#Dont ask why this doesn't make sense too BECAUSE IDK EITHER

[yanderefarm]

What happens if we don’t have sex with the yanderes for a long amount of time till there angry about it

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i do feel like i should say that if you just didn't wanna have sex with them they would all be chill with that xhsjdn this is just yknow pushing them? but they're all basically ok with whatever you want and are comfortable with. i feel like that usually goes without saying but idk i wanted to clarify.

cw;; noncon, nsft, self harm mentions, violence towards reader

honestly i can imagine ares and emil being the same. they dont need to worry too much about why you're not having sex with them! they can fix it. they're the type to tie you up. they'd wait for you to go to sleep or maybe drug you so you sleep really deeply and then they'll tie you to the bed. they would both be impatient about it too they want you awake to watch them riding you. ares would be sucking on your cock, being a good cock warmer until you wake up. emil would just have his maids inform him of when you get up so he can save his energy. either way they're going to make sure you fuck them properly. relationship repaired!

i think noemie, nephite, and silvan would be cry babies about it. they're annoyed but it gets to their heads like maybe you don't want them anymore. maybe they're not good enough. nephite would be the most shy about bringing it up but when his heat hits you'll come home to him crying and begging for you to not ignore him anymore. noemie is most likely to try and seduce you, he'll sit in bed with his ass in the air or he'll wear slutty lingerie to try and get your attention until it becomes too much, he'll break down crying asking why he isn't good enough for you anymore. silvan is just going to keep going about his day as usual but it stings everytime he starts to get close to you and you ignore him but he doesn't throw a fit he's more likely to accept that he's not wanted anymore and turn to tearing himself apart inside either for attention or because clearly you're going to replace him.

ajax is weird because i don't think he's ever been deprived sex in his adult life. i don't think he'd know how to handle rejection. i think he'd get pissed off and start accusing you of cheating on him because his brain just can't make sense of you not wanting him for so long. you must be cheating on him and that's why you're not as desperate as he is. either he gets bratty and says then he'll cheat too to make you as angry as he is. or he'll shove you down and make you touch him. he'll start smothering you with his tits and insulting you while he jerks you off.

i think achilles first of all would have to stop both, he can handle no sex as long as you're still using him as an ashtray, so for him to really snap you'd have to completely neglect him. and he'd be getting his head with paranoia. he'd come home early and completely undress waiting for you to return only to get shunned. he'd bring you one of your whips only to be ignored. he'd even wear short skirts trying to get your attention only for you to pretend he's not there. and it's wearing on his mind. he also would assume you're cheating but he doesn't know what to do about it because he's never properly experienced jealousy before. he'd eventually really snap and tie you up but he doesn't know what to do after that. his best is interrogating you about why you don't want him. what did he do wrong?

[zaizaizain]

you seem to be as crazy about shaman king as I am so I'm curious. thoughts on the sequel manga? I don't think I've met two people with the same opinions on them yet

personally I'm in the "these are fun and red crimson is brilliant" camp

OMG YAY I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME THESE KINDS OF STUFF but I'll try to answer it AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

Shaman King: Well the real ending was kinda of unexpected. I mean...Ren marrying Iron Maiden (What an unexpected pairing), And how Hana was fucking showed up so unexpectedly and more shit AND IT IS KINDA CONFUSING (Don't ask why this is what I think) But I usually prefer the 2001 Shaman King ending where they actually defeated Hao and Their still young and all blah blah blah. But let's be honest here, The Shaman King 2001 ending was better than the real ending. Well, it's not that bad, but the Real ending was not it, for me. I don't know what you all think about the real ending but for me, This is my opinion.

Extra opinion:

Shaman King Red Crimson: PLEASE DO NOT ATTACK ME RENMEI SHIPPERS I kinda like renmei. I just need a backstory of how they met and how they got together. I'm sitting my lonely hororen ass in their wedding, Holding a pic of Ren and Horohoro, breaking up, and crying my ass off. BUT I SWEAR JUST ONE BACKSTORY OF HOW THEY MET AGAIN. And the part where Horohoro finally sees Ren, He should've hugged him but instead, he just punches him :/ But I think that's how Horohoro shows his love to Ren of how much he misses him <333 (My delusional ass is so annoying please help) But for some reason, I think Ren needs to move on from Jeanne and just let her rest in peace (I'm not saying that I hate Jeanne SHE'S MY SILLY GIRL HOW COULD I HATE HER) Because why would want your dead wife go back to life again??? Like bro...Just let her rest in peace (you still have Horohoro🙂🥰) AND BRO THE FACT THAT JUN AND HOROHORO ARE LIKE PARTNERS IN CRIME (i don't ship them) THEIR LIKE SIBLINGS WHEN IT COMES TO THE FIGHTS I JUST LOVE THE TWIST (And yeah I agree of how Shaman king Red Crimson was brilliant)

[squiddy-god]

Your works are literally AMAZING. I'm fawning over the dorm leaders × chubby reader 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼. Also I read your rules but I wasn't sure about character limit or anything so can I request dorm leaders with a s/o (gender neutral (i forgot what is called I'm not the best with these different genders but yall rock 💪🏼)) who has neglectful family so they act as if they aren't wanted. Basically just as if the dorm leaders are about to ignore her too? Idk if it makes sense. And when they have a problem they don't share it immediately, they keep more to themselves. Have a good day tho!!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

Heheheheheheheh love this request and the support teehee. Ok so i decided to do this all as like the collective of dorm leaders + jamil since that made the most sense to me so here you are <3 the first half can be interpreted as either romantic or platonic since you didn't specify sooooooo yeah, then the second half is more “dorm leaders with a collective crush” 

♥︎REQUEST OPEN♥︎

Cw: neglected reader, comfort, feelings of inadequacy and self deprecation 

I think at first when you first arrive they just assume that you are like most others at NRC and are just anti social since it is a school for villains 

But once you become more acquainted with them all and have a friendship with the rest of them they start to become more and more concerned with your behavior because they think that as friends you should be comfortable coming to them when you need help, especially after you have helped them so much with all that you’ve done 

I think riddle can really relate as it seems that when he wasn't being micromanaged he was being neglected at least emotionally so he knows the feeling 

Malleus and leona also understand, malleus has always just felt so alone that even tho lilia was a good parent he's never really had a lot of people in his life, leona has always felt second best or has been ignored so they also understand 

At first i don't think that any of them say too much, really they are trying to make you realize that they do in fact want to hang out because they enjoy being around you

It's even worse if they like you because they dont get why you are so distant

Eventually they call a intervention lol and have a sit down where they give you pseudo therapy to help you

They really try to hammer it home that you don't have too feel like you're not good enough and that again they do want you to be around them 

They also tell you that after all you've done they genuinely want you to come to them if you have problems or need something

Ok specifics time 

Riddle really relates to your issues, even though his problems are like on the opposite end of the spectrum he also struggles with feeling like he has to do everything on his own, he tries to help you the same way you helped him. He likes inviting you to tea and all but interrogating you on anything you may need help with. Definitely helps you study 

Leona is less forward about his affections/making you feel better but he has his own ways. If he sees you on his way to the botanical garden he is dragging you with him and you are TAKING A NAP. he doesn't give af you are napping with him and you are gonna be so snug. In leonas mind he hates people disturbing him when he's napping so having you with him when he's napping means that he doesn't see you as a disturbance. It's really sweet. He also relates to feeling pushed aside and neglected so he makes sure to give you extra attention. 

Azul is well versed in insecurity and while his stems from self image and body images, he still understands it at the core. He's bad at this really, he wants to be there for you but the shady octopus is struggling big time. He decides that having you for dinners is a good idea, the lounge is nice and peaceful as you eat a tasty dinner together, he takes the opportunity to ask if anyone has been bothering you lately, old shady habits die hard. 

