#Go CHASE CLOUT SOMEWHERE ELSE

[vexx-the-egg]

This is kind of a harsh opinion arguably fueled by my own personal feelings. BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. New Twitter users, please stop trying to turn this into Instagram. I don't want to see your Blazed post of you trying to prove how hot you are or how expensive your clothes are. Just link your insta or tiktok in your bio or something. Post your personal photos for people to stumble upon your blog like normal please for the LOVE of god STOP paying money to show off how you look for clout. Sure post pics and stuff but I can't be the only one whos weirded out by it. How every other social media site basically tells you that if you sell your face then you're guaranteed to get attention. This is the last site I could find that doesn't base a following around looking conventionally attractive and I want it to stay that way.

[wildpeachfarm]

This was hours ago but it's only just popped up on my dash for me but Rue bothers me so much (in reference to one of your anons discussing her)

Her initial post, after Dream posted a response that made me tear up as someone who's been in an abusive relationship, cut to her saying we don't want you here. Meanwhile she offered no words of support of her own (that I can remember, and if she did its been overshadowed by everything she's said and done since)

Meanwhile his post was the most powerful of any of the ones people made. Someone with a huge platform standing hand in hand with someone and offering such genuine words. And all she could say was get your brownie points somewhere else

Theres a tumblr post floating around how we need to stop caring if people's good actions are done for the right reasons cause if we police that, we'll see less good in the world and Rue sums that up perfectly

I don't care if *you* don't want Dream there, *I* do. I don't speak for Shubble, but between Shubble and Dream's posts after Wilbur's response I damn well near cried cause they hit so close to home. They were both the words of victims, spoken from a place of solidarity and pain. Rue essentially added nothing to the conversation but freaking people out. What she contributed too was a week of unnecessary pain and triggering people and causing a mass exodus and in the end only hurt caiti. Rue claims to speak for victims but she's part of the group of people that have made everything worse. She was reactionary and her actions didn't bring a single good thing to anyone

And again, beating the point to death about how she had more to say about George than Wilbur

It comes off as clout chasing and disingenuous. Sure, George fucked up. But it seems to have been a genuinely mistake vs Wilbur's very deliberate abuse and it's gross to paint the two scenarios with the same brush. I hope she's able to get help after whatever she experienced with wilbur, and I hope through time and reflection she's able to acknowledge her own wrongdoings

But as it stands right now, Rue clearly can't handle having a platform and she needs to go offline for a while. She is part of a problem whether she acknowledges it or not and something has to give sooner or later

honestly i have nothing to add to this you said it very well anon!

[valyrfia]

Lando gives me clout-chasing vibes and that he's "friends" with Max because Max can give him or do stuff for him. Can't stand him and I hope that he, his CEO, and the team as a whole disappears from F1. (Andrea Stella you're forgiven for the unforgivable crime of working for the orange team only because you were on the most iconic Ferrari podium ever at the European GP 2012 in Valencia but please, go work somewhere else)

I've known Landos, especially that breed of European white men who are insecure as hell with far more money than sense and think that status and wealth are more important than genuineness. Lando tolerates Max because Max knows all these people who he wants to know and the shine of being associated with a world champion is one he hopes rubs off on him. Norstappen is something marketable for the McLaren PR and LN4 machine, hence why their every interaction (even those on private jets) is photographed from twenty different angles.

[hockeyandhrsepwr]

Lucky 🫶

Trevor Zegras x singer!reader

**I really don’t know how I feel about this but whatever**

It's the final concert of your tour and you’re ending in your hometown LA, in the venue you used to dream about playing in. Now here you are, at 22 closing out a national tour at the Staples Centre. 

“Hi everyone! Thank for coming out tonight! Before I let you all go, I have one more thing I want to share with all of you. It’s always special to play in for my hometown crowd, so it feels like the perfect occasion to give you a taste something I’ve been working on. It’s been hard to put this into words, so I hope you enjoy!” 

You start strumming your guitar 

Do you hear me, I'm talking to you

He’s somewhere in the arena, and you know he’s enjoying himself. You’ve never told him, but you feel so incredibly lucky to have fallen in love with your best friend, Trevor. 

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Long tours and hockey road trips meant the two of you spent lots of time apart, but your connection with Trevor never died down. On nights when you were feeling lonely you’d go outside & stare at the moon, knowing he’d be looking at the same one. It always made you feel better.

Boy, I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

Your last birthday before you started dating, Trevor had given you a little heart locket. Jokingly, he put a picture of himself in there, along with one that the two of you had taken when you were hanging out. Despite it being a joke, you never took the picture out, liking that you had your best friend with you wherever you were. Then he kissed you three months later. 

You make it easier when life gets hard

No matter where you were or what happened, Trevor was there for you. Late night calls when you were stressed, hyping you up on social media, talking you off a ledge when you hated everything you’d ever written, he was the one you turned to.  

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Meeting at 18 out in LA when he was visiting Anaheim, you formed a close friendship with Trevor, bonding over your love of Taylor Swift and hockey. Keeping in constant contact while he was in Boston, you quickly found the golden retriever boy becoming one of your closest friends, the quy you could talk to about anything. When he moved to Anaheim you spent days together, at the beach, discovering Orange County and talking about everything and nothing. The friendship only grew with all the time you spent together & so did your feelings for each other. 

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Trevor had felt like home to you since you’d met, but you’d never understood why. He’d always made you feel safe and loved and he knows you like no one else does. Living on the road often left you feeling homesick and lost, but that feeling went away the minute you were back in his arms

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

You and Trevor had been there for each other through all kinds of heartbreak. When your first boyfriend brutally dumped you at 19 because you ‘weren’t getting famous quick enough for him’, Trev was the one who showed up at your door with a pint of ice cream and a promise to kill the guy if he ever saw him around. You managed to talk him down though, no murder here. When he found who he thought was the one but was really just a clout chasing bitch who saw his star and used him, you reassured him that it wasn’t his fault. And you nearly slapped the bitch when she was coming on to one of the other Ducks players out one night. 

Needless to say, it took the two of you a while to realize that what you were looking for was right in front of you all along. 

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

“Babe I have to go!!” Trevors standing in the doorway to the hotel room. You’re both in New York, and if you stayed at the same hotel as the Ducks, who’s to say it wasn’t a coincidence. You’re currently on the bed pouting. 

“What did you forget?”

“I dont know! I have my wallet & tie. I’m gonna be late. Love you” He goes to exit the room when it clicks & he comes bouncing over and smacks a kiss on your lips

“I’m sorry?” He grins before standing up. You pull him down by his tie “one more kiss” he drops one more on your lips before moving away,

“Now I’m really going to be late!”

“Sorry” you shrug 

I'll wait for you, I promise you, I will

You dont have to see Trevor to know the smile that’s on his face. Normally he’s your sounding board for new songs, but you wanted to surprise him with this one, even if it exposed your relationship. It was widely known that you were best friends, but only those close to you knew about the shift to dating over a year ago. Fans are going wild at the song & you see your stage manager pulling someone into the wings. Trevor. You smile as you sing the final line

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend

“There’s a little taste, I hope you enjoyed it! Good night Los Angeles!” You exit the stage to thunderous applause and get pulled into a hug. 

