#Even though I've done nothing wrong and I don't owe anyone an explanation for like. Thinking voting is good actually. Or whatever.

[fantasy-costco]

Ramble vent in the tags about. Tumblr.

[love-hatred-stuff]

solo [sequel shot]

》 alright so I know it's starts off rough but this is for those who needed a happy end for my fic "solo"

Enjoy my babiesss :3 ♡

"Come on. Please tell me what I did wrong and I'll fix it."

"I'm wrong, James! I was wrong and that isn't your fault. I just don't wanna hang out anymore." A few tears slipped past your eyelids. You were devastated and you knew this day would come. You knew one day he'll find someone that's better than you. Not as broken as you. More useful as a partner in a relationship and not someone who ruins fucking everything.

You were truly heartbroken. But you tried to be happy for him and you were actually. It stung nonetheless, seeing him with another girl that seems to be so put together, so emotionally available. Complete opposite of you and you guess that's why it hurt even more. Him picking someone who is the exact opposite personality type of yours, not to mention someone who looks completely different from what you looked like. It underlined your deepest fear, him actually prefering everything that doesn't represent you.

The thought that had held you together for the past years had suddenly lost its meaning, the thought that he loved you more than anyone else, his promise to be always available for you, vanished, broken. You tried to understand, but it was more than just hard to comprehend.

"But why won't you tell me the reason!?" Bucky was crushed when he heard from you that you can't see each other anymore privately, that he had to forget about you and your close friendship. Because what you didn't know, was that he still loved you, he never stopped. He had never found someone better than you because for him someone like that doesn't even exist. Bucky only ever wanted you to be his, the person he's been in love with for the past two years, the one that he can't help but feel the need to take care of.

"I can't just say 'yeah okay, I won't bother you anymore' to my best friend of so many years I've lost count! You're not just a friend to me, y/n. You're everything I have. You're the only person that truly knows me." James wiped his mouth in desperation. He couldn't loose you. He'd stop breathing.

"Yeah, clearly not." You mumbled under your breath.

"What was that?" He didn't quite catch that.

"James, you know how I am. I'm selfish, manipulative and stubborn. I can't look at your face anymore. Not while knowing you're thinking of someone else while looking a me."

Buckys eyes widened. Only now realising what was going on.

"Why would I do that? I only ever think of you. My brain doesn't even know what to think of otherwise. Would you mind to explain what or who got you thinking this way?" He k ow demanded further explanation.

"I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I'm gonna head home." Was the only answer you gave him, taking your bag, ready to leave him the fuck alone with his new girl.

"I think the fuck not." Bucky walked in front of you, blocking your way.

Now it was your turn to be surprised. He never talked to you like this. He barely cursed.

"I really should though, I don't wanna take away your quality time with someone else." It may have sounded childish but you meant it. You didn't wanna take away his chance to find and enjoy love. You've done that enough the past years.

"What are you even talking about? I don't have anyone else to spend my time with, are you kidding me?" He was endlessly confused.

This was the last straw, now you were getting angry. He should stop acting like he wasn't meeting up with this girl that he met at a party. You were fucking there when they introduced each other. And you were convinced he had already slept with her. Though you wouldn't blame him, as she really was gorgeous, not only that, but she seemed genuine, too. A real catch.

"Are you kidding me?! James, stop acting like there's nothing between Anna and you! I know there is, I have eyes, you know. Besides, Steve always tells me how much you talk, not only with her but also about her. And knowing that makes me sick! I want you to be happy, and if that happiness doesn't require me, I'm fine with that, but I don't wanna watch you fall in love with her! I just can't, okay? So my decision is to avoid you two so I don't have to look at it any fucking longer, or else I'll go insane!" That's it. That's all you had to say. It was more than you intended to but at least you've got it out.

Bucky just stood there, completely baffled, speechless. He couldn't believe it.

You've tried to shove him out of your way, but he didn't budge.

"If you aren't gonna say anything, can I leave?" You groaned, feeling vulnerable now that he knew your heart.

"So you are telling me, you're jealous of Anna? Of someone who'll always be more interested in you than me?" Your heart began to race.

"Are you implying that she isn't into guys?" You wanted to make sure, not quite getting his point.

Bucky nodded calmly.

"Yeah, she's into you though." He replied.

"Oh my God!" You scoffed, embarrassed by yourself, looking anywhere except his eyes.

"I really thought you liked her. I thought you two were hooking up. I'm so sorry for misinterpreting this, James."

"Quit with the 'James'. You were jealous, weren't you?" He nudged you.

"I guess I was." You nodded shyly.

"Does that mean that- that you like me?" His cheeks getting rosy, you looked up at him.

