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i always bounced off the "she was a halla and he was a wolf 🥺" or "she's sooo mild and innocent and he's a hardened stoic morally grey immortal" version of solavellan, bc firstly that is generically heterosexual in a way that i find silly. and secondly the timeline is just. SO wild.
from lavellan's perspective they're like "hm this guy saved my life from the anchor! cool. a very knowledgeable and skilled mage. he's a bit annoying about the dalish but i do like our talks. we've been through some pretty scary life or death situations together. he seems kind of mysterious or depressed at times, i wonder what's going on there. but we have been flirting a bit... maybe i can go for 1 (one) kiss and see what happens 🤔"
this is very normal. this isn't notably "✨such a pure and gentle soul that has won the heart of the ancient bloody-handed trickster✨" behaviour, they're actually acting in a fairly regular way as someone who has a crush.
but by the point lavellan makes any move at all, from solas' perspective. he is already Dying Internally. he is Pining. when lavellan shoots their shot, he's already reached the level of "meeting you has changed my whole life and worldview, i don't know how to handle it," and presumably has restrained himself from saying anything to them only through pure stoicism and willpower. millennia of insurgency and political experience, all bent onto the task of Acting Normal Around Lavellan. he's halfway about to blurt out a love confession if they reciprocate the feelings at all.
his entire plan for however many eons was to NOT get overly attached to any single person and risk his trolley problem calculations and schemes for them, but within like 4-6 months of hanging out with this random, somewhat curious mortal, he's considering telling them everything and/or giving up the plan entirely. truly cringe fail.
#solas#txt#dragon age#solavellan#also i guess it reflects how severely isolated solas was up to that point if like#mild affectionate contact and someone being nice and curious sends him into a full tailspin#but it is still. hilarious.#lavellan just peacefully asking questions and chatting and being like#''hm i think we might be becoming friends! :) that's nice. i like him :) he's kind of charming actually :)''#while solas is going insane and having an emotional rollercoaster bc he hasn't experienced positive interactions in like 75463 years#i really think felassan should've survived somehow bc he deserved to see that#''who got attached to a dumb mortal NOW. not as easy as it seems huh. at least i wasn't doodling her face with hearts around it :)''
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#can’t help but recognize how kieran is a fantastic unspoken representation of autism#i see a lot of myself in him and the way that he is so isolated and lonely and yet cannot help but perform and find solace in his daily#routines is so heartbreaking in its own way to me. like no matter what you do or where you are you have no choice but to be yourself and fun#nction the only way you know how and it will never not be vastly different from everyone else. and when you’re surrounded by people who DONT#like you and will not accommodate and are not at all willing or curious in understanding WHY you are the way you are you’re left to just ….#live in your own head forever. i’m certain kieran thinks many wonderous things and sees the world in a beautiful light and i know this becau#se i am autistic myself and because of that i see the world in colours that neurotypical people will never comprehend but we’re never allowe#d to see the world through kieran’s eyes. we are never allowed to see where his heart rests or the poetry he waxes or what he believes or wh#at his triggers are or what’s a stim and what’s just habit or anything. anything. the breeze sounds different to him and he can hear birds f#or miles and the sun makes every hair on his arms tingle and that’s why he wears layers everywhere and every green he sees sings a beautiful#song to him and yet we’ll never know. because he is too different even for the van der linde gang. he is incomprehensible to them and he doe#s all of his 4/5 daily tasks over and over and over again and while he would always do them and will always do them because they are innate#to him no one will ever know just what they mean to him. no one will ever know that kieran duffy can distinguish the horses behind him by th#eir breathing cadences behind him as he scrubs the spare saddle with the sun high above his head and he can know when something is wrong bec#ause he can hear it. no one will ever know that he CAN read but the only thing he’s interested in is books about wildlife and horses and fis#h in particular and no one will ever know because he knows no one will ever understand or even care and if they do they’ll be sure to make#it a point to tell him how DIFFERENT he is. and realistically even if the vdl’s DID come around to liking him he STILL would NEVER be unders#tood. i know for certain he would always be described as odd and despite its new affectionate approach he would still be the odd one out wit#h his daily routines and his texture preferences and his inability to make eye contact and his erratic seemingly random triggers and his#anxiety that seems to have a mind of its own. no one would ever know how bright the tree leaves are in his eyes or how every horse smells di#fferent or why sometimes it’s more fun to reel his rod in over and over instead of actually catching a fish. he will always be …. different.#sorry. novel moment. he means a lot to me.#i’m not super happy with how he looks in these but i’m just trying to draw more :’) i always say that but i always mean it too#also if my novel makes no sense then just ignore it. it’s late and my head hurts. i tend to get tangential#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#image#art#hero draws sometimes
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#dungeons and daddies#dndads#scary marlowe#taylor swift not that one#lincoln li wilson#normal oak#dndads spoilers#epilogue headcanons#linc started to like cats after he got over (at least a bit) his previous jealousy towards his dads#but mainly bc he grew attached to Scary's cat after they started to live together yes she is a cat lady to me#normal still isolates himself when he's feeling shitty tho this time it went on for several years#despite the others not giving up on trying to contact him#they wanna give him space but they're also worried so that's why they try to be nonchalant about it during the reunion#which i also already have a sketch of but college's been taking up most of my time sorry#not described#ignore the inconsistencies please and ty
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rewatching 2x20 rn and the the drama is so well written.
