#But remembering past me and what I did
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Don't know why or how this idea even came up but yall know about people making time capsules and making videos that their future self would continue from or even making self time capsules?
What if we wrote messages to our past self and even though we can't send it to them...or us, it'll be nice(?) to talk and have a small banter with little you.
Like a diary being reread and on certain parts of it you write down what your current thoughts are.
You had an embarrassing moment? Scream to younger you just why did you think of doing that? Had a rough time at a certain point? Write down that they had done their best or whatever you feel it fit.
Kinda feels like a nice way to forgive yourself in the past and carry these memories along with you.
Anyways, could be something stupid my pain and cold addled brain decided to spew at me and I wanted to share XP
#Void rambles#Never wrote in a diary#But remembering past me and what I did#I feel like talking to her and holding her through her hard times#Like an older sister#I am one but I'd like to be one to someone who I share equal beliefs and feelings with#Noone completely understands you the same way you did#And noone can justify or correct the errors past you did like you who knows a bigger chunk of the story than anyone else#Anyways imma stop before my head combust from this headache#Thanks for reading this far into the tags if the idea was interesting enough for you
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#Draft clear 👍#I don't actually remember why this one was in there but wtv#Also sorry it's old and the text is placed around funnily for some reason#Why DID past me even format it like that what LMAO#digital art#art#hollow knight#hk hollow#hk quirrel#hk pure vessel#quirrel#the hollow knight#quirrelhollow#At least I numbered it but lorddd#It looks confusing
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A conversation with a ghost 👻🗡️✨
Posting on Halloween not because the ghost thing though, but because I can’t imagine anything scarier to Meta than emotional vulnerability tbh. Og post here
#my art#snappy's art tag#kirby#meta knight#Jecra#knuckle Joe’s father#kirby right back at ya#hey does anyone else remember the episode where his ghost visits????? why did we gloss past that???#small fun fact about the body language here: Jecra’s ears are very emotive and they give away a lot of what he’s feeling#normally when he’s happy they are more upright#he’s smiling in the second pannel but I wanted to show his ears giving away this is painful for him too#Metajecra#platonic or romantic#in the sub MK swore on his love that’s enough for me
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#logan howlett#wolverine#me three days ago#i did sleep a lot#i hardly remember anything i watched the past three days even#idk what it was but reality wasnt registering to me and i couldnt even draw a circle for some reason#but its better now?#mostly i think#just really hopeing things will get better
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shout out to my buddy who met his newly born niece and later told me he doesn't think he's gonna get along with her as she grows up and after I asked why he said "I don't know I just got a bad vibe from her." From the baby??? The newborn infant baby?????
#wild rambles#im insane about this interaction#i will never be able to move past this i think#what did he mean by that!!!!!#and yes we do all give him shit about it to this day. do you remember when you got a bad vibe from a literal baby. hey do you remember when#hey. do you get a bad vibe from this child. hey. you said this corporation is evil. you mean evil like that infant baby?#(this is funnier in polish because he said zły vibe and that could be bad vibe but also evil vibe)#posts that have 10k to me
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i wish to be your shadow , forever behind you , even if i am not good enough
plus some extra. they are quite literally metal boxes. i wonder how large they are in actually. im assuming human size? i also never realized just how complicated hokma's was.. i think its all the gears
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#hokma#hokma lobcorp#ayin#ayin lobcorp#im always worried about ooc but then a realize. IT DOESNT MATTER!!! i want them to hug#but then i think abt it and i dont know how to draw hugs. does it matter? NO!! you can tell what it is . good enough#anyways tagging w ayin is always weird because its not QUITE him (from my understanding im not even done im on day 47(pain))#its a mix of consciousness between a blank slate who processes and feels things in a similar manner but then memories put onto him that --#-- logically are his but even then theyre seperate entetied in a way even still (angela noted this in one of the days cant remember which)#so its like.... x and a put into one . i thinkk where its going w it is that each are different aspects ended up experiencing and processin#this grief and hopelessness in different ways? and then ending up being assigned a name as a reflection of different aspects born of the --#-- character that was the entirety of 'ayin'. different aspects isolated via extreme measures when they are ALL ayin just... yknow extremes#FROM MY UNDERSTANDING DONT CORRECT ME IM NOT DONE!!! IM NOT DONE!!!! ITLL HAPPEN 98 HRS SO FAR TRUST#((well day 47 when i queued this to be posted .. hopefully ill be past that and with a acceptable death count))#(((I did btw what the fuck hatbthe fuck whayt hfbf ck)))#I FROGOY i#x lobcorp
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It's always so funny to me when people call Kaz a serial killer or a murderer bc like. boy do I have news for you about the other crows.