Jamil cooks with you (i feel like jamil's idea of cooking with you is you sit on the counter and eat the little treats he gives you while he does the real cooking) jkjk he likes cooking with you because it allows you to both be close and do something you enjoy, but it also lets you both get a little treat at the end (the treat is his cooking because its god tier) 

Vil makes it known very quickly that he will not be standing for this behavior. He's putting an end to it one way or another, hence your now shared morning and night skincare routine. Well it's more like doing each other's routine, he teaches you the steps, you do his and he does yours. Whole nine yards, im talking matching fluffy headbands and those cute face masks as a treat. Normally he wouldn't get them but if a hello kitty/fun face/eye mask makes you happy then he will indulge (only after triple checking the ingredients because he does not play games)

Idia games with you, either separately or together in his dorm he loves playing videogames with you, especially ones like “it takes two” (amazing game btw) he's very antisocial so he hopes you understand how close he feels letting you into his room to game with him because literally no one else gets this kind of SS+ 5 hearts treatment 

Malleus is the worst offender because if you thought the dragon was already kinda clingy after this info is revealed it is 100% worse. He feels the need to show you all the attention he can to make up for lost time, the same way having you as a friend (and potentially more than a friend) has made up for manyyyyyyyy years of loneliness in his mind. The night walks are his favorite, hand in hand as you both walk along in silence, even with the silence he occasionally chimes in with little words of affirmation. If you want to talk he is so happy to listen, eventually you find that hes quite the yapper, happily talking about anything you will listen to and hoping that you yap right back at him.

[corviiids]

hi rook sorrgy I'm back but I've been thinking about your akeshu as girls genderfuckery tweet for 20 million years. idk if you can share anything in good faith here on the Tumblr corner of the internet (if not then by all means ignore this) but if you did I'd owe you perhaps my entire soul!! thank you very much either way :3

i would LOVE to talk about this thank you so much for asking

[under the cut in case anyone would not like to see genderfuckery stuff]

okay so first of all.

on the topic of boobs

this is important to lead with do you understand. most of the akeshu as girls stuff ive seen around has akc as flat-chested and ren as boobed. and that's valid i support that. but personally. personally to me. i think it's the opposite. tbe reason (well one reason) i think it's the opposite is because i think girlren is a little rat of a creature and akechi who is prim and feminine and perfect is so FUCKING angry about her crush on ren like she's barely surviving it and then this is the nail in the coffin. she's like why can't i stop thinking about that messy unassuming thing. she doesn't even have boobs

my other reasons for tihs are that i think joker is more androgynous charm while akechi is more feminine/masculine duality i think this makes sense to nobody else. i think ren regardless of agab is riding the rail of the gender spectrum 🛹 while akc is collecting extremes of gender presentation like they're pokemon do you understand. are we on the same page here. ren being into drag is important to me for this reason (again regardless of agab). meanwhile akechi having very clear feminine secondary sex characteristics but presenting gradually more and more masculine in terms of clothing/hair/personal style etc. is also extremely important to me. and that includes being biog of tity while her style veers more and more into masc as time goes on

ok

the detective prince

i think girl akechi (at 17-18) presents very femininely because it's what's effective for her. i would call her style................... kawaii corporate chic. does that make sense for everyone. it's like schoolgirl girlboss. she has a bow instead of a tie but it's a very classy one not a kitschy one. smart blazer, uniform pleated skirt, patent leather shoes, u know the drill BUT. people still call her the detective prince. this is VERY IMPORTANT to me. no detective princess. only detective prince. do you understand the importance of the genderfuckery of a super feminine girl being called by masculine terms. to me. we're continuing the legacy set by my hero naoto shirogane bigender queeng. bigender kin. bigender genderneutral non-monarchical ruler

i think by third sem girl akechi is starting to dress more androgynously/masculinely. more pants. i think her third sem outfit is unchanged from canon. just a smart coat, sweater, buttondown, slacks. postcanon she gets a haircut.

just trying to live an honest student life

ren is like so fundamentallyuncomfortable with the fact of his existence at the beginning of canon so to me girlren is like... she dresses like she's trying to hide in her clothes. messy hair. i have no strong feelings about whetehr her hair should be long or short, or whether it's loose or pulled into a tail, but i know it's messsy. untamed curls. and she uses it to hide her face. none of her clothes fit. she's in oversized everything. i have a very clear image in my head of a ren idle animation where she leans down to pull up her leggings because they keep falling down. she also has terrible posture. she's androgynous at this stage not on purpose but because she's too self conscious to like... exist... and present... in any notable way at all

i think as she gets more confident and as the year progresses she starts to dress more distinctively. i like the idea of her getting more comfortable prettying up. maybe working at crossroads helps her with this 🤔 i dont know how to explain this but i think she's still feminine in a gentlemanly chivalrous way rather than a girly cute way. girlren has that same steady calming vibe that guy ren does

joker & crow

crow has a magical girl skirt. i have a drawing of this but im too self conscious about my own lack of drawing skill to show it off so i cropped out the key part and put it into an ms paint void in the distance as my visual aid

there. i hope this is illustrative

i think given girl akechi's use of her feminine charms to gain popularity, her hero complex would be similarly gendered given we have confirmation that robin hood represents not (only) heroics for altruistic reasons but also the theatre of being seen doing good. there's a real drama element to the idea of a magical girl transformation that i honestly wish we got for male crow too. i always am depressed that we don't get to see much theatre for akechi's initial appearance as crow and summoning of robin hood, anyway, girlcrow has ribbons and a capelet that flap in non-existent wind.

black mask's outfit is unchanged from canon. i'd like it to look a little less stupid but that has nothing to do with gender i just want it to look a little less stupid.

joker's outfit is also unchanged from canon. listen. im back on my bullshit. in the metaverse her behaviour gets more feminine and more sly and confident than in reality. she's got that femme fatale shit going on. however, she is still a gentleman thief. she has the long coat. she has the poofy trousers. she has the waistcoat. she's still smirking and fixing her gloves and flipping her knife and doing that thing that canon ren does where he lifts his chin and does the little "come on" thing with her fingers. do you understand? do you understand me

[misc-obeyme]

my favorite theory re: why does barbatos hate solomon he would not be that mad about the list (at most a little passive aggressive about it next time he saw him) is that past!solomon knows nightbringer (or is nightbringer????) (has a pact with nightbringer if they're a demon????????) and used his pact to make barbatos take mc back to the past. i think future!solomon has had his memory erased of all this, possibly in relation to his reconciliation with barbatos. past!barbatos might feel taken betrayed which could also sorta explain why he used the list as an excuse in that he doesn't feel respected or acknowledged. more to the point though, this would also mean past!solomon had made barbatos break his promise with diavolo to not use his powers over time, which i feel would definitely be reason enough for him to be as angry as he is, especially if past!solomon had also prevented him from just talking to future!solomon about it

idk i might have explained this badly. i am behind in the storyline for nb so i might be missing stuff but i just don't think he'd be that genuinely angry for that long over something that petty. unless he had been cursed. which could also be an interesting subplot!

i dont think either of these will actually happen but its what makes sense to me and i think it could be interesting. idk idk lmao

Well hello there friend!!

OKAY BUT YES I also really like the idea that the reason Barb is angry at Solomon is that it is past!Solomon who forced Barb to do something he didn't want to do, such as sending MC back to the past!

I have a whole theory about past!Solomon, but basically it's just suspicious to me that we never run into him. And I really felt like that part where Solomon summons Barbatos in the labyrinth was meant to show us that Solomon can force Barb to do things he doesn't want to do. Why show us that otherwise? And when Solomon did that, Barbatos was pissed. Like even more pissed than he usually is.

I didn't even realize this would also mean Barb would have broken his promise to Diavolo, but you're right and that feels like an actual in character reason for him to be upset!

And future!Solomon clearly has no idea what's going on, which is why everything doesn't make sense to him.

