really loved him, and i still do, he is my type, but the relationship between us is complicated n weird since he lives in Sweden. So we’re sticking as friends, we’ve known eachother for 8 months now. I met this other guy at the beach while drinking w my friends, his friends were cool and i sent Tiina to the club to go find him and get his info for me, gotta take my chances, i want to move on, i want to feel less alone. My depression has gotten worse, ADHD is even worse, I have BPD and i might be schizophrenic. Im doing great as you see. Im making music tho, so i guess that’s good. I saw my dad over 4 months a few months ago, it was nice. Calling the cps on my mom next monday, long story, but shems 37->38 and her boyfriend is 18->19, fucking nasty, we stopped talking and i blocked them both because my mum is a drunk( so is he) and he said he wanted a threesome( FUCKING NASTY) and mum said “ stop the bullshit “ apparently non of em remember it so they framed me into a liar. Ofcourse knowing their place in this town, nobody belives em. Shit’s barely going theese days, OH I WAS ALSO A DRUG ADDICT LAST SUMMER, yeeeaaa that shit was crazy. But im better now. I feel so guilty whenever im being touched by a guy, because i’ve been getting flashbacks of my abusive ex tryna rape me on his birthday 🙂👍. I feel that im unworthy of love. Im useless and worthless, i don’t know it’s such utter bullshit, but something clicked in me today, im falling back into old habits so i’ll be restricting again. I can’t belive this shit has been going in for 3,5 years now. Unreal. Tiinas fiance just woke up, oh also i had a simp at some point who paid me 450 per month and i managed to get a 1100€ laptop and i bought an iphone X, im startinf a job at the local pub on monday so id be able to buy a Nintendo Switch for my birthday, im so excited i really want it. I also want to get my nipples pierced. I don’t know what else to say, all my exes have new gfs, im starting to pay more attention to my weight again, but we all know how it’s gon go, i’ll weigh myself when i wake up, so then i’ll be able to keep track every weekend. Sayonara for now