#HONEY WHATD YOU TAKE WHATD YOU TAKE HONEY LOOK AT ME

[thenightwinggraveyard]

the rotting daughter

perhaps it’s an indicator of how far gone i am; that when faced with their pitying eyes and furrowed brows, all i can do is smile ruefully. 

they say they’re upset that i’m upset. 

they say they’re not disappointed, just worried. and what do i say to that? 

do i tell them that what they’re feeling for me is only a modicum of the depths of my solemn despair? 

do i tell them that the ache is all i know? 

do i tell them that there isn’t a single waking moment where i’m not wishing i was someone else; somewhere else? 

how can i possibly communicate that i don’t know how to not hate what i am.

how do i put into words that no matter what i do, nothing could make up for the fact that it’s me doing it. 

sometimes, it seems that it was my fate to be a ruined daughter. 

i was destined for nothing else but too dry eyes and self-condemning smiles; 

there is a rot inside me that has been there since birth.

- from a girl with anxiety (and some other problems too)

[artisthedgehog]

IF I GAVE UP ON BEING PRETTY I WOULDNT KNOW HOW TO BE ALIVE I SHOULF MOVE TO A BRAND NEW CITY AND TEACH MYSELF HOW TO DIE 💪💪💪💪💪

[orgasming-caterpillar]

I THINK MY BRAIN IS ROTTING IN PLACES I THINK MY HEART IS READY TO DIE I THINK MY BODY IS FALLING IN PIECES I THINK MY BLOOD IS PASSING ME BY

[psychoplasm-girl]

maybe i should stop listening to hole and mistki and stop watching the virgin suicides and girl interrupted and stop reading the bell jar and stop looking at crime scene images and drawing corpses and

[isoldio]

oh no ! i got obsessed with a song again . woe is me .

[ninakuli]

Star Projector Night Light

Bo Sinclair x shy!reader

⚠️Include: soft Bo(kind of), childrenhood trauma⚠️

Maybe will have grammar or spell mistakes, and I'm new hand about writing so hope you guys enjoy❤️

You sit in the dining room wait for Bo come home and have dinner together but you already waited him three hours and it's already been a bedtime, so you decide go to your shared bedroom, you not hungry or tired, so you just laying on the bed and watch the night light with star shape on the bedroom ceiling.

You still clearly remember that day.

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Bo have a very good mood and suddenly decided to go to the next town to date with you, you two have a happy and lovely time, then when you two are walking on the street something catches your eyes, you stop in front of the toy store and squat down, it's a star projector night light, you think this so cute so beautiful you like it a lot, you stare at that.

"It's anythin' alright doll?" Bo notice and ask, "Do ya like that thing?"

"Yeah it's so gorgeous I like it!! But if I buy it will seem like I'm too childish?"

"Nah, will just seem cute I thought, cause ya the cutest thing in the world." Bo tease you with a silly grin.

"Ohh Bo stop" you laugh then use your elbow push him playful, the blush climb to your cheeks and ears.

"So ya want that?"

"Yeah but will don't waste money on it it's better I thought" you let out a little sigh then turn your head forward to Bo "It's late let's go home honey!"

When you two got on the truck Bo suddenly say he need to leave for a minute, he ask you to stay at the truck to wait him back.

You watch at the starry night, that night were so beautiful, stars shining like a gem adorn at the black sky.

"I'm back let's go home darlin'." Bo get on the truck but you still stare at the shining sky then Bo start driving home.

"Ya really love star right?"

"Yeah just so amazing and magical thing..." you turn your head to see Bo "like you..." you whisper then smile at yourself and turn your head back to watch the sky and feel your cheeks growing hot.

"Whatd ya say at the last word?"

"Nothing important."

Whole road you two talking about the stars.

Times go fast, Bo parked the truck then open the door let you jump off, when you touch the front door doorknob, you heard Bo call you from your back, then when you turn back to Bo you shock and surprise.

One delicate cute gorgeous box and in the box is a star projector night light that you stared before on his hand.

