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Was Itachi's forehead poke to Sasuke a sign of distancing himself and not wanting Sasuke to get involved, rather than just a mere sign of affection? I saw a few people talk about that and how it's weird that Sasuke does that to his family considering the original meaning.
yes, you've got an accurate handle on the original meaning of the Forehead Poke. fundamentally it is an expression of distance that itachi wields at times when he cannot be with sasuke. and it seems to be a throughline of his childhood: sasuke asks itachi to do something as mundane as train together but itachi continually refuses on account of his duties as a shinobi.
it is not a gesture devoid of love -- it's not as though itachi ever delights in dismissing sasuke (on the contrary, he is always regretful). but there's a cruelty in the uncertainty of it all: the most direct translation is "maybe next time", so itachi fails to provide even an assurance that they can, like, hang out next week or something. this chasm between them is then widened by itachi promising, on the night of the massacre, that he might allow a final battle between them if sasuke ever proves competent enough to bother fighting, leaving sasuke in protracted pursuit of the looming specter of his older brother.
this distance is really only bridged (barely) in their final scene when itachi lays bare the truth of his motives, his regrets (which are lacking, to put it mildly, but for sasuke this is nonetheless momentous), and his unconditional pride in and love for his little brother. the Forehead Poke is notably absent here because textually, the enforced distance wrt sasuke is framed as itachi's greatest wrong. (seriously, itachi says something to the effect of: i shouldn't have done All That because maybe you, my 7-year-old brother, could have brought change to our clan... thereby reducing inconvenience for konoha, of course. the paucity of virtue in massacring the uchiha doesn't really register for him even during this reconciliation, and it's deliberate... because the author doesn't see it as much of an issue either!)
anyway, it might seem odd for sasuke to repeat this gesture with sakura in chapter 699, then, particularly because it seems to be invoked in a manner identical to itachi in his neglect. kind of an odd way to signify a happy ending for these characters, right...?
well, it works for me solely because it is not identical! and naruto's english dub is my worst enemy. i would grab a couple of manga panel screenshots in the original japanese to prove it, but it's easier for me to just plug these scenes from the anime. here is an itachi Forehead Poke (0:51) and here is sakura seeing sasuke off at the konoha gate (0:33). there's a subtle but meaningful distinction in the phrasing: "mata kondo da" vs. "mata kondo na". which, in effect, alter the meaning from "maybe next time" to:
(there's an excellent tumblr post from years ago which performs a substantive analysis of the japanese in both contexts, but eludes me now. pls send if any of you have a link to it!)
so personally i adore its inclusion in chapter 699 specifically. it obviously carries a great deal of weight for sasuke and it's meaningful he chooses to express it to sakura specifically despite leaving the entire team behind -- in lots of ways, and more than any other character, i think for sasuke, sakura is the anti-itachi. (that would require another post to elucidate.) so not only is it an expression of regret at unintended distance, but, more crucially, it's a promise of return. i think it's incredibly sweet that sasuke can repurpose the gesture from something soul-rending to something hopeful.
(also deserving of another post lol but this scene also achieves a neat and, crucially, subversive callback to sakura's foundational insecurities... it's like poetry it rhymes)
all that said, i understand why it reads as something different once we are then given the context of chapter 700 and gaiden... i dislike both of these installments, primarily for the implication that distance becomes a love language, so to speak, between sasuke and sakura/sarada. these relationships are ruled by distance and sasuke accepts it. it's disappointing! his journey to learn about more of the world in chapter 699 jibed with the character's arc until that point. this does not.
my unpopular take is i think this has just about nothing to do with sakura or the sasusaku relationship and everything to do with authorial outlook on sasuke's actions in part 2. and for the record, i maintain that these crimes ultimately amount to very little -- violence and death are occupational hazards if one is a shinobi. konoha is also foregrounded by a cold calculus on the worth of human lives; i'm sure sasuke's indispensable role in saving the world outweighs the killing of a few samurai. i just think kishimoto needs sasuke to atone, somehow, forever, via endless service to the village. and he also cannot sensibly write a kakashi- or naruto-headed government that would impose any meaningful punishment, so sasuke is relegated to a state of permanent rootlessness in some dumbass quest. it's a sacrifice on his part, but contrived for a number of reasons, chief among them being that the sasuke we came to know in the original series would literally never internalize konoha's ideals in this manner. so even though the Forehead Poke in gaiden and boruto retains the elements of promise and anticipation of eventual reconciliation, it feels kind of... lame and weightless. there is a superficial signal at growth but materially, for the parties on the receiving end of the Forehead Poke, very little seems to change.
frankly, i think we are meant to view sasuke's love as noble (and sasuke himself as penitent, suggested by the ascetic quality of his life). sasuke is still doing things differently than itachi, insufficient though it may be: he is honest about the reason for his travels, he does not rush to dismiss sarada when she needs emotional support, his motives are selfless rather than selfish (sasuke guards against the threat of the otsutsuki; itachi... wanted sasuke to kill him, in no small part as a desperate ploy to end his own suffering, notwithstanding the subsequent damage that would be inflicted on his thoroughly traumatized little brother). gaiden is surprisingly candid about the distance as a source of distress for sarada, sakura, and even sasuke, but by the end everyone understands why it must be as it is. the state above all! (you'll notice even itachi's apology to sasuke held this precept intact... there is a reason the series closes with sasuke accepting his old hitai-ate.) it is admittedly vexing, considering the totality of evidence here, to see sasuke's nomadic status in boruto pinned on how much he hates his dumb bitch wife and not, you know. the shockingly bad politics underpinning the narrative.
i appreciate the attempts of sasuke enjoyers to explain his distance as natural aversion to konoha, but this isn't canonically backed by any interiority (which seems to be absent in boruto-era team 7 at large) and moreover it requires miscommunication between sasuke and sakura (or even naruto) so great as to be unbelievable. i've accepted that post-pt2 sasuke is an unfortunate victim of kishomoto's nationalist views. his weird takes on how a man like sasuke would behave in a loving relationship and likely desire for a continued revenue stream don't help either. yes i will weep forever...
TLDR: i think the Forehead Poke fits in chapter 699 precisely because it diverges from itachi's. i resent its recurrence suggesting distance from loved ones is an inevitable condition of sasuke's life to which he's stoically acquiescent.
#to expand on sasuke & romance... i've seen people say kishimoto hates ss specifically.because of how he writes minato/kushina for example#well minato is an entirely different guy! and kishimoto is self-professedly weak on the romance front#he has a lot of strengths as a writer but the reversion to tropes and stock archetypes in writing romance is veryyy glaring#sasuke is therefore chronically aloof but also in a mature relationship and it's difficult to believably accomplish both#and of course we have seen sasuke not aloof! we know he's capable! but the romance trope mind virus works in alarming ways#it's also just perceived as way less cool for sasuke to be emotionally expressive towards a woman than a brother(-coded) character#and there's no in-text comparison either. shikamaru is the closest in comportment but he is paired w temari who serves as a tsundere#other than that... i guess there's kakashi (romance aside) but even he deliberately presents as affable#ss in gaiden to me reads less like malicious portrayal & more like. a juvenile take on what sasuke/sakura would be like as grownups#kishi's particularly bad w adult romance because it requires an intimacy i don't think he's entirely comfortable portraying#even in pt 2 ss manages a couple of really authentic touching moments but then as adults i'm like whoooo... are these people....#and above all the entire cast is emotionally and dimensionally neutered in boruto because it sucks. the premise sucks. i don't care for it.#itachi & sasuke#sasusaku#uchiha sasuke#naruto meta#ANYWAYYY thank you for the ask!! it was nice to yap about sasuke & friends again omg i miss them#also sorry this took a week to answer i haven't had much time and wanted to be thorough
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i think what we're missing in the batman fandom is shitty 2000 jokes
#since batman was alive when the sahara was still the sea#and had a lot of adult fans#we never got the cringey 2000 jokes#the peeta and bread jokes#the jason and brick jokes#the persassy#we never got batfamily dialogues in different colours in little posts#we need more of this shitty energy#like them in a colour coded one direction meme#with shitty quotes#batman âMISTERYâ in a ugly cursive font#nightwing would be HEART#jason STRENGHT#tim is SMART#damian is CUTE#and then the girls of course#we could've done the whole superwholock and demigod/tribute/wizard debacle much better#just silly things saying âyour vigilante uniformâ with like the shittiest clothes possible for vigilanting#and six inch heels#batman#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#robin dc#nightwing#batfamily
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thinking about when i was scrolling through the aoex reddit and saw a couple comments talking about how yukio is "adult-coded" (he's sixteen) since he doesn't behave like a normal teenager (it is canon he was forced to grow up quickly) and doesn't look like other teenagers (he's been an exorcist for three years and ryuuji has a similar build)
#yukio okumura#it was a couple days ago and idk if i can find the post again but i remember pausing for a minute and scrolling back to that comment#because what. what does that mean. what do you mean he's adult-coded. he is canonically sixteen. it's not ambiguous#i mean i get it? he's in a position of authority when it comes to the others kids as he's their teacher#so of course in certain situations he's not gonna act as they do#but that's not? being coded as an adult. that's gifted child coding lol. perceived maturity based on early academic success#happy talks blue exorcist
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One day, when Abyssal happens to be in the SM64 universe, Emulator notices something very obviously off with her. So, of course, she approaches with all the subtlety she's capable of.
"Hey Abby, how's it hangin'?"
The Admin is understandably startled by the somehow-still-slightly-taller woman suddenly appearing next to her, and -with her balance rather understandably being off in her current state- she nearly falls over before Emmy puts a hand on her back to support her.
Which shouldn't have been possible, considering what's supposed to be back there.
"Whoops. Sorry about that."
"I-it's fine," she gets her feet back under her and brushes herself off, then smiles at her friend, "I should really be used to that by now, anyway."
"Still," she shrugs, then steps back a bit and makes a small show of briefly looking Abyssal over, "So, that's a new look. You just trying something new, or..."
Abyssal's smile becomes a bit forced as her shoulders twitch, instincts trying to flex muscles that should be there but aren't, and her hand goes up to her chest to fiddle with an edge that doesn't currently exist, "You, ah... noticed that, huh?"
Emmy's face twists into some cross between a grin and a wince, "bit hard not to. I mean the cloak is one thing but you're missing limbs here."
Indeed, Abyssal's wings are completely absent, and her cloak has gone from being open at the front if not for the clasp and belt to only having openings at the top, bottom and sleeves. It's a massive change, and not one she looks even remotely comfortable with.
She keeps fiddling with the front of her...well it's more of a robe now, really, "Well, uh, you know my model's been changing a little ever since the incident."
A nod, "Yeah, I noticed the growth spurt."
"Well, recently I got something a little more...drastic than that. I'm not sure if it's a side-effect from Sora breaking my connection to... It, or if it's just me being more comfortable with myself, but I'm starting to get...uh...an accent color, I guess?"
"You saw black and backslid a little, didn't you?" it's clear from her tone, that it's not an accusation, though it is mostly rhetorical.
Abyssal groans in frustration and leans heavily on Emmy's shoulder, "God I hate this. I'm free now, I'm supposed to be getting better, but I still feel like I have to hide even though everyone already knows!" she doesn't stop the (mostly angry) tears from falling as she's pulled into a hug, "I hate that that thing still has so much power over me..."
"Hun, you had to deal with that for almost a decade and a half. Nobody's gonna judge you for needing time, or for stumbling a few times as you go," a certain stick figure comes to mind, and she adds, "well, nobody who matters at least."
"I know that, I just..." she huffs in annoyance, either at the situation or herself, and gently pulls herself out of the hug, "My wings just got back to full strength and now-" her arms wave out before flopping down to her sides, "I just...I know pushing myself before I'm ready is usually a bad idea, but maybe I need just a little push this time? Maybe if one other person saw them?"
Emulator gives it some serious thought...for a few moments, then shrugs, "Well, if you're up for it. Let's see 'em!"
Abyssal blinks, a bit startled, and suddenly looks apprehensive, "Wait, like right now? With you?"
"Of course! Better to do it now while you've still got the nerve worked up, right?"
"Well, yeah, that makes sense, but uh...are you sure? 'Cause we're dealing with, you know, pink and black here. And you've kind of got a pretty good reason for... possibly not reacting well to that combo?"
Emmy shrugs, "True, but that's still an 'if.' And if I do turn out to have that kind of hangup, it'll be my problem for me to work through. You shouldn't have to keep hurting yourself just to accommodate an issue I might not even have."
When she still doesn't look fully convinced, Emmy sighs, switching to her rarely used full-voice-acting mode, "Abyssal, do you remember when we first met?"
Abyssal nods hesitantly, not sure where this is going.
"It was the day this place got activated, and just about everything that could go wrong, had. And then, when they saw me, every single Admin, even Domain and Forum when they finally woke up, wrote me off as just one more point on their long list of problems -and some of them kept thinking that for a long time. I know even CPU thought of me as an occasional headache at best as recently as a little over a year ago.
"Every one of them, except you. You looked at me and you saw another person, one who'd been thrown into an impossible situation and had no idea what was going on, and you walked right up and introduced yourself and asked me if I was okay. You were the first person to ever decide I was actually worth the effort, and that meant everything to me. It still does.
"That's why I want to do this with you. That's why, even if this does turn out to hit one of my trauma buttons (still an 'if' there, by the way), I'm still going to be as supportive as possible. You're worth the effort too, and if you'll let me I'll do whatever I can to make you believe that because I know you probably don't yet."
"I-" Abyssal chokes on her words, not knowing what to say to all that, then swallows and shakes her head, getting a determined gleam in her eye, "Okay. Let's do this."
There's a brief moment of hesitation, and then her form shimmers, her usual model's details slowly overriding the current one. When it's over her cloak is back to normal (though the belt is loose, revealing a small glimpse of whatever outfit she wears underneath, her top noticeably darker than the last time Emmy got a peek of it), and her wings arc gracefully over her shoulders, seeming a little larger than they'd been before, and Emulator gasps when she sees the new pattern that had caused so much grief.
"Oh, Abby, they're beautiful."
Huh. That definitely wasn't the reaction she'd been expecting, "They- really?"
She pulls one of them forward, trying to see whatever it is her friend is seeing, and blinks in surprise. What had looked like black in her peripheral vision back then is actually a very dark purple which seems to glisten in the midday sun, at certain angles even seeming to sparkle like there are little flecks of starlight caught in it. The new color is mainly on her primary flight feathers, going almost halfway down each one on the topside and only forming a narrow chevron at the tip on the bottom, with an irregular scattering of small splotches on the rest of the wing. The more she looks at it, the more she comes to agree with Emulator's assessment.
She lets out a huff that's almost a laugh, grinning, "Got all worked up for nothing, huh?"
"Not nothing. You saw something that reminded you of a time you were hurt, you're allowed to be upset about that."
"Yeah, I know. Just hard to remember that sometimes," now she really does laugh a little, "I feel like it should be weird that you're mothering me when I'm older than you."
Emmy smirks, "You know as well as I do that that doesn't mean shit in this group."
"Fair enough."
There's a comfortable silence for a little while, until Abyssal finds herself staring wistfully up at the sky. Her wingtips twitch almost imperceptibly, but Emulator still takes notice.
"How long?"
"...A few weeks, I think," she looks over, clearly yearning but not wanting to just leave her friend behind.
Emmy shoots her back an understanding smile, "You're not made to be stuck on the ground, Abby. You know what you need."
There's another hug, thanking her for things words simply can't express, and then in a few wingbeats she's off, soon becoming nothing but a pink speck swooping around among the clouds, reveling in her rediscovered freedom.
#smg4 ocs#emulator#abyssal#bit of a followup to their personal arcs#bit of a character study#all three of her actual kids are adults when she first sees them of course emmy's mom tendencies don't have an age limit#age is relative for code beings anyway#remember how emmy's been around almost 13 years now and back during byte's intro she was STILL the adminspace's pariah?#and she thought of abyssal#specifically#as someone who would actually LISTEN to her if she showed up#because i sure do#recovery is not linear
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I think I'm at the point where I really need to simmer down with a lot of my writing. I've been pushing myself to write posts for this blog almost every day. While I have no qualms when I have the time and energy to do so, as the days go by and my brain is being drained more and more, I need to give myself more breaks and not force myself to try to pump out written content daily. I'm in the final weeks of this semester, so assignments continue to pile up leading to finals, and it's all heavily involved in writing, which I'm already incredibly slow at as it is. I really don't want to end up crashing and burning creatively when I have so much I want to write for Rain Code yet not as much time (this happened before about two years ago when I overworked myself while writing for my DBD ask blog; Rain Code brought me outta that burnout).
The summer probably won't be much better since I'll be basically taking on an internship, two college classes, and weekend work shifts. It's not gonna be lemon-squeezy easy, so that means less and less time I have to work on personal projects and posts for this blog. Believe me, I don't wanna stop creating content for Rain Code and rambling to my heart's content, but making things like fics, voiceovers, and whatever else forms in my brain at 2 AM means I have to spend my creative freedom wisely. I wanna make a buncha fun stuff, but it requires moments where I will be trading time making regular posts to working on bigger projects instead.
It sounds stupid that not posting my writing/rambling daily is an absolutely awful thing that makes me crumple up like a used napkin, cause it is undeniably stupid. This exact post probably only really matters to me anyway, cause I know deep down that everyone will be fine with me posting less and taking my time, so I guess this is just a reminder for myself if nothing else. I've been in this pattern before, I know how it goes, but it doesn't make me feel any less sad or overwhelmed that my sheer love for a piece of media has to be put on the backburner.
I don't think anyone will notice changes in my posting habits, anyway. I'll still answer asks in a timely manner and make short posts about music or multi-fandom stuff regarding Danganronpa or Ace Attorney or whatever else I find myself gettin' into these days. It's just an internal shift that would probably go unseen, and I don't mind that. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
#overall i think i just need to realign my priorities#university comes first above all else so i cant hide away in my blog n make myself stress more by procrastinating#of course i'll still be rebloggin n interactin with the rain code community whenever i can#but again this is mainly about my own slow af writing process#this post is sponsored by anxiety and the weight of learning what it's like to have adult responsibilities
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sorry to sp0p discourse in 2024 but there is no way i just saw someone say entr*pta looked significantly younger than the rest of the main cast when that is just. blatantly not true??????
#the infantilization of entr*pta (particularly by entr*pdak shippers but also just in general) is and always will be fucking bizarre to me#especially considering it's so obviously because she was coded to be autistic#(a fact which was *not* handled well in the show itself don't get me wrong. but uhhh the fandom absolutely was not any better EL OH EL)#likeeee sorry you're a dumbass but she was *very clearly* supposed to be a grown ass adult literally what the FUCK are y'all on about!!!!#ohh but of course [redacted tags of me being a petty hateful cunt] đ¤#note: all names censored because there's no way i'm touching the remaining sp0p fandom with a ten foot pole đŤś#send tweet
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At Least Itâs Not the End of the World âĄ
After protecting the kids from demodogs and sentient tunnel vines with Steve, a weekend babysitting Holly Wheeler together is supposed to be simple. That is until feelings neither of you expected start to make things way more complicated.
gn!reader, takes place in between seasons two and three, people who fight monsters together to lovers, tooth-rotting fluff 16k
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It doesnât take long to remember why Holly is your favorite Wheeler. Sheâs patient and sweet, amazingly level-headed for a preschooler, and her manners could put some adults to shame. Compared to her siblings, Hollyâs a little sweetheart. And a mamaâs girl through and through, clinging to Mrs. Wheeler more often than not.Â
Like now, she wriggles in her momâs lap, scrunched over a coloring book at the dinner table. She squints at her box of crayons and purses her lipsâ choosing colors is hard when youâre five. She hasnât said a peep since you arrived, but in the foyer, she greeted you with a clumsy wave and a sheepish smile.Â
âIt would be Friday afternoon to Monday morning,â Mrs. Wheeler explains, stirring a glass of lemonade with a curly straw. âIâd ask Nance but sheâs having a girl's weekend.âÂ
You glance at Steve. You know girlâs weekend is code for spending the night with Jonathan Byers. But if he knows it too, he doesnât show it. He doesnât so much as bat an eye at her words. In fact, heâs relaxed under Mrs. Wheelerâs gaze. Heâs sitting in a chair heâs sat in dozens of times before, talking to a woman he sees more frequently than his own mother.Â
You donât know her as well as he does, but you arenât strangers by any means.Â
âAnd Mike, well, heâs not old enough to watch her for that long. But heâll be staying over at Joyceâs so you donât have to worry about him,â she pauses to sip her drink. âIâd pay you, of course. I donât know what your schedules look likeâ I know youâre probably busy with the new job, Steveâ but I figured since itâs a few days, Iâd offer it to you both.âÂ
Steve flashes an honest smile and leans forward. âAre you kidding? Iâd hang with this squirt for free. Iâm actually off this weekend so it works out.âÂ
Mrs. Wheeler beams, eyes springing to yours.Â
âYeah, I could help too,â you shrug. You also happen to be free this weekend and the extra cash would be nice.Â
âGreat! You both are so lovely. Oh, I was so worried, I kept telling Tedâ well, it doesnât matter now.â Her bracelets clink and clash as she reaches across the table to cover your hand with hers. âYouâll have to keep an eye on these two. She becomes quite the riot when her Stevie comes over.âÂ
Steve chuckles and raises his hands in defense. âShe owes me a rematch at Candyland so I canât promise anything.âÂ
Mrs. Wheelerâs fingers retract from yours, landing on the end of Hollyâs pigtail. âSheâs really missed having you over. Asks about you still.âÂ
Holly ducks her nose into her paper, pink traveling up her ears.Â
âIs that right?â Steve teases. âIâll have to swing by more often.âÂ
âPlease. Youâre welcome anytime, Steve. Whether Nancyâs here or not.â Her attention drifts to you. âAnd the same goes for you. Mike wonât stop talking about that comic book you gave him.âÂ
A smug grin surfaces. Out of all of the kids, Mike is a tough one to please.Â
âIâve never been away from Holly for so long. But I trust you guys.â Mrs. Wheeler pecks Hollyâs crown to hide a wobbly smile, her sentence spilling out in a breathy string of words.
She really does trust you both. It would take another set of hands to count the number of times either you or Steve had driven her kids home safely. This is just different. She loves all of her kids equally, but Hollyâs her baby.Â
Hollyâs eyes cast up at her mention, bright as a sunlit gem.Â
Mrs. Wheeler smooths her daughterâs sleeves down her shoulders. âBut Hollyâs a good girl. Right, Hollybear?âÂ
She turns to bury a toothy smile in her motherâs shirt.Â
Mrs. Wheeler is meticulous as she presents each and every detail of Hollyâs routine. From car seat safety to emergency contacts to allergies, she covers every question you might have before you have it.Â
Steveâs a good listener but heâs cursed with a very short attention span. Mrs. Wheeler lost him somewhere around Hollyâs sudden aversion to mac and cheese, but she doesnât seem to notice. Youâll fill in the gaps for him later.Â
This wonât be the first time youâve babysat with Steve. Dustin roped you both into hunting his pet lizard-turned-alien which very quickly escalated to protecting four children from not one, but several, vicious aliens. Safe to say you two are experienced enough to handle one kid for a couple of nights.Â
You havenât seen Steve much since then. Itâs summer now. The demodogs and sentient tunnel vines feel much more like a dream than something that actually happened to you these days. Steve works at the Scoops in Starcourt, or so youâve heard several timesâ Dustin only reminds you about every time you see him. But despite being as close to death as youâve ever been beside Steve, visiting him at work feels strangely wrong. Like crossing a line that neither of you ever drew.Â
You would not consider Steve Harrington your friend. Youâre friendly, as you might be with a neighbor or coworker, but you donât talk much outside of ââworld-ending, portal-to-another-dimension kind of events. Heâs family in a weird sort of way, bound by the shared trauma and unspoken loyaltyâ like someone you only see at family reunions, familiar enough to care about but still a stranger in most ways. High school was a long blur and your circle of friends couldnât have been farther from his. So you donât know Steve, not really. But of what little pieces of him you have come to know in the last year, heâs not half bad at babysitting.
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On Friday afternoon, you park your car beside Steveâs shiny BMW in the Wheelerâs driveway. You take the house key that had been slipped from Mrs. Wheelerâs key ring to yours and unlock the front door. And you find that inside, itâs completely silent. Hollyâs quiet as a mouse but sheâs still a kid and kids make noise.Â
Your bag drops onto the floor beside Steveâs shoes as you toe off your own. When the kitchen and living room turn up empty you jog upstairs. Alarm sinks in on the last step where you still hear nothing. No shouting, no laughing, no crying, no nothing.Â
Thereâs a large window in the hall upstairs, dividing Nancyâs room from Mike's and Hollyâs. In your panic, you miss the suspicious lumps in the drapes that frame it.Â
As you brush by, Steve rips the curtain across the rod and shouts, âHa! Gotchâ Oh.âÂ
Your entire body jerks, fear cinching every nerve. âChrist! Steve!â
âSorry, sorry!âÂ
Your nostrils flare with hot air as you shove him, âYou scared me!âÂ
His open palms hover in between your chests, unsure how to help. âI thought you were Holly. Sorry.â He gives you an apologetic once-over before a breathy chuckle escapes.Â
âItâs not funny. All the shit weâve been through. God.â Heâs lucky you didnât punch him. A part of you still wants to.Â
âMommy says thatâs not a nice word,â Holly says from behind you.Â
You turn, shoulders sagging in relief. âI didnât mean to say that. Sorry.âÂ
âStevie, I was supposed to find you,â she whines incredulously, hands planted on her hips.Â
âWe can go again. Iâll find a new spot.âÂ
Her frown mends as quickly as it appeared and she skips back to her room to count.Â
âSorry,â Steve reminds you. âHelp me find a spot to hide?âÂ
Soft eyes, a softer smile. Itâs hard to stay mad when he looks at you like that. âOkay.âÂ
Twenty seconds isnât very long to hide. Especially when Holly counts as fast as she does and when you spend half of your time standing in the hall. So you end up crouched in the corner of Mikeâs closet, Steve arched over you, trying his hardest not to crush your toes.Â
âJesus. Does this kid even wash his clothes?â Steve whisper-shouts. âIt smells like something died in here.â His palm snaps to the wall behind your head, the flesh of his arm warming your ear.
