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Artists on Instagram and tiktok and most other sites are the strongest people on earth because the comments are always fied with so many stupid people. I'd be murdering them if that was on my posts.
People have no idea what the fuck art is.
#for context: a bunch of people hating on someone for creating art in a fun way.#it was abstract art#the person in the video was just throwing paint on the canvas and they were using different objects to make interesting pattens and stuff#and the comments were just FILLED with people going 🤡“#like SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP.#“i could do this too” OKAY DO IT THEN#ART IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN. THE PERSON IS LITERALLY JUST HAVING FUN#also i hate hate hate when someone posts “bad art” on purpose and the comments tell them how their 3 year old child could do it better-#LIKE OH MY FUCKING GOD. SHUT UR GOD DAMN MOUTH. NO ONE CARES.#THE ART IS BAD ON PURPOSE. ITS THE ART STYLE. THE “UGLY” IS ON PURPOSE. ITS SUPPOSED TO LOOK LIKE THAT#ALSO. STOP BEING MEAN TO NEW ARTISTS WHO ARE JUST STARTING OUT TOO#LIKE FUCK DUDE#art isnt just realism and proper body proportions its literally whatever the fuck you want it to be#you created something and you had fun doing so? congrats you made art! doesnt matter if its good or not you made it!!! its art!!!!@@#idk people just have no idea what art is.#not every artwork is gonna look like a fucking monet painting
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Y'all I am so fucking tired.
Me: vents about being shit on by doctors and struggling with ND symptoms in public
People: UM!!! AKTUALLY THAT IS NOW HOW YOU TALK ABOUT AUTISM! YOU ARE USING THE WRONG WORDS!!! LIKE I AM SO SORRY ITS HARD FOR YOU BUT UR MAKING IT SO HARD FOR PEOPLE WITH REALER DISORDERS :(((((
Me sitting here, not autistic and never once mentioning autism but with several other ND diagnoses that don't get taken seriously because US culture is a shit show and it doesn't exist if they've never heard of it, am never allowed to self advocate and constantly shut out of both NT and ND spaces for not fitting into the boxes people want, staring at the camera like I am on the office on the verge of tears.
Yes internet, people can 'go nonverbal', it is a real phrase for real symptoms and not just a term for someone permanently mute! No it is not 'just a meltdown' and calling an autistic person's symptoms 'just' anything is completely self defeating anyway, and so is saying I can't use the phrase nonverbal anymore because I have shown improvement in my conditions over the course of decades of hard work! I fucking HATE PEOPLE SO MUCH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#eljin talks#medical shit#vent post#im sorry guys i apparently am just not allowed to ever open my mouth ever anywhere without someone telling me im wrong#we need to reteach passive aggression i s2g one more bitch goes#but i didnt use mean words and added ur valid at the end of implying youre a bad person for using ur diagnosis term wrong :( ur overreacting#like ffs#'oh im so sorry that happened but ur wrong and hirting hypothetical people who must have it worse than u bc theres no way its that bad'#CONGRATS YOU NOW SOUND JUST LIKE THE PROBLEMATIC ASSHOLES WHO ARE THE REASON PEOPLE GET DENIED DIABILITY#YOU ARE PART OF THE PROBLEM DOUCHECANNOES#'um u dont have that only rly sick people have that :('#HAVE U CONSIDERED I AM REALLY SICK SUSAN?????#this is the gods damned eauivelant of telling me i shouldnt use the handicapped parking incase someone more diabled than me needs it#lets take the dsm5 and use it to make moltav cocktails to pelt abelists and gatekeepers#oh also 'well if talking about it is triggering then you shouldnt talk about it :('#talking about it ISNT karen being treated like a 5 year old and or serial killer while trying to share something vulnerable is!
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Robots deserve a little kiss, as a treat-
I’ve been reading @bamsara ‘s Solar Lunacy fanfic for a while and they just finished arc one so I figured I’d kick my ass outta artblock and doodle my own little Y/N with my favorite little jesters-
#If the image quality is bad just click the pic 😩#solar lunacy#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#fnaf sb#fnaf y/n#solar lunacy y/n#daycare attendent#fnaf#daycare attendant x y/n#moon x y/n#sun x y/n#my art tag#five nights at freddy's#idk what else to tag#but Bam! if you see this I love your fic very much!!!#congrats on ur fic becoming a year old and an end to the arc!
