#Hawaii is on fire yall

[morbid-turnip]

Search 👏 The 👏 Landfill👏 Manitoba. 👏 Do fucking better.

And while we're at it...Hawaii, stop fucking evicting the few people who haven't lost their damn homes to the fire. Holy shit.

Why are we still having to say this shit?

[toysoldiers-rwby]

im eyeing all the “but what about all the employees who lost their job” people

ya what are YOU doing about it?

how about you STOP BEING PERFORMATIVE and go support them on their personal stuff.

And I’m speaking from someone from Hawaii. A minority from a place illegally occupied. A place where we have to slut out our culture to appease and appeal to the majority (yay Tourism). If Hawaii were to get real and actually show how TIRED we’re all of you haoles taking advantage of us we’d rot. What do yall think is happening with the survivors oh Lahania’s Wild Fire. Yall performative asses ditched them immediately.

But back to “sad that the abused workers at Roosterteeth are unemployed and free from abuse”

Seriously DO SOMETHING to help them if your so sad. it cost $0 to watch them on twitch. or comment on their post saying “I like [RVB, Deathbattle. etc] I’d watch more if you and a few others made it again” AND ACTUALLY DO IT. because empty promises is part of yknow being preformative

and part of not being performative is doing your own homework

But i doubt yall will because RT was the company that built itself on being performative. And yall are fans of that.

FNDM wants more RWBY from the people who tries to work their animators through the Texas freeze. 🥶 🥶

[pugzman3]

Yall know the one eye. But apparently there is something with the black gloves as well. Not something I have looked into but they are used very often with these same people. BUT...the best part of this IG post was the comments. People are waking up to this stuff. Many of her fans were very disheartened with it and you could tell by their comments they were knew to the idea of the illuminati. I posted that video of Oprah and the Dwayne Johnson for the Hawaii fire fund and a lot of comments there the same about Johnson. I love it. Stop falling for these people. If they are a major influencer, they have sold out. It doesn't matter if it is Miley Cyrus or Tim Ballard. They have sold out to help manipulate you regardless of being a liberal or conservative. They keep the hero worship going while distracting you from what's coming. Because the "hero" that is coming is gonna be your demise.

[dianaladrislovebot]

my book annotations : book 1 edition - gone

hi there ! so today is my birthday, yippee ! but to celebrate i thought id post that list of my book annotations (aka me making jokes at things i find funny) that i promised yall, so without further ado enjoy laughing at the thoughts i had while reading :D

“if there’s a guard there, i’ll kiss him,” quinn said : quinn being gay part 1 (gone, page 106)

“man, you really need to step off,” quinn said. “i don’t take orders from you.” “no, you take them from caine,” sam said. - quinn being gay part 2 (gone, page 214)

“you’re not supposed to wear street shoes on the gym floor,” sam said. - sam quips part 1 (gone, page 246)

“let me guess, you’re secretly a wizard who was raised by muggles.” - sam quips 2 (gone, page 246)

“one bar, two bars, three bars. you know what i am?” “crazy?” - sam quips part 3 (gone, page 247)

“you could get work with the circus,” sam said brightly. - sam quips part 4 (gone, page 247)

“look, caine, my hands are tied, you’ve got five of your thugs standing around me with baseball bats, and i’m supposed to be terrified because you can do magic tricks?” - sassy man apocalypse (gone, page 247)

drake looked like he’d rather take a shot at diana. his narrow lizard eyes narrowed further. - his narrow lizard eyes ??? (gone, page 256)

sam released the wheel, spun and landed a hard left hook into quinn’s face. quinn sat down hard again. - HAHAHAHA (gone, page 271)

quinn said, “it’s weezer. me and sam saw them down in santa barbara.” - NOT WEEZER LMAO (gone, page 339)

drake could not leave the gun alone. he kept thumbing the safety on and off. he rolled down the window, and aimed it stop signs as they passed, but did not fire it. - what is wrong with him part 1 (gone, page 354)

“why do you keep saying hawaii, man?” edilio had asked him. “if he freaks and decides to take us on a little pete magical mystery tour, i want it to be hawaii, not back at astrid’s house.” edilio thought that over for awhile. “i’m down with that. hawaii, l.p., hawaii.” - solid vacation spot quinn (gone, page 362)

