#Feel free to reblog with productions they do this btw!!!

[milolovesbmc]

Falsettos productions where Trina is on stage sleeping during March of the Falsettos I love you

[edge-oftheworld]

Im bored so go ahead and psychoanalyze me. Lukes lane btw (tied between him and michael but i saw you already did someone with michael and lukes almost exactly tied). Go ahead and look at my blog if you want but its mostly reblogs.

ooh I didn't realise this would get so popular! I'll go with your tie bc I like to try do it as authentically as possible. just taking a little bit to get my bearings and my head out of You're In Your Midtwenties

I can see the muke fan in you, your blog gives off enthusiasm and excitement and ambition, maybe not the kind of ambition people usually think of but you know what you love and you're passionate about and you're very self-motivated about it. you love making things fun and that's a strategy that's going to serve you forever--no task is boring with you, because with the power of friendship and creativity you know how to make it into a game or a fun adventure and that's gonna make everything a lot more doable, and a lot less tiring throughout your life. some people are going to judge you for that, but more and more you're realising that your true friends appreciate it and admire it about you, as they should!

you have acquaintances who think you're cool and wish they could be part of the fun productivity. you probably think they're really cool too, or maybe you're jealous of them (because as hard as you try to be confident you do get insecure sometimes). but if you said hi to them you would be great friends! (case in point: muke). so don't be afraid to make new friends, but also to appreciate the ones you have.

you love learning, but you also get overwhelmed sometimes and feel a little trapped when people say you have to do things a certain way. you have a lot of admiration for people who feel free to be themselves and you want to be them, sometimes you're scared though. as you grow older you'll have more and more chances to do things your own way and to live life how it makes you happy. it's not a contradiction that you can sometimes be really good at something but also need lots of time to rest and decompress after, it's quite common actually. it's natural: some people's brains are born to 'sprint' (do really well at something but only for short amounts of time) while some are 'marathon runners' (can keep going for long times but don't have as good or out there ideas nearly as often). you know yourself though, you're quite self aware even though you don't always tell people what's going on in your head. you're independent when it comes to being cared for by adults, but you love close friendships and community when it comes to your peers.

look after yourself and your self-esteem--though you love alone time too, you feel great when you're around your best friends but you start to beat yourself up easily when things are going wrong socially. learn that it's not your fault. whether or not you have it, you might enjoy looking at posts on adhd positivity or the few and far between positivity posts for the pda profile of autism. as to whether any of these things are you--you'll figure it out. you always do. you like a little puzzle. and you do want to accept yourself, to learn how to be kind to yourself, learn to rest even when people tell you to keep going but you need a break to feel like yourself again. and you can get there!

[that-lemur]

🌿🐾🌿🐾🌿Mask Raffle🌿🐾🌿🐾🌿

Hello! I would like to do a mask raffle, I know that I said I would do a free CUSTOM mask for 1k but I changed my mind >:)

Requirements:

Follow me & reblog THIS post!

read more…

Extra Ticket:

Join my discord server!! (15+)

(If you did this step please put your disc user in the reblog so I know!!)

The mask will be made off of one of the paper cat bases (I have a spare) and I have all materials needed to make a mask!

The winner will be sent progress pictures of course and will have the product fully shipped to them (I will pay for shipping)

When will this end?

The winner will be rolled June 25th! Please have a reference for what you want or I will have full artistic liberty!!

Mask example

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[fleetingpetal]

alright. second cup of tea ready, a little break from writing and proofreading, logging in to be greeted with many wonderful people and the wonderful responses from my dear moot, @fatuismooches 🤍

greetings dear! this lengthy post will be the response to your responses to my asks as well as your reblogs which have given me the amount of serotonin i desired to complete this wonderful night of mine <3 i am not at all apologetic for how lengthy this response is, i am deadass shedding tears of joy and expressed everything i had in an ask that tumblr had the fucking audacity to eat so .. yeah :) i just want to express my gratitude again as well as ramble along to the brainrot hehe ~

YES HE ABSOLUTELY DOES. to kabukimono, he'll ensure anything within his capabilities to see that smile he loves so much, the smile that brightens his day regardless if it was good or bad, the smile that makes something so familiar yet foreign inside his chest soar. whenever you're sad, he doesn't waste time in following his instinct of taking his veil then holding you close from behind, providing the feeling of his veil shielding you two from the world; like how your embrace does to him. i just envision him basking in the comfortable silence for a while, basking in your warmth with a smile until a short while passes,

“dear (name), how about you make us that tea you like?... hehe, too sweet or not, i'll have it, it's yours! no other tea is as good as yours, even if it's too sweet for me.”

he goes out of his way to suggest a usual activity you two have when he doesn't know how to form his words to reassure out of fear of messing up and making you more sad, but that little smile of yours as he suggests said usual activity makes him smile too and feel more at ease as well.

following on using that tactic to make you fold — IT WORKS IN HIS FAVOR SO MUCH IT'S ENDEARINGLY RIDICULOUS ?? like shut up ( i'm joking please don't ) you'd be like:

“nuh-uh. not falling for that.”

“but... dear (name)... :(”

“okay maybe i am falling for that. folding even.”

