#Give us the adhd friendly version

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Alright SCREW IT here's my Kiara defense post:

Is it annoying to watch get paired off with everyone in the main cast? Sure. Let me explain why that's not a character flaw or terrible, unplanned writing so yall can put some respect on her name.

1. They're ALL in love with her, and literally throwing themselves at her all the time. This is so important and well-documented that John B literally tells us IN HIS INTRODUCTION TO THE GROUP in episode one. It is literally so relevant to their entire group dynamic that he brings it up in the first episode summary of who they all are. Guys actually do this I have seen this happen. One of my high school best friends was constantly manic pixie dream girled (despite being profoundly depressed) and several entire friend groups of boys fell in love with her. She dated one guy, who was a piece of shit and dumped her saying it was because of his parents but told his friends it was because she had too much baggage. The fallout was so bad, one guy from one of the friend groups tattled to her and a different guy, who was best friends with the douche, literally got into a fight with him and THE DOUCHE HAD TO CHANGE FRIEND GROUPS BECAUSE HIS BOYS KICKED HIM OUT. I'm serious about these teenage boys all having the same taste and thinking it's a competition.

2. John B kissed HER. She immediately shut him down. Immediately. Everything before that can easily be explained as Kiara being concerned about him after losing his father. Teenage boys are dumb anyhow, but it's particularly easy to see why John B and JJ, who have both been routinely neglected and grew up without mothers (read, any positive female attention/influence) would interpret this as Kiara having feelings for them. They fall in love with anyone who sincerely gives them the time of day, basically. And that's a little too relatable moving on.

3. "Mixed signals" by kissing boys on the cheek. While I would not recommend this, I think there was a very clear pattern to her behavior and I have a theory I'm 99% sure is canon, based on copious textual evidence.

Kiara was in love with JJ all along. I'll come back to this. She only kissed the boys she friendzoned on the cheek. With John B, I genuinely think she never had any sort of romantic feelings for him and just saw him as a best bro. But she was worried about him, and maybe realized he listened to her more when she did it. Nonetheless, the minute he gets with Sarah it's almost like she feels relieved and never does anything remotely mixed signals to him again. Now Pope? That is a rich text. What the hell is going on with her and Pope?

4. When Pope first confesses, Kiara is once again caught off-guard. She once again rightfully turns him down IMMEDIATELY and gives extremely accurate and self-aware reasons. Her rejection of him is surprisingly mature, that the life he plans on and wants is ultimately and assuredly not compatible with what she wants for herself. So why did she kinda date him? Honestly, I think it was an attempt to move on from what she believed were doomed feelings for JJ. After all the things that happen in season 1, after Pope going off the deep end a little bit by smoking weed, getting drunk, and engaging in acts of violence, as well as ditching his scholarship interview, Kiara suddenly experiences a spark of attraction towards Pope.

Because he's acting like JJ. Reckless. Using substances to cope. Chaotic. Spontaneous. She knows these things are bad for Pope, and she's at times put off by how un-Pope-like they are as his friend, but she has a type. So following a moment of attraction and the sudden supposed loss of John B (and Sarah), she decides to give it a go. Maybe Pope's different after everything that happened. And he is, but not quite the way she was expecting. To link this back to the cheek-kissing thing, honestly, I think Kiara lowkey has the ick 😂. She consistently shoves any of the boys who try to touch her at all away except for JJ, the entire series mind you, except for these little cheek kisses like that's all she can manage to do. She kisses Pope like twice and ends up sleeping with him, at which point she realizes she just can't do it. She's not consistently attracted to her, and she can't get past her feelings for JJ, so she calls it off. Again, that's a fair healthy, and kind thing to do. When you realize it's not going to work, especially if you have feelings for someone else, it is distinctly NOT dragging people around to cut it off. If Kie has a real problem, honestly? I think it's that ultimately she wants a man she can fix. And Pope's fine. So that's him out.

My proof that the writers absolutely intended Kiara to have feelings for JJ from day one:

"Did you tell JJ?" specifically. Just JJ. She doesn't want HIM to think she's taken.

Shoving away John B and Pope every time they try to hug her or put an arm around her etc. Letting JJ hug her, take her hand, sling his arm around her etc. She also goes out of her way to touch him by taking his arm, holding him when he's crying, hugging him several times and then almost kissing him. So in a way, I'd very much like you to consider, Kiara was not in fact sending everyone mixed signals, her problem was that she was so consistent. Consistently attracted to and in love with someone she thought had no real interest in her. JJ flirts with her jokingly, and from episode 1 and the convo in the bell tower between John B and Sarah, we know that he's a horny little dude. And that's not surprising either, because people who've been abused tend to go one way or the other- either very physical touch-seeking in an attempt to balance about the bad, or very touch-avoidant. JJ is clearly, demonstably in column A. Not just with Kiara, but he also initiates hugs with John B and Pope, touches their faces, and even kisses Pope on the cheek once. He's clearly a very touchy person with everyone, so I can see how Kiara would be unsure about his feelings when he very much does not communicate his wants or needs with words.

Finally, the proof that Kiara had feelings for JJ, and that Jiara was the direction the show was headed, was in their conversation in thr storage container. When JJ tells her what he wants from life and plans to do with the money, it's a direct parallel to her initial reject of Pope. He wants to travel the world and be spontaneous and non-sedentary and have no use for money. Everything she said to Pope and is always trying to explain to her parents. That was 0% accidental, that was the writers making it clear: these two are a match, they're compatible on a much deeper level.

4. So if they always planned on JJ and Kiara, why didn't those two just get together to start? The answer, my friends, is jealousyy. This is a common tactic in writing to get a couple together: force the reluctant one to acknowledge their feelings by putting the other in a relationship with someone else. Im short: every moment between Kiara and John B or Pope was to show us JJ did not like that and therefore that his feelings for Kiara were serious, unlike how she interpreted them and him being a flirty himbo with other girls. It also helped Kiara realize she wasn't getting over him any time soon, and that she couldn't avoid her feelings either. So it forced them both to give up and acknowledge to themselves that they had feelings for the other.

5. "Teenage girls don't act like her" JOKES. This is the dumbest argument I've seen, I'm sorry. I'm happy you have met such well-adjusted teenage girls but buddy... I have known some teenage girls and people who used to identify as girls at that age who would make you roll over in your grave. Some people don't know what they want, some people desperately crave attention, some people just can't seem to avoid drama or make good choices and sometimes that's even a resulted of untreated disabilities or mental illness. Sometimes it's all of the above. My point is absolutely there are teenage girls who act like Kiara and faaar worse.

6. Lastly, why not John B or Pope? Why was Kiara totally valid for not liking them romantically? Well feelings are feelings so she's valid anyways but can we talk about them both touching her/making moves at inappropriate times without consent?? It's understandable she likes JJ and feels the safest around him when he's the only who doesn't act like he wants or expects anything from her. He never kisses her without consent, let alone while running from the cops randomly. He never tries to put his arm around her or make a move in the middle of them having an emotionally intimate conversation where she is clearly seeking emotional comfort. I'm not saying John B or Pope are bad people, but with Kiara both showed a lot of immaturity and failed to read the room numerous times. They acted whenever they personally felt attraction, regardless of where she was at at the time. There's such a thing as reading body signals, and the only times JJ comes close to making an actual move on Kiara is when she comes to him, gets close to his face and leans in. In the end, he only kisses her after she looks him dead in the eyes and tells him I LOVE YOU. That's on respect. Also, John B and Pope both get their shit together and learn this with their next girlfriends! So good on them!

