#GOD HOW COULD YURI SO TOXIC LOOK SO GOOD

[vellichorom]

Throwing this at you

THIS WAS SENT MONTHS AGO BUT I NEVERTHELESS CHERISH IT. GUHHH TURBOOOOOOOO

TURBO YOU KNOW YOU ARE ONE OF MY FAVORITE ARTISTS ALIVE & THIS IS WHY !!!!!! LOOK AT THAT

there's so much FLUIDITY & TEXTURE to the hair that makes it look so bouncy & luxurious, you NEVER skimp on the wrinkles & little flecks of stubble & textures & effects of skin- LOOK AT THOSE BIG OLD HANDS & THE TENDER GRASP... NEVER SKIMPING ON THE OLD WOMAN FAT GOING ON,,, GHH THEY LOOK SO SOLID...

& GOD it's all in the SKETCH. & DETAILS !!!!!!! the shapes of their faces & distinct shapes of their realistic noses & the the the fucking !!!!! PECKING LIPS

turbo your art is so inspiring it makes me want to roll around & draw more & WHATEVER THIS WAS SENT IN NOVEMBER & YOUR STYLE HAS GOTTEN EVEN BETTER THIS IS ENRICHING !!!!!!!!

@tomiechu i sent you this the moment i got it but look again

[k0yaz]

UGGHHHH hear me out on toxic Yuri with acheron or Topaz like for Topaz it might be a little hard to see but basically she entered the IPC for her own survival. in a voiceline she said "my survival mattered more than my freedom" and as sad as that sounds, imagine her sweetheart (non binary idk preferably female) is back on her planet and her family was killed by the IPC and she can't stand the sight of Topaz anymore because in their eyes Topaz is a traitor for joining the IPC and they're this sad gay couple anyone would cry and throw up at the sight of like this big sloppy mess.

For acheron, I think we can have like acheron travelling and reader crashing into her no matter whag planet who are at each other's throats all the time (one-sided because Ion think acheron would gaf) but reader hates acheron and acheron doesn't go slicey slicey on reader because she wants to keep them around. idk maybe she gets amusement seeing their hateful eyes.

This isn't even toxic Yuri but I BEG YOU WHAHHWHWHHA

ignore this if your uncomfortable lol

I can’t.

Pairing(s): acheron x fem!reader

CW: mostly js hating and stuff, potential hate love relationship idk im just bullshitting warnings to fill this space, oh and Acheron lowkey scares reader by almost going slicey slicey but she doesn’t even notice it lol

A/N: someone get her google maps anyway I love acheron sm swawswwjsjsjs

Your muscles tensed up as a familiar face entered your view, her deadpan eyes locking onto you the moment she saw you. Using your free hand, you drew your hand to your eyes, attempting to shield the side of your head and avert your gaze from the Galaxy Ranger.

“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.”

The woman you despise deeply, the one you couldn’t escape no matter where you went.

Who else would it be? None other than Acheron herself.

Without hesitation, you found yourself furiously making your way to her, and your face scrunched up at the sight of her. Acheron stared back at you, her gaze hollow and emotionless as if she was waiting for you to say something. God. That stupid, unfeeling look ticked you off so damn much.

“What the hell are you doing here? Did you get lost looking for your hotel room again?”

You snapped at her, face flushed from how irritated you were upon seeing her again.

Acheron only let out a sigh in response, closing her eyes briefly before resting a hand on her hip.

“I was just minding my own business. I don’t understand what got you so irritated. Do you seriously hate me so much that you have to yell at me when you see me?”

Her tone was nonchalant and insouciant, which pissed you off even more. Why wasn’t she bothered at all? Why wasn’t she matching your energy and at your throat too? The fact that she didn’t exactly care about how much you hated her just made your blood boil, it made you feel so small and petty every damn time. Without thinking, you spat at her again, this time your words more harsh as if they had been laced with poison.

“Well why do you have to be everywhere, huh?! Every time I hope to get away from you I can’t! So why? Are you following me or some shit?!” you almost near yelled, brows furrowing and your eyelids lowering slightly.

You slam a fist onto Acheron’s shoulder, jabbing it slightly as you stare down.

You shouldn’t haves done that.

Your eyes widened, and you felt your stomach tighten as your breath caught in your throat. Your eyes trailed down to the end of her hair, heart pounding in your chest from fear as you saw a small fade of white at the tips.

It was barely there, almost not at all, yet you saw it. No doubt.

That alone made you remember, no matter how much you hated her, she was still an emanator of nihility. She could slice you apart and turn you into nothing but a memory if she wanted to.

However when you looked up, you ended up jumping back and away a good 4 feet from her stunned at what you saw.

Was Acheron- smiling a bit?

Your scornful gaze was still glued to your face as you stared her down, confused as to why she smiled for a moment and why she didn’t just kill you on the spot.

“I don’t hate you, hope you know that. But it’s…slightly entertaining to see your expression.”

She paused, taking a moment to think up of something else she wanted to say.

“And I’d prefer to keep you around, honestly.”

Acheron remarked, turning her back to you as she walked away and out of your sight. You still stared off into the distance with a puzzled expression, before running your hand through your hair and closing your eyes.

What- just happened?

traitor.

Pairing(s): topaz x fem!reader

CW: tragic lovers obviously, reader losing her shit, topaz gets fucking slapped lol idk what else to put here I hope yall know on sfw works there’s usually no warnings, um screaming crying throwing up idk gay ppl wowowow

A/N: meowmoew

“I’m sorry I-“

“stop. Just…stop. Okay..?”

You snapped, bringing your hand to crease your forehead and lowering your fingers down to the bridge of your nose near the corners of your eyes. Topaz could only stare back at you with a dejected expression while averting her gaze shamefully.

“It was for my survival…my love, please. I didn’t mean-“

You cut her off again, fighting back the tears that pricked at the corner of your eyes. You choked back a sob as you spoke in a pained voice.

“And yet you still joined the IPC? Did you even think to consider how I would feel?”

A quiet sob escaped your lips as your breath hitched and got in your throat. Within moments tears were flowing down your face, crying uncontrollably with your teeth pressed together and small hiccups spilling out as you buried your face into your hands.

“…you didn’t have to see the bodies of your family, knowing that your lover is the reason for it.”

Topaz could only watch, heartbroken by your sorrow—and it was all because of her. She reached out, attempting to place a hand on your shoulder.

“Don’t touch me! You fucking traitor!”

You yelled, breathing heavily from your sobbing, along with your nose being tinted red and the dried tear cracks down your face being run over by new tears.

Your hands balled up into fists as Topaz stared down at the ground shamefully, dragging her bottom lip between her teeth as to not cry herself.

“(Name). Please. Let me explain.”

She breathed out, trying to keep her own composure. She stepped forward, placing her hands on either side of your head, her thumb brushing along your cheek.

“You have to understand…my survival mattered more than my freedom-“

A slap echoed throughout the vicinity all of a sudden. Topaz stumbled back, the hand that was placed on your cheek now shifted over to her own, grasping her reddening skin. Her eyes widened for several seconds as she processed what happened, breathing quickening slightly. Her own beloved just slapped her.

It was obvious now. You didn’t want anything to do with her anymore.

Topaz quickly recovered from the slap and sighed, her cheek still a blistering red. She stepped forward, cupping your face again and placing her forehead against yours. She grasped your head firmly, fingers tightening as she tried fighting back her own tears.

“I get it. I’m a traitor. But I’m not a traitor when it comes to us, just know that before you go. I still love you.”

She sighed, pressing herself against you more until your noses were touching, and closing her eyes. You could only gasp from the sobs clawing at your throat in response, barely able to form a coherent sentence until Topaz walked away.

You fell to your knees when she was gone, being able to do nothing but cry. And just like that. The love of your life was gone. You wanted nothing to do with her. The pangs of regret ate away at you as you wanted nothing more than to just forgive her and lay in her arms as you mourned your family.

You still loved her. So much.

But you just couldn’t.

You couldn’t be with a traitor.

A/N: AGAGAGAGSGA UR AN ANGEL FOR SEEING MY POST COMPLAINING ABOUT NOT GETTING WLW OR HSR RAHAHAHAHBDBDBDBD

anyway I have my final tomorrow goodbye yall I’m going back to the dead

@qwnelisa

[sammy-deserves-better]

Hey people who definitely didn’t follow me for my AUs here’s another AU I thought up on the spot!!!

Fantasy/Royalty AU bam lets get into it

Julia and Bowie are the princess and prince of the kingdom, as you do, it’s gay and lesbian hostility in that castle every day

Axel, Wayne, Raj and Emma are knights with Axel being the head of the knights, Emma is also secretly a florist because why not

Priya is the head of the guards while Caleb is the personal guard/advisor to the king

Chase is a travelling bard who loves to talk about his ��amazing’ adventures of ‘helping’ people

Nichelle is still a famous actress but instead of movies she’s like, famous from plays and all that jazz

Ripper’s a barbarian that’s pretty good at his job, unfortunately he is not taken very seriously

Millie is a famous writer but she’s so damn difficult to find at times and only a few people know where she actually lives

Damien is a wizard’s apprentice, he’s still learning but he’s got some real talent within him

Zee is the court jester, he didn’t even like try out for the role he just started talking one time and the king thought he was hilarious

Scary Girl is a famous necromancer because she is, funnily enough, scarily good at her job

And MK, silly ol’ MK, is a master thief who is wanted all over the world, but can never be located, always managing to escape at the last moment

Alright here’s some more details yippee

Raj and Bowie are like, in love, obviously, knight x prince romance! Forbidden love that isn’t really forbidden but like it’s super cute and Raj is so smitten and Bowie just loves this handsome knight that would do anything for him

Wayne and Emma are friends here because I also think they’re silly, Wayne’s the only one who knows Emma’s secret florist job because she trusts him enough and also he accidentally found out but it’s fine!! But he also nearly gives away Emma’s secret so many damn times because he’s just a little bit stupid

‘Man I wish I could get Bowie a nice bouquet…’

