#DOES THIS HELP? I SOUND INSANE

[pinacoladamatata]

we all have a little solas inside of us btw...

[watermelonlicker]

last thing i’m saying before i go touch grass but one thing that’s bothering me is how we are pretty much all on the same page about this on tumblr but we don’t have the reach anymore here. no one is listening beyond us here. the influence is on twitter & tik tok and that is where the problem is. tumblr has always been where the most organized and most intelligent larries resided before this app’s decline. i was only on twitter before i deleted my account but we got our news from all the tumblr masterposts, especially during babyhell and that’s how we fought. was everyone in larrydom always on the same page during the golden age? no. but it was damn sure more than what it is now. but there is hope and i think that’s why i’m speaking so much. the tiny community i’m seeing here and the accounts working to preserve our history is why i decided to return here instead of twitter. after liam, i didn’t know how to react. with everything being said about him i didn’t even know what to think so i lurked slightly. then zouis’ reunion happened and it felt like hope. it felt like healing, and it felt like a call to embrace this fandom full on again and catch up on the 10 years ive missed. when i did i was SHOCKED by the state of harry’s fandom in particular. which is what i said here. they are not representative of him at all like they are so mean spirited and it is so disheartening and i feel the new larries are terrified bcos of how they act.

like i do really feel in my gut the objective is to brainwash the new larries on twitter. it’s why zara & louis already had a ship account made within hours of the pics of their “date” being reported by the scum. the older larries are overreacting which obviously when you’re new you want to follow them. i also feel there’s some plants/ai accounts active on there to make veterans feel annoyed/disappointed with the new larries and want to gatekeep knowledge or leave.

i think while hell is hot on twitter we need to focus on rebuilding ourselves here so it’s a place larries and especially the skeptics can feel welcome. i do think some twitter users lurk here but don’t know where to navigate and may not necessarily feel welcome. i want larries to feel welcome. there are so many beautiful minds and souls in this fandom and i want some fucking change to happen. this mess today needs to stop. it terrifies me knowing louis and harry are seeing this and possibly feel disappointed and that’s parasocial as hell and i’m rambling now but yeah. something needs to change. we need to stop the cycle.

[lcl-cultist]

[breadboylovin]

i have to manifest this image in my mind every time i think about going on the hivemind subreddit because i know ill get on there and see something stupid that makes me mad

[lotuseatingstone]

ive made a grave discovery thats gonna do irreparable damage to my person. i will not suffer alone.

was looking at some of zenos' character models and first of all why he so bandaged up lmao all he did was nearly decapitate himself.

but then

hello?????????????? HE WEARS FLIP FLOPS???????

[antipathy-arsonist]

"WILL WOOD IS A MUSICIAN??... i thought he was just insane" - my brother

[saetiate]

the kaiser tags on the garter toss post reminded me of this older guy at my old college who was the president of my org (i was secretary). org meetings usually ended late so i would sometimes just walk home and he would walk with me and say its just bc he needs the exercise anyway (we were staying in the same neighborhood), and he used to do this thing where he would hold my nape and like guide me. he would say its bc im too clumsy and i was just like "oh ok i guess this is fine bc he says its fine??" bc i was like 16-18, but in retrospect that was weird right?? (i cant describe it but i feel like a lot of my male upperclassmen acted like, soft bllk guys core to me but i think it was just bc i was a very stereotypical "young shy freshmen who obediently follows orders and is too innocent to realize the dangers of the world".) anyway i think i realized that even tho i never had a crush on him i think he may have awoken smth in me bc a lot of his behaviors towards me sounds like the kind of stuff i get hot and bothered over fictional men doing 2 me now.

ohmygod wait that is so hot OHMYGOD??? yeah sorry i am like 70% sure he was flirting with you HELP HAHAHA THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS W ME I LOVE THIS SM U HAVE NO IDEA you were living ur y/n reader life fr HAHA (playful)

[itspileofgoodthings]

tags continued from prev post.

[sweetpondduckling]

I'm so sorry but I genuinely thought this was a shitpost

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

if i say getocoded

[dewgongs]

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[the-crooked-library]

the thing about my writing is that you can tell i started as a poet, which sounds like a good thing in theory but in practice is annoying as shit

[aeide-thea]

thinking abt (1) that post abt how most censorship is preemptive self-censorship¹ (2) bras²

⸻ ¹ wow, tumblr search actually worked for once??? ² i do understand and respect that for many people bras serve an actual structural function wrt support/comfort! however, for many other people (hi!) they do not, at least in everyday non-sports contexts, and that's the set of concerns i'm speaking to here.