“You’re sneaky” Trevor jokes and drops a kiss to you nose

“You know you love me” you retort

“I really do” You smile at his response, soaking the night in. 

xxx

[not-goldy]

I use to think there was no way Jikook would ever come out. Together or even as individuals. Now I think its looking more and more like they will after MS and the reunion. I am leaning toward Jimin for sure, which is funny, cause I always said Jimin probably wouldn't because he's so OT7 and worries about BTS and he knows it would most likely harm his dad's business and his dad just opened a new place, but I can't see Jimin's dad being super damn selfish and telling him to stay in the closet to protect his business. Maybe to protect him, but not his business. He sees what his son goes through daily. The lies, defamation, slander, accusations. Called a queerbaiter and predator. And not sure how true this is, but this buddy system thing apparently has JK solos trying to research who the guy is standing next to JK, just to get goods on JK in the military and of course Jikook gossip, they are so mad and desperate. Not sure if that is true, but if so, Oh the SK government gonna snatch these MF's bald if they really track down these soldiers families and start harassing them. They don't even realize how fucking horrible that makes JK look. Tkk joining in as well. None of them have respect for JK. it reflects so bad on JK to try and involve other soldiers in their vendetta's and unfortunately for JK there are clout chasing people out there who will give up his privacy. He is gonna be so fucking humiliated and embarrassed if this turns out to be true.

Jimin probably knows at this point he is never gonna be free to live his life with Jk or his members or anyone for that matter, without harassment, unless he speaks his truth, which he's been trying to do for years, without out right saying it. Even if it means leaving korea and going somewhere else. Maybe Japan or even America who knows. Same with JK. I too think he will. In fact, JK has probably already been talked off the ledge by Hybe and Jimin not to out them, when he gets in his fed up moods. You can tell both are increasingly getting more and more frustrated. They even resorted to being private & working in silence, but BAM, when they wanna come out swinging, they damn sure do. The swing and knock fucking heads off. So I think its looking more and more possible that they aren't gonna hide much longer or at the very least make that glass closet even more clearer and stop putting restrictions on themselves after MS. I feel it in my gut. These so called fans are pushing them to their breaking point and its been brewing. Their public, we don't give a fuck about your feelings, private trip to Japan and now enlisting together was just the start. Wait and see if Jikook don't free themselves from this fandom. or I could be wrong and nothing will change, but I kinda think there will be change of some sort.

Jungkook got bad rep for the longest time for being "an asshole" "shitty" "fuckboy" with zero social skills- which time and again he's proven that's not the case. Being introverted don't mean you hate humans.

It's nice he's making friends in there- as he should. That is IF that's his even friend. I expect Jimin has made friends in there also. However Jimin is a private person who isn't going to expose his friendships accidentally. He can be guarded. Also, he's a Libra, he has the gift of foresight to know people would try to use whoever he's close with to get to him in there- like they doing with JK.

It's a shame these people can't live normal lives, smile at someone, stand next to someone, be polite to without all manner of theories being written about them assuming all sort of things about them and the poor stranger.

Jimin is growing, maturing, setting his priorities straight and since 2020 we've seen him gradually choosing his relationship, prioritizing it and making conscious decisions with that in mind.

Personally, I'm happy there aren't at cross purposes anymore and seem to be moving in the same direction in life.

I won't make any predictions for now, just observing and appreciating their bond, it's beautiful to behold as it unfolds. There's not much chaos within their relationship not much turbulence.

I want to see it to the very end. That's why I keep following their journey.

I want to see how they navigate a 7 way dynamic when they come back together as a group with the growth that's taken place in each of them.

Fully coming out is off the table, but they could surprise me who knows. We in uncharted territories here.

If Jikook do come out they will shock the skin off my bones honestly. That said, I'm still rooting for them.

[tayrryarchive]

Your acc still exists ? Damn thats crazy. Also im so happy Harry dumped Taylor’s ugly annoying clout chasing ass bc she was boring 😂😂😂 now he can actually find someone genuine and nice to be with and poor her having to still use his name to stay relevant bc she’s too lazy to work on her own and just waits for jobs to come to her which is never gonna happen.

this jobless person having to use anon to send hate to taylor who minds her own business is sad and embarrassing for you

also: people keep following this account and asking me to keep updating on taylor so go be a loser somewhere else !

[stylesunchained]

can all these annoying anons go away please? we want to discuss this, if they do not want to, please leave and go discuss your theory somewhere else, thanks. go away and let us discuss in fucking peace with b

The problem is people forgot how to call others out when they do something actually embarrassing lmao now everything is slut shaming or jealousy and I’m here like “you think it’s cute that she went and liked a tweet about it?”. I’m sorry, it’s PATHETIC. If this isn’t clout chasing, idk what it is

[llavalada]

Exactly.

This nowadays it’s just “normal kid behaviour”, but every single time that I get a video of “did anyone else do this when they were a kid?” (putting a hair clip in the lips; imagine someone running outside jumping over cars and buildings during car rides; “potion making”... and most of the things I did as a kid) I get excited and emotional. Then I read the comments and I see so many people agreeing about doing that... I... I just want to time travel and show it to my 5... 4... definitely probably even younger self (I don't quite remember when all the mocking started, when I was singled out as a target to it all) tell her she is normal (probably some of my classmates also did it, but since I did it first never told nobody and made fun of me with the others), that it’s okay, she’s not alone and shouldn’t be afraid of showing the world who she is.

Maybe even manage to stop her from snuffing the fire in her soul; from changing completely who she is to fit with the others; to help her, convince her to keep shinning.

Because I’m trying to bring it back but I know I'm horribly failing.

I know I can’t bring back that fire because I don’t remember its warmth.

I know I’m still not my old self because my mother keeps telling me that “You used to laugh a lot more when you were younger, what happened?”, “You were never shy when talking to others, why do you keep hiding when I introduce you?”, “You used to be more extroverted”, “You used to love to wear your hair on a pony tail/bun and it looks pretty on you, why are you so against it?”(better not bring attention to myself by laughing because they will stop and they might stop talking about/showing appreciation to it if they see I like it; people can’t be trusted unless they show otherwise; if I’m quiet I won’t bother no one; my classmates don’t like them, better not wear them) , and over years of telling her that's how I am now, it only slips up every now and then, usually when we are looking through a photo album, but I know she misses that little me, if her comments are something to go by, about how we should have moved somewhere else, about “this stupid blasted town”, about some prank or game or anything my younger self used to do.

I know I’m stopping myself from shinning because it was the best way to blend in so it couldn't be used against me, so they wouldn’t laugh at me and mock me; and old and lifelong habits die hard.

So if after my mother went to complain multiple times to the teachers about what was going on without any result; after a couple talks that policemen came to give about bulling with me looking at them hoping they would see in my eyes my fear, my cry for help, my trying to tell them without words “that’s happening right here, I might be the next local kid you speak about in one of this talks” because I was afraid of what would happen if I said it out loud or went to speak with them afterwards (there was never the chance to do so, there usually wasn’t a break afterwards); after trying and failing to completely fit in and befriend my classmates (I stopped calling them “friends” when i was around 6); if after everything failed I decided to embrace the “weird tag” (albeit shyly at first, more strongly after I finally moved schools when I was 11 and made some friends who wore it proudly) and it has become a part of me I embraced and that I refuse to let go.

Because at the end it brought good memories.

So, mx “supreme authority” over what is weird or not, maybe some are clout chasing, but saying that because most everyone did this: (“I pretended to be [animal] with my friends” “I ran on all fours” “I ate [non-edible substance]” “I collected [substance readily available outdoors]” “I thought I had [superpower]” “I had tea parties with [entity incapable of drinking tea]” “I pretended to be [creature that I am not]” “I made ‘potions’ out of [substance that can be readily found outdoors]”) it doesn’t mean they can’t be/consider themselves weird.

