#Helios also looking like he’s about to fuck shit up

[cowboys-tshot]

I keep seeing people call Eurylochus a hypocrite, and while I kinda agree, I also kinda disagree. Hear me out.

So, people's main thing with Eury is that he gets mad at Odysseus for sacrificing six men to Scylla, but he doomed all of the crew by opening the wind bag, and wanted to abandon 22 men-turned-pigs on Circe's island. (For anyone wondering where I'm getting that number, it's from The Odyssey).

But these events aren't really the same, or comparable. Let's take them one by one. (This is gonna be a long one, so I'll cut the post here for the sake of your timelines)

The wind bag. I fully understand why people are pissed at Eurylochus for doing this, and I am too. But you have to remember that he did not do this out of malicious intent. He did not know this would end in the eventual deaths of the entire crew. Even though Eurylochus was warned about the storm being inside the bag, none of them knew it would take them right to the Laestrygonians. He had no idea Poseidon was pissed off at Odysseus for blinding Polyphemus. It was a stupid decision, certainly, but the following events were not intentional on his part.

Circe's island. Eurylochus had no reason to believe there was any way of rescuing those 22 men. Circe's a goddess/witch. What the fuck are two human dudes gonna do about that? Odysseus didn't even know what he was going to do. He would not have had any solution if not for Hermes, which is not something Eurylochus could've predicted. It's pretty reasonable for him to think that those men were a lost cause.

Scylla. So far, all of the deaths have been "accidental:" 14 from Polyphemus, 543 from Poseidon/Laestrygonians, and 1 from Circe (RIP Elpenor). I am not attributing the 543 deaths to Eurylochus for the reasons detailed above. No one knew these deaths would happen. They were all sudden/unexpected. Let's take these next sixth deaths moment-by-moment:

Odysseus redirects the ship, using directions that no one else knew (Odysseus was reading the siren's lips, but everyone else was too busy catching the other sirens, and all of them had beeswax in their ears). Odysseus tells Eurylochus to light six torches.

One by one, Eurylochus watches every man that he handed a torch get brutally eaten. He himself is almost eaten, but he passes his torch off to someone else before he notices the correlation. He only realizes what's happening as the sixth man is about to die, and Eurylochus is too late to save him.

Odysseus won't even gaze at the blood left behind. But it's all Eurylochus can look at.

These deaths were planned. Odysseus knew what he was bringing his men into, and not only did he keep it from them, he sacrificed his men that didn't even know what was happening. And Eurylochus likely feels part of the blame, having been the one to light the torches, even if he didn't know the consequences of it.

Eurylochus has a right to be upset, to be angry. These are the first deaths that could have been prevented, because Odysseus could've simply not taken his men through Scylla's territory. But that's the only way to get home. Odysseus sees it as a necessary sacrifice, but Eurylochus sees it as needless. Because at this point, Eurylochus has given up hope that they'll ever get home. What is the point of sacrificing these men for a goal we will never achieve?

This is not a situation where one person is at fault. Odysseus and Eurylochus are both to blame. Like Scylla says, "There is no price we won't pay." Odysseus himself says, "You know you'd have done the same." People do stupid, dangerous, bad shit to survive. Odysseus sacrifices his men. Eurylochus still wants to live, he just doesn't see the point in trying to return to Ithaca. That's why he kills Helios's cattle. He is starving and he wants to live, even though he knows the consequences.

The whole point of all this is that people will do awful and/or stupid things to survive. Not just Odysseus.

[stars-in-a-jam-jar]

Moar Buddy Dawn Shit in relation to this post

Buddy was dead for about 10 to 15-maybe-20 minutes. Kristen and Gorgug at the top of Freshman Year were only dead about 3 to 5 minutes and they still got some form of time in the afterlife, (side note: Gorgug not knowing what Orc Heaven looks like and being Deeply Fucking Terrified and shellshocked by the entire experience is So Juicy To Me, like. Something that should by all rights be familiar to him being foreign. Of deep spiritual significance, but not in the way it was 'supposed to be'; he didn't even know how it was 'supposed to be' at the time or after he learned it, he's still not really sure if it was ever a 'supposed to'.) so I'm quite sure Buddy experienced Something beyond the grave and chose to leave it for this nameless aspect of Ankarna. The version of her which exists as a result of her complete death and incomplete resurrection/preservation.

In that 10 to 15 minutes, Buddy passed into the place he was going. Perhaps some cornfield out on the edge of Helio's domain where Helio figured 'I'll get to him or he'll find me sometime, there's literally infinite time here'. Perhaps as a petitioner on the Astral Sea- wait, no, I'm thinking about Rolling With Difficulty cosmology, the Astral Realm is not a sea in Fantasy High. (also go listen to Rolling With Difficulty) Regardless of if he went to the afterlife the adults all told him he'd go to if he'd been a good boy or to some more limbo-like place, he had just enough minutes for the reality to sink in that he's Dead. He's dead and the feeling of a hand gripping his shoulder as if to hoist his assailant high enough to slit his throat presses like a cold weight on his skin. As if this body has skin, no, he's just a solid soul given form in this place.

So jarring. Resting dead in some corner of the cosmos like finding the one empty room at a big loud party where you've mostly been taking things in, sticking close to people you know, not doing anything you're not supposed to. Sitting down on the unfamiliar furniture or swaying idly in place as you listen to the murmur of this foreign world around you. Only it's not like that, not truly at all. You're not at the party anymore, the echoes of your life aren't some thing you're taking a break from to rejoin or building up the nerve to excuse yourself from to get a proper change of scene. There is no going back or moving forward.

He's dead. Buddy Dawn is dead.

How many minutes did it take him to lose composure? Did he even? When the ultimatum was posed to him, did he harden his heart to any regrets about abandoning his original faith, or did he relax into knowing he could live again, in service of something that reached for him and he reached back towards?

Why was he so chipper saying 'Dang, y'all, I worship a nameless god of rage.'? He didn't sound horrified by his decision in much the same way he didn't sound in touch with reality when he said 'Sometimes I raise my hand and magic that burns folks to a crisp comes out, but that's just the lord Helio working through me.' His death didn't change him so much as it fixed his gaze onto something new.

He is still a Cleric. Through and through. His soul needs a divinity to latch onto. And this is the first time he has latched onto a divinity wholly and completely for himself. He was not taught how to live for himself. He was taught how to live and die for a cause. For Helio. He earns a nice afterlife via sacrificing his autonomy to whatever the church tells him is good and right.

But he doesn't want a nice afterlife.

He wants another life.

And he no longer has faith that Helio will deliver him from any hardship, because even after he's just barely grasped how dead he is and has been for the past 11 minutes, his soul is wrent into an ultimatum by a different power. Go back to his body and continue living under a new banner, or be trapped in a dark, solitary purgatory which his soul may never be free from.

It's an easy decision, really. Barely requires any thought, only following a feeling. He no longer wants to stand by the god who allowed him to die so unceremoniously and so unfairly. He honestly feels more betrayed by Helio than he does by Kipperlily. Kipperlily hardly made any promises to him, just asked for him to be the party's cleric. He never expected her to do that, sure, but... His whole life he was promised that every bad emotion he ever felt in response to every wrongness in his life would (should, must, has to) simply evaporate away in the golden light of the corn god. And it's been an eternal 12 minutes, but he only feels worse and worse.

And if all Helio could promise him was a flat expanse of farmland overseen by someone who didn't even properly greet him when he walked in (if the celestial bureaucracy were even doing their jobs and funneled the soul of Helio's cleric to Helio instead of some cosmic waiting room or other), but this nameless deity can promise him a life for himself? Then by god he's taking that ultimatum, come back to life, sit up with a slightly surprised little smile and announce to the world (as he has been taught is right to do when you are devoted to a god) 'I worship a nameless god of rage!'

And he'll be happy with this choice-that-is-not-a-choice which he was betrayed and coerced into. Because it truly feels self indulgent to choose anything. To choose ragefully living for himself instead of obediently dying for an unfulfilling promise. He'll choose the intensity and the darkness because the gentle constant pressure cooker of walking in the light gave him nothing but sunburns and a slit throat.

[rrat-king]

And what if I tell you my Fight, Flight, Fawn theory for the Appleboys reuniting with Kristen. What then? Going by your age gaps of 2, 4, 8 because they're canon adjacent and the idea of the Applebees having a playpen when three out of four kids were 14, 12 and 10 is too funny. Assuming a reunion between Kris and the younger two happens post her birthday so it's 17, 13 and 9 respectively. Buckys is analysing his actual response we saw from 14 year old him. When I say leave in reference to Kristen, know that I know it wasn't her choice (Mac and Donna when I fucking get you)

Bucky got the Fawn response. I'll be real, when I began theorising that an Applebees brother would feature I thought "Oh god here comes the angst. There will be resentment, Mac and Donna have undoubtedly been talking shit for two years. But we see him and he's happy. He missed her. He hugs her. He wants to hang out. And yeah that probably stems from the fact you'll naturally miss your sibling and the fact he probably had to take the oldest sibling mantle. But he barely even commented on her life and friends (aside from the half baked comment about her living in sin and side eyeing Fig). I was expecting more problematic behaviours to be honest. The theory is he entered full people pleasing mode, desperately tampering down any complicated feelings because he NEEDS to make himself a good brother that Kristen will want to stay for this time (of course not realising Kristen will stay the best she can no matter if he kicks and screams)

Bricker got Fight. Was like 10 when Kris left, and I say this with love, in the absolute throes of puberty. I don't know what it is but this kid just gives me angry vibes, maybe it's the middle child. Very Nico DiAngelo "He looked too young to be so angry". When you're a kid, especially in that horrific period of 10-13 you go to the easy solution which is being mad, and you go to the easy target which is the one who "started" this huge upheaval (read Kristen). To a lesser extent, Bucky, for trying to play big brother (Bricker doesn't even realise this but the anger mostly came from a subconscious desire to preserve Kristen's place in the family for if she comes back).