"This is for me?! OMG Bo thank you! I love you!"you give him a biggest hug and kiss on his cheek.

"Anything for my doll."Bo give back a gentle quick kiss on your lips.

You take the box and stare in, your eyes shining with happy and blessed, Bo pick you up with bridal carry and bring you to your shared bedroom.

"Let's try it now!"you take out the night light and open it, shining beautiful star projection on the bedroom ceiling, you climb back to bed and lay beside Bo head on top his chest, his arms around you, both of you look up at the starry ceiling, sweet silence around for awhile, then you broke the silence.

"Beautiful right?"you look up to him and excited wait his answer.

"Ummm...maybe but ya more beauti."he look down to meet your eyes with a teasing smirk, red blush climb on your cheeks.

You look back to the ceiling then you feel his hands turn your head back and he give you a kiss, you kiss back passionate, you lick his bottom lip then he open his mouth, you sucks on his tongue, you can't help you too wanted and needed him and he already knew it. He wanted you more than he knew too, even if he knew he won't admit it.

You two twine together, like you two are one, like if you let go each other will disappear or something, you kiss until your lips hurt, you pull up, you two forehead to forehead and nose to nose, you gentle touch his cheek up and down, both of you enjoy this moment for awhile.

"So lucky that I have you with me...I love you darling."you whisper then kiss his cheek and lay back to sleep, silence around except Bo's heartbeat and you fall asleep, when you fall asleep Bo just stare at the ceiling with a darkness and sadness eyes, he never be love before, he always think no one will love him need him be happy around him, this what he taught by his parents in he was a child, he don't know how to love people, so he afraid, afraid that one day you will hate him or leave him, afraid one day he will hurt you or fucked up everything.

"Bo..."your sleep talk chase away his mind.

"Bo...listen...you're...the most shining thing...in my mind.I love you..."Bo look back to your sleeping face, then he smile eyes shining with little gentle and surprise, he press a kiss on top your head.

"Me too...so damn luck hav ya, I love ya too."he wisper to you.

You two snuggle with each other and have a nice sleep.

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You wonder why Bo not come home yet, you can't wait any longer, you feel lonely you miss him so badly so wanted and needed him to be your side touch you teasing you like usual, you decide go to check him, when you stand in front of the bedroom door and want to slide open the door, door suddenly open slowly.

"The hell ya doin'? I thought ya already sleep."

"Oh just uh... think about it's too late but you not come back home yet."you say nervously.

"So, ya worry about me?"Bo classic tease smirk show up.

"Y...Yeah and I...I miss you..."you shy and awkward to look away, avoid to meet his eyes, he grabs your cheeks and turn your face to him, force you eyes look his.

"Miss me that bad?"his arms lock you from your hip don't want to let you go.

You want to answer but word choke in your throat, you feel your face so hot.

"Com'on just need to say it admit it."

"I...I...I mis...s you...bad...ly."you try your best to say whole sentence.

"Try again ya can do it."his nose brush yours.

"I miss you so badly I want your touch!"you finish in one breath.

"Good girl."he leaned to kiss you and lead you to bed.

You lay on him, his arms around you, you hear familiar heartbeat and watch the stars from the ceiling, feeling the body temperature from Bo and thinking about him and stars.

"I really think...you just like a star, shining... magical...and I love you my star."you whisper then slowly fall asleep with relieved.

"Ya too, love ya too."he hug you more tightly and fall asleep with you.

[venu-5]

DBF!Keegan Drabble

18+ MDNI !!!!

Married!DBF! Keegan P. Russ, Smut, Attempt at GN!Reader

Warnings: Sexual themes, Penetration, Cheating, Non-Verbal consent, Slight Pervert!Keegan, Use of the word 'Hole'

Notes: PLEASE GIVE ME FEEDBACK IVE NEVER WRITTEN FANFICTION SO PLS LET ME KNOW HOW TO IMPROVE WITH GENDER NEUTRAL WRITING!!! AND IF ITS FORMATED WEIRD IM SORRY IM POSTING FROM MY PHONE :3 and if y'all like this I will continue writing drabbles and will post them from my laptop and i will even do my best to make my page look all pretty and organized !!

