#HOLY SHIT I AM YAPPING SO MUCH IM GONNA SHUT UP NOW

[qoldenskies]

i think a lot of people pretty openly acknowledge that leo is someone that self-aggrandizes and acts reckless in order to compensate for his insecurities, which is true and it's very clearly spelled out especially in the movie, but i don't really see people acknowledge the fact that donnie is the EXACT same way (outside of people who specifically like to write a lot of angst for him. leo is forever designated sadboy of the fandom). which is sad, because i think it's the most twin-like thing about them!!

it's a trait they share pretty openly. same flavor of daddy issues, although leo is always wanting to look down, to be the BEST at something, to be admired and respected and trusted, to be above other people, while donnie is always wanting to look up, the whole approval from a parental aged adult thing is the largest example but i also think about his desperation for CAMARADERIE in the purple jacket, and also like, lol the entirety of mind meld. he wants to be understood and acknowledged and praised and he practically begs for it with everything he does.

both of them desperately want to impress! but i kind of interpret it as leo trying to make a point to himself more than to other people, because he is so caught up in his own self-judgement. it's why he can act rude or try to step over the others (raph especially, although early on there is some mutual toxicity in that relationship) in order to prove that point.

but donnie has a lot more self-security because he knows what he does! he knows he's good at it, i don't think there's any denying that. but under real praise he gets starry-eyed or he softens. he makes a big point out of presenting new things because that's what he's looking for. and i think that makes him so averse to the potential of failure. it's why he'll shrug it off or outright deny it when its brought up to him. he sucks so bad at taking responsibility lmao.

i think mind meld in particular is a very telling episode, especially the beginning of it. he gets rash and upset when he feels like he's doing too much on his own. he feels ignored and disrespected for his efforts, and makes bad decisions as a result. and between that and donnie's gifts it's very very obvious he is projecting the fact that he equates his usefulness, his role, to his self-worth as a person. a lot of that crowing confidence is not real. he is MAJORLY overcompensating just like leo is. (and i would also like to point out the kind of things he makes shelldon RESPOND to in smart lair before he's reprogrammed, like leo's ribbing)

idk, i just feel like donnie wants to be seen and leo wants to be able to see himself, although there is some overlap there and the two problems can bleed into each other.

(and i do think a big point of leo's arc in the movie is for him to genuinely stop being selfish. his insecurity gets in the way and he's thinking about himself when he acts, and that's what hurts people. all of them have the potential to be self-centered, but leo's behavior was putting people in danger, and he had to look past all of that because he has ALWAYS been a strong and capable person and a good leader, but he was afraid of it because he was setting the goalpost for himself too high, and it was RAPH'S thing. it all felt too daunting. he's never going to feel ready if he only thinks about himself. at a point it's just not about him. as dubious as his sacrifice at the end was, that was the point. get him some therapy for that blunder though)

and i think it has a lot of potential to make them clash in a really interesting way. donnie's like,,, got his THING!! leo is not CONFIDENT in his thing!! and he can't ever be better than donnie at his particular thing, so he LEAPS onto any chance to get one over on him, which clashes very badly with donnie's issues of easily feeling dejected or unappreciated. he's going to take that personally, and then leo is going to take donnie's bad interpretation of that behavior personally, because like... why doesn't donnie trust him? :((

anyways they are majorly twinning they are both dramatic unconfident bitches with self-worth issues and they both get louder and meaner when they feel hurt about something. its why i keep accidentally writing angst of the other when i try to write angst of one. ahaha lol oops

sorry ive had this blog for only a few hours i just needed to get my thoughts down mostly for myself. for writing purposes

[causeimcrayzeebee]

long ass paragraphs of my thoughts i ran to write instead of getting my work out of the way first: TETRO DR PINK TRIAL 2 SPOILERS

ok so i can say with certainly that absolutely no one saw this coming right.

it makes absolutely so much sense in hindsight but it really makes you think how most, if not all of us, didn’t consider Sawa’s existence to be relevant to the game; at least personally for me, i didn’t. i had seen a couple people take a gander and theorize the killer being harada, mainly for the tragedy points that this case absolutely brought, or for some honestly really impressive theory on the murder (i have no idea how y’all even do it shout out theorists). but regardless, most of us never stopped to think about how a TIGER, despite being a baby, still a predator and possible threat in case of being provoked, would effect this game. and that’s fair,, sawa is given just the right amount of attention to be there, but be thought of as nothing more than a pet. thus this adds even further to the tragedy of this case with the helplessness harada had to have felt as he tried and failed to stop sawa.

the creator has really taken advantage of the details and im throughly impressed and while no doubt horrendously devastated, really satisfied in terms of story and murder case. my assumption upon first hearing the motive was immediately thinking it was gonna make kamimura heavily involved, but now i have two nickels for the amount of times I thought kamimura was fucked bc of the motive and turns out he was fine. i will not be this lucky moving forward but damn. adrenaline effects more than just humans, and it highlights how we often neglect to consider the effects of these situations on other living beings. or maybe im yapping about dogshit who knows.

the execution was PAINFUL TOO. the final trap being a rabbit snare…. I see you dr kan #monomokotakeover. all the traps that he couldn’t avoid just add more salt to the wound. HAMA WANTING THEM TO STOP THE EXECUTIN UAGAGSG WTF!!! sorry my demons nyways this is becoming so incoherent but what can i say, im feeling a lot. THE HANGING THING TOO??? yonekura already pointed it out but the similar fashion of death. Girlie is DONE w these danganronpa ahh executions tho BYEE 😭😭

i will never shut up about how much i love the format of tetro, the audio drama format lends itself to some powerful voice acting,,, hiroaki’s va has outdone himself like always, hama’s va made me cry, watari’s va when she was apologizing and sticking with Hama had me devasted, and harada’s va excellently captured his feelings of fear and distress.

I find the closing arguments of the two trials so far quite interesting: the first trial it was hiroaki, proudly and arrogantly delivering sasaki’s death sentence with enjoyment, before it finally hit him and cause him to break down. meanwhile, kamimura delivered this one, almost solemn and doing it to help harada who was just a crying mess. an almost hesitant closing out of sorrow. Danganronpa sure doesn’t follow court procedures and these closing are obviously not proper form at all (as a law nerd i am slightly disappointed when I remember that these are teenagers who most don’t even know anything about law but we cope) but I still really love these scenes and just generally these trials, they have been phenomenal work.

it’s so painful to see that hama, despite having seen that harada was involved in killing chiba, still didn’t want harada to go. this line made me lose it, holy shit did that hurt

the way it had to be harada right as recently ive been getting attached to him and this why i was like lol hope he doesn’t die…. unfortunate for me and hama. take a doodle of harada i did a couple days ago.

happy tetro friday, everyone; the mourning time has arrived.