“ :D ”

and oh my god. kabuki being an absolute mess in the kitchen for the first few times he attempts cooking is one of my all time favorite things for him like IT'S SO CUTE FUCK OFF ;; not only cute but also relatable — cough anyways <3 it's exactly as you just said ( speaking my mind fr ) and honestly, i think it's very much in character for kabu because the writers cling onto the "blank slate" statement for dear life when it comes to describing kabukimono specifically. the kitchen being an absolute mess as he urges you to take a bath i am actually crying ;;

AND THANK YOU OH MY GOODNESS ;; i am so so happy that despite my sleepy self writing that, it still managed to deliver~ i am so glad :')

those references are to your kabuki series btw <3 i have injected a lot of what you delivered there for the baby boy :D and you are very much welcome for the kuni brainrot! that's my specialty ~

there's no escaping the "kuni is a little tsun tsun" allegation. he already pleaded guilty to those more than enough times much to his dismay

i would like to inject a hc here — walks with him around snezhnaya are actually relatively common! while it is rare for him to be seen outside of his duties, let alone with someone, usually preferring to stay in home with you or do his usual reading light novels of varying degrees of quality while having a cup of tea or coffee. but in that specific drabble, it's from a mini series that i unfortunately had to scrap due to how i have other three that are in production masterpost preparation wise so </3

but absolutely, walks in snezhnaya, either around town or even near the freezing sea of the land; it's a very common activity that he usually indulges you in regardless of how much free time he has.

that specific theme is going to be the main theme for my future series featuring fatui kuni so that means, i'll cut my rambling short :)

my brain and i appreciate the praise and regarding your excitement ME TOO ?!?! like omg you don't know how over the fucking moon i am just thinking about tomorrow that is literally going to be today in a few minutes time for me, it's crazy and this much excitement, while it is something i'm quite accustomed to because i am even excited on a regular day, is probably going to annihilate my heart in the metaphorical sense lolol

i'll give the name here as well as my reasoning for it: i named the little one izumi! reason being because that name means spring, and apart from the countless artworks i saw of the precious bean being surrounded by sakura trees, it's also because back when i did the third act of sumeru for the first time and watched kuni's cutscene very thoroughly and with lore crafter intent ( while crying ) i saw the little boy and his design, color scheme wise to be specific, and it reminded me of sunflowers. while doodling little drawings for the concept, the name izumi popped in my head and i was like "you know what? that just sounds about right honestly."

if you read the title for the seventh chapter, the name "kuzou" is not the name i chose, it's just a little trick of mine and because of a hc i hope to elaborate on in that specific chapter <3

as for the angst........ yeah now that i think about it a little more, i feel a tiny bit sorry ^-^

in all seriousness though, THANK YOU !! i am so glad to hear that you love it and i will be sure to not rush on it, pinky promise that i won't force myself to do beyond my limits! ( thank you for the gentle reminder <3 )

FUCK YES YOUR THOUGHTS DID MAKE ME THAT HAPPY!! receiving any kind of response on something i write makes me feel like the happiest person on earth because i LOVE listening to others' thoughts and feelings on something i make, or even in general in all honesty. listening is a hobby of mine one could say hehe

you are so real on picking up on how people contrast fatui and wanderer kuni — it's so fun and like ? just so endearing somehow ?? not really somehow scratch that it is endearing because watching him come so far is just the embodiment of (⁠╥ ‿ ╥⁠)ﾉ⁠♡

regarding the 'nushi thesis ......................

oops ~

no but the way this bitch had and still does have me on such a chokehold for SO LONG and it resulted me to writing a fucking presentation; from me writing lore for his ass to writing about both small and big things about him and even picking a theme for him along with a design interpretation. it's alright though, king deserves it 🤍

and i am so down to write a little drabble about the eccentric squad being in trouble like it'd not only be funny but also endearing because i think we both know who would make up for the mistake they did and who wouldn't ( side eyes fatui kuni and kuro /lh )

as for us two — certified tea addicts /lh lovers !! we love to see it~ the way i actually can't survive through the day without at least having one cup is... well, it certainly is something lmao

goodness me .. this was a lot to ramble about alright but good fuck i am actually so happy :') this was and honestly is the best way i think i've ever spent a break i take from writing, i am practically smiling from ear and to ear and coincidentally enough i just finished my second cup of tea! this was an incredible fun ~

thank you so so much for the support and love you've provided me smooches 🤍 you are not only one of my biggest inspirations but also someone i cherish even though we're only moots, but i hope to become friends in the future <3

i hope you enjoy mundanities with kabukimono as much as i will enjoy writing it for many to see, i cannot wait to walk this journey with you and many others 🤍

— signed and with much ( platonic ) love, ayame.

[edsbacktattoo]

Hi hello I don't know you and you don't me but I need to vent

I have had a GREAT day since the cancellation announcement. I've been SUPER productive, have ticked off about ten stressful tasks I've been putting off doing (including calling my insurance company and booking a doctor's appointment ON THE PHONE, whatttt???), I went for a swim, I exercised, I ate a smoothie bowl, I played animal crossing.

But now I'm like. Lying in bed and I was about to do my usual scope through socials to look for any cheeky little renewal hints and the reality I've been forcefully ignoring all day just hit me like a tonne of bricks.

I'm so sad. I kinda wish I hadn't spent the day in denial because now I think I'm ten times sadder.

I'm gonna keep writing fic and reading all the meta and reblogging all the things, even though I'm not really a super active part of the community (the part where everyone seems to know everyone 😂), but ouchhh it doesn't feel the same knowing we'll never see what David had planned for those two beautiful little weirdos.