And possibly Barbatos is aware of what's happening with the different Solomons, but he can't say it to him directly, so he makes up something about the list on the spot because MC asked about it.

You didn't explain it badly at all, I am right there with you!! I think there's something else going on and although I haven't talked about two Solomons theory in a while, I still think that could be part of the issue! We got past!Solomon causing trouble while potentially being under the command of Nightbringer and we have future!Solomon being completely confused because he doesn't even remember what's happening.

It would be interesting if it came down to a curse, too, though. Who put the curse on Barb? Why? How?? etc!

I just can't get behind the list being the real reason. If they never talk about it again, I'm just gonna go with my own ideas and forget about canon because that's what I do when I don't like what happens lol.

[hiroshotreplica]

im sorry you probably dont want this in your askbox but i dont really think it makes sense to talk about madness and leafi the same way for a lot of reasons. Idk maybe im just seeing a transgirl getting relentlessly dogpiled because of old screenshots and having an over-empathetic response but fuck man she was 13 when those screenshots were taken. Shes not even 18 right now shes crazy young for her level of play (like literally should be community banned for lying about being 13 for multiple years during splatoon 2 to get around discord community guidelines but thats a tangent). She said in her apology she was trying to fit in with a real shitty group of people she doesn't associate with anymore and fuck man im probably giving herself way too much grace cause i seeing a terrifying exaggeration of something i went through on a public scale but like people are editing HER face onto memes and talking shit about HER and constantly misgendering her when madness is not only an actual adult but has been ACTUALLY DOING THIS SHIT RECENTLY. im not saying the shit she was saying wasnt heinous but fuck man this isnt gonna help her and i dont want the dumass bullshit she said when she was a middle schooler to ruin the rest of her life. sorry for the white girl mental illness blast but there is important context in this ranty anxiety and projection goop

anon asked for a tldr for the situation w/ jackpot as a whole, which included leafi's part in the situation. as the post was about how jackpot as a team has made racist statements. i chose screenshots that put my point clearly, which just so happened to be screenshots with madness and leafi. i'll go more into it here, though

i did not mean to compare her to madness when including screenshots of her old statements. i was compiling the most blatant screenshots from the thread i had originally linked in a prior post. i was going to include other things, but didnt have the time to compile them and was beginning to get stressed about being the source of this info on tumblr.

i was also going to include this video of her saying racist statements in 2024, but i didnt want to include a twitter link for an anon that couldnt access twitter. im realizing i shouldve done so

i do feel bad for her getting involved with a group of people THAT bad if she was truly that ignorant when she was younger, but thats where my sympathy ends. she still acted racist and still associated with clearly racist people even when she was older and more mature. ive learned since making that post that she was born in 2007. 16 is still an age where you should be mature enough to understand that those comments are racist, even with america's shitty public education system glossing over racism.

i definitely see why this can look like people dogpiling on a trans woman though, and the people doing memes and editing her into them in general about this situation are disgusting. i had no idea she was trans and that people were misgendering her. anyone making this situation about her being trans are awful and not people i stand by.

but all of that, including her being skilled despite her age, still doesnt forgive or erase her actions. nothing like that does for the other members of jackpot that have also stated racist things. nothing like that does for any other comp splatoon player that has said anything similar. the apology she put out was needed, but from what ive heard from others, it wasnt the best. she is writing another apology, though, so it couldve just been rushed.

no one has to accept her apology, either. as a white person myself, im not one that should even be one to accept her apology. it wasnt an apology for me, and it isnt one for you, either (if you are white as you say but i might be misreading). people should not be painted in a negative light for not accepting her apology even if it were an amazing one.

the way some people are reacting to this situation is not okay, but she still did awful things that she should be held accountable for. the other guilty members of jackpot are not better than her, but theyve all still said fucked up things. none of them have done anything to prove they arent racist, and theres only more evidence coming out that proves that they have been, so its hard to process at the moment.

could things change? yes, of course, but as of right now, leafi has stated racist things as recent as 2024 and put out a poor apology trying to defend herself. people are handling it poorly and trying to make it about her identity and making memes on it when it is not the right thing to do. these racist claims are being put w/ other racist claims made by other jackpot team members so it was included in my tldr post about the entire situation.

i apologize for poor wording in this, im not the best w/ these kinds of posts

[humanteethmarksonhumanbone]

I need to see the tma oc and I need to see the distortion door

Cough it up cmon (only if u want to)

why yes you can >:3

(i’ll tag you in the distortion door post)

(cw/tw for parent deaths, suicide & attempts crisis hot lines, mental institutions) wont get too in detail about it

LORE:

i’ll try to keep her lore fairly brief but dont worry i do plan on posting more about her (possibly write a statement about her? who knows)

her name is Molly Tindell and she is and avatar of The End with some eye coding. To sum her up in a sentence: she is a crisis hotline responder who is… very bad at her job…

After her parents died when she was younger she went to live with a devoutly religious older woman. She also becomes super religious, mainly as means of coping with the deaths of her parents.

Eventually in her collage-ish years she volunteers for a crisis hot line (i've never volunteered for a crisis hot line so i cant say I know exactly how everything works.) Its her first day and she gets called by someone she screwed over/broke up with idk, and as you could image they arnt the happiest with who responded, and well yk, kills themselves with her on the line.

this doesn't have the effect on her that you would assume (would never go back again, survivors guilt etc) NO she instead decides that it is her life's work to “help others” she ends up returning over and over to help her mission.

(i dont really how to make it clearly tma based but my ideas are:

she knows who to lull to death when she sees/senses a black fog on the other side

either that or the black vines)

she feeds the End, the End feeds her, until she begins to grow jealous of the ones shes “helped return to their God” that she too desires to be united with it.

after multiple failed suicide attempts she is admitted to a mental hospital where people cant look over her for an extended period of time because the ones that do, end up committing.

eventually she is allowed to give a statement to the magnus institute

POWERS:

-pretty much sweet talking people into dying

-being able to See the person shes on the line with (she can see the dark mist around them)

-invincibility; she cant die until The End deems her finished

-pretty much making everyone around her want to die ._.

i cant draw so here are some picrews i made of before and after avatar hood

not the most accurate envisioning i have of her but its a start

thanks for asking @oxthemoron ! i think shes pretty neat, if a bit dark

[recklessromance]

way late (no thanks 2 capitalism🫠) but hi! i'm delia and very much excited to be here. i'll have a lil more about yijung under the cut, but please like for plotting! discord is available and preferred, but ims are fine too!

content warning ahead for disordered eating--- please proceed with caution if that's triggering to you, and feel free to ask me for a sparknotes vers. of her bio!

serving drinks (with a heaping side of ATTITUDE!) at sweet bean cafe. very much giving wire barista... at least the drinks are bangin'?

also a student/occasional library assistant @ ansong uni (major tba...), so she's always on the go, go, go! she's got places to be, so either keep up with her or get left in the dust.

the sense of peace upon her arrival to ansong is short-lived--- yes, sure, this is home. it's where she needs to be, but it also feels like there's something else she's supposed to be doing. keeps her days busy so at least she feels productive..?

the type of person who's always asking 'why?', if it wasn't already obvious. not in a purposefully infuriating way, but she genuinely wants to know. in the same vein, the type of person who doesn't do things that don't make sense to her. unfortunately, not necessarily the easiest to get along with as a result, but her heart's in the right place, swear!

used to be a baby ballerina who died as a result of an extremely restrictive diet that resulted in malnutrition / overwork. doesn't remember any of it, but the work ethic is in her bones, apparently.

i've got way more to yap about her, because she's a super beloved muse of mine, so... pls plot with me hehehe. i'll have a plot/starter call for the events out soon too, so keep an eye out for that! or don't idk i dont control ur life

[nerves-nebula]

Idk what the Whole Situation with Shredder is in your AU, but do you think Splinter's dynamic with the turtles would change at all once he enters the picture?

i dont know what shredders whole situation is in this AU either, not yet at least. the one thing I've got down is that he's a marginally better dad to Karai than Splinter is to our turtle boys (which gives them all conflicted feelings, cause Shredders plan is like world domination or something idk)

if im being honest, i've always had a hard time pinning down what Shredders whole situation is in general. he just doesn't seem to have a reason to do the things he does, and if he DOES have a reason it doesn't always make sense to me? i dunnno if that makes sense. (sans the times when he's just supposed to be like, crazy or controlled by a magic evil suit of armor)(i'm actually not sure how often that's the case...)

idk, maybe shredder fans can tell me their favorite shredder motivations or something heff.

i like the idea of my Shredder being kind of insane, but like, SECRETLY. like you wouldn't know it unless you spent a lot of time with him.