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i know i expect too much, and not enough all at once!
#ts4#ts4 edit#sims#sims edit#the sims 4#bunni#this is ur call that save rock n roll is 10 yeras old#and us hould go watch all the mvssssssssss because they fundamentally changed me as a teenager#save rock n roll is the SLAYEST album sorry but im right ok anyway bye#i miss her soooo much this is my darling angel gerl#she desreves a little edit i thinnk it was her bday!!!!!!!!!!!! it hink its like april 7th or smth#shes like 5 yrs old. congrats bunni!!!!!!!!!!
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Made this for a Convo w a mutual on Twitter after posting excerpts from a paper I was reading lmaoo
#philip augustus#tliw#My edits#blah blah blah most punchable guy but very entertaining etc#Congrats shitty old man#Ur anglosphere pop culture legacy is being my personal yaoi doll
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u go in the comments of ANY song about sex and all the comments are like ermm🤯 did ANYONE know this song was about s-s-SEX ... childhood RUINED.
#txt#especially if the song is either mostly innuendo or in a language other than english#proseka fans are SO ANNOYING about this like girl ur on a deco*27 song called rabbit hole YES ITS ABOUT SEX#like jm sorry GROWUPPPP its so annoyign lmfao . im aware theyre probably like 15 years old#complaining 😁 this was actually about cake by the ocean . No its not about cake all 900000 of you figured it out congrats man#my problem is i hear a song and think its about sex and its about the fallout of a nuclear bomb and i go ohhhhhh .yeah that makes sense
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bro my cat decided to give birth in my closet 💀 now I not only have 1 cat but also 4 kittens
I am so jealous of this problem osbsksbsnsb
#my old man cat is lethal tho he'd probably eat them#i mean he has no teeth but he'd try#Congrats on ur kittens ODHEKDBDNDN
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i miss it here sometimes. everyone has straight up abandoned it in favor of twitter
#sometimes i think about how active it was on tumblr when botw came out and i’m like oh then all the hubbub should be back for totk!!!#but then#it’s like#bro that was 2017 it’s fucking 2023 now lmfaoooooooo#the culture the populace it’s just….. gone#not here anymore#but twitter is kind of too fast paced for the kind of content i’m looking for#and obviously the tagging/archiving system on here is eons better than twitter#it’s just the yunguns these days have never even made a tumblr account#if you’re reading this ur old now congrats
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so clear when ppl just like . DO NOT read my carrd and just follow because ONE POST of mine exploded . get out of my house !!!
#peach patter#if ur one of the ppl who followed me bc of that and is STILL following me rn#congrats bc ive found ur blog tolerable enough to let u hang in my house#but i keep getting like . 30yr olds and 14yr olds following me . there is in no world in which my blog is suitable for either audience#also had to update my carrd bc of the amnt of 14-15yr olds following and realizing that i Do Not want ppl that young following me#i rb too many posts abt jerking it nasty style . u know how it is
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“fob sees our posts” well they better look away unless they wanna get slutty with it on stage for the entertainment of us 20-something gay ass girlfailures that inhabit foblr dot com 🙄✋
#DHDJGNFKKGJFJFNGML#i dont really believe the anon#but in any other case i would believe pete watches from afar from time to time. not often but he has#its the most plausible#the other 3 however do not give a damn LMFAO#patrick u cant know that ur our collective 39 yr old girlfriend. but if u do. well congrats#skulltxt
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protip: women with internalized misogyny who fail to realize they act and speak in a sexist manner and use derogatory terms as a form of self-empowerment, lift themselves up by putting down other women and think they “can’t be sexist because they’re women” will never understand or follow thru the girl code.
run. just run.
they aren’t your friend. they just want the maximum amount of attention from everyone and they will not hesitate in cutting you open and throwing you under a bus to get it. you’re not important, you’re just convenient.
you’re just convenient. Let that sink in.
you’re just there for the lols. You’re just a distraction, entertainment, you’re in the right timezone laughing at the right jokes. but you don’t matter.
and they will not bat an eyelash when they get the chance at a dagger thru your flesh, just to try what it feels like.
no deeper reason than that, no greater cause than curiosity.