“why don’t you give drake a little scratch behind the ears, caine. he’s been such a good dog,” diana said. - i knew this was canon (gone, page 406)

caine was quick. he backed away, turned and ran for the building. diana seemed torn, uncertain; then she bolted after caine. - run forrest, run! (gone, page 407)

if caine had been a normal, well-adjusted person, he might spend his last days preparing for what the poof meant. - gag him again for me sam (gone, page 426)

i’ll be sure to post the other parts fairly soon, i promise they’re much funnier 🫡 most of the bookmarks for this book were important events and general characterisation as it’s the introduction to everything but after that’s out of the way shit gets way funnier

[teresiel]

Never said I didn't donate. I currently have less than $50 to my name and can't do much currently besides share links on other social media. I have already donated to the Hawaii Red Cross, the Kakoo Maui fund, and a few mutual aid posts. I've been polite in my language but will suggest you unkindly shut the fuck up with suggestions I'm some stingy villain.

Still frustrated that the claims to people making goodbye calls while burning in a nursing centre is still there and unsourced. Since it's unsourced, that may as well be manipulative misuse of events that occurred. No one else mentioning that fire has mentioned calls. There's plenty of local mention of that particular building (the most recent is on a Reddit thread discussing the prospect of over 1000 deaths, which has been linked on R/news and R/maui). That was the point that particularly worried me and that is the point that I'll continue to point to before I even consider eating all my words. Why mention such a scene if it didn't occur? Why use the deaths of the elderly as an example if you're going to throw in unverified and unverifiable claims that they clutched their cell phones and spoke with family while burning? How can yall not see how that's a potential overdramatization and could be questioable if it is?

It's not discrediting to ask for sources. I can hardly discredit something that lacks credit by default. I appreciate that you've provided links and mentions of the specific hotels. I've BEEN SAYING that I appreciate the further information about the numbers of the death toll. I think the post used tones that suggested a certainty in the death toll that couldn't be backed up and was concerning to see in a post claiming to inform and push for donations. That doesn't mean they were ever lying about the larger scale of the toll. Those are points that I'll admit I was wrong about in my implications and I apologize.

I'm continuing to respond because I do think my own intentions have been misinterpreted here and people are approaching this with a readiness to condemn without actual critical appraisal of where I'm coming from AND because people keep @ ing me about this while also asking I stop talking. Stop @ ing me if you don't want me to engage, wtaf??? Don't block me after demanding answers?? What do any of you respondingn to me expect?! If you don't want my "essays" don't respond to everything with multiple questions of your own with listed rebuttals seeking responses or action from me!

And here's a nice example of where I'm coming from; some are shaming skepticism and then in the same breath they explain why it's important to remain skeptical and untrusting because of skeptical and untrusting people like me, and because of outsiders not being helpful. Like yes! Misinformation abounds! People treat Hawaii like shit and people are abusing this situation! Maybe that's why I was out there seeking sources for any of the information out there! And why you should too!

a little more information regarding the maui wildfires:

medical workers on the ground are describing finding hundreds of bodies. the current death toll in the media is, unfortunately, only a fraction of the reality

hospital workers are describing injuries and trauma as if survivors had come out of a warzone

thousands are still missing

an apartment complex for the elderly was lost. not everyone could get out. people were saying goodbye to loved ones over the phone

people who did get out of lahaina were leaving with ashes covering their faces and nothing but the clothes on their backs. people are losing everything.

hotels are still operating. hotels are still operating. they are not the ones offering shelters or housing or food. even bowling alleys are offering shelter, but hotels have the audacity to build on burial sites but not open their doors to local families who have lost everything.

donate to maui united way, the maui food bank, mutual aid, and maui humane society

[toxicshipsincorporated]

actually, it really does grate the way that ive seen a few asian influencers on youtube and instagram try to be the face of like....Hawaii/Hawaiian info (all while kanaka maoli/Hawaiian ppl on the same plaforms get NO attention). calling fucking Foodland (a common grocery store in Hawaii) a "Hawaiian" grocery store and misusing the word poke.

and there is a loooong history of this. one of the most agregious for me is the word "hapa".

a lot of people think and say that the word "hapa" means part asian. hell, I've even seen a fucking photobook titles "hapa" and its JUST asian ppl (a black coworker of mine once called me a racist and tried to get me fired because I challenged him on the definition of the word, a person who, surprise surprise only took his "facts" about hawaii from asian ppl, one if which wasnt even from hawaii).

