#Hopkins girl

[coffeeheartaddict2]

Instant regret

Book: Open Heart (Pre Series)

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!OC Estelle Campion, Tobias Carrick

Word count: 2383

Catergory: Angst

Warnings: language, sexual references

Rating Mature end of PG

Summary: It is coming up to the end of Estelle’s third year and she is focused on residency applications. A chat with Ethan does not go well.

Disclaimer: characters (except Estelle) belong to Pixelberry

Authors note: So the most recent Tobias Carrick appreciation week has inspired me to hop into my Time Machine and write some more fics based in their Hopkins days. Some of this will be from Tobias’s perspective so enjoy the ride.

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It was a sunny day in Baltimore. End of year exams were fast approaching, plans for summer being made and for the cohort in their third year of medical school, decisions about where to apply for residency needed to be made. Estelle Campion was yo-yoing between third and fourth of her cohort, the residency world was her oyster. She was drawn to Oncology. There were plenty of hospitals that would help her fulfill her ambition, however there was a very important person she needed to take into consideration. Her boyfriend, Ethan Ramsey. They had only being together officially for six months, by far her most serious relationship but how do you broach the subject of your future when you are not sure where you stand. She knew of the abandonment that he had endured when he was eleven and how that had coloured his attitude towards relationships and how it was the main thing holding him back in starting the relationship that they had but she wanted to start an out future dialogue.

So she took a break from her thoughts and met with the other person who knew Ethan well enough. Tobias Carrick. She had gotten close to both of them and she had found Tobias attractive and his company enjoyable, however she got to know Ethan more as she worked on similar projects with him and found herself more attracted to him. She did enjoy a friendship with Tobias. It was also comforting to have someone talk to about Ethan and his walls.

“Estelle,” greets Tobias as he gives her a hug. “To what do I owe this pleasure?”

“As much as I enjoy your company T, I am wanting to talk with you about Ethan.” Said Estelle.

“What has he done now?” Questions Tobias

Estelle chuckles. “Nothing, well at least not yet…”

“I hear you both you know, it is not just study dates you two do…”

Estelle blushes. “Not what I meant and you know it, and hey I am pretty sure you have learnt plenty from what you overheard.”

“Hey!” Exclaims Tobias somewhat offended. “I already know plenty. Thank you very much, what about Ethan do you want to talk about?”

“How does one broach the our future discussion?”

“Why are you talking to me about this? Shouldn’t you be talking to Ethan?” Asks Tobias.

“Because I do not want to freak him out but also, if he still sees us being well, an us , it will influence where I apply for residency.”

“You know he will say that he should have little to do with such a decision.”

Tobias shakes his head in disbelief. “And he is an obstinate ass for believing that. Being top 5 though, you would get multiple offers though. I know the western seaboard has you well away from your parents, but there are plenty of great programs that are not New York or Connecticut. I mean there are several other options in Boston alone and if Ethan does miss out on Edenbrook you can still transfer.” Said Tobias

“We all know that Ethan will get Edenbrook. You may not be in the throes of application yet but I know he has started and it is impressive.” Stated Estelle, “ I do not want to screw things up between us but I do not want to be deciding which residency without his input.”

“All I can say is be honest, tell him how you feel and for the love of all things holy please do not dance around the obvious for too long.”

Estelle chuckles. “He is cooking me dinner tonight so I will open a dialogue tonight.”

“Ahh yes, “cooking dinner” says Tobias. “Good luck and don’t worry I will not be home to interrupt what I am sure will be a pleasant evening.” Said Tobias smugly. They enjoyed their meal and went their separate ways. Estelle was buoyed by her chat. Be honest, how hard can that be? She thought to herself. She went home and did some study then got ready for her date night with Ethan. She knew that they were to have a serious discussion but she still picked one of her new lingerie sets, after all, if all went to plan, well they would be fucking each other senseless afterwards. It had been a busy few weeks for both of them after all.

She made her way to Ethan’s unit. She knocked on the door and he called out to enter. He was already in the kitchen, very much in his element. It was a pasta dish that he was cooking and it looked and smelt delicious. They sat and they ate. After a glass of wine and some kissing she felt that she should not delay the inevitable chat anymore.

How much of a future do you see for us?” Ethan was perplexed initially but he knew that Estelle would be applying for residency and that assauged his surprise.