But Kiara confessed to JJ at a random time too! I hear you shouting. NAY. Incorrect!! JJ is actively avoiding her and having a mature conversation about how they feel about each other, and also the fact that he stole from her family, and that is on HIM. That is a result of his issues and his fear and poor coping mechanisms. Kiara forced him to address it at an inopportune time because she already attempt to address it privately TWICE and he wouldn't let her. So all she did there was clear the air and make her own feelings known, which he needed to hear. That is the last conversation they have before he attempts to apologize and confess back. That is what convinces him that Kiara's feelings for him are both genuine and serious, and that no amount of pushing her away will succeed. She loves him unconditionally, which he did not know was possible until then.

So in short!! Kiara actually behaves like a real human being. She's not crazy, extremely selfish, nor an example of writers just testing out the waters and seeing what the fans want or who has the most chemistry. She is very consistent. The only thing I can really begrudge about her behavior towards her friends (her parents are a different story) is that she's insensitive to both John B and Pope after rejecting them, which I believe is because she doesn't realize they had actual feelings for her so much as thinking she's hot.

[0sbrain]

here's a list of mozilla add-ons for all of you tumblrinas out there to have a better internet experience

also, if you like my post, please reblog it. Tumblr hates links but i had to put them so you adhd bitches actually download them <3 i know because i am also adhd bitches

BASIC STUFF:

AdGuard AdBlocker / uBlock Origin : adguard is a basic adblock and with origin you can also block any other element you want. for example i got rid of the shop menu on tumblr

Privacy Badger : this add on will block trackers. if an element contains a tracker it will give you the option to use it or not

Shinigami Eyes: this will highlight transphobic and trans friendly users and sites using different colors by using a moderated database. perfect to avoid terfs on any social media. i will explain how to use this and other add-ons on android as well under the read more cut

THINGS YOU TUMBLINAS WANT:

Xkit: the best tumblr related add on. with many customizable options, xkit not only enhances your experience from a visual standpoint, but provides some much needed accessibility tools

bonus: if you are into tf2 and wanna be a cool cat, you can also get the old version to add cool reblog icons

AO3 enhancer: some basic enhancements including reading time and the ability to block authors and tags

YOUTUBE

Return of the YouTube Dislike : pretty self explanatory

Youtube non-stop: gets rid of the annoying "Video paused. Continue watching?" popup when you have a video in the background

SponsorBlock: gives you options to skip either automatically or manually sponsors, videoclip non music sectors and discloses other type of sponsorships/paid partnerships

Enhancer for YouTube: adds some useful options such as custom play speed, let's you play videos in a window and most important of all, it allows you to make the youtube interface as ugly as your heart desires. I can't show a full image of what it looks like because i've been told its eye strainy and i want this post to be accessible but look at this <3

PocketTube: allows you to organize your subscriptions into groups

YouTube Comment Search: what it says

FINDING STUFF

WayBack Machine: you probably know about this site and definitely should get the add on. this allows you to save pages and access older versions with the click of a button. while you can search wayback using web archives, please get this one as well as it allows you to easily save pages and contribute to the archive.

Web Archives: it allows you to search through multiple archives and search engines including WayBack Machine, Google, Yandex and more.

Search by Image: allows you to reverse image search using multiple search engines (in my experience yandex tends to yield the best results)

Image Search Options: similar to the last one

this next section is pretty niche but... STEAM AND STEAM TRADING

SteamDB: adds some interesting and useful statistics

Augmented Steam: useful info specially for browsing and buying games

TF2 Trade Helper: an absolute godsend, lets you add items in bundles, keeps track of your keys and metal and your recent trades, displays links to the backpack tf page next to users profiles and more. look it tells me how much moneys i have and adds metal to trades without clicking one by one oh may god

IN CONCLUSION: oooooh you want to change to firefox so badly, you want to delete chrome and all the chrome clones that are actually just spyware and use firefox

HOW TO USE MOZILLA ADD-ONS ON YOUR PHONE

if you already use firefox on android, you'll know there are certain add-ons compatible with the app, some of them even being made just for the mobile version such as Video Background Play FIx. while most of them are pretty useful, some more specific ones aren't available on this version of the browser, but there's a way of getting some of them to work

you need to download the firefox nightly app, which is basically the same as the regular firefox browser but with the ability of activating developer mode. you can find how to do that here. once you've enabled it, you need to create a collection with all the add ons you want. i wouldn't recommend adding extensions if the creators haven't talked about phone compatibility, but XKit and Shinigami Eyes should work

also, don't tell the government this secret skater move, but you can try using both the regular firefox browser and nightly so you can have youtube videos in a floating box while you browse social media.

see? i can block this terf while Rick Rolling the people following this tutorial. isn't that tubular?

[chekhovs-tantrum]

This is a post for the wonderful @adhdanalogbrain! Thank you for compiling and creating a tool that has saved my ass a hundred times over.

I often find myself navigating to the section on procrastination, and wanted to expand on it and add a few extra tricks that have worked for me or for clients in recent memory. Sharing my expanded version in the hope this helps someone else!

(1-12). I am procrastinating and want to stop

Stop and take a moment to figure out why you’re procrastinating: what you’re expecting the task will be like, or what negative association you have with it. 

If the task is overwhelming/too big/don’t know where to start: 

Split the task into smaller tasks until each task seems less overwhelming 

List the first 5 tiniest steps/tasks that need done, and write them down (ie “get out notebook, open up video for class, begin taking notes”) . When you finish you get to cross them off the list. 

Give yourself permission not to get the whole thing done in one sitting. Trust that you can come back to it.

Set a timer, only work on it for 3-5 minutes and promise yourself you can stop after that. (you don’t have to get it all done at once!)  

Call a friend to talk through the task and help plan

If the task seems boring/tedious: 

Find a way to make it more interesting (body double, go to a more interesting location, play music, make the task part of your play-pretend)

Find a way to immediately reward yourself when you make progress (like giving self a small treat or crossing it off a list)

“Ground” yourself for a time - clear out your schedule and plan out the time to get a little bit of work done

Use the “lightning in a bottle” technique

Make the task more sensory-friendly (light a candle, put on cozy clothes)

Make it into a game and keep score with yourself

Make a list of the things that excite you about the task, if there are any 

If the task seems scary/too hard/you’re worried about failure:

Go back to skills for regulating anxiety; pick one you can do while you do the task

Give yourself permission to do it badly and fix it later

Find humor in doing the task badly

Check your catastrophizing: what's the worst thing that happens if you totally blow this?

Ask for help from friends, teachers, etc

Remember to cheerlead yourself

Sending love to my fellow adhd-ers, and would love to hear about any strategies others have found helpful!

[slow-burn-sally]

My Favorite Characters with ADHD

Again, these are only my opinions.

Jeremy - The Secret Of NIMH. Come on. Look at him. He is a combined-type ADHD boy if ever there was one. Distracted, clumsy, impulsive, I bet the writers either had ADHD, knew someone who had ADHD, or had a child with ADHD.