âYou actually couldnât have picked a worse place. Oh my God.â You press the neckline of your shirt over your nose. Steveâs wearing enough cologne to drown out the stench of dirty socks, though itâs choking you all the same.Â
âWe had like three seconds. I panicked!âÂ
Youâre glaring at him but only a fraction of light filters in from underneath the door so youâd guess he doesn't see.Â
The closet is the first place Holly checks when she barges into Mikeâs room, but youâve never been happier to be caught so fast.Â
âMy turn!â She glows in victory, pigtails swishing like yellow ribbons as she shouts.Â
Steve huffs. âLetâs take a break. Weâve been playing for like an hour.âÂ
âCan we play tag?â
âIn a little while. Iâm tired.�� He pinches her neck playfully until she squirms out of reach. âHowâd you have all that energy?â
She shrugs with her whole body. âI dunno. Iâm a kid.âÂ
A laugh bubbles out of your throat. When your eyes flit to Steve you find him already smiling at you.Â
âWhat about something a little more chill,â you suggest. âWe could color?âÂ
âBracelets?âÂ
âYou want to make some?âÂ
She nods, âI canât reach them. The beads are on top of my closet.â Â
âIâll get âem,â Steve offers. âCome show me where.âÂ
You fan out her multitude of craft containers across the kitchen table. Beads, charms, strings, all neatly filed away. She pops open a lid and plunks down across from you. Steve takes the seat at the end in between.Â
âWhat color bracelet are you gonna make?â you ask, raking through the rainbow of options.Â
âUmm, yellow. Noâ green!âÂ
âNice. Hereâs a cute little frog charm. Want that?âÂ
âMmmm. No, thank you.âÂ
âIâll take it,â Steve says, stretching his hand toward you.Â
You drop it in the center of his palm where it clinks against a handful of blue beads. Theyâre pretty and vibrant like the sea. A flicker of an idea pulls you to grab your own handful.Â
Holly slides four beads onto a string, two lime green and two baby pink. She drags the other end up and they all slip off, bouncing in separate directions across the table. You smack one before it dives onto the floor and Steve catches another two mid-air.Â
âCan you help me tie it?â Holly asks from under her chair, searching for the fourth.Â
âSure.â Steve swaps his bracelet for hers, triple knotting one end. âI like these colors.â
She resurfaces with a grin, voice lilting as she speaks, âDo you like purple?â
âYeah, purpleâs okay. Do you?âÂ
She nods, pinching a lilac gem and examining it.Â
You slip into a peaceful rhythm. The bead bin rattles as Steve digs his fingers in. He murmurs something about sparkles as he shuffles. Every now and then, you peek up at him. And each time, you find that heâs fully absorbed in this, rubbing his chin or poking his tongue out in concentration. Youâd even bet heâs having fun.Â
âCan you tie it on me,â Holly asks when she finishes.Â
Steve takes her hand gently, fingers engulfing her tinier ones. âThis good?â He tugs the strings across each other at her permission, sealing it with an extra knot for good measure. Â
Holly starts a second one as you finish your first. You hold it up triumphantly for them to seeâ red and blue beads between every white pearl.Â
âVery patriotic,â Steve teases.Â
âItâs for you. For scoops. These are the colors right?âÂ
He softens, eyes rounding like brown buttons. âWait, really? Thank you. Wow.â He inspects it fondly where you release it in his palm. âWill you tie it?â His arm shoots over to your side of the table.Â
You feel his gaze shift from the bracelet to your face as you lace it. And you pretend that it doesnât make your cheeks burn.Â
âYou donât have to wear it to Scoops if you donât want to,â you mumble, releasing his wrist.Â
âWhat? Of course, Iâm wearing it. No oneâs ever made me a bracelet before.âÂ
Your lips bend up into your cheeks as he leans back in his seat. He twists and turns his arm, looking it over again with a similar expression. âNow, it was supposed to be a surprise, but since Iâm almost done, I actually made this for you.â He scoops up the piece heâs been working on and waves it in front of you.Â
You cock an eyebrow and smirk. âYou sure you didnât just decide that since I gave you one.âÂ
âI didnât! I was planning this the whole time! Right Holly, didnât I say that?â
âNo?âÂ
âHolly, come on now.â He elbows her arm. âSupposed to back me up.âÂ
âBut you didnât,â she giggles.Â
âHolly doesnât lie, Steve.âÂ
âOkay, I didnât say it. But I thought it. I was gonna give it to you I swear.â He jams another couple of beads on his string. âSee! Look, it has your favorite color on there.âÂ
âIt has every color on there.âÂ
âOne of which is your favorite.âÂ
You roll your eyes as he takes your wrist. His hands are warmer than yours, softer than you expect too. He stills as your palm flips face up. A jagged, fleshy ridge runs from the bottom of your pinky to the meat of your thumb. Steve was there when you got the scar. Heâs never said it, but you know he blames himself for it. A demodog had you pinned in that damned junkyard school bus so Steve pushed you out of the way but you caught yourself on a broken window.Â
âIt doesnât hurt anymore.â
His head dips in a silent nod. He isnât sure whether to believe you or not. Either way, he feels sorry still.
His bracelet is a statement piece for sure. It truly has every color under the sun and a random assortment of charms and shells. But itâs sweet that he gave it to you. Even if he totally did not plan to do so at first.Â
He makes a second bracelet for Holly with purple string and butterfly pendants. Holly gives her next one to him as thanks, then begins on a third for you.Â
Steve stands from the table. âIâm hungry. Grilled cheese okay for dinner Holly?â She nods as do you when he asks you the same.Â
Your focus drifts between him and the necklace youâre starting for Holly. He coasts around the kitchen naturally, like you imagine he would in his own house. But itâs a bizarre sight. Steve Harrington cooking you food, in the Wheelerâs kitchen out of all places.Â
And heâs about as good as a chef as you expect him to be. Heâs clumsy and uncertain, even dropping a spatula on the floor with an, âOh, shiâugarâŚâ But he kindly refuses to accept any help or advice when you offer.Â
He eventually swings around the kitchen island, brimming with pride, one plate in each hand. Theyâre set in the space youâve cleared and you quickly see that the sandwiches have been cut adorably into stars. You just as quickly seeâ and smellâ how burnt they are. They arenât black, theyâre edible for sure. But Hollyâs five, and polite as she is, most kids would never willingly eat this.Â
So you arenât surprised when she looks at it in disgust, borderline horror.Â
âLook, itâs a star,â Steve beams, oblivious.Â
Your chest aches with the desire to laugh and an equal pang of sympathy.Â
Holly shakes her head, visibly toning down her expression for his sake. âCan I have something else?âÂ
âItâs good! I promise, just try it.âÂ
She slowly shakes no again.Â
âSteve,â a peel of laughter escapes your lips. âItâs burnt.âÂ
He scoffs. âItâs not that burnt.âÂ
Your mouth twitches in a funny little line and your eyes leap between him and the plate. âItâs pretty burnt, Steve.âÂ
After a moment of silence, he sighs and picks both plates back up.Â
âWait,â you shout, âIâll still eat mine! Mine isnât that bad. You did a good job!âÂ
He sulks at you. âYouâre just saying that. Iâll make new ones.âÂ
âNo, itâs okay, really. Iâll eat this one. I donât mind.âÂ
He plants the plate in your grabby hands and spins back toward the stove.Â
Round two is much better, still star-shaped, and a few shades lighter. Holly thanks him more than once while eating it without you even asking her to. If only Nancy and Mike were as precious as her. And Steve eats the first attempt, now cold, and admits that it tastes, âslightly burnt.âÂ
You take the empty plates to the sink to wash while Steve and Holly lug the jewelry kits back upstairs. You meet them in Hollyâs room after. Theyâre playing house, Steve the dad, and Holly the mom, with four babydolls for children. She appoints you to be the neighbor when you join.Â
You knock on her bedpost, pretending itâs her front door. âHolly, in one hour youâre gonna take a bath.â
Her head pops out from under the blanket. âCan we watch a movie before bed?âÂ
âSure, but we have to do bath now if you wanna watch the whole thing.âÂ
âOkay!â She kicks the sheets away, jumping off the bed in a race to the bathroom. Steve winces as she steps on his hand.Â
âDo you need help?â he asks, sprawled across the bed, socked feet hanging over the edge.Â
âNo, I got it. You can rest in peace now,â you joke, halfway through the door.Â
Holly is self-sufficient enough to bathe herself so all you have to do is supervise. You find a matching polka dot set of pajamas in her dresser and a towel under the bathroom sink. And she gets dry and dressed all by herself, Miss Independent.Â
âSo thereâs The Little Mermaid, E.T., Willy Wonka and the Chocolate FactoryâŚâ Steve trails off, kneeling in front of the entertainment center.Â
Holly hands him a VHS tape, âThis one?âÂ
âOoh, good pick.â Steve feeds the tape into the player and rewinds it.Â
You pat the couch cushion beside yours as Holly skips over. Steve hits the light before flopping into the recliner with a satisfied groan. The Jungle Book glows to life on the TV, casting an indigo wash over each of your faces. Holly curls into herself, knees tucked to her chest, arms wrapped tight around them.
âHere,â Steve chucks a blanket from the basket at his side.Â
âThanks.â You scoop it off the floor where it missed the couch and billow it out over you and Holly. âDonât fall asleep, Harrington.âÂ
âYeah, yeah.â Steve folds one leg over the other and crosses his arms, eyes glued to the screen. He reminds you of Mr. Wheeler sitting in his recliner like that. Itâs alarming how attractive you find it. Heâs not even doing anything worth staring at. You force your eyes back on the TV.Â
The credits scroll up the screen for a whole minute before you realize the movie has ended. You arenât asleep but you arenât totally awake either. Steveâs not far off by the looks of it and Holly, on the other hand, was out like a light halfway through. Her head presses into your upper arm, her hand scrunched in the blanket on your thigh. The weight is nice, making it all the harder to pick yourself up and get her to bed.Â
But thankfully Steveâs there to help. He twists in his chair until his back clicks, smiling when he catches sight of you and Holly. âIâll carry her up,â he whispers.Â
You gently work Hollyâs stubborn fingers from the blanket as Steve stands. He pushes the rest of the fabric into your lap before bending to scoop Holly up.Â
âBe right back,â he says, starting toward the stairs.Â
You tug the blanket higher, seeking lost comfort in its folds, though it doesnât compare to the warmth Holly provided.Â
Steve pads back down not a minute later. He stops on the last step, hanging over the railing. âYou awake?âÂ
âBarely,â you mumble.Â
Steve plods up to the front door to check the locks. He orbits into the kitchen and then back around to the living room to turn the TV off. Heâs being the responsible one. You arenât sure why this surprises you.Â
âCome on,â he opens his hand toward you.Â
Your arm snakes out from under the blanket, and he lifts you effortlessly. Youâve seen how strong he is, how he fights, but it still surprises you.Â
âI was gonna suggest another movie but I donât think either of usâll make it.âÂ
You catch a yawn from Steve. âI know. Iâm so tired. Itâs not even late.âÂ
He hums from behind you on the stairs. âYeah. Who knew thisâd be so exhausting.â Heâs only being slightly sarcastic. Thereâs an obvious truth to what he implied, but at the same time, it is so much harder than you realized it would be.Â
You stop at the landing, sluggishly turning to face Steve. âWell, goodnight, I guess.âÂ
âGoodnight.âÂ
You splinter into opposite ends of the hall. Steve let you have Nancyâs room for obvious reasons, though he wasnât thrilled about crashing in Mikeâs bed. Heâs probably better off on the couch after seeing the kidâs closet.Â
You change into cozier clothes and untuck Nancyâs quilt. Like with Steve, you and Nancy arenât really friends. Itâs strange being in her room, settling into her bed. And itâs almost stranger that Steve is sleeping across the hall. Yet, thereâs an odd comfort in itâ being surrounded by people who went through the same thing you did.Â
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Thereâs thumping in the hallâ footsteps, too light to be Steveâs. You fight the urge to go back to sleep. Holly needs a babysitter. But itâs not an easy feat, not when youâre swaddled like a baby in blankets much softer than the ones you have at home. Youâre warm and itâs so quiet it feels like a gift; that is, until you remind yourself that kids and quiet donât usually go hand and hand. She could be answering the door to a stranger, scaling the counters, setting the kitchen on fire, the possibilities are endless.Â
You force your heavy eyes open and flinch as a much brighter pair come into focus.Â
Holly bends over you with this innocent endearment you cannot possibly be mad to be woken by. âTold you, Stevie,â she says.Â
âNo, you woke âem up, goofball.â Steve lingers at the foot of the bed in a pair of striped pajama pants and a faded Olympics tee. Youâve never seen him in pajamas before, or anything quite like it.Â
You prop yourself up on your elbows and rub your eyes for a better look.Â
âSorry,â he supplies. His voice is still raspy with sleep and his oh-so-perfect hair shoots up in wild peaks. The sight makes your chest buzz. âShe said you had to get up to.âÂ
You redirect your attention to Holly, pinching the neckline of your shirt back over your shoulder as you sit up.Â
âCan we have eggs?â she asks you.Â
âSure.âÂ
She traps her lip between her two frontmost baby teeth. âFive?âÂ
âFive eggs!â Steve chides. âJust for you?âÂ
She turns to nod at him, smile blooming.Â
He wears the same joy, ruffling her already unruly bed-head. âWhat are you a linebacker?âÂ
She giggles, clueless as to what heâs talking about.Â
âLetâs start with two and if youâre still hungry you can have more,â you compromise.Â
You are undeniably a better cook than Steve, but the bar is low after yesterday. You serve scrambled eggs and unburnt toast. Holly looks at her plate like she hasnât been fed a day in her life and she shovels spoonfuls of it in her mouth like itâs her last meal.Â
Steve watches her with an anxious frown. âSmaller bites, Holl.âÂ
She nods but doesnât exactly slow her pace. Steve chases your eyes, knocking your ankle with his when you donât look. He gives you that funny face parents make. Help me out.Â
You shrug. âItâs just eggs. Babies eat eggs.âÂ
He cycles through several emotionsâfrustration that you wonât back him up, disbelief that babies eat eggs, and a lingering fear that she might choke. But he stops himself from asking all the what-ifs, he trusts you.Â
Holly swallows half of her glass of chocolate milk in one go. Steve looks mildly horrified.Â
âMy God. Sheâs like a little human vacuum,â he mumbles through a mouthful of toast.Â
You snort into your glass. If Holly heard him, sheâs too preoccupied to care.Â
After breakfast, Steve sets her up in front of the TV to watch cartoons while you clear the table. He disappears into the basement in search of a board game but comes back with some deflated, plastic thing.Â
âWhat happened to the board game?â you ask. âWhat even is that?âÂ
âItâs a kiddie pool. Letâs go outside. Itâs nice out.âÂ
âI didnât bring a bathing suit.âÂ
âMe neither. Just wear that.âÂ
You wrinkle your nose down at your pajamas. âGo see if she wants to.âÂ
He smiles, retreating back into the living room. Shortly after, he shouts, âShe said yes!â Footsteps pound up the stairs, followed by a second shout, âDonât run!âÂ
Mrs. Wheeler calls the house phone and is pleased to hear your good report. She reminds you several times to apply sunscreen to Hollyâs ears and that thereâs an extra can in the upstairs bathroom. You wrangle Holly over to put her on and promise to call back before bedtime when she refuses to hang up.Â
You sift through your bag, changing into the closest thing to swimwear. Steve takes forever in the bathroom, which doesnât surprise you one bit. He comes out in a crisp white tee, way too expensive-looking for a pool day, and a pair of red gym shorts.Â
âWhat are you, the lifeguard?â you joke.Â
His hands snap to his hips. âUhh, Iâll have you know Iâve been a certified lifeguard for two years, so yeah, actually.âÂ
You roll your eyes, brushing past him for the extra can of sunscreen. âAre you ready? Hollyâs waiting.âÂ
âYeah. Let me go blow up the pool. Iâll be outside.âÂ
You fix your hair in the mirror and tuck a few towels under your arm before heading downstairs. Hollyâs already outside, criss-crossed in a big lawn chair and watching Steve with incredible boredom. He stands barefoot in the grass, the deflated pool pressed against his chest. He pulls away from the air valve when he notices you, quickly capping it with his thumb.Â
âYou okay?â you ask, laughing lightly.Â
He nods, red-cheeked and breathless. âThink thereâs a hole in it. Been blowinâ for like five minutes.âÂ
âHuh,â you drop the towels and take one end of the limp plastic. âTry again.âÂ
He funnels more air inside, it dispurses evenly underneath your palm. You donât hear any air wheezing out so you turn it over for further inspection.Â
âOh, Steve. Here, look.âÂ
He pops his mouth off and follows your pointer finger. A second valve at the bottom, unhinged and releasing his hard work steadily.Â
âOh, youâre kidding me. Whyâd they put one under there?â
You shrug, plugging it back up. âHolly, letâs get some sunscreen on so your mom doesnât kill us.âÂ
Holly hops off the chair and skips to your side. You mist her skin in several layers, lathering a generous amount over her ears. When you move onto yourself, she grabs her basket of toys and climbs into the dry inflatable. Steve retrieves the hose and releases a cool stream into the pool, splashing Hollyâs feet.
She squeals and scoots back. âCold!âÂ
Steveâs thumb eclipses the opening so the water bursts out in wide a fan. He trains it at Holly, spraying her until sheâs soaked and screaming.Â
Heâs giggling in a way youâve never heard. Genuine, open-mouthed reels of laughter. You hate to admit it, but itâs really cute. So infectious you canât help but join.Â
He glances back for your reaction, pleasantly satisfied. And your smile incites a great idea. He swings the hose around, aiming it straight at you.Â
âSteve!â Your arms shoot out to block the attack but itâs no use.Â
âWhat?â he says, the epitome of innocence.Â
Your eyes narrow but a smirk prevails. âOh, youââÂ
Holly tackles the back of his thigh with a scream. Steve stumbles forward and the hose slips from his grasp.Â
You lunge for it before he even realizes what happened. And by the time he does, heâs already drenched. âPayback!â You laugh maniacally as he combs his hair out of his eyes.Â
Heâs laughing too, bent at the waist, still shaking his surprise. But only until he catches your gazeâ then comes the glint of something playful, almost daring.
Steve barrels straight through the spray like a bull. He chokes your fingers over the nozzle, bending and bending the line until the water pours straight down your head.Â
Holly dashes behind you to wrangle the wiggly tail of the hose, squealing at every layer of mist she catches.Â
You and Steve wrestle with it, his hand on your hip, yours pushing his shoulder. Heâs gentle but still strong. And his touch sears through the cold water, your skin tingling in his wake.Â
The second he sticks the end down the back of your shirt you scream. âOkay, okay! I surrender!âÂ
He crimps the hose with one hand, smirking deviously.Â
âI surrender,â you repeat, heaving through your laughter.Â
Holly drops her end of the hose, backing up one slow step at a time.Â
âTruce?âÂ
âTruce,â you nod, stepping up cautiously to shake his hand.Â
He accepts your hand, using it to yank you closer and blast you again. You chase and dodge and tackle each other under the blazing sun until your legs feel like jelly. But the game eventually slows as exhaustion creeps in.Â
You and Steve collapse in the lawn chairs while Holly lays belly-down in the pool. Water sloshes over the rim onto your toes as she kicks, a brief reprieve from the sticky heat. You're relaxed, but your mind wanders. You keep hoping the Wheelers wonât notice the sudden increase in their water bill.Â
âDustin talks about you all the time.â
You tear your eyes away from Holly, blinking back into reality as you face Steve. âWhat?â
âDustin, he talks about you all the time. Kid loves you.âÂ
âOh. Heâs a sweet kid. Talks about you too. Keeps telling me to come see you at Scoops.â
Steve chuckles, more of a half-hearted puff of amusement than a real one.Â
âWhich, Iâm sorry I havenât, by the way,â you confess.Â
His eyebrows jump, lips parting in soft surprise. âOh, no. Donât worry about it. Heâs just being Dustin.âÂ
You press a blade of grass flat under your heel, as if the right words might sprout from the dirt. âI dunno. I mean, donât you think itâs kinda weird that we donât like talk? After everything?âÂ
The words bounce around Steveâs head for a minute. He fixates on your choice of weird. Weird, like bad? Weird like you want to talk? He canât decide. And heâs afraid if he opens his mouth, the wrong words will tumble out.Â
But he tries anyway, âHonestly, I thought you didnât want to be friends. You were just so⌠distant after.âÂ
You rub the length of your arm, lips creasing into a frown. âSorry, I was just. I donât even know. Rattled, I guess.âÂ
âYeah, rabid dogs with faces that split open and try to eat you tend to have that effect.âÂ
Your frown melts, little by little.Â
âBut we shouldâve been there for you more. It was a hard time for everybody.âÂ
His apology echoes in your mind, the ache like a weight on your chest.Â
âYou could visit if you wanted to. At scoops. I could get you ice cream for free.âÂ
But the ache doesnât stand a chance against the way he makes you feel.Â
âOkay.â Your cheeks round with a sincere smile. âIâd like that.âÂ
He turns his head, as if to hide, but you still catch an echo of your own expression. Your eyes flicker across the contours of his profile, following the graceful line from his ear to his collar, before drifting over the sculpted shape of his arms and the long expanse of his thighs. Steve Harrington is objectively attractive. This isnât the first time youâve thought so. But it is the first time that fact makes your head spin.Â
Maybe itâs the heat. The sun feels like it's roasting you alive, and Steveâs attractiveness certainly isn't helping. Youâre feeling strange, thinking crazy thingsâ the kind of thoughts that only come when youâre on the verge of heat stroke certainly.Â
You stand abruptly and the grass sways underneath your feet. But you get your bearings before anyone notices. âHolly, can I come sit in the pool?â
Her eyes pop up, grin distorted underneath the water. She props her elbow up and rests her cheek in the palm of her hand. âWhatâs the password?â
âUmm, can you give me a hint?âÂ
A high-pitched hum. âOkay. Sheâs my favorite character.âÂ
âUhh, Barbie?âÂ
âNooo.âÂ
âStrawberry Shortcake?â
âNooo.âÂ
âHello Kitty?âÂ
âYouâre really bad at this,â she giggles. It would be really cute if you werenât possibly dying right now.Â
âItâs Care Bears,â Steve interjects, snapping his fingers. âUhh, the yellow one. Umm, Funshine!âÂ
âYes!â Holly glows like the sun on Funshine herself. âStevie can come in.â
Steve stands but he doesnât get in. âCome on, Holl. Itâs hot.â
âThereâs a new password.â
âOkay, okay. Can I have another hint?â you ask.Â
Her tongue curls out to lick the sweat off her lip. âMy favorite color.âÂ
âPurple?âÂ
âYes,â she nods and sits up. âBut I really like yellow and blue and pink too.âÂ
You sink into the water, unsure if there was ever a wrong answer. Itâs shallow and lukewarm, barely grazing the tops of your thighs, but itâs enough to cool the sun off your skin. Steve follows, and the space tightens awkwardlyâ the inflatable wasnât built for three. His knee brushes yours while Hollyâs toes nudge your foot, but neither of them seems to mind.Â
You cup water up to your cheeks and pour it down your arms.Â
âBetter?â Steve asks, a droll little pinch to his features.Â
Heâs staring at you which is definitely not helping but you nod anyway.Â
âWhy donât we move to the shade?â He stands before you or Holly agrees, offering his hand to pull you up.Â
She races Steve to the nearest tree, though he doesn't stand much of a chance dragging the pool behind him. He refills it with fresh water and encourages Holly to splash you gently while he runs inside to make lunch. By the time he returns, youâre feeling much more yourself.Â
âBon AppĂŠtit,â Steve announces, lowering himself slowly onto a towel. He carries three animal-shaped plates stocked with fruit and PB&Js, one in each hand, another balanced on his forearm.Â
Holly scrambles out of the water, plopping onto the other end of his towel. You get out too, shaking a second one out to lay beside theirs.Â
âLion or hippo?â he asks Holly.Â
She hums for a long time, inspecting each plate meticulously before pointing to the lion.
âGood choice.â He sets the plate in front of her crossed legs and passes you the hippo. Steve takes the polar bear for himself, which notably only has half a sandwich.Â
âWhereâs the other half?â you ask.Â
He takes a large bite, pressing his hand to his mouth to reply, âRan out of bread.âÂ
âHere.â You rip one of your halves in half.Â
âThanks,â he says, syllables tangling as he chews.Â
Holly watches the interaction fondly before pulling apart her own sandwich. It splits in a jagged line, mostly crust on one half. But happily, she thrusts the bigger piece toward Steve, jelly dribbling down her little fist.Â
He tilts his head, a growing smile mirroring yours. âYou eat it. I have enough now.âÂ
She crinkles her nose. âYou eat it!âÂ
âNo, you!â He squeezes her slim bicep. âYou need to get big and strong.âÂ
âWhat about you?âÂ
âIâm already big and strong.âÂ
She considers this, giving him an obvious once-over that makes you laugh. âTrade?âÂ
âOkay, trade.â Steve chuckles, exchanging one of his halves for hers. He licks a stripe across his knuckle where her sticky fingers brushed his. Itâs as innocent as the gesture can be but something about it has your cheeks burning in a way the sun couldnât.Â
Conversation tapers off, replaced with an easy quiet. Your stomach is satisfied with the food, but itâs your heart that feels the most nourished, steeped in the comfort of good company. You hadnât expected to enjoy hanging out with Steve or Holly this much.Â
Holly slouches into your arm, stretching her legs across the grass like a bridge between the towels. Her heels push into the pudge of Steveâs thigh, the faintest smirk crossing her lips.Â
He squeezes her ankle until it darts away.Â
Gradually, she presses again and in turn, he squeezes, but this time he doesnât let go. She squeals as he drags her down your side. But all hell breaks loose when he starts tickling the bottom of her foot.Â
She shrieks, thrashing and squirming against his hold, giggling in between gasps. âSteâvie!â she cries.