the word "hapa" is the kanaka maoli word for "half" but can also just mean "part". its original use was to describe people who were part-hawaiian during the kingdom era. and this term was used to determine whether people could get married or not because kanaka maoli had been absolutely ravaged by outside contact. the number of kanaka maoli that existed in the islands before the influx outsiders has been estimated in the millions. by the 1700s we were in the thousands. so the word hapa labeled hawaiian nobility who needed special permission to marry non-kanaka maoli because there was great concern that our people would not survive into the next century.

after the illegal overthrow of the monarchy, the identity of "hapa hawaiian" refered to a specific class of native people in Hawaii, ones who has the pedigree, money, and education that separated them from other kanaka who were treated as barely better than animals by Westerners.

there is so much more to hawaii and hawaiians than our beautiful landscapes and food (tho I know how yall love to just...consume hawaii and content about it). and would really love to see asian ppl specifically face their settler colonialism and do a lil better.

[verseziam]

THIRTY QUESTIONS

i was tagged by the beautiful @common-mp3 sorry it took me so long

1. Name: lena (which yall would be surprised to know its not my real name lol)

2. Gender: she/her 

3. Star sign: cancer 

4. Height: 5′7

5. Time right now: 6:23 pm

6. Birthday: june 26

7. Favorite band: nirvana 

8. Favorite solo artist: zayn, liam, rihanna, beyonce, amy winehouse, j cole, jhene aiko, kehlani, the weeknd, jorja smith, sam smith, NF

9. Song stuck in your head: sam smith - fire on fire

10. Last movie: ava (on netflix highly recommend) 

11. Last show: absentia (highly recommend) 

12. When did I create this blog: 2014

13. What do I post: ziam and other random stuff lol 

14. Last thing I googled: sims 4 lol

15. Other blogs: don’t have one 

16. Do I get asks: yeah i would say i get a couple of asks a week unless something happens in the ziam fandom then i get more lol 

17. Why I chose my URL: because ziam switch in the bedroom lol (versatile) 

18. Following: blogs that believe in ziam and other random blogs that post things that i like 

19. Followers: i guess this is how many followers i have? lol i have 3,995

20. Average hours of sleep: depends i would said 6 sometimes it’s more or less when i work early in the morning 

21. Lucky number: 6

22. Instruments: i played the violin in junior high but then i got bored and didn’t want to play anymore lol 

23. What I’m wearing: a black tshirt with 2pac on the front of it and blue sweatpants 

24. Dream job: computer forensics/finding missing people/cold cases/sex trafficking 

25. Dream trip: hawaii, iceland (to see the northern lights), africa, and vermont 

26. Favorite food: indian food

27. Nationality: black/german/native indian 

28. Favorite songs: alicia keys - tell you something (nana’s reprise), sam smith - fire on fire, amy winehouse - back to black, jorja smith - by any means 

29. Last book: in the middle of somewhere - roan parrish (highly recommend its a mm romance and it’s written so well) 

30. Top 3 fictional universes I’d want to live in: the chronicles of narnia, underworld, the golden compass

i have no idea who to tag but i’ll tag @quietzap @oh-no-its-elle @winningziam @yaz-the-spaz @paradisewithziam @jaegyoo @miniangel

[psychesetra]

I LOVE YOU FOR TAGGING ME

sorry will but i choose hawaii: part ii guys it's fire trust (i have been listening to tME sincs 7 am im going crazy)

@acsy @heart-of-the-morningstar @6esiree (i wanna figure out yalls music taste / favorites to be nice hehe)

EVERYONE GIMME AN ALBUM U REALLY LIKE AND PASS IT ON PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

I'll go first, 666 by Aphrodite's Child :)

@leahandherstuff @lichenstone @sotalia-fluviatilis @field-cryptobotanist @forflightlessbirds @bat-luun @theoneandonlywinnie

[deathrequest]

OH FUCK YALL I NEVER SENT THE AUTOMATED PLAYERS AU WHOOPS 

ok so like this entire thing is based on the fact that welcome to tally hall heavily implies the band is just singing automatons. so yeah.  inventor bora and his friend casey shea decided to build a robot band who accidentally became sentient and just kinda dick around doing what only tally hall can do (sharing a single braincell) 

for each of the bot’s specific design things:  rob is golden! where bora got that gold is a mystery never to be solved. he’s made of clockwork (bc of cuckoo) and has a giant wind-up key sticking out of his back that you cant see in that pic bc perspective. sometimes he randomly winds down during performances and zubin or casey or whoever has to wind him back up again 