2. Newton Geiszler - Pacific Rim.

Also impulsive as fuck, a class clown, obnoxious, yet obnoxiously smart, and somehow still charming as fuck. He reads very ADHD to me. BB. Forgive me for using the meme gif. It's just so good.

3. Rose Nylund - The Golden Girls

Who doesn't love Rose? She's friendly, sweet, fun, creative, horny, and hilarious. She also can't remember anything for more than five minutes, and is the human equivalent of a small, cute dog who bumps into things a lot by accident. I love you Rose. Long live Betty White.

4. Sherlock Holmes (The Jeremy Brett Granada-Holmes).

I actually think Holmes may have had both ADHD and Autism, but really, Brett's Holmes is bombastic, impulsive (seeing a trend), able to hyperfocus at the speed of light. Overshares, blows up friendships. Cannot keep a clean flat. Hyper as all get out. Think about it.

5. Nadja of Antipaxos - What We Do In The Shadows

She's a hot mess. Distracted, forgetful, intensely interested in some things, and cannot be bothered to give a flying fuck about other things. Out of sight, out of mind. She's probably also AuDHD actually, but for the purposes of this list, I will draw your attention to her many impulsive and rash decisions surrounding her emotions, and her over the top RSD. She's so beautiful, help.

6. Jonathan Strange - Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell.

Oh my god such an ADHD boy! He cannot sit still, and he has no patience for rules or regulations. He's self centered, impulsive (hello!), running off on the King's Roads, and drinking mouse juice to make himself go mad on purpose. Failing at four careers before finally becoming a magician by absolute accident. I love you Johnty. Never change.

7. Cornelius Hickey (or whatever his real name is) - The Terror.

He's impulsive (aye-oh!), makes sudden, rash decisions, is prone to flashes of anger, has off the charts RSD, and though he manages to hyperfocus on sabotaging the expedition for his own needs, he still makes a lot of careless mistakes and fucks it up royally. Too bad one of his hyper-focuses wasn't "learning about ships". I love you Hickey, you adorable bastard. How is his hair always so good?

8. Back to JS&MN for Christopher Drawlight.

Christopher Drawlight cannot sit still to save his life. He's always being charming, chatting people up, and making social connections, both real and fabricated by himself. Only sometimes, he loses track of which lies he's told, and to whom, which gets him in a lot of trouble. His hyperfocus is social status, and he can't let it go, even at the bitter end. He's really one of my favorite characters, even if he is a horrible person. This goes for both book and show Drawlight, by the way. Both top notch. Both ADHD as fuck.

9. Dory - Finding Nemo.

I mean... do I have to say anything else? I don't think I do. I love Dory so much. I relate so, so much. Inattentive ADHD Fish Sister.

10. All versions of Doctor Who, but Tenant is becoming iconic, and I love him, so let's go with number 10!

Just an all around hyperactive ADHD guy. Fun, creative, adventurous, risk taker, IMPULSIVE (it doesn't end). But really, all Doctor Whos feel ADHD to me. There's something capricious and clumsy and dreamy and jumpy about all of them.

[proselfshipsafespace]

(I love how friendly and responsive you are to every ask, it makes this blog feel fun and interactive ^v^)

Anyways, I'm a soulbonder who both selfships with and is soulbonded to my fav characters from my fav shows and I love them all SO! MUCH! 💖 These characters are my partners, my family, my friends, and it's been amazing having all of them come into my life (I have ~25 now!). We play games together, we kiss and cuddle, they make sure I'm never alone, they take care of me, support me, I support them and help them through griefs they have leftover from their canon sources, and of course, we have kinky, sexy fun too 😉 I also love the rich worlds they live in and I love seeing what they're up to and how they interact with each other (polyselfshipping for the win, we are just a big love nest of interconnected relationships!) I would love to share the wonders of soulbonds/thoughtforms to the selfship community and have more of us be soulbonders so we can all smoochy smooch and be there for the autonomous/living character versions of our F/Os and have them hang out with us in our daily lives as much as we imagine scenarios of us and them together in various AUs. If any selfshippers are curious about soulbonding, what it is, how to do it, why would you/the benefits, etc. I would love to answer questions about it! (I also hope to very soon make a lot of thorough how-to and essay posts too) Also, it's possible many of us are already soulbonders (interacting with a character that has "come to life" in our minds) without even knowing it!

(thank you!! i really do try my best to give my responses or perspective or advice because ive seen other blogs in the past that use the same responses for things and i want to stray from that as much as i can and give my actual thoughts or responses so i appreciate it ^^)

soulbonding is interesting to me, and while i have tried to read about it, i got too busy or distracted so i just ended up squinting at my screen like an old person LOL but from my basic understanding of thoughtforms (NOT FROM ANALOG HORROR I PROMISE (LYING THROUGH MY TEETH)) and soulbonding, i feel like my adhd distracts me too much to be a soulbonder because i am WAY too focused on a million things that sometimes im just like "OH SHIT OH SHIT- oh hi blorbo :) i love that guy. OH SHIT OH SHIT-"

maybe if i make a thoughtform of my f/os theyll do my work for me /lhj

[jasminegazer]

TOTTMNT/Tmnt MM Autism and ADHD Headcannons

(just the four main turtles for right now until we get more screen time for other characters)

Leo: Autism

Raph: has a few symptoms but neither

Donnie: Autism

Mikey: ADHD

Leo and Donnie use sign language when they are overwhelmed/ over-stimulated

Raph, Mikey, and Splinter understand sign but don’t use it

Donnie and Leo sign to each other when this happens to one of them or as just a friendly reminder that they’re there for each other

Splinter had to find the right kind of fabric texture for Donnie and Leo as to not make them uncomfortable (thanks @renisrandom for that idea)

Just a random late night post about these goobers and TSL(which needs to be cannon in some version of Tmnt(I do not care which one just give it to me)). Could someone please tell me when and where Rise!Donnie signs cause I have absolutely no idea where to find that clip.

[drill-teeth]

It's late at night, but I have an angry thought. I find it extremely upsetting just how completely the online discussion of mental illness is no longer actually about the mentally ill, especially the most at risk.

Discussions of cluster b disorders only exist to demonize those disorders now. To identify a group of people who can have a very hard time coping and healing and readjusting and take language associated and basically redefine them and their experiences as being abuser disorder.

People will invoke actual symptoms in bad faith so frequently as an excuse to shift social conversations that aren't about them to themselves that a lot of people no longer know the words' medical definition. Hardly anyone can give me the actual definition of spoon theory or compassion fatigue because they don't know what those symptoms mean. And the only thing they're using them to mean is "I'm tired and don't want to put in the energy to engage with others' problems" which is not the fucking same thing.

People will do a watching Tiktoks level of mental health research, self diagnose a disorder, and then become a brand new well of misinformation of that disorder. And you can hardly point out that these people are spreading misinformation and a watered down version of a disorder that can be easily explained in other ways because you'll get accused of fakeclaiming and being an ableist. And actually I don't think it's ableist to point out mental health words mean what they mean.

A lot of people think they can't be ableist about the mentally ill if they have a disorder, so they'll slap adhd or autistic in their bio to try and appear mental health friendly. And whether or not they are adhd or autistic doesn't matter because they are still ableist and are trying to convince you they can't be.

