#Cal blabs

[happi-tree]

⚔️👑 shield and scepter 👑⚔️

Howdy, y'all! So my wonderful mutual @raemeh did this really cool fanart of my royalty Swiftli au (the fic for which can be found here), and I had some little design ideas about them in my wips, so I thought I'd post the two of them here! Thank you so much to everyone who's enjoyed it <333

[i-stand-unshaken]

So I finally beat Star Wars Jedi: Survivor and it was pretty fucking good.

[juliberrylive]

Now that The Bad Batch is over, I've been working on my first playthrough of Jedi Fallen Order! Part 4 was just released last night. I'm in LOVE with this game tbh

[theloveinc]

not a vague post at all but it's interesting to see this conversation of ... fandom being dead or whatever bc... ive been on tumblr since 2011 and i've never seen such an interest boom as during the pandemic. and normally i chalk this new deadness up to us all going back to work/the fact i don't truly understand what fandom was like "back in the day" bc i was a teenager who mostly just read stuff.

but at the same time... i wonder, really how much has ACTUALLY changed and died and how many new things + expectations + functions have been created from this recent surge?

it's so interesting to me bc a couple months ago i reached out to an overwatch reader insert account i followed back in... 2016? maybe. and spoke to them just like i'd send anyone an ask, asking how they were, if they had any writing plans coming up and saying i missed them. and they never responded, which was fine honestly.... but what i found a little baffling was that they went on to say they still accepted requests? and still wanted to run their account the same way they did back in 2016????

(it truly felt so alien. i was like... we're people now!!! we talk to each other now!!!!!!!!!!!!)

and that isn't to say anything in particular, but i feel like things have changed since then... at the same this request system has spoiled some readers with the notion they can ask for what they want and receive it... seems like some writers have also been tainted by the expectation that people should like everything they post. it's hard to express, but it feels like one of those snakes that's eating itself ... wanting a certain amount of praise for doing things u "technically" enjoy doing.

which isn't to say it's reasonable to ignore fandom writers or demand things on the other hand (it's not)... but i guess a lot of functions here have changed now?

and tho fandom has always been alive and well, communities can def run their courses and get smaller and more........ dead, as shows progress or end or take hiatuses and interest wanes naturally....

and tho i don't remember the point i was trying to make, i just wonder how much of this is a natural decline that's being clung to irrationally. i miss having a large community too. fanfic writers deserve the utmost of praise for the care and dedication they put into their work. but setting urself up for disappointment... isn't anyone's fault. and blaming people for that isolates u from those you want supporting u. i have no idea.

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you know, i feel so inadequate bc i have such a lack of long fics and have a really hard time writing them (tho i do, just ... slowly and silently). but this is why i like answering to asks so much, bc the words of others inspire me (even if i've gotten a bit burnt out from my persona). and if this isn't u... you know, u write ur own stuff by urself, great!

but i feel like... in turn, this community is now in a transition stage (because we went from a community where everyone was having fun / getting asks + praise... to one that's smaller, isn't as buoyant or forgiving), and is readjusting itself to fit the new needs of writers, those who want to write their own complex ideas and those who need interaction to do so... and the readers that make both things possible finding their new places.

idk but... i think we're all relearning how to do this. and that shouldn't be blamed on anyone, regardless of feelings.

thanks for reading all of this if u did!! no need to comment or anything. and whatever if u didn't i don't mind <3

[uniiico]

gay gay homosexual gay

[bearseulgs]

i need to watch Alessia and Liz videos and then maybe i'll be decent brb bffs i love you stars i'm gonna cru giving everyone forehead kisses rn

[unknown-limes]

I'm looking at my campus's dining hall's menu and I find this. random item???

I've never seen that on this before and am utterly confused. Sodexo what do you mean???

[operationandre]

imagine cal and andre meeting through work.

cal is the new guy at andre’s job. andre hates him at first, sighing every time he walks into work and sees the boy’s mop of messy blond hair. when he’s scheduled with cal, he always asks to change it, but his boss says that they need to get along.

cal doesn’t know that andre hates him. he talks to his best friend rachel about the older boy all the time, blabbing on and on about how he caught andre staring and how their hands brushed together.

every time cal flirts, andre thinks he’s messing with him. after a childhood of bullying, it’s hard for him to entertain the idea of someone having a crush on him. after a while, though, andre realizes cal’s not joking around.

andre takes a different look at cal after that. he stops thinking about his hair as messy and starts thinking of it as the perfect frame around cal’s face. he begins talking to cal more and actually being able to work with him.

one night after work, andre offers to drive cal home. they sit in the parking lot for a while and take the long way home, figuring out that they have the same taste in music and that they’re in the same grade. both of them wonder how they’d never noticed one another before.

when they arrive at cal’s house, andre turns the music down to say bye. cal’s siblings run out of the house to welcome cal home and end up asking andre a billion questions. soon, cal’s mom calls them all in, saying it’s a school night and that andre probably has to be home too.

cal takes a couple steps towards his house before turning around and quickly placing a kiss on andre’s cheek. before andre can even process what happened, cal’s running inside his house and yelling bye.