ANYWAY about the splinter/shredder/turtles dynamics,, so i did answer this ask previously which might give you an idea of the situation, but to get more into specifically how this would affect Splinters relationship with the boys-

I think it would actually cause Raph, Mikey, and Donnie to become more confident in defying their dad. Because they would see Shredder being nice (or at least neutral/non-violent) as proof that Splinter really cannot be trusted as an objective narrator.

they might even tell him that they met Shredder and everything went fine, to which he'd obviously get pissed and yell at them and try to lock them in their rooms or something. and Leo would insist he did his best to attack Shredder, but his brothers stopped him. and then Leo would get reprimanded by Splinter too.

So I think them meeting Shredder would definitely put a strain on their relationship with Splinter, but mostly in a "abused kids realizing they don't have to do what you say" kind of way. Except for Leo, who gets caught between his brothers newfound freedom and his loyalty to their father. Leo doesn't have a very good time. But I guess you could think of it as payback for being a shitty brother all those years hahhh

side note: I think Leo would feel very smug about Shredder being evil for like 5 minutes until he sees how devastated Donnie is and kinda just reevaluates why he cares so much about being right.

he'd make quips about it later, but be uncharacteristically quiet about it when the Big Betrayal/Reveal or w/e happens cause he's processing a lot of emotions.

[shadowscommand]

Speaking about Price coke anxiety. Drug headcanons go who smokes what

okay okay. i talked it out w cero bc i rly do have a LOT of feelings about like. esp price and ghosts drug use/views. im gonna start w price bc i was thinking about him this morning. also putting this under a readmore bc it got long also, obvi, tw drugs

so like price as a person is very impulsive and very, very indulgent but i think those are traits that he Doesn't want people to recognize in him. he doesnt Want to be seen that way he wants to be seen as a very noble person. ALL THIS to say i think like when he was younger, fresh in the military, needing a way to stay awake he would use coke for that and it just turned into very frequent, regular use of cocaine to keep him awake and also just bc he Likes it hes an adrenaline junkie. he likes the confidence boost coke brings. but people like macmillan wouldnt like that bc he would See his potential and would wean him off a more frequent use and i think nowadays price would be like. really embarrassed by this past issue of his bc it shows a lack of control that he, like, would hate for others to see. but he will still enjoy coke if someone has some to share. and its a cycle for him, do coke, get anxious on top of his Already pretty high anxiety (i think he just lives with a constant sense of doom), smoke weed to try to calm himself. sometimes weed makes him paranoid too but. well. deal with the cards he is handed.

GHOST is like. oh my god.. his feelings about drugs.. itd be easy to say hes anti drug bc of his upbringing but i just dont think hed skew that way. i think it would show more in his, like, feeling of superiority over "addicts." bc hes functional and holding down a job and hes not "addicted" to anything esp not "bad drugs" like heroin. i think esp downers he looks down on (except weed bc he likes weed so that makes it okay). of course hes doing coke w price.

and uh speaking of downers soap in his og journal mentions really liking oxys and i could still see newsoap being into like prescription drugs. bc i think hed be more anxious about like being Caught and being kicked out than price and ghost bc price and ghost have. like. safety nets of people looking out for them. and people whose piss they can use and soap wouldnt trust others to be clean like that. because of who he is around. oxys, xanax (bc he probably actually does need xanax,), and mayb adderall. if hes not already prescribed adderall. it would be cute if he had undiagnosed adhd and he keeps taking adderall hes bought off someone else like "yeah idk i feel more focused"

gaz is like.. a super neutral party in my head. his drug usage is very social by nature, if its around him and its offered to him he will try it. however hes also very like, strict about his usage like he will do a bump of coke ONCE he will smoke ONE blunt because he doesnt really super care to be high. esp weed. sometimes weed lasts too long for him and it starts to get on his nerves. his biggest vice is probably just normal smoking, either from vaping or regular cigarettes, but he isnt like stressed about it. i mean hes around price all the time dude is huffing cigars like he'll die without them so even if he was worried about lung cancer or even just lung capacity he wouldnt stop smoking.

as for the rest of sas i think the only person regularly doing drugs is otter. meth bc its cheaper. thorne WOULD NOT bc hed be an antidrug type but i think also really like is not an asshole about it hes not giving anyone any speeches unless they ask for one. charly doesnt care much either way but she wont do any hard drugs.

nikto can be summed up like this:

I DONT WANT THIS TO GET TOO LONG !!!!!!! i might make a tier list actually of the others. maybe. if needed. the only other main point i want to make is nikolai is price's plug and thats why hes able to continuously get drugs.

[star-mum]

the ages in Teen Wolf make no fucking sense and the MTV writers made it MY ISSUES SPECIFICALLY

insane rambling (and very bad math) under the cut

I was thinking.... the Hales weren't recluses ??? (post fire Derek doesn't count, he's been through stuff) cause Derek went to highschool like normal ??? So WHYYYY (besides convenient writing) doesn't ANYONE REMEMBER THEM ??????

Like yeah Derek was older than the main cast, whatever, but CORA ????? SHE'S THEIR AGE ???? THEY PROBABLY ALL WENT TO PRESCHOOL TOGETHER ???? AT LEAST MIDDLE SCHOOL ????

SO !!! i have JUST NOW decided that Cora, Derek and Laura are 3 years apart from each other. "What about Talia and Peter?" you ask me and if you'd given me a FUCKING SECOND I'D TELL YOU !!! GEEZ !!!

Okay so IF we assume Peter is in his early 20s when Derek is in highschool considering ONLY the actor who played him in the Paige Flashback then okay, fine they're like almost 20 years apart BUT !!! Look at Peter now !!! LOOK AT HIM !!! THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN IN 4-6 YEARS (depending on how old you think s1 Derek is) (we'll get to that too, hold on) SO !!!! Im gonna ignore that weird casting choice and confidently give Talia and Peter a 13 years age difference, why ? you ask... idk sounds like a good number, I like things in 3s- WRONG !!! I DID EXTENSIVE MATH AND THINKING ON THIS !!!

We're gonna take some liberty here and assume Wolf Born Families are a bit traditional when it comes to kids and stuff SO Talia would've probably had her first kid in her very early 20s BUT we also need to consider that she was The Alpha of the house (and I refuse to believe Hale isn't HER family name) (OH ALSO !! Since the spark passed from her to Laura we can assume, cause I want to, that, at least, the Hale Pack worked as a matriarchy) which demands a lot of respect and work soooo I'm gonna go with her being about 24-25 when she had Laura

WHICH !!! Would've made Peter 11-12, which is not that different from the age gap he has with Talia, so he probably used to look at Laura much more as a sister than a niece (you know for the pain and suffering and drama) SO !!! when Derek was 15, Peter was 29-30 aaaand 29 makes the most sense to me, so I'd go with that!

Please dont get me started on the contradicting age of our "teen" cast !! Scott is 15 and then 18 in 10 months ???? Doesn't make sense !!!! So to ME the teen cast is all 17 in season 1 !!! except for Alison who's a year older and very understandably insecure about turning 19 and still being in highschool. And then in the span of 10 months we roll around to Scott's 18 birthday !! hooray time is linear !!!