One of the most shitty things ever said to me (aside from classic anon "kill yourself" asks) was someone who had read my comic on identifying as bigender, went to my blog and saw I identified as having a disordered, plural identity (and I know they went to my blog to dig this up because it was not mentioned on the post with the comic) and told me being that mentally ill meant I was too traumatized to identify as trans and much less bigender and that I was probably just a butch girl who should keep my voice down. And that is completely infantilizing and insulting and ableist. And that person had "autistic" proudly displayed in their bio.

The conversation of mental health online is dominated by ableists who just want to use mental health terms they don't understand to avoid criticism. And that shouldn't be a boogeyman that causes people to never trust anyone with a disorder in their bio again because that's ableist as fuck too. But god is it disheartening.

[tellthemeerkatsitsfine]

This is a post I decided to make entirely for my own reasons and is definitely not just me doing that thing I do sometimes where I read something elsewhere on the internet and write a reply to it in a post on a different website to people who don’t have the original context. Such petty behaviour is beneath me and I would never do that. But anyway, here is how a post comparing Jon Richardson to John Robins should look.

They have a lot in common, obviously. They’ve both based their comedy personas on “I am bitter and anxious and think about things until it ruins my life and get upset when other people do things differently from me, and for related reasons I have a drinking problem”. Both of these comedic personas are… I mean, if it’s that far apart from the reality, then they’ve done a hell of a job of committing to the bit for nearly 20 years. I assume the truth in overlapping personas is why they venerate each other’s work so much, and get along so well, Jon Richardson seemed to get Robins in the divorce (his, um, first divorce – the first time he got divorced from a blond comedian with ADHD). There’s not a lot of point in pitting them against each other when they seem to go together in many ways.

However, here are some differences that immediately come to mind:

- I guess I can’t speak to this for sure as I haven’t listened to Jon Richardson’s solo radio show (aside from the couple of Robins-featuring episodes that I’ve listened to as part of my Robins-completism), but based on the radio shows I’ve heard – all of the Jon/Russell 6 Music era from 2006 to 2008 and almost all of the Elis/John XFM/Radio X era from 2014-2019 – Jon Richardson is really harsh on the radio and mellows a bit in his stand-up. While John Robins gives us a bit of a moderated and euphemized version of his darkness on the radio, and then just unleashes it all in stand-up. The latter version seems like the logical way to do it, given the nature of radio and the nature of stand-up. But I think Russell specifically brought out something in Jon that made him furious, so when he was on his own he comparatively calmed down.

- Having said that, I would argue that mostly, Jon Richardson’s stand-up is about how his outsider way of doing things is better and everyone else should do that too. While John Robins, in stand-up, will tell you his manifesto and then quickly acknowledge that trying to live this way has ruined his life and it would be better if he could be more like other people. But on the radio it’s the opposite. John Robins mostly defending his own darkness-based choices, while Jon Richardson was moaning about how the reality of living that way was actually pretty harrowing and he should stop.

- In stand-up, at least, Jon Richardson tends to keep it fairly superficial, getting deep into household things and only making tenuous ties to bigger stuff. While John Robins will do the jokes about domestic things only as a way into what Elis James has eloquently called “the cynical inclusion of emotional heft”. And that was true for several years before his Darkness of Robins show, even if he didn’t go as big on it before then. Jon Richardson is willing to imply the emotional heft a little more, rather than staring the audience down and laying it out.

- This is me speculating but it doesn’t take a lot of speculative inferring to say Jon Richardson might be more capable of adjusting his most difficult qualities in certain situations to make himself easier to work with, which would be how he got the decade-long panel show career and Robins not so much. Also, it takes no speculation at all to say Jon Richardson can usually “play along” his way through an awkward panel show situation, which John Robins demonstrably cannot. Though there are some exceptions to Richardson’s ability to do this, ie. the Jimmy Carr tax episode and that time when they made him go talk to strangers in America with Sean Lock.

- John Robins wrote a fun and friendly book with a positive message about mental health and Jon Richardson wrote the most harrowing fucking memoir I’ve ever read.

- John Robins has a pointlessly intense and earnest side that Richardson never quite reaches – not in his public persona, at least. I have never seen Jon Richardson unironically quote both Phil Kay and Anthony Burgess while describing breaking up a fight in the streets of Edinburgh.

On the other hand, I’ve never heard John Robins get jealous of a clock because someone else was checking the time instead of looking at him. Richardson certainly has his own brand of intensity.

And here are some similarities besides the very obvious (anxiety, alcoholism):

- Both have politics that are left-wing but less left-wing than I am, both are very pragmatic in their political views and seem to have more pragmatic than ideological objections to the far-left, both specifically a big fan of taxes.

- Both fairly obsessive about letting people know when they have done more work on something than other people, and generally cannot even the slightest disparity in fairness.

- Both are highly competitive, and by and large, pretty good at the thing they get to be competitive about during public performance on a long-term basis (Jon is pretty good at Countdown, John is good at quizzes and quick-thinking-based games). This comes into play in their actual competitions (Catsdown, the games they play on John and Elis’ radio show, they’ve both done Taskmaster), but it’s also a much larger part of their overall comedic persona.

This is interesting as a status thing, because it can be both. When they’re winning, it can be a way for them to claw the high status from a persona that usually isn’t that. But even then, it isn’t always. Even at the best of times, it’s very easy for their competitive nature to get turned around on them, it just takes one person (this person can be someone else in a competition, or it can be Jon/John pointing it out about themselves) to point out how pitiful it is to want to win something unimportant that badly, and it turns into a low status thing.

Of course I’ve thought of this lately because Taskmaster’s airing again, and various people have wildly different views on whether competitiveness on a comedy show is a good thing, but I’ve realized that one of the ways I diverge with other people on that is on how I view it, status-wise. I don’t like the hyper-competitive contestants because they’re cool, I like them because they’re not. Even if they actually are very good at the thing they’re competitive about, they’re still walking around caring deeply about something arbitrary and pointless. The cool people are the ones who don’t give a shit, and in many cases I dislike them for being so cool. To use the current example, fuck Steve Pemberton for being “together” enough to do a whole Taskmaster task while still thinking about how to best show off for the cameras and help them with their edit. I like John Robins and his inability to moderate his maladaptive qualities even when doing so would be professionally beneficial to him. And through that, I like the guy who is winning points-wise, but it still feels like supporting the flawed/lower status one.

This has been a post I've made for no particular reason and not as a response to anything whatsoever, but on an unrelated note, I may have made a compilation almost four years ago of John Robins and Sara Pascoe on that one car crash of a Mock the Week episode, because I wanted to show someone why I didn't like that guy, and Tumblr didn't let you embed videos in the middle of posts back then, and I hadn't yet figured out that it's easier to just share videos via Google Drive, so if I wanted to embed a video in my Tumblr post, I'd upload it to YouTube to do it from there. I did not properly think through the ways which that can cause a video you've made to break containment, and may someday be used to make a point you don't even agree with anymore, now that you've gained a view of John Robins that's broader than that one terrible Mock the Week episode. The point is, never post anything outside of Tumblr. And don't let Mock the Week be your introduction to John Robins. And if you're a comedian who gets invited on a panel show, maybe think carefully about which of your stand-up bits you want to take out of context on camera.

