#GOD..i love orv im going insane

[caorl]

at least in this lifetime we're sticking together

[astranauticus]

idk what is it about that one throwaway line from han sooyoung about her writing 10 chapters in one day that finally broke me but oh my fuckin god i love her so much

[radio-zephyr]

ORV SPOILERS ORV SPOILERS AHEAD (ch 527)

OH MY GOD "Maybe I shouldn't have given you the name of Dokja" THAT"S AN INSANE LINE OH MY GOD BECAUSE MAYBE IF HE WASN"T READER HE WOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO SUFFER AL LTHIS BUT HE WOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD!! TWSA WAS HIS SALVATION!! LKAJDOGIHEWOGIHDSLF SJDOS DX THAT LINE IS A GUT PUNCH. OW. OSDUGOSDGIUDOHSSgjfdLSKDFJSLDKJFDSKL. KILLER LINE. KILELED ME IM DEAD. GOD. MAYBE I SHOULDN'T HAVE GIVEN YOU THE NAME OF DOKJA!!!!!!!! IT HAS BOTH SAVED AND DAMNED YOU!!!!!!!!! KIM DOKJA YOU FUCKER!!!!!!!!

just any section of the novel where all the companions are reflecting on kdj is so fucking tragic ToT. Lee jihye,,,,holding the coin and knowing it exists bt being unable to open her hand,,,,,how so many of them do not want to go back to the scenarios and the hellish world they fought out of, but will go anyway,,,,,,bc even though this is the kdj that saved them in the scenarios, and they want to stay with him soso bad, they still want to save the rest of him, who he was and his story from before the scenario, from before he was the dkos. Because his beginning was probaby much less grandiose!! and they still want to save him!! the one who read twsa!!! and was a child!! and a person!!! someone so dear to them but so unkown!!!! bc how can you love someone you don't know much ab but what would kdj have done???? if it was one of them??????? OUGSHDKSDKGLDHAKHDSLKGHSDLGKHLSDKGHLDSKGHLSKDHLFKDSJL

also sp's ending. arguably a really happy one. his expression was liberated. o(-(.

THEM PLANNING OUT THE SCENARIOS FOR GROUP REGRESSION TGT!!! THE WAY THEY ALL HATED SCENARISO WIT HTHEIR ENTIRE BEING BUT ARE STILL EXCITED!! BC!! BEING IN SCENARIOS REMINDS THEM OF TIME SPENT WITH A CERTAIN KDJ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ugh i love them sm

[song-tam]

i am SO distressed right now what the fuckkkkk. i read a BUNCH of orv to pass time on a long plane ride and i think that was maybe not one of my best ideas……….. screaming sobbing punching the wall dramatically i hate this book so much

i’m right before they all group regress and Fuck. What The Fuck. i finally know what 51/49 means and can i go back to not knowing. what the fuck. and then,,,, yjh’s 0th turn???? if i continue to regress will i ever get to meet you again??????? that affecting the other world line??????????? and even before that too, with the oldest dream reveal,, FUCK. like i sort of expected it but it was still so devastating to read. and THEN. the quote that’s like “the oldest dream was the worlds most omniscient yet powerless god” or something. OW. i feel like i’ve been stabbed repeatedly. every time i type out another sentence in this ask i want to sob.

and then,,,,, his companions realizing something’s wrong. han sooyoung being the first to act on this because the kim dokja she knows best is the one that isn’t here. yoo joonghyuk choosing to regress (in both this world and the 0th turn) for that sliver of a chance that he’ll see kdj again. and the fact that kdj doesn’t consider even once that this might happen, that his companions would realize something was different. and this isn’t even something new! in all the times he sacrifices himself, he fails to truly acknowledge how much it affects the ones he cares about. he doesn’t comprehend (or is unwilling to comprehend) how much he is loved. his happily ever after doesn’t even include him, not fully — and i don’t think he believes he’s deserving of that happily ever after, either. he’s a reader. he doesn’t realize that this is his own story, too. goddddd i hate this book SO much (<- lying)

ORV ON PLANE RIDES SO REAL…….. tbh it’s such a Plane Book something abt being thousands of feet in the sky in a giant heap of metal while reading the most devastating piece of media to ever exist. what a vibe truly

WHEN I TELL YOU IWAS GAGGED AT 49/51. HONESTLY. kdj CONSTANTLY sacrificing himself to save his friends because these are the same people that have BEEN saving him since was fifteen fuck my life. god.

