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Emotional blind spots.
Emotional blind spots refer to areas in our emotional landscape where we may lack self-awareness or understanding. These blind spots can prevent us from recognizing, processing, or effectively dealing with certain emotions or aspects of our emotional lives. They can manifest in various ways:
Repression: Certain emotions or experiences may be repressed or pushed into the subconscious due to discomfort or fear.
Denial: People might deny certain emotions exist within them, especially if those emotions are perceived as negative or conflicting with their self-image.
Projection: Sometimes, we project our own unresolved emotions onto others, attributing those feelings to them instead of recognizing them within ourselves.
Rationalization: We may rationalize or intellectualize our emotions, dismissing or explaining them away rather than truly acknowledging and addressing them.
Overcompensation: In an attempt to avoid confronting uncomfortable emotions, some individuals may overcompensate by adopting certain behaviours or attitudes to mask or distract from their true feelings.
Cognitive biases: Our cognitive biases can create blind spots, influencing how we perceive and interpret emotional stimuli.
Addressing emotional blind spots typically involves developing self-awareness through introspection, therapy, or feedback from trusted individuals. It requires a willingness to explore uncomfortable emotions and experiences and a commitment to honesty and vulnerability with oneself. By shining a light on these blind spots, individuals can better understand themselves and improve their emotional well-being and relationships. I have high alexithymic traits. So don't be so hard on yourself.
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Are you an ADHD entrepreneur who struggles with intellectualizing your emotions? 🤔 In the latest episode of The Weeniecast, I'm talking about the problem of ADHD individuals intellectualizing their emotions and I'll be sharing my own personal story! Here are some things you need to know. 1️⃣ Emotional processing is vital for success. 2️⃣ Emotions are energy in motion. 3️⃣ Emotions are not an impediment to success. Listen to the latest full episode of The Weeniecast podcast and I'll explain more about how you can get started with processing your emotions. 🎙️💼 weeniecast.com?utm_source=Tumblr&utm_medium=Tumblr&utm_campaign=50promo
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Body and Mind: Exploring Subconscious Memory
hile conventional wisdom often places the seat of memory within the brain, emerging concepts such as muscle memory and cellular memory invite us to explore a more holistic perspective. This article embarks on an enlightening exploration, drawing from the
Body and Mind: Exploring Subconscious Memory Why does bodywork work to treat traumatic memories? The concept of the subconscious mind residing in the body, often referred to as muscle memory or cellular memory, is a fascinating idea that blends elements of psychology, neuroscience, and holistic health practices. While it’s not entirely synonymous with traditional views of the subconscious mind,…
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🌙 सपनों के रहस्यों का पर्दाफाश: एक रोचक अन्वेषण 🧠" 🌙Mysteries of Dreams:...
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Navigating Family Dynamics: A Deep Dive into Boundaries with Nedra Glover Tawwab @NedraTawwab #TheDramaFreeWorkbook
Navigating Family Dynamics: A Deep Dive into Boundaries with Nedra Glover Tawwab @NedraTawwab #FamilyDynamics #Boundaries #EmotionalProcessing #Healing #Therapy #NedraGloverTawwab #TheDramaFreeWorkbook
Renowned therapist and author, Nedra Glover Tawwab, has made significant strides in helping individuals transform their family relationships. With her new book, “The Drama Free Workbook,” she offers a comprehensive guide and practical resource for navigating the complexities of familial dynamics and reconciling emotions. Available for preorder, this workbook serves as a valuable tool for those…
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Mystery of Dreams: What Happens During Sleep?
