#Dorothea Ames

[obscuremilfoff]

[thingsasbarcodes]

Class 1x07 - The Metaphysical Engine, or What Quill Did

[house-of-hamartia]

"Siúil, siúil, siúil a rún Siúil go sochair agus siúil go ciúin Siúil go doras agus éalaigh liom Is go dté tú mo mhúirnín slán."

Siúil A Rúin

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Hiyo everyone.

Just passing by to share a small thing I did today.

If you have been with me for a while, you know that I suffer from very vivid nightmares and night terrors that usually worsen with my anxiety, to the points that I awake more often than not my poor husband, who is the only one that can actually calm me down and anchor me. I hate them, because they are so vivid, so dishorienting, that just leave me terrified.

So, it's to the surprise of no one that Dora suffers from the same exact thing, and hers, pretty much like mine, is connected to PTSD and, pretty much like mine with my husband, even her nightmares revolve around her fear of losing Shay.

She is terrified to the bone that something might happen to him: be it the Assassins or the wrath of the ocean, she is just petrified at the idea that he might never be alive in this world again.

So, more often than not, she wakes up drenched in sweat, calling for Shay. And of course, without fail, Shay's arms are around her the moment she opens her eyes, and tries to soothe her into at least realizing that she is not dreaming anymore but she is awake again.

I like to imagine that he would sing to her "Siúil A Rúin" to help her calm down, giving her his voice as guide to sort of snap her out of it and anchor her to him once more.

It's not easy, and the first few times Shay had witnessed one of her terrors, it left him more shook than he wanted to admit.

But with time and patience (and Theda's help), he eventually managed to learn what to do for his Dora. And I am happy to say that he is the only one that can actually manage to calm her down completely.

Well, I hope you will like this.

Also, here, have a small close up because I actually like how they turned out.

--Nemo

[amebelladonna]

starting off october with girls in red...

and a back doodle for good measure because not only do I need to practice drawing back profiles more, I just think it's cute how Edie and Dorothea decided to match with that :D

[maybellewheelerfan]

Carbit

She hungers for crustation.

w.

[yourlocalbadgerscales]

“But she uses he/him pronouns in all her songs, they are all about men-“

WHY DO YOU THINK SHE PUT HE/HIM PRONOUNS HUH

MAYBE OH MAYBE BECAUSE OF HOMOPHOBES AND FAKE FANS LIKE YOU WHO WILL NEVER ACCEPT HER BEING QUEER???? WHA LY IF SHE WROTE ALL THESE SONGS FOR WOMEN AND JUST CHANGED THE FUCKING GENDER OF THE LOVE INTEREST IN THE SONG, HUH? “But why would you think that-“ OH IDK??? MAROON?? DANCING WITH OUR HANDS TIED??? GORGEOUS????? LIKE HELLO ARE Y’ALL DEAF

[imtheremostoftheyear]

but when i walked up to the podium i think that i forgot to say your name

[venom-scythe]

late aphtober day 9 - outfit swap ! being self-indulgent and mixing interests today

[nemo-of-house-hamartia]

ok, once more I realize that my own kindness and friendliness has been taken for implied consent, and as always, the troubles that are brewing now are connected to OCs.

So let me be clear and frank one more time, one last time, because I have NO INTENTION of going through what I went through in 2021.

While I am always immensely happy that my Original Characters are enjoyed and that they can serve as source of inspiration, they are NOT however a template for anyone to base their OCs on.

They are not something that you can take in their entirety, change whatever suits you, and then call it your own.

It doesn't work like that, especially because, and allow me to reiterate this once and for all, OCs are *immensely* personal.

They are an extention of the soul of the person that creates them.

So taking whatever suits your fancy and use it for the "aesthetic" or the "vibes" is immensely disrespectful and, dare I say, rather impertinent, especially when both characters happen to belong to the same fandom.

Now, I am not talking about certain tropes and subjects that are typical of certain genre, of course not.

We are all somehow reinveting something that's already there when we work with OCs and stories.

What I am talking about is taking certain specific idiosyncrasies that make a certain character unique, change them to suit your character, and then being SO IMPERTINENT to just call it your own and parading it around without even having the courtesy to quote the person that has inspired you, taking advantage of the fact that I am just a small creator with a small following.

This is a huge No No for me.

Huge.

I appreciate that other creators might have a different opinion or perspective when it comes to OCs, and while I do not share entirely in that, I sure as hell respect it.

But allow me to be crystal clear: if this happens to me, like it had in 2021, that's the *easiest* way to lose all respect I might harbour for you, and I seldomly get mad or angry.

I am always accomodating, always supportive, and I think I have proven it aplenty in the past few years.

But this is something that I cannot condone nor agree with.

And it's not just a matter of ethic, in this sense: it's a matter of also hurting me, and literally put my whole creative process into shamble.

