#Fiona Broder

[percabeth4life]

Hi! I really enjoy ATLOP and since you updated I've been reviewing it trying to remember all the details. I noticed you have an observant Jewish Character named Fiona. I was wondering if you might be up for sharing more information about her? Like how did she get her name (Fiona isn't a name I would expect for a Chasidic character so I'm wondering how it came to be)? Also like, how does she deal with Shabbos (and holidays)? How much does her family/community know? How comfortable are they?

Hi! I'm glad you like it. I have a few Jewish characters but yes, Fiona is the one most observant.

She got her name from her dad, who actually wasn't observant (the Gods don't go to those worshiping another religion). Unfortunately her dad died when Fiona was very young, so she was taken in by her grandparents. They are very observant and thus have raised Fiona to be so as well.

Fiona goes back home for the holidays, Mr. D ensures safe travels, and the camp does it's best to assist the Jewish campers in celebrating the Shabbos, though it of course won't be exactly like being at home. They are excused from all labor related activities for the day (which they let the Jewish campers define, to make sure that they don't mix anything up). The camp does it's best to accommodate those raised in other religions, though there may be some differences.

Her father did know about the Gods, a bit. His feelings were complex about them, he wasn't sure what to believe about them. The rest of her family is not informed on the Gods, Fiona doesn't know how to even begin to explain it all. She's going through a major crisis of faith because of everything she's seeing and is trying to cling to her beliefs while being informed that she's the daughter of another God.

As she's been raised Hasidic it is particularly difficult for her. She's got a large conflict with her beliefs that might be easier to reason if she wasn't so observant. She will be leaning on her community a lot as she goes through her crisis of faith, though I won't be giving it huge coverage as she's not a main focus 😅, I will be sure to give it some focus as it's relevant.

Regardless, her family believes the camp is a place her father wanted her to go, Athena took steps to ensure Fiona would be able to learn how to protect herself by going for at least a time. It'll be up to Fiona if she wants to continue attending later once Athena is sure she has the basis of knowledge and skills to protect herself.

[feralvelveteenrabbitxxx]

When I'm sexting I feel like a biblically accurate angel

[loverofunreasonandanexile]

death is all around

lingers in the traces of night

into the morning

taking the light

[yearningheart]

What are some quotes that you hold very deeply in your heart? Like some quotes that make you say “idc someone else wrote this this is inherently about me myself and i and I will not tolerate any kind of disagreement with that statement”?

i love this question!! 🥺💓 here are some:

"Romantic obsession is my first language. I live in a world of fantasies, infatuations and love poems. Sometimes I wonder if the yearning I’ve felt for others was more of a yearning for yearning itself. I’ve pined insatiably and repeatedly: for strangers, new lovers, unrequited flames. While the subjects changed, that feeling always remained. Perhaps, then, I have not been so infatuated with the people themselves, but with the act of longing." Melissa Broder

Natalie Wee

Olivia Laing

“In my dream I apologize to everyone I meet. Instead of introducing myself, I apologize for not knowing why I am alive. I am sorry. I am sorry. I apologize. In real life, oddly enough, when I am fully awake and out and about, if I catch someone’s eye, I quickly look away. Perhaps this too is a form of apology.” Claudia Rankine

Louise Glück

Jeanette Winterson

"I'm such an incredibly, stupidly sensitive person that everything that happens to me, I experience it really intensely. I feel everything very deeply. And when you feel things deeply and you think about things a lot and you think about how you feel, you learn a lot about yourself. And when you know yourself, you know life." Fiona Apple

Marya Hornbacher

"I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself." Warsan Shire

Michelle D'Avella

 “I spent all my teen-age years being obsessed with beauty, and I’m very resentful about it and I’m very angry, I had so much intelligence and energy and drive, and instead of using that to study more, or instead of pursuing something or going out and learning about or changing the world, I directed all that fire inward, and burnt myself up.” Mitski

“I suffer from a chronic nausea—after I’m with people. The awareness (after-awareness) of how programmed I am, how insincere, how frightened.” Susan Sontag

Brian Jay Stanley

Clarice Lispector

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intertextuality

desire / eating disorder / hunger: «to be the girl who lunges at people−wants to eat them» (letissier) / «a way to take all hungers and boil them down to their essence–one appetite to manage–just one» (knapp)

trauma / trauma theory / visceralities of trauma

writers

ada limón, adrienne rich, agnès varda, alana massey, alejandra pizarnik, alice notley, ana božičević, anaïs nin, andrea dworkin, andrew solomon, angela carter, angélica freitas, angélica liddell, ann cvetkovich, anna akhmatova, anna gien, anne boyer, anne carson, anne sexton, anne waldman, antonella anedda, aracelis girmay, ariana reines, audre lorde, aurora linnea

barbara ehrenreich, bell hooks, bessel van der kolk

carmen maria machado, caroline knapp, carrie lorig, cat marnell, catharine mackinnon, catherynne m. valente, cathy caruth, césar vallejo, chris kraus, christa wolf, clarice lispector, claudia rankine, czesław miłosz

daniel borzutzky, daphne du maurier, daphne gottlieb, david foster wallace, david wojnarowicz, dawn lundy martin, deirdre english, denise levertov, detlev claussen, dodie bellamy, don paterson, donna tartt, dora gabe, dorothea lasky, durs grünbein

