#Everyone on all of the posts and threads I've ever been on claims to get local meat

[engagedtobefree]

It's really strange to me how some people only criticize plastic through the lens of it being "vegan plastic", as if non-vegans aren't also using plastic products, including fake leather. The same with slave labor and crops. Like I've literally seen someone say how harmful vegan vegetables are in agriculture and I'm just like, do you only eat meat??? Do you not eat vegetables??? I just don't understand the whole "if you're vegan and not using animal products then you love slave labor and plastic". Consuming animal products doesn't automatically mean you're not using plastic or buying anything that was produced from slave labor in the same way that being vegan doesn't mean animals aren't getting killed somewhere along in the process of you getting food on your plate. Also, using animal products doesn't automatically mean good for the environment, cuz usually somewhere along the way there's some type of harmful process being used.

I think maybe people don't realize just how ingrained plastic is. It's not some evil vegan villain wearing head-to-toe pleather that is upholding the plastic industry. Take a look around the room and identify everything you see that is plastic. Then think about all the plastic you don't see. And is it really only vegans buying from shein, temu, forever 21, etc? For some people, that's all they can afford, but for so many other people that isn't the case. Is it really so hard to acknowledge that it's literally an exploitative, capitalistic world that has done all of this and NOT vegans? Is it so hard to acknowledge that we all take part in these harmful practices in some way because they've been so interwoven into our society that there's no way to avoid it? What is so difficult to understand about any of that? At this point, I'm half-convinced some billionaires got together and brainstormed on "Who can we blame" and then collectively decided on vegans, and unfortunately some people actually took the bait.

Also, these arguments constantly erase poor people unless it's framed in the context of the vegan diet not being affordable to everyone. Organic, sustainable, fair-trade etc etc products are not cheap. It's not only vegan products that can be non-affordable.

This whole moral superiority (and also flat-out cruelty to each other) can be on BOTH sides and it's really frustrating that the one side won't admit it. Eating meat doesn't automatically make you a saint and non-complicit in harmful practices in the same way being a vegan doesn't either.

It's just...people. People are the worst. The only way to save the planet is for us to literally go extinct.

[getvalentined]

I posted about this on the twits, but I'm gonna do it here too because it's not like this is limited to that platform.

Since I've been seeing my least favorite shitty FF7 rumor around again, friendly reminder that there are no "legal issues" between Gackt and SE delaying anything. Sources claiming otherwise say "trust me bro" when Nomura has literally said it was just the workload.

People who claim that delays in production of anything in the Compilation are because of Gackt are parroting a rumor that's been around for over a decade, which was started by people who used it as an excuse to be racist and homophobic under the thin veneer of frustrated criticism. The majority of hatred toward the character of Genesis Rhapsodos in early fandom, and hatred toward Genesis in modern day fandom from OG Purists, stems from this same place.

Why do you think these people always assert that Genesis' very existence "ruins Sephiroth's character," but never complain about Angeal? Why do you think they have no problems with Aerith having a Jenova-infused Angeal Copy in her church for years—something that should totally change her understanding of the Crisis, but doesn't seem to in any way whatsoever—and yet anything and everything Genesis does is treated as an unforgivable retcon?

It's an excuse to say heinous, horrible things about an all-but-explicitly queer character who is modeled off a real Japanese man, and that's all it ever was, but it gets a pass because they dress it up as criticism of the franchise. Then, when they inevitably start throwing out slurs, nobody cares because "it's just Gackt—I mean Genesis, everyone knows he sucks."

Yeah, you "know" because you let a bunch of bigots tell you he should be judged more harshly than any other character in the entire series because he's not white or straight enough. Because he's based directly on a real flesh-and-blood Japanese man, and to these people that makes him deserving of hate, because people like that shouldn't exist. Because the character is all but explicitly queer (and it is even more explicit in the original language and when accounting for some key culturally-specific literary references portrayed throughout the narrative), and people like that shouldn't exist.

You "know" because you never questioned why this character specifically is the only one it's "objectively and morally correct" to hate and belittle, even though everything he's supposedly hated for applies to multiple other characters throughout the series.

The character is loathed, and the actor is blamed for everything, because some old guard fans said that's how it's supposed to be in this fandom, and if you don't engage with things that way then you don't deserve to be here.

Very cool and normal behavior!

There are very valid reasons to dislike this character, mind you, and plenty of reasons to be critical of the actor. I'm not saying otherwise. I'm saying the pervasive and frankly disgusting fandom-wide hatred stems from the same place as the continued, repeatedly disproven assertion that Gackt is to blame for everything "wrong" with the Compilation and its development: bigotry. I know this because I saw these assertions come into being in real time when Crisis Core first came out. I watched the people saying these things post the most homophobic rants on their personal accounts, I watched people I considered friends get banned from LJ communities for referring to Genesis as Gackt and referring to Gackt with racial slurs.

And I watched them come back later, promising they were better people now, armed with new claims and new arguments that allowed them to continue to be hateful trashfires without getting in trouble. As long as they weren't overt, it was okay. If they slipped up and used a slur in the comments that was mostly okay, since it wasn't in the main post. Mods might lock a thread here and there, but those people got to stay. Their "criticism" was "valid," and thus their bigotry was validated.

Those same claims and complaints are still regurgitated today, only now it's by people who aren't racist and aren't homophobic, but don't realize that their criticism is horribly unbalanced because it was all born from people who were just masking hatred.

Even worse is when these behaviors are mimicked by people claiming to like the character, because the fandom taught them that this was how you're supposed to engage with him, because it's just Gackt—Genesis (I said Genesis!) so he's a piece of shit no matter how you slice it and he deserves to be treated that way. Nobody else does, and nobody questions it, because this is just how it's done.

I'm sorry to be the one to tell people this, but if you slap a bunch of gay stereotypes onto Genesis and then have the characters around him treat him like shit because of them, while implying or outright insisting that IT'S OKAY BECAUSE IT'S GENESIS AND HE SUCKS SO IT'S FUNNY, you are following in the footsteps of bigots. If you constantly refer to the character as "Gackt" like the name itself is a pejorative, you are following in the footsteps of bigots.

No, there is no nuance here. I don't care if you allegedly came to all these conclusions on your own—you didn't and you know it—except for the fact that actually that's worse, because it means that you did some kind of deep dive in the source material and came out the other side agreeing with a bunch of racist homophobes who are still spitting bullshit after over 15 years.

Do fucking better.

[onecornerface]

the time I trolled 4chan as a fake flat earther for six hours in 2012

In July 2012, I got on 4chan and pretended to be a flat earther. I passionately argued for flat earth theory for six hours with almost no break. I kept a single thread going the whole time, getting over 400 replies. I’m not sure if I still have a PDF of the thread, but I do have some quotes from people who responded to me. Looking back over this a decade later, I am proud.

[CW: Slurs]

"There's no way you're actually this dumb. There's just no way."

"the flat earth society is one of the best trolls i've ever seen, in all those days of /b/"

"I tried some scientific research on this topic a while ago. I ordered a pizza, got two because the first was not what I ordered. I let the first dry out under a light bulb. Eventually, after a couple weeks, living creatures started populating Planet Pizza, after a while orbiting their home planet. This is proof, that the earth is flat. tl;dr Earth is a pizza, probably on a bigger pizza which probably is in a room with an even bigger pizza."

"Sir your thesis contradicts climate, you don't know what refraction is, you can't explain day and night, ebb and flow and you're also paranoid and/or outright stupid since you believe in conspiracy theory."

"You are a stupid faggot, and the whole of society would be better if you stopped breathing it's air. ...unless, of course, you're a troll. In that case, I'll award you an 8/10."

"I however, HAVE BEEN TO SPACE. Twice. I assure you, having orbited the planet many times, it is indeed a sphere. OP is an idiot, his only defense against me is 'omg gimme proof' which I can, and once given, 'u r part of the illuminatee' Ugh. Ignorant dumb ass piece of shit."

"Damn OP 9/10"

"If we dealt with this on a daily basis i would kill myself."

"Yes my jimmies are rustled, because I hate ignorant, inbred fucks like OP. Go die in a hole. Oh wait, you couldn't, you'd be scared of just falling through into space."

"10/10 OP good trolling, keeping in character and sounding legit"

"9/10 OP. My jimmies will be rustled for the whole rest of the day after reading this tripe."

"[S]ome eyebrows must be raised in the direction of the /b/ros still continuing to argue about this. Better standard should be expected from you guys, but taking away nothing from OP. Excellent work."

"If you're not a failtroll you are, by far, one of the most deluded and idiotic people I've ever seen post on /b/, which is a tremendous feat."

"9/10 for commitment"

"love this thread op 10/10 for still being here." (This was three hours in.)

">Focuses on the obscurely worded >Ignores every other point >Provides no answers About what I was expecting."

"Go hung yourself, please Humanity doesn't need such stupid people like you are"

"I'd believe someone who says the earth is flat compared to someone who claims otherwise and can't grammar correctly."

"I haven't laughed so hard at something on /b/ for a long time."

"OP, I'm not gonna bother asking you anything. I just wanted to let you know this is the best thread I have seen as long as I can remember. You truly are amazing. Good fucking job."