Thanks for letting us whinge to you, kind stranger. Nobody in real life would get it x

(I'm @theyellowestmustard btw, but it's my sideblog so it won't let me send an ask under my handle)

Hiya friend!!! i’m glad you got to have a super productive day despite the horrors, that’s great!! i’m sorry you didn’t have the chance to process these feelings, though :( i had to keep having breaks at work to sit down and cry lmfao. it IS sad. it’s devastating and it’s completely unnecessary.

i’m sure a lot of us are going to be doing the same for a very long time, writing our metas and fic and making art and gifs and edits. i’m sure this side of the fandom is going to be here for a good long while (maybe just after a little while to process the grief)

also don’t lose hope just yet!! everyone is putting up a fight to get that third season, or just anything at all. i don’t think this is over yet 😌👍

also please feel free to jump into my inbox any time, i’m always here to lend an ear and a hand 🖤

[shantismurf]

And I don't think most people understand what "their data" even is. It's every action you take on a platform, especially if you're using their dedicated app. How long you look at one post over another, if you like it then unlike it, what you see vs what you reblog...it's far far more than just what you post and that's why it's so valuable.

Companies make profiles of users based on a network of information that allows them to very specifically tailor their products (advertising, typically) to have the greatest psychological impact possible. It's all about getting in our heads and making us buy things.

I think I have a very fatalistic attitude about this. I enable location on my phone so I can get the benefit of location-based services, though I know Google is making money off of it. Heck I use numerous Google services knowing they are profiling me in an incredibly detailed way, because I like the services I get in exchange. I feel the same way about all these things. I use Tumblr because I like it here. I don't care what they do with my data. We get shiny toys to make us complacent about giving up the things they want. It's entirely possible I will come to deeply regret this someday lol

Btw, this is not new. You've all heard "why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free"? Same thing. We're all getting milked, all the time, and giving it up freely with every action we take.

Please be aware that the "opt-out" choice is just a way to try to appease people. But Tumblr has not been transparent about when has data been sold and shared with AI companies, and there are sources that confirm that data has already been shared before the toggle was even provided to users.

Also, it seems to include data they should not have been able to give under any circumstance, including that of deactivated blogs, private messages and conversations, stuff from private blogs, and so on.

Do not believe that "AI companies will honor the "opt-out request retroactively". Once they've got their hands on your data (and they have), they won't be "honoring" an opt-out option retroactively. There is no way to confirm or deny what data do they have: The fact they are completely opaque on what do they currently "own" and have, means that they can do whatever they want with it. How can you prove they have your data if they don't give everyone free access to see what they've stolen already?

So, yeah, opt out of data sharing, but be aware that this isn't stopping anyone from taking your data. They already have been taking it, before you were given that option. Go and go to Tumblr's Suppport and leave your Feedback on this (politely, but firmly- not everyone in the company is responsible for this.)

Finally: Opt out is not good under any circumstance. Deactivated people can't opt out. People who have lost their passwords can't opt out. People who can't access internet or computers can't opt out. People who had their content reposted can't opt out. Dead people can't opt out. When DeviantArt released their AI image generator, saying that it wasn't trained on people who didn't consent to it, it was proven it could easily replicate the styles of people who had passed away, as seen here. So, yeah. AI companies cannot be trusted to have any sort of respect for people's data and content, because this entire thing is just a data laundering scheme.

Please do reblog for awareness.

[oncominggstorm]

Well that was a fun sleepover saturday! (Even if it was basically just me and @ontargetmadders doing the sleepover on our own lol. Thanks btw, I liked getting to know you better! We should do this again some time ☺️)

If anyone else DOES wanna join in on the sleepover, please feel free to keep sending asks (or reblog the sleepover saturday post! I WILL send you an ask if I see your post, I promise! I like sending ask game asks!), but I'm heading out now to go see a local school production of Hadestown with my sisters, so I might not be back on tonight.

[iloveschiaparelli]

About Me Post

I haven't done one of these so it's probably time

Name: Just my @ will suffice

Schiaparelli is in reference to the crater, not the fashion website(?)

Age: 21

Autism - Self Dx (pursuing diagnosis)

I'm an aspiring writer/director who currently lives with two wonderful roommates, one of whom has a cat named Rookie, whom you will see often in my garden posts. I like to garden, play D&D/Pathfinder (my first pathfinder campaign is starting next week!), organize, do crafts like painting or embroidering, photography, and I draw digitally using Clip Studio Paint and a Huion tablet.

Sometimes I write, my writing blog is @ilike2eatdirt (which is not true btw). I also enjoy playing video games, reading books/webtoons/manga, and watching shows/movies. My main work in filmmaking is limited to wardrobe/production design. I have 5 short film credits, 1 music video credit, and 3 more shoots coming up in the fall. All of my film stuff so far has been unpaid student-level work.

My Blog is About: Whatever I want!!!! This is a blog by me, for me, and the People are invited if they choose to attend. To date the most consistent topics I've posted about are my Potted Plant Empire & various autism revelations. I reblog a lot... usually in short bursts though! I will sometimes post artwork.

Favorite Topics (Includes special interests): Astronomy, film, art, storytelling, geology (SHINY ROCKS), ancient persia, autism, Wes Ball(his work), sharks, and more

Fandoms you might see me posting about: Maximum Ride, Planet of the Apes (2011- ), The Maze Runner (movies), The Ascendance Series, Lost (I am only up to s3 no spoilers please!), Heroic Legend of Arslan, Fullmetal Alchemist, Yona of the Dawn/Akatsuki no Yona, various webtoons/anime on a highly infrequent basis, etc.

Video Games I like to play/have played/started playing:

Minecraft, Nier: Automata. I also enjoy(ed) playing Rain World (in-progress), Hollow Knight (finished 1 ending and was done), Yes, Your Grace (also 1 ending and done), Andromeda Six (this is a really really good indie Visual Novel that is currently in development and has been regularly releasing chapters since 2020), Skate 3 (when I feel like pulling out the xbox 360), Skyrim (started), Stardew Valley (I GIVE UP. I AM IN SUMMER AND STILL HAVE NO MONEY.)

Tags to Note on my Blog:

#gardenblr is typically what I start every potted plant empire post with.

