#But don't worry! I will try drawing for you guys arts often than I was

[ihateitallsomerandomguy]

@chessman-protocol

Haven't posted in a while sorr

[just-null]

i am OBSESSED with that one yandere hantengu clone art! but i do wonder, did you change their appearance a bit to make them look alike but at the same time not? this is hard to explain, but i observed the clones nose shape, sekidos hair being more different than the others, and facial structures making them each being different. very sorry if this doesn’t make sense it’s hard explaining what i noticed (T ^ T)

I think I understand what you mean, don't worry! you did wonderfully!

and basically, yes and no!

Some things were probably accidental (like facial structure), but the purposeful tweaks were their eyes and hair yeah!

I wanted the viewer to be able to tell the difference between them without being explicitly told who's who.

[design yapping under the cut]

I've heard that depending on what expression you're making often, it changes how you rest your face, and I wanted that to translate into how i drew them!

that and if you look REALLY closely, there are some subtle differences between them all in the anime/manga, so i accentuated those and added my own spin to it too.

So, if i were to draw the four making a neutral expression, it'd look something like this!

And that would HOPEFULLY be enough to give you an idea about who's who while also keeping their faces EXTREMELY similar yet a little different at the same time

but knowing me....... i'd probably still make it super obvious.......

I changed their nose because Hantengu had a sharp nose, and I thought it'd be hot cool to see them with one! I have no excuse for the eye bags and dimples.. they look like they have the type of hot guy aura to have those traits............... orz

i try not to forget small details but i probably do sometimes making them look different //slams head against wall

[random-twst-things]

The Sweet Painter of Twisted things (Pt. 1)

Hi annon! Love the concept. It's no bother at all, I do love to write after all!! Ty for the request and I apologize for taking so long 😭✨🍬 (I hope you like it!)

Characters involved: Riddle, Leona, Azul pt.1 (Kalim, Jamil, Vil, Idia, Malleus pt.2)

Pairings: Riddle, Leona, Azul pt 1 (Kalim, Jamil, Vil, Idia, Malleus x Female reader pt.2) (Separate)

Warnings: Mentions of eerie/gory paintings

Word count: 1,630

Notes: you know what? I'm just gonna post it now and finish the rest in a different post, I don't want y'all to be kept waiting any longer 😭✨🍬

More notes: I'll be posting Pt.2 whenever I have time! I will say though, I have no idea how to write for some of the characters in Pt.2 😀✨🍬

When you said you painted and wished to show him your art, Riddle had to admit he was a tad bit (a lot) excited to see

So, when you showed him your art he was absolutely bewildered.

You, the sweetest person he has ever had the chance in meeting, paints things that could cause nightmares.

Obviously, he isn't going to say that aloud, he has manners, but dear seven, how unexpected it was for him.

He's seen art before. He's been to museums by his mother to teach him strictly of the arts and the "rules" she put in place for them to determine how well a painting is.

It's been years since his mother taught him such things, and she only did it so often, and after time, those rules of art set by his mother have dwindled.

He's been able to go to museums before with Trey as a way to calm down when things are too much. Luckily, Trey was able to explain to Riddle how there are many forms of art and how it art doesn't necessarily have rules itself.

So it's safe to say he's a bit more well-versed in paintings now, even though he still finds it a bit difficult when there's no rules to follow (a habit hard to get rid of)

Now, his reaction all depends on what painting and image your showing him

He will ask you questions about why you would paint such uncanny things such as:

Why did you paint this? What caused you to begin painting such eerie things? What Inspiration were you given to paint this particular piece?

And many more questions about technique and practical things.

He can't say that he's a fan of these types of paintings, but he can say that he thinks you're very talented to be able to make such paintings

He'll praise how well done or real your painting(s) looks.

He's going to be a bit concerned about you, though, and he shows that by (trying to) subtly asking if you're okay

"What gave you the inspiration to draw this?" Riddle asks, the worry in his tone being quite evident even through his attempts in hiding it. "Have you witnessed such things for inspiration?" He asks again, his voice laced with even more worry than before.

"What? No!" You stand up from your seat to get closer to Riddle. "It's not like that," you laugh lightly, shaking your hands in the air. "I just happened to see a rotting piece of meat in the cafeteria kitchen one time while passing by."

Riddle breathes a sigh of relief he didn't know he was holding in. Bro was stressing and worrying.

I say this in the nicest way possible to us all, but this man does not care but-!

Leona doesn't care in a sense like "I wanna show you something!" "Alright hurry it up and show me".

Maybe he's a bit smug that you're showing him something you like to do.

Anyways, when you said you wanted to show him your painting(s) he was being smug.

He didn't have any set expectations to what type of things you painted or what your style was.

Him seeing the eerie or gory painting didn't surprise him as much as Riddle either.

He doesn't have much to say, but this guy is still smug and is definitely showing it now.

Why? The guys got weird motives and definitions of respect and pride so we'll never know.

His does wonder how you acquired such Inspiration to paint like this.

He's not too curious about it to the point where he'll try to find out or becomes worried.

Again, he is smug and prideful but it's for you

He feels prideful FOR you. He's smug about you being able to paint such gory or eerie things FOR you.

(Bros so smitten with you)

You set your canvas/notebook down carefully against one of the plants nearby, careful not to get it dirty or damaged.

Leona lays there, back towards you, unbothered under the shade of a plant, but not for long as you bring your finger near his cheek and begin to poke.

Poke.

Poke.

PokePokePokePokePokePokePoke.

Leona swats your hand away, but not harshly. His tail swings left to right faster then he was asleep, another sign he's awake.

He looks at you, irked that you disturbed his so-called much needed nap. He glares at you, but his eyes lack the malice in them to even consider it threatening. You look at him innocently, hands behind your back as to show it wasn't you. (He knows better, only you would ever try to wake him up like that)

He sighs deeply. "What is it herbivore?" He asks as he shifts slightly to get into a more comfortable position to get a better view of you. You turn your body slightly to grab the canvas you set down behind you, careful not to accidentally show Leona just yet. "I wanna show you something," you beam, you're more excited then you thought you'd be showing him, for the first time, your most recent painting.

Leona's tail begins to swish even faster, thumping against the leaves of the plants nearby. His tail gives away that his curiosity has been piqued. Yet his face remains unchanged, besides the slight quirk of his eyebrow in questioning.

You turn the canvas around for Leona to see.

And there it is

The smirk

The smug

The eyes of pride *sound effects*

His smirk seems to widen even more as he looks at the painting and then back at you. "Looks nice herbivore, ya got anymore?"

You excitedly nod your head, "yeah, I do. Wanna see them?", you ask, gripping your painting, even more excited then before to show him.

Leona nods his head languidly while slowly closing his eyes, "sure, but after I finish this nap", he brings his arms down and begins to get comfortable. He softly pats his stomach, "Come, sleep".

Azul knows you paint, he knows it's been a hobby of yours for a while now.

How does he know? Doesn't matter. Does he know what exactly the contents of your paintings are? No

His curiosity has been eating away at him. He was so very curious on what his darling was capable of

So, when you first told him that you wished to show him your paintings, he was elated. His curiosity will finally be quelled.

He may or may not have a set expectations of what you paint. Something sweet, something calm or maybe something like he'd find at a museum of old paintings.

What he saw was the complete opposite to say the least.

He's not disappointed, no, he's just shocked.

He's amazed. He's taken aback. He's a lot of emotions.

.....would you be willing to, perhaps, sell these paintings? Many people out there would be willing to buy, and the profits would be even and-

Old habits die hard, I suppose 🤷🏽‍♀️

You led Azul by the hand to your room/drawing room, much slower than he would like as he wished to see your paintings as soon as possible.

"Azul, i can feel you twitching in anticipation just by holding your hand," you laughed lightly. He sighed, bringing his free hand to his temple to calm his nerves. "I'm sorry, dear, but it feels as if you're walking slower just to build up anticipation," "Maaaybeee~". Azul chuckles at your antics.

Finally, after Azuls definition of agonizing seconds. He visibly relaxed as he saw the covered canvas. "My, you really know how to keep me on my toes", ",I most certainly do". You left go of his hand and stand next to the covered canvas. "Ready?", you put your hands on the sheet. Azul held his breath and nodded.