on the one hand, you have may, and coulson, who just spent weeks on the run trying to handle a coup by realShield™ and large new trust issues and find skye, barely having fixed the situation. then skye comes back after almost being killed by realShield, suddenly having a handle on her previously catastrophic powers, but being lukewarm at best towards shield and talking about this group of powered people shes been with for barely two weeks the way youd expect someone in a sect to do. yeah, theyre worried.
on the other hand, you have skye, who still vividly recalls trips death and blames herself for it, who had to deal with her murderous dad and whose life did a complete shitty 180 afterwards in every single way because she got powers she couldnt understand or control, who was put through pointless and exhausting profiling, sustained dramatic injuries, was out of nowhere attacked and almost killed by the people she trusted and never got any context or explanation for it, at least until the ultron timeskip (and even with that its still not a good look), and who just barely got a version of normalcy back together. and she found her real mom, and people who are like her and genuinely know what shes going through, and can and have helped her handle it. but her moms kinda not handling the whole cal situation well so she tries to fix that behind her back, at risk to herself, by involving shield again, before that whole situation erupts into a spectacular clusterfuck. and then she returns to shield only to find the people who tried to kill her in charge and her friends cooperating with them. and theyre after the people who helped her now because she tried to do the right thing and rescue one of them and it has unintended consequences.
so yeah its kind of a mess
#like seriously there are so many layers to this#the writing on this show is insane#daisy johnson#phil coulson#melinda may#philindaisy#agents of shield#aos meta#genuinely though im pretty sure jiaying isolating the inhumans for decades and minimizing outside contact is partially what led to so many#people in afterlife to go along with her plans against shield and normal humans later. there are genuinely elements of a sect in afterlife.
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i generally think i am pretty okay with being by myself for extended periods of time, i rarely crave physical contact and never desire to be surrounded by crowds. like you can clearly tell i am Not a city boy and i frequently fantasize about living as a kooky artist somewhere out in finnmarksvidda who only visits a small town a couple times a month for groceries. HOWEVER. after three years of social isolation in sweden i think maybe that was not super great for me in the long run
#i have cultivated many Internet friendships that sustain me greatly#but maybe i shouldn't overlook how nourishing it is to be back among My People#and it hasn't been pure isolation three years in a row obviously#and i don't regret it one bit and i did my best to be social to the extent i am able#but whooooffff no wonder i broke down when my classmates left for poland#now i am getting used to Social Contact again like a stray animal or mayhaps fitzroy angursell
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[Cowboy Niccolo AU]
I think I might have sent an ask like this a while back, but do you think Gryffin would make friends and find love in Lonesome Flats? Do you think Niccolo would gain a half-Country sibling or two?

Gryffin is fine being a single dad, his main focus is his son, I can imagine him and Delta having a short "romance". Delta was very present in Niccolos life, helping him to feel welcome in Lonesome Flats. The folks there are pretty kind to Niccolo because he's just a child, but Gryffin is another story. I think I've said in the past there are still quite a few people who are wary of him being this tall lanky rock troll. It's not until post world tour that he gets more friendly with the others in town, again he's not really bothered by it since he has Niccolo, Delta, and Growly Pete to chill with, plus he's on friendly terms with his employers so it's chill!
And ye, that means no half country siblings as of right now!