“Is this because you want to know where you should apply for residency?” Asked Ethan

“Partially, residency is a big deal and if you still see us being an us, we’ll that will impact where I apply.

“And why should I be a consideration. If the best opportunity for you is on the west coast then we will sort something out.”

Estelle was shocked. She knew this would be an Ethan response but it was still a shock, it was not like she was putting her career on hold.

“Do you even care about us Ethan?”

“Stelle, in all honesty, I thought we would be talking residencies when you got accepted, not before you even started applying.” He took a breath

“And yes I do care about us but you also need to know that you also need to do what is best for you career wise.”

“Life is not all about career Ethan.”

“It is a big chunk of our lives though”

Estelle is starting to feel hurt.

“Is care all you feel?”

Ethan paused, things were going well, so he thought. He really did like Estelle but for him,6 months was too soon surely.

“Do I really like you? I thought the answer to that was obvious but beyond that, we have only been together for six months…”

“What are you that afraid to fall in love Ethan!” Exclaims Estelle

Ethan pinches the bridge of his nose.

“Stelle, you know me entering a relationship is a big deal. A relationship, hell even the friendship I have with Tobias was not something I foresaw.”

“E, I know that I am your first serious relationship, hell even this relationship is serious by my standards but I need to know, do you see a future for us?”

Ethan took a deep breath and gathered his thoughts.

“I don’t know how to answer that question honestly. I understand why you are wanting to know this, however asking me to even guess where we will be, I am having trouble imagining that…”

“So you don’t see a future for us, is that what you are saying?”

“I did not say that….”

“Yeah that is what it sounded like!” Said Estelle crying. She picks up her bag and makes her way to the door.

“Stelle, please, can we talk about this?” Calls Ethan, following her towards the door but he is not quick enough and she walks out the door and slams it in his face.

Ethan is confused and upset. Tonight was not meant to end like it had, he decides to

Let Estelle cool off and call her tomorrow.

He sits down, dejected and angry at himself and trying to figure out what he did actually feel. He knew the answers were not what Estelle wanted to hear but surely she should have preferred him to be honest now instead of being proved wrong this time next year. He found the bourbon stash as he needed something stronger.

Meanwhile Estelle was a mess. She knew he had a wall and she had suspected that she had been enabling Ethan by letting him behind that wall but hearing he had not thought about a future that included her, letting her make what she thought was a decision that needed input from him. He did not explicitly state it was over but it sure felt like that and a fresh set of angry and sad tears flowed. She had no idea how long she had been wandering aimlessly but she was shocked when she happened upon Tobias. Tobias was also shocked to see her. He could see she was upset.

What happened?” Asked Tobias

“Ethan and I had a fight, he does not see a future for us.” More tears fall, Tobias is torn, he wants to be there for Estelle but also wants to see Ethan. Estelle then cuddles into Tobias. “I really love him” she says in between sobs, “how can he treat me like this?”

“Did you tell him you love him?” Asked Tobias.

“I did not get that far. He has not thought about us, it really hurt Tobias.”

Tobias offers to get Estelle home. Estelle decides she needs a drink while they are on the way and they stop off at the bar. They have a few drinks, talk about the fight, talk about school. They both drink more than they should have, and as such their inhibitions were lowered. The thoughts that Estelle thought she had long buried about Tobias came to the fore. With the courage that the alcohol offered, Estelle kisses Tobias. Tobias is shocked. He found her attractive but it was clear to him that she had eyes for Ethan, so he thought.

“Me and Ethan are over T” she whispers before kissing him again. Tobias decides that they should go. As much as he knew he should leave, he did want to make sure that Estelle got home safely. They make their way to Estelle’s where she kisses him again. This time Tobias ignores the voice in his head telling him to stop.

They enter the unit and make their way to her bedroom. Again the voice in his head told him he needed to stop but he again ignored it. The kisses get hungrier and they disrobe. As soon as Estelle unbuckles his belt she is down on her knees. He was taken aback by her prowess and as the night went on, he was surprised again. He could not deny that the sex was great, even Estelle was satisfied multiple times but the regret set in right away.

He discretely got up from the bed and found his clothes. He left her a note stating that he had gone home and he embarked on the walk of shame.

He arrived at the unit he shared with Ethan. A part of him hoped that Ethan would be in bed but he was not. He could tell his friend was upset and that he had been drinking.

