#But maybe... If I got a second try...
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I wanted to ask him about children. If he'd ever have them. It's much too soon to consider them, very seriously, but I just. I want to know. I want to know what our future might look like. I saw myself reflected in a bright young mother, expecting so very soon, and I wondered if I might ever have that opportunity again.
I think that is a dream that should be put to rest, but I will hold it for just a little longer.
#blog post#all this bad blood#I see a darling boy with his father's clever smile and pretty blonde curls.#He's bright and beautiful and he laughs like his father. Scrunches his nose up like his mother does.#He is human. He is happy. He is wonderful and so very loved and named for an uncle he'll never get to meet.#And he will have everything he ever wanted.#I see a charming girl with her father's sharp gaze and sweetest blue blush.#She's warm and lovely and works hard like her father and daydreams like her mother.#She is a troll. She is happy. She is brilliant and adored and can forge her own path without our titles and pasts weighing her down.#And she will have everything she's ever dreamed of.#I could not give my six their fathers.#I could not keep any of them nor could I even keep a pretender for them.#But maybe... If I got a second try...#fulmen.#carmen.
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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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50+ deaths at 5 am got me yelling absolute nonsense to the bosses kicking my whole entire ass
#ultrakill#v1#gabriel#doodles#art#ultrakill fanart#fastest death was like. 6 seconds. maybe less. i was playing on normal#and then my brother told me the secrets of Spamming Slide Like Your Life Depends On It and i got him in like. 15 tries#max0r wasnt kidding this guys entire strat is Teleporting Behind You#so the contrast of nearly killing him first try and then beating his stupid gay ass real fast in his second fight was REALLY funny#i learned bitch#i dont think i've ever yapped and screamed and yelled so much during a videogame before. dont ask me about the noise i made when#the mannequins started moving like coked up little spiders#''i dont believe people are genuinely this loud when playing lethal company they're making this up'' me playing ultrakill:
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2.08 | 3.04
#bridgertonedit#polinedit#colinbridgertonedit#perioddramaedit#perioddramasource#weloveperioddrama#onlyperioddramas#**#bridgerton#polin#otp: you are special to me#did i make these b/w bc i got frustrated trying to color the second gif and gave up? maybe so#also dont know if this has been made yet but i havent seen it#but its the way in the first one he says come w me and grabs her hand#and the second one he asks her to come and reaches out his hand for her to grab#and how in the first one the implications that exist w propriety and society w him pulling her into a private room alone#and how that could very easily have resulted in her being compromised or a forced engagement/marriage and then didnt#and it wasnt even something on his mind at all (even if it was on hers)#vs the second one which does result in a proposal (and which also involved a compromising situation) that was very much intentional from#him (and unexpected for her)
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if you ever wonder why I don't interact with the traumagenic community as a traumagenic system this is why
#they claim endos want to traumatize children with “the future is plural” (not what it means)#but then say shit like this#“you got to go through worse than suffering to be a REAL system so why not put them through it if they wanna be one so badly?”#idk how you even say that and think for a second you are in the right#if I would've been introduced to the plural community through an anti endo lens in a vulnerable state#then MAYBE I would've perceived endogenics the same way#but really all I've ever seen is the most nastiest shit out of antis mouths and endos just trying to get by#and literal misinformation too#if they feel entitled to fakeclaim other systems then I will never trust them sorry#plurality#plural system#sysblr#plural gang#traumagenic system#endogenic system#cdd#actually osdd#actually pdid#pro endo#endo safe#syscourse#tw syscourse#tw anti endo
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Can Matt turn into a bat? If he can what do the others do about it lol i just imagine like tord carrying him in his pocket
oh yeah that would be adorable.
....unfortunately Matt still hasn't figured that part out.
#Fs in the chat 😔#o7#running through my head while drawing the second one#''im gonna sit here real hard and try to turn into bees''#(from mbmbam)#my art#sketch#eddsworld#ask#ew matt#ew tord#sorry matt. maybe you can get some help from tom#(👀)#ok but if i do that its gonna be like. months from now i still got a lot of shit on the board
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Winn + Mac fusion idea. lalala.