Oh, John Robins has better music taste. There's another big difference. That's important.

[whatsmineisyoursnow]

whatsmineisyoursnow 1

For context. This is a public diary of mine. I need somewhere to shout these things, having a little book in my room makes me feel like no one's ever going to notice. At least here, random people I don't care about will maybe notice if I'm lucky. There are lots of things I'm still figuring out, you'll have to bare with me. I'll detail my thoughts if I remember what I thought. Problems I'm scared that I have (not diagnosed nor do I have proof of them): Memory problems Laziness Depression Loneliness Gender confusion

Problems that I do have (Diagnosed or confirmed by other means): Autism Stupidity

Problems that I don't think I have: ADHD I'll describe problems when I get to them, you may not ever have a clear image of me, but that's not for lack of trying.

I may be trans, I treat myself as a girl online although I'm not sure if that's right. I feel like I'm only trans for attention, since without it I'd just be an annoying unfunny guy with an obnoxious voice. With being trans I can be both sexual and loved for being me, when I treat myself as a guy I get overlooked or ignored because I'm stupid. At least when I'm a girl people don't care about those things. I don't hate being called a guy, yet I can't tell how I feel when I'm called a girl as it's infrequent and often accidental. I'm fat and ugly anyway, I don't deserve to be called a girl because I barely deserve it.

Day 1 I played games all of today, ate more food than I should have, didn't excercise. Met a cute girl online, was lewd with her in a VC while playing swrp. Ignored my irl friends for it, made up an excuse for us playing games together as just "something came up" I regret not seeing them but I know that if I did see them I would've never met the cute girl and gotten close to her. She was so cute and fun to be lewd with. It wasn't creepy, I know that for a fact, we both liked it. She's just the better version of me. Stayed up late again, not because I was doing anything specific. I just did. I can't tell if it was intentional or not. I have to wake up for 10:30 to get to work on time and it's already 3am. I drank caffiene without thinking about it. I shaved half my right leg in the shower before giving up after the blade went dull. It wasn't a cheap set too, my hair is just that bad. I did it with shaving cream and everything. I also couldn't reach that far under my leg. Not cause I'm fat, I mean I am fat, but because it was an awkward angle in the shower. I hate hair, it's itchy, it's ugly, it's gross. It won't stop growing. I wanted to wax it myself ages ago but I don't want to do it with my family in the house. I don't know why I don't want to, my family are supportive and nice and won't intrude, yet I still don't want to. I feel like it's because I'm lazy and I don't want to put in the work to do it because I never even started to try before giving up. I wanted to look up how much it would cost to get it done at a guy friendly establishment but I forgot. Most waxing places don't like taking guys, I think I know why but I don't know for sure. I don't know how I forgot to, I've been at my PC ever since I had the shower yet I kept getting distracted by youtube videos that I don't even care about. I looked it up after writing this and the prices vary wildly from place to place. I can't tell if these places also do legs, ass, or genitals too as the websites only say chest and back. Why is this so hard, I just want this hair off of me.

[especially-interested-ffa]

More About Me

Name is Tara. Early thirties. She/Her. I’m a fun combo of ASD & mixed ADHD w/ sides of both sensory seeking and sensory avoiding tendencies. I’m also a recovering heroin/crack addict (11 yrs, 8 months) recovering from myriad eating disorders (4 years, 6 months). I’ve been very successful in life in spite of all this, yet I don’t often acknowledge that b/c, yk, abysmally low self-esteem, but I get better about that everyday b/c I work the 12 steps. My gratitude for life was borne of the adversities I’ve faced, the obstacles I’ve overcome.

I find value in labels, (for introductions, disclaimers, self awareness, community/connection), but I also rebel against them w/ the intention of not limiting my personal growth.

I’m a Cancer and an INTP = tons of feelings, but they don’t much guide me.

Aaaaand yet, I'm super empathic. Grey ace/aro, hyper/bisexual, fatsexual. Probably poly, or at least poly friendly, (I feel compersion, not jealousy).

FFA/Feeder (in a super gay way) with a strong lean toward soft feedism. Like, no CNC for me in that context. It's gotta be soft and lovey and joyful and indulgent and adoring.

Fmr. paid sex worker who avidly supports and patronizes paid sex workers.

I have the following physiological ASD comorbidities: hypermobile EDS, (bendy af), MCAS, (Mast Cell Activation Syndrome), subclinical secondary (hypoandrenergic) POTS, Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome (from Lyme @ 16) and secondary low T3 hypothyroidism. I have low proprioception w/o dyspraxia but because of the joint hypermobility

I have a B.A. in Psychology & an M.S. in Nutrition & Integrative Health. Human disease/disorder is my primary special interest. Music is my secondary, but it’s a fickle/choosy one. Psychopathy/true crime is tertiary. Math/numbers and words/etymology/accents/dialects/language/slang are both quaternary. I’m a finance/HR director.

I have no inclination toward animals. Animals are lovely, but I don’t connect w/ them. Instead, I adore and go “awww” at all of the baby humans.

Rlyyyy random but I'm vehemently opposed to veganism for the human race. It’s a principle thing and I’m autistic so I have an arsenal of debate material on deck w/o fucks to give about personal feelings; there’s no use in coming for me. I (acknowledge the privilege I have to be able to afford to) practice ethical, environmentally conscious omnivorism. People should live however, and eat whatever, tf they want to, though.

I love to sing, dance, and lift weights. My personal style is the athleisure version of Lydia from Beetlejuice. Petite / short / athletic / hourglass / big boobs / fat ass.

The DMV is home, but Phoenix AZ is my spiritual home, (the rotting cacti give me gut-lvl catharsis...I bawl like a baby about it). Ik, Sedonaaaaa, and sure, but also Phoenix.

Severe existential dread often poisons my naturally gleeful disposition. Very in touch w/ my inner child, VERY silly. Boundless love and adoration to give. Terrified of dying alone, but also need a lot of personal space/time.

Minors: leave me alone.

[flowerbloom-arts]

Hmm… how about the Fillyjonk/Hemulen who owned the Moomin foundling home, from which Moominpappa grew up and eventually escaped from? I have a feeling you have more thoughts about her than most.

I do have alot of thoughts about her but I don't think they can be put into any square of the bingo I reblogged, so I'll write my thoughts in text form;

For the duration of this ramble, I will be almost exclusively considering the Hemulen from the book version of Moominpappa's Memoirs, since the Fillyjonk is more or less a creation made to fulfill the roles of two characters to simplify the narrative, and we don't have much unique information about her besides the militaristic attitude, the fact she opts to write her kids' numbers on their back rather than tagging them, owns a mixed species foundling home rather than one exclusive to Moomins, and the small implication that she's related to the Mrs. Fillyjonk of the 90s series. I'm trying to wrack my brain on how I want to use this fillyjonk because I think her design is unfairly pretty, and the only thing I can come up with is her being Mrs. Fillyjonk's aunt Doris who was name dropped in a Lars comic once (in the Inspector's Nephew, in particular, and was referenced in Moominmamma's Maid far prior)

So anyway, the Hemulen strikes me as interesting and her dynamic with Number 13 (little Moominpappa) potentially so. I've been wanting to make more content of her but the curse of having too many other ideas still aches me. I find her mentioned interest in astrology to be a remarkable detail, since very little do we see hemulens besides the comic Inspector have real hobbies they participate in despite their job, and her somewhat odd priority in cleanliness over giving her children affection is something to be pondered.