(Bonus: Once they have a very good conversation and Bricker is reassured Kristen never did stop thinking about and loving him he will cry three years worth of pent up tears and beg her not to leave again)

Cork got Flight. He was only 6 when she left, its been 3 years of experiences (little man went from first grade to third in that time its a Lot). Kristen has physically changed a lot since they last saw each other. All this to say, he takes a minute to recognise this older person who's eyes are all wet at the sight of him. Some part of his brain blocked out memories of her because the way she was just gone one day was so scary to his little brain. When it does register who she is, Cork becomes completely unlike himself and gets shy. He makes Bucky stand close by because all he knows is that 1. This is a heathen who rebuked Helio's light 2. This is Krissy, back after what felt like forever and 3. She's so cool looking and why would someone this cool ever want to talk to him.

(Bonus: She played it off but Kristen's heart did break seeing Cork, the little boy she raised, take a minute to work out who she is, when she never forgot him. Not to quote Taylor but very "And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe")

god yeah kristen having partially raised cork only for him not to know who she is anymore/barely recognize her haunts me so much. bucky as a people pleaser is such a good read especially as he is forced into kristen's role as head of the siblings I just. yeah. also angry bricker is so important to me. he got left behind! he's not ok with that and he's gonna be angry. god I just. applebees kids make me crazy this is such a good read.

[daonedaonlyskh]

sk wisdom saga thoughts

SPOILER WARNING FOR THE WISDOM SAGA

also these will not be coherent hardly at all btw

and why should you read this? bc I wanna hear your opinions too :)

also trigger warning for love in paradise, I briefly touch on suicide but it’s only a sentence or two

and this is significantly longer than I thought it was gonna be whoopsie

legendary - HOLYYYYYY SHITTTTTTT YES MICO GIVE US EVERYTHING RIGHT OFF THE BAT YESSSSSSSSSSSS I feel like I resonate with the song a lot about wanting to be better and living up to a certain standard and being willing to do just about anything to get there and not letting the world get ya down yk? ALSO WHATCHA GONNA DO ABOUT IT CHAMP? TOTALLY LIVED UP TO EXPECTATIONS JORGE WAS RIGHT THAT LINE WAS INCREDIBLE

little wolf - OKAY THE VIDEO GAME STYLE THINGY ANIMATIC ON THE STREAM?????? HOLY FUCK THAT WAS SO COOL!!!!!!!!!! When Antinous said “I’ll teach you all the lessons your daddy never could” ow. sir that hurt. But so glad we finally got a canon explanation of “quick thought” even if it came kinda late in the show. And Athena’s little “oooo guess I pushed him to hard” is so adorable to me and I can’t explain why. Same with the deadpan of “uppercut him. Now.” But I think the decision to keep the little question Tele asks at the end of the song in the song and not just have it all be in “we’ll be fine” is a little weird to me but idrc all that much. Overall I absolutely loved this song, the switch up from the negative of antinous absolutely destroying Tele, to the positive side where Athena is helping Tele is incredible.

we’ll be fine - I’m gonna be real this is my least favorite of all the songs. Not that I don’t like it or anything, it’s great, to me it just doesn’t compare to any of the others. I like that Athena and Tele get to have a real conversation, and the Odysseus references without Telemachus actually knowing who she’s talking about is really cool. And I like the parallel of “if I’ll never sleep at night” to “I could sleep at night.” But the part where Athena says “you’re a good kid” makes me wanna cry /pos.

love in paradise - CALYPSO WHEN I CATCH YOU CALYPSO!!!!!!!!!! I liked the time dive bit, I found that cool. Also the stream dying as soon as calypso saying that goddesses can’t die was absolutely fucking hilarious, so glad I was there for that. BUT THE END BIT HOLY FUCKING SHIT THE END OF THAT SONG UGHHGGGGGGGGAGAHSHDHSIAKSKDKDHSH. First of all, underworld saga drawback, second of all ody basically trying to kill himself or seriously injure himself was extremely unexpected to me when I first saw it, but now looking back that did not come out of nowhere at all, it just caught me off guard, third of all CALYPSO SAYING OPEN ARMS? GURL WHEN I CATCH YOU I SWEAR, fourth of all having polites in my left ear and having eurylochus in my right ear actually makes me physically hurt, fifth of all him screaming “Athena” at the end is so sad, calling out for the only possible person who you think would or could help you, even if you’ve been long out of their life, and left on bad terms? Absolutely heartbreaking, sixth of all the little “he needs my help” at the end of the song got me good. Also I listened to this song for the second time ever today as of typing this and I fucking cried, I didn’t cry when I heard it on stream since I think I was just too distraught over it, and was overall just extremely happy.

god games - I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY. YOU THOUGHT THE PREVIOUS BLURB YOU JUST READ WAS LONG? HA! Alrighty so in the beginning part, I like how Luke Holt says all the gods names in a different way, and they all feel like they make sense for the character. Moving on to the levels, I really like Apollo’s voice, idk who that is but whoever you are I love your voice. After figuring out that it was confirmed that the cows were Helios’s, I was extremely confused as to what Apollo’s argument would be, but was pleasantly surprised by the sirens, which wasn’t something I even thought about. Having Hephaestus be voiced by Jay’s dad is so cool, and now both of Jay’s parents are in epic and I just find that so sweet. His dad definitely gives Hephaestus vibes, and I think he sounds great, and I don’t really have any strong feelings on his argument. Moving in to Ares and Aphrodite, I already knew I was going to love them, and I still do! I’m gonna be honest, I actually really love Ares’s part lmao. His lyrics get stuck in my head really bad sometimes, and I love the rhythm of his part. I also think Athena basically just beating the shit out or just straight up judo flipping him in most of the animatics is really funny. Going on to Hera, the anniflamma animatic that played during the live stream was so, so silly. not Hera and Athena full on just having a fucking dance off. And yk what, it slays. Now last but most certainly not least, everything after that. 1st of all, beast mode Zeus is absolutely terrifying, just as it should be. Luke holt you’re absolutely incredible at your craft. 2nd, I was not expecting him to just like straight up blast Athena to fucking bits. 3rd, Ares you could at least try to make your “is she dead?” Sound at least a little bit sincere my guy, but that’s so silly goofy of you so I’ll let it slide. 4th, the little flashback scene with the soft instrumental warrior of the mind in the background makes me wanna cry /pos. 5th, when the instrumental picks up after the flashback, and Athena starts to push against Zeus’s lightning, getting severely hurt in the process? Absolute perfection, only criticism is that I wish she bled golden ichor in the animatic showed on stream but other than that minor thing I think it was absolutely perfect. 6th, the “let him go, please, let him go” with Athena basically just dying afterwards at the foot of Zeus? Peak emotional damage to my soul. The reach out of Athena to Zeus when she’s already been forced to the ground as she sings “let him go” as she looks up at him did something to me.

This saga aches in my soul. I wouldn’t want it any other way

I would also like to say that I am a singer, who is the kid of a very successful musician (my dad is a uni professor of music and still plays music at restaurants on the stuff on the side. his best friends know extremely famous musicians, and I know a few semi famous musicians too :3). And I feel like I can see epic from so many perspectives because of things, obviously because of this I have such a great appreciation for the music, but especially the vocals. I am also an okay writer, which gives me a deeper appreciation for the story telling aspects. And I’m a visual artist, so the animations and animatics that come out of epic are such an inspiration to me. All of epic is, everything that comes out of it inspires me, the music, the storytelling , the art, all of it. (but especially the music, since given what I said I think you could probably tell how important music as a whole is to me)

[alexandraisyes]

Rate all TSAMS Bloodmoon ships

Fuck both of you for sending these BACK TO BACK WHAT THE FUCK (/affectionate /positive /i love u guys). God there's so many hold on. It's so fun bc bm is like free game, I can do whatever I want with them. I'm gonna take a deep breath and I rot about bm a lot with my friend group and we rot about ships A LOT. All sorts of ships. I can almost guarantee there's a ramble made for at least half of these. Also I'm a fucking sucker for dark fiction and bloodmoon is low hanging fruit 😩

Bloodmoon x @turbotasthick : 0 Stars - I refuse to let him steal my wife, but she demanded to be on the list.

Bloodmoon x Sun: 10 out of 5 stars - Anyone who knows me knows that this is one of the ships I will fucking die on the hill for. I don't care how impractical it is, that is their sunny and they love their sunny and their sunny loves them.

Bloodmoon x Moon: 4 Stars - I think they could have been really toxic and that brings me joy

Bloodmoon x Nexus: 2 Stars - I can't figure out how they would work for the life of me

Bloodmoon x Monty: 0 Stars - Kill it with fire

Bloodmoon x Solar Flare: 5 Stars - It has Solar Flare in it. I actually have two separate AUs where they end up as a thing, or rather Flare ends up with one of them. It's funny he gets a chance to date both of them but in completely separate realities. In one he's starting to gain sentience, proper sentience, when he meets Bloody and ough our boy is a wreck. In the other it's him and Harvest and they're literally surviving their own little hell together and all they have is each other and Flare isn't super emotive but he still is sentient, and he's all Harvest has for a long time. They become ✨codependent✨.

Bloodmoon x Earth: 4 Stars - I will now elaborate bc I brought it up earlier. They're her good little guard dogs and you can take that however you want to.

