#Fr my initial reaction to seeing the post was OH FUCK I HAVE TO /READ/?!?!

[bunglegaydogs]

skk in fifteen fr

I am desperate to analyse this one section of Fifteen.

You can't tell me that this isn't important.

My overarching point for this post is Chuuya seeing Dazai as a person despite him doing the most dehumanising shit.

Dazai is literally speaking in a flat voice, "despite being attacked by the enemy and hitting the ground and buildings". Despite being ambushed and clearly going through some painful shit, he's like a robot, soulless. Chuuya gives him a choice of killing him after he gets information, or just killing him then, to which he's like "Yeah go on, do it now then. Kill me." and Chuuya is taken aback. But, instead of being like "What the fuck is wrong with you? You're a freak." he realises that underneath him is a human guy. "The figure was silent for a moment. Then he finally saw Dazai, and realised that he was dealing with a person that had personality." Like??? Chuuya babes, that's not how you react to that. But, I am glad he did. Because it just shows that, unlike everyone else, Chuuya sees Dazai's death wish as a human part of him. Yes, the other aspects of Dazai that Chuuya hates he does view as inhuman and dark, but the one aspect of him that everyone else sees completely different, Chuuya does a wholeass 180 on it. He registers him as a person, a living breathing person, and this is so important to me. I can't remember if I posted it or not, wait I no no I didn't, I was about to post it and it all deleted itself, oh fuck. Anyways sorry, I wrote a whole rant about Chuuya and Dazai's humanity and how it's such a crucial part in their relationship and themselves respectively. Being perceived as human is very important to the both of them, moreso Chuuya. Chuuya actively tries to be compassionate and is a caring person, whereas Dazai is cold, but doesn't understand why everyone else sees him as a bad person. Much like Ranpo, he is unsure of how to feel or be in the world, but is not as open to criticism I guess? Once again, I can't remember which rant, whether I posted it or not, but in one of them I made a point about when Chuuya punches Dazai when he talks about the Colonel's death, and how important Dazai's reaction is, before and after the punch. When he says "Right?" after he talks about the executive position, it almost seems like he's asking Chuuya for guidance if this is right, but he's Dazai and obviously motherfucker does not know how to go around that. Dazai doesn't feel anything for when people die or get hurt, he's accustomed to violence. However, he genuinely seems a bit at a loss here. And, when he confronts Shibusawa, his feelings on the matter flip? He tells Shibusawa that he "can't forgive him for the Colonel's death". Maybe Chuuya did have an impact on him, maybe he felt that way all along. Anyways, this scene (Fifteen) is so important to me and how Chuuya recognises him as a human lying underneath him. To Chuuya, not only is he not responding to pain the way normal people should, but he apparently also has a twisted death wish and asks Chuuya sincerely to kill him. Despite the shock that would initially come with this, Chuuya decides to recognise that "oh, he's a person with depth". One of my favourite lines is "The figure was silent for a moment. Then he finally saw Dazai,…" because it's just him being shocked and a bit like "the fuck?" but then the "he finally saw Dazai" like in that one moment, (which it did) it started a bond that neither of them could sever even if they wanted to. From that moment, they were bound for life, because he saw him. I can't at all articulate how I feel about this line, I know I always say that, but this time the words actually aren't processing like they're in my brain there I know what I mean, but I can't type it. Anyways, that ends this short little rant, even though I do have many more thoughts on this stacked in my scattered brain but I can't release them unless I am prompted to release them :') Anyways, thank you for reading! Have a lovely day/night <333

[godlytemperance]

npmd proshot reaction livethread

except i'm not on twitter and also this is probably my third time watching it because i was too busy painting my room to make a proper live reaction post

having the two nerds that die be the first singers we see is such good foreshadowing actually,,, you know from the first moment they start to experience a change in their lives after max kicks the bucket that they're doomed, and the first act shows you that right away. none of the other kids in the first song are injured by max, just richie and ruth.