Her laugh is too pure of a sound to be real, Steve thinks. His resolve crumbles, grip faltering. And Hollyâs heel slams smack into his jaw. Steve winces, bending away to cradle his cheek.Â
You straighten up. âYou okay? Let me see.âÂ
Hollyâs legs go limp in the grass, her shoulders tense in your lap.Â
Steveâs hand slackens unveiling a red splotch not much darker than his sunburnt cheeks. He meets your eyes with a dismissive shake, âItâs okay.âÂ
You believe him. It doesnât look nearly awful enough to make your concern stick. And his face has been through worse. Billy Hargrove painting his fists red with Steveâs blood is one of the things you remember most about that night.Â
His attention dips down to Holly. She sniffles, eyes glistening in the sunlight with a frown nearly reaching her chin.Â
âItâs okay. Iâm okay, Holl.âÂ
Holly putters, whimpers drowning the edges of her words. âIâm sorry.âÂ
âItâs okay! I promise! It doesnât even hurt,â he reassures, cupping her kneecap.Â
You tug her off the ground and she sinks into your arms naturally. Hot tears pave a path down your neck only to dissolve in the fabric of your shirt. You coax her sobs out, one back rub at a time.Â
Steve waits until she settles with this pitiful look on his face. âI know you didnât mean to Hollybear. Just an accident. Hmm?âÂ
She nods against your chin.Â
He strokes the back of her arm, fingers grazing yours where they work. âPlease donât cry.âÂ
Holly sniffles.Â
âYou know what might help me feel better?â She lifts a sweaty cheek off your chest as Steve opens his arms. âA hug.âÂ
She pushes out of your hands into his. He holds her tight, providing one loving squeeze after another.Â
This is not how you pictured Steve to be under normal babysitting circumstances. A voice like sweet honey, eyes warm like the sun. Heâs very soft, and so undeniably kind. And not just to Holly, but also you.Â
Steve hooks the spare towel closer, draping it across her back. âLean back,â he tells her.Â
She avoids his gaze as she does, tears melting away under his touch.Â
âYou know what I think?â He cinches the towel at her collar like a cloak.Â
She hums.Â
âI think we should have popsicles for dessert.âÂ
Holly meets his eyes then, excitement glimmering underneath the droop of lingering guilt.Â
âHow does that sound?â
âGood,â she admits meekly.Â
A smirk thins his lips. âI dunno though. What if we get a tummy ache?â He pokes her belly through the towel. âMaybe itâs notââ
âNoâ I want one!â
âI dunnooo,â he sings.
âPlease, Stevie! You already said.â
âHow bad do you want it? Like this much?â He pinches his fingers together, leaving the slightest gap between them.Â
âNo, no!â She shakes her head, casting her arms out as far as theyâll go. âThis much!âÂ
He sighs loudly, shoulders sagging for the dramatic touch. âOkay.âÂ
Hollyâs arms curl around his neck as he stands. Heâs more than happy to carry her, but the added weight makes him groan.Â
You trail behind automatically, half enjoying the show and just as excited for a treat. Steve pins the back door open with his foot, returning a smile you hadnât realized you were sharing. Your cheeks are starting to protest, sore with overwhelming happiness.Â
âWhat color do you want?âÂ
âPink! Pink!â Holly shouts in his ear, loud enough to make you wince. But Steve doesnât react in the slightest to her volume. Youâd all taken a piece of the Upside Down with you after El sealed it up. And just when you seemed to forget it, youâd be reminded in the form of scars, nightmares, headaches, and in Steveâs case, hearing loss.Â
He opens the freezer, Holly propped on his hip. Sheâs far too big to be carried like that comfortably but he does it anyway.Â
âPink for Holly. Red for Steve.â He leans back to find your face. âFor you?âÂ
You purse your lips, âSurprise me.âÂ
Steve stows Holly on the countertop so he can snip the plastic tips. She receives her popsicle first, then you, and finally Steve.Â
âMatching,â Holly observes as you sit beside them on the couch.Â
Steve crosses his popsicle over your identically red one when you raise an eyebrow. âLook at that,â he says.Â
She hums, gnawing on the plastic wrapper. Steve pushes the ice up for her and thumbs away the dribble at the corner of her mouth. She doesnât seem to notice, but it catches you off guard. Steveâs such a natural at this you almost canât believe heâs an only child.Â
You turn the TV on to an episode of Care Bears as Holly slumps into Steveâs chest, slurping the last of her slush loudly.Â
âSleepy?â you ask when she kneads her eyes.Â
âNo.â
You chuckle, combing her frizz back. âOkay.âÂ
âYou know, itâs okay if you are sleepy,â Steve mentions, equally amused.Â
âI know. Iâm not.â Her tone is casual, a portrait of nonchalance, despite the yawn that slips out afterward.Â
You and Steve exchange a look of mutual fondness.Â
âIâm pretty tired,â Steve declares, reclining into the cushions with a fake yawn. âI think Iâll take a nap.âÂ
Holly twists against him to watch. It doesnât take long for her little fingers to poke and prod his lashline.
He peels one eye open, playfully cocking an eyebrow.Â
She giggles and pinches the skin closed.Â
Youâre trapped between nervously supervising she doesnât poke his eye out and leaving to get a baby wipe for her hands which you imagine are very sticky with popsicle juice. Either way, youâll be surprised if Steve doesnât have pink eye by morning.Â
âIâm sleeping,â he whines and headbutts her palm gently.Â
âNooo,â she whines back, wedging her hand across his mouth. Delirium is setting in, a nap is imminent.Â
Steve opens his eyes, giddy just the same. âOkay. You got me.âÂ
Holly frees his mouth to swipe a streak of red from his chin. Her tongue pokes out in prime concentration.Â
A staggered laugh of disbelief is shaken from Steveâs chest. He hadnât expected Holly to be difficult, but sheâs been nothing short of delightful. Sheâs sweeter than Mike and Nancy combined and smarter than he thought kids her age could be. For a self-indulgent second, he hopes that his kids will turn out something like her.Â
Holly reels back around to lay on her side, eyelids sagging with an inevitable heaviness. Steve draws the towel up to her chin, fixing his palm to her back. You watch her drift off, eyes slipping up every so often.Â
When youâre positive sheâs out, you cautiously dislodge the popsicle wrapper from her fingers. Steve passes his as you stand.Â
One of the many hard things about kids is all the cleaning. Hollyâs as neat as a five-year-old gets, and still, every moment of peace is an opportunity spent putting things back where they belong. You head outside to tip the pool over and collect stray towels and toys that didnât make it back in.Â
By the time you return, Steveâs passed out, mouth ajar, head craned back against the couch. Itâs not a particularly attractive expressionâ heâd probably be embarrassed to wake to your staringâ but you canât find anything other than endearment in yourself. Â
You shower and change into fresh clothes and end up on the opposite couch to watch TV. But Care Bears isnât all that entertaining anymore so you rest your eyes for just a second.Â
A second turns to several and when you reopen your eyes you discover the clock is two hours ahead of where it was before.Â
The silence is only comforting for a fleeting moment before anxiety creeps in. Your eyes flick from the TV, now powered off, to the other couch where Steve and Holly are not where you left them. Nor are they in the dining room, kitchen, basement, or backyard. You take the stairs two steps at a time and nearly trip over a blanket strewn across the banister when Holly screams.Â
Youâd have kicked her door off the hinges if it came to it but are thankful itâs already open. Holly is perfectly safe, bent over the remnants of what you assume was a pillow fort.Â
You release a breath caught in your throat and sag against the doorframe. Steve offers an apologetic smile when he notices.Â
Holly glances over but quickly returns to their game. âYouâve destroyed my kingdom!â she shouts, drilling a finger into Steveâs chest. âOff with your head!âÂ
Youâre too stunned to laugh, but a noise of confusion skips out. Steve gawks at Holly in pretend despair, scrubbing any seeping amusement off his lips with the back of his hand. Heâs dressed in sweats, Holly in a princess dress. But more importantly, his face has been caked in makeup and his hair twisted into two fluffy knots.Â
âYou!â Holly yells with a scowl aimed at you. âHold him down!âÂ
Steve pleads at your ankles, pressing his forehead to the carpet in prayer. It takes every ounce of you not to break character and laugh. Thereâs something so surreal about Steve Harrington, former King of Hawkins High, in sparkly eyeshadow, kneeling before a little girl to beg for his life. Itâs hilarious as it is heartwarming.Â
âIf I may propose a suggestion!â You counter, equally dramatic. âA trade! For this silly manâs life, we will help rebuild your kingdom twice as big! Princess IââÂ
âQueen!â
Steve snorts but she must miss it.Â
âMy apologies. Queen Holly, I can assure you this new Kingdom will have all of the finest luxuries that royalty like yourself might desire.âÂ
She takes a second to process the big words. âFine!â She sneers, diving onto her mattress which is absent of all its sheets and blankets. âChop! Chop!â
You bite your lip, chasing the fervent smile away. Steve gets right to work, sorting pillows from most to least sturdy. You steal another chair from Nancyâs desk and help Steve double-knot the roof to it. Itâs no mansion, but it is long enough for Steve to lie down in, which is a job well done in your book. Especially when youâre under strict supervision and listening to a thread of loud critiques.Â
You lift the door flap for Holly to crawl through. âYour quarters, Your Grace.âÂ
She glances over her shoulder with a wicked, but mostly adorable, expression. âMy name is not Grace! Itâs Holly! Queen Holly to you!âÂ
The explanation dies on your tongue because how can you possibly argue with that? Youâre just grateful to still have your head.Â
After the grand tour, Queen Holly disappears into one of the tentâs offshoots with a handful of stuffed animals she's referring to as her royal guards.Â
Steve scoots closer, whispering behind his hand, âI think we need to stage a coup.âÂ
You lean into his good ear, affection spilling off your tone, âI didnât know she could be so mean.âÂ
âMe neither! She must be hanging out with Mike.âÂ
âMust be.â You grin for what feels like the millionth time today.Â
Youâre sitting knee to knee, close enough to catch the heat of Steveâs breath on your cheek. You drag the pad of your finger across his cheekbone where teal eyeshadow has been caked on in several layers. âI like this,â you compliment.Â
I kinda forgot she put that on.â He ducks his head bashfully, peeking up through his eyelashes. âDo I look pretty?âÂ
âThe prettiest.âÂ
He receives it as teasing, but itâs true, you do think Steve is pretty. A strong nose, kind eyes, and sure, maybe the hair. But now that youâre inches apart, you notice twin smile lines, a series of freckles down his cheek, and a faded scar across his forehead. You linger there more than anywhere else, under the guise of judging Hollyâs makeup job, of course.Â
But the silence twists into something less comfortable with each passing second. A brief twitch of emotion flickers across Steveâs face, gone before you can name it. âSo⌠pizza for dinner?â he blurts out.Â
Before youâve processed what happened, Holly shouts, âCheese please!âÂ
Steve splinters from your gaze, calling back, âYes, My Queen.âÂ
Dinner is pleasantly easy. The pizzaâs delivered and paper plates save you from the hassle of dishes after. You eat at the kitchen table, sharing stories and smiles, strangely like a family.Â
And after dinner, Holly has a bath; and after bath, Steve whisks her off to bed. Youâre left to your own devices for once, a benevolent bout of peace, but still, you canât seem to relax.Â
The spray of the bathroom light paves the hall leading to Hollyâs room. You tiptoe up to the door and peek inside.Â
Steveâs on the floor, slouched against the side of the bed cradling Holly to his chest. He flinches as your shadow veers across the moonlit wall. Â
âSorry,â you whisper, dropping onto your knees beside them.Â
Holly picks her head up, tear tracks shimmering as she turns. Her lip wobbles through a whimper.Â
You soften like wax near a flame, eyes flitting to Steve who looks equally at a loss.Â
She curls her knees into his tummy in a way that probably hurts. The poor thing dissolves into fresh tears, spilling out faster than Steve can chase away.Â
âHolls, itâs okay, honey. Me and Stevie are here, okay?âÂ
She strains to speak through a chain of gasps, âI want my Mommy!âÂ
âI know, I know. Sheâll be back before you know it, I promise,â you steer sweat-slick hair behind her ear.Â
âI want her now.âÂ
âWeâve got ya, Holl,â Steve chimes in.Â
âWeâre right here.âÂ
âNoâ Mommy!âÂ
It goes like this for a while, soothing reassurances met with unyielding resolve. Hollyâs not one to be stubborn for no reason. Sheâs so exhausted and upset it breaks your heart. You try reading and music and back rubs but there seems to be no end to her sobbing.Â
Steve strokes her ankle where itâs now tucked underneath her in your lap. He looks exhaustedâ hair draped over his forehead like a claw, extra weight embedded in each of his eyelids. Youâre both at your breaking point. âYou wanna sleep with me tonight Hollybear?â he says in a tone gentler than youâve ever heard.Â
âNo. Mommy,â she persists.Â
âYou can sleep with her when she gets back. But tonight you get to have a sleepover with Steve. Or you can even sleep with me in Nancyâs bed, okay?âÂ
Red-rimmed eyes flick between you and Steve. Neither option is as good as Mom.Â
âBoth,â Holly whines.Â
âWanna lay with both of us?âÂ
She nods. âIn the middle.âÂ
âOkay,â you turn to Steve. âWe can do that.â Your words are colored like a question but heâs already nodding his answer.Â
He shovels Holly from your lap, cheek pressing into hers in an unspoken exchange of relief. âAlright, munchkin. Letâs go steal Nancyâs big bed. Sound good?âÂ
She hums her approval into his ear.Â
Steve pokes Nancyâs door open with his foot, swinging around to the tucked side of the bed. You crawl across your end as Holly slides off his chest. She molds herself against your shoulder, tugging Steve closer when he settles.Â
âGoodnight, Hollybear,â he says.Â
She steals your hand from underneath the comforter, then his where it lies on the sheet. Your knuckles brush Steveâs where they are stapled to her chest. âGoodnight,â she sighs.Â
Steve strokes up and down the back of her hand, his touch a quiet catalyst. Sheâs asleep in mere minutes, snoring softly, fingers limp against yours.Â
Steve nudges your hand where itâs already pressed to his, whispering when you turn, âAm I crazy that I find all of this kinda fun?âÂ
You shake your head, a smile working its way across your lips. âGuess that would make me crazy too.âÂ
âI know I always complain about driving those little shits around but Hollyâs actually really fun to babysit.âÂ
âYeah, she is. At least itâs not the end of the world this time, right?â
âYeah, that probably helps, huh?â Amusement ebbs into a sigh. âIâm kinda dreading going home, to be honest.â
âWhy donât we put Mike in a wig? Kidnap Holly for ourselves.âÂ
He snorts into his pillow. âOh, yeah. Thatâll work. âYeah, I dunno Mrs. Wheeler, she had a crazy growth spurt while you were gone.ââ
âWeâd take good care of her.â
âWe would,â he nods. âYouâre really good with her.âÂ
âSo are you. Kinda surprised me actually.â
âReally? Cause Dustin tells me weekly Iâd make a good mother.âÂ
âYeah, but theyâre different. Older. And donât get me wrong, youâre great with them and they love hanging out with you. Hollyâs just little. Youâre so much gentler with her, and like, you always seem to know what to do.âÂ
âFor the record, I have no clue what Iâm doing.â
âMe neither. I don't know what Mrs. Wheeler was thinking asking us to do this.â
Intertwined laughter fades, but something elseâ something similarâ lingers. An almost tangible buzz of energy, as if the silence itself is alive with unspoken words. You entertain the idea that the feelingâs not exclusive to just you. That Steve hears the same jitter in his pulse and feels the same flutter against his ribs. That you arenât alone to be feeling such a way.   Â
âIs itââÂ
âAre weââ
âSorry, you go,â he jabbers out.Â
The words trickle back down your throat, too thick to cross your tongue again. âYou can probably go now,â you decide.Â
His gaze jumps to Hollyâs chest where his hand is still coupled with one of hers.Â
âIf you want,â you amend. âYou donât have to.âÂ
âYou don't mind? If I stayed?â
You shake your head.
âJust worried sheâll wake up if I move.âÂ
You try to flatten your excitement as you reply, âYou can stay.âÂ
His gaze swims with yours across Nancy's room, skimming over the cluttered dresser, the desk strewn with books and pens, to the shuttered closet doors.
âSorry aboutâ you knowâ I heard Nancy⌠dumped you,â you say, immediately regretting the awkward phrasing.
âHarsh,â he squints and casts you a bittersweet grin. âBut true.â
âIs it⌠weird? To be in here?âÂ
âA little. But not as much as I thought it would be. Hell of a lot better than Mikeâs room.âÂ
You hum, watching the gentle shift in his brows.Â
âIs it weird for you?âÂ
âMe?â you ask. âIn what way?âÂ
âYou and Nance. You donât always see eye to eye.âÂ
âI mean, yeah. When our decisions involve risking our livesâ or the kidsâ sheâs pretty damn impulsive. And she can be real stubborn and selfish sometimes too. But I dunno, I still love her. Sheâs been sort of like a sister since everything started. I think thatâs why we argue.âÂ
âWhat does that make me? Your brother?âÂ
You roll your eyes. âNo, youâre the stray dog we adopted.âÂ
âOkay. Thatâs just mean.â
âIâm kidding, Iâm kidding.â Your laugh laps out louder than you intend, but Holly remains still. âI dunno who youâd be. The love interest?â
âI can work with that, sexy love interestââ
You scoff. âDonât put words in my mouth, Harrington.âÂ
âOkay, okay. But love interest becauseâŚâ
âCause you dated Nance.â
âOh,â he exhales.Â
âYou donât agree? Should we go back to stray dog?âÂ
âOh, shut up. Iâm going to bed.â Steve rolls onto his side with a sigh.Â
âKeep your snoring to a minimum, please.âÂ
He grumbles, narrowing his eyes at your smirk. âI donât snore.â
âYou do. I could hear it from here last night.â
âNo, you didnât.â
âI did,â you argue. âIt definitely wasnât Holly.âÂ
âWhatever. Goodnight.âÂ
âNight.âÂ
Only when your eyes are closed does his smile finally emerge. Itâs silly how quickly you can pull it out of him. It throws him for a loop every time. But with you at his side, maybe heâll dream of happier things for once. Either way, itâs easier to fall asleep, just knowing youâre there falling asleep too.Â
áŻâ
âShhhh!âÂ
âNo, you shhhh,â a lighter voice giggles.Â
âHolly,â Steve scolds, mirth buttering his tone. You know heâs smiling by the sound alone.Â
Hollyâs laughter triples in volume but then is abruptly muffled.Â
âEwâ did you just lick me?âÂ
And this all just sounds way too cute to miss out on. You pry your lashes apart, still sticky with sleep, and flip on your side to face them.Â
They freeze, eyes widening adorably in sync. Steve is reclined against the headboard, an arm bent behind his neck. Holly is sprawled halfway across his tummy, toes tickling your side.Â
âSorry,â he offers like youâd be mad. But how could you possibly be anything but enamored waking up to their giggly little voices? If you could be woken up like this every day, you would.Â
You shake your head, scratching underneath your eyes. The walls are bathed in muted colors, waiting to be warmed by the sunrise. Itâs still early.Â
Holly rolls off of Steve onto the floor and barrels out of the room.Â
âWhere are you going?â he shouts.Â
âPotty!âÂ
Steve turns to you, eyes roving across your bedhead for an embarrassingly long amount of time. âGood morning.â
âMorning.â
âDid she kick you last night?âÂ
You rake your fingers through your hair, quickly moving them to your lips to stifle a yawn. âNot that I remember.âÂ
âOh, youâd remember. Trust me. She was on top of me the whole night.â Heâs smiling like an idiot. He couldnât sound annoyed about it if he tried.Â
âAww, she loves you,â you coo.Â
âYeah,â he agrees, pink dusting his cheeks, âI canât wait to do this.â
âHmm?â
âSettle down. Have a family. I wasnât, like, a hundred percent sure before, but I am now.âÂ
âYouâll be a good dad.â
He beams at you like heâs just won the lottery. âYou think?âÂ
âFor sure.â And he really would. Youâre sure of it after last night.Â
He opens his mouth to speak but your stomach cuts him off with an obnoxious growl. âHungry?â Steve chuckles.Â
âShut up.â You swipe your pillow and smack him.Â
He smacks you back, pulling it to his chest before you can steal it. âWanna go out for breakfast?âÂ
Your brain short circuits. You forget youâre babysitting and not just laying in bed with Steve Harrington for fun. He is not asking you on a date like your heart assumes.Â
âOh, yeah. Sure. For sure,â you sputter out, heat licking up the back of your neck.Â
âIâll go see what she wants,â he slides onto the floor and shakes his legs awake.Â
Steveâs tall, even sluggishly slumped over. But even more so as he stretchesâ arms rising with his shirt, revealing a fraction of golden skin above his waistband. A long, lazy moan climbs out of his chest.Â
You push the comforter off before you burst into flames.Â
Holly determines she wants IHOP because they put chocolate chips and sprinkles on the pancakes. Steve supplies her with an outfit and wrestles her hair into pigtails with bows to match her skirt. Itâs surprisingly coordinated and admittedly cute, but maybe youâre wrong to be so surprisedâ he knows his way around a comb and a closet.Â
âCan I get pancakes?â she asks Steve, perched on the bottom step of the stairs.Â
Heâs cross-legged on the floor, hunched over to lace her sneakers. âI already told you yes, silly goose.â
âCan I get extra sprinkles?â
âUhh, does your mom let you?â
She thinks about it before answering. âYes, I think so.âÂ
âSure, then.â He grins, clapping her tied shoes together before standing.Â
You shoulder Hollyâs bag, stuffed with books and toys and a jacket in case it rains, courtesy of Steve who insisted she might need it. âReady?â you ask him.
Steve races Holly to the car while you lock up. Mrs. Wheeler installed Hollyâs car seat in Steveâs beamer before she left but youâve yet to use it.Â
âItâs too tight,â Holly whines from the car, loud enough to hear from the top of the driveway.Â
âI know, âm working on it,â Steve assures, working his fingers under the straps. âJust gotta figure it out.â
âHurry!â��
âIâm hurrying, Holl. Give me a secâ.âÂ
You open the passenger door and peek around the headrest to view her. The belts are buckled but not tight enough to spark concern. âHeâs going as fast as he can, Holly. Be patient.âÂ
She squirms under his hands, exhaling sharply. And like her, Steveâs frustration mounts, jaw tightening, brow furrowing. His fingers keep slipping and heâs not totally sure which button or strap is for loosening.Â
You swing around to Hollyâs door and cup Steveâs shoulder. âLet me try.â
He knocks his head on the roof as he pulls out.Â
You wince, âOkay?âÂ
He softens as you reach for his neck, though your fingers never land. Still, the tender look you offer is enough to cure any bumps or bruises he mightâve gotten.Â
Itâs an unfortunate amount of trial and error before Holly is fastened in properly. Steve cranks the AC on full blast when you finally settle into your seats and circles through radio stations after he backs out. He finds the kidâs station, playing a Muppetâs song that Steve apparently knows every word to. He sings unapologetically loud, a stupid grin sewn to his face.Â
When you arrive, Holly happily holds your hand through the parking lot, still clutching tightly as you wait to be seated. She climbs onto your lap to make room on the waiting bench for a woman looking ready to pop out a baby any minute. Steve stands at your other side, arm braced behind your neck.Â
âHow old is she?â the woman asks you fondly.Â
âSheâs five,â you return her smile, bouncing your knee. âRight, Holly?â
Holly twists to hide in your neck, nodding.Â
âSheâs very cute,â she says with such love you already believe her baby is in good hands. âYour sister?â Her eyes flick from yours to Steve who is mostly oblivious to the conversation.Â
âNo, just babysitting.âÂ
âOh, well, youâll make good parents one day.âÂ
The comment renders you speechless. Itâs not that you hadnât considered children before, but you hadnât pictured them with Steve. With his smile, his eyes, his nose. Itâs that this woman who doesnât even know you imagined it before you had. You blink at her stupidly through a forced smile.
Steve squeezes your shoulder, ripping you from your thoughts. âYou okay? Tableâs ready.âÂ
You get seated in a booth overlooking the parking lot.Â
Holly bends across Steveâs lap to point through the window. âI see our car!âÂ
âYeah, thatâs her.âÂ
Hollyâs face contorts with confusion. âHer? Your carâs a girl?âÂ
âYepââ
The waitress swings over with a handful of menus and a hasty introduction. Steve already knows what he wants and he places Hollyâs order after his, making sure to clarify the extra sprinkles when she calls his name repeatedly to remind him. As soon as you decide, the waitress bustles off with the pair of menus to another table.Â
Holly slides her paper menu closer, examining each activity.Â
Steve picks open the box of crayons, revealing a stingy threeâ red, green, and blue. âYou know, for a multi-million dollar company, youâd think they could afford more than three crayons.â
âAnd more staff,â you add, eyes tailing another waitress zipping from one table to another.Â
Holly points at herself, Steve, and then you, counting, âOne, two three. Three crayons for three people.âÂ
âYeah, good point,â Steve pats her thigh. âAlways the optimist.âÂ
âOp-ta-nist?â
âOp-ta-mist,â he clarifies.Â
She snags the green crayon and presses it to the paper. âWhatâs that?â
Steve opens and closes his mouth. âWell, itâs likeâ itâs when youâ youâre happy a lot. Grass is always greener on the other side, you know?âÂ
Steve lost her at the metaphor but sheâs too focused on staying inside the lines to care about the definition of optimist anymore.Â
âYou got there eventually. Sort of,â you tease.Â
His foot stabs your ankle under the table. âShut up.âÂ
Steve lets Holly win every single round of tic-tac-toe while showering her with praise, convincing her she's a tactical mastermind. You canât quite tell if sheâs onto him, but sheâs too busy grinning to say otherwise.
