#GRRR GRRR I AM CRAZY ABOUT THEM

[milich96]

Lol this serie is so cute and well animated

*get to ep 6* OLD MAN YAOI?!?!?!?!

[a-lonely-dunedain]

Fun tip! If you want to have brainrot for the rest of forever, give a battle-scarred berserker lady a soft healer boyfriend. I literally cannot stop thinking. about them it’s becoming a problem

[sundalion]

Ehehe first time drawing Rooster!!

I definitely need to learn (the hair style had me rolling on the floor) but I’ve wanted to draw @dingodoodles some fanart for like years XD

I think I drew Sips once when I found the original Fools Gold story,,, can’t remember

But yeah I am literally obsessed with this campaign. I remember when it was announced I got kinda annoyed because that would mean fewer updates on the Fools Gold animated story with Sips and the gang… but then on a particular boring work day, I found it on my Spotify and I got absolutely hooked. The dynamic between Kore and Rooster has me cackling while repotting those trees or whatever job I’m doing. You can feel the warmth shining through the podcast when they’re laughing at the nat 1 they rolled or smt. I love getting some of that deeper lore of Rooster’s backstory and Kore’s mission. Seeing how deep of a character every role has and how Felix plays the story along so well, just rolling with whatever side quest they fall upon. The way Rooster somehow is now a master in riddles??? Got me giggling! Kore ate a heart and went on a rather silly rampage? Slapping my head in second hand embarrassment. And the way Rooster snapped at being called a child by literally everyone and takes Kore’s place in the fight to then literally do the most baddass shit ever? UGHHH I LOVE THESE GUYS I literally had to pause what I was doing because I was laughing so hard about the goddamn abyssal chickens. Ugh I am having the biggest brain rot XD

I still patiently wait for the Fools Gold updates on YouTube, and I still enjoy those so so much where I’ve literally cried about them. I just also see the animations live in my head now while listening to some new bastards get into trouble XD

Overall, I am absolutely crazy about whatever Felix and Dingo spits upon the internet and consumes as much as possible (no money for the goddamn plushies grrr) so eheheheh thank you for reading my silly little rant <333

[chil-aglia]

I can't help but imagine these kinda moments.

Moment 1:

Leo: Wait are you behind the portal jacking of my brothers? Did you take me away from Adri and Hueso and stole my sword? You better give it back or so help me-

Ronin: Relax. I don't have a sword nor your dumb brothers.

Leo: Hey, only Donnie allows to call us dummies. And don't even think about pointing what I just said. And if you don't have them then why am I here with you of all things?

Ronin: I don't know. It might be because you are still amateur of portaling? You tell me.

Leo: Grrr.😡

Ronin: Oh, I see. Or maybe you wanted to see me.

Leo: *Scoff* Yeah right.

Ronin: Oh come on. Admit it. I am a pleasant company.(Wrapping arm around Leo.)

Leo: Oh sure. As much as I do enjoy shell rot. (Pulling Ronin's arm off his shoulders)

Ronin🤷😏: Oh well your loss.

Moment 2:

Adri: Are you having a crush on Ronin?

Leo:

Leo: What?! A crush?! On that creepy assassin?! Are you crazy?!

Adri: Uhh no? I just simply asked.

Leo: Gah! (Leaving kitchen in frustration. Confused Adri stays in kitchen)

Adri: What was that all about?🤨

AWWW these are cute ngl.

Not Adriaen asking Leo of all people about him having a crush on Ronin. Like dude 💀

[phoenixisobsessed]

💕Positivity prime time! Share five things you love about yourself, four things you're excited for, OR three people you care deeply about and why. Pass this along to someone else who makes you smile💕

I’m gonna do them all because I love yapping HEUEHU. I think I already did something similar to the first one but oh well.

1. I loove my art style. It’s fun silly and whimsical.

2. I love my fashion sense. Not as fun silly and whimsical but it’s mine. Idk if I can put myself into a specific category so I just live as a silly guy.

3. I love my eeeyes I think they’re nice. Green blue grey ish lil shits with long lushes lashes you know it.

4. I love my little silly brain that gives me little silly ideas and the capacity to yap forEVER.

5. I love how much I have developed as a person over the past few years. I personally think I have evolved a bit. Like a pokémon. In many ways.

NEEXT

1. I’m excited for TRANSFORMERS: ONE of course. I’m not American so I haven’t had the privilege of watching it yet.

2. Super excited to go to LEGO-LAND with my parents soon (we’re going there as a nostalgia trip since we used to go there all the time when I was a kid…hehe.)

3. I’m excited for the weekend to start so I can draw a bunch oml.

4. I am very excited to graduate here in June. FINALLY!!

Now to people I care about:

1. My best friend of almost 10 years by now. He has stuck with me through my cringe phase and we can literally talk about anything. That’s crazy. He was also my only irl friend in majority of the years.

2. My dad, he always makes sure that I am alright, and understand how proud he and my mom are of me. He a lil’ autistic but I love him anyway.

3. My home-class teacher in the 6th grade because holy fuck I would have actually genuinely not been here today if it was not for her. She was like my personal therapist and got me through so much shit. Praise her.

Now I shall pass it along to @screamce if he wishes to do this as well…xoxo shoutout to my first mutual on this app love this guy. Y’all should check him out btw its blog is SUPER AWSOM!! And so are his ocs…GRRR (Btw I will respond to your ask soon I just want to make something for it ;3 You’ll see. EHEUEHU)

[cantsomeoneelsedoit]

Ch 55: Use Your Rules

Oh fun! An old-fashioned human+monster 2-on-2!

I'm not sure what this kind of mixed-doubles fight genre is called, but it's different than regular summoning where the humans just sit back and watch--Otherwise I would've filled this page with tokusatsu gifs like I really wanted to

The chapter title "Use Your Rules" already reminded me of this meme and then Tozuka had to go and give Spoil that face, so this happened...

I am so sorry everyone the doctors say my brain is spoiled

Poor Spoil. He's really going through it!