"nice arguments though i am in awe of your reckless faggotry and ignorance and skills of producing believable logical fallacies."

(Four hours in) "I can't believe this thread is still going. OP is the most successful troll of all time."

">Earth is flat >Every other celestial body is round >mfw 1/10"

"Great thread. You are not a troll, I saw you other times here and I knew personally a man from this society."

"holy shit 0 of fucking 10"

"Billiard balls are also flat. Isn't it obvious that they sprites?"

"10/10 OP wins"

">almost 5 hours of this shit 10/10"

"Big respect OP. OP is alpha as fuck"

"but seriously, OP is the man destroying everyone with his devasting arguments for hours huge respect man if i would suck a cock then I'd suck yours and I'd propably come before you do"

"3/10. Painfully obvious troll, yet impressive to see so many anons actually failing to make a compelling argument."

"Willy Wonka travelled around the world in 80 days, and ended up back where he started, just in time for tea. You can't explain that."

"Did you ever wonder what happened to Amelia earhart? She flew too far. Gov't shot her down past the ice wall. They obviously couldnt have her come back from that trip, she would tell everyone"

"I myself subscribe to modern rational empiricism, in accordance to which OP's arguments are absolute bullshit. And yet the attempts to challenge his unfalsifiable beliefs have proven mostly futile. A great majority of those posting in this thread have no idea why they should believe the earth is round."

"There has to be trolling here, I seriously can't believe what I am reading."

"this is beyond epic"

"I'm starting to enjoy this so i'm upping you from a 2/10 to an 8 but it ends now."

"OP is now argueing since 6 hours. This is the longest discussion I've ever seen in my life. Of ALL discussions, not only 4chan."

"arguments presented thus far by flatty: >did you personally do the experiment? no? then the results are invalid >here's my evidence; as demonstrated in this experiment someone else did also >oh; you did the experiment itself and it basically shows that the earth is round? >there's probably crazy gravity or some shit; hell if i know or >just because we can't explain every one of these phenomena and a spherical model can doesn't mean we're wrong. i'm serious you guys also >pictures lie and you should never believe them; despite mind boggling quality and quantity available for universal use online"

"Explain how we can have fat asses and tennis balls but a flat fucking earth."

"9/10 OP, well done!"

[justinspoliticalcorner]

Parker Molloy at The Present Age:

Alright, folks, let's talk about the strangest new trend in politics: calling your opponents "weird." Yes, you read that right. In the past week, the Democratic camp has decided that the best way to take on Trump and the GOP is to break out their middle school vocabulary. It all started when Minnesota Governor Tim Walz (a potential VP pick, by the way) described GOP nominee Donald Trump and "cat lady"-obsessed running mate JD Vance as "just weird." From there, it's like the entire Democratic Party collectively went, "You know what? He's onto something," and ran with it. Now, I know what you're thinking. "Parker, are you seriously telling me that seasoned politicians are resorting to playground insults?" And the answer is... kind of, yeah. But here's the kicker: it's working. Or at least, it's getting one hell of a reaction.

The Evolution of Political Language

Remember when political debates were all about tax rates and foreign policy? Yeah, me neither. Welcome to the era of political discourse where calling your opponent "weird" passes for a campaign strategy. But before we judge too harshly, let's take a step back and look at how we got here.

Over the past few decades, we've seen a gradual shift from policy-focused debates to character-driven campaigns. It's no longer just about what a candidate plans to do, but who they are (or who they claim to be). This isn't entirely new; politicians have always tried to sell their personalities alongside their policies. But social media has cranked this up to eleven. In a world of tweets and TikToks, nuanced policy discussions don't exactly thrive. Instead, we get catchy slogans, memorable insults, and yes, apparently, the word "weird." It's like politics has merged with reality TV, and we're all just waiting for someone to say, "I'm not here to make friends." But here's the thing: as much as we might roll our eyes at this trend, it's not just about dumbing down the discourse. These simple, punchy messages often cut through the noise in a way that lengthy policy papers never could. They stick in people's minds, spark conversations (or Twitter wars), and sometimes reveal more about a candidate's values than any carefully crafted speech ever could.

Unpacking the Appeal of "Normal"

Let's talk about "normal" for a second. It's a concept that's been at the heart of conservative messaging for decades. The idea is simple: we're the normal ones, the real Americans, the default setting. Everyone else? Well, they're the outliers, the deviants, the ones trying to change everything. As writer A.R. Moxon puts it in a recent Twitter thread: ["What recent discourse is exposing is something I've been trying to say for years now, which is that there is little conservatives care more about than being considered the only normal ones by everyone else, and they'll use bullying and the threat of punishment to get it."]

This obsession with being seen as "normal" isn't just about feeling good. It's a powerful political tool. If you can convince people that your way of life is the default, then anything else becomes a threat. It's why we see so much fear-mongering about the "radical left" or the "gay agenda" or whatever the boogeyman of the week is. But here's where it gets interesting. By labeling the GOP as "weird," Democrats are flipping this script. They're challenging the very foundation of conservative identity politics. And boy, are conservatives not happy about it. Julia Serano, in her recent blog post, nails why this is hitting such a nerve: ["I think it has to do with the MAGA worldview being centered on them being the supposed norm. They are heavily invested in the notion that their perspective and lifestyle is the one true and righteous way that all others must follow. Calling them 'weird' upends this worldview."]

Parker Molloy with another gem of a post on the GOP’s weirdness to Americans who aren’t in the MAGA Cult.

See Also:

The Advocate: Democrats embrace ‘weird’ label, turning tables on conservative rhetoric often used against queer people

[minerwarfare-suzuya]

Aftermath

Miles Ownership timeline drama

Public Announcement

So, apparently Mobox87 has blocked me (not surprising or upsetting. Not like I'm going to have an outburst like I did in 2016) and messaged Kevonica about my post on Miles due to how she's brought up in it. I just want to clarify that she wouldn't have been brought up at all if she didn't put Miles on a pedestal for any issues that he causes with artists or with Mobox87 fans. So, yeah not my fault you get dragged into drama because Miles has to bring you into the argument for his defense.

But-

I will just say that I won't do another rant post on Mobox since I don't want to thrive on that to where she's becoming more uncomfortable being online than she already is. I don't support her IRL stalker and online stalker madbox91 harassment nor do I wish her to harm herself like she did before over Zombify's Twitter thread and feel that she needs to be taken off the internet by deleting her accounts all over social media.

I've come to a point where I don't care if Mobox87 apologizes because her and I will never be on good terms which the same could be said to her ex-friends that were once close to her. Plus, her apologies won't ever go into details on what she's done wrong since they always go on to say "I've done some bad things" (like what did you do?) or victimize herself saying "I was a manipulable person" (that neglects the fact that you made bad decisions on your own sense of mind not by others requests or demands). Either way, it's whatever at this point. I don't need 21 apologies for her to say publicly or privately to everyone.

Honestly, what goes on with Mobox87's art is whatever at this point. As long as she keeps explicit content on a second account that isn't advertised on her main then that's fine. Some may disagree but that's a post I'll talk about soon since I do want some understanding on what can work with mature story tellng.

So, Mobox this won't be the last you'll hear from me. Not until I make one last post on giving a sneak peek of my script segment "Understanding" which will later follow up with a Maverick video posted here. For now, do whatever you want Mobox. Anything and everything said about you has been done.

In other words, I'll leave you alone for now since I do want you to succeed expectations to prove that you have changed as a person online.

Anyways!

Miles responded to my timeline post, specifically part 6 of my post cause I showed how he wanted to be in a committed relationship with a minor that was 16 who barely becoming 17.

Apparently he's been calling out Kevonica, Cagney and I out. Kev has been getting labeled as homophobic, racists and a pedophile with no evidence provided against her.

Most of the stuff said on his new account is just propaganda to make him look like he's the victim in the situation I called him out in. It's quite honestly no surprise he'd stoop so low as to label us as something we're not with out any evidence.

So just know that Miles is saying shit out of his ass.

One example being that he posted on his Instagram account "human_anthony_dust" and reposted on his new Tumblr account, calling me out as a pedo still and lying about how I "claimed false age" to his OC that he bought from Mobox87.

Which again he never announced the age of the OC publicly. Even then you can age up characters in drawings but I didn't since the OC is 30 years old or in his 30s. He's complaining over nothing.

Vinsnake is literally William Afton created as a fantasy character for Faces of Nothing. William Afton is a character in his 30s in which Mobox87 herself made Vinsnake around that exact age as it was originally attended.

Again, Miles never made the character 16 years old until he bitched about my drawing in response for harassing Yuriviq on DeviantArt.

Ironic though-

You made a character 16 years old last minute while you were trying to get with someone who you said was a 16 year old.

Even more ironic, that most of the OCs you kept the longest were kid OCs from Mobox87 while the adult OCs you owned were sold off first.

Doesn't really help your case after admitting you wanted to be with someone under 18.

Oh but wait-

I suppose you did take Kev's own words into consideration.

But that contradicts your deleted post before publicly sharing that "Important info".

You're obviously lying to protect your image and make Kev look guilty for showing me her conversation with you so I can look like I'm the dumb one jumping to conclusions.