0TH TURN YJH IS SO INSANE the way it all comes back to those two. i literally could write paragraphs abt 0th turn they make me feral he guided him through all of it he got to see an ending where yjh got to live a long happy life and it’s what he was reading for the entire time im actually

oldest dream & kdj………….. tbh i think that must be so heartbreaking on both sides. kdj seeing his younger self and being so upset because at the end of the day it was him causing suffering for the people he loves most but oldest dream seeing his older self coming to fucking kill him and thinking that it didn’t get any better at all. he can’t even be loved by himself who else would love him then

YES HIS COMPANIONS GODDDDD the yoohankim of it all makes me SO sick actually. especially han sooyoung because hey he was supposed to be her reader. that’s what he promised her. instead she has a version of kdj that doesn’t even really read anymore and what kind of kdj is that? and yjh wanting to get kdj back because he was promised they’d see the ending TOGETHER and instead he doesn’t even have a full half of him. promises made promises broken to BOTH OF THEM fuck i’m unwell

kdj i hate you and your self sacrifice. i’m literally. exactly what you said tbh like he is loved!!!!!! and he doesn’t fucking realize it. but the thing is he would be dense to not know and that’s why 49!kdj exists in the first place bc he’s hoping that will be enough for them to just fucking sit still and live their lives. in his head he’s downplaying his importance which is why he gives them a fucking replacement

AUGHHH fine line between reader and protagonist and writer and the way all the roles are interchangeable and im. yeah. god

[malt-rants-and-stuff]

hey... hey psst. psst. kim dokja. i keep thinking about him because he really seems like the kind of guy i like. time loop guy with a dissociation metaphor thing going on??? and also a play on the self-insert trope?? that's all i REALLY know i think. i dunno how you feel about these kinds of questions but im curious to hear ur thoughts on him. i might never get into orv because the length of it alone requires a grindset of some sort even if you end up in the hyperfixation trenches i feel like, which is something i've been going through with MY game but like. it looks more intimidating when you're not already into it i think. in any case would u ever wanna talk about him...

KIM DOKJA OH MY GOD

you don't even know what you're doing to me rn. if anything I have Too Many thoughts about him it's actually insane.

idk what level of detail I should talk about him at since you said you aren't sure if you'll get into orv but like. ouuughhh kim dokja. need to study him in a controlled environment so bad.

okay but here's the thing about him. it's not really a time loop or at least that's not exactly the biggest part of the angst here though it is partially. especially its about yoo joonghyuk (protagonist) regressing every time he dies and one day kim dokja (reader(orv mc)) shows up and changes the timeline and makes things go better than they ever had but also he won't stop dying because he so desperately wants what he thinks is the Best Ending and that ending had yoo joonghyuk and everyone else happy and away from the apocolypse but that ending never included Him and it's so fucked.

yoo "you fool, if I regress will I meet you again?" joonghyuk and kim "it was a good story, wasn't it yoo joonghyuk?" mother fucking dokja. they need to be stopped. but then they can't just have me be insane over them because here comes han "this story is for that one reader" sooyoung who will do Anything to save kim dokja even when he won't let her and the THEMES oh they are delicious. yoohankim make me so sick it's crazy

the never ending cycle of sacrifice turned self-sacrifice, I was made for you I made you I was made for you, the truth of omniscient reader's viewpoint was that it was never going to end well no matter how desperately they wanted it to happen.

Kim dokja will never let himself be saved, yoo joonghyuk will never stop searching for him, han sooyoung will never stop trying to be his savior. Kim dokja doesn't see himself as worthy of their love he doesn't think he is necessary but when he's gone they just fall apart. Mr. International Terrorist and Ms. Interdimensional Mass Murderer. That one reader who they did all of this for. who they spent thousands of regressions, hundreds of years, unknowable numbers of timelines trying so hard to save. and even after all of that, after the pain and the memory wipes and the separations and the death and just. everything. it will never be enough. Because this is a story for that one reader and he will never stop reading. he will never come back to reality. Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint is a trap of yoohankim's own desperate making. their collective failure to save each other like they saved everyone else is actually astounding.