#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls oc#trolls au#cowboy niccolo au#trolls world tour#trolls delta dawn#trolls oc niccolo#trolls oc gryffin#one oart of gryffins character i dont talk much about#is his tendency to isolate#he is very good at making friends#and is a social guy#but he has a habit of just dropping contact for a long while out of nowhere#it happens when hes stressed for the most part#its part of why in Niccolos og lore Gryffin pulls away as a father for a fat sec#hes not doing it intentionally#he becomes paralyzed by everything going on and kind of goes into a state of fight or flight#where he cant really do anything or talk to anyone#which in the og lore he works through it and becomes better at communicating#and thats how he and niccolo are able to reconcile and how he makes it work with malcom#but in this world the fact that not many people talk to him already just makes it a little bit worse#and niccolo during his teen and adult years feels a bit of responsibility to take care of gryffin when he gets in these states#so ye heheheh#pathetic old men how i love you
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the hse's advice on covid self-isolation is such dogshit. 'you can come out of isolation after 5 days but don't interact with anyone high risk for 10 days' cool how do i know the person sitting next to me on the bus isn't high risk. the person in line behind me getting groceries, the person i make small talk with in the pharmacy queue. literally eugenics-adjacent advice
#before any cretin responds with the 'high risk people shouldn't be going out anyway' oohhh okay so you think high risk people should cocoon#in their rooms for 4+ YEARS so the rest of us get to live normal lives instead of idk enforcing comprehensive contact tracing paid time off#and proper isolation. not to mention the fact that high risk ppl don't just get to peace out from the regiments of capitalism most disabled#people still have to work because guess what? rent groceries utilities LIVING costs money and is often doubly or more expensive for disable#people. goddddd this makes me so mad. anyway#covid#.txt#covid 19
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Why do you care so much with what's going on with Israel? You're a Twitch streamer, stick to video games lol
It's a GENOCIDE happening in real time
#asks#anon#I've lost contact with multiple family members#Grow up and recognize the small bubble you isolate yourself to isn't the entire fucking world#Free Palestine
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Do you think Dracula lizard-climbs the walls of the castle so that when he's not present, his absence increases his guests' sense of isolation?
#dracula daily#count dracula#like yes theres the enrichment but#the isolation. the inability to initiate engagement with another person at any time of their own volition#depending entirely on dracula to be the one initiating contact. but only when he chooses to#because you never see him in the halls or catch him in passing#every interaction is his choice and therefore he controls the isolation#dracula when i fucking get you
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Okay. But consider. Just CONSIDER...

Narrator as Phos.
JUST CONSIDER IT.
ARE WE CONSIDERING IT?
Guys. Guys please. Guys come on. Guys-
Have a pleasant 10,000 years.
#Logan rambles#the stanley parable#tsp#tspud#tsp narrator#tsp stanley#OKAY BUT THINK ABOUT#looking past the gold and everything#the desperation#the need to be heard#THE NEED TO BE NEEDED#the ISOLATION#the slow degradation under the weight of time#to be a savior#to be a destroyer#to love and to hate and to be hollow and alone#“I HAVE BEEN ALONE SINCE THE BEGINNING”#Y'ALL I'M-#I'M SO FUCKING NORMAL#Narrator goes through a horrible arc where he slowly deteriorates and becomes more desperate and angry and EMPTY#IN THIS ESSAY I WILL-#the cracking in his humanoid design wasn't intentionally inspired by Phos#but now it is#“He would have prayed...for me”#OH MY GOD#I know every character can't be Phos coded#but this character???#AAAAAAAA#tw body horror#tw eye contact
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#i just really wish i could have *some* kind of relationship with my parents is the thing.#it's lonely.#i wish you guys could have been Normal and that i could just call you on the phone sometimes to ask for a recipe or talk about music#or whatever. like. damn#and it's just not possible and every time it hits me that i'm literally the only person in my circles that is completely family-less#i am not regretting my choice to go no-contact (it was one of the best things ive ever done) and as things are i am too much of a coward#to try and reconnect with my extended family (show up and go hiiiii btw i'm trans 🙂🙂???? no way)#including people i've ghosted and who did not deserve it.#but i'm incredibly lonely and isolated because i don't have any other option that doesnt put me at risk#no parent is perfect and everyone has a complex relationship with their mother & father and some measure of grace is needed on both sides#however. there are (or should be) some hard limits on what can be overlooked or ignored or forgiven and sadly they've done nothing but#disregard them for 21+ years straight#i want *parents* and a normal adult relationship with them but i don't want *these* people. ah well#self-inflicted so i can't complain about it really. but still#<- poast inspired by: people around me both online and irl keep talking about the things they do with their parents etc etc and i feel Bad.#not their fault nobody should censor themselves on my accoutn btw it's just. well
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one thing i actually really like about star stable (and wanna embrace more in my own lore building stuff in my brain) is that it doesn't actually matter at all where your character came from, just that they're on jorvik now
#and it's exemplified in other characters too#and like with nova specifically#she left for a number of years#and essentially broke contact with all of her connections on jorvik#even her horses#but for the most part they welcomed her back as if she had never left#i think it's something that can be heartwarming on the surface and also a little bit sinister?#and surreal#it adds to the isolated and bizarre atmosphere on jorvik#where on the surface everything is quite warm and pleasant#but a lot of the juicy stuff in star stable for me comes from exploring like#what it means to not fit into the culture on jorvik#or what happens when someone embraces the isolation that the culture exemplifies with its unique equestrian relationships#like the hermit#or the vala#idk#these r just my thots#star stable online#nova snowfoot#ssoblr
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Guysss i can't muster the courage to sign up to the ninjutsu class 😭😭😭. I'm terrified of being in a class making a fool of myself in front of everyone, including my fucking crush, who is the fucking teacher. I want to exchange all my organs for cement.
