#DONT GET ME STARTED ON DEEPFAKE....!!!

[makeitlookdecent]

omg...i lovbe...music so much..!!!

[jce93]

thry have the perfect sun/moon dynamic but u guys arent ready to hear that js yet 🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫

[buggachat]

adrien never went to public school / adrienette have never met AU where Ladynoir are dating but Marinette has beef with Adrien Agreste™ on twitter, spurred by her interest in the fashion industry and her friendship with Mylene. ads are all over the place of Adrien promoting products like air in a bottle and NFTs and just generally so many products that are extremely poor taste/bad for the environment. Marinette tweets about beauty standards in the industry and all the shit Gabriel brand does to the environment and how Adrien Agreste perfectly encapsulates it all.

Adrien, of course, never responds to any of her tweets. her tweets are just white noise in the background. she is nowhere near on his level. one day Marinette tweets out something akin to "if I saw Adrien Agreste irl i'd punch him in the face" and her twitter gets banned for Threats of Violence, Alya draws attention to the injustice of it via the Ladyblog and suddenly "I want to punch Adrien Agreste in the face [gets banned]" becomes a bit of a meme. NOW people know who Marinette is and are listening to what she's saying (on her new account or whatever). Chat Noir also tweets that he wants to punch Adrien in the face

A hashtag trends. Marinette caves and starts tweeting about the scandals of the industry on her Ladybug twitter too. Adrien's twitter and instagram comments are flooded with both threats to punch him but also just generally critical comments like "nice pic and all but are you not going to address the sweatshop allegations?". Adrien still does not address it. At most he turns comments off. Marinette is gnawing at the wood of her desk.

Then a Ladybug and Chat Noir identity reveal happens.

Marinette is stunned. Absolutely mouth agape. Cannot form words. Chat Noi— NO, ADRIEN— ADRIEN FUCKING AGRESTE looks at her and is like "oh ha :) .... Marinette Dupain-Cheng, right? You're the girl who wanted to punch me hahaha"

after recovering from her world being shattered, she's like...... "hahaha...... um............... yeah...... uh..... so you... DO know who i am. and you're just. ignoring it then. hahaha... ok... thats....... fine..... anyway..... u-uh...... im not... gonna actually punch you. but. um. k-kitty do you um. maybe want to stop promoting deforestation and all that"

he's like "I don't"

she's like. "yes you do. literally in your newest ad you said to the camera 'who needs trees when bottled air is the way of the future'. like did you really read that line out loud and not see a problem with it"

"yeah, that wasn't me"

"what are you talking abou—"

"it's deepfaked"

"..... what"

"all of my ads in the past few years are deepfakes. I complained too much so my father fired me. turns out that i signed away all rights to my face and voice to him when I was 13 or something. he can just use my face and voice and name however he wants. he generates ads. i dont even have access to the 'Adrien Agreste' twitter or insta accounts. sometimes he makes me do runways but beyond that I'm not involved in all."

"... ... ... ... ... what"

"yeah haha... :") im sorry. i wish i could help you more. but he never listens to me. i don't like it either, i.... i've asked him to stop sooo many times. but he never listens to me. i hate seeing my face used without my consent but haha.... i don't... have any rights here so. sorry. i really wish i could help more"

and now marinette hates "Adrien Agreste"™ ads/posts EVEN MORE and is threatening to kill Gabriel Agreste himself. all while kissing the real adrien agreste silly

[flor4de4amor]

hockey abby 🌀🌀🌀

oh i need her so bad. want her so bad. also ik nothingggg abt hockey so don't beat me up guys.

click for palestine | dont buy tlou | read b4 engaging w me

hockey!abby who's actually a sweetie. beast on the ice. monster of a coach and captain, but such a sweet girlfriend. she's always more than happy to see you out in the stands, wearing her large jersey, cheering her on.

hockey!abby who coaches little league hockey. she loves kids, but they're awful. and by awful, they're actually hilarious. she has to stifle laughter during practice and reprimand them, but once she's home with you she's telling you everything.

hockey!abby who's definitely got a light 'hockey accent.' she denies it with her life. she hasn't got an accent, its you who's got an accent! but you've got videos of her saying "sorry" like a filthy canadian. she swears on her life it's a deepfake video of her. how could you do that to your pretty baby? she trusted you. what's next, fake news of her losing a game? gosh, papparazzi these days.

hockey!abby who brings you out on the ice when she's the only one practicing. slipping skates on your feet carefully, and holding your hand softly. she'd race you but you'd totally lose, and she doesn't wanna hurt your feelings.

hockey!abby who's fights with the ref every chance she gets. she gets heated quick and easy. whenever she loses because of a stupid ref call, you never hear the end of it.

