#Feel really alienated
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mmm…gitm…
#thinking about how I’d fit myself into cricket’s shoes#I act very differently from how they’re portrayed…#I mean for one thing#I’d probably be staring very blankly at sunspot if he recommended baklava since. Yknow.#(it’s literally Our Food)#I don’t think I’d be able to handle have of the jokes fool make#And I’d probably have kicked misuta if he snuck on me while I’m in bed#(Especially if not wearing scarf since. Absolutely not)#I think sol would be absolutely justified in being suspicious with the entry on the property in 1st chapter cuz#I don’t think I’d look even remotely similar to harry in any sense#there’s#it’s always a little difficult for me to engage with the fandom since#I’m a minority who is not related to the demographic that most of the stuff here appeals to#Which is fine#just a bit awkward#I don’t know I think i’m projecting the social/cultural isolation thing#i kind of didn’t think about how little people know about muslims?#I mean I’ve experienced the whole suspicion and racism thing a good deal of times#(vividly remember a couple times people tried to con me cuz they thought I couldn’t understand english)#But It’s just really hard in a society that is predominantly#what is the word#very christian + western oriented?#I don’t know how else to put it#people think it’s weird that we don’t celebrate Christmas or Halloween or drink alcohol or dance or do these things that are#Considered normal for basically everyone#And then when we don’t do these things we#Feel really alienated#And it’s not just religious and cultural stuff either i’m#Considered an outlier in my own community and friend group and it’s difficult but - anyways#this was a fandom thing and we got off topic sorry
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Danny Fenton sends Superman a fan email in which he asks for advice. In it he says he is also a non-human hero (he is vague because being a ghost is illegal) Danny mentions that he is being raised by humans. His parents don't know about his activities or species and hate his kind.
Danny was mostly looking for advice on how to make people stop being scared of his non-human characteristics. But Clark really sees himself in this teenager's email. He knows he was lucky to get parents who loved him even as an alien, but he also recalls being young and scared that would change.
So they start regularly exchanging emails, and Superman becomes a kind of mentor even if Danny refuses to tell him anything about his identity.
#clark is searching through files on teen heroes and different aliens to try and figure out who this kid is. he never did guess ghost though#let danny have a trustworthy adult. as a treat#clark definitely thinks that Danny's story is similar to his except he wasn't found IN his spaceship#Danny mentioned being cloned and immediately adopting dani as his new sister and clark just feels really ashamed lol#i think this could work well as a chat fic#danny phantom#danny fenton#dc comics#superman#clark kent#dc x dp#dc x dp crossover#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc au#dc x dp prompt#dc#dp#my post
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that one alien meme
#alnst#alienstage#alien stage#ivan#sua#png#forgor to put my tumblr signature i didnt really feel like it. that's my twt u guys know that
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hey, remember being 18 years old and playing mass effect for the first time and it's got this like intense aura of being very small and very insignificant in a very big, very empty galaxy? remember playing mass effect for the first time and everything all of this is so new and mysterious, and it's 2am and you're sitting in a dark room in the light from your tv and you're playing through feros for the first time and you feel that this is someting very old and very ancient and you are somewhere you shouldn't be and you don't know what's going to happen or where you're going but you keep on. there's a tingling in your stomach and you're playing mass effect for the first time. the thorian is a milennia old sentient plant being. the rachni queen is old and telepathic and a hive mind and in pain. sovereign is an ancient machine that has not been built but is, and has always been, and this is something so alien and so unlike and beyond anything your human mind can comprehend, and this is something unexplainable and huge and as uncaring and indifferent as the empty galaxy around you. you're playing mass effect for the first time and you're walking on the surface of an almost completely empty planet with nothing but your two companions silently walking beside you and everything is so huge and empty and silent and you're so small and insignificant and it's so beautiful and so scary and you feel like you are on a rollercoaster about to drop down. you are playing mass effect for the first time and you're playing the mission on the moon and you stop and just look up at earth visible in the sky. you know this. this is home. you are playing mass effect for the first time, and the galaxy is so big, and you are so tiny, and everything is about to change for you.