lauren doesn't have her headgear in High School Is Killing Me, which is a bit confusing, but i think it's so her voice is clearer in the first song

also i love ruth's sweater? i'd totally wear that irl

grace looks utterly deranged in every song because she doesn't drop that fuckin SMILE the whole time i love her so much

i love the "AUGH" chorus after "it's one hell of a normal abnormality"

someone brought this up before i noticed it, but grace is the only one to cover her mouth during any iteration of "i'm so fucking dead", which is so swag actually... it fits the choreo while also showing that she's super averse to cursing (initially)

pete my beloved... stephanie's so correct for falling in love with him

also PETE'S TIE MATCHES HIS SUSPENDERS THAT'S ADORABLE??? plus it very (very) subtly matches steph's flannel i'm gonna explode

anyways mariah looks gorgeous throughout the whole show

the little string instrument *plunk* as steph snaps pete's suspenders

pete's goofy run

steph giving up on asking who pete's running from as soon as she realizes he's dipped

i'm pretty sure that kim's nerd character has a unibrow, or very thick brows that have that appearance? that's actually really cool that they implemented features on characters that would lead to bullying from a societal standpoint.

i'm not ashamed to admit that i thought richie was gonna be a metalhead from the very brief glimpses we had of his outfit before the show dropped... imagine my terror when i heard "anime love pillows"

oh also is richie's hair Like That because of bedhead? a cowlick? hat hair? a shitty haircut? i don't know and it's gonna drive me insane

KYAAAAAAAA

as someone who's been bullied, then Suddenly had one of my bullies admit to having a crush on me, max's crush on grace is completely realistic fr

homec*mming... babygirl you are so repressed

continually stating that all of the main characters are 18+ / seniors is actually very relieving to see, especially for shows set in high school. like yeah, teens can be weird and nsfw, but it feels deeply upsetting when it's not established that they're of legal age. it's still gross, though, but in a "aw shit we Were like that in high school, damn" kinda way

literal monster slaps so fucking hard

is ms. tessburger in a relationship with mr. lauter? she acts like a shitty stepmom to steph (on that note, the theory that steph's biological mom was a former honey queen, and that's why solomon has used the black book before)

if i had a nickel for every time corey doris nearly brought a hammer down on his daughter, mariah rose faith casillas, i'd have two nickels

PETE'S UPDATED OUTFIT I LOVE HIMMMMMM

i love ruth's warm color palette, it's even visible in her wig :00

ruth is so "i read hetalia wattpad lemon too early and that's the only reason i passed social studies"

i didn't catch richie saying "NANI????" on my first run and it felt like a punch to the gut

ruth and richie crawling all over pete to try and hear steph is so hysterical. they are just creatures

wEEeooWEEoOO

richie please... richieeee attack on titan is so badddd

"someone's willing to tolerate your presence for a whole evening",,,, he is so neurodivergent to me

pete you are SO much cooler than you think you are

steph 🤝 emma being head over heels obsessed with the normalest dork in history

"SAY YOUR PRAYERS" "amen :D"

i desperately wanna read the newspaper that mr. chastity is reading

also if the chastity's weren't so adamant on abstinence-only education for grace, they'd be the cutest family ever... like they're actually really healthy and communicate really well with each other

karen chastity freezing up during every freudian slip kills me

grace's fucking FACE when she says "this is sooo wrawng"

MAX'S ABS?????

max is so puppydog when he's talking about jesus. that scene is what made everyone say he was babygirl

grace sweetie you're drooling

local nerdy prude realizes she has a blasphemy kink and promptly goes insane about it

grace and max are toxic yuri actually. if max was a girl grace would've got the black book speed-run world record

max's little scramble back to the stage. little cockroach of a man

SHE DID THE FACE AGAIN AS MAX LEFT

i will never shut up about grace starting her villain arc immediately after dirty girl. she just doesn't SHOW it until after she tastes blood

not waifu material

as much as i love lautski and dirtyprude (i don't know the actual ship name for max and grace), i do think that the entire nerdy prudes squad + max should be in a poly relationship,,,, love their dynamics