Married!DBF!Keegan who sneaks off to your room with the excuse of using the restroom during BBQs, knowing that every soul in the house was outside. He'd use the bathroom closest to your room, getting 'lost' on the way despite knowing your childhood home like the back of his hand. He knows that you have a bad habit of leaving your closet door open, it was basically screaming at him to go inside, you can't blame him. He'd find your panty drawer, taking the raunchiest panty and stuffing it down his pants before he actually went to the restroom.

Married!DBF!Keegan who pulls out your panties and sits on the side of the bathtub, sniffing them, trying to find even a hint of your scent that could've been left behind even after being washed. Oh but someone seems to have blessed him today, you showered, forgetting to take the hamper of dirty clothes to the laundry room. He digs around, finding your panties still holding onto your sleeping shorts. They both had your scent, he hit the jackpot.

Married!DBF!Keegan heard your footsteps, he memorized the sound of your steps, heading towards your room, the sound of your door slamming shut followed. It was a common occurrence that your father and you would argue any chance you got, it always happened when guests were around and he knew your father wasn't one to try to apologize.

Married!DBF!Keegan could basically moan as his fantasizes were falling into the palm of his hand, the ability to make them come true also laying there. He knew it was wrong, his wife was outside with your father and your mother but he couldn't stop himself from opening your door and locking it, sitting on your bed as you laid face down on the bed.

Married!DBF!Keegan had a million thoughts racing through his mind, his hands itching to reach out and grab your ass, he wanted to give into his thoughts but he'd risk scaring you off. Instead of just grabbing you, he talked, spoke in that honey dripping, deep voice that had you fantasizing about him in your most shameful moments in the deepest moments of your night.

“Whatd he do now?” Married!DBF!Keegan took the opportunity to lay a hand on your lower back, moving his hand up and down your back as you try your hardest to not cry, telling him what your dad did. He coos and reassures you, telling you that you're not stupid, not an idiot like your father was telling you. You move your head to lay on his thigh and what a bad move that was.

Married!DBF!Keegan takes this as an opportunity to slide a hand under your shirt, stroking your skin as you kept your head on his thigh. He had played it safe by keeping his hand on your back but then he slid his hand to the side, squeezing your hip and his fingers slipping underneath the band of your spandex shorts. He hears you ask him what he's doing, just a bit above a whisper and he tells you ‘I want to help you forget about it.’ and with such a good offer, who were you to deny it.

Married!DBF!Keegan takes your small nod as you telling him to continue, his hand moving to your ass and grabbing it, he was getting harder, he couldn't believe that he was grabbing your ass. He needed more and knowing that he could have you around his fingers wasn't enough, he needed to be inside of you. He stood up and sat on the back of your thighs so fast that you weren't able to keep him in your line of sight.

Married!DBF!Keegan began humping your ass, your bed was creaking slightly but that didn't matter to him, everyone was outside. Such sweet words spilling out his mouth, calling you his, his sweetheart, his sweet young thing. He yanked down your shorts and he didn't prep you, didn't stretch your hole out, no, he just pushed in as he held a hand over your mouth. It hurt, of course it did, he was big and thick, he couldn't let his hips touch your ass like he wanted to or else he'd hurt you, he couldn't hurt his pretty thing :( not more than he already has!

Married!DBF!Keegan was shushing you, stroking your head as he whispered sweet things into your ear to get you to calm down. It was a bit longer than he anticipated but your hole was welcoming him now, his thrusting was welcomed by your yummy moans. He could hear the way you'd whimper when he'd start pulling out to thrust himself back into you. You felt so full, he was so big. Your thighs pressed together as he kept fucking your pretty hole, pressing his chest against your back. He had his elbow on the bed as his other hand stayed on top of your mouth to make sure you weren't being too loud.