[lazarus-harp]

pls do matthew for the character list thingy <3

favorite thing about them : everything. i know this is a cop out answer but i spent five plus years and a whole lotta writing dedicated to his psychology, how he moves, how he thinks ... even if i had an utmost favorite thing i have brainwashed myself into loving everything about him equally </3 tis my curse.

least favorite thing about them : listen mat's a deeply flawed character who is difficult and grating and stuck up, yet i don't actually dislike these qualities about him haha. most of the things i dislike or can't stand when it comes to his character is more so his fanon interpretation and some of his intense fans. though i guess if i knew him personally and i wasn't passively observing his behaviors, i wouldn't be fond of his hypocrite streak. mat thrives on this falsified golden boy image ; one where he's a firm neutral party, he's kind, he's above pettiness, he's selfless, etc. and in doing so he has a habit of putting down others for behaving in 'bad' ways ... nikita and joey are good examples of this! but in reality he's actually one of the most petty, selfish, and biased people throughout the entire show. letting roi die for him, secretly voting in jc out of personal bias even though everyone's saying he's super helpful, getting mad at nikita in ep7 despite showing worse behavior in ep9, so on so forth. this guy is completely blind to his own cruelty! so that's what'd i say for least favorite thing. like i love this trait about him, it's extremely fun to write and think about, though if i had to deal with this irl i'd ghost him in a heartbeat. love you mat!

favorite line : god he has too many to count. there's so many lines of his that has changed my life forever, i can never think of delightful or clowns or animal cruelty the same ... for biased reasons i'd say “slightly better luck to manny!” or something like, “pretty poorly, actually.” since i adore how he delivers it. in actuality i'm probably gonna say “i am more than comfortable putting loads of meat in my mouth.” because how could i not? he changed lives that day. i'm not gonna include non funny lines in this because otherwise i'd go on a sixty page ramble about him and we're not here for that so. ha ha funny lines will do.

brOTP : hmmm this is simple of me but rosanna and matthew obviously. he just loves her so much! i don't need to talk in detail about why this is my brotp since it's literally everyone's, though i'll also throw in that roi/mat is a very good very funny brotp. pair up the guy who's reckless and is constantly on death's door with this other guy who fears death and abandonment and you got one heck of a bro team! shout out to my corrupted!mat talking to roi drawing way back when because those two have great vibes. anyway!

OTP : well i wouldn't be me if i didn't say matny! that was the first ship i ever had when it came to etn, and is certainly the one i've spent the most time with. there's something about the two of them that just clicks, in my opinion, and i'm a sucker for mat ( who's a chronic blamer ) seeing manny after his death and just leaping out of his seat to hug him despite everything. his fondness for the record producer prevails even in times where mat's at his most petty and vindictive self! after the fight in ep7, he still chooses to go off with manny in ep8 and is protective of him. after the mean comments in ep9 ( to which manny said the worst of it ) mat still casually bestows the guy with his favoritism. there's something endlessly sweet about it, because mat can be unloyal and demeaning even to who he loves most, yet this complete stranger who's killed him, sided against him, called him useless, and more never gets the worst of what mat can and has dished out. i always laugh a bit at fanfics where the writers have mat say manny should've died during the ep7 argument because i'm just like. trust me, if he wanted to say that, he would've. but i digress! matny just seems like it brings out the best in matthew, and it helps that manny is extremely physical in nature -- a love language mat adores and slots into nicely. besides matny, though, some of my other big ships for our detective include joeypat and matkita to no one's surprise. i just can't imagine post s3 unless it includes him developing really intense, codependent, romantic feelings for his fellow survivors.

nOTP : i'm gonna be so honest, i think i can be sold on any detective ship out there? while i was a notoriously picky shipper back in the day, i've come around and learned i kinda love exploring mat's romantic relationships with anybody. he's got a lotta love to give and considering how excessively needy he is, his likelihood of developing feelings is high! so i don't have anything for him here alas -- but if i had to choose a ship i don't think about much, it'd be mat/teala ... i think i like them in a more platonic sense!

random headcanon : he has bpd and is the most chaotic bisexual imaginable. also his sunglasses are actually prescription glasses, like he does need them to see but he wanted to look cool too, so ... ta-da, the famous yellow aviators! this is why he never takes them off. though come s4 they're gone because he broke them during a violent grieving episode. something he regrets but pretends he's happier without and now wears muted colors to look more mature and new, i guess. he doesn't think the detective persona should be seen by anyone who isn't the everlock gang and views the detective as an entirely different person now. kinda a punching bag for his grief, his failures, and a figure he's desperately trying to get back. phew! that was a lot of random hcs oops my bad.

unpopular opinion : he sucks! seriously though, i don't know what's popular or not but all of my detective opinions veered on the unpopular side back in the day so. everything i guess? i do not think mat's a good guy naturally, in fact i believe being good is an uphill battle that comes harder to him than most people. people who act like he's holier than thou are people i don't commonly agree with. he's got more issues than half the cast and if you took away the mantles he wears ( detective, guardian angel, agent ) then you'd be left with someone you don't recognize at all. and that someone is kinda a piece of shit! btw i say this lovingly mat is literally my favorite character so this is not hate <3 thanks

song i associate with them : everything i wanted by billie eilish makes me scream cry throw up when it comes to post s4 mat and his grief and how in the most fucked up way possible his ideal world is going back to everlock with everyone that was lost that night. on a lighter note must be nice by will jay is literally his jealousy personified in music form and is him @ jc. give both a listen sometime w/ mat in mind it'll change your life!

favorite picture of them : too many to count ( again ) so have these two pics because they're up there for sure!

[bluebellthesponge]

imagining outfit ideas i saved on pinterest on some guy from a band i enjoy is weirdly such a helpful way for me to be more confident and try the outfit

[hauntingblue]

Inept 8 year old boy dragon tries to save floating island is such a concept