andy is silver, and is steam powered! he was the first bot to begin writing his own songs when he first started humming the whole world and you! this is an old pic so the grate in his chest has been abandoned solely in favor of the chimney exhaust pipe thing sticking out of the left side of his head (“yknow for the steam” -bora)

joe, copper, is the oldest bot! as a result he’s pretty oxidized. he’s made of clockwork, and he sometimes s-s-stutters a la rabbit from spg, as well as being able to speak in reverse. his one goal before powering down for the last time is getting to visit hawaii 

ross! ross is half silver half brass and was the last bot made! he was built as a replacement drummer for steve (but not to replace steve himself) and as a result is made up of mostly spare parts. he’s gas powered, and the goggles on his head were actually casey’s originally

zubin is copper just like joe, and is a special dieselpunk bot. he wears his hair in a ponytail bc “sometimes he can get overheated and catch fire, but it’s fine it’s only happened once” -bora. he also tends to malfunction the least  steve (not pictured) was a brass drummer-bot who ended up running away to become a traveling salesman. it’s okay tho, the band sometimes gets letters sent from him 

[soofection]

hi. how u explain kstal n their escape room moment. jnkai and their secret meeting. didnt it make u think kai likes girls? and what if kysoo the one who involve in scandal with a girl, will kaisooist think its mediaplay too?

hi

escape room is from cctv pics = no one dares leak out cctv pictures bc thats illegal / sensitive. (workers will get fired and people can sue) if its leaked, it is permitted (by the cafe and sm)

its not THAT HARD to stage

and that cctv was leaked exactly when ks refused to go to hawaii with the rest of sm and stayed behind at sk to take care of injured ji. ks also had a whole report of 'ks went to watch musical with friends!' to show hes 'not with ji' when nobody asked.

conclusion: its a coverup of kaisoo staying behind in south korea when others went to hawaii. why so desperate? it was still during a time where media threatened real hard to out them. meaures had to be done for ks to stay with ji.

for other qs

read jenkai retrospection

and my kxk tag its too old i cant find all the posts and blind item

and analysis

and yes of course ks is gay as fuck, much easier to spot out than ji tbh read the post: ks is not your typical gay

yall do some reserach before challenging me with anti kaisoo evidence because anything u think of we probably debunked / answered / discussed

[istheresomebodywhocanimagine]

Sweet Bird of Paradox

Sweet as the smell of success / Her body’s warm and wet / She gets me through this god awful loneliness / A natural high butterfly Oh I, / I need, need, need her.

The smells of the private room were dizzying to John. On one hand, a saccharine, citrus incense burned nearby, but the stench of sex was too powerful to mask. As illegal as it was, John figured that more than one man before him had paid a little extra for a little extra. Mixed together, it made sure the senses were overwhelmed by a sort of sweet debauchery, but the overindulgence wasn’t shameful to him. Not yet, anyways.

His calloused, aged hands gripped the armrest of the leather chair tightly as he looked around for a moment, the dim lights of the room making it hard for his eyes to adjust. He was teetering in on the scale around his mid 40’s, and most of his senses didn’t work quite the way they used to. He strained a little harder than he would have 20 years ago to see, and the music of the club just below was fainter than it would be to any 20 year old.

But he could still feel. God, could he still feel. Those hands that had created some of the most iconic basslines of the 70s and 80s, and every inch of skin on the attached body, felt everything.

Immediately following Freddie’s death, it was different story, sure. It was like the nerves had shut off – everything was numb, head to toe. His body desperately craved contact that would spark anything, and so he’d tried everything with Veronica, just so he could feel something. But touching her was like touching a wet blanket – it did mostly nothing for him, and if it did, it slightly repulsed him.

Shame and guilt debilitated him for a while. He couldn’t even bear looking at her, lest he reveal his aversion to her touch, and that purposeful avoidance had brought him here 4 months ago, a sophisticated, hush-hush exotic club where he’d immediately got a private room. He’d went through several girls on the roster before he’d found you. One dance, and his body felt like it was on fire. He was feeling again, just like he’d felt everything years ago. He was young again, and that scared him to no end.

So, he disappeared for a week. But then, he was back again, and asked for you by name every time since. You couldn’t even count on your fingers and toes the amount of nights you’d spent in John’s company. Some nights, you honestly would just sit and chat over a bottle of champagne. He was intriguing to you – never had you met such a quiet, reserved gentleman with so much to say in the middle of your place of work.