#actually autistic is usually what I start autism-related posts with (moments i should have realized im autistic, relatable autism things, 2am revelations, autism-specific rants, etc.)

#vent/#rant/#personal post will likely be swapped between depending on whichever fits best for what I'm posting, but generally anything I'm concerned about being personal that strangers on the internet don't want to see, will have one of those 3 tags.

#artwork is ummm artwork

Fandom posts will get fandom tags so if you get too much of a particular fandom that you don't like/dont care about, feel free to filter that out or just shoot me a message and I'll add a tag just for you <3

[pastelpasteru]

can i request a fluff for suna x f!reader ?

so how about suna having a girlfriend who have a fox-like eyes , and she sits on his lap and ask him to put eyeliner for her cuz he is a pro at doing eyeliner and that's a big fact .

you can ignore it if you don't want to write it or it's making you feel uncomfy 💖💖 .

➧ Hello anon, apologies for the delay. I made this on the spot, haha.

“Fox eyes.”

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Suna doing his girlfriend's eyeliner and being a pro at it.

˚₊· Fluff • Suna Rintarou × F!Reader • Oneshot/Drabble

˚₊· Warnings — None, just fluff! BTW! This is slightly suggestive, and mistakes are present, much appreciated if you ignore them! (*´ω｀*)

˚₊· Requests? Sure, I accept those! Feel free to drop 'em! Though I am not sure that I'll do it.. ┐(´ー｀)┌

[🌸//💎] The first time is a fail, the second time is, too. Well, now, third time's a charm, right? It's just—too hard.

You said to yourself—grumbling as you continued to fail on putting eyeliner on your fox eyes. Attempting to speed up the process and only failing miserably.

“Ugh.. C'mon, just—make that nice curve and let's finish!” You growled, grabbing your make-up remover and wiping the failed stroke on your lids, not noticing that your boyfriend who has been watching you the whole time walking towards you.

“Babe, you almost done?” Suna asks with a chuckle, whispering to your ears, sending shivers down your spine—and causing you to whip your head to him.

“....Rin! You shocked me there... Anyway, give me five more minutes—!” You huffed, only to be pulled by your boyfriend to his lap on the bed.

“H..Hey, Rin, we're gonna be late, no time for, uh, this.” You muttered, averting your eyes away from his—receiving a smirk from the male.

“What are you talking about, babe? I'm just...” Trailing his words, Suna reached for your eyeliner with one hand, while the other stayed on your hip, holding it firmly and lowering you near his crotch.

“..Gonna do your eyeliner.” He continues, waving the product in front of you with his usual lazy look, while your cheeks heat up in embarrassment—thinking of something else.

“Ah, uhm, is that so? T..Thanks, I appreciate it. Do you know how to, though..?” Stumbling on your words, you placed your hands on his chest and asked him if he could—doubting your lover's skill in doing so.

“Of course, I'm a pro at it, heh..” He cooes, a finger taking your chin and pulling it close to his face. A quick kiss given to your lips before he opened the eyeliner. Preparing to make your fox eyes even more prettier.

“Just wait and see what I can do. I'll make you more prettier, babe. Prettier than you are now.” Smiling, he scanned your other eye that has an eyeliner before going to the other—drawing a quick stroke that matched it while you still sat on his lap. Amazed by your boyfriend, as per always.

“So, how's this?” Handling you a small mirror, Suna presented his work to you smugly, as you gasped—loving it.

“It's perfect! Thank you, Rin!” Leaning forward, you embraced the male who buried his face on your neck, drawing circles on your back.

“Mhm... Now we match. Fox eyed couple, yeah?” Suna says, kissing you once again and looking at the mirror with you—comparing your fox eyes with his.. “Yes.”

˚₊· Thank you for reading! Likes, reblogs, and follows are highly appreciated. (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

˚₊· Wanna send feedback, or messages? DM me here at Tumblr or at my Instagram and Facebook account, Pastel Pasteru. (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡

˚₊· I just decided to do this now on the spot, lol. Sorry again for the late production of this work. I plan on closing my account, haha.

[🌸//💎] REQUESTS ARE CLOSED!!

© Pastel Pasteru, 2021, please do not copy my contents or I'll come after you. Thanks.

[priveetru]

I'm not talking to a liberal or a leftist when I reblog you so my critiques are not levied against them, but I do fight with them often. You seem to understand the nuances I'm presenting, so all I'm trying to do is make my suggestion clear.

If you have substantive reasons for believing the charges against Trump are invalid, it is incredibly productive to present that information at every opportunity. In this case, "btw here is a charge against Trump that is bullshit" goes much further than "this table shows..." when the table does not show that without the context of bs charges.

But maybe I am misunderstanding, in which case, feel free to disregard.

[viscountessevie]

Sorry about the fight with your family. Hope things are calmer now. I got into it a bit with mine as well. It's always tough for me finding a balance between calling them out vs keeping quiet because they'll never change their stance and it only causes conflict. Btw, waiting patiently for those Jonny thoughts you mentioned. I have some too that I'll wait to share after you make your post.

[I'm answering this first as an update since I have been MIA for my whole day.]

Hello anon thank you so much for this ask - I really appreciate the check in! I am SO SO sorry you're going through this as well, it's extremely hard to navigate and its frustrating when the cause of it is so minuscule compared to the final blow up and escalation. I hope you're doing well too, being safe and self-soothing wherever you feel safe! Please feel free to vent more in my asks or in DMs if you need to - sending you all the love <3

So status update on me: Been having a dull headache all day and just really worn out - did not get good sleep last night after the fight (Dad has since apologised this afternoon which gave me whiplash though but I think we're all okay!) And now that I started typing up the post, my headache is back in full force with a toothache I swear to god my body is breaking down shksajdh. On top of that, my wifi is crapping out so I am taking it as a sign to draft my points/post outlines, take a couple hours nap (I tried to do so during the day but I was overtired welp)

So the post is like 70% done? I just need to find receipts from the past year and clean up some points and then proofread before posting. I shall resume this after my nap!