All this to say, these are all people around the same age as our main characters AND THEY WERE PART OF THE TOWN !!!! HOW COME NO ONE REMEMBERS THEM ????

Even if we operate on the belief that Derek is, during season one, between 19-22 (which feels correct to me) that still makes the family fire NOT THAT LONG AGO (4-6 years) HOW COME PEOPLE ARE FORGETTING ABOUT IT ALREADY ????

Cora is the same age as EVERYBODY ELSE !!!! did they not go to middle school together ? do they not remember her ? who was she friends with ? Before Paige died Derek was very well integrated into High School culture, we have no reason to believe either of his sisters were homeschooled. Peter was a grOWN ADULT !!! I KNOW THE HALES WERE OLD MONEY RICH BUT DID HE NOT HAVE A JOB ???? DID HE NOT HAVE A LAW FIRM TO WORK AT ??? (recently came across a "Peter Hale had a law degree" post and it's canon to me forever now) Did Laura not pick up her siblings from school not a SINGLE DAY OF THEIR LIFE ????

OH !! WHICH REMINDS ME !! Derek said at some point that the fire happened when he and his sister were still at school and I'm pretty sure that was on s1 so he obviously meant Laura (i don't think the writers had Cora planned from the beginning, she was there to work in Erica's place) BUT !!! What if he did mean Cora, he walked his little 12 yo sister to school because he's Big Sister Laura (18 yo) was away for college at that time !!! And Kate had no choice but to leave those 3 out cause Laura wouldn't have come home without a good reason and Cora went to school at the time was Derek just a different building

This brings me to my (hopefully) final point: what the fuck is Deatons problem ???? He was Talia's emissary, he knew the pack inside and out and they very OBVIOUSLY KNEW HIM !!! HE WAS BESIDE THEIR ALPHA ALL THE DAMN TIME !!! How come Derek didn't recognize him ???? My vague memory on the dialogue between Deaton and Peter in s1 makes it seem like they Knew Each Other, in that ominous way... why didn't Derek ?? He wasn't a small child, he knew Deaton too, he could've remembered him ????

Again... things that feel like they were written into the plot only AFTER s1 aired

[chaioticcoffee]

my opinion on which Bad Batcher (+ Cody and Rex) would have which motorcycle for a modern-ish AU (It's like.. if our world was in the universe of SW but with the rules of SW if that makes sense) I'm working on and just in general to practice characterization hehe

headcanons included ofc!

sadly couldn't add Echo cause uhm... well he still has a scomp link arm 💀

Hunter:

Yamaha MT-09

or

Indian Bobber Scout 60

Not too speedy and not too slow

Great for small road trips

Not much of a racer

Safest rider out of them all

Does have a mischievous side where he wants to race or go faster on curves sometimes

Doesn't mind either rides alone or with his brothers

The responsible one

Crosshair:

Kawasaki Ninja H2

I'm fast asf boiiii

The half reckless half serious one

Like he's reckless but only when he can be safely

The H2 has a very powerful and reactive engine, making it a little difficult to control and requires some skill to do so which I think Cross would find pride in

It's all about ego bois

He loves small roads with a lot of curves

Mostly out with Tech and races with him

The bike looks aggressive and powerful, not like Cross does physically LOLOLOL

Has the most experience in riding bikes out of all of them

Goes zoom whenever he feels like it

His bros call those the "Cross zoomies"

The kill-switch and run master

Tech:

Triumph Street Triple 1200 RS

I forgot that bro is a pilot

That bike can allow him to be as experimental as he wants to

Yes he willingly races Cross

And if he lost... no he didn't

Holds the record for the most heart attacks given to Hunter in the span of 1 minute

He knows he can get himself out of tricky situations faster than the average can so he allows himself to be more reckless than the others

The one who forgets he can go ride out alone or doesn't see the point in it so he has to wait until Cross asks him to go for a ride

Loves to customize his bike, be it just appearance or performance speaking

Wrecker:

Ducati Monster 821

The only one besides Hunter who is allowed to have Omega on his passenger seat

Listens to Hunter when he tells him he shouldn't try to follow Tech or Cross (bless him)

Sometimes he gets the pass to just go wild but only when the roads are empty

Omega likes to ride with Wrecker because He's more exciting than Hunter but not as reckless as the 2 other dumbasses

Whenever they're all out on a ride, Hunter is grateful Wrecker is there

Also Wrecker is the one who manages to convince Hunter into a small race even if it's just the smallest

Rex:

YAMAHA YZF R6

Still fast as fuq bOIIII

Nah man the r6 is the perfect bike for the shenanigans Rex would do with the other bois of the 501st

He just screams r6 idk why like I looked at his pictures and instantly went "r6"

.... ok maybe it's the colour-

Cody:

Yamaha MT-07

Another MT??

Yes, MT's are notorious

Cody doesn't need much so that Yamaha is perfect

Probably switched to an MT-10 to be able to keep up with the others (Rex, Tech, Crosshair and Fives) and to be more comfortable riding in general

The supervisor(tm)

Helps Hunter keep sane

Pretty chill rider, sometimes follows the others in their shenanigans if convinced long enough

I can't add the pictures of the bikes I'm SADDDD

what do you guys think abt this tho?? I'd love feedback bc I can't tell if I'm characterising them wrong or not

and like ik most people dont care abt bikes at all or have only seen the dark side of it which.. yeah that's 100% valid 😭

also yes, as an x reader they will have you on the back 😋

or even maybe ride next to them to hold your hand 👀

[makkozm]

My symbol of hope, | SCARAGITO (scaramouche x nagito)

my sillies (contains crossover fandoms, cross fandom ships/crossover ships, i give up on capitalization at one part, ooc, long and doesn't make sense, and kind of has a bunch of fluff and uhmmm basically thats all the warnings if you dont like scaragito (why WOULDN'T you) uhh idk what you'll do but ??

Scaramouche sat by himself, refusing to make any contact with anyone, other than talking to Aether and Lumine, and class trial purposes.

Although snarky, sometimes he's helpful in his own way. Sometimes. Everything that comes from his mouth is either an insult, or a push to the right direction.

So far, no one in the class had caught his gaze, save for one. Nagito's.. strange double sided luck. It's not everyday you see a human who can withstand such luck that both harms him, and keeps him alive.

Nagito.. he's a special case. It's both entertaining, and concerning how intense his luck can be. both his immense luck, and strange behavior that makes him incredibly worrying to be around.

"..Ah! hat guy, it's a pleasant coincidence that we meet here!" Nagito greeted, sitting down next to the indigo haired boy. "..Yeah, whatever," Scaramouche's demeanor does not seem very welcoming, but.. Nagito doesn't care, really.

"there's something I'd like to talk about, hat guy." Nagito smiled. Scaramouche felt.. a bit eased after seeing his smile. it was strangely.. comforting?

Scaramouche's usual scowl softens into a neutral expression. No smiling, but nor was he frowning.

"what is it? make it quick." Scaramouche crosses his arms, as Nagito leans onto the table, resting his cheek in his hands, "it's just that.. I've noticed, you always walk around like you're not afraid of this killing game we're in,"

"Like you're confident you'll survive. Is that because you know something that the rest of us don't?" Nagito narrows his eyes, as he stared deeply into Scaramouche's indigo eyes.

Scaramouche felt.. a bit weirded out by his staring, but decides to brush it off as he answered. "heh, if you think any of your mortal friends can lay a finger on a single strand of my hair - you're wrong." Scaramouche smirked, although the question did make him raise an eyebrow.

"I know more about myself than most of you all do," Scaramouche crossed his legs, "it'd be a shocker both to myself, and the twins if I manage to die here."

"oh.. so the twins are in on your secret as well?" Nagito questions, his usual smile remains, awaiting for Scaramouche's answer. "I guess you could say so. what about it?"