Are you upset about you and Estelle breaking up?”

Ethan looks at Tobias, his look of sadness changing to anger. In that moment Tobias just knew he had been lied too.

“We had a fight, yes but I did not end it, she was very upset that I had trouble seeing a future and I suppose she took that as me ending it but she stormed out before I could discuss it further.”

Tobias took a breath. He knew this conversation was going to hurt his friend but he decided he was going to be honest. He took the bottle on the table and poured himself a drink before continuing.

“Well, Stelle is spinning a different story, she told me you were over, I am sorry”

Tobias could see hurt and Anger in Ethan’s eyes.

“Sorry for what Tobias, what is going on?”

Tobias decides to continue to tell the truth.

“I bumped into Estelle, she told me about the fight. She was pretty upset so I wanted to make sure she got home safely, anyway we stop off at a bar and had quite a few drinks and she kissed me. She assured me you were over and kissed me again…”

“Did anything else happen?” Asked Ethan, through gritted teeth.

“I had sex with Estelle.” Said Tobias. “If I had known she was lying I wouldn’t have. She told me that you were over.”

“And you believed her?” Said Ethan, angrily.

“What was I to think? She was crying and wandering aimlessly and very upset when our paths crossed.”

“You could have thought with your head and not with your cock for starters.”

“I did not plan it, it just happened.”

“Well you could have said no.”

“If we had not detoured that probably would have happened.”

“So what, were you waiting for me to screw up before you had your way with her? Or were you…”

“I am going to stop you right there Ethan. Yes when I first met Estelle I did find her attractive but she only had eyes for you.”

Ethan is furious. Furious at himself, at Tobias and also Estelle.

“I can not believe that you, my supposed best friend, slept with my girlfriend.”

“Which part of she said you had broken up are you not getting?”

“That does not matter, you still fucked her! And more importantly, fucked her right after she thought that we were over!”

Ethan storms out, feeling more hurt then what he did when his mum walked out when he was eleven.

Tobias wants to go after his friend but he knew that neither were in a state to discuss this maturely. He was angry at himself for ignoring the voice that said stop and mad at himself for betraying the trust that he knew Ethan did not give freely. He knew it was going to be hard coming back from this but Ethan was the brother he wished he had and he would do anything to try and keep this relationship. He calls Estelle and he is also angry at her. Angry for giving up on Ethan, angry for wanting another man in her bed so soon and angry that she lied to him.

After hanging up with Estelle he went to bed, hoping to clear his head before Ethan came back.

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Authors note: that awkward moment where you have already done large amounts of dialogue in the events of this night in part 2 of the medical school series which is found here. I have added some little extra bits. The next part will have some more parts lifted my series again with more added as I did want to do more from the perspective of Tobias and I also wanted to showcase a bit more the friendship that Estelle had with Tobias and how that was also ruined too.

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[tveitertotwrites]

Hopkins Girl

Now that I have started to write little pieces of information about the woman that Ethan and Tobias dated, I figured I should make an introduction to her, in case she ever shows up somewhere in a fic or something.

Name: Gabriella Middleton

FC: Daniella Karagach

Occupation: Physical Therapist

How do Ethan and Tobias know her: One day towards the end of the fall semester of their first year at hopkins, Tobias dragged Ethan to a party and Ethan caught Gabriella's eye. They sat at a table in the corner and chatted for hours.

Ethan and Gabriella dated for 1.5 years until Gabriella noticed Ethan's competitiveness and trying to be the best doctor got the best of him and they started fighting a lot. Gabriella then went to Tobias for comfort and to try and see if he could make sense of what was going on.

After a couple weeks Tobias and Gabriella got close and she broke up with Ethan to date Tobias only about a week later, which hurt Ethan. They dated for about 8 months before Gabriella decided that she felt bad about how she and Ethan ended and broke up with Tobias.

Gabriella and Ethan meet up again sometime not long before book 1 and she apologized to him but he said that it was in the past and they both had their faults. Ethan and Tobias do talk to Gabriella sometimes but they don't keep up a lot with Gabriella living in California. Gabriella has moved on with her husband Asher (ironically the same Asher that is Claire's ex) and their daughter Cora.

This is what i have so far and I might add more later but for right now this is it.

[headoverheelsforramsey]

What's your HC for the girl Tobias and Ethan fell for at med school?

