#God i didnt realize how starved i was for a fun game until i played this game

[littlestardescendants]

So I've been trying "What in Hell is Bad" for a while to get a feel for MC and omg first off: This MC failed NNN 100%. Someone get them water because their throat is as dry as a dusty brick.

Anyways... Aside from that I'm shocked how much I enjoy the game- Smut aside the materials and gameplay is really fun- It's so relieving to play a game that doesn't revolve around one source of currency to do anything (*cough* *cough* Devil Points in Obey Me *cough*) and I think it's been a while since I had fun playing a Gacha Game lol

Nightbringer felt like a chore. This game feels like a fun time~

( That's not to say gathering rare materials is horrifically hard but I have fun because there's so many ways to get the materials and it's fun )

[icharchivist]

hello icha!!!!! learned from my mistakes and typed this out in a separate document. first i have to say im feeling a very deep connection with citron as of late bc i was giving myself a pep talk abt like physics and i told myself "face up and man the music!" and was like "...is that wrong. theres that song called man against the music isnt there... yeah it must be right" and. well i realized later. i also think the phrase "dont cry because it happened, smile because its over" is very good. also I’m halfway thru creating a very eclectic list of like. a Pokémon team for each a3 character which is… something. kinda knew it would happen to me. might take a while for me to finish it tho now that I’m halfway bc I’m suddenly having a crisis like “wait shit I’m only confident on my understanding and characterizing of like 4 characters am I good enough” so… it’s slow going lol. anyways. i finished that damn physics thing I was giving myself a pep talk about and so am treating myself to autumn/winter. happens that watching these events is also like. the only thing which reminds me to actually like. log into a3 lol. i am so bad at gacha games. probably a good thing in the long run. ok starting from the top!

hisoka going "zzz" as his reaction made me immediately go... oh dear, please dont fall asleep in the bath and guess what happened. yeah. good thing homare was there lol. speaking of i fucking adore homare and his poetry. id buy his collection. i also wish there was a collection like if there was a master list of every poem he says in like. at the very least main story. if not i will literally do it myself. i love homare so much im like him in that back when i had to play dodgeball id always be like kufufufu they cant hit me if im friendless enough that no one pays attention to me but like in my case it actually worked out. on the subject of the pillow fight tho, hisoka's crazy strong pillow fight throw... one more mark on the list for suspicious, maybe assassin occupation. this event made me realize how much i missed winter like. i saw the stranger pretty recently (which has caused the effect of be being like "taichi!! thats my boy!!" in my head everytime he shows up lol but anyways i havent gotten to a winter play yet so im VERY hype. especially bc this seems like it stars hisoka and homare??? like oh!! oh!!!! also detective fiction... im swooning. i also just enjoy the hisoka homare dynamic a whole fucking lot i think its nice how homare was like "yeah im ride or die for this funky lil amnesiac, why wouldnt you be?" and its just like. nice. feel like hes always reaching out to hisoka which is like. man homare is so nice.

back to chronology. ofc sakyo goes cheap for the hot springs lol. on brand as ever. was very hype for the azuma sakyo dynamic bc all i remember is like azuma trashing everyone including sakyo at some game or the other in one of the winter chapters and it was very good. or was this a clip in like a stage play? either way it was delightful. at first i misinterpreted taichi going "…" after azuma and sakyo said theyd never been on a field trip bc like. taichi being quiet or noncommunicative... after going thru autumn troupe act 1 it makes me fear for my life a little lol. anyways im glad he was just like planning fun times. speaking of taichi tho we got a tasuku taichi pair for etudes!!!! im not spoiling myself for later events but i hope to GOD tasuku and taichi do like a lead co lead in SOMETHING or at least like some mixed troupe event i want them to talk!!!

also dunno if this is an intentional pun but i enjoy that its called high spirits at the hot spring bc like oh theyre having fun but also bc like. "spirits" is used to refer to a certain type of alcohol i think? which is cool. dunno if its intentional but i liked that. anyways the talent show. taichis moving rendition of single ladies... ok i know it said single fellas but like. we know. wonder if that line was a different song in japanese? its not too old at ALL tho imo. anyways the way banri and juza being themselves Are the entertainment... flashback to when banri slaps juza live on stage instead of doing a stage slap lol. my reaction to azuma essentially went:

azuma: I can offer to bare my soul, and a little more ;)

izumi: what do u mean by that???

me: hey tasuku and omi were shirtless what's ur problem with azuma

anyways i reread and from what i understand they were maybe only flexing and doing a gun show? which like. no wonder it didnt last too long then lol. also explains why they didnt have shirtless sprites i suppose lmao. i am SO curious abt what azuma ended up doing tho that fade to black is so mysterious! did he tap dance? did he pole dance? the world will never know...

oh also im not like super familiar with azuma yet but my read on his personality is definitely like "I am so touch starved All The Time but I will be chill. :) :) this is fine :)" like he just seems to rly like being around people! just like basking in presence whether or not hes rly talking that much.

i enjoyed that juza mentioned pillow fighting with his lil brother... thats nice! i think a lot of this event was just focused on ppl having fun over the drama lol bc it got wrapped up sooo quick. i liked the bit where sakyos worried that izumi was out late searching for him tho it was so sweet. table tennis match was very fun although id argue calling hisoka and juza the two quietest tho lol like... banri exists so juza isnt quiet. just like inevitably. finally, the event cg!!! azumas hair tied up... so nice! thats how I tie my hair up sometimes tho it doesnt look nearly as nice lol. taichi rambling abt his first love for so long tho... lol. ill be honest i have to reread autumn bc i was not aware of this whole situation until it came up in the stranger and i like inferred from there. the end of this event was nice! it was cute. i dont rly have much thoughts on it but im so hype for the winter play

Hello:!!! so good to see you again, freshly learning from your mistakes then :3c

the connection with Citron is a BLAST to read about. I am glad that Citron is there, on your mind, supporting you at every turns of language. It's beautiful.

AND OH THE POKEMON LIST!!! thrilled to hear about it being a wip ongoing! take your time ofc and i hope you'll feel more confident as you go for your characters interpretation! i believe in you!

lmao i'm glad the events help you remember to play a3, i'm sure that by the time you'll be done with the events you will have unlocked so much of act 2 you won't have to worry too much about it. Anyway i'm glad you treat yourself to good things :3c

of course Hisoka fell asleep in the bath. tbh this event was a lot of "Hisoka almost dies in a spring house multiple times if it wasn't for his troupesmates". Between sleeping in the bath and almost swallowing the table tenis ball... where would we be without Winter, and especially Homare, taking care fo him.

I'm SO GLAD you like Homare that much! he's so so good! i'm sure there must be a masterlist somewhere, or well. can be done anytime i guess?? but yeah Homare is fantastic and LDJFDLKFJDF the evil plan to avoid dodgeball from both of you.. this is incredible DLKJFDLKF. But yeah alas he's loved by his own so he gets hit smh.

And yeah Hisoka is just acting sus huh.

BUT YEAH... YEAH... WINTER... BELOVED.... I feel regular and normal feelings for Winter as you know, s o .

(i'm so delighted that you feel that way about Taichi though, as he deserves!! what a good boy!!!)

But yeah Winter play next!!!!! i love the winter plays so much i hope you'll like it as well!! aND YEAH HISOKA AND HOMARE AS A DUO... for a DETECTIVE story?? so good.

I'm sO GLAD you like their dynamic! yeah i adore it too. Homare was so quick to leap into taking care of Hisoka? Like i mean he immediatly called him sleeping beauty when they first met, and immediately decided to be his roommates to watch over him, and then he did everything to take care of him and it's just so sweet. Homare has such a big heart he's so gentle with Hisoka. Homey and comfortable, whenever Hisoka admits it or not ahah.

ahah wouldn't be Sakyo if he didn't need to stay cheap. BUT YEAH the Sakyo/Azuma dynamic is pretty good. oh the event you talk about i think is in some of his very first backstage storyes (that you can read if you have them since they're at this point of the chronology). There's one where they play a mafia game and Sakyo is warry of Azuma because "people like him are those you need to worry about the most" and Azuma is just ":) you wound me :) i would never :)" and then Azuma wins the game and starts to mess with everyone. It was so fun. and yeah i see which clip you mean for the stage play!! it's so so fun they have such a neat dynamic and i loved to see it in this event as well.

and omg worrying about Taichi while he was just there preparing a fun time! this child really would have worried us all back then huh

but AHH YEAH TASUKU TAICHI.... It's such a neat dynamic! ofc i won't say anything but man i love the potential of their stories, as the two ex Godza boys. To see them bond and be comfortable with each other always make me so soft.

OH NICE CATCH FOR THE PUN! i think it must be the reason for it tbh, i love it! thanks for pointing it out!

The talent show was really fun yeah ahah! I wonder what it is in Japanese too but at least the localization was hella fun!

"anyways the way banri and juza being themselves Are the entertainment." THEY'RE SO SILLY I love them so much

AND LMAO YOUR REACTION AT AZUMA I LOVE IT. YEah i think Tasuku and Omi are just flexing (which is Still. SO FUNNY. Just there saying "our talents is.. our muscles...") meanwhile Azuma is like "my talent is that i'm crazy hot :)"

But YEAH Azuma... AZUMA WHAT DID YOU DO....

your read on Azuma's personality feels pretty spot on to me ahah omg. Staying with what you know about him, the fact that with his job and all, he seems like he's starving for connection while also terrified to make himself emotionally vulnerable. He loves staying with people, listening to them, caring for them, and he's touch starved as hell (i mean it's his job) but he doesn't seem to really know how to be on the receiving hand of affection. there's a flair talk, i can't remember where, with Omi at some point, where Azuma compliments him, and Omi is just "mhm.. but you know i think that it's more about you" and ends up complimenting Azuma in depth and it let Azuma dumbfounded because he didn't expect Omi to trick him at his own game, while Omi just genuinely don't get why Azuma is reacting that way. He gives he gives he gives, and he's genuinely happy with that, but he seems to have difficulties to take, or to demand for something, while also starving for it. I have so many emotions for Azuma.

