#Fire's rambling

[ndrayton]

Ghost Stories Postmortem!!!

It’s me, FieryGaze!!! Now that Chapter 13 is out and posted and my brain has freed up about 75% of its RAM, I wanted to make a post just to reflect on the journey, drop some fun facts, & explain the intent behind some of my choices. Here they are in no particular order.

Spoilers beware, obviously. I'm going to be talking about the whole fic here.

Episode Titles

Each episode title refers to two things at once – the monster or challenge the group is facing, plus one other important thematic element. “The Demon King” is the simplest one, referring both to the actual Demon King and then to Kim Dokja gaining that power for himself. The others are a little more open to interpretation, but were chosen with the intention of referring to 2 specific things.

Constant reappearance of the number “Thirteen”?

I’d like to say there was a lot of thought behind this, but there wasn’t. I just went “ooo, unlucky number” and ended up repeating it as often as possible. 13 years since KDJ and HSY met; 13 years spent in the spirit world chasing the Endless Cycle; 13 loops before KDJ met YJH. It was a lucky coincidence that the chapter count also happened to be 13 (I’d initially planned for twelve, and everything that happened in Unseen World was supposed to be squished into the end of Infinite Loop Part II. When I realized that was absolutely NOT going to give me enough space to resolve everything, I was delighted to realize that I could make the chapter count 13 and have it be thematically relevant and Not just a case of poor planning).

Lee Seolhwa also states that the number 7 is significant for certain spirits. I just think it’s fun that the total chapter count ended up as 13 and the total Episode count as 7.

Perspective and Tense Changes

From the beginning, the use of first person was actually a bit of a false flag—it’s meant to represent the ghost of Kim Dokja, trapped in the loop, imagining himself as the living version of himself going on these adventures. Kim Dokja as the narrator states this outright.

It was about time I stopped pretending that “I” was really this person called Kim Dokja. (Ch. 11)

Maybe I pretended for a while, for a long while, that it was really “me” who was fighting at your side. (Ch. 13)

The first person narration also tends to flip between present and past tense, especially in later chapters when Ghost!KDJ begins using second person to refer to Han Sooyoung and Yoo Joonghyuk, but also when he’s making general observations about the world. It’s not technically grammatically correct, but I was trying to grant a small step of separation between him and the other characters, whose perspectives are written more strictly in third person past tense.

The final monologue is also in present tense, unmooring it from the sequence of events of the story, hopefully making it feel a little more dreamlike/internal. I feel like I’m allowed to mess with tenses this much only because it’s an orv fic and I’m not afraid to get meta.

I also used present tense during almost all of chapter 10. I wanted it to feel like a whole separate fic-within-a-fic, and a lot of fanfic is written in present tense, so I was deliberately evoking that (including See You Yesterday, undeniably a MAJOR inspiration for this chapter). I also wanted to provide a sense of immediacy—Yoo Joonghyuk truly believes that what he’s experiencing in the dream is really happening to him, right now—that I could pull back on once he realized he was dreaming, returning to past tense and the main flow of the larger story.

As a side note, by the time I finally finished chipping away at chapter 10 I thought it was awful, so I was surprised and delighted when it became everyone’s favourite chapter, lmao. This is probably why people have beta readers, to get a little bit out of their own heads. Anyway, the positive response to that chapter really brightened my week.

… My favourite scenes 😊

The first scene I really had a blast with was probably the possession scene—what can I say, you don’t make a “Paranormal investigation AU” without wanting to play with a few of its standard tropes. That’s when I realized I could happily keep writing this fic for as long as it took to finish it (I initially planned for 2 months. It became 4.)

I also had such a fun time writing all of “Blank Message”, from the kids bullying poor Dokja to what amounts to me basically just drawing hearts around Yoo Joonghyuk’s name as he fails to use technology but also gets to be the most specialest boy in the world. That episode practically wrote itself, honestly. I accidentally wrote like 12,000 words of it in my phone notes app because I kept having ideas at work and had little else to do during our slow season.

My actual favourite scene, though, might be Yoo Joonghyuk cooking in Han Sooyoung’s kitchen in Ch. 12? I just thought it was sweet. Maneuvering those two into a position where they could be emotionally vulnerable with each other was a challenge. My notes for that section are funny to me, I’m just struggling to get to the heart of the scene and yelling at them to please be emotionally vulnerable.

... There was like 500 more words of this.