‘Oh well Emma is actually a fl-‘

And then Wayne gets elbowed so hard he can’t breath for 2 minutes

Emma also definitely has a thing for the cute court jester but she has no idea on how to actually approach Zee so she just sends him flowers anonymously and sighs while looking at him lovingly

Julia and MK meet because MK climbs up the damn castle walls at 2am and sneaks into Julia’s room just to rob her, gets absolutely slammed by the princess, wakes up and is tied to a damn chair with Julia right up in her face about to rip her to shreds and all MK can say is ‘you are REALLY attractive oh my gods’

This throws Julia off, they start talking, Julia realises that despite the fact she is holding one of the most wanted criminals hostage in her room, she wants to keep seeing MK because she’s entertaining and mean and just slightly pathetic, so she lets MK go on the promise that the thief will come back every night and so she does and yadda yadda lesbians toxic yuri wins

Millie’s stories actually come to life because shocker she’s actually a wizard in disguise and she needs to be really careful about what she writes so that’s why she hides herself away and is so hard to track down because if the wrong people knew about her magic capabilities oh no that’s a lot of blood and injury and angst and 10k words every chapter

Millie’s parents also had this ability to create anything from mere writing, they shared this ability with the kingdom, and so if an important figure asked them to say…make a protector of the kingdom, they would do so, and they did, and that’s where our villain/antagonist comes in but that’s a story for another day

The older gens are also involved in this one way or another as well, most are just backgrounders but some hold important to the story

Damien is the wizard apprentice to Leonard and Tammy, two great and powerful sages who spend their time helping the world

DJ is the one who taught Emma how to be a florist, he’s kind and understanding and always helps Emma choose the right flowers to give to Zee

Eva trains Ripper under her watchful eye, she’s proud of how far he’s come, but feels he can do just a bit more

Aleheather are the king and queen of the kingdom, Bowie and Julia are their adopted children

And that’s all I got for now uhhhh add whatever you want to this it’s just a silly time

[kinokoshoujoart]

is it really toxic yuri if she doesn’t demand you cut off your fingers for her happiness???

”You have given me gifts over 10,000 times. Congratulations!” haha happy wife happy life…. (my fingers are stumps)

as some of you may or may not have realized i am powerless to the siren call of the ultimate devilish blond Harvest Moon Scum Man, and given that the Japanese version of DS Cute gives you TWO saveslots and TWO hands and the ability to to be in a literal toxic lesbian best friendrriage with ultimate devilish mischievous blonde Harvest Moon Scum Woman i have no choice but to meet all of the Witch Princess’s super reasonable honey do list!!

so one of those fun little non negotiable requests from majo-sama is that you need to give her presents 10,000 times before she’ll even consider marrying you, even if you meet all the marriage requirements!

i don’t mean 10,000 items total— even if you give her a stack of 99 items, it only counts as +1 towards the “items given to witch” counter. you have to give her 10,000 items individually…

in normal gameplay (giving her 1 gift a day, accounting for the holidays when her house is closed) you’ll eventually reach 10,000 gifts!��in your 95th year!

you COULD give her 100 gifts a day every day and knock it out in less than a year, and this was my strategy at first! i quickly realized adding another tedious daily chore to a pile of tedious daily chores slowed the game loop to a crawl and splitting items out was really fucking annoying actually

on the other hand, in 5 IRL hours, you can just get it all done in one visit to her house and never worry about it ever again.

“wow, that sounds like a really great use of my limited time on god’s green earth! how can i too win my future wife’s heart through button mashing my fingers into a pulp?” you ask?

˚✧₊⁎optimized pro gamer technique for breaking your fingers yuri style!!٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶⁎⁺˳✧༚

you will need

dog (each time you show your pet, this adds +1 to the gift counter the same way a gift would)

the bottom screen should be the map screen (reduces loading time between conversations compared to having your rucksack open)

cast endurance on fingers (wait this is redundant, you saw yuri in the title…)

ideal but not required

sometimes when you enter her house, she’s facing the side and her walk cycle never starts. it’s great if you get this glitch because then you can just stand in place for the entire duration without having to look at the screen, and even like watch a movie or whatever while you do all this, instead of accidentally dropping your dog every time she walks to the other bookshelf

if you’re wondering “wait, doesn’t Witch Princess hate dogs and love cats? why are you showing her your dog?” you are absolutely correct! she yells at you to get that stupid beast away from her every time you show your dog to her! her FP goes down by 3 each time! however, since her response to the dog is shorter than her response to the cat, you end up saving like .6 seconds per conversation, saving over 1.5 hours total, so the dog is what she gets

anyway, in true Karen HM64 tradition, after being repeatedly harassed by having a dog she isn’t fond of shoved in her face ten thousand times in a row for like five hours straight, naturally this makes her want to marry you! who said good old fashioned courtly love is dead?!

* as a small note, if you care enough to keep track and give her an actual gift at the 10th, 100th, 1000th, and 10000th mark, you’ll get 4 of the limited Witch Photos early on, which each give you +1 sweet sweet farm degree points every day… honestly that’s not much, but the pain of being told “your hands are full soooo no reward for you lmaoooo sucks to be you” was too much to bear, so i kept track and used a normal present for the 10th, 100th, 1000th, and 10000th…

[aihoshiino]

chapter 155 thoughts

Thanks for your patience! I had some stuff crop up IRL this week that kept getting in the way of my chapter review but we're so oshi no back

Chapters Since The 143 Kiss Happened And Went Entirely Unacknowledged And Unaddressed Count: 12

Aqua Hoshigan Status: White

i can't believe toxic yuri was the real core theme of this manga all along

With the long road to revenge seemingly conquered, Oshi no Ko eases us into a bit of a false high before the real finale comes barrelling in. As with 152, it feels like we're tying off a number of arcs that have lasted through the series, with certain characters getting what is clearly supposed to be their big emotional resolutions… and unfortunately, as with 153-4, while a lot of these beats are satisfying on paper, they suffer a lack of buildup that makes them ring a bit hollow. OnK's clumsy handling of certain characters during the Movie Arc has really come back to bite it during the finale, leaving me feeling like a lot of the emotional payoffs for them are undercut and the character work they're doing doesn't have the groundwork it needs to properly resonate. I defo didn't hate this chapter like some folks seemed to, but it has some pretty substantial issues in terms of micro and macro storytelling I am compelled to talk about. This is one of those chapter reviews I think comes across way more negative than it necessarily is lol but man did this one give me a headache…

To start things off, the thing that initially delayed this review: page fucking one!!! By total coincidence, this was the first chapter in basically forever where I didn't get a chance to look at the JP raws until like two days after it dropped and as such I was ripping my hair out trying to figure out who the narrator was on page one - the use of 'Mama' made me wonder if it was Ruby, but the visual flow of the page is much more biased in favor of Aqua and I probably don't need to tell you how fucking huge it would be for Aqua to have called Ai that for the first time!!! However, based on the speech patterns of the speaker in Japanese and the way subsequent pages flow from this intro, I'm pretty settled on it being Ruby - this chapter is a sort of closing of the book on her involvement in the revenge play or as my friend Mala put it, it's Ruby's homecoming so to speak. And like… honestly, thank god lol.

I get a lot of Ruby fans have wanted her to be more involved in this side of the story for a good while but I think the Black Hoshigan Ruby arc playing out like it did made it pretty clear that Ruby as a character is not super well suited to playing a role in the revenge half of OnK in the way that Akasaka wants it to be written. Not just that, but her actual post-BH characterization in relation to this arc has been such a wet fart that I really think it has taken away a lot more than it has added to her arc.

Not only that but… most of it didn't even happen onscreen lol! Not only did we get that absolutely baffling speech in 147 where she literally looked into the camera and Explained With Her Words the character arc she was supposedly having this whole time (just offscreen and nowhere the reader could see) but we now get Aqua going "well ruby decided to forgive him so it is what it is i guess". It feels so limp as a reason for him to have flipped on a dime like he did, especially when we still haven't fucking seen this supposedly lifechanging performance of Ruby's!!!! SO many characters have the resolutions to their Ai-adjacent arcs connected to how Ruby chose to play Ai in the movie but we're not actually seeing it. We're just sort of talking around it and having it exposited to us. I want to assume this is setup for us eventually seeing it ourselves but like… at this point, IS there any point to us revisiting the movie's content? Everything we might have learned from it has already been addressed by characters Telling Us To Our Faces How It Made Them Feel And Gave Them Therapy so it would ultimately be superfluous.

God. I hate still bitching about the Movie Arc now we're out of it, but it really is the albatross around the neck of this finale. So many of the issues littered through these last ten or so chapters are the result of the Movie Arc's fumbling and misuse of the cast and its failure to establish the emotional throughlines that should have been tied off by these chapters. I keep feeling like I'm repeating myself when I talk about XYZ Narrative Beat not being bad on paper but being less effective than it should do because of lacking underlying foundation but it really is the one central thing plaguing this arc right now.

i get what you guys are going for but. seeing aqua just let kamiki walk away when he has definitely killed people is really funny.

The twins' return to Miyako is another moment that I like in theory but honestly just feels frustrating. It's been over 25 chapters - a week short of an entire year since 125 came out where Miyako lamented her inability to reach the twins like a 'real' mother would and this thread was immediately dropped like a rock. She had zero involvement in the Movie Arc even during parts it was straight up absurd that she was not at least reacting to the events going on, didn't have any reaction to the movie or like… anything going on that could have more organically lead to this development.