"that ref is a fucking asshole. why's she even a ref? i can do a better job than her." she rolled her eyes.

whenever she's pissed, its easier to butter her up and stroke her ego. "you would, but you're a much better player baby," you take her hand and kiss her pulse point. "besides, i'd miss watching you play on the ice."

she smiles to herself, "when you're right you're right babe." she agrees, humming.

hockey!abby who is always in the penalty box. always swearing off on the ice. she's one of the few female players who does start fights on the ice, and they are brutal. blood flying, helmets clashing, sticks thrashing. she always makes you kiss her bruises better, and you always oblige. smiling against each scab and scolding her when finished.

hockey!abby who is always ending up in tik tok edits and has the most obscene comments. it drives you mad, but it just confuses her. cause her entire page is a shrine of you and your realtionship. she does post herself here and again. gym selfies, post practice drill check ins, once or twice with her hair out. which everyone knows, is a real panty dropper. but they're totally innocent pictures! she's got her eyes on you and you only! she replies to vulgar comments with corny stuff like:

'im happily married!'

'my gf shook her head in disgust when she read this'

'plz stop trying to build a wedge btw me n my girl! our cats won't like this!'

hockey!abby who always goes to speaker events and is incredibly passionate about women in sports. she encourages young girls to get engaged as young as possible. she always wants to uplift morale and increase the amount of girl in sports, especially her sport.

hockey!abby oh hockey!abby.

[sorcerous-caress]

since we're talking abt isekai tavs i wanted to bring up how much i love isekai tavs (or protags in general) who lowkey are fighting for their lives but are still somehow positive because they prefer it over their boring life at home. like

"sure i dont have to worry about someone turning me into a sheep and throwing me into an acid pit for the 5th time, BUT theres no dragons or hot elves at my office job"

bonus points if the companions are slightly unnerved by modern technology and customs.

Imagine having to explain AI to them and be like

"Yeah it's a good thing you guys pulled me out of there when you did, yeah the robots started getting a bit too good at mimicking human beings and creating deepfake videos and pictures. Yeah it was a whole thing"

Or explaining the current wage difference and how Isekai Tav was actually considering picking up a night shift second job because their landlord raised their rent again, again. And how they never realised how much adventuring pays, that they've risked their life at worse jobs for even less before.

"This food is really great by the way" and it's the most basic of vegetables and meat, but by modern Tav standards, it's a feast in comparison to fast food and the low quality foods at markets.

They explain copyright to Gale once and make an example of how the person who created the fireball spell can claim it as their own and charge every wizard a fee to use it, yeah even if the wizard is using their own magic in channelling it, no no they don't own the spell if they pay for it, they are only borrowing it and the original creator and pull it back anytime.

Isekai Tav finally being a state owner, they just had to battle some loser lich over it and kick him out of the castle and now they have a house and his previous undead servants and maids, they still pay them because they feel bad. The undead sometimes just eat the gold or spend it on cool hats.

Maybe when they got into the game, they had like a backpack or something with their snacks in it. They give Lae'zel a sip of their energy drink and she stays up until sunrise, chopping off most of the forest trees with only her sword and forcing Astarion into training sessions since elves don't need sleep.

[sang8262]

i said i'd rant later but waiting for akuma release amd patch notes is destroying me so:

WT's boss fight and why i dont like how they wrote it:

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First let me be clear, I love World Tour. And that is why I see how it could have been better and wanted so much more from it. But alas, they tried to make a whole stand alone, single player rpg game ... but it's only got the resources of side content to a fighting game.

To start, the story as a whole is paced ehhh, not so ideally. It feels both rushed *and* tedious at times, because of certain quests or maps.

Overall, we don't get to know Bosch too well to develop as STRONG of a bond the game wants the players to imagine: because we never get to spend much time getting to know him at the start of the game. So this "friendship bond" is ham-fisted through cheesy cutscenes, which feel fake and hollow because we ate pizza and bought a silly hat like, Once. This is to say: Bosch's sacrifice also feels hollow, because while we understand the weight of his actions, it isn't very personal. If they rather MADE Bosch the main character, the story would have been much much stronger. And also a completely different game.

WT needed to have custom player avatars, for Battle Hub, and because their vision was "players learning martial arts from the characters in the roster! interacting with them as student and master!". That's the fantasy they wanted to make, and so WT is pulled in two different directions. One that wants to sell the fantasy of meeting the game's characters, training under them, and becoming the champion yourself.

Then another about the world of SF6: Nayshall and Metro City; Bosch and the Resistance versus Shadaloo; the new generation of fighters who have their own ideals, clashing with the old. But now NEITHER has enough room to be the best version of itself, because they must compromise each other to exist in the same story/game mode space as the other.