Compare weirdness if it pleases you, but who gave you the authority to determine who and what is or isn’t weird.

you cannot all have been weird little girls btw. I know some of you were mostly normal and are just clout chasing

[ithisatanytime]

Varg & Bladee - Perfect Violation

i dont know who needs to hear this but you better not be fucking talking to me, and if you are say so, my dms are open, my name is jacob mcqueen and we can get it. 

if you are meming thats one thing but im holding back based on the 1 percent chance im being schizo, my nigga in christ i dont even rap, go chase clout somewhere else

[thesunshineriptide]

In Which A Heartless Wizard Appears

Characters: Howl, Grim, Azul, Riddle, and Crowley (mentioned)

CW// fire, yelling, swearing

“Grim!” Howl yelled, snatching him by the scruff, “Do you want us to get kicked out already? Control yourself.”

“Mya~ you’re always bossin’ me around, why don’t I get a turn?”

“You remember our deal, don’t you?”

There’s a silence between the two as the blue fire dies around them, causing Riddle and Azul to stop giving chase.

“Is this your familiar?” Riddle asked, voice severe.

“I ain’t no familiar! I’m a great and powerful fire demon!” Grim snapped, opening his mouth to shoot flames out.

Howl reached over and snapped it shut, “Grim, on everything that is holy and unholy, knock it the fuck off or I’m sending you home. You weren’t even supposed to be here, so behave.”

The pair turned to see Riddle glaring at them, arms folded across his chest, “Don’t you know better then to bring an untrained familiar - much less a cat - to a formal affair?”

Howl clicked their tongue, an expression spelling fake remembrance plastered across their face, “Ah, but he isn’t a familiar. Nor is he a cat, remember?”

“Fire. Demon.” Grim hissed, paws waving wildly in what seemed to be an attempt to attack the redhead. Unfortunately, he was still being held by the scruff.

Azul cleared his throat, “If I may-“

“You may not.” Howl replied, tired eyes fixed on him for a mere second or two before going to cradle Grim, “I apologize for the mess he’s made. I will gladly clean it up.”

“There was no contest about that, I believe.” The Heartslabyul dorm leader was firm in his stance, both verbally and physically. “We are to return to the ceremony, now. You are the last one to be assigned.”

Howl nodded and sighed dramatically, “Woe is me, I can never make an entrance without a fuss. I appreciate the great generosity of your patience, sir.”

Riddle turned to glare, only to find sincerity in the last sentence, and he instead preened. “It is my duty as a Housewarden. If you are assigned to Heartslabyul, I hope you will do well to remember this.”

Howl smiled sarcastically when he turned away, only to make eye contact with Azul, who was trailing behind Riddle in order to walk beside them.

“What?” Howl asked bluntly, staring back at him.

“You’re awfully bold for your very first day here. You aren’t worried about being expelled?”

Howl shrugged, “Not really. Some of the other academies were vying for me before accepting here, so I’ll have somewhere else to go if this turns out not to be my vibe.”

Azul’s eyebrow shot up, intrigued, “You must be very powerful, then.”

Howl snorted and opened their mouth to say something, but was cut off by Grim, “You know I am! I’m gonna be the most powerful mage in the world one day!”

Howl simply pulled him closer to their chest and sighed.

Azul let out an amused chuckle, “I see, it’s your furry companion that the schools are after, then?”

Howl hummed, “Nah. Remember that news story from a few years ago? Where a bunch of people just suddenly showed up, claiming they were from a different world?”

He raised an eyebrow and shook his head, “I’m afraid not.”

The newest student tilted their head to the side, “Eh, whatever. I’m from a different world. Some mages proved that claim not long ago and now, since I’m one of the few from my world with magic, everyone wants me. Mostly for clout.”

Azul’s eyebrows furrowed, “What is clout?”

Howl stared at him then laughed, giggling as they approached the ceremonial hall, “It means for fame, prestige, or attention.”

Azul would have asked more if the headmage didn’t swipe Howl at the last second, tugging them along to get their dorm assignment.

Despite the chaos, the rest of the ceremony (all five minutes left) went well. There was no more fuss or running off, just Howl and Grim being assigned to the lovely, wonderful, amazing dorm

“Octavinelle!”

Azul smirked, watching the newest member(s) take their seat with the rest of his dorm.

Well, isn’t this interesting?

[mariaiscrafting]

You know, what think I like when you are critical of a content creator is that you know how to separate a fact from especulation, unlike a blog out there that took especulation as facts.

Example, that night when we were critical of Karl, or any instance you have discussed about him, a lot of anons were saying that he gave them clout chaser vibes to them, and despite your opinion, you expressed that those were only especulation and not the truth, and to keep that in mind. That's good critical thinking.

But this blog had some similar anons, saying that he only is friends with the Feral Boys gro clout- In fact, they said the Feral Boys were only in it to benefit from clout and money. And they took it as a truth. I know you instance on them is neutral, but come one, they are friends. All of them. Karl isn't friends with them for clout. Like today Karl was playing golf with salad gang plus Sapnap and George at first and then Quackity and Dream joined bc they had spared time and it all devolved into typical chaos (Poor Corpse and Tina and Brook, had to endure those children lol/lh /j). Like, the stream wasn't planned with the 5/5 yet they joined, missing Karl and just having fun.

Idk, I guess that blog's superiority (They were a SBI focused blog) just irritated me. It's as if they were putting both groups at each other as if those streamers aren't friends or close. They were singing prayers of one while shunning the other based from especulation. Criticissism is fine, in fact recommended to be critical of your interests, but taking rumors as facts to base your crit is yikes. It's as if I wanted to crit SBI and base it only of "Philza hanging only with people younger than him is kinda weird ngl.." or "Sbi doesn't care about Tommy cuz he joined late" like that dumb Tumblr post did or some fuckers in Twitter imply.

The main reason I take so much care to separate speculation from evidence-backed theories and confirmed truths is because I feel like that separation is what distinguishes us from mcyttwt the most. One of the main reasons for mcyttwt's toxicity, imo - for its relentless cancelling of everyone, for its bandwagon campaigns - is that people oftentimes criticize and defend based on their personal feelings rather than rationale or evidence.

For example, I complain a lot about Dream stans on here, but you know the reason I didn't stop watching Dream directly after the cheating scandal broke loose, even though I thought he cheated? Because of mcytblr Dream stans. Mcytblr Dream stans engaged with me in discussion, both publicly and in DMs, about the cheating scandal, and even those who eventually came to the conclusion that Dream didn't cheat accepted the facts and statistics they were given and kept a healthy skepticism throughout the process. On Twitter, Dream stans were defending him before he even made a video following up to the mods' initial accusations because they felt that Dream wasn't the kind of guy to lie or cheat. They were replying to screenshots of statistical analyses from subreddits and to articles from mathematicians and staticians with extremely reactionary responses because of that feeling, which they believed in so adamantly, they had accepted it as fact. The thing is, to believe that Dream didn't cheat in the face of all the statistical and rhetorical evidence to the contrary is, in itself, speculative. Usually we think of speculation as a baseless theory that something is a positive truth- that is to say, that something did happen. But speculation also applies to those theories of someone not having done something, when the opposite has been nearly proven to be true.

For this same reason, I chose not to ignore the anti-technotwt threads with screenshots of Techno's old tweets in them. For me to have simply ignored these screenshots and continued supposing that Techno never expressed bigoted beliefs and/or currently doesn't would have been speculative on my part, and to boot, blatantly wrong, given the evidence to the contrary.