Her attitude seems a bit cranky towards the strange talkative child, likely having to endure this behavior far more than her patience allowed, yet Number 13 still had the affection in his heart to call her auntie after saving who he thought was her despite the constant misery and self-loathing he's been put through due to the lack of proper care for someone of his peculiar needs. I like to believe Number 13's symptoms are similar to that of ADHD, and this is cause for very annoying behavior for a caregiver who is used to obedient and discreet children who don't act friendly towards her.

I imagine there's a begrudging acceptance in their relationship and even mixed feelings when it comes to some subjects, such as Number 13's interest in her astrology that nobody else would partake in. She would try to forcefully put him in place but his spirit doesn't seem to break outside of the lamenting to the hall mirror some nights, and one has to wonder if she hears his wails to himself and what she makes of it.

There's alot to ponder about such a mysterious woman we know enough about to raise more questions than there could possibly be answers for. Like, one does have to truly wonder....

Why did she build a foundling home for Moomins in the first place?

And why does she wear golf shoes?

[justa-bundleof-confusion]

eh, as long as I'm already talking about queer confusion and being afraid that I'm suppressing parts of myself, why don't I start talking about the gender stuff too!

Because I grew up as a girl.

And because I grew up as a tomboy.

And I don't know how to reconcile those things in what they meant to me. and with what I am now.

When I was a kid, my entire childhood, I would roleplay as fictional characters from the shows we liked growing up with my twin. when divvying up the cast of a new series, by default, we would start by giving me the boys and her the girls. She was Jesse, I was James. She was Katara and Toph, I was Aang and Zuko. I always dressed as a boy for halloween. I had short hair, she had long hair.

It was so easy to slot us into every pair, every set of counterparts I saw in fiction, just by making myself the boy.

the moment I learned the word "tomboy" that's what I was. I knew that was me. It was the first gender label I used. it was my childhood version of "nonbinary" or "trans", maybe, I think. but it was so long ago that I don't actually know.

I saw myself in Rainbow Dash as a kid. my define traits at that point bieng "tomboy" and "energetic" (I was your stereotypical ADHD kid growing up, my family called me "a firecracker" and "Loki" and "spunky" and I loved it, and I was proud of myself for it, and they loved it, and they were proud of me for it). I don't think I ever really saw Rainbowdash as a girl? for a while, when I was that little, I think I thought she and Applejack were both boys. which. yeah there was probably some "kid struggling with gender roles" there, I think. But I think I outgrew it? at least I learned logically they were both girls pretty early, but I think I still saw at least Rainbowdash as nonbinary, tho not by that word, so idk. maybe not.

I do sometimes worry I'm just bad with internalized gender roles and that's all any of this is, tbh. but idk, this stuff is all complicated

anyways, fast forward, I'm fourteen now! I learned what lesbians were two or three years ago, but I have no idea what "transgender" means. my mom is very much not vitriolically homophobic, she thinks gay people shouldn't be subject to bigotry, and she thinks they deserve the legal benefits for living together married-style, but she does also think homosexuality is a sin and it kinda comes through in what she tells us. she also tells us that she would still love us if we were gay, that she would be chill and nice and friendly to our partners, and that she won't come to our weddings. so. mixed bag. lots to sort through

but that's all aside the point, scene setting. At this point in time I'm reading webcomics now, and I'm spending too much time on TV Tropes. One of the webcomics I read has a forums, and in that forums is a thread called "LGBTQ+", and on TV Tropes I find pages about gender-swaps and trans caricatures and so on. And I start figuring out what queerness is and learning about the culture and life experiences and history from the LGBTQ+ thread and TV Tropes, and what queerphobia is and looks like. I also start using YouTube and I find a few trans people and channels about queerness (jammidodger, one topic, noahfinnce, etc)

but the big thing is that I see all the trans people telling their stories of how they knew they were trans. "as a kid I always played with the boys" "the teacher told us to stand on opposite sides of the room depending on gender, and I went to the girls' side" "I told people I was a boy on the playground" "I wanted to wear my sister's dresses as a kid" etc etc

and do you know what my reaction was? "neat! If it turns out I'm trans too, I'll have some great stories for it ^-^" and then I spent the next year having a crisis over if I was a girl, a boy, nonbinary, genderfluid, agender, bigender, demi-gender, on and on and on.

I genuinely didn't think anything was wrong with being trans, I don't think. I just thought it was cool and saw a few ways it could relate to my own experiences. but I did know, or at least was starting to figure out, that it would probably be more complicated for my mom. 'cus I knew she was religious, and I had learned that religious people weren't good at being queer allies.

which is obviously a hugely watered down version of reality, but it wasn't entirely disproven by what subtle queerphobic biases my mom did have, so y'know, still scary

so I spend a year (two?) questioning my queer identity, not so much loosing my faith as realizing I never had it in the first place, and generally having an extended crisis about how the fuck is this going to play out. all while my mom has my twin and I getting ready for "confirmation" where we have a ceremony to say "yeah, I'm religious and I always will be forever and ever and ever and ever". not a fun time

I did eventually figure out the religious part, so it's not relevant for the rest of this. i don't entirely even remember how it went, I think covid came in and bought us time? but at some point we stopped going to youth group and then stopped being religious. doesn't really matter.

what does matter is that I eventually I broke down and came out to my mom as nonbinary, while we were trying to figure out paperwork for college running start and I had to check the box for which gender I was. I'd had plenty of conversations about queerness and the religious morality of it with my mom at this point that I had a good idea how she felt about it, but it was all still so messy

and idk? she had a weird combination of the right and wrong reactions "oh cool, that's fine. do you want to use a different name? pronouns? I'll try my best with them." and "oh btw, you can't wear a binder because it would be weird and deceptive. (and I will comment on how hard they/them pronouns are every time I remember I'm supposed to call you by them)"

and trying to be trans was weird and awkward and I didn't like it because I didn't have anyone to test it out with properly.

so. idk. I don't think I ever really considered myself to be trans man, genderfluid or bigender at most, but I guess I kind of quietly detransition because it was too much work and there were too many feeling tangled up in it. and because being vaguely genderless or gender-werid was a lot easier than being anything else, because that much my mom understood. we'd talked about it a lot, and she was actually pretty similar in a lot of ways. and it was just easier? there's no gender roles for being nonbinary, so I wasn't failing

I didn't need to do surgery, or get a binder, and my pronouns could be whatever I wanted, and I just ignored it all because it was too stressful to think about

and then I was sixteen or seventeen, and suddenly myself, my twin, and my sibling were all out to my mom, and she was trying very hard with our pronouns, and she said she would, actually, come to our weddings if we were gay, and she was just, fully over all her hang ups, and she was supportive and enthusiastic, and I just?? I felt like the rug had been pulled out from under me?? even though it was good??

and I that's when realized that I really hated being an eldest sibling

It's all been good since then, I've forgiven my mom at this point, fought with all the messy feelings of being let down by a parent, I think I am genuinely I'm mostly over it, but I've started realizing it probably effected my relationship with my gender a lot and idk how to figure it out any more