#mass effect#wild rambles#i miss the feeling of playing that game for the first time#now i know everything and it isn't as mysterious and alluring anymore#getting lost in the tunnels on feros is one of my memories of all time. it just felt like... i was meant to get lost. there's Something her#i love the whole trilogy but man me1 really did have that sci-fi interstellar type of feeling the other two don't#also later they retconned the reapers as having actually been built by someone as opposed to ''this is so alien you can't understand it.#this is a machine without a creator. it has always existed. you are not meant to understand. this is so much bigger than you.''#which i really liked a lot more but like. whatever. im not in charge. they wanted to make things more palatable to the human mind when i#think the cosmic horror aspect of the reapers in me1 was one of the things that affected me the most#and made me stay with the series for as long as i did
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last time i fully colored anything was like eight months ago is it obvious. anyway here's unfinished emo till
#i love college/uni aus... thank u vivimeng#alien stage#alnst#alnst till#alnst ivan#ivantill#kinda u can't really see ivan. erm#my till doesn't feel very till yet#its the hair i know... ill get it right soon enough
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Second-guessing
#been overthinking all day today and needed to draw how it feels lately#a bit of a vent ahead#it’s gotten really lonely and almost alienating in a way#and the fandom seems so vastly different#and in a way I dont really feel ok in#i do take the steps to avoid anything that i don’t want to see#but it just feels like what i do is pointless#like what i draw is pointless#i know the more platonic/familial themes in my art will always be overshadowed#but its been a harsh truth ive been hit with#and it’s kind of heartbreaking#i’m forever grateful for the reminders of how my art is like a breath of fresh air#but man is it difficult to not just quit entirely#because it always falls back to: why am I doing this? what’s the point?#i’m sorry I feel like such a whiny loser when I talk about things like this#it’s all jumbled and all over the place but to put it simply it’s been super lonely#i just needed to say something before it completely boiled over#im sorry again
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ivan and till have their first kiss, an alternate ending 💕
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please look at this comic for context and Part 1!
#suggestive#ivantill#ivan#till#alien stage#alnst#erm. hey guys. i can explain#my feed has been feeding me too much angst ever since the nyc cards so i had to Do Something#some notes as usual. this is what i imagine what mutual ivantill is like#i am a firm believer that when till realizes his feelings for ivan he will pursue those feelings without hesitation#but bc till is a romantic he wants to do it properly (that’s why the way he approaches his first kiss seems gentle)#sure on a surface level i would say Ivan just wants to get to it1!1!#but despite his teasing ivan would be a mix of sweet and intense since Till reciprocated his feelings and doesnt have to hold back anymore#a true yearner at heart. bless that boy#they really shouldve been at the clurb 💔#ctrlzxoo art
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i really do think that till cared for ivan in a way that ivan just couldnt see ya know?? how to say this
till loves ivan in a way that isnt romantic, isnt selfless, isnt selfish, isnt holy, and isnt sinful. its something so simple and nonchalant that ivan would never never able to see it
till loves ivan in the way he lets him follow. and how he trusts that he will even if he doesnt look back.
i hesitate to call it love, but theres something so simply romantic in that constant expectation of his presence that im not sure what else to call it
tills love for ivan is so wonderfully normal that it can be misconstrued you know?
its like till doesnt give ivan an invitation to his party cause hes like "why would i need to tell him to come, hes gonna be there anyways"
while ivan is like "till doesnt want me there he didnt give me an invitation :( (im going to go anyways)"
and then till is like "ivan is there, glad he got the memo"
and ivan is like "i am an intruder in a place i wasnt and will never be invited to or welcomed"
the tragedy of the commonplace if you will
#he never really loved ivan in a romantic way to me#but thats not something that till owes ivan anyways#and ivan knows#just the knowledge that tills thinks as him as something. anything. would be enough for him#its a relationship made infinitely more tragic when you realize how little ivan even needs to feel happy#ivantill#ivan alnst#till alnst#alnst ivan#alnst till#alnst#alien stage#im normal#more in rts
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I was going to draw something completely different from this I am so sad
#What a simple pinterest image doesn't do for me#Zim with eyelashes is SO cursed 💀💀#but Gir is having fun!#do you feel bonita zim?#my art#invader zim#invader zim fanart#invader zim gir#iz gir#gir iz#iz#alien#invasor zim#gir really likes cosmetics#I did this to not freak out#you know when you feel bad and want to do vent artand ends up making a cute silly happy art#GIR#invader zim art
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Haunted car au, pt 6
The next part is fighting me a bit, so I will just post this one for now.