"I suppose it isn't a surprise, since you and the twins are from the same world.." Nagito looks to the side, as he places his hands on his lap to think a bit more clearly,

"but there's something strange I've noticed about you too, hat guy." Nagito smiled once again, as Scaramouche's frown comes back - rolling his eyes.

"it's Scaramouche. not hat guy." scaramouche corrects him, nagito raises his hands up defensively, "ahaha, sorry. 'hat guy' is what Aether introduced you to me as," nagito laughed off, with a smile.

..seriously? 'hat guy' was the best Aether could come up with? that's stupid. who does he think he is?

"okay, but back to what I was supposed to say.." nagito rests his arm on the table, setting his gaze back onto Scaramouche. "you're so.. special. your eyes, and those strange marks on your body.. "

..well that was a surprise, to say the least. not for the eyes, but for the marks on his body?

"..uh, okay. thanks for the first one, but what about the 2nd one? hah, who told you about that?" Scaramouche leaned forward, questioning Nagito's knowledge about him.

"hehe, relax. it's just something I noticed on my own." ..okay, was Nagito some sort of.. stalker? "pff, okay." Scaramouche leans away from him,

"am I given permission to ask about them, Scaramouche?" Nagito smiled innocently. Scaramouche gave it some thought, and after a bit of thinking.. why not? they're alone in the dining area, and Scaramouche would never meet Nagito ever again after this whole game.. no one would believe him if he dared to tell the secret.

"..hm, okay," Scaramouche uncrossed his legs, "so long as you promise to keep your useless mouth shut.. I'm willing to tell you about it."

"that's amazing! I can reassure you, this worthless human will keep his mouth shut, no doubt!" Nagito replies, excitement laced his tone, even his expression says it all. he was.. happy? what a strange one..

"These marks are permanent on my body. it's a part of me," Scaramouche places a hand near his abdomen, where one of the marks was most noticeable on. "and that's all I'll say."

"my, my.. you're such a special one! so many strange features.. it's almost as if you aren't a regular human!" Nagito exclaims, "your eyes.. how encaptivating," Nagito leaned forward, getting close,

"you're eyes fade from darkness to a bright light.. much like how hope shines light on despair's darkness!" Scaramouche.. was shocked by the analogy, to say the least. Him? Hope? who even thinks of that the moment someone sees him?

"..you must be crazy. have you seen the way I've treated everyone on your side?" Scaramouche raises an eyebrow,

"Even so, you still push us in the right direction, don't you? Even if you treat us harshly.. you still guide us to righteousness.." ..maybe Scaramouche hadn't thought of that, but wouldn't Aether be more fitting as a 'symbol of hope'?

"and the fact that you're not a regular human.. has the heaven above sent such an angel to assist us in a desperate time of need?" Nagito took Scaramouche's hands in his, "Aether may be a bright star, but I believe in you, Scaramouche.."

"you're my symbol of hope.. in my heart."

Those words.. struck through Scaramouche's heart. it was.. almost impossible to believe, that someone like Nagito would see him as a brighter source of hope than Aether was.

"..hah, you really are crazy," Scaramouche smiled, "I never thought someone like you would ever see me under such a light."

"As long as if it's the light of hope.. I see it within you. The way you've never given up through your hardship.. is truly admirable.." Nagito's eyes mimicked that of the brightness of hope, and the dimness of deep despair to swirl into circles into each other,

".. did Aether tell you about it as well?" Scaramouche had a scowl on his face, before Nagito shook his head. "Ahaha! No, it's a lucky guess."

"..I guess you were titled as the ultimate lucky student for a reason.." He mumbles, "what are you gonna do now? Now that you've dubbed me as your.. 'symbol of hope', or whatever?"

"of course, as a follower under the path of hope.. I shall stick by your side till my end!" Nagito smiled brightly. Scaramouche stares at him with a blank expression.

"..no you won't," He says, looking down from Nagito's eyes, ".. it's either you die here, or we'll never see each other ever again." His finger loosens against Nagito's, but he doesn't dare let Scaramouche's hands fall.

"Hmm.. maybe you're right. But it doesn't mean I can't imagine myself being with you.. and being with you through spirit.." Nagito trails off, before shaking his head.

"oh, what am i saying! A god like you wouldn't want an insignificant human such as I am following them around like a duckling.." Nagito goes back to his pessimistic thoughts, before Scaramouche squeezes his hands,

Scaramouche speaks in a loud voice, "As an ambassador of hope and my devoted follower, you must see your worth and uses. Don't tell me you'll keep on calling yourself useless while following under my steps?" ..fuck. he wasn't good at this at all. Were his words.. good enough? How was he supposed to comfort?

"..ahaha! of course! Look at you.. trying to shine your hope onto me as well.." Nagito smiled, the touching feeling that a deity was trying it's best to lift his spirits.. how cute!

"..gh, I'm not good in this sort of thing. I'll kill you if you laugh again." Scaramouche threatens, Nagito couldn't help but smile. "I don't mind getting killed by you.."

"you shouldn't be saying that."

"..alright, alright. Sorry," Nagito smiled sheepishly.

[silent-sentinels]

Plural Asking 100 Questions: Part 3!

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9

21. How many System members do you have? 24 and a Core! <3

22. Which word / words do you prefer to use for members of your System? We prefer facets, but parts also works. Sysmates is also cool! though headmates and alters seem a little too solid for us, and fragments feel too incomplete (though that is Core). we used to think skills was fun!! but ultimately the term doesn't describe us anymore. and recently we've been referring to ourselves as scabbards/scabbardmates!!

23. Which age group seems to be the most common in your System? We're all mostly in the 20s range, which makes sense considering how old the body is. Outliers include the Oldies, Oath (42), Harlowe (39) and Chrysanthemum (38), and little Lili who is 1-6, and Sharps who jUST TOLD US IT WAS 7. HONEY? SWEETHEART?? SINCE WHEN?? nooo darling nooo, who gave all the pain to the 7 year old to hold, oh sweetheart... okay hey LISTEN when we fake kin assigned ourselves fictional characters i thought giving it "The Kid from Omelas" WAS A FUCKING JOKE. HELLO??? sharps darling come here, why are you holding that...

24. Which gender seems to be the most common in your System? we're all so fucked up genderwise lmao... hey are any of us cis?? what counts as cis when you don't consign with conventional portrayals of gender? we're intangible!! this question is very difficult to answer since all of our genders are Incredibly Fucked hkjgh but i think it's. transmasc? genderfluid? genderqueer!

25. Are there any talents / hobbies you picked up because of a Member? Songbird's why we did choir and art we're pretty sure hgkjh we're thinking of learning more french for her too, but who knows? theseus loves languages too, so that'd be fun for him, theseus is also why we like writing and linguistics! <3 and expertise likes cIasspecting (if that wasn't clear hkjhg).

26. Do you have any in-system relationships? OATH AND MOM ARE MARRIED!!!! <3333 they're our system power couple fr. and Chamomile and Songbird are. uh. i think they're lovers now right??? yes. okay yes they're lovers!

27. Do you label roles within your System (and if yes, which ones?) yeah! on our intro post, we labeled Oath (Protector), Mom and Burden (Caretakers), and Ceres (our Main), but otherwise all of our roles are here! maestro's still working on it though hkgjh <33

28. Are most of your Members introjected, brainmade or something else? we're all brainmade!! :]

29. Do you use names, emojis or something similar to sign off messages (and if yes, which ones and why?) WE USE EMOJIS!! but only when we know for sure who's typing AND if we want to sign off on something! if we don't THEN WE DON'T!!! this is an important rule for us because we feel like shit when we're forced to differentiate. like? we dont know who that was either bro hkjhg

ANYWAY, our emojis! this'll take a bit lmao

Core/Ceres is 🧭 because he's our center! we're all connected and everything leads back to him :]

Maestro is 🍱 because he's all neat and organized and compartmentalized. Sorting everything into its proper place. The bento box was a joke at first but I'm not sure what would fit me better, and it's otherwise grown on me.