The last response from Miles was this. Still being misleading and excusing his own actions

The following list says.

• Kevonica, Cagney and I look down at people for simple human mistakes.

Ah yes because saying I like a 16 year old barely becoming 17 while still under 18 when you're 21 surely is a "simple" human mistake.

Heck maybe the harassment all over Amino without remorse was a "simple" human mistake.

Surely, that IP ban you did to someone over a drawing of your paid OC was a "simple" human mistake.

• Lie about others and only care what they think is the correct answer.

Miles, that is you as a person. You fit that description cause you are a liar and only care what you think.

• Sick of our mental abuse, harassment and cuber bullying

Mental abuse? Where is the evidence on that of us ever doing that? Harassment and Cyber bullying is what you do since you fucken spam our DMs at 7 in the morning to talk out of your ass!

• Time to take a real adult step

You're a literal man. Whose a cry baby and the epitome of a bitch online over your petty nonsense. Like get that in your head. I'm not the one with entitlement over stupid reasons and lack of common sense.

Anyways, I'm just going to end it here because this asshole begged for a response after I went silent. So, here it is because you practically asked for it. This was your moment.

[mariana-oconnor]

The Cardboard Box pt 3

OK, so this was mostly solved last part, with a few hanging threads, mainly being the motive and who the second ear belongs to. Our working theory is a man that Mary's husband thought she was having an affair with. But how that all relates to Sarah Cushing and why he sent the ears to her specifically. My best guess is she was encouraging Mary to leave him and 'befriend' this other guy in some way?

“Lestrade has got him all right,” said Holmes, glancing up at me.

Welp, that was quick. I guess no one is dying in a mysterious shipwreck this week, even though there are actual sailors involved this time.

“In accordance with the scheme which we had formed in order to test our theories” [“the ‘we’ is rather fine, Watson, is it not?”]"

Are we going to get Holmes' commentary throughout? That would be fun. Throwing shade at Lestrade here for taking partial credit for everything. Fair.

@ameliahcrowley did the research about May Day and apparently it wasn't in use as a distress signal yet at this time, which surprised me. So this ship name is just retroactively ironic, which is one of the best flavours of irony.

"I found that there was a steward on board of the name of James Browner and that he had acted during the voyage in such an extraordinary manner that the captain had been compelled to relieve him of his duties."

This guy has zero chill, which we already knew because he was going around murdering his wife and sending ears to her relatives, but he fails so completely at getting away with it, it's kind of farcical.

I guess it makes sense that he'd be a bit weird after killing his wife. But at the same time, the kind of effort it takes to cut off ears, pack them in salt and send them off to women in Croydon indicates a level of thought and planning that is clearly not evident anywhere else in his crime. So weird.

"He jumped up when he heard my business, and I had my whistle to my lips to call a couple of river police, who were round the corner, but he seemed to have no heart in him, and he held out his hands quietly enough for the darbies."

This reads as though the guy is feeling guilty or remorseful, but please see prior notes about taking the time to pack ears in salt. The remorse was a really delayed reaction, huh?

Mr Browner's understanding of what he did dawning:

"...bar a big sharp knife such as most sailors have..."

If he has a big sharp knife, why did he use a blunt one to cut the ears off? Unless the blunt just meant 'not as sharp as a scalpel', which seems an unfair benchmark of sharpness to put on a knife. Not everyone can be a scalpel.

"The affair proves, as I always thought it would, to be an extremely simple one, but I am obliged to you for assisting me in my investigation."

This isn't exactly a lie. Except it kind of is. Lestrade at least claimed to think it was just the medical students the whole time, but at the same time he called Holmes in, which seems like a weird thing to do if he was convinced it was a prank?

"I tell you I've not shut an eye in sleep since I did it, and I don't believe I ever will again until I get past all waking."

Again, this is strange to me. Like did he get through the whole posting of the ears and did the guilt set in immediately after that, or did he do that while feeling guilty? which makes no sense. I do not understand this man.

"Ay, the white lamb, she might well be surprised when she read death on a face that had seldom looked anything but love upon her before."

And this does not read like the words of someone who feels remorse. I feel like Jim Browner is a very disturbed individual. This is very creepy. Anyone who compares another person to a 'white lamb' is instantly ten times creepier than they were before. I'm already getting 'my wife drove me to it' delusional self-justification from his language.

"For Sarah Cushing loved me—that's the root of the business—she loved me until all her love turned to poisonous hate when she knew that I thought more of my wife's footmark in the mud than I did of her whole body and soul."

Oh, I did not see that coming. Although thinking back, the way her interactions with him were referred to were a bit weird. I thought it was just a Victorian flare for language coming through, but no.

I said last time that Mary needed better sisters. She really needed better sisters.

"The old one was just a good woman, the second was a devil, and the third was an angel. Sarah was thirty-three, and Mary was twenty-nine when I married."

A devil and an angel? Right, this guy has unrealistic expectations of the women in his life, I can tell you that right away. The Madonna-Whore complex called, Jim, it thinks you might have a problem.

For someone who is so guilty he can't sleep, Jim Browner is trying very hard to seem like the victim here. Dude murdered two people and cut off their ears and he's determined that it's Sarah's fault. I'm not saying she had nothing to do with it, but seems like he's having a little trouble with accountability here.

Also, her seduction of him is very... like she took hold of his hand and looked at him? That's all she did? I was expecting something more overt. Although this is the Victorian era, I guess maybe that's pretty overt by their standards? Or he misread the entire situation.

"Things went on much as before, but after a time I began to find that there was a bit of a change in Mary herself. She had always been so trusting and so innocent, but now she became queer and suspicious, wanting to know where I had been and what I had been doing, and whom my letters were from, and what I had in my pockets, and a thousand such follies."

This whole thing reads very strangely. 'so trusting and so innocent', and the pedestal he seems determined to put his wife on. It's all a little icky. He seems like a remarkably unreliable narrator.

OK, maybe it happened like he says. We have no evidence in the text contradicting him as of yet. But at the same time we only have his word for any of this and it's possible that he hit on Sarah rather than the other way around, she told Mary. OR that neither of them was hitting on each other, but they both thought the other one was hitting on them and things... spiralled.

"I can see now how she was plotting and scheming and poisoning my wife's mind against me."

If this story hadn't ended with him murdering people and mutilating their corpses, I'd be more inclined to believe him at face value, but knowing the extremes he went to, I feel like this is just massive paranoia.

"And then this Alec Fairbairn chipped in, and things became a thousand times blacker."

Ah, we finally get to the owner of the second ear. Alas, poor Alec. You were doomed by the narrative.

“‘It was only a little thing, too. I had come into the parlour unexpected, and as I walked in at the door I saw a light of welcome on my wife's face. But as she saw who it was it faded again, and she turned away with a look of disappointment."

His entire motive is based on two moments when he saw a look in a woman's eyes? Are you kidding me, Mr Browner? Are you a telepath? Can you read their minds? You have no evidence of literally anything and you just murdered people?

Maybe we're getting to the evidence. Maybe you're going to walk in on them in a compromising position, or find a love letter, or overhear a incriminating conversation. But so far all we have is 'my sister-in-law was upset I didn't enjoy her company and held my hand and made eye contact with me' (which I agree was a bit weird, but not conspiracy worthy) and 'my wife looked like she was looking forward to talking to someone who wasn't me'.

“You can do what you like,” says I, “but if Fairbairn shows his face here again I'll send you one of his ears for a keepsake.”

OK, no. You're just going straight to threats of violence. No further proof needed.

“‘Well, I don't know now whether it was pure devilry on the part of this woman, or whether she thought that she could turn me against my wife by encouraging her to misbehave.'"

The paranoia and entitlement is so strong in this one. He's completely irrational. We're all agreed on that, right? Maybe he was right about everything, but he's based all of his conclusions on...

heh...

He's based all his conclusions on vibes.

I played myself.

At least I didn't kill anyone over it.

"'How often she went I don't know, but I followed her one day, and as I broke in at the door Fairbairn got away over the back garden wall, like the cowardly skunk that he was. I swore to my wife that I would kill her if I found her in his company again, and I led her back with me, sobbing and trembling, and as white as a piece of paper.'"

This is slightly more incriminating, but given that there was a threat made to cut off the man's ears, that seems enough reason for him to run away. And death threats are never cool.

"'The thought was in my head as I turned into my own street, and at that moment a cab passed me, and there she was, sitting by the side of Fairbairn, the two chatting and laughing, with never a thought for me as I stood watching them from the footpath.'"

Honestly, at this point if she was having an affair with him I'm kind of okay with that. Mr Browner is clearly paranoid, violent and unstable. Divorce wasn't really an option for her because Victorian divorce laws were sexist and terrible, and from Browner's earlier description Fairbairn seems like a pretty cool guy. I hope she at least had fun before her husband brutally murdered her.

OK, point of Victorian etiquette, was it considered scandalous to be alone in a cab together? To me that's far less intimate than being found alone in a house together. But chatting in a cab? I suppose there isn't a chaperone, so maybe.

“‘Well, I took to my heels, and I ran after the cab. I had a heavy oak stick in my hand, and I tell you I saw red from the first; but as I ran I got cunning, too, and hung back a little to see them without being seen.'"