Bloodmoon x Ruin: 5 Stars - Perfectly fucked up and toxic

Bloodmoon x Gemini: 4 Stars - HEAR ME OUT

Bloodmoon x Frank: 4 Stars - Because of the fucked up potential

Bloodmoon x Puppet: 4 Stars - She can fix them, trust

Bloodmoon x Foxy: 5 Stars - HES GONNA HOUSE TRAIN THEM AND LOVE THEM AND THEYRE GONNA BE SO NEEDY

Bloodmoon x Solar (Nice Eclipse): 5 Stars - I've got so many different iterations of this ship I swear to fucking go. I have like three? AUs of it? One where it's Solar and Harvest, and it's in my silly little "world exploded" au. One where it's Solar and both of them, and they're literally so obsessed with each other (solar's secretly super sadistic and they're super masochistic and it's starts as a pleasure grab but then they developed feelings ((tm)) for Solar and he doesn't exactly reciprocate but he finds them somewhat endearing). And the last one is Solar and Bloody, and Solar's helping him recover from some rough fucking shit (same au as flare/harvest).

Bloodmoon x Helios (Dark Sun): 5 Stars - @turbotasthick and I have specifically rotted about specifically this. About the thought that Helios brings them back to be his little plaything (and also a distraction for the celestials). This specific AU also has Solar and BM being a qpr, they're besties trust. They were attached to Solar (like a stray cat) and when he died they didn't know he died, they just knew he stopped leaving food out for them and wasn't coming out to say hi at night and it made them depressed as fuck so Helios brought Solar back bc BM was upset and missing him. Helios cares about them in his own way, even if he initially brought them back out of boredom. IT'S TOXIC BLOODYSUN GUYS TOXIC BLOODYSUN

Bloodmoon x Nyx (Evil Lunar): 4 Stars - They could be so evil together. Conniving little beasts

Bloodmoon x Gaia (Evil Earth): 4 Stars - HEHEHE They're her little pets and look! They're even housetrained. They know better than to bite.

Bloodmoon x Kronos (Lord Eclipse) x Crius (Servant Sun): 5 Stars - Went on a whole ass ramble with a friend group about how Kronos made a Bloodmoon out of star power after several millennia to be his guard dog. He's super animalistic and feral and he loves his master and the pretty servant.

I did cut out three ships that I was really anxious about bc I know it's a coin toss on whether or not people will tear me to shreds on them, even though there's literally nothing wrong with them, but the fandom has biases bro.

[rhey-007]

Helios - Chapter 2

Billy Butcher x reader

Summary: A fatherless girl finally meets with him after her mother's death. Little does she know that from this point on, her life will fall apart. She'd meet a lot of new, interesting and disgusting people and experience a lot of traumatizing events. Will she be able to choose the right side and take control of her own fate?

Tags/Warnings: 18+, Fem!reader, violence, fluff, mention of rape/sex, big age gap, explicit language

A/N: I decided that I don't want to end this series so quickly cause I still have some ideas. So there'll be more! And that's also why this chapter is a little short, I hope you don't mind :))

Wordcount: 3759 (around)

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Chapter 2 - High Noon

After the events of past few months and a couple failed attempts to put your life back together, you finally managed to find a job - which included a small but nice apartment. The only downside was a fact that you were going to work at a fucking supe club. As much as you wanted to get away from all the superhero shit it seemed like it would hunt you forever. You didn’t know what was worse – working at that bar or death, both equally horrible if you had to be honest. In those few months you’ve changed beyong recignition. From a blonde angel to a bratty, dark haired demon. You had enough of your light, long hair and decided to dye them dark and cut them short. You found your wolf cut more fitting, but the hair wasn’t the only thing that changed – it was also your wardrobe and demeanor. Instead of clean girl garments, now the only things you wore were oversized – sometimes men’s - grungy clothes and the politeness faded into bitchiness. It could be seen that you had enough of life even though you were only 21.

As you quickly found out, the supes weren’t the worst thing at the club. It was actually them being able to fuck there. The moans and groans drove you crazy until you got used to them. Mainly because they were annoying but also because your sexlife was a disaster. Every since you slept with your prom date – which was your first and last time – you didn’t manage to pick any guy nor girl up. You had no idea what was wrong but soon were about to find out. You worked behind the bar - making drinks and bringing them to the customers – and of course you had to clean the whole place after closing, in order to live in the flat above. You could never think that supes were that piggish. Used condoms, their fluids along with spilled alcohol and empty glassware layed everywhere after every your shift. The club was also where you met him – William fucking Butcher, another nightmare of a person in your life. Even though a part of you hated him, the other craved for him. He was handsome and charming. The way his brown orbs lingered on your face and body every time you met... The way he smiled at you... The way he called you Doll, Buttercup, Moonie... All those things caused weakness to your knees.

It was a chilly summer night when you first met. He visited your club, your eyes falling to him the moment he entered. Tall, broad shoulders, dark eyes full of anger and lust and... He was older, way older, and you liked it. You never realized you had daddy issues, although looking at your past it was quite obvious. You guessed that that was a problem of your inabillity of finding a date. All the people you tried to flirt with were either your age or a bit younger. You observed the man as he talked with your coworkers and supes until he came up to you.

„Whiskey "

Butcher said before you could open your mouth. After quickly pouring a glass of dark liquid, the drink made it's way to your customer. The man took a sip, the only thing you heard was ice tapping the glass as you prepared drinks and tried to ignore his aroma. He smelled like alcohol and cigarettes but you also caught a glimpse of wood, cinnamon and vanilla.

„Like the smell Buttercup? "

He asked soon when he noticed you give in and inhale his scent, pretendig to have a runny nose and sniffing. Looking up you saw a devilish smirk painted on his face and felt your cheeks burn. In spite of your embarrassment you decided to try flirting with him. Maybe something good would come out of this.

„Not only the smell but also the face. Hope I'd be able to like something else too later”

You winked and left the bar with a tray full of drinks, your hand brushed against his cheek as you did so. Butcher watched you walk away, swaying your hips teasingly. You knew how to seduce a man, it wasn't your first time after all and you also learned some tricks from Queen Maeve back in Vought. Speaking of Vought. They didn't send anybody after you, at least you thought so. Maybe it was you being great at covering up your tracks or they were just too stupid to find you, despite having one of the best equipments and people in America. You didn't mind that of course. It was good for you. Bending down to your customer you felt Billy's eye linger on your bottom.

„Liked the view? "

Your voiced sounded as you found your way back behind the bar. It was your turn to take control of the flirting and you led it the best way possible. You conversed your whole shift before leaving to your apartment. Lips on lips, body to body, as you strolled to your bedroom. One of his hands was tangled in your hair while the other roamed your curves. Your arms were wrapped around his neck, pulling him as close as it was possible. Soon you run your palms down his chest, unbuttoning his shirt slolwy, button after button. Unhurriedly you dropped to your knees, lustful eyes looking up at him and small hands palming his member through his jeans. You could feel he was big and your mouth started to water at the single thought. But something snapped in the man. As if he got out of trance. You were just to unbuckle his belt when his hands met yours. You looked up at him askingly, brow raised in confusion as Butcher sighed and picked you up gently.

„...We shouldn’t... "

Those were the last words you heard that night before he left you in your cold apartment. Were you not enough? Or too much? Maybe he was just playing with you earlier? Maybe he didn’t expect you to actually want this? Maybe it was just a sick bet with a friend to pick you up and leave not even in the middle of the act? You didn’t know and you tried not to care but the weird feeling in your stomach didn’t let you sleep. You couldn’t remeber the last time you were so lonely as that night.

The next night Butcher came back. He couldn’t sleep either, feeling bad for abandoning you. It wasn’t like he didn’t want it. It was just that he didn’t feel worth of you. He was older after all. His glory days were far behind and he was worried he wouldn’t be able to please you properly. Also the fact that he still wasn’t over Becca made him step back. As for you, you were so young and you deserved someone with just as much vigor as yourself even for a one night stand.

He broke into your apartment, holding a small box and scaring the shit out of you when you came from work. You almost cut him in half with your lasers, but managed to stop yourself. He couldn’t find out you were a supe.

„What the fuck?“

You hissed and slowly walked up to Billy. You were so mad at him, fists clenched so hard making your knuckles go white. An apology look was painted on the man’s face as he stretched his hand with the box out to you and pointed his free one at the calendar hanging in the kitchen. At first you looked pretty confused but after looking at the calendar pleasant warmth spread through your body. Your eyes averted from it to the box as you opened it and revealed a small birthday cake.

„Thought I could repay ya' for yesterday. That was a shitty move’’

‘’That sure was... And don’t think I’ll forgive you just because you bought me a cake’’

The frown on your face hid the happiness that bubbled inside you. You were glad that someone ‘remembered’, even though that someone was an unsuccessful hook up. Although you tried to hate the man, the small gesture made you feel butterflies in your stomach just as the night before.

‘’But... I guess we could share a piece and a drink?’’

You asked with a sigh then looked up at Butcher with a soft smile. The man reciprocated it and nooded.

‘’With pleasure’’

Despite not finishing pervious day’s activity, the night was still satisfying leaving you cheerful for another day. You’ve spent the night in each other’s embraces talking, drinking and eating the cake. You told him about your fucked childhood and ‘amazing’ father, making the stories seem as if you were normal humans. And after too much alcohol he unintentionally told you about his wife and hatred to you father. You couldn’t blame him though. New knowledge about your father, the fact the he was able to rape a woman made you hate him even more yourself. You figured it was a tough topic for him and decided to not bring it up the next time you meet. Billy was the first person that you opened up to since running away from Vought, the first person that seemed to care about you even though you were strangers. In the morning he was gone. Well, almost. The only things that he left behind were his delicious smell, mouth watering breakfast and... His hawaiian shirt. You had no idea why he left it, but he must have done that intentionally as it was neatly put together on your couch. Maybe he left it so you would be sure he would come back? Or maybe he wanted you to have a little reminder of him? You didn’t know but still kept it, just as neatly as it was before in your closet.