Kim dokja is everyone we are all kim dokja etc etc, on his deathbed (one of many) he once made the one that he loves most kill him and everyone had just spent multiple chapters fighting to figure out who it was and it was so clear all along that it was painful. the usage of reading skills to tell the story of orv is so cool, the way that you can feel the foreboding energy through every word leading up to it, i fall apart over this book istg. you can clearly tell I have no coherent thoughts on them from this lmao.

also the themes around suicide and healing and regression (haha) and forgiveness and unhealthy love that burrows into your skin and wraps tightly around your bones and death and life and also there is a scene where kim dokja litterally says "eat the dirt yoou joonghyuk." and yjh does and I felt like I needed to be put down like a dog because I was laughing so hard while also crying over literally everything else going on. there is a point where the novel subtly changes from first to third person to signify the effects of something and when I realized it I literally broke down sobbing but it's so amazing like this story really takes advantage of its medium to tell the story it wants to tell. the story for that one reader. also the fourth wall is a actual character in this and its literally amazing, sassy shit who calls kim dokja out on his bullshit while also helping him. they go to a library and I kid you not I have never felt so heartbroken over two characters in my life than I did when one of the children kdj took in as his own acknowledged that he had become a side character type at one point in the novel and that kdj didn't love him as much as the other kid bc he was right it was true he did get pushed off and no one said anything because that's just expected when these types of long books have a pretty decently sized main cast but like in context the usage of this trope only to use it for character writing later was just evil and wrecked me.

the real kim dokja was the diagnosis I got along the process of reading this damn novel

[eepyreader49]

The WAAAYYY YOU DRAW ORV IS SO PELASING TO ME I LOVE IT S MUCH IM GOING INSNAE OVER VERY POST I SEE LIKE GOFKDHEKSHS GOD THERES JUST SMTH ABT YOUR ART THAGS SO SCRUMPTIOUS AND AMAZIGN AND ALL COMPLIMENTS IN THE DICTIONARY AND MORE LIEK RBROROOD i go insane over it GRGRGRGGRHEHSKSHWKAHEKSND YPUR YJH AND KDJ SPECIFICALLY LIKE GODDDJEKEJODKDNDKDD

So what if I make it out past the edge?

[ot3]

orv spoilers

kim dokja drives me insane. he collects children to look after and saves ppls lives and sacrifices himself for the ppl he loves and almost dies a million times for the sake of ppl who havent asked for his help and then hes like "i dont love anyone. im a selfish person. people are better off without me and they do better when i'm gone." he dies and hears yjh say "he was my companion 🥺" and is like "hes just saying that for the coins 🙄" im going to crazy murder him (lovingly)

the funniest running gag in orv is yjh being legitimately horrified by something bad happening and then kim dokja looking at his response and being like god this attention whore is really hamming it up huh

[s4pphoiduser]

RIGHT OK so i finished vol 3 of orv last night and let me tell you! i was a goddamn mess! i was sad as hell and going through it like if someone saw my reactions to orv they might have called someone on me im not kidding anyway... kdjc feeling betrayed... and yjh's feeling of betrayal running even deeper bc he believed in kdj and the end he was pursuing and kdj was his companion even though he had decided he needed to cut ties with everyone to be able to see the scenarios through to the end. my god that was insane. the parallels between kdj leaving the watch on yjh's hospital bed while he was unconscious and then leaving to sacrifice himself AND yjh leaving that same stupid watch with kdj after kdj tells his entire story to yjh while he refused to wake up and kdj wakes up from where he'd fallen asleep while talking to yjh and there's this sense of loneliness and something was Wrong bc yjh had left? GOD and the "you will be killed by the person you love most" and getting killed by yjh in the 10th scenario and anna croft saying "in twelve hours you will be killed by yjh" and when the time comes kdj standing down in the end bc there is no way he will ask for forgiveness and he doesn't know how and he doesn't know what to say to convince yjh that he didn't mean to deceive him and do that. FUCK THIS AND THEN IT'S BEEN FIFTY YEARS WHEN HE RETURNS???? ep70 ends with something that rocked my shit and then ep71's title is FIFTY YEARS LATER let me tell you i just about threw my phone across the room and cried right there

[evanescentdawn]

(16th june)

today’s writing:

—wips: reigen//time-travel, hana//mystery, saiki+mob, yoohan//best man

—edited the reigen time travels (kind of) wip. wow. I was reading through it and rewrote a lot of stuff. It was kinda surprising. Anyways, managed to +1040 words. holy heck. ITS GROWING. I am so, so excited and wish that this writing energy keeps going. Pls. reigen has two more middle school friends now, haha. and I realised that if I DO have Suzuki’s dad in here, that means that he might be...actually....Suzuki’s child instead and the implications are exciting.