[taes-kookie-blog]

REACTIONS TO U HAVING AN ED - SKZ

TW // ED

check out my bts versions too for forever saranghae for our boys

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HYUNJIN

Ah, Y/N that's a lot to handle... my schedule's already busy.. aish. Just eat for me today okay?

Gains inspiration for his art, drawing ed related art which triggers u more but he doesn't mean to.

whenever it's meal time, he side eyes u until u eat

when u take pics together, he edits ur body to try to make u feel better

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FELIX

No.... Y/N... you broke the promise.

he's upset, because you promised to eat and stay healthy

he gets competitive

ur ed worsens because he loses weight quicker than u and sees u as competition

becomes ur pro bf

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LEE KNOW

no you don't... Y/N you shouldn't joke about that LOL

thinks you're joking

makes jokes about ur ed

'u dont look like u have an ed'

encourages u to eat by telling u how easy it is

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BANGCHAN

Babygirl, don't, you're perfect the way you are...

makes u meals and doesnt leave until u finish

tells u to eat for him

'if you don't eat, i won't.'

'you're my strength y/n. if you dont have strength, neither will i'

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JEONGIN

'...'

doesnt know how to react

avoids u for a few days after u tell him

accidentally makes it into a big deal at every mealtime

'y/n, eat as much as you can okay?'

blabs to the members without realizing it; 'guys, don't cut y/n a big piece of cake she has en ed'

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HAN

'what? why wouldn't you eat?'

it doesnt make sense to him

he's always stressing about it and asking if u ate

makes u send photos of finished meals to him

sends u recovery videos

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SEUNGMIN

'what? u don't eat? y/n.. how are u alive then?'

thinks it means u dont eat at all

makes low cal meals for u

never takes u on dates involving food

thinks he's helping but he's helping u get worse

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CHANGBIN

'that's nonsense babe. start working out with me instead, okay?'

brings u to the gym with him

sneaks high calorie ingredients into ur food

'if u keep starving yourself, you'll lose your best assets babe...'

sends u articles about ed deaths and ed horror stories

puts u on a meal plan

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WOOJIN

*beats you up until you vomit* 'see, i knew it. you had food in your stomach, you'll be fine'

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[starryslytherin0]

Motivation wasn’t motivating so here’s a oneshot with high school au Calypso (@dwightschrute11) and my girls

Cariad, Calypso and Avania were walking home from school. Avania was carrying their bags. Her own on her back, Cariad’s slung over her shoulder and Calypso’s in her hand. She normally offered to carry the bags. Cariad was babbling to Calypso about some dark haired lad who helped carry her books, one of the new foreign exchange students. Calypso interjected with some lighthearted threats in case the boy turned out to be a bitch. Avania heard the short blonde girl’s tinkling giggles.r

They went to Cal’s house. It was a tradition they’d started since 3rd year. Every October , they’d go to Calypsos house every day to watch a scary movie. Tonight was ‘Texas Chainsaw Massacre’ which seemed like it would be good. They’d complied a list of scary films they wanted to see in the run up to Halloween.

All of them crashed on Calypso’s bed and left the school bags in there, getting changed into some pyjamas. Calypso in her baggy pyjama bottoms and shirt, Cariad into her cute little white nightdress with shorts underneath for coverage, and Avania in her sports bra and sweatpants.

They all snuggled onto the couch, Cariad on Avania’s lap, as usual, and Cal snuggled into them. Avania reached behind her to pull a blanket over the trio. There was a bowl of snacks in front of them as Cal got the movie set up and sorted.