Either you couldn't think straight OR you could think straight enough to be cunning. You can't have it both ways. That's not how it works. EITHER you're blinded by jealousy and commit a crime of passion, OR you're thinking through your plan. My dude, you're undermining your own argument (although, as mentioned, the ear thing already did that).

They do seem to be having a very nice date. Good for them. Pity about the murderer lurking in the shadows.

And he's spending an entire day stalking them. Yeah, no, Mr Browner, we're way outside of 'blind jealous rage' murder. You hired a boat specifically to hunt them down and kill them without witnesses. This is now officially premeditated.

"'I cleaned myself up, got back to land, and joined my ship without a soul having a suspicion of what had passed. That night I made up the packet for Sarah Cushing, and next day I sent it from Belfast'."

Yeeeaaah, those are not the actions of a remorseful person.

You're just a dick.

If only she'd had good sense and just run the fuck away with Mr Fairbairn and changed her name. Genuinely, usually I'm super against infidelity in all forms, but you seem like a real piece of work. Your story is so full of inconsistencies and irrational jealousy and paranoia that I can't believe half of it.

"'I cannot shut my eyes but I see those two faces staring at me—staring at me as they stared when my boat broke through the haze. I killed them quick, but they are killing me slow; and if I have another night of it I shall be either mad or dead before morning.'"

Can confirm: you are already 'mad'. Your actions were not those of a mentally stable person. Not that that's why you did it. You clearly have problems, but loads of people deal with problems without killing people. You just suck, my dude. And honestly, zero sympathy.

'I feel super guilty about the crime I threatened to commit, then deliberately set up so as not to get caught, then followed up with acts of bodily mutilation, cover-up, and terrorising of the victim's relatives. But now I feel super guilty.'

Yeah, this whole account is just one long rant about how he's not really responsible. It was the women who drove him to it. By... talking to men and... looking at him funny.

“What object is served by this circle of misery and violence and fear? It must tend to some end, or else our universe is ruled by chance, which is unthinkable. But what end? There is the great standing perennial problem to which human reason is as far from an answer as ever.”

Super philosophical at the end there Holmes. Seems like Holmes at least is taking Browner at his word about Sarah, or else the cycle doesn't really make any sense here. Even if Sarah did put events in motion, it's not really a cycle. It's just... a couple of rather horrible people being horrible to each other.

Or maybe he's referring to the death penalty?

Well, this one was weird. Given ACD's predilection for spiritualism and the afterlife, it's possible he intended the guilt plaguing Browner here to be the spirits of the people he murdered, which - given his lack of accountability throughout his own narrative - actually makes more sense. But there's no evidence of that in the text, so that's just me. But mark it down as another score on the 'supernatural Holmes universe' tally.

[godkilller]

sometimes I look at your aigin verse and think how different this relationship looked for each of them. It's more like for Aizen, Gin was something like a ray of light in his world, someone who was finally able to see the real him and gradually relieved him of his isolation. but for the gin everything was the opposite

out of character. Thank you for the ask! I appreciate hearing feedback on the way I navigate dynamics with Gin, and this one is certainly a tangled up mess. Your observation is right; the way Gin views Aizen in most scenarios, especially post-Winter War, involves likening him to a black hole. I've also had Gin, I believe when younger, describe the intensity of Aizen's focus on him as the same sensation one would get when wading in dark ocean waters and seeing a shark's black eye looking back at them whilst being circled. Gin has acknowledged Aizen's brighter forms of intensity (he still will mention the heat and forcefulness like the power of the sun/etc.) but ultimately his most used descriptor of Aizen is that he's like a black hole.

A black hole is nothingness, it consumes everything, even light, and in some ways a black hole is daunting and inevitable the same way it's sad and a terrible thing. A sun's collapse inward. Aizen is a black hole in the way that he can appear empty, yet be all-encompassing. Aizen has 'weight' yet is untouchable, Aizen is enormous and imposing yet equally so he is incredibly far away. He has a pull to him, an inescapable one that Gin feels trapped in. Gin feels isolated, yet Aizen feels like he's no longer alone. While others may liken Aizen to the sun, and while he may still share many of those symbolic points, Gin knows that the sun Aizen could've been has long since soured, tainted by the Hogyoku and his power-seeking manipulations and experiments -- everyone thinks Aizen is the sun, still, while not knowing the truth; people are basking in a dead, flat light. It's no wonder Aizen effortlessly created that fake sun in Las Noches, he's good with that sort of falsehood.

In many ways Gin's opinion of Aizen is always shifting based on the context of the thread, but he's overall always influenced by his hatred. Simultaneously, Gin respects Aizen, so it's a strange duality to have bundled up in there -- and the harder part comes with Aizen's view of Gin sometimes bordering on obsessive and idolizing, but don't tell Lu I said that. Aizen's view of Gin as someone who can do no wrong because he harbors such biased and strong feelings for him makes it so even in his most dedicated moments, Aizen is not genuinely ever going to understand Gin properly. Not until some serious corrective work is done. He'll see him as the moon, as his light in the dark, and maybe that has some truth to it in terms of Gin being used as Aizen's sounding board and giving Aizen bold feedback he couldn't get from Tousen due to Tousen being too loyal and quick to not question what Aizen does.

But in a deceptive way, Aizen's own view of Gin in that light makes it so he himself can't see past that self-written poetry and symbolic view of Gin, and he is left neglecting the clues and hints of hurt and hate Gin holds within. If Aizen does happen to notice those things, he's more inclined to look the other way or push it under the rug due to those feelings and almost downright clinginess to Gin. He cannot claim to love Gin while not able to see the whole of him, and in that way there's an imbalance between them that spans beyond mere reiatsu; Aizen at last found someone who can see him, and yet Gin will never let Aizen see him in the same way because he won't ever forgive him for what was done to Rangiku in the Rukongai. It's not healthy on either end.

But that's why I do enjoy writing the dynamic and exploring the whys and hows of it all. So thank you again for sending this!

[foraltruism]

GET TO KNOW YOUR ADMIN !!

name — Rubii

pronouns — they/them

preferred comms — Discord, even though I'm kinda slow at first. I swear I'm really kinda shy when starting up conversations with people and awkward asf too, but once we get to chatting it's a lot easier. I also have ADHD and unfortunately people tend to fall into the "object permeance" section of the brain. Constantly talking to me and building a friendship means I'll be a lot more comfortable annoying you 👀

name of muse — I have 41 muses and you want me to name them all? 😭 Please check my caard for the 38 muses here, but I also have Megumi, Sukuna and Gojo on their own blogs.

experience in RP — I believe my journey in Rping started in 2014? Almost 10 years in total, but here on Tumblr I think it was in 2016 or 2017? I took a 2 year break though because back then Tumblr wasn't very good for me and my mental health, so I'm glad I did.

best experiences — Being a multi-muse blog for about majority of the time I've been on Tumblr I've been in multiple fandoms and met lots of people. Thus far, the most lively experience I've been enjoying myself in is the JJK fandom. There are so many fun loving and wonderful people in this fandom that's been making rping so much fun. There's also the Free fandom which I'm sad is not as active as it used to be but I've had plenty of fun and good experiences there too. Lastly the best experience was meeting my best friend of 5-6 years to whom I still keep in touch with to this day. She's my day one bestie and I love her so much 😭

pet peeves / deal breakers — I don't have many cause I'm pretty chill, but one thing I really dislike is interacting with someone who constantly complains about getting no attention. They talk negative a lot, vague post about people who interact with them but claim they're being ignored. Idk it's just a huge turn off. I understand that we get depressed or don't have many interactions or seem really small, but the passive aggressive posting ain't it for me.

muse preference ( fluff, angst, smut ) — All of it. I will write just about anything with my muses. It's the beauty of writing. Ofc if only my rp partner is comfortable with it. I'm kinda weak at fighting scenes with my strengths being in fluff and slice of life I suppose.

plot or memes — Both. Sometimes plots come easy, sometimes my brain is on vacation. Memes are fun for shorter threads or getting a plot started. I'm just versatile like that I guess.

long or short replies — Any. I don't care I'll make it work. I think the only thing that might bother me is writing something long and thought out and getting barely something in return often 💀

best time to write — When ever I'm not at work. It's not often or for long tho most of the time.

are you like your muse — Hmm, some of them? Some of them, but I wouldn't be able to pinpoint who 😂

Tagged: I stole

Tagging: Hahuhe everyone.

[so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed]

2022 in writing

It's not quite the end of the year yet and I have two more stories coming out, but I figured I'd get on this and look back on this past year of writing! I'm going to include the 2 unpublished fics in my statistics, because I have them both finished even if they aren't posting just yet!

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 17 (-1 from last year)

2. Word count posted for the year: 239154

3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction, Zayn Malik

4. Pairings: Louis/Harry, Liam/Zayn, Louis/Zayn, Liam/Louis,

5. Story with the most:

Kudos: now you're in my life (I can't get you off my mind) [398]

Bookmarks: now you're in my life (I can't get you off my mind) [291]

Comment threads: there now, steady love (so few come and don't go) [82]

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): I put a lot of myself into Now you're in my life and I am really proud of the feedback it got and the way it made people feel seen.