"Of course I like you, dork!" You laughed, but he sighed.

"No I mean; really like me. As in you're in love me?" Bucky was unsure and scared asking this, but it was time to make this confession.

You looked away, your smile turning into something more vulnerable.

"I don't know? I just want you to myself. I want you to only take care of me, no one else. You're only boy I would let sleep in my bed next to me. And over all I guess I wouldn't mind being more than just a friend to you."

Bucky gently stroked your tear stained cheek, looking lovingly into your eyes.

"You've always been more than a friend to me Y/n. If you let me, I would like to call you my girlfriend and not just my best friend. Because hell, I fucking am in love with you!" He leaned in and let his lips softly touch yours for the first time. It was even better than he imagined it to be.

You two kissed for the following ten minutes without having to take a break. When he carefully let go of your lips to breath, he leaned his forehead against you and sighed once again, this time in utter happiness.

"So what do you say? Will you finally be mine?" His voice sweet and so full of love, just like the kiss you had shared.

"I don't know, what did you say? Anna likes me, yeah?" You joked, giggling into his chest.

He laughed along with you.

"Don't you dare." Bucky smiled, giving you another kiss.

He knew he wouldn't ever be able to get enough of the girl he was now finally allowed to call his.

[free--therapy]

Hello, it's 🌼 anon! I hope you're doing well.

This is something I've mentioned before but can i ask how do i learn to accept myself for my own opinions without comparing myself to the majority?

There are many things I've mentioned before, all the actions i regret doing and stuff like that. But sometimes when I'm around people i love, i end up thinking "do i deserve to be around these amazing people?" I mean, i feel like someone like me who has watched weird content online and has so many different opinions doesn't "deserve" to be around people.

I'm not sure why but i just sometimes end up seeing others (especially people who are nice) as "normal and good" while i see myself as someone who is "abnormal or weird" when it comes to certain things. so i feel like i don't have a place in a community where others are "good or normal"

It's like I'm believing some random past actions of mine almost like an "identity" or label of sorts and i treat/see myself based on that. Like "I'm a person who made so many mistakes or did some bad things or watched xyz content" so because of all this, i feel i am weird and not as normal as others so i end up thinking, "do i deserve to be a part of a community where everyone else is so normal? Surely they would've never done something like this?"

This eventually ends up making me think that "if these people were to know these things about me, they definitely wouldn't accept me either" and i end up feeling like i shouldn't try to fit in because they're gonna be disgusted by me.

Maybe I'm being too harsh on myself? Maybe I'm jumping to extreme conclusions again?

But what am i supposed to do? Is it more like...i should develop this pattern of thinking where i should learn to respect myself enough to truly believe that i don't deserve to be treated badly based on my past or my differing opinions?

I mean, it's not like i can go around people and whenever i feel like i don't belong, i can't really just go up and spill out my past to every single person i want to be friends with or something, right? But i feel like i keep them in the dark or like I'm deceiving them by not coming clear about everything. Obviously this is not practical though.

I feel like i need to learn and believe that I don't need to explain myself (my past, my opinions) to everyone just to be able to fit in with them or be liked by them. I don't owe anyone any explanations for it.

Like if i watched something weird when i was young, i don't need to explain it or come clear about it to someone just to be able to deserve their love right? After all, it has nothing to do with them. Yet i keep feeling "yeah it has nothing to do with them but think about it, if they did know, would they treat you the same way?" And this thought really messes me up sometimes tbh

But can i ask you something though? If a person changes the way they treat me or if someone treats me badly just because i watched something they are disgusted by, if i have opinions they think are weird and stuff, then does that mean that person is not right for me? I mean, if they treat me badly because of these things about me, then are they at fault? Or is it my fault that i am like this?

I don't know if they're wrong or if it's me.... in that case. I do feel like i don't need to explain myself to everyone because i inherently deserve to be loved by people without feeling like i need to come clear aboyt whatever. And to begin with, if they were the type of person who would treat someone badly just because of this then doesn't that mean that the person is not someone who i should be around anyway?

what i mean is, we don't need to be explaining all our faults or mistakes or even opinions to everyone and waiting for them to judge us before feeling like we belong among them. if i feel like maybe they'll be disgusted by me then isn't that simply just my anxious thoughts feeding me lies?