Decoding the Mystery of Dreams: What Happens During Sleep? #science #sleep #dreams #brainactivity #REMsleep #memoryconsolidation #emotionalprocessing #mentalhealth #healthylifestyle#wellness
Mystery of Dreams: Sleep is an integral part of our lives, and during sleep our bodies and minds undergo many important processes. One fascinating aspect of sleep is dreaming, which has intrigued researchers for centuries as they attempt to unravel what takes place in the brain during this mysterious experience. Photo by Oleksandr Pidvalnyi on Pexels.com At night, our brains go through a series…
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The New Journey of Unlearning Old Agreements and Relearning New Ones
In the process of unlearning old belief systems that have kept me trapped in my personal manifestation of Hell, and so that I could learn a whole new way of existing I’ve been digging deep into my shadow side. This is something that I felt I had already dealt with, but I’m realizing that I’ve only tapped into one layer of one out of many things I need to process and reprocess as many times as need be.
The journey I am on right now I requiring me to unlearn what I was programed and conditioned to believe and rewrite new truths that are a perfect match for the version of myself that I buried long ago. A part of this relearning is sharing the process. It doesn’t matter who sees this and who doesn’t. What matters is that I put it out into the world instead of internalizing it and keeping it trapped in my mental space.
I recently brought a new journal and, in that journal, I am going one by one through every little thing I feel is holding me back from my own manifestation of Heaven on Earth. This is going to be a very time-consuming process. And in the process, I expect to “die” and transition and with each death and transition will come a rebirth that brings me closer to my true form. It will bring me closer to fully embracing who I am and standing in my light unapologetically.
The first thing I decided to unpacked was my feelings of being trapped in a job I don’t really want to do, but feel that I have to do. The thing is I can never fully be happy at any job because what my Soul is calling out for is complete freedom and liberation. Most Gurus and spiritual leaders will say “just leave.” But that simply isn’t the case for every single people. This is the real world. I am a single parent trapped in this generational cycle of trying to live in survival mode.
That is when I had my first realization. I’m not really mad because I have to work. I am mad that I am “stuck” in a system that I perceive to be out of my control. This is one of the agreements that my brain had been conditioned to believe. I need to set my mind free from this conditioning. In order to do that I need to realize that I came here to be free. This reality that I perceive and exist in is here because my God self created it. The world that I exist in is a product of my manifestation. So, believing that I am trapped in a system that keeps me in a survival comes from the conditioning. It comes from my perception. My fear that I can’t get out only feeds into that manifestation.
So, I need to change the belief. This goes for anyone who believes they are a victim to this system. This reality is yours. You came into existence to experience this life. The choice is yours when it comes to if you're going to experience Heaven or will you continue to experience Hell. Are you going to continue to focus on your chains? Or are you going to focus on strengthening your wings to freedom? Your right to thrive while you exist on this planet is not something you have to earn or fight for. It is yours to claim as your birthright. There is a system in place that tries to keep us locked away from us being completely free and living out our true purposes as Human, but the key is not to focus on that system and instead focus on our liberation and our new truth.
This is something that I already knew within myself. But getting it out in this form only solidifies it for me. It's no longer a belief in my mind. I have made it concrete.
Another thing I realized when I was evaluating why I felt like my job was getting in the way of what I really want was the assumption that I am a failure. This is a feeling that I didn’t want to acknowledge within myself because I know it’s not true, but just because I knew it wasn’t true didn’t change the fact that those feelings where still there and needed to be dealt with. This assumption came to me when I was studying my history, and realizing that from other people’s perceptive that I have come some low. I was an Honor student and I was set to go to college and a really good kind even though I had some emotional things that really needed to be worked on. But then I got pregnant and I still tried to go to school, but ended up dropping out. I’ve worked at Walmart, I’ve been a janitor, and now I work at Family Dollar. If I was to ask my Hight School Self, would I see myself where I am now the answer would be no. But that’s also because my High School Self also didn’t see my surviving that long if I’m being completely honest. My High School self would actually be very proud of who I have become.
I am not where I want to be yet financially, but most people in my age group aren’t. My High School self would be so proud that I managed to drag myself here, heal myself, and reconnect the things I threw away because they weren’t seen as important enough by others. My feelings of feeling of being a failure do not come from myself. It comes from the assumption that that’s how other people perceive me.