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why): I'm proud of everything I've written this year! I think I have a great mix of works and I am happy with everything I've posted.

8. Share or describe a favorite review you received: I got a few absolutely amazing comments on Now you're in my life, that brought me to tears. I think one of my favorite ones said is this what representation feels like?? and I think that really says it all.

9. A time when writing was really, really hard: The entire year, to be honest. From about April on everything just seemed to happen all at once, and I didn't get to write at all in May. Coming back from that was hard, and the same went for November, in which life was just incredibly busy. Coming back to my big bang after that was a real struggle.

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: My characters tend to always go their own way with no respect for my outline, but I think one of my favourite things I've written this year is LiLo. It was my first time writing this pairing and it surprised me that I could actually see it work in a romantic setting.

11. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

Harry smiles wryly at that. “Don’t let the Pride Committee hear you. We’re all supposed to be proud of our sexuality, don’t you know that?”

Part of him wants to turn around, see the look on Louis’ face, but he’s not quite ready to do that, to be seen when he’s barely able to hold it together. “Is that what you mean when you say you’re broken?” He can hear the frown on Louis’ face make way for understanding, hears the quietly whispered oh as he realises what Harry has yet to put into words to anyone else. “Baby, are you ace?”

Harry isn’t sure what he feels more overwhelmed by, the fact that Louis so casually calls him baby - as though Harry’s given him a right to - or that he puts Harry’s struggle into words so easily, without the kind of contempt in his inflection that Harry would’ve had if he’d been the one to claim that label out loud.

He bites his lip, part of him wanting to turn around and hide his face against Louis’ neck, but they’re definitely not close enough for Harry to scent him, even when Louis smells lovely and comforting. “So you get it now,” he whispers hollowly, his fingers still around Louis’ wrist, Louis’ arms still around him though Harry can’t help but wonder for how much longer. “You get why I’m broken.”

13. How do you hope to grow next year: I've done a lot of things to challenge myself this year (write a new pairing, write different tropes) and I hope to continue that next year with my first ever Zouiam fic. I also hope to be able to write regularly and stay a bit more on top of answering comments, since it's definitely not been happening as often as I want. Aside from that, I just hope I'm able to continue making people feel things.

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): I am still so incredibly fond of the amazing Sixt (@foullovehideout) who has been an absolute gem this year. I also really appreciate everyone I've met through the @writerscornercafe server. And as always @jacaranda-bloom and @lululawrence are so wonderful to chat fic to and write with. And I've also really enjoyed getting to know the wonderful Raf, who has definitely been a soundboard these past months! @beardyboyzx you're a wonderful soul and I adore you!

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year: The first thing that comes to mind is the bartender that Louis was based off of in serve me up a little hope on the rocks. And as always, my identity is a huge part of some of the fics I write, so any aro or acespec characters have a bit of me in them.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: Last year's advice is still so true: You don’t improve your fics by waiting until you’re good enough to write them. Write that story. It’s the only way to get to where you want to go!

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: I just got matched with my artist for the @onedirectionbigbang so I am super excited to work with them and make this story truly come to life! Aside from that, I'm participating in the @zouisfics fest and I hope to write the advent fic that me and @evilovesyou didn't get to write this year. Other than that, I'm going to see what fests come my way!

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read. This is my chance to tag all of the lovely writers in the @writerscornercafe! Be proud of all you did this year, you're such wonderful people! Aside from that (and there might be overlap) I'm tagging @cyantific @neondiamond @londonfoginacup @lululawrence @allwaswell16 @jacaranda-bloom and @beardyboyzx

[remnantsfm]

[EVENT 002 UPDATE] SHADOWS OVER ANSAN

CHIRRUP > FORUMS > SORT BY [LATEST] > THREAD: did anyone else get sick after the interrogation?

📌 carmine_heart (original poster): i'll keep this short since i'm still in pretty bad shape. basically a couple of days ago i went to the enforcer division for my questioning. i thought it went okay, i answered all of their questions, they were pretty nice and offered me a drink too. i went home feeling pretty good since my boyfriend confirmed my alibi that same day. but then this next morning i started to feel weird. my head felt hot and at first i thought it was a fever, but i don't know. this feels different. my head feels like it's so...full, and i haven't really been able to think properly. i feel like i'm sleepwalking. i can't tell if i'm just so stressed about this case that i'm making myself sick or what. my boyfriend says i've been acting weird. saying weird things. but it's really hard to remember the last day, much less what i said... there was a reason i wanted to post here but i can't remember now either. please can someone tell me i'm not the only one going through this?

comments. ( < page 2 of 37 > )

cerulean_scale: Maybe you caught something? There's been a cold going around since the storm. scarlet_venom: i feel it too doesnt it feel so good? ;my bed feels like clouds. i dont ever want to leave amber_tear: okay idk what all of you are talking about but personally my interview went AMAZING. it made me realize a few things about myself. i went to my best friend's house after and confessed. i feel like i'm on some kind of high. i feel fucking great!!! emerald_touch: serial killer on the loose and everyone starts literally losing their minds loooool searing_sparrow: something happened at that place. i swear. i felt fine at first too but i woke up this morning and my heart feels like it's beating out of my chest. a couple min ago i called my mom and told her some shit i've kept from her in years and i don't remember what the hell i was thinking when i wanted to do that. i barely remember the call at all its like it was someone else and i was just watching from the other side. i feel like i'm going out of my mind radiant_flame: hey (@)searing_sparrow i'm friends with OP and i went to check up on them earlier today and the way they were acting... i'm worried. can we talk offline? silver_lantern: i don't think you're sick. https://www(.)thebell(.)com/article/23-08/water-advisory-issued-foul-play-suspected-by-enforc…

THE BELL > CURRENT EVENTS > TODAY WATER ADVISORY ISSUED. FOUL PLAY INVOLVED?

❝ [11:22 KST]. the city has issued a PUBLIC DRINKING WATER ADVISORY affecting ALL public and private buildings registered to the city of ansan. no specific details have been provided yet, but the contamination is confirmed to be neither toxic nor harmful. drinking from impacted water sources can result in several days of a FEVER-LIKE CONDITION, including high temperatures, erratic behavior, and lethargy/overactivity. the city advises all citizens to AVOID CONSUMING WATER SOURCED WITHIN ANSAN, including but not limited to: tap water, bottled water of ansan origins, and potentially natural sources of water within city limits. this warning remains in effect until the city deems it safe. civil offices are already facing outcries as this advisory comes amidst a pending murder investigation, for which the enforcer division still has not resolved. multiple anonymous sources have claimed that they experienced these symptoms far earlier, however, suspecting that contamination may have began as early as the day the murder investigation was publicized . . . ❞

OOC INFORMATION.

welcome to PART II of [EVENT 002] SHADOWS OVER ANSAN!

this event will last OOC from 3. august - 17. august.

ansan's water sources have been contaminated with an unknown substance that causes anyone who drinks it to experience a hazy, fever-like condition that makes them more . . . HONEST.

to participate, simply reblog the PROMPT LIST for each participating muse and make sure your askbox is opened.

all participants are required to send at least one prompt to all other participants. you may send multiple prompts out to each muse, but at least ONE prompt should be sent OFF-ANON so that the admins can make sure everyone is participating fairly!

to avoid blogs possibly getting sh@dowbanned, try to avoid sending many prompts in a short period of time.

as this event is a pseudo honesty hour, we want to encourage the spirit of honesty! in-character, this condition makes the muse feel more feverish / nauseous / faint if they actively attempt to lie or suppress the urge for honesty. avoiding the truth can also heighten the symptoms.

conversely, giving into the honesty will grant the muse a brief feeling of relief from the symptoms.

[alwaysthesitter]

This is going to be my last post about everything, honestly probably ever. And it's going to have some updates as to what this blog will look like in the future.

I don't condone call out culture. Clearly. It's in my rules. I'm having a lot of mixed feelings about what is going on, and quite frankly, I'd be a hypocrite if I was completely thrilled that someone else is being put through this, regardless of what they did to me. I don't want anyone to be harassed. I don't want anyone to be labeled "bad" or "good." All I really hope that the community takes away from this, is to ignore call out posts. Vague posts. Ignore them. Take them with a grain of salt. Get both sides of a story. Stop believing people at face value. Trust your own judgments of a person. It's one thing to be cautious, of course you want to stay safe, but if someone has been nothing but kind to you? Maybe you should just assume that they're kind, and let your experience be your tool for judgment. People can block people that they have issues with. You do not have to have issues with someone, just because someone else does. Everyone has different experiences with everyone. Let your experience define your judgment. I don't like that people are being called out right now, even if I'll fully admit that there's a moment of "this is justice." It feels gross. I've been there, I've been scared, it feels gross. Wanting a "bully" to be drug through the mud would just make me a bully in return. All I hope is that this experience helps people to realize to use logical thought, to not judge people based on one person's experience, and to curate their own space without making a space that others are telling them to.