You clench the cover and quickly pull it off. You turn to face Azul to gouge his reaction. That reaction was him frozen in place, still holding his breath (you'd begun to think how he still hasn't passed out) "Azul?" You try to call out to him.

He slowly walks up to your painting, still holding his breath. He reaches out and touches the edges of the canvas delicately, scared he we're to break it if he put too much pressure. You watch his careful movements. You watch as his eyes rake over your painting as if he could take the painting and store it into his memory box. "Azul?" You try calling out again, only this time he responds.

He let's out a shaky breath, "it looks -" he turns his head to fade you. "It looks magnificent, dear," his words were barely above a whisper. You stand there absolutely frozen and shocked. Nobody has ever quite thought this kind of painting would be 'magnificent' before.

"Really?" He turns his head back at the painting."Yes, the detail is vert intricate, and it feels so eerie. It's as if you were truly there." You stare at him bewildered, mouth slightly agape.

He puts his hand on his chin in a thinking position. The gears turn in his head. He turns to face you so quickly that you'd think he'd have snapped his neck on accident. "Have you ever considered selling these?" He asks, with a twinkle in his eyes.

"Sell them?... No, I never really thought of that." You bring your fingers to your chin, now thinking as well. "Well, I'll say many would be lining up the door to buy these wonderful paintings!""Really?"

"Yes! With such talent and my business skills, we could -" and there goes the business man into his spiral of possibilities.

[riyangiis]

I LOVE FILO ZB1 CONTENT SMMMM i usually have these random thoughts in my head abt what the members would be like as filos AND BRO for me ricky is definitely englishero. specifically those kinds that are fluent in tagalog but just prefer speaking in english

actually ricky is so me what the heck.. 😬😬 HE DEF LISTENS TO HEV ABI😬😬😬 it's either he's conyo and is horrible at filipino or he's just what you described him.. this guy is a bgc boy you can't say no

I think I would still keep the chinese and american in him😂😂.. guys guys what if he's a chinese-filipino that grew up in the us and has little to no knowledge abt the philippines.. bro when he gets there he would be THE airport crush wtf.. his parents told him that he should try to go to a public school but he's concerned and worried that he might get made fun of.. A LOT. so he goes to a private school first, then goes to public once he's able to speak filipino properly and stuff but he's only gonna stay there for a year..

bro def goes like "what's the orange ball with the little egg inside?" LMAOOOO🤣🤣🤣🙏🙏⁉️⁉️ he cringes at those err what do you call them.. the genggeng boys😬 they often tell him to try and hangout with them but he just.. ignores them.. "kumaldag ka nga!!" "wtf is a kaldag??"

bro tries so hard not to show off in the days where you're able to wear civilian clothes instead of the uniform but does it anyway.. "bat may lalaking mukhang pupunta sa party.." he even ricky-fies his own uniform and makes it look richer and more classy than it was originally supposed to be.. ehh you get it

def the guy that has EVERYTHING you need for a project, he doesn't really do anything except make the art and have the supplies.. "gaga nawala ung ink ng marker!" *biglang may 7 na marker, bago pa..* the main reason why he doesn't really do anything in the project because his group mates find it hard to communicate with him since his first languages are english and chinese and when he speaks filipino, he has this weird accent..

he knows how to speak filipino naman, it's just that accent that messes everything up.. medyo insecure siya abt it so he just doesn't speak at all. he also doesn't understand kanal humor AT ALL so his classmates don't really like his type of humor.. when he found out that he actually has english-speaking classmates with aircon humor, he tried his best to befriend him but they thought he was weird or didn't want to become friends with him since they thought he was some rich spoiled kid who knows nothing but money.. heck people even used him because of his wealthy status and got hold of the fact that he likes giving gifts to people he's close with..

he's famous around the school just for his looks, nothing else. when he thought his popularity would give him an advantage to get more friends and have a good image. he caught girls trying to sneak gifts or trying to state at him, he thought that this whole thing was making him uncomfortable but he can't do anything though. that's only gonna ruin his reputation. so he didn't mind and ignored the admirers, they're not really his business anyways. he knows he's handsome, he doesn't have to show it off at all times.

he stopped trying to make friends in his school and just sticked to doing his hobbies when he was bored and continued talking to his friends from china and usa, the others just viewed him as some rich kid anyway. the teacher assigned a project that needs a partner for the class, everyone gets to pick their own partner. he looks around with people debating on who should be their partner. he just continued drawing whatever was in his mind waiting for some unfortunate person to have no choice but be partners with him (to his admirers it's very fortunate to be partners with him.. you can see them fighting on who should be his partner, ricky is just enjoying the thought of being alone with no one disturbing him.

ricky suddenly felt a gentle tap on his shoulder. he looked up to see someone, is it an admirer?

"hello? can I be your partner?"

"huh? oh, sure.."

his attention is now on you instead of the drawing of a rose, ricky was caught off guard because of how.. quick this person asked to be his partner without being shy or nervous. he looked at the group of admirers, now fuming because he already has a partner.

(medyo inaccurate ito sorry😭😭)

[askklisba]

Hello friends! So glad you found me! XD, it makes me so happy!😸

（I used a translator throughout this article🙏）

Regarding how to call me, you can call me whatever you want!

Gender pronouns: Anything is fine, just follow your ideas!

Understand and respect each other, although there is no truly accurate understanding and respect in this world... Just do your best, don't be too strict on yourself!

In short, I am an amateur painting enthusiast, not a professional in art, and my painting skills are not very good, but I like to try various media to paint!

I usually create my OC and some fan works of my favorite works or games! !

I'm not very good at expressing myself, and I often use swear words and colloquialisms, incomprehensible jokes, and topics like tobacco and alcohol. I'm sorry. If you feel uncomfortable, you can block me!

I have some mental problems, this will sometimes cause my words to be illogical, and my poor English may cause misunderstandings... But I will try my best to adjust the sentences translated by the translator and the expressions of my native language（简体中文/繁體中文）!

I am a person who talks a lot of nonsense! But it is easy to make typos when excited...

! OK, please pay attention!

I never self-harm, like cutting myself with a knife! I also don’t feel like I need preferential treatment just because I have a mental problem and I’m receiving formal treatment.

! ! I have never had a drug addiction or a history of taking drugs, I only smoke legal cigarettes and drink legal liquor! !I am an adult, and I strongly discourage letting others smoke and drink excessively (especially children who are underage, don’t do this!)

Anyway, normal communication is ok! ❤️

Don't worry, I have a good temper! But it's best not to mess with me, really.

There may be some here (note that it may appear, not necessarily, but please pay attention to those who feel uncomfortable, please)

❗️❗️↓↓↓❗️❗️

NSFW (there may be, generally I will not post it or draw it. Come out)/For the character’s gender change/Cute girl painting style/frightening and unsettling(such as monsters, uncanny valley effect, spiritual curiosity, many dense holes, etc.)

There’s bound to be: lots of plasma! /Character is seriously injured/Character is animalized (not Furry!)/Character is anthropomorphized/My thoughts and daily complaints/About the portrayal of tobacco and alcohol in works and realistic speech/Bad sentences translated by the translator

Although I have a strong acceptance of sexual fetishes, I do have my limits......😑

Please note that these make me feel uncomfortable

Molestation/rape of young children

Bring crimes from the virtual world to reality and implement them. (Really heartless)

Plagiarism and controversial works

! ! ! quarrel! ! ! I don't like to quarrel!

Badly behaved cliques (please remind me if there are any!)

ky (this abbreviation originates from Japanese)

Dislike very much:

1. Some people who send me photos of self-harm. I respect you guys but I have ptsd about it and I've met some terrible people and they've affected me to this day... I don't like flashbacks. Please also don’t follow me or harass me, thank you.🙏🙏🙏

2. Constantly asking me to do something or paint something/coercing or even threatening me to do something I don’t want to do!

3. You can dislike me and my works, you can block me, or you can point out my shortcomings or mistakes and tell me, but please don't be sarcastic or make personal attacks on me! This makes no sense at all!