Juiz tells him that even if she eliminated him, another rule would compensate for his loss. That's an interesting idea in UU and it explains why they had a concept of "years" even though they didn't have Revolution in place.

The idea that the world will "fill in the gaps" if a rule goes missing raises the question of what is considered a necessary or sufficient aspect of the world. In Ch 14, Spoil claimed to be a necessary rule ⬇️

Maybe he just has an inflated ego and he's not actually necessary. Or is Juiz just bluffing when she says that he's replaceable? He might just be jabbering, though. He was in a very different situation when he was bragging to Fuuko!

Wow, Juiz is scary!

She immediately informs him that he's at a disadvantage-- it's crazy how many steps ahead she's already planned for. She knew Billy's plan, his goal, his weapon, etc, and she knew how their Pokemon would match up.

Spoil's such a brat! I love him! He's not even looking at Burn when he shoots; he's looking at Juiz because he's about to say, "See? I told you!"

But he gets socked in the jaw by Burn instead.

Poor lil feller

Billy tells Tella to stay back and that he'll handle the situation. Is he really planning to kill Juiz?!

It looks like Billy might be thinking the same thing Tella's saying.

Juiz's focus and speed with her saber is ridiculous!

My love for Mihawk knows no bounds, but Juiz did that with a smaller sword and at a shorter distance, j/s. Then again, he's lazy and she's a go-getter, so it makes sense.

I love the layout on the next page.

Unfortunately, that's kind of true for Juiz as far as Union leadership, as well. Because Juiz is so honest to her own sense of right and wrong, her actions can be predictable.

She uses Unjustice on Burn, who GRRR?s back at her. Can Burn not speak at all?

Acting against his sense of Justice, Burn blocks Billy's bullet from hitting Juiz, revealing that Burn really is on Billy's side, and not just a hostage. Spoil can't resist trolling.

"Mr. Stubble!" I'm glad someone acknowledged it! Billy's been out here in the wild for a while now...

What's the favor that Burn is paying back to Billy?

Concept-types seem to be more overarching and multifaceted compared to phenomenon-types. Winter has more going on than just being cold, for example.

Is this why Spoil has a chip on his shoulder? Does he have a bit of an inferiority complex caused by God's favoritism and phenomenon-types being snobby to him? Or maybe he's just kind of a SPOILed brat and so he likes to complain about others-- it won't be clearer until we meet more UMAs that show inter-UMA dynamics lol.

To illustrate his point, Burn shines a bright light into the sky. It seems the favor he owes Billy is that Billy has given him a chance to meet his "maker."

Interestingly, Spoil can understand Burn! I wonder if Billy also had a way to talk to Burn and negotiate their partnership. Could he have used a version of Tella's equipment to allow Burn to speak?

The "childhood memories" line cracks me up. It hadn't even occurred to me that UMA would have life stages.

Use your rules to make humans suffer? WTF, God? Because it seems like some of these rules could be used to help humans under the right circumstances, like Burn providing warmth or Clothy making clothes. So if there's a specific directive to be malicious about it, then it means that God really is only interested in making the humans miserable to force them to try to overcome their circumstances.

Billy assumed that Spoil was aiming at him, but the beam actually hit the ground. From the way Spoil thinks aloud, ("So I can start shooting once he uses Unstoppable, was that it?") it's obvious that Juiz has instructed him on what to do here, and he's surprisingly obedient.

Her plan worked, and Billy gets hit with the Spoil beam. Tella is AGHAST. Billy had told him he'd take care of everything, and Tella never doubted him. Even so, he doesn't rush forward to get involved--he stays back and follows orders.

We know that Billy can use Unjustice because he used it on Tatiana. So why won't he use it on Juiz? He claims that her mindset is predictable and easy to read, so it's probably safe to assume what her vision of justice is, yet he still doesn't try to negate it.

If Billy is holding back, it could be that he simply doesn't want to kill the person who has the most information about the way this world works. Juiz's tears are sincere, but Billy's still hiding something...

Masterpost

[dangermousie]

The first love of ML: Erlang I am baaaack I was wrong to marry someone else feeeeelings feeeeelings look at my chest

ML: Madam, I will have someone escort you out of town

The first love of ML: Eeeeerrrrlaaaang don’t you want to know what I feel about you and how I ruined my voice also have you seen my boobs?

ML: Madam, I am not the same as I used to be back then and now I am married and love my wife, if you have any ideas please abandon them and leave town.

The first love of ML: I bet he doesn’t mean it! I bet he doesn’t love his wife! I bet he wants me instead! I mean he was polite that means luuuv!

That b be crazy! And then ML does the sane thing of going to his wife and telling her what happened. Like they are communicating now! And she actually asks what is in that box he keeps locked up in his study about which he lost his mind way earlier when it looked like she touched it and she thought it was mementos of his first love. And he is not happy but actually tells her! And it’s not romantic mementos at all (which makes sense, he’s pragmatic as fuck) but mementos of his murdered father. No wonder he lost his mind when the granddaughter of his murderer supposedly touched it.

And I love her reaction - she is honest and says she thought it was first love’s stuff and it bothered her but now she knows what it is she gets why he was so angry and she is sorry and then adds that she was four when her grandfather betrayed the Weis and she can’t do anything about it but she wishes going forward she can take his pain away (and then they bang of course ahahah.) But like - so gradually they started communicated properly!

PS this was way earlier but I was so amused at his elderly strategist going GRRR at having to listen all night to them going at it because his tent is close by and every time he thought they are done and he can finally go to sleep they’d go for another round and he’s all “omg I am too fucking old for this” and just giving up on sleep and sitting there reading books instead.

PPS between this and Wishing You Eternal Happiness/Greetings Big Cousin, which are so different but so amazing, I think I actually found a writer I like even more than Gong Xinwen for het web novels. I am gonna read everything Peng Lai Ke ever wrote.

[jedinightsister]

2 qs :) 1) what’s your favourite slow horses duo/team up? shirley/anyone is always prime entertainment but in the later books lech and louisa have been surprisingly competent together. Also shirley/river/jk coe “huddling” (“it’s not touching its survival!!!”) was hilarious

2) what do you think of the casting for the new characters? Obvs will reserve judgment for when I’ve seen their take on the characters but the actor they chose for whelan for example I think is maybe…. Too conventionally attractive lol. Like I remember him being described as balding. Ofc a good actor can serve us pathetic realness regardless of their looks! I mean we already we have Jack lowden as river

Tysm for the q's anon! My answers under the cut<3

QUESTION 1

That is so hard... I think I love that they always mix it up, so we can see all kinds of dynamics between the characters y'know. Like, they have a go-to pairing (ex. Min and Louisa, Shirley and Marcus), but they also switch things up to bring out a different kind of interaction. Whether it's supportive, deprecating, etc. it's just awesome.

For my personal faves tho, there's a lot and I will name them all from what I can remember.

1. Shirley and Marcus. Even after Marcus is gone, the ripple of this friendship in Shirley's life is just so strong, it is both amusing and heartbreaking. That despite how much antagonistic Shirley is toward him, she grew to genuinely care about him in her own way, to reciprocate how he cared about her. I'm scared af for season 4 because this is coming. Part of me doesn't want them to push through with it, but again, I love the effect of his loss on Shirley, for better or worse.

2. Louisa and Min. Bit of a similar sentiment here. Min's loss really takes its toll on Louisa and how she interacts with everyone else. But when they were still together, I also enjoy how they balance each other out. Min really wears his heart on his sleeve and tries to get Louisa out of her shell. And we see Louisa's struggles with that.

3. Louisa and River. The "competent" ones of Slough House hahaha. A duo I'm glad because we will see more of. I love the parallel of both of them dealing with loss (Min and Sid) and again, being the "competent" ones compared to everyone else. River being his hero complex, loser self, and Louisa not letting him off the hook so easily. Ah, there's the word I'm looking for-- accountable. They hold each other accountable, especially for this next pairing.

4. Shirley and JK. I don't even know what to say for these two 😆😆 They are the outsider crazies, Shirley being the super noisy cuz she high on drugs, and JK being absolutely silent but having the darkest intrusive thoughts. Both however seem to really share this dark, violent streak, and the fact that their team up resolved the conflict in London Rules instead of River and Louisa, it always cracks me up 😆

5. That said, River-JK and Louisa-Shirley team ups also one of my faves. Gotta put them together in one because the dynamic is somewhat similar. River and Louisa trying to "babysit" JK and Shirley while they do the "adult" work of investigating. JK's paint accident and Shirley's stint with a bat...oh dear. 😆

6. Louisa and Emma. I know Emma doesn't technically count as a Slow Horse, but she might as well be in Joe Country. Their friendship was so precious to me and I wish we got more. 🤧

7. Agree with you anon, Shirley/JK/River is also top of my list. The comedic trio we never knew we needed, so of course Mick Herron said " can't let my readers have nice things" and k-worded JK 🥲 his final moments with Shirley are so devastating like... Grrr.

8. Unfortunately I dont remember Louisa and Lech's dynamic specifically, but I am pretty sure I loved it as well??? I know I liked that a bit of an unhinged fella took JK's place a lil bit lol. I just love the more chaotic Slough House is with their different personalities.

QUESTION 2

I quite like the new castings!

Emma Flyte looks great. And her brief interactions with Lamb were already iconic haha.

We haven't seen JK Coe in the trailers or pics yet, but based on the actor himself, I can totally see him pulling off JK's isolative silence and eventual killer instinct madness lol.

I'm not sure how I feel about Frank Harkness. I know the actor from his other roles, but I'd like to see more of how his interactions with River go.

I have to agree that Claude Whelan casting feels off from the surface, but because of having seen him on Blood And Treasure, I actually think he's perfect given Claude's slimy personality haha.

[flutteringfable]

part 3 <3 fontaine spoilers and long post below, probably my last one for the evening because it’s getting tiring to make these but i have thoughts and i need to get them out there lmao

YOU CANT JUST MAKE ME ALMOST CRY AND THEN HIT ME WITH THE “so anyways i cursed her lmao”

they should get to hang out. as a treat. venti should teach her how to relax bc she doesn’t have responsibilities anymore <3 and idk they have a lot of parallels which i think is cool (and i am also attracted to. which is unsurprising at this point. put a silly character with a dark tragic story in front of me and i will eat it UP)

THE TOP TEXT. THE NAMES OF THE BOSSES. CRIES AND SOBS AND SCREAMS AND FLAILS

poor baby furina :(

AY. DONT TALK ABT HER LIKE THAT YOU HEATHENS GRRR BARK BARK BITES YOU

I NEED TO HOLD HER AND CRADLE HER HEAD GENTLY AGAINST MY CHEST AND PAT HER HEAD AND TELL HER ITS GONNA BE OKAY BECAUSE. HHHHHHHFGHG

I AM GONNA BE SO NOT NORMAL ABOUT THIS FOR THE REST OF TIME. THIS STORY WAS CRAZY AND I THOUGHT SUMERUS WAS ANGSTY

explodes into a million billion pieces. im not okay.

dang. needs a part four i guess 😭😭 i’ll probs post it later tonight or tomorrow cuz i need to write and draw and get all the brainrot out of my head lmao

[angy-grrr]

No one is going to create 20-30 chapters worth of fake leaks just to bait or spite, let's not act like conspiracy theorists. The leaks are probably real which is sad but it's better to accept the reality than trying to lie to yourself n then end up experiencing ultimate downfall.

As I said before, when I believed it was real, I dont give a fuck about it and feel no personal connection to it. When I saw them, I didnt feel pain or anything really.

(again, im open to all possibilities like being partially real and partially fake, fully real, fully made by assistants, fully ai with some corrections etc. I just point out at how ridiculous and empty this is, and think it means something, no matter how little it is -even if it is just that they wanted to finish the job without feeling the same level of passion).

[sophiie2000]

A Past Long Forgotten?

Chapter 4

Words ~ 1718

Disclaimer ~ Characters belong to Voltage Inc

Link to Chapter 3 below ⬇️

MC suddenly came back to her senses. Realising she was no longer sitting on the bench alone.

This is what she got for being sentimental. Stupid fool.

As she went to stand, two hands pushed her back down by her shoulders. 

“Please stop running from us” The man next to her spoke. The frustration from chasing her evident in his tone. But it was underlined by an almost sadness. 

“Grrr” MC growled melodramatically and turned to look at the two men. Eisuke sat beside her, Soryu stood behind her, ensuring she would not… could not make a run for it again. 

“I just want to ask you a few questions. I’m looking for someone important to me… well to us. I believe you genuinely may be able to help. If I am wrong, I apologise and I promise to leave you be. But honestly, I don’t think I am wrong this time” Eisuke spoke quietly, gazing at MC. Not coldly, but with the eyes of a man who had had his heart broken. Defeated, due to being trapped, MC sighed and relaxed her shoulders back into the bench. “Thank you” He whispered.

Silence followed for a while. Yet Eisuke never removed his eyes from MC. Nor did Soryu. Suddenly, footsteps sounded in the distance. Experience told MC they were heading their way. And when she looked up, her eyes met with Luke’s.

He looked bewildered. Surprised to see her. But not for the reason the others may have been expecting. See… Luke knew MC was alive. They had reunited a few years ago. Why? Because after being badly injured in the field, he was the doctor she called for help.

She was aware of him being a black-market doctor, so she knew he could patch her up without anyone else knowing a thing. She trusted him. So she sought him out for help.

He had been surprised to learn she was around at first, but MC begged him to keep quiet. He agreed… in exchange for regular contact and a few copies of her x-rays. Odd request, she knew, but it was Luke they were talking about, the man loved good bones, and apparently, she had them!

Luke took his seat beside her. She was now well, and truly surrounded.

The gig was up.

Luke couldn’t lie.

Hence why she always avoided the three of them in person, when they were in the same area. 

She knew for a fact they asked him here to identify her based on her bone structure. Another one of Luke’s crazy talents. 

“Luke” Eisuke spoke, immediately enlightening Luke to what he wanted to know.

Luke looked her in the eyes worriedly. Silently communicating, asking if it was ok. MC simply smiled at him, offering him a slight nod. It was ok. She wouldn’t blame him.

Silence followed for a moment. Luke wrestled with the torment of betraying his friends trust. But either way, someone was going to be betrayed. Better it be MC, she was the more forgiving. 

“Yes, Eisuke. It’s definitely MC.” Luke mumbled. 

Suddenly, MC felt Eisuke’s hands cup her cheeks, as he turned her face to look at him. Tears had formed in his eyes. 

“I finally found you” Was all he said before he pulled MC into a tight, crushing embrace. Over his shoulder, MC noticed Soryu looking at her with a mixture of happiness, relief and pain. 

She knew she had hurt them when she disappeared.

She couldn’t change that now. All she could do was offer the smallest bit of comfort she could. So, slowly, MC brought her arms up and around Eisuke’s back. Returning his embrace. Before quietly mumbling, 

“I’m sorry for worrying you”

“I have a lot of questions for you!” His voice trembled. 

“I’m sure you do…”

“I’ll save them for when we get back to the hotel.” He stated, standing and gripping MC’s hand.

“Hotel?! I am not going back to the hotel now Eisuke!” She exclaimed.

“Yes, you are!” He demaned. 

“No, I am not! I am going home!” MC wrenched her hand free, turning and started walking away. 

“Oh no you’re not!” Eisuke hissed, grabbing her wrist and spinning her back around to face him. “You are coming back to the hotel. We are going to talk! I’ve spent the last 7 years searching for you, to no avail, and you are going to answer my questions just like you said!”

“NO! And I never said I would answer your questions!” She shouted at him.

“You have not changed!” Soryu chuckled, while Eisuke threw MC over his shoulder. She huffed and demanded to be put back down, but he just tightened his grip even more, walking all the way back to the penthouse lounge. 

MC knew she could get away if she wanted to. She was trained to be able to fight off teams of grown ass men, and escape easily.

Yet, for some reason, in this moment running want not an option to her. 

**

“Boss isn’t that the girl who –”

“Beat you at poker?”

“From the other night, then did a runner?” The three of them questioned. 

“This is MC” Soryu said, making the other three look even more shocked. 

“MC? As in the one Eisuke had me look into because she suddenly disappeared?” Mamoru asked.

“Yes” Eisuke grunted, sitting down on the sofa, while sitting MC down right beside him. “She is going to answer mine and Soryu’s questions now, aren’t you” He said looking at her, MC simply rolled her eyes and slumped back into the sofa. “Don’t roll your eyes at me!” Eisuke moaned. 

“Your eyes are really beautifully unique, they make me want to paint!” Ota yelped excitedly, earning a cold glare from Eisuke. 

“How old were you when you disappeared?” Baba asked.

“18, well it was just before my 18th birthday.”

“Making boss 19”

“Why did you suddenly disappear? I turned my back to get us both drinks, when I returned you were gone?” Eisuke asked.

“If you must know, I was kidnapped”

“Why?!”

“I saw a drug deal going on, it got messy. The guy saw me, took me with him saying he could get a pretty penny for a gal like me to make up for the issues his deal had caused him.” MC recalled, nonchalantly. At the time, she had been petrified. But years in the field had really desensitised her to danger.

“How did you escape?”

“Hells, so many questions.” MC whined. “Someone saved me”

“Who?”

“Doesn’t matter”

“WHO?!” Eisuke demanded a second time, raising his voice.

“Does. Not. Matter. Anyway, it doesn’t concern you nor can I answer that anyway.” Eisuke looked thoroughly frustrated with her answer.