In short, they wanted to do so much with WT that it ended up feeling half-baked across the board.

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JP too, doesn't feel like the main villain until waaaay too late in the story. That is, unless you read the comics. But even then, he's introduced into the story so late that you aren't even thinking about him as a character until that point. There's nothing to establish that JP is "pretending" to be nice, and therefore, no satisfying -reveal- that JP was evil all along when we finally do get to fight him. I think his whole character fantasy is the deceiver, the schemer, and we REALLY don't see evidence of this through WT at all.

In fact, what we do have of JP in WT is honestly not great!! And now I'm just going to be complaining:

After Bosch gets blown up by the belt, why would JP gloat to the avatar about everything?? A bomb just blew up and not only is he someone important, he was standing right there: logically, he should've acted panicked and afraid for his safety, and have fled immediately. Instead, he casually saunters over TO Bosch and the avatar, then villain monologues. He even takes a jab at how Bosch's sacrifice was 'a small bit of entertainment', which is NOT what someone trying to act innocent would say ever??

Also, this was during the award ceremony. Y'know, the event that's being streamed and filmed and seen by thousands of people. Even if the explosion caused that huge fire and damaged equipment, there's no guarantee that people aren't filming this. And knowing how up to date with technology this game is (Footube influencers, crypto, AI deepfakes.. JP's whole philosophy is that people value entertainment over the truth even), there MUST be people risking their safety to film everything. Which is to say, JP should've known better than to RISK being caught FIGHING one of the contestants immediately after an "alleged" terrorist bombing.

He even uses Psycho Power?!? Like he's okay with just putting all that and his face out there for a whole audience to see and record??? I don't think he'd have done that had he NOT been forced to be a boss fight.

Even after we fight him, there's no good explanation for what happens afterwards. He just, concedes and collapses on the arena floor...?? And then what? We just let him go? We also pass out??? He teleports away? What did he just fight us for anyway when he could have teleported to escape then???

He's entirely right about the fight and our victory meaning nothing because the fight was very meaningless, and so of course defeating him has no meaningful satisfaction either. The whole fight only happened because the game demands we have boss fight, but they did a poor job of making that fight actually good at all.

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Do I have any fixes for the issues I have with WT? Somewhat. Definitely shorten the quest fluff in the mid-game to give more time with Bosch, BEFORE he gets kidnapped and given Psycho Power off screen. We spend more time chasing after him and fighting him after he's been experimented on. Make us care about him as a character more so we care about his motivations. Hell, have us meet Yua and learn more about her. We get barely anything about her as a character beyond "Bosch's sister who worries about him" so, the stakes are superficial and implied ("it's his sister! you should care!").

The fact that she's one of the dancers for the tournament feels also significant: she's relative to one of the Resistance members (Bosch), and clearly knows about what they're fighting for. Even if you suggest she's part of the tournament to relay information, as informant or spy, that doesn't make sense as she would be risking her safety, something she doesn't believe in and something the other members would not have allowed. What if you instead have it so JP intentionally made Yua one of the tournament's dancers, as a bargaining chip against Bosch? On the surface, it might look like JP (or his association) is supporting their sponsored fighter, giving his sister the chance to perform for everyone on such an honored tradition! But in reality, it's to keep Yua close under Shadaloo's watch. Idk, just something to explain why Bosch's sister just so HAPPENS to be a dancer in the very tournament he's fighting to end.

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Have more scenes showing JP lying to everyone. Show us him being interviewed on TV about his support for the upcoming tournament, have him express his sympathies for the Resistance movement. Like in the comics, show us how JP actually knows a lot about Nayshall's history and culture, and how he uses that to feign admiration and care-- but importantly, show how those around him are charmed by his act.

THEN, follow up by showing us Luke conflicted and uncomfortable about seeing JP on TV. How he doesn't want to talk about his past association with him, or what happened with Ken. Show us Bosch being angered by JP's lies, being frustrated that he can't do anything the way he is right now, and how he doesn't want to get the avatar involved in what he feels is 'his' duty.

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If I wanted to even go a step further, in respect to my own bias and wants, I'd have thrown in some sort of dinner or conference scene with all the fighters and tournament staff, before the big event day. Show us the contestants talking about why they want to win, why they fight, as part of the game's narrative focus on "the reason we want to become stronger". Show us how JP puts on his public 'CEO of the NGO' persona in front of others, and how likeable he is, as Rashid notices. Show how JP lies about why Bosch isn't at the event (he's too much of a risk to have at the event being interviewed. And probably not stable enough from the Psycho Power destroying him anyway).