4. Political related (I am looking for works I like in the virtual world rather than engaging in keyboard battles. I know what is happening in this world, which is difficult to evaluate. I hope you can understand, and hope everything is fine...😔🙏)

5. Racists (Get out of my sight immediately! At least you are not welcome here!)

6. I cannot take care of everyone's personal feelings, nor can I meet everyone's requirements and expectations. I am just an ordinary human being.

7. Maliciously attack and ridicule those who are suffering pain and suffering

! If you feel uncomfortable after reading this nonsense, please block me immediately, thank you!

Alright! In short, whatever I look like in your eyes, that's what I look like. I cannot become what others like for various reasons... You can like or hate me (including my works). It's all ok, I don't mind blocking me when you really hate me! It doesn’t matter, it’s human nature!

Anyway, it's nice to meet you!🌹🥺🌹❤️‍🔥

Other words may be added slowly in the future!

[welcometothedopeworld]

Body Paint ~ *Zen Gaho*

Summary: As an artist, you are always pushing the limits of your art. That's one of the reasons why Zen loves you. However, when you ask him to help you with your next project, he's not sure how he feels and wonders if you've gone too far...

Pairing: Zen Gaho X Fem!Reader

Genre: Suggestive Oneshot

Word Count: 1261

Warning: A little NSFW

Masterlist

Zen may not be the most adventurous guy on the entire planet, but ever since dating you, he has definitely been pushed out of his comfort zone more and more. At first, he was a bit skittish when you wanted to try new things with him. But having you by his side to assure him that everything was going to be fine, he became more inclined to join you.

It also helped that most of the new things he tried were of the artistic persuasion. You loved art in all its many forms. You had coerced Zen to join you in drawing, pottery, photography, tapestry, and knitting classes. You also convinced him on more than one occasion to be your model while you painted, although he has yet to pose nude for you. Regardless, you could always work some form of art into every single date the two of you went on. Even when it was just a standard dinner out, you told him about what you learned about flower arranging or how the lighting was meant to invoke romantic feelings in people, as you learned in photography. 

While some would find your constant obsession with art obnoxious, Zen found it utterly enchanting. To him, it felt like you saw the beauty in everything around you. And he loved hearing you talk about things you were passionate about. He would be willing to listen to you talk or watch you do art every single day if he could.

Which is why when you texted him to meet you at your studio for a project, Zen was quick to ask Iori if he could go. Of course, before he was allowed to leave, he received a healthy dose of teasing from the group's leader. But he didn't mind. He was more focused on the fact that he would be seeing you soon.

Upon arriving at your studio, he called out to you and you emerged from the back storage room that he helped put shelves in for you last summer.

He smiled. "Smock, palette, and brushes? Another painting party I see."

"Not exactly." You coo, a coy smile on your face. "One of my friends from the art museum downtown gave me this most fascinating idea and you were the first person I thought of to share it with."

"And what is this idea?"

"Take off your shirt and I'll show you."

This caused him to pause, a red blush creeping up his neck. "Take off my shirt? Why?"

You giggled. "I told you that I'll show you! You just need to wait and see! Now pretty please won't you take off your shirt?"

As his blush intensified, he slid off his black tank top. You let your eyes trail over his soft, tan skin and bulging muscles. It wasn't often you saw your boyfriend like this, and he looked absolutely delicious.

Refraining from licking your lips, you gesture to the floor. "Please lay down on your stomach."

Zen didn't argue and instead laid down with his head in his arms. He did tense as you straddled his hips from behind, sitting nicely on his waist.

"What are you doing?"

"Relax, dear. I'm not going any further than this." You assure him. "Although, try not to flex and move too much. You're going to feel some weird sensations on your back, but I promise it won't hurt a bit."

"Seriously, what are you doing?"

You sigh. "I'm just going to paint on you."

"What? The paint's supposed to go where?!"

With a giggle, you mix your paints a bit more on your palette before settling your brush on the wide plane of his back. "Right there."

He tensed at the contact of the brush on his back, but at least he didn't move too much as you began to paint. He was silent for a time, allowing you to do your art. But you could tell he was confused and slightly worried about what you were painting on him.

"Don't worry, I'm not painting anything obscene." You assured him with a giggle. "I'm actually painting Starry Night on your back."

"Are you really?" You could tell he half believed you.

You nodded, though you knew he couldn't see it. "Yep. Can't you feel it?"

"I just feel cold paint being applied to my back and my muscles beginning to ache because I'm afraid if I move, I'll crack the paint."

"What a considerate canvas." You sweetly say. "Don't worry, though. If you need to move, you can move. I don't mind too much. Just let me know if you do."

Zen nods and the two of you re-enter the calm silence you were in moments before. Occasionally, he mentions he needs to adjust again and shift underneath you. Working on a more limited space, you get the painting done relatively fast. You couldn't help but admire your work.

"Hang on. I need to get a picture."

"Oh, are you done already?" His voice was thick with sleep, presumably from the nap he took in the last ten minutes of your painting.

You giggled and took a picture on your phone. You then showed him the photo. "What do you think?"

Zen nods again. "Very well done, my little Van Gogh."

You smile before pressing the palette and brush into his hands. "Now it's your turn!"

"Pardon?"

Instead of answering him, you slipped out of your smock, revealing your naked torso to him. He blushed and looked away out of respect as you took your spot on the ground where he just was.

"Now you get to paint on my back. Anything you want. And it doesn't have to be some great, intricate piece. It can be as simple as colorful shapes all over my back. Just make sure you fill the whole canvas."

"But-"

"Please Zen?"

He sighed. "Okay, I'll try."

You shiver as the paint touches your back. He wasn't kidding, it was definitely cold and the paint brush gliding across your back was an odd feeling. Still, you enjoyed it nonetheless. You were curious as to what he was painting on you, but you didn't ask until he was finished. Instead, you enjoyed the moment of him carefully painting your body. You even found yourself yawning a couple of times, understanding how he managed to take a little cat nap earlier. It was so relaxing right now.

Eventually, he shook you awake by your shoulder. "I think I'm done."

"Take a picture and let me see."

Grabbing his phone, he took a picture of your back and held it up to you. As you sat up, his blush returned and he looked away once more. It made you giggle. You then nodded at the picture.

"Very good work, Zen! It's absolutely beautiful!"

"You think so?" He bashfully asked.

"I know so. Oh, I need to post these right away!"

He touched your hand before you could grab your phone. "Can you, um, not post them please? I want this to stay between us."

"Oh." You nodded. "Of course, absolutely! But let me just send this picture to my phone, okay? So I can have the two pictures together."

He nods and watches you send the picture. "This was fun. We should, um, we should do this again sometime."

You smile. "Yes, we should! Although I have an even better idea!"

"And what's that!"

"A sex mural! Where we cover ourselves in paint and have sex on a piece of canvas that we can hang up later!"

"YOU WANT TO WHAT?!"

[vitamango]

Oh! Hello there! Here's something different! A rare text post! I realize I interact very rarely here (and tbh interact very rarely on social media at all, in recent years) but I'm trying to figure out a nicer balance than just dead radio silence.

I guess, hi hello. I'm King -- I'm a nonbinary artist. I draw. I love video games and cute things. And I am trying to beat my anxiety over using social media back with a stick. I dunno how many of my followers are still active here, but regardless of whether you have found me recently or stuck with me for years, you guys really mean a lot to me. It's a really quiet little corner of the internet, but it's mine, and I find comfort in knowing that there's someone out there who was kind enough to take a moment out of their life to see my work.

I want to challenge myself to start posting a little more so I'm slowly posting some of my old art backlog, but maybe also just chattering mindlessly and finding comfort in blogging again.

Man, it's really been a while since I last posted a text post, huh. To be honest, somewhere in the last 2-5 years, I've developed some kind of crippling fear of being perceived and just kind of drop my art on social media like a cat dropping a dead mouse on someone's pillow for praise and just disappear back into the ether. I miss it, though! I miss interaction even if I'm not a particularly chatty person in blog form but, hell, it's a blog and it's silly to be worried about blogging... on a blog.

So here I am. I think part of the anxiety has stemmed from trying to slowly make the switch to twitter and there being so many unspoken rules of engagement on twitter that at some point it all just got all twisted up into a big ball of "well idk how to interact so I guess I won't!" and somehow that just kind of extended to pretty much every social media thing I have. It's kind of wild how hostile social media feels nowadays -- is it just me? I know I have a lot of anxiety but I hope someone out there relates!