People in this fandom, and in all RPF/RPF-adjacent fandoms need to understand that almost everything they believe about the CCs they watch is speculative, at least to some extent, because of the nature of the content they make. Even if someone, in your opinion, displays evidence of some aspect of their personality - whether that be some form of bigoted, sweet, rude, clout-chasing, or anything else - because of the extremely one-sided nature of sharing one's life through a screen, that theory of ours will almost alwyas only ever be speculation, not a solid conclusion that can be drawn. We will never know these people's true intentions behind something shared to us via the Internet.

That vagueness leads to virtually every viewer creating a different theory in our heads about the CCs we watch, and we can't treat those theories as facts, especially not when sharing them with the rest of a fandom. I'm not a very big blog, but I consider even over 50 followers to be way too many people to spread a theory too, without at least clarifying that what I'm posting is speculation. If I have evidence, I like to list it or, if I can, provide sources; but otherwise, I take care to qualify most things with phrases or disclaimers that will clue followers into the speculative nature of whatever it is I'm saying. This is because theories and "feelings" can blaze through a fandom like wildfire, especially somewhere like Twitter, where so many things are word-of-mouth or based on summary due to character limitation.

You know why mcyttwt was cancelling Andi? Only a handful of original Tweeters under the cancel Andi hashtags actually knew what clips or tweets to criticize her for, or tried to elaborate on that criticism. But because every other mcyttwt user was getting bombarded by their mutuals hate-posting about Andi on their TLs, the "negative feeling" towards Andi grew and grew, even if most people didn't even know what they were supposed to feel negative about, exactly. Our judgement works on a quick trigger on the Internet because of the amount of information we're receiving, and so, even a single bad word against someone you don't have too strong of an opinion on can fundamentally alter your perception of them, usually subconsciously. If the first thing you see about Andi, who you've only seen on a couple LOH's or a couple Punz streams before then, is a tweet along the lines of, "disappointed in Andi for her homophobia and joking about suicide," despite you having no context, you will most likely be pushed to the negative side of her. Thus begins the cycle of hatred, building up and up, leading to you searching for more and more criticism about Andi, whether speculative or not, until you solidly and genuinely believe she is a Horrible Person. It all starts with the vaguest fucking feeling, because that's all speculation has to go off of, and it snowballs into a fucking wildfire across an entire fandom. I'm not about to be another person to let feelings snowball and spread like that.

Now, I don't know what exact blog you're referring to, but as an adamant SBI enthusiast, let me flip the argument many SBI stans have for their speculation upon the genuity of Karl's friendship with the Feral Bois, onto SBI. What do we have to go off of for the genuity of SBI's friendship, anyways? Our perceived brother dynamic between Tommy and Wilbur could very well just be Tommy capitalizing on Wilbur's brand and continuing the charade until now because it's been profitable. Maybe Techno only continues to associate with SBI because he knows how much his fanbase likes headcanon'ing about SBI, so he puts up with streams with them so he can continue to feed his fanbase with dynamics he knows they're obsessed with. Maybe Phil would rather play MC with people his age, and actually dislikes that he's friends with a teenager, but sticks around because he profitted so much off of Dream SMP and SBI-related content. And what could any SBI stan have to argue with me on any of these theories? Just because SBI laughs around each other and seems fond of each other doesn't mean they're actually like that behind the cameras. They so seldomly stream or make videos together anymore, anyways, so maybe they've grown tired of keeping up the dynamic.

Everything I said could be interpreted as utter bullshit, and that's because it fucking is. I don't actually know what Techno wants to do with his life, or how Wilbur and Tommy actually feel about each other, or who Phil wants to fucking befriend. The same goes for Feral Boys. There's nothing wrong with stating your theories or speculation, but to treat them as fact or not at least qualify such posts with the fact that this is all based on your bias and opinion, and no substantive evidence, is irresponsible. Just because you feel like one or more of the Feral Boys is "clout-chasing" doesn't mean you have the right to tout that feeling as truth. I feel a lot of things about a lot of CCs, both negative and positive, but no matter how strong my feelings, unless they have substantive evidence backing them up, I have no right to treat them as facts with my followers.

[imaginethatneathuh]

So

I've been on an American Gods kick if you couldn't tell.

And there's something I've noticed related to both sides of the war pertaining to smoking and specifically Mad Sweeney, Czernobog, and Technical Boy.

They're the only ones who I've seen smoke.

I'm not counting Samedi (Not sure if he actually smoked or it was because of Brigitte that I associate him with it), Brigitte, or Laura. I don't know enough about the first two and Laura isn't a god.

I could easily be wrong though. Other gods may have smoked and I just haven't noticed. But that's beside the point.

Now, I'm not really going to be talking about Czernobog because we don't see much of him but I will discuss him a little.

Czernobog gets his smokes in cartons from stores. A la, his first appearance in Season 1. Shadow goes out, buys several packs and in the next episode we see Odin give them to Czernobog.

Mad Sweeney, from what I've seen, rolls his own smokes. Every time I see him with a smoke, it looks hand rolled. We even see him shakily make his own in Season 2 Episode 7. I doubt this is the first time it's been on screen but that's the one I remember off the top of my head.

Then we have Technical Boy. He vapes. That's obvious. We see it several times. It's even pointed out in his first appearance.

Why am I pointing this out?

Simple. Because what they smoke and how they get it is kinda interesting.

I'm not going to call it important because it probably isn't, but it is interesting.

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You see, Czernobog's smokes are prepacked and in packs in the cartons. Though, he may buy individual packs if he has to, it's cheaper to buy the 10-pack cartons. (Mum's a smoker, Dad used to be, Stepdad is also a smoker. I know what I'm talking about.)

What's so interesting is that Czernobog, before Season 2 Episode 1 (could be 2, not entirely sure) wasn't fully onboard with the war between the Old and New Gods. He lost a game of Checkers to Shadow. That was the only reason he went to the meeting. Czernobog's smokes were indicative of him being old and fading away but still having a foot in the modern world - there was still a chance for him to continue living despite the bad stuff - as cigarettes are still prevelant but we now that we know the risks, they're becoming less popular.

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With Mad Sweeney, as I said before, he rolls his own smokes. Of course, the cigarette paper and the tobacco are probably from a store, but it's a lot cheaper than prepacked cigarettes. Now, Mad Sweeney may prefer doing it by hand because it's cheaper (if he's looking for strong cigarettes, he could easily get straight ones. They don't have filters. Or even filtered ones, which are just as strong but easier on the throat) or it may be a comment on him as a character.

Mad Sweeney is old, like Czernobog. Not the oldest, but certainly old. I don't know if he's older than Czernobog, mostly because I don't care. Nevertheless, he's old. We know that.

Sweeney has a lot of gold, but the price of gold changes, it fluctuates. You can't just go somewhere and get thousands in cash from trading gold. He isn't rich, money-wise. If he was, I doubt he'd look like that. (Don't get me wrong, I love him and his haircut, it fits him, but why? Please, get a proper cut. Somewhere. Anywhere!)

I'm bringing this up because of his smokes. Most people, like Czernobog, buy prepackaged and prerolled smokes. There are very few that I've met who roll them themselves. The only people I know that I can think of right now is my Dad's stepdad and my Mum when we didn't have enough money to get the cartons. Hand rolling, in my experience, is something that either really poor people do or old people. This is reflected in Mad Sweeney.