As an only child I felt pressured to be the perfect version because it was the only type of validation and recognition I got. The idea that I needed to make a bunch of money to be happy came from seeing my parents' slave to survive and starve me emotionally. I’ve watched friends move on to finish schools and find better paying jobs. But none of that is in alignment with who I truly am and who I want to be. I’ve been unhappy because I assume that others see me as a failure because they have not seen the work, I’ve put into myself to be emotionally, mentally, and spiritually healthy and sound. They cannot see what I’m working towards because it goes outside what is considered the “norm” or the formula that our society has created that is supposed to grantee us success.
Money does not equate to success, at least not for me. I had to realize that the things that happened to me were happening for me. I am not where I am today because I fucked up. I am blessed because I am here because the Divine stepping in time after time to intervene and save my ass from myself and the people trying to control and shape me into their image.
No, I didn’t finish school, yes, I am a single mother, and no I don’t have the highest paying job. But what I do have is a vision that goes outside of the blueprint that our society has instructed us to follow. No one but me is meant to believe in that vision and only I can determine if I am succeeding in following that vision. I couldn’t fully accept the fact that I am succeeding until I first let go of the conditioning, I was holding to something.
No, I am not completely where I want to be and I still have more to unpack. This is barely touching the surface. But when it comes to having to work to survive. I realized my job at the present moment isn’t the problem. It's not keeping me from following my dream. It is aiding me create an exit strategy. It’s easy to just tell someone that they should follow their heart and take that leap of faith. But sometimes you don’t need to take that leap. You shouldn’t leap unless you feel ready. Taking baby steps will still get you there. If you need you can take baby steps until you’ve faced enough of your fears that you feel ready to leap. Progress isn’t overnight it comes in increments.
You may take that leap and be unprepared, and the letdown will only give you more regret and shame that you’ll have to process through. Or you can take it one day at a time. Do your best for the day. One day your best may be to leave that job because staying in that job will be less than your best. For me personally my job brings me financial security because I don’t have to put so much pressure on my projects and the things, I actually enjoy doing to bring me financial gains. My current job allows me to invest in the things I need to do what I love like this laptop I am using now and the paint and canvases that I need. While at my current job I take advantage of that time by allowing me to listen to really inspiring and thought-provoking material. I work in retail and that can be really draining because I am an empath, and my job allows me to practice pulling my energy back to me and grounding myself and real-life scenarios. My job atmosphere is very relaxing and chill I feel very comfortable stepping into my most authentic self, and my current job is so accommodating I am able to bring my son with me for about an hour until his Nana picks him up. I can't think of another job that would allow that, but I am thankful as a Single Mother.
At this current moment I am able to focus on the good that my current job serves. I am doing my best. When I feel it is time to let go, I will let go. Until I am ready to let go, I can turn my present moment into my personal heaven for right now through doing what makes me happy and not feeling trapped because of system that doesn’t have any control over me. And I will not hold on to the guilt and shame that comes with my perceived perceptions of other people who don’t fucking matter.
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“Let me Love You”
Let’s get one thing straight: feelings are okay!!
This thought and truth has tried to set in for me in the last year and, even now, I’m continuing to process. You could have been in the same place as me: shamed or taunted for the feelings you have: be it sad, mad, happy, or afraid. You should not feel ashamed for feelings that are perfectly natural.
This also applies to having feelings for another person; it is perfectly natural and a part of life. This was my issue, and it almost ruined me until God intervened. I’m still single, and I may be for a while, but I have learned that, even though it is painful, my feelings are valid, as are yours.
I grew up with this common occurrence of people poking fun at one another when attractions come. This is what kids do, but it tended to get out of hand. By the time I was 18, I felt insecure about liking guys that it scared me a bit. Not to mention, no one had shown interest and, with me being “the weird kid”, I was the one people joked about having a crush on. The common answer was “ew no”. I wanted to find love, but I was scared, insecure, and naive.
That is, until I met one guy, who became my best friend. I fell head over heels for him but it was extremely unrequited and I built it up in my mind. Our friendship was great, but in reality, that was all it was: a friendship. I eventually told him and he did not feel the same way, but we stayed friends but eventually fell away from each other.