—started another khr/mp100. debated a lot on where this should be a crossover, or for khr rarepair week because I needed to start on that, and it ended up being both. BUT BECAUSE I WAS SO UNDECEIVE, instead of the Hana/Tsuna/Hibari that I was hitting for, I ended up with Hibari/Hana/(Mob) but that’s still up for air. Like. I don’t even know where this Hana POV came from, I was scrolling through tumblr khr tag and it just HIT me. and anyways, oh my god. hibari & mob interaction??? p l s. why haven’t I thought of this before.

—Okay so I had a fleeting thought about Mob and what his thoughts would be like to a psychic who can read minds. It was inspired by that bhna/mp100 fic I read and so, I actually started writing his wip. where saiki meets the (1) kageyama shigeo and hears his mind, and it’s...Something. I don’t know where I am going with this or what the heck Mob’s mind would sound/look like to Saiki, other than vague vague but it would be really interesting to explore.

—not writing but. I was getting to a point where I realised that I need to actually write down all these ridiculous ideas I have for mp100 and wow, I ended up with 100s more. I want all of these. It’s gonna be crazy and a chore writing about them but each one of them is so interesting and I WANT THEM ALL. I ended up (non-surprisingly) a lot of reigen-centric stuff and kageyama siblings, and mob and ritsu-centric stuff. and lots of crossovers. mainly with khr, opm and bhna. 24+ so far with many to come. I gotta a break because my hands are KILLING me, right now.

—new orv wip! finally satisfying my urge to write about hsy & yjh. I have been wanting to write about them like if forever, an au where they are friends. Hsy is getting married and she asks him to be her best man. (shes getting married to ysa and jhw) anyways, GOD. I love this????

—okay. so that “original fiction” I kinda wrote, yeah that, the thing was that I had Reigen in mind kind of when writing it so I was like. what if I just go for that isekai fic I wanted to write about him??? but also make into a idol au because that isn’t a thing but the person is an idol in my story and WHILE, I could change it. I was like.... oh my god reigen would a f a b u l o u s. also this might, or might not turn out to be ritsu/reigen. because I have been feeling ritsu a lot lately. or reigen/reborn. OMG. REIGEN/REBORN/RITSU??? ignore me, im going insane.

[istherewifiinhell]

Joelleity: SDFG OK I SEE U HAVE SEEN HAN MYUNGOH'S EPIC RETURN. GOOD. GREAT. i have no feelings abt it except brain static. the dokhyuk therapy grounding state watch makes me start gnawing my own arm off i cant believe they wrote that with their own hands. also. im remembering way later theres an explicitly star wars thing with the kids+lee jihye that one mightve been written just for u. KIM NAMWOON IS A MECH!!! <- i have one feeling about this its :D

this was the part of the novel where i started going 'oh ok this plot object will show back up at the end and be important' [kim dokja uses it for something insane 5 chapters later] its very fun. swk hair recurring vital theme tho. OK ALSO WAS HOPING UD HAVE FUN W THE REVOLUTIONARY ARC AND JHY ….. ARGH … MY GIRL. and the blurred identity fuckery. weird intimate gay things.

i have to make my own post abt this but han donghoon even had a throwaway line about walls and communication i found way back in the 100s. teens stay teaching kim dokja not to give up on connecting with other ppl just bc it seems hard and impossible and painful. and it . [<- cries about it] DEMON REALM ARC RULES SO MUCH is what im saying

YEAH YEAH. very nearly posted just the phrase orv mpreg?! the moment i read that part but then decided very much to not do that. truely tho i love its like. well we need a slimy pathetic worm of a man to do some union busting. but we also need people to live and grow now that the worlds changed so much. fantastic. thats like. it has Been Discussed the ways in which kim dokja is a nice man who does nice things for his friends and always goes god im so manipulative. but there is something so fucking TENDER about knowing a watchmaker in a town were people dont use clocks because they have no hope, and thinking to yourself well i know my special buddy companion struggles with that too I'll have to get him a specially made watch. i hope they get each other SO many therapy presents. yjh should get kdj a charm bracelet with a charm from every person who loves kdj (and will be sad if he throws himself into a torment nexus) ARGH YES. PROBABLY. LGY and SYS are already sooooo my fav thing that can happen in star wars which well in general when people have the weird force powers not just like. push pull. but SPECIFICALLY animal communication. sys is literally beast master… (zones out for 5 minutes to thing about it). anyway yeah and Lee Jihye can have a lightsaber and pretend shes evil but actually shes not and very sweet. space admiral. it was very cute honestly good for him. ultimate gunpla fan