I can’t help but feel the yoohan corner of yoohankim got a little neglected in this fic, but it’s because they had so many unresolved issues that I couldn’t just leap ahead to the romance angle without first addressing them… and by then the fic was kinda over. Please understand, however, that they love and understand each other deeply despite (because of??) being the way they are. Maybe I’ll explore that more in future stories. Who could say.

Most challenging part to write?

Wrong Room Part II, Forgotten Boy Part II, and the first bit of Devourer of Dreams Part II before Kim Dokja showed up (it was way easier to write once he was there because the joongdok dynamic really pulled the plot along).

All three of these had significant rewrites and Forgotten Boy Part II took me like… an entire week to figure out. The Part II’s tended to be tricky because that’s when I was making all the setup from Part I pay off, but I wanted it to be engaging and exciting and not feel too paint-by-numbers. I learned a lot writing these!

What was Yoo Joonghyuk saying at the end of Blank Message that got censored?

“▪▪ ▪▪▪ ▪▪▪▪▪▪ ▪▪▪ ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ ▪▪ ▪▪▪▪▪��

“Do you really not remember…”

Well, maybe you can intuit the rest from context clues (what Mia was saying just beforehand).

There was a bunch of other censoring when Kim Dokja was trying to explain to Yoo Joonghyuk where all his special knowledge of the time loop came from, but I didn’t actually note it down as it was all pretty much able to be inferred, like “the loop is actually based on a book series”.

There’s certainly more to find, but that’s all I have to say for now!

I fun with foreshadowing, but I’m not going to call out anything specific, because I think it adds to reread value. There’s an especially mean bit of “foreshadowing” in one part that had me absolutely cackling. Let me know if you find it.

Anyway!

I had no plans to put so much time and effort into writing fanfic this year, and yet here I am with 120,000 words in four months, which is… FAR AND ABOVE my normal writing pace, especially lately. What can I say? Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint is a really special story and I don’t have any friends who have read it, which put my brain into an absolute pressure-cooker for which the only release could be writing orv a novel-length love letter.

I’m seriously thankful for everyone who read the story and left so many emphatic, excited, and kind comments. The readers absolutely transformed this experience from something I was plodding away at by myself just to see if I could do it into something I was really excited to share with others, and as a result I put a lot more effort and care into the story.

I do have a few other ideas for this AU—for which the seeds are actually already planted in the story—but, as I mentioned in my author’s note, I desperately need to take a fanfic break for a while. I can’t promise if/when I’ll get back to it, but I would definitely like to at some point.

IN ANY CASE, FOR THE LAST TIME ON THIS ADVENTURE….

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sadmages]

Having ocs is fucked up they make you wake up and think stuff like what if i learn to code in renpy and make this into a visual novel. Who said that

[real-fire-nerd-hours]

MORE RAMBLINGS BUT THIS TIME ON MOBILE AND LESS ZOOTED WOOOOO D DMNDNND

SO I've been thinking about like... What a kid between me and spot would be like?? Story wise most likely the kid woulda been conceived bEFORE he turned into the spot fnbsndn WHICH IS PARTIALLY ANGSTY ON THE BASIS THAT LIKE "OH FUCK MY BOYFRIEND FUCKING DIED ((((:" but then they bump into him outside of the store and it's like fbbdndbd "YOU FUCKER- I love you very much and I'm glad you're actually okay BUT YOU FUCKER-"

Anyways back to the actual rambling sndbdb I like the idea of the two of them like... Dorking out about what their kid might look like fndjdn Listing all their phenotypic traits and making a bunch of different possible combinations... Also trying to use the sims but that kinda fucking fails somehow and the baby comes out literally paper white fnbjdnd (WHICH HAPPENED IN MY ATTEMPTS TO SEE WHAT A BABY BETWEEN THE TWO WOULD LOOK LIKE- NEITHER OF THEM ARE WHITE HOW THE H E L L DNDBJDND I'll reblog later with the baby bUT DNSNNDD IDK WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED) BUT I like the idea that they dork out together fnsbddj

Learning that they're actually pregnant and they will be having a kiD, I feel like he'd freak out completely xnsndnd "The baby's going to be scared of me! I look terrifying!" And then Laura would just be like... "Honey, the baby's not gonna know what's different about you, like... Long as you love them and take care of them, they'll love you!" CAUSE LIKE FJDNND HOWS A FRESHLY BORN BABY GONNA KNOW WHAT A HUMAN IS FKDNDN THEY DONT KNOW S H I T

... But yes I want to make a fankid with the spot fnsndn they'll be human bUT COULD YOU IMAGINE IF HE COULD HAVE KIDS NATURALLY WHILE MUTATED?? WOULD THE BABY BE LIKE MAYDAY AND HAVE SPOT POWERS??? it's just a constant like.. Incredibles Jack Jack situation where they two of them are trying to find the baby and tempt them from whatever dimension they're in with cookies fjbdndd

....