It's a matter of having respect of others.

Now, you might say: who cares if they hurt you? they are characters that do not exist, just move on and have thicker skin!

Well, as I said above, for when it concerns myself, my OCs are an extention of my own soul, a way for me to formulate and explain feelings that sometimes I have a hard time let out; a way for me to actually face, fragmentize and analyze my own trauma through them;

and most important of all, they are OFTEN a love letter to both the world I am exploring with them AND my own husband and child, such as in the case of Jacob and Dorothea,for whom, as I said often in the past 5 years, I have poured A LOT from myself and my husband's own story.

You could say that it probably my fault for having bared my feelings so much and poured so much of myself into a character;

And you might be correct, because I have learned my lesson, and ever since Dorothea and Jacob, no other character has been infused with as much of my own being as they were.

but that doesn't mean that it stings any less when I see it unravels in front of my eyes.

I am tired.

[nobilisseoblige]

perhaps it is unbecoming for any respectable lady to nurse a grudge so early in the day — when there were a thousand other things to occupy her thoughts, when there were others she'd rather impress or entertain.

how unfortunate, then, that she should find herself seated next to him at breakfast this morning. just when she'd thought the early bird would catch the worm — or, in this case, the preferred seat next to the preferred partner.

apparently not.

so, with the briefest flicker of a sigh, dorothea turns to him, gaze sharp and disapproving as she gestures toward a bowl just out of reach.

"ferdie, would you be so kind as to pass that over? i'm afraid these delicate limbs of mine are much too frail to exert themselves this early. must be the curse of being a poor commoner, you know."

she flickered like flame to a wick, making her gaze align with his in such abject indigence, he began to trace back his steps to yesterday. if that. he frowned, in kind, wondering if a mere 24 hours were enough to stave off whatever wrongs he had cast on her life. he wished to break into her good graces. actually, no, he shouldn't word it as such. fall into her good graces? walk into her good graces? be granted the honor of her good graces? something in that line, surely, would do his tight-rope-walking heart some good.

"yes, here. of course." he was gladdened to be of some help, gloved hand rolling over the rim of the bowl before passing it over to her. whenever they did get to eat together, (though the 'togetherness' was contentious at best), she had the most dour look on her face. she was a spell-and-a-half, eyes whispering a curse so strong he knew not what knotted tree he would fall asleep by the roots at. "...if I may."

"have I said something to that effect, recently, Dorothea? to you? I am so certain I've offended you in some way, but I cannot fathom the start or end of it." she scathed him with a morning scowl, mouthing a sigh so disappointed he felt it burn at least three tiers back on the House Aegir family tree. "if i could right my wrongs, surely i would." his voice lowered, urgent. hand pressed to his chest like a creed. brow creased in rising concern.

"i know!"

he stood straight up, nose skyward. "here! this is what we shall do." he began to reach over the table, bringing all the dishes a little closer to her. rich greens and chopped scarlets, bell peppers and raining dressings. he shifted the pitchers painted in sealed blue, the sugar pearls, and glazed goose. Ferdinand tapped down every color around her, so she needn't strain herself to reach.

"see? now your morning should be unmatched!"

his eyes, clear as day, looked to her petals expectantly. unflinching. how could he fail her without knowing? how would he do right by her, without understanding? she needn't suffer by his side, if he could just see as she's seen. but what would a rose see when the sun wasn't around? she revoked her splendor from him, as if he were condemned to something lower than dirt. he wondered if they'd ever see a morning without the prick of thorns attached.

regardless. he smiled. it was the least he could do around her. "it's early."

"aren't you glad for it?"

[nemo-in-wonderland]

I can promise you one thing: no matter the AU, Dottie will always serve cunt.

ALWAYS.

And as a Lannister of Lannisport? even more so.

[obscuremilfoff]

[princekirijo]

Tagged by @ravenoftheskyes

Rules: Make a poll of your favorite female characters, as many or as little as you want, and see who your followers like the most!

Thanks for the tag Raven :] here are my choices:

I could put more but I think this is a pretty fun selection for now lol. I limited it to one character per game otherwise I'd be here forever so

I'll tag: @misty-wisp @sirenspells @houndfaker @ancient-day and @kotoneshiomiofficial if you guys would like to do it :3

[amebelladonna]

Adrestia's Sapphic Sorcery Society (also known as Edie's Angels ;)

[titsthedamnseason]

it’s time to play the surprise song game for cincy n2!! 🥳 we’re in kind of a lag rn in terms of winners so i’m wishing everyone extra luck tonight! as usual just drop your guesses in the tags / replies and if you’re right i’ll give you a shoutout 🫶

my guesses are superman (a girl can dream) and and dorothea

[yourlocalbadgerscales]

every single ounce of supposed straightness leaving the bodies of “heterosexual” female swifties watching the vigilante shit performance: