#Cal Convo

[carelesscalcitrant]

F.A.Q.

Q: Who're you? A: I'm Cal. Autistic, transfem, Homestuck fan, other fandoms fan. I've been writing for a good eight years and have been intermittently drawing for longer. I'm a better writer, though.

Q: What can we expect from your blog? A: Fan content: fic, art, meta posting. I'll keep reblogs to a minimum/topical. Primarily HS content, though.

Q: How can I reach you? A: My main is @g0ji, Ao3 is @Synstylae. That's where I'll be following from.

Q: BYF criteria? A: HS post-canon critical, June Egbert, Vriska sucks. If you disagree with these, feel free to follow me anyway, it's just text informing you of my opinions.

Q: Can I ask you relatively minor things as we delve deeper into this rabbit hole of questioning? A: Sure, it'll go below the cut that's beneath us.

Q: Favorite HS characters? A: Rose, Dirk, Terezi, Jade, Davepetasprite^2 in no particular order.

Q: Favorite flush ships? A: Rosemary (lol), Junesprose, Jaderezi

Q: Favorite pitch ships? A: Vrisdavepeta, Junerezi

Q: Personal HS classifiers? A: Knight of Light, Derse, violet blood.

Q: Do you kin Rose Lalonde? A: Would you like me to.

Q: How can anybody have asked you these questions if you had zero followers when you made it? A: It's a hypothetical person who makes it more fun to talk about myself than baseless talking into the void.

Q: But you are talking into the void, you've just made a dialogue partner to make it more interesting to read, didn't you? A: Yes.

Q: That seems masturbatory. A: It is.

Q: Do you kin Dirk Strider? A: Would you like me to.

[fandomowltrash]

the archive

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Thinking about Normal who so badly needs validation and to be loved but struggles to seek it in a manner that is honest. Thinking about Lincoln who loves all his friends deeply but has developed a strong aversion to lying after being lied to all his life. Thinking about Lincoln and Normal's hearts being in the same place but never at the same time. Thinking about Lincoln's attention constantly being divided and pulled apart in the struggle to care for all of his friends at once, and Normal needing the surefire but infinitely distant reassurance of being someone's one and only. Thinking about their current relationships with their dads being the most similar in the group, and what they both saw in Wrath. Thinking about them never actually having time to talk with each other without something or someone getting in the way. Thinking about a cleric and a paladin who really have so much in common and could be such good friends, but whose circumstances leave their trajectories perpetually misaligned and their relationship one of the weakest in the group.

[calkestis]

greez is never letting cal off the hook

[thehalfbloodfreak]

On Jedha if Merrin watches Cal meditate she comments on it and it’s the cutest thing ever—

Merrin: You look peaceful when you do that.

Cal *probably blushing*: You were watching me?

Merrin: Yes.

[trcelyneart]

Alright now I have officially made one (1) fanart, it's time to contribute with fanfiction too

[thedeafprophet]

hand still down for the count today but can pick away at some pixels with my mouse :3c

[aerticent]

Cal and Maven thoughts (again)

The multiple instances of Cal almost mentioning Maven KILLS ME. Like that moment in GS when he's trying to comfort the child who's terrified of their ability, so much so that they refuse to even want to learn how to use it, so Cal mentions how he used to be scared of hurting other with his ability as well and he gets so close to mentioning how he was terrified of hurting Maven specifically and that this fear of hurting HIS LITTLE BROTHER is what motivated him to learn how to control it. Or the time in KC where he's trying to convince Cameron to not go and get her brother just yet and she accuses him of not understanding what it's like and he says, "i do if it was… I get it" LIKE STFU RN

like he loves his little brother so much he can never move on from him everything he does is plagued by thoughts of Maven because so much of his heart is Maven I can't breathe he buried Maven on tuck away from everyone and everything because he wanted Maven to finally have some peace and quiet

[antianakin]

So in the Caretaker Luke AU, I think someone in the New Republic is probably connected to Cal or Cal's refuge on Tanalorr and is able to get a message to the Jedi to call them in for Anakin's trial because if anyone deserves to speak or have final say on what happens to him, it's the Jedi. Especially the ones left who survived Order 66. They also need help with guards for Anakin because there's a worry that someone might try to kill him while they're holding him during the trial.

So Cal shows up with Kata and Reva, who Cal found a few years after she left the Inquisitorius.

Leia of course is fairly skeptical of Reva's sudden appearance. Last she'd seen Reva, Reva had been a seemingly loyal Inquisitor for Darth Vader. Reva doesn't mind telling Leia her true story, though, and Leia chooses to bury that particular hatchet.