"there are two girls in the boy's bathroom" grace. grace is there something you wanna share with the class. grace why didn't you count yourself

the lore drop of the black altars Before we even hear about the black altars... :3

"SEX MAGIC" "😳😏"

"wait but where are the waylons" you may be asking. simple. they put a curse on the house that made sure that nothing dies in it... but they didn't die in the house. they died by the witchwood bc of the hatchetmen. the curse wasn't activated until max died there.

they actually spell potty-pants as PottyPants and PissyPants in the captions

"i have overactive sweat glands" I AM A TRANS RICHIE TRUTHER

she spin

and she spin others too

"PETEY GONNA JUMP ON OUT" 🕺

SPIDERMAN REFERENCE LETS GOOOO

also a kamehameha for good measure

as someone whose entire family says "cool beans", the cool beans section is stuck in my head

lauren's face as she says "excellent" is so cute

ruth's crush on steph getting multiplied by a thousand the MOMENT steph touches her shoulder. god me too

"you kinda look like that homeless guy from downtown" (audience hollers)

i didn't realize that lauren was twerking at joey in the background of the proshot. i know for a fact that he had to practice so hard to keep from giggling

richie trying to hook ruth up with pete... he loves her so much he wants ruth to be happy so bad....... polynerds should be real

i think that if max hadn't fallen from the third floor (which i think is this timeline's event that got messed up, like how the starlight theater got crushed in TGWDLM), he would've loved going to haunted houses with the group... they go to the local haunts every year and one time they get tickets to Halloween Horror Nights and max happy-cries so hard about it that he fucks up his voice

𝕒ᵃ𝕒𝔸𝓐𝓪𝓐𝐚𝐚𝔸ᵃ𝓪𝔸

SKELE'IN count x5

grace stop being horny for two seconds

ruth's little yelp is so cute

also MAX GOING TO PROTECT STEPH... he loves people deep down

the audience going "aw...!" when max says that the prank was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for him

grace literally blue-screens when she realizes she hasn't gotten the upper hand on max. girl is Stunned

GET DOWN FROM THERE YOU DOOF

will doing the goofiest noises of exertion is so funny to me

the gore sfx under the wooden planks is so gnarly actually also the blood from max's mouth, holy fuck

... y'r fuckin useless, rich

ruth being more upset about not being someone's bitch than about Going To Jail In The First Place

i love how doe-eyed grace is as she says "it was an act of god!" she is like a little purse dog to me

"oh no she's snapping again"

i love ruth's slumped pose. she is just 🧍

steph looks like she's gonna throw up when grace mentions cutting up the body

also steph's "WHY????"

THE STAGGERED HARMONY FROM MARIAH I LOVE HERRRRR

pepperonis

hypegirl grace real

pete getting anxious after being called a nerd... boy's traumatized now

they are so flirting in this scene. sarcastically going to a football game. lautski forever

STEPH'S SMILE AFTER SHE CONFIRMS THE DATE SHE'S SO CUTE

ruth and richie actually getting positive attention for once,,,,, they deserve the world,,,, stacy calling richie Mr. Lipschitz is adorably sweet

realizing that the mascot is a reference to ezekiel the nighthawk from Perky's Buds nearly incapacitated me

stacy and brenda are so cute in the background

i love that the football team is so nice to each other when max is gone, to the point where the team rapport is actually genuine instead of forced

FUCK YOU CLIVESDALE GO GET FUCKED YOU'RE FUCKIN LOSERS AND WE'LL KILL YOOOOOU (i checked the live comment section when the show had just dropped, and it was a fucking cacophony of "FUCK CLIVESDALE" the same exact thing happened during the talkback livestream too it was so fucking funny)

i love that they squawk as part of their school chant

stacy's smile dropping was so cunty of her

richie's the best mascot ever (do you think he has a fursuit. i think he has a fursuit. it's tricked out like crazy and it has built in ac. he doesn't talk about it because its a timberwolf and it makes him feel guilty as a hatchetfield nighthawk)