And he’d never taken advantage of you, not once. There was an odd sort of bond between you two, an inexplicable attraction, but you’d never even began to fool around with him. It was either a dance, the same you’d given tons of other men, or an in-depth chat that lasted well into the hours he’d pay for. At this point, you could usually read his expression and know exactly what the night warranted.

But tonight was different. As you stepped into the room, clad in a maroon red, strappy lingerie set covered by a creamy silk robe adored with red floral pattern, his face was unreadable. Letting the heavy wooden door shut behind you, you walked over to the minibar in the room, opting for the bottle of red wine tonight to match your lipstick and the towering heels that were adding a good half-foot to your height.

Carefully picking up two glasses with your free hand, you made your way over to the chair where John still sat motionless, following you with his pale grey eyes that matched the aging silver of his hair, which was crew cut and far shorter than his ‘do in the 70s, he’d told you. You did remember long hair being the standard in the 70s even if you were just a kid, so you took his word for it.

John moved his hand so you could perch on the wide armrest of the chair, his usually kind face riddled with conflict. But he still cleared his throat and managed to speak as you uncorked the bottle, pouring two glasses of wine.

“Red tonight?” he asked, his sweet-tempered, somewhat nasally voice making you relax as you realized he wasn’t in a foul mood tonight. Sometimes, he came in and didn’t really say a word for fear of revealing his moods like that, but you could tell through the silence anyways. “I thought you liked white whines.”

“I’m in the mood for a red tonight, is that a crime, John?” you asked, handing him a glass before holding out your own, smiling when he obligingly clinked his glass to yours, both of you taking a sip at the same time. A blood red swatch of lipstick was left on the edge of your glass as you swirled it around, looking down at the silver fox of a man while you draped your legs across his lap. A hand came up to rest on your ankle instinctively, his other still holding the wine glass as he keep his gaze on your face, seeming to be scanning you inside and out. “You’re quiet today. D’you want a dance?”

“No, no,” he quickly objected, and you could swear you saw a ghost of a smile cross his lips as he rubbed circles into your ankle with his thumb, his plain black sweater – or was it brown? You could never tell in this lighting – suddenly seeming to constrict his breathing as he took another drink of the wine before setting it down and tugging at the collar of said sweater. “I actually wanted to ask you something. Or give you a proposition, of sorts. It’s alright if you say no, I’ve just been thinking about it more lately and I wanted to see if the idea held any weight with you.”

John being this serious was nothing new to you, so you nodded along and sipped your wine as he spoke, arching an eyebrow and cocking your head to the side in curiosity afterwards. “What’s on your mind, then?” you asked, the shoulder of your robe slipping to the side and down your arm just a bit. But John’s eyes didn’t wander, not for a moment, instead staying trained on yours as he replied without missing a beat.

“I know you’ve said you don’t like it here before. Some of the men are too rough or go too far, is that what you said?”

“Well, yes, but it’s a living.” You grimaced as you spoke, mainly trying to convince yourself you didn’t hate the work more and more recently as the men got braver and stupider. “Why do you ask?”

“What would you say if I offered to get you out of here?” John’s face was dead serious as he spoke, and you held back a laugh that was bubbling to your throat as you furrowed your eyebrows, realizing he wasn’t joking. Was he proposing an arrangement? “I can put you up in your own place, away from here, pay you weekly, and I’d come visit you there instead.”

“Oh, so you call this visiting me?” you teased, climbing up from the chair and eluding his grasp as you finished off your first glass of wine. Grabbing the bottle of wine by the neck, you poured yourself another one as you focused on the stream of red liquid splashing into the glass. Just beyond that, John still sat there, the same expression as before, cool and controlled. “I bet that’s not what your wife calls it.”

“Not important,” he dismissed, quickly disposing of the topic of Veronica. He’d told you about her months ago – the kids, the separation, the rough patch, his bender, reconciliation, and then now, the stall, the filibuster. And it wasn’t like it bothered you – half of your clients were married men, you had to shed yourself of that morality quick. You just wondered what this proposed arrangement would mean in terms of his family. “I can send you to Bali, Cancun, Hawaii, wherever you want to go. All I ask is that you let me get you out of here.”

“Why?” you asked suddenly, sitting the wine bottle down on the table and standing with your free hand resting on your scantily clad hip as you let the other hand rest down at your side, daintily holding on to the wine glass by the rim. “Why do you want me out of here so bad?”

“Well, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that I’m partial to you. And you deserve to be somewhere that doesn’t make you miserable. Go on, tell me you’re not miserable here and I’ll leave you alone about it from now on, I swear it.” His vowels were getting more and more clipped as his voice was laced with just a hint of excitement, knowing he’d presented a very good point.