As this happened, I also fell out with other friends, and still unable to truly incorporate with my peers around me, I fell into despair. By this point, I was already in my downward spiral of identity and mental health issues, which is a story for another day. The loss of the one I was the closest with was detrimental. It was not until almost 2 years later I began to heal, finding a family I could trust and who knew my struggles, and yet still wanted to be around me. This was all I needed and I was perfectly fine with my ongrowing relationship with God and others around me.
One July afternoon, I was having my quiet time and I felt God speak to me. “If I asked you to be single for the rest of your life, dedicating your life to me, would you do it?” I pondered for a second, thinking of my heart’s desire to marry and have a family. However, I responded. “Yes, of course.”
The very next day, I had another time with God and I felt Him speak again. “If I brought someone today and said ‘this is him’, you both living for me and loving me, would you do it?” I froze. The mere thought of this desire actually becoming a reality, and so soon, put me in shock, even more than living a life of singleness. I was honest, saying I did not know if I could. I had never been loved before in that way, and I did not know the first step of a relationship. He ended the conversation with this:
“Let me love you in the way I show you”
I took this as a direct love from him, or through the people around me. I did not know what He meant at the time, but it would be the start of breaking down walls that I didn’t know needed to be broken.
A couple of months later, we had a week of teachings on Destiny by Design. During this week, I began to talk a little more with one of the guys in our house. This guy I had known for a while, but I never truly talked with him until just before this point. In fact, we had met before but, because he was extremely introverted and quiet, I forgot he even existed. As the week went on, we laughed, talked, and got to know each other a little more. I began to notice him from across the room, looking away and blushing whenever we made eye contact. I began to notice features of him and I realized he was actually very attractive. He was sweet, kind, gentle, funny, and- ah crap!
I was sat alone in a room one night when I was talking with the Lord, sharing about him before it hit me: I may actually like this guy! Now, when it came to the past crush, I would pray for him to like me or something like that. What was my first response?
“God! No, this can’t be happening! Please, take it away! I don’t want it! I want to be his friend but no feelings!!”
I was instantly afraid! This had happened before and I did not want to get hurt. I opened up to my discipler, hoping she would say, “Ah well, get over it, it won’t happen. Focus on God.” but what she told me was different:
“Feelings are okay!”
This was a common phrase to me. I began to soften to the idea, but staying rooted in reality. I took things to God... after a period of stubbornness. I prayed and took my own feelings slow. As this went on, he began to soften up. I was told he did this with people and, yes, to be careful. Careful does not mean closing off. Eventually, I was told that, no matter what, I will get hurt, but it is a matter of life that I will get hurt. I need to take care of myself, allow him to pursue me, and just pray.
I got to a point where I would pray this prayer:
“Father God, I love where he and I are at in our friendship. My heart wants more but I do not want to go off of my heart. Lord, if this is meant to be more than that, have your way in your time. If not, do not allow this to go further.”
This is key. I gave God total control. I could do my typical annoying girl trope and force to be more in his life, but I did not want that. Instead, I gave God full control over our relationship. And, for a time, things began to move fast. We hung out more, talked more, were in more ministries together. I had to keep my heart in check. The more I prayed, the more it seemed this could become a reality.
That is until life began to move again. At first he was gone for a week, then 2, then 6 weeks, then another month. He was gone and back so many times, it threw me off. I began to miss him but I’d feel guilty because he was not mine. I had started to feel jealous by other girls but again, not mine so no right. At one point, I tried to seize an opportunity to seek for answers on where this could be going during a time he went home for a family emergency, only to be shot down by the Lord saying it is not about me, but about him and to lift up his family during this time.
The final blow came, and he left. He felt called for a long period of time to attend a course in Argentina. It hit me that I would not see him for quite some time, and from one of our last conversations, he may never come back. This is great for him to pursue the call God has for his life and I’m excited to see him walking in the way of the Lord.