But JP might say how much he respects the sponsored fighter, for training even now to prepare for the tournament! How he sincerely hopes Bosch succeeds, and that we too, may find what we're fighting for. All the while us KNOWING he's exactly the reason why Bosch is suffering. Does he suspect us after what happened in the trophy room? Is Bosch really okay? Make it so that the avatar and player are also confused by his words.

And of course, this is a public event with bystanders. We can't fight him now, and we can't just start calling him out in front of everyone, less we ruin the plan. So what else can we do but grit our teeth and play along.

This kind of struggle would have made for greater tension, and thus, greater pay off when we DO get to throw down with him and beat him into the ground later. It would have shown how manipulative JP is in the game, just as he was in the comics, in a more direct manner.

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What about the actual boss fight itself? I think JP running away and the avatar chasing after him would've made more sense. I get the arena on fire is a hype stage, and it was really cool true. But it just doesn't fit JP as a character. He's not someone to choose violence or direct confrontation unless absolutely necessary, and much less so in such an open space, that was being STREAMED to the internet. And the boss fight as is just... doesn't feel so 'necessary' that he had 'no choice' but to fight then and there.

So instead, I'd have him run underground. The underground hallway with all the locker rooms and the trophy room, is mirrored on the opposite end of the arena: but this part of the map isn't currently used at all. So, have him run there, with the avatar chasing, through the panicked crowd, trying not to lose track of him. And because the whole arena is built into the mountain ruins, it's easy to add some sort of hidden cavern or unfinished construction space as the 'stage'. Hell, the Resistance headquarters is exactly this. They also have a hidden cavern that's connected to the arena's main stage, so this isn't even farfetched of an idea.

The setting of 'secret cave away from everyone's eyes' is also much better of a circumstance that JP would CHOOSE to fight in, if he HAD to as a boss fight. This doesn't redeem his spiel at the end, of how the victory is meaningless, or how he escapes at all. The next bet suggestion is having the room (still in construction) about to cave in, cause you broke some support beams during the fight or whatever. He can still give you the spiel, but have him teleport away as the room is caving in, and the avatar has to let him go to get out to save themselves too.

Could imagine that the avatar is shocked to see JP still alive after that, post game, and demands more answers about his abilities that helped him in the fight, but also to escape. It's more of an incentive for the avatar to want to learn under him, despite him LOSING and also being the enemy. It never made sense to me why the avatar would try to learn from him, when last we see him, he just... collapses on the floor of the arena and laughs about how he lost?? Having to cut the fight short, even evading death using Psycho Power, that's a much better look for the 'villain' and someone the avatar would begrudgingly agree to train under.

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Anyway, this got way longer than I intended, and it's all over the place;; But I don't have time to edit it through so, it shall have to be. Thanks for being interested enough to read it, if you did, and as always I'd love to hear others' thoughts on this if anyone wants to share!!

Now back to waiting for Akuma..........

[elephant-in-the-pride-parade]

I saw my first AI "fic" today.

The user who posted the AI creation added "goes to show we still need writers" I took that to mean they were uploading it to show how bad the AI creation was. Due to that, I felt more okay opening it for investigatory purposes (I made a post a while ago saying that AI would produce a facimile of creativity and I was curious how correct that would prove to be).

In a word, I was extremely correct. The fic had no-to minimal scene intros or transitions, banal dialogue, characters flat enough to feel ooc, silly to non existent conflicts, and it "tells" everything (no showing, no extended metaphors or insightful similes).

Scarily though, each snippet was coherent. Like sure, the characters were flat and the conflicts (when they exist) one dimensional and the turns of phrase often felt cliche (which is exactly what one would expect to get from an AI, which formulates sentences based off of how often words go next to eachother). But the scenes themselves make sense. If AI wasnt in the title I wouldnt have been able to tell the difference between this and a 15 yo's first fic.

The danger of course is that this is how AI starts out. The more people use them, and input content into them they will get better at producing this facimile of a creative work. AI could probably learn to produce some or all of the common components of storytelling that I've noticed this and other AI products lack.The scarier danger for me is when it becomes good enough to justify publishing houses and studios attempting to replace expensive human writers. (And to a degree clogging up AO3... although I hope enough people in fandom are here for the human connections that that wouldnt be a concern...).

Look, AI will never be keeping human writers out of fandom. Theres no finite number of spots on AO3. But AI could keep human writers out of screenwriting and book writing (which do have finite spots/finite funds for written works) and then... we lose something beautiful and precious.