Again, thank you all for being so patient with me, I know its been a slow two couple of weeks with me. Just alot of life things happening - just bear with me and know I am very grateful for every one of you who always shares your thoughts with me and are very kind to me at the end of the day ❤️

As for the Jonny thing I have answered it here in a reblog and will sum it up better in the post but essentially I was misguided in my initial opinion: it's not ALL on Jonny to solely protect Simone after seeing how Regé was treated, its on the whole cast. Lord knows the production perpetuates it, as does some cast members (IYKYK) as two different anons have pointed out (both will be included in the final post!) but yeah as a whole I side-eye the more privileged members of the Bridgerton cast after seeing the amazing response both ROP and Kenobi have put out in defence of their cast of colour.

[morgana-ren]

why do u keep writing if u hve no passion then? not trying to be hostile btw sorry if it comes across tht way. im just curious bc an alarming amount of writers reblogged tht post so im just wondering why u keep doing smth tht makes u feel miserable? esp when ur not getting paid for it. u post all ur writing on here for free but if it doesn’t make u happy why continue? /gen

I mean, it's a valid question. I get you. There's a few reasons, and I guess you can judge for yourself whether or not they're valid. (Sorry it's long, I'm a little torqued right now and I'm just word vomiting personal shit no one cares about lmao)

Firstly, I do technically get paid sometimes. I do take commissions and I once again would like to apologize to all my commissioners for shit taking so long. Been a long year already and last year was just as bad. I swear I'm on it lmao.

Now that that's outta the way:

Truthfully, I'm a lonely person. I'm lonely by choice. I don't get close to people, I dislike being touched immensely, and I dodge and weave relationships like a professional despite having people that I get along with and are interested. I distance myself on purpose so don't get me wrong, it's my own decision, but unfortunately, I'm human which means that's not exactly healthy to isolate socially the way I do. The closest I get to intimacy-- physical and mental-- are these stories. It's a weird form of happiness I don't expect to ever have irl.

I kinda live vicariously through them without all the anxiety of not having control over the other person. I know exactly what Tomura/Astarion/Strade/Vulpes/etc are thinking and feeling at any time because I control them. If I say they love me, by the Gods, they do lmao. I can write out whatever scenario would soothe me, and bam, now it's there and I post it so other people can enjoy or relate if they want.

Sounds pathetic but ayyye, that's me.

My writing developed from my maladaptive daydreaming when I was younger. I've always lived in my head and go through life watching my own actions through a secondary screen, kinda like I'm watching someone else live it. Never been invested in it. I've been writing since I was literally old enough to reach the computer. It's just a part of me at this point. I drift away from it but always end up right back here, fingers on my keyboard with googledocs open staring at a blank slate cause I got shit I gotta work out and it's how I find happiness and peace in a world where I otherwise don't have those things.

When I say I write for me, I mean it. I write things that I would want and that I like to think about. Putting words on the page is somehow soothing, and it feels like I've actually done something productive for once in my sad little life. Most of what I do consists of video games and reading and other 'second lives', so I'm not exactly out here grinding and hustling and accomplishing goals and developing myself (I actually fucking despise that mindset but to each their own.)

I've stopped taking this blog as seriously as I did a few years ago. I treated it like a job back then, and it just wasn't good. Now I write when I feel like it and what I feel like and if other people dig it, dope. If not, well, move along. (Part of why requests and commissions take so long because I refuse to force myself to write them and have them come out half assed when I'm not feeling it.) It's all under my control, and if writing makes me unhappy, I can simply walk away and come back when I want to.

I guess to say writing makes me miserable is hyperbolic and dramatic. It doesn't. I enjoy it or I wouldn't do it. But I will say I can't relate to anything I write at all. I don't share those parts of myself with people. So when I write/read these slutty smut scenes, I do it with a straight face and no arousal at all because I guess I just don't quite click with it irl. I can read or write the filthiest shit and there's just a disconnect there. I can't honestly say I've ever felt genuine passion for anyone or anything at all so even if I wanted to, I don't get excited or anything because my head just doesn't know what to do with it. The closest I get to it are these fictional characters. It's pure fantasy, and a fantasy I can never ever have. It's miserable for a different reason-- cause even if I wanted something like this or to have someone want me like that, I'm my own worst enemy. I won't allow it.

(Also clearly my idea of what I find hot is extremely dangerous and any man or woman or enby that would go along with my insanity is a red flag unless SERIOUSLY and EXTENSIVELY talked through and consented to and I just can’t be assed to do it. That’s a lot of mental intimacy and I ain’t about that life at all. I’ll take a rapey OC daydream over all the work of actually getting this shit into place irl. All the benefits and none of the drawbacks, you feel me?)

Writing is a safe space for me to explore the places in myself I'm uncomfortable with and refuse to share. I can have my characters do the most disgusting and deplorable shit and wholly control how they feel and what happens. I'm a control freak. It's an outlet for me, and one I have total hold over. No variables. No eventual and inevitable abandonment. No questioning.

Don't get me wrong, I could give a fuck less if people know about them and are aware of what I'm thinking or what I want. I'm not secretive about my work. I just don't indulge in it in real life because I've never once trusted someone enough to ever do anything or act on it. The stories are a weird catharsis and how I bridge the gaps in my head that my heart craves but my mind denies.