Any mentions of Juza's little bro are the best things. I love this type of mention TwT

And yeah it was such a laid back event. Honestly deserved after the crying fest that was The Stranger imo. It's good to relax once in a while and it was nice to have them have fun. There was the bitterness of both Azuma and Sakyo's past that was always a bit looming but everyone was working so hard for them to enjoy themselves that the joy just overtake any sadness i loved it.

Sakyo worrying about Izumi is always adorable TwT

And yeah the Table Tennis match was so fun and chaotic LMAO. I love the dynamic between Juza and Hisoka. Just two usually quiet boys who like sweets. Except that yeah like you say, as long as Banri is around, Juza cannot be 100% quiet. Rip.

THE CG WAS SO PRETTY i loved seeing it. And omg you can share your hairtips with Azuma how nice :D Azuma manages to make everything look beautiful smh....

Oh yeah Taichi and his first love! if i recall he mentions it quickly at the begining, that Yuki reminds him of his first love, and he says that again at some point - then the fake Portrait he does he mentions his first love again. And since then it's been a reccuring topic so yeh :3c

but yeah! this event was really sweet and laid back, not much to say about it, but it was nice to have it at all!

Hope you'll like the winter play :3c

Take care and thank you again for your thoughts <33 i love reading them!! bless you!!

[macklives]

session 92 end (bye 413...)

this session was so long but so fucking hectic what the fuck

im going to try and slim it down to its bare essentials rather than go on a full rant because im pretty sure i want to make a post later on about vriska’s characterisation (not anything about me liking her/disliking her, just an analyse on her life really, so it wont be too bias because thats not the point of an analysis. i also want to do one on aradia, been meaning to for a while... hmm... damn i havent done much analogies lately, and i THINK the last long post on a character i made was about davesprite??? so its been a fucking while. that being said, ill leave a lot of details out for this end of session notes so i dont just repeat myself later on. rather will keep to plot points here and then make character points in another)

alright

first we had a page or two where aradia confided in nepeta about her being dead which means nepeta is the only one to know this revelation. im pretty sure aradia confided because there was no other way around it, since nepeta was her server player, so it was inevitable. either way, aradia still put her trust in nep, which means, if you think about it, nobody else knows and nobody else ever will. and considering aradia asked nep to keep it a secret, it probably wont get explored by others until MAYBE later on, whenever its plot relevant, so everyone will be in the dark about it for a while which ill have to remember for future dialogue and scenes with aradia in them

then we met vriska

which, yes, is a meme. i may not have been on a lot of fandom platforms, but you cant escape some of the stuff that goes around the internet. even if you dont know undertale, im pretty sure you know of sans. or komaeda if you have/havent seen danganronpa. its just.. the memes, ya know? ive heard from many sources of the “vriska did nothing wrong” quote (even through mbmbam which??? WHAT) but since i didnt even know what it meant, i never explored it so then i never knew it was a homestuck thing. imagine my surprise...... i think even at the time, i wouldnt have known what homestuck was either honestly so it wouldnt even matter. i only recently learned about the fandom.... uhh, maybe half a year ago??? yeah, august, so my knowledge was slim but vriska is a thing ive heard before, which still shocks me

goddammit

anyways back to her

so her intro was something, we pretty much found out she likes DnD (a FANATIC in fact) and feeds her lusus the flesh of living trolls. which is fucked up. but i wont get too much into detail about that until i make a post about her life on alternia and the consequences of such. or maybe just alternia in general...?? or *both* heheheh but i feel i need more information before i go off on a tangent about that

then we met??? white text dude?? who is a major asshole but an asshole with insults that hURted, to think i felt bad for VRISKA when that happened. woah.

i said before, but... karkat, he cant really hit deep because his insults are just HIM and his way to express himself. like some people find it natural to just go “FUCK YOU” to show emphasis on a point, and thats just karkats way. he may do it so aggressively that it takes you a second to realize what he said, but usually i dont take anything to heart whenever he spurts out some insults. ive progressed to the point where whatever he says, is just “karkat” and not him trying to be actively mean. rather, its now funny whenever he does say anything SOMEWHAT creative, dude has an imagination that goes on for miles

but vriska?? she IS trying to be a bully, you can tell. but i feel theres something much more to that. like shes trying to prove herself and her “blueblooded” demeanours or whatever the hierarchy is. she doesnt want to show emotions so she makes herself a barrier by being mean is what i can gather from her conversation with kanaya. im pretty sure youre not supposed to understand her until its pointed out and rather see her as an “antagonist” at first, but yeah, her insults are more pitiful than anything and i also cant take her too seriously. i may not like her as a person but her character is interesting because you cant always have the goodie two shoes as the protags. it doesnt diversify the characterisation so i like vriska as someone who makes the plot work and it becomes more interesting since you have someone that makes it harder for the main crew to progress. a happy-go-lucky adventure with no trouble and no turnabouts would be boring in a way. so having a character like vriska, or like this new white text guy, it makes you stop for a second and realize oh shit okay, here’s where shit CAN go wrong and WHY. and i do especially like it when these bastards of characters somehow have more depth than being the “bastard characters”. kinda humanizes them in a way. doesnt mean you have to LIKE them continuously, but theyre humans (trolls whatever) in the end and every person has their own story whether its for better or for worse

for example, i like her being placed into the story, along with white text, by how its all leading to this “accident” and is slowly showing us hints on what happened, but in the end, it wont be until later that we know the full story. even if it was in the past, it apparently is very vital to the plot and shapes how the characters act in the future, so important aspects like that are to look out for. and usually they only occur when theres been some trouble within friend dynamics. so without these bastard of characters, plot wouldnt grow AS strong and i often keep that in mind when i explore a story.

anyways, I HAD A POINT TO THIS: so vriska and karkat are characters who are yes, mean, but it seems to be their personality, and the way they either show emotions and convey feelings (karkat) or make a barrier so they DONT show emotions to produce vulnerability (vriska), white text guy seems to mostly be out to be an asshole. he told vriska she was useless to sum it up but im not too sure if this is one of those “first dialogue” to mould out a bias opinion before we even get to the character themselves, but judging by how vriska and karkat played out, he surely means something bad and i dont know how to explain it. but i cannot base anything off from one piece of dialogue. i dont even know what else to call him other than white text guy so...... ill just leave that out for now, until we finally get his introduction

though, i do wish to mention, and will expand on, im not wrong when i say karkat and vriska are similar but in different context. sorry if youre favourite is karkat and you dont like vriska, or vice versa, but uhhhh their introductions are so similar its uncanny and the way they’re portrayed is the same except one is more on crack about the meddling, while the other is angry about the meddling. similar to how it was with karkat, we were introduced to vriska talking with someone we knew (tavros) whom she obviously didnt like, so obviously, from her point of view, she wanted to be menacing. like how karkat was menacing to jade because she wouldnt listen to his point... he got angry, so he lashed out. but us, the readers, didnt know that. we thought “oh god its this asshole” until we made it further in the story and started to warm up to karkat. it may not be the same with vriska, she may be a bully regardless, but you cannot tell me we moulded a bias towards her character as we did when we first read karkat. theyre both truly mean to other people, maybe both for different reasons, but i do want to point out the similarities and not leave that out. im pretty sure andrew basically gave us a conversation that formed our opinion of a character right off the bat rather than go into depth of WHY they did it, and how they are naturally without the conditions of the game. which, you can also see with vriska when she conversed with kanaya. andrew started off with a character who only appears to speak once, and makes you judge them from first appearance alone, without any explanation as to why they said what they said and how they are with other characters, let says. so you assume they were simply a rude character. now look how karkat turned out. so im guessing in homestuck, the first impression should never be the opinion you stick with until MAYBE 5 more conversations with that character (each one different)