Actually, no, I am not. This may be selfish of me, but I don’t want to see him go. I will miss him like mad. But, again, it is not about me.
I had a mental fight with God, trying to wrap my mind around the last year of my life. I gave him this, I said I didn’t want this! I told him not to allow us to go deeper if it was not of him! Why would he, anyways? Why allow me to break down these walls for someone who likes me and accepts me, but doesn’t see me in that way? Why would he allow me to fall for someone just for them to leave once again?
To break the walls and allow Him in an area I did not realize I needed him. He was my consultant during this whole process and I have grown closer. It has not been perfect, but it has been a journey.
Again, I was confronted with it is not about me. This is a time for him to grow and become more of the Man God made him to be. This is a new season for the both of us, and if something should happen, or even not, he is my friend and I want to support him in prayer.
Something else God told me was the first description of love in 1 Corinthians 13: Love is Patient. If he is the one, or whoever it is, I need to wait for God’s timing. To take the time to change and grow, and when the time comes, it comes.
Finally, it has been a crazy process. It’s been a couple of months and we haven’t really talked, and the feelings have begun to fade away over time, but this doesn’t mean I’m not sad he’s not around as much. This also doesn’t mean that the process was a waste. I feel I can be open for whoever God has in store for me… right?
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The true Mirror is your consciousness and each of us a mirror to one another. The wise ones known as wizards & witches have used the mirror to see aspects of soul that otherwise remain deeply hidden. We have grown up in a story of separation and we carry deep wounds of devaluation. There is collective work to be done to find these untrue voices and bring the light to these things; to inform them of where we are NOW heading so that we are not pulled in different directions.
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There’s only one emotional volume. Turn down the grief, anger, and anxiety, and you turn down joy, and contentment, and peace. 😮 But learn to be with, process, and release uncomfortable feelings, then you have a lot more room to enjoy all the feelings you want to have. 🥳 Most of us have spent most of our lives running from feelings we don’t know how to handle. And a life of running from everything that brings up feelings we don’t like is no life at all. 😣 But what if you could go anywhere, do anything you want, and trust yourself to get through it? It sounds like a super power doesn’t it? 🤓 At Emotional Sovereignty School, we train every day people to be emotional super heroes, with a utility belt full of tools, and a knowing that they can finally live the life they always wanted. 😊 Haven’t you done enough running? Want to learn to fly, and be indestructible, and make magic instead? 😉 Emotional Sovereignty School starts August 2nd. There’s no other institution in the world where you can learn these skills and in such a loving and emotionally safe environment. 🥰 Want to come with us? Check out the link in my bio or dm me for details. 😌 You can do this! It’s not rocket science, it’s brain science! Let us show you how to be the Super You. 💛 . . . #emotionalintelligence #emotionalhealing #emotionalsovereignty #theemotionalrevolution #emotionalsovereigntyschool #rewireyourbrain #emotionalprocessing #emotionalcapacity #emotionalfreedom #emtionalhealth https://www.instagram.com/p/CfbtjgaONkP/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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This is morning glory... my nemesis. In my garden, I definitely consider it a weed. Let's talk about weeding for a moment. . But first, what is a weed? It's just any plant that grows where you don’t want it to be. . So, why do we weed? We weed because they take up valuable real estate in the garden. They compete for light, nutrients, and available water in the soil. . Why else should we weed, why do I weed? I weed to process, and in the last 18 months, there's been plenty to process. . I often catch myself wrapped up in an emotion and taking it out on some morning glory (or runner grass) that's overtaken the thrift (and everything else). Hyper-focused, tears internally flowing, silently cursing, trying to eradicate EVERY LAST ROOT 😡🤬👹 It's a battle against the grass, against the world, against myself. . Then the most miraculous thing happens... something breaks, I pause, I look up, and I see the most glorious rose. My heart lifts, I laugh