What I'm trying to get at is, Mad Sweeney is poor AND old. His ideals are old. Modern people, especially those who are in the service, veterans or families of veterans, know that there is nothing honourable about war. One of my uncles is a vet and it really fucked him up. He still won't talk about it and it's been years. Most people know there's no honour in it! There are people who still sign up and fight because they think it's honourable and right, but those people are more old fashioned and so are their families. In my experience at least. Mad Sweeney views dying in battle as something he owes because he chickened out the first time. He thinks he should die on the battlefield. Personally, I find that a very old fashioned way of thinking.

And I think that's the point. He is old fashioned. Even how he speaks on love is old fashioned. Not getting into that though.

Honestly, I could talk your ear off on Mad Sweeney and his character but I'm going to move one. At this point I'm probably losing you. I think I might even be losing myself.

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I'm going to say this before anything else on this topic. Unlike with cigarettes - which I've had to deal with my entire life - I don't know much about vaping. I don't have much experience with it. I only know what I've been told and the things I've seen.

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While I can talk about cigarettes and Mad Sweeney all day, Technical Boy and his vaping is probably the most interesting to me.

I don't know if he vapes regular pods too or if he just uses the synthetic toad skins. I don't know the inner workings of his, I think you call them vape pens? I don't know. Like I said before, I don't know much about them or how Technical Boy uses them.

What I do know is his is different than probably all of the ones on the market. His looks like one of those frogs who can get their throat really bloated. (A frog has a toad in it. I'm sorry. That has nothing to do with the topic of discussion.)

If you know anything about vaping, you know that early on, vape pens had a habit of exploding. I don't know if this is still true, but I do know that it was. Kinda like how several other choices of his in Season 2 ended up blowing up in his face, vape pens had a habit of doing that to people who smoked them.

Vapes are also symbols of entitled Millennials and Gen Zs like myself. This fits in with Technical Boy as a New God and character. He's an entitled asshole, much like how older generations seem to view younger ones. That's the meme, anyway.

Technical Boy is young, obnoxious, extravagant, a complete asshole and does have some good points on certain things. Even if a lot of his choices and points end up blowing up in his face or getting ignored and he gets punished for speaking out like in Season 1 and 2, especially in Season 1 Episode 5 and basically the entirety of the first half of Season 2.

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What I'm trying to get at is Mad Sweeney, Czernobog, and Technical Boy's smoking habits reflect who they are as characters. From old-fashioned, hand rolling Young and Old Boomer generations (Mad Sweeney) to the tired, retirement-wanting G.I. and Silent generations (Czernobog) to the often clout-chasing, explosive, and, more often than not, too knowledgeable on certains things but also too dumb to properly and calmly explain anything Millennial and Gen Z generations (Technical Boy).

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Let's be honest here, I'm probably looking way too into this and it likely isn't that deep. It's probably just a way to distinguish the old and the new But, that'd be cool if it was.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

watched the end of some guy’s amnesia: rebirth playthrough and i have some boring thoughts @halloweenhavoc have u finished the game i feel like you have more of a grasp on all this stuff than i do lmfao what with having actually played it and also probably remembering machine for pigs better

i really did not like fully piece together either the lore of the Main Story of the game nor the broader Amnesia Universe Lore lmfao but i was interested in the latter especially, but re: the former, i did like having all these other Known People associated with the protag whose fates we could all find out and shit

i’m like, sort of underwhelmed, but that’s b/c even though i was like “okay so just b/c this is a frictional-produced amnesia sequel a decade later doesn’t mean you need to hype it up like it’s gonna blow your mind just coz atdd was That big a deal” doesn’t mean i still wasn’t partially like oh but what if it is like mindblowing horror game tho......it felt a lot more like soma than atdd which isn’t in itself bad b/c soma rules but when i’m expecting it to be more like atdd it just makes things kinda bemusing and hard to recalibrate.....it was a good game though lol just like the whole time trying to figure out what the experience is gonna be i guess

anyways so like in the direction frictional’s games have gone it def feels like they’re more into Game Environments (those ruled in this game....) and being very like Thematic Story-Centric.....atdd was very stripped down and they sure got creative with that and it was as effective as it was but yeah it feels like now that they have the clout from that and the game production experience and presumably more resources and stuff that they’re progressing in This Direction which is not as atdd-esque lmao like good for them if this is the creative vision, follow those dreams and stuff

did not feel at all invested in any of this baby lore lmfaooo like it was very abstract and also i don’t care. but 10/10 for breastfeeding gameplay

i did like the Other World lore like. this is where alexander is from, Maybe?? i remember he’s mentioned as an apostate from [somewhere else] but like, is that somewhere else in another dimension or just another Region in this world lmao i don’t know. out here Inventing the amnesia potion vitae harvesting strategy, and then it’s Something Else he does that is considered heinous and they just banish him to earth lmfaooo like our problem now......and who is alexander’s wife lmfao. in atdd bad ending, when alexander portals back, does he get to come back to the shitty place where nothing’s going on but eternal vitae harvest i guess? sucks. in atdd sorta-neutral-ending, when you toss agrippa’s head through the portal and then agrippa asks [someone, i forget who....the student? weyer? or whoever??] to Help Daniel, does everyone get to go to this crappy world or are there other better dimensions lmao....also i forget how this The Other World got so shitty in the first place. something something they flew too close to the sun with their technology and it got fucked up, i forget what The Gate even is........i do like this origin story for what the fuck is up with the shadow lmfao. that like, it’s just some other alchemical Invention expressly to fuck up the vitae system?? which is sort of counter to the idea that it’s simply a Guardian of any orbs.....but then also, there was some sort of note or memory that seemed to imply that having fucked up whatever Gate they fucked up created something that sounded like maybe it was the shadow?? or was it just something Else fucked up and b/c it was like “uh oh something shitty is happening here now” i just Assumed it was the shadow.....idfk. but idk maybe since Orbs are Other World Tech For Portals the shadow is just like, Other World Tech Ruiner and if you handle one improperly the shadow will like, sense orb-jostling Lol and be On It....i don’t knowwww

i gotta admit i did love the lore tying to atdd lmfao like maybe this game would’ve been better off not really being tied to atdd but i’m still like oh yep i’m a sucker for cameos / lore about these atdd people places and things.....herbert, alexander, daniel, brennenburg, and someone else i forget who was like “i’m the first human to get to this place but i don’t have A Traveller’s Whatever so i have to die here,” rip to him.....kinda funny that vitae-harvesting is like, so Industrialized in the other world with this factory and mass-produced as it were, which is Fucked Up, and alexander got shot to earth for some mysterious terrible thing and had to invite some rando with an orb to his castle and then get his help torturing other randos with medieval instruments like. banging rocks together over there. also i don’t get what the harvesters job was? they were sure Harvesting but if the vitae is just getting Sucked thru tubes why are these guys going around breathing it in also. just like, stray air-vitae filtering system?? idk

also what was going on time-wise with this weird accelerated pregnancy. i don’t think i get Why tasi got amnesia in the first place. coincidence i guess??? and why...did she end up back in the plane wreckage. was that just where she got dropped off after they were all like. taken from Our World into the Other World and then....back into our world?? i guess??? i’m just not clear on the Timeline Of Events and how everyone got split up with some people dying and shit....was everyone getting attacked by ghuls i guess. there was a crapload of them in that one place, wasn’t there.....i also forget Where things happened lmfaooo like shit was this in Earth or The Other World.....i guess the latter it was always like, “high tech” with that art deco design shit and green light and stuff.....god i don’t know. like i already forget why richard was like, held captive and tortured. just on evil principle??? augh lmfao