I also have to say. The twins returning to Miyako performing this Snapshot of Aesthetic Motherhood (as u/DeliSoupItExplodes on the OnK sub put it) felt kind of. Weird and even a little icky to me in a way I've been struggling to articulate. Just that it felt extremely on the nose and kind of. eeeh.

that said. i won't pretend i'm not 4x critically weak to an 'okaeri' / 'tadaima' exchange at the end of a long quest or journey…

For all my complaints about the surrounding context, this scene in isolation is pretty much the one part of this chapter that just uncritically works. It's hard not to read it as a parallel to Miyako offering to adopt the kids in chapter 10 - except there, Aqua refuses to step into his new family. Here, Miyako pulls him into the embrace and the two of them finally engage not as peers but as a mother and son, as they've needed to do all this time. Her words here are so lovely and so, so sincere that it's really no wonder Aqua breaks down in tears. As much as I've bitched about the lacking work in his arc across the last major chunk of chapters, it's nevertheless been incredibly cathartic to see Aqua finally start letting down his walls, believing in his future and letting people love him. I just wish it had the buildup to really land.

also the twins just… still have not had a real conversation or interaction about literally anything lol.

Ichigo's back…! I already aired my major complaint about this scene vis-a-vis Ruby but I imagine this is the last time we're going to get a real Moment with Ichigo so I might as well get this off my chest now: it was and continues to be utterly bonkers to me that of the characters we saw having Feelings about the 15 Year Lie cast screening, Ichigo was not one of them. And it's even more bonkers that we got this whole bit waxing poetic about fucking Kaburagi and how he feels soooo bad about Ai when like… I'm sorry, but Kaburagi's feelings about Ai are so low on my list of priorities as to be functionally irrelevant. Quite frankly, he does not matter and it's INSANE that the story gave this misty-eyed moment to him and not Ichigo - you know, the agent of the industry that went on to exploit and kill her, her literal, actual dad whose guilt over what happened to her made him ghost his family for nearly twenty years? Can you imagine what an insanely powerful moment of resolution it would've been for that moment of Kaburagi addressing Ai through the 15YL poster to have gone to Ichigo instead?

I also have to note this weird ongoing thread of 'the Dome' being framed as Ai's dream that Ruby is inheriting when it, uh, patently was not! I'm sure she felt some pride in her success but all she herself said on the matter back when it came up was that she didn't get what a big deal it was but that since everyone else was happy, she'd be happy too. I initially took this to be laying the groundwork to disprove this idea and make the characters work out what Ai really wanted in her heart of hearts but now the narrative seems to just be uncritically treating this as a value neutral fact. So… who even knows lol.

Short hair Akane returns…! I don't imagine it was planned, but it's a cute coincidence that she cut her hair in the manga right around the time anime Akane grew hers out for season 2. I've always liked short hair Akane best so this was a nice surprise…

I have to say it was uh, really funny to see so many people get so shocked and mad when Akane talked about 'imitating Hoshino Ai' and screaming that this was a retcon or ruining Akane's character when like… was this really news to you guys??? Even before she grew her hair out, she flipped her bangs to go in the same direction as Ai's as soon as she started acting as her and she was popping hoshigans all over the place when she was getting her career off the ground… like, seriously, was this really a shock to people???

Anyway uh. Vindication for me from this scene!!! I've been pointing out for over a year now that we should be very cautious about taking it at face value that Hikaru killed Gorou and Yura because the story has been very delicately implying that to be the case while avoiding confirming it outright in a way that reeked of a red herring to me. That combined with his failure to even mention these two victims while 'fessing up to Aqua really raised some additional red flags for me and finally, we see Aqua confirming that no, Hikaru was not the one person behind everything, Light Yagami style and the final boss of the series seems set to be B-Komachi's former Queen of Smiles. Fuyuko Niino.

And Iiiiiiiii… feel very uneasy about this twist!

First of all; I have to acknowledge that nope, we have no fuckin clue how either Aqua or Akane figured this out but we'll probably get the exposition in that regard over and done with next chapter. Also something a lot of people caught is that Ryosuke is referred to with a different name here - Sugano vs Kaihara, which was used during the Movie Arc. I've heard this called out as a mistake/retcon and it could be, but tbh I'm inclined to think it's just that Ryosuke's name was changed for the movie, since a point is made about needing everyone's permission to include them in the movie and they, uh… can't exactly ask Ryosuke!

But… back to the real point here.

Nino has been one of my favourite OnK characters since I first read 45510 and every subsequent expansion on her character and her relationship with Ai has only made me more invested in her. But the story setting her up as the final villain here is… it leaves me feeling a little cold and very uncertain about how it'll go.

First off, the framing of Nino on these last two pages is just so overwrought that it's a little ridiculous lol. The image of her squatting in her filthy room, listening to old B-Komachi tracks and staring at a poster of the old group with all the other members but her and Ai aggressively scribbled out… it feels downright parodic to an extent that I think honestly makes Nino that much less nuanced and human by its inclusion alone.

Like… a big part of what I loved about Nino's inclusion in the story and how her relationship with Ai was framed was that it was messy and honest in a way that felt like it wasn't judging Nino herself or making her out to be a villain. Her and Ai's relationship breakdown was a two-sided failure of communication spurred on in large part by Ai's own avoidance and inability to have frank, sincere discussions with the people who cared about her. Nino's tangled up feelings of admiration and desire, envy and resentment, love and hate were not flattering but they felt so real and so human. She was a young girl put into an impossible situation and without the power to change the invisible dynamics of the systems around her, she lashed out at the person in front of her that she could see. The impression I always got was that part of what so deeply fucked up her feelings about Ai was her lack of closure - that she had never gotten to say sorry or patch things up. That she had screamed I wish you'd die at someone she loved and then she fucking died. No wonder she was a mess.

All this though… maybe I'm overreacting when we're just a page and a half into this reveal but again, the framing here really does feel so exaggerated and shallow. It feels like it's falling into the trap OnK previously fell into with the GRSR relationship where it attempts to amp up the drama by massively overexagerrating the emotions at play, blowing them up to their hugest possible extreme and letting all nuance and subtlety get lost in the noise. Ultimately, this will all come down to execution and while it's possible for AkaMengo to get us back on track with the Nino I already liked… idk. Like I said. I'm uneasy.

I also can't let it go unsaid - accidentally or otherwise, the framing of Nino here leans extremely hard into the stereotype of the 'psycho'/predatory lesbian and I don't think I need to explain why that sucks donkey nuts, especially in the midst of a manga that is so insufferably hetero at all other times.

at least she has good taste in b-komachi tracks.

[ggirlflop]

hallo my friends ! ヾ( ‘ – ‘*) received two asks about my maddiecaitvi headcanons which i replied to this morning ! it was in the very wee hours and i was running on yuri pills and a dream so i messed up the tagging so it flopped Hard.. : \ i wanted to delete and repost it in hopes that more people see it and i can spread the maddiecaitvi agenda even further. ( ˋ⁻̫ˊ) Ψ reblogs welcomed and appreciated ; )

anyway without further ado i bring you part one of my maddiecaitvi headcanons ^_-

oh my yes !! rubs my evil paws together (｀∀´ #) i was trying to respond to the other ask and i think i accidentally deleted it because i can't find it anymore ( (－‸ლ) ) but thank you to both of you for asking , i was so super excited to receive your asks !! i will probably have more thoughts soon and definitely more after act three so keep yer eyes peeled ^_^ erm toxic yuri and nsfw warning.. (；´∀｀) don't expect a lot of horny headcanons from me but this is an exception i suppose.. minors dni . not proofread so have mercy on me. t4t bt dubs ( as god intended ) — tfem ! maddie and caitlyn with tmasc ! vi.

maddiecaitvi headcanons

their relationship is messy and complicated and quite a bit toxic but there's something addictive about it.

you have caitlyn who initially couldn't care less about maddie , only using her as a toy , taking advantage of her lack of experience and her obsession with her. she cares so much for vi yet she views vi and her attraction to him as her biggest weakness. he's not her first lesbian relationship but he's her first butch and she feels out of her depth.

you have maddie who would do anything for caitlyn no matter how despicable if it would put a smile on her face. maddie's a bit dumb , a blind and devoted follower. she doesn't ask questions being one of those people who would rather be willfully ignorant than knowingly causing harm. she's caitlyn's little mutt , she has low self esteem and just needs to feel needed. she puts herself in bad situations because she feels its what she deserves and admittedly she has a bit of a savior complex. she's attracted to people who are more broken than her so she can make herself useful and attempt to fix them or make her feel better about her own flaws.

and then you have vi. vi is slowly losing himself in an attempt to make positive change. all he wants is to be good and take care of his family but no matter what he seems to cause hurt. caitlyn makes him feel whole , no matter what he tries he can't get past the pain of loving her. when he finds out about caitlyn and maddie he's not sure if he's amused or heartbroken. this little girltwink catches his eye though , she could be fun.

at first vi views maddie similarly to the way caitlyn does : as a plaything. he teases her and is mean to her , enjoying the power he holds over her. it's nice to be with someone he doesn't really have feelings for when his feelings for caitlyn nearly ruined him. something about the way she looks to caitlyn for approval and is so sickeningly down bad for her kind of changes that though. he's jealous of her , he starts wanting to be her in some kind of fucked up way which is ironic when maddie herself is trying to emulate vi.

instead of talking about it after an argument they just fuck it out.... vi and caitlyn angrily fucking the shit out of maddie who is just happy to be good for something. caitlyn and maddie both pounding vi at the same time with their girlcocks. caitlyn is big and maddie's small so cait and vi gang up on her a lot. :\ freak secretly gets off on it.

maddie is actually the biggest loser... she'll try to talk dirty or say something degrading and act all dominant but she's crying like a baby , whimpering , begging caitlyn and especially vi to go easy on her. she talks big game but she cannot match it , she's the biggest baby. despite not having any feelings for her initially there's something so pathetic about maddie that caitlyn finds herself growing attracted to.

maddie calling caitlyn commander and vi sir...

baby trapping vi.... maddie self destructing , worried that vi is going to leave. caitlyn's horny ass just wants to breed him.. both of them topping vi desperately because they need him they just need him. vi ending up pregnant but they don't know whether it was caitlyn or maddie who knocked him up. was this on purpose ? maybe ;)

vi getting penis envy from his girlfriends. his little tdick is nothing in comparison even to maddie's. he gets angry and dysphoric and has episodes where he refuses to engage with either maddie or caitlyn physically or even at all sometimes. they never talk about it vi just comes back like nothing happened and is more rough for a little while wanting to be in full control.

both maddie and vi get off to being called faggot and mutt.. caitlyn's not sure how she feels about that...

on a less freaky note , maddie and caitlyn vs both being obsessed with vi's top surgery scars. maddie traces them with her fingers whenever she has the opportunity and caitlyn's always begging him to go shirtless so she can admire them. maddie's not good with needles but caitlyn helps him with his T injections as well.