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One time Butcher called you in the middle of the night, he seemed angry making you jump out of bed immediately and dress up. He needed your help in something he didn’t mention through the phone. You reluctantly agreed and met him at the agreed place. What you saw inside made your heart stop for a brief moment. A big, black garbage bag laid in the middle of a room, instruments of torture were scattered around like toys and blood was splattered everywhere.

‘’Wha-’’

A knot formed in your throat at the terrifying sight. It looked like a scene from a horror movie but in real life, staring Butcher and you.

‘’What have you done...’’

You’ve managed to say, your body trembling like a jelly as your eyes observed the horror.

‘’Just a fucking supe, Buttercup. Ain’t nothin to worry bout’’

Butcher grinned down at you and patted your back. In that moment you’ve realized how dangerous the man was, why you met him at the pub and what he could do to you if he found out you were a supe too. But you still had no idea why he asked you for help.

It was because he thought you were like him. A vigilante working undercover in a supe bar to get rid of one of them. But you weren’t.

‘’We need to get rid of this stinky asshole’’

You were too shocked to object when he called your name and obediently did what he ordered you to. You helped him pick the body up and take it to his car. Good thing it was parked in a dark alley where no one could see you. You shoved it into the trunk, hopped inside the car and drove away to the forest. While the body burned you watched the flames – your brain still not able to wrap around what was just happening – and Billy warmed his hands above it. He looked like a psycho in the fire light. A fucking hot psycho. Soon he got too warm and handed you one of the spades to start digging a hole. You did it quite swiftly which surprised you. You always thought digging graves took hours. Butcher helped you out of the hole and chuckled at your dirty attire.

‘’Hope princess won’t get mad I ruined her clothes’’

You just rolled your eyes annoyed then you burried the ashes. After that Butcher drove you to your apartment. There was complete silence between you, only the faint noises of the radio could be heard as you drove through the town.

‘’M’sorry Moonie... Promise I’ll never ask ya bout such shit again...’’

Billy soon broke the silence, he just couldn’t stand it anymore. His hand made it’s way to your thigh and was about to rub it when you suddenly snapped.

‘’WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?!”

You screamed into his face and pushed his hand away. You still couldn’t believe you helped him with such a thing. Your body was trembling the whole ride as your brain repeated the scenes from few minutes ago on and on. Butcher parked the car in front of your building and didn’t manage to say anything when you jumped out of it.

‘’You’re just like them!’’

Your scream echoed through the street and you could bet everyone heard it. The man tried to grip your wrist and pull back inside but you were faster. You slammed the door almost breaking it and crushing his hand then run to your flat, tears falling down your cheeks. Butcher wanted to follow you so badly, to explain everything, to comfort you. But he decided otherwise, instead giving you time to think about whether you still want to know him or not. He didn’t expect you to though. Not after that.

To his surprise the next time you saw each other it was you who came up to him. You placed the drink he ordered in front of him and sat down beside.

‘’Care to explain?’’

Your eyebrow was raised as you awaited his response. Of course he had to drag it out... Billy slowly picked the glass up and raised it to his lips. He took small sips, taking his time, and when the glass was finally empty he just then deigned to answer. It was all you expected. The person he killed wasn’t first nor the last, he was just a mere puzzle in the jigsaw.

‘’It wasn’t much Moonie. Just needed information. If I’d let him go, he’d later tell someone and then it would’ve been me burried 8 feet under ground. I assume you wouldn’t like that’’

The last sentence was rather a question than a statement and you had to admit that you would in fact not like that. You grew quite attached to Butcher in those few days of your familiarity, but it was just the beginning. You forgave him with great remorse and he pinky sweared he wouldn’t get you in his shit again.

He lied.

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After two years of your acquaintance you started to wonder why do you even help him? He caused an immense damage to your mental health – not that it wasn’t fucked before – yet you still did it. Maybe because working with him was your way to get back at your father, even though he didn’t know about Bucther’s existance yet. Or maybe because you cared about him. You cared about that beast of a man. When you were with him you were sure nothing would happen, and if it did you would have averted the crisis with your powers. Just like that night when Butcher got almost killed due to his stupidity. And who had to save him? You.

You shielded Billy’s hurt body with yours from the fire beams a supe threw at you. You predicted his next move and before he threw another beam you lasered his legs knocking him down. You didn’t hurt him much though, it was Billy’s job after all. After checking if the supe fainted you turned to face a dissapointed and sad face of Butcher. It was the first time you saw him so dejected and it made your heart break.

‘’You’re one of ‘em...’’

‘’Billy I-… I-I'm sorry I didn’t tell you, I was-… I was scared you would hurt me too...’’

Butcher stiffened under your touch when you brushed your hand against his. He fought the urge to cage you in a warm hug and say that it’s alright. But he couldn’t do that, no... He didn't hang out with superheroes, let alone work with them. But you were different... He dramatically pulled away from you and kicked the pillar next to him furiously.

‘’FUCK! I could’ve fucking predicted it! And tell me ya work for Vought! Cause ya sure do! Why would ya help me otherwise-”

‘’Because I fucking care about you! Not like you! Just use me for some dirty work regardless of how I feel! You’ve promised me thousand times you won’t ask me for help anymore, yet you still do! Every time you can’t deal with something by yourself you come running to me with your tail between your legs! If you think you're greater than every supe on earth then why do you even need my help?!’’

Butcher didn’t say anything, just looked at you like a hurt dog would and even though your heart ached you knew it was time to leave. You shook your head disappointedly with a heavy sigh and left the building, abandoning Billy for good. You tried not to cry, but the minute you were sure he didn’t see you anymore, the tears started to fall down your cheeks themselves.

Just then did Butcher understood the feelings for you he has kept hidden deep inside himself. It was adoration, derise and infatuation he felt every since he met you. He felt so helpless in that moment but knew you would never forgive him. That night he lost another woman he loved... The man didn’t appear in your pub the next day as he usually would, making you feel weird and uneasy at first, but you quickly forgot about him and went on with your life.

‧͙⁺˚*･༓🔅 🔅༓･*˚⁺‧͙

You didn’t miss Butcher. Not at all. Through the year you’ve got so many hook ups and potential boyfriends that you lost memory of him in the proces. Although neither of the men made you feel the same way you felt with Billy, you didn’t complain. But all of them were just like him. Older, well built with dark hair and beards. And his shirt? You still got it but now it was squished in the back of your closet, long forgotten and unwanted. Well... Maybe not completely unwanted. Your life was weirdly calm every since you left and you fell into a routine. Get up, go to work, come back home. On and on with occassional parties or grocery shopping. You even managed to befriend one of your coworkers, Brittany, who took you to said parties. The new life you lived wasn’t perfect but it was enough and it made you finally happy.

That was untill you saw that motherfucker again. He walked into the club as if nothing with some random, scared guy. You figured he was his next poor sidekick. You locked eyes with Butcher as the two passed you. He seemed unfased by your furious glare. Soon you lost them in the crowd but not for too long, as after about 20 minutes they came walking your way.

‘’Whiskey. And an apple juice for the kid’’

You didn’t respond just gave the younger guy a sad look. You poured them their drinks then handed them over, all without a word.

‘’Come on Moonie. You gonna be pissed at me foreva’?’’

You completely ignored Butcher and turned to face his new friend, blood boiling in your vains and the nickname.

‘’Listen buddy. I advise you to run as far away from him as possible while you still can, or he’ll ruin your life or get you killed’’

‘’Oh come on! I’m not that bad!”

‘’Myabe if you didn’t turn your back on me I wouldn’t think so!”

“Now that’s the Y/N that I know! All hot an rowdy’’

Butcher smirked at you after you snapped. You wanted to tear that smile from his face, shove it up his ass then kill him. And if wasn’t for the fact that you were at work, full of piggish supes, and that some feelings kept you at bay you would have done that right there and then. It was also because of Hughie, he seemed too pure for looking at that masacre. You wondered what such fragile guy even did with Butcher? Did he blackmail him or something?

‘’What do you even want, huh? You show up in here as if nothing and expect me to be all over you like some slut. Need me to do your dirty work again? Or did you remembered about that night and wanted to try again huh? Never. Now finish those up and leave just like you left last time’’

You hissed and went back to work, leaving Butcher surpirsed by your bluntness and Hughie impressed with your straightforwardness and ability to tell Butcher to fuck off. Even though the boy didn’t know Billy for long, he felt like he was a person that no one would say ‘no’ to. But there you were, proud of yourself for not falling for him again and telling him to fuck off.

But your happiness didn’t last long as few days later you found Hughie all beat up with a few cuts on your porch. He was too cute to refuse to help him and soon the two of you found yourselves sitted by the kitchen counter, sipping hot cocoa while you took care of his wounds.

‘’Told you it’s gonna happen...’’

You sighed after finishing and sat in front of him.

‘’About that...’’

Hughie’s words made you comprehend why he even came to you. Up to that moment you didn’t even realize you never told him where you lived, you haven’t even talk to each other! Butcher must have sent him to persuade you. That sick motherfucker knew too well how to handle you.

‘’What is it?...’’

You asked giving in. You decided that if you had to help them, you’d do it just for that poor dumplin Hughie, who’s girlfirend got run into and killed by fucking A-Train. And that’s how it started, another adwenture with Butcher. God... Why did you always had to get yourself in some shit...