The waitress plants your and Steveâs plates on the table first, reaching behind to scoop Hollyâs off her tray next. âAnd, chocolate chip pancakes with extra sprinkles for the little one.âÂ
âThank you,â you manage to say before she leaves to tend to another table flagging her down. âHolly, want syrup?â
âYes, please.âÂ
You pour a spiral of maple syrup over Hollyâs pancakes. The amount of sugar on her plate might qualify it more as candy than breakfast. And sheâs ogling the food like itâll grow legs and run away.Â
âSteve, will you cut them up for her?â
He nods, swallowing a mouthful of scrambled eggs and trading his fork for a knife. As soon as he slides her meal back over, Holly ravages the pancakes, spooning another bite in her mouth before sheâs swallowed the last.
The waitress whisks by with drink refills, joy driving her to a smile at the sight of Holly and her half-empty plate.Â
âI swear we feed her at home,â Steve chuckles through his own joke. What a dad thing to say. âCan we get some more napkins?âÂ
And itâs like he knows whatâs going to happen. Holly stretches across the table for the syrup bottle, drawing back with an open-mouthed grimace.Â
âUh-oh.â She presses her chin to her chest. Thereâs a patch of syrup turning the hem of her pink shirt brown.Â
âWhat?â Steve throws a pigtail behind her shoulder so he can see. âOh. Itâs okay.âÂ
âIt was an accident,â Holly explains.Â
âI know. Itâs okay.âÂ
âItâs sticky.â
âItâll wash off.â Steve dunks a clean napkin in his cup of water and dabs it across the stain.Â
âItâs too cold,â she complains, pinching the fabric away from her skin.Â
âSorry. Itâll dry. Have to get the syrup out, though.âÂ
You deliver another wad of napkins to Steveâs hand. He pushes them against her belly, soaking up any excess water. His patience never frays.
Holly looks up, worry etched into her voice, âWill it stain?âÂ
âI dunno,â you supply truthfully. âWeâll throw it in the wash when we get home.âÂ
Steve pays the bill with the cash the Wheelers left and scrapes his wallet for change, stacking two quarters on the table when he finds them. âSince youâve been such a good listener. Thereâs a sticker machine up front,â he tells Holly.Â
Steve might as well have slapped a ticket to Disney World on the table. Holly literally jumps for joy, right out of her seat. She buys a random Lisa Frank sticker and pockets the second coin for her piggy bank.Â
Itâs Steveâs idea to go to the playground afterward. The park is teeming with life, the kind of chaos that only a weekend morning can bring. Swings creak under the weight of eager kids, and the monkey bars have their own traffic jam. Parents wrap the playground like a barricade, their chatter drowned out by laughter and shouts. But the heat presses down ruthlessly, making every step feel like youâre wading through a sauna.
Holly tears away from Steveâs hand as soon as her shoes hit the mulch, rejoicing in her newfound freedom with a little skip. She races up a set of stairs to wait for a turn on the tallest slide.Â
âShouldâve brought sunscreen,â Steve says, eyes following Holly down the slide. She flashes you both a prideful smile from the bottom.Â
âSheâll survive. We wonât stay long. Itâs too hot.â You pull your shirt out to fan your chest, dabbing the sweat beading at your sternum.Â
âCareful!â he shouts as she hops from one platform to the next. She continues to bounce along the path, one wobbly leap at a time. A particularly long jump has Steve cringing. Heâs trying really hard not to be overanxious and itâs as sweet as it is amusing.Â
He side-eyes your grin with an opposing frown. You donât even have to say anything for him to know youâre teasing him. âWhat?âÂ
You shrug, smile doubling. âYou.â
âWhat about me?âÂ
âYouâre just funny.âÂ
âMy concern is funny to you?â he accuses.Â
âSheâs fine, Steve.âÂ
He makes a noise of disagreement, arms crossed and a hip popped out dramatically far. You see why Dustin teases him for being motherly.Â
Holly struggles with the monkey bars. She makes it halfway across before her arms start to shake and her hands slip. Steve lunges forward as he watches her plummet to the ground. But before he can swoop in, Holly pops up, dusts the dirt from her skirt with a nonchalant shrug, and marches on, completely unfazed.Â
âSee. Sheâs fine,â you reassure.
âWhatever,â Steve grumbles, strolling away to sulk in private.Â
He makes a slow lap around the playground, hands planted firmly on his hips, casting a critical eye over the chaos. Meanwhile, you snag a spot on a bench, where most parents are engrossed in magazines or gossip, blissfully detached. You watch Steve get roped into playing a monster, though you can tell he secretly loves it.Â
It doesnât take long for him to start stomping around, roaring and growling, chasing the kids as they shriek and scatter. And when they finally tire him out, he collapses beside you, his shirt clinging to his sweaty back, and his breath coming in ragged bursts.Â
âI told her five more minutes,â he says, stretching an arm across the back of the bench behind you. His curls shine honeycomb gold in the spray of sunlight and his skin echoes the warmth of desert sand, softened pink like the blush of sunset. He looks strikingly gorgeous sprawled out beside you.Â
Holly trots over not much later, alarmingly upset.Â
You sit up, urgently shaking Steveâs thigh to grab his attention. âWhat happened, honey?âÂ
âIâ I was,â she sucks in a staggered breath, âI was climbing the stairs andâ and a boy, he pushed me.â Twin rivulets of tears are unleashed with a blink, converging at the curve of her chin.Â
You scan her from head to toe. Nothing looks broken or bloody. âAre you hurt?âÂ
âNo,â she strains.Â
You drag her into your chest, pressing a loving cheek to her ear. âDid it scare you?âÂ
She nods, hiccuping into your neck.Â
âIâm sorry, Holly. That wasnât nice at all.âÂ
Steveâs gaze shifts between Holly and the playground to search for guilty suspects. He finds none, thankfully, though heâs still itching to wring out whatever parent it is not watching their kidâ which is unfortunately most of them.
âLet me see,â he coaxes Holly over for his own checkup. He picks a piece of mulch from her hair and flicks off another stamped into her calf. âThink youâll make it? Should we call an ambulance?âÂ
She doesnât smile at his joke like you hope.Â
âReady to go home?â you ask.
She sniffs into her sleeve. âYeah.âÂ
âAlright.â Steve hoists her up as he stands. Holly's long legs wrap around his waist, feet swaying against his thighs as he walks.Â
Holly naps on the way home, not by choice but by sheer exhaustion. She convinces herself she didnât actually fall asleep when she wakes up in the driveway, swearing, âI just closed my eyes.âÂ
But itâs quickly apparent that twenty minutes was not enough. She cries because her leftover pizza for lunch is cold in the middle and again when she rubs the sauce in her eye. You turn on a movie, hoping to induce another nap, but The Aristocats is just too good to sleep through. Thankfully, her grumpiness wanes into a more manageable pout, her arms uncrossing to snuggle closer to you on the couch.
When the movie ends, she slinks up, her departure leaving your lap cold. After a long-winded debate about what to do, you all finally agree on playing a board game. Steve steers Holly downstairs to pick one out and she returns with a rekindled excitement, dropping the game Twister at your feet.Â
Thereâs nothing inherently wrong with Twister, but you were expecting something easier. Candy Land or Chutes and Ladders. So you let Steve and Holly go first. The round ends in a heap of tangled limbs and giggles, a winner unclear. But Holly wins the match against you, admittedly fair and square. And itâs all fun and games until she insists you and Steve must compete.Â
âEhh, Holly. My arms are tired,â you reason.Â
âBut I wanna be the referee too,â she whines. âPleaseee!âÂ
Steve shrugs at you, a playful little curve to his lips. If you say no, that makes only you the bad guy. And you just canât bring yourself to break Hollyâs heart over something so simple.Â
âOkay,â you sigh, ignoring the nervous tick in your chest.Â
Holly pushes you by the hips onto the mat to stand opposite Steve. She gets situated on the floor and excitedly flicks the spinner, calling, âLeft foot. Blue!âÂ
You each step toward a blue dot. Easy.Â
âRight foot on green.âÂ
Right foot, green. Youâre shoulder to shoulder now, hips angled toward his.Â
âRight hand⌠yellow!âÂ
âHere we go,â you mumble, bending down to reach yellow. âOkay.âÂ
Steve chuckles and follows suit, free hand hovering awkwardly behind your shoulder.Â
You twist your head until you canât, just to see the stupid look on his face. âYou know, your long legs really give you an unfair advantage here.âÂ
âDonât be a sore loser,â he chides, hot breath fanning the back of your already hot neck.Â
âDonât speak so soon, Harrington. Youâre the one whoâs gonna lose.âÂ
âRight hand, red,â Holly announces.Â
You lean back toward red, headbutting Steveâs side so you donât fall. He curls into position next, swaying until his back pocket is inches from your nose.Â
âOh my God, Steve. Get your butt out of my face!â Youâd shove him if you had an extra hand.Â
Holly giggles in that contagious way kids laugh, automatically pulling one from Steve.Â
âDonât make me laugh. If I go down, so are you,â he reminds you.Â
âUmm, left foot green,â Holly says.Â
Steve groans dramatically, whining. âWhat! Holly, thatâs impossible. Spin again.âÂ
She cackles, reminiscent of Queen Holly. âNope, you have to! Thatâs the rules!â
And somehow, you both make it to green without knocking each other over. But youâre getting distractedâ Steveâs hand has brushed your calf three times now and his shirt is loose, hanging off his chest in a way that gives you a clear view of his tummy. This might as well be sabotage. You tear your eyes away. You must focus. You didnât care much for winning before, but something about Steve brings out your competitive side.Â
âRight hand, green.âÂ
You bow your knee until itâs wedged uncomfortably into your ribcage so you can reach the green. Your thighs quickly begin to ache. You wonât last much longer in this position. Especially not when Steve arches over you like a human bridge, the zipper of his jeans tickling your back where your shirt has scrunched up.Â
He shakes his hair out of the way so he can see you, albeit upside down. His smile stretches wide, radiating pure, unfiltered joy. Heâs having the time of his life, and admittedly, so are you.Â
Your elbow juts out, nearly giving under the weight of his gaze alone. But you snap it back in place and practically beg Holly, âSpin.âÂ
âLeft foot blue!â
You and Steve lunge for the same blue circle. His sock slides against the tarp, leg extending much farther than heâs prepared for. His arm buckles, chest slamming down against your back. Your elbows give out immediately under the force of his weight, jaw slamming into the floor.Â
âShit, sorry! You okay?âÂ
A burst of laughter tumbles out of your mouth before you can answer. But maybe itâs an answer in itself. Your chin stings but you're fine. Better than fine, even.Â
As soon as Steve scrambles off of you, you flip onto your back. His eyes trickle down you in assessment, eyebrows knitting together, mouth twitching like it canât decide whether to frown or smile.Â
âIâm okay,â you manage, smiley and breathless.Â
âDid you hit your face?â
âJust my chin.âÂ
He reaches for your face with hesitant fingers. âSorry.â
You shake your head, bolstering his wrist as he cups your chin. âI definitely won.âÂ
And just like that, all his worry washes away. He pries your hand from his wrist, wrenching you up to sit. âTechnically, you hit the floor first.âÂ
You glance over to Holly for her professional refereeâs opinion but find sheâs no longer there. âWhereâsââ
âI found it!â she yells from the upstairs. What exactly she found, youâve no idea. But she comes stomping down the stairs not a minute later with a little box in her hands. Bandaids, you realize, as she dumps the contents on the twister mat beside you. âTheyâre Hello Kitty,â she says, stripping the paper backing off of one.Â
You let her little fingers stamp it to the curve of your chin. Itâs not bleeding, nor does it really hurt that bad, but the gesture is sweet enough to melt your heart. âThank you, Holly. Youâre so gentle. You should be a candy striper.âÂ
âI donât think Iâm old enough.â
âWhen youâre older then.â
Steve decides Twister is far too dangerous to keep playing, but Holly demands a game of Mouse Trap so it works out. Steve wins, despite you and Hollyâs strategic alliance halfway through. And by then, sheâs asked about dinner twice so you shelve the rest of the games and head up to the kitchen to decide together.Â
Holly hums into the freezer, âChicken nuggets⌠pizza rollsâ oh! Eggos, can we have Eggos?âÂ
Steve bites the inside of his cheek, peering over her, âWhy donât we cook something? We could have a fancy dinner. Like a dinner party.â
âCan we dress up?â
âSure,â he shrugs, flipping a pack of ground beef over.Â
âPasta?â you call from the pantry.
âOoh, yeah. Letâs do that.â
Holly sprints upstairs for a costume, much more interested in the party than the dinner. You pull a box of noodles and an unopened jar of sauce from the shelf while Steve grabs a pot from the cabinet and sticks it under the faucet.Â
âCareful. Stoveâs on,â you announce, flicking the dial on high.Â
Steve backs up from the sink slowly, water sloshing over the side of the pot when he bumps the table.Â
âSteve,â you chuckle, pulling a dish towel from the oven handle, âIt doesnât need to be that full.âÂ
âNo?âÂ
âNo, dump like, half of that out.âÂ
He nods, pouring some out and depositing the rest over the stove. âIâm gonna be honest, Iâve never made pasta before.â
âYeah, I couldâve guessed,â you quip, elbowing his side with the box of noodles in hand. âPour these in?â
He takes the box and gives it a good shake. âHow much?âÂ
âMaybe half? Little more?âÂ
He tips it over the water, snapping it back up when much more than half slides out. âOops.âÂ
âItâs okay.â You chuck a few stray pieces from the counter into the pot. âEveryoneâs getting seconds tonight. What do you like in your pasta?âÂ
âSauce?âÂ
The laugh fizzles out in your throat as you realize heâs not making a joke. âBesides sauce. Cheese? Meat? Spices?âÂ
âOh, uhh, Iâm not sure.â Steve scratches the back of his neck, hand retracting to fidget with the hem of his shirt. Heâs antsy, clearly nervous. Maybe embarrassed of his cooking knowledge, or rather, lack of it. Or perhaps afraid the pasta will end up something like the first set of grilled cheeses.Â
âWeâll keep it simple then. Holly probably wonât like it too fancy anyway.âÂ
Steve nervously watches the water bubble, foam climbing up the sides. âDo you like garlic bread? Saw some in the freezer.âÂ
You fish the box out and line a pan with three pieces. And with bread in the oven and the pasta starting to boil, you hop on the counter to wait. Â
âHow long does it take?â Steve asks.
âNot long.âÂ
You open the drawer beside your legs and find a big wooden spoon. Lucky guess. âHere. Stir.âÂ
His eyes follow the ladle, stirring with steady hands. Itâs a peaceful quiet, his focus unusually soft. Not the urgent, fate of his life kind of determination youâre used to seeing.Â
When itâs ready, you pinch the spoonâs neck, fingertips sweeping his for the half a second before he lets go. âNow we strain the water. Then we can add the sauce.âÂ
You find a strainer and plant it in the sink while Steve carries the pot over and pours. He sets it back on the stove, per your orders, and offers a hand when you struggle with the sauce lid.Â
He pins the jar against his chest, knuckles straining white in several attempts to twist the cap. But it pops off after a good shake, spraying sauce across your cheek, and spinning to the floor like a frisbee.Â
Steve freezes, gawking at your face with a stupid smile.Â
âSteve!â You scoop up a dish towel and smack his arm.Â
He throws his hands up and turns a shoulder to you. âI didnât mean to,â he snickers.Â
âDonât laugh! Iâll pour that whole jar over your head.âÂ
He doesnât buy your threat one bit, still laughing as he sets the jar down and steals the towel from your hands. âIâll get it. Sit still.âÂ
You summon the most menacing glare you can manage while suppressing a smile. He presses the towel to your cheek, thumb gliding across your skin as he wipes the sauce in one languid motion. His eyes flick down to your lips and youâre positive you arenât imagining it.Â
But youâre sweating and your stomach is churning andâ âThe pasta!â You ram into Steveâs shoulder trying to get by, rushing to turn the stove temperature down.Â
Steve whisks up behind you to see the food. âIs it burnt?âÂ
âNo, no. It should be fine.â You scrape the ladle under the bottom layer of noodles. âPass me the sauce?â
You avoid his eyes as you take it. Was he going to kiss you? Maybe just thinking about it? Or perhaps there was just sauce near your mouth and youâre spiraling over absolutely nothing.Â
You toss the food in sauce and divide it into three plates silently.Â
âHolly! Foodâs ready,â Steve shouts as he fixes the table with napkins and silverware.Â
She clambers down the steps in a tutu and a cardigan that youâre pretty sure is Nancyâs. Her smile drops. âWhere are your clothes?âÂ
Steve looks down at his sweats. âHolly, I think weâll justââ
âPlease, Stevie. Itâs a dinner party, remember?âÂ
His eyes dart to you, though you still canât bring yourself to look at him. âOne sec.â
He swings back into the kitchen wearing a tweed suit jacket, a silky, black one draped over his arm. His is a few sizes too big, shoulder pads drooping down his biceps, and the sleeves swallowing his hands. He pushes the fabric up his elbows to hand you the other jacket. âFor you.âÂ
âThanks,â you deadpan. It comes off less sarcastic than you aim for.Â
Holly and Steve adopt similar grins as you slip the jacket on. âYou look dashing,â she compliments.Â
âVery,â Steve agrees, taking a seat beside you.Â
You spend the rest of dinner internally debating whether heâs flirting or just indulging in Hollyâs playful antics. The uncertainty makes your stomach flip, and suddenly you arenât so hungry anymore.Â
After the dinner party concludes, itâs Hollyâs suggestion to go for a walk. She wheels her bike out of the garage, fitted with a set of training wheels and a handlebar bursting with tinsel. A yawn rolls off her tongue as she launches down the driveway. It raises your hopes for a smoother bedtime tonight.Â
Even as the horizon melts into the Earth, the summer heat clings like a heavy hand. Trees project long shadows along the road, eating whatâs left of the sunlight. Bugs buzz and birds chirp, but a sleepy stillness is ubiquitous.Â
âWhat?â you ask suddenly, whipping your head to face Steve. Heâs drenched in gold, pale wisps of hair riding the breeze as he strolls.Â
âI didnât say anything.âÂ
âYouâre staring at me. I feel it.âÂ
âI wasnât,â he assures.Â
You blink at him. You canât decide whether to be annoyed at such an obvious lie or embarrassed by the truth.Â
He jogs ahead before youâve come up with something to say. Halfway to Holly, he shouts, âCome on, slowpoke!âÂ
It only takes one loop around the block for the heat to catch up. Holly complains incessantly about her helmet strap being too tight even after Steve fixes it and youâre itchy from sweat and mosquito bites. Steveâs, well, he might be the only content one. Happy even, guiding you home with a subtle bend to his lips and a soft glow tinting his cheeks.Â
Holly whines about having to take a bath, and while you might negotiate it another night, you can see the damp line down her back. But like you suspect, all grievances are forgotten the second she gets in. She likes playing in the bath, even if she forgets it. Itâs where she keeps her mermaid Barbie and her collection of rubber ducks, coincidentally all named Bob.Â
And while bath time might tend to feel like more of a chore as a babysitter, tonight is different. Itâs your last night at the Wheelers, and while thatâs not new information, it is startlingly sad. You arenât irritated when she splashes water in your eye or when she leaves a trail of it down the hall for you to clean. You canât be, not when you know youâll miss it.Â
Steve helps you tuck Holly into Nancyâs bed. After pinky swearing that youâll both return at your own bedtime, she drifts off easily. Youâre thankful, of course, but a piece of you secretly hoped to be needed longer. Â
âMustâve been tired,â Steve whispers, pushing slowly off the bed. âYou okay?âÂ
You nod, tearing your eyes from Holly to meet Steveâs. âKinda sad.â You shrug, murmuring, âStupid.âÂ
âItâs not.â He cups your shoulder and runs a warm hand up and down your arm. âCome on.âÂ
You take his hand and let him lead you across the hall and down the stairs. He pulls you onto the couch so you land pressed into the same cushion heâs on. âYâknow, babysitting Hollyâs a breeze compared to the usual shitheads. We donât have to worry about her taking my car keys or fighting interdimensional monsters or summoning a gate to hell,â he says.Â
A soft laugh parts your lips. âThink Holly will put in a good word for us with her parents?âÂ
âYou kidding? She loves us. Especially me,â he jokes. âHate to break it to you but Iâm definitely her favorite.âÂ
âNo, you are not. Shut up.âÂ
He catches your fist mid-punch, cradling your hand like itâs made of wet sand. His thumb crosses each divot between your fingers, stroking up and down your knuckle slowly. âIâm sure theyâll ask us to babysit her again at some point.â
You hum in agreement.Â
âBesides, we could expand our horizons. Thereâs like a million other children in Hawkins that need babysitting.âÂ
Your smile spills into your cheeks. âWe?âÂ
âYeah, I think we make a pretty damn good team. Donât you?âÂ
âI do, but⌠we donât have to limit our interactions to just babysitting, you know?âÂ
âWhat are you thinking? Dinner and a movie? Next weekend?â His eyes flick from your fingers to your faceâ to each eye, sweeping down the center of your nose, stopping right at your lips.Â
You turn away in an attempt to soothe your heart as it pounds up to your ears. âSmooth, Harrington.âÂ
He reels you back in gently by the arm, confidence shining through his smile.âWhat? Did I read this wrong?â He knows he didnât, heâs teasing you.Â
âNo,â you mumble, âYou didnât.âÂ
He leans in to whisper, âCan I kiss you then?âÂ
You nod, pushing into the soft press of his lips with your own. Heâs not hesitant, nor is he harsh. Steve knows how to kiss, that much is clear. He trades your hand for your cheek, gently tilting your face to the side as he pulls away.Â
Your eyes flutter open to a doting gaze. One that travels down the lines and slopes of your neck like theyâre made of candy. Steve plants a second kiss on your lips, though fleeting in comparison to the first. But he plants several more to make up for it, working his way in a Z down your cheek, across your jaw, and back down your neck. Theyâre quick, ticklish little pecks of affection. A sweetness if you ever knew it.Â
âSteve,â you admonish, though giggles betray your tone. The hands that frame his face glide gently down to his throat, your thumbs meeting at his Adam's apple. âWeâre babysitting.âÂ
âI know,â he says, kissing your lips for a third time. âJust had to get a few extra in there. For all the times I thought about kissing you this weekend.âÂ
âDonât say that.â
âWhy?â He laughs, bubbly like youâve surprised him. âItâs true. I thought about it all weekend.âÂ
You donât know why you askâ why you even thought of it at a time like thisâ but you question him, âWhat about Nance?âÂ
âWhat about her?âÂ
âYou donâtâŚâ you trail off, afraid to even speak the possibility into existence.Â
âWeâre done. We have been. For a lot longer than I was willing to admit,â he admits honestly.Â
âYeah, but do youââ
âI donât. Still have feelings for her. Not like that, anyway.âÂ
You meet his eyes, feeling a strange blend of emotions you canât quite name.
âIf you donât believe me, youâll just have to let me prove it to you,â he holds your gaze, warm with a sincerity that makes it hard to doubt him.Â
âI believe you.âÂ
You let Steve kiss you several more times on that couch. Heâs patient, deliberate, and more kind than you ever imagined heâd be. Itâs hard to understand why Nancy would ever let someone like that go.Â
áŻâ
On Monday morning, you blink awake first, the comforting weight of a hand thatâs not yours across your hip and another, much lighter one, at your belly. You turn over slowly, finding Steve and Holly wrapped around each other like ivy on trellis. You donât imagine many people look this pretty asleep. The comb of long lashes kissing the soft flush in his cheeks. The golden lather of sunrise in each wild swoop of hair. The way his lips part for a sigh cuter than you knew one could be.Â
He mumbles something unintelligible, sleep talk perhaps.Â
You whisper back anyway, âWhat?âÂ
Steve sighs, smearing his cheek against the pillow. âBeing a creeper.âÂ
âMe?âÂ
âMhmm.â One eye slowly unbinds itself from sleep. Steve adores the tight-lipped smile on your face, broad with an infatuation he forgot could be aimed at him. His hand twitches at your side.Â
âYou just look so pretty when you sleep,â you admit. Is it too soon to say such things?Â
His eye closes as he smiles, nosing into Hollyâs hair, selfishly keeping it to himself. You reach across her body to find it, swiping a loving finger across his lips when you do.Â
You stay in bed for as long as Holly will allowâ which is not very long after she wakes upâ but you donât mind. You watch fondly as Steve helps her brush her teeth and as she helps Steve toast and butter the Eggos. Like Steve, Hollyâs a good kid. Theyâre both helpers at heart.Â
And youâre sure to remind Mrs. Wheeler of that when she rings the house to let you know theyâre almost home. Hollyâs excitement quickly dwindles into sadness the moment she realizes you wonât be staying. But she uses it to bargain one final game of hide and seek before you go.Â
âCome on.â Steve drags you by the wrist, bustling upstairs to the bathroom. He throws the shower curtain aside and jumps in, offering his hand to help you after. You sit scrunched together, knee to knee on the porcelain floor, giggling like children.Â
âShhh,â you squeeze his kneecap. âYouâre gonna get us found.âÂ
He jostles your shoulder, mouth agape. âYouâre the one whoâs laughing!âÂ
âNo,â you insist, though the light in your eyes suggests otherwise. Curiosity sparks and the irrepressible urge to act on it wins. You lean in for a kiss, confirming thatâs all it takes to shut Steve up.Â
He tastes like maple syrup, loving with his lips as much as his hands. He pulls back for breath and returns for another peck, pressing into the corner of your mouth where your smile keeps drawing higher and higher.Â
âHard to kiss you when you're smiling.âÂ
âCanât help it,â you defend. âNever been so happy.âÂ
He softens like warm icing, a sweet and gooey mess in your arms. But the shake of the front door closing stiffens him.Â
âMommy!â you hear quickly after.Â
Steve scrambles up and over the lip of the tub, tugging you out with him. You follow him downstairs where Mrs. Wheeler swings Holly in her arms like sheâs much smaller than she really is. Mr. Wheeler steers a suitcase silently through the entryway.Â
âDid you have so much fun?â she asks Holly, peppering kisses across her temple. âOhh, I missed you!âÂ
Holly revels in the affection overload, bending backward to giggle at you and Steve.Â
Mrs. Wheeler grins. âHow was she?âÂ
âGreat, as always,â Steve assures. His cheeks are flushed, his hair mussedâ though you could chalk that up to bedhead, not the aftermath of your short-lived makeout session.
