#Christmas sucks

[fionaapplepiee]

nobody:

every child of divorce ever:

[sp00kysk3lly]

“I found the Grinch to be a relatable, engaging character. And I was really with him right up to the point that he succumbed to social convention and returned the presents and saved Christmas. What a buzzkill that was.”

[intotheclash]

Christmas Sucks - 'Tom Waits and Peter Murphy'

[llovely]

i hate my mom i fucking hate her. so much.

[siriusblacksdiary]

Don't imagine Sirius spending Christmas absolutely alone for the first time, in a cold cell in Azkaban. With no pranks, no laughter- no love anywhere to be found.

[tonguesofsilence]

Tom Waits & Peter Murphy - Christmas Sucks

[angrykitten69]

[worldswewrite]

“Why don’t you invite me to Christmas with your family?”

“Idk just seems like a romantic partner thing”

What does that even meeeeeeeeaaaannnn?

I would invite my intimate besties to my family Christmas if I could.

I’m so sad. Why is our relationship not as important because it’s not romantic?

[kimwarris]

Can't we just fast forward until after Christmas?

[creechie-the-nakey]

I fucking HATE when people push Christmas stuff far before even AUTUMN, dude. AUTUMN IS MY LIFE. You sit your ho ho ho ass down and let me be spooky for 3 GOD DAMN MONTHS and go take over January instead! Seeing all of this Christmas stuff really makes me not like Christmas since it has all of these “it’s coming for you” attachments to it.

So you know what? Fuck it! I’m celebrating an AUTUMN themed Christmas and you can’t fucking stop me! I’ll shove MY holiday into months it doesn’t belong! I’ll make it Autumn Christmas into summer! Fuck Christmas!! EMBRACE THE ORANGE!!!

[jm-chrome]

Their little Christmas Cupid 🎄💘

[sweetielilac]

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[catis15]

Christmas always sucks

For so many reasons I could go on and on about

But one year hurt more than the others

I was reminded that no matter how much someone tries to please no one is ever happy.

I was reminded that I'm not really viewed as good enough for the family.

I was told through so many actions... That I wasn't worth waiting for.

I was just remembering ig

Makes sense my one very very foolish wish, is that one day I'll meet someone who thinks I'm good enough, whos willing to wait for me. Who doesn't make me feel safe only to tear me apart. Who doesn't pretend to care, simply so I will actually care in return.

But that's a lot to ask of someone,

And I'm not even sure I deserve it in the first place.

Still don't really understand what makes someone so deserving anyway.

[tempusart394]

Does anyone else hate Christmas?

And I do mean HATE.

Every year I become intolerable before Christmas, and am only now starting to realize why.

As a kid I hated going to church - the Lutheran Church, the Anglican Church, the Baptist Church, ...and BACK to the Lutheran Church (my Dad was in Bible College at the time so we went to a lot of fucking church) over the span of only TWO DAYS.

Sunday service the week of Christmas

Christmas Eve services - one at the Lutheran, one at the Baptist

Christmas Day services - morning at Anglican, evening at Baptist, midnight mass at Lutheran

Jesus fucking Christ how many fucking services are you going to force upon a small child in uncomfortable shoes, a scratchy dress, and a ridiculous hair style?????

Then I got older, and things changed. I refused to go to church. And things did get better for a while - even though I was still the closeted queer kid of a Bible thumping pastor - but then began a new problem. I was slowly becoming emotionally mature, and realized some of my mental health issues came from having to adapt to being raised by emotionally immature people. This came out in full force during Christmas. I won't go into some great sob story, but the gist of it is - planning Christmas, shopping, and HAVING TO BE HAPPY around people who treated you like shit and are emotional succubi, somehow became my problem. Now dont get me wrong, my family did make the food and hosted etc., but the emotional and mental load was completely shoved onto me. When Mom took me shopping for gifts, I had to decide WHAT was being bought for EVERYONE (she never has any ideas but is more than giddy to shut down and judge every idea that I have). I had to wrap all the gifts, otherwise I didn't get done. I had to decorate, otherwise it didnt get done. And then what does everyone have the audacity to say? 'It could have been better' - THOSE FUCKING BITCHES. I WAS AN INTROVERTED QUEER TEENAGER WITH PTSD AND BIPOLAR DISORDER.

*deep breath*

*in through the nose*

*out through the mouth*

I get that THEY enjoy Christmas. I really do! And I don't want to take it away or diminish it in any way for them. So I plaster a smile on my face until it hurts and make disgusting small talk and don't let them see how much pain I'm in. I'm just so sick and tired of the hypocrisy, and gaslighting, and how my very broken very dysfunctional family suddenly all just adore one another for the sake of getting presents and chewing on an over cooked bland bird and mashed potatoes for supper.

As an adult I am VERY vocal about how I feel about the holidays. I ask for patience and forgiveness. I do everything I can to make them feel better about my discomfort.

I know I'm being selfish. I know I'm ruining the joy of Christmas. Yeah I got it, thanks. I'm just so tired of apologizing for shit that I actually don't feel bad about at all.

I want Chinese food. Or pasta with shrimp. I want stocking stuffers and not big presents. I want pretty twinkly lights around the house and massive snowflakes falling outside. I want to curl up on the couch and watch a movie (one that's not about an annoying white woman going back to her home town and trying to save the family bakery while falling in love with a man with a cardboard cut-out personality) like an awesome murder mystery or the doctor who holiday special.

I love winter. I love the snow, and the holiday decor, and the stunning city lights.

It feels so stupid and hopeless to say it, but I just wish that Christmas could be fun. Am I alone in this?

[kittydoggie]

Christmas sucks so much that I spent too long making that post and didn't make the thing I wanted to make instead.

I'm not gonna blame me for this one. I would usually blame me. But goddammit, sometimes you just need to punch something until you're not sad anymore and the holiday is what I'm punching instead of me right now. And that's a fucking improvement.

[efqgfjdnw]

I hate the holidays so much.

Minus Halloween