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[kelean]

it's always funny to me when people blame jack's insanity and genocidal tendencies solely on lilith and moxxi's so-called "betrayal" and at this point i'm convinced that they played some different game because:

lilith and moxxi literally saw him kill innocent scientists only because he thought they may betray him, but there was no solid evidence for that. and even if there actually was a traitor among them, jack could've simply put them in some sort of jail or just deal with them quietly. but no. instead he decided to make a whole show out of killing them in one of the most cruel ways possible, while gathering all of his allies around. because his goal wasn't to just get rid of someone you can't trust - he wanted lilith, moxxi and roland to see what will happen to them if they dare to disobey him

after he killed the meriff he thought that it was - quote-unquote - "invigorating". killing scientists also "felt good". normal person behavior btw

he never cared about felicity. he doesn't feel any remorse or guilt after killing her, even though she was helping him this entire time. and correct if i'm wrong, but while he did need an army to take helios back, he, in the end, never actually used it. the loaders in bl:tps couldn't do much - we had to manually turn them into the loaders who can shoot or blow up stuff. and it was after we already got on helios. so basically, there was no rush to make a constructor out of felicity and consequently kill her in the process

by the time of the events of bl:tps he has already destroyed moxxi's underdome like she said in one of the side quests in bl2 (nevertheless, she still agreed to help him). and before you say anything about how he couldn't actually do that and it's a retcon because he was a low-level programmer may i remind you that he had the money to make a goddamn body double for himself. he had a fancy office. he had a chamber for angel's containment. and i think it's pretty believable that a person with that much money is capable of doing that

and yes, angel. while lilith and roland didn't know about that at the time, he has already enslaved his own daughter many years ago and used her to manipulate them into finding the vault for him in bl1. and he had the resources to keep her in her place, too

so, of course, when they saw the eye of the destroyer they knew what was going on. imagine somehow killing a monster that took down armies just to see its' eye being used by some big fucking corporation for god knows what years later

now, to the fun part - the betrayal. let's just say that moxxi’s good at reading people - she wasn’t wrong when she called jack a «power-hungry psychopath» and said that «a lot of decent people will live to regret it if you come down from helios alive» as we will see in the future events. she and others saw jack's true colors shine through during their little quest to save the moon and it was the only logical conclusion. she was fucking right

moxxi specifically asked jack to be at the eye of helios because she planned to kill him (and, well, people who agreed to work for him) and him (and his team) only. moreover, the station was already under attack by the lost legion by quite some time. so there was literally no possibility that it would've impacted any innocents (so idk from where some people got the idea that they killed "millions of innocent hyperions" - that's just called making shit up)

jack, on the other hand, didn't know how much of an impact that caused. however, he isn’t sad about the possible death of people that singularity might have caused (again, it could, but it didn’t - still, Jack doesn’t give a fuck). he isn’t even worried about his own team. all he cares about is that he lost a very valuable and deadly weapon because of «the things he could have done with it» - and it’s pretty obvious what exactly can you do with this sort of weapon. it wasn't just standing there to look pretty you know

also, while we’re at it, you can even argue how this whole “saving the moon and its’ people” thing might have been just a cover up for a real reason – that is, get this very dangerous weapon back under his control. but that's just a speculation based on some of the in-game things i've noticed, so let's not dwell on it

finally, i never really got why people are so mad at lilith for punching jack - she literally admits that she should’ve just killed him instead, as, in the end, it costed her a lot of people’s lives and, more specifically, roland’s life. she feels extremely guilty. she knows that she fucked up. her main mistake, however, wasn't that she "betrayed" jack - her main mistake was leaving him to die instead of finishing a job and thinking that he can actually be trustworthy

[asexual-disaster]

‼️FHJY EP6 SPOILERS‼️

you know the drill!!!

you know how these start,, MURPH U LOOK SO GOOD (shout out to ur shirt again)

siobhan is also looking fantastic, i love her shirt

brennan is wearing THE shirt i love him

‘you’re doing a better job’ i go back to being invisible

milk and vodka

‘i feel like a bad baby’

i put his dice in the full moon; emily i love you

THE HELIO CLERIC

‘lord, helio?’ ‘yes it’s me’

the bad kids are so unhinged i’m sobbing

‘i know in his final moments he must have repented and,,’ ‘no.. no… he’s in hell now..’

‘our friend kristen was a big cornhead when we met’

riz not knowing half the clubs he’s side up for

‘adaine you can work the door at the next party’

‘damn hot dragonborn about to know your shit’

OISIN I LOVE YOU

FABIAN AND ADAINE BFF CRUMBS !!!

‘i’ll take a break when i break your fucking spine’

‘if your the crabking then i’m the fishermen’ ‘yeah these waters are restricted’ i live ragh and gorgug so much

ragh being so ready to talk about becoming a cleric of cassandra

why was figs first thought when entering fabian’s room to steal some of his clothes please

even just the mention of a para genasi has made me feral,, frost genasi is so fucking cool

OISIN AND IVY ARE IN THE RAT GRINDERS NO I LOVED THEM

kristen and fig are unhinged who lets them together

fetty wap at homecoming i’m crying

emily is so unhinged, what do you mean you’re disguise selfing as this random genasi to try and fuck with people

also other than the rat grinders playing the system; they aren’t even that bad a group. the members all seem okay (famous last words maybe)

the entire group immediately clocking Fig with ‘what if lucy is dead? why are you trying to impersonate their dead friend?’

the running bit about the steel factory is so funny

‘that’s the ice muffets’

i love mazey so so much

mr mulligan what do you have planned

drunk adaine is so so funny

GERTIE I LOVE U LITTLE BEEKEEPER FIRBOLG PLEASE IM SOBBING

the entire party helping Gertie against fabian

new nemesis alert

riz is absolutely spiralling with conspiracies i love him

you cannot go from all the chaos to a kristen/tracker moment please

‘tough but fair, have a great life’ kristen please god

LYDIA YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING GOOD IN LIFE !!!

[eggplant-crusader]

My three "Sol saves Kom but Anemone is badly hurt to the point that half of her body is covered in her scales" AUs I'll probaly never write because life is a cage:

Sol has to live with the burden of knowing they did that to Anemone, it's fucking awful, Anemone doesn't blame them but Sol can't come clean about how they knew what they were doing, so they drift apart. When the Helios arrive a less supremacist Anemone doesn't get dragged in, and is in fact treated like shit. Sol and her bond over their rebellion to the new government. Eventually Sol brings Anemone on expeditions, where they show her enough to convince her that they have memories of past timelines, and they come clean. It's a fucking blow, but Anemone comes to terms with it, and helps overthrow Lum and sign a peace with the gardeners. Anemone grows to be an explorer/diplomat, helping Dys and Sol, and keeping an eye on the more dangerous colonists.

Sol dies saving Kom. Tangent looks after the half-dead dead Anemone, because it's her job, and the two sort of get used to each other's presence during Anemone's long hospital stay and rehab. When Anemone is finally discharged, Tang starts seeking her put because she enjoys their conversations and she finds that she thinks more clearly after them. Anemone meanwhile feels lost, and starts going out on expeditions. She replaces Sol as the one to meet and bond with Sym, and she learns to love the planet. She eventually manages to convince Tangent to join her. Tangent is forever changed by the experience, she realizes she doesn't want to harm the ecosystem and also oh fuck, she's in love with Anemone. She completely panics about her project, and destroys it all, which forces her to go on the run, helped by Dys of all people (Dys is friends-ish with Nem), not before telling EVERYONE what they were planning. Cal and Anemone especially freak out (Cal is Nem's bff in all these AUs, at least eventually), and start planning a coup. Anemone is fucking spiraling though, because Tang is OUT THERE and she's IN HERE were she can't help and oh fuck, she's SO FUCKING IN LOVE WITH THE MOST WANTED CRIMINAL IN THE COLONY. The coup fails, because they can't get Marz to agree (Cal is sort of the Sol replacement as leader in the city, and they don't see eye to eye) and without her they can't get the votes. Cal and Nem are thrown in jail because without Sol they're a bit too loud for Lum. As the final Glow attack is imminent though, Dys and Tang arrive to break them out with his guile and her science. They also bring the overseer's final deal with them, and the four of them crash the council with it. Lum is about to go ballistic when Marz (who got a place in the council post failed coup for siding with him) knocks him out from behind. They vote to try to negotiate. They succeed. Marz becomes governor, but her transitional government is replaced by Cal's and/or Tammy's, who are a better fit for dealing with the gardeners. Meanwhile, Tang becomes a field scientist, trying to better understand the planet so that humans can better coexist with it. Anemone joins her as her guard/forager/assistant/pillow. They basically live in tents. Dys joins them sometimes when he's not too busy with his alien boyfriend.

Marz catches Sol preparing for the glow attack, and realizes Sol isn't planning to come back. Sol plays dumb, but their last words to her are to look after Nem. After the attack, Marz visits Nem while she's healing a few times, but they can't get along and eventually she gives up. Then again, the Helios show up, Nem doesn't fit in, and bonds with Marz over their mutual distaste of Lum and co. They're not friends, but Marz recruits Nem to be her muscle, and Nem is happy to. This includes trying to figure out wtf Dys is doing because he's sus af, among other things, but is mostly about making the Helios look bad and looking intimidating next to Marz. Nem finds out about Dys and Sym, brings it to Marz, convinces her that they can use this to improve life in the colony AND take down Lum. Marz begins a slow negotiation with Sym, basically playing a game of telephone where she tells Nem who tells Dys who tells Sym who tells the Gardeners. It takes YEARS, but during that time, Nem watches Marz grow more and more invested in the people and become more and more determined to make the peace work for the sake of the planet and everyone, and that makes Nem's devotion switch flips on. She becomes the ultimate badass hyperloyal bodyguard, and Marz sort of takes her for granted until the day Marz overthrows Lum and is attacked, Nem jumps in front of her and she think Nem just took a bullet (or sci fi bullet equivalent idk) for her and oh fuck, if Nem is dead she's going to literally murder everyone. But Nem is fine, except now Marz won't let her do her job and keeps fuzzing over her and what is WRONG WITH YOU you're the governor now, you need me more than ever, DAMN RIGHT I NEED YOU, furious making out ensues. They completely wreck the governor's desk (or sci fi desk equivalent idk). You know the rest. Peace signed. Gay Dys. Marz becomes first galactic empress, Nem is her loyal bodyguard and also wife.