You nod, adding, âWe went swimming and to the park andââ
âIHOP!â Holly yells. âI got pancakes with chocolate chips and extra sprinkles!âÂ
âDid you? Sounds like you had a lot of fun.â Mrs. Wheeler plants Holly on her feet. âCan you give hugs? Say thank you for being such good babysitters?âÂ
Holly launches herself at Steve. He sends you a smirk over her shoulder, rocking her side to side in his embrace. You can just hear him say, I told you so.Â
But she offers the same enthusiasm and more for you, dragging you onto the floor for a proper goodbye hug. âI donât want you to go,â she pouts in your ear.Â
âWeâll come back. We can have playdates?âÂ
âCanât you just live in Nancyâs room? Sheâs never here anyway.âÂ
You canât help but laugh. âI wish I could,â you admit honestly.Â
She reluctantly loosens her grip on your shirt when you peel away.Â
Mrs. Wheeler sees you and Steve off with a warm smile. Holly darts through her motherâs legs for one final hug on the porch. You wave goodbye, the moment slipping into something bittersweet before Steve bumps his shoulder into yours, a playful grin softening the farewell.
You dawdle up to your car, wringing your hands together when you reach the door. âSo.â
âSo,â he parrots.Â
âThis weekend, right?âÂ
His smirk blooms into a full smile. âFriday? Pick you up at seven?âÂ
âOkay,â you nod.Â
âOkay,â he chuckles, clipping a hand around your jaw and leaning in.Â
You turn away so the kiss skips across the softest stretch of your cheek. âSteve.âÂ
His eyes never leave your face as he assures you, âTheyâre not looking.âÂ
âDonât be so sure.âÂ
Holly waves at you through the living room window, a smile as wide as her face. Steveâs hand falls down to his side and he takes a platonic step back. You both return her goodbye, but Holly stays, her little hand pressed to the glass.Â
âThink sheâll tell?â Steve asks, not an ounce of worry in his tone.Â
You shrug, tugging him back in by the waist for a proper kiss. âI guess it wouldn't be the end of the world.âÂ
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Seeing Pink

Pairing: Joel Miller x Reader
Summary: Joel steals more of your innocence every day. Fortunately, you love to give as much as he loves to take.
Warnings: 18+. DD/LGâDONâT LIKE IT, DONâT READ IT. This depicts two consenting adults in a fictional setting! Freeuse & somnophilia with a pre-negotiated safeword. Unprotected p-in-v/a. Soft dom!Joel. Corruption kink (!!) Reading a Regency novel while fuckingâŚfor the culture.
Note: ***Spoilers*** for Jane Austenâs Emma. The book has been out for 208 years, but I wanted to give yâall a heads-up.
Word count: 4.4k
You woke with your pants around your ankles.
You donât remember falling asleep that way.
In fact, youâd always taken great pains to follow the rules: âDonât play while daddyâs away,â âClothes on if heâs gone.â So to find yourself sprawled out on the couch, just as youâd been when you dozed off waiting for him to come homeâsans bottomsâwas unnerving, to say the least. Glancing at your hand, you found your book was still in it. Only the words were harder to read now that your eyes were bleary and the letters were allâŚjumpy. Jumping?
Bouncing.
As your mind made the slow, steady descent back into your body, you sensed you were rocking back and forth.
Someone was rocking you with the force of his thrusts.
âDaddy!â you gasped, nose half-buried in a cushion.
You were lying face-down on the old, weathered sofa, and you could feel your old, weathered man behind you. Inside you. Stuffing that tight, shiny space between your legs as he straddled your hips from above. His own hips made a soft click, click, click with every piston of his weary bones. He said itâd been that way since the day heâd turned forty. You just mightâve giggled if the sound hadnât been paired with the chorus of a soft, wet, and sticky-sweet pleasure you knew to be coming from you.
The head of his dick then carved a delectable path to the center of you, like heâd made it himself. You whimpered.
ââMâsorry to wake ya, bug.â
You could hear his voice was strained.
Daddy never got a head start on playtime unless his day had been particularly roughâunless he really needed it.
Unless he saw pink in your hair, and knew this was okay.
It was your own, secret language, of course. A silly idea brought to fruition by an even sillier admission: when Joel had told you one night that there were times he just wanted to use your body to feel good. When his big one had been at work for hours, and you were so invested in your book and just couldnât bear looking away, or youâd fallen asleepâwould it be alright if daddy put himself inside you for a little while then? Iâll be nice and gentle.
The code was a pink satin bow.
When you tied that ribbon in your hair, Joel knew you were giving him permission to use you as he pleased.
And then there were other ways to make sure he only did what you wanted to do, even in this special âsceneâ; if it ever got to be too much, or you just didnât want him to be in you or on you anymore, all you had to say was âcinnamonâ and your playtime stopped right there. Joel made sure of it every time, and he didnât make you wait.
When youâd fastened the satin in your hair that night before nestling down to read, you hadnât expected him to be taking you up on it, really. Heâd been so tired lately.
âItâs alright,â you told him, while the air was knocked out of your body through the place he kept pounding you.
âI-I missed you, daddy.â You added, a bit sheepish.
At thatâor perhaps just feeling your walls pulse around himâJoel groaned. He placed a broad, callused palm over your spine and held you steady while he fucked you.
âI missed youâŚmore, sweet girl.â And it sounded like a confession. The smallest sliver of an apology: âI know I havenât been here as much as Iâd like to beâIâm sorry.â
Youâd accept that attempt at making amends, and any other kind Joel would try to proffer, in a position like this. With his hand on your hip and the small of your back, wet member gliding back and forth between your folds, you felt useful to him. His sweet girl. No better thing to be.
Him filling you, and then you, in turn, filling the whole living room with your soft, staccato whines. So nice.
So kind of him to spend his days toiling in the heat to put a roof over your head, a book in your hand, and the silkiest, comfiest pyjamas that money could buyâpooling around your ankles now, but you didnât mind.
You dropped the novel so you could use your hands. Try to lower your touch to the curve of your cheeks, then spread yourself open for his eyes to drink you in: your tight, dripping hole getting stretched around his cock.
That was what youâd wanted to do, anyway. What Joel liked to see, ostensibly. But the second your fingers lifted from the book, he tightened his grip and shook his head.
âKeep readinâ, baby. Looks like youâre close to the end.â
You didnât know what to say. His observation was correct; you were ten pages shy of completing Emmaâbut why finish now? Why read when he was right here? If you ever spread your legs while you read it was because you were too engrossed in the plot, and Joel needed release. It was rare he made the suggestion himself.
As if to answer your questions, he wedged his cock even deeper. Confirming his wants with a gentle authority:
âYou do like your book, donât you, sweet pea?â
Heâd bought it just weeks ago. You nodded, emphatic.
âIâ I do, daddy! I do. I justâŚâ you trailed off, trying to find the right words while his cock made you dizzy with pleasure, âJustâŚlike you better, is all. Wanna feel you.â
You suspected that would work. From the rhythm of his hips, you guessed heâd be likely to assent at any second.
Then he didnât.
Joel picked the book up and pushed it back to you.
âYou can feel me just fine with your eyes on the paper. You did say you wanted to read to be more like aâŚ?â
Uh.
Your brain blanked.
Then you remembered.
âLike a big girl,â you said, in a breath.
Those had been your words. Hardly of note to you now, with your cunt so happily occupied, but ones that Joel wasnât ready to dispense with yet. Not when youâd been so eager to read these last weeks, to try proving yourself.
You braced your knees against the leather. Tried to shift yourself slightly while Joel kept knocking you back, again and again, with his balls slapping hard against your rear.
Then he slowed, and lowered himself, and came to rest with half his weight blanketing your soft, prone body and his face closer to yours. He kissed the shell of your ear.
âYou do wanna get fucked like a big girl, donât ya, baby?â
And he drove his cock in all the way down to the hilt.
You felt him in your tummy. Your fingers trembled as you reached for the book again and tried to nod your head.
This was a game you liked. An angle Joel loved. A dynamic between you two that turned your insides to syrup and your mind a soft, compliant puddle. Heâd shown you what kind of treatment big girls get, and you felt your body wilt with the idea. Joel was laying overtop you now, hips rutting mindlessly against your ass and his arms sliding under you. Grazing the skin and feeling your breasts and telling you again, âYou can show me, baby. No need to be shy. Daddyâs right here. Youâre alright.â
Now it wasnât so much the command which compelled you but the praise in that sweet Texan drawl. The patience. You could feel him stiff and hard and aching, but he was disciplined enough to waitâlet you take your own pace now and show him, in your own special way.
You opened your book to the last page youâd read. Joel stroked your hair, and he kissed the edge of your cheek.
âYouâve made it so far, baby,â he said, admiringly, âBarely been two weeks and youâve already finished it, nearly.â
You nodded. You let him play with your hair and graze your soft skin with his lips, and when his hips had stilled, you tried not to betray your disappointment. Daddy just wanted to see you could behaveâyou definitely could.
Even if all you wanted him to do was hold your body to his and fuck you senseless, make you cry and whine and squeeze all down his big, leaking cock while you came for him, you could stay calm. Good girls always did.
Big girls knew how to listen, and when to hold still.
âI like itâŚlike itâ a lot,â you told him, and you knew he knew there was more to those words than just the book.
With his hands still underneath you, Joel propped you up to rest more comfortably against a pillow. He slid one hand down your tummy and in between your legs, while the other kept squeezing your breastâtweaking the pebbled nub between forefinger and thumb and feeling you squirm under his touch. You gripped your book tight.
âKeep readinâ, sweet pea,â he encouraged, words gentle, âIâd hate to be the oneâŚdistractinâ you from all the fun.â
How he could be so calm while talking such nonsense was beyond you. Maybe heâd grinned, too. You didnât have the strength to peek behind you while his index started rubbing between your folds, and your walls clenched tighter. You wanted to wriggle your hips for friction, but as it was, you knew what you had to do.
You had to try.
At first you read a couple words. A short fragment of a sentence. You yearned to get more, really digest what the passage was attempting to conveyâa friend of Emmaâs getting engaged, as it wasâbut prospects were poor. Joel kissed your neck and toyed with your wetness and made you want to whine from all the tension within.
His cock was nestled deep. The smooth, bulbous head had found reprieve near the cusp of your cervix, and with every flick of his finger, it was like you could feel him sinking deeper. Kissing the most intimate parts of you while you had only to breathe. And think. And try to read.
âLearninâ a lot?â Joel hummed in your ear.
You bit your lip and nodded. He knew you were full of it.
Your legs were now trembling around his hand and your eyes hadnât moved so much as an inch across the page.
âEnjoyinâ yourself?â he pressed.
âIâ Iâ yeah. Yeah,â you whimpered.
âWhatâs been your favorite part to read?â
Not this one, thatâs for sure. You swallowed.
âWâ WhenâŚâ Again, your mind was wiped of all memory.
âWhenâŚâ
His index drew a slick, pretty lemniscate on your clit, and you wanted to cry. But you had to keep trying. For him.
âWhenâ when Frank finally shows up,â you huffed.
âFrank who?â
âFrank Churchill. HeâsâŚEmmaâs old governessâs stepson. He visits for a little, and then Mr. Knightley gets jealous.â
You were out of breath. Joel was trying his best not to smile behind your back, but you could feel him nowâthere, and between your legs, making speech a struggle.
âWhoâs he?â
The man sounded like a father with all his sweet and calm curiosity. Like he wasnât balls deep in your heat.
âOld family friend. But heâŚheâs got a thing for Emma.â
âOh?â
âYeahââ And you had to pause to swallow. Suck in a breath when Joel nosed your cheek and told you softly, âDoinâ so good for meâ ââbut he doesnât know it at first.â
You felt encouraged by Joelâs words. Enlivened by the pulse of his cock inside you, and pushed toward release with every circuit of his fingers. He was treating you well, making sure it felt good no matter how much he teased.
And then he reached up, leaving your poor little clit to throb all on its own. Something caught between a moan and a pleaââJoe-elââbubbled deep in your throat. But Joel was too focused on the book in your hand; he had a wet, sticky finger flipping the page in a second. Heâd turned it back, to a passage you had marked in pink.
The sight of the line youâd highlighted made your cheeks heat instantly. That made you want to wriggle away.
Joel held you closer.
âWhyâd you mark this, honey?â
Again with the loving, probing tone. You couldnât bear the thought of explaining your reasoning here. Not now.
But he urged you to read it. Pulled your body nearer to his and kissed the side of your head, while his body blanketed yours and his words were spoken as gentle as ever. He wanted to know what it meant. Why youâd marked it in pink, no less. No diffidence would do.
You balked. Blinked. Remembered that big girls listened.
âIf I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more.â
And when you said it, it almost felt like telling him yourself. Your grip loosened from the book as soon as the words came out of your mouth, leaving Joel to hold it
âKnightley said that to Emma, did he?â
His eyes were scanning the page, eyes alight and lips smiling. From between your legs, you felt full, and yet nothing was more hollow or harrowing than presently hearing this man chuckle at the words that had made your heart swell in your chest that night. It felt belittling.
And not in the way you liked. Joel reached for your chin to tilt your face to him, and when you mumbled a short âyesâ to his question, he softened his hold. He hummed.
âIâm sorry, baby. âMâsorry. Knightleyâs sweet, isnât he?â
He nudged your cheek with his nose.
âUh-hm,â you said, low. Ignoring the urge to be mature.
âSweeterân daddy?â
âMaybe.â
Joel grinned again. He shifted his weight. You were just about to tilt your head more, when he sat up completely. You felt his pelvis prod the flesh of your ass, and he left your book to you. He readjusted his grip on your hip in his hand while he used the other to knead your skin.
You keened at the change of angleâfeeling the friction between the coarse grey hairs at the base of his tummy and the swell of your bottom, the brush of his manhood.
âYeah? He treat Emma like this?â
And, to punctuate the question, Joel withdrew himself to the tip and slammed back in. He groaned with pleasure.
âDaddy,â you hissed, and he started sawing back and forth, gently like before, âHe justâŚIâ Iâ I donât know.â
â400 pages in and they still havenât fucked?â
âDaddy!â
âWhat?â
âThey donât do that. Mr. Knightley is aâŚaâŚgentleman.â
His thrusts were shaking you again, and you struggled to hold your book. Joel kept his motions shallow. Teasing.
âIs daddy not a gentleman when he does this to you?â
You couldâve laughed at that question. You did, a little bit.
âPlenty gentleman-ly, daddy,â you giggled, âPlenty.â
âGood,â Joel returned, swift.
Then, without warning or ceremony, he spit in his hand. He slicked his fingers with the stuff and sank his index and middle fingers between your cheeksâright above the hole he was stretching with his cockâand pressed.
You jumped, still getting fucked face-down, but now with the tips of Joelâs fingers circling a tiny ring of muscles.
His favorite to tease you with, of late. He leaned in.
âEven here?â
But before you could respond, and while thoughts of love, betrothals, and Georgian-era decorum were still floating through your mind, you felt one finger breach your hole. As his cock continued to slide messily, greedily inside your cunt, you let out a whine.
âDa-a-ddy.â
He knew what it would do to you. What it always did. Particularly when he was taking you from behind and telling you sweet and dirty things. Making you feel it.
You hardly knew what else to do but hold your book to your chest and purse your lips, sensing a familiar sting.
âDid men like him do this to sweet little girls like you?â
âIâ Iââ
âOr is that just daddy?â He pushed the finger deeper.
Your tender, yet-empty hole sucked him in like a dream. You almost couldnât believe how quickly you spread for him, having only gotten touched in that new, precious place with just the tip of his thumb before. It was tight.
And tighter still, with Joelâs cock gliding in and out of your cunt and his finger sinking further in a hole heâd never fucked. You pressed your cheek to the couch.
âGo on,â Joel urged, gentle, âUse your words.â
You tried. You parted your lips and squeezed a nearby pillow for support, and Joel even pushed your book down flat on the sofa in front of you so you could see the words more clearly. Focus on those instead of his finger.
He pushed in to the second knuckle, and you whined.
Your mind was blanking again. You had only to say:
âHeâsâŚlike you, daddy. Knightleyâs kindaâŚlike you.â
Joel didnât hamper the path of his index, but he did slow his hips. He let them peter off to only the gentlest of thrusts, while the motions of his finger flowed like a white-hot stream between your legs. Petting that tender little ring while diving in and out, swiftly, and teasing.
He stoked the flames of desire inside you with each new touch. He flattened his one free hand beside your book, anchoring himself a comfortable height above, and while you tried stealing a glance behind you, he peered down. Readingâor appearing to, anywayâas he fucked one hole with a gentle resolve and caressed the other. Youâd never felt more full, or fucking insane to feel more of him.
Before you could even venture to beg, though, Joel said:
âHow are we alike, honey? Tell me.â
You almost wanted to cry as his finger wiggled deeper. You had to answer, though. Recollect as best you could.
Stammering only the slightest bit: âHeâs, uh, oâ older.â
âOlder?â
You could feel the smile start to stretch again overhead.
âYeah. Emmaâs twenty-one and heâsâŚa-almost forty.â
Presently, Joelâs smile morphed into a chuckle. Low.
âAlmost forty? That must make me a fuckinâ fossil, then.â
âNo!â you squeaked. And just when you had, Joelâs finger breached your hole straight down to the last knuckle. He let it rest while you squirmed, then dragged it out a little.
âI onlyââ You quickly tried resuming, but your brain was fried. Your body was limp, and all you could feel, or think, was the slow, sweet, and wet sensation tingling between your cheeks as Joel pushed his thick finger in and out, ââonly meant heâs a bit moreâŚexperiencedâŚthan her. Knows her better than just about anyone, and heâ heââ
Made you think of Joel. Made you dream of your own fifty-something lover situated amidst a world more than two centuries old, rousing the most romantic notions. You felt silly. You wanted to bury your face in your hands, were it not for the fear that your cheeks might sear them.
It didnât matter, at length. Your sweet old man ensured it.
ââSâokay, little bug. Itâs alright. Makes me glad to think youâre thinkinâ of me while you read,â he told you, calm.
He stroked your hair. He stalled his hips, momentarily. And just when you thought you mightâve mustered the courage to speak to him yourself, you heard him again.
Except it wasnât a word you heardâjust a wet noise.
A glob of spit hitting the small of your back and sliding down, crawling slow between your cheeks for Joelâs warm, waiting finger. He withdrew the digit, and then he smeared his saliva all over the place heâd pried you open. Likely knowing youâd be too stunned to talk, he went on.
He worked his finger back in, now coated with a sheen of spit: âAlways readinââŚfeelinâ new things, ainât ya, baby?â
You nodded, and you scarcely even knew it.
âOnly natural it happens like that,â Joel assured you, soft, âDaddy teaches, and you learnâŚand learnâŚlike a big girl.â
With each new word he wanted to drive home, he pushed his finger in. Dragged it out. Curled it gently, as though beckoning you to him, then watched you rut your hips at the feeling of needing more. He sucked a breath through his teeth when he felt you ooze more, warm.
Nectar trickled down his length while your lips above were drooling, too. Your face was smushed to the cushion below, and your hips were tilted up, desperate.
âDaddypleasejustfuckitâfuckânow,â you cried out.
In all the time youâd been together, Joel had never heard you beg like that. The sound was gratifying to his ears, and his cock grew even stiffer inside you. Just barely checking himself, he moved his other hand to your hip.
Squeezing.
Trying to chide your lack of manners, your swearing.
âThat ainât how you ask daddy nicely, little ladyââ
âJust make it full like my pussy, daddy, please.â
Though it was clear you knew better than to interrupt the man mid-sentence, you had used your âplease,â at least. Joel was strong, unyielding, in just about every place but the one between your thighsâand with words like those, he had only a moment before his primal drive kicked in and he wouldnât be able to say no after that, for anything.
He would try to sound stern. Gruff, even. Mumbling something or other about how you had to be sweet to get this dick where you needed it, but the truth was that Joel couldnât wait much longer for you, either. He caved.
He withdrew his finger, quick. Grabbed your hips. Spit.
Spit again. Smeared again. Felt perfectly depraved making this mess, but you seemed to like it all the same.
âNeed daddy to teach you that, too?â he asked, hasty.
âYes. Yes. Yes,â you answered, helpless.
âYeah? Teach you how to take it up the ass?â
âPlease, daddy.â
âDirty fuckinâ girl.â
He smacked your ass, just before poising his tip where his finger had been. He wouldâve liked to drag it out. But as it was, the old man was probably four pumps shy of blowing his load; you were all but melted on the sofa.
Joel couldnât deny it drove him out of his fucking mind to see you like that. Legs spread, slit wet, eyes glossy and listless and so wholly bereft of any other idea in the world but the need for him. It made him sick. He loved you so much. And heâd show you, in ways that any mentor worth his weight in salt was apt to do: he let you feel it.
Slowly, at first. Just the tip made you flinch, and your teeth grit together. Joel found your hand and held it.
âNice and slowâyouâre doinâ so good,â he said.
Even if you didnât feel like you were in the moment, he always made sure to let you know how much he liked it. How nice you felt stretched for him, how good you took it, and how he had no doubts his girl was made for this.
âMade for me,â he added gently, feeding you some more.
And when he surmised from your soft, strangled sounds that this change was a lot, breaths fast, he knew better than to press again. He pulled out and turned you over.
He had your legs over his shoulders in no time at all and, afforded this new view, was delighted to find a trace of a smile still on your lips. He kissed them. Then he tried to make it fit again. He felt you tremble and held you closer.
âThatâs itâthatâs my girlâalmost there.â
âCâmon baby, just a little bit more to go.â
When you keened at the stretch over halfway through, he brushed the hair from your face and kissed your forehead
âI know. I know. Keep goinâ, little one. I know.â
Like he knew what to say to get you the wettest you could be. Your eyes winced, and your cunt dripped a dizzying amountâleaking liquid heat down your slit to coat Joelâs tummy, his overgrowth of hair, and your aching hole, of course. The whole thing was taking you out of yourself with every thrust, and your fingers were laced tight in his. Letting him shower you with kisses.
âDaddyâs so mean for doinâ this, isnât he?â
He was teasing again, nipping at the hinge of your jaw and pressing kiss after kiss while he stuffed you full. Your eyes were ablaze and fucked-out of their mind, as it was, but still, you managed to smile when he spoke it so soft.
âNotâ not mean at all, daddy.â
âYou sure?â
Joel wedged himself in to the hilt and grinned back.
You mightâve whined, but you felt too full. Euphoric.
âUh-huh,â you breathed, head reeling, âI like it.â
âHow much?â
Your gut clenched with the punch of his thrusts. Lids fluttered as Joel trailed his tongue up your cheekâanother mindless, feral tendency he had close to climax. He held your face and fucked you tender as ever, and when the feeling in your tummy grew and grew and almost bloomed, he slipped his tongue in your mouth. Groaning when your teeth met the muscle and bit it.
âI love it, Joel,â you corrected, panting against him.
He couldâve spanked you for saying his nameâbreaking character was your favorite way to get punishedâbut, at present, the man didnât have the strength to do a thing. He just nodded, and grinned, and licked into your mouth and drove his dick so far up your body that he couldâve sworn heâd grazed your lungs. You kissed him again.
âI love youââ he groaned.
âI know, daddy,â you smiled.
ââso much.â
âI love you more.â
He spilled his warm, thick seed inside. You came undone. Your bodies melded and rutted together in a few last shuddering bursts, and with Joel pinning you down, kissing you more, guiding your lips against his own in a wanton tumult, you felt itâcontentment. Full pleasure.
Another soft, dizzying, cum-drenched lesson with daddy.
You had to bite your lip to keep from laughing when Joel reached for you next, expression all smug and beaming.
Licking the sweat off your cheek like the freak he was.
âDid I ever tell you pink is my favorite fucking color?â
anyway this was my irl reaction to reading That Line for the first time:

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pairing: lando norris x best friend!reader
summary: when plans with your family fall through at the last minute, lando invites you to come home with him for the holidays. (3.8k)
a/n: the big finale!!! lando is so best friends to lovers coded, i couldnât resist. does it snow in the uk in december, probably not but itâs for the plot so bear with me pls <3 happy holidays everyone!!



âYeah, of course. Yes, mum, I understand. No, Iâll be fine, I promise. Okay. Okay, I love you too. Cheers, see you when you get back.âÂ
You end the call with a heavy sigh, tossing your phone away from you on the sofa.