Self-centered people can also have low self-esteem. Women can be sexist. It’s not a bundle package, you literally chose the worst custom settings.
#listen I have more friends than I have the social energy to catch up with#when someone isn’t able to keep friendships for longer than 3 years and is always bff hopping than THAT IS A MASSIVE RED FLAG#when ppl ‘stop caring and keep leaving them‘ then maaaaaaaaaaaybe is not that all their friendships are toxic#MAYHAPS they’re the toxic ones and everyone ends up seeing their true colors JUST SAYING#if I had a dime for every time I heard a story and begged them to ‘cut off their toxic friendships’#turns out now I’M the main lead in those rumors lmfao congrats I played myself#toxic friendships#be like this#true story listen to your old friend momo fellas#I went thru this so YOU wouldn’t have to ; ur welcome
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Idk what I set em to bc if I’m not bothering to put pants on I’m also not gonna put my glasses on so I couldn’t see anything but I do know they looked like they were gonna be on all night which. Your welcome world. Me your savior
#I’m about to school an old man#congrats moron ur doing it wrong#I’ll probably have to set it#whatever idc
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the return of the homework post-it doodles: fandom i would bet money nobody following me is in (1st pic) + doodles of an au for it (2nd pic) edition
#i need you to understand I’ve been obsessed with this unfinished series project since i was 11#im 22 now. This runs deep bro#i will draw karl (guy with the eye scar) until i am in the ground#and i will never know peace bc his creator made it in the industry and never came back to his old projects#big congrats to him and all that but every day.. every day i hope……#if ur wondering why im not saying the name of it it’s bc I don’t want these anywhere near the tag 💀#just look up karl lot if ur curious#j.stupidity
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I'm happy to see your blog back on my dash, I relate to most of the things you post/reblog and you seem like such a lovely person.
So your blog just has to remind of Feeling Good by Nina Simone, well cause it's just so good all around! It really gives me that nice feeling of being content and cozy <3
darling, you don’t even know how warm inside that made me feel!
i love this song, it’s so hopeful and feels like a hug
assign me a song i would put on my blog’s impossible to turn off autoplay in the late 2010s
#thank you so much for ur kind words aaahhhh!!#you have no idea how much you cheered me up#i’m sitting there smiling on public transport#congrats on being the answer to years old who has u smiling on ur phone like that question#<3#i hope ur day is at least half as awesome as you are!!#ask me(me)
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DIRTY AIR | Rafe Cameron
MASTERLIST (oneshot) | x Maybank!Female Reader
Summary — When Rafe wants you as a late-night booty call, you’re going to make him work for it. Word Count. 2.2K.
Content — 18+, smut, lots of banter, sexting, fingering, oral (female receiving), and the usual Maybank-Rafe tension. Reader is a bitch, a tease, stubborn, dominant, and uses a dab pen.
lıllılı Breathe (Rap Version) by Blu Cantrell, Sean Paul
When you exit the shower, you receive a text from Rafe.
RC: come over
It's not surprising that he's texting you at this hour. It's half past ten and Rafe is always in a horny mood. You roll your eyes as you type your reply.
You: no thanks
RC: i haven't seen u in forever
You: yeah? and how does that make you feel?
RC: don't be a bitch
You: ur the one texting me
You pause, fingers dancing over the keypad, before deciding to add: show me how much you miss me
You don't get an immediate response, but you don't care, dropping your phone onto the desk, and looking at your reflection through the vanity. The towel covers your body, your hair dripping wet from the recent wash, and your face fresh from makeup.
As you ponder on what to do next, whether you should do a new coat of black polish, your phone buzzes on the desk. Your eyes glance down at the preview, noting it's a photo from Rafe.
A dick pic.
The shot captures his cock fisted in his hand, in the darkness of his bedroom, and the fine muscles of his thighs on display. You feel a pulse of desire shoot to your core.
A text follows: better?
You bite your bottom lip, holding back a smile, and contemplate your response.
You: it isn't worse
RC: fuck off
RC: do u need a ride?
You: i don't remember saying yes
RC: are u serious
You: how do i know that wasn't already loaded on your phone?
The next photo came quickly. This time, in the same position, Rafe sends a picture with his middle finger up, signet ring glistening. You laugh.
RC: ur turn
Just before you can tease him further, another text follows: if i gotta fuck my hand tn, at least give me something to jerk off to
You can't stop the grin from rising on your lips, shaking your head, and deciding, for once—just this once—you'll be agreeable.
Dropping your towel to the floor, you stand in front of your mirror with nothing but a pair of panties loosely around your hips. You angle the camera in front of the reflection, using one arm to cover your tits. Then, you snap the photo and click send.
The response is instantaneous.
RC: take off ur arm.
You: cant, my tits are meant to be experienced live
RC: ur killing me here
You: poor boy
RC: how am i supposed to jerk off to that
You: use ur imagination
RC: i’d rather have u here
You: is that supposed to be romantic
RC: fuck romance i wanna fuck
You: keep going cameron, i’m swooning
RC: ykw, fuck it, i'm coming over
Your heart stutters and you quickly type a response: no you can't
But you don't receive a reply.
Minutes pass but the text remains unread. Half of you want to pick up the phone and call him but decided against it. It's stupid. You won't be the first to submit. He's not going to take this much energy from you. If Rafe does show up, you simply won't answer the door.
You resume your nightly routine. Changing into an old shirt and shorts, you take a final hit from your dab pen, and just as you're about to head off to bed, a knock on your door reveals JJ.
"What?" You greet your little brother, despite not seeing him the entire day. At least he's home safe.
"I just got back from the Chateau," he informs, causing your brows to pull together.
"Congrats?"
"Thanks," he leans against the wall next to your doorway, right beside your desk, "and guess who I met waiting outside our house?"
Your shoulders drop. "He isn't."
"He is," JJ declares with an obnoxious click of his tongue, shaking his head in that little brother shake of disapproval, but not having any real authority to change the circumstance. "He offered me twenty bucks to convince you to meet him."
You squint your eyes at him. "Did you take it?"
"Of course," JJ holds up the folded twenty between his fingertips and you scoff. "You're gonna meet him anyways. If the Kook's throwing away free money, might as well take it."
You shake your head at him, but truth be told, you would do the same. "You have no loyalty."
"Am I wrong?"
"Yes," you affirm stubbornly, now having another reason not to go to Rafe. "I'm not going to see him."
"That's not what he's saying."
"What? You and Rafe gossiping about me now?"
"Yeah, we're best buds now," he draws sarcastically, before pushing himself off the wall and knocking his knuckles against your desk, as if to test how solid the wood is, before pulling back. "Whatever you do, just don't fuck in the house. The walls are thin and I'd rather not hear you getting freaky."
He walks away, without closing the door, and you yell after him, "Yeah, and remember that whenever you invite Kie over!"
JJ doesn't say anything, flipping you off, but you laugh, and knowing without a doubt that your brother is carrying a similar expression. When JJ leaves, you grab your phone nearby on your nightstand. Still, no text. You wonder if Rafe truly believed JJ was going to fulfill his promise and drag you out of the house.
You decided to test it.
You: ur little plan didn't work
RC: maybe
You: my brother doesn't like u
RC: and i don't like him
You: then why are u here?
RC: thought i made that clear
You: go ask one of ur other girls
RC: nah
The chat bubble comes up before disappearing. Finally, a text comes through: none of them are u
You can't stop the swarm of butterflies from fluttering in your stomach and you hate how easily you fall for his words. Rafe's nothing but a casual fuck, which you're using a little too often, and you decide to push back.
You: i'm not coming outside
RC: maybe
You: i'm going to sleep
RC: then why are u still texting me
You lock your jaw, hating the flush rising to your cheeks from being called out. You decide not to entertain a response, dropping your phone on the nightstand, facing up, and snuggle into your blanket. You're about to close your eyes but the bedroom door remains open.
