#but again this is mainly about my own slow af writing process

[yakool-foolio]

I think I'm at the point where I really need to simmer down with a lot of my writing. I've been pushing myself to write posts for this blog almost every day. While I have no qualms when I have the time and energy to do so, as the days go by and my brain is being drained more and more, I need to give myself more breaks and not force myself to try to pump out written content daily. I'm in the final weeks of this semester, so assignments continue to pile up leading to finals, and it's all heavily involved in writing, which I'm already incredibly slow at as it is. I really don't want to end up crashing and burning creatively when I have so much I want to write for Rain Code yet not as much time (this happened before about two years ago when I overworked myself while writing for my DBD ask blog; Rain Code brought me outta that burnout).

The summer probably won't be much better since I'll be basically taking on an internship, two college classes, and weekend work shifts. It's not gonna be lemon-squeezy easy, so that means less and less time I have to work on personal projects and posts for this blog. Believe me, I don't wanna stop creating content for Rain Code and rambling to my heart's content, but making things like fics, voiceovers, and whatever else forms in my brain at 2 AM means I have to spend my creative freedom wisely. I wanna make a buncha fun stuff, but it requires moments where I will be trading time making regular posts to working on bigger projects instead.

It sounds stupid that not posting my writing/rambling daily is an absolutely awful thing that makes me crumple up like a used napkin, cause it is undeniably stupid. This exact post probably only really matters to me anyway, cause I know deep down that everyone will be fine with me posting less and taking my time, so I guess this is just a reminder for myself if nothing else. I've been in this pattern before, I know how it goes, but it doesn't make me feel any less sad or overwhelmed that my sheer love for a piece of media has to be put on the backburner.

I don't think anyone will notice changes in my posting habits, anyway. I'll still answer asks in a timely manner and make short posts about music or multi-fandom stuff regarding Danganronpa or Ace Attorney or whatever else I find myself gettin' into these days. It's just an internal shift that would probably go unseen, and I don't mind that. Thank you for taking the time to read this.