to/at myself. I breathe deeply and let it all go. . The process of gardening is an incredible act, it's like life. It's physically demanding, at times difficult, and then you throw sh*t at it and growth happens, and even more surprising, blooms happen. I'm forever in awe of this transformative process, in the garden and in life. . If you’d like to learn more about your garden and yourself, and help to rage against the weeds at the same time, click the Book Now link in my profile and schedule an in-person consult. . Where do you process? Do you take it out on your garden like I do, or just go for a run instead? . . . #morningglory #gardenweeds #weeding #unwantedplants #gardentasks #gardenmaintenance #emotionalprocessing #emotionalhealing #deepbreath #breathedeep #breathdeeply #breathwork #breathworkhealing #gardenconsultant #gardencoach #gardencoaching #gardenhealing #therapeutichorticulture #therapeuticgardening #gardentherapy (at Seattle, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWGhyoWvooY/?utm_medium=tumblr
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What does this picture and statement mean to you? I’d love to hear your thoughts 😘❤️#emotionalprocessing #movethroughit #hurtshabitshangups #emotionalbalance #emotionalbaggage #emotionalsupport #acceptthethingsicannotchange #couragetochangethethingsican #couragetochange #couragetogrow #courageovercomfort #wisdomtoknowthedifference #movethroughfear #complicatedrelationship #conflictingemotions #myriad #emotionalhealth #emotionallydrained #compassionfatigue #compassioninaction #dontholditin #developandgrow #getoutofcomfortzone #rachaelsroadtorecovery #willingtolearn #willingtochange #realisticexpectations #emotionsarepowerful #logiciskey #emotionallyintelligent https://www.instagram.com/p/CSjCL3oLXeJ/?utm_medium=tumblr
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All the men
I feel like they're another race, Hiding behind a similar face, Tricking women with fictitious grace, Silently smothering the human race They alone take all the power, Because in them God did endower, The strength and force of a ploughing Gaur, Beneath them all other creatures cower The friendly smiles upon their cheery masks, Disguise the darkness in their hearts, And so to meet them I turn dark, I hate them but I play my part, Because I need them to provide, And behind them from other men I hide, And over time I've slowly died, Just to have a man by my side, That's the strange predicament, I feel the venom of my resentment, Yet still I behave in loyal subservience, While I fight for status against every contestant My hate for men is as big as an ocean, A time bomb ticking before the explosion, And around me, the shrapnel of my emotion, Settles like dust on a heart that is broken My fear of men is bigger than earth, A fear I was cloaked in before my birth, A mother that was raped and didn't know her worth, Generations of women still writhing in dearth If I let him see me, if I let him in, He'll rip my heart from me and I'll let him win, How, with such anger and fear within, Do I relent my shield before an alien? Yet something softer comes quietly calling, And I berate myself for thinking of falling, In love with a creature my mind finds appalling, And cast away my sentry, ready for mauling. What if my heart is stronger than I thought, And evil isn't as powerful as I was taught, And the genders on earth were one cohort, Not enemies against which to be endlessly fought. What if I set down my heavy armament, And stood bare and shivering in every argument, And learned to stay still even when it's turbulent, Not run away seeking something impermanent? It seems less frightening to stay on the run, Than stay and face the mess that's already begun, But maybe in that darkness you never find the one, And never feel the dawning warmth of the rising sun But to feel the rays of light, strength has to be employed, To open up a heart that has long since been devoid, To admit I am the weak thing I was trying to avoid, and discover in the process the weakness is destroyed. Poem about men and opening to love
by Brittany Jackson, 19 October 2020
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Making some significant progress on this piece. I was trying to decide if I should put numbers in the gifts that signify the ages this occured to me. But after some reflection and a bit of smoke. I decided to show emotional a affects instead #artstudiolife #artforsalebyartist #seattleartistleague2020 #seaf2020 #seattlegallery #artforsalebyartist #rapesurvivor #rapesurvivorart. #emotionalart #emotionalprocessing https://www.instagram.com/p/CDXQsQpHIn6/?igshid=pkptow9bvxn5
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