“Where have you been since?” 

“Around. Here, there and everywhere, I guess” 

“MC! That is not an answer!” Eisuke complained. His brows furrowing. 

“Oof, can’t tell you, then” MC smirked, winking at Eisuke. Once again, he moaned about her answer. 

Then suddenly, he saw her neck. The crimson marks that had been left on her skin from when she headed back to Spencer’s room with him earlier that night.

“Did you sleep with Matt Spencer?” The mention of her targets name caused her tense up.

Spencer… target… mission… agent.

She was almost slipping the mask back on. 

“No I bloody well didn’t! Thank you very much!” She retorted angrily. 

“Then why have you got those hickeys on your neck?!” He hissed, which just made MC angrier. 

“One, because HE tried something but it didn’t go any further. Two, it is NONE of YOUR business who I do or do not sleep with. And three, why do you care so much anyway?!”

“Because it’s you!” Eisuke shouted. 

A chorus of gasps went around the room as the guys stared on in shock. Yet MC and Eisuke simply stared at each other. 

Until Eisuke’s gaze dropped. Looking at her hands, and he suddenly seemed calm again.

“You kept it?” He asked, holding her hand, while his thumb stroked the finger where her ring sat.

“Yeah, well… so what if I did?” MC huffed a short response. 

“Why didn’t you come back to us? Why didn’t you come back to me? Why did you just disappear?” Eisuke whispered, his voice sounded heavy with emotion. His eyes filling with unshed tears once again. 

“I’m sorry Eisuke. Soryu. Really, I am sorry.” She slowly freed her hand from his grasp, and stood. “I really can’t answer these questions. I need to go home”

“No, please don’t leave. I finally found you again, I can’t just let you walk out of here and disappear again!” 

“Eisuke… I’m sorry. I have work to do”

“Oh yeah, what is it you do?” Ota asked. The question seemed simple enough. Yet…

“I… I can’t answer that” 

“What do you mean you can’t tell us your job?”

“I mean exactly what I said, I can’t tell you.”

“What are you, a spy?” Mamoru said laughing. MC laughed too, before lightly replying.

“If I was, and I told you, we’d both be dead.” 

Everyone fell silent, looking at MC. But she simply smiled and headed to the door.

“7pm tomorrow night” Eisuke said, as she went to leave. 

“What about it?” She asked, never turning to face him.

“We’re going on a date” He smiled, not his typical cocky smirk, but his smile that she once was treated to regularly. One he had saved only for her. “7pm, hotel foyer, got it?”

“7pm?” MC nodded thoughtfully at him, before beginning to walk once again, “Sorry I’m busy” Smirking, MC left the lounge. 

The door closing behind her sounded loud in the quiet room. Everyone turned to look at Eisuke. His eyes remained fixed to the door she had just left through.

Busy? The reply had frustrated Eisuke. But not in the way his usual anger left him feeling.

No… he was excited. 

The woman he had loved since his childhood, the one he had searched for, for years, had finally been in front of him. And not only was she back, she wasn’t letting him win the chase easily. 

Was he frustrated? Yes. But more than that he was looking forward to their next encounter. Yet he knew one thing for certain… 

It wouldn’t be on a date tomorrow at 7pm.

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

12.29.24 Sunday--Happy Blessed Sunday... Prayer for nana...

1:02 am

Still,have windblow...

I'm on "True Blood" again these are more of Cult of INC or Church of Christ,they are into SEX that's why it is called CULT... Bunches of crazy people like my old fakers friends and exes and with some relatives??? What's wrong if I was in-love compared to their fucking cult!

I can't get a bf that I want... I feel intimidated now... I wanna get my bf that I want and gain new friends somewhere...

I hate it if my cousin-white and Daniel Marsh will be entangle on Manalo's CULT, I was a Church Of Christ but I'm no longer interested on any entanglement with them...

The introduction of "True Blood" it shows there the baptism of their members, the same way on how Church Of Christ baptize their members...

6:55 am

Still,have windblow...

Waiting for 7 am prayer vow for nana...

7:24 am

Still,have windblow...

This will be the saddest if ever my nana can't go back to her normal existence... Knowing or sensing that some relatives, some old fakers friends? and some mutually distant chinese friends and most specially some fakers Church Of Christ members and some fakers TV artist who are members of this cult will just plan to massacre us here or have the power to do the act of switching of spirit and soul but will plan a back-stab that is painful on me!

On other angle, in a lil while will be 2025! I'm thinking of job and money...I'm praying for a blessing as well...

Still,hating my cousin-white on Dubious coz he can't save me and probably he already took an another ice cream and hating them forever and if ever they have entanglement on other people here and most specially on our 2nd degree cousin's... I really feel jealous on that part!

Yeah! How can Daniel be my Hero, Daniel Marsh?Where can I get a bf to lift me up, in times like this...

Where can I get a bf??? Someone cute and understanding and mature and supportive...

Still, I hate Manalo's their fakers chiffon cake organizers that only them can be happy in this world!!!

For the fake healers be guilty not religious! Pray and have a change of heart with some old fakers friends and some relatives and some family and some TV Artist.

7:45 am

Still,have windblow...

Uncle DD the fakers??? and Harold are cleaning outside... New plan for something, I hope it is something good...

Probably, Mitch was part of that cult and mysteries...

9:38 am

Still,have windblow...

Where is my brown fur pouch? Is that intentional? I have no peace of mind here in a way... Can someone return it with money???

10:02 am

Still,have windblow...

My left thumb is aching,seriously... I ordered a splint or thumb therapy support in Lazadah... I knew it that I need a thumb support splint coz the muscles on my left thumb are strained and some lil bones...

Thank God in a way that my biological father gave me a charity but I still need more fundings...

10:28 am

Still,have windblow...

Another fakers Uncle Jun... Texted me to go there tomorrow early morning... I don't have enough or extra fundings...I know he can access this journal or perhaps Ate Cha the plastics told him about today that I just bought a coffee...