What does this all mean for me in the future? Well, I'm not going anywhere. I've come to realize that you can be the nicest person in the world, and people are still going to think you're horrendous and toxic. You can be a manipulative person doing things behind people's back, and people are going to think you're fantastic and a savior to the community. I think that's pretty true in real life too, but especially in the rpc because people don't know the real you. They know a presentation you have on a screen, which depending on how active you are, might only be an hour of who you are in a day. It might only be you writing when you're having bad mental health and need a release. Who knows? That's the point, who knows. It doesn't make it any easier. It hurts like a damn bitch when someone you got to know well ooc and you LOVED writing threads with suddenly decides you're a bad person. Tears will be shed. Heartbreak will happen. But what I'm really focusing on is that I can only control me. It's what I tell my Clients all the time in my job - I can't control what people think about me, I can only control my actions. People are going to like me, people aren't going to like me. People are going to believe the statements being made, or people are going to see it as absolute bullshit.

With everything that has happened the past day or so, I got excited. I thought that maybe people would realize the error of everything, and they would refollow me. Some people did, and I can't explain how grateful I am, and how relieved I felt. And some people didn't. Maybe they will, maybe they won't. But I need to not put my energy into those people. I need to focus on the people that know my truth, will stick beside me, and enjoy those connections that I do have.

So yeah, I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to keep writing. The Duffers fucked over Steve, and he deserves it. He deserves to have this life. Every writer out there deserves to give characters they care about a life of their own. I can only prove myself through my actions. I can keep writing, and people will ideally see that my dash is very clear of the stuff that's been claimed. Or they won't. But if I'm doing me, I'm doing me, and that's all I can do. My apology is going to stay pinned for the month of November, just in case people do come back. Because I do want them to know how genuinely sorry I am for the things I did do. But after that, I'm going to pin my initial pinned post back, and move forward from this.

I love you all. I know there's a lot of feelings happening right now - trust me, the whirlwind of feelings in my own brain has been like whiplash. But tldr, just keep being you, keep doing you, keep writing beautiful characters, and the right people will come. And you will get to keep writing, regardless of this crap, because you deserve to be here. Everyone deserves to be here.

[tetsunohai]

#𝑇𝐸𝑇𝑆𝑈𝑁𝑂𝐻𝐴𝐼 . . . — an indepedent private selective original character ( SANATAKA BUSUJI ) written within gotōge koyoharu's kimetsu no yaiba adored by coma ( 24, they/them ) 18+ minors &. personals will be blocked please read rules before interacting

𝚊 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚍𝚢 𝚒𝚗 . . . — perseverance, the aftermath of puerile naivety, the exploration of invention, stalking one's prey, becoming an impenetrable wall, acts of cunning, and survival at all costs

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ[₁.] carrd.ㅤㅤㅤㅤ[₂.] memes. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ [₃.] edits.ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ[₄.] self promo.

rules also below the cut.

00. DISCLAIMER / if you've seen sanataka come across your dash before . . .

01. INTRODUCTION / hey, i'm coma! i'm a 24 year old burnt out retail worker that goes by they/them pronouns and am a live-in caretaker for a relative. i hold no claim nor ownership over kimetsu no yaiba and i operate under a strict 18+ rating. minors will be blocked, and blogs without an age listed on their blog will likely go ignored.

02. PASSWORDS &. FOLLOWING / i don’t send passwords. i don’t have a password. reading rules is the first thing i do before following a blog, and i expect the same courtesy. please keep in mind that this blog is also mutually exclusive and that i will be blocking unsolicited personals and non-mutuals who interact with my posts (this includes liking my threads. please don't).

03. DISCOURSE &. UNFOLLOWING / i will not tolerate any hate towards anyone, ever. i don’t do callouts, i don’t do drama, and if someone ends up being problematic / potentially dangerous, there's a block button i'll happily use. the only other exception that may lead to me unfollowing is inactivity without a hiatus notice. but always feel free to hit me up again when/if you return, and i’ll gladly refollow!

and just a heads up! my memory is shit and tumblr is broken. if you're a mutual that has unfollowed me, PLEASE HARDBLOCK ME, if you softblock, i may assume it was a misclick on my part and refollow. i'd like for everyone to be comfortable on their own dash, so regardless of the reason, hardblocking will ensure that i don't make that mistake.

04. ACTIVITY / i maintain extremely low and sporadic activity, sprinkled throughout sunday through wednesday as my schedule allows. i'm often preoccupied with working full-time and having irl responsibilities, but i consider roleplaying a hobby and won't be around all the time to indulge. if at any point i find myself not hoping on for a month or so, i'll take that as the sign it is and take a step back. i'll post a hiatus notice at that point, and return when either my motivation returns or when life slows down again.

rest assured i'm either planning on returning or am being active somewhere else for the time being. i'm too much of an rp nut to quit cold turkey (much to my own detriment LOL)

05. OC'S &. CROSSOVERS / oc friendly, as long as you've got a bio up i am down to clown.

rn i am crossover-tentative. this is because my anime pool is hilariously small nowadays (the only ones i've watched with any consistency in the past four years have been kny, jjk, and lately frieren), and also because sana is a kny-focused oc. but if you've got a kny au, i would be thrilled to write with you!

06. CONTACT &. MEMES / memes are great icebreakers! even if we’ve never interacted before or if i even reblogged the meme months ago, you’re more than welcome to send one (or more) in and continue it into a thread to get the ball rolling. I actually prefer this to plotting!

i answer my asks in separate posts to make them easier/neater to reply to and i usually make them open-ended so that they can be easily continued.

if you are a plotting preferred blog, please do not be deterred! if you'd do me the immeasurable kindness of throwing quite literally ANY general concept my way, i have a much easier time with coming up with contributing ideas. it's the initial start off point that i seem to be terrible at.

07. SHIPPING / i’m open to all sorts of ships as long as there's chemistry! romantic, platonic, familial, antagonistic, etc. even hashing out some pre-established possibilities, given that there's a dynamic to workaround! sanataka is currently multi-singleship, meaning any relationship romantic in nature will be exclusive to ONE PORTRAYAL of a muse.

08. ROLEPLAYING &. THREADS / i'm super into multiple threads with one mun! there are always tons of scenarios to explore! and there are multi-muses to consider, but even if you're single-muse, this definitely still applies.

just please refrain from pestering me for replies! i do things at a pretty glacial pace and prioritize my real life over tumblr, so i can be pretty slow at cranking out drafts.

09. NSFW / NSFT &. SENSITIVE MATERIAL / anticipate a healthy dose of canon-typical violence, or potentially suggestive themes. i WILL NOT explicitly rp smut.

threads or blogs fetishizing incest, rape, a/b/o, pedophilia or condoning transphobia, racism, ableism, etc etc or any sort of bigotry are liable for an immediate hard block.

10. GRAPHICS CREDITS / i did em myself! slaving away with photopea! my psd is literally just a levels/exposure adjustment with a noise filter slapped on top (ツ)_/¯

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Wednesday, February 21st, 2024!

4:13am: Ok I love when I read something online and it actually helps sometimes it just takes a day to find ofc someone, or a whole group/ thread of ppl to relate to. I love the Internet, it helps when you're alone 80% of the time.

Ok so a thread about shame/guilt. But it's a good one bc a lot of the time ppl will post about guilt but then everyone in the comments just yay/nays what they did. This guy never says what he did so it's definitely more applicable to other scenarios and not just a peanut gallery.

Basically, kind of like CBT for intrusive thoughts. Pretending like you're telling someone this story, how would they react? Pretending like ok your worst fear about this case comes true, then what? (Either breaking into my apartment, stealing my cats (idc about other possessions personally but to each their own) or being taken to small claims court I suppose. All of these things, even the worst being the cats being taken away somehow, I know I'll live and life will continue on. Things happen for a reason I 100% believe that nothing happens for no reason. There's a reason this chain of events occurred. Something is telling me God was maybe the one looking for any reason to cut him out of my life. Just have faith in something and you'll always have that something to live for (at a minimum, besides all of the other wonderful things there are to live for).

It happened, I apologized, I offered to help, I made my amends. Could things have gone better? Yes I'll take accountability for that. But also, did he have to threaten my brother twice last week? Absolutely not, and he does not realize how that impacted my decision to be much less cordial, less accommodating, because that would infringe upon my boundaries. I don't want my family to feel uncomfortable, this is a boundary for me now and yk it just doesn't only apply to relationships but also friendships. You were making my brother uncomfortable, there is now a crossed boundary and no shit I'm going to alter my behavior because you act erratically and think your behavior doesn't affect anyone outside of yourself. You are wrong.

The other thing the post says is identifying why you did what you did and how to not do it again. I did what I did because I was scared of you. I'm scared you would make a move on me if we went into that closet together. I'm scared of what would happen if I reject you. I'm scared that you were going to provoke a fight with my brother. I'm scared you're going to take my cats AND this is not irrational because you have given me reason to think you would because they are "in your name". You can't just say that shit to people and expect them not to fucking react to it, you are a shitty person for so many reasons and so many things you've said to me like WITHIN the last month bro, not even like I was holding onto shit you said a long time ago. No this was all recent bullshit you said to me and just thought you could get away with.