OKAY done with the vriska introduction, now to slutquius

yes, hes kinda weird, i have stated that many times. i have no idea what to say about him other than he likes porn, he likes centaur dick which just so happens to be his lusus as well and if that isnt a red flag idk what is

he also likes his lusus milk, right from the udders of his guardian

fun times, fun times

my opinion of equius kinda.. differs. which i should really put in place the “dont judge by first impression” rule, because at first i thought he was rude with, then i thought he was hhh okay, because i understood why he was being so protective over nepeta and her team placement, since the people she was going to play with WERE dangerous. but if you think about it, both sides will probably put you in danger. it just depends on which ones you confide in more to protect your back rather than those which would cause trouble on purpose, in my HONEST opinion. so equius was a little overdramatic on that part, but i got what he meant. he was on the blue team and he didnt want to leave nepeta alone without him on the red. but then this session happened. and he went back to being weird again because of the whole porn thing, especially being so open about it like dude chill youre 13. but the thing is, then i felt bad for him because hes basically touch starved. to say that he could break anything he touches, i doubt people would go up to him for hugs. in fear they would be crushed to death by a simple hug. so im guessing hes rather lonely and doesnt really know how to interact because of this. so i felt sad that he had to live a life where he needs to be careful of everything he touches so it doesnt break randomly. see? poor dude. but then things got weird. and im pretty sure hes a masochist. so my opinion on equius is a fucking cosine graph

which brings us to the final point:

gamzee and equius’ conversation

i dont even know.....like.........gamzee was unaware that equius was using him for his own power play roleplay, right? gamzee knew it was a roleplay but it had had some.. idk.... obvious sexual implications? and i bet gamzee didnt really know that? he thought they were only venting out through a simple roleplay and trying to get closer because he originally thought equius hated him, considering equius flat out said “i hate you” and gamzee went “you tell me everyday and im okay with that” so.. gamzee probably wanted only to get closer to equius so he helped out his little problem which.. thats so sweet but i feel bad he was coerced into something he didnt get, especially since he was innocent enough to go along without knowing equius’ true gain

anyways, equius was getting off with the hierarchy thing. considering he’s “lower” than gamzee, and gamzee is surprisingly ...high on the spectrum??? so equius wanted gamzee to boss him around, because it felt only natural to him since he’s the “inferior one” and gamzee is The Big Man. like i get that, but it was written in a way that was so uncomfortable, that i wish i didnt. equius is just a weird character... hes not BAD per say, but hes... hes something alright

but im really liking gamzee. the two things which struck me in that one conversation, was the “i dont get why we should dictate people by the colour of their blood, i just see people as people” piece of dialogue and “i cant go around pleasing just everything so its alright if you hate me”

thats... so good, idk. i really liked that. i also really liked when kanaya said “youre dangerous but dangerous people are needed and are important because it shapes you” like <33 my fucking heart

god homestuck may be a tad on the weird side with some of its characters but it surely knows how to create great lines of dialogue

and that concludes the long 4 hour session i did, hope you all enjoyed it

with that, i rest

[baekkieberry]

𝕦𝕟𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕪 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧!𝐚𝐮 𝐛𝐚𝐞𝐤𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧 1

Genre: demon!AU, Fluff. (angst + smut in future chapters), Supernatural

Characters: Baekhyun, EXO (mostly beagle line + Kyungsoo)

Pairing: Baekhyun x Reader

Summary: Baekhyun had been a demon and living in hell his whole life, hanging with his friends and having way to much fun, until one day he gets kicked out for going too far. He's forced to live in earth until he redeems himself, until he met you, and maybe he doesn’t want to go back anymore. 

Warnings: none 

Word Count: 2411

A/N: hii im sorry this took so long :( I’ve been busy but already had more chapters done! I’ll update more often. Hope you like it! (and yes it’s still inspired by @youxidol ^^) 

I’ll make a masterlist soon! And more storiesxdrabblesxoneshots from other members and baek! stream city lights, you, thats okay and what a life! 

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masterlist:  intro   chap1

Chapter 1:

Baekhyun walked the whole way home feeling extremely bubbly and dangling his zootopia lunch box like a little kid. When he got home, Sabrina was outside already waiting for him “Hi sweetcheeks listen, somethings has been happening to me” she was looking at him while in the back, only for Baekhyun’s eyes you could see his best friend playing with her hair “Ican feel that someone is behind me and playing with my hair but I don’t see anyone” “Well Sabrina I couldn’t tell you cause NO ONE is behind you” he emphasized the no one so Chanyeol could lay her off “Oh well maybe is your beautiful face that’s always stuck in my head sweetcheeks” and just when things got weirder she leaned and kiss him in the cheek. She left to her apartment leaving a very traumatized Baekhyun and Chanyeol behind.

“Ok what the fuck” “Dude you barely talk to the girl you actually like and this old lady just kissed you. Maybe you should reconsider the whole sugar mommy thing” Baekhyun slapped his best friend and they both laughed. Once in Baekhyun’s apartment, Chanyeol finally asked his best friend how were things “You know Yeol I think she may be able to like me back, she laughed at everyone of my jokes and she loved the oreo mini cake that Soo made” “Yeah well Soo it’s not gonna like coming everyday and cook for you” 

Chanyeol was right, his now soon to be personal chef was not gonna like doing this everyday, so Baekhyun decided to give it a try, but with his powers. After Chanyeol left, Baekhyun spent all night trying to recreate Soo’s recipe and when he finally achieved it, he made 500 of them to have for the rest of the week, you did ate like 15 of them. 

In the morning Baekhyun was greeted with a Chanyeol, Sehun and Chen but all disguised as Sabrina “Oh my beautiful sweetcheeks come here so I can kiss you” Sehun started “Yes let’s make out and since you already seen my underwear it shouldn’t be a problem” Chen said laughing and making his disguise disappear. “Can’t believe you told them Yeol, I already thought I had enough with you” he said while going to his living room. “C’mon you didn’t expect me to keep it to myself, If you want I can tell your girlfriend too” “Don’t you dare”. 

They spent the morning talking and watching tv until it was time for Baekhyun to get ready. He couldn’t keep smiling and dancing to every song that he heard. He even danced to Sabrina’s loud personification of Dancing Queen. When he finally got ready he went to the park and he was surprised that you were actually looking for him. “OMG I thought you weren’t coming to meet me, you know me the crazy oreo lady” “I kinda like getting my food stealed” you laughed and looked at his outfit and how it seemed to be tight but well fitted at the same time. You didn’t noticed that you were checking him out a little too obvious “Well do you want to eat the mini cakes or do you want to eat me?” Baekhyun said with a smirk “Oh I’m sorry I didnt I mean not that I don’t but I just… Ok give me the cake and ignore this” You said while blushing and sitting in the grass. 

“Don’t worry, I know that if you had to choose, the cakes would totally beat my ass” You looked at him and laughed. “So tell me you mini cabaekkie, what do you like to do besides… baking” he actually laughed at the new nickname you gave him and you realized how much you liked his laugh “Cabaekkie I like that. Well if I may speak for cabaekkie he actually likes playing games and obviously doing Sabrina’s laundry, that is my favorite hobby of them all” “Well how could you not love it? Old lady underwear? Hell yeah” You two continued to joke about Sabrina and you actually learned a lot about him. 

He was obsessed with PUBG, loved his friends but specially his best friend Chanyeol. He seemed like fun so you wanted to meet him but Baekhyun said he didn’t want that to happen because Chanyeol would expose him “Oh come on I want to hear your little things from when you were little” “That ain’t happening, he knows too much. He’s actually very lucky that he’s still alive” 

This little meetups continued for another two weeks. You would meet him and he would give you his little cakes while you talked about everything that happened the last day or funny stories that you had. It was getting extremely comfortable. After a week Baekhyun finally asked for your number and it was possibly the best thing you guys had. You had this little game of trying to find ordinary people that looked like a celebrity. This originated from one time you saw a woman that looked like Elton John. 

Baekhyun went to sleep with a smile in his face and started listening to love songs more often, maybe even singing them in the shower. “Yeez hyung you are acting like a child today” Kyungsoo said one day “He was always been a child” Junmyeon said from the kitchen. “Look you guys she is one of the best things that has come in my life and I want to invite her to dinner today so i need some help” “Help with what? Literally you’re a demon like..” Kyungsoo hummed “No hyung with what can I say” “Just be yourself she seems to like it… weirdly” Junmyeon said. 

Baekhyun was extremely nervous when he picked his zootopia lunch box that day. You guys had been bonding a lot, calls and texts daily, going to the park at the same time everyday and he was ready to take it to the next level. “Hey so what if we went somewhere nice to eat? not just pastries like real dinner, I know some nice restaurants” he said while you ate “Are you asking me on a date?” “Thats exactly what I’m doing” he said while smirking at you, ‘always so cocky’ you thought “Why are you always so fearless?” You said jokingly at him “Is that a yes?” you wanted to play so you took your time and smiled “It would be my pleasure to go” and at that moment his eyes light up and if he wasn’t pretending to be human, he would have fireworks appear. “The  i’ll pick you up at seven” he said standing up “Wait hold up, today?” you said confused “Yeah today, now gorgeous write your address in my phone so that I can pick you up and just worry about… nothing” he said smiling at you like a happy puppy “Oh okay” and like that he left. And that’s when you noticed, it was the first time he had called you beautiful. 

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When you got home, you went directly to your roommate bedroom screaming “OMG IRENE YOU WON'T EVEN BELIEVEEEEEE WHAT JUST HAPPENED” Irene’s face popped out of her door that was barely open “he did it didn’t he?” “YES HE DID FINALLY OMG QJXHQJHXNWHD” and with that you throw yourself into her bed and started screaming “OMG WHEN IS IT?” Irene joined you with happiness “Today but he didn’t say an hour so I need to get ready now” and just as he seemed to have heard you, your phone beeped, he was picking you at 7. 

“Oh my god maybe he’s gonna murder you” Irene said behind your shoulder “Fuck off and help me” “Do you want help or do you want me to leave” “Can you do both?” you said laughing.

Your best friend and you spend the whole day trying to find an outfit that you liked and you went with a red dress that revealed enough skin but not too much, and by 8:15 you were all done. 