also it was certainly Interesting that people turn into monsters around here with some like, magic + corruption deal going on......felt like the Lore in atdd was sort of vague but that it could Maybe tie into that sort of idea....frictional games sure will like, Metaphorically have the Self and the Non-Self But Which Is Tied To Your Self in all its stories, atdd, soma, rebirth......daniel having this past self he’s now detached from but re-learning of his past exploits.......soma copy/pasting consciousnesses.......uhhh also when it was talking about the ideal Vitae Collecting Cycle being fear, amnesia, and then Hope, and about who was the best candidates for that, i was really thinking that like, we’d learn tasi was being put through a [Hope] sequence, basically

also (rachel if ur reading this lmfao) i remember this pre-release Audio Tape that wasn’t in the gameplay that i think was like, the doctor doing an experiment on a Monster to confirm it had regenerative properties?? i thought we were gonna get a whole fucked up subplot dealing with that guy lmfao but nah just at the end......i guess soma’s promotional stuff was similar, they had all these Files and Videos and stuff which was relevant to the Lore / story but which wasn’t like, flatout in the game......i guess at some point the doctor must’ve been like, experimenting on a crew member who was sort of in the process of Turning or w/e. hank or someone i guess.....UHHH i did like “talking” to so many monsters lmfaooo like leon and crap. wild, tragic, etc.......

RIGHT and i think frictional is really creative in its like, Game Mechanics, like how relatively recently we learned that that whole thing about being told that Low Sanity makes you easier to detect in atdd, but that wasn’t true and was just put in the game to put the player more on edge? i mean, daniel keeling over for a moment if sanity gets too low is probably unhelpful in a chase but. and like, here the “sanity” thing was neat, i liked the Sound lol, i liked the flashing images and how that was like, Relevant, but also it seems like you can’t ever die in this game?? basically, ish?? which i think is neat. like, you don’t really Need to.....said it last time how it feels like the player just is still going to react as Urgently if they’re being chased by the monster lmfaooo

idk there was something other neat / creative element i think i wanted to point out as Cool but i forget (HAHA...manesima.....) i dunno the 0.0001% chance any of you are Coincidentally into amnesia at all and know what all is being talked about here and have thoughts....feel free to send me an ask or whatever.......would be inchrested in hearing other takes on it etc

OH and it didn’t feel like machine for pigs was involved at all lmfao which makes sense since it wasn’t actually produced by frictional but now i’m really struggling to remember the Lore there and if it could Conceivably tie in with descent/rebirth-verse.......oswald’s soul got actually split with Evil Orb-Corrupted Self (which!!!! i forgot there’s even the implication that maybe orb-proximity fucks you up. didn’t seem that relevant here. here magic empress fountain water fucks you up) and Amnesia’d Good (Normal-er) Self and there’s the giant machine which is gonna.....consume the world to protect it from self-destructing in another way......or, that was the reason given to oswald anyways, i remember he like sacrifices his kids to it to save them from [his visions of ww1 being an impending thing] and he doesn’t find that out till the end......his evil self tricked his good self into firing up the machine......i forget where the pig men come from or what their point is, and the machine is like, another Factory Line Vitae Harvesting thing, right?? what’s the vitae For in this case....i sure don’t fuckin know. i forget what oswald does at the end as well to like, fix things, i remember feeling sad about it even though he was a horny weirdo.....i really forget what the full picture was there or what the Orb Involvement was. anyways. idk

would be fun to see more frictional games but it seems like they’re not too interested in doing something as atdd-esque again lol, soma seems more like What Frictional Really Wants To Do, which isn’t a bad thing cuz soma rules and like. objectively i guess soma is the better game, i’m not at all mad at anyone arguing soma is better lmfao, i just sure cherish atdd and it sure is the one that made the whole [subsequent horror game defining] splash lmfao. OH YEAH and i liked they threw in another moment where someone’s been alive for ages and you unplug them and it’s like what the fuck. and i guess you do that but even Harder in the one Rebirth ending where you shadow-infect everything and all the people in the vitae-pods die......which like, it Was def creepy having all those vitae pods lmfao. conceptually fucked up.....uh yeah that’s it i guess. was a sucker for the atdd-lore-fanservice stuff lol. thought it was good but wasn’t like atdd 2.0 which is both Totally Fine and also A Bit Disappointing Of Course lol. now i’m thinking about soma some more though which is Worthy cuz that game rules and i love its story / concepts so much. and i love that you keep fisting sphincters to Save until you have to fist your forearm off. we’ve all been there. and i love the “we have the better view. :)” audio log from someone on the surface. and how the gradual reveal of the [lady you talk to throughout the game who guides you along]’s story. and the Ending. and the gradual reveal of Just What Is Going On Around Here

anyways yeah atdd rules soma rules i thought this game was good too but def is like okay you’d rather make soma than atdd and that is valid

thots????????????????

[calypsoff]

Seventeen. Part 2

I don’t know if my mother is annoyed with me or is processing what I have just said, I don’t know which part though “so you both not speaking to each other? How long have you been here?” looking up to the ceiling “uhm, about an hour and a half maybe two?” I shrugged not really knowing on how long “ok, and you haven’t thought of texting her and saying did you get there safely?” then it came to me, we fell out last time because I didn’t bother to text her “yes!” I spat; my mother has reminded me “yes what? Yes you are stupid” getting my phone out from my pocket “we fell out last time, I never asked if she got to wherever she was going” unlocking my phone and that got snatched from me “uh mom?” eyeballing “if I didn’t mention it when would you have done it? Honest Christopher?” I chuckled rubbing the back of my neck “probably not, just wait until she is over it” my mother shook her head “she won’t, she is a woman. You are throwing fuel to the fire that she has already got going, I need to teach you more about females. I can tell you haven’t had many females, baby. If she is angry with you, the last thing you do is ignore her right? And never ever just leave it to that and expect her to just contact you, so she is angry with you. What you do is still remain you, speak to your dad. He will let you know but from my part, you need too text her still and say are you ok and have you made it there Chris, this is silly behaviour. Last thing to ever do is do what she is doing, because a woman will always end up making you cry, trust me” my mom smiled at me, she has clearly done it to my dad “in this disagreement, who was at fault? Honest answers only?” my mom gave my mobile back to me, I sighed out “I don’t know, she screamed fuck you to me. Maybe me, I don’t know” my mom nodded her head “so she is frustrated, well text her and speak to your dad, he has dealt with me right?” I chuckled; my mom is right.

I did text Robyn, I just said how are and did you make it home. My bad, I just waited on Robyn to contact because she is mad. Let me go into the living room, I mean I have been trying to not come here because Aaron and Jamal is here, so this will be interesting “those are rare” Aaron pointed out to my sneakers, I barely came back into the room and he was there watching me “uh yeah” didn’t mention anything else, I sat down next to my dad “how you been anyways? You moved to Texas?” nodding my head resting right leg over my left “so tell us, how was it seeing Lakers live? You meet Lebron?” shaking my head smiling, I am not telling them shit “is she going to meet the family?” is my auntie being real “you telling me I have to bring her bodyguard?” they looked at me dumbfounded “meaning are you going to try and come here unexpected, she will be coming to see my parents soon, that is it. We don’t clout chase over here” staring at Aaron “we also don’t snitch but you did that” he retorted “it was either me or him and I chose me, you think I am going to stay in there for years just for something that was his fault? Nah” I laughed, this nigga really trying it “you think I give a fuck? You think I honestly care about that life when I am moving the fuck on” these niggas got another thing coming to be honest “I think it’s time you leave my home now boys” my dad got involved, I like that he always takes my side no matter what.