HE FEELS CONFIDENT ENOUGH TO CALL JACOB JACE I'M GONNA SOB

wacky waving inflatable arm flailing tube richie, i love the way he makes the suit slap the ground with his wiggles

the audience collectively remembering he's the first body mentioned in the show as soon as he says "i love being alive!"

max's bedazzled ghost costume kills me

but on a serious note, the ghost sfx slays so hard

does max have psychic powers after he dies? he's shown making richie float, forcing the doors to close, and knocking richie prone without touching him in the NPMD song. but all of his kills involve physical contact?

speaking of: the DOOR SLAM holy fuck

they had to give richie a dorky vest over his long sleeve + button-up combo because otherwise he would've had too much transmasc swag. proof: right before he dies he loses the vest

grace having a prophetic nightmare that doesn't get elaborated on... waddahell

unironically grace's shirt is so cute. the coquette girls would love her

max defo would've whooped the chemists' asses. plus if he actually got his redemption arc he would've boosted the team's morale like crazy

grace is never chill ever

all of the nerds having their own nauseous reactions to getting called to the office

i honestly thought they were asking about max in the group interrogation scene the first run through. god i can only imagine how sick the three (not counting grace) of them felt realizing that one of their closest friends was dead

the lauren urge to lie face-down on the nearest surface

grace immediately targeting ruth... homophobic behavior fr /j

i am glad that none of them assume that it's a ghost right away, because that kind of trope is super cliche. let them figure it out slowly!! they don't need to know it's a monster right away! let them think it's a mundane threat!

dan and donna moment

also it took my second run-through of the show to realize that the "hatchetfield kennel" line isn't just a smooth transition into dan's last name. it's referencing the problematic pooch from HSIKM

i actually thought that officer bailey was sam for a bit, then i remembered that charlotte's last name was sweetly, then i realized it's a separate character

LAUREN CHOREO POG + donna is so pretty in this song

karen gendering ziggy correctly is something that can be so personal to me

also JAEEEEEEE MY BELOVED I LOVE ZIGGSSSSSS

barry swift slays

the creeping steps in the second chorus repetition are so cool

CHARLIE???? BRUH??????

bryce's solo was so well-deserved, she has a fucking angelic voice!!! i just know that the audience lost their minds every fucking night

GERALD!!!!! my favorite evil old man

"can i shit or will i drown" references richie dying by swirly and it took too fucking long for me to realize that

fuckin traaaaaanscendent (is this sam? i think it's sam)

the little implied bird

KAH-bob. he sounds like a text-to-speech. accurate for some theater production actors tbh

paaaaahsshin <3

m'BAHBECUU

i love kim's teacher character, she's so cute

the collective "thank you ten" from the actors (and maybe the audience)

knowing that ruth's first canonical debut on stage (canonical in the Workin' Boys short film, at least) involved her forgetting her only line bc of stage fright makes me so sad... she does have a lot of talent, but her anxiety about being watched and judged scares her from the stage. it takes failing once to get over that fear, but even then, it leaves a lasting worry that you'll fail again.

on that note: ruth being so conscious of her appearance and personality that she's terrified of her own future. she's afraid that the best parts of her future will be centered around making other people happy, and never about what makes her happy. she's afraid that she'll get married to someone who doesn't care for her. (or worse, someone who has taboo desires, because who else would take her but those who want to use her as a diversion? the "maury prefers their kids" line after the pool is mentioned makes my skin crawl for ruth.) "well done on the outside, not within" "should i let the coals burn out" "should i let the years cook my body down" she's horrified of the future she feels she's destined for. she has so many dreams, but she feels like she isn't able to - or allowed - to pursue them.