Baekhyun on the other hand was going crazy to leave. And when he arrived he was nervous to ring the bell (yes he was going to ring the bell). He had bought flowers and he was afraid they were going to die, so he decided to put a spell on them so they would never die, plus it was a nice gesture. He ring the bell on your shared home and another girl answered the door “Hey wow” she said when he looked at him “Ah yeah hi are you Irene?” She looked extra confused “Yes?” “I'm here for your beautiful roommate is she here?” Irene giggled “You’re Baekhyun, come in I’ll let her now you’re here” and he entered their home. It was a small house but had it’s charm “Hey cabaekkie” you said casually “Wow you look perfect” He said looking at you up and down with love eyes and you immediately blushed “Oh my god get a room already” Irene was clearly making things uncomfortable so you guys decided to leave. Once outside you saw that he had a grey audi “Seriously what do you do for a living?” he smirked and opened the door for you “One day I’ll tell you, right now let’s get some dinner I’m starving” you entered his car and then he joined, “Where are you taking me Baekkie?” he took your hand and said “You’ll love it”. And he kept your hand in his, listening to music and singing everything “you have a lovely voice” you said smiling “That’s certainly not the only thing lovely about me” he said “I have a lot of secret charms” you looked at the window and said “Can’t wait to know all of them”. 

The restaurant was very amazing. Candle lighted and had a beautiful lake at the back, it had simplicity but was fancy still “Wow baekkie seriously you can afford this?” “Omg stop and enjoy okay beautiful?” he said taking your hand and asking for a table “Do you want outside?” he asked “No I will be cold” he smiled and asked for a table near the windows. 

The rest of the night was as romantic and fun as it could be. He was himself with you. “So I gotta ask you something” he said while you eat dessert, you nodded so he continued “Besides cake and oreo’s, do you like something else?” he was desperate to know how you felt about him. Because even though he was certain you liked him, he needed to hear those words.

“Okay so we’ve been talking for a while and you haven’t learned anything about me? You even invited me to a date and you don’t know anything about me? Seriously Baekhyun, the nerve yeez” you said shaking you head sarcastically. He laughed, of course you would answer like that. You didn’t want to say it yet. You liked drama, and drama means telling him you like him at the end of the date with a kiss on the lips and leave him lovestruck. 

He watched you eat the cake with the biggest love eyes “What?” you asked “Yes beautiful?” he said taking a strand of you hair that was blocking his view. You locked eyes with him, he was certainly the most beautiful human being in the whole universe and he was looking at you like you were the only girl he will ever like “You know I like when you eat cake?” he said smiling “Why?” you blushed “Well you look so happy and I love to see you happy, plus your eyes shine a lot lately, wonder why?” he knew why they were shining. You looked down and whispered “If you already know why do you ask” he laughed. You continued talking about little stuff and sometimes you didn’t talk, but you were comfortable with the silence between you two. 

When you both finished dinner he decided to take you to the little lake at the back. It was beautiful, the moon was shining on it and there were little christmas lights near the edge so that it wasn’t so dark. He turned to look at you “Will you, princess y/n walk with me?” and he proceeded to kneel and extend his hand towards you, you laughed cause it was so exaggerated “Of course young prince” you bowed and took his hand. You laughed but never let go of each others hand. 

The moon was beautiful that night and Baekhyun never thanked more than now, that he was sent to earth, he met you. You two walked holding hands and then he stopped “Y/N you look beautiful and not just today, like you always look beautiful and it amazes me so much. I never thought that i would met someone like you. You are truly a unique piece of art” he started getting closer to you “I know you like me and you know I like you, I want to be part of your life for as long as you let me, and maybe I’m coming a little to strong so for now I will just kiss you, because you don’t know how long I’ve wanted to” his warm hands cupped your face and you felt shivers everywhere, suddenly everything outside wasn’t important anymore. All that mattered was in front of you. He leaned and finally, he kissed you. His lips were soft and warm and he tasted like the strawberries he ate from the cake. you continued the kiss and his hands moved to your hips and at the same time you wrapped our hands around his neck, never separating from each other. He was intoxicating and was a very good kisser. You didn’t want to pull away and Baekhyun wouldn’t even dare to do it. You were everything he has been imagining, you were his new drug and he wasn’t going to stop kissing you. 

When you separated he whined and you laughed “Okay you big baby, you basically kissed me without my consent” “Did I?” he said with a pervert face, you rolled your eyes and said “And yes I like you too” he smiled like a puppy and you smiled back “You remind me of a corgi” He didn’t let go of you hips but he laughed out loud “You remind me of my new girlfriend” 

[attina-the-responsible]

Mother, Make Me (a bird of prey) ~*~ [Siren]

In which Panic and Attina are reunited in the Underworld and must escape...[takes place: March 10-11, idk time is funky in the Underworld]

[tw: underworld shenanigans, so creepy/spooky, pretty mild tho it’s mostly emotional distress, but if you want a summary, hmu!]

PANIC: Thrown into a world Panic had tried to escape left him frantic on where to go. Sure the Underworld hadn’t changed too much there were demon’s faces that he didn’t recognize. There were alleys and hidden entrances he didn’t know about. And not having Percy’s voice in his head left him lonely. He didn’t have anyone to rely on but himself.

He ignored the laughter of others knowing that the happiness here wasn’t normally a good thing. He was especially avoiding anyone that potentially could remember him. 

It had been twenty years and Panic would have all the time in the world to catch up with them once Attina was safe.

He just needed to follow the magic signature.And he followed until he stood in front of his own empty home.

Stepping inside Panic walked through the room until a small creek echoed through the house from the sound of his room. Rushing in Panic wasn’t surprised to see the room void of any items. Solely Attina in the room. Shifting back into Percy’s form Panic rushed forward wrapping Attina up in his arms.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry but let’s move. Let’s get you out.”

ATTINA: Attina woke up in the dark. At first, it was so dark that she couldn’t see anything at all. It was as if she was sitting in black, black water. No matter how many times she blinked, her vision didn’t clear, though there was nothing covering her eyes.

And then, slowly, the room around her was revealed, the darkness peeling back. 

Her head was still spinning, the panic stuck in her chest. Where was she? Who was it that had taken her? She had no idea. And her only thought was: poachers. They’d finally come for her. And Attina wasn’t brave. Even though she had her daughter to protect, she wasn’t brave. There wasn’t a bone in her body that wanted to fight. Maybe, if it came to it, she would. If someone put her hands on her and tried to actually, physically kill her, maybe she’d snap out of it, but as it stood, she did nothing. Nothing at all. She was too terrified to even look too deeply into the shadows that surrounded her. Like she was a little kid, imagining monsters in the corners of her bedroom.

How had they found her? Did they have the rest of her family? Who were they? 

Am I going to die? She wanted to ask, but she couldn’t find her voice. It had been stolen from her.

She didn’t know how long she stood there, trembling in the cold, for it was very cold. A kind of cold that seeped into your bones, penetrating deep down, until it felt like you’d break if you took a single step. It felt like eons. As if entire lifetimes had passed, stretching before her. And yet, by the time Panic burst in from the door (there was a door? Where was the door?) It had felt like seconds, minutes.

She jumped as he got his arms around her, but she managed a shaky breath and collapsed against him, her hand clutching at his shirt. God, she was so relieved to see him. It splashed over her, warming her from the cold, his hug like bathwater. 

“Panic, I-I--” she tried to say, but she didn’t have the words. 

A chuckle emerged from the dark.

“Well, well, well--you did come after all.” 

PANIC: Panic held Attina as close to him as possible. If this was the last time he got to do this please just let her know how sorry he was. How much he loved her. Please just know those things.

Kissing her on the top of her head even though the voice shook him to the core Panic twisted around keeping Attina behind him one hand on her hip to make sure she stayed right there.

Taking a deep breath Panic glared in his human form though he didn’t want to make this any harder on Tina by throwing that out there. “I did, you wanted me back you got that, no need to keep Attina here. Humans aren’t supposed to be brought down until they are killed.”

ATTINA: Attina had no idea what was going on. How had Panic found her? She was so glad to see him, but she was also terrified. She didn’t want anything to happen to him. Attina may not be brave, but she’d rather be the one to die than the people she loved. If she could do that and keep them safe, she would. But, he was here now and there was no changing that--nor changing the fact that Attina felt so, so grateful it made her heart start beating again in her chest.

She was still clinging to him when the voice hissed out and she stumbled slightly as Panic pushed her behind him. From around his shoulder, she could just make out a figure on the edge of the darkness, flickering like a blown out candle. She couldn’t make out any of the features, its formlessness more terrifying than anything.

Maybe this was just a nightmare. Attina squeezed her eyes shut. 

“Seems you’ve forgotten how things work around here,” the shadow figure said and suddenly the room lit up. A fireball clutched in the demon’s hand. For it was a demon--Attina registered that as soon as she opened her eyes again and saw the figure in full. 

The demon tossed the fireball up and down, playing with it idly. “We haven’t had a new plaything in so long. We’re all starving.” 

PANIC: “You’re right I forgot how things went down here because guess what I’ve been the one enjoying top life for two decades unlike you lot who are stuck down here playing and starving.” Don’t get Panic wrong he was scared shitless. This was where he would have curled into himself. Let them do what they wanted to do.

It was easier to be a play thing then to fight back and be nearly killed.

“Like I said you can have me back. I offer a challenge. A little fight. A little fun. Catch me if you can and the whole thing.” He would be caught he knew that. But Panic had to play into that fact he was going to be a game. A fun little thing for them. Attina. Sweet Attina wouldn’t be a challenge and that was a good thing.

ATTINA: “Panic,” Attina managed to squeak as she grabbed onto his arm, but she was quite sure he couldn’t hear her over the sound of the other demon’s cackling. She knew that he couldn’t leave her all alone in here--wherever...here was. (She was starting to put it together, but was thankful for the threat before them if only because she didn’t want to think about the rest, about the chill up her spine…) 

“Oh, you’ve gotten more fun since you’ve been gone, haven’t you?” the monster said, tilting its head to the side. The fireball in its hand got bigger and its eyes flashed. “But that doesn’t sound as much fun as torturing the both of you!”