Pursing your lips, you scanned your eyes over John’s entire body, starting at the dark leather dress shoes that almost matched the chair he was in, all the way to the collar of the plaid shirt peeking over his sweater’s neckline. Then to his hair, silver strands slowly transforming to a very soft brown-grey at the top of his head, all uniform in length, so clean-cut, like John. And yet, he was an enigma, the least clean-cut personality you’d ever witnessed.

“Alright. What’s the catch?”

welcome to spring break by whitney! i’m on a partial hiatus, so this is what i’ve lined up for my absence. let me know what you think of this one, leave comments, feedback, anything! the brian one will be out tomorrow, and the roger one wednesday - leave notes on the one you like the most, and i’ll chose whichever one seems to be the most well-received to start a new series once TNC is over! have a great week yall <3

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[the-night-assassin]

OH MY GOD-

CAN YALL STOP SETTING SHIT ON FIRE? FIRST AUSTRALIA, THEN CALIFORNIA, PRETTY SURE PARTS OF CANADA ARE *STILL* ON FIRE, AND HAWAII IS TOO?

TF IS HAPPENING? I THOUGHT YOU HAD TO WAIT YEARS FOR ANOTHER ATTEMPT, BUT APPARENTLY, IT JUST TAKES A FEW MONTHS?

So. We got more fire. Somewhere around Canada, I think?

...

Which one of you guys tried to attempt a Desolation ritual?

We're not mad. We just want to fix it.

[braxtonolita]

I LOVE TRAILER DREAMZ♥️!! Super proud to represent our chicken fighting bull fighting meth trappin underdog cities Ewa Beach Hawaii & Oklahoma. Means EVERYTHING that our famz did whatever it took to help us come up & shine as ourselves. I fkn love u mom dad bru & my angels. Mahalo everyone 4 stoking our fire MEANS EVERYTHING. We want to spread aloha love & champion spirited-ness EVERYONE EVERYWHERE. I bless yall to come up together doin ur own style, ur own thing & doin it ur own way, bein 100% you, never having to fit into ANYTHING except ur own zone of AWESOMENESS. #STAYINYOURZONE !! #GAURDYOURFIRE !! #GAURDYOURSTOKE !! (at † Dreams †) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuO_7ymBuJc/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19qma5rxr11hl

[memedbts]

for the bangtan asks: ALL

we are bulletproof: if you could be any superhero, who would you be and why?

none. i dont like all that marvel/dc crap. actually no, it’s not crap, just not for me...

no more dream: if you woke up tomorrow to be incredibly famous, how would you react?

omg idek tbh. i lowkey feel exposed lmaooo

i like it: if you could reverse any moment in your life, what would that moment be?

idk tbh anything that i said that caused an argument, caused things between me n another person to get awkward, or anything that made people change the way they look at me

n.o: biggest pet peeve?

kids that act older than their age for sure

we on: how do you deal with people who don’t like you?

already answered this lol 

if i ruled the world: what would you do if you found out that you were an heir to a wealthy kingdom?

snatch up that money real quick

coffee: what’s your coffee order?

i dont really drink coffee but @ starbucks, caramel frap, extra whip n caramel

cypher pt. 1: if you had to be part of a kpop group, what position would you want to be (i.e. leader, visual, lead vocal, dancer, rapper, maknae, etc.)

maknae bc i like being the youngest. im the oldest sibling so its nice when i get the be the youngest 

rise of bangtan: when and how did you get into the king and legends, also known as bangtan sonyeondan?

like november of 2016. i was reintroduced to kpop by some of my friends and boy oh boy did they make a good ass decsion

satoori rap: what does home mean to you?

a place where all my friends are and i can be myself

boy in luv: when you are interested in someone (romantically, sexually, etc.), does your behavior change?

already answered this tooooo lol 

just one day: who would you want to spend the last day of your life with?

my family n friends. also bts if they could lmao

tomorrow: goal that you would like to achieve within the next year?

have a glo up HAAAAA

cypher pt. 2: one thing about yourself you wish people would appreciate more?

my personality and my advice. some people dont take it and then i end being right.....

spine breaker: what is your weakness when it comes to spending money?