Cal is the one chosen to speak for the Jedi at the trial, while Reva and Kata guard Anakin. Anakin recognizes Reva, of course, and asks her why she's here, why she's bothering to protect him when he knows she'd rather see him dead. Reva tells him that she had wanted to look him in the eyes one last time and see if she can see a person looking back, instead of a monster. The Jedi are supposed to care about everyone, and she's been trying to get back to that, trying to be the kind of person who would make a good Jedi, but caring about everyone is exhausting. She keeps looking for a way to care about him, tried to tell herself he had a hard childhood but then so did a lot of people, tried to tell herself that he was clearly damaged but then so is everyone in some way. And she knows, better than most, that he's not possessed or controlled by Palpatine in any way. So protecting him now, it's not mercy. She wanted to let the New Republic kill him, and Anakin says she should just let them do it or kill him herself, but Reva tells him that he doesn't get the easy way out. If she has to live with what he's done for the rest of her life, he does, too.

At the trial, when they ask what the Jedi would ask to be done with Anakin, Cal argues for no execution. He tells them that while he was young when the Republic fell and was replaced with the Empire, he knew that the Republic was supposed to stand for justice for all. The Republic wasn't what it was meant to be by the end and it allowed itself to become something that stood only for selfishness and greed because it was run by people who were controlled by fear. He says that this New Republic should not fall to the same mistakes, that if it wants any chance to succeed where the Republic and the Empire failed, it needs to start on a new path, one of compassion and mercy. Executing Anakin, while deserved, only means more bloodshed. This New Republic needs to be better than that. If there are alternate solutions, they should find them rather than taking the easier solution simply because it's there.

Luke offers to be Anakin's guardian, to watch over him until Anakin's death, promises he will keep Anakin from continuing to rain down vengeance and violence upon the galaxy. The New Republic agrees to this solution.

Luke goes to thank Cal for his support after the trial, for speaking up for Anakin. Cal tells him that he didn't do it for Anakin, he did it for the New Republic, to try to ensure that the galaxy they all have to live in for the rest of their lives becomes a kinder place than it has been for a long time. Luke understands and accepts this.

Luke tells Cal how excited he was to hear that there were more Jedi, that there might be a whole planet of surviving Jedi he could meet and if it would be possible for him to go there. Cal tells him that while the Jedi survivors would be happy to meet him, they're also still refugees of the Empire, in hiding as they recover. It was Anakin who destroyed them last time and then hunted them down for 20 years and they've been lucky enough to keep this particular location a secret from him and the Empire for as long as they have; Cal refuses to put what remains of his people at risk (he hadn't been particularly happy about Reva and Kata insisting on accompanying him to this trial, but they'd both insisted and he respected that it was their choice to make). There's also just plenty of people on that planet who never want to see Anakin again and he won't force that trauma onto them if he doesn't have to. And Luke can no longer go anywhere without Anakin. Cal tells Luke that they can't even give him the name and location of the planet in case Anakin plucks it out of Luke's mind. They've only survived this long by being VERY careful about keeping it as secret as possible.

Cal is obviously very sympathetic and apologetic throughout the entire explanation, but it doesn't remove the sting of the rejection and they both know it. Luke just agreed to reap the consequences of Anakin's actions, and this was the first time he truly understood what that sacrifice was going to mean for him.

[masteryaddleisagilf]

Cal: Did you know Master Yaddle. Greez asked Cere about her once. I think he had a crush. BD-1: Boop! Eno Cordova: Master Yaddle was stong-willed. A strange sense of humor. I enjoyed her company immensely. Cal: My master was her Padawan. He said she trained harder than anyone he knew. Which was really something, if you knew Jaro Tapal.

[flammabel]

I found this last night and for some reason I still can't stop chuckling to myself.

Cal is such a smartass sometimes. I love it. 😂

Even BD joined in. 😆

[carelesscalcitrant]

Finished my Homestuck reread. What a thing that was. Or something

[moogghost]

my favourite hobby is allowing myself to say one (1) thing on a discourse post where the op is being a dumbass and immediately blocking them and moving on with my life bc i've learned to not spend that much time on it and i only do when i'm mass reblogging shit or if i think it's funnier to do the above since i Know it'll make them mad that i blocked them and thinking about them seething makes me giggle (i don't do this often if at all bc i don't like replying to comments)

it's literally so funny especially in this case bc they're just crying about how mspec lesbians and lesboys don't exist with repeated posts on their blog like........do u have any personality besides hating these specific queer people you don't like. it's honestly sad lol

[beefcakeash]

[lo-cinno]

I want to get back into writing again bc of him so bad

But fuck I do not rmb how to write fanfics

[mur-art]

My partner (J- who is from SoCal, whereas I grew up in the Midwest; this is relevant I swear) and I had a kind of hilarious California-related misunderstanding yesterday and it felt very Table-esque, so I have to share it with y'all.

Me: So, how was work today?

J: Pretty good; tried to go to our work site on the coast but the highway was closed because of flooding.

Me: Oh, which highway?

J: The one.

Me: ... Which one?

J: ...The one.

Me: Which one? There's more than one highway that goes there, isn't there??

J: 😂😂 The ONE.

Me: ...

J: Let me translate what I just said into Midwestern for you: DUDE, Highway Number 1 got TOTALLY flooded so they closed it. Pretty gnarly, bro.

Me: 😅😅😅