Anon! Thank you so much for this question. I know this has been sitting for a while because I wanted to develop the HC thoroughly and didn't want to rush into it. I wanted to make beautifully flawed characters without putting the entire blame on one person. I don't know if I succeeded but I'd love to hear your thoughts about it.

The Hopkins Girl

Dr. Melissa Cabrera (FC : Jessica Alba)

Melissa Daniela Cabrera was brought up by a single mother who worked many odd jobs to provide for her and her sister, after she walked away from an abusive marriage.

She had always been focused, brilliant, straight A student. Valedictorian and top of her class. So the only difficulty she faced while joining the prestigious Johns Hopkins University was leaving her family alone at Seattle after completing her undergrad at University of Washington.

She was in the next graduating class after Ethan and Tobias.

Melissa didn't care for romance much. Rather she always thought she didn't have time for it as the only goal she had in her life was to stand beside her mom and support her.

She also gave up on men and relationships after witnessing the disastrous marriage her parents had and how it almost killed her mom to get a divorce and complete custody of her kids.

All was fine until she met Tobias Carrick. She was so charmed and fascinated by him that it broke down all her barriers and she desperately craved him, his attention or affection.

Tobias back then was quite a Playboy. Never having a serious relationship lasting more than a couple months. When Melissa finally declared her feelings, Tobias let her down slowly, he just wasn't interested in her and didn't find her attractive.

Melissa was heartbroken, but she was strong enough not to show it on her face. She decided to befriend Tobias instead, maybe not his love but atleast she would have his company and someday maybe his opinion would change.

The two started hanging out, and since Tobias and Ethan were quite inseparable back then Melissa also started hanging out with Ethan as well. The three became tight friends pretty fast.

Ethan was unaware of the history Tobias and Melissa shared. Having a lot in common between himself and Melissa he slowly started falling for her and so did Melissa.

After they became official, Tobias was happy for them but a small part of him was jealous. Jealous of the love they shared beyond lust and physical chemistry, jealous of his best friend, and he wondered how differently it would go if he hadn't said no to Melissa back then. But he never brought these feelings to the surface.

Fast forward to 6 months before Ethan and Tobias graduate. They had to submit a paper for their final term. Tobias was working alone but Ethan decided to team up with Melissa.

They both worked well together, but three days before the submission Melissa decided to remove Ethan's name from the paper and just submit it as her own.

Tobias knew about this but at this point he was tired of coming in second every semester. He knew he had to one-up Ethan if he wanted that spot in Edenbrook, he wasn't just going to sit back and let Ethan Ramsey have everything he deserved : the girl, the residency and the relationship. So Tobias decided to keep shut.

But lies don't stay buried forever, Ethan came to know about it and he was furious and shocked at the betrayal he had received from the two people he had trusted the most in the world. He begged the professor for some extra time and since his track record was very clean the prof decided to give him two extra days.

In the meantime Tobias' conscience had caught up with him, he felt guilty and apologized profusely, he even offered to put Ethan's name on his own paper. But Ethan was having none of it, he shut him out completely.

Melissa took opportunity of the mistrust between the two friends. She played the victim card, and fed Tobias lies on how Ethan would have done the same thing if he was in Tobias' place and he did nothing wrong. Tobias was just happy that someone would talk to him and see his point. And in a moment of hurt and comfort they slept together.

On graduation day, Ethan was still top of his class with his father cheering him on loudly. Tobias on the other hand came in second, his entire family and Melissa hollering as he walked the stage.

Melissa graduated next year at the top of her class with specialization in oncology. When she got matched into Harvard Medical School's residency. She didn't think twice before breaking up with Tobias. Because her number one dream in life was about to come true.

She is presently chief of Oncology at Mayo Clinic.

Tagging @tobias-carrick-appreciation-week Day : 2, @aprilchallenge "just want to be with you" and @openheartheadcanons

Also tagging @coffeeheartaddict2 here it this! And @jerzwriter because I really want to know your opinions on this. 💜

[eerieseelie]

I saw the Miku trend on twitter and couldn’t resist drawing Nina in that pose‼️(o^▽^o)❤️🖤

[spiderprincess-suffet]

pink girlie trioooo

[quitebashfulexe]

What happens when you let a bunch of creepy girls loose in a mall?

Shenanigans is what ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

[preeetzeeels]

Eeermm UuyGGHHhhHh

I think she likes Magical Girls and BabyMetal

And gore-

Drawing her like this will be my favorite hobby by now.