Tumblr is a strange blogging platform, isn't it? It makes interacting with people kind of hoop-jumpy and difficult, and yet it still feels a lot more approachable than something like twitter in my opinion (my beloathed).

I've been considering making the jump to Cara seeing so many other artists do the same (and I have made an account), but to be honest, the idea of maintaining yet another social media account fills me with so much bone-deep exhaustion.

I've been really struggling with artblock recently and finding it difficult to find enjoyment in the hobby that I loved so much and has been so formative to me. It feels strangely alienating finding myself incapable of producing artwork the way I used to, but it's been a slow work in progress. Reviving my social media accounts is a step in some direction, honestly! Or at least, I'm hoping it will be.

Tangentially related, I don't draw a lot of fanart -- not because I'm not a fan of things but more because if I spend the energy on drawing, I often want to spend it on original creations (as the #1 and singular fan in that fandom LOL), but I always feel like I should do it more often -- mostly because it's such a delight to see other fans trickle in out of the woodwork. I think this every time in the rare occasions I do post fanwork, haha!

Anyways, I'm not actually expecting anyone to read this but if you did, hello! I hope you, specifically, (yes, you!!!) have the bestest of days! ;)

469th post on this blog, too. Nice.

[windmaedchen-oceanhorn]

Writer Artist Interview Game

I am not really a writer. I write short drabbles on occasion but it's really not what I'd call my vocation. Hence, I dared to change the topic of this game. :-)

When did you start drawing?

The usual: very young. Always preferred images over letters. They reached me quicker and more reliably than words on paper. For the same reason I hate phone calls or even chats without emojis, as I cannot SEE what's going on. So, drawing a lot, always, for any fandom I liked and many other things, too.

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy seeing than what you draw?

Since the images that wow me are not from one particular genre or style, I can't really gauge what I like and what not. I am easily affected by colours and I will always cherish anything drawn with intent and passion, no matter the skills of the artist.

Is there an artist you want to emulate or get compared to often?

Oh no, this would be such a good opportunity to shout out so many amazing artists out there! But... I don't have so much time to go research, as sadly I don't have it all in my head. T_T (I am so sorry!)

But I often find myself inspired by art I see, and then attempt to copy that style. Here is a collection of images that were done specifically inspired by other artists:

(If asked, I can probably name two of these four artists... it's been a long time...)

And a lot more images showing how I try to emulate a canon style:

Can you tell me a bit about your drawing space?

Office table, weirdly wedged into my room, height adjustable so I can stand, too. I'm currently using an iPad Pro and ProCreate as my tools to create.

What’s your most effective way to muster up a muse?

I don't worry about it. When you do something for fun, then there is no point in forcing you when you feel like you haven't been productive lately. I can be sad about it, sure, but in the end, you only do what you do and that's good and enough!

Distraction works also, as much as being busy with work. The little bit of free time then is more urgently used to get that one particular idea onto paper.

Are there any recurring themes in your drawings? Do they surprise you?

Uhm... I don't think so.

What is your reason for drawing?

I like seeing things! I draw to be able to see on paper what I imagine. Somehow that gives me a good feeling.

I also love to draw for others, because it's just as awesome for them to see their imagination on paper! Plus, I get to see these people happy. xD

What do you feel is your greatest strength as an artist?

Well, the above, I guess. I can visualise things and bring across an idea pretty much exactly as it is to someone else. I think I consider that my purpose as artist.

How do you feel about your own art?

I am finally at a point where I enjoy my own art a lot. That doesn't mean I am free of doubts, for I regularly still run into problems, like a face that refuses to look like I want, or a pose that's just too complex without reference etc. But by now, I shrug and move on to the next, with knowledge and more experience to make it better then the previous one. So, the learning curve has definitely not ended yet!

Thanks a lot for being tagged, @noisette-tornade.

I'll tag these guys: @feli026, @afktales ( you can change it back to writing!), @mochiandturtles, and... anyone who would like to do it. Please tag me, so I can read it! My mind is empty, I can't think of so many people right now. ...

[booksandchainmail]

Pale 10.4

oooh, I wasn't sure we'd get a Verona chapter this arc

“Can’t show you this one, Tash.” Tashlit, lounging on a beach towel, reached toward her waist and gestured. “No, this one isn’t rude."

I like the unstated "gesture"

Tashlit held up a finger.  One.  Then the ‘what?’ gesture. “The first most recent email is a reminder from Ding Phones that my prepaid phone account is almost out of funds, please visit the site to top up.”

I'm reminded of a great bit from Bloom Into You where the protagonist is eagerly awaiting a response from love interest, and when her phone pings it's an automated version update notification

“My mom tried to give me the dumbed down explanations but it felt a lot like I was in the way.  So I gave the excuse I had to get stuff sorted out.  And then we left a couple days after and we stopped in for a visit with her artist friend and I think that was meant for me.  Like, she thought I would be receptive and I’d get it and stuff, and it was cool to see the guy’s studio and stuff but like, I’m here and that guy’s alllll the way over there.”

I got to avoid this as a kid: if the people coming over for dinner were family friends who would want to talk with me I would stay, if not I could eat early and then just hang out elsewhere instead of having to stay at the table while conversations went over my head.

“Oh.  Disappointed, but not disappointed in me.  Maybe.”

disappointed in her own parenting skills?

Verona grabbed her book, flipped back a few pages, and found the image she’d drawn after Tashlit had insisted she would take every art critique seriously.  It was rude: a crude and rude drawing of a guy hugging a two-foot-wide boner that came up to the top of his head.

well if all else fails you have a career path on furry twitter

Jeremy replied.  I don’t know how to respond except pic just made my week.  Have some pics of Sir.

oh big mood, I also start messages with "I don't know how to respond" or something similar. If I wait to try and find words for a good response I just never send it.

“Is my dad going to jail?” The words left her lips before she realized she’d asked. “Is that another priority, Verona? That your dad be punished?” It was subtle. The tone a little cooler than before, less warm. Oh. She’d fucked it. She’d thoroughly fucked it, hadn’t she? Because now the idea was in David’s head. That she’d had an argument with her dad and things had gone wrong and now she was a manipulator or she was trying to get back at him and he was a tool for her to do that.

I can't tell if the child protective services guy is geniunely disapproving, or if Verona is panicking and reading too much into it. Because tone cooling here could mean a lot of things (ie David worrying that things were worse than he thought). If it is that says bad things about him! Honestly my first thought in this scenario (especially Verona was talking about not wanting to move) would be that she was scared of hr life getting completely disrupted by her dad getting arrested.

It's also sad that Verona's first thought on getting a (possibly) negative reaction to a genuine emotion is worrying that it makes her look manipulative or petty, because that is 100% what her dad has been telling her

The way he looked off to one side here and there made her wonder if he felt like his time was being wasted, now.  Or misused.  He kept taking notes when there wasn’t anything to take notes on.

I think "kid in a protective meeting visibly panics when told their parent won't be arrested" is something to take notes on!

“Sits in bed and sobs and tells me everything I’m doing wrong and everything he’s doing wrong and stuff about my mom.” “Okay. How often is that?” “Two to six nights a week, except when I’m away, or like, not nights but in the kitchen after he gets home from work, he’ll start telling me I didn’t mow the lawn or whatever and then it gets into how much his coworkers suck.”

... that is more often than I thought it was. Six nights a week at max, gods.

“Exacerbated by life circumstances?” he asked.  He started to take a note. “Not- no,” she said. She watched him continue to take the note, ignoring the ‘no’. She could imagine that penned down ‘life circumstances’ taking all the heat out of what she was saying.

I cannot tell if Verona is reading this accurately and this guy is going to be useless or not. Leaning towards not because I want to be optimistic.

“The third was- we went shopping and I got on his case, called him a bad dad and stuff. I pushed his buttons on purpose, because I could. And he freaked and stopped the car in the middle lane of a three lane road and made me get out. Cars were honking their horns and passing on the left and right. And I had icecream I’d bought for myself I was too full to eat and it melted while I walked home. I guess that doesn’t count when I think about it.”