#I'm not even worried about getting my ass kicked#I'm just fucking socially impaired and I'm learning so slowly to coexist with people#anyone got any tips to interact with people for someone who was isolated from human contact for four years 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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it's Harassing You o'clock so i am gonna discuss my oc some more in the tags
#really been considering misha's weird relationship with authority and how it'd present in like. his everyday life#i kiiinda feel like it wouldn't be as simple as 'if i am scared of you i bend the knee' or 'if i am scared of you i will kill you'#like i feel like for his Inevitable religious crashout. he kinda needs more nuance in this specific area#because he simultaneously fears AND idolizes the emperor. he like. Switches lol. i keep projecting my bpd on misha.#i think because the emperor like.. THEORETICALLY#he CANNOT and WILL NOT abandon or betray misha. because the Way to impress him (in misha's mind) is so straightforward? like the emperor is#a symbol. he isn't a person who particularly cares about an individual's fucked up thoughts or minor mistakes. and misha believes he is#like FAVOURED by him. has like this parasocial bond that many adepta sororitas seem to have with the guy lol#anyway. i feel like with REGULAR PEOPLE? things are getting a little fucked up for him. because he's been traumatized and betrayed and#tormented and maimed by Regular People. part of the reason he is soo Angry and willing to Pulverize—believes humans are predisposed to evil#he's not CONSCIOUSLY aware of that fact. but his misanthropy is a major factor in his character lol. always assumes he's going to be#betrayed yet often walks right into it because he is So Blinded With Hope that SOMEONE loves him and cares about him#HOWEVER he also pushes people away because he DOES NOT want to experience more betrayal or pain. like the typical borderline paradox#where you simultaneously NEED constant human contact and reassurance to function but also isolate yourself to keep yourself and others safe#i think by his like. ''game-time'' appearance he'd be very much in a 'DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME!!!' stage of his existence. makes his 'Own'#choices based on what He (emperor) tells him is right (misha is. delusional). struggles listening to authority figures like he could#when he was younger. generally just tries to keep to himself. which is a bit hard when you are in a nun mission LOL#i presume misha is working with an inquisitor or something and thus has more 'freedom' than his sisters. that's my only excuse for it akskdj#not to say he's like. some sort of rebel. he will go along with rules if it's easier and he has zero reason to Provoke you. but he is also a#moody and mentally ill freak with Anger ISSUES. thus will either be attacking YOU a heretic or himself. cannot repress his anger very well#at all LOL. it just Comes Out Of Him.#he IS a dogmatic puritan. at least for the most part. doesn't like BELIEVE IT in the sense that he GENUINELY believes it? believes it#because that's The Safest Way? Doesn't make him confront his relationship with religion and society? does that make any sense?#misha has MAJOR identity issues. he considers himself a totally empty vessel for the#emperor to enact his divine will. could not describe himself if you asked him to. not to say he DOESN'T have Traits or Qualities. he is just#hashtag bpd projection teehee..#had the Identity beaten out of him in the schola progenium <3#at least. misha believes the emperor won't abandon him. til he gets taken to commoragh and probably Loses It#anyyywayyyyyy. still fiddling around with him 👍#misha tag
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it's beautiful how everything is suddenly going wrong for Jonah . the art of plotting roleplays . I think he needs new friends
#wife is having a crisis and throwing wine at him#worse divorce known to the public#the second person he trusts with his life despite how batsit crazy santillana is going#situationship is being contacted by maddie who has Information about his past#AND MADDIE. oh girl she waited for the right time to hit. jonah has spent days in isolation and is Not doig well#Santillana pulls a massive bitch on him and Maddie is ready with letters#“hey wanna know about his secret past? call me back xoxo”#my pissed off girl. go off ♥️#please somebody help him. pick him up. he keeps tripping snd falling face first#fallen london#flondon#fallen london oc#flondon oc#failbetter games
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The leader of Women’s Bible Study at my new church just called me and talked to me and asked me how I was doing.
Is this what Christian fellowship feels like?
#i���ve never had someone at church contact me outside of church and check up on me#well there was that time the young adult leader’s wife took me out to coffee#i totally weirded her out though#she never did it again lol#no one visited me when i was in the hospital#on the brink of death#this was at my old church btw the new one is great#church#christianity#autism#religion#jesus#christian#neurodivergence#isolation#society#friends
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