With that, the demon cocked his arm back and threw the fireball right at them. 

PANIC: Fun. Fun was something Panic could work with. Demons like this enjoyed the chase. Enjoyed the power. He just somehow needed to play his cards right.

The fireball was thrown and honestly Panic didnt have the time to think. Turning his back to the demon Panic let go of Percy's form shifting back into the shadows of his growing large enough the fireball hit him square in his back.

Cursing and crying out Panic stumbled his weight pressed against Attina.

"Next chance we get we have to run." Panic whimpered out. "I'm sorry I need to look like this I can't manage holding a human form as well." He added cause oh God she would hate him now but she had to stay close for a little longer.

ATTINA: The fire flashed bright but it was only a backlight for the demon in front of her. Attina made a sound in her throat--not realizing at first that that was--Panic. Her Panic. For a moment, she thought it was just another demon or some trick. Her brain was too fatigued with fear to really catch up and even Panic’s voice sounded different, rasping and deeper. But still, she did her best to catch him when he stumbled forward, more on instinct than anything. 

All Attina could do was nod--she didn’t have time to think about Panic’s new form (and really, was it so different from Attina turning into a mermaid? How different she looked then.)

They turned and Attina tripped, fear and pregnancy making her feet heavy, but they scrambled towards the door of what Attina could vaguely recognize as a building--a house? 

“Aw, where are you going?” called the demon and tossed another fireball. It smacked against the doorway as they ran through. Attina let out a yelp.

Then, they were in the dark again.

Not for long.

Suddenly, the demon was at the end of the hallway they’d turned down, another fireball lighting up its shadowy features.

PANIC: Panic wrapped an arm around Attina. His body wanted to curl into himself. He wanted to stop loving and curl into a ball. But if being in the human world for two decades had shown him anything it was resilience to keep fighting.

His fiancee and his daughter were counting on him. After all, he had gotten them into this.

Panic ignored the demon as they ran. He knew these walls. He knew this ground. He knew how to get out of here. 

Envy blocked his path.

Yanking Tina into another room Panic spun around. He had locked themselves in. No. They were in Pain's room and Pain always loved to sneak out. 

Running to the window he yanked it opened hearing the footsteps echo closer. If he was alone he could turn into a bird and never be seen again. 

"There's a ledge and small drop. Look to see if you can make it?" Panic stated stepping between her and the door.

ATTINA: Did Panic have a plan? Attina didn’t know, it seemed like he might? 

Apparently, that plan involved jumping out of a window?!

Attina knew that she didn’t really have a choice in the matter and, maybe if she wasn’t pregnant, it wouldn’t be that hard. She had snuck out of her own second story window once or twice in her youth. She wasn’t in her youth anymore. She also had no idea what was going on. She was also pregnant.

“I--” she started to protest, but the floorboards creaked and she knew whatever was hunting them was getting closer. Her legs felt like jelly as she lifted a knee onto the window sill and ducked out of it best she could. She smacked her head on the pane hard enough to see stars but she just grit her teeth as she swung her leg down and tried to find the ledge he was talking about. When she did, she put her weight on it and started swinging her other leg over the sill. 

The door shattered open, surprising Attina who gave a yelp and almost lost hold of the window sill, her foot slipping on the ledge. It wasn’t that far down--she should probably just let go. Closing her eyes, she pushed off, doing her best to jump instead of fall. 

She landed on her feet--at first. She felt a pain shoot up her leg and she fell backwards, smacking into the ground and getting the breath knocked out of her. She felt like a turtle on its back, uncertain how to get up. If they weren’t in some sort of mortal peril, it might even be funny.

“Panic!” she called--blinking her eyes once or twice and squinting up towards the window into the dark.

PANIC: The door had cracked up splintering and burning the wood as Attina jumped out and Panic was sorry that he had forced her to this. She was right when she didn’t want to date a demon. It was too complicated and too dangerous. 

Panic couldn’t miss the next fire ball all he could do was hold up his hand and when Tina was clear jump out the window himself. Turning into a bird the moment he jumping not even aiming for the ledge. Just jumping. 

And when he landed he changed back and wrapped an arm around Attina’s shoulder pulling her up and running keeping her weight on her trying to avoid her touching any of the burns on his body. They just needed to get to the back alleys. They just needed to run.

“We’ll hide out. Okay. We’re going to run and we’re going to hide. There was a place me and my brother hid all the time.” Panic stated as he twisted around his burning house without a look back.

ATTINA: At first, Attina didn’t recognize the demon in front of her. For a moment, she couldn’t distinguish between the one hunting her and the one she loved. The fear twisted in her gut as Panic reached down, but she let out a sigh of relief when he only did so to help pull her to her feet. She felt so heavy. So heavy and exhausted. As if they had been running for years. Had they been running for years? She had no idea. It was as if time had ceased to exist.

And then--Panic said his brother. A place they used to always go.

This was his home.

This was his real home.

Holy shit, she was in the Underworld. Could she even say “holy shit”?!

There was no time to think about it further than that, because Panic had grabbed her and tugged her around the side of the house. 

“Come out, come out wherever you are!” she heard the voice of the other demon boom. 

“Panic, where--where are we going? What’s going on?” she finally managed to find her voice, almost wanting to tug him to a stop, though she didn’t dare to.

PANIC: Panic spun around, as much as he remember this place it was when he was small. There were places they could hide that weren’t big enough for them now. There was this over hang, just past some trees. This hole in the wall basically. But it would be big enough for Attina at the very least and he could shift if need be. Attina needed to rest too.

So many things needed to happen.

And his voice was still trailing around them. Everywhere. Closing them all in.

“I don’t know what’s going on. But you’re in the underworld and I’m so sorry.” Panic apologized turning into the trees. “Okay hide in here, can you crawl in, it’s probably very small but its what I have right now. He’ll get bored they always do.”

ATTINA: That answer was not satisfying.

If they were not being chased by a bloodthirsty demon or whatever, it would not satisfy! She’d want a proper answer. She needed a proper answer. Looked like she wasn’t going to get one. Not right now anyway. Maybe if they lived--maybe then. 

Attina didn’t bloody know if they were going to live, though! She had moved past fear into anger? Sure, maybe. Whatever the feeling in her gut, she didn’t like it. Her whole body ached. 

So, she didn’t argue--she did her best to squeeze, stopping about halfway and turning to look at Panic as if suddenly remembering something. “What about you?”

PANIC: Tina was looking like she would be able to fit in and Panic sighed leaning his head onto hers. “I’ll try to draw him away. I’ll try him to get him away from you. I’ll come back. They never kill me, it’s just the game. Stay still for me please. And then we’ll get you out.”

Panic didn’t have long. He was already wasting time here but he needed to make sure she was okay too. At least in the given situation. 

“Can you fit?”

ATTINA: For the record: Attina didn’t want to leave Panic--or have him leave her. She couldn’t even untangle this from a selfish want not to be alone or her worry about him. Her brain wasn’t exactly functioning on “rationality” (as if it ever did.) She just knew that nothing about this situation was good or right or what she wanted.

Which meant that she was frozen into immobility. 

It was a wonder she was even able to nod her head, but she did so. Her words all caught in her throat but she reached out and grabbed at his arm, holding it and squeezing his bicep for a moment before she let  go and began to squeeze into the tight space he had shown her.

PANIC: Panic tried to offer Attina a smile. Anything to show her she would be okay. He would be back, maybe not in one piece but he would be back. He wouldn’t kill Panic, that was a certainty. “I love you.” Panic offered before he ran.

He flew and he shifted and he kept going until he lead the demon into the town, even with rumbles of laughter. He taunted Panic as Panic hid under boxes and behind walls.

He spoke about how they couldn’t hide forever. They couldn’t get out of here either so they would be stuck and he was in for the long game. His voice rang through the streets and some of the lesser demons were already taking shelter. Doubling back Panic’s hands shook as he ran toward Attina, hours having passed but he collapsed in front of her.

“Are you okay?”

ATTINA: Time stopped.

Once Panic disappeared into the dark--time stopped.

Attina had never lived in such a strange limbo before. Everything was still. Everything was quiet. Even Amelia in her womb didn’t move.  It reminded her of that classical piece. 4’33--four minutes and thirty three seconds of holds. 

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“Are you okay?”

Attina jumped and turned her head, looking at Panic--her gaze, at first, vacant. 

Then, she reached out for him, touching the corner of his arm. He was hot to the touch when everything else had been cold, cold, cold.

“I’m--fine,” she told him, her voice hollow. “Are you?” Her voice managed to color with some concern, even if no color existed in a place like this.

PANIC: Leaning on one knee Panic leaned his head into the little hidey hole. He didn’t want to collapse but he was. His world was closing in, darkening if he let himself close his eyes for a moment too long. He could just curl up and sleep. He could just curl up and stop.

Wake up in an hour and do it again.

“I’m fine, this is nothing.” Panic joked focusing as he slipped back into Percy’s form sweat covering his forehead.

“We need to get you out of her. Back up before- just we need to get you back up.”

ATTINA: Attina was relieved when Panic turned back into the form that Attina was most familiar with. She hated the fact and maybe she’d be able to deal with her Giant Shadow Demon fiance better if she wasn’t also in the Underworld and being chased by other equally as terrifying demons. In this form she could frown and reach up to brush at his sweat-slicked hair. 