Ok so how to avoid this in the future? Don't associate with narcissist assholes who disrespect every person who has ever tried to be nice to them. Don't be friends with assholes. This is literally how I will avoid this moving forward. Don't move in with an asshole who is full of red flags. Ok I feel confident now that this will not happen again. Please feel free to refer back to this post. That's the remedy to this situation, don't get involved with a shitty person, once they show you they are shitty, time is up. Just don't get so entangled with a little bitch coward who is willing to value possessions over people time and time again. You know you're better than him, and there's other better people to be friends with. I actually feel like I can move on after writing this all out. I've learned my lesson time and time again with this one person. Repeated behavior doesn't change. Now if I had been known to destroy people's personal belongings, do you think he would've kept that shit here so long? No because I've never fucking done that before, intentionality or accidentally. So to act like this was some grand scheme of mine, he's just looking for a reason to hate me and dump his negativity onto me. I understand nobody likes getting their shit fucked up, and I apologized, he's too immature for me. I can't control what he does or how he feels, if this is how he chooses to react, my reaction to that is really all that matters! I just gotta do what's best for me.

"Life is 10% what actually happens and 90% how you react to it"

2:10pm: vibing in class, finally caught up with everything after being sick!! :') also sitting here thinking, I think my brother saved my life this weekend ❤️ truly, like how my neighbors saved my life. I love them all. I already feel so much less stress.

5:49pm: (text to speech while driving) I called his grandma and talked to her for an hour :) she told me when she saw that all of the things were wet that she just had to laugh and that she was not mad at me and this is why I love this woman she told him that he still could not be mad at me because of all of the f***** up s*** he did to me and she's right that's how I felt about it too I was like I could have thrown these things in the garbage and she & everybody is surprised that I didn't throw his s*** in the garbage like I what why would I keep the things and just let them get wet makes no sense and everybody knows it doesn't make any f****** sense except for his pea brain girlfriend. I feel better. This is so crazy and she even said that he did not mention anything about it to his grandma because he probably didn't even feel that angry about it and he knows it was an accident but that the grandma heard it from the girlfriend because she wants to run around and tell everyone that I left his stuff in the rain and then he just nods along to that, that's hilarious I feel like it would have been a non-issue except that his girlfriend is just running with it I knew it he doesn't hate me bro I f****** knew it he'll be back I'm going to give him his space because I mean I understand it's still not a nice thing to have happened to you and that's his ego talking, right, that ego that he has to protect by Acting mad or whatever but then once it blows over and nobody is bringing it up AKA she is not bringing it up I'm sure he'll find some reason to freaking text me again about something and then it's just all going to start up again. it's cool it is cool I don't know how long it's going to take but it will happen

Honest to God I'm just glad that Grandma thought it was funny and she's not mad and everybody still hates the gf and everybody thinks she's a snake and that she's fake and that something is morally wrong with her she's such a b**** and nobody likes her his grandma also said that she's working on giving him some type of timeline or ultimatum to move out because why would he still be living there as an adult like it just nobody wants him there AND she said it again she wants them to move in together so that they'll break up like and I keep telling her, you still don't like her?? like it's been literally 5 months they've been together for 5 months and I'm like, the fact that nobody likes each other still, nobody is trying to get to know each other, nobody has tried to make amends and everybody still is petty AF towards each other like that's not what I want to happen but that's what's happening and it has nothing to really do with me now it just has to do with the fact that she's fake as f*** and everybody can tell and he has too big of an ego to admit that he's just f***** up big time and then he just keeps f****** up it's insane the only thing that matters is my opinion about it, God's opinion about it, and his grandma's opinion about it bc she is a saint and she is amazing and I love her and I could talk to her for the whole entire night except I had to go to a meeting and now I'm here. What a relief such a relief I could talk to this woman every single day of the rest of our lives I love her and I mean even his grandpa even asked me like last week, called me randomly and was like when are you coming to town he's so cute I love them both, how can you not? oh wait unless you're a raging b**** 😂 he even mentioned to his grandma how nice it was that I sent him his birth certificate etc in the mail, like he KNOWS this was an accident, he's just being a little bitch for the time being 😂

6:06pm: Long story short, nobody is mad!! Normal people don't get mad about accidents plus everyone else would have thrown it away!! Grandma thought it was funny and still loves me, and he is just protecting his stupid ego 😂 I'm so glad I called her ❤️

P.S. Grandma did not GAF about poor grandpa dying 💀 she said I don't know that man 👀😂 aaaaaaaa I love her sm that's wild. She said the gf is so fake, just puts on this act like she's so innocent and everyone thinks she's just a weird POS. Plus she agreed it's fucked up and if she really cared about her grandpa she wouldn't have left!! I was like wtf?? Jeez so mf fake as helllllll and she's not fooling anyone yuck ick ick. And she STILL looks like a boy 💀 fucking dumbasses 😂

[athena5898]

(Disclaimer that I actually think social media is important and my hatred is to capitalism focus algos)

I'm a social media manager, which means I have to know how all these hell sites work (or figure out how one works very quickly). My disclaimer is that I like this site for my random shit despite the algo (of which I hate) and the inability to find new people. I am thinking that over time and as these shitty websites keep making mistakes, more and more people will go to federated alternatives. Until then I'm buying my time.

All that being said, people's response to blue sky is fucking wild! It is by far one of the worst social media platforms I've seen. It's like Equate Twitter (right before Elon Musk took over) and honestly, Twitter was already really shit at that point also, so to be the worst version of that is mind-meltingly bewildering.

Okay, so what do I mean by this? Shit isn't exactly constructive criticism. If you have been on one of these hellsites for any stretch of time, you come to learn that algos decide everything. Ever have something pop up into a feed that won't go away despite never liking something like that? That's the algo. It somehow got it in its little A.I brain that you like posts with brown shoes and now it must show you posts with that criteria until you slap it silly a few times and it knocks out of it.

The purpose of Captalism-based algos, is to keep you posting and scrolling. This is why Facebook incentives posts that make its users angry and why all of these companies LOVE misinformation.

What does this have to do with blue sky? It's no better, and honestly slightly worse because there is no way to search through the hellsite with hashtags or any other user-control features. This makes it horrendously hard to find people that aren't stamped approved by the algo god. Also despite claims of federation, it's not federated yet with only veiled promises of doing it in the future. (yeah right)

My issue is that, if you try to bring this up with people who use the site, they either ignore you or outright say that's not how it works! That's better than anything right now! It is the most bewildering thing I've ever experienced. Anytime I'm forced to use blue sky, it feels like a nightmare. I have absolutely no way of finding people unless they are being served to me in such a painfully curated obvious way that it almost makes me nauseous. If you complain about this, a blue sky person will tell you that you are just not using the website right. Or I'll see a post about how good "discoverability" is under blue sky. It...just isn't?

there is still a word limit, and unlike later Twitter, you can't do threads. Which is great for user engagement and creating clickbait argument bait for everyone to feed into everything...but it's not good for genuine engagement and actual conversations. (things people like this claim to care about).

All of this to say, I guess my issue isn't blue sky being shit, (cause of course the guy who designed Twitter who is making an alternative to elon is going to make it shit) but that people are *defending* this shit. Hell not just defending it, claiming it's the best thing to happen to social media. Watching people sign up and go to it slowly over time after they yelled and complained about Twitter even before musk showed up. (valid complaints too).

This could be the time to do something great. Instead, we get blue sky. My only hope is that because everyone scattered to the winds, it'll keep power out of any one group's hands as much as Twitter had.

I knew people were addicted to Twitter, but I had no idea that their addiction wasn't to social media but to *twitter* itself.

[thechaseofspades]

Longposting about having a post pop off

Recently, I posted a fun little poll (that you can still vote on!) asking people how they pronounce the term "aro". It's been a question that has stuck in my mind for a long time, since I tend to hear people say it differently from how I do. Thus, the poll.

Fast forward a couple days, and that post has more than 450 notes and counting, with more than 1,500 people voting in the poll itself. I'm fairly certain that's the most people I've ever had view anything I've ever done, let alone interact. At the very least, it's the most that I'm aware of.

At first, it was pretty neat to see the numbers go up. It was even more neat to see how each individual person answered the question in the tags or replies. I had intended to comment back on each of them, but by the time I thought to do that it was already way too much to even try.

More under the cut....

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Still there? Cool.

I'll start by saying that I appreciate everybody's feedback, one way or the other. It does seem that I didn't optimize the poll very well, and could have worded it much more carefully, but I also didn't expect more than like 10 votes from my usual circle anyway.

Anyway, it's been a few days, and the notes just keep coming. The votes also keep on coming. Every time I open the app, I'm met by dozens of notes, many of which saying pretty similar stuff. After all, how many different ways could you pronounce "aro"? Was I expecting much out of left field?

And while that's still something I like about the post -- seeing everyone's viewpoint and how they approach saying a word -- it's really starting to grind on me in a not fun way.

Like I said, I'll see dozens of notes, about half of which being reblogs, every single time I open up the app. It's no longer about seeing how individuals think about stuff. It's just piles of avatars saying the same sort of thing over and over and over.

Which brings me to the least fun part about the whole experience. While most of the reblogs and replies are friendly and innocent, there's enough that come off as passive aggressive and even insulting that it makes me sad. I don't like being sad.