In all of these, Nem lives a long, happy, and relatively peaceful life where she is not consumed by hatred for the Other and does not spiral into a cycle of violence that ends with her dying young because I couldn't sign a fucking peace deal for some fucking reason what the fuck am I doing wrong I can't take this anymore aaaaaaaa

[cuiizhu]

Helios Rising Heroes - Truthfully Similar Mentors

Mission: Don't Flatter! - Asch Albright Card Story

Asch: …….Tch…

Oscar: Oi, Asch. You need to warm up a little more. 

Asch: Shut up. I already did. 

Asch: I mean, what are you doing here anyways. I already said I’d run alone. 

Oscar: If we’re both running, there’s no harm in doing it together. And anyways, if we’re competing—

Asch: I never said I would–

Marion: Hey, you guys have been blabbing around since earlier. It’s fine to run together, but if you’re gonna raise a fuss, take it elsewhere. 

Asch: I already told you, I wouldn’t run like this…..!

Oscar: Calm down, Asch. Sorry for interrupting. Will you be running too, Marion? 

Marion: …..And what about it? 

Oscar: Do you want to join us?

Asch: Aaaaagh fuck! Whatever, I’m going but don’t follow me. 

[Asch runs off]

Marion: I’ll also head off on my own. It sucks having to pace myself to someone else. 

[Marion runs off]

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Asch: …..Oi, why are you following me? 

Marion: Hah? That’s my line. 

Marion: What are you trying to accomplish by running alongside me? Just keep that trap of yours shut and stay behind me. 

Asch: Who is staying behind who? You run along behind. 

Marion: ………

[Marion runs off ahead]

Asch: This fucker……

Marion: Looks like you’re the one getting left behind. 

Asch: BRING IT ON….!

[Asch runs]

Oscar: Seems like they both ended up running together after all. 

Asch&Marion: Haah?

Oscar: It’s good to compete and spur improvement in one another. I can’t lose, either. 

Asch & Marion: ……..

Asch: Have at it. 

Marion: Whoever joins along doesn’t concern me. 

Oscar: I see. 

Oscar: (Even so, it seems neither of them will give in, huh….) 

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Asch: (Man fuck, because these guys came along, I was thrown off my game all day……)

Asch: ……Hm? 

Ren: …………

Asch: (That guy…… Wandering around like that, is he lost again?) 

Asch: (Hmph, it has nothing to do with me—) 

Ren: ………..

Asch: Oi, where are you going? 

Ren: ……Asch? Where, to the gym—

Asch: Haah? The gym’s over here. You’ve been many times before, how are you still getting lost? 

Ren: I’m not lost. 

Asch: Quiet. Don’t waste my time. Just shut that trap and follow me. 

Ren: ………..(。•́︿•̀。)

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Marion: You’re late.

Asch: Aah? Then you should take initiative to put a collar on him and bring him over yourself, bastard.  

Marion: Why are you…. Ren, did you perhaps get lost again? 

Ren: ………

Marion: I told you to contact me right away in that scenario. 

Asch: Leave the sermon for later. Anyways, have you seen Billy? 

Marion: Huh? How should I know? No one was here since I arrived, and no one’s been here since. 

Asch: That bastard, he’s run away again. Shit, I’m not letting this slide! 

[Door slams open]

Billy: Let me go, Oscar-paisen! I can walk on my own~! 

Oscar: If I take my eyes off you, you’re just gonna run off again. 

Asch: ……Oscar?

Oscar: Asch, you had training scheduled with Billy, right?

Oscar: I invited him to join me for some waterfall training* because he said he was free, but he mumbled something incoherent and tried to run away, so I caught him and brought him here. 

Billy: Ohoho~? Has Renren perhaps also earned himself a little scolding? 

Ren: …..A little, I was late. 

Billy: Wow, me too☆

Asch: Bastard, you’ve got guts, running away from me. I’ll make up for the delay by giving you a good workout. 

Oscar: It’s a good idea to increase the intensity of your training. I’ll help out as well. 

Asch: Do as you’d like. Come on, get your ass in gear. If you’re late again, we’ll be extending the time. 

Billy: EEEH!?**

Asch: This is on you for running away. 

Marion: Of course, lateness deserves punishment. Should I be stricter with you on that? 

Ren: Well, it’s true I was late…

Marion: Hmph, that’s good resolve. 

Billy: Juust a moment! Why is everyone so eager to agree with this~!? 

Asch: Don’t yell. First off is 100 squats. Get to it!!! 

Billy: UEEE~~~

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Billy: I’m at my limit~...... Renren, you still alive~? 

Ren: Shut up…don’t talk to me……

Asch: Don’t even think about running away after this.

Billy: Ye~ah…..

Ren: ………….

Oscar: Maybe I was a little too hard on them… but, it’s also important to challenge your limits. 

Asch: Hah, aren’t you a sweet bastard. These guys just don’t have enough guts. 

Marion: Well, I’d like for them to be able to do this much. 

Asch: We have got to do something to prevent this guy from running away again….. 

Marion: (Huh. I thought he was just being stuck-up, but seems like he does put a lot of thought into his teaching methods.)

Marion: Wonder if I should also review the current training regimen…. 

Asch: (He’s a cocky bastard, but he doesn’t slack off in his guidance.) 

Marion: …..What. 

Asch: Haah? It’s nothing. 

Oscar: Somehow it seems like you two have become friends as well. 

Oscar: How about this. If we’re considering training content, why don’t we have Dino-san join us to exchange opinions? 

Asch: No fucking way. 

Marion: Why do I have to go through such trouble? 

Oscar: Since you’re pretty similar, I think you can take inspiration from others…

Asch&Marion: WHO ARE YOU CALLING SIMILAR!!

Marion Cardsto

TL Note:

1. * This is a reference to the Ninpocho Cardstory 2. **this is them to me

[hellofwinnie]

OKAY BUT IT'S LONG

(also spoiler-free for the Downhill fic)

Let's goooo

Childhood

- Jack carries a Siren "gene", so he's not a siren but Angel got it from to him (my older post about it).

- Tantalus was under oppressive rule so he grew up with questionable beliefs, explained below.

- moved to Pandora around 8y.o. with grandma (she worked in the Dahl mines).

- as a kid dreamed of working in the mining business, like his dad.

- has one (1) memory of dad holding him and rocking to sleep (unless it's a fabrication of his mind).

- has pictures and videos of the parents playing with toddler Jack, they look normal and happy. Jack keeps them in a secret place and *very* rarely replays them because VHS/photos tend to wear out.

- Vaughn is his only trusted therapist so they figured he has exactly 9 good childhood memories. He is scared to replay them in his head too and "wear them out" by forgetting.

- he was 6 y.o. when grandma demanded to have shared house responsibilities and the punishments started to get harsher.

- dropped out after middle school bc fuck this boring shit (and bullying).

- started to run away regularly from grandma's house bc of abuse at the age of 10.

- lived with a street gang with other Pandora kids like him.

- was the youngest in the gang so they protected baby-John so it was safer then at home.

- he made toys and other stuff from scraps. He discovered programming.

- by the time he turned 17, the times on Pandora changed and their gang didn't have many new young incomers, so he didn't get a chance to be a big brother.

- there he also met his first love (gay) they didn't kiss or anything so he didn't realize what it was until he was like 35 💀 talk about denial.

- their con/stealing gang shifted to serious shit with a real interplanetary mafia and a drug lord rivelry.

- he had to get out of the gang because he was one of the oldest and his life was in danger as he would be held responsible.

- He comes up with a new plan and starts to con solo. He targets the recent rich families immigrating to expand/develop stuff on Pandora.

- He pretends to be one of them rich kids and then steals something small but it's enough to survive.

- Here he gets the Handsome Jack nickname and gets famous in those circles (for stuff he lied about ofc but everyone was impressed).

- that how she met his future wife, he was stealing from Jacobs' mansion and some gal of his age found it hilarious (it was her house btw).

- she seemed different from all those delusional idiots, so she helped Jack to steal bigger and with less consequences for the sake of drama.

- Jack went through hell to gain a right to marry a Jacobs bc she had an arranged marriage waiting for her.

- married her around 20 y.o. and got rid of his gang problems.

- Angel was born a year later. Among other reasons it was a way to gain independence from his wife's family bc they treated her like shit personally and financially (mostly for sexist reasons).

- went to a culinary school for "prestige" and "education" but dropped out a year later.

- he made his buddy-chef with QuiRKy culinary interests to take his private restaurant on Helios later. He doesn't like his food personally but it's prestigious and educational for the Hyperion management.

- his wife was an influential businesswoman and a big figure in Pandora's development under the second Atlas rule (not affiliated with Atlas).

- for the next 8 years he managed to get into Hyperion and after a big return he got a solid career to build.

- Mortimer punched Jack at the wife's funeral, it was the most brave thing Jack ever seen him to do.

- lived with Angel on Pandora, had to sell their house.

- got a permanent intrusion/kidnapping paranoia.

- married his next girlfriend so the teen daughter has a mother figure among other love reasons.

- Angel did a nasty thing where she framed both of them (hated that dad remarried so soon?).

- they divorced about a year later.

- after dating and breaking up with Moxxi had a massive sexuality crisis (at the age 35, as promised).

- figured he's queer, and went to conversion therapy, because he grew up in antiqueer times on Tantalus and it felt reasonable to him.

- the CT base was mostly filled with teens and young adults who was forced to be there and the "doctors" there couldn't explain him their sconific or even spiritual methods.