She wanted to tell him to rest, but she knew that they couldn’t. That they couldn’t stop now. And she wanted to get home. She didn’t want to be there for another second longer than necessary. It already felt like she’d lived a lifetime in this darkness.

“Okay,” she agreed, her eyes teary, but she gave him a smile and then crawled out of her hiding spot--covered in a kind of grime she didn’t want to look too closely at. 

“Where--where do we go?” She looked around. Everything looked dark and that was all.

PANIC: “One of the entrances to the underworld is at Swynlake, If I can get you to that one, There is no demon in you or Amelia.” Panic hoped there wasn’t enough Demon in Amelia, “They have to let you out. You were never meant to be here.” Panic whispered taking her hand and starting that walk. His back hunched over a touch.

“It’s hard to describe this world but we have to walk through, There are cracks. If we can find one. Just one. You can get out. You might even find the gift shop.” He added sarcastically.

ATTINA: Panic might as well be speaking gibberish to her. Well, she knew about the entrance to the Underworld in Swynlake. It was how they’d met, after all, wasn’t it? It was all the rest that didn’t make sense--cracks? A gift shop? Maybe this was really a dream. Maybe this was just a nightmare--some sort of FMT, which she’d read about. A transference of weird demon energy. 

She would wake up from all of this and Panic would laugh and say that isn’t what it was like at all.

Until then, Attina had to walk, had to trust Panic. 

“O-okay,” she said again, much more softly and she took his hand. “Lead the way. I trust you.” 

PANIC: Panic in that moment hated that she trusted him, her trusting him is what got her into this. If she never dated him they wouldn’t have grabbed her. If she wasn’t carrying Amelia, they wouldn’t be interested in her.

But Panic had to try to not focus on that. This was his last few moments with her. He couldn’t spend too much time on that. Not as a towering loomed ahead of them. He opened his mouth to speak multiple times before he shook his head and didn’t.

“Don’t talk to anyone. Don’t look at anyone.” Panic mumbled out as they walked past bars and alley ways. It was walking past someone who leered and Panice force them to take another back street. He may not have been here in a long time but he remembered the walk.

ATTINA: She didn’t need telling twice. It wasn’t hard for Attina to keep her eyes to the ground. The last thing she wanted to do was draw attention to them. Even if this was a dream (it wasn’t, she knew it wasn’t), she wanted to do her best to keep her head down. She was always one who preferred to keep her head down. She wasn’t Andrina, Adella, Aquata, Alana, Ariel--any of them, really. It was Attina who stood up for others. She wished she was. She wished she could be the girl who saved the world.

But, she wasn’t. She was barely strong enough to handle dating a demon. What kind of love was so flimsy as to crumble when terrified?

Still, she loved him as she took step after step, no matter how daunting and she didn’t look up, not once. She watched as the ground beneath their feet changed over and over, the ground different, as if daring her to glance upwards, at the rest of her surroundings. But, she didn’t. She trusted where Panic led and let him guide her through the zig-zagging alleyways that felt as if they would never end and--through a door in a wall, until they were standing at the shore of a lake.

Attina knew it was water and then, she couldn’t help but look up--the water called to her, it always had.

Everything was still and peaceful and quiet, except for the lapping of the water on the shore and the creaking of boats in the distance that she could see through the fog.

“What is this place?” she asked, her voice no louder than a whisper.

PANIC: Panic let out a sigh when they got out of the city, stretching out his shoulders feeling the cracks and tears at his skin. He looked back at the city only for a moment. Only one moment before Attina brought his attention back and he offered her a small smile.

“The Stygian Marshes. It’s not something you want to swim through.” Panic murmured walking them to a waiting boat. There always was one. Ready to drag someone to their death for coming in or leaving.  Holding onto the edge Panic helped Attina in.

“I’m going to slip out of this, back to my true form. It might keep some of the creatures in the water away from us as we cross.” But he needed Attina to be okay with that too. 

ATTINA: Yeah, Attina didn’t want to go swimming through that black, murky nothingness.

Except...she kind of did. Gosh, nothing would feel better than slipping into her true form. Maybe the water would make her feel weightless, instead of so, so heavy. Maybe she’d be faster and stronger than all those...things in the water--souls or demons or monsters or all three. Maybe if Attina was braver she could become her true self and then be able to save herself too, so that Panic wouldn’t have to. 

And maybe, that thinking made her more comfortable with the idea of Panic in his own true form. Or maybe, she just wanted to get the hell out of here.

Ha, get the hell out of here.

She snorted once and then started giggling. 

“Sorry, sorry, yeah that’s--that’s fine.” It wasn’t fine, not really. None of this was fine. She swallowed her laughter down. Neptune, maybe she’d officially lost it. In the boat, she got her sea legs easily and barely jerked when the boat started moving. Instead, she watched the waters, wanting to reach down into them and feel the coolness on her fingers. It was tempting--more so than the gold and jewels that sparkled down below, the water itself enticed…

Attina pulled her sweater around her shoulders tighter and tucked her hands into her elbows, peeling her eyes away from the water. She glanced at Panic, though she couldn’t see him well in the dark. 

PANIC: Panic slipped back into his skin and immediately he felt better, using his power to make him look like Percy put a strain on his already tired body. He could curl up right now in this boat and fall asleep. He didn’t care about the treasure in the depth. His treasure was right in front of him.

Reaching out Panic rested a hand on Attina’s knee. Leaning down to press his head against her leg. “I love you. I love you more than anything.” Panic murmured. Words he wanted to say now before he lost his chance. Who knew when their silence would be interrupted. 

ATTINA: Attina jumped a bit when something touched her knee before she realized it was just Panic’s hand. In the darkness, it didn’t look like much at all, just more darkness. She pressed her lips together and stroked her hand over his head once.

“I know,” she said back quietly, her voice nothing but a breath beneath her terror of being heard by anyone else on this vast, endless swamp. 

Not a moment too soon, they bumped against the land on the other side and Attina let out a breath, climbing quickly and easily out of the boat. Glad to be rid of it and the temptation to dive into the water and let the souls of the damned or whatever drag her down and down and down. When she turned towards the land, she expected--

Well, she didn’t know what she expected but--

There was just a door. 

A door and some strange contraption that she couldn’t place in her tired, addled brain, but it looked rather harmless. She wandered closer before turning to look over her shoulder at Panic. 

“It--it can’t be that easy, can it?” she asked, hopefully, as if the rest had been easy. Though if it was just a door that was left, she was grateful.

PANIC: Panic couldn’t stop touching Attina, his hand was on her knee, then her hand to help her out, to the small of her back.

He wouldn’t get to hold Amelia either.

“The door of judgement.” Panic whispered looking up at it. “If you aren’t meant to be here it should know. Gold coins for good and well not gold coins for bad.” Panic’s would fill up very quickly on one side. “You’re not supposed to be here. Step forward and let it do it���s thing and then the door should I hope open.” Panic whispered pushing gently on her back, letting go.

ATTINA: “Well, what about you?” Attina said, turning to look back at him. She heard the way he said it--the you, not the we. 

All of it sounded silly to her anyway. How was a stupid door supposed to know anything about the good and bad that Attina had done in her life? She had done plenty of bad, but just because she wasn’t supposed to be here, it was going to let her back out? Well, she hoped it was that easy, but still, she did not trust it. She didn’t trust anything in this world.

Except Panic. 

PANIC: Panic stepped back creating distance between them. He wanted  to break through those doors, to fight his way back to the surface. The thing was Panic didn’t have that strength. He didn’t have it anymore. Desperate as he was, he wasn’t strong enough to pull himself out.

Panic sighed as he tried to form words, anything. “I’m a demon, Attina. I wasn’t ever meant to leave, this world will not let me leave another time. I’m not going to be able to go with you.” Panic whispered and even though he stepped back he was reaching out too.

“I can’t come with you.”

ATTINA: “That’s bullshit,” Attina said at once and then blinked at herself, slightly startled by the ferocity in her own voice. She didn’t think she’d had the energy to get mad, but oh, she was mad. 

“You can’t just--give up like that!” she snapped at him, forgetting that they were in the underworld and that at the moment he was more shadow than anything else. She stomped her foot stubbornly on the ground, like she was going to plant her own roots right there on the spot. 

PANIC: Panic blinked at Attina, he looked at her shocked but he didn’t move back. Her strength was brilliant and it was a light in a world of darkness. Over his very own darkness and shadows.

“If I thought there was any chance I could, I promise I would. I’m barely standing Attina.” Panic reached out setting his hands on her shoulder, streams of black smoke dripping off his cheeks. “I want nothing more than to leave with you. To see the world and live in that world with you.” But Panic took a step toward the door and Clang. A rock fall, one then two. A few and then a waterfall of them.

And with each Panic curled in on himself the weight pressing him down, basically crushing him into the ground.

“You and Amelia are more important than anything right now.”

ATTINA: Clang! went the stones and Attina jumped, her head turning to watch. 

Stupid fucking door! That door didn’t know shit. She wanted to rush forward and pull the rocks off--one after another, she could be quicker than fate and take just enough so it’d slip open and let them both through. Attina wondered if she could. If it would make any difference at all…

Maybe, her sisters had been right.

Maybe, she had always been destined for something like this.

At the mention of their daughter, Attina’s hand went to her stomach, stroking over the swell of her belly, where their daughter had been quiet and calm throughout this whole ordeal. In that, Panic was right: Amelia was the most important thing. 

Attina dropped to her knees too, eyes filling with tears, so Panic was just part of the darkness in front of her. She reached for him anyway: found his shoulder and then his cheek. He was the only thing warm in this cold, cruel world.