#like idk how to tell you this bestie but every single one of them has a kill count. yes even wylan.#prime example of getting so caught up in the aesthetics or character types that you miss the actual reality of what happens in#a story#also i'm not sure serial killer is even an accurate description#similar to when people started referring to inej as an assassin. like bestie that is straight up not what she does. and if it was she's#doing a terrible job. the books tell you a million times that she's a spy#to be clear this isn't an 'uwu kaz did nothing wrong' post esp bc most of the time when ppl call him this they're not actually criticizing#his actions. it's just a pattern i noticed. if anything its a 'stop sanitizing the rest of the crows' post.#but it is interesting to me that kaz is the only character that people will really joke about having killed people#something something you've bought into the dirtyhands legend#i feel like i've made some version of this post in the past but i don't remember so you're hearing it again#six of crows#kaz brekker#inej ghafa#jesper fahey#wylan van eck#matthias helvar#nina zenik
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Eve: "Regarding the lyrics, this time its about portraying the conflicts and feelings of the characters in Jujutsu kaisen. This kind of feeling inside me, made me choose the characters one by one and thus write the lyrics. I don't dare to say where or who..."
Also Eve:
Alternative translations: 1 2 3 4
The lyrics hit different after ch 271. I kinda want this to be the op for s4 ngl
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#ryomen sukuna#gojo satoru#sukugo#my post#this is all eve all I did was take a screen shot at the convenient time to further my Sukugo agenda lol#I think the characters this is about are Sukuna Megumi gojo and maaaaybe yuji and yuta#But I think it's mainly about Sukuna's feelings during the shinjuku showdown especially towards gojo#It's art anyone can interpret it the way they want#but “my passion that towards you only cuts through the air like a wish” while showing the prison cube getting cut in half... yeah...#Also “lost emotions”??? Like what? Nervousness? Lmao#Love is when he makes you feel nervous for the first time in a thousand years#“thoughts voice words and lost emotions and love spin and spin towards the chance of victory” I love the use of the word “spin” here#cuz mahoraga's wheel spinning was like a count down for the you know what#I like how it starts with Sukuna's finger box and ends with it note how it has this black sludge thingy around it in the beginning#but in the end it's cleared (watch the video)#“Expectations overlap with regrets” *Shows their hands reaching* o m g????? That other hand is definitely Sukuna's it has black nails!!!#The other hand we see coming out of an eye !!!!!!#“the memory and love to be hidden and the eternal identity till death shall it be fine to keep them staying” While showing the last finger#And that heart cut in half!!!! it's probably about kashimo but kashimo was only created to bring the subtext into text anyways sooo...#That brain is definitely yuta taking over and I'd like to think that broken sphere is yuta's domain barriers that shattered in ch 263#Expectations overlap with regrets indeed 😏 that being the slowest part of the song is so fucking funny Sukuna's really missing his wife#To me now this song is about Sukuna's unspoken love and regret and preserving this love and memory for as long as his remains exist#Also there's a line in the song about these feelings “riding on the past and future” which is just aghhhh reminds me of Kashimo's question#why mince your soul into cursed objects and watch all those years go by what were you looking for#Sukuna literally time travelled met his love said he will remember him for as long as he lives and died in the same fucking day#only for his remains to stay protecting japan and preserve that memory The body is the soul and the soul is the body yeah?#Also Sukuna is basically tengen now so the six eyes is bound to him 😉 Gojo is the reason Sukuna's memory is preserved and vice versa#kenjaku baby trapped him to do bad things gojo finger trapped him into becoming Japan's protector against curses... Gojo best wife
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I've beaten Frontiers twice and it's still not enough
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#koco#sonic frontiers#sth#toma draws#that's saying a lot bc i don't usually replay a whole game so soon. im SO obsessed with this game im rotating it on my mind at all times#i love playing it i love its story+characterization i love its music i love its voice acting i love the foundation it lays for future games#i love the positive reception it's been getting i LOVE what it means for this franchise that means the world to me#thank you sonic team for this fun wonderful delightful experience 😭💖💖 this is THE goty in my heart#here's hoping it wins player's voice!!!!#anyway HI long time no post!! I haven't been drawing a whole lot the past few months between being busy and out of art juice#but it seems to be returning now that frontiers has been marinating in my brain so we'll see 👁#i Did make a couple traditional oc stuff in the meantime tho. ill try to remember to post those sometime#also i'm glad i can still draw sonic it's been So long
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thinking about Bodkin again bc I mean,,, ALL THE SYMBOLISM OHHHHHGH. i NEED some tumblr film analysis hobbyists to watch this show and tell me all the themes n such
#yes I’m making all these posts in a row#it’s bc I’m obsessed atm#mypost#Bodkin#bodkin netflix#PLEASSEEEEE#WHY DID THE PAPER MACHE HEAD LOOK LIKE GILBERT#CAN WE HAVE AN IN-DEPTH CONVERSATION ABOUT EVERYTHING ABOUT GILBERT BEING FORCED TO SWALLOW/CHOKE ON HIS WORDS (recorder) BUT THAT SOUND—HIS#STORY (HIS pov. however ‘abstract’ and detatched from consequence it may have been) BEING WHAT CATCHES EMMY AND DOVEs ATTENTION TO SAVE HIM#. LIKE#OUGHHHHHWJEHQIHSJSBWJXNAJSNNQJZNWHXJWHXJEBXNDUSBJS#AND THE WOLF IMAGERY PLS SOMEONE TELL ME ABOUT THAT#IS THERE MORE THAN THE SURFACE? what do I not understand? as im writing this out am thinking: ok its cause dove is a lone wolf#WAITTTT WAIT OMFG AND when she remembers that her mom told her to howl when she was lost… bc wolves actually have family and I’m p sure the#lone wolf thing is a myth… after she realizes that she’s not alone and she can choose to interact#GOD GRAHHHHH IM GOING CRAZY OVER THIS SHOW#other things I’m thinking abt (will maybe make a post abt?)#OUGH YEAH OK dove symbolism: wolf/lone wolf. sunglasses/shielding herself (OUGH AND SHE PICKS UP THAT XTRA LAYER OF DEFENCE WHEN SHE COMES#BACK TO HOMELAND/familiar space… bc she’s vulnerable to her past here…. hrahhh#. also LMFAO when she calls the sheriff a piggy#hrmmmmm aughhh I want to dissect Gilbert and Seamus’s friendship oughhh#ok wait even more on Dove: I want to dig into when she calls Emmy Emmy vs Sizargd (will have to look up the spelling whoops) —was it always#blatant manipulation? how much of it is a reflection of what she is? hrmmmm there’s so much there I think#another Q: why did Emmy call the tech guy Shitpants again at the end? ik there were the stakes I just wanna dig into her character more. why#would she say the shitpants thing instead of manipulating him in other ways? (not saying her was was unreasonable at all lol-j wanna dig#into her character.#OH prob something abt the whole ‘her needing to release her anger’ thing? idk ahh I want to analyze her more
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I just learned today, after a good 700 hours in-game, that it's possible for Aradin and his crew to attack you at your camp in act 3 (through someone saying, paraphrased, that if you enjoy him as a character you must not have played act 3), and I'm honestly so bloody into this possibility now.
Like, sure, on one hand that's textbook fantasy thug behavior and I like that he has the chutzpah to do it, but also... yeah, go on and tell the person you learned was hired to capture the Nightsong maybe three hours into the game, about how the Nightsong is chilling at your camp. Truly, the man who was offered enough money for this contract to have him set for life, and who'd abandon an archdruid and some of his own crew because they got attacked can be trusted with that information.
I'm sure nothing can go wrong if you tell him, he's such an absolutely 100% trustworthy individual. Surely this man has not done anything nefarious or underhanded (such as attacking a person at their camp) in his life. You should also give him a copy of the key to your room at the Elfsong in case he wants to drop by later for tea and crumpets...??????
I know this person likely meant that this is a reason one shouldn't like him, but if anything, I honestly enjoy his character like three times more, now that I know this can happen. He's a greedy, cutthroat, an kind of stupid man who is only an adventurer because his daddy was one, and all he wants is money enough to retire.
He's barely- to moderately hinged. I'm obsessed with him now.
#squirrel plays bg3#aradin#aradin beno#which; really cute last name#certified fucking baby boy that one#i bloody love this asshole#i'd give him a key to my room for a completely different reason#.... but for real though i thought it was obvious that you *shouldn't* tell him??#like on my first game iirc i just told him glhf; giving no further info; and walked right past him to lorroakan#on my second i was with Iona and that woman rolls 40s on deception in her sleep#and i think petyr just rolled ridiculously well as is his habit and curse#i do NOT for the life of me remember what my partner did on his own game; and aradin didn't attack then either#how the hell do you get that outcome by ACCIDENT#(i keep saying “thrust” in my head instead of “trust”)#(yeah man he sure is thrustworthy)
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i found this lovely lineart of e!Hermes that @noxlotl made available for people to colour eons ago & liked my wip enough i finished* it!!