She's beautiful sorry-

[zoestanleyarts]

Chip Fischer and Bibi Hopkins

[sergeant-sassy]

This smile... (Erend)

[melme1]

Who is this emo? Wait.. Nina the killer?

Yes! Nina the killer. That's how I see this crazy girl!

[coffeeheartaddict2]

At Last

Book: Open Heart (pre-series)

Pairing/characters: Ethan x Ramsey x F!OC Estelle Campion, Tobias Carrick

Catergory: Fluff

Rating: PG

Warnings: allusion to sexual activity

Word count: 445

Summary: Tobias is excited that Ethan and Estelle have finally gotten together.

Disclaimer: Characters (except Estelle Campion) belong to Pixelberry

Authors note. Second kiss prompt from this list. The promptis with happiness. Hope you like my take Elsa

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Tobias arrived home from a fractious visit to Philadelphia to visit his mum for Christmas. He pulled an all nighter to get home so when he arrived home and saw Estelle in his best friend’s shirt , well he could have been forgiven for thinking his eyes were deceiving him but they were not. It was Estelle and she was in one of Ethan’s shirts. One could not help but assume that Ethan had stopped being an obstinate ass and that they were together.

They go to the kitchen to make coffee and that is when Ethan woke up. Estelle commented that Ethan was the smart one to avoid problematic families.

After breakfast Ethan walked Estelle home and Tobias used the time to freshen up after his drive.

Tobias had to admit he was excited and relieved. Both Ethan and Estelle had been dancing around what he thought was an inevitability. He knew they both liked each other but Ethan especially loved getting in the way of that.

Ethan returned not long after. He gave him a hug, placed his hands on either side of his face and kissed his forehead with much happiness and excitement.

“Well done buddy and about bloody time!” Exclaimed Tobias.

Ethan blushed. “I did not realize that my personal life warranted such excitement from you.” Said Ethan.

“Buddy, you two have had such a long and protracted dance around what is clear as day and that this that you both like each other very very much. If I am being honest I was starting to wonder if anything would happen.” Said Tobias.

“I know we took our time, you know the reasons at my end. Last night was amazing though so I am glad that we are together” said Ethan, with a wistful smile.

“So shall I expect to see plenty of socks on your door handle then?” Asked Tobias, mischievously.

Ethan chuckled. They talked more about the night before and Tobias vented about his dad. Late in the afternoon Ethan received a message from Estelle inviting him to her house which Ethan accepted.

Eventually Tobias was alone. He was happy for his friend and happy for Estelle too. He drifted off to sleep after a long day.

The next day came and Tobias saw Ethan and Estelle out and about. Estelle saw Tobias and invited him to join them. They had a pleasant lunch. Tobias thought that he was interrupting but Estelle stated that even though her and Ethan are in a relationship, they are all still friends. Ethan proposed a toast to friendship and new relationships.

Everyone chorused the sentiment and looked forward to what the year would bring.

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Authors note:

Short and sweet but it just makes six months time hurt more because in my world, even though right at the beginning he thought about pursuing Estelle but he could see that she wanted Ethan so he decided to not pursue her and they were great friends the three of them so when it goes pear shape it really hurt everyone, especially the boys.

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[guts-for-angels]

I'm in a good mood

Doodle

I hc her as a really really weird person. But not stupid, no no. Very very crazy, but also very nice and cute.

Like smoking cigerettes alternating with a lollipop, wearing a cute pastel outfit and creepy weird dark makeup. Like taking silly selfies with her victims' corpses. Like staring at someone silently for long time and smiling nicely as they notice. Like glitter, pastel grunge mixed with emo/scene hair mixed with kawaii, childish things and creepy shit.

[nllick]

Bullworth girls💙💛

(this edit took forever 😭)

outro art - jxhnnyvincent

[eerieseelie]

🧟‍♀️ I’d just want your heart, yeah I’d want your heart, I’d just want your heart ⋆｡°✩🫀🦴𓈒 *

Happy belated emo day everyone! >ᴗ< !!! xx💜

[cannibalkitty985]

She could be stabbing me to death and I’d still giggle and kick my feet like a little freak

[ticcitobysbf]

goin back to using the default pen with some normal au tobina + my nina design cuz shes actually me (click for better quality 🤤)