#FUCK REJECTION SENSITIVE DYSPHORIA FUCK NARC CRASHES

[daffythefox]

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[the-nightshade-crypt]

BPD/NPD rant ahead (tw slight suicide mention)

Having your main favorite person be your best friend who knows literally everything about you is amazing and terrible.

Our best friend has known us for almost 9 years, and has been with us through so fucking much. She has been our favorite person this whole time too.

During quarantine we became her only irl friend that she could go see. Because of this we developed more attachment issues with her, to the point where anytime she talks positively about someone else she knows irl we get RSD real bad. And on top of the rejection sensitive dysphoria, we also get narc crashes from it because our little narcissist brain says "haha she is talking nice about another being. Clearly that means you are no longer her best friend and she is going to abandon you" and then our little borderline brain who wasn't even listening hears the word abandonment and jumps in and says "the narcissist is right, she's going to abandon you! You have to cling to her! Tell her you're gonna kill yourself if she doesn't pay attention to you" BUT THEN our little autism brain sees the Narcissist and Borderline acting like that and tries to mask as them failing hard and says "quick you have to make a joke about you wanting to kill her friend and/or yourself in order to make her laugh and like you more"

In conclusion: BPD, NPD, Autism combo looks like this gif