literallyyyy. we got a return of the yin demon sword.. whatever all those words are. which i fucking forgot about. but nah 2 chapters okay magic monkey fur what u got. good tho!! his magic furs that each have a different power or whatever is. congrats to ovr writers for making a world where power creep caught up with monkey king. I DID. I HAD A LOT OF FUN. I appreciate a media that can pit stop in like a quick city revolt and not be fucking bad about it cause actually it has overarching themes of complete world state paradigm shift. orv adult women are fantastic but these orv teens like. oh so special to meee. they really just do that like. and other people have to deal with it. good for them i guess. remember that one scene where yoo joonghyuk was literally thinking to himself "you can read my mind cant you" and kim dokja did not confirm it so like. favourite game. what the fuck does yjh think of the story so far.

NO YEAH!! i remember!!! it was so fucking good. i dunno whether i should take it like [serious and genuine yet speculating wildly] cause kdj had such difficult teen and youth years that he dealt with completely by dedicated himself to this one text. he missed out on wider themes young people get introduced to explicitly with young adult reading and grow more accustom too in adult reading. and these teens with bad presents but perhaps still more well rounded analytics and conscious ability to apply skills generally to many texts can dissect the whole vibe a bit more aptly than kdj can. OR [fun to think about] something of the nature of orv all the teens are just walking up to him like. you know witengenstein posited that philosophy's illusive questions are made that way by the ambiguity of language and abstraction that is not present in the realm of idea. and they get on a skateboard and ollie away

it is extremely good!!

reading progress: chapter 222 (i had to get some shit sorted but we're back in action here folks)

reading highlights: get the scrolling fingers ready

196 oh theres a character w gender

kdj kind of commenter that just wants a girl character. okay

kdj ID theft yjh: oh there you are

197 "in moments of low self esteem Kim Dokja would say "I'm Yoo Joonghyuk"

UNIONIZE HELL!!

198 going to a bar to eat the appies yes (non drinker solidarity)

guy who survived a decade on one story -> maybe [non constellation] people need stories also

kdj: WWYJHD? wait im better than him

199 kdj special fake it til u make it

listening to funky synth music during the reaper fights (cat out of hell on bandcamp)

"my lovely kids LGY & SYS" t-t

200 [processing gamified revolution] HMM

201 hell yeah publican dude (british sense) i want him to make me a butty

Han Myungoh (HMO?) union buster OFC

YJH bar of handsome ness entry #1652

203 kdj unabashed long media enjoyer

LITERALLY comparing this to union efforts at the old job. okay

204 why are all office manager/company men roman philosophy losers

bring out the skill/item from 100 chapters ago

kinda hot to kill people just cause there fucking with the revolution

ORV MPREG?

205 orv a story for people who like wall

JHY videogame siren girl technique :/

206 HMO demon king consort? good for u?

ppl can grow off screen?? kdj lack of human object permanence

YJH widower era babey. uriel not causing problems persay. but on purpose

207 [BAD SOCIETAL THING] isnt the natural state of the world and can be changed. kissing this arc

brooo do get yjh a therapy watch to get him to dissociating/alienating himself less -> kdj is the guy planing this o__o

KNW and abyssal black dragon are u evil or just 14

208 [hsy feels like] an abandoned food processor?

The entire hsy & ysa scene its got everything: sexual tension, fraught emotions, abt secrets and grief, Big Dragon

JHY in a world of minmaxers is a balanced PC

209kdj you have a new kid a they are a foolish teen

4th wall dog training continues. NO eating other smaller wall

Big Guy (derogatory) my fav passive aggressive insult

210 "I forgot to I was Yoo Joonghyuk" yeah rookie mistake man cant forget that

"Tell the Duke to learn to fear the Day" HOOTIN AND HOLLERING

211 why is this egg so cute wtf. it needs story and hugs okay

dokkaebi sys birth im crying. kids man, you gotta love them! they love the whole world!

212 [heh] kdj dad moments! thats his kid!!

SYS LGY LJH kid hang out T_T -> maritime admiral yi sunsin T_T

uriel is so normal about dokhyuk. you abandoned ur incarnation!!

213 yjh uriel Road trip buddy comedy

STEAL FROM WORK!!