It's bittersweet I guess is what I'm getting at. I do love writing and creating things and seeing as my shitty writing is the closest thing I have to any semblance of talent, that's what I do. It sucks in some ways because it's a constant teaser of what I want but can't have, but I suppose if it made me miserable, I wouldn't do it.

I'm sure all authors have their reasons for reblogging it (lack of engagement and loss of enthusiasm, habit, humor, etc) but there's a less-than-short version of mine.

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On the ending of Supernatural

Hi, I’ve never actually posted anything on Tumblr of my own creation (I mostly reblog stuff), but I’ve just seen the ending of Supernatural, and given that this is where I’ve been fed my SPN content, it felt right to share my thoughts here. I’m sure nobody is going to read this, but whatever, I just need to get this out of my chest. Sorry in advance if this is too long, but I have to type this out if I want to move on.

I still need to take some time to process everything that’s happened, because it is a lot. I did have my hopes up for the finale, thinking that Cas would at least show up, but like many of the fans, I was let down.

So I guess that would be the first issue I had with the episode. Regardless of what Dean felt towards Cas, if he reciprocated his feelings or not (which he totally did, I mean, we have all been watching the same show for 12 fucking years, and if you don’t believe me, there are plenty of metas that would support this statement), he still is his best friend and it doesn’t sit right with me the fact that he doesn’t even try to find a way to rescue Cas from the Empty. And okay, maybe he didn’t, make Cas got resurrected by Jack, then why the hell wasn’t he on the final episode? He was a pivotal character for the series, I mean, the proof is in the ratings: Season 7, when he was killed off to apparently never return, the ratings were at their lowest. The show may have started as just Dean and Sam, but over the years it became much bigger than them, and it is so disappointing that the show runners failed to acknowledge it. But I’ll get back to this point later.

Okay, I need to talk about Dean’s death, the only part of the episode that made me cry, because my poor baby had to suffer so much! Like, when he started saying that Sam never put up with John’s crap (which reinforces my headcanon that John was abusive towards the boys) and how much he admired him for it, my heart just shattered. I just love Dean Winchester so freaking much, and they did him so dirty... Don’t get me wrong, Jensen and Jared’s acting was 10/10, like, I thought I had a grip of myself and then Sam started crying and tears came back to my eyes. Nonetheless, I felt that the scene was so freaking long! I mean, Dean was dying, and he had time to make a 10 minutes-long speech! C’mon! Also, I get that Sam and Dean’s relationship is quite deep and strong and whatever, but I felt a bit unconformable watching it: it didn’t feel like a brotherly goodbye, more like a lover’s one. They were too touchy and intimate, and, overall, their relationship from this point on was coded as a romantic one, in my opinion. And Chuck, did I hate it! I have an older brother and I know what it is like to be close to your sibling and to love him more than anything else in the world, but the way they portrayed their relationship on this last episode felt incest-y, which makes me believe that this scene was originally written with another character in mind (cough CAS cough) or the writers don’t know the difference between romantic and brotherly love. To finish off, the way they killed off Dean??? I mean, I did expect Dean to die, but this was such a horrible and ridiculous way to go... I would have accepted it if he died actually fighting, but impaled??? After all he’s been through, after fighting so many demons, angels and deities, that’s how he dies??? That just felt cheap and rushed. Dean did not deserve that ending and I refuse to accept it. In fact, I refuse to acknowledge the existence of this whole fucking mess of an episode. Also, I just can’t believe that no one showed up to Dean’s funeral. I just can’t. I get that maybe it was difficult to bring in a lot of actors due to the pandemic, but they could have added them on post-production...

Next, we have Sam’s ending. He quits hunting and finally obtains his white-picket fence life. I did like the fact that he honored all of his friends and family that he lost along the way, especially Dean. Like, yes, if my brother died, I would like to keep a token (don’t know if that’s the actual word for it, my first language is not English), to have something with me that reminded me of him and to have him with me wherever I go. And I did like that he named his son Dean, in honor of his brother. However, we don’t know how he met his wife, we don’t even know who she is. They set up Sameileen for what?? Like, Sam and Eileen deserved better, tbh. And, again, even with Covid restrictions they could have done something to signal that Sam got married to Eileen, you don’t need the actor there. In fact, we never actually found out what happened to her, and just like I can’t believe that Dean didn’t even try to save Cas from the Empty, I can’t believe that Sam didn’t reach out to Eileen. Furthermore, the montage with his son felt cheap and a way to try to appeal to the audience’s emotions... (Btw, as a side note, the grey wig and the glasses, my god, they did Jared dirty 😂😂). But it wasn’t doing it for me, I didn’t care much for the kid, and while I do believe that was always going to be Sam’s ending, I didn’t like how it was executed.

And the worst part of it all: that suuuuuper long scene with Dean driving in Heaven, waiting for Sam. They could have used that time to show something more meaningful, even to develop a bit more Sam’s new life, how he adjusted to domesticity and fatherhood and all that crap. Or, I don’t know, A TEAM FREE WILL 2.0 REUNION??? And I guess this is my biggest issue with the whole episode. I get it, Sam and Dean are the central characters, the ones that started it all, but family don’t end with blood, and they were not the only ones who deserved a goodbye. They had formed so many bonds and friendships over the years, and to not have them address them on the final episode just feels infuriating. Especially Cas. His arc was not finished, he deserved to be on the finale. We never got Dean’s reaction to his confession, we don’t know how he felt about him, nor did Cas get to say goodbye to any other character. How did he get out of the Empty? What is he doing now? Is he still an angel? Also, he gave his life to save Dean, only for Dean to be killed not long after. My headcanon that is helping me cope with Dean’s death is thinking that he was so quick to accept his death because he was hoping to reunite in Heaven with Castiel. A girl can dream, ok??? But also, what about Jack? He is the new God, but I highly doubt it that he won’t drop by the Bunker from time to time, after all, Sam and Dean (AND CAS, ESPECIALLY CAS) raised him. And Charlie? Did she get back with Stevie? Did she and the boys go for drinks from time to time? And Jody? Donna? Claire? Sorry to be so repetitive, but I just can’t understand why the writers thought that these characters weren’t important enough to deserve a spot on the finale, and not just an off-hand mention (and not even all of them got that). Of course, the brothers are the main characters and their goodbye must be the longest and the most emotional of them all, but like I said before, the show stopped being just about the Winchesters on season 3, when Bobby was first introduced, maybe even 4, with Cas.