[kerubimcrepin]

LIVEBLOG: Wakfu Season 4, Episode 7

Grandpa piss, being a part of the Remote Viewers Division doesn't prevent you from being a deadbeat. KILL him Eva.

What were YOU doing at the devil's sacrement, King [insert name here] Sheran-Sharm!

I love women who are tortured for an eternity and then die in some way that will not kill them in a way that matters #signaliscore posts

Man haha I wonder if this might be saying something about Yugo (and Joris, but that goes without saying on this blog)

I have seen people criticize this moment, but let me be the devil's advocate: after seeing years of fans saying that Flopin is the boring twin, or that Eva has no backstory, them getting a problem-causing grandpa is literally so good.

And I think I understand why Flopin did this, since he says himself that he actually feels like the boring twin... I understand why he felt like going with this man, to learn about this guild, and where he comes from.

[starts hacking up blood] you know what other duo of demigods in this franchise had a twin who felt like they were living in the shadow of their sibling and his wonderful white fur—- [is shot by animal control]

I loooove comparing all the characters in this show, because it's genuinely a good way to approach Krosmoz, since Tot likes exporing the same themes (immortality/family) over, and over, and over, and over. And what I can say rn is: man, having normal parents makes jealousy-based plots much more tame. Atcham went in a "I want to be great like you, so I need to end you, you don't care about me like I care about you anyway" direction instead of a "I want to be great like you, so I'm gonna leave and work on myself, and then we can stand side by side someday"

I do think he is going to hurt his sister in some major way with this decision and in the end it will be a bitter, or bittersweet memory <3 I believe in the power of toxicity <3

To elaborate on the thing I said about titles, Astra is the ruling queen (to be precise, she is the daughter of the king of Bonta who was mentioned in seasons 1-2 and OVAs, who seems to have passed away); while her wife is either queen-consort, or a princess-consort.

However, Wakfu kingdoms may have worse, weirder rules than real life about inheritance.

The reason I am not getting my panties in a twist about the same-sex aspect of this (besides me supporting toxic royal yuri + being against homophobia or whatever) is that this is a magical universe, idk. they could adopt or get magically pregnant. It's literally a non-issue for me. UNLIKE PEOPLE NOT UNDERSTANDING THE CONSORT SYSTEM AND—-

Joris is present in all the kingdoms as Yugo's emotional support mediator/ambassador, except for Brakmar. I assume they simply do not let this fucking man into their palace, and rightfully so. He's literally a Bontarian narc. He'd use that chance to steal documents or some shit.

Btw I find it so funny how he keeps the same neutrally haunted look.

If a Bonatrian political leader goes for a week without wanting to start genocide against a people who isn't into the main 12 gods, they start getting the shakes from withdrawal.

I imagine living for hundreds of years and experiencing unimaginable suffering would make one pretty averse to being bossed around by some random guy who was born into wealth and has not known a second of grief in their life.

I feel it is important to point out: Joris was the one who made sure the meeting with Astra happened. He also felt this was important enough to try and organize meetings with other kings and queens. This is a dangerous situation.

As always, absolutely nobody listened. Nobody ever listens.

As I was saying, I imagine living for hundreds of years and experiencing un—-

I think the fact that Joris went with them has to say something about him. Yes, it is probably his sense of responsibility — he doesn't exactly want bad things to happen...

But also it explicitly puts a wedge between him and the Bontarian government. He values Yugo more.

[venus-haze]

Silver Platter (Firecracker x Starlight)

Summary: Day 13 - Abduction/Imprisonment. Firecracker thinks she knows what she wants to do with Annie January until she actually has her. [AO3 link]

Note: Written for @cozycornerevents Kinktober. Extremely toxic yuri probably no one asked for! This takes place post-season 4.

Word count: 1k

Warnings: Power imbalances all around. Internalized homophobia, dubious consent, metoclopramide side effects (lactation), canon typical violence.

“Well done, Firecracker,” Homelander said, his praise, laced with an obvious surprise at her success, nothing short of music to her ears. “You caught Starlight, that just leaves us William Butcher.”

“It was the least I could do.”

“No good deed goes unpunished, so,” he began, tilting his head, considering what was to follow, “whatever you want, anything, it’s yours.”

Anything. Like she gave him. And now…she wanted something earth-shattering. Biblical.

“I want Starlight’s head on a platter. A–A silver platter.”

He raised his eyebrows, only for a moment before conceding with a casual, “Done.”

She bowed her head solemnly. “Thank you, sir.” 

“I assume you’d like the honors.”

“Sir?”

“Of beheading Starlight, of course.”

She could feel herself trembling. Almost wanted to kiss his hand. A man like that, fulfilling every dream, every wish she once thought was out of reach, deserved that and so much more. 

Instead, with a quivering voice and tears in her eyes, breathed, “Of course.”

She wanted to do it live, give that prissy bitch a taste of her own medicine after pummeling her in front of God-fearing America. But it’d only embolden the Starlighters, wouldn’t fit right with the law-and-order facade Homelander was trying so hard to maintain with his regime. No, she’d go on the air the following morning and proudly proclaim Starlight had been apprehended and was being held in custody indefinitely.

She started coughing as her heartbeat faster, held onto the wall to steady herself.

The doctor who gave her the metoclopramide prescription in the first place warned her about the side effects. But an enlarged heart and flu-like symptoms were nothing compared to being in The Seven, having Homelander’s praise and approval, such a special, intimate bond with him that no one else did. Not even Sage.

For as much as any of them doubted Firecracker, she was damn good at digging up people’s dirt, Homelander’s included—not that she’d ever dream of using what she knew to hurt him. He saved her. Just like she gave purpose to the nobodies who listened to her show, he did the same for her. Better than Jesus, because he was real. Her prayers didn’t fall on empty ears because he was there and he answered her. Her lips to Homelander’s ears. Rewarded her so generously for her devotion and sacrifice.

He made her the voice of America, the face of Vought News Network, from a homegrown podcast to being broadcast in nearly every home in the nation. Families woke up to Firecracker, hearing her spread the good word that Homelander wanted her to. Boogeymen were around every corner, but superheroes were strong, capable, there to ensure law and order for the masses.

Didn’t matter whether or not she believed what she was saying, fear-mongering about whatever new enemy the marketing team conjured up. She was somebody. And after being nobody for so long, she’d be dead before she gave it up.

Firecracker would never get tired of walking into her suite at Vought Tower. It was perfect, everything she’d ever thrown together on a “Dream Home” Pinterest board. Annie January, tied up and powerless in the middle of her living room was icing on the cake.

She grinned, couldn’t help the slight song in her voice when she mockingly asked, “Well, look who we have here.”

“Please let me go,” Starlight tried weakly.

She still looked worse for wear, ragged and bruised, but being on the run had left her vulnerable, how Firecracker was able to get the edge on her in the first place. 

“Fat chance.”

“Misty, I’m sorry,” she said.

“I’m not—“ A coughing fit cut her off, leaving her gasping for air. Fish out of water just like she was at those fucking pageants. She tried so hard. Thought being sweet and enthusiastic would be enough to win them over. But not her. Not trailer trash Misty Gray. “I’m not Misty. My name’s Firecracker. You best remember that, bitch.”

“Firecracker, there’s no excuse for what I said to you or how I treated you back then. It was awful, and there’s no one to blame but me. You don’t have to accept my apology, but I want to offer it to you anyway.”

“It doesn’t matter. I’m still gonna kill you, and I’m gonna love every second of it.”

Seeing Annie January cry wasn’t as satisfying as she thought it’d be. Such a pretty girl breaking down in front of her made her fucked up heart ache. Licking her lips, Firecracker wrestled with her own conscience, quickly coming to the conclusion that Annie would be dead soon, so no one would know, wouldn’t matter if she just did it.

She kissed her, more desperate than soothing, not entirely surprised when Starlight tensed at the gesture, but startled when she kissed her back. Even as her prisoner, Annie was perfect, her soft lips tasted almost like strawberry chapstick, it was everything she shamefully fantasized about. But when she went to deepen the kiss, claim Annie’s mouth further, her breasts ached and she could feel herself leaking, panic rushing through her as milk dripped onto Annie.

Firecracker pulled away, covering her chest with her arms.

“Don’t look—don’t fucking look!” she shouted frantically. ”It’s for him!”

“What—what are you?” Annie’s eyes widened. “You mean Homelander? You’re—why destroy yourself for him?”

“You wouldn’t understand. You’ve had everything handed to you and you threw it back in the world’s face—your powers, being in The Seven—you had everything.”

“I know you’re scared, Firecracker. I can help you, if you just let me go—”

“Ain’t that a nice thought,” she spat.

It was too late. The damage to her body was done. Annie reaching out, offering this olive branch at the eleventh hour. Didn’t bother when Firecracker was a nobody. She only mattered when Homelander made her important, someone to be feared and respected rather than ridiculed.

With a shaky breath, Firecracker leaned in, tempted to kiss Starlight again. Instead, she muttered, “Count your days, bitch.”