Can an arab man be here???

12:32 noon

Still,have windblow...

Thanks,Kuting...

Brought by my biological mother.... She said given by Kuting... I remember my leche flan recipes... Grrr... My notebook was stolen...

12:50 noon

Still,have windblow...

Thanks Ivan for the sinigang...

For dinnerish later...

1:11 pm

Still,have windblow...

Hmm...Thanks, Kuting I hope there is no double meaning a "left over"....

If it is about bf I'm not gonna take a left over food of my biological sister's if the agenda is simply to step on me... A left-over bf... No way!

1:55 pm

Still,have windblow...

I suddenly feel paranoid I just ate 1/4 of leche flan and 2 tablespoon of macaroni and I licked the brown rice or I forgot that brown rice.Oh! BIKO!

The windblow, put a paranoia on me... I suddenly feel bloated but I'm drinking coffee now...

I'm burping a lot coz of a sudden anxiety given by the windblow...

I hope my circle can protect my soul and spirit... I suddenly feel fat and bloated.... I feel that the liquid inside my stomach is moving but I usually had have this kind of thing, sometimes I feel bloated and I burped a lot coz I had have GERD.

2:29 pm

Still,have windblow...

Still,thinking of money and job....Whew! What I wanted for New Year! I wish for a supportive and handsome bf and new circle of friends who can lift me up and be genuine thru good and bad times...

I want a spinach pizza, egg pie,pesto pasta or red meatballs spaghetti... I love the tempura that Chian and Uno gave me those are something positive... What else? I wanna a "tiramisu"....

I feel self-pity if I don't have my own job,my life and my own bf....

3:03 pm

Still,have windblow...

Suddenly, I wanna have donuts...I wanna travel and buy Starbucks everyday? Collect tumblers... Whew! My self-pity...

I wanna memorize and learn "tarot card" but I don't have new friends and budget... Why? Coz my heart is pure...

I know my tarot shuffle will come out correctly and will be real in life...

3:40 pm

Still,have windblow...

I feel jealous that I don't know why... I feel jealous if Mitch got so many followers and new friends coz probably I have no one now even a bf that I want...

I do feel ugly and fat and I feel left out...

9:03 pm

Still,have windblow...

Done,eating dinnerish and done,doing the prayer vow with Crysette....

Crysette is the daughter of Aunt Karen, she is opening her heart to me awhile ago... She is having anxiety in life coz of our situation... Her bf was here awhile ago that Aunt Karen hated her bf. That is one of her anxieties...

I can't believe that she is already 20 years old this year... I thought she is only 17 but she said she is 20 already. She miss our nana coz she always tell her stories about her bf on our nana....Crysette met her bf in Bulacan, when the time that she went away from home, she stayed with her biological father in Bulacan...

She said she will stop going to school this next semester coz Aunt Karen told her that she will stop going to school if that's her bf coz Aunt Karen wanted other man for her....Aunt Karen wanted someone wealthy for Crysette...

She asked me if I'm ohkay here, I said yeah! But I'm thinking of money....If I have a job and money I will be happy or bf that I want with stability or wealth, if I want to buy Starbucks then I can, if I want to go somewhere there will be a car for me to drive on... Those are still my self-pity...

I told her I need money these days. Crysette told me if I'm happy here alone or if I'm ohkay, I said yeah! I'm not alone,John is here...In a way coz I have no choice like if I wanna go somewhere, I don't have a car on my own, if I wanna do some vanities I don't have any budgets these days... Those are frustrations... I love Netflix but I need some progress... Am I homebody? I have no choice these days but to stay in the house coz I don't have enough fundings... I miss hanging out in Starbucks with friends and I wanna meet new positive friends who love coffee and dogs...

So, when you are in a coffee shop,you are still considered as homebody....It is about coffee,talking, tables, pastries or cookies. It is like you are in your living room...

I wanna travel,vanities and dog show!

10:14 pm

Still,have windblow...

It is raining from the past days....I love the rain, it is not always negative but just a flat phase and feeling of sentimental or calm... It is raining now... Or a new beginning of something positive...

10:54 pm

Still,have windblow...

I feel bitterish...I wanna leave this hometown but not until there is changes and still nana is in the hospital... I want her to be fully recovered...

I wanna get a bf who can assist me on money, someone mutual or willing... I feel bad why I can't get a bf? I feel bad...

Again, I can't go back to my X-Ryan will not face him now9 just for saying hi, coz I have no party and he will not give anything to me now... I'm masturbating feeling empty but a relief but seeing faces like on my cousin-white and Daniel Marsh+... I also want an arabic faces / arab man face!

11:45 am

Still,have windblow...

Rooting my hair.... A bit self-pity but still fixing on my own... Can't go to Salon...

Waiting for 30 minutes...

11:58 pm

Still,have windblow...

For Happy New Year just rooting my hair... 15 minutes to go...

[ruminate88]

It’s the honest and hard truth that after all my toxic and abusive relationships, I married the first nice guy who wasn’t toxic… mostly cuz I was in survival mode and he was a safe tower for me to hide. My husband had opened arms for me and seemed genuinely upset that I had been sooo hurt. My husband told me that I made him feel good and he enjoyed being with me…. SOOOO, I felt like I had to snatch him up but like now that I’m trying to heal and get back to “myself” I’m like… lost.