The beauty of human writers is that they constantly have new things to say because every lived experience is so unique and precious. no two people will write a character's emotions the same way or capture the tension of a plot with the same words. I have read and will keep reading thousands of fanfics about the same canon characters because each person captures their pain and love and failures and triumphs in new and exciting ways. Humans always bring something new to the table. Humans always keep learning. Experimenting. Changing the conversation. An AI will never be able to say anything new. They are actively doing the opposite of human thinking and creating. Theyre not doing research or looking up new words or playing with new turns of phrase. Instead theyre cycling through a fixed set of applicable word choices and chosing the one with the highest percent match for what should come after the previous word.

So three bad things happen if you all start using AI as a fic production shortcut:

The AI improves its deepfakes of creativity. your requests, inputted content, and feedback all help it update the word selection math it is doing in the background. This makes it more likely that canon content stops being created by real people and instead starts being replwced by AI products.

You learn and feel nothing. I mean it. Writing is a joy because every creation is a new research rabbit hole. a new word looked up in the thesaurus. a new way to make your readers sob from the feels. AI robs you of that process. So you think less. You explore characters less. You are deprived the joy of marinating in your blorbos angst and pain and love and joy while you decide exactly how to put that into words. Youre deprived the satisfaction of your own work. (And by being deprived of the process above you also dont learn how to write. because the AI is not writing.)

Your readers lose out. Sure the AI has produced something perfectly spelled and grammared... but nothing new has been said. The grand conversation we are constantly having by writing and reading fic and exclaiming about characters stagnates and then festers. No new stories get told. AI is only producing things that look like what came before. your readers dont get any joy from new thoughts. new ideas. changed minds. changed perspectives... none of that happens. (Again I want to go back to point one. Im not worried about AO3 drowning in AI fics as much as I am worried that canon content will become overrun with it).

[topoillogical]

My opinions on AI art are so middling I'm constantly irritated by people on both sides of the issue

Puppetting other peoples identities is bad, stop doing it. Stop making voice and style replicas of people with AI, especially if them or their family is still alive (perhaps controversially, I'm ok with stylefaking long dead artists like Van Gogh). But dont even get me started on the cruelty of deepfakes

I dont think AI ""democratized art"", and I don't think AI is anywhere even remotely close to a human master. But I do think AI is a helpful tool. And can be used to enable people to generate imagery that they otherwise would not be able to draw. It's technology, the problem is in how you use it

As a side note, the more I think about AI-use in filming, the more I think that it's actually pretty damn promising in terms of what it would allow us to do? Imagine being able to use AI for child actors in a film, so you don't have to exploit real children. Or if you want human acting, you could use your real 12-year-old for the emotional scenes and then AI them into the background of other scenes, reducing the time that the kid has to spend on set. And for stunts! Stunt doubling is such a risky and exploitative career. It would be nice to not have to make people risk their lives for a film... none of this is really possible right now, of course. Our AI video looks like dogshit in 2024. But it's something to shoot for.

Anyway I'm anti-capitalist and the job taking argument does pretty much nothing for me, I'm not into luddism. So it's really only the identity issue that bothers me with AI. Stop puppetting around peoples corpses and identities, and then anything you do with AI is pretty much 100% fine

[donutinsideofashark]

Oke so

I need to rant about AI and my mental health and anything that comes to mind while i write all this bullshit bcuz its 5am and i gave up on sleeping

I've been looking for inspiration for another oc redesign on Pinterest. And im not sure if i got in some rabbit hole of ai garbage but ive seen every artwork i checked out being accused of being ai generated

It got to the point where I genuinely cannot tell whats ai and whats not.

Before i didn't like where the ai was going with the chat bots ai art and deepfakes but i didn't really care

Back then art wasn't really good and everyone with basic knowledge about art could tell whats ai generated

And now, sice i started taking art much more seriously the ai progressed so much it got me thinking that ive wasted my life

A skill that ive been learning for years with a dream to live of off it now became useless bcuz anyone can do better within seconds with a use of ai

A dream that got me through the worst times, dream of becoming a character designer and having a fulfilling and fun life with that stopped feeling achievable for quite some time now

And ive always told myself to just push through no matter what everyone thinks (and most importantly no matter what I think) but recently it got really damn hard so i dont know how much longer i can keep going with my ignorance alone

In conclusion

I fucking hate ai and where its going

And also life is getting hard

[worldwright]

good evening ! im more and more early nowadays but that's bc i have shitty days and i love our asks <3

the strong will to kill myself is still here full force and now i want to slit my throat open :) what a great way to start today's ask BUT GREAT NEWS I CAN STILL GET ANGRY

yay

it's been over a fucking month at least that i corrected someone's spelling in a fic because they butchered a bit too much a french word and I -a native french speaker- thought it'd be good to say to the guy to correct it, i was nice and all -normally i don't really care at all but it was too bad not to correct it yk LOL WRONG THE WRITER HAD THE FUCKING STUPIDITY TO RESPOND TO MY COMMENT AND NOT CORRECTING THE FUCKING SPELLING

FUCK YOU

it's a fucking spelling, everyone misspells from time to time for fuck's sake, just correct it ????? BUT NOPE. KEEP BEING AN IDIOT

and why would i remember that now ??? because a fucker that i don't even know, the only thing Im sure about him it's he's a friend of one of my friends by the fact he's on a friends' discord server where we all know each other IRL. we were all debating about AI videos (OpenAI Sora exists and that's hell) and i was talking about nsfw deepfakes and he went "never saw that", which isn't a fucking argument, and we were debating

and i said so, because that's not a fucking argument. and he said he knew that and i just went "okay /gen" and he didn't understand, so i explained to him what it meant what id just sent, because we use tone indicators in the server to avoid any misunderstandings, and a friend dropped a link to the most used tone indicators, so a short list, because she's nice and because we're all here to learn and all, AND THAT FUCKING ASSHOLE JUST WENT "LMAO IM NOT READING ALL OF THAT" WELL YOU FUCKER JUST GET OUT IF YOU WANT TO FUCKING ACT LIKE THAT

SO I INSULT HIM, RIGHTFULLY OR NOT IDFC I JUST LISTENED TO LEO GOING "INSULT HIM" AND I WAS LIKE "YEAH", BECAUSE YOU GO AND SAY THAT IM NOT UNDERSTANDABLE AND THEN SOMEONE PROVIDES YOU AN EXPLANATION AND YOU REFUSE ????? AND OH, YEAH, MAYBE I SHOULDNT HAVE SAID "IF YOU KEEP BEING MEDIOCRE IN YOUR COMMUNICATION YOU CAN GO AWAY" AND "DONT COMPLAIN ABOUT NOT UNDERSTANDING ME AND THAT YOU SEEMED LIKE A DICKHEAD WHEN YOU ADD A 'LMAO'" THEN YOU DARE TO ANSWER WITH "IT WAS JUST A MESSAGE, NO NEED FOR EASY INSULT" YOU MOTHERFUCKER

so. i didn't know i could still have the energy to be angry, but apparently i can :))))) my favorite feeling :)))) like it is not one of the FUCKING reasons i have so many traumas because my family FUCKING REFUSES THAT I HAVE NOT EVEN A BIT OF A LOUD EMOTION BECAUSE IM THE FUCKING PERFECT CHILD AND THAT I TRIED TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF ON A FUCKIN WHIM

so, to be short, ive never learned to live with emotions :))) normally that's Leo's and A.'s job to have strong emotions :)))) and now we all understand why my main occupation of the day is to fucking flee from my emotions because im a fucking mess

SO

have a wonderful morning my friend im gonna go and read some fics, wanted to continue mine today but that's not happening if i can feel anger (it can lead to self-harm pretty easily and fast, so that's a big no)

oh god, many sympathies, that sucks :'))))))))))

ugh some people just aren't worth arguing with. they're not trying to discuss anything, they're just trying to be a dick and refuse to change their views on literally anything

I'm in my friends' apartment!!!!! trip took a lot longer than planned last night due to train delays, but I made it!!!! had some alcohol and had a fantastic time :33333 we're going out to do fun stuff today :3333333333

gonna get groceries, get food, perhaps get ice cream, there's a really good bakery we can go to....... I'm havin a great time :3

my friend is doing better now!! still not fully recovered, but able to hang out

headed to the farmers market now!! hope you find a good fic to cool off with <3 <3 <3

[foob-r]

ok heres my extended cut on why andys character/treatment actually ruined the whole movie for me + other minor gripes

andy (the only black character in the whole movie to be clear) is clearly written as autistic from the jump. autistic robot is kind of a played out trope, but it gets worse when one of our protagonists calls him "damaged equipment" as well as a "fake person". i only mention this in regards to race because this mean character shoves and threatens andy but is still shown to be weaker and perhaps threatened by him because andy is so physically strong (at one point the bully is threatening andy and andy grabs him really hard, the bully panics but haha turns out he was just keeping him from falling down a hole but you as the viewer are not let in on this fact until you think 'whoa what is he doing!'). this is a weird thing to do with your only black character.