#clemart#uhm. yeah sure boss up#ttcc#toontown corporate clash#mac opsys#winn dos#<- technically#Crome#idk i got inspired by a lot of the cog fusions going around. a lot of my notes are in the second one#if you can read them. i rushed them bc i wasnt planning on sharing but some of my friends like them ++ i had a change of heart#i dont think ive seen a toon/toon fusion so heh.. you know what i had to do#actually ive had the idea for a little bit. i just needed a push of inspiration#i tried to make them a nice mix between the two but i fear they lean too heavily on one side or another..sighs and kicks rock#technically speaking i wouldve left their arms a solid blue or maybe a blue/white. but i feel like with the hair the yellow is#blocked out. so i thought doing half blue half yellow would be a bit more balancing#like winns (and macs to a degree) design i put the green on the clothing rather than the body#this is a little more colorful than what i think is possible but tch whatever. sniffles. gets scared#i think ive given up on trying to keep drawing toon species that are only in game. go my bugs and jerboas who cares anymore#i might remove the blue from the tail later..idk....
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Mystra has dictated the terms of my potential for long enough. The Crown would grant me control of my own destiny at last.
#bg3edit#galeedit#baldursgateedit#gamingedit#bg3#baldur's gate 3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#edits#giffing this man dumping my tav in the very last few second of my second pt just to cope#the funny thing is that varian is 100% on board with the fuck you mystra train#cause it's the exact same way he felt about lolth all his life#but i guess if you tell gale even ONCE that maybe the crown shouldn't get back to mystra#and then try to dissuade him from the whole goodhood powertrip last second this is the result#I WAS SO READY FOR THE MARRIAGE PROPOSAL AND I GOT A BREAK UP INSTEAD#but i'm not even mad about it. you do you baby boy.#get drunk on power and wreak havoc on earth. might as well#ascended!astarion has the funniest reaction to this scene tho#i wanted to add it but he's wearing the ugliest helm on the planet so i didn't
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snippets! more snippets! snippets for days!
“So, first major event was Halloween. Somehow, a troll got loose in the school, intent on causing mischief and mayhem.
“A troll?” Sirius paled. “Please tell me that’s a—a euphemism for something.”
“Siri, ew, oh my god,” Harry gagged, turning his face away from his unrepentant godfather and his ‘it’s still better than an honest-to-Merlin troll, Harry James’
“Suddenly, I’m very glad that there troll was not a—was just a troll. It was during the Halloween feast—“
“I do wonder about that day, you know. It feels so cursed.”
“You have no idea,” Harry muttered bitterly before continuing. “Anyway, so, it was the middle of the feast, Quirrell comes to warn us about the mountain troll in the dungeons before doing a dramatic faint right there, in front of everyone, and Dumbledore sends us all off to our dormitories.”
There’s a beat of silence before—
“The dormitories?”
Harry looked up to see Sirius staring at him, aghast. A small smile tilted his lips on one end. “Mhm.”
His godfather takes a deep breath. “Let me get this straight. You have a mountain troll in your school, which is supposed to be warded to high heaven and back, and your Headmaster tells you to wander through the hallways, where said troll could be lurking, to get to your dormitories??”
Harry nodded. “Yes.”
“What about the damn Slytherins? Their dorms are literally in the dungeons. They might be annoying but they don’t deserve to be killed by a thirty feet tall idiot with bad breath.”
“You know,” Harry mused, head tilting in thought, “you might just be the first, and only, adult to consider that. I’m not sure it ever even hit me until now.”
“What.”
“No one cares about the Slytherins, Sirius.”
“What—“
“I mean, I’m not saying they shouldn’t, just that they don’t. Don’t look at me like that, c’mon.”
“Harry, I have no idea what’s going on right now. It feels like I went on a weekend bender and never woke up, you’re literally two minutes in and there’s a mountain troll, a weird professor, a latently homicidal Headmaster, and still no Voldemort. How do I even react to this?” Sirius’ hands moved around frantically as he spoke, getting daste and more erratic with each word.