And i don't need to explain myself then? To anyone? Is it okay to enjoy what i enjoy, think what i think, get along with people without feeling like i need their or someone's else's permission beforehand? is it okay to not share all my shortcomings with people around me or on the internet and still believe that i too "fit in" or "belong" to different communities just the way i am now?

i mean, there will always be people who understand my opinions too or who share my opinions or even people who might not understand but still decide to respect me regardless?

so instead of feeling like i need to be coming clear about everything to everyone and waiting for them to judge me or pass on their judgement on whether i belong in the community or not, would it be alright if i just decide that "whatever. i want to belong in this community and i want to be part of it so i will. i don't need someone's permission nor do i need to confess everything i think is wrong with me because nothing's wrong. i am my own person and i'm okay the way i am, with all my mistakes and opinions. who i am now is important and even then, it doesn't mean i need someone's approval to feel good about something. If i like it, i do and no one can tell me i don't deserve to "like" something just because i did some mistakes or just because i have different opinions than their own.

i still deserve to love what i want to love and belong where i want to instead of always overthinking it so much.

right now how I'm combating these thoughts is when i feel like "they wouldn't treat me nicely if they knew" i tell myself "but there's nothing wrong to begin with when it comes to my opinions, they're just different from the majority maybe. as for my mistakes, they don't need to know because it shouldn't matter either way."

"I deserve to love what i want to love regardless of ANYTHING" is this okay?

Sorry if this doesn't make sense, and thank you for reading!

Hey Anon 🌼

It's nice to hear from you. I have been doing fairly well, thanks for asking :)

You just have to learn how to stay true to yourself and your beliefs. We so badly want to fit it with other people or seek validation from other people when we hold certain beliefs because we want to know we have the right opinion on something, but in reality, there is not a single thing in the world that 100% of the people can agree on…not even the things you'd think everyone should know as fact. Give yourself the permission to be okay with being different. It doesn't make you a bad person to be different.

You most definitely deserve to be around the people you love! I'm sure even they have done things in their lives, whether past or present, that they're ashamed of. The great thing about family and friends and loved ones is that their love is generally unconditional. You also have no idea what kinds of shameful things they're involved in or have been involved in in their past that they would think you would probably shun them for if they brought them up. It's so easy to think we're so much more different than the people around us, when so many of us are guilty of similar things. It's very easy for people to hide things from you to make you think they're normal. Regardless of whether or not they have their shame and dark secrets, I'm sure you'd still love them regardless. Why not grant that same unconditional love towards yourself? No one is perfect and there will always be things people won't want to talk about. Doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

I think you're definitely being more harsh and critical of yourself. But so many of us do this, so it's not surprising to me that you'd think that way about yourself. You most definitely have to work on your self-respect as it'll help you develop your sense of self-worth. It's a process and a journey, but it starts by not betraying yourself by thinking you don't deserve this or that because of your mistakes.

I feel like i need to learn and believe that I don't need to explain myself (my past, my opinions) to everyone just to be able to fit in with them or be liked by them. I don't owe anyone any explanations for it.

Yes, you definitely don't owe anyone an explanation for anything you've done. If people reject you because of your past, then they're not worth being around or being friends with. Like I said, no one is perfect and if people can't forgive or accept people because of things they've done in the past, not only are they hypocritical, but they also lack the concept of unconditional love and sooo many people fail at this too unfortunately!

"But can i ask you something though? If a person changes the way they treat me or if someone treats me badly just because i watched something they are disgusted by, if i have opinions they think are weird and stuff, then does that mean that person is not right for me? I mean, if they treat me badly because of these things about me, then are they at fault? Or is it my fault that i am like this?

It just means that they lack the ability to be understanding and compassionate. A lot of people jump to conclusions because there's a lot of stigma around taboo subjects. It doesn't make the rejection easier, but if people aren't willing to understand why you did what you did and love you regardless, then yea, maybe they're not right for you. If they treat you badly or differently because of it, then that too shows lack of compassion…but that being said, we can't expect everyone to accept us. That's on them to figure that out and not ourselves. I think if they took the time to understand that it's something you're aware of as being something unfavorable by people and that you feel remorse or regret because you were just being curious, then they'd have no reason to have to be so harsh. It's really not any of our responsibility to live up to the perceptions or ideas people have of us in their heads. If they can't accept you, flaws and all, then that's their problem. People can and should still be friends with people, even if they disagree on certain things.

if i feel like maybe they'll be disgusted by me then isn't that simply just my anxious thoughts feeding me lies?

Yes. You're using the cognitive distortion of jumping to conclusions/fortune telling or catastrophizing. It's so much easier to assume things negatively than positively, so it's natural for us to assume people wouldn't be so understanding.

And i don't need to explain myself then? To anyone? Is it okay to enjoy what i enjoy, think what i think, get along with people without feeling like i need their or someone's else's permission beforehand? is it okay to not share all my shortcomings with people around me or on the internet and still believe that i too "fit in" or "belong" to different communities just the way i am now?