There's something aggravating about its presence that, with a huff, you throw your comforter off your body and march up to the door to slam it close, flooding the room into complete darkness. When you're about to go back to bed, the tiny space lights up from a notification on your phone.
RC: are u really going to sleep?
You: u thought i was bluffing?
RC: nah, but i just imagined it would be hard
You: why?
RC: because once u close ur eyes, all ur gonna do is picture me
You: ur so full of yourself
RC: ur telling me u won't imagining me between ur thighs rn? my fingers could be rubbing your sweet pussy and get u real nice and wet
RC: ur always so wet for me
You: shut up
RC: and when ur dripping, i finally put my fingers in. just one for now, just to tease u
RC: while i'm fingering u, ur moaning with that sweet little voice of yours, begging me to go faster
RC: i do.
You squeeze your thighs together, feeling the ember of heat spreading from your core and causing your entire body to ache. God, you need release, and you find your free hand between your legs, stroking your panty-clad pussy to find the patch drenched. You hiss from the sensitivity, just as more texts come through.
RC: and when i drop my face down to find ur clit
RC: you'll moan my name, won't you baby?
Your fingers enter your wet pussy, but the girth isn't enough, and while you're pumping yourself, it isn't the same. You're imagining him—goddamnit, you're imagining him—and how he can do it so much better.
More text pings, but your head is tipped back, trying to bring yourself to your own release with no relief. When minutes pass and nothing but an incessant throb pulses through your core, you decide enough is enough.
Throwing your covers off, you march to the front door and whip it open, finding Rafe leaning against his motorcycle, phone in hand. His eyes immediately find you and a conceited smirk rises to his lips, "changed your mind?"
"Shut up."
You grab his shirt, not bothering for small talk, and pull him into your house, threading through the narrowed space before finding your room. When the door closes, you push Rafe against it, pushing your slick-covered fingers through his mouth, forcing him to suck.
He does, and a look of surprise and lust passes through his features.
"You gonna fuck me like you promised?" You challenge in a whisper.
He pulls your fingers out, "Use me, baby. Make yourself feel good."
With that satisfaction, you're about to turn around to go to your bed, but Rafe tugs on your wrist, pulling you back. "Not so fast."
His lips slam onto yours and Rafe kisses you desperately. You taste yourself faintly on his tongue, and one of his hands cups under your chin before slipping down, pulling at the thin material of your shirt, messing with the hems of your shorts.
Rafe pulls away, teeth tugging at your bottom lip before releasing and mumbling harshly. "I need these fucking clothes off."
"You're here now," you step back just an inch, "do it yourself."
Rafe grabs the hem of your shirt and swiftly peels it off, before both hands land on either side of your waist, slowly, sultrily lowering your shorts as he sinks himself to his knees. Rafe guides you back, allowing you to meet the foot of your bed frame, and when he evicts you of your clothes completely, he pushes you onto the mattress.
"Fuck, Maybank," Rafe groans to himself, "you're dripping."
"Like you promised, huh?"
With a smug look, his fingers brush against your aching cunt, rough fingers grazing your slit in vertical strokes. You instantly jolt into his hand, causing him to use his free hand to hold down your hips.
His dark blue eyes are trained on your pussy, and you can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of need to say something. To prompt him to go faster. Rougher.
"This isn't for you," you proclaim with a low rasp, "this is for me."
"Whatever you tell yourself so I can fuck you."
A digit pumps inside you—like he said—slow and steady at first, but the girth alone causes you to clench around it. Before long, he adds another and another, curling his fingers inside of you, fingertips grazing against your sensitive walls.
Your head tips back against your sheets, breathy moans escaping you. You feel yourself building up to a white-hot pleasure, the familiar one that you've been chasing ever since his texts, but comes so easily with Rafe.
"Come on, baby," Rafe taunts, going faster. "Scream my name."
"Fuck off, Cameron," you stammer through a moan.
He chuckles to himself. "Close enough."
His face lowers to capture your clit and he sucks hard, making you see stars. Your fingers thread through his hair, pushing him closer to your cunt, throwing your legs over his shoulders.