That was your mum on the phone, telling you that her and your father wouldnât be home for Christmas this year. Youâd planned on going home to celebrate with them like you always do, but for the first time ever in your life, it looked like you were going to be spending Christmas alone.Â
It was bound to happen sometime in your life, really. Youâre an adult now, still trying to find your place and your people in this world.Â
Speaking of your people, Lando has just made his way into McLaren hospitality, head on a swivel until his eyes land on you. He takes notice of your downtrodden demeanor immediately, marches his way over to where you are with gusto and plops down next to you, bumping his shoulder against yours.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â He asks bluntly, dark brows furrowed in concern.Â
You inhale a deep breath, forcing a smile onto your face to respond. âNothing. How was testing?âÂ
âFine. Seriously, whatâs going on? Why do you look so sad?â He demands, but not unkindly or rudely. Just simply how Lando is with you, direct and to the point. Itâs one of many ways he is around those he cares for.Â
âI was planning on going home to spend Christmas with my family, but my parents arenât going to make it home in time,â You confess. Your finger picks at the loose thread of your sweater sleeve, a welcome distraction from the lump threatening to form in your throat.Â
Lando frowns. âOh. Mâsorry to hear that. That sucks.âÂ
âYeah. Looks like Iâll be spending the holidays on my own this year.â
âWhat? No, you canât spend Christmas alone. That sounds so sad.âÂ
âIâll be fine, Lando,â You chuckle, patting his knee. It does indeed sound sad, but you wonât have Lando all worried about you when he should be celebrating with his loved ones. Heâs got a lot to celebrate this year, and you donât want your situation to take away from any of it. âDonât worry about it.âÂ
âCome spend Christmas with me.âÂ
For a moment, youâre at a loss for words. Lando is one of your best friends, sure, but joining him for something like this seems too imposing of you. Despite being close with his family, you canât do this to them so last minute. After a long year, this is their time with Lando.Â
You shake your head immediately, wrinkling your nose. âNo way. I wouldnât want to barge in on your family time.â
âCâmon, you wouldnât be! My family loves you.â He shrugs. âI mean, youâre basically an honorary Norris already at this point, and I think my sisters might love you more than they love me.âÂ
That makes you laugh. âShut up, no they donât!âÂ
âUh, yeah they do.âÂ
âOkay, maybe they do. Iâm just that easy to love.âÂ
âYeah, you are,â He says, smiling softly. Your head cocks to the side at the pure warmth in his tone, and it seems to make him snap out of whatever trance heâs in, because he gives his head a subtle shake. âSeriously, come home with me. Itâll be fun. Way more fun than just sitting around at home watching those boring home improvement shows you seem to like so much.âÂ
âHey! Those shows are fun!â You huff, swatting him on the thigh.Â
âSure they are,â He says, still unbelieving. âSo what do you say? Christmas with the Norrises, how âbout it?âÂ
You let out a breathy chuckle, nodding. âOkay. Yeah, that sounds lovely.âÂ
âMint! Iâll go let my mum know.â He beams, bouncing to his feet. âBetter let Flo and Cisca know too, theyâd kill me if I brought you round and didn't tell them ahead of time.âÂ
âLando?â You call after him. He whirls around with an arched brow, phone already in hand. âThank you.âÂ
âOf course. Iâd never let you spend the holidays alone.â Â
Looks like this Christmas might not be so bad after all.Â
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The first thing you hear when you climb out of the car at Landoâs familyâs house is a shout of your name.Â
Before you can even register who might be calling you, a little body crashes into your legs, arms wrapping around your knees tightly. Now you know who it is, and you grin.Â
âWhy hello, miss Mila!â You chirp, kneeling down to be at her level. She giggles loudly at the finger you boop against her nose, throwing her arms around your neck as best she can, and you lift her up onto your hip. âAre you excited for Christmas?âÂ
âChristmas!â She cheers. Lando wanders over to the two of you from the boot of the car at that moment, and the second Mila spots him, she grins even wider than youâd thought was possible. âLala!!!â She squeals, reaching out for him.Â
Lando takes her into his arms, swings her around a little bit, beaming brightly at the peals of laughter that escape her with every swing. âMy goodness, youâve grown! You might be almost as big as me now!âÂ
Landoâs brother, Oliver, emerges from around the house now with his other daughter nestled in his arms, raising his free hand in greeting as he makes his way over.Â
âGuess my brother finally gathered the nerve,â He says cheerfully, clapping Lando on the back. Lando not-so-subtly steps on Oliverâs foot, garnering a hiss of pain from the older Norris. âToâŚmake it home when itâs still bright out! Yeah, he usually doesnât come around til the girls have gone off to bed.âÂ
âItâs nice to see you too, Oliver,â You chuckle, pushing aside your confusion as you give a small wave to the toddler in her fatherâs arms. She waves back shyly. âThanks for letting me join you guys this year.âÂ
âPlease, youâre welcome here anytime,â Oliver replies, sounding more than sincere. âCâmon, letâs head inside. Mum and everyoneâll be stoked to see you.âÂ
Mila wriggles out of Landoâs arms to come hold your hand, dragging you towards the house excitedly. You don't notice Lando and Oliver dropping back, nor the hushed conversation they have that is definitely about you.Â
Much like both boys have said, the rest of their family welcomes you with open arms.
His parents tell you how good it is to see you again, and that theyâre happy youâd decided to come home with Lando, Flo and Cisca glue themselves to your side immediately to catch up with you, even little Athena starts to warm up to you the longer she watches her older sister play with you.Â
You feel right at home with all of them like you always do, and it makes you start to forget about spending your first Christmas without your own family. Though, in a way, Landoâs family is starting to feel like yours too.Â
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Itâs Christmas Eve and you canât sleep. Youâve been at Landoâs house a few days now and everythingâs been greatâthe food, the company. Lando.Â
Youâre used to him being a little forward with his affections towards others, because thatâs just the way he is. So when he pulls your legs over his lap while youâre watching a holiday film with the whole family, or rests his head on your shoulder during Monopoly, you donât think anything of it at first. He likes cozying up to friends and being close to them. But as the days go on, it starts to feel different this time.Â
At first you just assume itâs because he doesnât want you to feel awkward, but then you catch him staring at you a few times in a way you can only describe as pure fondness. While you're on the sofa cuddled up with Mila and Athena watching one of their shows. As you're helping Cisca figure out what to wear for her next date with her boyfriend, or helping his mum in the kitchen.Â
It could be platonic, but it feels a little too intimate to be so.Â
You donât want to think too much into it, though. It wouldnât do you any good to get your hopes up about the possibility of something more with Lando when it could just be all in your head.Â
Sitting up in bed, you scrub your hands over your face. Too many thoughts run their way through your brain for you to fall back asleep, no matter how tired you may be. You glance out the window beside you, and suddenly your attention is captured at the scene outside.Â
Itâs snowing.Â
Sure, itâs an ungodly late hour, but seeing snow makes you want to go outside. Doing your absolute best not to wake anyone up as you swing yourself out of bed and creep down the hallway, you make your way down the corridor to Landoâs bedroom.Â
You knock on his door quietly, listening for anything that could give away whether or not Lando was up. For a few seconds, there isnât a sound. Then you hear the clacking of a keyboard and the faint sound of him talking, and you know heâs awake. He probably didnât hear you knock.Â
Pushing open the door slowly, you pad into the room to see him slouched over in his gaming chair with his back towards you.
âYeah, mate, Iâm gonna tell herâno, Iâm not! Fuck off,â He says. Thereâs a lengthy pauseâwhoever heâs on call with is talking, you assume. âIâm justâIâm waiting for the right time. Like, Iâll know when it comes, wonât I?âÂ
Your heart gives an involuntary pang in your chest and you sigh, having already had enough eavesdropping on this conversation.Â
You pad towards Lando, going for a gentle tap on the shoulder. Your hand just barely touches his arm, but he jumps about a foot in the air, flinching so hard you think the poor boy mightâve given himself whiplash.
âJesus! What theâdonât sneak up on me like that!â He yelps, pushing one side of his headphones above his ear. On the screen, you can see heâs playing Tarkov again. Alway playing Tarkov instead of sleeping, that boy.Â
This time, it works out for you. Now you can drag out into the snow with you. Not that you werenât going to do it anyways even if he was asleep.
âYou couldnât hear me! What was I supposed to do?â You huff. Squinting at the other username on screen, you smile, pushing into Landoâs space to reach his microphone. âIs that Max? Hi, Max!âÂ
Landoâs voice sounds a bit strangled when he relays Maxâs response a few moments later. âHe says hi.âÂ
âWhat else did he say?âÂ
âWhat? Nothing,â He replies quickly, swallowing hard. âWhy?âÂ
âThat was such a long pause, thereâs no way he just said hi.âÂ
âWell, he did, soâŚitâs whatever. Whatâs, uh, whatâs up? Everything okay?âÂ
Now you remember what you came here for. Grinning, you bounce on the balls of your feet. âThereâs snow outside!âÂ
âNo way!â He says earnestly, cocking his head to the side. He abandons his game in favor of shuffling over to the window and peering outside, letting out a pleased little noise when he sees that it is indeed snowing out in the garden. âThatâs wicked.â Â
âWill you come outside with me?âÂ
He exhales sharply, giving an amused chuckle. âYeah, right. Iâm not going outside.âÂ
âItâll be fun!âÂ
âDonât see whatâs so fun about freezing my ass off in the cold,â He grumbles, but you can tell he just needs a little more convincing. You jut out your lower lip, giving him the pout of yours that he can never seem to withstand, and his resolve starts to crumble. âNo, donât do that. Stop that right now. Iâm not going outside with you at this time of night.âÂ
âPlease, Lan?â You plead, taking his face into your palms so he canât look away. For a split second, his gaze seems to flicker down to your lips, but before you can process the tiny movement, heâs squeezing his eyes shut.Â
âOh my god, fine,â He groans, shoulders sagging. You beam, wrapping your arms around him in a quick hug. âLet me go tell Max Iâm being held against my will and then we can go.â He crosses back over to his desk and mutters something into the microphone that you canât quite make out.Â
As youâre pulling on layers to guard yourselves from the cold, he pauses, turning to you with one shoe on. âYou didnât, erm, happen to hear anything when you came in to get me, did you?âÂ
âNo, why?âÂ
Youâre not sure why you choose to lie about what youâd overheard, something about Lando telling some girl something at the right time. He hadnât told you anything about having a crush on anyone, but then again, these past few weeks have been hectic.Â
âOh, nothing. Just wondering.â He pulls the front door open right then, suddenly seeming so eager to get outside despite his previous grievances. Something in his tone hints that it might not be as nothing as he says it is, but you wonât push.Â
You traipse out into the garden after him, making careful sure to close the door behind you so the cold doesnât seep in. Fresh powder crunches underfoot as you make your way further out.Â
The falling snow has already begun to coat everything out here in layers, and you drag your finger through it, smiling to yourself at the clean cut line it makes.
It feels like another world out here. In a life that is so often always hustle and bustle all the time, the quiet of this time of night in the countryside seems deafening, but in the best way. Peaceful can only begin to describe how you feel right now.Â
âWhy is it so fucking cold out here?â Lando grumbles, burrowing deeper into his three scarves. Along with the two jumpers and thick coat heâd shoved himself into before even stepping foot outside, he looks well freezing.
âDonât be such a grinch, Lan. Itâs snowing!âÂ
He scowls. âItâs freezing.âÂ
âCâmon, at least try to have some fun! Youâre killing my vibe, mate,â You huff, bending down to scoop up a loose handful of snow to chuck in his direction. It scatters into the air before it even makes it to him, but hey, at least heâs laughing now. You turn to say something else, but youâre immediately stopped in your tracks.Â
A snowball explodes against your forehead before you can say a thing, spraying bits of icy snow everywhere.Â
âOh fuck, Iâm sorry!â Lando yelps, nearly tripping on his own feet in his scramble towards you. Youâre too stunned by the snow dripping its way down your face to even register his words. âI wasnât aiming for your face, I swear! Are you okay?âÂ
You blink owlishly at him, at the concern and horror mixing in his expression as he takes you by the shoulders to check you out. He uses his teeth to pull off one glove, tossing it off to the side as he reaches to brush the snow from anywhere he can reach.
âFor a professional athlete, you really do have shit aim,â You huff, playful annoyance in your tone.Â
Landoâs teeth dig into his bottom lip, eyes crinkling happily at the corners as he giggles quietly. âI know. Sâterrible, innit? Good thing my job doesnât require me to do any throwing.âÂ
âGood thing,â You echo.Â
His palms cup the expanse of your cheeks, the pads of his thumbs brushing across your cold skin delicately, and heâs looking at you in that way again, the way that makes you feel like youâre the only other one in the world. Blue-green eyes like sea glass flit around your face, thick brows furrowing ever so slightly as he inches forward. Slowly, like heâs giving you a way out if what heâs about to do isnât what you want.Â
Youâre holding your breath as he gets closer, closer, closer, untilâ
Fireworks.Â
As if kissing your best friend isnât cliche enough, all you can describe of the feeling of his lips against yours is fireworks, bursting in your chest like little explosions.Â
âWaitââ You breathe, splaying a hand across Landoâs chest to push him back a bit before the kiss can go on any longer. Despite how much you want it to continue. He makes some sort of displeased noise out the back of his throat, pink lips turning down into a pout. âWhat about the other girl?âÂ
That gets him to pull back a little more, head cocking and nose scrunching in genuine confusion. âWhat other girl?âÂ
âI lied. I did hear you talking when I came into your room, you said something about waiting for the right time to tell her something. You canât be kissing me if you like someone else, Lando!â You exclaim incredulously.Â
He regards you blankly for a few seconds. Then he starts to laugh. Youâre trying to save his ass and heâs laughing at you. You scowl at him. âWhy the fuck are you laughing?âÂ
âOh! Oh, that was so good! That was gold, really,â He splutters, tears in his eyes. You swat indignantly at him and he holds up his hands in surrender, doing his best to catch his breath. âThere is no other girl, you muppet! I was talking about you.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
âYeah, oh. Guess this is the right time then, huh?â He says, chuckling nervously as he rubs at his reddened nose. âSo, here goes it. I think Iâm in love with you.âÂ
âWhy?â You ask, disbelieving. Itâs a blunt response, youâre fully aware, but you want to know.Â
âWhat dâyou mean, why? Have you met you?â He scoffs, like heâs astonished you even have the nerve to question him. âYouâre amazing. Youâre kind and funny and so smart, and you make people happyâyou make me happy, even when Iâve had the absolute shittiest day, I know everythingâll be fine as soon as you find me. You know what I need, even when I donât know what I need.âÂ
Youâre at a loss for words hearing all this now. How has Lando been in love with you all this time, with you none the wiser?Â
âWhyâve you never said anything?â You ask softly.
Lando smiles almost sadly, letting his hands drop back down to his sides. âYouâre one of my best friends. Iâd rather keep my mouth shut if telling you meant losing you. Losing what we have because you didnât feel the same way.âÂ
That, you understand. The fear of ruining your friendship with Lando is one of the reasons why youâd kept your feelings for him secret as well. So to both of you, it was better to ignore your feelings and stay this close than to let the other know and possibly lose one of the best things in your lives.Â
âWeâre idiots,â You sigh, closing your eyes.Â
âYouâre not an idiot,â He says immediately. Then he frowns. âWait, why would you be an idiot? I know I am, but why you?âÂ
You grab Lando by the collar of his puffy jacket, pulling him into a firm kiss. If heâs surprised, it only shows for a split second before heâs kissing you back fervently, drawing you flush against him by the hips. His nose against your cheek is much colder than before, but the warmth that spreads from your chest down to your toes is more than enough to remedy it.Â
âPlease tell me that means you do feel the same way,â He pants, looking entirely dazed when you pull away.Â
You raise an amused brow at him. âNo, I just kissed the living daylights out of you because I donât feel the same wayâwhat do you think?âÂ
âBest Christmas gift ever, is what I think.â He smiles warmly. Then he shivers, blowing out a sharp breath. âNow can we please go back inside? I canât feel my face anymore.âÂ
Once youâre inside and have shed your coats and shoes and anything else wet with snow, Lando nudges you towards the kitchen. âIâll make us some hot cocoa.â He murmurs, quiet so as to not wake anyone in the house. You pause, causing him to look back at you. âWhat?âÂ
âThe package kind or the real kind?âÂ
âWhat sort of question is that? The real kind, of course,â He snorts. âWith milk and everything.âÂ
âOh, you do love me!â You say gleefully.
Lando rolls his eyes playfully, giving your hand a firmer tug that has you sliding right in under his arm on your socked feet.
Despite all his moaning and groaning about being cold, heâs pleasantly warm, and you sigh, nuzzling in closer. He welcomes your closeness, dropping a kiss to the side of your head as he shuffles his way towards the pots and pans cupboard with you latched onto him, not even trying to wriggle out of your grasp.
It feels natural because youâve always been close. Though now, things have changed. Now, you can kiss him if you want to, instead of wondering what Lando would do if you did it. Youâre not just friends to each other anymore.Â
You press your lips against his quickly as heâs piling marshmallows on top of two mugs of hot cocoa, pulling back right after just to see his reaction to the impromptu kiss.
As expected, his mouth curves into a grin, dimples on full display. He flicks a marshmallow at you, and you reciprocate, tilting your chin up at him in challenge.
Soon enough, now youâre both chucking the tiny white sweets at each other, trying and failing to catch them into your mouths. The first of you to catch one of them is you, and you cheer, flinging your hands in the air.Â
âOh my god, shush, you! People are sleeping!â He breathes, lunging forward to press a hand over your mouth as youâre mid-shout.
Your eyes widen in comical realization and it makes him laugh, which makes you laugh. His hand falls from your face as you both fall apart in quiet giggles.Â
Youâre laughing because heâs laughing, heâs laughing because youâre laughing, and neither of you can stop until your sides hurt.Â
âCâmere,â He murmurs, stepping in close and sliding a hand around the back of your neck. His gaze flits all around your face, taking in the sight of you with eyes that twinkle with happiness even in the darkness of the kitchen. "Merry Christmas."
"Merry Christmas, Lan." You smile.
He kisses you then, long and sweet and with such gentleness that it makes your stomach do somersaults.Â
In the morning, youâll need to figure out how youâll play things with Landoâs family, and then everything after. But not now.
For now, youâll watch the snow fall outside while you snuggle up on the sofa with the boy you love and a mug of not so hot cocoa.Â
So maybe this Christmas hadnât gone exactly as youâd planned, but really, you arenât too sad about it anymore. You wouldnât have it any other way.Â
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Birds and Mice and Tea Parties 20
Masterpost
AN: B really was trying his best to protect Danny last time, he just was missing too much information. Poor Danny...
No reading over. We suffer and post at 2am.
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It had been two weeks since the last rogue Wayne visit.
Danny hadnât intended to keep track. There was no reason to. One visit from Cass and one from Tim did not a pattern make.
He tried to dismiss the observation. He had plenty to do; it wasnât like he didnât have friends. The bi-weekly trivia group would start meeting again soon. He also had a TTRGP session that did its best to meet around all that life threw at them. Tucker and him played online games when they could make schedules match and he and Sam talked when she was stateside. He even had regular lunches with coworkers!
Still, there had been something different about spending time with the family.
So no, Danny hadnât meant to keep track, but he still knew it had been two weeks and a day. But of course he wouldnât see the Waynes that often. Bruce was a very busy man and most of the children would have no reason to come to W.E. They had their own lives with work and school and being kids or young adults. The other visits had simply been flukes, as nice as the visits had been.
The subtle feeling of melancholy that had settled over him was ridiculous and he wasnât having it. His mood was simply off because of the whole Ancient thing. The way it was affecting his health didnât make feeling better any easier either.
Danny leaned against the wall of the elevator as he tried to catch his breath. He really shouldnât be walking right then to get lunch, not with the way that he felt, but he hadnât had anything at his place to make lunch with. He hadnât had the energy to go shopping. Heâd just go somewhere close instead of walking to anything on the other side of the park.
The natural reverb of the lobby assaulted Danny as he stepped out of the elevator.
He just had to get through the lobby, the street, the restaurant, back through the street, and through the lobby again. Then he could hide in his office and eat. Or he could hide in there and eat as long as Lucius didnât find him. Maybe even Lucius would give him a break today though.
âDr. FentonâŚ?â
Danny looked up from rubbing his neck.
It was Tim. Damian was at Timâs side, flanking him like a little guard dog and scowling. Tim was frowning too. Danny immediately wanted to fix whatever was wrong.
âLook at that, a pair of Waynes. How are you two?â
âThat is unimportant,â Damian said with a little sniff. âYou are clearly unwell. I assume you are returning to your apartment to rest?â
âOh, no, Iâm just going to go grab lunch. Iâm alright, really,â Danny said and put on the best smile he could muster.
Tim and Damian looked at each other in some sort of silence conversation. Danny started to edge away from them, thinking he could escape before they came to some sort of end. He really needed out of the lobby and its echoing sounds.
A startled shriek from the entry way cut off that plan.
Danny twisted to face the sound as he stepped in front of the kids.
Of course it was a rogue, what else would it be in Gotham? It was a rogue, but at least it was the Mad Hatter and his squad of likely mind controlled goons. He usually wasnât prone to death and destruction like some of the others were. But still, Danny felt his metaphorical hackles rising. The kids were here.
The kids were here and sure to draw the Mad Hatterâs attention if he saw them. Danny stepped slowly backwards, herding the kids away from the scene. At least they werenât far into the lobby.
âBack up to the stairwell,â Danny said lowly, trying to cast his voice behind him.
âTch. We canââ
âThe elevator, the back left one,â Tim said quietly but firmly over his brotherâs protest. âI have a code to take it to a safe room in the basement.â
âIf he kills the power,â Danny started.
âThe elevators have emergency back up.â
âThatâs not very good behavior for a tea party, is it?â the Matter Hatter shouted at someone.
Danny bit back a rising noise of anger in his throat. His fingers twitched to act. But he couldnât. The best plan was to get the kids out of there away from any action.
âYes I see, Damian,â Tim hissed. âWeâre almost to the elevator.â
âCall it as soon as you can,â Danny said. Was there a reverb to his voice? It felt like there was a reverb to his voice. No, no, he couldnât, he had toâŚ
âThatâs better! See? This is how you behave when someone invites you to a tea party! Now where is that little dormouse?â the Mad Hatter called. âI know I saw him come in here! With an even littler one too.â
He wanted Tim.
âCalling the elevator.â
âAnother mouse? A rat? A cat?"
The Mad Hatter wanted Tim and Damian.
âHere mousy mouse mice⌠where are you?"
Danny would not let that happen.
âOh there you are! Hiding back by the doors, of course he is!â The Mad Hatter said. The crowed parted in fear. His wide, manic eyes looked right past Danny and he grinned. âGet them. We have a tea party weâre late for.â
âOver my dead body,â Danny growled.
The Mad Hatter blinked at Danny like he just noticed him for the first time. His goons rushed past him and through the crowd. âOh, who are you? Never mind, if death is what you want, we can make that happen.â
Danny couldnât hold back the chortling laughter. âSee, thatâs where you have a problem you donât even know you could have.â
âAnd what is that?â
âYou couldnât handle my dead body,â Danny said just as the first goon reached them.
Danny stepped forward. He ducked under the swing of the punch and used the momentum to spin the goon around. With a push of his ghostly power, he sent the attacking goon careening into the next one and they both went tumbling.
âDanny, itâs here!â Tim shouted.
Not turning his back to the attackers, Danny stepped backwards into the elevator. Tim slammed a button and the doors basically snapped closed, much faster than they should. Danny was left staring at the polished metal surface of the elevator. Luminous green stared back at him. Soft black feathers dotted his temples. His fingers ended in talons. And he could feel it.
He could feel the skin on his back started to split.
Wings.
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âDOCTOR I CANâT TELL IF IâM NOT ME.â
- Â ÍŰŞŰŞĚĽËâBATFAM X NEGLECTED!HEALER!READER ęą ËËËÂ




There is only one thing you ever truly wished for in this life: a purpose.
Something that would justify your existence, that would give meaning to every breath, every wound, every sleepless night.
And you found it. Not in an empty promise or in the affection of others. You found it in your own power.
A selfish desire, yes, but undeniably yours. A purpose born not out of love, but out of need.
From that strange power growing inside you, the one that forced you to look at othersâ suffering with cold, almost cynical eyes. As if every wound were a problem only you could solve. As if every scream of pain were a prayer meant solely for you.
You clung to that.
To the idea that your worth existed only in your abilities.
The ability to stop someone from dying in front of you. To rip death from their body with your own hands. To stitch broken flesh with threads that hurt, yes, but worked. That was the only thing that ever made you feel alive. The only thing that ever made you feel alive, needed.
For a while, it was enough.
For a long while, you were selfish.
It didnât matter if they used you. It didnât matter if it hurt. If every healing left another scar on you. If every salvation cost you a little more of the little you had left.
As long as you could keep doing itâhealing, fixing, protectingâ the price didnât matter.
Because at the end of the day, you could lie down on that mattress of emptiness and tell yourself: âToday, I made it worth it.â
Your existence and your power meant something.
Of course, you didnât have a mother to share secrets with, nor guardians who offered you love. Only faces that came and went, and the bitter understanding that you were just another burden in a broken system.
Until, by some twisted stroke of fate, you had the âpleasureâ of meeting your biological father.
Bruce Wayne.
Billionaire. Philanthropist. Playboy.
Batman.
Even so, none of that really mattered to you. What truly hit you was learning that you had to leave everything behind and go to Gotham.
That cursed city, that concrete jungle drowned in darkness and crime. Where dreams go to die and bodies, if theyâre lucky, go to sleep.
Gotham wasnât a home. It was a prison for someone like you.
A place where meta-humans like you were enemies, threats, problems to be contained.
Your power, your only purpose, was stripped away with nothing more than a change of zip code.
And that was the cruelest part of all.
Not being able to use it.
Not being able to save.
Not being able to be useful.
Your existence, reduced to ashes, like the bodies of those you didnât reach in time.
It must be poetic, right? The healer who cannot heal. The savior without faith.
They hate you. You've felt it. That visceral resentment from those who survived because of you, but still blame you for what you couldnât stop. Screams, stares, choked pleasâ all of them pierced your soul deeper than any weapon ever could.
For someone who once swore to save lives, itâs only natural that those you vowed and wanted to save now express their utter disgust and despair toward the false, horrific salvation you once offered them.
And now? Now you live among strangers.
An immense mansion full of absences. With brothers who seemingly donât recognize you, and a father who doesnât see you.
Your arrival in Gotham wasnât exactly ideal, at least, thatâs how you think you remember it.
Itâs hard for you to remember that moment. You donât hold on to unnecessary memories⌠none of it will make you feel alive again.
Apparently, your new father figure has several children. Some of them are already adults. With lives of their own far from the mansion, you donât know much about them, they were almost always too busy to say anything to you.
You canât understand them, canât they come up with better excuses? You donât want these peopleâs attention.
These people canât help you with your abilities. They canât make you believe youâre still allowed to use them freely.
No, these people are just strangers who stumbled into your life overnight and want nothing to do with the problem. Not even your new father had the decency or responsibility to try forming a bond with you.
Bruce Wayne was an absent father. Not in the way someone leaves and disappears completely, but in the kind of absence that feels stronger the closer the person is. A hollow physical presence, like a ghost made of flesh and bone. One who could look you in the eyes and still not see you.
He struggled to communicate, to make time for you, to even remember that there was now one more occupied room in that massive mansion of his.