Absolutely, 100% it's okay. If people can accept and respect you for your unique differences, then those are the kinds of people you want to be around.

You definitely don't need anyone's permission or approval to be yourself. You're allowed to exist and take up space in the communities that you wish to be a part of. You will eventually find your tribe of people who love and accept you exactly for who you are, flaws and all. It may feel like you'll never find these people, but you will! Just never give up because people reject you.

You most definitely do deserve to love what you love and find joy in it, regardless of what other people may think of it. You have to follow your own journey and maybe one say you'll naturally find that it's not resonating with you anymore so you'll move onto something else. But for now, just embrace what you love, even if others may not agree with it.

[nexyra]

RWBY's Love Language - Part 2

Hello friend ! I'm back at it with a second part and whatever character I can think of ! (Among which best boy Oscar because he deserves it, and also more adults)

Let's go !

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Oscar Pine

So ! While I love Oscar with my whole heart, honestly guessing his Love Language is no easy feat. One thing for sure : touch isn't is thing even if it's how everyone else chose to communicate their love.

I saw a post a while back detailing how Oscar is always putting his hands up as a barrier when he's scared or uncomfortable and that makes me cry a little instead but it's true TT. Anyway...

In the latest volumes we've got quite a bit of comforting Oscar-talks but I have to wonder how much of that is due to Ozpin's influence really. As a result I've decided to settle on... Acts of Service or Quality Time ! This is based on a few details : when people are upset with him in one shape or form, Oscar was always very eager to prove himself useful, give some aspect of concrete help (such as cooking a Casserole, ringing any bell ?). Plus I imagine that's the exact brand of help his Aunt would have needed most on a farm. Added to that, he always seems fairly happy to be included, be with the others no matter what's going on. Training ? Yay ! A movie with Jaune & Weiss ? Smiling puppy look. Fancy party ? Shenanigans together ! So yea, I love seeing my boy loved and hugged but please everyone settle for the loving he's most comfortable with <3

“She made a choice! A choice to put others before herself! So do I.”

“Oh, uh, yeah. I thought you guys would appreciate a hot meal after... spending all day looking for me, apparently.”

“No, it's okay. These past few days, I've been scared of the same things you were. I don't know how much longer I'm going to be... me. But I did some thinking, and I do know that I want to do everything I can to help with whatever time I have left.”

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Ozpin

For our favorite immortal wizard aka not quite dead Headmaster... I think the answer is rather obvious. When you're so careful with your words, but also so fiercely devoted to humanity, Words of Affirmation is a must. Ozpin constantly does his best to calm, to reassure. He's good at controlling the conversation and getting people where he wants... Except he more often than not use it to make them think and help them reach an healing ore motivating conclusion. This man is so insisten on giving and cultivating hope, so painfully aware of just how much words can change... There's no doubt in my mind that it's through these very same words that he tries to fight the darkness in others' mind, even when they don't want to let themselves be persuaded. And with some help from the farmboi, Ozpin is gaining in honesty and earnestness. And that can only help in giving comfort.

But to be honest... If you offer him a hug I doubt he'd refuse, and he definitely deserves one. Also therapy. For Oscar too. Everyone in therapy 2k21.

“Ruby. I've made more mistakes than any man, woman, and child on this planet. But at this moment I would not consider your appointment to leader to be one of them. Do you?”

“It's not every day that friends are able to come together like this. Time has a way of testing our bonds, but it's nights like these that can help keep them stronger than ever. Nights like these are ones we'll never forget.”

“Don't worry, Mr. Arc. Your journey is far from over, and the same might be said for all of you. Unlocking your Semblance isn't the end. It can still grow and evolve. Providing you are willing to put in the work, who knows what could happen?”

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Emerald Sustrai

Now here I'm gonna go ahead and say that the way Emerald has been taught to express her love and the way SHE would rather preffered to be loved most likely do not align. At the side of someone like Cinder, and even Mercury who isn't exactly the most emotionally vulnerable person; the only brand of love that gets an easy pass is Acts of Service, and that's probably what Emerald is the most used to. I can go on a mission with you. I can help. We go right back to the "I can be useful" mentality and I'm not sure she's been shown any other way honestly. Let's be real though : if someone offered a hug or some gentle words ? She'd probably pout & fuss but I hardly doubt she'd object.

“I don't care about Salem! But I owe Cinder everything. You want to fight her that bad? Be my guest.”

“I just... Cinder was the only family I ever had. She cared about me, taught me things... But without her here, I don't know if what we're doing--”

“I've been working on my Semblance. I can help. I won't tell anybody.”