I MEAN YOU'RE RIGHT THAT ISN'T TECHNICALLY BREAKING YOUR THINGS BUT IT IS IN FACT MORE WORRYING FOR DIFFERENT REASONS

“When was this?” “Christmas.”

winter in Canada? Admittedly I don't know that much about the weather but that seems hazardous

How could she even put it into words?  It was pressure and pressure over years.  It was telling her dad about her problems and it never mattering because he always one-upped her, and that added up little by little.

fascinated to see what people have done for Worm-style powers for Verona based on this as a trigger event

“Are you and your dad close?” “No. I think he wants us to be.” “How does he want you to be close?” “Hanging out, watching movies. He’d rather I didn’t see my friends and instead went with him. I think he’s lonely.”

I normally think of this as a red flag in romantic relationships, but it's even more one in a familial relationship

It felt like every time he was making notes, he was taking down the statements or arguments she felt were weakest and most unimportant.  Or stuff that made her dad seem more okay than he was. Dad’s lonely, wants to bond with shitty daughter.

I really don't think that's why he's taking a note of it!

And also wow does Verona place the blame on herself all the time. No wonder she has self-esteem issues as part of the Kennet Trio, if this is how her dad has taught her to think of herself

…She wasn’t even sure what she wanted.  She wanted to land this entire thing in the zone where she left her dad’s and went to Jas’s.  That was the perfect outcome.  It’s bad, gotta take this girl out of there, it’s crushing her and making her feel small and broken.  So we pick her up and take her… no, that’s too far.  Where’s a place we can put her that’s out of the house but not that super far away… Jas’s house!

yesyesyesyesyes. The guy mentioned temporary custody earlier, could that be this?

And even if it wasn’t impossible she couldn’t burden Jas like that, especially if Jas had a job she wanted and no time or money.

this has also been my concern with what is otherwise the perfect solution. Would the government provide a stipend for caring for Verona? It's not like she takes a lot of maintenance time-wise

“Almost died?  Tell me about that.” “At this thing I went to at the start of summer. I don’t want to get into it, it…

I think that's the kind of thing he has to follow up on, actually. Verona's dad not wanting more info on this was a red flag, and I don't think Verona recognizes how weird that was

I mean, she can probably pass it off as like an outdoors accident at summer camp (storm while hiking, bridge broke, etc etc) but she should have to at least come up with a story!

“Right now we’re in a middle stage, deciding what the immediate needs are.  It doesn’t sound like you need to be removed from the home, and it doesn’t sound like you want to be removed from the home.”

:(

“I want to leave that house.  I don’t want to go back,” Verona said.  “But can’t I go to Jasmine’s, instead?  Can’t- isn’t there a way to-” Breath hitched.  She was aware her mom was sitting next to her.  “Can’t we- you guys give money to foster parents, right?  So couldn’t I go there, and couldn’t, um, you could give her money and I wouldn’t be a burden, and she’s a really good mom to Lucy and she’s lovely.”

the degree to which Verona is breaking down in this conversation is distressing

Verona didn’t know what to say when what she’d already said and how she’d reacted had probably hurt her mom, and her mom didn’t say anything.

eh, deserved

“Is it possible?  To give Verona what she wants?  I don’t imagine the money from the system going to her would be possible, like she suggested, but if we could divert child support, maybe?”

surprising W from Verona's mom! I mean, it means she doesn't have to change her life at all to accommodate her own child, so low bar, but this is also what Verona wants

“We’d be looking at… the schedule’s tight.  This looks like, hm, three at-home visits over three months.  During those visits, I or someone else with access to the file would be checking in to make sure that all course participation is maintained, that the house is safe.  I would check in with Verona.” “Only three visits?  She’s so upset right now.” “Resources are stretched thin.” “You’re sending her back to that house?”

well fuck.

Lowering my estimation of CAS right back down.

Guess it's time to see if we can get Verona set up with a Demesne she can live in?

“I finished talking with David Williams.  Then I called Jasmine, and I called your dad, and I called Jasmine again.” Verona looked up. “She’ll take you until the end of summer. Your dad agreed to it.”

oh fuck yes

And one way or another, by the end of summer things will be different

She was going to Jasmine’s.  What came after could be saved for after. The headache was gradually easing.

:)

“So he gave my mom a preliminary plan of three visits from CAS over three months, right?” Verona told Tashlit. Nod. “And that’s now going to be twelve over six.” Double nod. “And originally, anger management classes and parenting classes.  Now it’s anger management classes and parenting and therapy.”

on the one hand, bleak that it took the drawing to get this boosted. On the other, good that this is happening, and specifically that when Verona felt she couldn't get meaning across in words, she was able to use her art to communicate

“I hate that we go off and do our own things and we don’t cross paths. And it is entirely my fault as the mom that I let it happen. A part of me hoped my situation would change or we’d grow into new interests that did have those overlaps… I did with my mom. It took until I was seventeen or eighteen before I could talk to her, adult to adult. But I screwed up.”

Yeah you did! I mean I also didn't have a lot of shared interests with my mother as a teenager, and I still tease her about saying "You know, I actually like you as a person" when I was ~22 (liking the person I was as an independent adult, as opposed to just loving me as her daughter) (english is my mother's fourth language so phrasing is sometimes off). But she still did her best to understand my interests, and was always engaged in my life. Adult to adult is not the only way to have a strong relationship with your child!

“Call.  Anytime, any reason.  I would move heaven or earth for you.” “But you wouldn’t move,” Verona said

ouch

“Want to turn in earl-” her mom said, at the same time Verona said, “Want to look at my art?” “I would love to,” her mom replied.

baby steps :)

“Boyfriend material?” “Blegh. No. Not what I’m after.” “A boyfriend? Are you-?” “Nope. No, I wish. It’d be nice. No, it’s not the boyfriend part of that.  It’s the material part of that.  I’m immaterial.  Maybe I’ll get there, maybe I won’t, but not right now.  Lucy and Avery keep saying stuff like ‘uh oh’, poor Jeremy.” “That doesn’t sound friendly.” “It’s sorta accurate.  Because we’re hanging out and he likes me and I don’t like anyone like that, so…”

aro Verona rights

A figure stepped out of darkness, and it wasn’t the local Others come to check in with her or welcome her to the area.

UHM?

“You tell me.  Look what I found, or well, look who found me while I was out there!” At that cue, Miss stepped out from behind the power pole. Wind picked up and dust from the roadside hid her face.

oh fuck yes

“A good one,” Miss said, walking past the girls.  She walked up to Rook, and the two of them hugged.  “Hello, it’s been some time.”

huh! Didn't see that coming, but potentially very useful if they have Miss bridging the gap between them and Crooked Rook

“I asked Rook to make sure you three were more or less alright until I could find my way back.  She has, I hope.” “She said she didn’t want to associate with us.” “Maintaining that position let Matthew, Edith, and the rest draw their own conclusions about my intents and goals,” Rook said. “And it helps keep this secret right here.”

clever clever clever! This completly changes the balance of power in Kennet. Miss back, Crooked Rook as an ally, by extension Nibble and Chloe...

“Rook,” Miss said, sounding more than a little upset.  She turned her head Rook’s way, and Rook adjusted the position of the mask perfectly, in accordance with that.

this is cute

“As long as Montague could seize control of the diagram at any time, on Matthew and Edith’s request… Miss can’t come into Kennet.”

good counter for Miss, but I think Montague might be recruitable? something to work on

“I’m thinking back to a few nights ago.  At the factory.  Edith pretty much sent Chloe right at us.  She was aggressive with the furs, she’s been testing the rules.  What if we dealt with her, like, right away?” “Let’s,” Rook answered.

OwO

[bitches-who-write]

Ok this is my first time asking for a ship, so I’m not sure if I’m doing this correctly so I’ll do my best, buttttt could I get a ship with one of the boys from the bowers gang. I’m a 5,6 girl with medium length brown hair, that I usually wear in twintails. I have glasses and I’ve been described as overly kind. (Dead Ass get told to stop saying sorry for the smallest things) I’m a huge fan of horror movies and scary things and I love to draw. Thank youu and I hope I did this right.