Overall, the finale left a lot of questions unanswered, most of them regarding secondary characters (but not less important for that!), completely destroyed Sam and Dean’s character development (Dean never got to be free, like he had been fighting for all season, probably all his life; Sam’s development is non-existing, as he ended up as he would’ve if he never had gotten on that hunting trip with Dean 15 years ago), and completely disregarded all the themes they had been setting up this season, probably on previous ones as well. It is sad knowing that the writers, either don’t know the show good enough to give it a proper goodbye, or they just didn’t care to do so. I don’t know who’s to blame here (definitely not the actors, though, probably someone higher up the chain), but I just know that I am so fucking disappointed. I expected more from the last episode of a 15-season TV show, one that has been part of my life for 7 years. I guess, that despite all of it, I can’t hate Supernatural. Maybe I was not a hardcore fan like some people on this site, but I did care for the characters and what happened to them. This is the show that introduced me to the world of shipping (Destiel will always hold a special place in my heart, it doesn’t matter how badly their relationship was treated, as well as the characters) and I got to discover one of my favorite characters, Dean Winchester. He is just such so complex, one that I relate to on so many levels, and his relationship with Cas has been the source of many short stories that I’ve never posted anywhere, but that have made me take up writing again. That’s the reason why I love the show so much, it has helped me tap into my creativeness and go back to writing, a passion of mine that I seem to have forgotten over the years. Anyways, maybe one day I’ll publish some of those stories, and maybe even write my own fix-it fanfic, but right now, I can’t deal with anything that has to do with the show, I am too hurt. Maybe once the five stages of grief are over, I might give it a try and read all of the amazing codas and fanfics that I’m sure will be posted here or on AO3. But for now, Supernatural is dead and gone, and I don’t want to talk nor think about it anymore. I’m done wasting my time here, because I feel like that’s what I’ve been doing this past 7 years after watching this crap of a finale.

To finish this long rant off, I just want to say thank you to some meta-writers, the true heroes of the fandom. Thanks to them, I carried on watching the show, because they made me have hope that things will get better. They are the ones that have made this experience worth something, and even though I’ve never spoken to any of them, I see you and I love you. Thanks for everything ❤. 

@tinkdw @charlie-minion @dotthings @heliodean @verobatto-angelxhunter @misha-moose-dean-burger-lover

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ack sorry to ask twice but do u have any happy nagisa hcs..? love ur writing!

Don’t be sorry at all!! It’s no problem! Aww thanks!! 💕 Btw you might notice me going on a reblog rampage with your lovely art later !!

Nagisa doesn’t laugh a lot. He does a polite chuckle most of the time. He also covers his face a bit since that’s what his mom told me is most polite.

But when this boy laughs...it’s the best thing ever. Like when something is so funny and he feels comfortable and happy, he just lets it all out. Throws his head back, clutches his stomach, even sometimes falls back a little. His laugh is super loud and sounds a little crazy but it’s adorable. There’s just an innocent, carefree expression that’s rare to see. It can bring a smile to anyone’s face at the sight. And after 3-E, he starts doing this genuine laugh more often.

When he’s in a really good mood, it translates to productivity. All of a sudden before he even realizes it, his homework is done, his room is vacuumed... Then he’s even more delighted to have some free time and go out.

Sushi really is such a comfort food for him, and it always brings a smile to his face. Like you wanna make this boy’s night?? Just invite him out to a surprise sushi dinner and watch his face glow in happiness.

In 3-E time, whenever he got an assassin or PE skill down right, he would jump and give a loud yell without even realizing it. And once he was aware, he’d blush and apologize instantly. But Karasuma and the rest of the class are just like 🥺 “no go on pls” 🥺

As a teacher, nothing brings him greater happiness than seeing the difference he makes in his students lives, guiding them to better paths. Everytime, he just looks at the moon and fondly remembers Korosensei. And his heart swells with happiness, his motivation to teach getting even stronger. He wants to continue that legacy and be the best teacher he can be.

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@nosixth​ said ; ✔ i'm very sorry if i'm late to the party DKDJS  /  A quick and easy plotting guide  /  ACCEPTING.

Send me ✔ and I will bold my preferences for your muse!

Do I know your muse(s):  yesn´t | no | a little | tell me about your muse

Setting: our verse | my verse | your verse | modern | alternate universe | other

Pre-established relationships? yes | no | depends on the relationship

Possible relationships: friends | classmate | co-worker | roommate | family, real or adopted | dating or blind date | married | friends with benefits | unrequited love | lending a hand | teacher - student | rivals | allies | partner-in-crime | enemies | protecter - guarded | business partners | spy - infiltrated | manipulator - manipulated | star-crossed | first meeting | other

I’m in the mood for: fluff | angst | horror | romance | humor | crime | hurt / comfort | action | supernatural | slice of life | crack | dark threads | light threads | any genre | multi-para | shorter para | one-line | any length | plotted threads | unplotted threads | other | All 😳😳😳 👉👈

Feel free to: message me ooc | message me ic | tell me your ideas | write a starter | answer one of my opens | send a meme | reblog this with your preferences - let’s find common interests!