i'm gonna be skipping ruth's death scene because it actually makes me feel sick... half because it's a form of torture that actually makes me feel nauseous (getting split from the crotch upwards) and half because it's happening to a character who's living an experience i've had in the past (feeling unworthy of pursuing something you love)

it's super obvious that shapiro is waiting to catch grace in a lie, which makes her interrogation of grace super funny in hindsight. she KNOWS this perfect christian girl is bullshitting her and blatantly lying about the deaths. i can only imagine how vindicated she felt when grace immediately crumpled under the pressure

DOOO SOMETHING YOU SONUVABIIIIITCH

OH FUCK GRACE GOT A GUN!!! SHIT!!! THIS NEVER GOES GOOD!!! (grace gets a gun in Workin' Boys too it's so fucking insane)

i love that grace's bike is so iconic

the audience losing their fucking minds when paul and emma appear on stage. same fr

"it's short for a perpetrator" paul you are so autistic (affectionate)

THE REFERENCE HAPPENED WE CAN REST EASY NOW

also this time around we get to see what the paulkins meeting would've been like in another universe and it's just as cute as we expected it would be

*ptuuuh*

........ WWWWHAT

if richie could see them now he'd be calling them tsunderes. am i fucking wrong

did pete just shotgun a hot chocolate. buddy that was fresh out the fuckin pot

pete's color scheme switching from subtly green (to match with steph) to subtly yellow has me running laps in the kitchen rn. tinky would lose his fucking mind

steph openly admitting she likes smart people, implying that she doesn't consider herself smart by comparison... babygirl you are so intelligent i prommy

starkid consistently showing that romantic partners don't have to kiss on stage for them to have chemistry makes me so fucking happy as a person with kiss aversion

why does beanies just have hot water in cups. do they just make instant drinks. iconic of them actually

HOMOPHOBIC GRACE REAL??? /j (but also not)

grace immediately jumping to fleeing the country and holding her friends at gunpoint has me giggling. she's got the world record for jumping to conclusions

also thank god grace knows proper gun etiquette (not holding her finger on the trigger) but also. who taught her that.

the way grace immediately scrambles to hide, and she does it fast enough to make it look like she just teleported behind the chairs in the proshot

yyyAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (how dare they call her Barista in the captions. you put some respect on emma perkins's name)

alternatively: imagine you work up the nerve to give your number to a cute barista and five minutes later she's trying to get a cop to stop holding you in an armlock. what a wild first impression to give to someone who marries you in every fucking timeline

grace is so wet cat coded, angela did an incredible job playing her!!

bringing up the honey queen Mrs. Lauter theory again because how else would the lauters have the black book? i know that linda's family is the one in charge of the festival, but the mayor obviously has some sway in it as well. he probably acts as the warden for the book in most timelines, because if it was in the hands of the church itself, they'd be trying to summon gods every damn day. he keeps the church under control, allowing them one day a year to summon the only god that is the easiest to pacify. he probably proved his worth by convincing his wife to pursue the honey queen title, knowing full well what would happen to her, because he needed to give up something to show he could be trusted. (i also think this is why nibbly singles steph out when they first meet. he's already tasted lauter blood, and he likely recognizes her as the daughter of the man who facilitates his resurrection every year.)

AGAIN: the waylons made sure the spell was cast on the house, but the spell wasn't TRIGGERED until max died there. more proof that the waylons aren't ghosts, but that they were intended to be the ghosts.

returning to the honey queen lauter theory again: imagine how heartbroken steph is after all of her parental figures have died. her mom isn't around by NPMD, and during the show, her stand-in stepmom and her dad both die. she's technically an adult by the time of NPMD, but she's still lost all of her remaining family in one night.

i'm glad that they were able to convince shapiro about max at the last second, but damn, how fucked up is it that you learn that the current suspects of a homicide case are being haunted by a spirit that's been picking them off one by one, only for said spirit to slam your face through your fucking windshield. you survive the incident, somehow, but now you know that hatchetfield is haunted and you nearly became a victim.