Cariad, being Cariad, blabbered through it, pointing out obvious mistakes and the stupidity of characters until Avania clapped a hand over the girls mouth “Cariad, respectfully, you’re going to miss information if you keep blabbering. We appreciate the comments and we know you’re too smart for a horror movie but the characters are stupid for a reason, yeah?” She ruffled the girls hair and her expression softened. “Don’t pout, c’mon, just watch and you can blab afterwards about plot holes.” She removed her hand from Cari’s mouth and Calypso laughed before getting caught off guard by a jump scare. They normally didn’t scare her, she was just surprised, as she’d been distracted. Avania was cackling, the psychopath. She found the films a comedy and would watch with a smirk on her face. “Scared, princess?” She teased the curly haired girl, absently twirling her fingers around the strands. “Was not! I was just distracted and it caught me off guard!” She huffed, though she cuddled into the pink haired girl more.

As the credits came to a close and the snack bowl was empty, they all talked about the film with delighted expressions. “I can’t believe that HE was the killer! There were so many red herrings!” Said Calypso eagerly. “It was obvious, in one scene there was blood on his boot and he said this small phrase while he was killing that girl that lead to the conclusion. The killer was obvious.” Cariad chipped in. “Ok miss ‘erm akshually’.” Avania snorted, nudging the smaller girl. The joy was short lived because they soon had to retreat to Cal’s room to do physics homework. But obviously they kept talking about the film and getting distracted.

And they’d get to do it all again tomorrow.

[1000kals]

I prefer this blog be 18+ as I'm 23. I try to block under 18s but if I accidentally follow you please block me.

Im pro-recovery and anti-fatspo. I mostly operate with a harm reduction mindset for my ED. (ie: I aim for 800-1,000 cals and workout everyday. I'm doing the keto diet rn) stopped doing keto and now mostly doing intermittent fasting and low carb. Still averaging about 800 a day

You can call me fern. I'm genderqueer (he/him). I'm a parent, crochet, painter and I love my cat.

DMs are open for friends, accountability buddies, and anyone (over 18) who just wants to talk.

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Cw: 137/62 (9/5/2024)

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[lcnelyghost]

imagine forcing the ahs boys to watch titanic with you bc it’s you’re ultimate fav!! ♥︎

a/n: i was rewatching titanic today and thought why not make a fic about it? titanic was such an excellent movie and definitely well made!! although, some scenes hit harder than others. potential warning if titanic triggers you in any sort of way!

GIFS ARE NOT MINE!!!!

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tate langdon:

• He’s heard his mother mentioning it a few times, I think it was probably on in the background one time though back then he didn’t pay much attention.

• Always shows a little bit of respect seeing as it was something that truly happened.

• Tate hates it when Cal walks onto the screen.

• Feels extremely bad for the children and animals who had to deal with the amount of mayhem that was going on whilst the ship was sinking.

• Doesn’t think Jack and Rose were necessary in the film, but he knows that Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio are good actors.

kit walker:

• One of his FAVOURITE movies to watch with you!

• He thinks the little bond Jack and Cora have is really sweet.

• Walks around the house trying to recreate the Irish dancing scene to get a giggle out of you.

• Gets really pissed that some men were paying people to put themselves first on a lifeboat before children.

• He almost shed a tear when Jack and Rose reunited after her death in the end. He’d 100% do that with you when the two of you were no longer alive.

kyle spencer:

• Okay, he actually saw Titanic as a kid and uh.. yeah. He’s traumatised.

• He gets really upset when you explain to him that the movie was based on real events.

• The noises the ship started to make when it began to go down, damn it terrifies him.

• Squeezes his eyes shut when the ship splits in half. Even you get slightly uncomfortable watching it.

• Kyle does actually think Titanic is good but he’s just a little scared of that really happening.

jimmy darling:

• A movie that he’ll secretly enjoy but not tell anyone about it.

• Always thinks the length of the movie is worth it.

• Elsa’s always blabbing on about how much she would’ve loved to be in it, so Jimmy just acts as though he’s never even seen it.

• He’s witnessed too many teenage girls giggling and squealing in the diner whilst talking about Jack Dawson.

• Jimmy won’t lie, Jack was a really great character. Probably someone he could relate to from time to time.

james patrick march:

• Constantly hits out with a wad of ways to try and justify how he could’ve been on the Titanic.

“My dear, I could’ve easily been on that ship! I could’ve been one of the ones who lost my life trying to flee from that horrible disaster!!”

“James.. i’m sure my grandparents also could have..”

“BUT MY LOVE, I COULD HAVE BEEN DEAD IN THE SEA! IT WAS DURING MY TIME!!! COULD YOU IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT MY BELOVED CORTEZ??”

• He secretly thinks that Rose is an extremely attractive woman. You couldn’t necessarily argue with that.