[dgdraws]

OC tober Day 9: Relationships

Of course we're doing Ziri and Talia >:]

I present: the toxic yuri ghost gf playlist, songs for when you fall in love with your best friend and then she dies so young and it's kind of your fault and then you make a deal with a god so her ghost is bound to you but she's hurt and so so angry and you want it to all be how it was but eventually you realize you can't go back you just have to learn to live like this now. together but a world away. separated by the veil but without privacy.

bonus artwork courtesy of @gender-premium-tm & @bobomcfoe-art

✨Playlist Track by Track✨

Infinity Room - Beach Bunny, setting the mood for Ziri and Talia's early relationship. A little foreshadowing disguised as a yearning love song. /🎶/ and all of time and space may make up a life/ but you're the one that makes living so sweet

Juice of Mandarins- Ibeyi, speaks to the space between friends and lovers, the romantic friendship as I think of it. /🍊/ i'm going crazy/ i'm detonating/ i see us sharing/ the juice of mandarins

hover like a GODDESS - Willow, the intensity of their romance once it sets ablaze. /💞/ to taste you is sweet, my heart is in pieces/ when i walk, you fuckin' hover like a goddess/ just meet me under the covers, baby, i wish

Treehouse - Frances Forever, the start of the good times, their life together in the cottage by the river. /🌳/ in a tree/ listening to your favorite songs/ feel the breeze/ but we cannot be here for too long/ cause soups on and you made it specially for me

Compartir - Carla Morrison, one of the purest love songs ever written. Listen to it with the lyrics for max effect. /🪑/ quisiera compartir todo a mi vida contigo/ pero hay una cosa que te debo decir/ no es nada fácil, estar tan lejos de ti

melt - Kehlani, a hint of their obsession and codependency. /💘/ inch of space feels broken-hearted/ across the bed feels way too far/ and i wonder when they see just one/ do they see us two?

It's Only (feat Zaya) - Odesza, a warning of what's to come. /💭/ you're only crying/ you're only dying/ you're only dead

Knife Going In - Tegan and Sara, sapphic classic about the wounds of love. Also represents the knife going in Talia's throat. /🗡/ but on the night i die i swear i'll sleep outside your window/ i feel the knife going in/ i'm feeling anxious

No One Dies From Love - Tove Lo, about a messy & abrupt end to a relationship. Talia does die from her knife wound though. /💀/ will you remember us?/ or are the memories too stained with blood now?

Wish U Were Here - Pale Waves, a plea for a lost lover, this is what was running through Ziri's mind in the wake of Talia's untimely demise. /😭/ i look at pictures of you/ i'm getting nothing back/ if there's really a god why wont she give me that?

The Deal - Mitski, beware the powers that offer to grant you your heart's desire. Mitski actually wrote this song about Ziri and Talia. /🤝/ you're a cage without me/ your pain is eased/ but you'll never be free

Anywayz - Austra, when life continues despite your personal tragedy. /🌼/ but what if we dont?/ and the world keeps turning anyways/ the flowers come up anyways/ the mountains rise up anyways

Talia - King Princess, about missing your girl and wishing you could hold her. I swear I named the character before I ever heard this song. /🛏/ i can taste your lipstick/ i can lay down next to you/ but it's all in my head

Bury It - CHVRCHES, oh, denial, that old rascal. /🤐/ i never promised you anything i couldn't do/ we try to bury it and rise above

Wrath - Sir Chloe, denial has nothing on anger. /����/ i'd rather stay mad, rather stay mad/ i, i took a bath/ couldn't drown my wrath/ it's alright to be mad

The Brilliant Dance - Dashboard Confessional, a reflection on losing your first love and losing direction. /📧/ so you buried all your lover's clothes/ and you burned the letters your lover wrote/ but it doesn't make it any better

Fall to Pieces - Pale Waves, that fractious feeling when you're holding it all together by your fingertips. /😔/ cant help we're each other's weakness/ run back every time 'cause it keeps us alive

Home Where - Sir Chloe, there's no privacy when you're a girl and a ghost linked by godly magic./🏠/ got nowhere to hide these days/ home where nobody goes/ i want a place i call my own

just love - Lubalin, the love was there but it doesn't change anything. /💔/ its just love, i know/ but it hurts you all the same/ and i overflow with a violent rage/ i watched you go when i needed you the most

Keep You On My Side - CHVRCHES, but what do they have at the end of the day beside each other? #traumabond /🤞/ what if i should call it off?/ hold up my demands with my heart uncrossed

Devastation and Reform - Relient K, damage control doesn't undo your mistakes, but it's better than nothing. Also I really wanted a Christian rock band bc thematic irony~ /💥/ i pull my heart out reconstruct/ but in the end its nothing but/ a shell of what i had when I first started

She's My Religion - Pale Waves, Ziri's cope. Again they literally wrote this song about Ziri and Talia, Pale Waves told me so. /🙏/ she's cold, she's dark, she's cynical/ forver angry at the world/ she's no angel but she is my religion

Messiah - AUSTRA, Talia's response to Ziri's cope. /❌/ im not your answer/ i cant be your escape/ youve raised me up/ im in the sky

Heat Lightning- Mitski, perhaps the beginning of something approaching acceptance. /⚡/ there's nothing i can do/ not much i can change/ i give it up to you/ i surrender

[aceofheartzzz]

My (death wish) opinions on ships pt. 1

⚠️THIS IS MY OPINION, PLEASE DO NOT ATTACK OR HARASS ME! RESPECT MINE AND I’LL RESPECT YOURS!⚠️

Okay now that the warnings placed I’ll get on with it.

Nuzi

I. Frickin’. Love. This. Ship.

These two are perfect for each other in every way and dear god they need therapy asap but it’s okay because they have each other and after episode 8 they’re both gonna be screwed but they’re so cute and I am so normal about them-

Vuzi

This ships nice. I like good ol’ doomed yuri/enemies to lovers, this ship has grown on me greatly tbh because of the potential comfort they could give each other in an aftermath au, I also love how they bicker and “Intermission” showed that beautifully.

envy

Okay I’m just gonna say it, I see them more as platonic friends than romantic. NOW BEFORE YOU COME AT ME WITH YOUR PITCHFORKS! I wanna say that while I don’t ship present envy, manor envy is plain adorable and I wouldn’t mind seeing more of it.

Vizzy

This is also one of my top ships, as they give off the most lesbian vibes I have ever seen and their relationship is hilarious and adorable. I wish we saw more and I hope we see more of their interactions because most of their interactions made me genuinely laugh.

VHad

Honestly, like envy I see them more a platonic, mainly because Thad gives me Aro/ace vibes and a friend and I headcannon that they have Mario cart nights and I will stand by it forever.

ThUzi

Similarly to V x Thad I see them as a platonic pair, though it is growing on me a little and I can see them as having a bit of a queer platonic relationship especially in an athermath au.

JUzi

I don’t really like this ship, it just doesn’t sit right with me. Good on you if you ship it though.

OilRose

Can some tell me how people got Oilrose as a ship name for J and V? Like I’m genuinely curious. Anyways, this is a classic and I’m okay with it, is nice but due to the lack of interactions between the two I don’t really ship it.

Khori

A solid ship, love it. It’s great for heart wrenching angst when you need it and I hope they get reunited because I want to see them talk to each other again.

PurpleMalice

Doomed/ toxic yuri. This ship grew on me after episode 6(I think) and when I listened to Curses by the crane wives I kinda just went “Whoa… this is so Nori x Alice singing together core.” So yeah :)

Yeva x Nori (idk the ship name)

Honestly I see them as siblings. They looked too similar to not be related in my opinion, might write some Yeva angst about Yeva dealing with Nori’s death since I headcannon Yeva died after Nori and took it upon herself to look after Uzi while she was grieving.

Gonna make a part 2 later

[phightinghottakes]

I might have ranted about this before but I can't find my old anon tag nor my old posts so. 🐊 anon from now on for whatever else I need to rant abt on here.

this is all mostly me ranting about forced inclusivity and queer stuff (coming from a poly, pan person) so if you need to skip over this, you've been warned

Firstly, I absolutely despise Vinedeeri. It feels like it only exists because "uhh woman and woman haha they're the few woman characters in the game lets ship them because yuri" SHUT UP!! Ships used to have an interesting dynamic, they used to have substance and angst and fluff in every fandom I was in, all the ships I used to see were because they were so interesting and created so many different scenarios.

Instead, what I see most of in the phighting community and similar fandoms is "toxic yuri/yaoi!" "I love my yaoi" "gay ppl" and whatnot. Can people not ship things that aren't queer anymore? Can people not ship things for a dynamic instead of for sexuality?

It genuinely baffles me that Trafficdeeri is considered a rarepair. Don't they literally have interactions in canon?? Isn't Lightblox like an adopted daughter to Traffic?? And yet most of the fandom prefers "haha yuri woman x woman" over good content for a wholesome narrative on found family and adoption and whatnot.

Also I prefer Hyperzuka over Hypertana. I've had several people look at me weird for this one and I genuinely still feel a bit uncomfortable saying I ship the two because of that because it was the kind of reaction being a proshipper gives you, but as far as I'm aware they're fine to ship? Feel free to correct me on if there's anything I'm missing, but I just find the kind of "alcoholic mess x previous alcoholic mess" dynamic more compelling than "alcoholic mess with issues x alcoholic mess with issues" regardless of whether it's being interpreted as platonic or romantic.

Also also, I don't like Scythe being made POC. I find making a character black for inclusivity kind of silly, but even moreso insulting when it's, oh, you know, one of the only characters with a different skintone?? What, is being tan not "inclusive" enough? Did it not appeal to the fandom enough? Was having a character that was tan in a way that'd fit the canon not good enough? I dislike race swapping in general, but it's just. So much more irritating when it's taking away the only tan character the game had. ffs real inclusivity should live up to it's name, it should be inclusive not "appealing to the minority" it should be inclusive for everyone. The minority that needs it, the minority that's harassed, the minority that barely speaks up about it. Not just one group. Please. God. also she's a serial killer that's kind of an issue too liike. out of all the characters you had to pick 1: the serial killer and 2: the only playable character with a different skintone

I would also like to say I absolutely hate she/her subspace. I genuinely do not get why someone would look at an insane scientist that'd probably laugh at torturing people and go "Aww, she's so quirky" or whatever. It genuinely confuses me beyond belief how she/her subspace is such a widely accepted headcanon. What part of probably-capitalist mad scientist that invented hundreds of machines made for war and ruthless killing says "girlypop twink" to you??