214 "if you have to sell your story sell it for the right price" THATS PRAXIS BAYBE

kdj doing the blackbeard thing about demon king of salvation

215 kdj cant talk to people. mood. -> praising jhy cute

216 kdj no good billionairs-ing the constellations

the readership to commenter to author pipeline. themes

Kdj existential crisis about the existence of truth and the true self and if its possible to know the other

Yelling

"I think there is a huge wall" [Fourth Wall is looking at you] -> THATS WRITING

'theres no such think as communication' DOKJA

everyone has a wall, communication is impossible thats obvious -> TEENS ROCK

you should leave your mark

music: loves first explosion

kdj 🤝 me : getting the names slightly wrong

SWK!!!

↳ 217 he had sweet lips?

↳ one of swk hairs? -> secret tool that will help us later?

↳ its the gaze of one person...

218 the snake says hes okay cause he has no hands and feet (GOOD JOKE) i missed the twitch chat

THE REVOLUTION MUST LIVE IN OUR HEARTS AND IN OUR MINDS

many stripes one team! (blaseball ref)

219 dokhyuk's constant one up man ship ID fuckery

219 theres the swk hair. im gonna get a good grade in orv!

220 KNW is a mech. okay

Bye KNW see you in another 50 chapters

UGH YJH [SCREAMING] thx for saving him bbygirl

"He came..." I was so happy I wanted to call out his name... yeah bro?

221 kdj self rationalization speed run. did my friend do smth just to save me? no he must have some convoluted motive

Author is that file A THREAT? sad yjh tho bby.

rotating: i mean shit. i already made a post cause part of of this section was so fucking good. kim dokja! you got problems man. fucking fascinating ones. I love it when teens school him about the philosophy of communication. yeah bro its all signifiers all the way down the platonic realm of perfect objects is inaccessible to us. but meaning can still be created even if its infinite meanings of infinite texts. hang on.... can we get fictional character Kim Dokja to read Borges i think i would fuck him up so bad. delightful revolutionary stuff going on here too, big fan. to think we can kill the trope of the evil revolutionary that takes power for themself if we all just had the most weird intrinsic gay identity thing going on with some guy thats assassinates politicians in ur name.

i think ill leave the actual nibbles of kdj yjh legacy/story swap for next time tho. just based in vibes. also just noteing the veritable gaggle of kids being collected. love em. kdj like many people with parent problems and who is easy to own, collecting them like flies

remember all epiphanies of the self are 80 percent wrong

[song-tam]

a few chapters into orv and god this is exactly the kind of weird meta stuff i love. stories about stories are soooo good. im at the insect scene at the beginning rn and all this information is so intriguing to me… go off worldbuilding. i will say though, the “only two people survive” section… that Worries me. we’re gonna get up to some defying the narrative type shit and that Never Ends Well…….

OH MY GOD YOURE READING IT HOLY SHIT?????? this is so insane wtf im so excited !!!!! and yes the beginning goes SO hard like it js throws you right into the story bro........ kdj being a reader just like the rest of us. insane. and yeah youre right abt the defying the narrative it runs SO deep like. i am so excited for you to read this man holy fuck

[song-tam]

God. I've watched rounds 1-3 and am physically restraining myself to not go further yet so I can just like. Let it soak in my brain because LORDDDDDD

Also rewatching each so I can gather any new pieces... I didn't originally catch the numbers so I was so confused at why sua suddenly had died (im assuming she's like dead dead even though i really hope not...) but like... their numbers were so close together...

Till who doesn't just have a collar but also like. A wire??? He's trapped they're all so trapped. Looking at mizi -> jealousy at a close bond? Admiring her? That guitar break with all the organs inside -> the human-ness of it all, and earlier while like isolated he was strumming with empty air

Ivan clearly pining after Till, watching. Then again, in a situation like this, what can anyone do but watch each other? Did Ivan almost have him and Till almost escape -> Till afraid to leave? I am NOT ready for ivantill round esp since I think I know what happens I've seen mentions of stuff

I knew alnst had tragic elements but this entire thing is just tragedy after tragedy... I do so get why orv people love this (link click almost feels out of place out of it orv and alnst)

OUGHHJ yeah man by the time you get to round 6 you will be. emotionally destroyed. no idea when round 7 is coming out (i think sometime soon though) but yeah alnst truly is. an experience

arghhhshsh everything abt mizisua makes me unwell. the NUMBERS holy shit………. being close together being there for each other being in love in such a horrendous situation. goddamn

till is literally like so insane???? genuinely like what a crackhead. i think it’s like till in the eyes of the aliens needs like extra special restraints which is why the wire. and till towards mizi……… so he technically is like um. in love with her. which is where this unrequited love shit gets real bc till -> mizi and ivan -> till but i also do think till was like. envious and/or in awe of the bond that mizi and sua had?? bc he didn’t rlly have anything like that its so ough