Do we even have things in common? Do we really know each other and like each other?? I mean our families are both nice and somewhat big. My family is obviously way bigger than his and it overwhelms him and gives him anxiety 😓 I can’t help that I have a huge family AND my husband has social anxiety anyway. I do not. It’s frustrating that I’m a people person and he is not BUT I have trust issues so like I want to be around people but I’m guarded too…

I was in isolation when I met my husband. I was JUST coming out of my relationship with my ex Andrew who was emotionally abusive and yeah… I was a scared girl. I was crying in pain and my husband just swooped in to take me away from Andrew so yeah I felt sooo safe and protected which every girl wants that but us girls also want romance, chemistry, deep talks and vulnerability…..

idk how to express myself to my husband effectively without making him feel he’s not enough for me. Idk how to make him understand how badly my exes wounded me without making my husband feel jealous or upset. I don’t want him to think I’m trying to get my exes back and don’t care about my husband’s feelings. I’m terrified I’m gonna hurt my husband cuz I have an emotional barrier from my exes. I think about the past constantly cuz I’m traumatized and ive been working my butt off to get over it all. I write and read and pray and cry…. What more can I do???

yes I loved my exes so much and that doesn’t just go away for me!! Even tho my exes were abusive like I stilll loved them 😭😭❤️‍🩹 it sucks for me I can’t just not care. That’s not who I am. I love SOO DEEPLY.

I wanna be deeply crazy in love with my husband the way I was with my exes but he’s not toxic …. He has boundaries and isn’t a hopeless romantic like me. He’s a guy that works hard, eats and sleeps. That’s good but I wish there was more romance too but I can’t force it. It has to be natural. Idk I’m an overthinker and stay lost in my head most of the time. I need to focus on me and I’ve been trying this year to change and not be a caretaker or a people pleaser like I was in the past…

My exes made me co-dependent on them and breaking away from them has been hard. I was so focused on my ex Andrew’s needs FOR MANY MONTHS that I 100% neglected my own needs and that’s super toxic. Andrew doesn’t care about me but he became my biggest crutch. As long as I was with him, I didn’t have to deal with my own flaws. I could just focus on him and talk sex with him. Grrr Andrew talks good sex and I loved his body 🥵 and it was so much fun but it’s not love. It’s not what a healthy relationship is AT ALL 🥴😝❤️‍🩹🥺

I KNOW I gotta have a talk honestly with my husband but I’m scaaaaaared and worried it’s gonna hurt us both 😭

[hejscandinavia]

The past three days have been eventful! Thursday we had a professor who studies whales in Greenland! It was cool to hear her work and listen to different whale songs. Apparently, she flies back to Greenland in two weeks to escort the King and Queen of Denmark and talk about her research! Crazy! It's odd how near me there are several castles with royal families inside them. After class, I went with three people to Tivoli, a theme park in Copenhagen! Fun fact, it inspired Small World in Disneyland/world! It's a bit pricey to get in, about 25-ish dollars, but it was fun to look around. It was small for sure, with many of the rides lasting only 90 seconds and being as tall as four-story buildings. Definitely not worth $7 per ride. However, one of the people I went with was able to get two so I got to go on the rides for free! They were still fun, the two being the best were the dragon loop ride and the high swings which had an aerial view of Copenhagen! We then went to an Italian restaurant to eat. I had Gnocchi with an Aperol Spritz. Very nice! It was funny how there were more older people eating at the various dinners in the park than families at times haha. On Friday, my class went to the Rosenburg Botanical Gardens. We went to look at the various Arctic plants on display. The plants there are very small and short to conserve energy. One of them we got to eat and it tasted like Rhubarb. I'm hoping to officially visit the gardens and the castle next Sunday after Svalbard. I was going to today but I wanted today to be a lazy day so I could rest up before the 5:30 am flight grrr. After that, DIS had an event at Bakken, the world's oldest theme park! It was built in the 1580s I believe next to the King's hunting grounds. Three of my classmates and I sat around and talked with other DIS students while we ate local cheesy chip snacks, donut apples, and granola bars. We then went on a walk through the deer sanctuary which was the original hunting grounds. According to the guides, the king would have the dogs chase the deer until they were so exhausted they would fall over and then kill them with a knife. Quite brutal. We saw a few of them. The deer here have bigger faces and look more rugged than whitetails in the US. We also saw a huge tree that was around 800 years old! After the walk, we went into the park. Like Tivoli, it's small. We got one free ride which was one of the world's oldest wooden rollercoasters! It was pretty fun and sped up quickly going up! As it was older, the ride animals looked a little creepy. Also, there are lots of paintings of naked women. Very different from American theme parks let's say. I had a hotdog and a Nutella crepe which were pretty good. Saturday, my future roommate McKenna and I wanted to experience Sweden's Midsommar. Sadly most of the festivities happened on Friday when we had class. So we looked and found that Helsingborg had one in the afternoon. We first went to Malmo to get some coffee and talked. Afterward, we took the train to the north. In total, about 2 hours. The event was in a heritage center based in the 1880s-1950s depending on what part of the "town" you went into. However, the employees dressed in traditional garb. I participated in some of the dancing but felt kind of silly as it was more for people who grew up with the tradition or were little. But it was still cool to experience it! It was misting the whole day so we were quite soaked. They had some traditional desserts too. One had rhubarb in it but it wasn't super sour. There was also a rose garden and it smelled so good! I don't know what trees were in the area, but they also smelt lovely. The town reminded me of Alice in Wonderland but the forest was more Narnia. McKenna and I had pizza for lunch and McDonalds for dinner. Excellent choices for a travel day lol.

[typewriter83]

Look, I just wanna prepare you because this might be the longest feedback I eve did by now for your chapters.

First of all, I loved the🌶️🌶️, thank you.

Secondly, the dina and jesse thing got me intriged and I'm mad at jesse, and I'm trying not to be mad at dina too. In one second they were treating ellie so well and in the other, bang, harsh and silent treatment. I am suspicious that maybe dina had suffered some kind of uncomfortable thing from david, but why does they keep blaming ellie for that? She didn't asked to be invited for dinner, jesse was acusing her of associating herself with the pastor and I was like "? What's going on, what does he mean?". And also, I'm also trying to figure how ellie and joel's interaction (or at least the perspective of jesse about it) could have hurt dina that much. I mean, if that girl had ptsd from past trauma with some older man when she heard about them I get it, but seemed a little more than that, like it was personal. I felt as confused as ellie in this chapter. Everyone just treated like shit and there wasn't even an explanation from their part🫠

Also, the dinner scene. Man, I'm really curious about how can someone think "oh this pastor has some trauma, he would make such a good therapist😍" It's really laughable, maria is a bit crazy. All don't know how tommy feels about it. I mean, he said he thought that was a good idea, but maybe he said that just so maria wouldn't make him sleep on the couch tonight? Maybe, I don't know. Also, I know it's wrong to laugh about it, but is it just me or it is actually funny how maria is trying to heal ellie's trauma and will give her another trauma🤦🏼‍♀️the irony, my god. David is such a creep, yikes.