He doesnât know how to deal with you, and you donât know how to deal with him either. At first, you wondered if the problem was you. If you had done something wrong. If the way you talked, walkedâeven breathed, was so bothersome that heâd rather bury himself in work than give you an hour of his time.
But soon, you realized something even crueler: You donât need a father. Youâre not looking for one. Youâre not waiting for one.
What you need is a patient. Someone you can heal. Someone who needs you.
Because thatâs what youâve always done. Heal. And Bruce⌠Bruce simply refuses to be healed.
But he doesnât understand.
When you approach him, when you seek him out, when you try to speak to him, all he does is throw up a wall made of cold words, as practical and impersonal as that damn business suit of his.
âIâm busy.â
âNot now.â
âWeâll talk later.â
âItâs for work.â
Always the same. Always excuses with the bitter taste of indifference.
Is this what having a father is supposed to feel like? Because if it is, then it doesnât feel any different from your days in foster care.
At least there, you knew you were alone. Here, they make you believe youâre not⌠but you are, more than ever.
Youâve learned to observe the details, as always. Itâs one of the few things youâre good at, aside from using your power.
You notice the tired look in his eyes, the dark circles underneath, the way his fingers tense around his pen like heâs trying to crush it. The stack of papers on his desk never gets smaller, itâs like it multiplies just to keep you at a distance.
And the subtle changes⌠that lower tone in his voice when he sees you, like he canât even be bothered to raise it for you. The way his eyebrows furrow, not out of anger, just⌠annoyance. Irritation.
Thatâs what hurt the most.
So you stopped trying. Because if you kept going, you were only going to be reprimanded by the one you were supposed to please. You convinced yourself that you donât need his approval. That you donât need his love. That youâre better off without him.
But then, why is it that every time you walk past his office, you pause for a second, hoping that door opens, just once, without you knocking first?
Why do you still need him to see you?
Richard Grayson is the eldest. The first adopted son of Bruce Wayne. Everyone sees him as a beacon of hope, the moral compass of this family made of shadows and scars. And it makes sense. He has that bright smile, that genuine warmth the others can barely fake. He gives out hugs without being asked, listens patiently, laughs easily, and has that absurd gift of making anyone feel seen, at least, if youâre one of his.
Because with you, it was always different.
From the beginning, Richard seemed kind. Seemed. But between that warmth and you, there was always a distance, like someone had drawn a curtain between the two of you. You heard his apologies more than you heard his actual voice.
âSorry, I have to head out right now.â
âSorry, I was already on my way to BlĂźdhaven.â
âNext time, I promise.â
He was always rushing. Always busy. Always somewhere else. And you⌠youâre not someone who believes in empty promises.
At first, you thought it was just bad luck. That maybe if you insisted a little, if you found an excuse, if you caught him in the kitchen, he might stay for five minutes. Just five. But those minutes never came. And you started to notice a pattern. How his demeanor shifted the moment you walked into the room. How his smile became more diplomatic. More rehearsed. How his footsteps sped up when he thought you werenât watching.
You didnât want to admit it at first, but something inside you began to whisper an uncomfortable truth; He was avoiding you.
And then you understood. If Richard Grayson, the kindest, the most human, the most "big brother" of them all, couldnât be around you, then what was the point of trying with the others? What could you possibly expect from Jason, who barely speaks to you? From Tim, who seems more invested in his computer than in actual people? From Damian, who can barely tolerate his own shadow?
So you did the same.
You avoided them. One by one.
You decided it wasnât worth it. That if you werenât going to be a real part of this family, you werenât going to pretend.
Itâs easier that way. It doesnât hurt as much if youâre the one walking away first.
But sometimes, when you see them laughing together from the staircase, or hear Richard speaking so fondly of the others, a part of you wonders if it was ever really your choice to walk away, or if theyâd been leaving you behind from the very beginning.
Your suspicions didnât take long to confirm. All it took was talking to a few of your supposed brothers to realize the pattern repeated itself.
Jason, Tim, DamianâŚ
Each one was a story unto themselves. Each one was a maze of traumas, masks, and poorly calibrated emotional responses. But if you had to describe them in one word, it would be: inaccessible.
The second of your brothers was Jason, and from what little you could gather, because no one seemed eager to talk about it much, Jason had died. And then he came back. It wasnât a metaphor. It wasnât an exaggeration. He had been buried, and now he was not. That simple statement was enough to provoke a morbid curiosity, almost scientific. What had changed in his body? Did he suffer from partial necrosis? Brain damage? Did his muscles regenerate? What residual effects did resurrection have on human physiology? Everything in you screamed to investigate. To dissect. To understand.
It was a dangerous thought. You knew that. You repeated it to yourself like a mantra: too tempting for your own good.
But what confused you the most wasnât his condition, it was his behavior toward you. Jason had this aura of latent violence, like dynamite that could explode with the wrong spark. But that wasnât what kept you away. Not entirely. It was his inexplicable rejection.
You didnât understand it. You didnât provoke him. You didnât talk to him, you didnât interfere, you didnât cross the line. And yet, his gaze was always sharp. As if your mere presence triggered something in him. Irritation. Annoyance. Maybe even disdain.
You wondered if it was your fault. If the way you were, the way you spoke, the way you were, simply bothered him. But you couldnât find an answer. And though you wanted to, you knew that getting closer would be too risky.
Because youâve seen the broken walls. The misaligned doors. The tables split in two like they were made of paper. Youâve felt the tension in the air when Jason enters a room and isnât in the mood. And you know, without needing confirmation, that his punches arenât soft. That his rage doesnât distinguish between the guilty and the witnesses.
So, you avoid him.
Not out of fear exactly, but out of caution. Self-preservation. You donât want to be the next crack in the walls of this house.
Tim was a different kind of strange. More than Jason, though in a completely different way. His oddity didnât stem from aggression or visible trauma. It was more subtle. More internal.
Almost clinical.
You observed him, like you observe everything. With that gaze of yours that searches for patterns, inconsistencies, vulnerabilities. And in him, you found many.
Surprisingly, Tim was brilliant. Not just "smart for his age," but one of those cases where the brain moves faster than the body. Too fast. So much so, that sometimes it seemed like his body gave up halfway through.
The dark circles under his eyes were a constant. His responses were slow, as if they had to pass through a filter of a thousand thoughts before being verbalized. He walked like his mind was too heavy for his spine to carry. A shadow carrying ideas. You were surprised he hadnât fainted yet from the combination of insomnia, chronic stress, and mild malnutrition.
No one asked you.
No one thanked you.
But still, you started leaving him food. Food that could sustain him without causing a stomach collapse. Nothing too obvious, of course. A yogurt here. Cut fruits there.
Something easy to eat between keystrokes. You allied yourself with Alfred in that small act of silent intervention. The old butler seemed to notice, but he never mentioned it. And you never confirmed it.
Tim would probably assume it was all Alfredâs doing. In fact, you counted on it.
Not because you wanted to keep it a secret. But because you knew that if he suspected you were behind something so... "thoughtful," it would only make him uncomfortable. He doesnât know how to respond to care, to the intention behind such detail. Tim doesnât know how to handle it if that sincere gesture comes from you.
Just like you would if any of them ever tried it with you.
Alfred... Alfred is a different matter.
Of all the people in the house, heâs the only one who acts like your existence isnât a miscalculation. But he doesnât fool himself. He doesnât offer you love, or tenderness. He offers you structure. Routine. Measured phrases and cups of tea.
Itâs not affection between you.
Itâs a sort of tacit alliance.
Two functional people in the middle of a broken ecosystem.
You know he tries. But you also know itâs not enough for you.
Youâve seen children like you. In hospitals. In refugee camps. In temporary homes. Children who cling to an adult figure as if their life depended on it, and are then destroyed when that figure leaves. Or worse, when they stay but stop looking.
You donât want that for yourself.
You convince yourself this is better. A working relationship. A dynamic where each one fulfills their role and no one crosses the line into the personal. Because if you get attached, if you let yourself believe this could mean something...
You know how that ends. They canât give you what youâre looking for.
They canât give you purpose.
They canât return what was taken from you when you understood that your value only exists if you can heal, if you can serve, if you can be useful.
You still donât know who you are when youâre none of that.
Back to the subject of your "family," the last on the list of who your siblings were, was Damian.
The youngest of the group. The second biological son of Bruce Wayne.
You said it out loud once, casually: "Ah, so he is the real one."
No one found it funny.
Unlike the others, Damian didnât need time to show you that you werenât welcome. He didnât bother to fake courtesy or neutrality. From the beginning, he made it clear that your existence was expendable.
Maybe it was your silence. Maybe it was your lack of reaction to his provocations. Maybe he just didnât like you. But he pointed his katana at you the first month you arrived.
The blade against your neck wasnât a metaphor. It was real, cold, intimidating contact. You felt a thread of power activate instinctively in your body, a reflex of defense, of desperation. If you had let it go, well, you wouldnât be here, mentally recalling this account.
You didnât. Not for him. For you.
Because it wasnât worth it. Because using your power on someone in your âfamilyâ would mean admitting they were important enough to hurt you.
They werenât. Not yet.
You canât risk being discovered. No one can know that you actually have this power. None of them can know.
Bruce appeared just in time to prevent the confrontation from escalating. Did he protect you? Not exactly. He simply said something like, âDamian has a complicated history,â as if that justified a death threat in the family kitchen.
Is it common in Gotham to justify a childâs homicidal impulses if they've had a difficult childhood?
That was your question. You didnât ask it out loud. No one would have liked the answer.
It was also that day you found out that Damian was Bruceâs biological son. And you couldnât help but think about the irony of it all.
The same Bruce Wayne who, in the public eye, was a scandalous figure, a charming, charismatic playboy billionaire with endless parties, had exactly one biological child. One. Not five. Not a legion of illegitimate children scattered across the world. Just one.
That kid turned out to be a ticking time bomb with a traditional sword.
Everything fit so perfectly wrong that it almost seemed planned.
With the girls, it's complicated. Maybe even more so because, deep down, a part of you thought they could be different.
Stephanie. She was like a female version of Richard, a constant smile, a vibrant energy that everyone seemed to adore, except you.
She greeted you with empty enthusiasm, one that never went beyond the surface. It was easy to see that behind her good mood, there was a locked door she wasnât going to open for you.
And you understood. Because you'd seen it before.
People who act as if everyone is welcome, except you.
Stephanie was just another confirmation that no matter how hard you tried to fit in, this home was already full. You werenât in the original plan. You never were.
Barbara, on the other hand, was simpler. She was hardly ever at the mansion. Youâd see her sporadically, a red ghost in the shadows of fleeting visits. And still, in that limited time, she always found a way to smile at others, share a joke, a quick conversation, a knowing glance⌠Never with you.
Not once.
It was as if your presence went by unnoticed, not even worth including out of courtesy.
Cassandra was the most honest, in a way. She didnât pretend. She didnât smile. She didnât speak.
She ignored your attempts to help with almost admirable efficiency. You could attribute it to her trauma, her history, her way of seeing the world⌠but that excuse starts to wear thin when itâs the only one left to justify everything.
Maybe youâre just not interesting. Maybe you donât even stand out enough to be actively rejected.
Or is it because you donât even deserve her attention?
It was easier to believe that they all had a reason not to see you.
Easier than admitting that maybe, you werenât that hard to ignore.
What was dangerous about this family wasnât the weapons, nor the katanas, nor the fists that had broken ribs more than once.
It was the mask.
It took you time to understand it. First, it was a hunch. Then a suspicion. Finally, a certainty: they were all vigilantes. Heroes of Gotham. The same ones who make your hands tremble when you try to use your power. The ones who make your gift feel useless. As if it were a mistake rather than a blessing.
The irony is so perfect it could almost make you laugh.
You canât feel useful, canât do the one thing you know how to do perfectly, because youâre surrounded by those who fight so that people and beings like you are neither necessary nor welcome.
And yet, you prefer them this way.
Cold. Distant. Detached. Unknown. Because connections are dangerous. Because memories weigh. Because at some point, someone taught you that affection is the hook that precedes the pain.
Because you know it better than anyone. When you get attached to someone, itâs not just pain that you feel when you lose them. Itâs as if a part of you dies too. Not because you lose them, but because without your power, without that âusefulness,â you feel like you never deserved to have them in the first place.
In Gotham, you canât do anything.
You can't heal.
You can't save.
You can't be useful.
You can't be loved. Or at least, thatâs what they taught you to believe.
Here, you have no parts left that you can afford to lose. Not while you're trapped in this city that doesnât need what you can give. A family that doesn't know what to do with you. You donât know what to do with yourself either.
They canât give you a purpose.
They never could.
They didnât even try.
You expected so little, that not even that surprised you.
Until you found him.
The only living person who not only recognized your power, but accepted it for what you wanted it to be:
A miracle.
He called himself Doctor Masashi. A kind voice, a serene figure. But behind that calmness was surgical precision. He knew exactly how to shape you. How to rebuild you, only to destroy you again with elegance.
He was the only one who never lied to you about what you were:
A weapon.
A tool.
A precious jewel that only shines when it bleeds for others.
A perfect puppet.
And you, grateful for the strings.
He gave you direction when all you had was guilt.
He gave you structure when all you had was emptiness.
He gave you⌠meaning. A cruel meaning. A conditioned meaning. But still, you took it.
It can't be that bad, right?
Clinging to that.
Clinging to him.
Clinging to something that tells you that you can still be "something."
Because if someone, even just one person, can look at you and say that you are good for something, then you're not broken.
Then you're not alone. Then everything that hurt was worth it.
Even if guilt drowns you every night.
Even if the nightmares never rest.
Even if the hands you tried to save still drag you from their graves, begging for a second death.
It doesn't matter. As long as someone believes that keeping you alive makes sense... then thatâs enough.
Right?
Maybe you're a weapon.
Maybe you're selfish.
Maybe you did it all just out of fear of disappearing, for that unbearable need to feel alive.
The need to feel that you matter. To have a place to fit in.
But at least you're something. In this shattered world, that's already more than many have.
But how much more can you take before you truly break? How much longer before you completely crumble, like so many times you did on the inside? How much will the price of his greed cost⌠and your desperate desire to remain useful?
Because in the end, it wasn't Bruce.
Nor your brothers.
Nor your sisters.
None of them ever knew who you were.
None of them understood.
Only him. Only Masashi.
Thatâs what scares you the most. Because if even he can make you believe thatâs all youâre worth. If even he manages to make you cling to that idea, then maybe, you were never more than that.
Maybe you were never more than your power, and in Gotham, where you can no longer use it...
Not even that belongs to you.

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Starring: Suna R. x F! Reader â
Run Time: 2.3k â
Genre/Warnings: [Rated R: Adult Film]fingering, dirty talk(?), penetration, cheating(?), cucking, phone sex(?), exhibitionism(?) (characters are aged up) â
Producer Notes: i dont condone cheating but like if someone told me they fucked their cheating bf's bsf i wouldnt judge also sorry for the osamu slander i was never a big fan of the miya twins bc i was too focused on suna so im sorry if i offend any miya stans </3
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you were pissed. you were beyond pissed actually. yeah, you were sad of course when you found out your boyfriend osamu had been cheating on you with some cheerleader from a neighboring college. but you were furious now that osamu had decided to ghost you after telling him you wanted to talk it out. it was pathetic and you were utterly offended. you were also upset with yourself, having not been able to see any signs that you had been dating scum of the earth.Â
you know you couldve been the one to take the higher ground. just take his disappearance as the breakup and try to move on with the help of the people in your life that actually cared about you. but you just couldnt. he went low and you wanted to go much much lower.Â
knock knock knockÂ
standing outside of sunaâs townhome, you were growing a little nervous. there was a chance suna would push you away and go inform your cheating now ex-boyfriend. but youâve seen the way suna looked at you. you werenât stupid. everytime osamu dragged you to parties or hangouts with his friends suna always looked at you like he was fucking you with his eyes. you stood there, hands shoved in the pockets of your pajama pants as the cold night breeze swept over you.Â
your body stilled when he opened the door, bare torso on display while a pair of grey shorts hung loosely at his hips. you could smell the faint scent of weed seeping out of his house. his hair was messy in the best way, green eyes narrowed at you slightly. you couldnt deny that he was attractive. but when you were still a loyal and doting girlfriend, no one else seemed as hot as your boyfriend. but things were different now.Â
âhello?â sunas tone was indifferent, a bit raspy from whenever he was smoking. he craned his neck for just a moment, seeing if osamu was trailing behind somewhere.Â
âsuna i know you want to fuck me,â you blurted out, earning equally wide eyes from the man before you. he choked on his own spit, turning his head as he coughed. your face felt like it was on fire and for a second you regretted ever coming here. âim sorry i-â he was quick to put up a finger, silently telling you to wait as he got himself together. clearing his throat, suna stood up a bit taller with skepticism written all over his face. his eyes once again scanned over the area.
âare you confronting me?â suna had absolutely no clue what was going on. he half expected osamu to jump out of the bushes and knock him up just for not denying it. but he would be a liar if he did. it was true. he did want to fuck you and knew he could do so much better than osamu. but of course he didnt make any moves with the bro-code and all.Â
âno im not,â you shook your head, sucking in a deep breath to try to calm yourself. âi have a um⌠proposal,â sunaâs eyebrows quirked, the corners of his lips tugging into an intrigued smile. he crossed his arms, leaning his shoulder against the doorframe.Â
âwell,â you grew self conscious now, rocking back on your heels as you stared at the doormat. âosamu cheated on me and is now ghosting me after i asked to talk about it and to be honest im really pissed,â suna had to manually keep his features stoic even though he was feeling a whirlwind of emotions. he was sad for you of course, no one wants to get cheated on. he was mad at osamu for cheating on someone like you. but there was also this sick sense of pride, that you came to him. suna always knew he could be better for you and now you were at his doorway. you took in another deep breath, getting ready to spew out the words before you could take them back. âi want you to call osamu because i think heâll pick up⌠and if he does,â you took a hand out of your pocket, nervously running it through your hair. âif he does iâll let you fuck me,âÂ
the silence seemed to drag on forever. after your word vomit both you and suna had to take a moment to process the words you just said. you looked at sunas ever bland face and had no way of knowing what he was thinking.Â
âso,â suna started, not able to hide the smug smile on his face. âyou want me to fuck you with osamu on the phone?â he watched as you nodded slowly and could feel his dick twitch in his shorts at the thought. he would effectively being ending their friendship if he did that and maybe others. but the thought of being inside you was oh so enticing. âthats a little kinky dont you think,â sunas smile only grew when he saw how flustered you were getting. it was almost hard to believe you came up with that idea.
âwill you do it yes or no?â you asked instead of answering his question. because he was right. it did sound a bit kinky and you didnt feel like trying to make sense of it right now. suna did use words to answer, instead pushing off of the doorframe and motioning for you to head in. letting out a shuddery breath, you walked in. your heart was beating like crazy when suna closed the door behind you, turning on a warm lamp before flopping onto the couch. you took off your shoes, awkwardly standing by the doorway.Â
âso run this little plan of yours by me one more time,â he patted his hand on the cushion next to him, watching you with now hungry eyes. you sat on the edge of the couch, hands in your lap as you laid it all out on him. you wanted suna to call osamu and tell him he was fucking some random girl. you wanted to know if osamu would stay on the line. you wanted to know if he had any remorse for what he had done to you. you told suna you didnt want him to reveal it was you. that you would do the honors when you were ready. suna listened patiently, nodding along as the tent in his shorts grew with each word that left your pretty lips. âwell if you want to do this we cant exactly fuck with you on the other side of the couch,âÂ
excitement and anxiousness coursed through your veins when suna motioned for you to come sit on his lap. he wasnt trying to hide the obvious bulge in his shorts now and the size of it made you just a bit nervous. you straddled his lap with a shaky breath, looking down between the two of you as he called osamu. he put the phone on speaker, turning the volume all the way up and tossing it onto the cushion next to him.Â
his hands found their way to your hips as you both waited for osamu to answer, sliding them up and down your sides.Â
âhey whats up?âÂ
your breath hitched in your throat when you heard his voice. anger once again rising up over the fact that he was going out of his way to ghost you but picked up the phone for his friend almost instantly.Â
ânot much, got a pretty girl in my lap right now,â sunas tone made your body feel warm all over. he got bolder with his touches, his fingers playing with the hem of your loose fitting shirt. âsaid she was a freak ân wanted me to call you so you could listen,âÂ
the laugh osamu let out was evil. you both could hear shuffling on his end while sunas hands moved further up.Â
âno shit really?â
you licked your now dry lips as suna slowly pulled your top off, a low whistling leaving his mouth as he eyed your boobs. he was quick to grab at them. one hand groping one boob softly while the other pulled and pinched at your nipple.Â
âyes really, shes got pretty tits,â he was quick to suck your now hardened nipple in his mouth, hips jerking under you. your breath grew ragged as you fought to stay quiet. you wanted osamu to hear you but you didnt want to be loud enough for him to know it was you just yet. he pulled off of your now wet nipple with a soft âpopâ, his hands traveling down to grope your ass. ânice ass too,â he mused softly, looking at you with mischievous eyes as he grabbed onto the back of your thighs and gently laid you onto the couch.Â
you looked up at him with wide eyes, bottom lip caught between your teeth as he slipped your pajama bottoms off. something flashed in his eyes when he saw the pretty lace panties you had on. he wanted nothing more than to rip them off of you but he decided against it for now.Â
âhow wet is she,âÂ
â âm about to find out,â your face cringed at osamus words for just a second. because in the next, suna was smiling at you wickedly while he pulled your panties to the side. a low groan left sunas chest as he slid a finger over your already glistening folds. for a second, he forgot all about your plan, looking up at you with wide, lust filled eyes. âholy fuck youre soaked,â you turned your head away, face growing hot with embarrassment. but suna was quick to gently grab your chin, turning your face towards him once again. âkeep your eyes on me,â he said softly, licking his lips as he lightly pressed his finger onto your clit.Â
the sound of shuffling on the other line was what brought suna back to the present and for a moment he felt a bit possessive, suddenly not wanting osamu to listen in anymore like a pervert. but he continued to play along.
âshes fucking begginâ for it,â he said moreso to osamu as he slowly pushed a finger inside you. a soft hiss left his lips when he felt how tight you were, already clenching around him so well even if it was just one finger. at this point osamu wasnât responding with words, his heavy breaths the only thing that could be heard. suna shrugged after a moment of waiting for a response, pressing a second finger inside your walls. you whined softly, eyelids fluttering as your hips twitched against him. he continued to work his fingers inside you, thumb rubbing over your clit in soft circles as the sounds of him fucking you with his fingers grew louder.Â
âoh fuck i can hear her,âÂ
osamus voice was strained, no doubt affected by what he could hear over the phone. he was no doubt referring to the obscene noises coming from your dripping cunt while suna fucked his fingers into you.Â
soft whines and heavy pants were all you could manage out, afraid of giving it away too soon. your hips bucked up towards sunas hand as he worked you closer to an orgasm. his dick was straining uncomfortably against his shorts and he was growing impatient. âshes about to cum all over my hand,â suna breathed out, it was getting hard for him to pretend he was enjoying transcribing what he was doing to his cheating friend. he didnt even know if he could call osamu a friend anymore. there was silence on the other end and sunaâs brows furrowed when he thought he heard osamu moan.Â
this was becoming harder for you to keep up, thighs trembling as you got closer and closer to release. you swore you were going to chew off your lip with how hard you were biting it. your eyes were screwed shut, hands clamping onto the couch and sunas arm. when he brought his thumb up to your clit, rubbing tight circles and pressing into it, it didnt long for you to come undone around him, a strangled moan escaping you as your back arched off of the couch.Â
âfuck she sounds hot,âÂ
âshe is,â that flash of possessiveness punched through suna again as he continued to slowly fuck you through your orgasm. something snapped in suna when he could hear what could be nothing other than osamu jacking off. he hastily pulled his cock out of his shorts, laying your thighs over his. his breath was ragged at he ran his tip over your slit, a groan leaving his chest when he nudged at yout fluttering hole. you whimpered, bringing a hand up to cover your mouth.Â
suna was growing frustrated with each noise you suppressed, he desperately wanted to hear you. wanted to hear you get fucked on his dick. he grabbed onto your hips roughly, pushing inside you with a shaky moan. fortunately for him, you were also growing tired of forcing yourself to stay quiet. you wrapped your arms around sunas neck, pulling him flush against you. both of you moaned when he bottomed up and finally being able to hear you almost made suna cum right then.Â
but osamu ruined it, letting out a loud moan through the phone. suna, who had finally had enough, sat up and grabbed his phone.Â
âiâm fucking your girlfriend,â
âwait wha-âÂ
he hung up, tossing the phone to the side and looking back at you. your eyes were wide as you watched, cunt still clenching around him. suna put his hands on your hips, pulling out slowly before slamming back in, earning a loud cry from you.Â
âfuck- âm glad thats over with,â he began rocking into you slowly, eyes glued onto the sight of his dick disappearing inside you. ânow i can hear all your pretty noises,â
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A DC X DP IDEA #27
Theyâre the strongest?!?!
Imagine disâŚ
You know ⌠I read too much humans are space orcs fic, prompts, ideas⌠etc.
But I still like Danny Phantom and DCâŚ
And I remember that one A03 ficâŚ
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Another alien invasion is another Wednesday for the JL but it seems like they are quite different. Not only they are known as invaders in the Green Lantern Corps but they also have some sort of code among warriors, they give a chance to the species they are invading to fight back. By having their strongest fight against their strongest. It is not through fighting to the death as different planets have different climates and terrains and thus have their version of the Olympic games but instead of rewarding the participants medals, they were rewarded their planet's safety, but Hal commented that the challenges are too staged, too well known to the invading aliens. Since the ones defending have no idea how to approach the challenges, they always end up losing. Green Arrow commented that since they can just send out the Big Blue boy scout, Hal shook his head as they have to be the same species one planet already tried it by asking aid from another planet and not only lost but the invading aliens got 2 planets, plus theyâll bring it up to the galaxy court system and put them in a tight spot. Of course, Aquaman blinked with confusion and asked if there was a court system for the galaxy.