#sirius black#harry potter#good godfather sirius black#this is written from like. a year and a half ago.#i love it so much#a general love of people finding out about harry’s life#and a more specific love of sirius doing so#what fun#truly. an underexplored arena in hp fanficcery#why am i posting snippets u ask#bc i’m writing FoD again which means i’m rereading all the published chapters and the stuff i’ve got in the doc#which means i’m falling in love all over again#and ofc i have no self control#so i must share it with the world as well#this is making it hard bc i had a specific scene for the basilisk discovery and i forgot that i had this reveal#so now i’m trying to figure out how to make it work#u know realistically. harry can’t tell sirius about ALL the fuckery across years right?#so maybe i’ll cut it off after first#and then tie in that scene for second#which would push it up to way later as opposed to the summer timeline i was assuming#but it’ll work regardless#esp since i have the brand new scene of harry & sirius talking about remus (mwuahahaha)#ok ignore all this rambling lol sorry#enjoy the snippet!#fic: foundations of decay#pen’s writing
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something you should know about me: i will ALWAYS take the opportunity to make a relationship chart
theta and junior are the main characters here so while i could include other ppl and relationships on here i tried to keep it to like. only the stuff that would directly affect their story as much as possible.
list of each character and their relationships under the cut in a maybe easier to read format?
if a characters name is small and i don’t give them a full name here it’s bc they’re not actually a real character and only exist bc there needed to be a person there
[C parents] Parents of Caboose; Grandparents of Smith. [C sis] Sister of Caboose; Mother of Smith. [Caboose] Michael J. Caboose: Uncle to Smith; Friends with Church and Tucker. [Smith] John Elizabeth Andersmith: Nephew of Caboose; Part of the teen's friend group.
[Price] Aiden Price: Caretaker to Church; Unrequited feelings for Director. [Director] Dr. Leonard Church: Widowed husband of Allison; Father of Church and Lina; Grandfather to Theta; Unrequited love interest of Price. [Allison] Allison Beth Church: Dead. Wife of Director; Mother of Church and Lina; Grandmother of Theta. [Lina] Carolina Church: Daughter of Director and Allison; Sister to Church; Ex fiancées with York. [Church] Leonard L. Church: Son of Director and Allison; Brother to Lina. Father of Theta; Unlabeled exes with North; Coparenting Theta with North; Friends with Tucker and Caboose; Rivals with Temple; Complicated relationship with Tucker. [York] Anthony York: Ex fiancées with Lina; Unrequited love interest of North.
[S/N parents] Parents to South and North; Grandparents to Theta. [South] Sarah Dakota: Sister of North; Aunt to Theta's. [North] Noah Dakota: Brother of South; Father of Theta; Unlabeled exes with Church; Coparenting Theta with Church; Unrequited feelings for York. [Theta] Theta Dakota: Child of North and Church; BFFs with Junior.
[J dad] Father of Jensen; Stepfather of Simmons. [S/J mom] Mother to Simmons and Jensen. [S dad] Divorced father of Simmons'. [Jensen] Katie Jensen: Half sister to Simmons; Unrequited crush of Palomo; Mutual crush with Volleyball; Part of the teen's friend group. [Simmons] Richard "Dick" Simmons: Half brother to Jensen; Complicated relationship with Grif. [Volleyball] Valerie Kimball: Daughter of Vanessa Kimball; Mutual crush with Jensen.
[G parents] Mother of Grif and Kai. [Grif] Dexter Grif: Brother to Kai; Helps take care of Bitters; Complicated relationship with Simmons. [Kai] Kaikaina Grif: Sister to Grif; Mother of Bitters; Exes with Tucker; Flirty casual thing going on with Georgina. [B dad] Father of Bitters. [Bitters] Antoine Bitters: Son of Kai; Taken care of by Grif; Boyfriends with Matthews; Part of the teen's friend group. [Matthews] Madison Matthews: Boyfriends with Bitters.
[Tucker] Lavernius Tucker: Father of Junior; Exes with CB; Reluctantly helps take care of Palomo; Friends with Church and Caboose; Complicated relationship with Church; Budding romantic feelings for Temple; Exes with Kai. [CB] Dead and we're all glad about it; Exes with Tucker; Father of Junior'. [Junior] Junior Tucker: Son of Tucker and CB; Friends with Palomo; BFFs with Theta; Rivals with Biff Jr.; Part of the teen’s friend group. [Palomo] Charles Palomo: Friends with Junior; Very happily taken care of by Tucker; Unrequited crush for Jensen.
[Temple] Mark Temple: Coparenting Biff Jr. with Georgina; Friends with Georgina; In love with Biff; (Also very close friends with Biff I didn’t put it here but you know); Manipulative but kind of genuine romantic feelings for Tucker; Rivals with Church. [Georgina] Georgina Buford: Widowed wife of Biff; Mother of Biff Jr.; Coparenting Biff with Temple; Friends with Temple; Flirty casual thing going on with Kai. [Biff] James “Biff” Buford: Dead. Husband of Georgina; Father of Biff Jr.; Unrequited love of Temple; (Also very close friends with Temple I didn’t put it here but you know). [Biff Jr.] James Buford Jr.: Son of Georgina and Biff; Raised by Temple and Georgina; Rivals with Junior.