i talked about the LiB and their altars at the very beginning of my NPMD fixation so i'm not gonna repeat it here :PP bleh

i am gonna mention that i love the designs of the LiB tho! they're so neon and goofy, they have little props that show who they are, it's so cute nibbly has his lollipop (which happens to look pretty fleshy, like a twirled up intestine), pokey has his mask, blinky has his sunglasses, tinky has his Bastard Box, and wiggly has a plush of himself + a crown that indicates his place in the hierarchy

the hair touch when steph starts to realize that pete is the thing she desires most... chills

also someone mentioned that in the digital ticket, steph fully collapses during "stephanie has got a gun", and i can definitely see that in the proshot too! it isn't seen in full, but her posture definitely slumps something fierce between shots

and what if i cried? huh? what if i burst into tears knowing that pete was resigned to dying to save steph's life? that he openly admits to loving her more than the stars in what he thinks is his final moments? that he thought he wouldn't make it to homecoming, and that steph would live on knowing that she would carry the blood of her true love on her hands?

literally if max hadn't intervened, steph would've lost her soulmate. imagine how horrifying that is for her. she would've lost everyone important to her in one fell swoop. her family. her friends. her love. it would've broken her.

pete reeling up to throw what should've been a devastating right hook to protect steph, only to get knocked aside by max's otherworldly power

and then we get the absolute whiplash of grace fucking a ghost

SPEAKING OF WHICH bro!!! angela put her whole christianussy into that performance. grace knew she had one chance to seduce max into taking what she cherished most and she thought "welp. might as well open up all the repression i've shoved into this box"

"WHAT. THE FUCK. IS HHHAPPENING RIGHT NOW." you're watching the mating ritual of two toxic lesbians

thank god they didn't caption the sex noises because if i knew what grace and max were saying the whole time i'd be in shambles

steph + pete slowly looking over and breaking into a giant grin as grace gets NASTY with it is so funny to me. pete looks genuinely touched by the experience while steph is learning something new about herself

grace smoking her first cigarette immediately after boning down is so goofy to me

you can see the moment where steph and pete realize what grace did, even if it's out of frame in the proshot. steph whips around to look up at pete, while pete seems to stumble back a bit. when their faces are in frame again, they both look quietly concerned for grace, like they're trying to process what she gave up for their sake.

the shot of max looking up at the lights, eyes and makeup perfectly illuminated as he witnesses (what can only be) the true forms of the Lords In Black - creatures which he didn't even know existed, considering their involvement was very distant in max's resurrection... CHEF'S KISS

also the eyes-rolled-back exorcism of max is so fucking incredible actually??? very slay of him

CUTE TEACHER IS BACK!!! i love her she's so girlypop

cawwww caw! <3 <3 <3

THEY GOT TO GO TO HOMECOMING TOGETHER!!!!! <3

their little conspiratorial giggles as they scuttle away from shapiro i fucking LOVE THEM

grace is so evil in the intro to Best Of You i love that for her

BLINK 182 / OWL CITY AHH SONG <3 it's such a bop

not something i saw, but something i heard: the staged version where the lights went out after Best Of You being the "good" end is so cute actually! i love that the actors and tech people like to include alternate endings / stories based off of different actor portrayals and mishaps is such a fun way to provide variety for audiences

(for example: jon has mentioned he played Inevitable in TGWDLM two different ways. he either plays it like paul isn't infected, but is trying to convince emma to fake it with him so they don't get force-infected... or he plays it like paul is truly dead, and he's part of the hivemind. the proshot version of TGWDLM is a case of the latter, where paul truly was infected.)

grace tricking jason into kissing her on the cheek, only to punish him for it... girl you TOLD him to do that? bruh

i do stand for women's wrongs tho she's so slay for this

poor jason has a literal fear boner bc grace goes on her villain arc

the audience collectively going "OHHHHH" as they realize that grace is reprising the NPMD song is so insane

"darkness will spare my soul" GOES SO HARDDDDDD

[charles-snippy]

…..anyways