édouard levé, eike geisel, eileen myles, elaine kahn, elena ferrante, elisabeth rank, elyn r. saks, emily dickinson, erica jong, esther perel, etty hillesum, eve kosofsky sedgwick

fanny howe, félix guattari, fernando pessoa, fiona duncan, frank bidart, franz kafka

gabriele schwab, gail dines, georg büchner, georges bataille, gertrude stein, gilles deleuze, gillian flynn, gretchen felker-martin

hannah arendt, hannah black, heather christle, heather o'neill, heiner müller, hélène cixous, héloïse letissier, henryk m. broder, herbert hindringer, herbert marcuse

ingeborg bachmann, iris murdoch

jacques derrida, jacques lacan, jade sharma, jamaica kincaid, jean améry, jean baudrillard, jean rhys, jeanann verlee, jeanette winterson, jenny slatman, jenny zhang, jerold j. kreisman, jess zimmerman, jia tolentino, joachim bruhn, joan didion, joanna russ, joanna walsh, johanna hedva, john berger, jörg fauser, joy harjo, joyce carol oates, judith butler, judith herman, julia kristeva, june jordan, junot díaz

karen barad, kate zambreno, katherine mansfield, kathrin weßling, kathy acker, katy waldman, kay redfield jamison, kim addonizio

lacy m. johnson, larissa pham, lauren berlant, le comité invisible, leslie jamison, lidia yuknavitch, linda gregg, lisa diedrich, louise glück, luce irigaray, lynn melnick

maggie nelson, margaret atwood, marguerite duras, marie howe, marina tsvetaeva, mark fisher, martha gellhorn, mary karr, mary oliver, mary ruefle, marya hornbacher, max horkheimer, melissa broder, michael ondaatje, michel foucault, miranda july, miya tokumitsu, monique wittig, muriel rukeyser

naomi wolf, natalie eilbert, natasha lennard, nelly arcan

ocean vuong, olivia laing, ottessa moshfegh

paisley rekdal, patricia lockwood, paul b. preciado, paul celan, peggy phelan

rachel aviv, rainald goetz, rainer maria rilke, rebecca solnit, richard moskovitz, richard siken, robert jensen, roland barthes, ronald d. laing

sady doyle, sally rooney, salma deera, samuel beckett, samuel salzborn, sandra cisneros, sara ahmed, sara sutterlin, sarah kane, sarah manguso, scherezade siobhan, sean bonney, sheila jeffreys, shoshana felman, shulamith firestone, sibylle berg, silvia federici, simone de beauvoir, simone weil, siri hustvedt, solmaz sharif, sophinette becker, soraya chemaly, stephan grigat, susan bordo, susan sontag, suzanne scanlon, sylvia plath

theodor w. adorno, thomas brasch, tiqqun, toni morrison

ursula k. le guin

valerie solanas, virginia l. blum, virginia woolf, virginie despentes

walter benjamin, wisława szymborska, wolfgang herrndorf, wolfgang pohrt

zadie smith, zan romanoff, zoë lianne, zora neale hurston

[iclimblikepeasandbeans]

ah i like all of those books.... do u have any more book recommendations that touched ur heart

Such a fun question!

I don’t know which genres you like but I’ll just list some of my favorites below. You can also add me on goodreads if you have one (I do sometimes forget to update my progress) It’s @/bowoolf

* So sad today - Melissa Broder

* Firefly lane - Kristin Hanna

* The woman destroyed - Simone de Beauvoir

* Sharp objects - Gillian Flynn

* Wonder - R.J Palacio

* The madness vase - Andrea Gibson (poetry) 

* The girl on the train - Paula Hawkins

* Pretty girls - Karin Slaughter

* The hate u give - Angie Thomas 

* The lost flowers of Alice Hart - Holly Ringland

* How it feels to float - Helena Fox

* Little weirds - Jenny Slate

I also recommend looking for books on your favorite artists, for example I read a lot about Audrey Hepburn and Amy Winehouse and am currently looking into books on Fiona Apple (if they exist) 

Wishing you so much reading fun <3 

[5dollarbindvd]

Quarantine survey tagged by @criminalactivityplaylist and @emmablowguns :}

Name: Edith

Nickname: idk my mom calls me by middle name most of the time lol (Crystal)

Sun-moon-rising: Leo- Capricorn- forgot that one

Age: 22

Sex: female

Favorite musician: (this is always a tough one) ummmmmm pj Harvey, Jenny hval, solange , Marianne faithfull, Liz phair, Billie Holiday, Jeff Buckley uummmmmmm lots of em!!

Favorite anime: the only one I’ve ever really gotten immersed in was Nana and I rlly should finish it now that there’s time

Favorite video game: idk bro the blob game on coolmath

Favorite vitamin supplement: b12 revives me

Favorite addiction: .....

Favorite book: if Beale street could talk was the last thing I read that I feel I truly loved same with the girls by Emma Cline. General forever favorites tho: Prozac nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel, Woman hollering creek by Sandra Cisneros, so sad today by Melissa broder just kids by patti Smith and tbh the Ramona Quimby books

Favorite way to bathe:

Bath bombs r nice send recs

Favorite element: water

The last time I was in a body of water: last week when I took a bath all sore and alone and every single night by Fiona Apple came on and it felt good

I tag @fierceplaygetsyoueverywhere @thesaddestchorusgirlintheworld @hyperswim @merriweatherpostpaviliontshirt and whoever else wants to do it :•) I hope everyone is well 💙🦋

[realzombiegirl]

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difficult to answer! i read so many good books this year. here are my most loved ones (so far) though:

little weirds by jenny slate

exquisite mariposa by fiona alison duncan

educated by tara westover

dept. of speculation by jenny offill

all my puny sorrows by miriam toews

trick mirror by jia tolentino

sing unburied sing by jesmyn ward

how to be both by ali smith

the goldfinch by donna tartt

severance by ling ma

the seas by samantha hunt

interpreter of maladies by jhumpa lahiri

eileen by ottessa moshfegh

belly up by rita bullwinkel

so sad today by melissa broder

and like the ten thousand books i had to read by and about eva hesse <3