EXTRA: OKAY SO- First of  all, despite not actually knowing about Scara´s story (I am only aware of his personality but i haven´t read his story yet- but i really gotta bc he´s really cool! 😳) I love your portrayal of Scara ! I have seen some scenes with him and your dialogues for him are cheff kiss + reading your replies is always very funny to me ! (APOLOGIES FOR THIS ORANGE MENACE BTW!) Now having that said and moving onto interactions;; the fact that he is as well a harbinger and that as far as i know, he hasn´t interacted directly with Childe yet, leaves a lot of posibilities for interactions !! From Childe´s side, meeting a fellow harbinger is always an exciting matter to him because he is aware that said person is not just anyone you can find commonly on the street, nor is anyone of common strenght, and that´s what really sparkles his interest;; what sort of power could these individuals harbour? it´s that fighting spirit of his that is always constantly seeking to face against powerful individuals, and Scara is certainly not the exception. 

In a more lighthearted note, despite the fact that he is prone to poking fun at him simply because he finds his reactions amusing (he reminds him of a grumpy cat sometimes) he simultaneously holds a big sense of respect towards him ! He is aware that the position of Harbinger is not just so casually given to anyone, and he has no doubt that Scara is a powerful individual. On the other hand it is perhaps just how different they are what draws Childe more interested in getting to know him and sticking around his side;; compared to him (and feel free to correct me) Scara seems more composed in certain aspects?? compared to Childe that is very straightforward and reckless, and i feel like perhaps this difference is what could bring them to bump heads if they were to ever team up;; not precisely in a bad way as Childe is a pretty light hearted individual and he would find the conflict more entertaining than troublesome. This all leads me to think that tropes of co-worker, allies, partner in crime, business partners, enemies, first meeting, etc;; could take place. 

As for the other ones, i can see rivals very strongy from Childe´s perspective; rivals in the sense of strenght;; (so be prepared to have him tugging at his sleeves asking him to spar with him RIP). Enemies would come into play if something VERY big happened;; yet Childe is not a resentful person (finally a good trait smh 😔 ) so it would still not be a very tense relationship either? 

When it comes to friendship, Childe could use to befriend someone that can help him stay grounded in moments where he becomes overly reckless, not to mention i feel like it would be a funny dynamic because of precisely how different they are sjdfbds. First meeting! i feel like it would be a very bumpy road at the start bc again, they are so different, but Childe doesn´t give up easily (oh! another good trait!) so he is sticking to his side like a little puppy regardless; and lastly; unrequited love, i will speak from my muse of course; if it happened, i feel like it would come from Childe; product of perhaps a mix of apreciation, respect and feeling comfort that someone could stop him when things go quickly wrong, but again; that´s an speculation because i don´t know if Scaramouche would care about him (not my muse hehe) so yeah!! if that ever happened, he will have to deal with his very stupid flirting, -100/100 not recommended btw.

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WONDERFELL CHESHIRE PIN PRE-ORDERS!

UPDATE: 🌼Good morning everyone! I just wanted to give you all a little update on how this is going. So these preorders have not been open for very long and we are already a quarter of the way there! Please keep up the reblogs and spreading the word! Otherwise, these probably won’t happen. I really appreciate the support!   

PROGRESS 29/100

Please remember this is a small endeavor so shipping costs are not included especially international. In addition. If you choose the white version of the pin and I do not have enough black version orders I will contact you directly. Remember I need 100 orders (well 99 cause I want one) of either each the black and the white or 100 of each. The more orders I get the more the cost will go down btw!  Each pin will be 20$ (excluding shipping which I mentioned earlier)  

How this is going to work!  

1. Just click the link above! It will ask you a few questions that I ask that you fill out so I can e-mail you later on when the store will open so you can get your pins! Super simple. 

2. Please do not fill it out if you are not ready/ desire to purchase one in the future. 

3. If you can’t buy one of the best ways to help is to reblog, REBLOG, REBLOG! The reason for this is because I need it to spread around. Likes are great but they don’t help in the way of exposure and “marketing” 

Q and A below cut! 

Q and A:

Q: If I miss out on these pre-orders will I never be able to get this pin? 

A: I am unsure. It really depends on how well this does! You can ensure it’s a success by spreading it with reblogs or just directing others to the sale! I will be going off this purchasing survey, however, so keep that in mind. Obviously, I want everyone to have one if they want one. 

Q: Will there be more pins in the future?

A:  Again that largely depends on the success of this sale. I have other designs ready for about 4 sets with 4 pins each. So I hope they succeed so I can make those as well!

Q: Who is Cheshire? What is Wonderfell? 

A: Cheshire is my Red in Wonderfell. A cross over story that takes the elements of my Underfell and mixes them with a story and setting of Alice’s adventures in Wonderland. It is an ongoing project! 

Q: Are you going to make non-Wonderfell based pins?

A: It is funny how often I get asked this. YES. I would love to do pins and merch for other creations of mine. For sure. This is just my stepping stone to that. Manufacturing something of this high quality takes a lot of time and resources. I have some Skele bros sugar skulls pins that I want to do. Where they are all surrounded by their favorite sweets.  

Q: What about that Cheshire Madness pin you designed? Are you ever going to make that one

A: I adore that design and I want to make a set of suit based pins like that so the answer is yes. I just don’t know when that will happen. This is really all dependant on you all, honestly. You kind of have to have the customers before you make the product!  

Have any other questions? Feel free to ask and contact me!