• Doesn’t see why people hate Cal so much. (Why James, WHYYYYYY)

• James LOVES LOVES LOVESSSS Titanic. He finds modern movies extremely uncomfortable, but he’s obsessed with this one.

• Despite him definitely not being one to do this himself, he thought Jack and Rose participating in the Irish dancing looked incredibly fun.

tristan duffy:

• Cracks really insensitive jokes whilst watching Jack and other people practically freezing to death in the water.

“Damn, you think his dick froze off from how cold that shit was?”

• As a teenager, he’d ask his mom if he could watch it just to get flashed by Kate Winslet’s tits.

• Rants for hours about how Rose promised she wouldn’t let go, BUT LET JACK FALL DEEPER INTO THE FUCKING WATER UNTIL HE SANK.

• Thought he could pull off the ‘Leonardo DiCaprio look’ when he was younger.

• WANTS TO RECREATE THE CAR SCENE SO BADLY 😭

dandy mott:

• Dandy’s incredibly jealous of the actors who worked on this movie. It’s one of his greatest desires to be starring in a film like Titanic.

• Has the excitement of a young child when you decide to put it on.

• He’s rather envious of Jack. Having such a free feeling like that.. it’s something Dandy has always wanted to experience.

• HE WANTS TO BUY YOU THE HEART OF THE OCEAN NECKLACE SO FUCKING BADDDD

• Half way through the film, you both watch with extreme sadness. Drowning was something that terrified Dandy. And you felt awful for the people who had to witness multiple loved ones doing so. Little did you and him both know…

[bucknastysbabe]

Heyyyyyy you know what it’s about to be my two years and I’ve learned lots about myself. A big one is overcommitting and making grand gestures out of guilt. I do have a wee struggle with feeling like I disappoint folx. Hence why I’ve been pretty much camping out on my kink blog (among other reasons) but mainly that I started the au bingo and FAILED.

So I’d like to apologize about starting up the au bingo and totally not being in a headspace to finish…any of them. So it’s on indefinite hiatus. I’m working on one very slowly and that’s it. So I screenshot those asks and saved them in a folder. My ask box is cleared now, just gonna start anew. I want to write more, but need to be small. Blurbs are helpful. Porny porn with no plot is helpful. Anyways I’m blabbing-

I think the holidays, getting this 2 years sobriety chip under my belt on Wednesday, and lighter classes will allow for more creativity and less burnout on the fandom that brought me here in the first place. My mental health twas wacky there for a bit.

I love the lovely people/mooties who always like my works and bring me so much happiness. You guys rock💚💙💛🩵

XOXO, Cal

[juliberrylive]

This game has been out for 5 years and I'm finally playing it! Part 1 of my first full playthrough of Star Wars: Jedi Fallen Order is finally here!

(no spoilers pls)

[galacticalamari]

Dagan had not only been asleep for 200 some years, but the last thing he remembered was someone close to him dismembering him.

No wonder he took so long to get up off the floor. He literally had not had any awake time to adapt to his disability. He was probably trying to use his missing arm to help him get up off the floor and it probably hurt like Hell. The fact he was even able to fight after all that is a testament to his strong will.

And Cal was sitting there blabbing away. He had no idea.

[marinersubmariner]

I finished Jedi Survivor, gotta blab about it!

SPOILER SPACE

BODE?!??!??!? I kept thinking he was gonna die, especially in the lead-up to the final Dagan fight—they gave him so many hallmarks of a tragic death that I never suspected a classic video game companion betrayal (one of my favorite things!!!)! So that twist threw me for a LOOP, not just the betrayal but then the reveal that HE WAS A JEDI TOO WHAAAATTTTTT!!??!?!?! Absolutely bananas.

It's funny because Dagan's death felt pretty anticlimactic, and I knew the game wasn't over yet so I was like… what else is there? And I still couldn't have anticipated how OH SHIT the "what else" part could be.