Rafe usually loves being the dominant one, but something about you—chasing your own pleasure, using him as a mere toy for your own release—makes his inside buzz. He fucking loves it. With you and no one else.
Desperate moans cascade out of your lips, so needy, Rafe is reeling from the sound and safekeeping it into his memory. His name falls from your lips, and he channels his enthusiasm until he's knuckle-deep inside you with his mouth working over your swollen nub.
You come hard while Rafe guides you through your orgasm, slowing down his thrusts. Once you ride it to completion, Rafe retreats his fingers and pulls you to the ledge of the mattress, forcing you back into a sitting position.
His eyes leveled with yours, your breathing is harsh while Rafe studies your features. The look on your face post-orgasm, the way your lips are parted with a fuckable pout, and the way your eyes are on him. Only him.
Slowly, you take his hand, the one slick with your arousal, and raise it to your mouth, pushing his fingers between your lips. You suck him clean, never breaking eye contact, and Rafe swears he's never seen a more erotic sight.
When he pulls his hand back, he uses it to cup the nape of your neck and pulls you into a kiss. It came as a surprise to you; the way his tongue plays with yours, tasting you, needing you.
Then, a loud banging from one side of your wall causes you to jump back. JJ's voice follows, "Can you keep it down over there?!"
It takes a beat before you burst out laughing, Rafe following. You turn back to him, tilting your head.
"Wanna make some noise?" You ask.
He grins. "Would love to."
"Okay," you grab his shirt, exchanging position, and push him onto your mattress. Your knees on either side of his hips. "My turn."
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AHHHHH OMG!!!!!!!!!! THIS WAS CUTE AND LITERALLY FITS WHAT I REQUESTED!!! 🤍
🍑: i saw u have nathan scott as one of ur characters ur intrigued to write for and me as a oth!stan had to ask for a blurb for him,, i can’t rlly think of an idea maybe like a first i love you!or some angst lol idk like an argument 😪
i could hold you forever
a/n: bestie, bestie, bestie, my seasonal rewatch of OTH has pulled me out of writing retirement lol. no but i’ve been binge watching and then i remembered your request and i just got so inspired!!! i hope you love this as much as i loved writing this, i def wrote this for the two of us cause idk any other nathan scott girlies so sad lol 💕 also now that i think about it this is giving very much that clay and quinn arc from the later seasons lol
warning(s): r.e.m infidelity (lol) | angst | hospitals | minimally edited |
wc: 2.2k
The silver of sunlight irritated him as he lay in bed, the curtains were not pulled tight enough, and even if they were it wouldn’t matter anyway the sheer white curtains were more for decoration than practical use. His eyes opened with a sigh, squinting at first before blinking the ceiling into focus, hands moving to swipe the sleep from his eyes. There was no point in laying there any longer, he knew he wouldn’t find sleep again.
He stood up allowing one big stretch, his movement stopping as he spotted a figure on the deck, back to him as they stared out at the beach. Doing his best to be quiet he made to move outside his body on autopilot once he stepped over the threshold, arms automatically wrapping around the waist of the person standing before him.
It was natural the way you relaxed back into his chest, hands gripping the mug in your hand as you stared out at the waves cresting against the sand. You allowed your head to fall back against him relishing in the safety that his arms brought you.
“You missed the sunrise.” The sound of your voice was soft as it reached him, the cadence of it caressed his ear canals like that of a symphony.
A noncommittal hum left his lips before he bowed his head allowing it to find purchase on your shoulder placing light kisses on the exposed skin of your neck, a smile stretching his lips at the quiet giggles escaping you.
“Why didn’t you wake me?” He felt your shoulders lift in a shrug, one of your fingers tracing the rim of your mug.
He watched you for a moment with an unnameable feeling sparking in his chest as he leaned down to press a loving kiss onto the crown of your head, his hands moving from your waist to your forearms to spin you around in his grip. One hand reached out to grab the cup from your hands and set it atop the wood of the deck before grabbing your hands to wrap around his neck, his own falling back to your waist.