We hope you enjoyed your first ship!  Send us another request at any time.

And for all those who’ve sent shit in last year and earlier, your stories / HC/ Ships are coming!!!!

We ship you with Vic!

Vic finds your physical appearance adorable 

He loves the way you style your hair but will tease you about it often.

When Vic wants attention but you’re too busy concentrating on your art work, you can fully expect him to tug on your hair.

When that doesn’t work, he’ll 100% steal your glasses off your face and hold them up high so you can’t reach.

Think you’ll tackle him to get your glasses back?  Pshhh good luck girl. 

He’ll keep his hand with your glasses raised high and flip you onto the bed with his free arm.

Only you can get Vic to genuinely laugh and play along with you as you try to wrestle your glasses back.

Once you guys settle down and he returns your glasses, Vic will watch you draw again.

He admires your talent and thinks you look adorable doing what you love best.

But rest assured, Vic doesn’t just think you’re cute.

He thinks you’re hot and a badass.

You love horror movies?!? Say no more.

How can someone have this adorable exterior look to them but have a lil’ side of crazy to them, too?!

Cuz let’s face it, all of us horror lovers are a bit crazy.

With you, Vic gets the best of both worlds!

If you’re not laying in bed, fingers intertwined as you talk about life, then you guys are watching horror movies together.

Not to mention Vic laughs at you for screaming at the TV.

“DON’T GO IN THERE!!!! BADDDD IDEA.  NO- WTF, man?!  Oh she’s dead-dead now.”

When you’re with the entire gang, you get a bit reserved and shy vs alone with Vic.

Obviously the others are intimidating. Much more than your boyfriend.

The smallest things make you feel embarrassed in front of them- que the constant apologizing.

Even Patrick calling you out makes you the need to apologize.

“What, Y/N? Speak up we can’t hear you!!! what'd you say” Patrick smirks knowing exactly what he's doing to you.

Y/N:  ’S- Sorry.. I was just saying I'm sorry for walking in front of the tv when-”

Belch:  ‘You don’t have to apologize for that. It's dumb.”

Y/N:  "Oh, Sorr— 

Henry:  “Don’t you fuckin’ dare say sorry again.”

Y/N:  "I know, I won’t. I mean I'm sorry, Henry.”

Immediately you clasp your hand over your mouth as Henry narrows his eyes at you.

Girl- learn to control yourself cuz Henry has as short fuse.

Not to mention you're only giving Patrick more ammo to use against you.

Don't worry, Vic has your back though.

He pulls you to his side chuckling and shaking his head.

"This is going to be a longggg night."

[finsterhund]

I'm planning to finally write the long awaited update to my first medium article on Sly, so I went back and read my past articles and holy shit did I dump trauma into them. God. The one where I talk about needing to replace Ope because he won't survive much longer if I keep chewing on him pretty much documented how my life fell apart when Cazza left remission for the last time. Seeing photos of her on it made me fucking break. I tried reading the one about stuffed dogs that resemble Spot and I had her REVIEW EACH ONE. She was like my little coauthor. God.

No wonder it's gotten so much harder to write those. I'm missing my best friend who gave irreplaceable input.

I want to write the Sly II of Sly II though because I want to share the collective information I've found about Sly since then. It's criminal that unless you get your hands on a tag of Charlene's forever toys to read it yourself their stories are all lost to time.

If I had the energy I'd make my own fansite. Provide more lore info than egnome provides for them. But sadly I'm too exhausted. Just Sly for me. Also you literally have to buy one complete with tags to see the whole tag story and obviously I'm going to limit the amount of 300 dollar stuffed animals I buy thank you very much. My first, Sly II I got for way less than he's worth and my upcoming Christmas present I'm drastically reducing my calorie intake to afford. (Don't worry, they are raising my disability income for the new year and I'm not destitute yet lol)

I just. Man. I keep thinking what it must have been like when Charleen was around and actively making these guys. Meeting up at toy expos and such. All in the US, yeah, but still. Would have loved to meet her. Asked all about Sly. Back when her toys were still in production getting promotional materials would have been easier too. Apparently she had a little fan magazine she shipped out every so often where people could send in letters? That's the sort of stuff you don't get with mass produced toys but is also too much work for modern independent creators who are treading water in today's economy. The egnome mailing list doesn't even work anymore. I wonder when it stopped running.

I'm still not giving up on trying to recreate my own backup Sly, but I'm just so tired all the time. I wish I had a workshop and wasn't just doing everything in life straight outta my bedroom. If you saw my bedside table situation and the mess it is you'd all hurl. The discount section of a fabricland was shit out all over every even remotely flat available surface.

As futile as it seems and as tired as I am, I am also pleased to report that some level of progress is being made though. I'm designing ideas to make my own take on the character distinct enough from the original. I'm also on that subject thinking about finally learning how to quilt. For real this time. Using my roommate's sewing machine is a pain in the ass so most of what I'm doing is by hand so not as nice looking but I have more control and am less likely to murder my hand.

I keep wishing we could go to the other thrift store so I can go on a quest for a ton of vintage buttons. I'm looking for upholstery buttons specifically. God that's another thing. I love buttons. You know that? I should make a quilt that also serves as a button collection. And I still want to one day make a quilt from many of Cazza's old things but currently I can't bear to alter them in any way so I've put them in a tote in my closet so I don't stare at them and cry.

Good news in that I cleaned my room a bit and that Scott is almost finished with his ear medicine. He's become such a good boy about letting me out the drops in his ears. Really adaptable he is.

I keep thinking about how I wish I could go back to drawing tons of Heart of Darkness fan art again. But I remind myself that my very own Whisky died in my arms and yeah. It's no wonder I don't have the heart to do what I'm passionate about anymore.

Maybe I make a Sly entirely out of the dollar store paw print blankets of which Cazza died with. I'd get brand new ones, enough to make the Sly, don't know how many that would take but they're a nice texture. I have old fleece I got at a discount that reminds me of the Cazza collar maybe I could make a Cazza Sly and give him a Cazza collar.

Another thing is there's just been no info on the crying dog. None at all. I didn't stop caring about him. Just that nothing new has happened. Very sad.

Hopefully playing pikmin 3 and then 4 will be a nice reprieve. I can hope.

[writing-funsies]

OP characters with artist s/o P.3

p.1 | p.2 | p.3 | p.4 | p.5 | p.6

pairings: Kid x reader, Killer x reader, Law x reader

warnings: mentions of alcohol, cursing, brief mention of death

Kid

he has a space just for you in his workshop

more times than not

the crew knows to look for both of you in said workshop

you two bounce ideas off of each other

the creative storm 

that's what everyone calls it

because you and Kid get so riled up

that you end up just screaming incoherently at each other

well, you both know what the other is saying

but I digress

you often experience art block when he's on a roll with his inventions

and his brain stops working about the same time you find your inspiration

it's a vicious cycle

but it keeps a much needed balance on the Victoria Punk

when you both find yourselves creating nonstop

everyone gets worried

Killer especially

you and the tulip often go days with little food or water or sleep

you can't just stop

what if your ideas disappear the moment you look away? 

what are you supposed to do then?

but then the blocks hit

and all hell breaks loose

with no ideas for your creative outlet

you get grumpy

which makes Kid even crankier

if there's anything on the ship that's not bolted down

it's fair game for the ensuing tantrums

just one spare glance is enough for either of you to jump on someone

fighting is better than just sitting around bored

though you find yourself quite calm after a few beers

and a bottle of wine

and like eight pints of ale

the point is

getting drunk also helps

(don't do that for real though cause your poor liver)

(also alcoholism isn't a fun hobby my guys)