Because then it's PLAYABLE CERE!!!! Which was so fun because she felt SO powerful to play as, and the whole time I was reeling about the betrayal and why am I Cere now what the fuck what the fuck what the fuccckkkkk. And then as soon as the door opened on Vader I instantly got teary-eyed because I knew exactly how that was gonna end. Of COURSE you're out-of-left-field playing as Cere for her last stand. ;___; Of COURSE they couldn't include Vader just for the player to narrowly escape again. ;___; Cere wasn't even my favorite character and she felt so distant in this game, but having her death take place amidst the destruction of the archive that she'd been building that whole time, plus HER LAST WORD BEING "TRILLA," plus BEING MURDERED BY VADER EXACTLY LIKE TRILLA... way to make it as painful as it could possibly be!!!!!! I gotta say, not only do these games make Vader VERY scary, they also make me hate him more than ever. FUCK YOOOOUUU MURDER MACHINE

I am shocked they went all-in on Cal/Merrin just because… romance in Star Wars????? Since when??? Hahahahaaaa…….. I kid, I kid, we have fun. I love them. Although my main inclination in the first game was Cal/Trilla (it was immediately after TROS and the extreme Reylo of it got to me!!) and somewhere along the way I had gotten the impression that Merrin was a lesbian (or maybe that's just the default Nightsister vibe). But truly I consider everyone in SW to be bi/pan/ace/anything but fully straight, so honestly, whatever. Related side note: I was really pleasantly surprised by the directness about how many supporting characters here were gay!

I LOVED the first kiss followed by the totally bonkers portal-jumping battle, that was such cool teamwork. And the end of the game was sooooo saaaad but thankfully they both lived and so now I'm real emo about the orphan Jedi and the orphan witch and how far they've come since she tried to kill him. 😭

Backtracking a bit I REALLY enjoyed Dagan getting dumped out of the bacta tank, getting pissed off, and IMMEDIATELY bleeding his crystal. It was very ooooohhh SHIT dude making some major life decisions here!! So cool! So dramatic! Escalated so quickly! I'm pleased that I did end up enjoying Dagan a decent amount, because going into this I was annoyed by a) not liking Cody Fern's face and b) not liking the High Republic aesthetic.

Honestly I was very ready to dislike both Dagan and Bode because I was really not happy with the previews showing they added a bunch of dudes while hiding Merrin and Cere, and Trilla being dead…… blugh. But thankfully trailers are misleading and there was plenty of Merrin. (and her surprise entrance was THRILLLINNGGGG) And the dudes were alright and they wound up dead anyway. So! …Hm.

IT WAS SO SAD. I'M SO SAD. The "Ghost Star" lullaby was so pretty and haunting and it messed me up BAD, because of course I'm not just thinking of this game I'm thinking of all my dead Star Wars friends (and obvs one ghost in particular…….. sob). There are so many. Star Wars is littered with corpses. AND IT'S SO SAD.

Cal using the dark side was craazzzyyyyyy and when the first prompt for it came on screen I was like "uh oh!!!! I don't wanna." Wild how becoming more powerful in a video game can be so fun and so upsetting at the same time. I did actually die in the final fight with Bode because I refused to tap into the dark side when prompted, lol. I was like "maybe if I don't do it something different will happen!" Haha, nope! USE THE DARK SIDE OR DIE. Which is an interesting moral quandary for Star Wars, because if the dark side is always more powerful 100% of the time, and there are certain situations where it's either fight a dark side opponent or die… what does the Force really want you to do? Stick to the light side and be defeated? Is the ultimate end goal of the Force for everything to die and become one with it? AH JEEZ

Part of me expected Tanalorr to not work out in the end, because "magical top secret planet where we can hide and be safe forever" is obviously too good to be true. But I also think every pre-OT story is always having to find an out for why these characters weren't around for the OT, so in that sense of course Tanalorr had to work out! It's the perfect loophole for this time period! It just felt like every story beat was pointing to the dream of Tanalorr being too much of a corrupting influence—Dagan lost his arm, Santari, and then his life because he refused to let go, and then Bode did the same, and I thought it would come down to Cal also facing that dark path and being forced to give up the dream, like by having to choose between Merrin and Tanalorr. In Grail quests you always have to give up the Grail! But no, now they're really gonna live in the ethereal weird forbidden promised land. FEELS CREEPY BUT OKAY

On the one hand I do kind of wish there had been more planets to explore—it felt strange for the journey to be less expansive than Fallen Order. But there was still so much to do on Koboh and they had some cool locations in there nonetheless. I'm just greedy for ~*~galactic exploration~*~! Anyway they made up for it with the strong story, because I think the plot and character work in this one were even better than Fallen Order.

I'm not sure how to piece it all together but I liked the small late-game talk of Vader and the Inquisitorius acting outside of regular Imperial command, when you're undercover and you get the scoop that there's a rivalry with the ISB and that the Jedha attack that happened was not the Jedha attack that was planned. Empire/Sith infighting, Vader vs. Tarkin and Krennic, how does stifled ISB employee Dedra Meero fit into all this, hm hm hm much to think about. Bode was a former Jedi being used by the Empire but he wasn't an Inquisitor—it was the same thing in the end but the particular type of tragedy was different. Wizards in the Empire but the Empire hates wizards, which type of leash are they gonna put you on and who's actually holding the leash?