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Pyrrha Nikos

What's with everyone and dedicating their whole love toward just helping their teammates anyway they can ?! Stop ! But any way, you guessed it. I'm pretty sure one of Pyrrha's top way of showing love is Acts of Service, and nothing means quite as much to her as Quality Time. For someone who's been put on a pedestal and has a hard time relating to people; both touch and words can be a bit awkward. But if they're wrapped up neatly in a training session or semblance explanations ? Well that's already a more familiar area. Pyrrha gives her whole to her friends and those she cares about. And in exchange, if anyone can simply... be there and spend time with her... May it be at the ball or simply sitting in the courtyard... I'm sure our girl would be delighted.

“Jaune, you know if you ever need help, you can just ask.”

“I'm constantly surrounded by love and praise; but when you're placed on a pedestal like that for so long, you become separated from the people that put you there in the first place. But thanks to you, I've made friendships that will last a lifetime.”

“I'll do it. If you believe this will help humanity, then I will become your Fall Maiden.”

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Qrow Branwen

If I say Gift Giving for the corvid, is someone gonna hit me ? Come on it's fun ! Okay, more seriously... I think this kind of love conversation is kind of a necessity for Qrow. With a semblance such as Bad Luck, making everything complicated... Qrow tries to keep his distance from those he cares about. And since he's an emotionally repressed (but caring) asshole on top of it... Well that kinda narrows down his option. You know what DOESN'T put anyone at risk but can still bring smiles on their face ? GIFTS. Shiny things, souvenirs from his missions all over the world to give to 2 smol nieces. Sounds safe right ? That said, as any good emotionally unavailable character in this show, I gotta say Qrow probably has a thing for helping out and making himself useful in relation to Oz, Tai or the rest of the inner circle. So you know what that means *whisper* Acts of Service.

That said ! When it comes to receiving some love back... Qrow probably likes everything he doesn't allow himself to have. Soft touches, loving & comforting words, spending time with a friend without his semblance making everything complicated... We know that's all he wants.

“You idiot. I know you didn't do this.”

“Look, pal, I'm not sure who you are, but you need to leave my niece alone.”

“No one wanted me... I was cursed... I gave my life to you because you gave me a place in this world... I thought I was finally doing some good...”

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Clover Ebi

And among our newbies (and gone too soon) friends we have Clover ! Clover was a very good contrast to our dusty old crow but also a great help. Kind-hearted, perceptive and honest; he knew just how to put Qrow's self-loathing in his place and push him to give himself some credit. He always had a nice word or a joke for everyone, and visibly the rock of the Ace Ops : an expert a keeping the moral up and the mood companiable. Evidently, Words of Affirmation was his expertise. Had things gone differently, I'm sure we'd have had time for many more earnest and helpful conversations with this teal-eyed fisherman.

“It's a good thing they had someone to look up to and get them through it. Not everyone is so lucky.”

“I meant deflect a compliment. Those kids wouldn't be where they are without you. You've had more of an effect on them than you realize.”

“We don't have to fight, friend.”

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Winter Schnee

And today in the "emotionally unavailable" category we have... Winter Schnee ! TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS PEOPLE ! Just - I would say look at Ruby but even she doesn't talk about her bad vibes... Nor does any of the "Words of Affirmation" peeps. Honestly what's wrong with y'all people ? Anyway Winter cares so much. Is it hidden behind professionalism and a stern *big sister* demeanour ? Sure. But it doesn't negate just how much she loves her closed ones. She's fiercely loyal, and even if she doesn't let her personal feelings get in the way of her duty and doing what needs to be done, no one is allowed to say she doesn't care. Countrary to Weiss, Winter doesn't seem as good nor as aware of the love that exists in simply *being* with people. Rather, she's dutiful and ready to help any way she can when given the chance. You guessed it, yet another Acts of Service kind of love... Maybe I'm doing this wrong XD. I'm on the fence about Words of Affirmation as well. Despite her standoffish looks, Winter has always been very open & reassuring during her discussions with Penny. But she's more stern when it comes to Weiss so I dunno x)

“I don't recall asking about your ranking, I'm asking how you've been. Are you eating properly? Have you taken up any hobbies? Are you making new friends?”

“You've grown up a bit, haven't you? You're not the little girl clinging to the family name anymore.”

“You can't just buy trust like everything else! You have to earn it!”

And that's it for Part 2 ! I might do some other characters if people suggest some but I don't have a pressing need to right now. I have many ideas of songs to apply to various characters however so that's prob what my next posts will consist of (or fun templates)

If anyone has tips to create RWBY gifs or links to download the eps in good quality I'll take it ! Good day everyone !