- he left a week later and A: rolled out an official ban for CT on Hyperion lands on Pandora.

- B: called his trusty escort company and booked ALL men for months ahead. That's how he figured out he's a switch (*bi anthem starts playing*).

- was on coke most of his life but it didn't cause any problems or so he beliefs.

- after suddenly getting rich (now dating Nisha) spiraled down in codependency with her on opioids. He almost died.

- Angel lived on Helios all this time and knew she was growing up to be the next Hyperion president.

- she met Gaige online™

- at 21 y.o. moved to Bunker and started to work with Jack on the Vaults Key plan.

- At the same time Jack gifted her Buttstalion so she's not so lonely in the chambers.

- Nisha is an abuser in all senses in my books, but no hate to the canon Nisha.

- this relationship made him hesitant to go with BDSM dynamics (he belived it was a dynamic alright 💀).

- the addiction and Nisha destroyed his already strained connection with Angel -- she could spy using Siren powers and know exactly what's happening. Which was: neglecting her and destroying himself (he has issues okay).

- Angel tried to reason and gain independence, refusing to work on the Vault Key research anymore.

- Jack didn't listen bc all he cared about was heroin atm.

- sent Nisha away to rule Lynchwood and got into rehab to stay alive.

- he was too slow to repair relationships with Angel and she already got Crimson Raiders for friends planning to only hurt (for now) Jack.

- when B2 shit rolled down she was already too deep in misery + Eridium altered her physically and mentally in a way she didn't like.

- Nisha dies in Lynchwwod so it's also not good even though it's a relief.

- after Angel's passing, Jack went hard on old addictions.

- in his 48282th rehub he managed went sober for a record amount of time (14 months?), restated smoking tho.

- A couple of years passed and he decided to "OBJECTIVELY" off himself.

- Vaughn managed to help him with making a list of a desired partner's traits (not the best strategy but it helped to postpone the decision).

- massive trust issues and the list left only one option for Jack -- Timothy.

Tim and Jackothy AU.

- in 20 years they build some trust, professional and even platonic.

- Jack was too deep in his own head about the problems that prevent him to be normal but unconsciously gave signs of unusual attention to Tim.

- Tim straight up asked him out and everyone (Jack) panicked.

- eventually, he agreed tho haha

- they didn't date-date at first but for sure became buddies and it was enough to get Jack's mind off grim stuff in his life.

- Tim had an education in business from Hyperion uni and then got his acting MA in a small school.

- He couldn't find a job for either until he mass-applied to Hyperion and got into the double program.

- back then Jack wasn't very nice to anyone, but he had some weird obsession to subtly degrade Tim in particular.

- twenty years later he already was his only body double who not only stayed loyal but did a great job in security.

- they def had a history of hooking up but it was all played down as a mistake/situationship... Not like Tim had a choice to just stop seeing his boss every day.

- over the years of service, Tim got promoted and started working with Jack closely.

- he's from a privileged middle-class family that fell apart when he was 14 (divorce and alcoholism).

- got his red hair from the mom.

- Mother also was a retro pop star with 1-2 popular hits that are still known.

- after Tim "died" she was left alone, so she remarried and now Tim has a half-sister who is also into acting.

- Tim tends to cure stress by drinking but nothing too bad (yet).

- he had a little sister who passed away early, and this triggered a chain of events where his grandma (dad's mom) died, and then his mom cheated on dad, hence the divorce. Tim used to see his father until he moved away to another planet (and then Tim got into Hyperion at the age of 25).

- mother coped with alcohol so Tim was left to himself and tried to study well and get a good education to help his family.

- EXCEPT capitalism lied and he got stuck with a loan of $150 000 yipieee!

Misc.

- had an inside joke calling Angel an angle (sharp or dull)

- has a chronic skin condition where his scars are not healing fully so he can't have most surgeries, including the cosmetic ones.

- hates taking off his shirt. The forearms and neck are pretty much the only places where he doesn't have visible scars.

- has 13 big scars in total + one from that bullet he got shot in TPS.

- all scars tend to inflame and bring pain (medical reasons undefined, I say it's somatic).

- has a scar on the inner thigh, looks like smb wanted to decock him. Hint: she had a buzzaxe.

Irl misc for my writing

- Jack was born in 1966 which makes him an early Gen X, I'm sorry for my boomer jokes.

- Tim is 9 years younger, same gen, different flavor.

- Moxxi is a boomer I'm telling ya. She's slightly older then Jack.

There's probably more but that's all I could remeber for now 👀

[genericpuff]

What’s your opinion on the titans designs in lo

i swear to christ i was watching attack on titan when i read this question and did a double take like holy shit am i gonna get to gush about AOT????

okay but to answer the ACTUAL question, I actually have um... some interesting takes on them.

First off, for starters. Helios. Pretty neat. I know he's just yellow Zeus but he's big and he's sassy and I wish we could see more of him.

Kronos was cool until RS turned him into an MCU villain.

Gaia I'm sort of indifferent on... she really doesn't have any sort of real role in the story beyond being some Avatar McGuffin. Her original design was badass but then ofc, as all things go in LO, RS dumbed her design down and now she looks just like another Persephone clone.

Rhea was great when she first appeared but, again, Persephone clone. I don't like the recent retcon/establishment that the fertility goddesses need to experience love to have their powers used because it casts some fucked up implications (beyond the obvious) when she begged Zeus to find Metis and "use her powers no matter the cost". If I had known at the time that was gonna turn into "Zeus had a relationship with Metis" I would have been a bit more like... yikes, Rhea.

And then there's Metis... oh boy, do I have some takes about Metis. Very personal ones.

So here's the thing. Metis is the name of the Greek god, yes. But it's... it's not what comes up when you search "Metis" on its own. Because there ALSO exists an Indigenous group of people in Canada called 'Métis'. And LO Metis' design is-

sigh yeah.

Now I know I'm gonna get people who are saying I'm "reading too much into it" but y'all. I'm Mi'kmaq. The Métis people come from the same regions my own ancestors do, my own family pretty much shares blood and land with them. I promise you, I'm not pulling any of this out of my ass, Metis' design stood out to me as soon as I saw it because her outfit really resembles the fringe that you find EVERYWHERE in Indigenous clothing, like we fucking LOVE FRINGE LOL (I've got a cape/poncho thing with loads of fringe that I whip out for special occasions) And the wings resemble a lot of the 'finger feathers' you see in Mi'kmaq, Maliseet, Cree, and yes, Métis art.

phew sorry I know Hephaestus is also drawn with a similar skin tone and Metis starts to veer off into flanderized colors with the bright orange like every other character in this comic, but it's just like... not a great combination.)

(*edit because I forgot to add: it also REALLY REALLY REALLY DOESN'T HELP that Metis is the ONLY TITAN designed with non-neon colors. Like, she's been explicitly drawn with darker orange/reddish tones that are OFTEN AFFILIATED WITH INDIGENOUS PEOPLE. THE SLUR 'REDSKIN' EXISTS FOR A REASON-

phew sorry I know Hephaestus is also drawn with a similar skin tone and Metis starts to veer off into flanderized colors with the bright orange like every other character in this comic, but it's just like... not a great combination. The more human-like skin tone is sorta just the cherry on top.)

So... yeah. Take that with what you will. I'm not necessarily accusing RS of anything (because Metis being drawn like a Métis woman is like, the least of LO's problems) but at BEST she's just got some REAL shit Googling skills or like... didn't think anyone would notice? 😂

Either way that's... that's my (*probably biased) take on Metis. At the very least it does result in her having a way more interesting design than the others (who are basically just big color-swapped versions of Hades and Persephone) but IDK if that's a good thing when that design is in the hands of RS. She ruined Metis in the most recent episodes which is kinda lowkey even more insulting LMAO

[mothboiwrites]

i want qpr hades and persephone. i believe it’ll make everyone happy and i’m so incredibly smart which makes me right.

just imagine, bored persephone, knowing she isn’t meant to be a fertility goddess but not wanting to leave her mother behind because she loves her. meanwhile hades feels a connection towards her because she has death queen vibes and also seems super cool. this feeling is intensified by eros however, acting on his mother’s behalf since hades’s is out of her reach. he doesn’t think too much about it and is like “ah yes, these feelings are love. after all my brothers said it was bound to happen eventually.” then he goes and asks zeus’s permission to marry her, takes his advice to just yoink her, and is now left with an angry, sad goddess and no concrete plan on what to do from there.

meanwhile demeter is hella pissed and wants to know where her daughter is. apollo is like “oh her, yea she got Got.” demeter immediately takes it up with zeus. he shrugs her off. she falls further in to grief even as helios and hectate try to comfort her. finally she decides to go to hang with the people where she pretends to be an old woman and gets a job as a nanny/nurse made to help with empty-nesting pains. she tries making the baby immortal to spare him and his parents her grief but they panic since she’s literally tossing the baby in a fire. that was the last straw needed for her to just go on strike and start killing people.

back to the duo, hades has managed to explained that they are now married and she is now queen of the underworld along side him and has the same authority as him. this was mildly challenging since persephone is fucking feral and immediately tries mauling him. she does pause at the mention of being queen of the underworld. its a chance she’ll never get again and she isn’t going to let it slide just because the circumstances are… complicated. after threatening him a bit to make sure he’s being honest, she stops trying to rip his face off and agrees as long as he doesn’t push his boundaries. hades, uncomfortable with the idea of forcing her and wanting to be patient, agrees to her terms and they awkwardly navigate marriage. slowly they find out hades doesn’t particularly feel romantic love towards her and is just appreciative of her companionship and feels a connection with her due to her death queen vibes. persephone decides she like hades for his fair, respectful, and mildly awkward personality and not just for the status he has brought her. they do bonding shit idk. she grows to appreciate her title as hades’s wife just as much as her title as queen of the underworld. still, her new found power does little to heal the longing for her mother in her heart.