I've been considering myself genderless and genderqueer and nonbinary if I had to for so long that I don't even know how to deal with having a gender any more

but I started leaving the house to go grocery shopping with my dad, and suddenly I felt like a girl, like his daughter, and it was really really nice, but it made me have to think about my gender again

because I'm not nonbinary if I'm a girl, now am I? I have been pointedly not calling myself trans for a long time now, so at least I didn't have to stop calling myself trans, and yes yes yes, I know you can be a nonbinary girl or nonbinary woman, but what if I was just a cis girl?

but I didn't always feel like a girl. so. maybe 15 year old me was right. maybe I am genderfluid. and that would be okay? but it's been so long it feels weird now, I don't know how to reconnect with my gender anymore. and I'm a little scared that if I try, I'll either realize I'm cis, realize I'm a trans man, or force myself into performing genderfluidity in some way, idk

last halloween I re-used half my Technoblade costume from the year before, went as a king. and it was nice. I hadn't had the chance to feel like a boy in a while, not properly. and sure, when people weren't saying "your majesty"/"your highness" they did call me a queen, not a king, but it was nice! I liked it! and feeling the disconnect of being called "queen" was nice too, in its own way, 'cus it meant I was a boy

I like that cloaks give me gender euphoria, make me feel like a boy. there was a time when we were all still kids when my twin, little sibling, and I all had our own fancy cloaks with a hood, and we pretended to be two princesses and their body guard, who was me, and a boy. and it was nice to remember that. I like remembering my childhood, because my transition out of it was messy and unpleasant and made me wish I'd never been born, and it's been hard figuring it all out again, and going back to what made me happy then makes me want to live for the rest of my life

I don't know what my gender is, but I think I like being nonbinary when I'm on my own, being a girl when I'm hanging out with people out of the house, and being a boy when I'm playing and being someone else. At least for now, I think that's what I'm gonna try out first. not sure yet who I'll be if/when I'm an employee at a job, but I'll figure that out too when it comes to it

And if these categories fall apart, and I start being random genders whenever, or if I become one gender for the rest of my life at some point, or anything like that, then I guess I'll try and just roll with it, 'cus I don't think trying to force things has ever gone well for me

but I think this is a good starting point, jut to give myself an idea where to start, so that I even can figure this out at all

[wtftarot]

Review of "Five Card, Indepth Reading on Career" (7/20/24)

LISTEN UP Y'ALL, Ash's intuition is not to be fucked around with. Even without me posing a specific Tarot question related to career, she picked up SO MUCH that even I am shookth and in AWE of the absolute amount of specific details she picked up: past, present, future, even more "mundane" details (like Spirit telling me to get into a specific niche hobby I've been putting off)! 😂 

The full dirty details (Warning: in ADHD word vomit form) are down below in terms of how MUCH got picked up if you're somehow curious/nosy of what went down in my personal reading. ☕ 

For those with less time to mull over the specific proof, here's the TLDR; version of my review of Ash's tarot services:

Ash's tarot readings are piercingly insightful, accurate, and reliable. She delivered the reading (and my requested pictures of the cards!!!) in a timely, friendly manner (hell, even within the next morning upon yesterday's payment?!). Best $13 I ever spent, especially given other pricer readings I've seen in and outside of Tumblr. 

Definitely give her a try, cause while she'll be honest about what she finds, she's also no monster in what she delivers either. Definitely wanna order another reading from her again when the calling is right. All in all, her readings are good medicine for the soul, I would say! 💪🤩

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Excerpt of My Live Reaction Upon Receiving my Reading (LMAO, so sorry Ash, I word vomited all over your DMs 😂):

Holy fucking crap. I'll be sure to save your reading and the pictures, to post it on a wall somewhere to remind myself by! No regrets buying your five card indepth reading cause like I said, HOLY. CRAP?!! 

Cause real talk, Ash: you picked up on a LOT more than I expected even without me giving you a specific question related to my career! 🤯 

As for things that stood out to me in terms of your uncanny accuracy and wisdom, I'll try to keep them in specific order of the cards [Warning: Enthusiastic ADHD Word Vomit Ahead]:

1.) For the 6 of Pentacles: It's funny you took certain specific words right out of my mouth. I had this exact thought to myself yesterday upon ordering the reading and on a whim, decided to use some of extra funds towards donating other people/causes: "When [I] have a bit extra, I like to share it," since life tends to flow in cycles of scarcity/abundance just like the seasons and it's easier to give when one's own cup is full, to borrow a popular saying. 

2.) Page of Cups: Even without me posing a specific question to you about career, you amazingly picked up that YES, I am looking into a new role/field even though I don't know what that is yet. 🤔 Hell, I remain surprised by the new job titles I see on websites cause there's a lot more now than I ever originally conceived of since my early 20's. Hell, my *current* job and company didn't exist until about post-pandemic fter getting laid-off from a previous company that I was at for 6-ish years. Life works in funny ways, dude! 🤷 Am trying to keep faith that something (intuitively) "right" will turn up for me, so long as I stay open-minded and hopeful in my research exploration. I'm trying to be less rigidly logical about my job search as I was in the past--heck, my inner romantic (?) also keeps hoping that I'll be pleasantly surprised by whatever I find or get offered. 😂 Your interpretation just gave me even more of hope of that, so thank you so much! 🥹

3.) Regarding the 4 of Wands & 3 of Cups being reversed: LMAO, I am honestly am not surprised that's how my coworker situation starts out at first. 😂 I tend to be very task-focused when I'm on the clock, making it likely that coworkers may not know what to make of me at first. The examples you gave of them possibly being the type to go to bars or be vastly younger than me are self-accuratelu plausible reasons on why we may not 'click' at first, despite me studiously also not being the type to seek or "get pulled into drama." While I'm civil and aspire to be helpful, I know my introversion and task-focus doesn't make me come off as personable or easy-to-read either. 😅 The fact that I'm primarily here at work to Get Shit Done™ (eeeey, my Aries Rising/Capricorn Midheaven!) probably does put some people off from me at first. 🤷 The fact you picked up on such personality details or examples is amazing! 😍 

4.) Regarding seeing an image of "someone painting lil figurines or something small like that": Holy crap amiga, I don't know what what specific clairvoyant ability you'd call yours (but you should definitely look into the names of different types), but it's just so fucking HILARIOUS you'd affirmed something that my own gut has been nudging me towards! 😂 Cause yeah, I need more creative outlets that aren't purely just mental/screen-oriented (ie. my creative writing) for my own sanity. Something more grounding, more hands-on. Something to redirect my (occasionally neurotic, IMO) detail-oriented, systematic brain. 😅 

Have you ever seen videos or photos of minature art, where people make small-scale replicas of entire landscapes, buildings, objects, or even living animals and characters? My heart has been enthralled by such works, and it's just funny and touching that your reading is giving me a nudge to get more into that type of hands-on creativity,  even if it's starting out with something as small as buying a pre-made model kit of a minature bookstore filled with cats...or whatever. 😂 

5.) It's also amazing how you picked up on a current (?!) and/or past energy of where I HAVE "taken on a lot at my job, like more than you [I] should've had to." This was especially true during the years of being a first-time team leader during the Pandemic Era within an "essential" job (no staying at home for me, just constant overtime!). 🙄 Such a painful, despairing experience opened a lot of wisdom into healthier boundaries & sense of self-responsibility, reevaluating my standards and personal values, and increasing emotional awareness (especially of old childhood dynamics that I was unconsciously encouraging in myself/others who were enabled by my own overworking behaviors). 