Also, I'm mad at joel. He has to come out later wirh a really good explanation to why the hell did he lie to ellie to hang out with that woman. Dude, I felt ellie's betrayal. I wanted to punch him when he was laughing and walking away grrr. I really want ellie and kenny causing some jealousy on joel, we will get that??? I want him to suffer too muahahaha.

Also, by the end of the chapter I wanted to put maria, tommy, joel, dina and jesse in a room and punch all of them. They all found a way to leave poor Ellie alone and without enough options of company. Mom and Dad wannabes scared her to a point she was practically running from their house, joel and dina suddently ditched her, joel- I won't even talk about him, I'm mad at him. Oh God I was hoping things would be head for david to reach out on his plans, but if everyone else don't cooperate, ellie might be an easy target because of damn loneliness.

Oh my, I’m always overwhelmed and flattered when any of y’all take this much of an interest in something I write. Let’s see if we can’t pick this apart and put it back together for you 😘

🌶️🌶️🤭 for about a year now, I’ve been pushing myself to write for a more mature audience. Honestly, I’m taken aback that anyone likes it - and I’m not saying that to be self deprecating, it’s still something I struggle with, but I’m kind of starting to enjoy it 🫣❤️‍🔥

Let’s take everyone we’ve met and interacted with and line them: Ellie, Joel, Tommy, Maria, Dina, Jesse, David. (Side note: I’m gonna be honest about Kenny - I threw him in there because he was fun from the last universe, and I wanted Jesse to have a male friend, he really serves no purpose at this point so, he’s just there) so, everyone we’ve met and toss them into the air and jumble them up because that’s where we are - right?

Not really - everything does line up, but you as the reader just can’t see it yet because you’re only seeing it from Ellie’s perspective. When you take a second look, if you so choose, and have that piece of knowledge, that this is all from Ellie’s POV then it’s going to be confusing and it’s going to be jumbled.

Remember: Tommy is stuck between a rock and a hard place with Maria and Joel. Maria actually is the nosy busy body that I make her out to be, but she also doesn’t have all the information she needs. Dina, Jesse, and Ellie are new friends, they haven’t built up their trust yet. Joel… don’t hate him too much. David… hate him as much as you think you should.

Plus, if I gave you everything, why would you come back for chapter 9? There’s a reason why I wrote it the way I did, and I can promise that everything you’re confused about - from the Ellie/Dina/Jesse interaction, to the dinner scene, to the Ellie/Jesse scene on the porch - even the Joel/Esther interaction will make sense in due time.

Also, spoiler alert, don’t be too mad at Joel - remember, we saw him from Ellie’s point of view. That’s all I’m gonna say on that.

Thank you so much for reading and leaving such a sweet, detailed analysis comment. D&C is up next, then we’ll come back to Jackson.

🫶🏻

[alasmydearatlas]

thinking about writing again and how a character's biggest flaw is often also their biggest strength

and how no trait is wholly good or wholly bad and it's how you use it and take advantage of it and play to your strengths

and im thinking ab that in terms of relationships

im feeling very insecure in my relationship rn

i guess this kinda our first (second??) really big season of change

it's our second and it's not about me this time

and i have to figure out how to deal with that and be supportative and also take care of myself too

and i'm trying to figure out how i dont want to feel and how i do want to feel and how this can be smth that makes us stronger not just tolerate

and also prevent premptively contempt

scary

terrifying thought

falling from love to contempt

ugh its crazy this is totally one of those chose the relationship times

we in real life now grrr

not in a honeymoon phase

it okay i think we will get back as we settle in

there is just a lot and anxiety is high

right now (in context of our relationship) i am feeling:

disconnected

on the wrong foot

helpless

insecure about what i bring to the table

oversaturated ??

shut out a bit

and i keep thinking about our conversation in the car on the way down from this weekend

and like the phrase "giving up on you" and how he said he didn't want to and i don't want to

but it's humbling that that thought would cross my partners mind even briefly

like not that i think i'm above being broken up with

but like it's grounding and a reality check a bit i guess

and super vunerable

like someone saw me and sees me and still loves me and actively chooses me even when sometimes my actions hurt them unintentionally and so now i am very intrinsically motivated to do better and wear down some of my sharp edges

i wish to work on my patience

and my judgmental comments

and actively pursuing an "us" and putting him into consideration of my plans

and not like rouge lone wolfing as much

i think some of that comes from unmet needs of alone time and independence

i dont want to feel like i disappoint you every time i hang out with my friends

but i also want to be sensetive to the fact that he is alone here in terms of no friends and stuff

and learning to adult alone, like almost totally alone for the first time ever

but i can't neglect myself to do that

and i really don't want to feel like a crutch

that would make me very resentful

and i think that's why i've been acting out a little lately and this weekend

i think maybe some of it comes from feeling trapped and smothered a little bit

our lives are typically much more seperate

and i'm not sure how much to check in and make plans and how far in advance and etc etc etc

idkkkkk

long distance is kinda nice sometimes

not ideal set up fs but it does have some really nice perks

like he was so quiet and distant today but then still called dell ab my power chord???!?!?!?

maybe it's just not about me

idk i'm still feeling really raw and oversensetive

i think we shall have a chats on or after our walk tonight

maybe i invite him back for a cup of tea !! or smth !

okay i go read about biggest flaws in relationships on the internet and come back to reflect in a bit