#valhalla high au#rvb#i actually did give names to most of the unnamed characters but i got sick of doing it before i finished so#doc and donut COULD be on here bc i do think doc is important to junior but#they don’t have kids and what the fuck would i put for the line btw junior and doc and where would i put them#price only got added in last second bc i realized i could move caboose around and it would look nicer and so i had room#same with volleyball. tho i didn’t move anything for her there was just a space#‘why are kai and georgina-’ georgina has been putting up with temple for the last 15 years okay. okay. she deserves it#she deserves to discover women. she deserves to have a torrid little affair with one of the moms at the pta meeting#… not that kai is going to pta meetings. well maybe she is now. she’s trying#a big theme of this au is ‘parents trying very hard even if they do not hit the mark#and even if they failed to try in the past. they’re trying now’#the bottom was too empty and it bothered me i hope the doodles are cute and not distracting
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Late(ish) at night gman ramblings time
Honestly I have yet to find a popular theory as to what Gman is that actually feels like. right to me. Like some of them are neat ideas, if put into something fan made, but if it turned out to be canon, most of the outcomes i've seen feel like they'd be super disappointing, in my opinion of course.
I've seen theories about Gman being a Shu'ulathoi that shapeshifted into a humanoid form, and while the idea is novel, I honestly feel as though it. limits him too much. It removes the mystery aspect of him because now we know what he is, and what his motivations are. Like, if Valve ever truly confirmed that Gman is some sort of alien species that we can easily pinpoint, or even one we've seen before, it would feel like it's putting gman in a box that doesn't fit him.
To me, Gman is best left unknowable. He is a species that only has one member (maybe), he doesn't have a set true (or at least comprehensible) form, but he's definitely not human. He doesn't have a name, he has no set species that aligns with anything we have seen so far. An eldritch entity that is outside what we have observed within the Half Life universe. As much as I would love to learn more about Gman, I also fear the mystery of him being removed and overall making him feel less like a cosmic threat.
Overall I don't personally think most of the theories explaining what he could possibly be are correct for him. He is nothing, yet everything at the same time. True ambiguity.
#ramblings :)#gman#g-man#personal opinion. Absolutely no hate if you like some of the fan theories#Just putting my two cents out there since. I'm not a huge fan of most of them personally#Hell I don't even think he has much of a past. not one that's super clear.#He's always been like this. Always looked like an old businessman. was never young#And before he got his human disguise I think he was just. somewhere in the outskirts of the universe. waiting.#Also I really don't want the employers to be explained or shown.#They should stay this. presence that looms but you never truly see it or understand it#That's the main thing! I don't WANT Gman to be understandable.#Give me eldritch old man!!! Give me cosmically horrifying entity in false human skin!!#give me something we've never encountered before!!!#I dunno. it's just where most of Gman's horror comes from. How vague he is#And how you can never truly understand who or what he is and what he's planning and why.#Something clearly feeling claustrophobic in the human form but pushes through it regardless just to fool you.#But is he even really trying to fool you? I imagine he knows just how unbelievable as a human he is the second he starts talking and moving#Maybe he just wants you to feel deeply uncomfortable around him. Better to pressure you into a deal#Like thinking about how he circled around Alyx in HLA like some sort of predator animal.#Rambling but you get what I mean i hope
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Joji + accidentally leaking his name online.
#Levetiracetam#joji#filthy frank#first screenshot is from the internet rappers ff vid and i found it on a decade old reddit post#where people were debating if joji/george was his real name#because back then he was apparently trying to convince people on twitter that his name was fake#and the second screenshot is from a vine of his.... allegedly this is how his name first got out around the march of 2014....hmmmm#also i find it very interesting that his prescription was/is (?) under the name joji#and his mail under the name kusunoki (miller) joji#considering the fact that he mostly uses george miller as his ~official~ name (for lack of a better word) nowadays#maybe he just considers it his western name and he uses it because he currently resides in the us
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#rambles#still a big fan of this picture i took#ultrakill#go in the main tags. look at this screenshot#mods are FakUPunch and V2 Plastic Chair#(i also have JAKET and WesV2 and maybe UltraTweaker enabled but those arent noticeable in the pic)#ngl it was interesting to play the game on a constant health drain (only reason i got UltraTweaker)#i had it at 1 per second but i might try setting the value higher#bc it wasnt very noticeable at 1 hp per second
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A couple late-night drawings. Yes you will be seeing a lot of her on here in the coming uh, days? Weeks? Depends on how quickly my brainrot dies out I guess.