Married!DBF!Keegan began to compare you to his wife, how she wasn't as tight as you, your hole felt so much better around him than her cunt. He pinched your nipples, basically shaking as he heard your muffled yelps against the palm of his hand. He picked up the pace, making sure to not slam his hips against your ass so his big cock wouldn't hurt your unprepped hole, he didn't want to hit deeper than you were used to. He was so considerate, telling you that he had to cum inside of you so that he wouldn't stain your bedsheets or your guys’ clothes.

Married!DBF!Keegan squeezes your hip as he cums, not wanting to moan or be louder than he was, realizing that the bed had been creaking the entire time. He cursed and felt his cum keep squirting into your hole, trying to listen and see if anyone had come inside the house while he was fucking you. You clenched around him and that was enough to pull a groan, it was unexpected but it vibrated from his throat.

Married!DBF!Keegan pressed a kiss against your shoulder, praising you for taking his big cock and that you were so good. He couldn't stop the smile that pulled at his lips, he had fucked you, he still had so many more things that he wanted to do with you but he couldn't do them now, not in your fathers home. It wasn't until after he pulled out of your now used hole that he began to think of other ways that he could've fucked you, he could've shoved your face into the mattress to keep you quiet, that way you wouldn't have to worry about keeping quiet. He could've made you ride him, made you suck him off and he could've fucked your throat.

He had so many regrets running through his head but he'd have to save those ideas for another time. He hoped you'd be willing to keep fucking him, he watched you catch your breath as he pulled out, hearing your quiet whine as he did. He saw the way you lifted your hips, shaking, to pull up your shorts and panties. Your legs were shaking, god it flew over his head to ask if he made you cum but he was already out of your room when he remembered, back in the restroom as he fixed himself up.

[littlesliceofimmortality]

honey look at me, tell me what you took, whatd you take? // less crunchy stills under the read more!

[party-beetle]

HONEY WHATD YOU TAKE? WHATD YOU TAKE? HONEY LOOK AT ME

[aropride]

IF I GAVE UP ON BEING PRETTY I WOULDNT KNOW HOW TO BE ALIVE. I SHOULD MOVE TO A BRAND NEW CITY AND TEACH MYSELF HOW TO DIE. HONEY WHATD U TAKE? WHAT U TAKE? HONEY LOOK AT ME TELL ME WHAT U TOOK? WHATD YOU TAKE?

[tragedykery]

BIT IF I GAVE UP ON BEING PRETTY I WOULDN'T KNOW HOW TO BE ALIVE I SHOULD MOVE TO A BRAND NEW CITY AND TEACH MYSELF HOW TO DIE

HONEY WHATD YOU TAKE WHATD YOU TAKE HONEY LOOK AT ME TELL ME WHAT YOU TOOK WHATD YOU TAKE

[lodish]

honey whatd you take whatd you take honey look at me and tell me what you took whatd you take

[endofbeginningarchive]

Honey whatd you take whatdyou take honey look at me tell me what you took whatd you take⚡️⚡️🎸🎸🎸💥💥🗣🗣

[the-leader-in-blue]

Ooc//songs that remind me of the gang, but it’s literally all mitski

Real men by mitski: this is on the jay playlist and it is honestly devastating,jay ,being not cisgender is personal to me,the song isnt explicity written about trans pople,but many people interpret it that way,and some of the lyrics really fit his development, like “Real men keep cool in the face of a fire,Go down with the ship” and his devotion to his ‘ship’ the people he cares for,and even to his own detriment

Wife by mitski: can you tell i like mitski yet? Well this song makes me feel an unprepared emotion,and it is so orpheus,spicifcly how she talks about leo,the tidal may be deceiving as it can viewed as romantic,but not in this context,it shows orpheus almost co dependence on the positive attention from leo. Even in the first verse it shows the safety he feels “You're home, you're home, you're home to me” to her,leo is the closest thing to a home he has,not a place but a person,and without him,she feels almost lost. “For if I am not yours, what am I?” is in the next verse,that feeling of loss of identity without someone else,she cares for leo,and feels like if she isnt with him,helping him,why should she stay anywhere?