“I can’t leave,” she told him, “I won’t. I--I can’t do it without you. Amelia needs you. I need you.” 

PANIC: Panic fell into Attina, his shadows, wisps of them surrounding them as he went to his knees and rested his head against hers. He touched her stomach and then wrapped his arm around her kissing the top of her head.

“I love you more than anything and I love Amelia more than anything.” Panic choked out. “But you can’t stay you deserve more than just living here, in darkness and I don’t even know what would happen to a mermaid down here and I thought about it. I thought about asking you to stay. But it’s dangerous and you deserve so much more than me. You’ve always deserved the world and I’m so sorry I can’t give that to you. Amelia deserves the world.” Panic was fully crying now. “Please Attina, raise Amelia in your world. With your family, with happiness and love and tell her every day that I love her. Please, I love you and her so much.” He would do anything for them.

Clang went the gold coin.

ATTINA: This had never been part of the plan. Raising Amelia without a father had never been part of the plan. She was supposed to have a father, two of them in fact. Now she had--none? 

How was Attina supposed to explain that? How was she supposed to live, knowing that was a decision that she made? 

Because, like Panic said, Amelia deserved sunshine and warmth and life. Things that she could never have here. This wasn’t about Panic or Attina, or Panic and Attina, it was about Amelia. It had to be about Amelia. She was the only reason that Attina would leave Panic now. Even if it meant leaving her heart behind. Those were the choices you had to make, as a parent. As a mother. She wondered, when her mother had gone to the sea, if she had thought about what would happen to her girls--if she never came back. Had she weighed the risks and decided it was worth it? Had her hubris dragged her down, in the end? Had she thought her family worth the risk? 

It wasn’t a fair question, nor was it a fair decision--either of them. But Attina knew that she had to make it. She closed her eyes and the tears fell down her cheeks, burning hot over her cold, cold skin. 

“I will, I will,” Attina told him as she squeezed her eyes shut and threw her arms around his neck. He felt different, like this--half there, as if he was already gone. As if she were just hugging a shadow. “I’ll tell her everything.” She leaned back so she could find his eyes in the darkness. She kissed him once, soft and gentle. It wasn’t hard to find his lips, they were easy and familiar, no matter his form. Perhaps, that was why you kissed with your eyes closed in the first place. 

“I’m sorry, Panic, I’m sorry.”

Another coin fell, and another--their chimes almost pleasant sounding, beckoning Attina forward. She stood on unsteady feet, with the help of Panic and together they stood, watching the gold fall one, then another, then another, until the scale tilted and the door unlatched and swung open silently. On the other side, Attina could hear the ocean. 

She didn’t know what it meant--except that she had to go through. 

“I love you, Panic. I love you. No matter your form but for your heart,” she told him softly. “And when--when I look at Amelia I won’t see Percy, I’ll see you.” 

She took a deep breath and tried to swallow down her tears. “Y-you have to tell me to go, I-I don’t think I can do it…” 

PANIC: Panic kissed her like it was the last time he ever would, because it was. Panic shook and he cried and it was painful. The chiming of coins if only just made him smile because that was all about Attina. That was all her. That was Amelia staking her claim on the world that was hers.

She could apologize all she wanted but Panic wouldn’t hear it. Panic was a Father and his heart could break over and over. But they were making the right decision.

His daughter would be safe, she would grow up happy. She would have her whole family and Panic loved it. He loved everything about it. He hated that he couldn’t be there for her. He couldn’t.

“Percy will help. Belle and Sally too. Find them if you need them.” It was all that Panic could do, offer his friends. Stepping back Panic let go of his fiance and his daughter.

“I love you.” Panic whispered. “Go and live your life. Both of you. Be everything you ever wanted.” The moment Attina walked through the door it slammed shut, the silence echoing around him and then the screams started but Panic still smiled.

This was for you Amelia.

[gammija]

The Hollow review/summary/rant/explanation of why i hate the ending I wasn’t sure whether I should post this, but I did enjoy reading others experiences watching this show, so here’s mine under the cut. Edited from a convo with a friend.

(Obviously, spoilers!)

Me: Okay so to properly express my disappointment i gotta take you through the major beats

The show starts with three teens waking up in an almost empty room, finding out they all have amnesia. They quickly solve a puzzle to escape the room, and just as quickly Adam and Mira realize they have superpowers (superstrength/agility and some weird 'speak to animals/know all languages' hybrid, respectively. also she can breathe underwater and swim really fast. its kind of vague)

Kai is already clearly a comic relief, discount Ron (from HP, the movies, no idea about the books) so me and sister correctly predict he'll get jealous of adam and miras relationship (even if there is none), gets pissy and jealous that he has no powers, but then finds out he has powers anyway he does, hes a fire bender. cant say im not bitter about that cause id put my money on invulnerability but eh its alright he has red hair after all hes still fun

Friend: Of course he is

I just feel bad is all aldjs

Me: adam gets a throwaway line of 'maybe were dead' and kai never lets it go

this food might be poisoned but im starving and hey were dead anyway! right, adam

Friend: I love him??

Me: i loved him as soon as he spoke his first dumb words also he puns but basically hes the only interesting char; adam and mira are just cookie cutter 'male lead 1' and 'female lead 1' i mean, he’s cookie cutter ‘jealous 3rd wheel’ but that has more going on than the first two still servicable though

anyway so the jokes are sometimes fun, and superpowers are always my jam. but the REAL reason to keep watching is just, whats going on? ARE they dead? or in some kind of weird gvnmt experiment? some weird magical vampire guide (dont ask) hints they wanted this themselves ooh, intrigue. and the world is very very quirky they start in a gravity falls-y woods and then get teleported to a desert with minotaurs and witches, then get invited for tea by the Grim Reaper and the rest of the 4 horsemen of the apocalypse

tbh Grim is the best part of the show but thats neither here nor there

anyway they have a magic map that updates once theyve been somewhere, and it shows them that the hot dry desert and the swampy wood bunker are like right next to each other

so you start thinking, how are they gonna explain that? this is too weird to be handwaved away. theyve gotta be going somewhere

they visit some other exotic locals, like what appears to be the set of Alien (complete with alien) and an abandoned old fair and a floating island with japanese inspired evildoers on it

the weird magic guide keeps showing up and being vague, dropping hints that there are other kids there etc

at some point Mira says "This is no time for games!" Weirdy: "Thats where youd be wrong~" me and sister: Aha! videogame! that connects all the dots, and also makes the tropes clear: small world with all kinds of different areas, quests, fights, superpowers, an updating map, fast travel Adam, a few eps later: guis i think we might be in a videogame me and sister: [high five]

Anyway in the meantime also the second predictable Kai (discount Ron) plot happens: they meet three other kids (boy boy girl) and they act shady but the girl takes an immediate and obvious interest in Kai so obviously theyre gonna manipulate him and have him betray his friends but in the end he'll see through their facade and kick their ass that more or less happens. The other teens also confirm that this is a game, and theyre trying to win. winning is done by bringing the MacGuffin to a tree fights over macguffin ensue situations are dire but our characters persevere

(also Mira kisses Adam and he acts very weird about it, almost as if hes gay and the only reason they didnt make it canon is censors) (no lingering gaze, just him going 'hehe yeah no thanks, its not you, its me', but in a very... he doesnt seem to be saying it with shall we say burning desire in his soul. hes literally just like 'eh youre a good friend.' Cool move, cartoon that made the two main boys have arguments over nothing cause of course the two main guys have constant dick measuring matches)

this all is not the offensive part btw it was all fun and games, its just a flash cartoon i wasnt expecting Shakespeare

anyway so theyre in a videogame, and apparently thats the answer to all the weirdness. A bit of a cop-out, cause thats a very easy answer, but eh, it works. it wasnt immediately obvious.

also something i hadnt mentioned yet: thisd be ideal for making (self-insert) OCs. Unique powers for each person, there are clearly more characters than shown, the world is your playground

and maybe the video game thing could be interesting on its own in the last few eps the game seems to be glitching out a lot they say its breaking apart so they really gotta hurry now maybe they were beta testers for a vr game gone wrong maybe this is part of it but its like a huge experience that you tell all your friends about anyway there are ways it could be cool, could be expanded to a season 2 despite having solved the mystery

but. last episode. our heroes get the MacGuffin, go to a final stage, and fight the Boss Battle (its a dragon). they enter the Castle....

...and the screen zooms out, into a sudden live action stage, where we see the cartoon (literally what you were just watching) on screen. there are 6 chairs, 3 with our heroes, 3 with the other teens, presumably. theres a host and hes dressed exactly like the weird guy (and that was already kind of a clashy outfit in the cartoon). it was all just a game show. but. the worst part is the live action

you. dont. go. from. animated. to. live. action.

other way around? fine, can work. But now? WHY itd still be dumb and dissapointing but if itd been animated too itd at least have been.... nice to look at but the acting.. oh god they didnt even say anything and it was all wrong clearly theyd just picked the first random teens that vaguely looked like the chars and put them in there cause they had no lines so who needs acting?!

the enemy teams girl had, in the cartoon, pink hair. Purple with pink highlights instead of stylizing that into something more realistic or painting the actual hair, they gave some 30-year old woman a wig and called it a day

keep in mind i binged this show in one go

purposely stayed up late to watch the last ep with my sis even tho we shouldve gone to bed and were disobeying our dad cause we Had to Know

and theres more i said they had no lines but i was lying. Kai did have a line. well, his voice actor did they dubbed him also the line was about him having to pee which is already not the most hilarious in animated version but a live action kid whose supposed to be this character you spent 3 hours with but looks nothing like him saying that in a voice that doesnt belong to his throat, as he stands bashfully in front of a live audience, the only words spoken by your main characters in the last moments...