BTS COMEBACKS HOOOOOOEEEEEE ISTG IF I BECAME RICH ID GO BROKE IN 0.0005 SECONDS

jump: favorite childhood memory?

anytime in preschool bc i had some lit ass friends

miss right: what is your ideal ‘type’?

umm.. funny obviously, i mean i want them to be somewhat attractive, decently smart, similar personality to mine

i like it pt. 2: dream date?

oooof idk i’d have to think about that one

danger: have you ever had a near-death experience?

no oh my god im so grateful that ive never had one

war of hormone: most embarrassing moment?

i fell on my ass in front of this big group of guys lmaooo

hip hop lover: three songs that are meaningful to you?

volume up - 4minute

return to pooh corner - kenny loggins (fight me)

rain - bts

let me know: are you good at keeping secrets?

it depends on who’s secret. if im not super close to them, i wont tell everybody i know, but i’ll most likely tell a few friends ooof. brutally honest lmao

rain: most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done?

idek im not that impulsive i guess

cypher pt. 3: favorite outfit to wear?

my off the should pink lace thingy with jean shorts

blanket kick: longest time you’ve spent lying in bed (sleeping or not)?

from like 8 to like the next day. i was dying rip

24/7 = heaven: what are you most looking forward to?\

next year volleyball and kpop club

look here: do you have any hidden talents?

no rip

second grade: proudest accomplishment?

3.96 gpa

i need u: are you in love?

nah

hold me tight: does physical contact comfort you?

it depends what kind of physical contact

love is not over: ever had your heart broken?

nope

dead leaves: how loyal are you?

100%

move: last time you cried?

yesterday

butterfly: most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?

bts existing

run: do you like traveling? if so, where? what’s your dream vacation?

yes! honestly like hawaii or something

ma city: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

hawaii ha im so basic

baepsae: do you vote and/or keep up with politics?

not old enough to vote but when i am, i will. and yeah i guess. im not like SUPER into politics but i know for the most part whats going on. i think ill pay more attention when i can actually vote.

dope: what did you want to be when you were younger? how does it compare to what you want to be now?

i wanted to be an actress. now ive realized im not cut out for that. 

fire: are you a spontaneous person?

it depends on who im with but like not really

save me: your favorite place on earth?

my room tbhhh

young forever: what is one movie from your childhood that you will always treasure?

idek just like the childhood show movies that they made

boys with fun: you’re going on a roadtrip with seven other people– dead, alive, fictional, real, famous, or not. who are they, and why?

yall already know who im bout to pick with 7 people lmao

converse high: how many pairs of shoes do you own?

not exaclty sure, also not about to get up n count. but probably around 10. but i only wear about like 3 or 4

whalien 52: weirdest thing that has ever happened to you? alternatively, weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

this was real. i was walking my dog and this guy with nothing with underwear on was standing outside on the porch screaming. mind you, i lived in a nice/decent neighborhood. 

house of cards: when was the last time you felt sexy?

NONE 

boy meets evil: have you ever committed a crime? if so, what was it? alternatively, what is the worst thing you have ever done?

never committed a crime. imma good child lmao. but the worst thing ive ever done was call someone from my friend from nz and for 50 minutes and cost my dad, $200 lolllllll

blood, sweat, & tears: kinkiest kink you have?

um. im not there yet sweetie

begin: who are you most grateful for in your life?

my parents and my friend group from where i used to live

lie: biggest fear?

spiders n death

stigma: would you rather know the date of your death or the cause of your death?

cause bc then i can prevent it possibly

first love: do you believe in soulmates?

i guess

reflection: if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

get into bts earlier

mama: are you good at giving advice?

yeah i am

awake: if you had to be a flower, which flower would you be?

pansies bc they’re my grandma’s favorite

lost: how good are you with directions? do you get lost easily?

i dont lost easily unless people are distracting me

cypher pt. 4: what do you do to treat yourself or relax?

i do face masks, add some extra steps to my skin care

am i wrong: you wake up one morning in the hospital, knowing only your name and a single memory from your life. what is that memory?

a memory where im reflecting on all of my memories. HA 

21st century girls: do you prefer texting, calling, or video chatting?

depends on with who

2!3!: your favorite thing about bangtan?

their personalities

spring day: who do you miss right now?

my old friend group.

not today: what are you procrastinating right now?

this project for agriculture and natural resources oop 

wings: on airplanes, do you prefer the window seat, the middle seat, or the aisle seat?

when we first take off, aisle, but as i get comfortable in the air, i can do window

you never walk alone: how many people do you trust with your life?

my old friend group and my parents.