#regretevator#regretevator bive#regretevator fanart#also I tried to buy the bive plush yesterday but my card won’t go through#GENUINELY heartbroken over it she looks so cute and spherical im obsessed#maybe I should call my card company again cause I really wanna buy it#and I would feel bad buying it off of aliexpress or some shit like that cause I do wanna support the creators yk#anyways pretend I drew her other arm in the second drawing I just got lazy lmao#my art#also also I might. try drawing split at some point cause she’s super pretty like my god I understand why bive likes her so much
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it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now
#I think on another level he was sorta saying like ‘hey kiryu. you’re making it extremely clear that you don’t trust me and my intentions#and I’ve been trying to show you- over and over again- that I’d do just about anything for you and your safety#but I can’t just let my mask fall off in front of everyone- I need to keep up the unpredictable morally grey wildcard act for both my sake#AND yours. because disguising my helping you as crazy random violent outbursts and weird stalker behavior#is the only way I CAN help you. do you think it would go over well with shimano or literally anyone else if I was outright helping you out#of the kindness of my heart and fondness for you? stop being so fucking dense and look past the crazy wacky nonsense for a second and#maybe you’ll realize that all I do at the end of the day- really- is help you and put my own life and reputation on the line for you.#I am an honest guy when it comes to my real values and when I told you I wouldn’t let anyone kill you unelss it was myself- I meant it.#I’ve taken a knife and a bullet for you now. can you REALLY not see through the act yet? am I REALLY that unpredictable when you think about#it?’#that was a longer explanation than i intended but. it was difficult to put into words#I basically feel like it could be read as him implying kiryu shouldn’t backstab the people who put themselves on the line to help him#and/or pointing out that he’s never actually done kiryu dirty and has stuck to his word protecting him in the ways he can#trying to say yeah all this is a crazy act and all but when it comes down to it you Can trust me#it really makes sense when you think about it that he’d have to help kiryu/show affection towards kiryu in unpredictable convoluted ways#at that point in time because. I mean. there’s a reason he was the only person who showed up to welcome kiryu when he got out of prison#and that’s because A) he sticks to his word and his loyalty to people he cares about and B) no one else had the balls or the batshit insane#mask to wear to ward off anyone asking real questions like majima did. because ANYONE associating themselves with the supposed#patriarch-killer was a HUGE NO-NO at the time. someone important showing up for kiryu and welcoming him back outright could’ve caused#all-out warfare probably. except majima. because majima was dedicated and smart enough to use his widely-feared wildcard persona#(that everyone tended to view as incapable of having any Real agenda to worry about) to his And kiryu’s advantage#does that make sense??? I feel like it makes a lot of sense if you get it to click in your head#kazumaji#majima#kiryu#yakuza#kiwami 1#yk1#rambling
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scratching at the walls
#i want to get to work on secsam SO BAD but the hard part about working on a comic is that it's dangerous to get started without knowing#how it ends and how i want the pacing to happen throughout#so like i think i have the first half basically but if i can't fit the second half in a reasonable amount of pages i might have to reduce#the first half#and it would be a bad use to time to get going on what i have and then throw some or all of it out#if this was an open ended project i owuldn't care but like... i've only got so much time#i can only make so many pages#and i just don't know howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i want this second part to go#but the first part isn't enough of a story on its own and i'm PUMPED about the second part#like i've wanted to do the second part basically for years except i only ever thought through the set-up for it#nooooo clue what to do after that#like i know the themes i want but i'm so god-awful at coming up with scenarios#like NEW scenarios? without existing conflict to build off of??#but i specifically want to set up an AU where the canon conflict doesn't come up so what... do i do now#sorry yelling into the void because it's easier than trying to talk to people who might actually help me hahahaha#augh maybe i should just try to figure out something else entirely for the second half...i want to do it really bad but#if i can't figure out what the whole “it” is beyond the initial concept then maybe it can't be done
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