I don’t miss my mother and the long wait she makes us go through just because she wants to do grace “please god bless my son that is away from me and bless my second daughter on the road” opening my eye and looking at my mother “second daughter?” she shushed me “amen” she finished off, looking up “amen, but who is the second daughter?” I am confused “baby, you know who I am speaking on. I want all my kids to be blessed and happy, now we eat as a family. I have missed this so much, I made all your favourite things for your birthday, special day for you. You’re home with us so please enjoy” my mom spoils me so much “so Chris, how is life on the other side? The rich and famous, I am intrigued to know” my sister would ask “erm, it’s different. She gets what she wants when she wants and there is no questions asked, everything is luxury. Like on the day, she had a driver get me from my door, I was on a jet and there. All was taken care of, got to her home. It was fucking mind blowing. Twelve million dollar home, I think she said. Nine bedrooms, I still get lost but it’s beautiful. I am speechless, she has her chef with us. I met her family, they are ever so kind to me, that is it” I shrugged picking my fork up “and you ain’t living there!?” my sister spat “and live under Rihanna? Nah” shaking my head.

Placing my arm behind my mother’ seat “thank you so much my queen, my stomach is filled. A lot” my mother cooed out “I am happy you came; I made your old room up for you” that will be a fun sleep, maybe uncomfortable, we shall see “son, how about you and I go to the bar, have a little catch up? Man to man” he patted my shoulder “did I do something wrong?” looking up at my dad as he got up “no, just need to talk buddy. I will get my things on” I think I did something wrong “Chris is in trouble, not like him” my sister snorted laughing “be quiet” she is annoying “so how is dating a millionaire? A famous popstar Rihanna? I am surprised you not being killed yet, they crazy about her” my sister is hateful “you are actually jealous” clasping my hands together “right, Tootie no Rihanna talk, Chris you go and change to go with your dad, he wants to go and watch some sports” pushing my chair out “little bitch” Tootie mouthed to me, she has never changed that girl. There is one thing playing on my mind, Robyn hasn’t text me back at all. It’s weird for her to do that, why hasn’t she text me, is she that angry with me. I am just stating facts, that I need my shit back, how can one woman be so offended by that.

Stuffing my hands in my pockets walking into the sport bar with my dad “you want to get a table and I get drinks?” nodding my head “sure” walking off “son!” he spat, turning to him “what drink?” oh yeah, I never mentioned “uhm some whiskey, and a Vodka coke” walking off to find a table for us, I am not a big drinker but I feel like I need it, I mean my dad and I do things together but missed out on a lot of it, then I felt too scared to go out, now I don’t care again, I am happy with that. Sitting down at the empty table, taking the jacket off as I did “someone already took your order” the lady came out of nowhere “uh, my dad is bringing me a drink, thank you though” pushing my jacket, she pointed at me “I have seen your face before” I laughed nervously “you have?” I played dumb “you are, wait. I don’t know you, but I feel like I seen your face somewhere though, I will figure it out” she winked at me walking off, she is cute “likewise” I laughed, she is pretty actually with a good ass on her. Stroking my chin hair just staring at her walking, ideally I would like to think she has seen me on Robyn’ Instagram but then again, might not be that but my face was on TV at the game and this is a sports bar, so my face was shown, and I know that.

I downed the whiskey as soon as he gave it, I thought with the Vodka coke I will take my time with it, if I keep having whiskey I will be drunk in no time, my dad likes watching golf, how fun but I will get on with it, taking a sip of the drink “so how is everything?” sitting back in the seat laughing “just get to it dad, what is it?” I smirked “how is it having a lady in your life, someone you are serious about” I knew he wanted to ask that “uhm, I would say it’s interesting. Demanding, I feel like it is a lot of give and take, sometimes I feel like I have to give more then she does. She has more to lose then I do, but yes it’s weird. It’s fun to be with the love of your life, your best friend, she is understanding. I think the notion of sex was always there” my dad’ eyes widened, I busted out laughing “no but seriously, it was like left on that note. It was there and we didn’t get too, we got that out of the way and I shut down on her, I hurt her without even thinking. I shut down because I really went there to see her, talk to her and then she made that move, I am a man. I had sex with her but then I closed off on her, and I did it because I was scared of what I was feeling. It’s bigger than me, she is bigger then me. But it happened, then the next minute we are in a cabin and I am asking her to be my girlfriend, then when I got to Cali I was taken back, I felt happy. I do feel happy, I am just a laid back guy dad. she seems to be a little tense, I feel like she wants, and I want some space” I shrugged “man, I don’t know but I do love her with all my heart, she is the love of my life” that is for sure, I do love Robyn with everything in me.

My dad is trying to have the talk with me “your mom said that Robyn wanted you to go to California and you went to Texas, how come?” the truth comes out “so mom put you to this?” I chuckled, my dad frowned “son, no. We have done this before, stop it but how did you decide to do that?” he asked “you tell me what would you do, let’s say mom is a singer. She is famous, would you run there to be with her?” it’s a simple question but it’s hard to answer “I love your mother, you said you love her Chris. If that was your mother I would be where she is, I wouldn’t like to leave that distance because I would like to have that every waking moment with her but that is just me Chris, I know you and you can be very stand off at times. You can be stubborn and at times your Ego can be bad. Remember when I told you no about your cousin and I was right? I just know my son but I don’t know Robyn like that, to me she is a sweet girl but your mom wants me to just spend time with you and to help you understand that for your relationship to last with Robyn, you need to give a little more then she does” shaking my head “because she is the famous one?” my dad shook his head “not even that Chris but she is your lady, you should have moved there in the first place. California is not as expensive as you make it seem at all, are you using the Texas as a way of using your authority? Relationships won’t work when two people are facing the opposite directions, you know that right?” nodding my head, I know full well what he means “so what sparks arguments with you both? Be truthful with me now?” I sniggered “uhm, maybe me. I don’t know, I can at times say things to annoy her, maybe play dumb to things but that is me. She can be annoyed at me saying no, the world no to something. I just feel like if I don’t make something for myself how will I ever support myself? She is rich, I can’t contend with that, I want to be away from her to do that” I sighed out “I remember you now” looking away from my dad, the girl is back “oh you do?” I smirked “you’re dating Rihanna” taking in a sharp breath “cannot confirm or deny that” I am dumb “she has confirmed that for you boo but, you’re one lucky man. I can give you that, would you like a top up?” she grabbed my glass “you buying?” I retorted “mhmm it’s on the house” I bowed my head “thank you ma” she is sweet.

I am here for the free drinks anyways “I think you need to stop accepting free drinks” is my dad stupid, if they are free then they are free “so anyways, the girl is pretty. You need to give Chris; things don’t work by how you think it will. You think me and your mother would work if I digested half of the things she asks of me? It goes in and then back out and I get on with my day, like the time when we were dating initially, your mother is the most beautiful lady and then there is me Chris. I was insecure, I really was. I overheard people say I didn’t deserve her but all she wanted was me, she made me feel I was worthy, but I didn’t think I deserved your mom at all, and she maybe be pretty but when she goes on a rant, it drives you crazy, but I learned to just stare at her, just admire her and also switch off. Let her say it, biting back doesn’t work because you end up being the bad guy either way. You need to save your arguments for bigger things then you being egotistical. I think son, you are trying to prove a point to her when she doesn’t need the point proven and you need to stop doing it before you end up being the broken hearted one. Relationships are hard Chris, they really are but yours is not behind closed doors, remember that and I am always here to help you. Just give a little, stop trying to lay down the law. Yes your mother told me a lot, she wanted me to speak to you” my mother is such a snitch.