#cubito containment#empires fanart#empires hermes#mythicalsausage#tw blood#undescribed image#*finished not including the background or micro details 'cause i can't remember what i wanted to do for them lmao#also i have no clue what past me did to make the lineart so crunchy /neu but it's fiiine lol
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Another story idea. One of those basic ass stories where this child is abused by her family due to her sister (adopted) came and brainwashed the whole family into loving her and hating mc. In the end mc is framed for some crime and is ultimately executed. Only after mc dies does the family realize their fault when the whole world becomes destroyed. Following me? Basic ass brainwashing story. Anyway, here's the twist. Time gets reversed, and mc awakens to the point in time ten years before her death. But the twist? Mc isn't the main character. The story takes place from the viewpoint of one of the brainwashed siblings that slowly remembers their previous life.
#story ideas#i'm reading 'a world without you' and i am tired#why do they always go through brainwashing route?#'mc was horribly abused abandoned and neglected bc they were brainwashed!!!!!!!!!'#so unoriginal and boring#but what i find even more surprising is like...#how so many of the readers/audience wants them to die for what they did#these people were brainwashed and not in control of their actions but regardless they are the scum of the earth#idk man#i'll never get used to how people in this day and age feel empowered by the purity movement and like....#lack any and all sympathy/empathy for others#so it'd be fun to make a story based upon one of the characters they vilify#this character would slowly realize their past life#'why do i always feel guilty around this person?'#'i know they're terrified of me but i just want to help them in any way i can't#and then when they remember their past finally it's like#'i finally understand. how can i live with myself knowing what i put them through?'#it'd be a boring story but it'd be fun to shove in those people's faces
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I get a little indignant when i look up the lyrics for a song that has very straightforward and understandable meaning to anyone who has experienced a modicum of emotional pain in their life and there are websites like "Song Lyrics Explained" like ohhh some people have never had their heart broken I see.
#my stuff#if you look me in the eyes and say you don't 'get' Sleep Token's Apparition or Take Me Back To Eden in general...#like what even is there to say. they're about waking up from bittersweet dreams abt ppl you can't see anymore for reasons you didn't choose#and longing to return to experiences that cannot be recreated if the people you love don't make the effort to hold onto it like you do.#i am quite literally sick with longing and grief these past couple days and these are the only songs keeping me halfway sane#this all could have gone so very different. i know where you are. i know how to reach you. but i can't. you asked me not to.#so i have to cope with the knowledge that you're a short walk away almost every day and yet I'll probably never see you again#and it's not because i did anything wrong you're just the sort of person who can't be friends with someone after a romance#and your goodbye was absolute shit and i hate it and i want some fucking shred of acknowledgement that i deserve better!!!!#i want to know you aren't just trying to forget me entirely!! I want to be remembered!! I am remembering you!!
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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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foolish though it may be i am once again thinking a lot about self-sacrificial character arcs resulting in memory loss.........bring out the gin
#something about this as a culmination of a character arc is just so uniquely devastating. an arc never completed. good god.#when it happened in artemis fowl i remember being devastated. but i was also pretty sure that it was a temporary thing from-#-being woken up in the body of a clone of yourself after having been dead for six months. you know the drill. and i think i was right#even if it was permanent though - he still /did/ get to complete his arc & his sacrifice was in line with where his development was headed#where as in w359 eiffel's loss just Killed me in a way that i dont think fiction has....done before?#i saw it worded really well somewhere else. his 'end' is more of a typical /mid arc/ development where the 'improving' character must-#-now see their past from the outside and 'change their ways' based on this. or whatever. and the kicker with eiffel is that it happens-#-right at the end. we barely see him after it happens and we don't know what he chooses to do. it's definitely hinted at. but it's left-#- ultimately up to us‚ which works thematically. and it's powerful but i can understand the beef that some listeners have with it-#-bc of the way it's all just cut off. anyway this is not a post for my specific post canon theories but they're there. and highly specific#some things can really. clenches fist. make you relive the emotions you felt when you finished the entire artemis fowl series aged 15#and i do think there's a lot of overlapping themes in both af and w359 that are worth comparing but that's another post lmao#god i wish i had the eloquence to say what i want!!!!!!! and for it not to be a tag essay!!!#spoilers#just. in general
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