Kid is just as destructive as before

but it's funnier now

because everyone is having a good time

anyway Kid loves spending time with you as you both work on your projects

it's a nice way to bond without all the mushy couple crap other people do

Killer

he likes that you're so artsy

you always find the most off-the-wall things to try

and he enjoys trying new things with you

mainly because the worst-case scenario results in maybe an hour of cleaning

and not with a pile of corpses

if you like whittling or any type of paper mache

and you make this man a mask

he'd be so happy that he's on the verge of tears

even if the mask isn't durable enough to wear in public

or while fighting

he'd still wear it in the safety of his room

where you can see him wearing it

he wants you to know how touched he is that you made it for him

he doesn't really know how to express how happy it makes him when you make stuff for him

so he'll just wear the things you make 

or he'll hang them up for everyone to see

if there's a particular sketch or painting that he really likes

he might hang it up in his private quarters 

so he can look at it before he goes to bed 

anyway

if you decided to try your hand at making jewelry

he would wear it

if that jewelry broke

he would be

devastated

he would be so upset that he messed up your hard work

you make him a new one that's even sturdier than before

you probably work on some of your projects while he's making dinner

it's one of the only times that you two can get some semi-peace and quiet before everyone goes to bed

he enjoys the downtime with you

him boiling some pasta

and you scribbling away in your sketchbook

planning your next big project 

Law

if there is anyone that's a hypocrite

it's this man

and that's hypocrite with a capital H

(Hypocrite)

you often become hyperfocused on your art

which leads to a lack of sleep

and self-awareness

Law doesn't like that

you need your rest

and to eat

and to stay hydrated

as much as he loves the art that you make

he can't allow his darling to neglect their own personal health

which is so funny coming from him

he doesn't mind when you sit in his office while he works

as long as you don't distract him too much

you'll make goofy sketches of him until you can't contain your laughter

which will promptly get you kicked out

but it was worth it

when he finds you drawing the other crew members

them posing while you furiously try to get all of the detail down

he can't help but smile

it warms his heart to see you all so happy

he'd never admit it

but he loves when you draw him or anything for him or stuff that reminds you of him

the amount of detail you put into your art is incredible

you manage to capture his tattoos and dark circles perfectly

maybe you'd mess around with drawing some tattoo designs for him

just general sketches

nothing fancy

and he'd be flipping through your sketchbook one day

when he sees them

he falls in love all over again

you know exactly what he likes in terms of style and content

so he'd get one of your tattoos

and surprise you with it

if you approve of him using your designs

(which of course you do, that was the whole point of drawing them)

he'd definitely get you to draw him some more

he might even encourage you to become a tattoo artist 

only if you're interested in doing so though

tattoos are something so personal to him

that he would be touched if you designed matching ones for you and him

and if you got some of your own that were dedicated to him

this man would spend hours just looking at them

tracing over them with his fingers

there aren't enough words in the world for him to even begin explaining how much he appreciates and loves you

[canmom]

perhaps it's just a limited view of it, but it really seems like the mindset of amateur self taught artists has changed a lot with the rise of the youtube drawing channel. instead of handing about ad hoc techniques, there's grown a huge emphasis on certain technical skills - 'learn your fundamentals' has become almost a religious mantra, and nowadays you'll see a lot of figure breakdowns and discussion often revolves around invocations of principle - shape design, form, perspective etc. - and exhortations to draw more.

in this current aspiring artist subculture, art seems to be increasingly viewed almost as a levelling tree in an rpg. you master certain skills, in some sort of notional order. some people endlessly comb through drawing videos and beg for permission to draw in the perfect proper way. some earnestly post their weekly progress and apologise for not drawing enough. there seems to be a very broad need for validation.

is this a good or bad thing? i can't deny wanting to achieve certain technical aesthetic effects and making use of all these materials in the hope of drawing like certain artists i admire, and there's no question that certain kinds of work in the capitalist art industries (concept art, anime genga, etc) demand certain skills, but seeing this egregore possessing so many young artists makes me worried. what awaits at the end, a job at ubisoft?

there is much less focus on cultivating the expressive and personal aspects of art, or learning a vocabulary to talk about them, even though that is the thing that forms your connection with an artist far more than their level of technical skill. there is more to drawing than trying to catch up to kim jung gi on the great scoreboard of art mastery. and yet, if you told me to give up trying to learn all these skills and just be happy with what i can do now, i don't think i could. there is a certain sense that learning all these skills is necessary to reach certain emotional aesthetic effects.

steven zapata's solution to this conceptual dilemma is to suggest that each artist must develop their own personal strong aesthetic opinions, essentially defining the game they're trying to play, and that is where the struggle for skill plays out rather than one universal pyramid. i think i agree with this. and yet, when i stumble on an artist fighting to climb the same stupid mountain, like this guy who drew every day for six months and never saw his friends and still goes on about how he needs to tackle harder things and learn anatomy better and just try harder, all in the hopes of animating for The Line in London in a couple of years, i have a sense of a kindred spirit - another mad fool perhaps. when someone asks me for drawing advice i can whip out 20 drawing channels and an explanation of all the technical vocab bc it's a special interest and i like to be knowledgeable. watch, all these doubts go away and i take your hand and lead you into the dragon's mouth...

the whole 'sigma grindset' meme is a joke of course, but the fact it gained currency feels like it's reflecting some kind of generational anxiety. so i end up wondering - what currents are carrying me this time? the rise of the online tutorial, the sakuga fandom, deviantart declining and artstation rising, the notion of 'grind', techbro culture - i can only see some of its edges and tendrils, but it feels like something has grown here. is it a cultural echo/side effect of a period of rampant unemployment and precariousness where manufacturing has mostly been exported abroad and jobs in the creative industries seem to be the only promise of both security and fulfilment? essentially the same as the monster that ruled in academia? ...yeah that's probably just it huh.

[kimbap-r0ll]

HELLOOO CAN I GET A TWST MATCH UP??( btw I actually want to make this as a trade instead ,I really want to draw your pfp !)

Appearance:

-I’m a female! Really short I wouldn’t say I’m proud of it but it’s about 146cm and i have a medium build. Super short black hair,people say I’d look like a boy if it wasn’t for my voice and my height . I like to wear oversized stuff and shorts.

Personality:

-I’m overall a really quiet, polite and awkward person in public.I have a hard time making friends or talk.I only speak when someone talk to me first.I keep on shuttering,shaking n blushing whenever i talk in front of the crowd,but it get better when im just talking to 1-2 person(please social anxiety is killing me).People pleaser, even if I know that they dislike me I’d still want to please them.I guess I’m really good at reading people .I hardly ever shown any emotion at all in public,bitch resting face <33

-When I’m with my close ones I tend to be chaotic and active I also joke around a lot. Screaming every 5 seconds and constantly annoy them. I acted like I don’t care about them but when something serious happen I will be my softer self ,giving them gift or stay by their side and comfort them.

-I tend to talk to myself whenever I’m alone, like splitting into different version of myself and talk about my day and problems (self venting 😍💅). I daydream a lot like every 10 minutes I thought of a new scenario.I act proud and giving myself compliments on everything I do.And I cuss a lot more when I’m by myself.

-I get overly excited and hype when I’m in my messaging/texting mode. I absolutely detest talking in person or facetime.I literally have another persona online.Im a pretty hard working type of person,i constantly overwhelmed and stressed myself out on being better than I already am.My motivation is money 🥰

- I have a really bad memory, lost track of time easily.Bad mood swing, happy and playful,then having a mental breakdown a moment later.I often skip meals depending on my mood.

-I love going outside but just with myself, I love exploring and observing things.I spend most of my time in the dark locking myself in room, draw ,sometime play games and then sleep. My daily routine is just helping my family and then go inside my room.

-Willing to try new things, do whatever I want without caring what other people think.I don’t get influenced by people negative thoughts of me.Will fuck them up if they directly mess with me or hurt my loved ones.

-I will literally fall for someone who show me the slightest act of kindness. After crushing on them for like a week I’ll just move on.

-I never really hate someone,but if I do I won’t try to hide it.I will always look through other people perspective and try to understand ,what they are going through before judging them.

I’m Asexual,INFP and an Aries

I really can’t think of anything I disliked other than insects 💋

Hello, sorry this is so late! I don't think you are a follower of mine, and that is a requirement for the event, but since you are offering to make this a trade or so, I'm going to let it slide only this time. I look forward to seeing your art btw! Without further ado, the character that I think would be the best match for you would be...

Idia

Look, it's Ignihyde!

The two of you probably got scared to talk to each other at first :/, but after the two of you started to get closer, you guys started to open up. He would start talking about the kinds of games he likes and his other interests, while you started to warm up to him as well (you dropped your resting bitch face after a few times meeting him, which made him less scared of you haha). But seriously, he doesn't mind if you have social anxiety since he prefers staying with a few close people already. The two of you are similar in that sense, and it gives him comfort knowing that you guys prefer less crowded areas.