finally after months, demeter’s plan has come to fruition. little by little the growth has dying and humans have being stuck in an never ending famine that only gets worse as the world grows colder and colder. zeus finally cracks and sends hermes to bring persephone back home. demeter smiles to herself and prepares for her daughter’s return.

hermes tells the two the news and persephone is overjoyed to see her mother again, laughing at the news of her mother forcing zeus to listen. hades fondly watches but can’t get rid of the lingering feelings of insecurity that persephone won’t return ever since he and the underworld mean little to her when compared with her mother. the bight before she is meant to leave he brings a pomegranate, a wedding tradition. she looks at him knowingly as he rambles about it until he breaks down and tries to explain his insecurities without having to explain them. she pieces together what he’s saying, hugs him, and eats some of the seeds, promising to come back. he promises that he’ll the best husband he can and that she’ll have all the respect she deserves as queen from but mortal and god.

finally demeter and persephone are reunited. their reunion is joyful and lively. persephone excitedly tells her mother everything that happened, assuring her she is just as much as kore, her daughter as she is persephone, bringer of death and queen of the underworld. demeter grimaces but accepts her daughter’s marriages and freedom. still, she can help but to fall back into her depression as the days pass without persephone by her side, cause fall and eventually winter.

and boom main plot.

side plots include:

• persephone making good on hades promises to make sure she’s properly respected by crushing plant minthe under her heel

• persephone helping hades calm cerberus down after heracles beats him

• hades and persephone fucking with theseus and pirithous

• persephone and hades just generally messing around as platonic spouse rulers of a land of the dead

[mjjune]

Character Development Questions 5,10,24

- @writeintrees

I'll be answering these for my avof vampire protagonist, Danny! Thanks @writeintrees :D

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

Money, sunglasses (for going out during the day if needed). Knives, probably. Perhaps backup eyeliner if it gets messed up

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

Danny is pretty comfortable in any clothing tbh? Like, sometimes he wears conservative full suits and sometimes he wears deep v-necks showing like his whole chest and short shorts lol I would say in general what is more comfortable is more based on fabric, colors and flowy-ness, rather than showing skin or not. He's big on silk, soft fabrics, fabrics that flow when he moves/dances, and he looks rich, darker blues, reds, greens and black. I also feel like this would depend on where he is and who he's with. With people who love him, he could be bare naked and not give a shit lmao

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?

LOL This will be different depending on the person. He's really good at reading people, and is more likely to trust you quicker if your heart rate (and other bodily functions that he can sense) shows that you're authentic. He is also not a Super private person in general, and is willing to give up info if it's necessary for safety reasons. I'll give you some examples. Like when he meets Lara & Jackie, he immediately trusts them because 1) they are genuinely nice people who strive for the same goal and 2) the vampire prophet foretold them working together, so he knew it was necessary. Whereas for Helio, Danny does not open up to him until after they've ~done the do~ despite making out and a blow job prior to that. Before their hate-fuck-one-night-stand, they were a bit... aggressive lol But during their actual night together, Helio shows a more authentic side (e.g. Danny gave Helio an opening to get up and leave before Danny "woke up" the next morning but Helio decided to stay), and Danny takes that first step in opening up about something personal so their relationship starts to shift from heated secret fling to something more.

ASK ME A QUESTION ABOUT MY OCS! (You can specify which OC you want or I'll pick one)

Since I actually went kind in-depth here, here's the taglist for avof:

@aritany @bebewrites @ceph-the-writing-spook @diemohnblume @eventideintrigue @knosium @isabellebissonrouthier @lexiklecksi @little-mouse-gardens @mr-writes @wildswrites

[roguelunatiic]

prayer 003 :: say uncle

so he had the actually really nice slavic guy (ernest, his name is ernest) work on the moon-blessed silver.

then, he ended up with a sun-blessed sword, or so it seemed. the mark of helios. the titan of the sun.

there was a helios guy around for about...two seconds. which was long enough to fuck axel up all over again, which was also enough to wanna put a bolt or two somewhere non-fatal. just sharing the pain, a little. and sure, they met, they talked, but there was never any...

relation.

ever since his ride with moonfyre, who apparently had given rides to his mom too, simon had kept that little shard on hand. somewhere he could rub his thumb over it, hold it in his fingers, like some kind of worry stone. remembering that it's there, that it's real, that he'll know when it's time to do something with it but until then, he's just...holding onto it.

simon had the shard in his lap, since if he had it in his hand, he'd probably squeeze the thing too hard and turn it on, somehow.

simon had the solar sword facing up, across his knees, under the direct light of the moon. it's almost midnight, or near enough to it to count. whatever extra moonlight he pulled down, was just to set the area aglow. really set the mood. since these things didn't tend to go anywhere.

"so, selene."

not mom. since, he didn't really know how to feel about calling someone that, never having had the practice. that, and... well. getting himself worked up was counter to the point.

"what I got here, is a weapon that seems to be blessed by your brother."

as if to show it off to her, he waved moonlight across it. bathing its blade, its hilt, tracing around the engraving of the symbol.

"some...guy," as he tried not to say dickwagon, "was able to make this. infuse it with helios' symbol, and power."

at this point, he looked upwards.

"I wanna know your symbol." he gave it a second. "our symbol. and I wanna ask you to show it to me." first, she listened. then, she talked. since then, she's been watching. but as he'd been figuring out, you never got shit you didn't ask for. unless it's bad. "I learned tattoos. I learned jewelry. I learned all sorts of shit, and if symbols got power, and I got power, then maybe... you and me, we could make some stuff." brows going up. "and if I'm just, talkin to thin air, or whatever, then. I know I got shit goin on. I know I'm gonna get shit done. I'm gonna keep goin on all this, gonna stick with lars, gonna keep around axel, gonna do what I can with everyone, but. I can do this, or we can do this. you could do this with me."

he made the conscious effort to drop his shoulders.

"whether you answer me or not, I'm gonna keep moving. I just wanted to offer the chance to move together, for a little while."

staring up at that pale face, "and I know you're there. every night. since I can see you."

[ using the solar sword as an example, simon prayed to selene to learn her symbol -- and, if possible, how to use it. simon is not using or activating the moonlit shard, unless something happens with it. ]

[zukkacore]

god I didn’t even think of that but YEAH riz finds Jace to be so obnoxious esp bc he spent so much of sophomore year making weird conspiracy boards and Jace’s gut reaction to seeing that for the first time was like. That’s a bit much kid. Maybe you should take it easy :). & what he’s trying to say is that riz needs to take care of himself bc a sorcerer in bad mental shape is fucked so like you gotta prioritize that shit. But riz is like wow fuck this guy forever actually & writes him down on a suspect list.

He’s so taken aback by clone spell that his reaction is kinda like his Mary Ann reaction in JY just like. We thought he didn’t care but. He’s got that dog in him!

Adaine spends a lot of time ruthlessly ribbing Jace which he honestly kinda just takes but not without being able to exchange at least a few snarky barbs. She’s kinda just frustrated bc she doesn’t get the sorcery thing but she also doesn’t understand how he can take everything thrown his way so passively. Aren’t you angry? Don’t you just wanna go apeshit? (Little does she know…) She doesn’t want to introspect bc she already spends a lot of time in her own head bc of her anxiety. He’s like. Ok sure you can crack open as many books as you want but I feel like if you looked inside yourself you’d find sometimes the solution you’re looking for is already there. It’s not abt knowing everything, it’s abt taking what you do know and making it work for you. And adaine is like. What are you talking abt, the solutions are NOT in there thats why my brain is screaming abt me at all times abt everything that could go wrong and all the ways i personally could fuck it up. I hate your ass. Tasha’s hideous laughter.

At compass points she does suggest he open a book or two bc it could do him some good. She was just starting to warm up to him but there’s a stumble when they meet Ayda for the first time and Ayda does NOT like Jace. She finds interacting with him stressful bc she has a hard time parsing his sincerity. & Adaine is like. Maybe Ayda is onto something.

Obviously Jace is learning abt Yes! bc of The Plan, but he does say something offhand to Kristen abt her carving her own path that he really admires her for doing that. (I have so many thoughts abt the sorcerer’s Will as self-determination thing along with cringefail headcanons abt galicaean n sol worshipping family so when she was like Helio was NOT for me he’s like. Felt. But I won’t go into it)

Jace actually tells Porter and the satellite thing Gorgug built for Zelda & Porter literally doesn’t believe it at first. And he’s like. Why would I joke abt this. Jace is not surprised when Fabian becomes a bard. He’s the one who said Fabian had spellcaster potential so. Fabian is honestly like this guy is such a gilear 2.0. Dead weight. Yawn. Fig mainly spends a lot of the trip grilling him about Porter. I’m sure I could come up with sincere things to say abt all three of them but my brain is fried.

Anyway. Jace actually winning over the bad kids is something that can be so personal (and so fucked when the junior year twist comes along)

Like. I’m living in this au now where the bad kids really did bring Jace in as a hireling for sophomore year. Guilt complex bc of Porter’s Plan is always in the back of his mind, meanwhile guy who has never had responsibilities in his life has to herd the bad kids like cats. He feels terrible the whole time bc adaine actually does kinda connect w him abt their parents being elven assholes who had incredibly high expectations. She somehow finds out abt him failing to wizard multiclass and bc she is adaine she is very ruthless abt giving him a hard time abt it, but in a way that’s actually… kinda affectionate. But she also kinda gets it bc Fig has always been naturally good at everything she tries but she’s not the most studious. And hey, fig is great. Fabian experiences a real genuine failure for like the first time after years of being told he was destined for greatness and Jace is like. I’m in this fucking picture. I don’t like it.