*its actual hell*

oh oh one more thing at the end the six kids stand in a line and kai is next to other girl they glance at each other and as the eyes of this teen and 30 year old in wig cross, her eye glitches for a moment

dun dun duuun

bUT i dont care anymore, The Hollow. You overestimated your own premise. this wont be forgiven. your most interesting part was the mystery, and the answer  to that was "just a normal game show" (which also doesnt make sense on another level smh) soo if you think that im interested in what these two-dimensional (ha) characters will do now about the glitch in the eye of a bitch then i have news for u

i dont

...if they get a second season ill probably check it out though as long as its animated

Friend: Gammi I'm getting the real sinking suspicious feeling that what you saw isn't the real end but bad on purpose because there's more to it

Me: the show didnt seem good enough to be bad on purpose

and yet im still not done, if youll still hear me out

i mean, im an animation fan so ill still watch but if theyd wanted to be bad on purpose they really shouldve done a better job fleshing out the characters thats what people come back for that was a bit of a sidetrack BUT so i said why the live action itself was just terrible in overal quality

but the resolution that 'oh it was all in a game show' doesnt work on multiple levels

first of all, they show a short flashback of "About 5 hours earlier". The kids stand on the stage and are instructed to take their seats in the vr-chairs, and pick their superpower

2 things i dislike about that

1) there goes all the self-insert/oc potential. they werent teens in over their heads, they werent gvnmt experiments, or just some kids who wanted to play a game -they were in it to win it, from the start. thats very specific and not the most appealing to all kinds of characters (goodbye, all the 'im just an average girl whod never step into the spotlight like that' characters).

Also, all the expansion on lore is gone. maybe there were other games simultaneously? eh, maybe, but theyd be all gameshows. Maybe someone ended uo trapped there for way longer? nah its just a gameshow theyre not gonna let anything actually bad happen. Maybe there are other worlds, other areas, other weird creatures? unlikely, they finished the map and familiarity seemed to be a thing for the audience. Now every new idea has to be put not through a 'whats interesting for a player' but a 'whats interesting for a viewer' lens, and whats a selfinsert if not a player in another universe

2) HOW IS THIS A SUCCESSFUL GAME SHOW

who the hell watches a game show for 5 consecutive hours, some of which mustve been just them walking. also, we zoom out of the screen were watching, so implication is that everything up until then has been what the audience has seen. but... we only followed the one team. there were two? why didnt the audience want to see what they were up to? ~reality tv usually thrives on showinf the worst assholes so realistically they wouldve been the focus~

There are also way too many times *both* teams couldve failed, from early on till late in the game. Not a single game i can think of thats played for an audience is set up like that, and especially not a televised one (okay tbf idk if this was televised, i dont remember if i saw cameras, but. it mustve. monetary reasons.)

What r u gonna do if they all 'died' from the monsters in the first ep? Call it a day? boring for the audience. let them restart from scratch? boring for the audience. the existence of an audience messes with everything

AND THEN ANOTHER THING what do you mean, "5 hours ago?" you never get a time stamp to show how long theyve been in there but there are some cuts, when they travel and such. The actual show is a lil over 3 hours runtime. You mean to tell me you sat through 2 hours of the characters just walking?

okay last thing. so. they were clearly second season teasing with the glitching eye thing. i already said this but. theres nowhere to go from here that isnt worse that the first season. your mystery is dead. you clearly know your live action teens cant act so youd have to go back into the game - but why would they do that? how would that be in any way interesting? you explored all there was to explore.

The other, more out there option, is that as you said the 'real world' was a fake-out and theyre still in a game. but. how would- how would you even make that remotely convincing? if youd just left the 'real world' gameshow as animated too this wouldnt have been a problem. but there is absolutely no conceivable reason to justify, in universe, why another meta-level up is 2D animation again unless they were in a game, in a game, in a game. and thats just dumb. yall aint inception

Friend: HONESTLY if they just kept the whole deal animated it'd probably be okay. Not good, but better,

Me: ye me and my sister came to the same conclusion

i couldve lived with that. at least, i couldve just acknowledged the finales existence but chose to ignore it. now however im full phantom planet levels of denial. in fact i dont even know how the show ended anymore, suddenly

Friend: what finale? what show?

Me: also at least now we know why its called The Hollow

it leaves you feeling empty inside

[blookmallow]

last bits for now. it’s a Lot, sorry. also now that I’ve done pretty much everything I can think of - please come talk to me if you’ve tried other things/found secrets/etc that I didn’t see!! I’d love to hear about anything you’ve found/details you’ve noticed/anything. 

[yuri voice] we could......discuss it.......if you’d like.......

anyway i didnt think it was possible to be more upset about sayori than i already was but 

I Am Stan And I Was Wrong, Now I’m Singing The Stan Wrong Song 

--------------

trying to switch to sayori halfway through is definitely way different from this one, he cares more about her, he notices her more, he thinks about her way more 

heLLO

:’ ) soRRY,

:(

what’s up I’m gay 

it kiNDA IS :’) 

sorry i gotta crop everything the protagonist says bc otherwise it looks like monika’s line and it gets REALLY weird 

OH..... IVE SEEN THIS

i thought it was a bonus picture or an unused one or something i didnt know how to find it !!!!

:’ ) 

okay

shes so proud of herself lmao 

sHE LOVES YOU,

the dynamic between them is definitely a lot.... better in this route, too, it’s. less. domineering/Let Me Fix You Even Though I Never Gave A Shit Until Now 

im not sure how much depends on what order you talk to them, there do seem to be different responses if you start with whoever you’re aiming for though

im also noticing that every time you show a poem to monika she pretty much always comments on like. who she thinks you’re trying to impress, she talks about the other club members, she doesn’t really say much about what she thinks, or about herself hardly at all 

she might just be. disappointed because she can tell you’re aiming for someone else, she’s hoping you’ll write something for her but you never do (because you CAN’T, unless there’s a way I haven’t found) 

natsuki’s not terribly invested in your poems if they’re directed at sayori, but she doesn’t get offended and upset like she does if it’s for yuri, yuri reacts pretty much the same as she did in my natsuki run 

i forgot about this option 

sayori mediates... better. than i did :’) 

this just in: sayori was a huge fuckign lesbian all along im so proud of her 

monika get the fuCK away from me 

ive made so many mistakes with this name 

monika vaguely tries to take over sayori’s narrative but she gets shut out and doesn’t get to 

im love her?????

:’    ) 

again i know this is........rly anime stereotype/Male Gazey but.......im also gay and shes REALLY fuckin cute

i think, having. been through everything now, i think natsuki or sayori is probably the best fit for the protagonist, natsuki’s fun and would be a great friend but i have no attraction for her myself, im still mad into yuri but she’s, uh. slightly problematic, shall we say :’) 

i think out of all of them the one id legitimately actually date/my Fav is sayori 

it also makes me sad that this... problem of her constantly trying to keep up with him but getting forgotten/left behind until she hurts herself and he’s forced to notice her has apparently been. going on for a While 

also him... feeling like it’s somehow his fault when she gets hurt has been happening too 

i. love her 

:’( 

i still Cannot forgive monika for coercing sayori into suicide but her steadily realizing she’s Literally Not An Option and no matter how hard she tries she CAN’T talk to you or spend time together with you is kind of upsetting though :’) 

like. id feel bad, i sympathize with her in some respects, but 

anyway yuri’s self-isolating and won’t talk to me again 

honestly true

for some reason sayori asked me about yuri on the way home??

maybe it just picks someone at random since I’ve got yuri completely avoiding me at this point 

i dont wanna do this to her but its the only thing i havent already done :’) 

that’s. a good point tho 

Sayori Is Gay 

NO WAIT I DIDNT WANT THAT

this is right when she starts realizing your poems are for someone else in the other routes, but it seems to hurt her just as much if they are for her 

YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING :( 

sayori shrugging off her depression so you don’t have to deal with it Also Hurts Me 

This Was A Mistake 

MONIKA I SWEAR TO GOD 

natsuki mostly responds pretty positively to your sayori poems though

i also got a new natsuki poem somehow???

iT’S REALLY CUTE I LIKE IT 

yuri’s not talking to me but it looks like they’re getting along anyway??

monika already told me she was disappointed she never got to have any scenes outside school so i dont think this is gonna work but lets see 

this is the Exact same response as when she forces you to pick her in the glitched scene except she didn’t knock everyone else out of the frame :’ ) 

:’) 

they won’t let you

it’s literally impossible to even try to romance monika as far as i can tell, so it’s not even your fault she gets overshadowed 

like... I’d really feel bad for her, she knows she’s in a game, she’s in love with you and she can’t talk to you or deviate from the scripted path, she is completely inaccessible to you no matter what she does 

but she also. mocked her friend who is in an abusive home for the fact that she’s starving. and coerced another friend into suicide. and deleted all of her friends. i mean you could argue she doesn’t see them as real people because they’re NOT, they’re characters and she’s the only one who’s self-aware but who’s to say they couldn’t ever become aware either. i don’t know i still can’t forgive her 

anyway i think this is all the main options i wanted to try, i clicked yuri’s option but I’m not interested to play through it again right now because I don’t think it’s really going to be significantly different and redoing the same scenes without much change is getting repetitive, so. that’s all for now until i feel like replaying!!