Don't worry about seeming chaotic with him when you get close, he's just as chaotic probably. He'll always seem tired outside but when the two of you are hanging out together, he has unlimited energy. This can be seen with how long you guys stay up playing games online or binge watching anime. He understands how you have an online persona, since he's similar in that way. He would never have the courage to facetime anyone, but he's totally fine texting or gaming with total strangers. If anything, it's comforting to know that he's not the only one like this, since it seems like everyone around him prefers to facetime on random occasions. He probably likes to daydream as much as you do too. If you ever draw, he would love to see what you come up with. You can show him a draft or a sketch and he'll be impressed, he might melt if you ever draw him haha.

He admires how hardworking and caring you are! Your motivation is strong, and he wants to be your #1 supporter. But if you ever overwork yourself and he sees you, he might try to stop you and get you to rest a bit. Taking a break is healthy after all! Meanwhile, he also admires how you never judge anyone by their first impressions or appearances. He's always been seen as the strange geek dorm leader of Ignihyde by a lot of students, and the fact that you saw him more than just that made him so happy. Please comfort him whenever you can, he really needs hugs ;-;.

[love-amihan]

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AS YOUR CLASSMATES // TOKYO JUJUTSU HIGH STUDENTS

amihan's note: here's how i imagine them as the type of classmate based by my friends' chaotic energy. i don't make the rules, they radiate this energy big time, happy reading!

additional note: thank you to the person who reminded me of hakari's academic points, i owe you one 😁💛

-itadori yuji

deadass copies your homework the same day of passing

"oh we had homework?! can i copy yours" cue his puppy dog eyes

half of the time listening to the lecture, half of the time just doodles in his notebook

if you're his seatmate, oh my good luck

he will try and converse with you every single time during discussion

got called by the teacher, finally pipes down

though, gotta say he will be the type to excel in quizzes!

unexpectedly did well and one of the highest score in class

overall, you like him but hate him at the same time

-fushiguro megumi

oh boy, this guy straight up sleeps at the back of the class

will make you sit in front him so that the teacher won't notice him

[based on true event] came prepared, opens notebook, pen in one hand his head leaning on his other hand looking like he's writing down notes but in reality he's deep asleep

he's just tired, let him be

if you're paired with him, he def cooperates

the goat of groupworks

overall realiable classmate, he's just sleepy

-nobara kugisaki

always comes in class looking pretty!

you forgot your lash curler? she have one. oh you also need mascara? no worries she got you.

will gladly apply light makeup for you

pretty handwriting!!!

she listens attentively during discussion

don't start a conversation with her cause she will not stop once you do

the type to lend you her notes

overall, a sweetheart. love you kugisaki 🥺💛

-zenin maki

she's definitely a braid expert

during break time, you will always see her braiding someone's hair for them

active participation during discussion

top student

always excel at everything

also, always part of the honors list

the one who the teacher's call whenever no one answers

will willingly teach you the lesson you have a hard time understanding

oH the student who lets you copy during quizzes (kids u gotta study for quizzes, don't just copy others... but if you didn't, just ask them)

overall, would make a great study partner and most likely the source of many students

-panda

that one loud ass kid

always yelling during break time

but he's the fun one, will initiate playing a game if no one was doing anything

if he's close with the teacher, he will not answer the question asked seriously instead coming up with something witty and unrelated

ends up getting a warning, but after class the teacher is not really mad at him

vibes with so many teachers

will always make the class laugh with his wittiness

overall, the class clown

-okkotsu yuta

you know the good looking quiet kid that everyone secretly has a crush on? yeah that's him

surprisingly good at drawing, got his time to shine when arts were presented in front

i just know that this boy always carry a handkerchief with him

he always hold it in his hand fiddling with it

sits in front of the class

always being persuaded by the teacher who organizes pageant for the school but always says no bcs he's shy

fun to tease and tell jokes to

when you talk to him he's always laughing

"i didn't even say anything funny" he just smiles fidgeting with his handkerchief, say sorry and tell him a joke now!

overall, a quiet and average student

-inumaki toge

now this bitch, a menace

definitely your friend

"toge can you get my glasses?" this mf will purposely get it by the lens

you have your hair up in a bun? he never fails to miss a moment smacking the top of it and will have the guts to make buzzing noises while he's at it

doesn't take down notes saying he can just photocopy yours

also copies your homework, every goddamn time

but gotta admit that he effortlessly excels in one subject where you greatly struggle with, so it's kinda a win-win ig

worst type of tutor, he sometimes forget to tell you important details

also, the type to get reviewers from you

overall, i love you toge but i wanna strangle you sometimes

-hakari kinji

you don't see him often

teachers remember him but not in a good way

if ever he's in class, he sits at the back corner

doesn't participate much

if you're grouped with him he just agrees with whatever the group suggests, once in a while giving his own suggestion

his bag you ask? none.

only has a pen

will ask his seatmate for a piece of paper if ever he feels like taking notes

don't really have anything to say about him other than he's barely passing

will probably end up repeating a year due to his tardiness

overall, though he's mia once in a while he will still make a great classmate have group works with since he easily cooperates

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[make-me-imagine]

Aah!! Mera!! Congratulations on 7k! Omg!! It's amazing! I'm so happy that your writing has reached so many people!!!

I really hope you're doing well!

I wondered if I could request a ship? I hope you don't have too many already.

Preferably for Lotr/The Hobbit, I'm not sure if they class as two fandoms or one... But if they only class as one, then X-men for my other choice please :D

(I don't mind either way 😊)

I'm female and straight (pretty sure).

I love creating, basically in any way, drawing, painting, writing, you name it!

I have a huge love for dungeons and dragons, being a dm and creating my own little worlds.

I'm very empathetic and kind, I'm always putting other people before me (but not to my own humiliation or sadness). I've been told I'm wise beyond my years. I like humour and people who make me feel free :D

I'm quite masculine and I prefer more feminine guys (normally means they're shorter than me 😂, as I'm quite tall as well).

I love music, any kind really, especially ones that make my mind wonder into other worlds and places.

I love playing Piano, Guitar, Drums and Timpani.

I love stargazing and long walks, exploring new places (adventure basically), I like baking and fresh night air.

I have short red hair, which I'm currently trying to grow out, blue eyes and lots of freckles 😊

And that's about it! I hope this is enough, that I haven't missed anything...

And please, enjoy writing this! If you don't fancy it, you don't have to do it :)

I hope you have a beautiful day!

- Kyra ❤

Thank you!~ ❤

I do classify lotr/hobbit as one fandom, so no worries! I hope you like the ships~

Lotr/Hobbit:

I ship you with Legolas.

I think he can come across somewhat feminine lol, though idk if he's taller that you lol. He always admires artistic people, and loves to see anything you create and always encourages you to create more often. He enjoys music as well, and often sings ancient elvish songs to you. Legolas loves exploring with you, and showing you his favorite places that he was found over the years. There are some places he has never shared with anyone but you.

Best-Friend: Aragorn. You met Aragorn through Legolas, and he took you under his wing and taught you how to track. He acts like a big brother to you, and cares about you a lot.

Other ship under cut!

X-men:

I ship you with Hank. (Charles is a close second though)

Hank is shy in demeanor, but loyal and loving, and very romantic. He loves art, but does not have a great talent for it. So he loves seeing you create. And if you ever make anything for him, he cherishes it like a priceless jewel. He is not super adventurous, but had grown to enjoy it if it is with you. He loves traveling though, and will often enjoy going to new countries and cities with you.

I can see you being the art teacher at the school, and total headcanon - I would imagine you have a mutation that would relate to art in some way. So hear me out, Animation. Meaning, you can make an origami bird fly, or a drawing of a butterfly or bird fly off the page. The waves in a painting move as though they are actual liquid, etc.

Best-Friend: Ororo. You two got along great, and I think she enjoys art very much. She felt a bit lost at the school at first, but found a friend in you very quickly, and is always grateful for that. And she always makes sure to be there for you when you need someone.