You smiled up at him, your grin doing little to contain the happiness coursing through you as your eyes darted around tracing the roadmap of his face, fingers running through the hair at the nape of his neck. “You always look so calm when you sleep,” your voice trailed off as one of your hands moved to cup his cheek. “I just wanted to remember you like that before we leave.”
Nathan turned his head, his soft lips grazed across the pressure point on your wrist before dropping his forehead against yours. His eyes instinctively closed as the two of you stood on the deck the breeze wafting off the ocean and whipped around the two of you. You stood in each other's embrace just relishing in the safety the two of you brought each other.
The Scott beach house was filled with laughter and music as you and Nathan moved around the kitchen the two of you attempting to cook a late breakfast, far more goofing around going on than any actual cooking. Nathan profusely apologized every time he flipped a pancake too early, the two of you finding joy in the simplest of things.
Upon his relegation to chopping the fresh fruit the two of you picked up from the farmer’s market, he found that the majority of his energy was spent watching you dance around the kitchen as opposed to actually doing the task he was given.
No matter how long the two of you had been together he still couldn’t wrap his head around the fact that you had chosen him, chosen to spend these past couple of years growing and learning with him. Oftentimes he found himself reminiscing on the first time the two of you met in the art studio junior year, how long it took the two of you to warm up with each other even though you’d been subjected to a yearlong partnered project. The relationship between the two of you was slow growing, neither of you particularly happy with the partnership until it blossomed into a friendship and then something more he hadn’t even realized he was silently yearning for.
The two of you didn’t get time like this together often anymore with you at Juilliard and his hectic basketball schedule at Duke, it was either emailing back and forth or long-distance phone calls and even being able to hear each other's voices more than once a month were few and far between considering how high it ran up the phone bills. It was harder than he thought it would be, his mind always racing back to that night years ago when he dismissed your concerns trying to convince you how easy things would be. The longer he sat there thinking about it the more he was starting to understand he said all those things to convince himself more than you.
He remembered how softly you spoke to him, the way you tried to get him to understand just how drastically your lives would change once college hit. The way you subtly tried to talk him into calling it quits, not that either of you wanted to, but you knew what came with athletic stardom in college and although it initiated a days-long argument between the two of you he’d finally come around to understand just how selfless you were being by offering to give up the happiness you’d found in him so he could chase his dreams uninhibited.
Nathan was pulled from his reverie as you approached him, your hand stealing a banana off the cutting board before you sat down on his lap, arms wrapping around his neck as he found your waist basketball-calloused fingers tracing small patterns through the thin fabric of your shirt.
“Wasn’t aware cutting fruit took so much brain power.” Nathan furrowed his brows at your words, one side of his lips tugging up in amusement as he allowed you to feed him a blueberry. “You’ve been focusing pretty hard, I’ve been calling you for minutes.”
“Just lost in thought is all.” You nodded eyes wide as you encouraged him to continue, the gesture ignored as his eyes languidly gazed across your face bookmarking all of his favorite little traits that made you…you.
The kitchen was silent as you watched him watch you, getting lost in the abyss of his blue eyes doing your best not to shy away from his intense gaze. “When you look at me…like this,” your hand moved up fingertips gently caressing the beauty mark under his eye. “It's almost like the love I have for you overwhelms me.” The words were whispered through your lips as your eyes searched between his.
Nathan’s Adam’s apple bobbed up and down, eyes never leaving yours as he slowly, almost hesitantly leaned in. His forehead pressing against yours breakfast long forgotten as the two of you basked in this moment, he leaned forward first lips delicately tracing along yours before hungrily pressing against your. Your lips slotted against his almost perfectly the softness of them singing to his soul, each moment of his lips against yours was deliberate; his hand moved to the back of your head to press you further into him although there was little to no space.
The movement of your lips was simultaneous as Nathan’s tongue softly traced across your bottom lip, you parted them for him allowing the lasting taste of blueberries on his tongue to lavish yours and gently sucking on the appendage any chance he’d given you.
Nathan was sure the two of you shared dozens of kisses before, but he couldn’t help but feel like he released years of pent-up yearning onto you the moment his bottom lip first caressed yours. If oxygen wasn’t a factor he would’ve held you there against him for eternity just relishing in how it felt to physically connect with you in this moment.