andy is the "brother" to the protagonist rain (she is white) who basically owns him. andys prime directive (programmed by her father who found him) is to 'do whats best for rain'. this is, again, weird- making andy her bodyguard/servant is Very strange, especially since shes been lying to him about not taking him with her away from the mining colony. she Lies To Her Brother About Abandoning Him As She's Using Him As A Tool For Her Personal Gain. he only finds out from the bully and one of the other nicer protags, who doesnt even apologize for the bully (his cousins) behavior. however this somehow gets worse, as once andy gets a new module, he starts to do the bidding of the company. however, rain doesnt know this immediately, and tries to boss him around like usual, getting upset and scared when he doesnt do her bidding. andy becomes a secondary antagonist as he lets people die and even chases a facehugger victim with intent to possibly kill her to keep the chestburster from escaping. this is, again, bad. andy (under the control of the company) lets kay die (so they think) and tyler and rain scream at him and rain straight up slaps him and then gasps and cries like he hit her back.

after the threat of death lets rain take out his evil module, She forgives Him now that hes back to normal- even though She forced Him to put the new module in. there is never an apology given for the slap. andy spends the rest of the movie being rains protector again. rain gets .1% of character growth, saying she Will take andy with her even though synths are illegal where they want to go.

and you might be saying oh what about his directive change? oh yeah. rain GIVES him a new directive: instead of only doing what's best for rain, he should do whats best for Both of them. not free will, just to do whats best for both of them. she is still centered in his literal purpose. oh yeah and then he kind of dies protecting her and her last line to him in the cryo pod is "ill fix you". fucking insane.

we never see enough other synths for us to understand if there is tangible oppression involved. andy gets beat up at the start of the movie, but we dont see the events that lead to this. not all synths are black (the primary antagonist besides the xenomorphs is a white synth with Awful deepfake cgi face), but none of the protags talk to rook the synth the way they talk to andy. the only other synth made reference to is the one that sacrificed the bullys mom to save more lives (which almost encourages the idea that synths Are heartless). pretty much all the synths are shown to be emotionless, well, robots who are at the beck and call of companies and weird white bitches. if the movie wanted to flesh them out as people, they could have written andy far far better.

you COULD argue that this is an elaborate oppression metaphor, but the characters are never held accountable for their actions towards andy, Especially rain. she should have apologized and given him free will or Something that showed that she saw him as a person and not as an object, which i strongly feel she does not do.

i thought the sets and effects were great and i will watch it again with my wife but i really cant rate this movie higher than a 6/10 soley because of how weird the movies treatment of andy was. if rain was black and andy was white i think it would have alleviated some of these issues because it wouldnt have communicated such antiblackness.

i think alien romulus was successful in its atmosphere, sets, and effects (save for one or two here or there). however their writing of their singular black character was so cartoonishly racist it sort of made the whole movie suck

[leftenant-sinani]

Get to Know Me meme

Got tagged by @myrddinderwydd, so i salute you, good lady.

- Relationship Status : Recently got single.

- Favourite Colour : Blue of all shades and Yellow.

- Three Favourite Foods : Pistachios, Pringles Salt & Vinegar and Blueberries

- Song Stuck in My Head : That bloody Daka Mitai song from Yakuza (Yall know it under name Dame Da Ne) everybody keeps making those deepfake memes of. I just cannot resist sometimes singing it for myself, because despite the fact i dont really like Japanese, this is catchy af.

- Last song I listened to : The Quiet Earth from Thomas Barrandon.

- Last thing I googled : Czech Translation for Dragon Age Origins. (Because native language all the way, am i right?)

- Time : 10 : 29 AM

- Dream trip : Finland, Switzerland or perhaps Iceland, always wanted to visit such beautiful countries, and perhaps once i am over 30, ill visit those countries (assuming ill live to see it).

- Anything I really want :All i want is less “exciting in armageddon way” future years, because hell, this year was really bloody bad way to start a new decade.

And ill tag my dearest friends @witharsenicsauce, @avengercommander @smixcom, so i will make them post something of their own. ;*

[swampgallows]

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man i fucking hate drugs because none of them are accurate. like i cannot imagine i would ever have an ideal experience out of any of them, and there’s nothing that they offer that i ever want. i dont want the turbo-ego of cocaine or the touchy feely of ecstasy or the trip of acid or shrooms or whatever else. at least i dont think i do. the only drug id ever wanna do would be something to make dreams real, or at least feel real, and i think that would be something id see myself getting addicted to. if VR gets to a point where it’s almost deepfake shit i know im going to jack in and die in a corner with it fused to my face. 

but i dont know. ive never done any drugs to know. ive been sleeping really poorly the last few days and eating pretty poorly even though ive been hungry. im eating basically one meal a day which is so awful but i feel like i cant stomach (literally) the experience. im so sick of eating and everything tastes empty or bad to me or is difficult to eat. probably just because everything ive been eating is really bland. yesterday my mom cooked because family came over and i hadnt eaten all day (and didnt eat afterward) and both of my parents made comments about how much i ate, which made me really self-conscious. and my dad spat the word like “well you’re not FAT...” and im like thanks, okay. 