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So of course, when the said invading aliens landed on the Milky Way and broadcasted their intentions. The JL already have a team to fight them, of course, we have Batman with his cunning mind, Wonder Woman for her chivalry and strength, Flash for his speed, Doctor Fate for his mastery of magic, and Cyborg for technological skills. Just as they were about to tell the invading aliens that they had already picked their strongest, another announcement popped out. Apparently to even out the playing field they have a new technology to help them pick out their strongest for them. As if they were talking to kids and promptly pressed the bottom to automatically select the earthâs strongest.
The heroes at the space station as well those around the world who were debriefed about the situation a week before are already bracing themselves to be picked, while the citizens around the globe are all now watching and anticipating as not only this a new thing as the majority of their alien invasion they immediately went to evacuation.
Who appeared/ chosen immediately made both sides' jaws dropâŚ.
Three?
Only three are chosenâŚ
An adult, a teen, and a child?
A man who wore a blue rental suit with glasses, blue eyes and black hair. Which the Metropolis recognizes as one of their own. Clark Kent, a reporter with fame and reputation on par with the famed Lois Lane. The ideal model of someone who came from the countryside and made a name and life in the big city.
An 11-year-old boy with blue eyes and black hair who wore a red hoodie, faded jeans, and red shoes, in which the city Fawcett knew of. Billy Batson was, a former foster kid on the run until he found his forever home with the couple named Victor and Rosa Vasquez who also fostered a couple of kids, which Billy claims as his siblings. A kind kid who kept doing good around him and his community.
Lastly, a teen, again with blue eyes and black hair wore a faded NASA hoodie, and blue jeans with faint eye bags which was a small town in Amity Park where he came from. Danny Fenton, the only son of the two leading scientists of ecto-biologists in ecotology, the one who realized that one of the two purple-back gorillas is a female thus avoiding extinction.
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Clark Kent by day and Superman by night knew about the invading aliens. He also knew that he could not participate despite being raised on Earth made him unqualified to join. So, imagine his shock when he suddenly found himself with two earth children in the middle of a large arena with futuristic cameras looking at them. He is now in an internal dilemma; how can he save the two kids, while he tries to save Earth altogether?
This train of thought also passed by the young Billy Batson on the said teen, Billy already knew that Superman was already thinking of saving the both of them. Now his priority is to survive and keep his secret ID a secret for a bit longer.
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Danny on the other hand has a completely different train of thought, he was just about to reach his room. His beautiful room where his bed is, he had just finished a four-hour exam to bring his grades back up to an acceptable level, 9 continuous ghost attacks, another nonsense quarrel between the observers and he is close to committing anarchy just so he can have the same treatment to Pariah Dark, an eternal sleep in a comfortable looking Sarcophagus of Forever Sleep.
So imagine his surprise when he is suddenly teleported to what looks like an alien ship, Danny would usually be ecstatic but they have interrupted him, he is so close to his bed. He knew that there would be some sort of an invasion as he remembered the bits and pieces from Tuckerâs ramble when they last hung out together.
He doesnât care if aliens invade Earth, but if you come between him and his bed. He will make sure of what he will do to those who disturb him, he will make his fight with his future self and Pariah Dark like childâs play.
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The Justice League kept on insisting that they had already chosen their fighters and those who appeared in the middle of their arena were civilians, not warriors. But the invading aliens stayed on their decision and immediately began the games.
The rest of the heroes are now scrambling to not only stop the invading aliens but also save the 2 civilians who were randomly selected.
While the rest of the League is now panicking the rest of the world is now in an outrage. Sending out a civilian man and children by the alien's weird machinery.
The Fenton couples are especially rabid as, if there is anything that tops their ghost obsession, it would be their childrenâs safety. The family of Batson are on the edge of their seats as they worry for Billy.
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The games begin with an opening of rules and such, as well as an introduction to the alienâs warriors who are big and full of muscles making the Earth team look so tiny.
The first game starts with a simple hunting game with very minimal clues and tools at their disposal to find what they seek. Clark can crack the code on to where to hunt but it is a dangerous environment, Clark discusses it with his teammates on how to catch it, Clark is already thinking if he should reveal himself as a meta with strength but Danny just glares at the man and grabbed capturing tools form the table and sought out the thing they are designated to hunt.
The other team took a glance at Team Earth and warbled some snickers at how they took looking/hunting too fast without any plans and went back to their planning.
Clark and Billy are worried for their other teammate but after a few minutes, they hear a roar some shuffles, and then silence.
Back on earth, most people are horrified a what could be the teenâs fate but when footsteps were heard they saw the teen again scathed, with a few scratches, and a hulking beast all tied up from its muzzle to its tails.
Clark nervously asked, still maintaining his civilian identity, how on earth Danny had caught such a beast. Dannyâs only response was, back from where he came a certain âfriendâ really wanted âsomeoneâsâ pelt on a wall and learned some things while HE was chasing that âsomethingâ.
That starts the Danny effectâŚ
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A tag sort of game as there is a hunter to hunt them down and their objective is to hide longer than the other team, with both Billy and Danny a part, while Billy lasted a few hours with his wit and skills that he honed during his time when he ran from CPS and the police during his days as a foster child, which is impressive itself as he got two of the other teamâs members to be captured first before him. Danny outlasted Billy and the rest of the other team won the game in a landslide and gained some bonus points by not only redirecting the hunter and leading them into a false trail or a dead end but also messing with the said hunter without being spotted by him.
Cooking with live and weird ingredients? Clark initially volunteered to do it as he has a stomach of steel being an alien but cannot cook as he has no idea which ingredient is edible as all alien dishes and ingredients come from Krypton and he has to impress the judges who put them in a disadvantage as the judges are from the same race as the opposing team. Danny just shook his head at Clark quickly put on an apron and set to work.
Clark and Billy immediately turned green at the sight as Danny nonchalantly battled the live ingredients, from the meat section to what seems to be the fruit and vegetable section, It is bloody as it is and quite fascinating as it is disgusting. All their years in the Justice League they have seen some twisted and weird things but seeing their third teammate casually stab what looked like an unholy cross hybrid between an octopus and a shark trying to crawl away from the carnage, cleaned the weird animal from the inside out and fillet it.
Of course, they are in disbelief when the judges practically moan the moment, they taste Dannyâs dish. Clark and Billy are pretty sure one of the judges is planning to spare Danny and turn him into their chef if the invasion continues, with the way they look at Danny. The judges reluctantly let Dannyâs dish win.
Billy reluctantly asked Danny where he learned to cook like that, Dannyâs only response was a grumble of a sound that seemed to sound like at home but that cannot be, right?
Trying to survive an onslaught of hypnotic plants native to the alienâs home world, Danny once again won and even began criticizing the plants for how their music was so horrible that it would not even wake the dead.
Play some sort of FIGHTING VIDEO GAME that is popular in 5 sectors in their part of the galaxy, Danny wins and repeatedly shoots the aliens with pure hatred and anger in his eyes, Clark has to physically drag Danny out of the arena to stop his onslaught of firing to the poor guy who was already on the verge of crying.
And so on with the Earthâs team leading COUGH Danny COUGH and demolishing the invading aliens from their games.
After a while the games are done and Team Earth wins with a massive gap to the invading aliens. They returned the three in the middle of the Metropolis and went away without so much a fussâŚ
Well, expect that one chef in their midst how begged the leader to take Danny and only him with them but the leader is already fearing for his life as the last few games that humans began to be more feral by the second and he was sure he is also a second away from being the one at the other end of his chopping board.
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Back on earth everyone cheered on the three and began flashing them their camera lights to get a new scoop, and one brave reporter even tried to interview Danny but when people tried to look for the elusive teen he seemingly disappeared.
Clark knew Danny was, sleeping peacefully in the middle of the bushes a few feet away from them, and kept quiet as he was late to realize that Danny was on the verge of a crash like Red Robin is when he pulled something like this when Conner invited him.
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PS: If someone out there wanted to continue or make a fic about this you are free to do so, donât forget to tag me though.
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max taking advantage of innocent!best friend!reader ⌠like a dynamic where he spoils her a lot and has made him look her think that all his strange behaviors/touches are normal
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Friends âĽď¸
Max Verstappen x Childhood Best Friend!Reader

And what the hell were we, tell me we werenât just friends, this doesnât make much sense, no
Max has been your closest friend since childhood, promising to always look after you. Sure, everyone gossips that you two are secretly dating, that itâs not normal for friends to be so close, so touchy - but Max blows it all off. So when you ask him for help when you want to get a boyfriend for the first time, it shouldnât be a problem because Max doesnât like you like thatâŚright?
Content includes: 18+ MDNI, smut, innocent virgin! Reader, manipulative dark best friend! Max, dubcon, size kink, dom/sub, somnophilia, recording, this is DARK 𼸠3.3k WC
You and Max had grown up close together, your families being good friends as your fathers had raced together back in the day. He had been shy and awkward when you met, age 5 and 6, but as soon as he had stepped in front of you in defence when you had been bullied in school the next day, you vowed to always be loyal to him. Your families approved the friendship, laughing and taking pictures when you two would play house - Max always being the husband doll to your wife doll, of course. You two did everything together - school, holidays, racing where you always came to support him bearing snacks and words of encouragement. So when he asked you at age 18 to move with him to Monaco you didnât even hesitate to say yes - not imagining a life without your Maxie by your side.
Your move raised a few eyebrows from your family, who had been suprised that you hadnât outgrown what they had thought was an innocent childhood crush. Your older sister had been especially worried at the thought of you alone in a new city with only Max there to support you. She noticed, sometimes, when he thought no one was watching - how his eyes would be watching you, in a way eerily similar to how a wolf watched a lamb he was about to devour whole. Althought it had taken a lot of pleading from your end to win her over, it had been easy enough to convince your parents to let you go, explaining you were enrolling in Monaco University - being bankrolled by Maxâs new generous F1 salary - and yes, promised that you were staying in your own separate apartment. And that had been the plan, but when you stood in the entrance to Maxâs penthouse a few weeks later, dripping head to toe with sprinkler water because somehow your up to code apartment had a fire when you had been out, he had insisted you stay at his until you found a new place - just for a short while. A short while then turned into a long while which then turned into the lockdown and at the end of it all Max had said you just couldnât leave, he was too used to having you there that coming home to an empty apartment would be too hard. And although you had worried, saying that as you both got older it might be strange that you now lived together and people would talk, Max shot down all your concerns, reassuring you with a warm hug and sweet kiss to your forehead that the only opinion that mattered was yours, and as long as youâre happy Schat, I donât really care what anyone else thinks. You had blushed from the affection and that was the end of that discussion.
Youâd always been quite sheltered, naive even - and going to a strict private school meant you hadnât had any romantic or sexual experience whatsoever. Growing up, it was clear to the adults around you that you had always held a crush on Max, and althought the older boy would always look out for you, he didnât reciprocate to the same way - at least thatâs what they thought. They hadnât noticed that when you two had been gently separated one night when it had been deemed you were too old to sleep in the same bed anymore, Max had crept back and grabbed your hand as he lay next to you, mumbling he couldnât sleep without you, liefje. No one noticed that this habit continued well into your teens, when Max would climb in through your bedroom window - initially making you freak out but soon reassured by Maxâs words that your parents were just too strict, you were just two best friends wanting to spend time together.
And the first time you woke up one morning to feel something thick and hard pressing into you from the back, scaring you a bit, Max had gently rubbed your shoulder from the back while telling you it was okay, itâs just something that happens sometimes when a guy sleeps next to a pretty girl, you had blushed and accepted the compliment. And no one knew that behind closed doors your chaste goodbye kisses to Maxâs cheek began turning into loving kisses on the lips when he had tilted your head up, saying he was going to miss you so much when he went on his first F1 race and he deserves a goodbye kiss for good luck from you, didnât he?
And of course you would always give Max whatever he asked for since he was your best friend, your protector, the person you loved the most in the world. Heâd pay for you, drive you everywhere, cheer you up when you were down, make you laugh, patiently take you shopping and rate every outfit you tried on, fight anyone who dared to give you a hard time - and the rest of the paddock had definitely noticed the lingering attentions of the Redbull driver to his childhood friend. Daniel and Lando constantly gave him shit for it, saying he needed to grow a pair and just confess instead of making puppy eyes at his âbest friendâ. Max always just rolled his eyes at their gossiping ways.
But it was hard to deny their claims when Max would pull you in to sit on his lap at a games night making everyone smirk at you, or when you would emerge from his hotel room the next morning since you two still shared a bed everytime you went away - itâs just like a sleepover when we were little, scatje, nothing wrong with it - or when at fancy award ceremonies or galas Max would be photographed in his tux, a vogue model at his side as his latest girlfriend - and you on his other side, wearing a luxury dress heâd brought for you. The paparazzi would eat up the dirty looks Maxâs flings would always be shooting you, knowing they always came second to his best friend.
The thing was, even when sometimes doubt would flicker in your mind that things were too intimate, too romantic, between you and Maxie - you couldnât bring yourself to want to draw back. Youâd always secretly had such a crush on the older boy growing up, but since he had never directly reciprocated and was now a big world champion with women around every corner in Monaco after him, youâd learnt to accept your feelings were unrequited and you needed to stop reading so much into Maxâs pure intentions to look after you. After all, thatâs what best friends did, right?
And oh, did Max look after you. It seemed every week heâd level up more and more. Matching jewellery and heels to go with the designer dresses, and lately you had come home to find matching lingerie in Maxâs favourite colour, dark blue. You had blushed furiously, feeling an indescribable icky pit in your stomach and remembering your sisterâs warnings - Max goes too far, he pushes the boundaries of a normal friendship - but Max put all your worries to ease over the homecooked dinner you made him that night, explaining that the latest dress just happened to come with matching accessories and he wanted to make sure that you felt beautiful in all the layers you wore and it was normal to give your best friends gift, no? But he could return it if youâd prefer⌠prompting you to hastily accept his intimate gift, reassuring him that it was so thoughtful and you were so grateful. Heâd looked so pleased with your response that when he ordered more and more sets, each one getting just a touch more lacier and risquĂŠ, you just thanked him for each one. And when he asked you how you found your gift, could he have a look at it, please schatje, I always help you pick your prettiest outfits right? You had nodded in agreement, blushing but shyly pulling his hoodie off your torso to expose the outrageously expensive La Perla black lace set you wore, accentuating your plump ass and pushing your tits up for him to hungrily look at. Maxâs gaze had lingered there for a long time, his gaze turning dark and you had felt that same uncomfortable pit begin to settle in your stomach again when he saw the look on your face and patted your soft, chubby waist in reassurance, saying donât be embarrased, schat, we always grew up seeing each other like this, right? Remember that photo of us swimming in that pool in Ibiza? Completely naked? Besides, youâve seen me shirtless so many times, this is the same as that. That was true, you accepted dreamily, and not thinking anything of it when Max started asking you to send photos of you modelling the cute sets heâd get delivered to you when he was away. You happily snapped away mirror selfies, in all the different angles he wanted to see you from, even strange ones you werenât quite sure about like bend over and stick your hips right up in the air, hmm schat?
Heâd kiss you goodbye now all the time, saying you were his cute little good luck charm, with the expectation that youâd open your lips wide for him, letting him shove his tongue into your mouth and explore it to his hearts content. Gotta have a better kiss to get better luck. It felt so nice and made you feel all tingly between your legs so you would never turn it down. And since Max was away more and more with his racing schedule, often he would come home and fall asleep straight in your bed, saying he had missed being away from you so much. You had thought it was so sweet, no one else but you got to see Maxie like that, you were the only one he depended on. So you easily wrapped yourself up in his embrace, just like when you two had been little - except this time Max would say youâre so tense, schat, let me help you relax a bit, my physio knows this great muscle relaxation technique-
And it felt soo nice when he rubbed your sensitive little body up and down, you had no complaints, not even when some nights he would travel much, much lower down your plush little tummy than he had before. You just obediently parted your legs for him when he commanded in his deep voice, running his thick finger up your slit through your wet lace panties. And sometimes youâd wake up to feel that very familiar hardness of his behind you, soo warm now as he took himself out of his sweatpants and let his cock rest against you. Feels all tense, sweetheart, cause you kept rubbing against it last night and I didnât get any sleep he would sigh.
Youâd feel terrible, apologising profusely for interrupting his precious sleep when he trained so much, asking how you could make it up to him when Max had said just gonna let it relax out onto you, yeah? Donât worry, you can even go back to bed, baby. Youâd nodded sleepily, so grateful that Maxie was so sweet he always put your sleep first, even when his had been deprived.
Heâd waited before you were comfortably nuzzled back against him, breaths turning deeper as sleep overtook you before slowly lifting your damp panties out of the way, and sliding his leaking tip just along the entrance to your innocent hole, making you moan, half asleep cause it felt soo good, and you felt so guilty that you felt so much pleasure while Max had just become frustrated overnight. With your eyes screwed shut youâd never notice the dark lustful look in his eyes, the evil smirk on his face as he had his way with you, letting him getting away with practically murder if it was for the sake of your friendship. You let him continue gliding his cock along your puffy folds, his tip repeatedly stimulating your sensitive clit, his large hands coming up to fondle at your boobs that has somehow slipped out of your camisole and gently flick your nipples before he tensed, holding you tightly against him as his breaths quickened. You has felt something warm and wet leaking out from the sides of your panties. You looked down, dazed, but Max shushed you back asleep, lulling you into his arms again. And when you woke up next you always had a clean pair of fresh panties on, camisole tucked back down over your thick hips, Max no where in sight.
As you grew up, your sexual curiosity eventually began to peak. When all of your friends in uni had gotten boyfriends and giggled to you about how good sex felt, you had gotten curious too. of course, you would never bring it up with Max even though you two talked about everything - because you should only be talking about sex with your future boyfriend, right? But one day when you had come home early from class you had heard lewd noises coming from Maxâs bedroom. So lewd that you had been unable to stop yourself from peeking through a slight gap. The sight of Max thrusting himself into his latest girlfriend, her face pushed down into the mattress as he drilled into her from the back made you blush furiously. Youâd stood there for a little while, your panties getting damp at the sight of sweat dripping down Maxâs abs before you had caught yourself and scurried away, so guilty about violating Maxâs privacy like that. You were such a creep, what was wrong with you?!
But that afternoon had also made you realize Maxie had so much more experience than you as you hadnât been sure what a lot of the movement and positions you had seen that day were. And Max had said you could always ask him for help with anything, right? You couldnât quite build up the courage to ask him - until your classmate asked you out one day, making you giddy with excitement but come crushing down when he had later found out on the date that you were a virgin, and had said maybe it was best for you to be with someone who was more on your level, that he didnât feel comfortable being with someone so inexperienced for a casual fling. Youâd come home sobbing, running straight into Maxâs arms in your cute little dress and strappy heels, crying Maxie, he was so mean, youâd never believe what he said-
Max had been furious when you told him the story. He was so, so angry - not only at your classmate, but at you, for going on this date and not telling him, the way you would always tell Max about everything you did in your day. How could you be so careless, so slutty to go out with a guy like that? Max demanded, making your eyes widen and cry harder. Itâs those new girlfriends of yours, arenât they, theyâre such fucking whores.
Youâd never seen him so angry before, not even when he had a DNF at a race weekend. Heâd only seems to calm down when you had looked up at him with innocent eyes, pleading Maxie, please, will you teach me how to be a good girlfriend, I donât want to be so inexperienced anymore.
Heâd sighed and run his hands through your hair, wiping away the tears that had made mascara drip down your cheeks. Of course, schat. Iâll show you exactly how to be a good little girlfriend. But promise me that you wonât talk to another guy without my permission first, okay? I have to protect you and make sure that youâre trained enough to have a boyfriend.
It was so, so sweet of Max to take time out of his busy schedule to help your embarrassing problem, you thought dreamily. You never noticed that your classmate never turned up to class again, but did have to go to hospital that week for a new black eye and bruised ribs.
Meanwhile, Max first started your âlessonsâ by showing you how to pump him from soft to a raging erection, guiding your hands into his sweatpants and moving your hands up and down, after you spit cutely into your palms to ease the glide. You didnât notice the smirk on his face as he watched your struggle to jack off his entire sizeable length with your tiny palms.
Then heâd shown you how to use your mouth to make him feel good. Youâd sat on your ass for hours in between his legs as he absentmindedly played his game, drawing kitten licks up his shaft before heâd taken over and told you to relax that tight throat of yours, baby, as he shoved his cock inside your mouth. Heâd jackhammered away happily without any regard for the tears that emerged from your eyes. You had coughed, spluttered, throat raw for days as Max made you practise on the daily, tutting at you in mock disappointment when your gag reflux got in the way and you stopped halfway down his length. Heâd pulled you up to sit on his lap, his hard cock wedged in between your plush thighs, as he put a dirty video onto the TV - petite ebony deepthroats massive white cock like a pro.
You had blushed and stuttered at the obscene video, looking away at one point but Max had forced your head back to look at the scene, saying donât miss this bit, schat, look how she doesnât forget about his balls, yeah?
Youâd watched video after dirty video until you had perfected your blowjob technique exactly to Maxâs likings. You look up obediently at him as he points his phone at you, flash on and all, recording your performance for reference, of course scatje, we need to track your progress, right? as you sloppily took his hard cock into your eager mouth, all the way to the base, gag reflux well and truly trained out of you from his daily discipline.
Youâd woken up the next morning to find Maxâs blonde curls between your legs, his tongue sweetly licking at your most innocent parts and you had squealed in shock, Maxie what are you doing ohmygod- but he quickly thrust his fingers into your drooling mouth to shut you up, just progressing to the next level, sweetheart, you need to learn to cum whenever I ask you too.
Youâd squeaked and whined as his tongue didnât stop flicking your clit, his fingers now joining in abusing your poor little virgin cunny until you begged him to pull away, Maxie please I feel funny, I think Iâm going to pee- Ahhh!!! Youâd ended up squirting all over his fingers and tongue, immediately passing out from exhaustion at the sheer intensity and missing the dark, pleased grin on Maxâs face as he licked up your juices from his fingers. God, it was almost too easy to brainwash you into his perfect little pet. Soon heâd having you asking him to claim your virginity, he just knew it. And he would not hesitate, taking what had always belonged him anyways. Heâd have made you his housewife a long time ago if your goddamn sister hadnât kept cockblocking him.
Never mind that. Even she wouldnât be able to withhold her blessing when youâd turn up at the next family gathering, glowing and expecting his child, he thought darkly. Smirking to himself, Max unbuttoned his pants, freeing his hard cock. In fact, why wait to feed you some bullshit excuse about how no baby, virgins canât get pregnant the first time or no, I canât use a condom, schat, itâs bad for you to have something unnatural inside you.
He might as well start now and give you a thick creampie as your present to wake up to later âĽď¸ After all, youâd take it like the good girl you always were for him.
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A/N: Chile anywaysssss donât mind me and my depraved thoughts. Gotta go drink some holy water fr. Lmk what you guys thought! Feel free to request more x
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Idk if you do requests, which if you donât pls ignore this.
I was hoping for Michael with an insomniac reader. Like reader has awful insomnia and just cannot fall asleep no matter how tired she is and heâs just able to help her fall asleep. it grounds both of them cuz he helps him after a shift and theyâre both able to sleep. Or smth like that, just she has insomnia at least (cuz same)
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In The Vibrations | one shot
Dr. Michael âRobbyâ Robinavitch x f!reader
Requested
Summary: Sleep refused to take hold of you, but Michael never did.
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Warnings: insomnia
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Despite the late hour, you tossed and turned, never quite finding a comfortable position. It was not so much that you were uncomfortable, just that your mind refused to power down. It flickered back to life just when you thought you would be granted the taste of rest. It was your frustration that led to the tossing and turning, and the shred of guilt you felt at keeping your partner awake.
Michael Robinavitch surely had his restless nights, but he had always found comfort cuddled close to you. You hated to be the one to keep him awake.
You found you were expending more energy trying to sleep than you ever used during the day. You needed it now, like you needed air in your lungs, exhaustion running your body to the brink.
Your body just did not care, refusing to wrap you up in the sweet relief of rest. But Michael did. Pulling you flush against his body, he wrapped an arm around your waist. You squirmed.
âIâm going to go to the couch,â you whispered in the dark. âI donât want to keep you awake.â
âI never want you to sleep without me.â He said, voice in your ear. âEspecially not on the couch.â
You released a long breath of air, tempted to stay. Michael had had a long shift, coming home dead on his feet, barely able to eat dinner before retiring to your room. You felt guilty your insomnia was keeping him from sleeping.
âI donât mind.â You told him, which was a half truth. Of course you minded, but you minded him not being able to sleep more.
You felt him shift behind you, moving up to rest on his forearm. âCan I get you something? Tea?â
âNo,â you said, turning your body to look up at him. âIâm sorry. Please go back to sleep.â
He leaned down to kiss you, languid and lazy, sleep still heavy in his eyes. You accepted it graciously before he laid back down. He pulled you back to his chest and you rested your head over his heart.
Michael traced a finger up and down your arm at a slow pace, moving to draw shapes into your hips. It felt sensual, and relaxing, lost in his touch and the way it began to quiet your mind.
You hummed against him, curling an arm to rest your hand face down against his chest. His warmth was captivating, like he was his own heater, and you orbited him like he was the sun.
âI could recite medical definitions,â he murmured, voice thick with sleep. âMight be able to bore you enough to fall asleep.â
You cracked a smile, âI could listen to you talk for hours.â
He released a quick exhale, a rush of a laugh through his nose, âI assure you none of it would be exciting.â
You were desperate for some sort of cheat code, so you relented. The vibrations in his chest when he spoke thrummed through your system, and something finally seemed to give. You closed your eyes, focusing on the sound of his breathing, the way he recited definitions so flawlessly. It was odd how soothing it sounded to you, long, difficult words pulled together by a knowledgeable tongue. The low hum in his chest as he spoke was its own white noise machine.
Sleep crept in, lingering at the far reaches of your mind, and your breathing slowed. It was hard to focus on any of his words, eyes refusing to open, though you welcomed it.
And like Michael, sleep finally took hold of you.
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