Two of the most common threads are my usage of the "eh" sound to express how I pronounce "arrow", and just general commentary on my accent (y'all have literally never heard me talk before ever). Sometimes it's just general observations, but other times it feels almost accusatory. Like how dare I try to explain what sounds sound like to me. How dare I claim that "aero" and "arrow" sound very similar to me. How dare I grow up with a hybrid midwestern-southern accent that dictates how I hear and say words.

(yes I am probably being dramatic but shhhh)

To be clear, this is probably a small minority of notes among the literal hundreds of people just answering the question they were posed. But like I said, I see these notes in bunches, so even if it's just like 5%, that still means I'm statistically likely to see at least one of them every single time I check on the post.

I don't want to sound like I'm grouchy about a post spreading like I literally asked for it to in the text. It's cool to see the post continue to grow, as more and more people chip into the discussion. But the comments I mentioned, no matter the intention behind them, just make me feel not great about the whole thing.

You know what? Yes. I should have been more careful of my wording, and more considerate of my and other people's accents, and researched on a more effective way to communicate the pronunciation of things, and maybe even just provided examples of what I meant so people knew what I was trying to get across. But it's way, way too late for all of that, isn't it?

(I should know. I went to edit the poll pretty shortly after posting, but for obvious reasons it won't let you do that.)

I want to make it very clear that I am not mad at anybody or blaming anyone for this. Maybe a little disappointed. But not mad. I'm aware that the post has strayed far outside the target audience, and I'll have to deal with the consequences of that. But maybe the next time you see a post from a random bozo like me, maybe think before just tossing out passive aggressive remarks or obnoxiously correcting them. Maybe check to see if they have gotten several of that exact same observation before you make that comment. Maybe, just answer the dang question.

Idk. I've had a tough two weeks completely separate from whatever petty tumblr drama I could possibly conjure up. I'm very tired. But yeah. Don't make popular posts. Or at least be ready for random people to tell you that your accent seems kinda wack.

[kaceelou3]

Totally off topic, but I need to post this somewhere just to get this off my chest and feel like here would be best.

Last year on my sister in laws birthday I was woke up to my mom coming in my room in a panic and I didn't understand why. I didn't sleep almost at all the night before, so I was pissed I was woke up and got mean with my mom and tried staying in bed.

Then the words left her mouth that still bother me to this day..."we have a horse down and he's gone. You need to get up right now." I don't think I've ever thrown shoes on so fast in my life while still practically asleep.

Let's start from the beginning if you dont mind. Allow you to understand why this loss took such a toll on me.

Almost two years before we experienced this loss my sister had her horse out at a trainers place and we went out everyday to see her (the horse), well one day my sister went out without me then came back talking about this big horse the lady just got in on consignment (selling it for its owners) and how big and beautiful he was, but how he had a sad past with those said owners. That night the trainer posted his sale ad. They were asking $2500 for him and said they'd be riding him and keeping him in shape until he was bought. I seen his photos and knew I had to have him. He was one of my many dream horses.

Fast forward a few months and no one wants to buy him. "Hes too old for me." Is what one person claimed and why his owners were getting rid of him, but he honestly wasn't that old. He was only 13. The trainer decided that since no one wanted him she would buy him for herself because she needed a big horse to help gentle mustangs that were bigger then her usual horse she used and she needed one she could break colts with as well. One that wouldn't let a horse get away with what it wanted to do.

Well my sisters mare, which is as gentle as can be from the day we got her, took to this horse that was 2-3 times her size in a heartbeat. Most people would say "that's just how horses are." But if you know horses well enough you'll know they aren't angels and they definitely don't always take to other horses quickly. Well my sisters mare was probably the most pickiest horse out there when it came down to other horses. Especially ones that were riding age (3+ years old) and older.

One day our dad decides to come out and see how she is doing because literally everyone loves this horse and can't go longer then a few weeks without seeing her. He sees this big horse and goes "is he for sale?" And the trainer goes "no he's not sorry." Making my dad sigh and say "well if he's ever for sale let me know. I'll talk to the wife and see what she says." Only making the trainer laugh and say "ok."

A few days later as we are helping her turn horses loose in pastures she hands me thread to this horse which I am very much intimidated by and says "here you can go turn him loose. Hes very gentle, but watch that buckskin mustang tied by the gate. Hes a kicker and doesn't care whats behind him. He will kick because he loves to do it." I nodded and lead him to the gate where the trainers son was supposed to be holding it open for us. All it took was a hesitation in my and the horses steps for this one to start kicking at us and missing my hand by mere centimeters.

I duck and am terrified because not even a year prior I had been in a car accident that messed up my head. The horse I was leading sensed I was scared and not only shielded me with his body, but pushed the other against the panels to the pen and kept kicking until that one knew that it wasn't ok to just start kicking for no reason and stopped. Mind you the horse I am leading knows better then to kick when caught and being lead, so I know he did it to show me he had my back and that everything was ok, as crazy as that sounds. The trainer (who is not like this at all) even said she's pretty sure he was protecting me. From then on I had a type of respect and love for this horse.

Not even 3 months later we ended up buying this horse from the trainer because of no fault of his own. She just couldn't afford to feed him or a few others anymore, so she reached out to us first about buying him. She wanted him to go to a good home where she could still visit him and all of us loving this horse she knew we'd be the best fit for him.

One thing I will say is this horse live up to his name everyday of his life. Even in death he did.

In less than one year we had done alot of things with him and he showed he had a crazy personality by picking things up and running with them. It didn't matter what it was. He'd steal beer, ropes, shoes, anything he could pick up with his mouth he was bound to grab and run with it. Unless it was a rock or tarp. Then he thought they were going to eat him.

The place we had them on the guy came to us and let us know it was getting sold and he would give us as much time as we needed to find a new place to keep out 3 horses, so we started looking and found a very close family friend who told us we could keep them at their place, so we made the big move with them and when they got to their new pasture they loved it. I wont say much on it, but there was lots of excited and happy running and bucking involved once all of them were loose.

We managed to get alot of gorgeous pictures of our 'new' addition to our herd here. Usually they were taken in his favorite spots in the pasture. We also got lots of photos of him running and just being a flat out dork like he was known for.

June 24th 2021 was coming up fast and my sister in law just kept telling us "I dont like mt birthday because something bad always happens on it whether its people arguing or something else. Something always happens except for that one year." We just kept telling her everything would be ok and not to worry or overthink because a birthday should be a happy day, so she told us she would try and so she did.

Resume back to how I started this. My sister in laws birthday, we got a call about a horse being down and gone, so I throw shoes on and my mom makes multiple calls in just 5 short minutes. Her first call was to my sister who left her job the same time as us and beat us out there by 10 minutes. Just was we took a corner my moms phone went off and she told me to look at it because it was probably my sister, so I did and it was her. She confirmed it was our boy we had for 1 year and 8 months. We may have only had him that long, but he meant the world to all of us...

Thats why I still miss him.

Hes the one I have set as my pfp. My pfp i was planning on changing 2 weeks before he died, well it was more like killed.

He didn't die a natural death because of complications from old age and we didn't have to put him down at the age of 15 either. We didn't have to because he was struck by lightning. Where I live it is a 1 in a 1,000,000 chance a horse will get struck. I always believed he was one in a million and I guess mother nature thought the same too because on June 24th 2021 at 9:00 in the morning the small 5 minute lightning storm that blew through didn't take just empty clouds with it whem it left. It took the soul of one of my best friends and part of my heart with it.

Warning it gets a little graphic past here:

At 9:00 am that day a horse was struck by lightning. The lightning that was attracted to our small creek that runs through the pasture and a tree did hit its targets, the water and tree, but it was also attracted to the closest metal thing that was touching the ground and that happened to be Brutes metal shoes. There is a chance that without his shoes on he may still be alive, but there is also a chance that he may not be because whether the horse has shoes on or not its still the same chance of getting struck.

Now if you remember what I said about him living up to his name even in death here's why I said that. Most horses when struck in the head by lightning would instantly fall over and die. It doesn't matter what breed they are, but with Brute whose skull was split damn near in two if not in two by the strike and had both eyes shriveled in his head if not blown from his head from the heat of the strike plus open wounds where it exited his body and he was bleeding from his eyes, nose, mouth, butt, and where it hit him in the head he still ran atleast one lap around our pasture including through water multiple times and while leading our other two horses. Our pasture is atleast two and a half acres.

He died in one of his favorite spots. He tripped and couldn't get back up afterwards. We know all this because we followed his blood trial from where he got struck to where he laid.

People can also say animals don't have a sense of what's going on or that they can't grieve like us, but that day watching our other two stand there over him with their heads low and their body language saying they were upset I can say from experience they do grief like us or they can. My sister mare who took to him from day one went from being able to do anything with her to now we are practically at square one with her. From that day up until now she hasn't been herself and neither has my boy. My boy went from the sweetest horse you could ever meet other then my sisters mare to now unless your me or my sisters mare you can't go near him without him going after you in an aggressive way. He started this the same day his best friend died. He hasn't changed back to himself. The mare? She's not herself either yet, but she's doing better then mine is.

Just for fun here's a video I made tonight in honor of my dads boy we lost. I wish I could post more then just this one, but this one will have to do