And lastly, this game has boring characters when it tries to make them interesting, ironically enough. Some of the most interesting characters to me (outside of subspace) are Vine Staff and Shuriken just because of how many different angles you could take with the core of their character and how... Fundamentally simple they are. They're siblings, they have a clear theme, they're kind of angst-free characters outside of Vine's curse, and they have a strong bond. It's not a lot, but it's all that you need for a lot of interesting content. On the contrary, take Broker and Scythe- two relatively safe picks to hate on. They're part of a cult, Scythe is a serial killer, Broker has some sorts of phone imagery as far as I'm aware, and the cult has something something eyes something I genuinely can't remember. It's kind of more? It's meant to be more, at least. And yet I can't figure out anything interesting about this other than Broker's theme with phones that's kind of neat but the lore does nothing with that. And the eye stuff.. well, yeah, it has potential but it's just so, so underdeveloped. In trying to make the cult so much more it's ended up with so many concepts and so few that are actually solid, in comparison to characters that are simpler. Hell, look at Boombox! He's also a pretty simple character, but he's easy to enjoy too. And there's also the whole thing with him being able to tell something's up with Subspace. Maybe I just read into details a lot, but oh well.

In case you couldn't tell, I like healthy characters who's strength is small fun facts and details.

-Sincerely, 🐊 Anon.

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[witchlingcirce]

🚨TEAM BLACK TRAILER & SPOILERS FOR HOTD🚨

Oh… MY…. GOD. This is literally all I could have asked for this is one of the best things I’ve seen in so long I’m so HYPED!!

This shot… I’m literally heart broken this 💔. This is obviously at Lucerys funeral and honestly it’s just…. TO MUCH. The tears in Jaces eyes, them burning Luke’s clothing because there wasn’t a body, baby Joffrey. This scene looks absolutely stunning but also so gut wrenching. I FEEL LIKE ILL DEFINITELY CRY 😭.

DRAGON TWINS DRAGON TWINS DRAGON TWINS DRAGON TWINS

Everyone knows that I manifested this, HARD. Whoever gave them a new, better wig bless you. To the person who actually put them into nice clothing, BLESS YOU TOO.

Baela is literally Laenas twin like… SHE LOOKS SO GOOD.

I’m so happy there finally getting more scenes and lines, I was praying for this. DRAGON TWINSSSS I LOVE YOUUUU

MOOOONNNNN DANCERRRREEEEEEREE

She looks almost exactly like what I imagine a young Vhagar would look like. VHAGER IS HER MUMMY CONFIRMED!!!

It’s hard to see in this particular shot but I do like that they kept her a paler green colouring!!!! I don’t think you guys understand how much I love moondancer. She like two moments in the book and I decided I would Stan forever.

BAELA TARGARYENNNNNNNN GETTING her own moment is something I am actually so hyped about, THATS MY WARRIOR PRINCESS.

You know I have a feeling that maybe after Rooks Rest and seeing what happens to a certain someone she mayyyyy cut her hair, like book Baela. Kind of like the thing, hair holds memories yk?

Cregan stark is NOT BLONDE WHO CHEEEEREEEEEDDDDDDDDDDD

I understand that the north storyline this season will probably only last three episodes max (damn you eight episodes)! NONETHELESS, I am beyond excited.

Can we talk about how Jacaerys is free from the ugly wig??? THANK THE HEAVENS!! There doing my boy right. Seeing him a decent amount in the trailer made me so hyped, I always thought he deserved to be seen more in the first season since YK, he’s the Heir’s heir (hahah) but I’m so glad there stepping up there game this season!!!

RHAENYRA RHAENYRA THE WOMAN YOU ARE! Whoever made her costumes and hair this season BLESS YOUR HEART.

I think it’s obvious she’s most likely wearing a Visenya braid and she is STANDING ON BUSINESS!

Before when I was talking about the posters I was discussing how it seemed that they gave her back her cunningness and determination from the books and I am SO HAPPY THEY DID. Because THAT is a queen of he seven kingdoms THATTTTTT is MY WOMANNNNN!!!!

Also this is a side note: but I like how she refers to Aegon as Alicent Hightower’s son, not her brother or half brother but as ALICENTS SON!!!! I feel like it probably has to do with them not being close, but it also it makes it feel like Rhaenyra doesn’t consider him a true son of Viserys. Very interesting, can’t wait for there beef to get more intense.

Rhaenyra… Rhaenyraaaas EMMA D’ARCY YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS PERSON. I’m in shock, whoever made there outfits this season did they GOOOOOODDDDDD

LOTS of theories on who’s she’s looking 🙉

1. Alicent Hightower

There was a bunch of leaks going around that there would be a final meeting between the two. I think this is an outfit that she wears in the earlier episodes so idkkk buttt If it Rhaenyra why are you looking at her like that… TOXIC YURI CONTINUES.

2. Mysaria

I feel it being Mysaria would be very interesting. Maybe it’s her pleading ‘loyalty’ towards Rhaenyra. And then later on (if there keeping it like how it is in the books) helping Daemon blah B&C.

This is Corlys definitely telling Rhaenys not to get involved and Rhaenys telling him she has to do what’s right for her house and what’s right for Baela and Rhaena 💔💔💔

THERE GOING TO BREAK UP MY HEART THIS SEASON.

Anyways guys I’m so excited, I’m so happy that there finally giving team blacks kids moments to shine and also letting Rhaenyra be book Rhaenyra… JUNE 16th can’t come sooner!

[cdyssey]

Agatha All Along (1.04) Reactions:

“I didn’t think I had it in you.” [Cue Agatha winking at Teen.] Ooough, does she suspect him of killing Mrs. Hart????

“RIP, Mrs. Hart.” She’s so fucking unserious djsjdjjd

Also, I don’t think I’ve said this yet, but I love her hair being long and wild when she’s on the Road. It’s so witchy.

Agatha holding up a single finger when asked how many witches survived the Road the last time she walked it is sooooo good.

“May she be smart and not annoying. And also, not super political.” ALWKKDCJWJSK

“May she be pleasant looking.” THIS WHOLE COVEN IS FULL OF GAY WITCHES. <333

FUCKING JUMPSCARE GOD.

“This was very clearly a group effort.” AKQOKSDJSJSK. (Also, obsessed with the fact that Agatha instinctively threw her hands out to protect her coven.)

RIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

“SURPRISE. M’LADY.” GAY GAY HOMOSEXUAL GAY!!

“So, the dangerous but charismatic lady is back. Do you wanna talk about it?” AKWOWKWD, Teen saw them fight-flirting all across Agatha’s house.

ALICE WANTING RIO’S NUMBER TOO. GAY WITCHES

Ooough, this is Alice’s trial.

HELLO, THESE FUCKING FITS!!!!!!!!!!! GODDDDD, HOT HOT HOT

Rio, trying to play with Agatha: “Boo.” / Agatha, looking more than discomfited: “No.” Fuck, I can’t wait to see what horror divides them.

Lilia tearing up at the portraits of women/witches being brutally murdered… her backstory is going to be horrific, isn’t it?

Lorna’s fans being her coven ooooughhhhhh, that’s good.

Lilia not remembering the half-premonitions she blurts out is so interesting. Can’t wait to see where they all go, especially the tarot card shouts.

Agatha covering up her chest when Rio is around. She doesn’t want to feel naked around her just yet, doesn’t want to be vulnerable. The super fun part about "you're vulnerable" / "only physically" is that it's an absolute fucking lie!!

“I’m feeling impatient. I’m feeling like I want to cause some damage.” YEAH BABY FREAK 4 FREAK TOXIC YURI

“Just one more big adventure. You and me.” / “like old times?” / “Work and play. It could be nice, right?” MY GOD????????????????? I'VE DREAMED FOR THESE KINDS OF DAYS

but also, I think it’s incredibly interesting that the scene starts with Agatha visibly uncomfortable, but then she leans into the flirting —like she did in their first encounter, bc she knows power and seduction are what Rio responds to

KILLING OTHER WITCHES AS FOREPLAY. “You get your power, and I get my bodies.” THEY’VE BEEN A TEAM

lmfao, Agatha purposefully pressing the mic. I love a drama queen

“She’s a psycho.” [Cue Rio nodding enthusiastically.] LAOQOSFJDK

Alice breaking down about the curse. Fucking hell. I love her

JAM SESSION JAM SESSION JAM SESSION!!

“To save her daughter.” 😭😭😭

LORNA’S BALLAD IS A PROTECTION SPELL. SOBBIN G. LIKE ALSO THE FACT THAT SO MUCH OF AAA IS ABOUT MOTHERHOOD. Protecting children, losing children, grieving them, perhaps finding a surrogate son.

LET PATTI LUPONE SING

AGNES TELLING THEM TO KEEP PLAYING EVEN THOUGH SHE’S IN PAIN

THIS NEW COVER FUCKING SLAPS. HOLY FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK. It’s very Fleetwood Mac omfgggggggg

I love that they have Patti lupone on the fucking triangle AKAKDJISWO

"BLOOD AND TEARS AND BONE / TOGTHER AND ALONE." FUCK YEAH

PATTI ON MARACAS NOW LMAO

Alice is slaying these final notes holy shittttt.

TEEN'S HURT, OH FUCK. Oh my god, Agatha being so CONCERNED about him. Look at her, cradling his fucking head

THE WAY HER VOICE CRACKS WHEN SHE SAYS THERE’S SO MUCH BLOOD

THE VULNERABLE WAY SHE SAYS "DON’T" TO RIO. FUCK ME. AUOWJSHHSH IT’s A FUCKING PLEA, A PRAYER EVEN, BECAUSE RIO IS CLEARLY DEATH UAHDGHSUIHUIHUI!!!!!!

CRYING IN DA CLUB

(ALSO, THE FACT THAT AGATHARIO'S DYNAMIC WAS CLEARLY, I'M DEATH AND YOU'RE THE STUNNING MONSTER WHO KEEPS BRINGING ME BODIES IS ABSOLUTELY ENTHRALLING.)