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Duke reeeaalllyyy does not get paid enough for this.
Good news, he was able to get the names of the dealers and suppliers and also narrowed down the places of interest to three warehouses. All he had to do was drop that info onto the server for the night crew, and that was that, not his problem anymore.
Bad news, the car is becoming his problem.
When Duke entered the cave, he could see the wheels turning, and not in a sick burnout way Jason does anytime he gets behind the wheel, they were just turning left and right. Then to add more insult to Duke's attempt at ignoring it, the car opened its driver door in what may have been a mockery of a greeting. Honestly, Duke could have also ignored that but then it seemed to fucking Panic and set off its own alarms and proceed to flail all the doors open and reverse to the point that the back wheels made it off the platform and into the gutter that runs though the cave. If Duke was a betting man, and he was, he would bet that whatever possessed or replaced the Batmobile was so incompetent that he had to worry more about Its safety from the Batfam. Whether that was protection from arrest or adoption is still up in the air.
Either way, this is becoming Duke's problem. He is really not paid enough for this. Time to calm down a sentient car.
“Hey, car buddy? You ok?”
Duke wasn't sure what he was expecting when he was talking to a car of all things, but absolute silence wasn’t it. Was this thing going to try to play car now? After everything that just happened? Duke slowly walked up to the driver's side door and looked in for the green blob person, only to see them in the back seat sprawled out. Duke tried to not think too hard while putting the car back in its spot, but the list of facts he has so far kept ticking.
1. The Batmobile has a new passenger or has been replaced
2. The thing/person is not good at hiding, so probably not a villain plot
2a. If it is a villain plot, they got the absolutely wrong person to do it
2aa. Possible meta forced to spy?
3. The person just freaked out so hard they fainted after setting off the Batmobile alarms.
4. Alfred will know what to do right?
5. Try to communicate again with the person in the car.
It didn't take long for the blur on the backseat to shift again. Luckily they didn't immediately jump into the driver's seat, where Duke still sat. Duke turned to look in the backseat, time to start this interrogation.
“Hey, you ok?” Duke was happy that he was able to see the head nod that the fuzzy blur gave.
“That's good. Now, I can't see you too well, but we can work out some basic questions, alright?” Another head nod answered him.
"Are you in danger? Like, did someone force you to do this?” The head shake that was produced shook the car. Duke internally sighed in relief, not a villain plot or meta trafficking gone wrong.
“So this was just an accident, and I am guessing you are now stuck?” Duke knew he was not as good at body language reading as the others, but the wave of embarrassment and resignation this blob was giving off confirmed that whoever/whatever this is, was not a total threat.
Next?
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#dp x dc#dc x dp#dpxdc#dcxdp#danny phantom crossover#dc crossover#Duke should get paid in Alfreds cookies#its not everyday that the possesd car faints in panic#Duke kinda feels bad for the meta/alien in the car#ngl I started playing a modded minecraft map and got a little sidetracked#the next part is still awkward to write tho#all good explanations are not yes/no answers!#its the fine line of Danny figuring out the radio vs how long to stew in mute car mode#I think this is considered crack writing#so does pacing really matter?#feels too odd for me to make it too quick tho....
