#Gonna reblog this post for a few times

[dawnthefluffyduck]

feeling of being watched

[edelblau]

hi! my birthday is tomorrow (the 17th of september)

i am disabled and not very wealthy (in fact im pretty poor. you know.) and im going to destress a bit for 3 days over my birthday on a teeny tiny vacation (i leave today, the 16th) but you know. everything gets more and more expensive every day and while i am absolutely not entitled to any gifts/donations for my birthday id greatly appreciate it!

i have an ongoing sale until the 20th for 17% off commissions on ko-fi using the code 'BIRTHDAYBASH24' if thats something that interests you (i will have to start when im back however), or you can toss 5 dollars at me, or you can just reblog. whatever works!

i rarely get to do things like this and im really honestly and truly grateful that i am even able to reach anyone at all with these posts or my art or what have you. the fact that anyone even cares about my birthday is something that will always feel a bit strange.

thank you all and to as many years as this site has left in it

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/leonkarnak

https://ko-fi.com/edelblau

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[priceofreedom]

we're finally approaching rebirth day so as usual i need to remind you to blacklist #rebirth spoilers and #ff7 rebirth spoilers. i will be using both tags just in case so please blacklist at least one of them so you don't see any!

[vimbry]

"likes don't do anything" they do

"there's no algorithm" there is

"well nobody uses the for you tab" I do

"reblog all art and fics you see" there's no thought put into that. if this does work on people, then it's just pity engagement borne out of guilt rather than genuine interest, which is arguably worse than having none, because it's totally hollow.

[beesorcery]

hello it's part 3 of 3 for my cool fun graphic design adventure!! part 1 and part 2 got too long. to recap i am recreating this t-shirt design but with the magic 8 ball songs instead of city names:

here is the current draft, updated through 3/27 (pittsburgh) (!!!!)

[hella1975]

i actually need a run-through of your whole wardrobe bc I can't stop thinking abt ur skirt boot combo a month later. become a fashion blog

this is my new calling

[non-un-topo]

I realize I've been so flaky with responding to asks, finishing my drawings or fics I promised, etc. I've kind of been drifting in and out of tumblr without interacting much. Real life just finally started, and I need to build up a ton of motivation and find time before I can work on a fandom project. Just wanted to say that I'm still here and still working on stuff, just slowly.

[izzymalec]

hey everyone let's be friends on goodreads & letterboxd 🫶🏻

[quietlyblooms]

we got ourselves a mains call, lads!

liking this post tells me that you would like to be mains, prioritizing interactions with each other and implying a level of comfortability between us -- basically, neither of us need to be nervous about sending memes, asking to ship, and other such things! not that any of my mutuals need to worry about any of this, but mains especially so. if you are currently listed as a main/affiliate on my pinned, you don't need to like this post! you're stuck with me already <3

in case you're worried about this, you do not have to speak to me regularly to be a main! i'm not always the best with messages anyway :' ) i only ask that we've written together before and kinda have an idea of our muses' dynamic ( doesn't need to be fully developed!! ). if you feel a connection and want it to grow, then i'm all for that!

[nexility-sims]

🌷

[paimonial-rage]

My favorite works in no particular order:

Tipsy Tales (Anemo Boys)

Symbiosis (Ayato)

What Destiny Has Brought (Fischl)

Hello How Are You (Gorou)

Follow the Wind II (Kazuha)

Of the Same Coin (Mika)

Songs of the Wind (Venti)

Nothing Lasts Forever (Yae Miko)

Sharing a Drink They Call Loneliness (Zhongli)

Of Hopes and Prayers (Zhongli)

[stellaelillac]

I finally decided to do this permanent calls so that i don't get so nervous when i try to approach my mutuals for plotting and / or interactions. So you all know what to do !  Give this post a like if i can :

Go into your ims to plot about scenarios ideas that i see our muses can interact ;

Go into your ims to plot about muses dynamics ( not really related to only romantic relationships — platonic / familial bonds & rivals are very much welcome and appreciate as well ! ) ;

Send you unprompted asks and / or ask memes to start interactions and / or when i feel like it ;

I think that’s all for now ! If i remember something more i will add here. And please, keep in mind that i am having giving you the right to do all of this with me as well !

[wildflowercryptid]

⚠️ spoilers for year 5 fireworks festival cutscene below! ⚠️

the year 5 firework festival focusing on takakura being considered apart of your family is kicking my ass, especially since i got the anniversary event the day before. the way this game handles the farmer's family is so freaking sweet and impactful, i love it so much... 😭💕

[passionfruitmango]

I think it's silly when people make posts trying to emphasize their DNI when they see people interacting that they perceive to fit their DNI label-as if the block button doesn't literally exist.

[childofphivorce]

just to be clear i will be tagging with #tit spoilers, #titspoilers, #tit tour so if you want to be spoiler free block all of those tags