Fav saloon regulars: TURGLE, of course I knew everybody loved Turgle, what a goober, A+, amazing frog; Caij, because apparently it's a biological imperative that all Nautolans are cool as hell; best bartender Monk; and I particularly enjoyed all the conversations with Tulakt and Moran.

Of course I was thrilled when I first encountered Skoova, his little hover fishing schooner was the BEST. Just an absolutely stellar amount of funky alien dudes in this game.

The powerful heavy swings that the crossguard stance uses…… hehehehehehehehehe. Where did they get that idea I wonder!!!!!! The only thing is that I don't like how small and thin the High Republic-style quillons are, so the aesthetic isn't as satisfying and proportional as Kylo's saber. You gotta beef up those crossguards fellas!

I didn't know that there was an interim story to explain why Greez has a prosthetic arm now, so I was like "did I really forget THAT MUCH of Fallen Order?" Even I can't keep up with all these Star Wars! I liked Greez a lot in the first game (MY PLANT GUY!!!!) but I really loved him even more in this one—he seemed much softer than I remember with his devotion to Cal and their whole family unit. And his braided hair of course delighted me.

And speaking of delightful new hair: Merrin's haircut! I LOVE HER SO MUCH. They gave her so much great deadpan humor while also enhancing her emotional maturity, so not only is she still super cool she's also soft and nice when it's called for, and I'M SO GLAD SHE DIDN'T DIE.

Kata is extremely cute and I'm already dreading her looming apprenticeship and the long-term outcome of who makes it to the next generation. I'm always having to remind myself of the bigger picture that Cal is older than Luke. And I certainly can't handle the thought of old Cal or dead Cal, but when you add kids into the mix, that's where this is headed!!!!!!

I took so many goddamn screencaps I'm probably only gonna post a minuscule fraction of them, but there were so many good aesthetic things and fun details to look at. And honestly part of my excessive snapping away involved lofty notions of using things as fanart reference. I LOVED all the new hair and wardrobe options because I absolutely just used Cal for Ben Solo AU cosplay. 🤪😎🤩✌️💀 The windswept hair is so good!!!! I mean I mainly chose it to look like Ben but it also just looked really good on Cal, to the point where it's hard to see him with short hair anymore, although I really should try out some of the goofier looks. (so many facial hair options that I hate and look stupid on precious ginger babyface!!!)

I just get soooooo excited about being able to explore and take pictures inside a Star Wars thing, and play dress-up and pick hairstyles and decorate and do all that silly life sim stuff but in space! Games capture such a unique experience of discovering worldbuilding minutiae, and I love having the ability to just look at things and take in the environment at your own pace, it makes me so happy. Even the goofy LEGO game gave me that feeling. It's just so nice! I love wandering! Observing! Interacting! Running my little guys around! Having my own experience that can't be easily ruined by a shitty story!

It's made me reminisce about playable Kylo and Rey in Battlefront and how I wish you could combine them with the exploration/story/gameplay style of the Jedi games and the [nearest approximation of] post-canon Ben Solo of the LEGO game, and THAT would probably be my ideal Star War (outside of, you know, a new movie that checks off every single item on my impossible wish list hahahaaagdhagdsf). Dress them up and customize their lightsabers and their home base and their spaceship and give them a droid friend and a garden and take them on new adventures on new planets… The Dream 😭

I actually started ruminating on whether I can do screencap mashups of Battlefront character models in Survivor outfits/environments, because I can't do mods, I am just a simple photoshopper and console gamer, but I want to pretend!!!!!! The problem is I don’t really like the Battlefront faces because they all look dead in the eyes. :/ The idea I settled on is that I might do some straight-up redraws instead. (WE'LL SEE. But the fact that I'm even mentioning this should tell you how completely lost in the sauce I am.) I briefly went looking and of course people have made Ben Solo mods for Survivor, but what you really gotta do is graft Cal's customization options onto Bode's body type or else it doesn't look right. Y'KNOW?!?? Size… matters……… I'm so sorry Yoda

Anyway!!!!!! Excellent gaming experience despite being terrible at Jedi parkour! Now back to tending my garden, hunting down post-game Force echoes, and rearranging Cal's wardrobe