“Jennifer. Look what you did.” SOBBINGGGFFFFDFHHH FUCK OFF. Jennifer is growing confident in her abilities again

AGATHA KEEPING WATCH ON TEEN. I'M SO WEAK

The way all of the witches are grieving something or someone—their lost magic, lost mothers, lost family, a lost child, a lost lover. THIS SHOW IS ABOUT GRIEFFRDDF

If I lose any of these witches, I will DIE

“You don’t have extra nipples? I’m covered in nipples.” lmao, she’s so unserious

Agatha teasing Teen but also being super gentle with himmmmmm. Fuck offf!!!!!!!!!!!!

Agatha’s face darkening at the mention of her son and just completely shutting down. Ugahhhhhhhhh

SITTING NEXT TO RIO.

Agatha LOOKING AT RIO WHEN SHOWING HER SCAR AND BOTH OF THEM LAUGHING BECAUSE THEY'RE REMINISCING. THEY KNOW EACH OTHER SO DEEPLY.

Agatha looking so uncomfortable when the witches laugh at her joke. She hasn't had friends in a very long while, and she doesn't know what to do with those warm, tender feelings

“I’ve got a scar.” / “No, you don’t.” OF COURSE YOU WOULD KNOW AGATHA

“A long time ago, I loved someone. And I had to do something that I did not wanna do, even though it was my job. And it hurt them. She is my scar.” YOU’RE FUCKING KIDDING ME. OH GOD SHE REAPED NICHOLAS DIDN'T SHEEEEEEEE

AGATHA MOANING WHEN SHE TOUCHES HER HAIR SHUT UP SHUT UO SHUT UP

TENDERLY AND AGONIZINGLY CUPPING HER FACE, EMBRACING HER BODY

GOING IN FOR THE FUCKING KISS

RIO TELLING HER SO GENTLY MY FUCKING GOD. LIKE. SHE KNOWS IT'LL HURT AGATHA, BUT SHE KNOWS THAT SUCH A TRUTH IS NECESSARY. IT'S IMPORTANT.

THE LITTLE DEVASTATED NOD. THE FAKE, PLASTERED ON SMILE

SHOW OF ALL FUCKIGN TIME GODDAMN!!!!!

[danggirlronpa]

Not the Pekoshima anon who originally talked about the ship, but I am so Invested in pekoshima my god, I have to talk about it. Okay so - with both Ultimate Despair's we see (discounting DR3 because. I don't like it), Nagito and Mikan, I find them very interesting. Mikan in chapter 3 obviously isn't behaving well - murder and all - but she also seems to recognize for possibly the first time ever that how people treated her was wrong (questioning why they treated her this way, acknowledging it wasn't fair, even calling the cast a bunch of bullies in scorn). Which is... such interesting characterization! It's one of the reasons I can't exactly buy how Junkan is presented in DR3 - in her FTEs, how people treated Mikan was normal to her, and she didn't seem to fully realize it was wrong. In the third trial, Mikan talks as if she knows how she was treated was wrong, and singles out Junko as being different, having forgiven her. In her final FTE, she says that Hajime has forgiven her too, implying to me that Junko did the same thing as Hajime did during their FTEs together, just with malicious intent (strengthening the Hajime/Izuru and Ryouko/Junko parallels and solitifying both Chiaki and Hajime in SDR2 as "the kindness the remnants never had" - kindness that ultimately leads to them triumphing over Junko this time). So in DR3, it didn't make much sense to me that Junko treated Mikan just as everyone else in Mikan's life has. Kicking her and berating her. Of course, with brainwashing she didn't need to be kind, but before DR3 came out, I always thought Junko operated more like... she would make you go one step forward, and two steps back. She would present herself as if solving your problems and helping you, but that was just to her own ends. We see this in Nagito too - when he's in DR:AE as a remnant of despair, his ideals have changed drastically from SDR2, and I'd go so far as to say what he preaches in DR:AE to be a better philosophy - though how far he's willing to go for it, still bad. So, the conclusion I reached was that every remnant would have some sort of ironic twist - something they improved upon, only for their other behaviors to be worse, like Nagito and Mikan.

So Hiyoko wouldn't be bully - but maybe it would be too much in the other direction, where she was obedient to a fault. Never talking without permission, sitting still like a doll, only doing what she was told.

Kaizuchi, perhaps, would no longer be obsessed with Sonia, someone who didn't like him back, and instead fixate on Junko, who welcomed his obsession...

And Peko, who used to think she was a tool... perhaps she would finally realize she was human. Perhaps she would realize this, and despair at such a fact.

Because it would mean she failed. She failed to become a tool for Fuyuhiko, and suddenly everything done to her wasn't "training a tool" but a tragedy. Her life was a tragedy. The very fact that she is human is despair, but that despair itself proves she is human. I imagine she could get very twisty and turny in her thoughts about this.

I also have the headcanon that Peko and Fuyuhiko during the despair times switches roles. Fuyuhiko always took on too much responsibility, and hey, here's your old pal Junko here to set you straight! You don't need to take so much onto yourself! It's painful, isn't it? Taking the burden of making choices. Being human. Who wants that responsibility? Why not give it to someone else? Oh hey, look at that, it's your old pal Peko! She'll take the brunt of responsibility from now on! From now on, Peko is the master and Fuyuhiko is the tool!

I just love the idea of Junko doing these ironic little twists. Helping them in some way only to fuck them over in others. Junko makes Peko realize she's human, and because of that, Peko cannot help but both love and resent her. Real toxic yuri shit going on.

(TW this gets a lil gory at the end)

This is a really good take on Junko's strategy!! My Junko analysis is similar but not quite the same. I've always viewed Junko as a monkey's paw. Whoever you are, she gives you exactly what you want, in its totality - but at the expense of your happiness.

Mikan's desire for someone to care for her becomes excessive dependency and blind devotion. Ryota's desire to become a successful animator who doesn't have to think about talking to others or existing in the real world becomes the complete destruction of that world, and his animated work as the most influential to ever exist. Nagito's desire to become a force which others can step on to find hope becomes Nagito ensuring the legacy of the greatest despair he possibly can, so that no 'fake' hopes can bypass his rigorous test - only a True Ultimate Hope can overcome and finally lead the world to victory.

Despair - for Junko - is the knowledge that you have succeeded, and everything is even worse than if you hadn't. Because Junko is Always succeeding, and she's Always in despair. Nothing challenges her. The only thing that she can't predict is pure dumb luck, which Makoto leverages against her both in THH and SDR2 to enable her defeat. Junko, like Izuru, is one of the most successful people to ever exist, and it SUCKS. So of course she is dragging people down the exact same way she herself is dragged down. Of course she shows people obvious, glowing success, in such a way that it tears down the entire world they once knew. Because this way - if one day unimaginably, they break their bonds - they will never, ever experience true hope again. Because their hopes are what destroyed them. Their hope brings about despair.

So from that perspective, I think you're dead on the money with Fuyuhiko, who loathes his position and wants to be free of the burden of responsibility (wouldn't it be easier, to be a tool, too? Aren't you tired of telling people to die? Shouldn't you take responsibility yourself, if there's killing to be done?). But Peko's desire is to be a tool. Rather than teaching Peko how to become her own person, I personally think that Junko would put Peko through the paces of both physical and psychological torture to turn her into a complete unfeeling instrument, exactly like Peko wanted. Once you've been in a 1-foot cell with no other people for a week, once you've been given Pavlovian training to receive an endorphin rush when holding your own spilling viscera in your hands - affection, agency, memory all fade away. There's just the next order. Exactly like Peko wanted.

[catgirljaneway]

For the shipping ask game: J7 and B7

Thank you so much for the ask!!

J7 - Ship It

What made you ship it?

The way Kathryn looks at Seven like she's going to eat her and the toxic yuri vibes ❤️ Also the way Kathryn is ready to do the most fucked up shit to keep Seven safe (or just keep seven) love to watch my girl destroy a Timeline

What are your favorite things about the ship?

I love just how weird the dynamic could be/is. Kathryn 'created' Seven and there's so much weird 'loving a god' vibes going on if you know what I mean? And I personally like ships with complicated (sometimes toxic) dynamics. There's just so much going on there? Also, I've unfortunately been deeply in love with a professor of mine for a good year and a half (i know guys.... it's upsetting to me too), and the way I characterize Seven in J7 is sort of that kind of yearning, loving someone who can't really love you back the same way because of the power difference? That's not quite coherent, but I hope you get what I mean.

I just like doomed toxic, co-dependent love stories, especially because i truly believe both of them genuinely care for the other, and also if they got together during the Voyager timeline it would be a terrible burning car of a relationship. I could see with some growth from both of them, a future where they could meet again and it could be good, but I think especially Seven would need lots of time away from Kathryn to be able to find out who she is on her own terms without Kathryn trying to mold her in her image. And Kathryn would need time to learn how to connect to people who she isn't the captain of after the years on Voyager. Also I'm a sucker for reunion after a long time away tropes ngl

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

I mean I think my opinion that their relationship wouldn't be healthy in the Voyager era is probably not the most healthy? NGL most of the relationships on Voyager wouldn't be healthy simply because of all the circumstances and the fact they're all batshit insane, but that doesn't mean i don't ship it!

B7 - Ship It

What made you ship it?

Honestly I hadn't even thought about it as a possibility when I did my initial watch of the show. I think it's because I was a very focused B'elanna x Janeway or Janeway x Seven shipper, so I was more focused on their interactions. However, when I joined tumblr and saw all the content people had made about them, it grew on me. Especially once I started recognizing the parallels between them.

What are your favorite things about the ship?

I like that their vibe is this:

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

I don't really think so!