Squinting my eyes, blurred vision “let’s go home now” my dad tried to move me, I am determined to call Robyn, she didn’t text me. I am drunk, a little anyways “ringing” I laughed turning my phone to my dad “not wise is it?” I don’t care for him, she better pick up “put it down” my dad eyeballed me “hello” she picked up “hey my rebel fleur” I said in an extremely slurred tone, trailing off vaguely at the end “Are you drunk Chris?” she asked in surprise “Me?! Nah” I laughed “Uhmmm” she doesn’t believe me “I’m…not. I shwe..I swear” I protested “right” she said in amusement “I just wanted to tell you tha-” my eyes were closing as I spoke “tell me what?” Robyn prompted when I didn’t finish the sentence. My eyes flew open in startlement, I am so fucked “I wanted to tell you…that…its alright. I undershta…I understand why you” I managed to say “Why what?” Robyn asked “are you alone drunk? You’re out Chris” I feel weird “I love you. I love you. I MOTHERFUCKING LOVE YOU!” I said getting louder with each word. My dad shushed me “let’s go, Chris” my dad is not as drunk as I “I love you too-” Robyn started to say “nooo! You don’t understand. I really motherfucking LOVE YOU. Like…I love you so much you have no idea” I interrupted her “I know Chris” Robyn tried to say “noooo!!! You don’t know. You don’t know!! You have no idea” I shouted into the phone, I was getting extremely agitated “someone had too much to drink” that girl is here, staring at her so foreign “you ain’t Robyn! The fuck!?” my dad snatched my phone from me “hey” I tried to protest and get my phone from him but failed as I was too drunk, placing my head in my hands.

[zumpietoo]

Nic Mercado posted Cole's most recent LA hook up Ari Fournier. Cole brought Ari with him on the road trip to Joshua Tree. She's Canadian so she can visit him in Vancouver. Not sure why Nic is stirring the pot right now? Looking for attention, I guess

Yes because when I fall in love, I immediately ask, “but can u cross the border during a pandemic?”. Plus if it were “just a hook up” wouldn’t the peen seek to ensure there would be no possible chance of following him, cause he “isn’t emotionally available”?

And wouldn’t want to make “grand romantic public gestures like petting zoo visits”?

You are also aware:

Nic is friends with Ari (as is Hart, his gf and many others)

Cole and Ari have followed each other for quite some time, because she’s a model.

Cole didn’t “bring” her anywhere and it’s beyond misogynistic to imply a woman can’t go somewhere on her own in this day and age.

The connection remains purely they were at a thing at the same time. By that logic Cole is “hooking up” with every other person there and anyplace else he was at, as well.

If Cole DID “hook up” or is now madly in love with Ari or anything in between or anybody else, so? He’s single and dumped Lili a year ago. He’s free to fuck whomever he so desires.

Lastly....a point about Nic. Again, I don’t buy, just because deuxmoi and maybe some other forum says so, she’s The Big Leak.

Because, while I’ll grant you she does clout chase/is VERY into having famous friends, she gains nothing from leaking what is actually false info. Other than weakening her access to the people she’s blabbing on.

And also, Cole isn’t that stupid and has no connection to her other than a friendship that would seemingly benefit her way more than it does him. But he chooses to continue, over an extended period of time.

As for whatever she did or didn’t blab about Kstew, again, haven’t seen anything concrete. And yeah, I did do a search and all I found were vague rumblings on LSA, right next to actual lies about ME.

So I’ve already blocked you, but going forward, once again, I require proof.

And explain your Cole hate while you’re at it

[diaryofaspookykid]

January 7th 2021

     I began this day like any other, falling asleep at around 4am, unable to get comfortable with anxiety riddled through my bones, so many thoughts passing through my mind, enabling me to rest. I put on my white noise rain playlist which is a total of 36minutes and somehow somewhere in that timeline, fall asleep. As i awake, i can see out my balcony a blanket of eerie fog so thick i cannot see past my backyard. I sign into a zoom class (because we are still closed until further notice at the salon) and begin my day. i spent about an hour of my time looking for birria tacos in my area, and crossing my fingers they deliver to my house. I struck gold as there was a place in gilroy called “Los Juniors Mariscos” and it was only around 12 min away and they doordashed. Doordash prices doubled the amount of my order for delivery so i decided to pick it up myself and it was well worth the drive. These damn tacos were amazing. Tender in all the right places, dripping in consome they have been bathing in. 

     In pop culture news of the day, Jeffree Starr has posted a youtube video responding to the allegations regarding him and Kanye West fucking. Which is the “reason” for Kim and Kanyes divorce. After watching his video, i have came to the personal conclusion that i feel this may be a clout chase to keep all parties in the mainstream media as they are all quite frankly dying down. Regarding this same topic you have people “clout chasing” and saying they “hooked up with kanye” to try and become relevant. People such as Cole Carrigan. This kid has tried to start so much drama with the community and we know him on a personal level from the Allstar cheerleading world where he used to essentially stalk athletes and just quite frankly be a drama starting pest. not a single thing has changed....not to mention the fact that he tried to start a “beauty house” and completely fucking flopped. 

   Moving on to conspiracies as i heavily invest myself in the crazy but completely intriguing and potentially real stories going around, i call my friend Gabrielle mother fucking Clark and Nancy and tell them about a recent conspiracy i have learned about. In summary, this conspiracy states that the entire year of 2020 we were shifted into a different dimension, everything negative that had happened, all was a result of us being placed in this different dimension. On new years 2021 the ball dropped 1minute late. Globally. At first youd think this is just a mistake by news stations etc, until you hear the theory. Apparently the ball dropping a minute late was due to our world clicking back into “our reality” our dimension. Thus, this year of “2021″ actually being the true start of 2020 in our dimension. On any apple device with siri, you can ask “How many days are their until 2021?” and siri responds “358 days until the year 2021″..... How is it that we are so advanced in technology and this mistake is just at random. Something else is afoot.

     A Few weeks ago the covid bill was passed, this bill was 15 pages and signed and approved by the senate,  but in this bill states that the pentagon and government of the United States must release all classified documentation, proof, footage, truth about alien life/extraterrestrials within 180 days of the bill being signed. Which means, by august of 2021 we should have some insight or truth on the mysteries of above that the entire world has been wondering since the dawn of time. i believe that all forms of government in every country know what lies in the stars, they just have an oath on not speaking about it. There has to be some reason all countries signed to protect Antartica, as it is rumored to be the threshold of bases for Alien life research and experiments. Only time will show the truth.

      I ended my day with coaching, with covid-19 still ruining everything, i believe that  this season will come to an end. Just as it ended last season. Every event is getting cancelled left and right aside and we have yet to have a shot at competing. Especially in this state. This was the first week seeing the kids in almost 6 weeks from being closed, and its so bittersweet as i love seeing them but it seems as if we are working toward nothing. As i arrived home, me and Nancy started watching our new favorite show “Pen15″ and we are hooked, but not trying to binge it all at once so we can savor the joy we get from this show. 10/10 reccomend.

Today i am feeling, clouded. Any time i had a thought to myself today, for some reason i would feel the anxiety crawl under my skin and creep toward my brain, like those beetles in the mummy movie franchise. I cannot seem to sleep anymore, but i will make an attempt now. 

Goodnight,

Spookykid x