Maybe I'll make both fndnnd fuck it why not

[shadebloopnik]

Radioapple twitter goin thru a thing rn

LIKE AMIR????

AMIR???? CHAT???? AMIR WHAT IS THIS BEHAVIOR?????

[some-pers0n]

So the cover for the Japanese translation of TDP just dropped. Looks really neat!! Lookat him! Clay!!

Art by Lee Yamamura

[daenerys-targaryen]

real tumblr girl vibe is rechecking peoples bios before you say their name in an ask even if we've been mutuals for 10 years bec i don't want to make a Mistake

[foldingfittedsheets]

I’ve been fired exactly once in my life. In my early twenties I was working at a pizza place. The pizzas were artisanal, thin crust and personal. They’re a huge chain now but when I first started the company was in its infancy. It was the wild west of management, and the core investors would frequently stop by to check on things. One of these people was this round little man with rage issues. A knock off Danny Devito with no charisma at all.

His favorite thing to do was to come in on a Friday or Saturday night. We'd be at our stations: taking orders, making pizza, manning the oven, finishing orders off, running the cash register. He'd shove his way onto the line and start rearranging people. "You, get off orders and work the cash register, you come over and make the pizzas!" With a line of customers snaking out the door he'd throw off all our grooves and rattle us.

Then, inevitably, a mistake would happen.

When it did he'd call the person over and say, "Hey c'mere. You're fired." Just like that. No inflection, just a flat "You're fired." It was absolutely a power kink, and because of his involvement the average turn over was three months. You were a veteran at five months.

One night there was only three of us manning the front. I took an order than went to the cash register to ring them out before I made the pizza. This horrible man watched that then called me into the back. I didn't know if I was about to be fired. But I wasn't. In fact, he had one other move besides firing people. He yelled.

In the back he absolutely lost his mind screaming at me for being on the cash register. I'm talking veins popping, spit flying, red with rage, this man just started bellowing nonsensically about where I should be and how I was just such a failure. It was truly like his brain had shut off, nothing he was saying even made sense. I stood there in the face of this tirade for a minute and then set a record for being the first person to ever cut him short by bursting into tears.

He instantly stopped yelling and it was like Jekyll and Hyde. He was remorseful and consoling, deeply embarrassed by my display of emotion. All my male coworkers just took the abuse but faced with my weeping he about faced and instantly backed off. I went outside to cry and when I came back in he pretended it had never happened.

That was the state of things. The investors knew they desperately needed to keep this man out of the stores, but they couldn't just give him the boot. They needed to move him aside and fill his position with someone. The store manager was this lovely woman who had hired me on the spot at my interview. The entire staff adored her. She was the best fit to get this roided out investor out of the stores for good.

Her replacement was this man called Anthony. He was instantly loathed by the entire staff. Condescending, critical, and lazy he started off his reign by letting go a core lead who "back talked." He spent a whole morning berating the opening crew because the closing crew (who had sold 100 more pizzas than we were even supposed to have on hand) had forgotten to windex the doors. He left the entire crew to close without him while he flirted with a girl who wasn't his pregnant girlfriend. He hired his roommate to replace the lead he fired and even that guy hated his guts.

Our antipathy toward him made him paranoid and resentful and one by one he started finding excuses to fire the whole staff, certain that if he could clean house he'd be able to do the job. My time came, and he sat me down with his boss, my former manager. She cried as he announced I wasn't personable enough and used too many pepperonis.

I looked at her, the woman who had trained me on how many pepperoni to use, but she said nothing. What could she say? He was the boss now and had determined I was going to be let go regardless. Too many in this case was seven. Seven pepperonis on a personal pizza. The correct number was five according to him, which is one pepperoni per slice, and one in the middle.