i was talking to my uncle who is my dad’s brother and the fact that he was actually like... tech savvy and talking to me about like “yes ive been using duckduckgo” etc, that he had an actual empathetic understanding of the puzzle box zine because his son is autistic... it was almost like i couldnt imagine actually being able to be understood by an older person, and it made me kind of... i dunno. it made me wish my dad would understand even a single sliver of my world. but i guess because he doesn’t, it’s better than he doesn’t. like i wouldnt want him to 180 and suddenly have an interest and understanding in where i spend “my whole world” as he kept putting it because he’s never cared before, but it made me see this like alternate reality where my dad could have possibly not been a trump thumper who treats the internet like witchcraft. my dad was a scout leader to a troop of mostly autistic boy scouts and he was calling it “stemming”. it’s stimming, dad.

losing ginny and losing access to the morris troupe made me realize i dont have any older people to look up to or even confide in. i’m the oldest person among my friends, and the few friends i have that are older i’m not very close with. it sucks to not have any vision of the future or positive representation of what it could be, let alone having a mentor.

im writing all this just because i want to sleep and i thought about taking benadryl but benadryl fucking obliterates me. it leaves me groggy and robs me of lucidity for days on end. but at the same time i feel like i need to induce a coma just to make myself sleep and stay asleep. yet i think about how fucking on edge i am in this house all the time, how often i fawn, how i am constantly guarded, constantly monitoring myself to make sure im not too loud or too visible. when my uncle started talking about environmentalist issues and climate change i felt the palpable shift of my guard being let down and not having to fucking argue for the existence of what is happening or dealing with my parents’ generational guilt about shouldering the burden or something. any time it comes up my parents always play fucking devil’s advocate andit’s exhausting. like that’s exactly how we’re in this fucking mess, because bullshit shithead morons form the previous generations are more focused on preserving their ego than preserving the planet. 

i just want to sleep. i want to be able to be active. i want to be able to feel free to express myself and not get completely shut down by the people who say they love me. i dont really know how im going to be free of this shit and how ill get a real job and move out but jesus christ the moment i do i think i will never speak with my family ever again. 

[casan0vafrankenbutt]

I mean, i was behind this up til, hollywood is beautiful and good and q loves it so much that he sends in the cowboys to just like change history. So like i dont care if all margos acting is silent, she can handle it, and to see it otherwise seems like a shallow read (clickbait as said, not that I reject the hypothesis out of hand).

But if you dont look at Polanski blaming the murders for his pedophilia, you dont get that hollywood and the manson family are equally farcical, equally not-glossycoated human golden retrievers wielding flamethrowers of righteousness to preserve the innocent. Its just a vindictive weirdo gleefully doing in art what a vindictive weirdo gleefully did in life, because he did it. As long as thats the point, like, have at. Implications to it that i tend to secondguess but, hey, we all get a little vindictive, sometimes.

Isnt that so?

Condescending genxers defending their degree of comfort with depictions of extreme violence against runaways: "sometimes you need to be made uncomfortable, and people will say oh no you can't do that"

Ok....so...deepfake footage of you having your dick slowly severed for 2 hours. Let me condescend to you about how you need to take that in. Sorry i should ease off, i had already been thinking he was like a securityblanket for you guys but then one of you brought it up directly and its like.... im not here to piss on a baby parade, i know that for you guys the future seems scary when compared to the past that tarantino helps you believe is the present with his presence. there there.

Ah but lets return to violence in excess of self defense, as retribution against a cult victim, and the artistic merit of bigbudget mainstreaming it, and how quentin says he believes art doesnt impact life

This movie's thesis is, "if you could retroactively send brad pitt to skullbash a bunch of dirty hippies to death before they destroyed everything swell and geewhiz, wouldnt you? Everyone? If you could have foreseen that those little girls would kill a baby and a hot girl who was down to earth, wouldnt you just smash their faces in?"

And if the answer is yes, what do you say when you step over some "suspicious" looking kids outside the theatre? Or maybe, you start a fight...

When americans want to make change, often they find a way in to Hollywood. Some have more methodical plans than others for how to be effective there. Doesnt take much to out-virtue the goddamn manson family. Thats a real low bar. And if people see that bar and kick below it because violence is fun......well thats just, everday. Violence is everywhere in our society, man.

Yknow when i first heard that i thought there was yknow, critique behind it but actually its just an excuse. "Im a mirror, not a projector! God knows what im trying to say about how natalie wood was murdered--i wanted to cast shatner but couldnt? Life is fragile especially if you talk back?"

Its pointless trying to tell me this milk isnt off. Its sour as hell.

If you like unexpected violence and meditations on actors watch jeanne dielman