Rationale is 🏹 because he's our guy who adds nuance (<- and this extra info often takes the form of these funny little arrows)

Songbird is 🕊️ mostly due to the name. If the bluebird emoji wasn't so fickle, we would use that, but the dove is also very pretty~

Eloquence is 🪶 because it's like writing with a feather and ink!

Self-Awareness is 🔭 because she's usually observing us from a distance and viewing us through a specific lens.

Memorandum is 📜 because he's our memory keeper, and it's like keeping track of records.

Expertise is 🪡! this is somewhat because we know how to sew because of him, but also it's a sort of a "thread the needle" "to pin point something" oh god whats the phrase... idk bro it's just like. a tiny niche that you can fill perfectly? a small but tricky skill that takes finesse? that's expertise hkjhg

Oath is ☔ because he shields and protects us from things that try to hurt us. also he does carry an umbrella hkjgh

Chrysanthemum is 🌺 because it was the best flower emoji we had hkgjh mom goes by so many flower names that it's truly like yeah alright that'll work jlkjg

Lili is ☄️ AND WE DONT KNOW WHY HKJHG we were trying to pick one they liked and the kiddo seemed happy about this one and so i was like yeah sure buddy go for it!! you can be a pretty lil comet! hkjgh i guess its fitting, our favorite stuffed animal is a blue teddy bear and this is a similar blue to that? (<- and she sees whimsy as an older brother so she wanted a star like him) WAIT FOR REAL OH MY GODDD THATS SO CUTE WHATTTT!!! lili my LIL GUY!!!! :']

Juliet is 💓 because duh, heart thrum. heart beat one specifically because of hyper empathy, feelings resonate strongly for us, especially for him.

Ryan is 💫 because that's the most whimsy ass emoji ive ever seen. just stars/a star swirling around in circles like yeah okay that's him alright

Hackles is 💥 because he's always angry and pissed about something. as a note, he was almost 🪚 because Hackles -> hacksaw, and another name of his is Serration.

Jaded is 🍂 because there's no fucking good jade plant emojis, and i didn't want one anyway so who cares. the dead leaves work fine. (<- he refuses to call them fall leaves or autumn leaves. always "dead leaves) if it were up to me i wouldnt have an emoji at all but maestro's a real stickler about it so whatever.

Yearning is 🌻 which is VERY AMUSING, he wrote a post about it here thats mostly silly hkjh but the sunflower chases the sun, and yearning chases joy. lmao, if oath's like our volition, yearning's like our echem.

Faucet is 🌫️ because [ ] keeps everything about us obscured. fun fact, [ ] form was one of the first one we thought up because [ ] literally is just a hazy figure peeking out from behind a curtain of fog. ANOTHER FUN FACT [ ]'S EMOJI WAS ALMOST 🚱 ARE YOU SEEING THIS SHIT THIS IS THE MOST FAUCET ASS EMOJI LMAO!!!! [oh, shut up]

Distance is 🪟 because distance is why we keep distancing ourselves from people, like looking in through a thick pane of glass.

Blender is 👥 because he helps us mask and blend in with the crowd! :> <33

Sharps Box is 🩹 because it's our pain holder, pain = bandaid!

Debonaire is 🎇 because he's got that flare B) lmao, he's like our cool guy. sparkle on or whatever hkjhg

Chamomile is 🍵 because. chamomile hkjgh?? sleepy time tea!

Lookout is 🕯️ because it helps us notice more things, and is kinda like a "leave a light on" keeping vigil for the late watch.

Deadsprint is 💨 boy goes fast, what more can i say hkjgh

Burden is 🌐 because he's got the weight of the world on his shoulders :']

30. Do any of your System members use Xenogenders? not as of right now, but we may consider it when we have time!! ryan's been getting into some kind of bunny gender, or silly time gender. who knows with that guy. mom found that uhhh Floradeeric flag which is sick as hell, and the Grownostatua which is also her!!

[pebblesthefruitygirl]

I HAVE A QUESTION FOR A STORY IM MAKING RN, DISCLAIMER, IM HORRIBLE AT EXPLAINING THINGS SO PLS BARE WITH ME 😭 Also TW:? Yelling, abuse, I DONT KNOW IF THIS NEEDS A TW BUT I WANNA ADD ONE ANYWAYS JUST INCASE 😭 Also this is a REALLY long read! ALSO IK THIS POST IS A BIT WEIRD 😭

Okay so, the Mcs life is supposed to be really hard, and they're very depressed about it. So please tell me if you guys think their life is hard, or if they're just complaining for no reason (If you could tell, this is not a story)

This is the first part of their life. The mc is 14 years old (female) and shares a room with their 15 year old brother, and awhile back ago, they had to give up their room for a year and 5 months and sleep on the couch for their uncle, and their dad refuses to kick their uncle even though hes been there for 2 years and eats up all the food in the house, freeloads off their dad, uses other people's cups, bodyguard wash, lotion, refuses to get a different job or another job, and barely goes to work and screams at the mc EVERYTIME they ask their dad to kick him out, and ignores their mom's complaints/feelings about it, their own feelings and their brothers feelings about it, would you say their life is hard from what you've read? IK THIS DOESN'T MAKE SENSE IM SORRY 😭

(Real but not the crying part)

Here's another part of the story, so one day the mcs dad comes home and notices that it's hot in the house, and the Thermostat was turned up, so the dad AND THE MOM starts screaming at the mc AND their brother about it, insulting them telling them they never do what theyre supposed to do. And then the dad asks who touched the Thermostat up, and the brother says "Idk why you're so mad about this, because we didn't turn it up, it was probably (the uncle" And the dad says "Well he obviously didn't do it" and the brother says "Well he's been here for 2 years I think he'd be pretty comfortable touching the thermostat" and the dad starts yelling at the brother, calling him names and telling him "don't you disrespect that man" Even THOUGH the uncle Is rude, refuses to go to work or move out, or get another job, eats up everything in the house including other people's food, etc. Then the dad rips off the ladder to their bed, basically breaking it since the siblings sleep in the same room on a Bunk Bed and then yelling at them more. The mom stops yelling at them over the Thermostat and yells at the dad and tells him to stop yelling at them over something so small. Would you say the dad was in the wrong here?

(He's 100% in the wrong here 😭)

Okay so then heres the other part of the mcs life:

The mc has to share a room with their sibling, despite them both being teenagers, the mc never gets any privacy, alone time or anything like that. Even the bathroom is off limits because their parents always have to pee, and can't hold their bladder very well. They always have to be in the room with their sibling. They also can't separate the room, like one side is their side and the other side is the siblings side, because their room is too small. Their door is also broken so they can't close it without tape on the door or something, and their bed is breaking, like falling apart.

Their parents are broke, most of the time there is little to no food in the house. Sometimes they have to go a few days without food and make do with what they have. Their parents can't afford to get them clothes throughout the school year, so they hardly have any outfits to wear for the whole week, their parents also struggle with doing laundry, and other basic things. Also, the mcs house is very small, it's not even a house, there are only 2 bed rooms, and 1 bathroom, the mc lives with 4 people. The mcs parents CONSTANTLY have to use the bathroom, so they can't get any privacy in there either, their parents have a very very hard time holding their pee for more than 10-15 minutes.

Would you say this is a hard living situation?

Okay here's the other part of the mcs life:

The mc has to share a room with their sibling, despite them both being teenagers, the mc never gets any privacy, alone time or anything like that. Even the bathroom is off limits because their parents always have to pee, and can't hold their bladder very well. They always have to be in the room with their sibling. They also can't separate the room, like one side is their side and the other side is the siblings side, because their room is too small. Their door is also broken so they can't close it without tape on the door or something, and their bed is breaking, like falling apart.