You began to pull away eyes hooded as you watched Nathan’s mouth chase yours, before giving into him your lips pliant against his once more, your tongue gently slipping into his mouth this time, the blunt edge of his nails digging into the skin of your neck. Kissing you was something Nathan didn’t think he’d ever get used to, the calmness your presence brought him was unlike anything he’d ever experienced before, a part of him afraid to never experience all the ways you made him love you if he were to ruin this.
Whether it was minutes or hours of your lips pressed together and your tongues enjoying the warmth of the other, the two of you finally pulled apart a string of saliva connecting the two of you where your mouths once met, the skin of your foreheads finding solace in each other.
The syllables of your name left Nathan’s lips so quietly you almost didn’t hear him, both of his hands now holding your face, his grip not too harsh but just tight enough to let you know he had no intentions of letting you go.
“I love you.” Nathan’s eyes were wide as he searched yours, watching as they lit up before dimming just slightly, your smile faltering only moments after.
He watched on in confusion as your eyes closed almost painfully, a heavy sigh escaping you before you pulled your head back looking into his eyes once more before leaning forward and planting a lingering kiss on his forehead.
A small sad smile graced your lips as your eyes darted around his face, hand still pressed against his cheek as your thumb caressed back and forth across his skin. “Nathan,” he watched you nervously as you paused. “You have to wake up.”
Nathan’s frown deepened as his eyes flashed across your face, whatever joke you thought you were playing on him wasn’t the least bit funny. “What the hell are you talking about?” The frustration in his voice was tantamount as he blinked at you.
He watched on in a panicked stupor as you rose from his lap, every attempt he made at grabbing you was feeble, his fingers somehow slipping through you although you were right in front of him. His confusion increased as he watched you lean in before pressing a lingering kiss against the top of his head, the fact that you were able to touch him sent his panic to the edge as he continued trying to touch you, your wrist, the material of your shirt but none of it mattered as you rose to your full height taking a few small steps back at a time.
“I love you too Nathan. But you need to wake up, we’re all worried about you.” The smile on your lips felt like it would forever be imprinted on his mind as he watched you turn on your heel and walk away, not once looking back at him.
Nathan’s confusion was at an all-time high as he fervently pushed himself out of the chair, bare feet padding across the hardwood as he ran through the beach house in search of you. There was no trace of you, every room he checked remained empty no matter how many times he retraced his steps to double-check them.
His heart raced in his chest as he found himself back at square one in the kitchen, frustrated tears surfacing in his eyes as he looked around, all that was left of you was the stack of pancakes you’d made. Not even the lingering trace of your scent left behind to comfort him.
A hoarse groan escaped Nathan’s mouth as the stitches in his abdomen pulled taut. He did his best to maneuver to a comfortable position in the lumpy hospital bed, doing more bad than good as he felt the aches and pains begin to shoot through his body. Rustling in the chair by his bed caused him to open his eyes, the sight of his mom awkwardly asleep in the uncomfortable hospital chair elicited an exhausted sigh from him.
As Nathan groggily readjusted to the real world everything began to slowly come back to him, the accident, the edges of an initial dream he could hardly remember, and then the sight of you looking into his eyes as though he was the only person worthy of your time. A sight he would wish to remember forever.
But the truth of the matter was that the two of you weren’t in college yet, or spending a romantic spring break week at his parent’s beach house. And if the gold band fit snugly around his ring finger was any indication of this life being different from the life he led while sleeping, he would bet anything your hand wasn’t adorned with a matching band.
And that you certainly weren’t the person he should’ve been dreaming about a future with.
a/n: i’m starting a nathan scott series because of this bouta start writing things for fun atp. this is inspired by nathan’s hospital dreams in s2e20 please enjoy 🫶🏽
#THANKKKK YEWWWWWW#i’ve been obsessed with nathan scott ever since i found my tia’s season one dvd set in our garage#when i was like 11 years old#like he is just a perfect man i need him so bad#ur writing im obsessed as always#so sorry for the late response#etherealising’s 1k celebration#congrats on 1K AGAIN!!!!!!!!!#nathan scott x reader#i need more fics about him
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