OH MY GOD IVANNN. i think abt this all the time they are so horrendously tragic the pain of watching someone who never looks your way. dear god. round 6 is truly such an experience im. yeah. AND THE ESCAPE ATTEMPT i think abt it all the time it is so alshdkshsjsjs. yes

LMFAO wait i didn’t even think abt the alnst/orv crossover there really is like. a target audience for this kind of stuff huh. and ok im p sure from what i’ve heard abt link click though its still sad (i just got SPOILED about major character death im trying to gaslight myself into not remembering) but like,,,,,,, the vibes are the same. and yjh cheng xiaoshi and ivan are king yaoi the first second and third respectively. so it makes sense i think!!! 🧐

[ot3]

God the thing about ORV is that if you dig around the webnovel fandom you run into posts that were made by people while it was still updating and people holding their breaths for the finale and speculating how it was going to end and I just.... imagine being a longtime fan and sticking it out and keeping up with it just to have THAT kind of payoff for the Love and commitment you poured into it. Homestuck fans were done so dirty THIS is how it should’ve been!! We were robbed of emotional payoff

MAN ON ONE HAND IM SO JEALOUS GETTING TO READ THE ENDING LIFE MUST HAVE BEEN INSANE ON THE OTHER HAND... I THINK IT WOULD HAVE LITERALLY KILLED ME? I THINK IT WOULD HAVE STOPPED MY HEART.

[evanescentdawn]

Today’s writing:

— I wrote +2325 words to the touken key chain. which. what the fuck??? NOBODY SPEAK TO ME. I can not believe this. also, this has turned into touhideken now???? I honestly have no clue what’s happening, but it’s definitely AU. I am making stuff up, since I don’t quite remember the original one and doing whatever I want AND GOING INSANE.

—wrote +361 words to the touken kisses wip. IM LOVING THIS ONE SO MUCH. it’s coming along nicely! I’m so EXCITED for this one. I cant deal with these two. like god, I love them so much

—wrote +83 words to the touken ML au!! just did a little editing and stuff. im really loving this AU! I want to rewatch bits of ml so I can get some ideas to do <3

—edited the birthday touken wip!! and wrote +7 words to the birthday touken wip! I do like this one, but just not vibing with it currently. I think it’s that scene, that’s why it’s not quite working. I should perhaps take it out, or switch things up.

—edited!! the hidekane sounds wip!! this one was a MESS. So I had to clean it up and stuff, which I was procrastinating for sooo longgg. but I did it!!! I love this one so muchhhh. these two aaa T . T

—+104 to-eat-or-to-be-eaten Hidekane wip!! it’s kinda ridiculous that all most of my hidekane is about kaneki taking a nibble on hide, lol.

—edited the touhide date wip!! and wrote, +2 words. feeling a bit blerghhh on this one. I might just rewrite from memory and see how it fits with one I got now and stuff.

—also edited the snack hidekane wip! And wrote, like +4 words, lol. this one is pretty short. I have the idea in my mind but don’t know how to continue it.

—not writing per say, but I got back on the yjh week thing! felt like I should do, and did little planning thing or what I could write for each day and honestly so excited!!! I was gonna also do some writing, but had other stuff to do, and felt like I should take a break! Y’know get some rest, because I was doing writing for HOURS. I want to hopefully get to writing tomorrow! I miss writing for ORV! It’s been so longgg. ; ;

—and ah, I forgot to mention! also did some kindaaa planning for ladynoir july month! picked out the prompts I wanna like WRITE for, and honestly excited for it. I’m going into this with the idea of short, quick snippets, nothing ambitious. since it’s the first time I’m writing for them and stuff, and I am just here for fun!! <333

[evanescentdawn]

(July 4th)

today’s writing:

—wip: touken//gift ⭐️, ss//rehabilitation, if I wrote a romance, sangdok//prince in raincoat (jfkfkfk so proud of that wipname), ss//conclusions, SS//HS AU

A V ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ DAY…..!!!!!!!!!!