[deeeelightfuldee]

day one w/o you

Do you think you are pregnant? lol no, no I do not.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose? fall

You’ve had sex within these past 10 days haven’t you? no. but have I behaved in a sexual manner lol, yes.

You have to get a piercing, what do you get? ears but they never seem to last

Do you miss anyone? i very much do.

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug? uhhhhhhhh outside of family? september

Plans for tomorrow? i over did things today real bad, so i’m going to be laying real low. I will probably apply a tan and then that has to set for like 6ish hours before I can rinse it off. So aside from making stuff in the crockpot, i’ll be laying in bed either doing surveys or playing games probably. 

Is anything wrong? i mean, i’m grieving the loss of K in my world, but yall already knew that. the other stuff yea theres things wrong

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? mom yes but not my dad. he doesnt ever talk to me unless his gf forces him to

What were you doing this morning at 5:30? I was asleep What were you doing 2 hours ago? uhhh I think I was just getting back from the post office and then getting ready for bed

Do you like the ocean? I very much do

How many windows are open on your computer? Jeez this is usually a terrifying question lol. right now its 4. I have one tumblr with surveys i pull from, this one i’m writing on, one that I use to check if k has posted (which probs can go away since he does not) and then a doc. i ALWAYS have something goin on in google docs lol. 

Last person you texted? Josiah 

Was the first person you talked to today male or female? female

Who was the last person you rode in a car with? Mom

What woke you up this morning? myself. 

Do you know anyone named Matt? yes. I love that name too.

When was the last time you talked to a sibling? i talked to my sister and older brother today

Do you wear glasses? no not at all

Are you currently jealous? of everyone who gets K’s time. I’ve been jealous for so dang long and that is exhausting.

What are you doing today? its 11:39pm

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? yes I have no interest in smoking and harming my body that way

Have you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust? yeah, sadly. I like to think he regrets it.. but time will tell. 

How late did you stay up last night and why? It was close to like 1am. I was just processing how much I loved that last day with K and how I missed our journal and how sad it would be to not do that anymore and that I would begin to hear less and less from him. 

Are you picky about who you give your number to? semi but honestly I can always just block you

Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii? greece would be awesome and so would hawaii. i wouldn’t complain either way

What color is your underwear right now? Baby blue

What are you listening to right now? a live lol. 

What was the last thing you ate? a vanilla pudding. 

How is the weather right now? It is soooo dreamy lately. gloomy, dark, misty, low 60s. its everything I ever wanted.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? mom. tho the last person I heard was K. he leftme a voice note which was so bittersweet. it was AMAZING to hear his voice but he sounded super tired and just basically said how awful work was today

Do you smoke? no. i would not do well with that.

Ever get so drunk you don’t remember the whole night? lol no

What color are your eyes? blue/navy/gray

Do you wear contacts? no

Ever cried for no reason? i normally can go months and months and months without crying one time. lately i’ve been extremely emotional about losing someone I really care about in my life.

Are you too shy to ask someone out? ummmmm, hm. never really thought about this. I probably could -- being shy is not the factor. I’m just not into being the first one to make that move. I’m attracted to take-charge men.

Have you ever fired a gun? yes

Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car? I like both

Who is your last text from? it appears sawyer

Which movie did you last see in theaters? little women

Who’s thinking about you right now? i’m pretty sure just sawyer and maybe josiah since theyre messaging me for some reason

Do you like to cuddle? if I really like you, I LoVEEEEEe to cuddle.

[grannmamare]

@namsseok tagged me so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Rules: answer 20 questions then tag 20 bloggers you want to know better

Name: Desmond

Nickname: Des

Height: 5'3??? 5'4? Idfk

Orientation: pan

Nationality: Cuban-American

Favorite season: Spring/Fall

Favorite flower: lotus

Favorite scent: uhhhh chocolate and a nice toasty fire. Make some marshmallows.

Favorite colors: purple/blue

Favorite animals: yike uh all of them??? But especially jellyfish

Coffee/tea/hot chocolate: hot chocolate

Average sleep hours: I try for 8 but I sleep in too much during weekends/summer so like 10 or 12 lmao

Dog or cat: both of them can steal food from me (and do)

Favorite fictional character: Leo Fire Emblem

# of blankets you sleep with: 1 but it's Thicc

Dream trip: Hawaii or the Grand Canyon

Random fact: I think I'd actually die for my dog, like genuinely, if she asked,

I'm tagging @rickin @acevity & @wickyelham and also 20 people is absurd so the buck stops here. No pressure to do it yall dont want 2 of course