Their parents are broke, a lot of the time there is little to no food in the house. Sometimes they have to go a few days without food and make do with what they have. Their parents can't afford to get them clothes throughout the school year, so they hardly have any outfits to wear for the whole week, their parents also struggle with doing laundry, and other basic things. Also, the mcs house is very small, it's not even a house, there are only 2 bed rooms, and 1 bathroom, the mc lives with 4 people. The mcs parents CONSTANTLY have to use the bathroom, so they can't get any privacy in there either, their parents have a very very hard time holding their pee for more than 10-15 minutes.

Would you say this is a hard living situation?

The parents also can't move, because houses in their state are starting at half a million dollars, which is impossible to afford especially with the parent's small income. The mc doesn't have anyone to talk to about their issues. Whenever they try to talk to their parents, their parents either make it their fault or shut them down. Their parents can't even remember why their kid is always upset. They can't talk to their brother much since they're both going through it, so their brother wouldn't be much help, sadly. Their parents think that moving will somehow solve everything, even though moving would involve money, that they don't have 😭 and they might have to switch schools. The mc has no kind of escape or pick me up. They live in a boring town with nowhere to go except for fast food joints, everywhere else that's fun is expensive, and far away. Their parents are good parents, but they're NOT without their flaws 💀 (I'm fr making the mcs life as hard as possible 😭)

Would you say the (ᵐʸ) mcs life is hard or are they just complaining about nothing?

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its feeling jealous again time :( i wish i was normal i dont want to get annoyed by my friends if i think too hard!!! i love them so so so much!!! but also im a little sick of hearing about transformers (i call with two friends usually and most of what they talk about is transformers) and normally im fine with it!!! god knows im the same way with my interests and 99% of the time it doesnt bother me!!! but the one thing that gets under my skin is when the two of them like they like each other way more than they like me. when they sound like they talk way more often than i talk with either of them. i get jealous you know like :(

i love them but i miss them? even though we talk all the time? maybe im just lonelier than i thought idk. i feel like i have very few friends these days (the only friends i have that i've talked to in the last 3 or so months are my online ones (i love my family dearly but they're family before they're friends if that makes sense?) like. i think i could count the number of times i left the house since i last saw my two irl friends (october 28th 2023) & i think the number would be less than 40.

cause i never go outside because i never have anything to do off my computer. i had doctor's appts for my broken foot but those are getting less and less frequent as it heals. i have physical therapy but that'll stop soon too (because i'm healing). i started my drumming lessons again next week, so i guess that's good. i like my drum lessons. my teacher is really fun and chill and nice, he's like a cool older brother (or maybe more like an uncle?) idk.

but like? i couldn't tell you the last time i went outside just because i wanted to just because i felt like it and not because my mom invited me out on the deck (which was like. twice.) or because i had somewhere to be (that was decided on by my mom).

idk i don't want to go outside because i haven't washed my hair since. last fucking year i think? (i've bathed since then but a lot of the time it's hard for me to work up the energy to do my hair) and then i don't bother showering because i never fucking leave the house. it's miserable

and on top of that? i think this is the most physically unfit i've been in my LIFE. like on top of weighing 300 pounds, i had to stay off my foot for like 2 months because i broke it and needed surgery. but i can't blame it all on my injury because the fact of the matter is that i'm a fat lazy pig who doesn't ever get up off his ass and do anything. my sister called me lazy the other day, don't even remember what we were talking about but i asked her why i would or wouldnt do something, i dont remember, and she said "because you're lazy?" and it felt like a shot to the heart.

like yeah i'm fucking fat. i weigh 300 fucking pounds, no shit. but do i like it? hell fucking no i've been trying to lose weight so desperately since february of 2022. and that's not even my first attempt, just my most recent!!! ive been trying to lose weight since MIDDLE SCHOOL.

but i'm fucking depressed as all hell and have adhd and no motivation or energy or any fucking self control so i just eat and eat and eat until i feel sick and then i get on call with my friends (some of the only times i feel actually happy) and my girlfriend talks about how she's so forgetful she forgets to eat and she was even a few pounds underweight at one point. she mentioned she had boney hips today and all i could think was how fucking jealous i was. to be that effortlessly skinny. to have that fucking self control. i wish i wasnt a fucking pig

like i need to stress i was so desperate to lose weight i joined edtwt. didn't work. didn't help at all. just made me feel worse and have worse goals. but in the end i'm enough of a fat fucking pig that even if i had successfully starved myself? id still be obese

my mom had me try a nutritionist once, to see if it would help. it didn't. not one bit. just made me feel more horrible about myself and how little self control i have. she just told me to portion my food better, snack less, eat healthier. you think i haven't fucking tried that? i've tried EVERYTHING. i just have zero fucking self control around food and it makes me sick to think about

i was supposed to have a doctor's appointment in november to see about getting ozempic (or something similar). got pushed back to december when i broke my foot. got cancelled altogether when december rolled around and i was still recovering from foot surgery. we haven't rescheduled.

idk. everything i hate about myself i feel like ties into how i look and how fucking fat i am its honestly disgusting. i hate this stupid fucking fat all over me i seriously just want to kill myself over it

like how can i even look in my friends' faces when i'm heavier than both of them combined? (not a joke. i'm dead serious.) they won't want to be friends with me when they see me, in days-old clothing, greasy hair, smelly in general but especially my breath, dandruff, and how fucking fat i am. they won't want to be seen with me. my girlfriend's never gonna wanna hold me in her arms when i look like this (and even if i lost all the weight, i've still got this ugly fucking personality underneath anyway. so what does it fucking matter.

i don't know. my therapist said i need to be kinder to myself but i really don't have anything good to say. i like my hair color my hair's so greasy right now that's all i can think about when i look at my hair. i have nice eyes. i'm more than terrible at making websites with html/css (not even good. not even fucking okay. i suck at it but i'm better than someone who knows nothing). i suck at being nice to my siblings, i guess, because they're never fucking nice to me. i'm good at giving my mom hugs, i guess, like, wow,that's a good fucking skill to have (sarcasm). i'm not good at any of my hobbies (art of any kind or otherwise). i'm not good at saving money. not good at spending it wisely. not good at cooking (not bad, but not good.) not good at going to bed at a normal time. not good at having a healthy diet. not good at not snacking all day. not good at making myself do things i want to do; i just sit around and watch youtube and chat on discord all day until my friends can call. i'm not good at going outside, but i'm not good at being inside either. "oh, well you don't have to be good at everything, as long as you're having fun, that's what matters!" okay well i'm not good at ANYTHING. and i'm not even having fun

like why is life worth living? i'll never kill myself only because i'm a coward and the permanence of death scares me. though, i'm too much of a coward to cut myself, so that's not surprising. another two things i'm not good at.

what makes life fun? i like reading fanfiction & looking at fanart. that makes me happy, if only for a moment. i like talking to my friends. i like listening to music, i like watching & playing video games. i love reading about foreign languages. but i'm not GOOD at any of those things! not even good compared only to the people in my friend group! not even CLOSE to good!

i seriously couldn't name one thing i'm actually, honestly good at. not one thing. "oh, well you're a jack of all trades!" no i'm fucking not! i don't have skill in ANY of these things i just tried them out. some stuck, some didnt. whatever! whatever.

is that so much to want in life? to want to be good at something? not even the best, not even CLOSE to that, just... good. i want to be loved, i want to be wanted, hell, i want to be liked. but you know what? if i killed myself and never came online again, would my friends miss me? probably. but they'd get over it fast. they'd forget about me. they'd move on. that's how life goes for random nobodies like me, i guess.

idk. i just wish i could be loved by someone. even to be loved by myself would be nice. i wish i could be good at something, what am i good at, fucking grammar? like that's a good skill. and not even one i bother using 99% of the time! i spend my days online, who the fuck cares about capitalizing proper nouns? not me.

i don't know where i was going with this. i think i an just incredibly sad and lonely. isn't that pathetic? what a loser i am

aghhh.....