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listening to a podcast about troy and losing my mind over how fucking scary helen of troy is. her skin is pure white. she hatched out of an egg. she can perfectly mimic other people's voices. she's the most beautiful woman in the world but she is also completely faceless. she's a ghost. she's an eidolon. people keep trying to kill her but they fail every time because she's so beautiful that it hypnotises them and they are physically unable to hurt her. she's a central figure in the trojan war but her ultimate fate is almost never described because if she aged or died she'd stop being beautiful
#she's semi-divine so it does make sense but god i love it; she's so blatantly inhuman#i feel like any time a book or movie tries to depict her it fails miserably#because you can't depict her. she just looks like whatever you expect the most beautiful woman in the world to look like#the part in the odyssey where she's circling the wooden horse imitating the voices of the soldiers' wives to try and get them to come out..#horror movie shit#also there's a pythagorean sect who believed she was an alien from the moon. that's not really related to this post but it's a fun fact.#be shh now
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"It's just a silly comedy," I think to myself, "I'm not going to get brain worms about it," I insist, ignoring the fact that I am the getting-brain-worms-about-silly-comedies person
#ofmd#cbs ghosts#the Orville#wwdits#abbot elementary#good omens#the great#resident alien#xena warrior princess#i'm going to be honest I thought I was exaggerating when I wrote the post and then tagging it is hurting my feelings#maybe I really am the getting-brain-worms-about-silly-comedies person
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that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them
but. does ivan know that…?
the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself
because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"
but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—
surely this selfish wanting can’t be love
...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die
but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...
I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)
but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself
#alien stage#alnst#alnst ivan#ivantill#i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough#just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently#idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho...#'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave#ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing#making him the most miserable guy ever#...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well#c...can we bring him back... don't die like this.....#(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated#wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong
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just wanted to say it's really awesome seeing the positive reception to chunky mikey LOVE YOU ALL 🧡🧡
#I WAS A LITTLE WORRIED BUT EVERYONE'S BEEN SUPER COOL he's very important to me#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise mikey#rottmnt mikey#avepharts#number one reason for his design It Is Self-Care To Draw Your Characters Fat and it's fun and i wanted to#but also ! i think it's a really interesting visual contrast to apocalypse mikey (who's very bony) esp bc you'd assume mikey would live a#really hearty lifestyle. like i think f!mikey's figure is so striking to me because it feels so alien for him.#also! mikey does a lot of throwing and lifting heavy shit and in sports like deadlifting and shot-put athletes tend to have more fat muscle#and i think there should be more body diversity in acrobatic fighter characters#AND OF COURSE! he looks like raph <3#rot20mnt
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when i said i wanted to understand whatever’s going on in ivan’s head, i didn’t mean like this 😭😭
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#alnst ivan#alnst till#ivantill#alien stage#ooooh boy turns out ivan’s self esteem is pretty low in terms of love#makes total sense but it’s not what i expected from someone who looked so in control of what he wanted and was willing to pursue from till#he loves humbly which was my first intepretation of him before we even got round 3#it’s changed since then with more (mis)information leaked by vivinos to misdirect our understanding of him#so to get this clear dialogue of his final thoughts is really… clarifying#and terribly sad in a way#ivan loves till so much and is entirely aware that he hasn’t been the most gentle of suitors#god i have many thoughts about this#ahhh ivan baby your feelings aren’t shallow at all
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I really think we as a society don't give enough credit to performers who thrive in an ensemble situation. It's always obvious when an actor is excellent front and center, and we're constantly rewarding that skill set with awards, but god, there's something to be said for the power of a true ensemble piece. People who are so good at reading one another and playing off what they're given, tossing the ball and knowing when to turn it into a grenade. As much fun as it is to watch a solid monologue or a solo show, I always find it so much more thrilling--and so much more authentically lived-in--when there's an ensemble just feeding one another in every single scene. Who do I look at? What is everyone else learning and deciding even from the background? This is what life looks like, and actors who really shine in that environment have really become my favorite to follow.
#i feel this way about yellowjackets. i feel it about flanagan's whole lil theater troupe.#yeah it's great to have 1-3 stars shining like crazy#but isn't the sky so much brighter when it's filled with constellations?#that's part of why i love broadway so much too. in a really solid show (i'm talking your hadestown vibes) the whole stage comes alive#anywhere you look there's a human being SO HUMAN#even if they're like. a cat. or an alien. or whatever.#it's so cool#and as a writer i'm always trying to find ways of making my stories feel as lived-in as possible#to envelope the audience and make them feel a part of the narrative fabric#ensemble stuff--done well--is built for that
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