[eggs-and-autism]

a deatiled ecplaination of every anime ive ever watched part 2

part 1 i found talentless nana on a whim after geting bored of my 4th rewatch of school live club. it had simaler genres so i was exited. i dont know how to describe my love forr tn other then the fact i was so enraptered by it that i had to grab my sketchbook partway htough the seires. if you have not watched it DO IT RIGHT NOW, DON RESURCH IT JUST START IT!! !!SPOILERS!! i was so confued on eptisoed one i figured nano was just a weird pronouncaton of nana, even wheen nana was introdcued i just assumed they had the same name lmao; so yea end of ep 1 hit me like a fucking truck. i do not have words to describe my love for the trope of "cute/sweet character was actually putting on an act" for god sake the comic thats held me hostage for the last 4 years had it. as if that wasnt enough the fact even THAT is subverted laster on???? insane! i was ont the edge of me seat every episode. it took me until ep 3 or 4 to clue in on michinana, but i assuemd it wouldnt happen bc that would be bad for michieru. AND THEN THERE WAS THE INTRODUCTION OF JIN. THOUGH MICHIRU. y'all. i had to pause the show to cope. one must understand that TWO "cute character is actually putting on an act" broke my brain. the toxic yuri potenchal there. the "we look like besties/gfs but actually are holdingg eachother at knifpoint at all times" potenchal. the "*just stabbed her and about to do it again *waow shes pretty i wanna kiss her-I MEAN WHAT" potenchal. i was a shell of a man. then jin was reveled and i was once again destryed. littrally wrote in my doodle notbook "SHE IS GAY." as much as i love toxic yuri, i LOVE "yuri where one of them gets the other to question a deeply held beilf on accedent and now the only thing she can think about is her. and she cant even tell if its an exastencal crisis or a crush or fear or hate or all at once. and meanwhile the girl who broke her worldview is just happy to be around her and cares about her and doesnt know she is littrally a murderer." yah. i really love tn. as soon as i was at school again i begged my friend for 3 days straight to watch it and just called my other friend to force him to watch it and it was the only thingi could draw for weeks.

i didnt go out looking for new anime for a while. that is until a saw a video about so calle "loser anime" and decided to watch one of the ones mentioned for shits and giggles.

dress up darling is a bit hellish to watch, but i love it nonetheless. there is so much 2nd hand embarrassment, like actually almost killed me. Marin and gojou are unironically really cute. theres actual chemistry there. i like how at the beginning gojou sees marin as the epitome of what he lacks, she is open about her weird intrests and loved for them. gojou thinks he innately lacks something she has, making it impossible for him to have friends+ interests, but though tout s1 thanks to marins charisma and people starting to see gojous talent he finds more friends and people who appreciate his work. he doesn't innately lack anything and his biggest mistake was entirely giving up on finding friends.

and so it begun, my hobbee of finding anime i herd was bad and watching it to try to find some sort of narrative warrant within it.

so i had enjoined rachies cover of idol for a while without knowing the show it was from. i saw a video saying Oshi no Ko was good but impossible to recommend to anyone, the video said to watch it without knowing what it was about and i was intrigued. and oh my god. this anime dug a whole in my brain. listen most of it was fine and cool and not even boring, but. the first episode. [go watch it for yourself the les you know the better] SPOILERS!! seriously what the fuck kind of ferud bs was going on there. every second of that episode was fucking insane. "why is he to into that idol lol" to "HES FUCKING DEAD??" to "HES REBORN??????" to "HE CAN TALK????" to "freud couldnt even edge to this. straight up EXPLODED. clean up isle, his pants" to "what do you mean you being a girl before you were reborn means our privlaged to suck you moms tits what the actual fuck" to "waow they scared that babysitter" to "they wouldbe so cooked if their mom didnt asume they were smart" to "waow aqua is a lil freak i love him" to "waow shes really intersting and her trama responce allowing her to seced in her carreir while making her feel shalow is intersting" to "SHES FUCKING DEAD???" i ranted to my friend about it for about an hour and my voice was so score from walking laps while screaming about hoe W E R I D some lines were. didnt even bring up other eps. like i said they were fine but wow.

a while into the year i remembered a manga i really liked as a kid had an anime now, AND IT WAS DUBBED!!

i loved new game as a queer kid who would latch on to any media with wlw relationships. the anime was as i expected, same as th books. i didnt dislike it but it was more then a little boring. i think a lot of Kou and Rin's relationship was really queerbaity but ig not bc it got canonized at the end, witch is awesome. i havent watched or read it but hey we take a win. honestly i might pick it up again someday for the nostalgia.

summer 2024. from june to early aug i was on and off watching Hitorijime My Hero. witch. i would not reccomend: ITS NOT THAT BADD but it needs a

MAJOR TW!!: dont watch hitorijime or read my thoughts on if you dont wanna see: sa and victim blaming, grooming depicted in a morally positive light, age gap relationship depicted in a positive light, did i mention sa? theres a lot of it witch happens at various degrees of severity.

and even tough it pissed me off i was demanded to watch it. SPOILERS also ahead!! THE FIRST ARC ALONEE pissed me off so much. idc enough to google their names so hair color timee. ok ok the premiss was actually really cute. brunette dudes childhood friend(ginger) moveds back and has a crush on brunette but has no idea how to confess. brunette is oblivios and ginger is already a quite person so like ok theres a plot there this could be cute. episode 2 ends with ginger kissing brunette after brunette told him to stop and tried to push him off. then this bitch ass ginger threatens to end their friendship if if he cant (AND I QUOTE)"do whatever he wants to him" what gets me about the show is how realistic some of the reactions are. brunette is torn because he cares about their friendship but dosent want to be, like, assaulted more. he plays it off as a joke to keep the peace. i cannot express how accurately this depicts abuse, its what got me to sit tough so much of it. it was uncomfortable to watch but i told myself i would see it as a depiction of abuse and not a romance, because i under that context i genuinely think there may have been something to gleen from this narrative. ginger is mad at brunette for having friends so he threatens to abandon bruntte if he doesnt let him assult him again, and god the reluctant agreement from brunette hurt me. acceptance isnt enough for ginger, hes mad that brunette cant force himself to have feeling for him so ginger insults him in the worst way he can think of and ditches school for 2 days. maybe im projecting. the writing didnt seem to intend for this so come off as manipulative, as something to break down brunette till he accepts this reality. but can you blame me for sympathizing with brunette confiding in his other friend, clearly distressed, and being told in responce that it was his fault.h brunette's friend says hes wrong and brunette is the one who forced ginger to kiss him. i dont think its wrong at all to see brunette 'realize hes been wrong the whole time' and goes to ginger seemingly of his own will; and think this is a story where someone is broken down until desperation or stalkhome leads them to accept their abuse. there's no love there, its not a happy ending and writing about it makes me sick. but its feels realistic. normally i avoid seeing myself in fiction, but i couldn't help but relate to brunette enough where i had to take breaks while watching hmh because it made me sick. and that was the first arc. when i realized the rest of the show would be the student-teacher relationship with a 12 year age gap i decided 7 or so eps in i would drop the anime bc i genuinely couldn't handle it.

hmh moved me emotionally, it was impactful and i didn't want to end my quest for good anime. somewhere out there their had to be a school live! or a talentless nana i haddnt watched yet. i finally figured out how to find the stuff i loved watching! looking though lists for tropes or tags, usually older more underground stuff. its hard to describe but i have a watch-list witch brings us to now. its my junior year and i love anime. heres a list of animes ive watched recently, completed or not, and some thoughts on them!

welcome to the NHK was huge. hell it still is huge. i cant recommend it to anyone but god i will post about it here. (minor spoiler ahead) please i swear the scene where satou goes to take pictures of school girls panties is part of establishing the character its not fansevice i swearrrr. ok but like as awful as that stuff is it genuinely isnt fanservice. when satou is straight up joirking it for like 3 days we dont see what hes looking at, theres like one bit where yamazaki walks into satous house and it looks like misaki is giving him head but like from the top of my head thats all i can think of. when satou does freaky shit hes drawn like a freak! LOOK AT THIS MAN DO YOU THINK WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GOONING ALONG WITH HIM??

I CAN AND WILL TALK ABOUT NHK MORE SOMDAY BC I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ON IT!

while stalking a facebook account i saw this image:

it reminded me of discourse i saw in 2022 over if femboy was derogatory to trans women. i see the argument, i really do, but honestly, i(a trans boy) LOVE the femboy/trap trope. first of all: 1st of all i like that feminine guys / gender nonconformity is thought to be generally cool within anime places(like even Facebook lowkey homophobic groups). second of all, i see where people see some "femboys" in anime as tras girl, its based like u do u boo. bu i think aspect of the femboy/trap trope are relatable to transmasc ppl too. for 1, there is literally NO transmasc anime. do not come at me with the guy in wandering son or that one mha character you know damn well thats not what i mean. in my quest for tboy rep i realized how much i realted to femboy characters. i too, constantly get mistaken for a girl and have the ability to embrace it or be upset about it. i will die on this hill but honestly cisgender 'trap' characters are better transmasc rep then any actual transmascs ive seen in anime just bc they are more interesting characters.

all that to say: i stated my teenage romantic comady SNAFU. its really good, very funny. Saika is litttrally me if i played sports. good times.

i also started princess jellyfish! Tsukimi is LITTRALLY ME!! no but for real i love this show i love how Tsukimi isnt conventually atractive. i love seeing her be autistic about jellyfish with her NEET roommates. i love her relationship with her mom.

and to wrap it up, the other day i binge watched another. its incredible and one of the best examples of how horror should be done imo. it doesnt rely on jumpscares, its keeps you on the edge of your seat every episode. SPOILERS AHEAD!!: i love how the veiwer is convinced mei is undead or somthing like that along with Kouichi, and when mei confims shes alive hes even an0olages he(and we) thought otherwise. not only that but i love mei in genrel. i love how she is just a freak and there isnt a lore reason. why does she watch the other students from afar? shes just like that. why is she so pale? shes just like that. shes just a weird little thing. why does she not run when somone is comming at her with a knife??? shes just like that. why does she withold the fact she knows who the dead person is when she could have saved lifes by specking up? she doesnt talk much. the fact she went into the whole exposition of the "i see dead things" bc of her doll eye and thats why she should be trusted to know who the dead person and only withi the last 15 mins of the last ep is like "o also i saw her fall in a lake" ?????? you couldnt have like??? started with that???? god i love her.