—ABSOLUTELY INSANE!! DOUBLE INSANE!!! okay, so I went to twt, check what’s up and got blast in the face by haku’s art. it was SO cute, I Had to write smth for it. AND THEN she gave me another idea and I HAD TO WRITE FOR IT because it was so perfect & amazing and fit so well & gave my thousands of feelings WHICH NEEDED TO BE PUT SOMEWHERE and eh???? apparently. I have written like. a whole touken fic……lmao, absolutely insane. I’m awesome <3 this is the power of touken + haku, lmao. I really wanted to get this edited & posted today !! so like stopped working on the hs au and quickly dropped this onto ao3, edited and posted it….AND JUST IN TIME TOO….! one min left of day <333333

—Okay, Okay. today was a general awful day, didn’t think I was gonna do any writing….but !! I HAVE SURPRISED MYSELF. A LOT !!! so was like thinking of working on SS wip, and worked on the rehabilitation one (look it has a name now, lmao) and hhhhhhh I really like this. this is practically a wip, lmao, I didn’t even have to write the “idea”. this is gonna be so fcking good. LETS GOOOO. hhhhh writing this reminded how much Thoughts I have abt the infinite tsukuyomi and how DISORIENTED everyone must be, god. like imaging getting everything you wanted and then. getting it snatched from you, because, apparently, it was all a dream. ouch. I edited it!! it’s not perfect, like parts that’s making me go “urghhhhh” y’know but it’s v <333 I love writing sasuke’s pov and getting into his head. despite how terrible I think I am at getting him, lmao, but I think I’m getting….a hang of it…..

—I don’t know what fcking happened???? I accidentlu pressed my orv playlist and NOW I HAVE FEELINGS and have to work on orv wip. HFJKFKF most of it is like. not offline. but this “if I wrote a romance is” so time to work on it !!! tbh, really don’t know…what to do with it. because I feel like I don’t have a hard grasp on ‘characterisation’ but whatever fuck rn. I should still write. because I have people who have been regarded for the characterisations which…..I dont completely agree with their fics or characterisations so WHOOP WHOOP you know???? I don’t even Know anything abt character archetypes and such, which I feel like hsy might but who the fuck cares y’know? let’s just go. I HAVE MANY FEELS AHHHHHHH I feel like a big idiot, putting this for soo long because of characterisation because DAMN, this is getting sooooo good. im So soft, heck. still stuck on where I’m gonna with this, lmao. OH. HEY. what if Han Sooyoung is narating to this lsh — I was gonna think — but of course, it would Kim Dokja. Lmao. She’s probs drunk, too XD on Purpose because she can’t do this on purpose. oh wow, suddenly want to write for sangdok, now.

—instead of going the mile of actually thinking of sangdok ideas, lmao….wait getting a vague one here….lett me quickly jot it down. hhhhhh, suddenly Urge to write for that olgami au. anyways, back for This Idea. instead of going out on the mile and starting a completely new sangdok idea, I can rewrite this wip because lmao I don’t plan to post it….but still keeping the og wip….wait, okay. it’s completely becoming its own wip??? AHHHHHH IM REALLY LIKING THIS. OH MY GOD I CANT BELIEVE I WROTE THIS !!! OH MY GOD I CANT BELEIVE IM WRITING THIS !!! im so <33333

—just felt like working on the ss//conclusions wip and…..ehhh…..I edited a bit but…. really feeling :/ abt this wip, rn. which is Urgh because I liked it !!! AND DO LIKE IT STILL (WELL THE IDEA MORE LIKE AND THE CONCEPT OF IT THE VAGUE CONTINUATION IDEAS) I edited it but really not feeling this wip at all. so I’ll just let it stew and see how it goes v v later. or maybe I think how to revise this idea. or write it in another way. I think that might be good thing to do

—hi hello???? Don’t Know what happened, but I suddenly feel like I can write SS. I can conquer it. I was rereading my SS fics that I posted and hhhb theyre so good. I wanted to tbh, make the 2nd chp of spring love a separate thing while also rewriting the og idea I wanted to have to better fit the first chp but lmao that sounds like a big mess to do rn leaving till much later. anyways, BACK TO THIS ….!!! okay so okay so. I didn’t plan at all to do the highschool prompt because I had No Urge at all to write a highschool au, lmao. I would love to read some but me?? write it??? No. Not like if it had some plot or smth around it and then I would naturally focus on ss if it were but mind was going blank when I tried to think of hs smth for SS BUT THEN… OUT OF NOWHERR…. I GOT HIT BY THIS… AND GOT STARTED WRITING IT OH MY GOD??? really doubt I’m gonna finish it, considering how there’s like few hours (& now less than 2 and don’t have this finished At All) of day left lmao but HELLO??? V MUCH LIKING THIS !!!! like pls, sasuke is such a dork I cant. I love him sm