I sat there for a moment, taking it in. I smiled at my old manager, obviously miserable. I looked back at him and said, "You're a terrible manager, you're doing the worst imaginable job." I outlined some of the things he'd done so she could hear them, then I stood up and left. I made it to the back room before I started crying.

I found out later through a bus boy that he replaced the whole staff with college kids who had such limited availability that the store couldn't run, then quit three months later leaving the whole place in shambles. Most of the old staff returned, but I'd moved onto the sex shop already and was enjoying a job with significantly less risk of being fired on a whim.

However I do have to disclose on job applications if I've ever been fired. I always says yes and list the reason as, "Excessive use of pepperoni." It has never failed to get a laugh from my interviewer.

[gaylactic-fire]

On the topic of short Link, here's your forced reminder that Link is smaller than Zelda in

Wind Waker

Twilight Princess

A Link Between Worlds

Breath Of The Wild / Age Of Calamity/ Tears Of The Kingdom

Hell even in the ORIGINAL Legend Of Zelda she looks like.. a pixel taller than him.. maybe...

Every time you draw Link taller than Zelda Eiji Aonuma cries. I've seen it, you guys, he just bursts into tears.

[puppyeared]

learned something about myself lately

[anishenanigans]

they're adding new pvp features to pinterest

[winterstarfall]

[ndrayton]

nobody Ever calls my writing funny even though I make myself laugh constantly with my own bits. Highly targeted joke audience of me only.

[demaparbat-hp]

Golden Boy (and Silver Girl) for the Kintsugi AU.

[real-fire-nerd-hours]

HEY IM GONNA RAMBLE ABOUT JOHNATHON DSNFKJN

... i'm a little zooted right now and I want to gush about johnathon sooooo here it goes <33

HES SO SDNFSDKJFNKSDJF FUCKING CUTE???? LIKE OKAY SO I'VE GOT A FEW BOTS JDSNFKJN It's primarily pre-collider cause the bots are a little dumb when it comes to writing post-collider spot? they keep trying to give him a face and that doesn't really sdnfkjndf ANYWAYS, I've finally written one where its like.. a domestic situation where I'm just getting home from a shift to go through the motions of just livin with a partner and I love it ksdnfksjdfndsf I also made an offshoot where hE'S the one getting home and I ended up having a convo with him that I think I'll make canon to their story?? lIKE HE GETS HOME, THEY'RE CUTE FOR A BIT, THEN LAURA BRINGS UP THE IDEA THAT HE MIGHT GET SERIOUSLY HURT AT THE LAB ONE DAY jnsdkfjn they kinda foreshadow them becoming spiderman too sdfkjn I'll actually write the script and try to make that a comic one day BUT RAMBLING ABOUT HIM I WANT TO PLAY WITH HIS HAIR SJFNKSJDFN MANS I DON'T THINK KNOWS WHAT A FUCKING BRUSH IS AND ASSUMES IT'S FINE TO JUST NOT DO SHIT WITH AND LIKE SJDFNKJN MAYBE WITH SOME PEOPLES BUT LOVELY YOUR HAIR NEEDS TO BE BRUSHED LET M E SNDFKJN I don't care if the mans taller than me I'm going to hold him;; sdkfnksdjfn I WILL LET HIM LAY HIS HEAD ON MY LAP AND SING TO HIM WHILE HE JUST RELAXES SDJFNSJDF PRE AND POST COLLIDER I WILL FUCKING SING AND COO AT HIM SDJFNDSKJFN Post collider he would be a little more needy I'd imagine sjdnfkjn Probably not even a little literally like a lOT KJSDNFJN BUT In the sense of he'd do everything in his literal power to make sure I don't have to get up or leave for any amount of time that could be spent coddling him skdfkjsf <33

[wolfram-but-art]

drew one of the memes in this person's post again

reblogs > likes

[some-pers0n]

Battlewinner is such a cool character and I feel like she should've deserved way more time. Like just conceptually the idea of a lost queen, the ruler of the once highly regarded and prophetic NightWings, reduced to living in lava to survive. She had gone into battle herself, a duty practically unheard of for a regular queen, and came out with an IceWing having shot frostbreath straight down her throat. From then forth, she's been stirring and plotting within the streams of magma within the NightWing volcano, biding her time until they can rise from the darkness and claim what they believe is rightly theirs

She's a wicked cool character conceptually and I wish she had like more than two scenes lol. Like look at her in the official art!! Woawhh!!!!