I'll leave myself open to being pleasantly surprised if my future self somehow overcomes scars around leadership and a new industry leads me back into a "managerial or leadership role fairly quickly." Thankfully, you also included the word "may" so that promotion remains by choice and it's not like I owe that company anything. 🤷 Regardless, finding an industry that gives me the opportunity to establish myself or even to "build a whole ass life around" sounds like a dream come true, honestly. 😂 (So long as I balance that out with self-care & other life areas, of course!) 

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Wishing you all the peace and prosperity, just like how you brought a sense of peace and hope into my heart, Ash! 🥹🫶

[th3houseofleaves]

i am simply thinking about samuel vasilyev today.

he's such a good older brother and teacher.

like i just know his students love him because he's so chill? and he tries so hard to make sure all his assignments n such are accessible to all of his students. bc he's got enough experience with his siblings and his cousin to understand that sometimes, school can be hard. not everyone learns the same.

spending time with noah and seeing some of the difficulties he has reading (bc the language he first learned to read in wasn't english AND dyslexia on top of that) and he decides to research more accessible fonts n types of assignments n books n such for his students that would benefit from them. within the first couple of weeks after he's started offering alternate versions of text (usually that he's personally retyped in a dyslexia friendly font, or that he's found in different languages [as they're available] on the off chance that one of his students isn't as comfortable reading in english as they might be in there first language, something that he definitely understands) students that had been struggling and performing poorly start to improve bc they! can actually understand the assignments and it's not so frustrating to sit down and do them.

& spending time with his cousin milan, someone with the WORST adhd who struggles so much with school, pushes him to figure out ways he can accommodate students that he has that are neurodivergent. he asks milan what usually works best for him and he says that it's the easiest for him to learn when he can listen to the lesson in a recording while working on the assignment, sitting in a lecture hall is hard for him but when he actually records the lecture and can listen back to it, he figured out that he understands things better AND it lets him learn while also keeping himself busy!! bc milan can sit still but it's easier for him to focus on one thing if he's doing another.

so sam takes that into account and when he can he finds audio sources for some of the stuff he assigns to read and shares those resources with his students. he lets them record his lessons, or even does it himself, so that they can listen to it later if they need to and even for neurotypical students, once he starts doing this? grades start improving a lot and students are less stressed about completing assignments and coming to class.

and sam makes sure his students know that if they need any kind of accommodation, he will try and do that for them. if one student needs a little bit more time to do an assignment, he'll give it no questions asked. if a student tells them they have anxiety attacks when they test, he'll ask how he can help and if that means that when they test with him they get to listen to their music or take their test during their free period / lunch period than he'll do it. if a student is worried about having a fidget or about needing to stand or move during class he explains that as long as they're not purposefully trying to disrupt class than they're okay to do what they need. he starts adding visuals to his assignments and using more clearly defined prompts instead of vague ones when students tell him that they learn better when they can see examples or they struggle to complete an assignment when it's not clearly laid out for them. like yes, if it's something requiring their opinion or whatever he's not completely telling them what to write but he is letting them know like. what he wants them to write about? if that makes sense. he's not just asking them to comment on what they read without explaining what exactly he'd like to see. (this is based on my own struggles with my soc class last semester bc my professor didn't have prompts for our weekly discussion posts so i had anxiety attacks bc i had no idea what she expected from me bc i need rules to exist lmao)

and he refuses to startle any of his students who fall asleep during class. he's had that happen to him as a kid and he quite literally ran from the class because it triggered him real real bad. and he's seen how both his brothers react when someone does that and. he's not about to get fucking punched at school lmao (if you wake aeron up and catch them by surprise they come out swinging, something that noah failed to mention the first time sam tried to gently shake aeron awake. the incident ended with aeron apologizing over and over and sam holding an ice pack to his face and rocking a black eye for like the next week.) the other thing with this is, if a kid falls asleep in his class he's gonna figure they need the sleep. he knows how stressful high school / middle school is (idk what year he teaches atm) and he knows what the workload is like + a lot of his students have other responsibilities outside of school. he gets that they're bound to be tired as hell. so if they need to take a little nap during the period they're with him than so be it. he's got the lessons recorded anyways and he knows his students are surprisingly good at helping each other out?

other teachers don't understand why he's so fucking popular lmao and he's like ??? im literally doing the bare minimum and not being a dickhead to these kids i really don't get it either.

he doesn't see anything he does as going above and beyond when it is! he's using so much of his limited free time to make learning easier for his students! he's doing so much, he's doing more than basically every teacher bc they don't have the time or the resources!! and that's no shame on them at all. being a teacher is hard as hell.

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have you ever felt like everything is buzzing around you and nothing makes sense? you are overwhelmed and tired and don't know what to do? i made a little self-plan for cases like this that might help other nd folks!

take a deep breath. i am the most sceptical person about breathing excercises on the earth (AND they are boring?) but sometimes it does help. try using an app that uses vibration to guide you - it gives additional sensory stimuli and makes it less boring

is it morning or evening? if it is morning, then proceed to the next step. if it is evening, ask yourself: is it really important right now? or can you just go to sleep and figure it out later? if important, also proceed to the next step

jot down every thought the fastest way you can. hand-written, typed, voice recorded even - doesn't matter! get these thoughts out of your system first

now it is kind of like an affinity diagram - see where the thoughts overlap and put them into groups (they can be random and don't have to make sense to other people! for example you can have a "stuff i want to start but cant" or "bzzzz thoughts")

usually those groups fall into one of these categories - mental health and feelings, school and/or work, chores and errands, events (at least, that's how it is for me! you can have your own big categories)

now put aside school/work and chores/errands thoughts. is there anything in mental health area that feels uncomfortable? are you tired? sleepy? do you need to talk to someone or hug a pet? i usually deal with my emotional needs first no matter how urgent the work is

is there anything that must be done right this instance/in the next 3 hours in all of the categories? if no, take a rest. if possible, a full rest with nothing at all.

if there are things to be done do only the most urgent and crucial ones, but remember that your wellbeing always comes first!

if you have spoons and brain energy, try to spread the events, chores and school/work throughout the week. like cleaning on monday, history assignment on wednesday etc

alternatively, just make a big list with the categories divided. do one thing from the list a day and say "i'll do the rest tomorrow" (do one thing tomorrow). if you feel like it - you can do more! if you don't have energy or time - don't stress about it. do it tomorrow (unless it is super urgent which i struggle with still and don't have answers yet)

repeat until you feel less overwhelemed and can use your usual coping and planning tecnhiques ps. i am not sure if this is accessible because of the colors; i tried to make an adhd easy-to-read version but i don't know others' needs that well so please tell me if it needs warnings or a plain formatting post! ps2. i am working on adhd-friendly planner printables (which will be free) and i am implementing this method there. if you find it helpful, look out for those!