Brand new city by mitski: Yes lush is my favorite mitski album,what about it. I feel like this fits a lot with leo, and the weight of feeling emotions,the first line sets the sorrowful,but tense mood. “Honey,whatd you take?” sounds like someone pleading,begging to find a way to help someone. Even the first verse continues the mood. “Think my brain is rotting in places,I think my heart is ready to die” with all of the trauma hes gone through,it is destorying him from the inside,all the burdens are ripping him apart. And the chorus continues the pleading. “Honey, what'd you take?What'd you take? Honey, look at me,Tell me what you took, what'd you take?” it goes back to the intro,its like an exchange , someone dying and the one hwo loves them the most.  And the bridge even keeps the feeling of someone loosing themselves,rotting . “But if I gave up on being pretty, I wouldn't know how to be alive ,I should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die” shows leos twisted veiw on his own death,hes faced death since he was young,and he witnessed the people he cares for walk the tightrope,and some fall and he witnessed it all.

Once more to see you by mitski: much like wife ,this song represents orpheus and his relationship with leo,and how it effects his perception of himself. In the second part of the verse, “But with everybody watching us,Our every move,We do have reputations” . Both of them are leaders,in different ways,but those around them look up to both of them,and together they have to dance around mistakes,everyone sees them,and how their actions effect others. As the chorus begins,she sings “So come inside and be with me,Alone with me,Alone with me,Alone” Even alone,when its them,alone they still care for eachother,and the comfort they provide eachother, and it continues. “If you would let me give you pinky promise kisses,Then I wouldn't have to scream your name Atop of every roof in the city of my heart”And even when orpheus is alone,he still feels drawn to leo,the love she feels is always with her,even with the threat of him leaving and never coming back,she will always love him.

A burning hill by mitski: wow another mitski song. Anyways this represents jays downfall,the sudden wave of emotions of all that has happened,and as the first verse starts,the sorrow is evident.

 “Today, I will wear my white button-down,I'm tired of wanting more, I think I'm finally worn” hes tired,hes tired of all the pressure and pain of his life,hes lived too long ,hes so young yet experienced thousands of lifetimes. And it continues “And I've been a forest fire,I am a forest fire,And I am the fire and I am the forest, and I am a witness watching it,I stand in a valley watching it” he has caused so much pain, he has witnessed people’s lives be ripped away in the blink of an eye,and he has been the one to pull the trigger,but he has been on the other end of the barel,he has survived,but why? Why him and not others?

Why didn’t you stop me by mitski:Leo has to grive , Orpheus is gone,taken by the lonley and lost in the sauce. The opening line is Orpheus,speaking to no one “I know that I ended it,why don’t you chase after me? You know me better than I do,so why didn’t you stop me?” She knows no one will hear but she’s asking,why will she always be alone,she’s not wanted enough to be chased after,why? And as it continues it shifts to Leo,his reaction to the loss “I look for a picture of you to keep in my pocket,but I can’t seem to find one where you look how I remember” Orpheus is still anonymous,they’ve never seen her face,he’s seen sword lily,he’s seen his brothers,but orhpes has no face to the name,and as it continues,he proves Orpheus wrong,she is wanted. “Look how I remeber,look how I remeber” he remembers Orpheus,she is not someone to be discarded,he hasn’t forgotten her,he just can’t find her

evil -🦭🦭🦭

ooc\\ holy damn

on a different note sorry for not answering asks lol ive been busy and also sick

[1m-sane-i-promise]

HONEY WHATD YOU TAKE, WHATD YOU TAKE, HONEY LOOK AT ME, TELL ME WHAT YOU TOOK, WHATD YOU TAAAKE

[evilwrongdoer]

honey whatd you take, whatd you take, honey look at me, tell me what you took, whatd you take?